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I don't quite know if that's a good or bad thing, considering I can't really draw--but I've suddenly gained an interest in coloring my pieces. I kinda wiped my gallery a while ago, but may put some of those that I got rid of back up, possibly even colored.

Hnn...
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~the seph

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/13070590/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/13070590/ Thu, 24 May 2007 00:50:26 PDT
Mostly just here for the hell of it.

Updates:

Edited descriptions, keywords, and titles to all of my deviations. Wallpapers and actual drawings of mine.

There are some that I'm thinking of possibly re-doing, though you'd have to click the pics to see which ones I'm talking about.

Also edited my profile to fit current interests.

At any rate, that's about it.

Also: Reported abuse from a troll. I'd appreciate it if you stopped attacking me and my family.

Things like this are why I'm at livejournal, and not here.

Over and out.

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~the seph

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/10066643/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/10066643/ Thu, 14 Sep 2006 20:12:30 PDT [link]


This song is so beautiful, but it makes me sad. In many ways. All the things I've loved and lost, or just don't feel that I'll ever have in my life. In such moods, people shouldn't try to convince me otherwise--it's futile to do so.

This song just... embodies that feeling of sorrow and emptiness.

It makes me think of my mom... Beautiful, but gone now.

It makes me think that I will never be able to get things done the way I wish them to be.

It also fills me with a morbid sense of peace--as if I enjoy being lonely and sad.

And I cry because of it. Because... in a way, it is somewhat true.

I can't quite figure out why, either.

Perhaps it's just because I put so many pressures and stresses upon myself, and cannot lift them. I've done it before; why...

Why am I doing it again?

I don't want to be told nor forced to see a psychiatrist again. They do nothing for me. I much prefer to speak with those I love and care for, yet the ones who truly understand me are those whom I speak with most and are a part of my extended family: My friends. And one other who is family.

And I feel bad, because the others I love do not know me enough.

This song... Ahh... I feel a connection to it. It's scary, how symbolic it is of how I think and feel. I can't believe I've found something like this. A song that is like my theme of who I really am.

I only express things in writing. Trying to get me to express anything of myself verbally ends up in curses, pain and tears. So I close up. And I write.

It's sad, but I can't help it. I try to, but it's harder than most people can understand. Yes, I see the dilemma I have--of course most people won't understand! I don't tell them! But it's not like it's the easiest thing for me to do.

This is why... Only very few people know who I am. Who truly understand me, without judgement or disgust or critcism. Or disappontment and shame.

I can't bring myself to open up fully to anybody other than those few. I want to... And perhaps I will someday in the future. But...

This... internal battle of what part of me I let some see, and others not, and what is going to be required of me drives me mad.

This is... Pain.

Something I've felt for so long now.

"I'm walking up stairs set aflame, and though the heat burns intensely and the pain is excrutiating, I keep going. I see that at the base of the stairs, there is water. Solace from the pain.

Yet I must go, or I will be hurt more even more than I already am."

~melanie lopez

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~the seph

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/9527625/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/9527625/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 21:34:10 PDT
Still, I've been using LJ, DA, and all other blogs very sparingly to say the least. I might check, but that's 'bout it.

Anyway... Mew.



~the seph ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/9032325/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/9032325/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 22:37:38 PDT *sigh*
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~the seph ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/8791082/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/8791082/ Tue, 16 May 2006 17:36:12 PDT _> I still visit, though. But not to put up art or do a journal -- that's for my LJ. Besides, I don't really draw anymore.

Meh. Tis stated in my previous journal entry.

*rawrs*

>3

A random hello to everyone, though! *dies*
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~the seph ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/8093528/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/8093528/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 13:12:38 PST
Whatever.

I may or may not continue to stay here. My work is crap, and truthfully, I only get hits because of my desktops.

Oh boy, what an accomplishment!

Yes, I'm being sarcastic.

I suppose I've gotten cynical. Or just jaded.

Probably both, but I don't intend to draw much anymore. I fail to improve, and my true calling right now is dancing. I can barely stand school now because of this, also.

In fact, I don't know what the hell I'm doing, and I sure as fuck don't think my family is all going to be as supporting as they claim to be when they realize that I just don't give a fuck about school.

Sure, I know it's important, but right now I just have no drive for it. I can barely stick with it, and what's the point of going if I'm just going to fail everything anyway, hm?

