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deviantART: by:shikainoloverxanimex http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:shikainoloverxanimex&section=today deviantART RSS for by:shikainoloverxanimex en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 27 Nov 2009 10:37:51 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png New Moon + Day of Eating http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/28571609/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/28571609/ Wed, 25 Nov 2009 15:40:16 PST Watch me Gallery Faves

First on the agenda of my lame journal: I saw New Moon today with my mom. A freshman from my advisee group, a super sweet girl, came in with her mom and sat two rows in front of me. We waved to each other. But it was weird. Most people were preteens and teens with their moms, some with a boyfriend, but there were a few families in there. Like little brothers. Or dads. It was weird. But aside from the crowd, the movie was good. A load better than the first one. I enjoyed it, even if the ending...well, I was surprised with the slight cliffhanger, even if you had read New Moon you would know how that is resolved. But it was funny how the people behind me were like "oh mah gawd the ending is so stupid! ughhh!"
I'll say no more about it.

Second on the agenda of my lame journal: Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I hope you all have a nice day! I know I'll eat more than I should and be lethargic. I'll probably bring my computer to my grandparents' house and be on doing...I don't know yet. But I can't spend several hours doing nothing. Nothing good is on TV on Thanksgiving. Seriously.

Third on the agenda of my lame journal: Yesterday I was bored and watched the 2009 BBC mini series "Emma" on YouTube. "Emma" as in the Jane Austen novel. I've seen older versions, but this one was entertaining. And the guy that plays Dumbledore in the Harry Potter movies was in it.

Oh, and I'd like to start a section for Christmas gift exchanges.

Kiyo: a drawing of us together in some random format

If you'd like to be on the list, comment on this and we'll talk about what we want to give each other!

Later,
-A

PS OMG FREE SKIN USE!!!

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex In Need of Prayers http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/28235130/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/28235130/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 10:09:27 PST
The first, something that really hurts me, is that my cousin has swine flu. She's 6 years old and got up to 103 degree. That's a terrifying number, especially in someone that young. I love that girl so much. She lives about an hour away so I don't see her that often, the next time would probably be Christmas, but Arianna is dear to me heart. She's the first child of my Uncle, my dad's younger brother and my own godfather. Every time I see her she latches onto me and we play, along with my brother. She's got the beautiful blue eyes that run in my father's side of the family, and blonde hair she must have gotten from our grandmother. She's full of life, of spirit, and I couldn't stand for anything to happen to her.

The second is for my dad. He's still unemployed, but I'm pretty sure he just had an interview today. We NEED this job. I saw "we" because my family is dependent upon it. I just got more financial aid from my school because we couldn't make the last payment. I don't know if I would have gotten this aid if I didn't have the school president as my philosophy teacher and she hadn't come to like me. When at church on Saturday, I really prayed, something I haven't done in quite a while. I prayed for my dad getting a job, and two days later he's gone to an interview! I think God is looking out for me, is answering my prayers, and I beg you for your help. The more people, the better.

--

I'm off school today. Open House was yesterday and since most of us work it, we're always given the Monday afterwords off. It's a nice rest, but I really need to do homework.

And make my mask.

This Friday is the NHS/SADD Fall Masquerade. I'm the PR Officer of NHS (National Honor Society) so I was kinda forced into going (I don't care for school dances) and the friend I usually dance with is bringing a date this time, so I'm not super excited. But oh well. At least there's this contest where you make your own masks and they get judged. So that's why I need to make one. Once again, please pray for me in this minor contest! I may win a $10 Panera od Starbucks giftcard (I'd prefer Panera, but beggars can't be choosers).

Um, I guess that's all. I'd better get started on my things to do.
-A

PS I love you Kiyo!!!

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Bonding http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/28185129/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/28185129/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 18:46:15 PST
Yes, I just had a very interesting moment with my younger brother. I told him I have had "Can't Fight This Feeling" by Reo Speedwagon stuck in my head all day after one of my classmates came into Yearbook and was singing it. We bond over the TV show "Glee" and Finn sang this song, but that's beside the point.
My brother pulled it up on YouTube and then he mimicked singing it with a lamp and playing it on the Guitar Hero guitar. Good times. Good song

I've been a bit distant with my brother lately. He's been changing a lot, recently. I blame him going to an all-boys high school and having that influence. He's more derogatory, cursing just to curse and demeaning people without thought. And I don't take that kind of stuff.

But it's nice to see that my brother can still joke around and enjoy a good Power Ballad with his big sis.

Anyways, good news! I got my portfolio back from my Creative Writing teacher and she called my work some of the best in the class! I've uploaded forms of all my work, some changed into fanfics and others remaining in their original format. Those short stories, and the one character sketch, are truly some of my best work and you don't know me as a writer if you haven't read those.

Well, I'm going to catch up on episodes of Bones and SNL on Hulu, and then partake in some more Pride and Prejudice fanfiction.

Love,
-A

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Thinking about my childhood... http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/28002761/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/28002761/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 20:28:33 PDT
I couldn't tell you my first childhood memory. They are all mixed up and not chronological at all. So I thought of one that defined my early childhood. And it was about my best friend from essentially birth to age 9-ish. We were neighbors. She was exactly 1 year and 1 day older than me. We were the definition of what friends are. Went over each others houses, played in the field behind our houses, and were with each other for hours.

She, of course, moved when I was around 7-8. She moved about 45 mins away and I did visit her quite a number of times in the next year of two or so, and likewise she visited me once or twice (her house was bigger so it was more fun to go to her). But things got tricky. Her mom had an affair and her parents got divorced. There was split custody between parents. It took a while for my friend to forgive her mom, but she did. The sisters (she had an older one about 3 yrs older and a 3 yrs younger one) were not always together. I remember going to her house once and my friend, her dad, and her grandma going into a bedroom and talking (some screaming on my friend's part) and lots of crying. I remember sitting outside the room with her younger sister. She was 2 years younger than me.

I learned what an affair was and what divorce was far too young than I should have.

But the point isn't the story of my friend. It's the value of her friendship. We were so alike, such great friends that always played together. I was so innocent, so impressionable. You remember that poem I wrote about Pig Soup? well my friend is the one who made that story up and I believed her far much longer than I should have.

I don't recognize the girl I was then. She feels like a book or movie character that I'm fond of, but often don't remember except in random moments.

I was such a beautiful, innocent child. I was shy around adults, but with most family and friends could be such the little leader (coughcough kinda bossy). I wasn't afraid to wear any color of the rainbow, wear whatever clothes, go out in a bathing suit. I did gymnastics during that time, and was comfortable in a leotard until I started wearing a bra at age 9.

Damn puberty.

I find I write about people younger than me. I connect better with them. My childhood stopped being normal after my friend moved. I gradually stopped playing outside. I never made friends in school that could compare to my first best friend. I was a loner until high school, and even NOW I still don't have a group of friends that I do stuff with outside of school. My friends are all nerds that are busy at home with homework or other obligations.

I miss my innocence. I wish I could relive one day of my childhood. Or at least observe a day of my childhood and see the girl I was. The girl with the long, brown hair and the straight bangs across at the eyebrows. With big brown eyes, freckle-spattered and blushing cheeks. The girl with the right amount of baby fat that had to buy bigger clothes because she was so tall and often mistaked for two years older than she was until she never grew out of that baby face and ended up looking younger than she is (point in case now).

I'm all sentimental, but once you read the story I will be posting about my childhood (with different names thrown in, of course), you'll see and understand. I ask that you read it when I post it and take the time to fondly recall your own childhood.

And now I'll end this overly long journal.

-A

PS I'm sorry I haven't updated in forever, just been in a peculiar mood. Still been thinking of you all, though

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Life is rather blah... http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/27566546/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/27566546/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 20:39:58 PDT
Also been busy with college applications. Wish me luck with those.

And now for a random thing...

This is why I love Taylor Swift --> [link]
I'm not a big country fan, nor of mainstream pop, but she's so down-to-earth and appreciative. And her music and videos ARE great. And, of course, Kanye West is a dick. I don't think I've said that on here yet.

Um...that's all for now? I'll try to post something on here eventually. I have a few things lying around.

-A

PS I'm on a Pride and Prejudice obsession once again...

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex I'm Literally Crying in Excitement!! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/27179215/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/27179215/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 21:17:57 PDT
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I can't wait to watch the VMA's and hopefully see he clearer, and extended, version of the new New Moon trailer! This looks epically better than the first movie. I always did like New Moon the best for the real introduction of the vampire and werewolf world, specifically the Volturi aspect of it.

Dakota Fanning looks kickass, and Michael Sheen looks like the leader Aro.

2 September 14, 1964. George Harrison visited the high school that I attend now. As in The Beatles George Harrison. I'm not kidding. He didn't perform and only a few people actually saw him and was given a private tour with only the principle (a nun who knew that if word got out there would be pandemonium in an all-girls' school despite not knowing thw entirety of Beatles Mania). He apparently wanted to see what American secondary schools were like and was recommended to my school (it was in its 5th school year and filled with all the new technologies of that time). My philosophy teacher and the current principle, also a nun, was there at the time, a young nun in her 20s and liked The Beatles' music but was "too old" to be a part of the Mania. She saw him but didn't get to meet him. It was fascinating. All the girls in my class were Beatles fans already (especially this one girl who's obsessed with the '60s, and me, and then my one friend to a degree less than our obsession but still loves 'em). I've unofficially nicknamed the class "George Harrison's Official Fan Club of -insert my school's name here-"

When he died in '01 someone put a sign on the waterfountain saying "George Harrison Drank Here." Which was true. He did drink from a water fountain in that spot, but the actual one eventually broke so it was replaced.

Monday will be the 45th Anniversary of his visit. On Tuesday I have Philosophy class and am in charge of our opening prayer. I'm using "My Sweet Lord," my favorite of Harrison's solo songs, as our prayer.

So yeah, my school is sooooo cool now. Did you have a Beatle visit yours? I think NOT! XDXDXD

3 I bought these really cute purple and black plaid flats yesterday. Wore them to church today with a purple shirt and dark jeans. And I fixed my hair. It's a miracle!

4 Been writing, writing, writing every night! All my classes require papers except for Calculus and Yearbook. It's a good thing I'm a pretty good writer. My only problem is I procrastinate...

5 I got my first Calc quiz back and...I got a 100%! In all the years I've been at this school, this is the first time I've EVER gotten a 100% on a math quiz. I've gotten A's, but there's always been at least a few points taken off for stupid things in my work even if I got the right answer. It's ironic that I'm in the highest math available at my school and I finally start to do excellent. And the 2nd quiz that I just took I think I got a 100% on, too. I'll just have to wait and see!

6 I had to write a character sketch for Creative Writing class and I decided to develop a background for Nicollette from my story "Connections." I'm sticking to short stories for this class but I may not do one for the 13 yr old Nicollette that I made. She different than when I originally made her but I think it's for the better indefinitely. Which will probably mean that I'll be re-writing parts of what I've written for the novel, but I'll do that after I finish the piece for class where "I meet Nicollette and sketch her character on pure observations from an outsider." So we're meeting in a waiting room where I'm observing Nicky and carefully crafting my responses to what I see in a way to really start to develop her. It's kinda fun, but very difficult.

7 I'm depressed I can't get the special edition Beatles Rockband. I'm too careful with money to use all that I've collected on one thing. It's $250 and I'd split that with my brother. I have $140 in my wallet saved plus my Mom still owes me $25. I can't justify it.

Um...I think that's all my important stuff. I need to do some of those writing assignments. Not fun at the moment because I feel like gushing over New Moon trailer and waiting for the VMAs desperately.

Adios!

-A

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Starting a surreal school year + Poetic tendencies http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/27024255/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/27024255/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 21:23:02 PDT
Sorry I haven't been posting my drawings. I haven't scanned anything recently and so I'm backloaded. I've inked and colored some of my better older drawings, and started some new ones. You'll see them eventually.

I go through phases with drawing and writing. A few months ago I was all about drawing, now I'm on a writing kick. More of "Spoken Word" poetry right now, but also so fiction prompts. I started my Creative Writing class and it's given me some things to ponder regarding short stories. But we haven't done much yet, no writing or anything. I'm going to start my first short story next week, so that should be interesting. And if it does well in class discussion then I may post it on here when the semester is over. Time will tell.

That is all. I'm off to think and enjoy the solitude of the early morning hours (it's 12:18 am as I type this) before turning in for bed.

I leave you with what I'm listening to.

All my creative love,
-A

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope its over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a star wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when youre little
And the worlds so big
I just dont understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please dont tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that its all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends wont know
When the bell rings I just dont wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I dont believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when youre little
And the world is so big
I just dont understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No
No, I dont wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No, I dont wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I dont wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I dont wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I dont wanna meet your friends
And I dont wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please dont tell me everything is wonderful now...

I dont wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex What's Your Damage, Heather? + Talk Hard! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26868542/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26868542/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 02:11:32 PDT
The first comes from the classic teen movie Heathers which starred Winona Ryder and Christian Slater.

I've been in an odd mood lately.

Especially considering I normally can't stand all those shoulderpads.

But alas, I was curious about that particular movie as I have heard about it and it was recently on TV, but I missed it. So I watched it on YouTube today.

And I discovered something which greatly disturbs me: Christian Slater isn't that bad of an actor. I've been making fun of him ever since I saw all those annoying commercials for that totally cliche TV show called My Own Worst Enemy. And I did watch part of an episode just for laughs, and I did indeed laugh at the terrible thing. Not to mention Slater looks really weird now in comparison to his younger days. He looked '80s-'90s weird then, which is in fact quite normal if I were to transport myself back 20 years.

But anyways, that movie wasn't bad. It was '80s teen movie good.

And then I decided to watch Pump Up The Volume, another Slater film from 1990. Which I really did like. A lot. Even if Slater's character had the pseudonym "Happy Harry Hard-On." And I could have done without the fake masturbation. But it was part of the story, and if you're going with the whole '90s Teen Revolution then you might as well say "fuck it" and go all the way.

Sorry about the language. I'm still thinking in the terms of the characters.

So if you're in the mood for some 20-year old movies, go check 'em out.

Isn't it weird to think the '90s are 20 years ago? It was such a great decade for me.

Mostly for the music.

I mean, we've got some pretty sick groups that came out of the '90s. And I'm a big '90s music fan. Seriously, you know how on VH1 they have that "100 Greatest Songs of the '90s" countdown? I can sing just about every song on that list. It's the music I grew up listening to.

Alanis Morisette was what I sang to on the ride home from school.

I'm mostly into the Rock. I like that Seattle-style rock a lot, but any '90s I love.

Creed, Pearl Jam, Green Day, Alice in Chains, Nirvana, Foo Fighters, Weezer, Stone Temple Pilots, Soundgarden, R.E.M., Smashing Pumpkins, Beastie Boys, The Black Crows...

