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]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/27568762/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/27568762/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 23:26:03 PDT tagged me for this in...August...and I'm finally getting around to it.

The Rules:
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name.Example:Kaiser's Quiz)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!


1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Julia SUW-119. I used to have a last name, but the Summit took it from me. Call me Julia.

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
20.

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
I'm honestly content with a big bowl of spaghetti.

4. And your favorite drink?
Lemonade, generally. I used to really like Sprite, before the Fall.

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
I don't know what you're talking about.

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
*eyebrow raise*

7. Classic question! What's your favorite colour?
White.

8. Who's your favorite author?
Zoe, or George Orwell, perhaps.

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Being caught by the Summit is definitely up there on the list. Never being able to find out what happened to my family during the Fall. My friends being killed...

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing*
It appears you are. *small smile*

11. Awesome. Who's your hero?
Helena. She has done so much for the movement at a great risk to herself. Plus, she looks out for me when I forget to.

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
The Summit as a whole, really. No one in particular, I suppose.

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
I would probably be executed, unfortunately.

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
We all meet our Creator sometime, don't we?

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
I'm in school to become a politician, a bureaucrat, a government type. But I'd really like to be a lawyer, if there were any such thing anymore. Maybe an actress, or I could keep up the special agent/spy deal, I suppose. Ask me in ten years, if I live that long.

16. What's your worst nightmare?
Accidentally betraying the Rebellion. Jason or Zoe dying. Even...finding out that Alex had been killed...

17. What's your lifelong dream?
To be part of a free society again. To see the Summit fall.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
Gosh, I don't even know. I've worked so long on it, it would be amazing to have a real name again, a real life. I don't know if I'll ever see that day.

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
Helena's house with Zoe and Jason and a fire going. Just talking and laughing and living.

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Training, studying, going undercover, going to Zoe's dance recitals, fighting for freedom. You know. Special agent stuff.

21. We're done! Now tag whoever the hell you want.
Do Eric and I will be very pleased.


Sorry if she's a little flat tonight. I haven't worked with her in awhile and I do want to dust this story off in the near future! I was going for more of her serious, quiet side here. Working? Failing? Character feedback is loved and admired.

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/27413132/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/27413132/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 16:29:32 PDT
Monday was my birthday and that was a pretty good day in general. It feels like it was a month ago. I didn't sleep more than two hours Monday night trying to get everything I needed to do finished for Tuesday.

Tuesday was the night before my first Organic Chemistry test. I stayed up all night again and slept for about an hour during the day, and one in the early morning of Wednesday.

Wednesday morning was the test. I went in feeling pretty well prepared, and came out feeling eh...alright. Decent. Could've done better, could've done worse. I knew I'd done one wrong. As soon as I turned it in, the correct answer occurred to me, but I thought I'd be alright. I got an email from my professor that evening: "Your exams are graded. Email me if you want to know your score." Who wouldn't want to know? So I replied and promptly received a response. I opened it and...

"Your score was 59."

My mind whited out. That score isn't out of 60, or 70. That's my percentage score. 59 out of 100 points. An F. The last time I got an F on a test? 4th grade on my first multiplication test. At first, I didn't feel much of anything but slowly an ugly sense of dread filled my stomach. My boyfriend was on his way to my school to take me to Chipotle to celebrate his first day of school with me, and when he pulled up to my hall, I got in his car and started sobbing.

I cried for somewhere close to half an hour. I wanted to jump out my 4th story window, run to the registrar and change my major, get away from that number. I wrote off all my dreams of becoming a doctor and told myself I'd fail the course, this most important course for the MCAT, the most important undergraduate class I'll take. I spiraled back down into my not-good-enough pit of what can only be called despair. I started making excuses. "I didn't sleep that night." "It was test stress." "I knew what I was doing, I just messed up." You know the type.

Slowly, thanks to my boyfriend's patience, a big fat burrito bowl, and cake batter ice cream, I started to wrap my mind around the score. I stayed up late again that night, chain-smoking Diet Coke and coffee to stay aware. Thankfully, a headache on Thursday night sent me to bed at a reasonable hour and I woke up calm and collected, drank some delicious apple spice tea and went to take my Physics test. Next up. OChem.


My professor passed back the tests and told us that the class average had been 65. Ouch. Below average. He then told us what he had done wrong on the exam -- it had been a little too long for our 55-minute testing session. Then he told us what WE had done wrong.

I don't know if you've ever had a teacher tell you what you did for the sole purpose of honestly wanting you to get better. It sucks. He told us that he was sure we had worked hard. But we hadn't worked hard enough. We'd done our best, but our best wasn't good enough. We knew the material, but we didn't know it well enough.

