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Dad is still in Sydney until Monday, its going to be interesting having him back in the house. It kinda feels strained, and i hate it.

I wanted to update this journal but now ive started, i realise i really dont have much to say, so i will hand over the reins to the next person and i hope you are all well

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/21951529/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/21951529/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 17:33:30 PST

Well, mostly settled into our new house. Its a nice place so its good. Close to both of my jobs so im lucky, less travelling time

Christmas is nearly upon us and i wanted to wish all my watchers a very Merry Christmas, and i hope you all get what you wished for under the tree

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/21292187/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/21292187/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 22:21:32 PST

Karl and i went to New Zealand for the 2 weeks which was abslutely amazing!!! Such a beautiful country and such beautiful people.
I got on so well with his family, i feel like its a home away from home and it was such a heavenly feeling having a new mum and family where there is no threats, or blackmail, no mind games, no abusive phone calls. I just wanted to stay there forever if dad and steph moved over.

I cried when we left and so did Mum and my new little brother and older sister who i adore

But yes, back to the engagement, i got asked at the base of a beautiful waterfall overlooking a perfect window of green wilderness. It was magical

im running short of time to continue, but i will write more later and celebrate

love to all
xoxoxo

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/20316941/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/20316941/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 22:53:56 PDT

Not long till New Zelaland, a bit scary having never been anywhere and the huge looming fact i meet all of Karl's family within hours of landing for his sister Holly's 21st. So... i admit im damned nervous but very much excited... (and probably rather hyped by the time i get there, free drinks on the plane, hopefully a few energy drinks to keep me going and awake )

But yes, on other fronts, I have been working at Just Jeans now for a little over a month, afternoons and a few saturdays. I love it, being wher the store is, i know everyone having lived up here my entire life, so thoroughly enjoying it (but i think im starting to get over the fact of the new clothes, as we have to wear clothes from them that are in stock, as soon as it goes or gets sold, off to find new clothes ) So a fair bit of money goes into keeping up with fashion (i hate fashion )

But anywho, you get that

Hope all of you are well and happy

love to all xoxoxo

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/19510411/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/19510411/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 01:22:17 PDT
Things at work are gojng ok, rather hectic, but thankfully the holidays are over and things have a chance to settle down once again (and hoping i get a good interview with Just Jeans so i can get a couple extra hours a week )

Home life is having another calm before the storm since the police got involved, but i dont think the quiet will last too long (its been about a week now )

So yeah, but on the up and up, Karl and I finally have the chance to go back home to New Zealand (ok, he is going home, Im going to meet his parents.... its scary) Dad paid for the tickets since Karl, wont be able to get the lone till its too late, so we are paying him off, which is fine, im just happy to be able to get out and away where my mother cant reach and get me for 2 weeks. Now i worry about Dad having to take time off work to look after my sis, and worrying about something happening and i cant protect my family. But you get that, i gotta live my life for once and stop being a mother and actually act my age of 20 and have a little fun.

But yeah, ive now exhausted my talking for a bit, so i will let others take up the role

Hope your all doing ok

all the best

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/18993932/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/18993932/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 02:15:12 PDT I got a cyst removed from my eye and now i gotta an eye patch to wear for the rest of the afternoon... not fun
Considering i went in for a check up, and came out wih a needle in my eye and a cyst cut out atleast i had my best friend to hold my quivering hand... stupid needles

Well, thats enough about me, i just wanted to admit im a pirate

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/18775236/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/18775236/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 22:02:41 PDT Things are going good, mother is settling for the most part, but still blows up, just less often which is a blessing.
Work is good, 'cept we are all still pissy with the boss for many reasons (but arent we all? lol)
Family life is going smooth for the most part, everyone is sort off used to how things run, so it makes it a hell of a lot easier with how often my sister is with us, footy training/games, dancing and performances, and the usual rush to get dinner ready, clothes washed etc the usual house wife thing (if only i was a wife maybe a house daughter in my case)
but i dont want to bore you out of your minds with my endless chatter about nothing in particular, so i will let you be

