http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:seegie&section=today deviantART RSS for by:seegie en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 16:59:20 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2526727/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2526727/ Fri, 28 May 2004 06:32:40 PDT
I'll still come by from time to time to check my messages and whatnot, and those of you I've grown closest to know that I will keep in touch via other means. First I close my website, now dA. But the time has just come now. It is time to move on.

I'll be clearing my friends list and all of my deviations except my brushes, which I still want to make available to people who can use them.

Good luck to you all in your creations. Thanks for sharing your work with me.

Adios. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2454966/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2454966/ Tue, 18 May 2004 11:27:45 PDT The Da Vinci Code in its entirity. A very good read, loaded with interesting stuff. Today I started Reading Lolita in Tehran which is exquisite. I have a couple books coming from Amazon, Life of Pi and A Sunday at the Pool in Kigali . I'm kind of on a reading bender right now. It's nice. No TV has changed my life. I love it. I read a lot before, but now I'm reading more, and reading makes me happy, so life seems to have a new richness to it.

Yeah. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2426946/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2426946/ Fri, 14 May 2004 10:20:11 PDT [link]

It's highly entertaining.

Allegedly my subconscious mind is driven mostly by curiosity. I generally agree with that, but am always wary of tests. But check it out because it's fun, and tell me what your subconscious mind is driven by!

]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2397096/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2397096/ Mon, 10 May 2004 07:06:26 PDT psychosomatic posted this on ~hcp's journal, so I'm going to be brave and do it too.

"I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.
Ask me anything you want.

Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this
allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything."

So, yeah, ask away.

]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2363389/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2363389/ Wed, 05 May 2004 05:45:58 PDT


1. Blossom of snow / may you bloom and grow / bloom and grow forever The Sound of Music - Edelweiss

2. If I had myself a flying giraffe / you'd have one in a box with a window Stereophonics - I Wouldn't Believe Your Radio

3. Never said it was sunshine but you took it all of the time The Chemical Brothers - The State We're In

4. Then there followed days of kings, empires and revolution / blood just looks the same when you open the veins. World Party - Is It like Today

5. Hey my love, you came to me like wine comes to the mouth Dave Matthews Band - Two-Step

6. You think / one drink / will shrink you 'til you're underground and living down Aimee Mann - Wise Up

7. And no one else could shine that far, love / to bring you safely through Emmylou Harris - I Will Dream

8. Send me dead flowers to my wedding / and I won't forget to put roses on your grave Townes Van Zandt - Dead Flowers

9. Fuck you / you're drunk and acting tough / I know you're sad Hawksley Workman - We Will Still Need a Song

10. Mountain gets steeper / the hole you dig gets deeper / you better stop and climb out Eric Clapton - No Alibis

11. Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, and calls me on and on The Beatles - Across the Universe (The version in my playlist is a cover by Rufus Wainwright)

12. Stay true to your friends 'cause they'll save you in the end Sam Roberts - Hard Road

13. It belongs to them / let's give it back Midnight Oil - Beds Are Burning

14. What am I buying? / My soul is crying Lenny Kravitz - Stillness of Heart

15. Multitudes are marching to the big kettle drum / voices calling, voices crying / some are born and some are dying. Johnny Cash - The Man Comes Around

16. When I was a kid I thought / I wanted all the things that I haven't got / oh, but I learned the hardest way Green Day - Macy's Day Parade

17. And the sign said the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls Simon & Garfunkel - The Sound of Silence

18. Hopped into the Chevy / heading for big lights OMD - How Bizarre

19. Cos it takes something more this time / than sweet sweet lies / before I open up my arms and fall David Gray - This Year's Love

20. But a day will come in this dawning age / when an honest man makes an honest wage U2 - Van Diemen's Land ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2350911/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2350911/ Mon, 03 May 2004 12:38:11 PDT ), and I thought I'd do it too. And I don't care if you laugh at me for my song selection. I have very diverse taste, so there.

It goes something like this: I take my current playlist and randomize it. Then I take the first 20 songs and select a part that I really like from the lyrics. I post it here and you see if you can identify the song and/or artist. As you'll no doubt see I did not elimate anything from my list out of embarrassment. I like to let it all hang out, you know. It's just for kicks, yo, since I'm bored out of my mind and feeling like ass today. But I still tried to make it somewhat challenging. Anyway, enjoy.

