http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:silhouette-of-life&section=today deviantART RSS for by:silhouette-of-life en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 09:58:39 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/27583521/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/27583521/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 17:12:33 PDT Into the sea, the sea of love,
I want to tell you,
How much I love you.
~Sea of Love - Cat Power

So....4 AP classes(including AP Studio Art)= no social life and no extra art time. I still don't really know what I want my concentration to be...most of my older pieces that I will be using are the cutesy family ones...so maybe something related to family. I dunno. too broad. I hardly come to this site anymore and it makes me kind of sad, but life goes on. I can't wait for college though!!! and that pretty much sums up what I have to say at this time.

Peace and Love,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/23599022/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/23599022/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 19:38:15 PDT but now I'm not such a despicable human being. I'm pretty much grooving to old 90's music, drinking my sleepy-time tea and getting ready to finish some history reading on WWI before school tomorrow. I have recently been freed from my attachment to someone and I may now look at other guys without feeling unfaithful. (lol) I plan on continuing to stalk the hottie at the library under good conscience now. XD The fourth quarter begins next monday and i'm pretty shocked that my junior year has gone by so quickly. These past two years have been a blur of stress, homework, and AP history! I did little to no hw this weekend and enjoyed myself thoroughly whilst shirking my responsibilities and taking long, spontaneous walks in my land, which really belongs to various neighbors and land speculators that hopefully don't know how often i trespass on their territory. It's funny, for years as a kid I envied my older siblings who were allowed to walk down the road by themselves or with eachother. Sometimes I was taken along but I dreamed of the day when I could walk out on the street alone. We live out in the boondocks, a good 15-20 miles from any small town and the country here is beautiful in a horse-farming kind of domesticated, tame landscape. Nothing wild and fierce that would have brought Whitman unspeakable joy, but still serene and inspiring when you've been locked up all week with nothing but Alan Brinkley's "American History: A Survey" to keep you company. Walking outside, in the woods, down the road, up the road, through the rolling hills and secret trails is my therapy, my consolation, my anger management, the world is my stress-ball. I own the land now, it doesn't matter if I'm two, three miles from the measly two acres that my parents own, wherever I roam is my land. By treading on sacred ground and taking in the earth through all my senses, I come to possess the land. man, Steinbeck is getting to me...speaking of a school assignment, I know I can do better in my classes and that I could have made a passing grade on my history multiple-choice test, but for once I am following my teacher's advice and I just said, to heck with it. I have to live. I need to connect with the earth. As a kid I was outside almost constantly. me and my mudholes were in separable. I walked everywhere barefoot and even during the summer up until i was about 14 I would still run around like a savage. once I started going to school my head became filled with numbers, books, studying and making good grades. I still make good grades and intend to continue, and probably couldn't stop striving for excellence even if I tried to..but recently I've had an epiphany. I need dirt. I need to feel the soil between my toes and under my fingernails, annoying the hell outta me. I need to plant something, grow something, sit in the freezing cold creek, catch crayfish with a broken net and pick wildflowers for my mother, make strings and necklaces and rings out of buttercups and clover flowers. I need to feast on wild mint leaves, baby briar thorns, sourgrass and honeysuckle. Without these simple things...no, sacred rituals of halcyon days when I was truly alive and part of the earth, I am depressed and mechanical. I've become hardened somehow. I have my moments of sweetness, but they are usually few and far between and occur when I need to impress adults or be kind to the elderly and parents etc...and I no longer feel genuinely natural. I'm emotional, but I let resentment build up and harden on my like resin, a thick gloss, all for show but it is so thick now that I can no longer breathe. Ventilation is limited. With each blow comes a sting that becomes muted and delayed but it reverberates and stays with me for extended periods of time. Then the bitterness and the dwelling and reflection comes and my wood begins to secrete another layer to my shell. It's like I molt repeatedly but never fully shed my skin, it just builds up indefinitely. I grow and develop new sides of me I never knew before but I cling to the old me for old times sake and because being my older self is useful when I see old friends.

That's enough nostalgia induced treading down memory lane...Don't expect to hear from me soon. I've tried uploading my two year old drawings that I've been recently reunited with but DA refuses to load them sooooooooo that's all for now.

Love and Peace,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/22796465/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/22796465/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 06:07:17 PST The martyr's arrived,
A desperate plea for sympathy,
It's all you'll need,

A laundry list of problems,
Doesn't make you interesting,
And never getting help doesn't make you brave,
Not listening to reason doesn't mean that you have faith,
Your just cutting off your nose to spite your face.

I wish you never told me,
I wish I never knew,
but no more, no more, no more.
no more sympathy for the martry.
I can hear you growling again,
"That's it we're through."

Stop acting like I should care,
it makes no difference to me,
whether you are there or not,
you've made yourself invisible,

you say we can't just be friends,
that's not good enough for you,
it's either all or nothing,
I don't like your extremes,
so i choose something in between,
something real and tangible, useful, practical,
you're welcome to join me.

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/21391611/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/21391611/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 16:22:18 PST tagged me, so yeah.

Rules=-
○ Choose a singer/band/group.
○ Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group.
○ Tag 5 more people (let them know they've been tagged).

Sufjan Stevens <3


Are you male or female?
- John Wayne Gacy, Jr.

Describe yourself!
- Prairie Fire that wanders about

What do people feel when they're around you?
- The Predatory Wasp of the Pallisades is out to get us!

Describe your current relationship.
- In this temple as in the heart of man, for whom he saved the earth.

Where would you like to be now?
- The Seers Tower

How do you feel about love?
- A conjunction of drones

What's your life like?
- One last whoo-hoo! for the pullman

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
- The Tallest Man, the Broadest Shoulders

Say something wise.
- Come on! Feel the Illinoise!

I tag...


]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/20859052/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/20859052/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 13:58:02 PDT if it kills me.
There will be feasting
and dancing in Jerusalem this year.
- The Mountain Goats

I have so much to do for just four classes. It's not right. Oh well, I'll do it and learn to like it or die trying. XD




100 THEME CHALLENGE + 10 FREE SKETCHES UPDATE!
I have not forgotten your requests , , , and the others on this list. I have gotten quite a few finished but they are up in the North waiting to be scanned or sent back here. I am still open to requests, especially now that school is out so feel free.




THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (Reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (Done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace - [link]
6. Break Away - [link]
7. Heaven - [link]
8. Innocence - (Reserved for Tonjj)
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again - [link]
11. Memory - [link]
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude - [link]
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (Reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (Reserved for a friend)
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign - [link]
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers - [link]
32. Night
33. Expectations - [link]
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure - [link]
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned - (Reserved for Ceresis)
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still - (Done! )
43. Dying
44. Two Roads - [link]
45. Illusion - [link]
46. Family - [link]
47. Creation - [link]
48. Childhood - [link]
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules - [link]
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought - [link]
53. Keeping a Secret - [link]
54. Tower
55. Waiting ~ [link]
56. Danger Ahead - (Done! ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/19829215/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/19829215/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 14:30:50 PDT Goo'day mate!
yes, i've been to the land of Aussies and all I can say is WOW. It was amazing!!!! World Youth Day was awesome. There were over 300,000 Catholic young people there and wow...it was pretty crazy. Sydney was sooooooo damn beautiful! It was winter down there, but everything was green and alive and growing and there were trees EVERYWHERE IN and OUT of the city!!!!!!! We stayed in the Royal National Park/Forest, which was drop dead gorgeous. I have pics I'll have to post here. No kangaroos or dingos though. :'(

I also got to see the Papa! Pope Benedict XVI! (up close too, we were like 15 feet from him and 10 feet from his pope-mobile)Setting aside the slave-drivers of chaperones for our group who insisted on us hustling everywhere and all around and through Sydney everyday with backpacks, the dogfood WYD was serving the masses, the nice 6 1/2 mile long hike through Sydney with 15lb backpacks and sleeping bags, sleeping out of doors in 35 degree weather on the ground at Randwick Raceway, getting a cold and living in the same clothes for 5 days because Qantas screwed up and lost our bags at the airport, it was a blast!

I'm going to live in New Zealand someday. it's even prettier there. it's like Ireland, but not as developed and there's so much diversity in culture and ethnicity. the native Maori people were so cool! (except I don't think I could ever get used to their tradition of touching noses and foreheads as an alternate greeting instead of shaking hands)The rolling green hills and "beauty of the untamed peaks" are well worth the strange customs.