Have fun, take care xoxoxo

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/17951865/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/17951865/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 23:40:53 PDT
Things with the family are still going the same, Mother is a walking time bomb with no remembrance of what she says.
Dad is stressing and trying to keep things stable and do the house up to be put back, once again, on the market.
My gorgeous little sis is being the social butterfly in her school holidays, its good to see her getting out and ahving fun and not worrying about things at home.
My beautiful boyfriend is going great, its been an absolute pleasure spending time with him and him understanding whats going on. i love him so much
My friends who are like my family, the are going well, saw most of them when i went to a friends engagement/housewarming (about time )
So that was great, i miss you guys!!!!!

Work is busy being school holidays, a doggy peed on my leg today :'( (thank god fo jeans )

Well, hope everything is going well in your side of town

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/16792861/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/16792861/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 22:35:07 PST
Only to find out 3 little primary school girls at my front door on friday, 3:30pm to say there is a dead cat by the letter box... And as soon as they said it was black, that was it. I found out beloved Bully dead by the footpath. My beautiful black baby who was cuddly, with beautiful golden eyes and soft black fur and huge monstrous paws was dead.

Then only to have an argument with my bf when he got home...

I just dont know what to do, i think that was the last straw, karl and i are ok, just taking it easy and starting anew with each other... im so scared of letting something or someone close because i dont want to get hurt any more...

Im sorry but i had to release something and its better than facing everyone and trying to smile and pretend everything is ok. but im not sure that i can even pretend any more. i just lost that spark and hope that things calm down and i can find myself again...

better get back to packing, everything needs to be moved by tomorrow...

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/16514332/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/16514332/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 23:30:12 PST Still looking for a new house to buy, but thats getting there atleast we have decided to buy and not rent which is good.

My best mate Julie took me along on her photo shoot her mum won her, and she paid for my hair and makeup to be done aswell, so we both looked, if you dont mind me saying, gorgeous.
And unbeknown to us, that included a photo shoot of me too! i got some in my corset and jeans with her and some by myself, then i got some in my bra and skirt, which looked great and then back shots of myself. ive always loved shots of people back, its rather sensual.
To get an album cost 2grand, so slowly paying it off, so when i eventually get it, i will see if i can put some shots up. Sorry just really happy with how it all turned out

Well, hopefully things will keep moving and we can start afresh.
goodluck with you all

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/15369822/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/15369822/ Sun, 04 Nov 2007 22:51:49 PST
My parents officially decided to divorce yesterday... so things are.... hard
My mum isnt talking to me cause she thinks im on my dads side cause i had dinner with my dad and little sister...
Its hard on me cause i dont like fighting, and i love them both, even though quite a few bad things have been happening, and i know its for the best as none of us are happy... But seeing my dad cry was one of the most heart breaking things i will ever see, and those of you who know my dad, know that he isnt the crying sort. He is and has always been my pillar of strength when i have needed it.
I always have been a Dads girl, but what is happening feels like its tearing me apart...

Im sorry but i had to let it out somehow, and this was a way where noone can see my tears...
thankyou everyone

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/14722478/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/14722478/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 23:28:29 PDT
Got the wedding coming closer and closer... next sunday :'( feel so unprepared and im just a guest!
Then i got the royal show thing with my dad, lil sister and my man they day befor,e on saturday.... mmmm lots and lots of lollies!!!!! cant wait, it should be very good.

Yeah, just a little update email cause im bored and just finished work.... and about to head for a much needed shower

Goodluck to all
Have fun
And thanks for all the fish

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/14186140/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/14186140/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 19:57:47 PDT )
SO yeah, money will be good I want to go see the Egyptian Exhibition at the Art Gallery.... and at $20 a ticket i will be glad to go back to work and continue paying off bills, which all tend to arrive when your not working.... not fun
But yes, got a Chinese wedding next month and a hens night, which will be full on if i go.... But the price tag for that night wont be cheap. But as im trying to talk to my man who wants me to go, i can think of other things the money could be going on at the momento.

