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]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/21570635/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/21570635/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 17:42:26 PST
i'm cleaning out my gallery, there are a lot of photos in there that should not be there. i guess being away helps you see such things.

life is well and all, school is busy and it just started heavily snowing.... buuut i have a new NIKON D80!!! it's been less than a week since i got it, i haven't had the chance to use it every possible second yet but that will start happening very soon.

anyways, look out for additions to my gallery..



]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/16604055/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/16604055/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 20:44:12 PST
"topraklar, sahip olmak için değil, hatırlanmak içindir." -Don Juan

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/14982157/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/14982157/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 08:08:19 PDT trafik yok burada ama kendilerini kandırıyorlar. emperyalizmden uzak, emperyalizm kendileri. anlamıyorlar kendilerini, içe bakmak zor değil oysa veya dışarıya yansıyana. dünya uzak değil, küçük kasabalarda tıkalı kalmanın savunması yok. değerini bilmemek bir bakıma veya odada beyaz kristallerin bulunmasını normal sayıyorlar ya da buna izin veriyorlar. farklılar. ben de farklıyım. her şekliyle farklı olmanın farklıyım.

ama anlıyorum şimdi, gerçeğim. katlarımdan sıyrılıyorum. sonunda çırılçiplak kalacağım bu bilmediğim yerde ama...

"Gerçek çiplaktır, çiplağın altında soyulmuş insan derisi vardır." -Aslı Erdoğan


sevgiler.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/14485157/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/14485157/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 10:09:30 PDT
of.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/14431978/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/14431978/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 20:37:02 PDT moving into my residence on sunday. yay.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/13770482/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/13770482/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 13:32:16 PDT
ama güzel arada esiyo falan. iyi yani.
saçlarım çok uzadı biraz kırpsam mı ki? yani ne gerek var gerçi şimdi ama yine de bi düşünce işte. boş boş oturuyorum şurda. kitabımı okuyorum, çayımı içiyorum.

çok çok yakında (41 gün) her bir işimi kendim yapmayı öğrenicem. çuvala atılıcam. itilicem kakılıcam.

daha çok yazı yazmak lazım. şiirlerimi sevmiyorum artık.

yoruldum.



neyse anlamsız bi cörnıl oldu böyle. sırf yenilemekti eskisini amaç.
ha bi de vnv nation güzel ebm müzik yapıyo, dinlemediyseniz dinleyiniz, dinletiniz.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/13176406/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/13176406/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 12:25:33 PDT
i graduated. i am in misery. change and seperation were never so difficult.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/12777682/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/12777682/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 11:30:21 PDT
yeniden gittim o yıllar öncesi yere. havası bile yeter. yarım saatin hesabını tutarken ağır paltoma mı yanayım korsenin kaçan ipliklerine mi? yine yıllar öncesi olsa, kaygısız, parfüm kokuları içinde boğulduğumu sansam.. yine dursa o tam karşımda, tanışmanın en kötü yolunu kullarak yaklaşsam yine. şimdi sigara dumanı ve artık varlığına dayanamadığım o müzik var.

değişmiş her şey.

şiir yazamıyorum. ilaçlar mıdır yoksa ben miyim sorun, zamanın mı tokatıdır yoksa ayların -toplanınca yılların- mı geçmiş olmasıdır çözemiyorum. eskiden çok birşey sanırdım konuşmayı öyle kendimle yaptığım gibi, şimdi sessiz kalmak istiyorum. kendime saklamak istemiyorum. hiç bir şeyi saklamak istemiyor, her şeyi tutup siyah çöp torbalarına tıkı, bunun gibi bir pazar gününde gecenin bir yarısı çöp kamyonunu kaçırmanın telaşı olmadan dışarı terliklerimle çıkı tekmelemek istiyorum anısının kalmamasını umut etmeyi istediklerimi.

mutsuzum, tatminsizim biliyorum. geleceğimi bir çırpıda bir bira bardağına gömebilecek kadar hem de.
bitsin artık, bit artık! ne kadar kaldı şu ayın bitmesine, bitsin?!

konuşmak zor geliyor. okumak istemiyorum. sözcükleri dilim ve dudaklarımla şekillendirmek fazla efor gerektiriyor. gelmeyecek telefonları hayal etmek, gecenin bir yarısında huzursuz uyanı sonra tüm gün boyunca uyumak zorunda hissetmek artık fazla geliyor. daralıyorum. düşünmek istemiyorum.