That throws up some serious barriers in my mind. I'm an intelligent young woman. I take my intelligence to be a defining personality trait. Of course I worked hard! How dare you? A classmate asked about a curve.

"Don't say that word," the prof said. "Don't think that I'll just add 15 or 20 points, and then everyone will be happy, and our sins will all be wiped away. You don't LEARN that way."

Damn it. He's right.

He told that these bad grades are good for us. "Fix it," he said. Or nothing will change. "I don't believe you can say you know something and mess it up on the test. You don't know it then. You can't know it just as well and just take longer to do it. You don't know it just as well, then."

Damn it. He's right again.

I've spent all this time making excuses for myself and my "stupid mistakes." I let my academic, intellectual arrogance drop me into a rut of just getting by. For me, "just getting by" is a B. I have the capability to be an A student. I AM an A student. But I've never thought I had to work for it. I've this smug sense of superiority. I'm smart and I work hard. So it's not my fault, right? I can blame something else, someone else, can't I? No, this time I didn't work hard enough.

Maybe this grade will make some people in my class drop or panic or shut down and not try. But, brace yourself, I'm glad I got a 59 on this test. It's given me a nice dose of humility and a definite reality check. I said I wanted an A at the beginning of the semester and I thought I was working for it. But now I know that I want it for real and I'm going to do the right work to get it.

My hard work wasn't hard enough, and my best wasn't good enough. And the only person I can blame for... ]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/27237342/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/27237342/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 12:30:56 PDT



So, it's late. I haven't updated or submitted in a long time. Please read my new submission and help me polish it up a bit. School has gotten into full swing after the invasion of Swiney and my workload is steadily increasing. I will be on for snatches of time to submit (hopefully) and reply. Please pray for me, if you think of it.

Also, I just wanted to take a moment to say that I love my friends, next door or on the other side of the country. From my mom, to my best friend from high school I see less than I'd like, to my boyfriend who is fast becoming my dearest friend, to my second "little sister" across the nation whom I've never met. I love you all, and thank God for you.

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/26874497/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/26874497/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 11:29:49 PDT
My school is the latest to fall victim to the swine flu. So far, I'm healthy, but several of my friends are in isolation and restraints are starting to be placed on activities and such. Masks might be required in class soon.

So, if you could, please pray for us!

Thanks!

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/26720211/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/26720211/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 18:45:36 PDT asked me to be the best man at his wedding!!

I am not, in fact, a man, but goshdarnit I will make it work!

I'm like bouncing off the walls, it's great! I was so happy to witness the proposal and now I get to be in the wedding party and do important stuff and make sure my best friend doesn't get to terribly nervous. And remembers his shoes.



*end overly happyhappyhappy journal entry*

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/26556267/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/26556267/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 19:58:08 PDT
1. Do you sleep in your bra?:
Occasionally I'm just too lazy to take it off.

2. Do you enjoy drama?:
Only on TV. It's too stressful in real life.

3. Are you a girly girl?:
Yeah, a little bit.

4. Who was the last person you hugged?:
My mom, I think. Or my boyfriend.

5. Small or large purses?:
I don't carry a purse. So, backpacks.

6. Are you short?:
I like to think of myself as "fun-sized." Short is so...blunt.

7. Do you like somebody:
Yes.

8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?:
Be confused and glare at the offending party unless it was a total stranger. Then I would find a nice authority figure.

9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?:
Depends. Wet is a no. Worn the day before is a total go.

10. Do you dress up on Halloween?:
Of course!!

11. Are you double jointed?:
On a few fingers, not all.

12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?:
The floor of a school bus, I think, but I've slept some weird places.

13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?:
Yeah.

14. Is there a rumor going around about you?:
Maybe?

15. Do you call anybody by their last name?:
A few people? Sometimes?

16. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?:
I dunno?

"X" Marks the Spot:
[x] I do wear make up.
[x] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous.
[x] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like country
[ ] I carry a purse.
[x] I’d be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football.
[ ] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.
[/] Guys are confusing. (Sometimes)
[ ] I’ve been called a bad influence. (I'm an overachiever...Adults think I'm the bees' knees)
[ ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.

Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra that you're wearing?:
It's white. Boring.

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?:
Hair is good. Any color.

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?:
Not currently.

4. Do you have a best friend(s)?:
Yes and No

5. Have you ever had your heart broken?:
Meh. Not really.

6. Have you ever thought of having cosmetic surgery?:
For a brief fluttering passing moment.

7. Do you like your life?:
Yep!

8. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?:
No, I have better boyfriends and friends than that.