I could go on and on about my trip, but my fingers are tired sooooooooooo yeah, i'm done now. school starts back the 21st so i've been cracking the whip on myself to get my summer reading done. i finished reading book one(of two) and now need to write a paper on it before starting book two (which also needs a paper) and then on to 100 pages of Brinkley. (our US history textbook) You'll have to forgive my hardly being on anymore. But I'll do my best to procrastinate when I have the time. Maybe next week or so.

Later,
Suki



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100 THEME CHALLENGE + 10 FREE SKETCHES UPDATE!
I have not forgotten your requests , , , and the others on this list. I have gotten quite a few finished but they are up in the North waiting to be scanned or sent back here. I am still open to requests, especially now that school is out so feel free.




THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (Reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (Done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace - [link]
6. Break Away
7. Heaven - [link]
8. Innocence - (Reserved for Tonjj)
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again - [link]
11. Memory - [link]
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (Reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (Reserved for a friend)
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign - [link]
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers - [link]
32. Night
33. Expectations - [link]
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure - http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/19016293/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 19:43:26 PDT

Summer vacation has been great so far. I went to the beach for a week with Sarah and had a lot of fun swimming, biking, going to the end of the island, shopping, meeting some guys, catching crabs and weaving my way through mother-daughter politics, all the while trying not to kill my brother who came with us because he's friends with Sarah's little brother. We were a four-some of doom!

Two days after getting back home I went to Carowinds with my youth group, which was really fun. I wasn't really scared, much to my surprise and I ended up laughing on all the rides, especially when a boy in our group screamed like a baby. It was awesome. I love roller-coasters.

That's pretty much all the updates i have for now, except that i've been drawing alot lately and now we have a scanner so if you have any requests i'm pretty much open. i'm doing well on the 100 theme challenge. i think i've got close to 1/4 done already! *est proud*

Peace & Love,
Suki


*****REQUESTS OPEN*******

100 THEME CHALLENGE + 10 FREE SKETCHES UPDATE!
I have not forgotten your requests , , , and the others on this list. I have gotten quite a few finished but they are up in the North waiting to be scanned or sent back here. I am still open to requests, especially now that school is out so feel free.




THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (Reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (Done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace - [link]
6. Break Away
7. Heaven - [link]
8. Innocence - (Reserved for Tonjj)
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again - [link]
11. Memory - [link]
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (Reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (Reserved for a friend)
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign - [link]
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers - [link]
32. Night
33. Expectations - [link]
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure - [link]
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned - (Reserved for Ceresis)
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still - (Done! )
43. Dying
44. Two Roads - [link]
45. Illusion - http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/18544475/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 08:12:24 PDT
got a new computer FINALLY. we've only had this one for 10 years now. but the new one rules and we got a scanner too, so you'll be seeing much more of my art from now on. ^_^

don't feel like talking now, so later.
peace,
Suki F. Reolyia


100 THEME CHALLENGE + 10 FREE SKETCHES UPDATE!
I have not forgotten your requests , , , and the others on this list. I have gotten quite a few finished but they are up in the North waiting to be scanned or sent back here. I am still open to requests, especially now that school is out so feel free.



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Since I have a few spaces left on the 10 Free Sketches list I am going to let you request any of the 100 themes and request a picture relating to it. That way I can kill two birds with one stone. ^^ Anyone can request so yeah, even if you just have an idea about something that might work for one of the themes, let me know. I'll probably need some inspiration some time down the road. Alright, well wish me luck!


THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (Reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (Done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace - [link]
6. Break Away
7. Heaven - [link]
8. Innocence - (Reserved for Tonjj)
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory - [link]
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (Reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (Reserved for a friend)
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign - [link]
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers - [link]
32. Night
33. Expectations - [link]
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure - [link]
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned - (Reserved for Ceresis)
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still - (Done! )
43. Dying
44. Two Roads - [link]
45. Illusion - [link]
46. Family - [link]
47. Creation - [link]
48. Childhood - [link]
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules - [link]
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought - [link]
53. Keeping a Secret - http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/18043931/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 19:27:13 PDT I just smiled at him,
And I turned the other cheek,
I really don't mind,
In fact I wish him well,
Cuz I'll be laughing my head off,
When he's burning in Hell!
-Weird Al

Yeppers, that's gonna be me this week. Mr B, my English teacher decided to give us the extra-credit assignment of going "Low-Tech" for a week and keeping a journal to record what it was like to not use electronics and advanced technology etc. So for a week no ipod, computer, tv, dvd/videos, cell phone etc. It should be fun. I might actually get some studying time in! woohoo! A lot of people are going to have a hard time, but I don't think I will. It's really funny, we're supposed to record much time we spend using these things to see if technology serves us or if we serve them. my teacher spends 70 hours per week using the above items. I calculated mine and it was about 42-44 hours/week, so i'm happy! Yeah, this is going to help me a lot i think because i really REALLY need to study hard in chemistry and ap european history. we took a practice test today for 3 hours (which = pain) and everyone did really bad. I did better than i thought i would, which is good and I definitely think I can pass the AP exam...but barely scraping by is not something I would like to settle with. oh well, i must needs be grateful. anyways, adieu until next week.
Valete, bye bye now!
Suki B.F. Reolyia

Quote of the Day: "Bird got no home"

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/17475962/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/17475962/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 13:54:17 PDT Peace,
Suki

quote of the day: "His actions were countless!"

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/17389694/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/17389694/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 03:49:40 PDT
Gotta go to school,
Suki~Bo

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16919063/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16919063/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 18:59:47 PST Peace,
Suki

ps. The song of the day is ....dun dun dun...."Leave" - Glen Hansard. He's kickass! Go watch Once and educate yourself!

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16814596/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16814596/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 10:15:20 PST There's a patch of snow on the ground,
Look around, leaves are brown,
And the sky, is a hazy shade of winter,
It's the springtime of my life.
~ Simon and Garfunkel

Ironically enough I hate winter, but I love that song...and it seems like it's been going on forever! Ugh! I want springtime again and warm weather and like, not freezing all the time. I probably wouldn't mind the cold so much if I didn't ride the bus and if the walk to the cafeteria was not as far as it is. But, yeah. I must suck it up.

As much as I can't wait for spring, I wish it wasn't coming on so soon. With spring comes EOCs, final exams and (dun dun dun) the AP European History Exam. I'm turning into a nervous wreck about the latter, and the English writing test less than a month away doesn't help any. Especially since Mr. B, my English teacher started out the year telling us we'd all be fine, we'd pass the writing test and make nearly perfect scores...liar! so yeah, we took a practice test last week and he graded them supposedly how the official state-test graders would and most of us failed it. He said mine was passing and it was better than a lot of them, but I "got distracted from the prompt and completely diverged from the topic yadayada" and so they could easily fail me for that. I'm usually very confident in my ability to write well. I usually have good grammar and spelling and punctuation etc and my sentences tend to be coherent...BUT my ideas weren't good enough or something, despite the fact that I thought my essay followed closely enough with the prompt and so do several of my peers. I think Mr. B's just out to get me. *lol* But no, he could be right, which is what I'm afraid of. I know that there's no way in Hell I'm going to fail, but making the minimal passing grade is hardly any better. I'm a perfectionist and anything significantly less than above or equal to average is a capital sin for me. I know that sounds crazy, egotistical, and whatever else, but I just hold myself up to high standards and feel that I need to "be the best I can be". *shoots self in head for cliche little proverb*

Enough ranting about English. Now, on to the history exam! WARNING: Super whiny and completely uncalled for rant below. Read at viewer's discretion. Author will not be held responsible for any hurt, damaged, annoyed, bored or disturbed feelings, thoughts, opinions, or reactions.
*ahehehem*
I FECKING HATE DBQ'S!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY SUCK AND I SUCK AT THEM, (which could be why I hate them) BUT IF I DON'T LEARN HOW TO WRITE THEM WELL UNDER THE PRESSURE OF A TIME LIMIT I AM SCREWED!!!!!!!! *sorry SJ, I tried to be stoic and failed, please don't hold this against me* But yeah, as much as I know the multiple choice is going to suck and how hard it will be, it's nothing compared to analyzing, comparing, drawing connections between and whatever the hell else it takes to write a DBQ. But there is hope, Mr. H gave the class an example DBQ from a few years ago and the grading rubric so we could see how it works and the girl's paper really wasn't anything spectacular. It sounded like something I could write...but it's the time issue that I'm worried about. When I'm under timed pressure for an essay or something written, I tend to panic and get distracted and yeah, I'm afraid I won't be able to analyze well. I suppose I'll know how capable I am after practicing a timed DBQ in class, as Mr H has promised to do this week. mkay, enough school ranting. I am boring myself and getting way to stressed and worked up about this. Anyone who has read this far deserves a box of thin mints. have a cookie! Okay, I really have nothing else to say at present so yeah...
Valete,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16711770/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16711770/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 17:45:36 PST Peace out,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16270094/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16270094/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 12:29:47 PST Talk to you later,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16085896/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/16085896/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 23:15:25 PST
"what birds don't fly at night" you know what? i'm firing my sister Val. i asked her for words of wisdom because i'm mentally drained and that's what she said...i don't get it. maybe i will later. if you have any idea what it means, please tell me because it's really bugging me. okay, i think i'm done being random now.