But yes, hope you are all well and happy i have to start getting around and visiting more ppl but ive just been busy so i apologise
Have fun

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/13814478/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/13814478/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 21:52:39 PDT Work is going great, we ahave new owners as of the 31st and i know a few people are going to lose their jobs, but ive been told mine is safe.... Work can be interesting, people there are nice and we can always have a good laugh, but i find people can fault me for things i ahve no control over when they are mad. They like me well enough and we can always sit and chat, but ine lady can always gind something when she is angry, such as i get paid a hell of a lot more than her and that the head chef and i muck around cause we understand each other and ive been helping him through a few tough times and found i have him a lady friend. so things are a little confusing there.

*sorry if things dont make sense, im a little upset and just needed an outlet for my emotions at the moment*

My life with my man is a little... i dont know, i feel so bad, ive been snapping at him and feel so guilty afterwards cause i feel like i need to help him and do things for him and when i snap, i just feel horrible and to try and say sorry and why i snap... He knows ive been under pressure, family problems, my heart playing up quite bad lately and everything else that has been going on, plus the lack of sleep from stress... I just feel lost at the moment and i love him dearly and i know he knows that but i just feel bad.

Well, i will leave it at that, because i dont want to sound too stupid, i just needed to let it all out... Thanks for listening

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/13440501/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/13440501/ Fri, 22 Jun 2007 00:30:49 PDT
Started a new job now that im FINALLY allowed tow ork again workin as a waitress at a local tavern. Its great because the shifts only go about 3 and a half hours or less and everyone there is a local and the other staff is great to work with, a lot of fun and flour to be thrown hehehe

Woke up this morning to my little baby, Vixen (my kitten... kinda, she is still younger than one ) limping on her right hind leg and when i picked her up carefully she yowled (my baby!!!!) and managed to try and check her leg unsuccessfully to find blood... Got mum to check it, with a few war wounds on my side form keeping her still long enough, it just a deep scratch and maybe some muscular damage, but if it isnt btter by the weekend to take her to the vet... my poor thing!

But yes, apart from that things are.... well... moving along, whether for good or bad is yet to be seen.
love to all

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/13132519/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/13132519/ Tue, 29 May 2007 00:01:16 PDT
Things are going not too bad in my life. still trying to work around centrelink to get some sort of payment till im FINALLY about to work.. life at home revolves around wow, cleaning, cats and cooking... yes im now officailly domesticated i admit it

A new roof is slowly being put up as we speak, a meatl one which is going to sounds cool whe it rains hopefully and a new oven is being delivered tomorrow sometimes and being installed not soon enough for me finally a proper good working oven yay!!! (yes im happy about an oven, full cupboards and a new roof... how sad can i get? lol )

On other news Karl and i have been going out for 15 months, not a special victory one, but its just nice to know he has put up with me that long and my mother and family

So yes... not sure what to write.... *we roam free...* i love cows with guns so sue me

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/12799151/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/12799151/ Tue, 01 May 2007 05:09:40 PDT
Anywhos, holter monitor was incredible uncomfortable. little sticky things attached to wires on your chest which is then in turn attached to a HUGE box at your waist which you record things (if your completely there and not accidentally pressing buttons like i did )
So yeah thats been and gone, and still no results yet.

Plus going to get my ultrasound of my heart tomorrow arvo which will be another exciting event... *cough* but thankfully thats getting bulk billed which is a huge relief

And today... well, it was good but rough. i finally got the courage to visit a dear friend's grave with two of my closest friends. the grave stone was beautiful, but so... scary. life is so fragile and i just wish more people new it so they dont have to go through the same pain. its nearly a year in about 10 days to which she died and until today i still felt like someone was going to jump out and say april fools... but now i know its final... i just cried when i got home for a life lost, but enough about my mopyness

Hope all is going well in your lives, love to chat

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/12648343/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/12648343/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 21:31:34 PDT
The other night i ended up in emergency because of my heart playing up. i have a faulty mitral valve which i inherited from my mother.
Before anything can be done to fix it, i have to get a holter monitor and wear it for 24 hrs (at the lovely cost of over $200) and a heart ultrasound.
So, yeah, its been fun, 2 days off work cause of my heart, so likely to lose my job, but hey, whats a job compared to my health and such?
Just feeling all woozy, and you know the feeling you get when you know somehting is wrong with out, like a wound or something? well i have had that feeling constantly since the other day, and i get so tired very easily, and feel like i have hardly any strength.

and it all got me realising how fragile life really is (not meaning to soun all doom and gloom, but it truly is, and im not trying to feel sorry for myself)
But i just want to tell you guys to live life to the fullest and always take the chance cause you never know when you will get that chance again.