That's what they don't understand, no matter how I try to tell them. They just turn the other cheek and say, "Just go to class." Or they try to convince me otherwise. *coughDADcough*

*sighs*

I hate having to deal with this shit. It's getting me no where.
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~the seph ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/8093360/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/8093360/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 12:45:51 PST

Updated, I hope. o_o

*sigh* ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/6778851/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/6778851/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 12:45:34 PST
Er... I've no idea what to say here ;

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/6136790/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/6136790/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 22:03:05 PDT
*dies*

Yeah... Sorry 'bout that! HEY PPLS! XD

~Sephy

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy



(Btw, can anyone tell me if I'm still in these?? Or if I got into others ((that I mighta forgotten?)) Been outta the loop, as you can tell.

x.X) ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/5448274/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/5448274/ Tue, 24 May 2005 13:08:56 PDT
(The police came to my home for questioning today at about 11:30AM... Left an hour or so later... *sigh* I'm glad they're sensitive enough to know that even though it wasn't legally rape, it doesn't matter because it was for one person.)

*goes off to die somewhere*

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/5444043/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/5444043/ Tue, 24 May 2005 00:24:08 PDT
*dies*

Um... quick update on what's been happening recently.

I'm graduating in less than a month
I got my permit and can drive
I'm getting my license when I'm 18, which is on June 10th
I'm goin' to college
I found out my dad has mild diabetes
I hated Senior prom because a few days before... >

I was raped by my ex-bf.

Alrighty, g'night.

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/4633562/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/4633562/ Sun, 20 Feb 2005 22:36:42 PST <;;;

FUCKING-A~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!! I WANT THE NEXT CHAPTER, DAMNIT!!! *dies* I SOOOO wanna see if anybody else is in the next chapter; GOD DAMNIT, i'm like... WHOA!!

It doesn't help that i'm fuckin' reading the early chapters where i'm thinking, "Omfg... i can't fuckin' wait til the next one!!"

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRG HG~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Need... new chapter... *groans* I feel like I'm a Xeronian in their rutting period, I swear!!!

*dies*

Yousi: >> << >>;; ... *ahem* My player has just worked herself into a tizzy about all the possiblities of what could be in the next chapter regarding the other characters. *coughOmaki&Heikucough!! ;

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/4409600/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/4409600/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 08:34:58 PST *dies*

Now I don't >

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/4053931/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/4053931/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 22:38:53 PST
*sighs, exasperated*

I just wish they'd fuckin' grow up and/or fall off a cliff *shakes head* It's sad, really. I mean... It was good and all, but now...

Geezus... Just fucking grow up and stop acting like asstards >_<;

I'm tired of random bitching, complaining, ranting, and some other shit that just GETS ON MY NERVES!!

It's like, "Blahdy blahddi blah, blahddi blahddi blah blah BLAH!" And I'm thinking, "NO YOU DON'T KNOW, YOU FOOL!! I DO!!" And no, I'm not *trying* to say that I know better'n they do, I'm SAYING I know better'n they do.

I've been through it, they haven't. (Seriously, WHO the fuck can GUSH about something they HAVE NOT DONE?????)

How do I know this?

Because I FUCKING DO!!

And they KNOW I do, those fuckers. And yet they insist on being like, "This is how you do it," or some such shit.

GODS, SHUT UP!! I know what I'm talking about, damnit, YOU DON'T!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*throttles and kills them*

I'm SICK of their idiocy, and SHIT, for cryin' out loud, GET AWAY FROM ME!

*sighs*

... Only ONE person knows what the FUCK I'm talking about, and I'm GRATEFULL!! *points at 'em* YOU KNOW! *hugs tightly* We talked about this.

"You're a Saiyan!~


Not that I need to explain to you what they are.
Violent. Arrogant. Warriors. You go purge a
planet! Yay for you.


Which MLS species are you?
brought to you by Quizilla"

(Something to cheer me up.)

>"Ah...I see then, you were having naughty thoughts about those two?" he peered over at where Yousi and Omaki were, smiling seductively once he took in Omaki's words. "A little fast there, Omaki? How come?" he pulled Riki closer, hugging him and seating him in front, facing the pair of naked blondies. "I've decided I'll watch...for the moment, at least. Do your best, Omaki," Iason said, winking. As for poor Yousi, he stared back at his blondie friend, wide eyed. Freaking Omaki expects me to..... straddle THAT?! He thought fearfully. He *knew* Omaki was the largest between the two of them, and he wondered if he'd fit. 'Cause well...Yousi's never been taken before! Glancing around, he crawled up to Omaki demurely, taking the vial and pouring mass amounts of the oil onto his fingers, *quite* unsure of how much to use on the massive blondie. He poured almost 5/6 of it onto his hands, and moved to stroke Omaki's organ with semi-experienced fingers; he only really masturbated himself so... "Wha...should I do next again?" he asked, looking up at Omaki sweetly; he was too frightened by his friend's length to hear the last of the instructions. Raising an eyebrow, Iason smiled wickedly. "Aww..." he purred, "Looks like we have a virgin, Omaki."