9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?:
Probably but I can't remember specifically

10. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
A pretty even mix, actually.

11. How long have you had Facebook?:
Um...2 years!

12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?:
In play, yes. In anger, once. My ex got grabby and I didn't like it.

13. What are your biggest fears?:
Never feeling good enough, not being able to have children

14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?:
Yes indeed.

15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?:
Yesss...

16. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?:
Yes. If he'll her for you, he'd leave you for another girl. Girls, too. That being said, some people really do change and some make mistakes.

17. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?:
Yes.

18. Do you ever wish you were famous?:
Yes, but not in a celeb way. Like in a first-woman-on-Mars kind of way.

19. Are you currently missing someone?:
Yes

This guy or that guy? Pick one.

Punk/Goth or Gangster?:
Punk, I guess, but it's really all a bunch of hot air. Both are annoying and pretentious.

Preppy or Cowboy?:
Preppy. Something about ties and argyle...

Face or Body?:
Face

Sweet or Sexy?:
Sweet

Well-educated or Dropout?:
Well-educated yes yes yes.

Armani or Abercrombie?:
Both are too expensive but Armani is classier.

C... ]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/25930259/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/25930259/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 21:08:43 PDT 77. I secretly lurk wedding boards and look at bridal gowns.
77.5. I have developed an internet addiction. (I accidentally had 2 77s!)
78. I love arcade games, especially House of the Dead 4.
79. I want to have four children (or more, if God decides to send me more).
80. I hate oral contraceptives. They stink. I want to use Natural Family Planning.
81. I love crossword puzzles.
82. If I could live in a Barnes and Noble, I probably would.
83. I'm really getting tired of Michael Jackson music.
84. I'm a little afraid of not finishing my undergraduate degree in time.
85. I'm also afraid that I won't get into the medical school I want to go, and/or the program I want to do.
86. I'm a little scared that I won't see very much of my children if I'm going to be a doctor.
87. My boyfriend and I can never ever go to Vegas. We would lose so much money.
88. I have dishidrosis, a type of eczema.
89. I love Disney Princesses.
90. I semi-collect Pez dispensers.
91. I don't believe in love at first sight.
92. I'm saving myself for marriage and I will not at all regret having only slept with my future husband.
93. My boyfriend bought Sims 3 and let's me play it. I am the happiest nerd alive.
94. I think Skype is pretty great.
95. I love Harry Potter. I still occasionally wish I could go to Hogwarts instead of college!
96. I have a plan for the next...10 years of my life. I really hope everything can stick close to it!
97. I don't like divorce, and I will never get divorced. Once I marry, I'm in it for life.
98. I love babies and little kids. I'm so excited to have a babysitting job next school year.
99. I hope I'll be a good mother to my own kids.
100. I'm pretty sure I've found the love of my life. <3


YAAAAAY! I FINISHED THE 100 CONFESSIONS!!!
*victory music and confetti!*

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/24959914/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/24959914/ Tue, 26 May 2009 12:11:01 PDT
56. It is now inaccurate to say I've only had one boyfriend. I now have a wonderful boyfriend who makes me smile and who has this weird superpower that makes time fly.
57. I wish I had the patience to finish the stories I start.
58. I prefer Coke over Pepsi. I am drinking a Diet Pepsi right now.
59. I love having my own room and I'm so glad I've got a single until next May for sure.
60. I'm nervous to meet my boyfriend's family even though I already know his sister likes me.
61. I wish I had the money to drop everything and go to Europe.
62. I didn't get the internship I wanted and I can't find a job.
63. I saw the new Star Trek movie and LOVED it. Go see it. It's totally worth the $8.
64. I honestly don't miss many of my friends from high school.
65. I miss my college friends like crazy and it's been less than 3 weeks since I've seen them.
66. I'm afraid of being forgotten, of never making an impact on anyone or anything.
67. I think I really annoy my younger sister, but I love her to death and I hope she knows it.
68. I cannot wait to have children. Am I too young for my biological clock to be ticking?? Haha...
69. I secretly giggle at the number 69.
70. I did in fact read the Twilight series. Bella was my least favorite character and she sucks at naming children.
71. I don't have one favorite color. I like purple, blue, pink, red, white, indigo...
72. I love playing the Sims and I wish I owned a computer that could run the Sims 3.
73. I am really quite silly. But I like it. It makes life fun.
74. I both miss my childhood and want to be a little older.
75. I've never broken a bone before.