Come on, U2!

Hell, Marilyn Manson!

And those are only some of my favorites/ones that stick out to me.

The '90s is deeply embedded into my soul. And as I get ready to start this next school year, I realize how time has flown.

Eric Clapton's "Tears in Heaven" still makes me tear up. It won a Grammy in back '93. And it's a personal favorite of mine because my little brother's middle name is Connor, the name of Clapton's son that died and in which the song was written about. My Mom heard the name and liked it, and thus whenever I hear my brother's full name I think of that song, and when I hear that song I think of the story behind it then think of my brother.

And I now leave you with the words to the anthem of the '90s, by the ever-wonderful group that unfortunately did not last...

Hello (x16)

With the lights out its less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My libido
Yea

-A

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Miss Universe + Woes of Not Being Size 2 http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26766591/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26766591/ Sun, 23 Aug 2009 01:44:47 PDT

Speaking of beauty pageants, have you ever seen those shows in TV which depict little kids in beauty pageants? There's that one called "Toddlers and Tiaras" or something. I refuse to watch them after unfortunately enduring an episode that my Mom watched out of curiosity. And I can't stand the commercials. These mothers take away all the childish beauty of their kids and cover them in orange spray tan and caked makeup, with hair resemblant of a bad '60s or '80s "do" depending on the person. And the kids are sometimes total spoilt brats. It seems like some of these mothers are simply pimpimg out theire kids and reaping the profits. I'm not insulting the whole concept, because I have seen some normal-looking kids in the pageants that want to go up there and be beautiful and display their talents, and really appreciate what their parent(s) are doing for them. But I'm skeptical to some of these others. It's disheartening to see some of these little girls superficialize themselves with those fake tans and heavy makeup, even dying their hair!. In my opinion, a beautiful child is one with a natural flush to their face from running around, a big smile on their face as they smile up at me with their jeans grass-stained and shirt wrinkled from play. I have two little-girl cousins (6 and 2), which are just that, and they are the most adorable, absolutely precious things on earth. If there mother, my aunt, who I do rather like, would try to put those little girls on a diet and start all that fake stuff, I'd be royally mad. Dress up playing with Mommy's makeup and wearing her high heels that aren't even close to fitting is absolutely normal.

And pageants, with a little girl in her nice dress, maybe some makeup on, her hair (it's natural color) done up all pretty. Now that is a winner right there.

I've come to acknowledge in recent years that my past dislike for pageants was not only fueled from the media of making these women appear like airheads, but also a psychological defense that, by putting down their intelligence and perky personality, a department that I am quite comfortable in, made me feel better about my less-than-perfect outward appearance.

I was a cute kid, loving pink and looking cute. I used to want to find an excuse to wear a dress on some days, yet loved my run-around clothes because I was an active kid. I loved my long brown hair and bangs. I started gymnastics at 3 years old, and cotinued until I was 8. I started to become uncomfortable in my leotard because I had a little belly of baby fat that hadn't gone away like the other girls'. I was also tired of it because I wasn't getting any better.

I turned into a major tomboy by the time of was 10, starting with my first seasons of soccer and softball before that birthday. I started to hate pink and weak my hair in a ponytail. It also had to do wit emulating some of the girls I played soccer and went to school with. My closet was jeans, T-shirts, sweats, and sneakers. I was never overweight, but not thin. I was tall, and build solidly. My Mom joked with me at my very hideous age of 13 that I would be a "brick house" (think of that song; it means not stick thin, but with curves and some meat on my bones) and I should embrace it. At 13 I had very frizzy, very curly, uncontrollable hair. I didn't stop always wearing my hair up to hide it until last year or maybe the year before, really. I embraced my natural curl and it looked good on the not-too-humid days. Straightening my hair never lasted long because it always curled at the ends but I did do it occassionally in the winter. Only since I've cut it short and it is unable to go in a ponytail without numerous clips have I been straightending it regularly, or at least managing the curl properly. That means ba... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex August is Psoriasis Awareness Month + Tagged http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26724753/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26724753/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 11:40:46 PDT
Confused? I'll bet. Not that long ago I had no idea what a corticosteriod was. When confronting a term I am not familiar with, I usually break it up into its roots. "Cortico" and "steriod" are what I find. "Cortico" makes you think of "cortizone" which is a natural steriod made in the body. Corticosteroids are a class of steroid hormones that are involved in systems such as stress respone, immune response and regulation of inflammation, carbohydrate metabolism, just to name some rather common ones.

Several months ago I was diagnosed with a chronic, noncontagious auto-immune disease called psoriasis. It affects the skin and joints. It is the most common auto-immune disease, affects roughly 7.5 million Americans, and has no cure. The symptoms can be treated, but it is chronic. For the rest of my life I'll be self-treating myself if it stays at it's mild to moderate level. If it increases to a high level, depending on what part of my body is affected with determine my treatment.

My psoriasis first appeared on the lower half of my scalp and went undiagnosed for almost two years. At first I thought I had a bad case of dandruff and changed shampoos. They lessened the amount of flakes coming from my head for a time before flaring up again. My head was constantly itchy, especially during times of stress. I became very self-conscious and worried about having white flakes in my hair and on my clothes. My mom noticed me scratching my head all the time and thought that if I stopped scratching, it'd stop. It didn't, and the itch and flakes continued. We came to the conclusion that it wasn't dandruff, but my scalp was drying out and flaking from not being able to "breathe" because I always wore my hair in a ponytail. Letting my head "breathe" didn't help, either. My mom gave me oil treatments that worked for a few days before, again, the flakes and redness on my scalp continued. Vaseline was put on my head which helped the most, but not for more than two weeks.

I didn't have health insurence for a time because my dad was unemployed and my mom worked part-time. The government took forever in assessing the applications for my brother and I in getting health insurence. Once I got it, I went to the doctor and my mom and I consulted him about it. Finally I was diagnosed. It wasn't just dry scalp, but psoriasis that caused the redness, the itchyness, and the flakes. Psoriasis is when skin cells mature quickly and do not fall away like normal, rather building up. These lesions are scaly.

After a battle with the insurence company over what they would cover for prescriptions, I have eventually been granted a small bottle of Clobetasol Propionate Topical Solution USP 0.05%. It is the corticosteroid I have my mother massage into my scalp every night for the past several months (well, I've skipped a few days but you get the idea). Roughly every 20 days, on a special grant from my doctor and the insurance company, I get a refill.

I have a little bit of lesions on my elbows, too, but luckily it is much easier than my scalp. I go through phases with it my scalp. Sometimes it is almost cleared up, not very itchy, and I don't have flakes. Other times it's like hell on my head. And this is my life. No cure. Just enduring.

It is thought to be genetic. 10% of people carry and 1% match up the genes to get it. But like I said, mine wasn't triggered until about two years ago. Triggers can be certain medications you were taking, pregnancy, strep throat, and my likely cause-stress.

30% of people with psoriasis get psoriatic arthritis, which usually occurs between ages 30 and 50. And you should know what arthritis is.

But psoriasis is also linked with heart disease, heavy stress, skin cancers and lymphona, liver disease, and depression.

But what is really terrible about this disease is about how it affects your self-image. Where I have my psoriasis is not in plain sight, but some people have huge red lesions on their arms, knees, and legs. It's much harder to spot a flake in my hair on sitting on my shoulders, and people would assume its dandruff. But my elbows are embarrassing for me. I still show them, but I wish I didn't have to. Imagining my small lesions to those huge ones is not pleasant, and I don't know how they cope.

My point here is to spread awareness. If you see someone with red lesions, don't stare. They are already self-conscious. You wouldn't even be able to guess I had it, and I'm lucky, but I still have a chronic disease. It could easily change and move to another part of my body as I grow. It's more common in adults, and I'm still a teen. Who is to say how I will be affected? Will it just be a more severe case of psoriasis, or will I develop cancer because of it? I don't know. I just have to live with it.

To learn more and suppor... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Retaking an Old Quiz + Contests! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26691024/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26691024/ Wed, 19 Aug 2009 11:42:00 PDT
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie

Opening Credits:
X Amount of Words - Blue October

First Day At School:
Back At Your Door - Maroon 5

Falling In Love:
Sting Me - The Black Crowes

Fight Song:
Octupus's Garden - The Beatles (lol wow)

Breaking Up:
Remedy - The Black Crowes

Prom:
Reset - Mutemath

Life:
Enslaved - Motley Crue

Mental Breakdown:
It's My Life - Bon Jovi

Driving Far Away:
Bohemian Rapsody - Queen

Flashback:
Addicted - Saving Abel

Wedding:
Waiting - Green Day

Birth of Child:
This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race - Fall Out Boy

Final Battle:
Yeah! - Usher

Death Scene:
The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavigne

Funeral Song:
Shoot Down the Stars - Gym Class Heroes

End Credit:
Colors - The Rocket Summer

...I have ecclectic taste. And these songs aren't even close to portraying that. I have a JoBros song (even though I can't stand them half the time), Paramore, MCR, Linkin Park, Jason Mraz, Secondhand Serenade, Debussy (Clair de Lune!) and other classic piano songs, etc etc etc.

Anyways...

I'm trying to enter two different writing contests over on fanfiction. The problem is their deadlines are the 20th and the 21st. And I pretty much just found them. One has a great list of prizes, the other not so much, but both have such interesting themes that I can't wait to take on! Wish me luck!!!

-A

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex My Comp is Alive + Feature Meme http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26358980/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26358980/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 12:44:16 PDT I finally got my charger in the mail, and so far so good.

I was going through not only DA withdrawal, but writing withdrawal. All my documents are saved on this computer and I don't back up my stories because it takes up so much space on my flashdrive. I used to, but not anymore. Maybe I should start again...

I just started a sequel to my Zutara/funny oneshot "Mortification." I hope to finish it today and get it posted. I've missed Zutara and, since I won't be participating in Zutara Week '09 because of my busy schedule during that time, I want to contribute something to the fandom.

I have two Twilight fanfics in the works at the moment. I'm going to finish the shorter one first, which is a Kate POV but the main pairing is EdwardBella with a bit of onesided TanyaEdward. And we learn that all vampires, not just Edward, have stalking tendencies.

The second one, a crossover between Pride and Prejudice and Twilight that was originally going to be entered into a contest until my charger broke and I missed the deadline, is on a mini-hold. I'm still really depressed that I couldn't enter the contest because I stood a good chance and this would have been a great way to pick up readers because I've been suffering from a lack of hits to my works-except "Sex Ed" but that's a different thing entirely-and it's lowered my self-esteem as a writer.

Last night I typed up some Connections stuff. It wasn't action so much as looking into Nicollette's character and giving reason to why she hates the nickname "Nicky." Do you think I should post it? Because I only will if you promise feedback on it (I really need feedback on my original work because I do hope to work out the kinks with your help and eventually make it good enough for publishing, or at least to be read in its entirety with my friends and family--you all included in that).

NOW IT IS TIME FOR THE MEME! I was featured by

who used to be

We go waaaay back to my early days on fanfiction.net and DeviantART.

1- I will add the first 14 people to comment on this journal to the Promotional List.

2- For each of those 14 people, I will put their avatar and three deviations I like from their gallery on the list.

3- If I feature you, you'll have to do the same in your journal, putting me on the first place, completing this way the list with 14 people.

[link] I love the use of black and white in contrast to the bright colors.
[link] Because it's a Jimmy Fallon t-shirt. And he is awesome. Nuff said.
[link] Because Star Trek with colorful boots is awesome.

If you want to be featured, or just because you love me and want to talk, comment below!

~A
[Energizer bunny arrested, charger with battery]

PS That my new thing--add a funny quote I either thought of own my own or recently heard/saw.
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~Clubs~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/26150067/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 12:01:49 PDT

I'm going to the big Chelsea FC vs AC Milan soccer (football) game tonight!

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Praise. The. Lord!!! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25984359/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25984359/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 11:53:59 PDT
I GOT A 4!!!!

AP scores rage from 1 to 5 with a 5 being the equivalent of an A, a 4 being an A-/B+/B, a 3 being a B-/C+ etc. Most colleges credit you with a 3 or higher. Honors colleges will give you credit with a 4 or higher.

I can't freaking believe it. I was so nervous, hoping for a 3 but in all actuality possibly expecting a 2, and I got a 4!

This will be so great because with this I can save money for college because I'll already have credit for US History.

My Dad came up with the envelope holding the score, and my heart stopped. I had been stressing over it for the past few weeks, but for the past few days I'd forgotten about it. I made my Dad leave the room so I could open it. I opened the envelope to pull out the paper and before it was out all I saw was a heading "Grade" and underneath a 4 all nice and bold like that! I went "Oh my God" before ripping that thing out of the envelope and making sure I wasn't misinterpreting. And I'm pleased to say I wasn't. So I hyperventilated for 1.2 seconds before scrambling off my bed to run down the stairs and yell "I got a 4!" My parents were happy. I'm happy. Today is a good day.

Thank you God. And thank you my wonderful history teacher for all those lunch time review sessions (that although I hated with a passion at the time were truly the best thing for me because I honestly did not study that much outside those--bad me).

Now I'm going to go spazz for a little while longer before reading more epic-awesome "Wide Awake" which is the best Darkward Twilight fanfic out there. Or at least from what I've seen.

-A

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex shikainoshikainoshikaino! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25724065/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25724065/ Fri, 03 Jul 2009 21:07:04 PDT
Found this awesome website full of ShikaIno fanart. It's all in Japanese (I think) but just click on the left side to view the different pictures. Squee! [link]

-A

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Mays + Concert Summer + Quiz - Edit- http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25639338/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25639338/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 20:56:39 PDT [link] I read the free sample and I'm hooked! Who would have guessed that Marvel would make a Pride and Prejudice comic? I like the way the Bennets look, except for Mary because I think she is too pretty, and the younger sisters do look a bit too old, and Caroline Bingley looks good but where is her sister Mrs. Hurst and Mr. Hurst? Charlotte Lucas is too...severe looking. She looks mean, not plain like she's supposed to be. But Bingley and Darcy look...a lot older than I imagined them. They should be in their mid to late 20s, not looking as if they're in their 30s. They look all right, though, I guess. I have to remind myself that 1) This is the Marvel style and 2) People looked different relative to their ages during the time period.

Anyways, check it out! I really want to go find the next issues so I can immerse myself in my favorite classic novel!

--End Edit--

The end of June must be the Âcleansing monthÂ or something because it seems like some really big stars are all dying! It makes me want to know who is next! First we had Ed, then Farah and MJ on the same day, and now Billy Mays has died! Mays is the guy that did all those Oxyclean commercials. IÂm sure pretty much everyone that has watched TV has seen that commercial!