::Riki:: Omaki practically drooled, "Are you sure you don't want him first?" he asked, seriously hoping Iason would say 'no' because, after all, he'd been dreaming of this since.... since they were roommates! Grinning, he moaned, throwing his head back as Yousi stroked him. "Gods!" he purrs, sitting up to help Yousi out. "Stroke yourself, get relaxed feel good!" he explained before remembering something. Untying the string in his hair, which prevented it from falling into his eyes, he quickly wrapped it around Yousi's erection and balls, preventing him from ejaculating. "Good boy...now pleasure yourself and when you feel ready, let me know," he noted, slicking up his own digits and slowly slipping one into Yousi, wiggling it teasingly as it brushed up against his prostate. Riki moaned, squirming on Iason's lap as he watched Yousi get prepared for the first time. "This is fuckin' hot!" he announces to Iason, very glad he was going to be permitted to be a part of it!

>Iason considered this, and was quite tempted to say yes, but looking back on earlier in the day, how Omaki treated Yousi, he was certain that he wanted Yousi for himself...for now. "I'll wait until you're done," he sighed. Yousi started at Omaki's exclamation, and did as he was told, moaning a little. When Omaki tied him up, he stared up at Omaki, unbelieving. "Not...not this again...?" he muttered, then winced a little as he was prepared by the man's fingers. Yousi, although a little reluctant, began stroking himself, slowly at first then gradually, faster. He leaned forwards suddenly, clinging to Omaki, gasping loudly when his friend's fingers grazed his most sensitive spot. Iason groaned, trying to keep his excitement in check so that he didn't ejaculate right then and there; especially with Riki squi... ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3987934/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3987934/ Sat, 04 Dec 2004 14:16:49 PST
o_o

O_O

o_O

O_o

^_^

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! GIMME MY PICS & STUFF BACK!!!!!! (and damn, I want a scanner... *goes to read nummy DBZ (*GASP!*?) fic)

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3843829/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3843829/ Mon, 15 Nov 2004 18:00:12 PST

[link]

*drooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooollllllllll*

Somebody find me a man like HIM!! *socks anybody who tries to reiterate that he's a character*

FLUCK YOU!!

I want a guy *LIKE* him, I never said HIM! .... Though...... That'd SOOOOOOOO make my day....

*_*

*GLOMPS KIRA-SAMA*

Your Iason is soooooo........ *faints*

@_@

I think I'll stop now...

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3683504/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3683504/ Wed, 27 Oct 2004 00:07:13 PDT
I'm glad it does though, as I've been able to escape my now-almost-gone-YAY! angst with RPin' w/Riki & the others ^_________^

And DAMN if that ain't GRRRRRRREAT then I dunno WTF is

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3652827/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3652827/ Sat, 23 Oct 2004 00:15:39 PDT
I'M NOT GOING TO REPEAT IT, SO TOO FUCKING BAD!

JUST KNOW THIS:

KICK THAT GOD AWFUL EXCUSE FOR AN EX-BOYFRIEND IN THE NUTS FOR ME!

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3544412/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3544412/ Fri, 08 Oct 2004 18:00:10 PDT
I can't fucking tell if he gives a flying fuck about me or not now.

Talk about an insult..

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3543931/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3543931/ Fri, 08 Oct 2004 16:42:45 PDT
He said that I made him feel uncomfortable, and I thought: "Does he still have feelings for me and is just brushing them off?" "Or do I just make him feel uncomfortable just because I do?"

After, I thought: "FUCK! That hurt!! Damn asshole..."

In return, I'm avoiding him like the plaque. Mostly because he now makes ME feel QUITE uncomfortable around him. Damnit, I don't even wanna see his fucking mug - it's SURE IS DIFFICULT IN ENGLISH 'CAUSE HE SITS RIGHT THE FUCK UP IN FRONT & TO THE LEFT OF ME!!

How convienient that, in AhPo's, we has to do a list of things that make us go "Hmm..?" for school & normal life.