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/24191023/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/24191023/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 22:18:07 PDT
33. I've played 137 hours on one Oblivion save game alone. Yep. No life!
34. I play Rock Band alone.
35. I have silly crushes on guys who are totally not my type.
36. I can't get guy who is my type out of my head for some reason.
37. I'm a practicing Roman Catholic and I completely love it!
38. I want to get married, but I refuse to marry someone who insists on pets. I would honestly not marry a man if I knew he would want a dog.
39. I'm still waiting to hear from the internship I applied to.
40. I can't find my cell phone...
41. Oh, I was sitting on it.
42. My sister is my best friend. But don't tell her I said that!
43. I love history. If I didn't want to be a doctor, I would be a history major.
44. Sometimes I think in poetry, or I want to say something poetically but I'm afraid of being laughed at.
45. I watched all 200 episodes of Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon in Japanese with English subtitles.
46. I have no idea if I've already said some of these.
47. I'm somewhere between a slob and a neat freak. If I'm busy, keeping my room spic and span is one of the first things I block from my mind.
48. I like to fall asleep and wake up to music, hence my new iHome.
49. I love both coffee and tea. As soon as I get a summer job, I'm buying a coffeemaker, Starbucks Coffee and Tazo tea.
50. I've been robbed twice in the last two years. My cell phone was stolen both times, my iPod once, along with my sister's camera and my then-boyfriend's class ring.
51. Don't want to end on an unhappy note...I love to sing and I wish I could be in the musical this fall without my head exploding.
52. Now I have to go to 55 or I will be bothered. I've only dated one person in my life. For 3.5 years. Now I barely talk to him.
53. I am a certified over-acheiver. My stress level should now make sense.
54. I was a Girl Scout. I sold more than 500 boxes of cookies one year.
55. I look damn sexy in high heels. (Haha, just kidding. But seriously. I have great legs )

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/23976769/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/23976769/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 21:04:45 PDT
16. My grades this semester are probably going to be my worst ever. I will probably still get above a 3.5.
17. I just bought two video games for my computer that will probably prevent me from pulling my grades up.
18. I went to my first party this weekend, and it was a birthday party for a friend.
19. I need there to be about 16 more hours in everyday this week to be able to get everything done and stil remain sane. And then I really need summer.
20. I've been listening to the same CD over and over again since Wednesday.
21. My sister is one of my best friends in the whole world and I miss her so much right now.
22. Sometimes I think I should change my major.
23. I'm so stressed right now that I just want to cry.
24. I wish I always knew what people felt about me. Maybe it would suck sometimes, but at least then I would never be confused.
25. I got an interview for a job I really want this summer and I pray I do well!
26. I know I look impressive on paper, but I never feel impressive in person.
27. Some days I'm not over being depressed.
28. I don't want to see a therapist or be medicated for depression. And I don't want my family to ever know how depressed I was.
29. I don't understand this lab I'm supposed to have turned in this afternoon and haven't done yet. My prof is giving me an extension and not taking off points if I get it to her soon, but I fell asleep earlier instead of doing it.
30. Today was not really a good day. This week will not be a good week. I have 2 tests and the one I'm least prepared is soonest.
31. I really just need someone to hug me and remind me that I'll be okay...but I don't know where to turn right now.

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/23875694/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/23875694/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 23:06:03 PDT
1. I talk in my sleep. Mostly it's incoherent, but sometimes I hold whole conversations. One time I rode a rollercoaster in my sleep. Sat up, put my hands over my head and yelled. My roommate was thoroughly amused.
2. I love school. Sometimes the workload drives me nuts, but I love it.
3. I have a major crush on one of my friends. Hate it when that happens.
4. Fall Out Boy and Panic at the Disco are my two favorite contemporary bands.
5. I'm afraid of driving and don't have a driver's license, though I'm of age.
6. I like being single, but I'm lonely but I'm not ready to be in a relationship again yet. Which leaves me in a weird spot.
7. I get really motion sick in cars and planes. Bonine is my best friend.
8. I'm a sucker for sweets. Ice cream and chocolate are my Kryptonite.
9. I have issues with my body but I don't want to. I hate defining myself by numbers like height, weight, and sizes. But I feel unattractive and it makes me sad from time to time.
10. I can't sneeze just once.
11. I've never dyed my hair, not even once.
12. I know all the words to nearly all the songs in all the Disney movies I've ever seen.
13. I love travelling. I tell myself I'll stay close to home, but I know I won't be able to. I want to move around the States and even to Europe before I have children, or heck, even while I'm having children.
14. I secretly wish I had the talent to be on Broadway.
15. I hate ketchup.

Okay...I really need to study now so I can sleep for a few hours before my test. More of these later!

