http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:shadowofpersephone&section=today deviantART RSS for by:shadowofpersephone en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 00:36:21 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/16936550/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/16936550/ Sun, 17 Feb 2008 21:12:32 PST I'm sick of people bitching that things aren't going the way they want.
Welcome to life.
I swear the slogan for it has to be
Life: Not always fair, what the fuck you gonna do about it?

Don't like it?
Get out.
Can't handle it?
Slip that blade against your skin.

Just stop bitching and complaining
Stop moaning and groaning
Just because things aren't turning out the way that you planned
Doesn't mean that anyone else really wants to hear about it
And if they do it's because they haven't heard it
20 fucking million TIMES
Already

I'm pretty sure everyone is sick
Sick of pretending to listen
Sick of offering advice
(It's not like anyone listens anyways)
Sick of ungrateful people
Sick of hearing the complaints
Sick of
You

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/15757155/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/15757155/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 22:51:36 PST
Today I was thinking about some things that I talked about with a friend of mine a couple days, and about the way that I felt that night. I'm not going to go into details...in fact I'm not gonna explain it at all but what I will say is that in all this time I have never given up hope on that things will work out for the better.

I know that no matter what that things are going to end up as I have always hoped they will. I'm sure of it. Almost as sure as I'm sitting here writing about my random thoughts that came to me today.

All I could think of last night when I finally closed my eyes and started drifting off into dreams was the comfort and security I felt when I fell asleep the other night curled up in a strange bed, in a town I do not live in (but call home nonetheless), enjoying the last moments of ecstacy before falling into dreamless sleep. And all I could think of was that I want to feel that way every single day for the rest of my life.

Right now I know I can't. But eventually I know that it will come to pass.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/14869108/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/14869108/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 11:07:23 PDT ever. I just posted my Master of Puppets manipulation and less than three minutes after uploading it BAM I have a

Today is good. ^_^

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/14794222/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/14794222/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 00:03:16 PDT
Thanks to all of you who have viewed my page. I doubt I'll be updating my journal that much but maybe. Who knows.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/12561128/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/12561128/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 23:42:44 PDT
I am currently working on a couple of series right now.
Elementals:
Earth (completed) [link]icture
Air
Fire
Water
Spirit

7 Deadly Sins:
Lust
Envy
Pride
Wrath
Sloth
Gluttony
Greed

There will probably be a third series but I haven't decided on it yet.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/11294352/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/11294352/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 21:16:15 PST
I mean right now it's kinda slightly throbbing but it's not that bad. What hurt the most while I was getting it done was the outline. That hurt like a bitch. Well. Ok not really. It hurt but not that badly.

I promise I will get pictures of my tattoo up here once the redness has gone down and once it's not that shiny from the moisturizer anymore.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/11263290/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/11263290/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 18:52:45 PST
Why? Because the one person I wanted to be with me to hold my hand while I got my first tattoo was not able to be there with me. So there's some sadness to that because I would have given almost anything ot have him there with me to hold my hand, to be there for me for support.

Well whatever, he's going to get to see the finished product as will everyone that I know. Co-workers, family, friends. They're all getting a flash.

Flash of tattoo. It's going on my shoulder. Pervs.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/11156858/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/11156858/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 00:23:37 PST
I'm just really scared to get it. I'm not afraid that it's not going to turn out because the guy is the one who did both my mum's tatties and I love them, but because I know it's going to hurt and I dont' like that much hurt.

But that's the price you gotta pay for beauty sometimes.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/11156842/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/11156842/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 00:20:25 PST
Right now I have been working for only four months, I'm gradding in six months and was supposed to be going to college in September (or whenever the Fall Semester starts). Unfortunately I don't see myself having enough money for tuition come that time and I do not want to have to rely on other people to support me through college.

So I have decided to take a year off of school (possibly longer, depending on my financial situation) and start working full-time. This means instead of working after-schools and weekends I'll be working days, nights, weekends, anything pretty much. And after working at Wal-Mart for a year I will be eligable for a raise. If I can establish myself financially, and have a place to live after a year or so then I will re-apply to college and I will go from there. If not then I'll just keep going.

Whatever the future holds, this is my course of action. It's the best that I can hope for right now. Goddess wish me luck.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10851107/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10851107/ Sat, 25 Nov 2006 23:25:47 PST
So Grad is a big ass thing in a girl's life (right up there with marriage) but really, do I want to spend almost $700.00 for one night?

Well, the way I figure it, I'm not going to use it for one night. My grad is in May so I figure that if I can work out or at least lose some weight before then I can get the dress (I can get it either way, I just want to lose weight). And then if I keep the weight off I can then wear the same damn dress for my wedding. And guess what? When I die, that dress is fucking getting buried with me. No, I'm kidding on the last one. But I want to get married in it.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10805382/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10805382/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 21:34:21 PST
So I waited. And that was like a month. I was getting twitchy without my music. But whatever, I bought a Zen Nano Plus 1GB (Zen are some of the best MP3 players you can buy) and when I went to set it up today (was home sick yesterday and today) the bloody thing wouldn't work because I don't have a high enough system. It's B.S.