Peace, Love, and Spirits to All and to All a Good Night!
Suki Boudacia Fuukaze Nanji'meterarhe Reolyia

ps. dang! i love my name and all it's long glory!

Quote of the Day:
"The mind, once stretched by a new idea, never regains its original dimensions."

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/15909562/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/15909562/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 20:23:49 PST
Peace and Love,
Suki

ps. pangu the christmas pimp wants to know where his Ho Ho Hoes are! >3<

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/15684834/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/15684834/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 19:14:42 PST tagged me. Ah well, might as well get this over with.

Post-It Rules:
1. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
2. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
3. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
4. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they have been tagged.
5. Make the last one something shocking...please nothing nasty!

1. I have an obsession with herbs (specifically mint).
2. I go to a school with uniforms.
3. I wanna be a hermit someday, or at least a hobo.
4. I watch anime and LURVE it!
5. I gamble.
6. I love Latin.
7. I have a fettish for birds of prey. they're just so purty!

Shocker

8. I can be very maternal and feel as if I've adopted most of my friends.

I tag....whomever wishes to do this.

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/15653212/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/15653212/ Sat, 24 Nov 2007 17:01:36 PST Peace and Love,
Fly with Grace,
Fly with Love,
Fly with Honor,
Fly with Power,
Fly Forever,

Suki Fuukaze Nanji'meterarhe

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14856361/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14856361/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 13:02:54 PDT What's this feeling my love,
Will rip a hole in the ceiling,
I give myself to you,
from the essence of my being
and I sing to my love,
songs of sweet repeating,
I want Mashiach now,
It's time we start revealing.
- Matisyahu

Yeah, song just popped into my head so i had to write it down. (or else it would reverberate throughout the limited portion of my brain that thinks and that wouldn't taste very good, no precious, not very tasty at all! Orces, thousands of orces! Keep your nasty chips.) Okay then, sorry bout all that. I'm kinda loopy right now if you couldn't tell. I shall attempt to sober up a bit (or is it somber? i don't think i'm drunk, but I do think there is an alternative meaning to sober, so nya!) And like my many other previous attempts at anything, it will most likely fall into a premature decadence. yes, I am using my vocabulary words. wee. Let's see how many I can use while updating you about my experiences in high school life. (ABC Jello Drama may be included)

So this weekend I was really busy. Sure I was doing lots of "fun" stuff which resulted in jaded lassitude. pH34r m3! I am woman, hear me roar. anyways, fun stuff included the colonial ball, my friend's 16th birthday part that was formal, standing outside grocery stores collecting donations, watching my brother's soccer game, going to church and tonight i will go to youth group. you can imagine my mother wants to strangle me right now.

Let's start with the colonial ball. well, there wasn't much to it except that I got all dressed up and my hair was done all colonialish, although my makeup and eye-shadow made me an acculturation of 18th century and 21st century fashion. SJ said I was meant for the elder days and heck, she might be right. this dance was like a Nazi convention. not really, they just forced everyone there to dance. the main supervisor/teacher-dude, Mr. Smith was a stickler for historic authenticity. He took great umbrage to everything that was imperfect and tried to make everyone be quiet, which is pretty impossible when 98% of the people need to communicate in order to dance without smacking into people. but yeah, for the first couple hours i had to dance with one of my friends whom i shall give the alias of Se'Riah just for kicks. Then after having a profound heart-to-heart with two of my good good friends while eating a Jesus brownie a guy from my church danced with me. it was fun and much easier to dance with a guy instead of being a "guy" dancing with someone with ADD problems. lol. Ah, Se'riah. ya gotta love her. but yeah, I am going to go to the dance next year, hopefully my friends will too. *coughhinthintcoughcough*

Not much to say about saturday morning. Saturday night, however, was affably engaging. My friend, whom I shall call Dezi, was the happiest I had ever seen her. Happiness exuded from her constantly--at like the speed of light. (which is like 3.00 x 10 to the eighth power) Seeing her so happy pretty much warmed my little black heart and dispelled/ameliorated all the negative feelings I had that day. there was some dancing and I am sorry to confess that i did dance...only a little though! and not with anyone, i swear on King Jame's Bible! While at the little dance/party thing I met the infamous Kasey/Casey/Kasie/Casie etc. he was...well, interesting in the best sense of the word. he was pretty much how i imagined him, only he needed to shave. mustaches scare me. speaking of which, THERE WAS A GUY WITH AN EL DIABLO MUSTACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was pretty hella tight! i know it was rude, but every time i looked at him i just laughed. Oh, and SJ, soon after you guys left they set off fireworks in the middle of the street! then something went wrong and fireworks started shooting in all directions at our feet, under cars, into buildings and trees. something down the street a little ways caught on fire. SJ and M2, you guys should have been there. no, actually, you would have been screaming like a baby and would have probably been on the verge of passing out. it certainly got my adrenaline rushing. then we danced some more and did the cha cha slide, the chicken dance, Cotten Eyed Joe, and the macarena (sp?). T'was interesting. Then Frank played the guitar and Dezi sang. it was a very peaceful way of ending the party. you guys should have been there. but oh well.

hmm....i guess that's all you really "need" to know. sorry that i rambled on and on. this journal was kinda more for my benefit than yours. i just wanted to write it down before I forgot. ok, um...requests and the 100 theme challenge have not been forgotten, only delayed. i did a lot of them requests, but they are awaiting the scanner somewhere with ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14622745/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14622745/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 19:47:01 PDT
Anyways, yeah, i'm in a pretty pissed mood right now. idk why, but since i have virtually no problems I have to get all hyped up over other people's drama. there's some drama that I actually take pleasure in hearing about. my friend Sarah, for instance, strives on drama and usually updates me on it. it's funny how trivial it all is and how one day everything goes wrong with someone, but then the next day it can be reconciled. then there's the other kind of drama that just goes on and on forever. (like jello, once it's all *jiggles jello* it's jello for eternity!!!!) i hate it when people just can't forgive and move on. i also hate it when even though the situation is pointless people insist upon dwelling on it and it only brings pain. Ah well, whatever floats your boat. I won't get all panicky about the next catastrophe. i'll be expecting it.

so, enough about my little other people's issues issues. i want to know how all my friends are doing. i know that school's started and everything, but if you get the chance, drop me a line and let me know how you're doing or what you've been up to. okay, enough blabbing. I just checked the clock and really need to get to bed. well, i'll be updating sometime within the next two weeks or so. I also hope to be getting some more art up here soon. (hint hint Myou) I can't wait to see my artwork scanned. (i sent it to Myou and now she's supposed to scan it for me) okay, i really am done now.

Peace and Love,
Suki

Quid debeo cogitare? Valete, bye bye now!

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14536243/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14536243/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 19:58:54 PDT
The only thing I can really look forward to is my school's Colonial Ball near the end of the month. I just went to a costume shop today and rented the most beautiful dress!!!! I cannot wait. (how we lookin gurlz? *autoresponse "so good!"*) but yeah, can't wait.

Before I close this and go to bed I want to say a few words to my friends, in particular and . I have not called either of you in ages and i'm really sorry. I'm sorry about Hiru because I know... ]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14336884/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14336884/ Sat, 25 Aug 2007 16:08:41 PDT called me when I started complaining about the annoying ninth graders in my math class. But hey, I was never anywhere near as bad as these freshmen are so I think I have as much a right as anyone to complain. Anyway, school started on monday and since then I've been doing homework after school, taking needed naps and going to the doctor for the lovely infection in my mouth due to the empty sockets left after my surgery. Life has been full and it's not going to get any easier for a long, LONG time. I found out right away on the first day of school that people weren't kidding when they said tenth grade is HELL. Teachers told us we'd have to work and damn, they didn't lie.