And hey, no cheating with google!

Go ahead...try it...you know you want to:

1. Blossom of snow / may you bloom and grow / bloom and grow forever
2. If I had myself a flying giraffe / you'd have one in a box with a window
3. Never said it was sunshine but you took it all of the time
4. Then there followed days of kings, empires and revolution / blood just looks the same when you open the veins.
5. Hey my love, you came to me like wine comes to the mouth
6. You think / one drink / will shrink you 'til you're underground and living down
7. And no one else could shine that far, love / to bring you safely through
8. Send me dead flowers to my wedding / and I won't forget to put roses on your grave
9. Fuck you / you're drunk and acting tough / I know you're sad
10. Mountain gets steeper / the hole you dig gets deeper / you better stop and climb out
11. Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, and calls me on and on
12. Stay true to your friends 'cause they'll save you in the end
13. It belongs to them / let's give it back
14. What am I buying? / My soul is crying
15. Multitudes are marching to the big kettle drum / voices calling, voices crying / some are born and some are dying.
16. When I was a kid I thought / I wanted all the things that I haven't got / oh, but I learned the hardest way
17. And the sign said the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
18. Hopped into the Chevy / heading for big lights
19. Cos it takes something more this time / than sweet sweet lies / before I open up my arms and fall
20. But a day will come in this dawning age / when an honest man makes an honest wage

*I will provide answers tomorrow or the next day.

]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2328723/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2328723/ Fri, 30 Apr 2004 09:30:28 PDT fullfilth has a campaign going to make this emoticon top ten in popularity. It's currently #12, but I think it should be #1. So go around staring blankly at people. It's fun. Try it.

]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2280046/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2280046/ Fri, 23 Apr 2004 06:01:23 PDT
Well, the other day our TV kicked the bucket. It just...died. The damn thing is like 17 years old, so it was bound to happen sooner rather than later. But suddenly I found myself with all of these hours in the day to kill. You never really realise how much TV you watch, and how dependent you are on it for entertainment until you don't have it anymore. At first I felt like an addict who had been cut off from her drug of choice. But then yesterday I actually ended up going out and doing all sorts of things that have needed doing for the last couple months. I mean...woah.

And today I'm going to do the same. I feel as if I've awakened from a coma or something. TV really does fry your brain and kill your interest in anything other than TV. Suddenly I've had a new burst of creativity and inspiration. Part of me really misses the TV, but part of me knows life is 100 times better without it. How weird. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2265918/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2265918/ Wed, 21 Apr 2004 06:32:56 PDT tigaer's journal while surfing around, and it was apparantly started by $jark. So I decided to do it too.

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 23.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.

"Too many writers avoid their own strongest feelings because they are afraid of them, or because they are afraid of being sentimental."

From "What If? Writing Exercises for Fiction Writers" by Anne Bernays and Pamela Painter

It's a book assigned by a prof I had in a creative writing course a few years ago. The other day I got it out and thumbed through it a bit, then left it on the computer desk. So yeah, it was the nearest book and that's why I chose it.

I'm depressed because I slept on the couch last night (don't ask), and I was taking my pillows back in the bedroom and throwing them on the bed when I lauched one a bit too hard and knocked my beloved lamp on the floor, breaking it. I almost burst into tears. For starters, I can't live without my bedside lamp, because I absolutely have to read before bed or I can't sleep. But I also loved that lamp. It was so cool.

Then I was leaning over the desk to get my tea cup and I bashed my head on the shelf that runs along the top of it. I'm such a clutz. It really hurt though. I can tell today is going to be a shitty day. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2261179/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2261179/ Tue, 20 Apr 2004 11:32:46 PDT ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2258818/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2258818/ Mon, 19 Apr 2004 19:39:55 PDT ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2230291/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2230291/ Thu, 15 Apr 2004 15:06:54 PDT ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2212913/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2212913/ Tue, 13 Apr 2004 06:38:01 PDT ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2162859/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2162859/ Tue, 06 Apr 2004 07:01:09 PDT
What is this sad world coming to?

No matter how much I kick my legs and flail my arms and refuse to accept this garbage, I think we're all fucked. I give up. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2125615/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2125615/ Wed, 31 Mar 2004 19:55:46 PST
Or maybe I'm just a bit fixated right now...ahem.