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/23788634/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/23788634/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 21:44:38 PDT
I love mountains.
I love the West.

I'm out west on a long weekend for a school trip and it's fantastic out here. I love walking outside and seeing the mountains. It's also nice to be getting a break from school but making up all the work I'm missing is going to suck like crazy. Oh well, it's a once-in-a-lifetime type of deal.

<3

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/23391137/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/23391137/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 22:45:06 PST
Oh, and Happy Lent!

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or fewer, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.

I Fear…

[] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] heights
[x] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[x] spiders
[] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 5

[] being touched
[] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[x] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[x] rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow

Total so far: 7

[] rain
[] wind
[] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[] heaven
[x] being robbed
[] falling
[] clowns
[] dolls
[] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes

Total so far: 10

[] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[x] being alone
[] becoming blind
[] becoming deaf
[] growing up

Total so far: 12

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[] falling in love
[] super secrets (what are those?)

Final Total: 16

Woo, not paranoid!

Homework and studying time again...

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/22598345/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/22598345/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 15:21:25 PST
I haven't updated in awhile (I apologize profusely), so I thought I'd give a brief update to say that I have not dropped off the face of the planet. Thankfully, gravity is still functioning.

Well, the literary magazine came out and I very much enjoyed seeing my poem in print.

I don't have much going on besides school, school, and more school. But I decided today that I think everyone should fall silly-romance-movie in love. I think it would make the world a happier place.

Maybe that's just the single girl in me talking, but it seems like a good idea.

Julia and Alex's story hasn't died, it's just on a very long hold right now as I focus on school and write just little snippets of things. Sorry!

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/21756133/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/21756133/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 20:00:49 PST

My poem, "Poetry", is going to be published early next year!

I'm so very extremely excited!

So yeah, it's just the literary magazine at school but I'm excited anyway.



]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/21471165/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/21471165/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 14:56:18 PST
To remember. To move forward. To love. To show. To inspire understanding. To spread awareness.

To never go there again.

Love is written on my left arm.

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Nextly, a real-life friend of mine has joined our ranks!!!! Please welcome Avalon143 and be sure to check his work out. So far, he has reflections of issues of societal and global importances and so beautiful one-liner thoughts. I highly recommend his work to all of you.

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1.) Get married
2.) Give birth to a healthy beautiful baby
3.) Be able to put the letters "MD" behind my name

Three Names You Go By:

1.) Natalie
2.) Nat (but only for certain people)
3.) Neff

Three Screen Names You Have Had (Other Than This One):

1.) glassmidnight
2.) alanawaters
3.) knightensable

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:

1.) My cool blue eyes
2.) I'm perfect hug height!
3.) My hands are pretty


Three Parts Of Your Heritage:

1.) Italian
2.) German
3.) Not much else but a drop of English blood in there somewhere

Three Things That Scare You:

1.) Driving
2.) Shots
3.) Creepers

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:

1.) Coffee (well, almost everyday)
2.) Laughter, or at least a good smile
3.) Homework..mais, c'est la vie.

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:

1.) Blue jeans
2.) Nice black sweater shirt
3.) Vibrant pink zip-up hoodie

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
(currently)
1.) Fall Out Boy
2.) Relient K
3.) The cast of Broadway's "In the Heights"

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:

1.) "So Close" Jon McLaughling (from the movie Enchanted)
2.) The "In the Heights" soundtrack--especially Blackout, Champagne, and When the Sun Goes Down
3.) “Thnks fr th Mmrs" Fall Out Boy

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:

1.) Levity
2.) Comfort
3.) Caring


Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):

1.) I used to play underwater hockey
2.) I can bench 125 lbs.
3.) I'm currently acting with a pupper theatre group

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Gender That Appeal To You:

1.) Intelligence/Work Ethic
2.) Sense of humor
3.) Kindness

Three of your Favorite Hobbies:

1.) Reading
2.) Writing stories and poetry
3.) Playing video games

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:

1.) Play Fable 2 (but I don't have it here)
2.) See someone.
3.) Eat a delicious cheeseburger

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:

1.) Primary care pediatrician
2.) Family physician
3.) Stay-at-home mom

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:

1.) Rome, Italy
2.) Los Angeles, California
3.) New York City

Three Kid's Names You Like:

1.) Madeleine
2.) Noah
3.) James

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:

1.) I love the color pink
2.) I can be very emotional
3.) I'm insecure and love it when someone tells me I look nice

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:

1.) I can be completely clueless when someone likes me
2.) I wanted to be an astronaut when I was younger
3.) I like sweatpants?

