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deviantART: by:seventwofour http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:seventwofour&section=today deviantART RSS for by:seventwofour en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 23:11:12 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png mellon collie and the infinite sadness: 12.9.09 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/28854122/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/28854122/ Wed, 09 Dec 2009 20:18:58 PST
i go on long drives and i drive in a wide circle, i dont touch the fenceposts, i park and stare out the window and pretend im waiting for you, i walk downstairs in fear of bang bang bang and all the lights go out. in the parking lot you said sorry sorry sorry and i lied and i lied and i tried but i lied and lets put her in st. mungos certainly they will find a cure, there is no solution for the incurably sad. i cry at each lamp post and i cry at each secluded park and i cry outside each home and i punch pale legs as hard as i can which isn't so hard as ive lost 100 pounds maybe more. restaurants i hate it i see your car everywhere every neighborhood has memories may i request a lobotomy once they commit me to la la la of white coats and a small cot, participate in groups and watch the television all day, revert to catatonia i cannot hear a word you are saying matthew my heartsweet my matty moo please help me.

]]> =seventwofour august 28th, 2009 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/26881494/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/26881494/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 18:16:38 PDT or just the start of
something really really beautiful
wrapped up and disguised as
something really really ugly

im happy

i also love mylifeisgood

]]> =seventwofour august second, 2009 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/26335838/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/26335838/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 11:09:35 PDT one: one day at a time
two: stand up for ourselves
three: dont look back into the sun

everyone has a secret so bite your mother tongue
and let the truth bleed over you, you open sheep-skin

you are so young
:so feel alive

]]> =seventwofour july sixteenth twothousandnine http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/25976458/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/25976458/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 01:29:03 PDT
[shh]

]]> =seventwofour June 7th, 2009 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/25171451/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/25171451/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 00:40:04 PDT

it was the summer of love and i thank the stars above because the woman took a loving over me and just to gain her trust i bought a microbus because i sold off all my personal property a tight tye-dye dress she was a psychedelic mess we toured to the north, south, east, and west we sold some mushroom tea we sold some ecstasy we sold nitrous, opium, acid, heroin, and pcp and now i hear the police coming after me...

]]> =seventwofour April 27th, 2009 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/24472307/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/24472307/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 21:57:56 PDT
sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
sorry

driving home the sky accelerates
and the clouds all form a geometric shape
and it goes fast
you think of the past
suddenly everything has changed

problems have solutions
a lifetime of fucking things up fixed in one determined flash

]]> =seventwofour March 15th, 2009 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/23707123/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/23707123/ Sun, 15 Mar 2009 07:42:47 PDT
i dont really have much to say but.
well how about the truth.
march has been good for me. i havent had any full blown panic attacks and only two close calls. not very many bad days either. im trying really freaking hard to get over these things. and the weathers changing so. that should help a lot.

its annoying to think that. life is always gonna be this ridiculous roller coaster for me. but there's not really any other choice.

god grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change; the courage to change the things i can; and the wisdom to know the difference.

lolkudos to those that can name that prayer and its cultural significance!
haha

neeeeeemaaaaa jay check this out

on the way down i saw a lot i dont remember
and if you ask me how
id say that gravity's how i got there

so
how are you?

]]> =seventwofour February 14th, 2009 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/23194650/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/23194650/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 11:42:57 PST these walls are paper thin and everyone hears every little sound!

~IamCAINEandYOUare

do you feel alone right now?

oh, i dunno. i mean id like to believe im not but i just...ive just never seen any proof so i...i just don't debate it anymore, you know? its like i could spend my whole life debating it over and over again, weighing the pros and cons and in the end i still wouldnt have any proof so i just... i just dont debate it anymore. its absurd.

]]> =seventwofour January 15th, 2009 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/22602372/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/22602372/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 18:43:21 PST
so i found this hella awesome thing from `conorschild's journal. its like seriously really cool. it's called wordle. Use text from [link] and post it to wordle.net and post results! pree cool. click mine to see it larger.

When you get so down that you cant get up
And you want so much but youre all out of luck
When youre so downhearted and misunderstood
Just over & over & over you could
Accroches-toi a ton reve

mmkay bye

]]> =seventwofour December 21st, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/22112258/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/22112258/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 22:45:45 PST soo...
half my brain is like

say shut up and quit your cryin
give it time and youll be fine

and the other half is, well, not so optimistic.
it's an unfortunate, unpleasant dichotomy.
but that's life, ken?
here we go again.

]]> =seventwofour November 29th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/21729602/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/21729602/ Sat, 29 Nov 2008 11:12:36 PST Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

Things aren't going too well this month but I'm gonna try to turn shit around you know? And its not like it's all bad. Slightly Stoopid was fucking awesome and I can't wait for more Catalyst shows. Aaand if you've got not else to read, read Trainspotting. Actually read it even if you do have else to read. It's good. It's "the best book ever written by man or woman...deserves to sell more copies than the bible." At least, according to Rebel, Inc., and who the fuck are they?

life sucks and then you die.
this world is hopeless but
i love it anyway.