"fazla düşünüyorsun, düşünme, her detayı takma bu kadar kafana" demişti bir zamanlar sildiğim birisi bana. anlıyorum şimdi. her şeyi daha da zorlaştırıyorum.

aslında her bir günü yaşamak, o kadar saati geçirmek (geçirebilmek) ne büyük yükmüş. hep bunu hayretle izlemiş olsam da bugün bir tokat gibi indi. lanet olası günler, bitin gidin artık. zaman kavramından nefret ediyorum.

zamanın olmadığı bir gerçeklik hayali kurardım bir zamanlar. ironi de ironi. hah.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/12718512/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/12718512/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 14:01:43 PDT
but i guess i will not do that.

instead i'll stay in bed the whole day and cry because i feel like whining about humanity.

it's such a shame that no one hears me. i actually am quite the poet i want to become only when i'm too caught up in having a tantrum to actually write anything. and people say i have a quiet nature.

delaying, changing plans for others because they have to live their lives by schedule but i don't?


somebody has got to be the nice person afterall.

i chose to turn my back at the world.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/12336197/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/12336197/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 12:45:28 PDT i'll be back soon hopefully.

♥

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11856119/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11856119/ Sat, 17 Feb 2007 14:21:19 PST
Normality vs individuality. Do they not interact at some point? He told me hatred was not how he "goes". I feel the need to laugh. My firm steps towards nihilism are my human reaction of covering my tears at being forced into a void of meaningless emotions. It's all merely psychological. But if I can't even be a nihilist by my own choice then how much of an individual am I? I guess Kant was wrong. But why should that even matter?

All the guys seem to be lined up beside my window. If past interactions hold no other meaning than.. than.. - I don't even know what to call erasing all that happened before and acting as all the fake smiles were acts of love to not stand all by yourself. I am too much of a stranger to anything that goes on much like everybody else. I watch and I am just being dragged along by fingers pushing me from all directions. Feelings don't matter. Nothing matters. You are all alone all along the way and that's it. So I am just fooling myself.

AAaarrggghhh fuck soberness.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11646406/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11646406/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 11:19:56 PST
i've decided i want to live in holland at some point of my life.


i want to bash any clocks i see around me - ticktocks don't make anything better

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11433279/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11433279/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 13:02:38 PST i'm going to holland tomorrow.




----
14.1
i waited and waited and am still waiting..
waiting...


you should cherish each moment. if you don't you should better get ready to be slapped in the face by the coldness of the cruel gradiose of reality as it shall throw you without any hesitation into the sharp teeth of ticking clocks and the sound there will haunt you tick tock tick tock tick tock TICK TOCK AND YOU'LL GO MAD!!

yes.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11320865/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11320865/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 05:23:18 PST .
.
don't talk to me about the Berlin Wall
seperation is my virtue and i cherish it shamelessly



"Against you I will fling myself, unvanquished and unyielding, O Death!" -Virginia Woolf

ah, it snows outside..
.
.
.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11276182/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/11276182/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 14:24:43 PST i guess i'm too indifferent to anything. i'm still writing essays.

and the headache is killing me.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/10808105/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/10808105/ Sun, 03 Dec 2006 07:44:12 PST




8 december - anathema (vincent cavanagh, duncan peterson)
9 december - haggard
in ankara



it's amazing how such little joy seems to annihilate all other sorrows - even if temporarily..

