http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:shewolfyouko&section=today deviantART RSS for by:shewolfyouko en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 10:16:39 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/20843175/ http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/20843175/ Sun, 05 Oct 2008 13:45:37 PDT * Choose a singer/band/group.
* Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group.

CombiChrist

1. Are you male or female?
Who's Your Dadddy, Snakegirl?
2. Describe yourself.
Human Error
3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Enjoy the Abuse
4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
Lying Sack of Shit
5. Describe your current relationship.
Joy To The World
6. Where would you want to be now?
Winteryear
7. How do you feel about love?
Like to Thank my Buddies
8. What's your life like?
This Shit Will Fcuk You Up
9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Master Control
10. Say something wise.
You Will Be The Bitch Now

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I don't have a working laptop so I will not be on deviantart for an undetermined amount of time.

I don't know when I'll ever get around to checking it...so if you want to stay in touch definitely the best way would be to email me because I can check my email on my cellphone.

My email is: shewolfyouko@yahoo.com

So please please please, if you love me, keep in touch.

I'll miss you deviantart.

Goodbye for now.

]]> ~shewolfyouko http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/19762455/ http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/19762455/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 00:38:19 PDT I just know that I'm harder to console
I don't see who I'm trying to be instead of me
But the key is a question of control

Can you say what you're trying to play anyway
I just pay while you're breaking all the rules
All the signs that I find have been underlined
Devils thrive on the drive that is fueled

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true

There's a hole in your soul like an animal
With no conscience, repentance, oh no
Close your eyes, pay the price for your paradise
Devils feed on the seeds of the soul

I can't conceal what I feel, what I know is real
No mistaking the faking, I care
With a prayer in the air I will leave it there
On a note full of hope not despair

All this running around, well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe all the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve something that rings true

--A Pain That I'm Used To by Depeche Mode

]]> ~shewolfyouko http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/17260784/ http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/17260784/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 18:05:58 PDT
The best way I can explain it is detachment. I walk around the house and feel like I'm not really me. I'm not in my body and I'm really just looking in on someone else's life. It isn't my own and I have no function but to just merely be there as a watcher.

On top of that my research paper is due tomorrow and I haven't even started it...I don't know what I'm going to do.

I'm in such a weird rut thinking is out of the question. I don't know if I feel good or bad, happy or sad. I just don't know anything. No feeling...nothing

I used to cut myself the most years ago when I felt like this because I didn't really feel the pain or feel anything at all from it. It just...I don't know.

That's all I can say right now. I don't know. Why am I here? I talk to my mom about trivial things...no real feeling in anything I speak about or any feeling in the activity of speaking to my mother, but just to have a conversation, just to add some dialogue to this story I feel like I'm watching.

Now when I tell this journal entry to submit...am I assuming? Supposing that someone will read it? Maybe someone out there knows how this feels and can tell me how to tune back into myself or how to tune out entirely. I don't feel like this is right...to not feel the genuine connection of yourself to your body...it's just not there. What does that mean? Do I not belong? This thought doesn't stir any emotion in me. Should it? I'm confused slightly but the thoughts running in my head have just congealed into one white mass. The contrast of white on white has left me in this weird blankness of thought.

But this begs me to wonder. Why do I feel like this again all of a sudden? Did I reach such a zenith of stress that my mind booted me out to save myself from personal destruction on some level unknown to myself?

I'm not going to hurt myself after this, there is no point to it. I'm not going to do anything really but try to start my research paper. But still...why now? This only used to happen to me when I was alone for long periods of time when I was a child. I remember just sitting outside surrounded by trees and just not feeling in tune with anything, completely out...

So...when I submit this journal and assume the reader, being you now, in whatever space time you may be taking up at this moment. What do you think of me now? I need help? I need to just forget about it or snap out of it? Maybe so...just maybe...

]]> ~shewolfyouko http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/15747350/ http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/15747350/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 10:00:08 PST 2. Do drugs? Never, but I can't promise I won't in the future.
3. Opinions on Sex? It does a body good.
4. Sleep with stuffed animals? Nope, they end up off of my bed.
5. Have a crush? Sure have, and it hurts...

6. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Trista...? Maybe? I don't know...
7. Have a dream that keeps coming back? I have a lot of those...
8. Play an instrument? Percussion, I can keep a beat ;D
9. Believe there is life on other planets? I'm sure there is simple unicellular life somewhere out there, yes, but intelligent life such as ourselves...that's another story...
10. Remember your first love? Yes, and I'll never forget him...

11. Still love them? Part of me does, the majority is over it.
12. Read the newspaper? On occasion.
13. Have any gay or lesbian friends? A flock of 'em :3
14. Believe in miracles? Mhmm, anything is possible.
15. Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Of course, it's very possible. Not many people do though...

16. Consider yourself tolerant of others? Straight up, yes.
17. Consider police friend or foe? Both...like good cop bad cop stuff.
18. Like the taste of alcohol? No. Tried it, and did not like it.
19. Have a favorite Stooge? Curly.
20. Believe in Astrology? To an extent yes. I believe the compatibility readings are pretty accurate.
21. In magic? Yes, it's in all of us.
22. In God? Never.
23. Pray? Nope.
24. Go to church? I've been...just sat there tearing up pamphlets the whole time.
25. Have any secrets? Plenty.

26. Have any pets? There are quite a few pets in my households, but I only technically have complete possession of one, my cat Madtiris.
27. Do well in school? I try hard...but I don't think it's enough...
28. Go to or plan to go to college? Yes'm.
29. Have a degree? Not yet. I want a bachelors in Art, Biology, or maybe even a teaching degree...
30. Talk to strangers who instant message you? I get quite a few...and sometimes I talk to them...most of them I end up blocking.

31. Wear hats? Never.
32. Have any piercing? Never had, but want some.
33. Have any tattoos? No, but I want lots. :3
34. Hate yourself? A lot of the time, yes.
35. Have a horny spot? Maybe...

36. Get horny easy? MAAAAYYYYBBBEEEEE~
37. Have a best friend? I have best friends...not just one though.
38. Wish on stars? Yea...I admit...sometimes I do.
39. Like your handwriting? Most of the time.
40. Have any bad habits? Chewing on my fingers and my lip, scratching itches till they bleed, tons of different things that end in pain upon myself actually...*never realized that until now*

41. Care about looks? Not really. It's a definite plus when a person has them, but I would rather hang out with people that looked okay and I got along with really well, then a completely gorgeous person that was a complete asshole.
42. Believe in witches? Yesss.
43. Believe in Satan? Satan represents himself in every evil thing people do, I think.
44. Ghosts? Mhmm.
45. Santa Claus? Nope, and if I have kids, they won't either.

46. The Easter Bunny? Nope, and that holiday confuses the hell out of me...bunnies and eggs...what the hell...
47. The Tooth Fairy? My mommy is the tooth fairy.
48. Have a second family? Yes, and a third and a forth. I get along with a lot of my friends parents to the point of them being another family to me.
49. Trust others easily? Depends on the person and the subject.
50. Like sarcasm? Actually, I don't...because I take it seriously sometimes and it hurts me. : (

51. Feel understood most of the time? Not most of the time, a rare moment or two, yes.
52. Like sappy love songs? Like rap slow jams? Heck yes.
53. Will the rest of you answer this? The rest of me you ask? No, they don't have the time : P
54. Untie your shoes every time you take them off? Yes.
55. Wear overalls? Never.

56. Think you are strong? Depends on who you are comparing me to. Most of the time, no.
57. Favorite skittle? The red ones. Skittles gum is delicious too.
58. Like to shop? Yes, if I have lots of money to spend and I'm somewhere I like.
59. Look like anyone famous? Not to my knowledge...
60. Think Brad Pitt looks good? Yea, he looks good.

61. Have your own phone line? I have a cell phone if that's what you're asking.
62. Enjoy filling out this kinda stuff? Every now and then.
63. Have a pool? No.
64. Have a hot tub? Double no.
65. Like jewelry? It depends...

66. Have a web site? I have my own part of websites...like I have my own dA and VF and myspace...I doubt those count though.
67. Like Play Station? Sony is my baby's d... ]]> ~shewolfyouko http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/15134119/ http://shewolfyouko.deviantart.com/journal/15134119/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 19:28:47 PDT YoukoKtulu and might I say, welcome!

I'm about to engage in a mass upload so that I can catch up till today and I'm going to try my best to keep updating with my drawings as they happen.

I might update this journal later with news or more information

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