Can I just say that if he's re-elected, I'm not moving back there for another five years? I'll keep hiding out here in sweet, sweet Canada. Sometimes I just want to get down on my knees and kiss the filthy streets, I love this country so much. I am one grateful little refugee!

/end love-in ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2080870/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2080870/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 08:03:46 PST


Now that is an artist who does it well...

Thank you! ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2054762/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2054762/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 08:04:07 PST
Today, we're going to take a little walk through the 3D rendering gallery.

Now, you'd think this would be a place where people could really shine, really demonstrate their talent in a medium that requires reason and math and a good eye.

Let's find out what people have an eye for?

Boobs!

Yes, there are many people who can put their brain power and their mouse to use creating that which never seems to grow tiresome: boobs.

For more depth and thought, you can view works by truly creative minds that portray stirring images of varying degrees of pubic hairlessness. How about Red Cherry Poppins? Virtual Porn Star with her stunning landing strip. Ahh, if only I could posess such creative genius!

The loveliness of the spread-eagled female form, the inspiring beauty of enormous, gravity-defying hard-nippled breasts, all of these wonderful images that will nourish your mind and challenge your emotions are available in the 3D rendering gallery.

Again, you can also find rendered weapons among the breasts and vaginas. Themes eternally intertwined, violence and sex. Wrath and women. Knives and breasts. Guns and hairless, childlike female pubic regions.

The stuff dreams (and Hollywood films) are made of.

Enjoy!

And to enlighten yourself even more and follow this theme to its logical conclusion, I urge you to view today's favorite image in the "Women" Gallery: (link removed)

Anyone have a razor blade? I need to slit my wrists now... ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2028413/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2028413/ Wed, 17 Mar 2004 09:49:02 PST
I'm not sure I like being broke. But there's something about that sudden and immediate need for money that gives you a good kick in the pants. However, I haven't heard back from all the resumes I dropped off. This makes me a bit nervous. ~psychosomatic says he's also having trouble finding a job. How can all the shitty jobs be taken? There's always shitty jobs available for slackers and losers like me! What is the world coming to?

We don't live in the US so it can't be that all the unfortunate factory workers who have been laid off so their company can move to Mexico are taking all the crappy ass jobs. And it's not summer yet, so it can't be that all the 15-year-olds have taken all the jobs. Where are the crappy jobs?

So today I'm going to go drop off another stack of resumes at my fall-back places. I haven't heard from the places I'd actually maybe LIKE to work, so now I'll have to move on to the places that would be ok to work at.

Luckily, I have a couple web design jobs lined up (if the clients would stop slacking) to get me by if all else fails. Most of the places I've already turned my resume in to have said that they'll be hiring in the summer and they'll call me then. Maybe I can stretch this out til summer? I really don't want to do that. I've got to find a job NOW.

My brokeness means I've had to cut back on certain expenses for a while, mostly involving the net and websites. This makes me a bit sad, but I'll live.

In the meantime, can you spare a quarter?

EDIT: Wow, you HAVE to check out this site: [link] ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2018671/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/2018671/ Mon, 15 Mar 2004 16:33:20 PST males gallery. I figured it might be a bit better than the 8 billion navel photos that pollute the stock photos > females gallery, and while it wasn't better, it was certainly different. A view into the male psyche perhaps?

It's amazing what consistency there is! If a weapon is present, some guy will definitely take a picture of himself looking like a badass with it. Pointing guns at the camera is just oh so cool, you know. And it's even cooler to pose with a big knife, pretending like you might be on the verge of cutting yourself with it. The angst!

The ultimate in cool would be if you could find a samurai sword to pose with in front of a crappy bedsheet background. Look! A real Ninja!

Putting on some eyeliner and then either crying or splashing water in your eyes so that the eyeliner runs down your face is also good. You could take about 5000 pictures of your head tilted at different angles, capturing the sorrow inherent in runny eyeliner.

If you've spent much of your free time engaging in the ever-enriching activity of building your HAWT BOD, you could take a lot of pictures of yourself flexing. Maybe some chick with an equally HAWT BOD will post a comment telling you how HAWT you are, and then you'll feel good about yourself.

Pictures of pubic hair self-observation also seem to be quite popular.