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/10560520/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/10560520/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 14:41:14 PST

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/10444791/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/10444791/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 12:17:05 PDT plus baseless presumptions are becoming my nightmare and i'm feeling the paranoia slowly kicking in after so much work and so little sleep.


sorry, emotional outburst.




note: i'm seriously aching to have time to take my camera into my hands.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/10347718/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/10347718/ Tue, 10 Oct 2006 13:16:31 PDT
so I'm gonna list some weird things about myself

* I am WAY TOO emotional. to the EXTREME.
* I make clothes and accessories for myself using vast amounts of lace.
* I don't drink tea with sugar, I drink sugar with tea. Same goes for coffee.
* I have a pair of what the people around me perceive as "clown shoes" and I am not hesitant over wearing boots even in the hottest days of summer.
* I have weird rules about my belongings. For example I always use one side of an eraser and refuse to use the other side and when someone else uses that side I get angry.
* I get angry and agitated over unimportant and weird things that no one expects me to get agitated over while I'm indifferent to many things that I "should" get frustrated about.
* I walk a lot. For km's, everywhere.
* I have an obsession with hands. (which is rather visible in my gallery)
* I have an obsession with medieval clothing, architecture, music, literature.
* Darkness sooths me.






bir de bu aralar pek ilgilenemiyorum buralarla, üniversite başvuruları, envayi çeşit sınav fln.... kendime ayırıcak zamanım yok, fotoğraf da çekemiyorum. ama yakında okulda yaptığım bazı şeyleri ekleyebilirim.
commentlerinize cevap yazamıyorum, hiçbir şeye teşekkür edemiyorum, yük oldu üstümde
o yüzden kocaman TEŞEKKÜRLER

bugün le buluştuk ankara'ya gelmiş olması vesilesiyle. onu çektim birkaç kare. aralarında düzgünleri varsa eklicem buraya..

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9918150/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9918150/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 11:54:59 PDT
]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9726320/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9726320/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 13:43:10 PDT i'll post some photos soon but right now i'm full time devoured by books and school work and uni. prep.




-------


i needed isolation. so i'm going away to the shores of the Black Sea in hopes of finding peace and attuning with nature. i will desperately try to get rid of the burden of time and all that it has placed on my shoulders.
i will surely come back with lots of photos.

yalnızlık ihtiyacı sonucu Karadeniz kıyılarında ücra bir köşe bulmak için yola çıkıyorum. aklımdaki bir çok şeyi burada bırakp geri döndüğümde bulmamayı umuyorum. gerçekten.
fotoğraflarla geri dönücem size. ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9578359/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9578359/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 14:57:04 PDT
that's the sign of me recovering from my illness haha! but my whole family seems to be cursed so i'm taking care of the ill ones as they get ill..
i've got so much work to do (yes even in the summer) so i'm working, reading...
i'll post some new photos soon..




artık kahküllerim var
iyileştim efendim, yine sokaklardayım. evde yattımya koca 1 hafta, şimdi hiç bi güç beni evde tutamaz
yapcak fazla iş var, kasıyorum ben de üf okul da açılcak zaten...
neyse pek bi yakındım galiba ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9480089/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9480089/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 14:40:51 PDT ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9250665/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/9250665/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 11:53:01 PDT i sit and wait.


i long for winter but this feels like the calm before the storm.


same places and same people all around. same stuff to do all the time despite all this crap about change, i don't see it. i only want to see one certain face when all around me is everybody else.
i have not been writing since about 2 months. ugh..


whatever, it's just a phase, right? ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/8698102/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/8698102/ Sun, 07 May 2006 07:29:27 PDT

it's been a while since i wrote a journal so thought i might as well do so now..

well the last few months have been hectic, simply hectic with every meaning of the word...

i've spent a whole week staying after school to get things ready for the art show in school. i loved working so much with art, i could use it as an excuse to delay other things which was sort of a relief... in the end it was good, i finished a lot of studio work, but that leaves me now with loads of research to do...

i started talking with someone who has hurt me a lot in the past. now that i have better insight into some of the things that happened i feel like i've let go of a really big grudge. i feel... i don't know how i feel. he says i'm way too emotional, i don't know what to say to that. maybe i am...