Here's my BEST one, from real life:

"Why is it that one's boyfriend tells you they love you to the ends of the earth, forever and forever, and carries on the relationship with you happily for more than a year or two... Only to be so FUCKING quick to break up?!?"

My thought process hurt...A lot:

That thought makes me go "...Ohh...shit..... " rather than "Hmm...? " Another thing is....

Did he *really* love me?"


"...Only to be so FUCKING quick to break up?!?"


That's why I wonder now, whether or not he truly did love me.

Or if it was all just a fucking lie!

But back on track...as much as I don't want to avoid all the others, I'm in a position to do so *because* there's someone I...dislike *very* much.

Well, that said, I'm going to be shying away from one group of friends in my life, to go back to the other that I haven't spent time with for so long. Like I said: It's not that I want to. It's just...I can't DEAL with that fucker anymore. I feel like I want to die every time I see him.

I guess I'm not over him...truly, yet. I sure as fuck want to be though; that's why I want another relationship...plus to try something new and start searching for "the right one."

Not that I had "the one" for me before, now that I think about it.

Hopefully, though, hanging out with Alaina and them again clears my head, and I can resume being semi-hyper, sorta outgoing, and just stay normal; so that I don't go into withdrawl like I did ending the 5th grade. Heh...that was a kicker - because of what happened, my ENTIRE middle school years were more of my being an introvert than what I used to be - get along with everybody, fun to be around, etc.

*sigh*

Luckily, ever since the end of freshmen year when I began dating him, I've been happy...but well. That's changing.

Again.

I'm becoming more like what I had become during middle school than how I was freed from that in high school, free of that introvertedness.

I'm regressing into that state yet again - I had narrowly avoided it junior year because of what happened at the end of sophomore year, but that's because I had major help. Because that's gone now, I...feel as if,...

Well...I feel that same sensation of being worthless, dependent, and definitely self-conscious. BECAUSE OF the relationship I had, I *NEVER* felt those god-awful, self-demeaning things.

But then, it's happening again now that I'm not in that relationship.

Not that's not new to me.

Not at all.

Plus it's not like a whole slew of people care, nee?
"Oh, it's that girl who wallows in self-pity for reasons I can't fathom and/or don't care for," crap that I feel that people around me think. But like I said.

Used to it.

I'm used to it.

Yep...

......But honestly, ... I haven't felt like this since my relationship with ex-koibito started..and that was two and a half years ago..

It's almost..foreign to me, now that I think about it.

I hate it.
I hate myself.

Why must I live?
Must I live? Is it absolutely necessary that I carry on my life span, knowing full well that I'll just die later anyway? Should I...Knowing that nothing will ever be the same if I do or don't; if I find...something, someone...?

I don't have a purpose in life, not anymore.

I thought I had, but no!

That was a lie! A terrible, TERRIBLE lie that I had told myself!! And that I believed!!

Everything..... ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3543684/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3543684/ Fri, 08 Oct 2004 16:02:27 PDT
PLEASE!!!

If I'm coming off as a bitch, THAT'S WHY!

*goes to commit suicide in her angst and lonliness*

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3507289/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3507289/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 23:17:55 PDT
NOW!!!!!!!

*deep breath*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH H!!!!

Does ANYBODY know what it's like to break up with yer (first) boyfriend of TWO-AND-A-HALF YEARS?!!!!!!!!!!??!??!????

While, in that relationship, had hot & steamy....yea......ya get the point.

--;

FUCK! I'm going crazy here.

I need another d00de.............sad since I've never been like this, but DAMN!

Need........good bf=care & cuddles=eventual intimacy (i hope) ............

...Since WHEN did I turn into a slut?

*thinks back*

Oh...since..oh, I dunno........I broke up w/my bf on the 22nd, Sept.

Damnit, and that was my older sister's 24th birthday too..

But anyways.....yea....

I need a lay.

Sadly, that's what I need most ._. The physical intimacy - makes me feel loved

But...well..*sigh*

Fuck it.

I doubt ANYBODY in my fuckin' school has secret crushes and/or shit like that on me.

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3422937/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3422937/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 16:20:32 PDT
All those things said and done for WHAT?!

NOTHING!

Fucking damnit..................I'm so pissed now I can't even see straight.

Well....not pissed, more like:



YA SEE YA BITCHES?!?!?!?!

*depression*

I call everybody bitches every now & then.......like oh, I dunno......when I'm pissed &/or stressed &/or really really sad??

I blocked his ass on my AIM, so that I don't have to deal with his "concern."

Sure, that's prolly a BAD thing to do, but do I care at this point?