You could paint some gothy stuff on your face, or use some fake blood to create a really powerful effect. This will please 13-year-old depressed wannabe goth girlies everywhere. They'll feel they can relate to your suffering, as expressed by the spiderweb pattern you've drawn on your face or the blood dripping from your mouth. OMG!!!1 its teh vampier!!!11 lolololzzzz!

And if you're a really cool suburban d00d and wear your hat backwards all the time, you could take a bunch of pictures of yourself just standing there looking cool in your saggy pants and sports jersey. The ultimate in cool would be pictures of yourself wearing your sun visor backwards and upside down. Dude, you are SO effing cool!

What the hell would anyone use most of these stock photos for? Cam whores, all of them.

And not even lovable cam whores! ~ psychosomatic

Anyway, you now know what you would see if you were to browse the stock photos > males section, so now you don't have to subject yourself to it, and I've saved you the agony of wanting to claw your eyeballs out.

I figure since I have nothing artistic to contribute to dA at this point, I might as well contribute my lovely, cynical, bad attitude in the meantime. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1997616/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1997616/ Fri, 12 Mar 2004 08:30:15 PST

This makes me very sad!

Part of this process will involve me purging my crappy ass gallery YET again. You know how much I love doing this. It's really a compulsion with me. I left my brushes, since people still seem to like using those. Deleted almost everything else though.

But I'll still pop in from time to time and say hi. Keep your eyes peeled, because I'm sure new inspiration will arrive eventually and then I'll be back in the swing of things.

See you all soon, I hope! ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1980686/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1980686/ Tue, 09 Mar 2004 19:47:24 PST
It's been a long 6 months for me. Things have been hard, and sometimes easy, and mostly just labotomizingly boring. Yes, you heard that right, labotomizingly.

I'm having a complete lack of inspiration, and even when I'm feeling depressed, I can't seem to come up with anything. I don't even write much anymore, which is a major, major casualty of my labotomizing boredom.

Getting a job soon after all this time dealing with immigration, and going to be going back to school in the fall. That will probably get me back upright, but as it is, I could spend my life sleeping.

~psychosomatic and *tasteslikebrning I hope you two haven't totally given up on me. I'm a spaz. A total spaz. But I'd still like to do non-coffee with you guys sometime. Just let me overcome my spaziness. If that's possible.

]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1801186/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1801186/ Thu, 05 Feb 2004 22:02:45 PST
It's a lot to absorb all at once! But somehow I like having all these deviations to look at. I hate those days when I come here 10 times and there are only a couple new things to see. Then I get all restless and whatnot.

I'm having a bit of a moody night.

I think I'm going to go to bed now.

]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1781611/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1781611/ Mon, 02 Feb 2004 12:35:27 PST
I'll be going through my messages over the next few days. Can't wait to see what I've missed all this time.

Thanks to all of you who stuck around.

I had the most horrifying experience the other day. I was sitting innocently in the kitchen with my mom and my dad was watching TV in their living room, and suddenly I heard "Do you Realise?" on the TV. I jumped up and to my sheer and utter horror, there was a car ad. I had to suffer this with The Dandy Warhols, and now the Lips? I don't know what to think. Part of me just wanted to slit my wrists because everything good is ruined by advertising, but at the same time, I wanted to kick the snot out of the Lips for doing that. I hate the term "sell out" but what else can I think?

AGH!

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]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1753728/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1753728/ Thu, 29 Jan 2004 20:09:07 PST But it was worth braving the slowness of dA in order to post this:

[link]

Please help! It's just one more thing you can do to help get the fucker out of there. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1604252/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1604252/ Tue, 30 Dec 2003 15:44:55 PST
Hope you all had a good holiday and that you're healthy and happy. I want to wish you a happy new year and look forward to talking to you all soon!

Take care! ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1524374/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1524374/ Fri, 12 Dec 2003 06:35:53 PST
I know I keep saying that, but just bear with me. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1487525/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1487525/ Wed, 03 Dec 2003 21:41:24 PST
I like my new avatar. You have no idea how hard it was to get it to be only 15kb!

I'll be checking up on people tomorrow morning. Right now I'm going to bed. I just made my new avatar while I was bored tonight, and I wanted to get it up here. I'm quite pleased with it. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1465309/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1465309/ Sat, 29 Nov 2003 06:20:07 PST
But yeah, I'm better. I'm better! I can't believe it. I'm not sick anymore. I'm so happy.