why are men afraid of smart women? why is intelligence something to dread in someone you'd like to have a close relation with? people are fooling themselves...

i took the SAT yesterday. i hadn't studied for it. many of my friends who also took the test had been taking lessons for months and i hadn't done anything. i left it to chance a bit. or maybe i trust myself a lot. anyways i'll take it once more so it's not such an issue...

last week was Mayfest in Bilkent. i spent a lot of time there (instead of studying for my SAT) although i think it was better last year. but i got a chance to see a very old friend of mine which was a pleasure.

hopefully i'll start dance lessons again. i don't know if i'll get involved with ballet after so long, i'll start with modern dance, then maybe if i gian some confidence i may work classic. i'm very excited!

i bought my vip ticket to the Anathema concert in Ankara, so that's also something to look forward to...

as always, thank you so much for the support! ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/8332645/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/8332645/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 10:15:45 PST . Please remedy my confusion
. And thrust me back to the day
. ...
. Pull me down again
. And guide me into pain
. I'm counting nocturnal hours
. Drowned visions in haunted sleep
. ...
. Nails bleeding from the struggle
. It is the end for the weak at heart
. Always the same
. A lullaby for the ones who've lost all
. ...
. Spiralling to the ground below
. Like Autumn leaves left in the wake to fade away
. Waking up to your sound again
. And lapse into the ways of misery
.

opeth ♥ ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/8045998/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/8045998/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 11:19:28 PST

I just bought my VIP TICKET TO THE OPETH CONCERT!!!



I'm so happy!!! Really I am so glad they're coming to Ankara... I would probably go to Istanbul but this is even better since now I know deffinately that I will get to see them. And now I'm holding my ticket in my hands... It's gonna be awsome!

28 days left...

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/8024858/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/8024858/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 05:39:01 PST
sorry for not answering comments. i'm rarely home these days and when i am, i am doing work or just chilling out.

generally life has been good. full of the usual excitements of mine. i just can't stay still, i have to find something to keep me thinking and busy. right now that something is someone i would greatly like to help but i'm trying to not lose myself in the process of doing so... but i know things will work out well enough eventually.

hope everyone is well!

♥ ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7691283/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7691283/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 02:35:33 PST
sometimes i think some things have to happen. i know it's giving up to my fate but there's no way around it. so i'm comforting myself with the thought that it had to happen. i know i did the right things. i did what i had to do, otherwise i would've been drowned by my guilt which i can't decide is worse or not... whatever happened happened and i'm the one being hurt although none of it was my fault. i know it isn't...

enough rambling...



]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7583017/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7583017/ Thu, 12 Jan 2006 12:37:12 PST



thank you all for your support and help i really appreciate everything... ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7420588/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7420588/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 07:35:16 PST i wonder if you feel any shame.
but that wouldn't fit with your understanding of all those around you. you always thought the world revolved around you, not otherwise.

it's nice to finally reach a healthy level of acceptance. i know it was all a mistake. i know i was just "someone" to fill your gap. just a passing phase. ahahha it's so funny now seeing myself as just a tool after so many months.

i'm over you. my dreams are free now. and guess what? i'm happy, probably more than you are in your pathetic little state of being called "existance". you don't exist.

i don't need you, i never did.

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7350408/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7350408/ Mon, 19 Dec 2005 00:00:08 PST so you better lay off






all i want is loads of free time, excess money and.. well you.
i hate distances so they can stay away from me. i want you near. ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7289834/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7289834/ Mon, 12 Dec 2005 08:26:33 PST How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never.. never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And I grieve

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a Silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
I wished, I wished you could have stayed

(Anathema - One Last Goodbye)







artık gözyaşlarından denizler var içimde... ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7043979/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/7043979/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 10:15:20 PST i've not been hapiier for a long time... i'm so happy that i see art classes in my dreams











What heals our snow-blind weary eyes
When all stars are slain by fiery skies
And every word upon your spiraling cross
Is but a misled sun, a bitter loss
Inject us out of here
All i asked for was a little love
But from my hands flew the maiden dove
While clouds like cotton snowwhite sheep
Still calm beside their shepherd sleep
Inject us out of here









]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6906285/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6906285/ Sun, 30 Oct 2005 11:58:50 PST "I shattered all the mirrors fearfully hoping that they won't be able to remember my face."
-Sopor Aeternus, Do You Know My Name?