Last year school was a relief for me. I was homeschooled along with my five siblings until last year and as you may well imagine I was getting sick of being home all the time and sick of my younger brothers who tend to be extremely annoying and loud. But this year it's different. I dread school everyday. I used to look forward to just about all my classes last year. This year I dread every single one except for art...and mabye English II.

I don't worry too much about my classmates because I got moved to a different homeroom (praise Allah!) with more academically motivated students who give a damn about their education. Sorry, I know, I need to lay off the random outbursts of spite...but it's the weekend. I've held so much in all week long and it just needs to get out somehow.

I like my teachers...I just don't like the classes and they way most of them are being taught. For example in Latin II we are studying more English grammar and history than Latin. In chemistry we spent a week on the scientific method and easy definitions that we learned in biology last year. In algebra II we've not even gotten to the third lesson yet. and the first 20 lessons are review. Then in logic we are studying grammar and parts of speech crap. I'm getting taught grammar in three different subjects!!! something is not right there. oh, and history is a pain because we have so much to do. i'm really scared because it's AP European History and I've got an essay due on the 4th, a test scheduled for the same day, a DBQ due on the 18th and I've not started any of them and for the test I have no clue what will be on it. I don't know when to take notes in class and yeah, I'm really scared I'm going to do horrible in that class.

Anyways, enough whining. I need to go eat and then work on weekend homework. oh joy. Don't expect to be hearing from me much within the next few weeks, months, years...well, i'll update when i get the time.

Peace and Love,
Suki








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Since I have a few spaces left on the 10 Free Sketches list I am going to let you request any of the 100 themes and request a picture relating to it. That way I can kill two birds with one stone. ^^ Anyone can request so yeah, even if you just have an idea about something that might work for one of the themes, let me know. I'll probably need some inspiration some time down the road. Alright, well wish me luck!


THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (Reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (Done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence - (Reserved for )
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (Reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (Reserved for a friend)
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned - (Reserved for Ceresis)
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still - ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14240016/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14240016/ Sun, 19 Aug 2007 12:13:39 PDT
I really have nothing to say right now other than once I start school I will most likely not have any spare time to draw or get on DA. But I might surprise you once in a while. ^.~ I still want people to request drawings/poems from me even though it might take time before completing them, but even so, I need to have time to think about a request before drawing it...unless of course you know exactly what you want.

Since I started the 100 Theme Challenge I've been reading over the themes a lot and realized how many broad themes there are. I've even taken to reflecting on certain themes and just writing down what comes to mind etc. I did one on the theme "light" and I even drew a quick sketch to go with it. It's very rough and my thoughts are quite unconnected. What do you think? Should I post reflections and whatever quick sketches come with them? Maybe I ought to just put them in the scrap. But yeah, let me know what you think.

Anyways, since it is my last free day I should probably practice piano and/or call one of my friends. Well, I'll be updating this when I have the time.

Until Tomorrow Then!
Suki




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Since I have a few spaces left on the 10 Free Sketches list I am going to let you request any of the 100 themes and request a picture relating to it. That way I can kill two birds with one stone. ^^ Anyone can request so yeah, even if you just have an idea about something that might work for one of the themes, let me know. I'll probably need some inspiration some time down the road. Alright, well wish me luck!


THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (Reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (Done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence - (Reserved for )
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (Reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (Reserved for a friend)
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned - (Reserved for Ceresis)
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still - (Done!)
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family - (Being worked on now/collab with awesome ppl)
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting ~ [link]
56. Danger Ahead - http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14177862/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 09:45:17 PDT though, she had to suffer most at the hands of my beauty-loving sister who insisted upon doing all sorts of things to Takahiru's hair. lol. It was funny though. Now I'm gonna die. *hides under computer desk* But yeah, she wasn't the only one who suffered a change of hair. I got my hair cut too! It is the shortest it's ever been and I really like it...only when we got home from the mall my brother-in-law pointed out that I had what he called "guy-catchers" (i.e. long bang-like things that frame my face and come down to my chin while the rest of my hair is long) Don't ask me why he calls them guy-catchers, I have no idea and something tells me I DON'T want to know.

Let's see, oh yeah, as I said before, I HATE MY MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!!! As you may have heard I got my wisdom teeth surgically removed about two weeks ago. Last week I went back for a week after surgery check up and the Doctor said that I was fine and that my mouth shouldn't hurt anymore and it was all up from here. Well, my mouth didn't stop hurting. Oh no, that would be far too much to ask. No, my mouth has increased in pain and I've been pretty much on pain killers for the past week non-stop. I think I'm going to become immune to ibuprofen now. I'm going back in today to see what's wrong. There are several possiblities and most of them will result in going back into surgery, which I will NOT do right before school starts on the 20th. Hell, I'll just stay on pain-killers for the rest of my life.

Anyways, enough whining. On to a little update on my art stuff. First I want to send out a big THANK YOU to for being so kind as to comment on nearly all of my pictures. I got home from my sister's and got on DA to find 29 messages! I was like HOLY CRAP MAN!!!!! It meant a lot to me so thank you, pharaohatemuyoutube. Second on the art stuff update is that I was able to start and finish one more of my pictures for the 100 theme challenge. In fact, it was the one that requested. I guess being with her for four/five days inspired me. I hope to be getting my artwork back from Hiru so that I can scan it on whatever scanner I can get my hands on. Um...I guess that's all as far as art stuff update. I must now restrain myself and remain disciplined. I have to finish a summer reading book and write a three page review...plus I also have to really work on practicing piano because I have a big concert coming up in September. God...I am going to be very stressed once school starts. Hell, I'm stressed now! *runs around in circles screaming bloody murder* Okay, I need to go do something productive now. It's off to my book I guess.

Forever Your Emotionally-Stressed-Time-Bomb,
Suki Fuukaze Nanji'meterarhe


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Since I have a few spaces left on the 10 Free Sketches list I am going to let you request any of the 100 themes and request a picture relating to it. That way I can kill two birds with one stone. ^^ Anyone can request so yeah, even if you just have an idea about something that might work for one of the themes, let me know. I'll probably need some inspiration some time down the road. Alright, well wish me luck!


THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (Reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (Done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence - (Reserved for )
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (Reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (Reserved for a friend) ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14105667/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14105667/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 12:50:56 PDT Peace and Love,
Suki


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Since I have a few spaces left on the 10 Free Sketches list I am going to let you request any of the 100 themes and request a picture relating to it. That way I can kill two birds with one stone. ^^ Anyone can request so yeah, even if you just have an idea about something that might work for one of the themes, let me know. I'll probably need some inspiration some time down the road. Alright, well wish me luck!


THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (Reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (Done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence - (Reserved for )
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (Reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (Reserved for a friend)
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned - (Reserved for Ceresis)
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still - (Done! To be scanned...)
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family - (Being worked on now/collab with awesome ppl)
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting ~ [link]
56. Danger Ahead - (Reserved for )
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale - (Done! For Ceresis. To be scanned.)
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm (maybe reserved for Ceresis?...partly open to anyone.)
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation - (Done! to be scanned...)

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10 Free Drawings!
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1. Charity Dilley and Chazz Princeton - Jadenlover95 [Fanart-Central] (done!)
2. Light Yagami - (done! now i just have to wait for it to be scanned)
3. Mafdet and a kitten - (done!)
4. Character Ref Sheet - http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14018940/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 18:29:15 PDT

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the point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist. After 100 pics who wouldn’t be better. Please forgive me if this in any way excludes you from taking the challenge.

The rules

1.) Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun

3.) The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.

3a.) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic

6.) In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.



THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love - (reserved for main piece)
3. Light - (done, but not really fitting for )
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence - (reserved for )
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature - (reserved for Jacob's request)
23. Cat - (reserved for a friend)
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned - (reserved for Ceresis)
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still - (Done! to be scanned...)
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family - (being worked on now/collab with awesome ppl)
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting ~ [link]
56. Danger Ahead - (Reserved for )
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale - (almost done. working on color.)
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation - (Done! to be scanned...)

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14012604/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/14012604/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 08:49:57 PDT Love taught me to lie,
Life taught me to die,
Cuz it's not hard to fall,
When you float like a cannonball.