It's freaking cold today. And windy. But at least the sun is out. And there's snow, which makes me pretty happy. I love snow.

Today I'm going shopping with a friend. It's going to be madass crazy at the mall I'm sure, but I need clothes so bad it hurts. I don't think I've bought a single new item of clothing since who knows when. No, seriously. I never buy clothes. I hate shopping with a passion, especially clothes shopping. My friend is a guy and he likes shopping better than me, which is pretty strange. So I'm going to buy some new stuff and then we're going to do a bit of Xmas shopping. My better half is working today again, poor guy, so I've got to do something besides sitting around here like a lump.

I've chilled out on the booze finally. Don't know what that little interlude was all about, but I guess I needed it for some reason. I don't actually like being drunk really. I like to be in control. But I guess it felt good to just let loose a bit. Whatever.

Anyway, I can't wait to get some new clothes and fill this gaping hole in my life. Just kidding. I need a new pair of jeans like you wouldn't believe. The jeans I've had for this year have lots of accessories on them, like buttons and stuff, and they have all popped off so it's pretty sad. The weird thing is that the last big shopping thing I did was over a year ago, and all those clothes are too big for me for some reason, even though I feel like I've gained weight this year. I don't know. My life is weird.

I'm going now before I ramble on for too long. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1457305/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1457305/ Thu, 27 Nov 2003 06:41:15 PST
I have 87 deviations to go through, but dA is being a bitch and is so slow I can't believe it. Then when a page finally loads all the images are broken, so I'll try again later to check things out. I have a fast connection and a fast computer (and a subscription - ahem) so this shouldn't be happening.

I got sick again. It was fantastic (sarcasm). As I was on the slow mend from my last illness, I got another one. No idea what's going on. We think maybe our aparment is a sick apartment or something. It's just a theory. But I'm actually almost totally better now, finally, from both illnesses, so that's good.

I'm very depressed because I'm not home for Thanksgiving. It feels weird. It's the first time in my life I've been away from my family for this holiday. It's sort of the most important one in our family, because Christmas is a bit of a joke. It's easier for me to be away for X-mas than Thanksgiving. It's kind of getting to me. I need to find something to occupy myself today to keep my mind off it. I'm sure I'll find something.

I'm thinking of going back to my Sam icon, because I love him. I've been listening his CDs non-stop the last few days for some reason. They just make me happy. Aww...Sam. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1427286/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1427286/ Thu, 20 Nov 2003 09:56:04 PST
Last night I drank too much sake and went to bed feeling even crappier than I'd felt for most of the crappy ass day. Sake is yummy, but it gives me a wicked headache. The danger with sake is that you keep filling up your little decanter and drinking your little tiny cup of it, and the next thing you know you've consumed half a bottle of the stuff and you're wasted. It just sneaks up on you. What can you do?

I have so much to do, and I just can't do any of it. I'm too freaking tired. I've actually accomplished more today than I have in the last two weeks, but it's still killing me. I feel like I could go to sleep now and not wake up until tomorrow.

I've been watching the Lord of the Rings movies again (plus the bonus materials) to get myself prepped for the next movie. I feel like such a little fangirl, but I can't help it. The movies are incredible. I'm thinking of re-reading the books too, but I've got too many books in my To-Read stack already, so I will probably have to wait.

I don't know what I'm writing about. It's so boring it's hurting my brain. I'm going to go now. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1413844/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1413844/ Mon, 17 Nov 2003 11:58:40 PST
I've been drinking myself into a stupor a fair amount lately, and I probably ought to consider why. But I don't really know why, so self-psychoanalysis doesn't seem like it will work all that well. I should probably just stop doing it, but I'm pretty far from being out of control at this point, so I'm not too worried.

So anyway, today I'm hung over on top of still being a bit sick, but I think I might actually take a shower now and go run some errands, so I must be getting better at last. I still don't want to eat though. Oh well. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1404043/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1404043/ Sat, 15 Nov 2003 10:10:39 PST
I'm still feeling rather icky. It seems my whateveritis illness has now moved to my lungs. My mom says she thinks I have the flu, but I have no idea. All I know is it's kicking my ass bad. I have no appetite at all, and I think I've lost a few pounds this week as a result. My dad keeps telling me I should eat chicken broth. He has obviously forgotten that I'm a veggie. He's cute that way. It's at times like these that I wish they weren't hundreds of miles away. I'm such a baby sometimes. Whenever I got sick as a kid, which was often, my mom would stay home from work and we'd get in their bed and watch Andy Griffith and Leave it to Beaver and other such nonsense. Those were the days. Now I have to figure it all out myself, which is fine, but sometimes it's just nice to have your mommy around. Ah, well.