This summer is officially ÂConcert Summer.Â I just saw RAIN (Beatles tribute band) and now IÂm going to see Aerosmith (and ZZ Top)! My Dad told my brother and I this afternoon and weÂre both very excited! But we have to hurry up and catch up on a lot of their songs so we can sing along. WeÂll be traveling to Hershey, PA for the concert this Friday. IÂve been to Hershey Park before, but itÂs been a few years, and never in the stadium. ItÂs all outside, so pray for me that it wonÂt rain! IÂm sad though because right after my Dad said that we were going to see them he also said that he wanted to take us to see The Black Crows but the place they were coming locally was for 21 and older because the venue served alcohol, and not everyone would be able to go. He said this while I was playing ÂHard to HandleÂ by them on Guitar Hero: Aerosmith. I love The Black Crows. I have their greatest hits album on my iTunes and my favorite song currently is ÂShe Talks to AngelsÂ by them. Great song, I totally recommend it. But anyways, I wonder if there are any other concerts in store? I hope some other group that I'm very familiar with I'll be able to travel and see

IÂll close this out with something I havenÂt done in a while: a quiz.
Taken from

RULES:

- Choose a singer/band/group
- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group
- Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)

I chose: The Black Crows

1. Are you male or female?
- She Talks to Angels

2. Describe yourself.
- Hard to Handle

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
- Only a Fool

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
- Thorn in My Pride

5. Describe your current relationship.
- Twice As Hard

6. Where would you want to be now?
- By Your Side

7. How do you feel about love?
- A Conspiracy

8. What's your life like?
- KickinÂ My Heart Around

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
- Remedy

I'm done.

~A

PS I'm working on several small writing projects and one EXTREMELY large one so I'm going to be scarce due to my preparation and the actual writing, so expect deviations when this is all over!

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~Clubs~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25587629/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25587629/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 13:21:12 PDT Connections. I just finished it this morning by filling in the final song. So here is the flow of my in-progress novel, in chronological order!

Cold - Crossfade

I Don't Care - Apocalyptica feat. Adam Gontier of Three Days Grace

Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance

No More Sorrow - Linkin Park

Hate Me - Blue October

The Pretender - Foo Fighters

Breakdown - Seether

Headstrong - Trapt

Strange Times - The Black Keys

Decode - Paramore

Lifeline - Papa Roach

The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars

Situations - Escape the Fate

Scream - Avenged Sevenfold

Saying Sorry - Hawthorne Heights

Death of Me - Red

Re-Education (Through Labor) - Rise Against

I'm So Sick - Flyleaf

This Is How I Disappear - My Chemical Romance

Given Up - Linkin Park

Can't Be Saved - Senses Fail

Monsters - Matchbox Romance

Help I'm Alive - Metric

The River - Good Charlotte

It's Not Over - Daughtry

In The End - Linkin Park

Jai Ho! (You Are My Destiny) - A.R. Rahman and The Pussycat Dolls

There are a ton of other songs that have offered inspiration but this is the official playlist with the most influential. I won't list the... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Those Damn Nukes http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25516109/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25516109/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 11:53:26 PDT [link]

I really wish that they hadn't even been invented right now. I know that they helped end WWII with Japan but look at all the destruction they cause.

And North Korea has threatened to blow up the U.S. Do they have the technology to fire long-range enough to reach from West to East Coast? The government officials say that they can't reach Hawaii, yet Hawaii is on high alert. We have defensive systems, but have they faced a threat such as this before? No. I think that the problem is the unknown. We've never faced true nuclear warfare. Just seeing the bombings of the past (and those were just A-bombs, which are nothing compared to H-bombs) and the accidents from nuclear powerplants is enough to scare anyone.

If a nuclear war between the U.S. and North Korea did come to pass, what cities do you think they would target? The most populated ones. Just like 9/11, New York City would be preyed on. LA is largely populated as well. And of course, Washington D.C. I live on the East Coast. There are two main cities on the East Coast. Nuclear weapons are powerful enough that they could wipe out area surrounding these cities. How far, I'm not sure, but in my mind there is the possibility that at least nuclear waste could reach where I am.

My Mom and Dad (especially my Dad) always said that I'm very lucky to live where I live. In a decent neighborhood in the suburbs of the United States. We're a free country, where equality of race and gender is clearly exhibited in our government officials. We have our first black President, and for the past several years we have had a female Secretary of State (Rice before, now Clinton). I didn't have to worry about growing up in a city full of violence where I would be inferior because of my age and gender, like in the Middle East, nor did I have to worry about extreme violence right outside of my home. Sure, there is violence around me but I am not living in the inner-city districts where nightly shootings are a regular thing.

Now...I'm not so sure. We showed vulnerability in the 9/11 attacks, but our security has tightened since then.

The fact is, however, that no one in the whole entire world, no matter who you are, what you do, race, gender, age, religion, whatever social category you give yourself, it doesn't matter! Bceause NO ONE in the world is truly safe. You can never walk outside your house again and you still aren't safe.

And it's scary.

Especially to Americans who have been so priveleged to live a comfortable life. Because once you look outside your own little bubble, you realize how screwed up the world is and how unsafe you really are. It makes you want to personally walk into the problemed parts of the world and forcibly shake some sense and your values on them. But things aren't fixed so easily.

Maybe I'm overreacting to the threats, but I think it puts things in perspective. It's important to not be so ignorant of what is going on outside your little bubble, and it's also important to not take your safety for granted. Relish in it, and enjoy it while all your priveleges last.

No matter what happens, I'm proud to be an American. We won't put up with North Korea's shit. They don't have the right to think they're so special that they can't obey the rules like the rest of the nations. And we'll go down fighting to stop any other nation from threatening the safety of innocent people across the world. We may have done some not-so-admirable things in the past, but we don't take nukes for granted.

So I'm going to go on living my life to the fullest and wait to see what happens next...

-A
[Is a proud American]

PS Listen to the song I'm listening to. It kicks ass - great guitar, lyrics, and a powerful message, especially right now.

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~Clubs~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25459081/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 18:18:39 PDT [link]

arentPage=search&f=Taxonomy/TRUSCA/2510384%22#prod_prodinfo

Okay, seriously, I love Twilight and everything but Barbie Bella and Edward Ken? WTF?!

Next thing I know my 6 year old cousin will have one and start going:

Bella: "Oh Ed-wuuurd I love you!"
Edward: "Oh Bellaaaa I love you tooo!"

...it's a scary thought. What's even scarier is that if I were her age I'd probably want my own Bella and Edward dolls. I was obsessed with Barbies at that age.

~Aki
[Whose love of Twilight does not go that far...or does it?]

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex RAIN http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25416022/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25416022/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 13:05:44 PDT [link] I saw something about them on a news show my Dad watches a few months ago and they're coming to the Wolf Trap in Virginia. Apparently my Dad loves the Wolf Trap so we headed there.

I started brushing up on my Beatles music so I can sing along. I only know my favorites, a few being "All You Need Is Love," "Hey Jude," and "Hello Goodbye" but I know the refrains and some of the verses of many of the songs.

My family loves the Beatles. It's going to be my Mom, Dad, brother, and I seeing them. My Dad says the show is sorta like Broadway because they go through the different periods of the Beatles' music.

As you can tell, I am super excited!!!

But when I get back home I plan to finish up a few drawings I just did and post them, as well as work a little bit on some fanfics. The Beatles music has gotten me into this creatibe burst of energy!

-Aki

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex In my mind or in unfinished Word docs http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25402973/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25402973/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 20:09:21 PDT
Post a single sentence from each WIP you have (or as many as you want to pick). No context, no explanations. No more than one sentence!

_{"No matter what we went through together, he would never see me as anything more than a partner."

"It seemed Esme didnÂt exaggerate as much as IÂd thought."

ÂHistory will repeat itself unless we learn from the past.Â

"It was hard to concentrate with all the thoughts running through my head, and that smile was not helping my mental coherency."

"The moonlight that had been seeping through the tree had halted suddenly, making the duo look up."

"The dream came back to him in a rush, his eyebrows pulling down and a frown contorting his features."

"Damn physical attraction."

"A whole four minutes had passed since he last checked the digital alarm clock that sat next to his bed in his small apartment bedroom."

"It was finally time."

"ItÂs just a thing that people use to tie up their hair."

"Shy girl is always the heroine, yet spunky girl, the true heroine, is somehow the bad guy?"

"'I want to learn Spanish!'"

"Before she blacked out entirely, she head the sickening scream and thump of the killer as it (it wasnÂt even human anymore, not worthy of the ÂheÂ pronoun) was strangled to death."

"They couldnÂt understand how this had happened."

"All they had to do was look at it and what you wanted to see that was on Earth would appear on it."

"People on the streets stopped to stare at the two teens as they yelled while running."

"Everything they did was almost simultaneous and mutual."

"He was boiling with anger like a pot overflowing with boiling water."

"And coming home only to wake up and deal with a 4-year old was so great for his aching muscles."}

Good luck guessing those

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"Simmer down ladies. Relax as I bathe you in my dulcet tones and make sweet love to the English language." --Edward [link] is Epic Win.

--

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, Jesse, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

~Friends Online ~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25352814/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 13:16:32 PDT Fortune of the Day: You work best on your own now.
Reaction: Huh. That's pretty true, actually.

_{I've been reading a lot, and I mean a lot of fanfiction lately and wanted to make a list of some of my top favorites. You could just look at my favorites list on my fanfiction.net profile (I'm tomboy14) but that list is a bit long and I haven't gotten around to cleaning it out.

So here's a list of stories (all from fanfiction.net and all complete) and a brief summary about them, followed by their link. AH stands for All Human, and AU stands for Alternate Universe.}

Twilight

Chapter Stories

Across the Ocean: In one quick and thoughtless act, Bella Swan sends a letter in a bottle across the ocean. It reaches England, where Edward Cullen finds it, and begins their correspondance, one that leads to more than either of them could expect. AH, Rated T [link]

Behind Enemy Lines: International aid worker Bella Swan enters a war zone to find the man she's loved for the last 10 years. It's a race against time to save Edward Cullen from the depths of an appalling humanitarian crisis and get him out from behind enemy lines. AU/AH, Rated M (Warning: Not for the faint of heart) [link]

Heartbeats: Bella Swan is left in a coma after a fateful plane crash that killed almost every single passenger. Her heartbeats are numbered, and she wonders if she'll ever see her family again. But is there someone else who can make her wake up? AH, Rated T [link]

My Brand of Heroin: Bella has spent the past three months in rehab for her cocaine addiction. What happens when troubled Edward Cullen is committed to the same center? AH/AU, Rated T [link]

My MotherÂs Boyfriend: Bella Swan has finally found a man sheÂs interested in: Edward Cullen. The problem? He is dating her mother, Renee. AH/AU, Rated M [link]

Only Human: A wish sends Bella back in time to Chicago, 1918, and to a human Edward. Rated M [link]

The Antidote: Suppose there was an actual reason for "La Tua Cantante"...Edward becomes human. AU after Twilight, Rated M [link]

Oneshots

As The Cushion Turns: Find out what it's like to be a sofa in the Twilight Universe. Rated M (for suggestive language) [link]

Better Left Unknown: Bella and Emmett watch his favorite show, so Emmett can teach Bella something very disturbing about Edward... Rated T [link]

Boxers or Briefs?: What is Bella doing looking through Edward's underwear drawer? Rated T [link]

~shikainoloverxanimex Naps and Fortunes http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25315624/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25315624/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 19:04:15 PDT
At softball today we did a bit of sliding practice. I had on my padded sliding shorts, long socks, and a sliding pad (it covers the knee I tuck when I slide), and I still got scraped up. I had a welt on my left thigh from getting bruised, and it also burns because it's all scraped up. You would think the shorts would protect me? Well the padding is apparently so worn down on that pair that it can't do the job. My knee is actually fine for once. But then again I gave up caring about my knee because it's so scarred up from last summer's softball season (all the sliding's fault). I should post a picture of how "lovely" my knee looks. And I scraped my leg so that it was bleeding (big shocker there) through my socks. It was probably a bit of the fault of last week's light scraping re-opening, even if it was practically healed.

I hate my legs. They're so disgusting from the past couple of years' softball.

The funny thing is that I still love sliding. I'm the only person on my team that can "pop up" right after their slide. You know, it's the thing that Major League Baseball players can do where they use their momentum to get up, or "pop up" as I call it, without the use of their arms or stopping their slide at all. [link]
This is basically a clearer version of what I was saying.

So I decided to add a new feature to my journals just for the heck of it. The idea came from the fortune cookie I opened today. Hahaha.

No, seriously, it did.

Fortune of the Day: "You make people realize that there exist other beauties in the world."

I'll either be using the slips of paper from actual fortune cookies, or going to one of those "instant fortune" websites to get one. Depends on my resources.

That's all I had to say. I'm off to go read some fanfiction

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"Simmer down ladies. Relax as I bathe you in my dulcet tones and make sweet love to the English language." --Edward [link] is Epic Win.

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25187726/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 21:15:32 PDT
I thought it was so cute when the three boys that play Billy in "Billy Elliot" went up there to receive their joint award as best lead actor in a musical (they rotate the role). Their adorability made me want to see the thing. lol

"Next to Normal" also looks really good. I have to give major props to the woman who is playing a manic depressive. Her performance was riveting from the scene they showed at the Awards.

My Dad was all excited about the 80's rock tribute musical, "Rock of Ages." I still have Twisted Sisters' "I Wanna Rock" stuck in my head. I would go see that musical just for the awesome music. I looked at the listing of the songs and I knew, well, almost all of them. It's because my Dad was in his prime in the 80's. He started working in the music business during that decade and his love of those years has really rubbed off on my brother and I, especially my brother. He's fatally obsessed. XD

Now that was my light now. I have a very serious matter to talk about that I just need to get off my chest.

I had softball practice this morning. My coach said he had something he wanted to talk to the team about before we started. So we all gathered on the bleachers near our parents because he wanted them to hear as well. There was this girl, the softball starting catcher for her Varsity team (the coach's daughter goes there but she was JV starting pitcher, but still). He said the name, and I recognized it. I had played on a team with her in my early years of playing softball, and I'd played/seen her since then. We were acquaintances, not friends. Just enough to say "Hi" to her or her mother, whoever we saw, and do the usual "How are you?" type of thing. Apparently she had a softball game/tournament (I think yesterday) where there were college scouts. She apparently had a bad game. Her coach laid into her. Her teammates laid into her. Her parents laid into her. Last night she committed suicide with her father's gun. She killed herself over that.

I pretty much stopped listening to my coach and his whole spiel about "not his philosophy to yell at his players" in favor of my shock.

I'd known this girl since I was probably 12-ish. And she was dead. It didn't matter that we weren't even really friends. It was the utter fact that someone I knew had not just died, but done it herself over something that really does not matter in the big scheme of things. So what if she blew her chance at a scholarship? That her team lost the game/tournament? Is it worth killing yourself over?