Well, you lot take cares and i will chat soon
love you and leave you

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/12548352/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/12548352/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 03:11:22 PDT ok, im bored and tired and just got BROADBAND!!! 'woot'
anywhos

We have a new member to the family, who will be the last. A little black kitten i bought Karl for easter named Bully. And he is absolutely beautiful and very affectionate.... and scary... he has this look and will stare at you and slowly tilt his head, its quite funny in a scary way. but very cute and fuzzy. i will put up photos once i find my connections for my phone and camera lol

I have a job. i work at Veales auto parts in Redcliffe (quite a drive in traffic but not too bad ) so yeah...

having to love you and leave you, im aching and waiting impatiently for my bath to be run and get a cute little kitten off my keyboard.. so have fun and talk soon

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/12087489/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/12087489/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 22:11:03 PST
Mum organised a champagne breakfast this morning with a few of her friends for me which was nice, till i realised how much i didnt like champagne with juice and how quick you can get flushes... after 2 ottles are gone with about 5 of us. thankfully i stopped at 2 glasses with juice

Then Julie and i headed up to Kala to the Maui juice bar and got our juice fix since i know work 2 hours a day there to help out.... mmm plenty of free juices

Dinner is at my parents tonight... not sure how that will turn out. Mujm is making beef stroganoff which is goooooood then home for a bubble bath with candles and i will make another exception... champagne iwth my boy which will be nice for the two of us

Well, i hope all is well for you guys, looking forward to catching up for the party on the weekend, just to let a couple of you know Danen will be able to make it up woot i love the gayness lol

well, take care and i will talk later cheers

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/11901906/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/11901906/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 22:15:57 PST
I ahve a job interview at belmont tomorrow morning with WA Driver Recruitment... im getting an apprenticeship.... and i found out its for driving trucks... oh well, good pay for apprenticeships, 533 per week... who would have thought little ol me driving big trucks? lol but im desperate for a full time job

I got a beautiful kitten for valentines, her name is Ally... or fuffy, depending on who is calling her, me or a flatmate (thankfully the nickname hasnt caught on with my boyfriend )
She is 5 months old and spent the first 3 moneth of her life in a small shed and was then taken to the cat sterilisation clinic where my lovely Karl rescued her for me... She is still very scared, but is now coming closer to us and will run around the house, my other baby Vixen is a great play friend for her and lended much support for her...

so yeah, went to the evanescence concert last thursday with julie and kim and a few others.... SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!! ooooh yeah!!!!

And i ahve a bikini contest tomorrow night at the kala pub, with that finishing about half 9... very nervous, but i will tell you all how it goes... wish me luck

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/11665762/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/11665762/ Fri, 02 Feb 2007 23:24:08 PST I moved into my new house on Aussie Day (and far out it was hot...)
With a BIG thankyou to Julie for helping so much... and rescuing us with toilet paper, soap and tissues (all the necessities )
So things are going really good cept its so damn hot, tha aircon cools down this little square of a room, and the rest of the house is boiling, we had to get a fan the next day for Karls and my room cause we sweltered the night thru...
Then on Sunday, Karls mate Troy moved in which is cool, so things are pretty good cept the bills, bonds and everything else that rolls up when you move out

So, yeah, not a whole lot happening except me unpacking and having visitors constantly...

Well, this is only a little journal i cant concentrate with this heat (having 2 min noodles doesnt help either )
So i will leave you with a little piece of advice....

...


you ready?


...