Anyone know of a good cure for a wicked sore throat? My mom says codeine (typical), but the Tylenol 3s I have lying around don't make me very happy, so I would rather not take them. I've done the tea with honey in it thing, but it's way too sweet. I hate sweet tea.

I have a feeling a tranquilizer dart to the head would probably help me out a bit, but I don't seem to have any of those around here at this time.

Just a note to people: I had so many deviations to look at that it was rather difficult to comment on everything I liked. Plus, I hate leaving comments that are not very detailed or meaningful. A lot of the stuff I really loved already had so many great comments that I didn't feel I had much to add, but that doesn't mean I didn't love it. I tried to comment on at least one thing by each of my favorite people, usually my favorite piece out of their recent submissions. Just want to let you all know that I love ALL of your stuff and I feel so lucky that you have chosen to share it with me. Thank you!

]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1399698/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1399698/ Fri, 14 Nov 2003 09:33:50 PST ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1312556/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1312556/ Thu, 23 Oct 2003 06:09:47 PDT ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1287889/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1287889/ Fri, 17 Oct 2003 07:14:29 PDT
If you rent it, let me know what you think. I loved it.

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]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1283743/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1283743/ Thu, 16 Oct 2003 06:13:17 PDT
If you've ever had chronic back pain you know it basically ruins your life. Yesterday all the joy was taken right out of me. I went for a good walk, but after I got home I just felt so stiff. Usually walking helps. This is what I get for slacking off on my back therapy. Well, time to get back into it when I can MOVE.

In the meantime, prescription strength Motrin should help. It makes me all floppy and happy. @.@

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Yesterday was dark and dreary outside, so I just sat inside and read tons of photography books and experimented. I took about 500 pictures, most of which I deleted. I was practicing all sorts of things. If I thought I was in love with my camera before, I am now completely head-over-heels for it. It is the most beautiful piece of metal and glass on earth.

Today I'm going to go get my Pentax ME Super from the camera repair place. I can't afford to fix it anymore. My estimate was for $180 worth of repairs. My heart is breaking. But I will tuck it away safely somewhere and will get it fixed later when I have more money. I'd like to still have a film SLR lying around to go with my digital guy. Mostly for black and white and because I'm determined to convince my mom to lend me her old darkroom equipment someday. Ever since they re-did the basement at their house, it's been sitting in the closet because she doesn't have her darkroom anymore. I want it because I'll use it for sure, and it's a crime to have such nice stuff just sitting around. I'm trying to convince her to get back into photography. I don't know what dashed her confidence or if she just got too busy, but she's a great photog and it would be good for her brain and heart. It will relieve a lot of stress she's going around with these days.

I'm going today to take some photos. It's so crappy here. The wind is blowing like mad and it's cloudy and icky, but will make for some good photos if I choose the proper subject matter.

I have to apologize for my little fawn picture there. I didn't intend to post it, but I can't help that little soft-spot inside me, and I thought it was pretty cute and so I posted it. You are welcome to hit me for it.

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]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1270897/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1270897/ Mon, 13 Oct 2003 09:10:41 PDT
Today the weather is perfect, so we're going to go for a walk to the park. The leaves are finally changing, though it seems late again this year even though we've had a nice, normal fall unlike last year. I'm going to take some pictures, so hopefully something good comes of that.

I'm feeling very mellow today - nice and happy. I love the fall.

Anyway, Happy Columbus Day/Thanksgiving. ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1258400/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1258400/ Fri, 10 Oct 2003 07:07:40 PDT
I think it's pretty lame that people get so obsessed with how many hits they have. It's a strange community. I think some people tend to take it too seriously and base too much of their self worth on it. It's definitely a microcosm of earth society and a study on human interaction.

I admit when I first came here (I had an account prior to this one that I quit using for various reasons), I was totally focused on how many hits I got and my feelings would get hurt if nobody looked at my stuff or commented. I'd feel all depressed and crappy that I had nobody watching me. It was really stupid of me. Once I began to see how unhealthy it was, I left here for a while and came back much later to start over with a new outlook on things.