And the road to life
Yes it goes up and down
Doesn't really matter
As long as the music goes on

so that's where i'm at.
where you at?

]]> =seventwofour October 14th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/20992043/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/20992043/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 19:12:44 PDT a game! with lyrics! =]

Put your library on shuffle, post the first line from each of the first 15 songs it plays, make people guess, bold it out when someone gets it. If you know it, feel free to reply!

1. tangerine sky - kottonmouth kings
2. time is running out - muse
3. suture up your future - queens of the stone age
4. happy christmas (war is over) - john lennon
5. piggy - nine inch nails
6. tr(n)igger - saul williams
7. the moon - flobots
8. oh! darling - the beatles
9. fairies wear boots - black sabbath
10. black cadillacs - modest mouse
11. killing in the name - rage against the machine
12. 51st anniversary - jimi hendrix
13. should i stay or should i go - the clash
14. ironic - alanis morissette
15. ruiner - nine inch nails

Anyways...yeah I like October. How are you?

]]> =seventwofour September 13th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/20470501/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/20470501/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 11:06:49 PDT

Fast for a While

It is no accident that every spiritual tradition everywhere in the world and in all ages has used fasting. Drugs apart, no method has more power to alter our relation to the world. To frighten or to soothe, to compel or to cause indifference, to disturb or to calm-fasting is capable of provoking all these reactions, depending on time, intensity, and circumstance. Our most ancient, constant, and organic relation to reality is via food. To abstain from eating voluntarily, therefore, goes against the very bedrock of our being.
Everyone reacts differently, depending on their past and their internal architecture. One may be filled with dread at the though of entering an arid, mineral landscape, a desert of stones that no sweet taste will ever soothe or relieve. Someone else will welcome it, by contrast, pleased to be released from the constraints of having to eat, freed from the ghastly obligation to ingest solids at set times. A little less glucose, a bit less fat, some missing proteins, and you no longer see the world in the same way.

The book that came from is pretty cool, though I didn't get the idea to fast from it. I saw it after. It's other suggestions include peeling an apple in your head, running in a graveyard, contemplating a dead bird, and walking in an imaginary forest. There's 101 of them, and they're almost all that weird.

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]]> =seventwofour August 1st, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/19719298/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/19719298/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 13:27:30 PDT No, best summer ever.
I love everyone and everything.
100% EPIC.

"Summertime and the livin's easy, Bradley's on the microphone with Ras-MG. All the people in the dance will agree that we're well qualified to represent the LBC. Me and Louie we're gonna run to the party and dance till the rhythm it gets harder."
_Sublime

Can't wait until we get a dalmatian.

[link]
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LOL do it.

]]> =seventwofour June 13th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/18829954/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/18829954/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 23:10:13 PDT

summer

Like Allah Aum said, things are so different now. And it's beautiful. Thanks for sticking around; I really couldn't appreciate you guys more than I do right now. I owe you a lot. Summer will be epic. License in a week and Yosemite after that. Freaking epic guys.

I LOVE YOU ALL.

"Bad news comes don't you worry even when it lands.
Good news will work its way to all them plans.
We both got fired on the exactly the same day,
Well we'll float on good news is on the way."
Float On, Modest Mouse

]]> =seventwofour May 20th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/18413738/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/18413738/ Tue, 20 May 2008 11:25:36 PDT

ZOMG!

Canada is beautiful.
Canada was worth over 2000 dollars and over 6 months of hell.
I am so freaking happy.

Ask for stories because I'm more than willing to tell them. There are a lot of stories.

I can't believe I'm actually going to miss band now.

"I've been lying all this time to keep myself stuck. I've been nowhere, I've done nothing, I've been talking to myself for so long. And is my music only a way for me to ignore that my freedom is my wisdom is my movement is my kingdom. And my kingdom is dependent on a treason so resplendent that it lights up every corner every liar every mourner every cancer every injured every killer every hindered every believer every denier every consumer every buyer."
Trouble Over Tokyo - The Liar

]]> =seventwofour April 15th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/17872463/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/17872463/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 21:28:59 PDT

Update

Winterguard is [technically] over. Except for this whole spur of the moment rally thing, it's over. I can breathe a little easier.

I've been writing a lot. I doubt if anything will make it's way here, mostly because the audience has expanded way beyond the number of close friends I'd want to share that with. (Remember the good ol' days back in 2005?)

Also have been biking a lot too. Biking more and eating less. It's the only time that my brain is empty. It's like if I can exhaust my body than I'll be too tired to think, and then I can sleep.