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This is just a quick update because I noticed that I haven't updated since July and because I'm avoiding writing a crazy-awful science paper.

Writing updates:
-Independent standalones: My apologies if they're depressing for awhile, I'm currently a little stressed out with life in general.

-The Julia and Alex Project: Coming along pretty well. There should be at least 2 new parts up at the end of this week after I finish with all these terrible awful no-good very bad papers.

On a more personal note, this Sunday was All Souls' Day and November is the month of remembrane of all who have died in the Catholic Church. Even if you are not Catholic, please take the time this month to remember those who have passed in your lives and to pray for and comfort those who are mourning. The book of Lamentations is a good choice for Christians or any who read the Bible to reflect on this month.

I went to an Islamic mosque this weekend with my Theology course. It was really very intersting and I learned a lot. Very interesting.

I also got cast in my first play of this year! First rehearsal is tonight and I'm very excited.

Oh, and happy Election Day tomorrow. I'm not going to put my political opinion up here because I don't want angry messages telling me which I should vote. I get harassed enough in real life, but I will say this: Whichever way you vote, just vote. Vote based on your own beliefs and on the facts. Don't just vote the way your parents or your friends vote. Don't just vote for a pretty face and pretty words, vote for the man (or the woman). I think camapaigning the way it's done now (especially in student areas) is ridiculous and overbearing. Exercise true civic responsibility and make your own decision.

Alright. Now I have about 9 hours left to do this stupid paper so I should get on that.

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I just got back from an amazing trip to New York City. I honestly believe everyone should go see NYC, even if just for a few days. I loved it, and I know that not everyone does, but it has an energy to it. It's full of history and the rush of the present and a taste of the future.

Anyway, I'm back.

I'm getting my wisdom teeth extracted in two weeks and I'm a little nervous!

PS This song is amazing. Everyone must go listen to it.

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1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post 8 of their favourite fictional characters.
3. Tagged people should write a Journal/Blog about these facts.
4. In the end, tag and name 8 more people.
5. Go to their DA pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged

1) Logan/Wolverine (X-Men)
I adore the story of the X-Men, and Wolverine is my favorite character. He is rash and can be rude, but he's honest and straightforward. His powers are extremely interesting and under his rough exterior he has a good heart.

2) Mizuno Ami (Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon)
Okay, Sailor Moon is the best and the only anime I watch. I'd put all of the Scouts down, but that would be cheating. Ami-chan reminds me of myself. She is extremely intelligent and very friendly, but also shy. Plus I dig the blue hair. Ami-chan is proof that smart girls kick butt too.

3) Padme Amidala and her children Leia Organa and Luke Skywalker (Star Wars)
Anakin Skywalker, once adorable little boy, bad ass pilot, and very attractive Jedi knight, goes crazy in his fear of death and desire to protect those he loves and becomes one of the most dreaded evildoers of alltime, Darth Vader. Does his family let that stop them? Hell no! Amidala is a former queen and influential senator who falls in love with a Jedi. Honestly, I think she is one of the most important people in the series, as her own character, as an impetus to Ani's fall, and as the mother of the twins Luke and Leia. Luke and Leia are faced with the challenge of being the hated Darth Vader's children but they embrace what the gained from him and show the galaxy that their father wasn't totally evil. Plus they save the day. A lot.

4) Han Solo (Star Wars)
Daring rogue, secret sweetheart, reformed rebel, and played by Harrison Ford. See also, "Every girl's dream man."

5) Hermione Granger (Harry Potter)
She's smart, she's cute, she's great at magic, and she's in love with a redhead. I wish I could be Hermione Granger!

6) Dr. Gregory House (House, MD)
Let me just start with that I'm a pre-med student. You now instantly understand why I love this show. Not only is it mostly accurate, but it's amusing, too. Alright, House is a pill-popping, rude, sarcastic ass. But he's a damn good doctor. He cares about being right, yes, but that tends to mean he saves people's lives. And I think that in someway, that does matter to him.

7) Seeley Booth and Temperance Brennan (Bones)
Totally awesome show and perhaps the cutest not-a-couple on television.

8) Belle (Disney's Beauty and the Beast)
Another smart girl who kicks some major butt. I'm a fan of her becuase she loves to read and she loves people based on who they are not what they look like (even though in the end the Beast is kind of a Disney hunk)

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Don't worry! The story continues! I am working on the next few installments! I recently started a rather exhausting job and have little energy left to write at the end of the day.

So, no worries, installments will come. Slowly, but surely.