Cannonball~Damien Rice

T'is a very good song. Very inspirational and refreshing. My friend Mary (gasp, another Mary!) burned me a copy of "O" by Damien Rice and demanded that I listen to it, so I did and I really like it. Even though it is very soft and mellow. It's that kind of music that puts you to sleep, so I listen to it at night. (i'm such a genius...) I mostly like the song cannonball because it talks about finding the silver lining in life and how you can use any situation to your own advantage by learning something. And just so that I don't get anything mixed up when I refer to this song I am not implying anything towards anyone. It is simply my own lesson that I have learned and it is my own connection to the music. I feel that this song is relevant to my life and sure, you may relate to it as well. All and good, but I'm NOT directing this at anyone.

Anyway, my sister just moved into a new apartment and so my mom and I are going to help her paint/fix up the place today. So I don't think I'll be able to say much more. I just wanted to let you know that I have survived my lovely surgery in which my two bottom wisdom teeth were taken out by force. (because I certainly put up a fight about them taking them out...) I also bet that you who read my journals may have also noticed that I finally got to scan and post some of my art, even though most of it was pretty much crap from two years ago. My wonderful brother Jacob let me use his scanner, for which I am eternally greatful and must now do his every bidding. (not really) I have about 20-30 more drawings that I hope to be scanning soon. Alright, my mom needs my assistence to carry a TV to the car so I must go. T'is been a pleasure, it has!

Peace and Love,
Suki Fuukaze Nanji'meterarhe








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10 Free Drawings! Please request while spaces are still open!

1. Charity Dilley and Chazz Princeton - Jadenlover95 [Fanart-Central] (done!)
2. Light Yagami - (done! now i just have to wait for it to be scanned)
3. Mafdet and a kitten - (done!)
4. Character Ref Sheet - (done and posted!)
5. Francis and Leona - (done!)
6. Krad/Abel/Clef/Atemu - (still deciding who I'm gonna draw)
7. a tree - my brother Jacob
8.
9.
10.

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10 Free Drawings! Please request while spaces are still open!

1. Charity Dilley and Chazz Princeton - Jadenlover95 [Fanart-Central] (done!)
2. Light Yagami - (done! now i just have to wait for it to be scanned)
3. Mafdet and a kitten - (done!)
4. Character Ref Sheet - (done and posted!)
5. Francis and Leona - (done!)
6. Krad/Abel/Clef/Atemu - (still deciding who I'm gonna draw)
7.
8.
9.
10.

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Peace and Love,
Suki

Ps. So anyone that has had a screwed up life, speak now, for your words and advice will be treated as dogma...no, Sacred Dogma. Obviously anyone who has a screwed up past and possibly screwed up mind can get through to said person, but someone with a somewhat normal mind and thinks/reasons rationally has no chance.

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13871503/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13871503/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 09:03:48 PDT
So Long!
Suki Fuukaze Nanji'meterarhe


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1. Charity Dilley and Chazz Princeton - Jadenlover95 [Fanart-Central] (done!)
2. Light Yagami - (done! now i just have to find a freaking scanner!!!!)
3. Mafdet and a kitten - (done!)
4. Character Ref Sheet - http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13570200/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 22:01:42 PDT
Setting that aside I would normally talk about something thought provoking here or even about my nephews and only niece. in fact, I think i will as soon as I get home, (but then again you'd see my maternal streak...damn, just can't win can I?) but not tonight seeing as it is like 1 am and I have one last day with the kids before flying back south. well, i'm gonna call it quits now, but i will be coming back soon. much love and peace.

Suki <3



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I need something to do, so please people, request something! I don't care if I've never met you or never even talked to you online. I just need some inspiration for what I dare to call art. I'll even be nice and ink and color it too! Just request something!!!!

1. Charity Dilley and Chazz Princeton - Jadenlover95 [Fanart-Central] (done!)
2. Light Yagami - (done! now i just have to find a freaking scanner!!!!)
3. Mafdet and a kitten - (done!)
4. Character Ref Sheet - (done!)
5. Francis and Leona - (done!)
6. Krad/Abel/Clef/Atemu - (still deciding who I'm gonna draw)
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]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13254852/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13254852/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 17:51:33 PDT
So yeah, I wound up requesting a free sketch from Iraa, now I gotta do this thing too. Request a free sketch. And if you are lucky, I may just do more than one free sketch for you. ^^ But please, request SOMETHING!!! (i'm bored!!!!!)

1. Charity Dilley and Chazz Princeton - Jadenlover95 (done!)
2. Light Yagami - (done! now i just have to find a freaking scanner!!!!)
3. Mafdet and a kitten -
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However, it's only fair if you also do this free sketch too. If you've done it before, good for you! ^^ IF not (like me) you do it! You do it too! Do it or DIE!!!!

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13206564/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13206564/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 19:11:21 PDT
1. Charity Dilley and Chazz Princeton - Jadenlover95 (done!)
2. Light Yagami - (done! now i just have to find a freaking scanner!!!!)
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However, it's only fair if you also do this free sketch too. If you've done it before, good for you! ^^ IF not (like me) you do it! You do it too! Do it or DIE!!!!

Note: Because so few are requesting, I am doing fully inked and colored pictures instead of just sketches. Enjoy! ^-^

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13076411/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/13076411/ Thu, 24 May 2007 13:27:36 PDT
That's kind of where I am right now. There is absolutely nothing I can do in my present situation to change what is happening or help resolve it. I now have this heavy burden called 'patience' to bear. God, is it ever heavy! But I guess that is just the price I have to pay for being thoughtless and rash. There is no way I could have forseen this, but I still should have tried to think before I acted. Who knows even if this happened totally because of me. I may be fooling myself to believe this was brought about by my own stupidity...yet then again, I cannot shirk the responsibility which should be wholly mine.

I am very sorry for anyone unfortunate to have a curious enough mind to be reading this. I am afraid that these past few journal entries are whiny, stupid, and must make no sense what-so-ever to you. They hardly make sense to me, and I'm the one who knows what's actually going on! I now give you total and absolute permission to leave...actually, that would be quite pointless, because I think I'm done ranting and actually have some news!

I am officially finished with finals and EOCs for my freshman year at school!!! Whohoo! I passed all of them and all my classes with some of the highest grades. I was top of the class for Algebra I, made a 96 on the English EOC, which gives me a 99 average for the whole year, and a 95 on the Biology EOC! I am so happy this is over with. I feel like I can breathe again. I still have a week left of school, but Monday I have off because of Memorial Day, Tuesday is my only full day and the rest of the week are half-days. So yeah, thank God! I've completed my first year of real school. Yay me!

Now that summer is rapidly approaching I will be open for art requests, trades, commissions and the whole nine yards! Please note me for any of the above or if you just want to chat. Well, that's all I have to say for now.

BYE!!!!!!

Suki Fuukaze

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12946134/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12946134/ Sun, 13 May 2007 19:36:25 PDT
I wish you sweet dreams,
Suki

Quote of the Day:
"I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad, that dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had." -Mad World by Gary Jules

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12731366/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12731366/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 14:31:47 PDT Peace and Love,
Suki

Quote of the Day:

"Per angusta ad augusta" - Latin
"Through trials to honors" - English translation

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12421005/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12421005/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 18:32:38 PDT That's the truth part.The dare is for you to put this in your journal to see what other people ask about you!"

This will be interesting.....