♥ ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6649646/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6649646/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 09:25:40 PDT [link] is the first one i submitted from the trip. decided to make that one an id since i'm looking right at the camera and smiling hehe..

i have so much to do right now but i can't put my head up and start working. i came home early today, didn't stay much with my friends to finish some stuff early but i am just too lazy. anyways i have to finish some of it today or i'll have to stay up the next two nights ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6608093/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6608093/ Mon, 26 Sep 2005 13:39:48 PDT
tomorrow i'll be going to galipolli for a history trip. i'll be back on friday night... ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6553115/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6553115/ Tue, 20 Sep 2005 08:49:40 PDT

i went to rock 'n coke, the musi festival in istanbul, got my foot injured and swollen (my friends had to carry me around since i couldn't walk) and my arms all bruised in a mosh pit (oh poor me..) it was awsome though. i had so much fun... i saw many friends that i hadn't seen in ages and of course the concerts were excellent. the cure live!! and apocalyptica...

the day i returned, school started. now i stay up till 2 o'clock in the morning with the only purpose of doing homework.. yes, i come home every single day from school and sit down to do homework and i'm not finished before midnight. i'm taking 4 high level IB courses though. i'll probably drop one, it's unnecessary. i only need to take 3 high levels. but then again, i'm a nerd, so...

i'm taking some classes on weekends to get ready for the university exams in turkey. a pain in the ass. i have to spend 8 hours there... plus there's the homework, the tests i get from there. at least the poeple i'm taking the classes with are good friends. that makes the whole procedure less unpleasant.

hmm aside from that, a close "friend" of mine stabbed me in the back and i broke up with my boyfriend because of what she has done. i'm really having issues trusting people. if someone i trusted as much as her could do such a thing to me, not care about my feelings, i wonder what other people can do! hah... i'm getting used to it though. it's as if i'm turning numb.

i can only go out at friday nights. on saturdays maybe a few hours after my classes in the morning. but friday nights are my saviour. i'm living in hopes to reach fridays.... *sigh*

i wish all of it would end. ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6395300/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6395300/ Fri, 02 Sep 2005 08:05:55 PDT gidiyorummm ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6349334/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6349334/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 09:16:10 PDT şişmiş gözler, parmağımda onun diş izi.
sırtıma sinsice saplanmış bıcak, bıçağın sahibinin şeffaf maskesinin altındaki bir zamanlar pek güvenilir saydığım yüz.
kabuslar, kahve falları.
2 saatlik uykular, anlamsız eğlenceler.
dumanlar, dumanlar.
korseler, bar muhabbetleri.
kötü müzik, makyaj yapan erkekler.
sen, ben, siz. = sen bensiz.
kan çanağı, çiçek yok.
kaptırdım gidiyorum,


dur. ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6257622/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6257622/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 00:46:13 PDT
i'm gonna meet her in about an hour and we'll go visit "our" tree we have just so many good memories and experiences together...

lately, i have been able to get my mind off of the things that had been bothering me. soo many hugs to all my friends who haven't left me alone in such a hard phase and of course my dearest






]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6207210/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6207210/ Fri, 12 Aug 2005 12:14:21 PDT back to the railway, angel
i'm the devil with the black dress on (;


i feel so masochistic. i'm happy. i'm back to how i used to feel about myself and those around me. hope it lasts, hope it lasts... ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6174388/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6174388/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 00:42:22 PDT
today i want to do something i used to do, like write or something. i want my old habits back again.

maybe i'll just go out and take some photos, not that it will be a change since i've been shooting like crazy lately.

i've noticed, sitting and chatting all day long with old friends i haven't seen for months is awsome.

also meeting the girl that your ex"boyfriend" was dating until the day you started dating him, out of the blue and totally randomly is an interesting experience. especially when you realise he has been lying about her to you and when she doesn't know who you really are...

maybe i'll stay calm today, drink lots of hot drinks and watch movies and read books.

i need to buy myself a tent.



