Because of that I've actually stopped attaching so much negativity to dA. Instead I ignore the negative and focus on the positive, like how many incredible and creative people I've discovered here. I think it's really an amazing place to encounter different ideas. A lot of people I used to really admire have left here this year because of the negative things about dA. I weighed what they said about it and still could not see the negative as outweighing the positive.

dA can make you very unhappy if you let certain things get to you. But if you approach it as a learning and discovery process, it can be wonderful. I've been so inspired by the people I've met on this site. It's forced introspection and made me want to strive to be better at what I do. Instead of being down on myself constantly for not being "good enough", I try to seek out the things I can change to make my stuff better.

So thanks to anyone who gave me a hit out of the 500 or so I have. Thanks to those of you who have offered me advice and ideas and inspiration. Thanks for having the courage to share your work with the world, because art is such a personal process. Thank you most of all for sharing it with me.

There's my sappy little loving commentary.

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I still think my new icon is funny as shit. I have no idea what came over me to make me create it, but I sure do like it. It's a good thing I can be so amusing to myself, eh?

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]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1227233/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1227233/ Thu, 02 Oct 2003 08:00:59 PDT
I have been experimenting with digital painting. Besides the fact that I'm a shitty artist, I definitely enjoy doing it.

I've been taking some great photos with my new camera. However, almost all of them are of my cat, which nobody wants to see. He makes a great subject, though, and since I'm totally enthralled with him, I might be a bit biased about that. But at least I'm not paying to process 8 billion shots of my cat anymore, I'm just eating up my harddrive instead.

I plan to go out and take some pictures eventually. Today the weather might be good because it's cloudy. The last few days have been bad light - very diffused and crappy. I'm reading lots of photography books to brush up since it's been so many years since I did this. I have lots of ideas. I need a lens hood and a remote desperately. I'll seek those out this weekend.

That's all for now. As if you wanted/needed to know any more, eh?

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]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1224527/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1224527/ Wed, 01 Oct 2003 14:26:11 PDT
Anyway, I joined a club. Because I am lame and I wanted to. So sue me.

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I'm craving Ethiopian food. Yum.

Currently reading: "Anna Karenina" by Tolstoy ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1171679/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1171679/ Wed, 17 Sep 2003 08:33:05 PDT
Currently reading: "Of Human Bondage" by Maugham ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1106992/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1106992/ Thu, 28 Aug 2003 14:31:53 PDT
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"Of Human Bondage" by W. Somerset Maugham ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1103593/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1103593/ Wed, 27 Aug 2003 14:40:14 PDT
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[begin rant]

i'm sick of yaoi and yuri shit. i see all these yuri things done by these boys and i just wonder how big their boner was the whole time they were doing it. how many times did they have to jack-off in the process? gah. i'm glad i don't ever have to use the same keyboard as them.

and don't accuse me of being a homophobe, because you probably ought to know me and my own sexuality before making a brash statement like that. i just think most yaoi and yuri is totally tasteless, not sensuous or beautiful in any way. but then again, i think the same thing about drippy guy/girl romantic art too. maybe i'm just cynical.

there are a few artists out there who can depict sexual or romantic scenes well, gay, straight, whatever. but i can only think of a couple of them. most are like, "omg this is sooo cute!!!11 dont you think this yaoi of snape with a six pack spanking harry potter is hot!!!1111 omg! lolz! and herez one of me and snape with him rubbing hiz greasy hair all over my totally ripped, hot body - see my pert nipplez? lolz!!!!1" it's so stupid it's beyond description. the front page of dA is littered with these types of drawings, and they universally suck.

in any case, if this is the way these kids get off, so be it. but pictures of snape ass raping harry potter don't do much for me, and i don't think pictures of lupin and sirius as gay dog lovers are cute either. i'm staring to understand why some people hate furries so much, because it's true that 99% of it does suck. rawr. i sucked so badly at it that i quit doing it, but i'm good at self-examination that way. too bad more people aren't.

[end rant] ]]> ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1049248/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1049248/ Fri, 08 Aug 2003 12:11:24 PDT ~seegie http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1048598/ http://seegie.deviantart.com/journal/1048598/ Fri, 08 Aug 2003 08:24:44 PDT skitzokitty
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