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12288498/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12288498/ Thu, 22 Mar 2007 19:00:24 PDT Quid debemus cogitare? nihil. at least that's as much as the rest of my class seems to be able to think. Ra, I'm so ticked off with my class. I've already pretty much finished ranting. I rant to my friends enough and don't really need to right now. Even though after talking about my problems I feel better and I feel like I can get over it, but I still feel that hatred deep inside me. It's like it's suppressed under a heavy weight that is just waiting to be lifted by another stupid and thoughtless act performed by one of my classmates. Once it is lifted then the hateful feelings inside me will flood out and I will be filled with such hate that I fear I will be unable to contain myself. I fear that I will lose control and in doing so, reveal to others my true nature. The hidden me that I keep so carefully tucked away for fear of getting hurt. The side of me that is vulnerable, yet powerful, but will speak my thoughts all the same, and that would be a disaster. No mortal ears should ever know my thoughts. They are my own and the only thing a person can truly possess. Things of this world, money, land, people, and even our own bodies are not our own. We had no partaking in their existence. We have no right to anything that we can see here, not even ourselves. The only thing that can ever truly be ours is our thoughts, which is to me the equivalent of a soul or at least very closely connected to it.
Some may think I'm arrogant, conceited, pretentious, stuck-up, or even cruel for not opening up and speaking every word that comes into my head. They may think this because I don't talk much about myself or my beliefs or anything relating to my life. In fact, they may think this because I rarely speak to them at all. This is because I am afraid. Afraid of them, what they would think of me for what I am, and I am even afraid of what I am. Until I can conquer the fear I have for myself and my failings, I cannot allow others to see the defects in my character, my shortcomings, my failures, my flaws...Until then I will remain a cold rock shell with no feelings, no sympathy, only an empty shell that others will try to penetrate but will never succeed to. But the barrier I surround myself, though it prevents others from seeing me, does not stop me from seeing others and what they think of me. I am still human, I can feel pain inside and out. I do not wish to escape pain though. It is a part of life and must be dealt with by everyone. The only thing I wish I could do is do something to help mankind see the light. (the light being the wisdom and knowledge in Plato's 'Allegory of the Cave') But this great wish will not be granted, no matter how hard I try I will fail. Because only through one's own efforts can one gain wisdom and understanding. Those who make themselves ignorant cannot be taught wisdom. No one can. It must be experienced and desired by each individual. Unless one knows, does and desires the good they will never obtain wisdom or anything with meaning. Others cannot do this for them, it is a personal choice and personal effort. So my labors, however helpful they may be, will never be able to achieve everyone's wisdom for them or help them completely obtain wisdom for themselves. The only thing I desire to have in my life that I don't already have is beyond my reach and any man's. Now the only thing left for me to do is continue learning and improving myself so that I may contribute to society in some way, shape, or form. Self-reliance is the only thing that can save and preserve society now, but in order for it to work many will have to be self-reliant. I have not yet cogitated a plan for how to do this, but someday I will and when I do I will have done all I can.
Vale, mi amici and goodnight,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12184141/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12184141/ Wed, 14 Mar 2007 17:05:54 PDT
I drew a baby gryphon for a school contest and it won. I got my name in the paper with its picture and now, since I go to a uniform school, it will be the elementary school's logo, which means it'll be on all the frumpy little kid's shirts. yay me.

I played a soccer game on Monday against a three A school and we lost big time. they were conceited and very cocky. it drove me nuts and I was angry for the following 24 hours. oh well, our first game we didn't do too horribly, we only lost by 2...instead of 4.

I was sick for my last piano lesson and this week when I went to my lesson it had been two weeks since I last touched the piano keys...and now she expects me to perfect three of the hardest songs I've ever played and perform them on Sunday in front of other superior musicians who I will be competing against in a month. I practically have to relearn them and I have next to no time to do that. my dad works third shift and sleeps during the day, my mom is sick so even if he were awake she'd be taking a nap, i'm gone at school, i have soccer practice until six three nights a week, sometimes games in the days in between, homework, papers and research for school, meals, my church's youth group, and my own personal hygiene to maintain. You could say I'm stressed. no doubt I'm probably making a bigger deal out of this than I should. things aren't that bad, just looking at all the stuff I have to do when it's all written down makes me wanna just die. maybe venting here wasn't such a good idea after all...but things will get easier, I know they will! They always do. I just have to do my best and stay focused. Hey look, a birdi commiting suicide! *points out the window at the kamikaze bird* yeah, I'm gonna die, but hey, I finally achieved a 100 in biology! I'm really excited and happy about that.

I guess that's enough rambling and venting for one entry.

Yes I love you guys and miss you too. No I'm not dead. Yes it is very likely I will be soon.

Farewell and Goodnight,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12005366/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/12005366/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 19:20:15 PST Into the sky,
Do you think Time,
Would pass me by?
Cuz you know I'd walk a thousand miles,
If I could just see you,
Tonight...
If I could just hold you...
Tonight.

Such a hypothetical song. Full of 'if's and 'maybe's, but then again it's not that bad. If you think about it our whole life is full of uncertainty. We have the power to choose how we act and who we are, but sometimes, and most of the time in my case, we must make decisions based on an 'if' or a 'could be' because sometimes we just can't know what will come of it. All we can do to put our conscienes at ease is to analyze things carefully and act according to our perception of virtue in whatever philosophy we find ourselves living by.

Now that I have let out a little philosophical build up I can quickly sum up my recent activities at school etc. lemme see, oh yeah, I've been playing goalie for my school's soccer tearm. I suck, but whatever, I try and get beat up in the process. we have to dive into the hard earth on a barely grass covered field that for some reason is home to many varieties of lovely gravel. the ground and I are becoming very well acquainted. My knees hate me right now, I swear, if they could talk they would be cussing me out right now. well, they'll get over it, as will I. even though soccer is painful and very physical, it's still fun and I like it...to an extent. our first game is Monday against a significantly bigger school and the thought of it makes me crap my pants. oh well, I don't think they can kill me physically...but my ego doesn't plan on surviving so yeah, good bye pride.

You may be wondering why my mood is 'yearning'. I'd like to know the answer to that myself. Many people think of yearning as longing for romance and crap, but I think we all yearn for something every moment of our lives. we are always in want of something whether it be material desires, or something abstract like happiness, peace, security etc. I think right now I am yearning for a meaning in life. questions like 'why am I here?', 'what's my purpose?', 'what good am I to this earth?' and 'am I doing what I should?' are flashing through my mind right now. I guess you could say I yearn for answers, understanding, wisdom etc.

What little I lack in my life I will soon have, so I should just wait and in Time all my dreams will come true. *sigh* well, it's getting quite late and I have school tomorrow. yippee. If only...(several sentences omitted)...

Farewell and Goodnight,
Suki Fuukaze Nanji'Meterarhe

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11953442/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11953442/ Sat, 24 Feb 2007 21:09:28 PST Like I don't care at all,
Where you are and what I said,
Seems like we're coming to an end,
Keep moving on and on and on and on,
But I can't make it on my own,
Because my heart is in Rhode Island,
Hear my apologetic cry,
Please take my hand or at least try,
Because I'm sorry,
Spare me just three last words,
'I love you' is all he heard,
I'll wait for you,
But I can't wait forever,
And I can't make it on my own,
Because my heart is in Rhode Island,
So just forget all that I said,
Just forget all that I said,
And please forgive me.

original song: "Ohio is for Lovers" - Hawthorne Heights
alterations: me

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11897337/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11897337/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 16:08:10 PST
Grades are still going good at school. I got a hundred on a quiz in bio when everyone else, other than two (very cool and smart) people, got 25% or less. most got zeros. It was quite pathetic. but nothing is going to take away from my euphoria right now! heehee!

you can tell i'm celebrating mardi gras right now. I'm eating candy, lots and lots of candy! sugar est guud. yumm...well, I have nothing intelligent to say right now except..........................................................and......................SUGAR RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11834808/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11834808/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 19:41:56 PST I will be right here waiting for you.
Oh, can't you see it baby?
You've got me going crazy.
Wherever you are,
Whatever you do,
I will be right here waiting for you.
Whatever it takes,
Or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you.
Waiting for you.
-Richard Marx

Good evening to all who have the misfortune of reading this. I was going to post an entry here yesterday proclaiming the stupidity and outrageously advertised holiday known (to all the shallow minded fools of this earth who think they know what love is, but don't have a clue what love is or why this day is even a holidy) as Valentine's Day, but to me and a select few it is known as Single Awareness Day. Since the day has come and past with little disturbance on my own private life I will resign from that task that to some would be most blasphemous and disgusting.
Instead I will talk of something much better...I can't think of what that is yet, but I will soon...i hope...oh god...where did the wonderful profound brain-things go? something tells me they went out the window, but I'm not sure. As you can well foresee, this entry it going to be filled with careless nonsense now. I'll bet you thought it would be serious and boring, maybe full of my own meditations concerning life, aka philosphy, or even theological matters, but no, For once I'm going to just comform to the rest of the world and write paragraphs upon paragraphs of complete and utter idiocy...starting now...
So yeah, today I went to school and passed notes to all my best friends about how bored I was, but most importantly how much I love them and really MEAN IT. Then I talked in class about how stupid the teachers are and how they grade everything so unfairly and call me down all the time when I ain't been doin' nuthin'!!! but wait, it gets worse. I go to lunch, and there I ate a whole corndog, OMG, I am gonna gain like 5 ounces!!! I might as well not eat the next three meals to make up for it. I gotta keep my body perfect so I can go home, take off my dorky uniforms and wear such sexy revealing clothes so that I look like a slut and might have a chance with that hot guy in gym. I think I have a chance because last I heard on IM from cheerleader101 was that she heard from soandso345 who heard from his best friend, superninja666, that the hot guy broke up with this girl who used to be my best friend and who used to sit with me all the time at lunch. so now it's over and it's my turn to get back on her for stealing my man who I am deeply and truly in love with!!! I know he loves me just as much too!!! I'm going to be so happy tomorrow, maybe he'll ask me out or even better...give me a belated V-day present!!!! oh the thought of sweet sugary goodness! Well, I gotta go chat with some more of my BEST FRIENDS FOREVER. ttfn.

