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I haven't slept properly in such a long time O____O;; Suzue, homework, work and Akemi are keeping me up.. orz

But, now I'm happy, it's my job to help everyone else be happy too!

]]> ~shizu-kun http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/24310283/ http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/24310283/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 15:20:52 PDT
e-e HOORAY. *crawls away to die of old age*

But, I had a fun birthday <333 I spent a lot of the day with my family and then a lot of the night with Tetsuo AHAHAH 8D *killed*

Eeeergh I love him ;__;

I'm just updating because the other journal was stupid xD To everyone who saw me, thank you for the lovely wishes and gifts <3 How is everyone?

]]> ~shizu-kun http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/23287927/ http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/23287927/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 12:05:33 PST
I NEED AN OUTLET FOR MY HAPPINESS.


























































































I'M SO DAMN HAPPY.

*killed*

]]> ~shizu-kun http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/22982331/ http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/22982331/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 11:58:37 PST
Things are okay again. After that one little.. big.. screw-up on my part, everything is good now 8D yesss Akemi I'm going to come see Chie, go away!

I'm super, super excited and happy, and I'm not telling you why >3>

fshhh Tetsuo you're so great <3333333333 how did I end up so lucky as to be with you? ;w;

]]> ~shizu-kun http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/22740253/ http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/22740253/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 16:20:26 PST
I think I might be taking a break, just for a little while- I don't want to but maybe I don't have a choice, Tetsuo says he can't see me getting better any other way.

God, I think I'm going insane. Literally. I really think my mental health is deteriorating. Weird shit is happening, guys.. I'm hearing things that aren't there, I feel like there's constantly someone behind me, I keep blowing things out of proportion in my mind and thinking all this stuff is happening when really it was nothing - I need help ;_;

So uh.. happy birthday to all my friends who I missed on the actual day, Suki, Molly, Akki, Haraise, Shinya, Dai and Jiinka .. is that everyone? I'm sorry for being out of it. I love you all, honestly.

Anyway, this journal seems depressed, but I'm not actually sad at all - just.. I don't know, freaked out. Annoyed at myself, scared.. But I'm happy, believe me, I'm happy. I'm happy because of one person who sticks by my side through everything, who never abandoned me even when I deserved it, who's the sole reason for whatever sanity I have left - I sound like such a melodramatic fuck, lol. Tetsuo, I love you so much.

So don't worry about me c: I'm fine

I love you guys all, really; when all this is over, I'll get to hanging out with you guys again, I won't let myself lose anymore friends over this sort of crap

bye!





_{so I crawl back into your open arms.. ~}

]]> ~shizu-kun http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/21648029/ http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/21648029/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 13:34:01 PST
I'm actually still very happy, can you believe it? xD This has to be a record. Things are busy but really good, even if I still miss my baby sister I think it's worth it
I don't have much interesting to talk about here.. some jerk pushed me into a bunsen burner and my arm still hurts like hell even though it was like weeks ago >:C.. I fell asleep on the roof in Tetsuo's shirt and he called me weird xD ..I'm weird T_T orz

1. Complete name: Shizuki McCormick
2. why your parents gave you this name?: Dad didn't like it xD mum said it was cute, lol.
3. You ask wishes to the stars?: I used to, now I have nothing more to wish for c:
4. When was your last time that you cried?: Uhh all the time XD not so much recently..
5. You like your writing? (your letter): No, it looks girly like everything else about me xD
6. You like the bread? with what?: I don't really like food in general >>;
7. You like someone?: I LOVE Tetsuo <33 not like >w<
8. You think is mutual?: I hope so or he's a very good liar 9. If you were another person, would be your friend?: :\ Nah.
10. You have a diary?: No, again....... keep it insiiiiiide XD lol
11. Are you sarcastic? I used to be 0A0; I don't know if I am anymore xD
12. You would jump in bungee? NO WAY Q_Q
13. What (Which) is your favorite cereal? Uh.. I dunno, Corn Flakes? I don't eat breakfast lol
14. You untie your shoes before removing? Yeah <|D
15. You think you're strong? (physically/mental/sentimental): Not at all in any sense xD not AT ALL if you know me you'll understand lol
16. Your favourite ice-cream: Vanilla
17. What is your shoe-size? Small... xD
18. Pink, or red? Uh.. neither? 19. What is the worst thing in yourself? I hate everything about myself =^= Uh, I don't know. It's all equally horrible. Hahah.. maybe the fact that I've hurt everyone I've ever loved? |<;;
20. Who you miss more?: Tetsuooooooo XD yes yes he's here with me and I still miss him lmao, whenever I'm not next to him I wish I was 0^0 ..yes I'm obsessed shut up xD
21. You hope to all the people you tagged responding you? I'm not taggingg :]
22. What color of shirt, pants and shoes you have in this moment? Grey, brown, black xD -interesting-
23. Your last food today: Haven't eaten yet :1
24. What you're listening in this moments?: Grapevine Fires by Death Cab 25. The last person who talks with you in the phone?: Chiekoo~ and my mum x//x;
26. Favourite drink: Water's fine 27. Favourite sport (in T.V.): not really interested lol
28. Favourite food:
29. Terror movie, or happy end? Happy end! definitely
30. Last movie that you see in the cinema? I don't remember, it was some horror that Tet forced me to go to lol
31. Favourite day in the year?: Uh.. I don't know .^. Christmas maybe?
32. Summer or winter?: Summer definitely =w= ~ -sleeps in the sun-
33. kisses or hugs? I like both XD hugs are a bit nicer I think
34. favourite dessert? I don't.. eh xD I just won't bother lol
35. Who you think to respond this tag? not taggingggg.. you can steal if you want lol
36. Who never respond that? |:
37. What book you're reading?: Catcher in the Rye xD ..again
38. What you have in the walls of your room?: Nothing it's boring xD back at my parents' house I had a lot of photos of my friends and some posters but that's Mae's room now lol, he probably took them down
39. What you saw yesterday in the night? Stars 8D
40. Rolling Stones, or Beatles? Beatles~

