deviantART: by:shikabane http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:shikabane&section=today deviantART RSS for by:shikabane en-us Copyright 2010, deviantART.com Fri, 01 Jan 2010 10:47:12 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Boo! http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/16685698/ http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/16685698/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 06:13:58 PST

How are you, people?:hug:

Have you posted anything interesting recently? :gallery:

I think I want to become a novelist... :O_o:

What do you think?... :aww:

I'm in the mood to write something right now... But I dont really know what to write exactly... ?! >_<:worry:

Actually... The "novel" idea was given by a friend of mine. :D

Speaking of which... He is a very interesting guy! :)

I would like to become closer friends with him.. But am afraid to... Well... nvm... Long story... :X

I do like him.. If that's what you're asking.. :giggle: But SHH!! No one knows about that... Well... Up till now... ^^;

What do you think? Should I or should I not do something about it? :?

]]> ~shikabane Yuki!! http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/11298238/ http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/11298238/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 08:09:32 PST
Now the whole forest seen through my window became white... X_x My eyes hurt.. yes. I'm not denying it.. But its beautiful!!!

Speaking of Yuki... I made a step further... I do love him.. And he knows that..

Oh! You dont know the MAIN ATTRACTION of the day! The week!.. No.. The year!.. No.. uhh.. anyway

Yuki told me he loves me...

<3 <3 <3

Isn't that amazing?!

So.. yesterday I talked with him ALL NIGHT! I found out some new things about him.. Some of which made me happy and some.. sad.. But that doesnt matter. CUZ I LOVE HIM!!

But there is one more problem.. Nick... And I told Yuki about it. And he said I should decide by myself. He won't interfere.. WTH?! That's what everyone says!

Anyway.. I hope I will find a way out of it. A REASONABLE way out of it. yeah..

[ hey ][ psst ][ I ][ have ][ Yuki's ][ number ][ ^^ ][ I ][ can ][ call ][ that ][ angel ][ whenever ][ I ][ want ][ !!! ]

Yeah..

I guess... TTYL

P.S. I LOVE YUKI
P.P.S. oops.. heh..

]]> ~shikabane I think someone cares... http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/11059495/ http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/11059495/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 07:52:33 PST yeah…
These episodes remind me of my best friend Yuki… I miss talking to him… I miss telling him that I love him… With all my heart… What if he forgot about this?! No… No way… He wouldn’t do that to me…
We haven’t talked for like… two months… *sigh*
I miss him…

AnywayzZ..
I have the best boyfriend in the world! His name is Nick and I love him SO damn much! I met him in a really... a not really happy time of my life. I was fighting everyday with my already EXboyfriend. (I dont even want to bore you with his name) And he was like a journal for me. Something like Yuki. But one thing is that I never talked with Yuki about me and... yeah... Anyway, so Nick was a really huge help for me. I started liking him. And then I finally broke up with ... yeah... And I told him about it, and he was like: "Aww... Poor you... You know? I would never hurt you like that. ^_^"
X_x That is when I realised that I love him! I don't want to say that the Other one hurt me so bad... I know that it's kinda my fault that we broke up, but Sorry. I just couldn't say it.

Well lets not talk about the past.
Lets talk about the FUTURE!!

Nick is coming this summer for two whole months to see ME!!! And probably, if my dad likes him enough, I'll go there to spend some time with him and his family. Isn't that awesome?? ^_^ I think he has some serious intentions... *day dreaming*

Well.. yeah... That's all for now.

]]> ~shikabane Do you even care? http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/10773268/ http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/10773268/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 03:11:50 PST Why is this happening to me?...
My heart hurts so much...
Terribly
I mean…

He told me he loves me.
He told her he loves her.
He told everyone how much he loves them.
But, no!

The way he loves me is different from the way he loves everyone else..
Should I believe him or not?...
Well You Know What?
I think it’s just an excuse.
I’m tired of seeing this.
I kept my mouth shut for too long.

And I know that probably this will create another argue.
But I don’t really pay attention to that.

It’s not that I don’t care about it.
Of course,
Every fight is coiling my heart with a thorny something.
And the bigger the fight is,
The tighter the knot is..

But multiply that pain (if you can)
And you still won’t even begin to start realizing
what a huge torment it is for me,
to read this .. sorry .. pathetic excuse.

And then he says he's always deleting the "I love you" comments left on his profile.
Is that supposed to soothe my conscience?
Well. no.
That is bugging me even more~
If possible...

You know what?
If he loves everyone so much,
Let him love them.
I don't forbid him that
But that would mean without me.
Either me
Or all the others.

Sorry, I know that's a bit stubborn,
But I can't find any other way out of this mess.
Only if someone find a better answer to this ... "problem"

Message for HIM: No, honey, you didn't fuck it up.
Message for all the others: ... I am an idiot. I know. You don't have to say that to me.

]]> ~shikabane I hate my life... http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/10282233/ http://shikabane.deviantart.com/journal/10282233/ Wed, 04 Oct 2006 12:59:36 PDT I once wanted to write about my life... I concentrated on every moment of my quest through this... abnormal world... And when the Time got bored of waiting for the moment when the pencil will start writing, I woke up out of my numbnes...
I had written my life. The paper was as white as the snow in the middle of the Winter. That snow... I almost fell unconcious because of its enormous desire of ruining my sick broken pupils...
Oh.. right... the paper... I read the things I wrote.. and told myself: "Nahh... It should be written with more enthusiasm..". And I threw the unwritten paper away...
A minute ago I had so many ideas that I wanted to write here... Where are those thoughts now?... Gone... forever... And I didn't even have the chance of saying good-bye to my dearest pieces of my sick abnormal mind...

]]> ~shikabane