After telling 4 of my closest friends and my little sister??? Who were so freakin' happy for me I damn near laughed at their reactions 'cause it was so funny???

NO!
I DON'T FUCKING CARE!

And I'm not gonna care until we BREAK UP~~~~~~~

'Cause then I can guilt trip him on SO many things he took from me, and toss him to the side to rot, as he more/less did with me just a few minutes ago.

I can be cruel like that.

I really can.

But......like I said, do I care?

Fuck. No.

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3381175/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3381175/ Thu, 16 Sep 2004 22:55:17 PDT >;;, I'll keep the deviations.

I might need to re-scan them & thus, re-add them so that they aren't crooked & don't have that DAMN line thingy.

Stupid crappy scanner....

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3326880/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3326880/ Thu, 09 Sep 2004 17:36:28 PDT
I guess I'll just take it all down and re-do it, nee?

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3310707/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3310707/ Thu, 09 Sep 2004 17:36:26 PDT
ALERT ALERT ANYBODY WHO WANTED TO SEE 'EM! I apologize that they took FUCKING FOREVER!

Ok, I think I'll go die now ><; *dies*

*is *

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3206949/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3206949/ Wed, 25 Aug 2004 00:53:44 PDT
That's 'bout it.

...And I'm taking Taihichian (can't spell, sorry) dance classes.


BAI!

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3027797/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3027797/ Mon, 02 Aug 2004 15:32:39 PDT
So....the rest of those deviations that I have yet to put up will have to wait some *more* (FUCKIN'-A!)

Baibai~

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3000687/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/3000687/ Sat, 31 Jul 2004 11:34:18 PDT It wasn't able to connect for a while...And OH!

I found a way to get the rest of my deviations from my (unreliable) cousin!!

Look forward to them TOMORROW!!!!!



EDIT: ....Ok, so it didn't work. I won't have them up til later Sorry, y'all.

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2937865/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2937865/ Wed, 21 Jul 2004 23:00:51 PDT

*sigh*

I've good reason^________^

Friend o' mine here at/in/something DA was in deh photo.

And she cosplayed the best Sephy I've seen

(Yea....the ones at Fanime sucked......... >> << >>; )

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2911279/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2911279/ Mon, 19 Jul 2004 23:07:33 PDT


This is it, for any and all who really wanted to see my (shitty) work, I will be posting a few TODAY.

There won't be much, b/c the lot of them are in the custody of my friend but I'll get them eventually XD

So...thanks for those who have and still are (who else is other than the few I know 'bout...?) anticipating my work

EDIT: Look forward to seein' them sometime after 4PM (Pacific) There's been a slight delay.

EDIT2: Alright, I have 2 scraps (aka: soon to be deviations), and 4 works up.

NOW, that's only half of my deviations for today. I promise I'll get the other half (other 7, actually) up by the end of the day, and THEN you can see 3 special pics that I have drawn that are my absolute pride and joy. (They're my *most* recent ones)

Look forward to those after 8PM (Pacific)

XD

EDIT3: Ok, so my cuz didn't fucking send the second half ><; It MIGHT be delayed to tomorrow. On another note, fucking DA moved two of my works into the "Scraps" section for some god unknown reason. *APPARENTLY* they were incomplete works or somethin'. Well GEE! They ARE completed works, and DAMNIT why are mine moved, but 's aren't??? GOD DAMNIT

EDIT4: ...ALRIGHT! I dunno when the fuck that last half of my art is gonna get to me, but they WILL BE HERE S00N!!
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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2906629/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2906629/ Sat, 17 Jul 2004 20:11:06 PDT
So here's the thing:

I've some (prolly badly drawn, considering that I've improved lots now) yaoi semi-hardcore/hardcore (?) drawings.

Should I put them up (w/sticker/button/icon thingy of course XDD), or not?

FEEDBACK PLZ!!!!!!

I *MEAN* it.

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2889936/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2889936/ Thu, 15 Jul 2004 15:29:44 PDT
, can ya give me back my pics?

'Cause I wanna scan them & stuff and put them on DA so.....yea.

SANKYUU!

*is FINALLY able to get pics up soon!*

WAI WAI WAI!