The scary thing is that a few years ago I probably wouldn't be so definite on my answer of "NO!" as I am now. I used to take everything so seriously, until after many discussions with my parents I slowly came to realize that not everything is, well, a life or death matter. So I strike out in a game. Does this mean I have to die? No! So I get a bad grade on a test. Should I die because of that? No!

Life is too precious and there's so much more to live for. Yes, it's really upsetting when something bad happens to you due to your own mistakes. And yes, I know how hard it is to move past those things. But nothing, and I mean nothing is worth killing yourself over. Whether it be sports, school, work, love life, whatever! Remember that you're not just affecting yourself, but those around you.

I pray for Lauren's soul. For her family, coaches, and teammates that last words to her were ones of anger and disappointment.

-A

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex -Has Died and Gone to Heaven- http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25059658/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25059658/ Sun, 31 May 2009 21:01:36 PDT Note: I'm sorry for the explicit language but I'm excited and am just gonna type my uncensored thoughts

_{ohshitohshitohshit!!!}

Did you WATCH the MTV Movie Awards?

Okay seriously Twilight won like 5 awards. It's because all the teenage girls voted for it. My brother was like "what is the problem with girls and Robert Pattinson?!" And I just reply, "Oh boys, you just don't understand -sigh-."

I've obviously gotten over my "ick" phase about RPattz because I do think he's kinda sexy. I mean, hell, I watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, again, just to see him. And that is not the first time I've done that.

I'm turning into every other teenaged girl. Damn.

ANYways. That's not the reason why I've "died and gone to heaven." It's because of the God Fucking AWESOME New Moon trailer! Holy. Fucking. Hell. I think this one is gonna be closer to the book. I loved the way the Cullen house looked. And Jacob's bod...is it just me or is it getting hot in here? lol Taylor Lautner, thank you for all that extra working out you did.

And the lighting is so much better than in the first. Less small, forgettable Indie film, more Blockbuster. Sweet.

My Mother put on MTV (she was in the living room watching college softball while I was in the basement with my brother watching the awards) so she could watch the trailer. And she even yelled "Oooo!" at some point and I yelled back up "Shut up!" and I, of course, missed one of my favorite lines. The one where Edward is like "...Alive, if that's what I really am." :insert high-pitched fan girl squee here:

I had to find out what I missed by watching the trailer on both MTV and YouTube about 5 million times in the past hour.

So basically the point of this journal was, well, pointless except for me to go on and on and on about Twilight.

Adios, then!

-Aki

PS while I'm talking about Twilight...I reread the first section of Breaking Dawn for the heck of it today.

PPS Twilight fanfiction is "teh shizz" so if you need any recommendations for a good fic, ask me!

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex I'm Literally Vibrating in Excitement! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25016005/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/25016005/ Fri, 29 May 2009 14:00:42 PDT
And better yet is the fact that in only 2 days will the trailer be released! Rob, Kristen, and Taylor will be presenting the trailer at the MTV Movie Awards!!! Eeek!

I think that this one will be soooo much better than the first. Just by looking at the quality of the filming in that clip I'm excited.

Please please PLEASE I have never wanted it to be Sunday as much as I want it right now!

God help me stem this enthusiasm!

And this pointless journal is over lol.

-Aki

PS my mood icon is a literal interpretation of me right now

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex I Wish I Could Handle Horror Flicks http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/24908530/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/24908530/ Thu, 28 May 2009 19:52:47 PDT NOTE 5/28/09: I removed the Official New Moon movie poster because apparently DA considers it Art Theft even if you cite the source and do not claim it as your own. So if you want to see the poster you can Google it or go to any fan site.

Really random thought, I know. But seriously, there are movies I want to see but I know I can't see because I'll get freaked out by them.

First and foremost at the moment is Hannibal Rising. My reason for wanting to see it? It's got Gaspard Ulliel in it (I actually looked up how to pronounce his name because it was bugging me). My fears: cannibalism, torture, gore, and just straight up horror.

I want to see Sweeney Todd, too. Both because I hear it's pretty good and because I like Johnny Depp as an actor.

Oh, and I really want to be able to watch some Hitchcock films. He's epic and I'm missing out by not being able to handle any scary movies.

I'm weird because I can often read scarier things and be okay. And I can watch anime or read manga with scary elements and be relatively okay. But throw in real people acting it out and I freak.

I am like...randomly obsessed with Gaspard Ulliel at the moment. I've seen clips of his work (like the trailer for Hannibal Rising--I can handle trailers--and clips of movies sometimes with English subs because he's speaking in French in almost all of his works) not to mention some interviews with him (in English this time). My curiosity started when a bunch of the Twilight fanbase started posts with why they wished he could have been Edward. I wanted to know why they thought he'd be good. So when I looked up pics, I understood the physical aspect. But when I went to see what movies he'd done, I noticed most were French which was a bummer to me since I don't speak French. But I went on YouTube and did what I said I did and viola! I understand where people are coming from with wanting him as Edward Cullen.

Not that I think Rob didn't do all right given the circumstances.

But I still wish I knew French.

Not just for Gaspard, but because the French teacher at my school is always watching music videos when I'm in her room for study hall and those vids are very catchy. It's where I learned about Gregory Lemarchal who was an amazing singer that died a few years ago and was only in his early 20s. [link] For one of my favorite songs by him.

That's all I wanted to say. And if you haven't already, please vote on your favorite type of Edward by visiting my last journal, picking your favorite, and commenting there.

Thanks!

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"Simmer down ladies. Relax as I bathe you in my dulcet tones and make sweet love to the English language." --Edward [link] is Epic Win.

~Friends Online ~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/24803963/ Mon, 25 May 2009 15:04:40 PDT 5/25/09 More Edward's added

Your type of Edward, I mean

I'm sorry for the overload of journals lately but I've been feeling very talkative. And this journal will lead to me posting stories, so your input is beneficial!

This mainly goes out the the Twilight fans out there, but if you don't know the series but like the sound of one type (or a mix) of Edward's, then please go ahead and comment.

These types of Edward overlap a bit in category. All I'm asking is for your preference. It can be a mix, as well. For example, you could like "Angstward" and "Vampward" combined in one. If you need any explanations for a certain type, please comment and I'll be happy to explain or provide a story link in which this type is explained.

So here we go! It's alphabetical order and any italicized ones is where I've already started a oneshot for this type.

Dickward (or Assward, or Jerkward, etc)

Fatward

Medward (Med as in medicine)

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/24785891/ Sat, 16 May 2009 11:33:23 PDT
I've been Rick-rolled twice in one week. How sad.

But anyways.

Does anybody here watch The Biggest Loser? I watched the finale last Tuesday and...Holy crap everyone looked sooo much healthier! Some people still have a long way to go (like the silver team and the orange team) but there's definite improvement.

Regarding the choosing of the third finalist, it was no surprise to me that Mike won that. I personally have been rooting for the brown team, and just Mike, for the entire season. It's admirable to see someone so close to your own age have that determination to turn their life around. And he's such a good person as well. Consistently working his ass off to keep his Dad in the game. And then when he won that "grocery for a year" prize and gave it to Aubrey because she needed it more because he's "just a college student."

And dear Jesus when he walked out...my jaw literally dropped. My Mom, who was watching it with, went "he's skinny!" No, really? And then a few moments later, "he's actually cute!" As if I hadn't been thinking that since he walked out.

I looked at the before and after pictures...it's amazing. 5'11" and 181 pounds. He basically lost the weight of another person! A slightly overweight person! And four more pounds and he would have beat Helen. I really wanted him to win. Out of the finalists, I'd have to say he looks the best. Poor Helen is older and her skin stretched out and won't stretch bad in. The wonders of having youthful skin. And Tara, her body looks great! She still has a few pounds she could lose, but within the amount of time she did all that is amazing. Her face is so angular now that she's skinny. It's...interesting. Not bad looking, but not the traditional pretty. Interesting is never bad, though, right?

What is also inspiring about Mike is that he's lived his whole life overweight. Tara and Helen were skinny not that long ago.

So Mike Morelli...if you ever see this, message me ;D

LOLOLOL

So now I'm depressed. I kinda wish I could find out how this season's people are doing at home. You know, see if they can keep it up and also what they look like if they lose any more. It'll be the first Tuesday in months that I haven't watched The Biggest Loser.

Well, until next season with its new people!

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"Simmer down ladies. Relax as I bathe you in my dulcet tones and make sweet love to the English language." --Edward [link] is Epic Win.

~Friends Online ~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/24710178/ Mon, 11 May 2009 19:22:19 PDT ...and on my birthday, no less! The little brat.

Yep, today is my birthday. It's a rather common birthday for people, actually. May is a lovely month

) All that "April showers bring May flowers" crap. Because despite it being sweltering on Saturday (seriously, I have mad sunburn on my shoulders from my softball game), today it was chilly and overcast and rainy. Though the sun did come out towards the end of my softball practice. Meaning 6 pm. Ironically the time of night I was born all those years ago...-sighs wistfully- XD

So, I've had three different cakes in two days. Carrot cake at my grandparents, yellow cake with choco icing at school, and ice cream cake at home. So that means three different birthday song renditions. I don't know which out of the three was worse. lol jk jk I love my family and friends. I got clothes from my parents (well, Mom, because I hate shopping and she has good taste), nice black sandals, and new phone from them as well. My Uncle and both sets of grandparents gave me money. And my friend KK gave me this lava lamp-ish thing that you plug into the laptop. Just what I need--something MORE to distract me while I'm writing a paper or doing an outline. lol

So this Saturday I had a softball game. We lost in extra innings. It was a hard battle! But I'm proud of the way my team played. And I hit a triple!

Tomorrow marks the start of the playoffs. It should be interesting. The team we're playing has beat us twice before, but that was at the beginning of the season and we've gotten better. Plus they just lost to the team we went extra innings with. Who knows? We may have a chance.

So in regards to my lack of updates...seriously, I took my AP exam last friday and I've been preparing since March for it. Not to mention I still had to do work for all my other classes.

Ugh, I really need to do my Advanced Chemistry homework now. Well, I've got a free period before it ;o)

That's all for now, I guess.

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"Simmer down ladies. Relax as I bathe you in my dulcet tones and make sweet love to the English language." --Edward [link] is Epic Win.

~Friends Online ~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/24277747/ Fri, 17 Apr 2009 10:53:23 PDT Okay, this is totally irrelevant but I was reading something anf it made me laugh out loud. Heavily. I was rolling.

I am Julia, Edward's shower, and the closest he has ever been to a woman. That Bella chick doesn't count because he won't even enter the bathroom if she's not completely clothed. I like the little human. She has a lovely voice and when it bounces off my tiles, it makes me happy. But seriously, she needs marry the boy and make him a man. If I have to put up with watching him flog his nozzle one more time...Sorry, I know that was crude. I really think I should have been Emmett's shower. That boy knows how to make a shower feel useful! And I love his dirty pirate talk. From [link]

Now THIS is why I love fanfiction. The creativity of people is astounding. There are waaaaay more funny quotes where this came from. Just check out the whole "Inanimate Objects in the Twilight World" series by this author. XDDD I suggest the one about the cars. And the couch one is great, too.
--End Edit--

Since the only people that read my journals are my important DA friends, I figured I'd contact you this way. So I'm doing a dedication pic to all my friends who have stuck with me in my 2 1/2 years on DA and helped me reach almost 7,000 pageviews. It will be a collage-ish type of thing so I can draw everyone nice and big and get any details I want to get in without needing a magnifying glass. lol So I need to know what you guys want to look like. Hair, eyes, face shape, all that good stuff. It doesn't have to be what YOU look like personally, but maybe what your "projected self" looks like. A character of yourself. Like how in real life I'm not "Aki" but she's based on me.

You get what I mean.

The pic will be probably from your waist up so that way I can get your style in. That way I can go totally decked out on the shirt

I've already drawn and lined

based on a pic of her and a pic from the Vans website that I thought suited her. So if you have links of stuff you want me to base you/your clothes on, by all means send it to me.

So...please comment below and let me know so I can work on this. I want to get it all done by Spring Break's end (Monday) so I can touch it up between homework that week and scan it in the following weekend, throw all the pics together on the computer, and SUBMIT!!!

XD

So time for more random stuff:

I am currently in a "Zac Efron = Awesome" Phase

It's all due to SNL. Anyone that can make fun of High School Musical/themselves is good in my books. Added bonus if they look good while doing it

So yeah...I need to go do my research paper and relearn 300 years of American history. Adios!!

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"Simmer down ladies. Relax as I bathe you in my dulcet tones and make sweet love to the English language." --Edward [link] is Epic Win.

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/24189489/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 20:30:20 PDT Thru the Walls. And yes, "thru" is meant to be spelt that way, not "through." Reason? I don't have one yet. lol

On another note, guess what? MY BIRTHDAY IS IN ONE MONTH AS OF TODAY!!! It's a cool number to be turning

And also the number on my softball uniform for my school team. XD

And a final note...IT'S SPRING!!! Weather was pretty nice yesterday, and I'm starting to get color back on my face.

--
"Simmer down ladies. Relax as I bathe you in my dulcet tones and make sweet love to the English language." --Edward [link] is Epic Win.

--

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

~Friends Online ~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/23908069/ Sun, 29 Mar 2009 10:56:30 PDT So while I'm on the "let's make fun of Twilight" note...

"Simmer down ladies. Relax as I bathe you in my dulcet tones and make sweet love to the English language." --Edward [link] is Epic Win.
-END EDIT-

LOL

Can you guess the influence for this?
XD

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Whoops... http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/23853846/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/23853846/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 17:29:55 PDT
Exciting news!! I bought the Twilight DVD from Best Buy yesterday (my bro wanted to get Pokemon platinum XD ). I'm mad, though, because it doesn't have the "Vampire Kiss Montage" and that kicks ass (saw it on YouTube).

On a Twilight note: I'm obsessive about fanfiction for it. EdBella. It's kinda scary, actually.

And funniest shit ever: My brother wanted to watch the Twilight movie with me on Friday (although I did watch the DVD alone on my laptop yesterday, tho I'm not adverse to seeing it again). I told him I would if he would read the first chapter of the book. He did (skim, but still). It's not so much scary that he read and wants to watch Twilight (he wants to be able to converse with "chicks" so he always watches chick flicks; two of his classmates saw the movie and thought it was good and one of them actually bought the DVD) but rather that he actually READ something. He doesn't read anything not related to sports. Seriously.

Enough of that.

Updates on my regular life:

I am allowed to be both editor of the Yearbook AND an officer of NHS for next year.

I'm a starter for Varsity Softball at my school. Right Field. I bat #5 (which is good!). And on that note, we beat our rival school for the first time in Varsity Softball history.

I got a new softball bat! It's a "Catalyst" by Louiseville Slugger. Over $200. An early bday gift.

I've been texting my darling Kiyo (except this past week because I was extra busy).