Sorry if longer waiting periods have upset you or turned you away from the story. Please feel free to log any complaints on this journal. Compliments and suggestions, while doubtful, are also accepted here.

Love,
Midnight

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They ( :wastelandsofthemind: :Reina-ali: ) did it. I'm doing it. You do it.

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What is your name?
Natalie

Do you like blue cheese?
Never tried it

Have you ever smoked heroin?
I rather like my organs and general wellbeing

Do you own a gun?
No, I'm an accidental gunshot wound waiting to happen.

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
There are very few Sonics near my house so I've never been

Favorite Christmas Song?
Carol of the Bells, Adeste Fidelis, O Come O Come Emmanuel, a lot more. I love Christmas!

What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Milk or cappucino

Can you do push ups?
Yups. About 25 a minute if I'm being tested in Phys Ed

What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
My Kairos cross

Favorite hobby?
Reading, writing, playing video games, acting, surfing the Internet, volunteering

Do you work with people who idolize you?
Umm...I'm a volunteer who answers phones in a hospital, so unless you're counting my little cousins, that's a no.

Do you have A.D.D.?
No, but I am obsessive compulsive. Like, did you notice that there was no question mark there until I put one? Bet you didn't.

What's one trait that you hate about yourself?
I'm hard on myself and I can be really mean sometimes

Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment ~~~
1. I should do my homework.
2. My eyes itch from all that sawdust!
3. you know...I'm actually kind of hungry

Name 3 things you bought yesterday...
Um...cream of broccoli soup, popcorn, some cookies? Yay school days!

Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
Lemonade, milk, and cappucino

Current worry right now?
That the trebuchet we built today wins.

Current hate right now?
Having fewer than 10 days of school left. And the percussion section.

Favorite place to be?
Snuggled up in my bed, or Marydale, or with a certain person

How did you bring in the New Year?
Went to the symphony, watched the Ball drop and got a midnight kiss

Where would you like to go on vacation?
Japan, France, England, Ireland, Rome

Name three [four] people who will complete this?
Umm so Reina-ali called it that I would answer. I don't think I have 4 friends left after Alison and Alex...

Who's answer do you want to read the most?
I like surveys, so anybody's.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Turquoise-ish

Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
I've never slept on satin, normally use jersey or cotton

Can you whistle?
Depends on the day

Favorite color?
Purple, pink, blue, white, red

Would you be a pirate?
A good one that just sails around singing pirate-y songs and saying ARRR a lot.

What songs do you sing in the shower?
Musicals- Sweeney Todd, Godspell, Into the Woods, movie soundtracks, church music...basically anything.. I love to sing

Favorite girl's name?
Madeleine Elisabeth and Cassandra Evelyn

Favorite boy's name?
William Elijah, James Edward, or Luke Edward (can you tell that I like E middle names?)

What's in your pocket right now?
Nothing because I just took my cell phone out

Last thing that made you laugh?
Hearing a news story, and I quote: "A woman from Toledo is recovering today after a pelican smashed into her face." Isn't that just devastatingly funny?

Best bed sheets as a child?
Little Mermaid. By far.

Worst injury you've ever had?
I've busted my lip open a few times. Once by being hit in the face with a football in preschool and then falling in elementary. You can still see the scar.

Do you love where you live?
I do, actually.

How many TV's do you have in your house?
6 or 7?

Who is your loudest friend?
My sister

How many dogs do you have?
None. And I never will have any. I do not like dogs at all!

Does someone have a crush on you?
My boyfriend

What is your favorite book?
Should I go alphabetically or chronologically? I would still be here in 3 years.

What is your favorite... ]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/17638818/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/17638818/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 17:29:21 PDT • Are you available?: Nope
• What is your age?: The square root of 289
• What annoys you at this moment?: My brother talking like a crazy person

B
• Do you know anyone named Billy?: Not that I can think of...
• When is your birthday?: September 21
• Who is your best friend? Alex

C
• What's your favorite candy?: M&Ms
• Crush?: On my boyfriend
• When was the last time you cried?: Saturday?

D
• Do you daydream?: Yes, a lot a lot
• What's your favorite kind of dog?: The inivisble, nonexistent kind
• What day of the week is it?: Tuesday

E
• How do you like your eggs?: Over easy
• Have you ever been in the emergency room? Once when I was a baby for ear infections, but I kind of work in a hospital so I go to the ER a lot.