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My kind of warm glow... by *justanotherfool
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VeniMi by :devinfinitussolux:
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Manet's Kearsarge and Alabama by ~madmax2002
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*desmo100 =http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6146804/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 01:48:47 PDT Ms. Ann Thropy
is a Shadow Deviant
is Female
is a deviant since Jan 12, 2005, 5:03 AM
has 2,002 pageviews
is located in Turkey
is online
is currently ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6128844/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6128844/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 03:42:54 PDT i know guys like to think they were the flu, but you were no more than a lite sneeze




caught a lite sneeze
caught a lightweight lightningseed
boys on my left side
boys on my right side
boys in the middle
and you're not here
i need a big loan
from the girl zone
building
tumbling down
didn't know our love was so small
couldn't stand at all
mr st. john just bring your son
the spire is hot
and my cells can't feed
and you still got that
belle dragging your foots
i'm hiding it well sister ernestine
but i still got that belle
dragging my foots
right on time you get closer
and closer
called my name but there's no way in
use that fame
rent your wife and kids today
maybe she will
maybe she will
caught a lite sneeze
dreamed a little dream
made my own pretty hate machine
boys on my left side
boys on my right side
boys in the middle and you're not here
boys in their dresses
and you're not here
i need a big loan from the girl zone

(Tori Amos - Caught A Lite Sneeze) ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6120026/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6120026/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 06:48:23 PDT ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6100760/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6100760/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 12:03:52 PDT


----
hala ayni sarki, beyefendi kazidi dilimize, kulagimiza, aklimiza...


--
Right hook, so strong
You like his hair, you sing along
With every word, he's M, he's B
He's so H, but over C

When your life comes crashing
Here comes love
Watch him, coy and dashing
Here comes love

Left hook, so weak
He shocks you when he speaks
He's everywhere he's M, he's B
He's so H, but over C

When your life comes crashing
Here comes love
Watch him coy and dashing
Here comes love

Dirty bitch, the messiah
Scratch your itch, drug pariah
Pink prick, extra blunt
Gold plated, stunning cunt
Heart thief, dark soul
Sucks you dry, eats you whole

Last hook can't dispute
I like to curse, he likes to shoot
At everyone
He's M, he's B
He's so H, but over C

When your life turns fashion
Here comes love
You watch the people cash in
Here comes love
He leaves you tired and scratching
There goes love

Gorgeous prick he's smashing


(H/C - Scarling) ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6083799/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/6083799/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 00:38:25 PDT now that i'm back home again, there's no going back, i can't run away from my life. i'm stuck here.
and i am so tired. i have no idea what to do. i can't sleep, i can't eat, i can't shout, i can't cry...
when will this end??



-----------------------------------------------------------------




Right hook, so strong
You like his hair, you sing along
With every word, he's M, he's B
He's so H, but over C

When your life comes crashing
Here comes love
Watch him, coy and dashing
Here comes love

Left hook, so weak
He shocks you when he speaks
He's everywhere he's M, he's B
He's so H, but over C

When your life comes crashing
Here comes love
Watch him coy and dashing
Here comes love

Dirty bitch, the messiah
Scratch your itch, drug pariah
Pink prick, extra blunt
Gold plated, stunning cunt
Heart thief, dark soul
Sucks you dry, eats you whole

Last hook can't dispute
I like to curse, he likes to shoot
At everyone
He's M, he's B
He's so H, but over C

When your life turns fashion
Here comes love
You watch the people cash in
Here comes love
He leaves you tired and scratching
There goes love

Gorgeous prick he's smashing


(H/C - Scarling) ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5895532/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5895532/ Sun, 10 Jul 2005 14:16:44 PDT it's weird, i would've been quite content staying at home withut any vacation. maybe it's because of the changes that occured in my life lately that i'm more than pleased with also friends coming to town from afar....
anyways i hope i'll have a great time... i'm sure the next 2 weeks will be rather fun since i'll be with 3 great friends but after that i'll be with my family so i don't really know how that'll turn out.
anyways, i need to go pack up some more... take care! ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5843448/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5843448/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 02:04:20 PDT
eeek! i need to spend more time here... i apologize to all of you who i haven't answered or commented.