I have a freaking C in PreCalc because of this last chapter. My only C this year. Everything else has skyrocketed (seriously, I have an A in AP US History, which is messed up XD ).

My friend KK liked Spirited Away. We're making plans for spring break to watch Howl's Moving Castle together (she loves Christian Bale, too) and then play Guitar Hero. Too busy now.

Updates on Writing

Temporary hiatus on Connections because I'm on angsty parts and I'm not in an angsty mood XD

Starting writing my second novel, called Thru the Walls. Semi-based on true events (but the book has romance with the main character where mine has none). I'll post a summary soon as a deviation.

I have a million and one amazing fanfic ideas, but don't expect any fics soon that aren't my own writing.

Updates on Drawing

I'm delving into more of my own characters, usually from my two novels.

I have a few kickass fanart pics, though, like this one ShikaIno that I'm really proud of (it's only the first sketch but I'll line and color after I post the original).

My other time is spent with SCHOOOOOOOOL. No fun there. I'm literally not home from 7:30 am to 7 pm (because sball is right after school and traffic=annoying after 6:30).

So that's my life. I'm sorry if people think I've abandoned them. DA has taken a backseat and I'm overloaded with journals to read. I'll get on that eventually...lol.

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~
~shikainoloverxanimex A "What the Hell?!" Type of Day http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/23176378/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/23176378/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 14:45:28 PST
First off, how about I start with the easy one. The one I just discovered: I have a Jesse McCartney song on my iTunes. A serious "What the Fuck?!" moment for me. It came from a Mix CD I got from my friend like 2 years ago. It's "Right Where You Want Me." Too bad it's not "Beautiful Soul" XD I blame the Zukartney art.

Speaking of McCartney, yeah I know that he isn't doing Zuko anymore. It's Dev Patel, from Slumdog Millionaire. I really wanna see that movie...but anyways, I am kinda upset because now I've lost my main source of lulz.

[link] <-Awesome website right there for info on The Last Airbender movie. Speaking of that. Did you guys know that the person that did the voice of Zhao is the guy that plays Lucius Malfoy in the Harry Potter films? WELL IT'S TRUE!!! I mean, holy freaking crap! I never guessed that. And there's rumors that he'll be playing Zhao in the movie. Which I'm cool with because it'd be awesome if someone that did the voice in the cartoon did the live-action. And he could totally pull it off (unless you're against any white actors being cast). I mean, I'm excited about that! He's the epic bad guy in HP with the whole Death Eater thing and then he does great voice acting for the very twisted Zhao! I wanna see him do Zhao in the live-action. But it's only a rumor...

Now for some more serious stuff. No one that knows me from school can bring this up because it's supposed to be on the DL.

I was asked to be an Officer for NHS (National Honors Society), the moderator saying probably Secretary (first thought at this: my handwriting looks like fucking chicken's scratch). You have NOOO idea how big of an honor this is and just so inconceivable! But the problem is, apparently my school changed it's stupid rule and you can only be an officer for one club. Which fucking sucks because I was hoping to try and be Editor of the Yearbook next year. So the NHS moderator told me to think about it (because Editor of Yearbook looks great on resumes). So I went back this morning to tell he I'd accept (because we haven't talked about editors for next year and there are others in my grade that would do okay as Editor and I may not get it). So then she tells me she talked to the Yearbook moderator who really wants me to be Editor next year! So I'm like, "What the hell?!" in my head. I mean, here I have two AMAZING positions that anyone would kill to have and I was NOT expecting at all...and I have to choose one. So I am sent to talk to the Yearbook moderator who says I'm superior to the others up for the position next year and she goes on a list of how I'm her top choice. And I'm thinking, "Wow I guess I'm not just the average overachiever I thought I was." And she sends me back to the NHS moderator who understands how much I want to do both next year and says she'll talk to the people that made the rules and see if I can't do both. So keep your fingers crossed, because this will be killer on my resume and is such an HONOR!! WAI!

Enough of that.

So I had Yearbook class today and we had a party for meeting our second deadline. We had to do a little paperwork but I finished mine quick. And we watched "Freaky Friday" throughout it. With Lindsey Lohan. lol Yearbook = awesome. Love the teacher. And my classmates. All my grade or one up. It's only like 9 people.

In English (or Brit Lit as I have dubbed it--my teacher is the NHS moderator lol) we watched a movie on The Monarchy--like as in England and the Queen. Cool class today.

And in Chem we got our grades from our last test...A- BABY!!

..Tho I know I bombed my PreCalc test yesterday

No grade yet but I just know...

So now I'm done.

Alright-y that's my spiel!

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22810860/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 19:04:01 PST [link]

Jesse hath confirmed it. HELLO NEW LULZ-INDUCING THE LAST AIRBENDER CAST!! (Dudeee, he lacks a serious amount of info on the series. "Yeah, it was like popular in Asia and came over to the like US like YEAH!")

All the race posts concerning the all-white casting are going to double, triple, quadruptle, etc etc etc.

I totally get their point and am against the fact that, for example, the Water Tribes are definitely Inuit and all have this Asian-theme. An having the actors look like the characters is important. But then again I also believe in looking past races and going for the best actor. So if a white person was the best actor for Sokka, so be it. If an African American actor did a kick-ass Zuko, why should we discriminate? I don't know. I'm still trying to get over the

and it hasn't worked. At all. For the past couple of months of me knowing this.

So right now...I'm just enjoying the show ^^

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

~Friends Online ~

~shikainoloverxanimex Politics, People http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22654917/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22654917/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 14:24:41 PST
Note that I am a Roman Catholic that has listened to the opinions of everyone around her and gotten my own opinion on this stuff.

My Sentiments on Gay Marriage

Stolen from

1. Being Gay Is Not Natural

And real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning, tattoos, piercings and silicon breasts...

2. Gay Marriage Will Encourage People To Be Gay

In the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3. Legalizing Gay Marriage Will Open The Door To All Kinds Of
Crazy Behavior

People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has
legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. Lamps are next.

4. Straight Marriage Has Been Around A Long Time And Hasn't Changed At All

Hence why women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5. Straight Marriage Will Be Less Meaningful If Gay Marriage Were Allowed

And we can't let the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage be destroyed.

6. Straight Marriages Are Valid Because They Produce Children

So therefore, gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our population isn't out of control, our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously Gay Parents Will Raise Gay Children

Since, of course, straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay Marriage Is Not Supported By Religion

In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. Children Can Never Succeed Without A Male And A Female Role Model

Which is exactly why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay Marriage Will Change The Foundation Of Society; We Could Never Adapt To New Social Norms

Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

Repost This If You Think LOVE Makes A Marriage!

My Sentiments on Abortion and Related Topics

I believe that artificial contraception (condom, "the pill," etc) is A-okay to use if you don't want to get pregnant.

Partial-birth abortion is wrong (except if the mother is in danger). Just Google image the pictures of it.

In cases of rape, incest, or danger to the mother is unavoidable, abortion during the early stages of pregnancy is okay. Preferably using spermicide or the "Morning After" pill for the first two.

Stem-cell research = okay if it was going to aborted anyway.

You should not force doctors to perform an abortion if they are not comfortable with it. That's like taking away a person's freedom to choose. Did you know that 1/3 of all medical institutions are Catholic-based? Those institutions would be closed if they refused to perform an abortion if this new law in Congress is passed (well it's not new it's just never been passed; Obama says he'll sign it if it reaches his desk).

These views may change as more scientific research is done.

My Sentiments on Sex
If you are responsible about it then go ahead before marriage. Although I'm not a fan of 12 year olds going to that level. A little older, please? If you can't wait until you're 18, then at least high school? And...there is nothing wrong with being a V I R G I N. I'm one and not afraid to admit it!

I...think I've hit all the main topics so I'm done for now.

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

--- ~shikainoloverxanimex -EDIT!!!- Freedom! + Freaky things http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22595870/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22595870/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 19:32:36 PST It's official...Jackson Ratheborne also known as Jasper Cullen from the Twilight movie, will be playing Sokka in the live-action Avatar movie The Last Airbender directed by M. Night Shyamalan. Jackson made a comment talking about how he started learning some basic martial arts for this (although Sokka doesn't really need the martial arts because he's not a bender). This comment was seen in an "After Twilight" type of article concerning Jackson. It was talking about some of his future acting roles as well as his band.

Zukartney

is still a rumor as is the girl playing Katara (forgot her name). I think the unknown Noah Ringer is still lined up for Aang, though.

-End EDIT-

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

Ugh finally. I now have a nice, 4 day weekend ^^ I'm worth it. The only exam that was relatively easy was my Spanish one. The other...I don't know how well I did. Hopefully all B's and up.

But this journal has a main component not having to do with exams. I'll start out with the exciting, non-freaky one.

-minimal Twilight series spoilers-

JAPANESE ILLUSTRATIONS FOR BREAKING DAWN UP!!! [link] You have no idea how happy I am with that. Edward + water + moonlight +anime form = fangasm
I'm over halfway done Breaking Dawn at the moment.

Speaking of reading the Twilight series, here comes my scary part.

My Mom...is a Twi-Mom. Not like part of the forum or anything, but...she's reading the series. In other words she's now on Eclipse. Two days ago she read New Moon. Finished it on the same day.

And I'm embarrassed.

Because reading books was my thing. Something I don't share with my mother. She reads her romance novels and I read my not so much romance as supernatural or classic novels. Mainly YA novels. Except for Jane Austen.

And Eclipse has "Are they finally going to do it?" moments. And then there's Breaking Dawn...

No explanation necessary.

Also because in a way I get why people don't like the books. They are ridiculous when you look at them from a certain perspective. But I look at them in the perspective I look at most books or fanfiction at: it's fictional so who but the author dictates what happens? Plus I've always had a thing for fairy tales since the day I was born practically and Twilight series is sorta like a fairy tale for adults because it deals with deeper things. My Mom was quick to point out the religious undertones (she had a dream about the Apocalypse after reading New Moon--she blamed the whole "soul" ordeal).

So I'm feeling really awkward in my own home and plan on taking forever to finish Breaking Dawn so it puts off my Mom reading it. Or maybe finishing it but "saying" that I'm not done. lol

My mood is perfect. That's exactly what I am doing in my mind.

Okay...so that is all for the moment.

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

~Frien... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Exams http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22551355/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22551355/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 19:50:40 PST
Off to studying again!!! Wish me luck!

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Aki from A to Z + [EDIT mean survey] http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22340883/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22340883/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 18:15:17 PST While I'm at the quizzes might as well post this here.

â SURVEY

Step 1: Fill this in, and as such everyone on your watch list may then tell you you are not a bad artist. This will let you know how splendid you are, that way you can boost your monstrous ego just a smidgeon more.

Step 2: Now that you've got that great ego boost that you needed, you can sit and revel in it, and believe (falsely) that you are so superior to everyone else.

1. [X] When you doodle, you say it's a simple drawing. (doodle LOL)
2. [X] Always provide excuses such as "Still in development"
3. [1/2] Can only create an excuse of "I used a mouse, not a tablet" (I donÂt use my computer too much for drawing)
4. [1/2] You only draw faces.
5. [1/2] You always draw faces at the same direction. (usually but IÂm working on changing that)
6. [ ] The proportion is awful. (not awfulÂ )
7. [ ] Every character looks the same. (HELL no)
8. [X] Uses different hairstyle to distinguish characters.
9. [ ] Cannot distinguish left and right direction. (Um, I donÂt think this is a problem)
10. [ ] "Sketch? Who cares about that?" (OMGIES I ALWAYS SKETCH!!!)
11. [1/2] You only draw sketches. (The majority are sketches. Or start out sketches then get cleaned up, inked, and colored. But no recopied lol)
12. [ ] What's a LAYER??? (Um, no computer use here)
13. [ ] You always draw one character. (I have some variety)
14. [1/2] You always draw characters in same angle. (Not always, but usually)
15. [1/2] No matter how you draw, it's the same expression. (How about I prefer that expression?)
16. [x] You couldn't draw characters with movement. (IÂm getting better at it)
17. [X] You barely draw feet.
18. [ ] You can't draw figures from high or low angles. (IÂve tried it and did all right but prefer normal angle)
19. [ ] You don't even know the definition of high and low angle drawing. (I SO know the definition)
20. [ ] A shitty figure drawing in dynamic pose can be turned into a 4th Dimensional abstract. (W.T.F)
21. [1/2] Same character looks totally different when it is drawn in different angle or direction. (My style is developing and changing so of COURSE my characters look different through the times)
22. [ ] You can't even draw anything other than characters or draw everything except characters. (I just havenÂt posted some of my real-life or still life drawings )
23. [ ] You can only draw cute characters. (whatÂs the definition of ÂcuteÂ here?)
24. [ ] You can only draw handsome characters. (No plz)
25. [XXXX] Hands is your nightmare (IÂm working on it and am improving but theyÂre not too fun)
26. [ ] Your character's hands are always hidden behind. (No they just look deformed)
27. [ ] The idea sketch is professional but the actual quality is shitty. (Insulting, much?)
28. [1/2] You try to cover up one of the eyes with hair so that you can draw only one eye. (ItÂs not my fault my favorite characters have that type of hair style: Ino, Zuko-partially, Nicollette-sometimes, Chris-sometimes
29. [ ] Your works are always asymmetrical. (No not really)
30. [1/2] Line art only = Finished piece. (Depends on whether I want to continue with it or not)
31. [1/2] Rough sketch only = Finished piece (see above)
32. [ ] You have no anatomical knowledge. (I have some, but IÂm no anatomy major)
33. [ ] You only draw eyes.
34. [ ] Character's hand and eyes are huge.
35. [ ] You're poor in drawing the position of boobs. (Sadly IÂm decent here)
36. [1/2] Your artworks are free from all logic. Awkward anatomy and proportion. (IT DEPENDS ON WHAT IÂM DRAWING GAWD)
37. [x] You lose confidence when other people's works look great.
38. [ ] You think they are genius when they come up with satisfied quality.
39. [1/2] You collect other people's works as practice references but you actually collect them as a collection. (I do use peopleÂs poses to help me with my problemsÂisnÂt that a good thing?)
40. [ ] While drawing, you easily lose patience and go do something else
41. [ ] Tablet is your god item.
42. [ ] You regain confidence when other people's works look crappier than yours.
43. [ ] You are more than willing to draw but you lose the spirit so easily.
44. [ ] You completely lose the confidence when you see the works of true genius.
45. [ ] You draw once a month or even once a year.
46. [ ] You get mad when your favorite artists are being lazy.
47. [ ] When you draw hentai art, you end up drawing grotesque horror pictures because their proportion is so fucking awful. (Me + hentai art = lulz. Meaning no way in hell gonna happen anytime soon)
48. [ ] You don't even have faith in yourself.
49. [ ] You can't even draw since the beginning.
50. [1/2] You re... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex New Year's Resolution! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22317629/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22317629/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:54:57 PST Has anyone made any New Year Resolutions? I have! I usually don't but...this one should be do-able so I'm gonna try. My resolution is to update my fics and post art more regularly!