]]> ~shizu-kun http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/20678270/ http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/20678270/ Thu, 25 Sep 2008 22:17:15 PDT
Is it too early to say things are looking up?

..Probably, but I don't care. Right now I can't help but be optimistic.

Just.. <33333333333333333 cx

-spam journal- I LOVE YOU ALL. _{especially tetsuo.} How's life? 83

-bites things-

]]> ~shizu-kun http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/19691299/ http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/19691299/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 15:42:42 PDT Took this test cuz.. I felt like it :]

[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You are in love.
[x] You have your own room. [but I've temorarily moved out. xD YES CHIECHI I WILL BE BACK OKAY STOP CRYING PLEASE.]
[ ] You own a cell phone.
[ ] You have an ipod/ mp3 player. [used to.. [x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 1 best friend.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 5

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up. [HA. HA. HA. :l]
[ ] You NEVER cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
T0 T A L: 3

[ ] You have over 50 friends on MySpace.
[ ] You have over 500 friends on MySpace.
[ ] You have over 1000 friends on MySpace.
[ ] You have pictures on MySpace.
[ ] Your parents let you have a MySpace.
[ ] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] You look forward to going to school.
[x] You don't wish you were someone else. [I have something nobody else does. C8]
[ ] You play a sport.
[ ] You do something after school.
T 0 T A L: 1

[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your mom.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance.
[x] You have never gotten a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
T 0 T A L: 3

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about many people.
[x] You know more than one language. [two and a half xD]
[ ] You have a screen name.
[ ] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[ ] You dont have any enemies.
[x] You are a generally nice person.
T O T A L: 5

TOTAL OVERALL: 18

Now count your numbers and multiply by 3.

I'm 54% happy with my life, according to this survey 8D Lulz. Well it's better than nothing o3o

So.. I'm not at home right now |D; Couldn't be bothered going into it, but I don't feel like being there lately. At all. xD; Kinda complicated. But Tetsuo, next time I ask you not to half-break Akemi's arms.. please listen TAT;; Dad will put this on me. I know it. I hate being hated. |<

I don't have much else to say 8D Feel like I'm swinging back and forth right now, like the title says, lol. But optimistic I will remain c: It's too early to sink into depression again, and now I have something that no one else does to hold me up :33 Yay.

<3

Oh my god I nearly got hit by a train xD I was walking along these tracks in a ditch when there was one coming, I got rescued lol. I can't wait to be told that it's not a laughing matter 83 Unless you're Akemi.

Hahah. I love being away from home. C: BUT YES, CHIE, I MISS YOU TOO. CALM DOWN.

Uhm.. nothing else to say for now I guess :3; I wanna do another quiz. -goes hunting-

Edit. Found one C: Stolen from Tetsuo.

ANOREXIA
[ ] you have dry skin
[/] you eat 1 meal [one or less]
[x] you're very weak
[x] you hate yourself
[x] you starve yourself
[x] you have low self esteem
[ ] you use laxatives
[ ] you need to be more skinny
[ ] people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat
[x] people think you are too skinny
Total: 5 1/2

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER)
[ ] your mind is all over the place
[ ] you are hyper most of the time
[ ] you barely pay attention to anything
[ ] you can't cooperate well
[ ] you talk all the time
[ ] you need attention 24/7
Total: 0 lol

BIPOLAR DISORDER
[x] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[x] you are very irritable [most of the time]
[ ] you are antisocial
[ ] you have very high self esteem sometimes
[ ] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide
Total: 3

BULIMIA NERVOSA
[/] you throw up all of your food. [I used to.]
[x] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[ ] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[ ] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[x] people think you're way too skinny
Total: 2 1/2

CONDUCT DISORDER
[ ] you are a bully.
[ ] you threaten other people
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[ ] you destroy property on purpose
[x] you always lie.
[x... ]]> ~shizu-kun http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/19476692/ http://shizu-kun.deviantart.com/journal/19476692/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 04:17:02 PDT I made my new start, everything's fine and I'm back xD hurrah.

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