Please spare me a moment while I try to breathe like a human being once again. I am so sorry if you read that and 1) got scared out of your mind and thought I was serious or 2) took offense because I just totally dissed the majority of the student population in America. Well, to all those who don't know me and are wondering to themselves, "what the hell...?" I will attempt to explain myself.

*ahem*

I was being sarcastic. Sarcasm=1. a cutting or contemptuous remark. 2. ironic criticism or reproach. 3. meant as a cruel and truthful joke.

Now then, it is getting late and I have some very serious business to attend to. I must sleep. farewell my fellow comrades.
you're beautiful people, all of you!

Suki and her very tired brain cell who is so near death that it is quoting her teacher's pick-up lines.

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11763260/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11763260/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 17:13:33 PST we are two hearts joined together,
we will be,
forever as one,
my brother,
under the sun.
-Bryan Adams

Hey lovely people,
I don't have much of anything to say. But since I just said that I will immediately find something to ramble on and on about. Let me think, oh yeah. I made all A's on my midquarter report. I got an award for that at the school on the day that I spent 12 1/2 hours on campus. that was loads of fun...>> I've been doing some artwork lately. I drew and inked a picture of Kakashi that I will hopefully post here someday. Sammi Jo, Mary, and myself got to paint a gryphon(our school mascot) on one of the school walls. It looks awesome! I hope I can get a picture to post here. I finished reading New Moon last night. It was such a good book!!!! Myriah hated the ending, but I personally didn't mind it too much. It could have been worse, so anyone who is considering not reading the book because they heard the ending sucked, JUST READ IT!!!!! wow, I'm insane. that's exciting...well, I don't have much else to say now accept that I hope you are all doing well. I feel I have neglected people here, if I have please chew me out. I need to get rid of this content mood soon before something bad happens that will knock me out emotionally.

Anna'ilae, anna'ilae,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11668304/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11668304/ Sat, 03 Feb 2007 07:42:01 PST

here's some of my friends and really awesome artists I suggest checking out!

:iconSillhouette-of-Life: <- especially this one! lol.

well, have fun! bye!

Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11589912/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11589912/ Sat, 27 Jan 2007 16:16:49 PST Those are pretty drastic situations. but maybe now you understand my point. even though bad things have happened in the past, even though you or anyone else may have made horrible mistakes, we should not try to change the past in any way shape or form. instead look to the future, but don't forget about today either. the friends you make today will shape your future tomorrow. build strong relationships based on character and you will have done all you can to ensure your own personal happiness in the years to come.

wow, I should totally be like a preacher dude. man, was that a sermon or what? I really didn't mean for it to be all up in your face and all that jazz, but it did and I apologize for it. I just had to get all my philosophies about Time out of my system. since no one will listen I feel I can vent on here.

Time after Time,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11487071/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11487071/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 20:10:09 PST anyway, whatever. if you thought the above was a rant then you are mistaken. it was simply a...whachamacallit complaint in the nicest way possible kinda-thing. it's late right now, I need to sleep, so forgive me if it seems like my mind wanders incessantly throughout this journal. but ya know, I was tired of staring at the same journal for a week and decided it had to go. so yeah, there is next to no point or reason for this entry so I now give you permission to leave and stop wasting your time reading this. there is nothing more of your interest here. nothing at all. I'm only about to spill my guts and don't really want people to read this. not really though. If i really wanted to spill my guts i'd do it in an e-mail addressed to myself and then I'd save it as a draft and keep it under my e-mail account's password protection, which is of course what I do...not that you need to know that or anything.
well, I feel kind of sad now. I went through this whole journal without one word of wisdom. I usually like, pour out philosophical propositions on here. well, here's one of my many philosophies that I, myself, came up with. It most likely has a million flaws but such is the nature of human falibility.

my quote of the day...or entry...

"One should not be judged by what one has been through, but by how one handled each situation one was placed in."

and here's a little Nieztsche for us...

"Man is more of an ape than most apes"

lol. yup, that's it for me for now. I feel my delirium coming on. good lord, I believe I spelled that wrong. oh well. it's eleven pm and I am about to go to bed. maybe I'll update this hunk-a-junk in a week or two, if not, oh well. doesn't matter much to me. *shrugs*

Sleep well, (hey, I deserve to be schizophrenic after all I've been through!)
Suki and her alternate half (the usual half is on vacation)

ps. guess what song is in my head! give up yet? Rhode Island is for Lovers by Hawthorne Heights (edited by Suki) ok, i'm leaving now. farewell!

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11399578/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11399578/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 14:41:36 PST
In case I have any unobservant readers here I am not myself today. I'm different somehow. (hm, wonder why...) but yeah, i'm not feeling bad at all! I'm feeling almost perfectly happy, yet a little annoyed at my two younger brothers. (James and Joe) James is almost four and ever since I got back from a long day at school has done nothing but scream and cry...and scream and cry....and scream and cry and hyperventilate (sp?)...you get the point. Joe is going through a stage in his ever so short life compared to my own where he can't stop butting into conversations and is constantly saying something negative about everything that happens, all that I say, all the objects i own or come in contact with, my friends etc. It's really irratating!!! and anytime I go near the phone, even if I'm not planning on using it, he accuses me of wanting to call one of my friends and tries to get my mom or dad to keep me off the phone because I "stay on the phone for hours and *whiny voice* NEVER play with him!!!" it bugs the hell outta me! I can usually just ignore him and even now that I have my conscience and heart back I still find it hard to shrug off. I think I just need to get away for a weekend...away from the noise, the drama...away from reality...oh what would I give to enter some sort of spiritual world far away from here...not paradise, but it would be close to it. and there I'd find the love i'm looking for and i'd just live in peace with my love. i wouldn't care if there was sickness, disease or pain in that other place...as long as I could get away from here and just be with the man I would love.

anyways, now that the rant is over I can be as normal and cheerful as realistically possible. Now that I've cooled off and am no longer irratated I have begun to realize how much homework and studying I should start on...now I'm stressed. great. but whatever. as Nizstche said, "what deesn't kill me makes me stronger" but then again, what defines strength? is it physical force, mental achievment or is it the power of the heart/soul/inner-thought-person-thing? I guess using Nizstche's quote in this context would mean physical strength and even possibly mental. hmm...I'm having very profound brain-things inside my head work too hard right now. I just need to lie down before I hurt myself.

in fact, that is what I plan on doing...just not now. well, my 'conscience' or what's left of it tells me that I should get myself a cup of Chai Latte, sit down with a book and relax. I think I will listen to myself and do just that.

Farewell,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11259737/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11259737/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 14:27:43 PST
Happy New Year!

~Suki~

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11173162/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11173162/ Sun, 24 Dec 2006 09:48:03 PST
~ Love you guys!
~ ditto
~ hate you...j/k, you know I love you both!
~ Merry Christmas you dork!
~ Have a happy holiday!
~ Have a good one!

There are others that have made my day/hour/moment, but I don't have the time to list them all and they wouldn't read it here anyways, so yeah.

Merry Christmas all!
and a Happy New Year!

Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11125401/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/11125401/ Wed, 20 Dec 2006 09:08:13 PST It's almost Christmas! As Christmassy as my house and family is, I am sorry to say that this year I am just not feeling the Christmas spirit at all. I don't know why, but every year as I get older I lose a little bit more Christmas cheer. Maybe it's just because I'm sick, or maybe I'm just getting too old to want gifts and too poor to give any. I guess that's what it is. I feel guilty about not being able to give many gifts and still accept gifts from others.
That's enough whining though, I seriously need to brighten up! I'm out of school until January! weeee....nevermind, that didn't really work. good feelings gone. ya know what I should do? I should just stop writing until I feel like I have something happy to say cuz I hate this pity-party-crap-stuff...I really do.
well, you probably won't get another journal til the new year, so enjoy the holidays everyone! get high off eggnog and take care not to get run over by a reigndeer (sp?)....