Speaking of art...so a few moments ago I just finished a rough sketch for EdBella (Twilight)!!! It, oddly enough, started out as a TamaHaru (Ouran) pic. I drew a rough male sketch and female sketch, not filling in any features. I started with the female and wanted to do long hair. I didn't like Haruhi's straight bangs so I combined her long hair with her current bangs. It didn't look right so I made her hair more flowy. Her expression was shocked/embarrassed and she had big (well, big for me) eyes. I went "Hmm...it sorta looks like Haruhi..." and then left to start the male. Do you know how hard Tamaki's hair is? Seriously, I prefer drawing Zuko or Shikamaru's hair. I made it too untidy looking but still flowy like Tamaki's. The reference I was using had a muscular build for the guy and I hadn't done clothes yet so there was the outline of a nice build. I stopped, trying to get inspiration and...it hit me. The untidy hair and build. The long hair, big eyes, and embarrassed face (blush marks included). I had just drawn Edward and Bella.

YAY!!!

This is the first decent Twilight pic I've ever done...and it was on accident! And I still don't have my TamaHaru pic. Oh well, there's always another day for it.

Bella looks the best. I mean, it's really close to how I picture her (but in manga style of course). Edward's...all right. It's impossible for me to pencil his "holy angelic beautiful smehxiness" on paper (words not all mine). I gave him (reuluctantly) a shirt in the end, though, because male anatomy is not my forte.

Will be inked and color (with my prismacolor markers)!!!

ANYways, enough talking. I need to go read Eclipse now so I can start Breaking Dawn before school starts again on Monday (just finished New Moon today ^^).

ADIOS!!

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

~Friends Online ~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22213926/ Fri, 26 Dec 2008 17:30:18 PST
So I'll now talk about my Christmas! Well, gift-wise it was a great deal smaller than normal. But that's okay because I didn't want/need much. But what I got I am very happy with.

Inkdeath, the final book in the Inkheart trilogy, by Cornelia Funke. I read the first two I think three years ago and the author finally finished the last book. Also, they are making a movie of it (with Brendan Fraser starring as the Dad if that gives you any sign).

The Tale of Beedle the Bard by JK Rowling. It's a Harry Potter-related book.

Prom Nights from Hell Ironic because I have not/am not/never will go to Prom, but there are stories from a bunch of authors, two being Meg Cabot and Steph Meyer who of course I love.

The Host by Stephenie Meyer. I'm excited about this ^^

Twilight by Steph Meyer. I never actually owned the book but I do own New Moon and Eclipse: Special Edition so I'm very happy. I started reading it again. I think this is the 3rd or 4th time total. Not just with this copy

BREAKING DAWN!!! Finally I own it and can read it ~~legally~~.

Yes, I got 5 books. This just shows what a life I have.

4 pairs of sweatpants that actually cover my ankles! You see, I'm tall and as I grow and clothes shrink in the wash, well, my sweatpants have been too short on me. So my Mom bought my the #1 thing on my wish list: sweatpants from the tall section.

Two new sweaters.

A long-sleeved name brand shirt.

Two pair of fuzzy socks.

Wii Music. All I can say is that I played it yesterday and my shoulders still hurt from doing the movements.

That Jillian Michaels fitness Wii game. You know, Jillian from The Biggest Loser? Yeah. I think my Mom wanted this for herself, too. I don't care, now I have a virtual Jillian to kick my ass into shape. lol

iTunes giftcards, Barnes & Noble giftcard, JCPenny giftcard.

Scratchoffs. Though my brother accidentally SCRATCHED OFF SOME OF MINE so we don't know which ones were mine and HAVE TO SPLIT THE MONEY. With my luck they were mine to begin with

It's only like 7 bucks but still.

New sketchpads.

PRISMACOLOR MARKERS (24 set). Holy frickin crap I don't know how I survived without them! I tried them out on this on piece...it is beyond awesome for my art standards. I mean, there's shading. The only bad thing it there isn't a good skin tone but I'll improvise there.

Went over my Granparents' and it was... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Computer Problems http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22176716/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22176716/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 21:23:32 PST
Just in case this is a long-term problem: Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukah, Kwanzaa, New Year, and just overall HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

I love you all and hope these days are exciting and full of love and joy ^^

-Aki

PS Sorry I can't post my clubs and everything; see last journal for them.

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex I SAW IT!!! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22126045/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22126045/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 16:27:35 PST [link] Maybe Zukartney

won't be that bad...

roflmao

Sooo....I SAW TWILIGHT TODAY GUYS OMGIES!!!

-no spoilers yet-

Finally. It's only been out for a couple weeks.

Anyways, so my Mom took me because she won a free passes and discount on one. My brother and Dad went to see the 007 movie while we saw Twilight.

I kept trying to convince my Mom for a few weeks that she had read Twilight 2 years ago after I read it the first time. One of her coworkers was reading it and she borrowed the book and read the first couple of pages but couldn't remember it. So after the movie she tells me that she remembered the book at the Ballet Studio scene.

This was a "I told you so" moment.

My Mother is officially a Twi-Mom. Go figure.

So we went to the Library afterwards cuz my Mom wanted to read the book again and of course they didn't have it. All the copies are out or on reserve. I only own New Moon and Eclipse: Special Edition. I'm getting Breaking Dawn for Christmas (I know that for a fact).

Overall I liked the movie. Some of the camera angles were funky and of course it wasn't as close to the book as it could be, but come on, it's Twilight.

-here come spoilers so skip if you don't wanna see-

Did you guys see Steph Meyer, the author, in that one scene at the diner? I pointed it out to "mah madre" when it happened.

Okay, first complaint: the whole sparkly scene and everything leading up to it. Edward was like...some crazy freak. I mean, technically he is sorta a crazy freak and a stalker and all, but seriously it was...nyeh. It took away from the magic of the sparkly scene. And the sparkles were freaky. It was too...fake and cheaply done.

The super speed looked really bad except for close angles. Tree climbing wasn't that bad...made me think of Spiderman.

For the kiss scene in the bedroom: I had heard it was going to be really "too much" and provocative and stuff, but it wasn't that bad. The only thing that bugged me was the setup. "So yeah...I got in your room thru the window like I've been doing for months even tho you didn't know I've been sneaking into your room to watch you sleep like a crazed stalker until this moment. So yeah I wanna try making out with you now. Don't move or I may lose control..."

Yeah. I made it out worse than it was. It really wasn't too bad, but unfortunately that was rhe gist of it.

I think one of my favorite parts was when they were leaving the baseball field and the whole car thing. And also when Bella breaks Charlie's heart. That was good.

The ballet scene: Carlisle was supposed to be working on Bella's head, not her leg. And Edward was supposed to just stop on his own, not have Carlisle going "Um Edward...you can stop now. Edward. Edward." And Carlisle not even spazzing when Bella's dying.

The Cullens made food...didn't happen.

The James phone-call wasn't as suspenseful as in the book.

They didn't have Jake tell Bella straight out the Cullens are vamps. And Bella actually went in the bookstore.

-END SPOILERS-

Okay enough comparisons. I like both the movie and book. I see them as separate entities, though.

So yeah, today was a really good day. I want to see the movie again...but maybe I'll just wait and get it on DVD when it comes out. Or hope it slips thru the cracks on YouTube...which I doubt, but oh well.

TATA!!!

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/22106148/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 17:48:36 PST I'M GOING TO SEE TWILIGHT TOMORROW!!! FINALLY!!! YATTAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
...Merry Christmas to me ^^
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It's finally Christmas break!!!

I'm in a good mood because of it.

First business, regarding The Last Airbender movie.

LOL

All I have to say is it's produced some hilarious art.

My fave is this one: [link] I know it incorporates more than Season One, which this movie is, but it's a "what is to come" type of thing. I'm dying right now. "She's no UUUUU" XDDD

So obviously I'm over it. Mostly. I still think it's kinda racist that they're picking all white people to do it when obviously the Water Tribes and Inuit and Fire Nation is so Asian. And it's all based outta Asian martial arts.

Speaking of martial arts...I'm interested in seeing Jesse McCartney doing them...

Okay enough on that movie.

Have you all heard about the Dragonball movie? Again with the races: why is Goku the only white one? Whatever, that trailer is hilarious. I used to watch DB, DBZ, DBGT, etc etc etc when I was younger.

Trailer: [link]

I admit that I do want to see it only for my past love of the series

Moving on again.

Art trades for Christmas:

100%

33.3% total, but 100% on the sketch. Needs inking and color.
I won't be doing any more for Christmas, but if anyone wants a general trade with me, I'm open for it!

Um...that's all for now! Since I have the time I'm working on art and writing and all that stuff, so look for some postings soon!

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

~Friends Online ~

~shikainoloverxanimex Why, Zuko, Why?! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21921538/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21921538/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 19:39:24 PST [link]

What. The. Hell.

Jessie freaking McCartney as ZUKO?!

...Come on, M. Night. I thought you may have picked up the vibe that Zuko is a little, I don't know, teen angsty? Not the pretty boy with blonde hair and blue eyes!!!

And what else? Jackson Ratheborne as Sokka. He's older than McCartney! And Zuko's older than Sokka! And Jackson is JASPER in Twilight. JASPER!!!

...I think they quite possibly mixed up the actors here or are really stupid. Jackson is really funny and stuff, but he's 1)too old to play a 15 yr old 2)better suited to play angst than Jessie.

I still can't get over that it's JESSIE MCCARTNEY!!!

...Omgies images of Zuko as a pop singer...

I haven't seen the pics for the kid playing Aang yet cuz he's some unknown, but apparently he knows karate. It's promising. Hopefully he won't be IN HIS 20'S like the other male leads.

I don't know how old the girl playing Katara is (someone enlighten me if they know) but she's...acceptable I guess. She passes for a 14 yr old with the pic I saw.

I really hope this is just casting options, unless this is for the lulz or something. But it DID come from Entertainment Weekly, a pretty reliable source.

Bleck.

Your thoughts on this matter?

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Art Trades

Halfway done sketch.

Not started yet...

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

~Friends Online ~

~shikainoloverxanimex Another Report from Aki-Update Central http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21864759/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21864759/ Sun, 07 Dec 2008 12:26:40 PST I never go to the movies that much, but there are so many that are out/coming out this year that I really want to see! Like...
-Twilight (of course; I'll see it over Xmas break b/c waiting this long is killing me)
-The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (I don't know why, it just looks interesting)
-Australia (which is where I want to be right now)
-Little Ashes (Rob Pattinson plays one of my favorite artists, Salvador Dali; and I'm lmao about the gay sex scene in there

cuz Rob=Edward in a gay sex scene=oh mah gawd!!!)
-17 Again (Yes, it's Zac Efron. When I'm not thinking he's a fag, I love him. Like now, for instance.)
-Harry Potter 6 (Everyone should have seen this one coming)
-High School Musical 3 (I'm not paying to see it in theaters, I only want to see it out of curiosity on how they end it)
-The Tale of Despereaux (I read the book when I was younger, and also Emma Watson--Hermione of HP--voice acts the princess)
-Bolt! (If Miley Cyrus weren't in it then I'd see it)
-The Day the Earth Stood Still (I had a creepy dream that reminds me of the commercials I've seen of this, so I do want to see it)

While on about movies, I watched Speak with Kristen Stewart on YouTube last night. It was pretty good.

I'm doing a "Nicollette Thru the Years" sketch dump for Connections. I like her senior sketch best.

Xmas art trade with

to do!!! I have my idea, and it shall be hilarious. I plan on going all out on this one (meaning I'll actually ink and color).

So. Many. PROJECTS!!! And tests. For school. I really need to stop getting online and pushing them off...

Speaking of school, in History we were doing the '20s. Which of course made me think of Edward, seeing as he turned into a vamp in 1918. So...inspiration struck and made me want to do a fic of "what ifs" for Twilight! Like if Edward had never gotten sick and lived as a human during the "Roaring '20s." And dear God, he'd be at the perfect age to experience much of the...aspects...of the '20s. In his 20's in the '20s XDDD. But don't expect this soon, it's just an idea that's been eating at me from when I started this chapter.

I'm attempting to catch back up on Naruto manga. It's not working very well.

Reading Mansfield Park by Jane Austen currently. Saw the movie and thought it was pretty good, and I like the book so far. Plus the guy's name is Edmund and reminds me of a Twilight moment where Bella was trying to find some Jane Austen book to read to get her kind off Edward and couldn't cuz many of the guys' names were similar to Edward.

I have this NaruSaku and ShikaIno prize fic to do for a contest I held on fanfiction a while ago, and I really need to get it out before Xmas. SOOO that means the time I would have spent on art will be devoted to writing during Xmas break. Except for on my other obligations, like Xmas presents and trades.

If anyone would like to do a trade with me for Xmas (aside from X and Kiyo who are already doing that) then comment below and we can work out the details!!!

And with that, I'm done and off to do homework...

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?" ~shikainoloverxanimex Happy Aangsgiving Weekend! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21757356/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21757356/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 21:32:35 PST

Yeah so I basically spent 6 hours today watching the second half of Season 3 of Avatar: The Last Airbender on NickToon. They had this monstrous marathon called "Aangsgiving Weekend" (Note the title of the journal; and yeah I know its kinda stupid of a name as my brother pointed out at every chance but w/e). I fell in love (again!) with "The Southern Raiders," "The Ember Island Players," and the Agni Kai of Zuko and Azula in the finale. And the Iroh-Zuko moment. And the Melon Lord moments. And...I just had an Avatar love-fest to put it simply. So I may be doing some Avatar canon-related fanfics. Note the may part of it.

"Connections" writing has progressed a bit. I blame

for it. I've also drawn (or started to) another pic for it. It's just a bunch of the characters thrown on the same sheet. I'm working out character designs (again) because my style has progressed since I first sketched out my characters.

Still reading "Castle in the Air" by Diana Wynne Jones.

So. Much. Homework!!! Damn teachers and throwing a ton of projects at me at the same time! Tomorrow will be spent catching up because I didn't do a fair amount of it over the break. But at least tomorrow is an off day

I'm still obsessed with the book Keturah and Lord Death and will probably do more fanart for it. I've already inked and colored my first one and just need to scan.

Speaking of scanning I'll do all of the ones I have sitting around at the same time after I do a few more pics so that way I can have them sitting on my computer and post one or two a day for a while and take a break. I hate scanning so when I do it I do it all at once.

Still have to see Twilight movie. Will more than likely go over Christmas break. I'm dying a little inside each day I have to spend without it. jk jk I'm patient enough to wait a few more weeks.

I hope.