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2765180/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2765180/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 16:32:08 PDT
*dies*

I either need a friggin' tablet or my pics scanned >> << >> << >>;;;

*dies again*


*ahem* Soo....I spent an hour & a half on one particular pencil drawing, and I'm really proud of it. It's small-ish, and VERY mildly ecchi, but I like it ^_________^

Damn, I wish I could get it up on DA for you all to see
It's WAY better than that deviation, I SWEAR! *can't draw on MS Paint...W/A MOUSE worth shit so...yup*

;

*sigh*

I guess there's gonna be an unprediciably long delay in my deviations actually getting up on DA.

Sorry y'all who wanted & are (aren't now?) anticipating my work.

GOMEN NASAI MINNA!!!!!!!



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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2721159/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2721159/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 17:13:43 PDT
In reality, it turns out that that's not what I really want to do.

Sure, it'd be nice, get a new wardrobe...But it...I...What I really wanted to get out of cleaning (or rather, renovating) the house is that I want it to be like how it used to be, just over a year ago.

Now, after I washed all the dishes, and ponder on how to go about things, as well as talk to mom, I wonder.

Can I really do it on my own?

I honestly don't know. Am I that much of the failure I feel that I am, to not be able to know just *what* I want to do with the house? Am I, really?

I think I am, and that's why I'm writing this.

I don't know what to do. Where should I start? What should I do to proceed? What if I fuck up that area or make this part damaged? What about all those fuckin' bugs and spiders; dead or not?? What...

Will I do to make this place livable again?

How will I make this place livable again?


I'm not about to worry about the "why?"s and the "why not?"s because I already made it clear. What I *am* going to worry about is trying to find a way in which I can get everything done without compromising whatever time I want to spend with friends or my sisters or boyfriend or even my dad.

I don't spend as much time as I would like with any of them anymore, which is probably another reason why I'm getting fat and lazy.

*sigh*

Anyhow, I'm still rather...stuck on what to do and how to go about it.

Plus, there's a bit more things on my mind than the cleaning of the house which, now that I think about it, I find that I'm not really fond of doing. Not now at least.

Here's some of the things also plauging my mind:

-Thank you cards: Thank you for my gifts!! ...But then I need to put those all on a card and find some miracle on how to get them to people, being as I don't really make it a point to know addresses specifically.

-Japanese III class: When is it going to start?? And when are Tessa and I going to get together to refresh our memories? (Most likey refresh mine, as I slacked all of last year in more ways than just house work and school) *I have no idea if we're actually going to do this, but it'd probably be a good thing.*

-Job: I have no idea if I'll actually be able to do it because I was planning on mostly getting the house up and running again while still attending Japanese III and most likely getting my permit. (It's about time, damnit.) Hopefully, I'll make enough money re-doing the house to have some spare cash on hand just for the hell of it.

-Permit: Getting this summer? Yes. When? Dunno. Why? Because I'm sick of having to ask other people to cart my ass around. It's probably quite a bother to them, despite what they may say. ('Nough said.)


On a lighter note, Serena:

I passed ALL my classes!!!!!! The grades are as follows:

Dalton: A- [CW]
Dalton: C- {Eng.]
Araiza: C [Span.]
Pascual: C- [Geom. B]
Soden: C- [History]
Ellison: C [Chem.]

Passed!

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2712839/ Mon, 21 Jun 2004 14:45:55 PDT says: "COMMENT DAMMIT!! PLZPLZPLZPLZPZLPZLZPLZPPZLPLZ!!!!!!! MY ART IS LONLEY AND ISN'T GOING TO GET BETTER WITHOUT HELP!! *cries* I don't feel LOVED!! *runs off to go saw at her wrists with a paperclip*"

Nee nee, anybody wanna go see? *figures that the last journal entry didn't work 'cause nobody's LOOKIN' at her stuff*

...Ppl are missin' out on some great fuckin' art, YO!

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2682082/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2682082/ Mon, 21 Jun 2004 14:48:52 PDT I'd like to introduce, to whomever is interested, one o' mah best friends!



She's the one who helped me learn the ways o' drawin' stuff & got me pretty decent at it within one school year.
*appaluds*
Heh..I can't spell

Nee, she kinda doesn't have a lotta ppl look at her works, even though IMHO they're kick ass (fer some reason, not a lotta ppl notice or somethin'..) So...anybody take a gander and go see??

*sparkles*

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2624921/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2624921/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 22:06:57 PDT
W00T!!

Oh...and those pics.

THEY'LL B HERE SOON, I PROMISE~~!!!!!!!!

*dies*

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2578361/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2578361/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 22:40:01 PDT (Mostly JRock though )
Hmm...'cause this is my new obsession: JRock.