Wishing you Peace and Love this Christmas (or whatever December holiday you celebrate),

Suki (the elf)

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10996349/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10996349/ Fri, 08 Dec 2006 15:10:52 PST
Peace and Love,
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10973770/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10973770/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 15:23:32 PST
Greetings whoever is reading this,
I feel like such a whiner and a turd. These feelings of oppression and the queasy feeling in my stomache have not left me for 24 hours. I am waiting for something...or rather someone to tell me something horrible. I am without hope that we (certain people with whom this problem concerns) can get through this. I had hope before, but that hope, that false hope has flown away with the flocks of blackbirds into warmer lands. Even with all these feelings of hopelessness and the realization of the inevibility of the horrible things that will come to pass I hate to remain trapped in these events. I want to move on, to not be held back and depressed. These desires seem selfish though, I mean, those certain people I spoke of earlier will suffer much, and wishing to leave them in the past just doesn't seem right, but at the same time I know they love me enough to wish me to carry on my life without them. What should I do? I know not of what has happened these past 24 hours, but no news is bad news to me. if the worst happens and they all leave my life forever, should I move on and fake a life of happiness but slowly lose my soul and whatever heart I possess? or do I just dwell in what I have lost and openly show my sorrow in their absence?

I guess I'll never know... ]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10712758/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10712758/ Mon, 13 Nov 2006 14:14:49 PST
Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 Weird Habits//Things About Yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 Weird Habits//Things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6(I don't know 6 so I'll only do a couple) people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their devPage comments and tell them to read yours...

Okay, let's see...6 Weird things about me....

1. I have had over 20 crushes on various anime guys. some have lasted only an hour or so, and others have lasted weeks/months. ^^ can't help it, anime guys are so much hotter than "real" men.
2. my psychiastrist says I'm a schizophrenic, but we disagree.
3. I know all the scenes to The Lion King, Sleeping Beauty, The Emperors New Groove and other Disney movies as well as all the lyrics to Disney songs. (I can also play some of them on the piano.)
4. I am an annoying B!%(h who LIKES to stick her nose into everyone of her friend's buisness. really, I do. I even degrade myself to the level of 'matchmaker' for my close friends. just ask them, they'll tell you how horrible I am! *friends nod*
5. I like screamo-suicidal music, although I'd never touch a blade...I just like the way the music sounds and sometimes can relate...oh, did I mention I can fall asleep to Story of the Year and Hawthorne Heights? lol. yup, I can!
6. I have already planned out the top 10 most likely forms of my own death. wanna hear em? well, I don't care if you don't, you are gonna. (1) I'm going to choke on air. (2) fall off a cliff. (3) get sucked up into a tornado and dropped into a barrel of toe jam. (4) struck by lightening. (5) burned alive from one little teenie tiny match. (6) either the sun or a comet will beat down upon me. (7) somehow I will get a poison ivey leaf down my throat and into my lungs. (8) I'm gonna go back in time and either the dinosaurs will rip me apart, or Naraku will weave me into his twisted plan to kill and torture every organism on the face of the earth! (9) suffocate from too many sharpies.

Alrighty, about me....

1. There is only one word to describe me: MOODY or maybe EMOTIONAL...they're both the same anyway. but yeah, I can be soooooo damn sweet one moment, even to people I don't like, but if someone says/does something I don't like/approve of, then I CAN(won't always) blow up.
2. I have a big family....aka four brothers, one brother-in-law, two sisters, one sister-in-law, a niece, three nephews and over 25 cousins.
3. I enjoy drawing(mostly manga/anime stuff), playing, singing, and listening to music, writing is sometimes fun, I love being up high...I was meant to have wings, and I have to potential to do embroidery. the only problem is I don't have the time anymore.
4. people take me too literally when I am sarcastic, and when I'm sincere they assume that I am being sarcastic and or lying.
5. I was homeschooled until high school by my Mother.
6. I am, as my friends call me, a vicious Roman Catholic Republican who doesn't care about poor people and only wants the rich to benefit. I'm gonna die for that, but ya know what? I don't care, you Democrats can shoot me for all it matters. that would only rid me of my pain and prove that Democrats are ok with killing innocent people who wish to express the freedom of speech our country is supposed to possess! *pant pant*
*continues as if nothing happened*

I hereby tag:
Zennilae, Betrayed Anguish, and for the heck of it, Searing-Hell-Lion

sorry, I don't know how to put the little avatar pics up here.

well, you guys know who you are and had better all(excepting Searing-Hell-Lion) participate!

luv ya guys/gals!
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10683890/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10683890/ Fri, 10 Nov 2006 20:56:14 PST
I have just been called a sucky-monkey. nice eh? Newho, "I am a leaf in the wind, watch as I soar." *shiffle* in honor of Wash from Serenity, and those of you who are totally oblivious, you suck and will watch Serenity or else every moment of your life (which won't be a very long period) will be a raging torrent of pain and misery!!!!! Bwhahahahahaaa!!!!!

*finally takes a breath* ahem, moving on...I'm hyper....and random....and the usual profound brain things inside my head have become as evanescent as happiness. my karma ran over your dogma....weeeeeeee!!!!!

just so you know, it is 11:50 pm and I usually go to bed around 9:30-10:00....so I am tired and so is meh bud Hiru. maybe you will hear something relatively informative tomorrow after I retrieve the lost brain things inside my head that no longer exist in my empty shell.

nighty-night
Suki

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10605095/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10605095/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 15:10:00 PST
*cough cough* Ahem, sorry bout that. Just a little inside joke that I had to get out of my system. TGIF! and not only that, but Hiru is comin over and that makes me very, very happy....not to mention I got a 98 on a history test! but setting my vain side aside...(hmm, side aside...kinda funny how that sounds.) I'd like to send out a big THANK YOU to Iraa for drawing a picture for me.

THANKS IRAA!!!!!!!!!!!! I wuv u 2 pieces!

my Mom hurt her wrist yesterday and got some sort of hairline fracture so I have to help her with little everyday things. i don't mind too much. I would say more, but she needs my help so I must take my leave.

nice being back here again after a few days,
Suki

Quote of the day-

"There are two kinds of people in this world: the rightous who believe themselves sinners, and the sinners who believe themselves rightous."

By- some really wise dude who I can't remember the name of but will in a few minutes due to my luck

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10519084/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10519084/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 16:25:51 PDT
I'm also happy cuz I finally finished a picture I've been working on for three months on and off. It's my latest, please check it out and comment.

I don't have much time, just thought I'd update the journal a bit and let anyone who cares know that I have not killed anything or wish to kill anything at the present time.

I'm still taking requests for pictures/poems/songs.

Anna'ilae anna'ilae,
Suki (s)

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10476303/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10476303/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 13:05:17 PDT
I am EXCRUCIATINGLY DISPLEASED!!!!!!!!!! and now I have to get off the computer so I can't try to write what I was going to. yarg!

hope your day is better than mine,
Suki

ps. I'm still waiting for someone to request a picture/song/poem. Please, anyone, you don't even have to know me, just request something!!!!!!!

]]> ~silhouette-of-life http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10436532/ http://silhouette-of-life.deviantart.com/journal/10436532/ Wed, 18 Oct 2006 16:43:48 PDT
I have no clue where I heard that song at, but one day me and my friend, Takahiru, just started singing that...it's our little tradition now.

Anywho, just thought I'd say a few words since I have the time. I don't know what is wrong with me, but it seems that my moods keep changing every day or so. I wish I could have more control over myself...but oh well. I go from being really hyper and happy, to being either super sad, or super stressed/angry/worried out of my mind.

Right now I am kinda procrastinating, I'm sitting in the unnerving calm before the storm, just waiting for the storm to swallow me up into the darkness that will never cease to be. I wish the inevitable didn't have to come and that I could continue being carefree, but life without trial is a lie...a waste of time...a time to be spoiled and never fully or even get anywhere near grasping the true meaning of being alive.

Hard times, war, pain, death--they were put here for a reason. sure they may not have been intended at first when the world was made, but they do serve a purpose. And believe it or not, something good always arises from pain. I know I sound too hopeful and optimistic, but it is the truth. If you just look at everything that happens and look at why it happened or even just what happened before it, you will see that without certain painful events, that good thing never would have taken place.

Ok, so you may not notice it for a long time, even years perhaps. It all depends on the situation, but I challenge anyone who has had something bad happen in their life tell me that nothing good has ever happened as a result of it. Sure if anyone did, it would totally blow my theory, but hey, why should someone try to ignore the truth? It's still gonna be there whether you want it to or not.

Anyway, I'm really sorry this entry is so wierd, deep, philosophical etc. but that's just what kind of mental state I'm in. I'm in my pondering-the-fate-of-the-world state of mind. I have to question everything...I guess I'll talk later after another mood swing.

Peace and Love,
Suki

ps. question authority!

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