Books

Tweak - Nic Sheff
Beautiful Boy - David Sheff
Please, read these. They are worth it.

Art

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]]> =seventwofour March 15th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/17354644/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/17354644/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 21:53:56 PDT I just bought Audiosurf after being exposed to the game from $spinegrinder. It's freaking...amazing. A completely different way to experience music. You race through this unique track collecting 'cars' to music, and every color, every bump in the road is coordinated with the song that you picked. It's well worth the $10 I paid, but if you're skeptical there is a free demo available. Want to see what it's like before you download? Through Fire and Flames on Audiosurf, Mono mode.

Other than that, things are shitty. Hope your life and mind are in a better sort than mine.

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]]> =seventwofour February 27th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/17096402/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/17096402/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 21:43:18 PST I hate colorguard more than I hate Richard Nixon and Adolph Hitler combined.

thirty more motherfucking spinebending mindnumbing intestinetwisting days.

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]]> =seventwofour February 21st, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/16996794/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/16996794/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 16:53:49 PST Got this from $spinegrinder and `conorschild.

RULES:
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you

1. The age you will be on your next birthday: 16 [It's in a few days.]

2. A place you'd like to travel: Liverpool, England

3. Your favorite place: A comfortable couch or bed with my friends.

4. Your favorite object: Computer

5. Favorite food: Tacos

6. Your favorite animal: Owls ['Cause they are the smarts.]

7. Your favorite color: Green

8. The town/state/etc in which you live: Bay Area

9. Name of past pet: Dakota

10. A dream come true: Rockstar.

11. Your nickname/screenname: seventwofour

12. Middle name: Michelle

13. Favorite Smell: Gasoline

14. Bad habit of yours: Being a bitch.

15. Your first job: Babysitting
=seventwofour February 2nd, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/16696914/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/16696914/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 20:20:57 PST !

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]]> =seventwofour January 4th, 2008 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/16261412/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/16261412/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 20:23:12 PST See you February 4th, 2008.
And I'll be $100 richer.

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Squidward is playing his clarinet (so it sounds really loud and horrible) when there is a knock at the door, he answers it, and there is a doctor standing there.
Doctor: "Yeah, uhh...I'm with the pet hospital down the street and I understand you have a dying animal on the premises..."
Squidward: *SLAM* (door closes)

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]]> =seventwofour December 18th, 2007 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/15990636/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/15990636/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 17:43:45 PST Okay. So after being home all day I had a few epiphanies, if you will. Things I've always known but didn't know until they smacked me in the face.

The first is that we can do whatever we want to do as long as it does not harm others. We don't have to play into this stupid school college job disneyland shit! We don't have to. You want to go be a rockstar, go be a fucking rockstar. You want to be a journalist, go be a fucking journalist. An actress. A designer. So much focus has been taken away from the arts and the only thing we think today is school, well guess what, it doesn't fucking matter. I am honestly never going to use math beyond addition/subtraction/multiplication/division in my life. Think how many hours turned into weeks turned into months into years I have wasted, and how many more I have left to waste studying it.

The second is that I know moderation in all things is a great philosophical viewpoint and all that, but our youth is the time that we are supposed to be finding the middle ground. This is the time that you push every boundary until you find the edge. Then you know where your middle ground is. Because if you just stay on the safe side of the line, one day later on you're going to have to make a choice, and you might make the wrong one just because you don't know how far over the line you're about to jump. And if you had gone that far in your youth you'd be better prepared to make such a decision. Yeah, some kids jump too far. But hopefully they had a damn good time doing it, and personally I'd rather die young and have had a fucking blast than live to hundred being an accountant than retiring and knitting sweaters and baking cookies. Maybe that's just me, but if you'll refer to Number one, you'll see that I am entitled to do whatever the fuck I want if it doesn't hurt anyone else.

The third is that I am absolutely furious about being born into this generation. It's oppressive and dirty and protective and overbearing; it's politically correct and conniving. But I can live in whatever fucking decade I want to in my head. This generation is all about 'Whoever dies with the most toys, wins.' Well they are wrong, whoever dies with the most experiences and crazy stories to tell is the real winner.

Everybody Knows That You're Insane.

]]> =seventwofour December 5th, 2007 http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/15810673/ http://seventwofour.deviantart.com/journal/15810673/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 16:51:48 PST And it's gonna be awesome, right? Well, as awesome as an amusement park with a bunch of security cameras, small children with runny noses, and uptight band kids could be.
RIGHT.

I can't even div align without a subscription. How sad. If I have money left over after the tour and the holidays I'll get one. Fat chance of that though.
We are going to switch seats in foods. :[

MAKE HOLIDAY CARDS. You have 12 days left. Holiday Card Project.

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