That's all for now. Hope ya'll had a nice Thanksgiving and are doing well!

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

~shikainoloverxanimex Reporting from Aki-Update Central http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21524548/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21524548/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 19:04:04 PST I just read an awesome book that needs more love. Its called Keturah and Lord Death and makes me think of a cross between Zutara and EdBella. Keturah sounds similar to Katara as well...so yeah. I got it from the public library, and I know my school did a discussion on it for the people who were assigned to read it over the summer.

Right now I am reading Castle in the Air by Diana Wynne Jones. It is the sequel to her novel Howl's Moving Castle which I read a few years ago, soon after I watched the animated movie (I've seen that movie at least 5 times by now... you rule Hayao Miyazaki-sempai!). I suggest you read the books. Its a but different from the movie ^^ I love them both.

Holy craps 5 days until Twilight movie comes out!!! I won't be able to see it once it comes out, but maybe in a few weeks. Like over Christmas break or something.

I went to see a play of Macbeth and it was rather ridiculous with how bad it was. Seriously. But the people from public school like two rows in front of my school were quite entertaining: there were two girls making out, a guy with his arm around the girl to his right and the girl to his left leaning on his shoulder (the player) and apparently a boy and a girl got up together and didn't come back for another 20 minutes. I personally didn't see it but I got this info from very reliable sources not to mention several people saw this. One of our chaperones fell asleep, as did several of my fellow classmates. I didn't, though. What a shame...

On Friday night I went to a dance at school. It was okay, better than the last dance I went to. I'm not much of a dance person.

I plan on starting an official outline for Connections very soon. As in if I finish typing this before 10:30 p.m. then I'll start. And I drew a kick-ass piece of fan art of Nicollette and Chris the other day. And a pretty good pic of Nicollette and Jack. Jack is a character many of you probably haven't heard of. He's a shifty character in essence, but pure comic relief for 90% of his dialogue. Okay, maybe a little bit of an exaggeration, but you get the point!

I am still on my huge Zutara kick. Its still my OTP.

I wish S.A. Special A manga would update faster!!! And I also wish the fandom were bigger, because I really want to read some good fanfiction for it. It doesn't even have a category on ff.net! And DA doesn't have too much fan art for it either...I'll need to right those wrongs soon.

I should be getting Prismacolor markers for Christmas! My, when we were at the Arts & Crafts store picking up something for one of her projects, took me to the drawing aisle and asked what I would want. They usually don't carry the cases of markers, but rather sell them individually, so I was going to ask for a bigger set of the colored pencils. But I saw a case of the markers, and told her that is what I wanted! So at least I'll be getting one very useful and exciting gift this year! Possibly Avatar DVDs 'cause we got old gift cards for Blockbuster and Best Buy (but then again the Best Buy one will most likely be for my brother's present of some video game or other).

My Dad still does not have a job. I guess his goal of having one before Thanksgiving will not be met.

Went to the grocery store today with my Mom after softball practice (first one in a month, too) and we spent $99 on tons of food. There were so many sales! We'll literally be s... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex DECODE!!! + More Fantasmoriphicness http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21362317/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21362317/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 19:43:14 PST NEW CLUB!!!

About time I joined a Zutara club~!

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[link]
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Oh. My. Freaking. God.
I LOVE YOU PARAMORE!! EVEN MORE THAN I'VE LOVED YOU BEFORE THIS VID!!!

I mean, the music video isn't as good as misery business for example, but the fact that it shows scenes from the movie that aren't enough to be spoilers but still make you want to see the movie!! Watch it people. Decode, by Parmore. on MTV.com (click the above link).

So...MOVIE SOON!!! on November 21...15 days!!!! -spazz attack-
I have to see if my friends all want to go together as a giant group to see it. ^^

Now to move away from my Twilight addiction and into an easier-so-read format.

Ouran: I. WANT. THAT. DVD!!! Its second on my list of expensive things for Xmas. I'll have to wait, though. First 2 episodes of the English Dub are on the official website: [link] Vic you pwn so much!!! Thank you for bringing an English-speaking Tamaki to life!!!!!!!!!

Special A: So excited they uploaded 2 new chapters when I went to check today.

[link] is my favorite ever pic of Kei from a cover of the graphic novel. He's the one in the front, the one in the back is his mommy. He's so...it's beyond words.

Avatar: I dropped a hint to my Mom about getting me the Season 3 Avatar DVD. The complete box set is $44.99 on Amazon.com. If I were to only get the last DVD with the finale, it would be $11.99 for that. We have old Blockbuster giftcards that we've had for 2 yrs and never used (cuz we don't usually go to Blockbuster). My mom says that they need to be used up and I could use it to buy the DVD. The gift cards are for like $20.00 and so maybe I'll be able to get the last Season 2 DVD as well. Its a tough choice to choose between all the DVDs, but it must be done. An early Christmas present for me.
I'm also on an extreme Zutara kick and am saddened by the fact that A Matter of Honor is over. So I'm really only following 2 more chapter fics which are both close to a close, and neither have been updated in a while.

I'm also on a Zuko fan girl rampage. But to save your eyes and ears from squeeing that will be heard all over the world due to its obnoxiousness, here's this:

Naruto: Watched the latest anime episodes for Shippuden. They're FINALLY doing the Team 10 arc. Which reminds me, they were supposed to post another subtitles one today...

ShikaIno: Kinda neutral right now. Got an update on a fic I was watching like 9 months ago,
so it was a pleasant surprise. Its my number 2 right now unfortunately.

DUDE! I just saw this Ad on DA: [link] Who does this look like?! (hint: What heading am I under?)

Connections (my novel): Plan on wr... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Good+Bad+Odd+RANDOM!!!--Quick Edit-- http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21098619/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21098619/ Fri, 24 Oct 2008 21:27:29 PDT Edit 10/25/08 at 12:30 am
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ROFLMAO!!! I LOVE YOU DANTE BASCO!!!! (ie the voice of Zuko).
And better yet he's gonna do Zuko's voice for the Zutara finale some Zutarians on DA are making.

is voicing Katara. And

is organizing the whole this. Dante is a Zutarian

-fan girl squee-!!!!!!!!

This is gonna be sweet ^^

I think getting that Zuko pin was a premonition...

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Um, I'll start out with the rly fun and random. So I was at Inductions yesterday evening and I see my fellow anime lover/smart person/cool/nerdy/popular friend. She comes over and is all like "heyy!!!" (

will know who this is easily: )

I look on her blazer and see...-drum roll plz-

A ZUKO BUTTON!!!!!!!!

...I didn't even know she liked Avatar. So she apparently got it at Otakon this yr. I rly wanted to go, too. Damn. But anyways, so I kinda blatantly un-pinned it from her blazer and stuck it on mine whole we were talking with my other friend, and she didn't notice until she looked at me. Its not like I wasn't grabbing her blazer at all -note the sarcasm- Oh joys.

So eventually I beg and plead to own it and she eventually caves. I gave her 2 bucks for it today at lunch.

So, in conclusIon....I HAVE A ZUKO BUTTON!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! FAN GIRL SQUEEEE!!!!!!

Its pinned to my blazer. I will take pics and post them here ^^

Then we had a discussion on what rly happened to Ursa.

End story here.

Bad news: found out today that my Dad is officially unemployed. He talks with the unemployment ppl tomorrow morning on the phone. So we'll be collecting that for a few weeks. He's already applied for about 30 jobs though, so he plans on having another one before Thanksgiving. I'm iffy now so keep me in your prayers.

Grandfather's surgery still on for the 31st. Pray for him, too.

Comments on last journal: still wish I could shave my head, still got gunk in my hair (not that bad tho) but it should come out today in the shower im gonna take after dinner.

ShikaIno updates: Check out 1st chapter (not final) of Freezing Fire, Burning Ice. It has some of that fanart from ages ago. Just check the gallery.

Zutara: Reading lotsa fics right now. Wrote a few lines for a oneshot im working on and then that chapter fic. Drew chibi Zuko and Katara in orange and purple colored pens during Study Hall today. Funnn stuff. Zuzu is cute tho ^^

...if you havent noticed by now im in a Zuko-kick. LULZ. I blame it all on the fabulous fanfics and of course the ZUKO BUTTON!!! -is still spazzing and has had it for 24 hrs now-

Erm, I guess I'll end on that note. Off to pizza for dinner

Its not delivery, its Digiorno (literally XDDD ).

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i wish were real.

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~Clubs~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/21047746/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 13:12:53 PDT
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to cry angry tears of agony right now.

Stupid. Freaking. HORMONES!!!! I know my mom was joking about putting me on the pill to regulate them, but I'm seriously considering it right now...

OR JUST SHAVING MY HEAD!!! SCREW HAIR OR A WIG I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!! I'M GOING TO DO IT MYSELF IN LIKE 5 MINUTES AND SCREW THE CONSQUENCES AND THE REGRET AS LONG AS THESE ISSUES WILL STOP!!!!!!!!

...this makes no sense whatsoever to many, and I don't really want it to, I just need to rant somewhere. No words like "Aww, Aki-chan, I'm here for you and you can tell me all about it. Don't worry it'll get better

" etc etc etc.

Its been going on for a year now so its not getting better, and I'm not letting my parents pay all this money to see a doctor who will probably tell us to try what we're doing now. Or worse case scenario give me the antibiotics and steroids, which is way too much money!

Just shave my head and get me the wig and the problem can continue and I won't have too many problems. And I won't get in trouble for looking terrible at Inductions on Monday.

...nothing can make me better right now but time with myself. Even reading Midnight Sun that Steph Meyer posted on her website is not making me better. You know its bad then.

-Aki
{who's too preoccupied to bother with putting the clubs and friends and stuff in--go check last journal for them}

]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Romance Whore-ing http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20990678/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20990678/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 17:54:28 PDT "Seriously tagged" by

because she knows I must do this as I "whore romance" just as much as her. And the sad thing is its true...or I whore it more than her. LOL Actual update after this so if you want to you can skip over this, altho it sure is interesting...

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Six Pairings I Like (IÂm only picking 1 from each series for fairness):
1. Zutara (Avatar)Âcome on, its awesomeness of awesomeness and you know it
2. ShikaIno (Naruto)Âif you didnÂt know this one, shame on youuuu
3. HikariKei (Special A)ÂtheyÂre so adorable together, and HikariÂs cluelessness is Hilarious.
4. EdBella (Twilight)Âseriously now, who doesnÂt love the average chic getting with the hot vampire? SheÂs an inspiration to all us normal people!!!
5. HaruhiKyon (Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya)Âone word: whipped
6. TamakiHaruhi (Ouran)Âlol 2 HaruhiÂs in a row. Anyways, I think this is self-explanatory with all the pairings I like XD

Three Ships I've Abandoned:
7. Kataang (Avatar)ÂIt got kinda old and repetitive. Zutara was rly passionate and different, but then I found out that my idea actually wasnÂt that different

8. SasuSaku (Naruto)ÂIt was the first Naru pairing I got into. But then it just gotÂblah. No new plot lines. And then the storyline progressed and Sasu was a bastard and Saku a bitch at times, and I went off to NaruHina then ShikaIno
9. HarryHermoine (Harry Potter)ÂUntil book 5 I rly thought it was gonna happenÂbut then RonHermoine had undertones and it was too cute to resist.

Three Ships I've Never Liked:
10. NaruKaka (Naruto): -fetal position-
11. HarryCho (Harry Potter): Dun like Cho.
12. OzaiIroh (Avatar): -back in fetal position-

Two Ships that have Piqued my Interest:
13. HURSA!!!! (Avatar): Momma/Pappa love. Bryke denied me Zutara, but IÂm getting me some Water-Fire action!!!
14. MegumiYahiro (Special A): TheyÂre too adorable to be ignored. Ntm Megumi and Yahiro deserve more chapters and some loooove

#1. Why do you dislike #11 so much?
Um, hello, Cho is a skank who kissed Harry right after Cedric died (Cedric=Rob Pattinson=Edward LOL) and then she was crying and stuff. She ttly took advantage of him. And it denied HarryGinny for too long! She always showed up at the worst times!!!

#2. Who do you know that ships #13?
UmmmÂI think a lot of people find it hilarious and WOULD ship it (IÂm talking about you

and

)

#3. What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3?
-evil smile plz- Kei goes crazy over sexual frustration/HikariÂs total obliviousness and locks them in a room. Insert his evil aura here. Kei is just about to kiss Hikari (insert her blush here) after some seducing and then Tadashi shows up! Tadashi runs away after seeing KeiÂs evil aura (which replaced the smexy romantic aura going on just moments before) and then for once Hikari is not inept and they kiss for reals!!!!

#4. What is your favorite episode for #1?
ÂThe Southern RaidersÂ would have to be, although I really do love the finale for seasons 2 and 3. Grrr toughies. But what other Avatar ship has ninjas? CanÂt come up with any names? I didnÂt think soÂ

#5. How long have you been following couple #6?
Since I first watched OuranÂso like 2 months.

#6. What's the story with #8? What made you stop caring?
Their character development took them in the wrong direction + boringness + better ships out there

#7. Which ship do you prefer--#2 or #4?
NOES!!!! ThatÂs an evil questionÂI pretty much love them all. Plus some more that I couldnÂt put on the list (Like AoshiMisao from Rurouni Kenshin). Because Twilight movie comes out Nov 21, its EdBella (IÂm sry Shika and Ino!!!).

#8. You have the power ot make one ship non-existent. Choose from #10 or #12.
WHY CANÂT I CHOOSE BOTH?!?!?! Ummm, how about 12. Naruto crack is somehow easier to handle cuz IÂm not as into Naruto as Avatar atm.
~shikainoloverxanimex These Days I Dread-Edit http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20927099/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20927099/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 19:35:27 PDT //EDIT 10-11-08\\
ok, i realize i'm a bit melodramatic. if you haven't read below, then go ahead, but be forewarned that everything is not as bad as I make it out to be. Dad is still employed (just a strong possibility he's gonna be layed off) and my uncle is adamently helping my dad to find a new job. No one in my family would EVER let me go to that public school. My grandparents and uncle would help me stay at my current school. But it shouldn't come to that.

And ttly random but I just watched the anime movie "The Girl Who Leapt Through Time." It was rly cute. I ttly suggest it. Part 1: [link]
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Lighthearted before serious, as always.

-Reread Twilight. Twas awesome as always. Love that book.
-Dying for new chapter of Special A, even tho I read spoilers cuz I couldn't wait...all the way up 20 chapters...
-Got a B on history project of doom. Worth 2 test grades.

I have officially been on here 2 yrs. Holy fudgermuffins. Thanks for the awesome times, can't wait for numero 3!!!

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My grandfather was originally scheduled for his open heart surgery for the 23rd or 24th. It's been moved back to October 31st, Halloween.

Does anyone else find this creepy? Creepy stuff always happens on Halloween. But he's starting surgery at 5:30 am (going into hospital night before).