]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5791117/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5791117/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 12:19:42 PDT
and i'm thinking how the hell did i become this fucked up?

]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5733890/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5733890/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 12:27:04 PDT
]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5691531/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5691531/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 04:08:57 PDT
vacation was great! full of swimming, canyoning, climbing, scratching and making my legs bleed, stinky mud baths (oh yeah and i have some wonderful photos of me covered up in some disgusting green slimy stuff), boat trips (is that what they're called?), searching for octopuses , not much sleep, tons of alcohol and memories of dead drunk close friends and many more... i got a tan which i hate but had loads of fun which i guess was worth it.

i'll be submitting some stuff soon. but bare with me, i may be slow on answering any comments since i'm lazy and i'm hardly at home except for the times i sleep










]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5567141/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5567141/ Mon, 06 Jun 2005 05:44:26 PDT
i'll be going to Kas, Koycegiz etc with my classmates. it's a tradition in our school. after the IGCSEs finish we go for a trip.
and we don't have any serious lessons left anyways. the finals are over too. we'll just have some lessons to prepare for IB for about a week after we come back.

enough rambling, i'll be gone for a week and i don't think i'll have computer access... i'll reply to everything when i come back.








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-NOTICES-
Also, when you comment on a deviation featured (appreciated ) you could put "Found this deviation through :'devdeviant-underground:" (remove the speech marks)

-TODAYS DEVIATIONS-

:thumb17645680: by ~Patra
[Suggested by =JFMuni]

:thumb17539516: by *lawra
[Suggested by =JFMuni]

:thumb11549231: by *Inevitable-malice
[Suggested by =JFMuni] ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5485154/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5485154/ Sat, 28 May 2005 12:09:04 PDT it's a Kodak Easyshare LS 753
it's not the best but it'll do
i took like 3000 photos in the last week my latest submissions were all photos taken with that camera...





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-TODAYS DEVIATIONS-

Killers Are Quiet by ~demonicwhispers
[Suggested by ~demonqueller]

Mans Own Creation by :devweepinbubbles:
[Suggested by =bloodred-sea]

rafonster by ~civa
[Suggested by =bloodred-sea] ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5370403/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5370403/ Mon, 16 May 2005 04:33:19 PDT














_________________

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A sceme run by =yuppy64 to promote unknown and underappreciated deviants...



Please read this to see what we're all about, for more information and rules and things



To suggest a deviation, send me a note with the subject DU Suggestions

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Deviant Underground Chat (thanks = DJ-Outcast )



Written by =yuppy64



-UPDATES-

Hey there everyone! I've done a little bit to the DU Chatroom, most members will now be in a little group, just to make you feel special, there wont be a whole lot of activity, but I intend on having an organised chat in there to see how many people we can get in there, which will be a little promotion, in the world of dAmn!

Huge thanks to everyone who commented on featured deviations, I was very excited to see all the comments on weekly deviations! I want to see more non members commenting though!





-NOTICES-

I dont suppose everyone could leave a comment here to say which of these is your favourite? Help me out when it comes to saturday selecting?



Could everyone (it's optional, but I'd appreciate it) put something like :"devdeviant-underground": (minus the speech marks) into their signature?