I currently heart: Dir en Grey, Psycho le Cemu, Pierrot, Miyavi (JPop..?), Camino, Duel-Jewel, Malice Mizer, Moi Dix Mois, and prolly some random others.

Just wonderin' @_@
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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2554841/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2554841/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 16:55:40 PDT
AAAAAAAARGHHHHHHH!HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Now i feel like a complete dumbass.

Thanks, for helping me out ._______________.

*goes to hide in a corner and cry now*

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2554783/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2554783/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 16:59:00 PDT Especially Gaku Fest. Camino and Duel-Jewel KICK ASS!!!!!!!
Unfortuantely though, I awoke sick Sunday morning, and it just got progressively worse. It is now 12:38AM, Tues. I had previously crashed when I got back home at 'bout 2PM-ish, and awoke again at 10:30PM or so...

Catching up on sleep I didn't get PLUS trying to stifle my illness, but as it turns out:

It just got worse.

And now i feel like utter CRAP.
And b/c of this, I'm not goin' to school tomorrow.......err........today (Tues)

I'll go die again then... *dies*

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2554725/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2554725/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 17:00:53 PDT
Really though, after it is supposed to be an update where i say:

"O_______________O I'll......get back to putting the group/club thingies here at a later date. Nothin' past a certain point is showing up"

But it doesn't show up.

Which is what's happening whenever i try to put up the clubs i joined.

*That* is why i can't put up club/friends/stuff as of recent x__X

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy




*peers up* Nvm...i fixed it. ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2523470/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2523470/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 17:01:15 PDT *sigh*
Anyways, since not a lotta ppl will read this either, i dunno why i'm sayin' it.

MY CLUB THINGIES I JOINED WON'T SHOW UP IN MY COMMENTING THING!!!!!!
T__T

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"TIS SEXFUL DEATH & DESTRUCTION!!

~Sephy

]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2472413/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2472413/ Sat, 22 May 2004 18:04:20 PDT IMHO, really really bad pencil drawings of stoopid profiles and YAOI SEX.

;
Freak ya out yet?
....NO??!?!?

If you haven't run away screaming from your computer yet, koolies! That means you know what is to come and that they are some of my first pics, so dun expect anything.....pretty.

>>;; <<;; >>;; <<;; >>;;

I can't draw clothes very well at all yet, so.....I think that might explain the constant facial profiles and nekkid ppl....or sex.

...I'll be damned if they remove my naughty pics like they did to Mandachan :sad: I miss her HARDCORE YAOI pic...

*sigh* Oh well, such is life.

Anyways! Hopefully soon, I will have the fruit of (only?!??!!? ) year's worth of drawing in this particular manner *coughanime/mangacough* up soon.


RANDOM: WTF happened to my "is: Pornographic Connoisseur"?????? AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I can't find it in the User Page thing!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I'll just have to settle for fuckin' "anime artist" ><;;

Until then~
*waves~~~~*

Baibai~

~Sephy ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2417577/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2417577/ Thu, 13 May 2004 16:40:18 PDT
Sephy: I found this in Jiko's & jumpen-jelli-bean's journals. Ask away ppl^_^

;;;; Hmm...now that i think about it...I wonder who'll actually comment on this/ask stuff ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2146134/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2146134/ Sat, 03 Apr 2004 18:45:18 PST A particular situation = SHIT and it's not a good thing..

More details later ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2124892/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2124892/ Wed, 31 Mar 2004 18:15:47 PST I want, and would like to, post works that I myself did, and respect those who did do the original art by not putting their images/works up, scanned/cropped/edited/etc. or not.
After reading some things that an acquaintance of mine on DA posted, and after reading the links from that journal,I came to the realization that I shouldn't be doing, or have done those scans, even with the disclaimer & what credits I could give.

Gomen ne minna, but will all the notices DA has been giving me for the Copyright stuff, I just can't deal with it anymore and will NOT be posting pics for a long time (read: until I get a scanner of my own that can scan my pictures adequately enough.) ((R--I doubt that this will happen in a blink of an eye, and thus, I don't think I will be submitting anything for a long while, though I *will* still be here.))

Until then...

~Sephy

*(*R=revision) ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2103788/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2103788/ Sun, 28 Mar 2004 17:58:30 PST "Can't have original works, edited and no-profit made btw, up on DA," yahdah yahdah..

:shake head:

Oh well.
I suppose....this just hurts though, 'cause I didn't know that one couldn't do that. I don't remember ever coming across it in the friggin' rules anyways so

I suppose all people watching me can get me off their list I've nothing to show anymore now, so why bother, nee?