So everyone, please continue praying for him. It means so much for my family and especially to me, and I want to thank all of you for your support

Other news: I've noticed my Dad's been off a lot lately. I originally thought, "Oh, he's scheduled it out because something big is coming up and his usual off days won't happen." But I asked him today, cuz this was more than usual. He said he's using up his vacation time.

That was odd. Apparently his superiors were making him take the time off. I thought it was funny. I sorta chuckled. My Dad overworks himself sometimes.

Apparently he's using up this vacation time while it lasts, the amount the company that bought out his old company can't deny him (he's in a manager position). When his supeiors told him to use it, they also told him about the chance he'd be layed off.

My world came crashing down.

Two yrs ago, right before I entered DA, was around the time my Dad's original company was bought out. He works retail, and everyone should know how unreliable that can be. His paycheck basically covers our households income, as my mom works in a job so she can be close to my brother, not for the pay (we're talking part time, $5,000 a yr). His store, the very successful one, was forced to be closed down because of the company's bankrupcy and contracts with the malls and shopping centers they were located in. My Dad was saved. Him and 1 other worker from all the closed down stores in the area, and quite possibly the country, were the only ones. He was offered later, while sorta helping out at other stores, a higher job. The problem was it was in another state, far away from everything we'd come to know and love. Either my Dad would be away, or I'd move. He turned it down. He was found another job as a manager's slot luckily opened up only 1.5 hrs from out home. Good thing two cuz that area's stores would close in a yr and he would have had to find another job.

So from then on its been better. He was pretty stable. But with that scare he's been wanting to get out.

Damn economy. Its gotta be it. That's gotta be why, 2 yrs later, my family is nearly going to be poor.

He still has a job, he can still pay my tuition, and everything's ok right now. But he plans on getting another job before being layed off.

I thank the Lord God Almighty for my Uncle, his younger brother. He works at a local, successful hospital that's always expanding. He has good influence, and works with computers. He makes damn good money, too. So anyways, this hospital has like 960 jobs open right now, and manager jobs my Dad will do. So we're looking at that.

This has been going on for a week, and I just found out today.

So hopefully everything will be all right. If not, I'm gonna have to tell my parents to take me out of the school I go to, a school I love with people I love so much but has a tuition and lots of extra costs, and put me in the publuc high school 10 mins from my house: my district school if I didn't go where I go. Its a terrible school with a bad rep, and I know I would not fit in, would get beat up, be around potheads and smokers and the like. But I could do it, all for my brother being able to finish h... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Please Read!!! http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20831975/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20831975/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 20:30:21 PDT This journal is very emotional and very mood-swingy to try and not make the readers depressed. But I rly want you all to read this, its important.

Now before I get into any srsly depressing stuff I figure I better get this out of the way.

I've been on here for almost 2 yrs. My DAversity is on October 6th. Its so hard to believe! And I know I shouldn't be worried about them, but I'm kinda sad that I couldn't make my goal of 5,000 pageviews by the end of the yr. I still got a few days, but I'm 200 short. Oh well.

So thank you all for making these 2 yrs fantastic! I hope to post something for everyone for this special occasion!!

Onto the serious thing, then I'll get lighthearted. Everyone, please pray for

's Dad. He's having health issues and all. You can find out more in her journal [link]

Also, my grandpa (dad's father) has been having heart problems for the past 2 yrs. My grandma first told my mom in confidence, and my dad didn't find out until last yr. I just found this past month. A little less than 2 yrs ago he had been in the hospital for these pockets in his intestines, and he was excreting blood. I forget the technical name for it, but my other grandpa has it too just not as bad. Basically he can't have any nuts or anything with a shell. Which sucks for him cuz he loves to eat nuts. And he's always has these eye troubles from since I was little, where a film would grow over the eye. But thats ok cuz he gets this laser surgery thing every once in a while. Then there's these ankle problemns...anyways, so we've had some health scares and issues. Back to the heart. So he's supposed to have open heart surgery this month because of leaking or something. And we all know this is dangerous. But he needs this surgery. And he's having second thoughts. So he doesn't want it. I haven't had a breakdown yet, not like the 15 minutes of crying I did when he was in the hospital cuz of his intestines (it was a big surprise and all and ttly unexpected while this is a bit more gradual and waiting then rushing to the hospital). The waiting is killing me. So I don't ask God to make him get the surgery, but to do what's best as He always does. Please just pray for my whole family for strength in this dilemma, and to let my grandpa be guided into the correct decision. Its rly hard cuz I have all 4 of my grandparents still alive, and my great-grandma just died a few months ago. We've been lucky with the deaths. No surprises since my second cousin was killed in a car accident when I was like 8, and that is a whole other story.

So please just take a minute and pray for my grandpa and

's dad. It'll mean the world to us.

So, I feel the need for some lightheartedness. Turned in my histiry project of DOOM. Just getting my sleep back. I woke up this morning white as a ghost from lack of sleep and stress and all that crap, but now i'm a little more healthy looking. Still pale though. I'll be better tomorrow.

Had a dance last night at school. Was fun. Didn't have a date but I go for my friends not for boys.

is hilarious when dancing, and

brought a date! He was cute, too ^^ They were so cute together!!!

Random: [link]
Its Kei from Special A on the right of the front cover. OMGIES!!! He is, like, adorable! And hot! And just...wow! I freakin

Special A to pieces, and Kei is "teh shizz" LOL Fave character definately. Amazing series. Check it out. Now.

So that's all for now, and thanks for your time!!

"Oh Zuko, Light, Shikamaru, Kei, Tamaki, Sano, Kyon, Edward, and Kartik, why can't you be real?"

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS that quote is mine and lists every fictional male both animated and written in words that i... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex DEAR XENAIITWILIGHTMOON http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20724394/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20724394/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 13:23:14 PDT

,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it the first of May in your camping car and I saw you carve your initials into the crazy monk. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I always have felt dirty before the incarnation as an Eskimo.

Go burn,
-Aki-

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Does anyone else see the avatar references in this? Like monastery and monk = Aang, air temples, airbenders, cowardly = aang (always runs from problems), Eskimo = Katara, Sokka, and the water tribes, carve your initials into = Azula, Ozai, and all other crazy ppl, burn = Zuko, Fire Nation, firebenders
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tagged voluntarily by

How to do the note meme thing:
Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflÃ©
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures... ]]> ~shikainoloverxanimex Do You Know What Today Is? http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20621098/ http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20621098/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 14:39:52 PDT
I spazzed in my head and my friend looked at me weird. I told her thanks and turned around and took the test. I thought I did fine on it btw.

So yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIKAMARU AND INO OF NARUTO!!! My old OTP, and still fave Naruto pair. I started a fic for them a long time ago, and had planned to finish it so I could post it on their bdays for a conjoined gift, like I did last year, but I kinda forgot once September rolled in. I remember at the end of August I saw the doc on my computer and thought "Aw, I got a month, I can wait a bit to finish it." and then of course came the period of forgetment (is that even a word? well it is now).

Don't worry, my fellow shippers, I made a "Random Conversations with Naruto and Crew" (a story on my fanfiction account) chapter of total random proportions during Study Hall in school after I finished my Spanish packet. And hopefully I can post the originally intended fic tomorrow, or at the latest on the 24th. Now I gotta go type up that RCNC real fast and post it...damn.

But before I go I just need to rant a bit. I already did to Kiyo

a bit, but I'm gonna give you a quick version. This girl at school acted totally inappropriately towards me. I was shocked, because I have been very nice to her, especially with the way other people treat her. All I did was sit where she had sat the day before at lunch. No big deal because we don't have assigned seats or anything, right? Wrong. She totally flipped out and talked so condescendingly and attacked me personally (with words) that I was very angry and upset. Everyone at the table was shocked. They know what type of person I am, and I hate cattiness and all the girl drama, but for her to do that to me? Ugh. I'm still kinda mad, and it happened on Friday. I mean, its not like I had any bad intentions in the first place. All I wanted to do was sit next to someone that I used to play softball with at school and talk to her. Plus, this way I was not on the end of the table and more in the group, unlike the last few days where I was on the end and stayed to myself more. If this person happens to read this, I just want to let them know that I wasn't trying to be mean like a lot of people treat you. Is it wrong to just want to talk to someone for a lunch period? I don't think so. So let's have it this way, first come first serve to the seats. I don't want to bring this up with my Advisor or any of the other faculty, but if I have to I will. Anyone that goes to school with me and knows the person, please don't bring it up. I don't need rumors spreading that aren't true or are extended upon the facts and made extremely crazy. And I know you guys aren't the type to start those. I just needed to let it out and have it over with. In a few days this will be ancient history and things will be back to normal. If not,

I may be taking you up on that offer to sit with you for a day. I could always go for a good anime/manga talk.

Well I better go now to type that up, do some of my math packet, do some History project, and do some English project...there went my evening!

Later! And remember to spread the ShikaIno love today and tomorrow!

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

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~Clubs~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20511655/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 18:53:32 PDT
scratch. that.

i'm glad i enjoyed that free time while it lasted, cuz i got some serious homework piling up + an evil hitory project that i shoulda been given a month for and only got 2 weeks. i have yet to start it

but the teacher said the tech guy would come in and show us how to do the tech part and he still hasnt come in so yah technically i cant start the tech part. but the fam interviews + pics (its like a family history project w/ out ancestry and stuff) i could do. but i dun wanna interview my grandparents. my mom im cool with, but there's some weird questions. like "how was dating back then?" and im thinking "omg no im not gonna ask them that!"

awkward turtle.

lulz

but i did manage to get my math done faster than anticipated so i could update this. so if im late on replying or anything you know why. i can usually get on once a day tho. but im getting home rly late 2morrow cuz of nat'l honor society pics + im gonna go work out right afterwards. throw in eating + shower + homework and there went my night!

posted the WIP for the pocahontas-zutara pic. go check it out! im proud of it. did some touch ups on coloring and yesterday and still gotta finish bg. im working on it in the little free time i got.

just drew danny phantom sketch of sam today. plan on making a random bg for it then posting. its in a crossover style of the original style + my style.

connections is going great! added more content on random pieces of paper at school, and -gasps- I ACTUALLT STARTED TO TYPE IT!! ill post a little bit of it soon! drew a random pic of nicky for ya'll too. rly sketchy but its funn. and more characters drawn too. 2 new ppls.

ok i g2g now ima finish that bg for that DP pic then catch some Zzzzzz's. sry for the shorthand and all im running low on time and all.

talk to ya'll later!!!

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

PS saw some twilight boys pics in a cosmo girl mag while i was in the waiting room at the dentist! dudez...taylor lautner is the hottest character. and its funneh cuz jake wasnt my fave char in the books and ed was so much hotter in my mind but gawd i just LOVE taylor lautner so yeah...im done now buh-bye!

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~Clubs~

~Friends Online ~

http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20395173/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 17:03:38 PDT
Anyways, another reason this is a "Yatta!" moment is that I got an A- on my math "quest" (quiz+test)!!! I thought I got a C+ on it and wasn't really confident, but I ended up getting that A!!! Hly craps am I still shocked and excited and its been a few hours!

Third reason is that I made it into the Honors Society at my school. Even though they took more students that usual into this special club (I had to fill out this paper explaining my service and acheivements and all then write an essay all just to get in while maintaining atleast a 3.5 GPA), it is still a huge accomplishment. My advisor gave me a hug when I told her first thing in the morning. Congrats to

for making it in as well!!!

Fourth and fifth reasons don't have anything to do with school. They are about anime and manga.

Holy. freakin. crap.

Special A anime just...
wow.

It pwns. It simply pwns. It is currently my favorite anime of all time right now. There are 24 episodes to the season, and 22 of them have been posted online and have english subtitles. The 23rd ep was raw with no subs, but I had to watch it. I didn't understand 90% of what they were saying, but I don't care. It was awesome even without knowing what was going on. I mean, I kinda knew, but I didn't know the specifics.

(Random note: I knew 10% because of the names and common phrases like: arigato-thank you, sou ka-i see/really, yare yare-great in a sarcastic manner, etc etc etc on common phrases)

So yah, I totally not only suggest but URGE you to watch it. Go on veoh and search the episodes, or go back 2 journals and find the link to the first ep. Watch the anime before reading the manga b/c they are a little different and its better not to confuse yourself. Plus the manga is missing chapters. For example, OneManga has all the chapters up to 42. MangaFox has up to 74 but there are a lot of chaps missing. Like between 56-72 there are no chapters. And 73 is missing. Stuff like that. My patience is wanning.

Okay enough about the pwnsome S.A. Special A.

Check out the shoujo manga Hana Kimi if you haven't. Its already complete and is all on OneManga. Hilariousness. Think "girl in an all boys' school crossdressing as a boy while roommate with her idol who finds out she's a girl but doesn't say anything + love triangles and squares and stuff + doctor that is too hot for his own good and very helpful to said crossdressing girl + rivals + a cute doggy + more awesomeness." I'm not done yet, only on chapter 44 of 141 (Seriously, its gonna take me anothe week to finish at this rate) but it rocks my socks already.
Its an epic shoujo. Just read it.

I know, I know, I had that list to go by for reading/watching manga/anime but you know me and how easily I get distracted. I blame looking through those manga catalogs from '04 when I'm bored. That's how I read Red River and Hana Kimi.

Oh, "Connections" is coming along great! I skip around on scenes but by doing that I have a broader stepping stone to write the book on. Nicollette rocks my socks. She's a girl that you both wish you wanna be and would NOT would to step into her shoes.

So that's about it for now. I'll leave you to your lives now.

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

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http://shikainoloverxanimex.deviantart.com/journal/20315586/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 20:40:17 PDT
Ummm lotsa homework/upcoming quizzes-tests so studying takes priority but I promise I'll be on at least once a day for the most part.

Last weekend got a set of Prismacolor colored pencils!!! They rule. Just got basic 12 colors and still need flesh tone but I started using them on Zutara-Pocahontas pic and it looks great! I still need to finish my BG and color Zuko's skin + scan + edit on comp so it may be a while especially cuz it takes me forever to scan.

For "Connections" I drew like 2-3 character/scene pages and such and wrote a little bit more. Plot has developed immensely in my head and I know its gonna be a great story I can't wait to post a scene on here (not whole story will be on here b/c its a long-term project and hope for publishing).

Special A anime/manga is awesome. Ttly suggest it. Its Shouji, not my usual style, but pwns immensely. READ IT NOW IT NEEDS MORE LOVE!!

Ouran Moment of the journal (inspired by YouTube vid):
Tamaki: -singing- I'm...going to make a man...out of YOU!!!
-host haruhi pops out behind curtain all host-i-fied up-
Twins: Did he just sing Mulan?
Haruhi: Yare, yare.

Erm on that note...adios!

Aki
{whose random words make total sense}

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