Also, when you comment on a deviation featured (appreciated " title="Cuddling up with someone close..." /> you could put "Found this deviation through :'devdeviant-underground:" (remove the speech marks)



-TODAYS DEVIATIONS-



" title="Point Right" /> aquarius by ~anti-praxe

[Suggested by =bloodred-sea]



" title="Point Right" /> Better Then a Boy by ~MattBenn8

[Suggested by ~Gigabeto]



" title="Point Right" /> warranty void if removed by *aarghj

[Suggested by =gn0ma]



Now go comment!!! Or else



-MEMBERS-



Run by;
<... ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5327633/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5327633/ Wed, 11 May 2005 08:04:23 PDT
i wish i knew who the 1000th person was though... oh well
i love you all




lately i've been really busy with exams and the times i didn't have any exams i wasn't at home and i'm afraid this will go on for a few weeks... thus i don't have the time to check in that often and when i do i barely have the time to comment back etc. sorry if i reply late to anything



since i'm having exams i need something to get my mind off so i started painting (yay)
the bad thing is that i'm afraid i've lost the talent i had before.. i can't paint half as good as i did, say, a few months ago... (not that i was a wonderful painter or anything )
maybe i'll think about submitting some of them...



ugh. i feel brain dead. i had a 2 hour english and 2 hour history exam today. in total i wrote like 15 pages my hand is hurting and i can't play piano
thank god i only have a 45 minute listening exam tomorrow











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-UPDATES-
Sorry again, still no time just yet, hopefully on sunday I'll go though the last few features and see who's the better commenters and stick their names up here.
A few members seem not to be posting, when I get more time I'll investigate further...


-NOTICES-
I dont suppose everyone could leave a comment here to say which of these is your favourite? Help me out when it comes to saturday selecting?

Could everyone (it's optional, but I'd appreciate it) put something like :"devdeviant-underground": (minus the speech marks) into their signature?

Also, when you comment on a deviation featured (appreciated ) you could put "Found this deviation through :'devdeviant-underground:" (remove the speech marks)

-TODAYS DEVIATIONS-

My Winter by =Standing-Apart
[Suggested by =bloodred-sea]

Uptown IV by *soggynoggin
[Suggested by =bloodred-sea]

Cafe2 by ~yellowpokadotbikini
[Suggested by ~felipebatera]

-MEMBERS-

Run by;
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Daily
~WannabeDesigner
~MsCandy
~hikikomori
~shantla
J-Outcast
~witheredrose
~desmo100
*perylousdemon
*churra
=bloodred-sea
~savethecows
lzen-czech
*RupturedFaith
~silverdreamfairy
~pinkperry
=grades
~quizzy
~demonqueller
~CrystalEternity
~failing-senses
~justphrases
~nalukiki
~Nyx-Angel
*Elune-555
~rockabillyska
~seraphic-deviltry
*korubin


Weekly
*WittlePanther
=xEXILEDx
~StillLife-StillDeath
~elly-mae
~sarahkins
*Eloren
=selva-amarga
=cross-rocker
~savethecows
~coolweirdo
*jerzchick16
~ClownStaples
*Mehrunnisa
=corixa
~Infernal-Angel
~Apri1
~Unionhoney
=Kellsita
*senyphine
~k... ]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5293186/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5293186/ Sat, 07 May 2005 11:58:25 PDT
anyways, i have my igcse exams right now and am not required to go to school at times that i don't have an exam. there are no lessons anyway. you would think that i'd be staying at home studying but i'm out all the time so i rarely have the time to comment or reply or anything... so bare with me, i'm finally living my life after nearly a whole year of depression...

what depresses me right at this moment is that i can't go to the pain of salvation concert that's on right now the men at the entrance of the concert won't take me in beacuse of my age. and unfourtenately i don't have a fake id... i really should get one soon...


]]> ~seraphic-deviltry http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5229309/ http://seraphic-deviltry.deviantart.com/journal/5229309/ Sat, 30 Apr 2005 11:16:21 PDT one day you see a strange little girl feeling blue
walking home in her wrapped up world
she survived but she's feeling old
cuz she found all things cold

strange little girl
where are you going?
strange little girl
where are you going?
strange little girl
you really should be going






]]> ~seraphic-deviltry