F
• Do you use fly swatters?: Not really
• Have you ever used a foghorn? Yes!
• Is there a fan in your room?: Yep

G
• Do you chew gum?: No, I don't like to
• Do you like gummy candies?: If they're sour
• Do you like gory movies?: Depends on the day

H
• How are you?: My muscles hurt from weight training
• What's your height?: 5'3" Life's short, so am I
• What color is your hair? Medium blonde

I
• Have you ever ice skated?: Yes, but I'm not so good
• What's your favorite kind of ice cream?: All kinds, but especially Cake Batter

J
• Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke?: A few
• Do you wear jewelry?: My class ring, my Kairos cross, earrings and other stuff when I dress up

K
• Do you think kangaroos are cute?: Not particularly, I've heard they're mean...

L
• Love at first sight?: No. Infatuation, yes. Love, no. Society needs to learn the difference.
• Lions or tigers?: Um...are they chasing me or am I just looking?
• Do you like black licorice?: No, I just like Twizzlers

M
• Favorite movie as a kid?: Aladdin and The Little Mermaid
• Ever shopped at Moosejaw?: What?
• Favorite store at the mall?: Bookstores, Deb, Walmart

N
• Do you have a nickname?: Nef, Little Bit
• What’s your favorite number? 9, 21, and 4
• Do you prefer night or day?: Both

O
• What's your one wish?: To make a difference in children's lives
• Are you an only child?: Nope. Oldest of three.
• Do you like the color orange?: It's not bad

P
• What are you most paranoid about?: Getting in car accidents
• Piercings?: One in each ear
• Do you know anyone named Penelope?: No...except Odysseus' wife. But we're not, y'know, BFFs.

Q
• Are you quick to judge people?: Not usually
• Do you like Quaker Oats?: Yummmm
• Quilts?: Comfortable

R
• Do you think you're always right?: No
• Do you watch reality tv?: If there is nothing else on and I'm bored to death
• Reason to cry?: Stress

S
• Do you prefer Sun or Rain?: Both
• Do you like snow?: When it gets me off school
• What’s your favorite season? : Autumn and early spring

T
• What time is it?: 8:22 PM
• What time did you wake up?: 6:12 AM...my school is too far away
• Any Tattoos?: No, never. Too scared of needles

U
• Can you ride a unicycle?: No, but that's cool
• Umbrellas?: Not too bad. I like the ones that are Disney princess themed! :-P

V
• What's the worst vegetable?: Peas
• Did you ever watch Veggie Tales: All the time!

W
• Do you like water rides?: Yep! As long as I remember to change into my swimsuit first. I forgot once...not a lot of fun.

X
• Have you ever had an x-ray?: Of my head and teeths and stuff
• Ever used a Xerox machine? Every Saturday at the hospital

Y
• Do you like the color yellow?: Not to wear.
• What year were you born in?: One of those years last century. Guess.
• Do you yell when you're angry? Yeah, but only if I'm a certain kind of angry

Z
• What's your zodiac sign?: Virgo



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I took this from wastelandsofthemind today because I don't want to do my homework. I'd say it was against my religion except that it's my Religion homework. So, it actually is my religion. Drats.

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Play season lead to college application season and college application season straight into musical season.

Well, no more excuses from me. I'm still writing snatches of things and hopefully, I'll get around to posting them more often than I have been!

Anyways, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and Happy New Year 2008!

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I really hope to get more of A Place to Stay up and more written in it, actually. I might start putting up pieces of a collab with wastelandsofthemind.

But, alas, I have homework. blehhh...

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Two more nights to go!



Thank you, Alex, for coming to see me. It was really encouraging to have both my best friend and my boyfriend there!

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Soo, I'm just writing to assure you all that I'm not dead. Nope, still here. I'm still writing but it is VERY uncomfortably close to opening night for the play and I still don't have all of my 400 lines memorized, so guess what my free time consists of?

I hope to back soon after the play closes next Sunday.

Look for some interesting poetry. I've been extremely happy lately with some bursts of intense anger (like right now). Makes for some weird stuff.

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/14580306/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/14580306/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 18:47:02 PDT
Alex will recognize this, as he is the basis for one of the main characters.

A Place to Stay:
The story of girl fighting to free herself and her family from an abusive father and lead her own life.
The story of the boy who couldn't help but fall for her.

Sounds cheesy, reads well so far.

]]> ~shardsofmidnight http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/14552378/ http://shardsofmidnight.deviantart.com/journal/14552378/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 21:35:43 PDT
I'm really happy to have joined Deviant Art finally! I realllllly need some feedback on my writing, but my life is really stressful right now so my posts maybe only occasional for awhile. I will try my best to get some more things up tomorrow. I have problems with writer's block, too. :tear:

Anyways! Thanks for all the great welcomes from the friends of my wonderful friend, wastelandsofthemind.


<3!

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