Oh well. I'm getting a system upgrade tomorrow hopefully and maybe my computer (the one that's been fried for like three years) will also get fixed. It needs to be fixed by next year for college.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10393813/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10393813/ Sat, 14 Oct 2006 18:49:07 PDT
A lot of it is screamo and emo but whatever. It's what I like and if other people don't like it then they can kiss my ass.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10353043/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10353043/ Tue, 10 Oct 2006 21:59:27 PDT
Well I had to work Saturday, October 7 from 7am until 1:45pm.

No, that's not why I'm sad. While I was at work my mom and dad got to laze about the house because they didn't have to work. Damn them anyways.

Well, they went outside and filled the water bucket for our dog and our cats, and when they saw our dog come for a drink they gave her some luncheon meat that was starting to go icky in the fridge.

She was having a hard time eating and then she was having a hard time drinking. About a month or so ago they noticed she had cut her neck somehow but we didn't have the funds to pay for her to get it fixed so we were tending to it at home. It wasn't that bad really. Just a surface cut but it was in a place that she couldn't lick it to clean the wound so we washed it every now and then with disinfectant.

It was healed, or so we thought, but then on Saturday it was open again and she had lost a lot of weight. She also had cancer. My dad (it's really his dog) decided it was best to put her down. And that's what we did.

Goddess, first the horse, then the dog. I can't take this any more. Death is surrounding me. And it is calling to me. Whether I will answer is a matter of strength and will.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10209855/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10209855/ Wed, 27 Sep 2006 23:33:32 PDT
I found out on my way home from work that my mom and dad went out to my grandma's house at around 6:30 because one of my grandpa's ponies was lying down and couldn't get up. If you don't know about livestock and horses, then it's time you learned that they cannot lie down for long periods of time because the weight of their bodies will crush their lungs.

Well the pony had been down for a while as far as my grandma knew, but she was going to wait for two hours to see if the horse could get up. My mum and dad flew out there and tried for two hours to get her up. At this time my grandfather had returned home and the vet was called in.

The vet took one look at the horse and said that she was most likely suffering from cancer or a parasite. And suffering she was. In the last few months she has lost a lot of weight but we thought it was just because she was getting old and might not be able to get as much nutrition as before...or her sister was eating her hay.

Well the vet said cancer. So my grandpa made the decision to have her put down. Now he's had those horses for the last 10 or so years. He's attatched to them. And when the vet put her to sleep he wasn't crying, but he was sniffling. I think he'll save his tears for when he's alone.

But I'm not. I'm spilling them. I loved that pony just as much as he did. And I know that it's going to hurt him so much more when he sees the backhoe coming into the yard to dig the hole that we're going to bury her in.

I really think we should dig two because the other horse, the remaining one, is just not going to be able to make it without her sister. They have been together since birth almost (although the dead pony is a little older) and she will become broken hearted and just give up. We have the dead one in the barn right now. We don't want the remaining one to really and honestly know that her sister is dead. But I think she knows.

I really wish I could just go there and just sleep there with the dead one, just to say good-bye.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10199125/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10199125/ Tue, 26 Sep 2006 23:51:00 PDT
Grad meeting tonight. Turned out well. Not.

The parents of the richer population of grads were there and they pretty much ran the meeting. My taking on it is that this is the grad class of 2007. Shouldn't we be making the decisions and not a group of parents who should have already experienced their own grad.

I really wish my parents could have been there. Things would have gotten set straight.

They're thinking of having a 100% participation Dry Grad. Meaning that if we go to the Grad Dance we get locked in wherever we have the dance until 6am the following morning.

Well that's bullshit. If I want to go and get plastered out of my fucking skull after my grad dance I am damn well going to get plastered. And if they say "We're sorry but this is a Dry Grad and that means that no one is going to be drinking tonight" then they better be ready for a scene. Because I am not going to waste my grad night sober. I am going to enjoy it be it either that I am tanked or stoned out of my wits. I will enjoy it.

I just don't get it though. I mean why would the richer more "popular" preppy kids want their parents to run the grad dance. Hello? Their parents are going to be there the whole night. Yeah, because that's just the way everyone wants to spend grad.

I'm sorry. But I'm so glad that my parents don't want to be part of this. And the grad parent comittee better not even think of phoning my parents and saying "Seeing as you're the parent of a grade 12 student woudl you like to be part of the grad parent comittee" because boy howdy would shit hit the fan then.

That is the end of my rant for now. More will come in the next few days.

PS - working two jobs so I may not get on here all that much but whatever. At least I'm here.

]]> ~shadowofpersephone http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10148219/ http://shadowofpersephone.deviantart.com/journal/10148219/ Thu, 21 Sep 2006 23:59:15 PDT
I'm obviously being a vampire but some friends and I are doing five days of Halloween. I'm going to be the vampire on the 31st but I think I am going to dress up like Zacky V from Avenged Sevenfold one of the days and Synyster Gates (also from Avenged Sevenfold) on another.

I dunno I'm really weird like that but whatever. If people don't like the way that I dress the way that I act or whatever then obviously they aren't important enough, or goodly enough, to be a friend. Friends don't judge friends based on appearance...at least I don't think they should.

But the insomnia is getting out of hand. I have to be up bright and early tomorrow. Time to go force myself into sleep. ]]> ~shadowofpersephone