Gomen to you all who had the pics up as favorites.
I also am sorry that I couldn't get an accurate scanner in time for me to put up my works and thus, this could have been avoided. ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2096680/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2096680/ Sat, 27 Mar 2004 16:55:07 PST
OH EM EFF JESUS...

I'm SOOO gonna go around lookin' fer 'em

Okie...i think that sums this up...
Short, but mrew!!

:3 ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2095712/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2095712/ Sat, 27 Mar 2004 13:51:09 PST

OHH EMM EFF JESUS FUCKIN' CHRIST!!!!!!!!!

X________X

I'm HIGHLY annoyed with a task I'm tryin' to do right now.
DAMNIT!
*rants painfully*
YARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!

Tasukete, before I break the computer.

-a VERY pissed off Sephy ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2092642/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2092642/ Fri, 26 Mar 2004 23:48:12 PST I mean, my real works REALLY suck ass compared to these. I can edit...but i can't color worth a haywire. Yea, i re-colored the pics, but it too really really long and my wrist is sorta suffering for it.
_O:

:sigh:

I do and don't want to post my original works. Mainly 'cause i feel that 1) they'll most likely be black & white pencil/pen drawings and 2) they suck ass.

Not really great, eh?
><; ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2079716/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2079716/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 00:50:10 PST It's frickin' 12:45AM, and here I am doing nothing when I *should* be doing my hmwk.
Oh woe is me, right?

Wrong!

*dies*
It's more like: OH EM EFF JESUS!! I gotta do mah hmwk!!!!!!!
*dies again*

Yea...random. Go figure.
Oi...i need help w/a story line. As in...little children's books story line. *kicks Creative Writing teacher* She knows that i'd rather be writing shounen-ai...

Holy crap, i gotta do hmwk.
Plus i'm rambling...so much for not eating the past few days ><; ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2079628/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2079628/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 00:27:21 PST *gonna be a senior in HS*
My friend & i really wanna, 'cause we LOVE the teacher...but our current english teacher's failing us and making it difficult.

*sighs*

Random tidbit: I've got a Photoshop-like Windows program, courtesy of a friend of mine, ashi_serv. Does anybody know how to use it?
If so, help me out & then i will be able to get actual works up^__________________^

Sounds good, nee?


P.S: Ken...how do ya put in club icons into your signature?
*is tryin', but they're not showin' up x_x* ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2073072/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2073072/ Tue, 23 Mar 2004 23:55:26 PST --;;
*sigh*
I also need to get Adobe Photoshop or somethin'...maybe somebody can help me out & send me the program via e-mail or something so i can dl it O_Ol
*is broke*

Yea...me's not having a happy day. *kicks her english/creative writing teacher* STOOPID BITCH!! ><,;;;; "Oh mighty smart one" decided to give us a project to do in each of the two classes she teaches--which frankly, i have both of them.
:dies:

And because i'm the ULTIMATE procrastinator i am, here i'm stuck doing both of the freaking things that just so HAPPEN to be due tomorrow X_X

Somebody shoot me.

*deathage* ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2033952/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2033952/ Wed, 17 Mar 2004 23:11:27 PST Sorry to all who had it as a favorite.
I recieved a message from an admin. that said that i could possibly be banned from submitting a pic.
Well, that's fine with me--; ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2007429/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/2007429/ Sat, 13 Mar 2004 22:02:29 PST I have it really messed up, even though it looks kinda ok.
*shakes head*
--;
Tis Sakuya Kira...and since the pic's messed up, it looks odd.
*sigh*
I'm rambling...
I feel so empty.
I just broke up with my (first) boyfriend (and whom i thought was going to be my last) just an hour or so ago.
...you know that feeling you get when you want to cry, but you can't...it's not even that "empty stomach" feeling or some such shit.
I'm all cried out from an earlier convo. with him not dealing with the break-up, so i couldn't cry when we actually did a little while after.
I didn't want to...but i had no choice, no matter what anyone says.
So...yea. Drawin' yaoi'll make me feel better, but...i just can't right now and well...i'm getting rid of all my yaoi stuff from my computer

That's problem #2.

Ja ne~ ]]> ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/1996347/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/1996347/ Thu, 11 Mar 2004 22:36:32 PST ~sephykoi http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/1996345/ http://sephykoi.deviantart.com/journal/1996345/ Thu, 11 Mar 2004 22:36:00 PST
Um...tasukete kure?

*puppy dog eyes* ]]> ~sephykoi