"NEVER fall asleep in the dryer".... bet you werent expecting that

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/11427795/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/11427795/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 21:25:40 PST
A friend of mine was in a car crash in melbourne just before Christmas and i found out Friday morning she had passed away. I spose it was good, she is free of pain, and knowing she was in critical condition made me all to aware of how fragile life truly is...

Well, for those who havent seen me, ive dyed my hair a reddy colour, with slight brunette through it, and it looks quite good plus a few spray on tats and i feel good, lol

Anyways, after last night with everyone at my place, looking forward to aussie day *woot* at the foreshore, cricket bats and blow up pools at the ready

Well, i will sign off saying i hope you all have a good one, take care... and be careful... Never leave someone with anger in your heart, it may be the last you see them

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/10956644/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/10956644/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 05:27:05 PST
Life is hectic, i was fired from my pole dancing trainer job due to the boss being underhanded and backstabbing, saying that i dont put 110% of my time and effort into the business which, as most ppl understand is a lie on her behalf cause i dropped everything for her and cancelled my outings to help her out...
OK whinge and such out of the way

I have a weekend job at the packing shed restaurant, in the kitchens cooking, which is great

Oh, and next year i move be a coxsun (however you spell it) in port headland doing 4 weeks on and 1 off after i have passed my course which a good friend of mums is paying and im paying him back... lots of lots of money, but im going to miss karl soooooo much!!!! but lets not go into my teary tirade about missing him

Our kitten Vixen is adorably feral, loving ankles, hands, body parts that moves... AND ... paper balls scrunched up (aswell as the usual collectiong of beer boxes kindly donated by Karl himself, lol)

But how has everyone been apart from the usual day to day crud that noone wants...

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/10652774/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/10652774/ Tue, 07 Nov 2006 21:04:50 PST and do you know what that means? ... FREEDOM!!!
freedom from arguments, parents etc... Except for the fact ive been visiting my parents everyday, and was called over 5 times yesterday! *grumbles*
but yes, anywho...

Mums cat honey was taken to get fixed this morning, and her adorable kittens with her, who i have finally come up with a name for Karls and mine... *drum roll please* her name is Vixen, the only girl in the lot, and she loves to fight and play around. utterly adorable, photos will be up soon when i get my phone connection from home...
and im sure you all needed to know that, lol!

well, yes, i will write more soon, when i get the rare chance to go on the net during the day when karl is at work and not on Wow, which seems pretty good... might get into it one day myself, hehehehe!

miss you all, gotta catch up, take care!

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/10210352/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/10210352/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 01:29:48 PDT
I want everyone who reads this how special they are, and to never let ppl change you from being who you really are. Face each hurdle with with a straight back and a determined expression, knowing you will live through it and everything will come right in the end...

And i want to explain a small fear i have... My fear, which ive only really allowed myself to see today, and not try to hide it under a false tale or a mask, is that im afraid of being alone. Of losing the ones i love and care about, and being without love and affection.
I miss my best friend who even now, i realise i feel uncomfortable around alienated by the space and distance that has grown between us, as if nothing that we shared is there anymore.
That and the fact my fear of being hurt by one i love, through my own mistakes, or those that life will throw with a curveball...

Ok, i just wanted to let that out and if it helps those who have the same fear, then ive done something good

]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/9970892/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/9970892/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 21:50:30 PDT
Well, let me fill you in on all the details...
*clears throat*

Karl and i celebrated our 6 month anniversary last monday, by me suprising him with chinese ad a picnic at Lions lookout with a nice bottle of wine (and a few beers for Karl) overlooking the city lights. it was beautiful

Mum got all her results back, and they dont think she has breast cancer, but they havent seen anything like it before... trust mum to not have something they've never seen before... So that was a little sigh of relief for us all, who have been stressing like mad!!!

But anywho's, lots of partying coming up (which isnt unusal for this year, lol)
I hope all is going well for you guys
and for those who missed it, the band/open night went well ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/9185442/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/9185442/ Mon, 26 Jun 2006 04:37:59 PDT
Well.... lets see now. Work is hectic ( for those who know what i do, and for those who dont... hehehehe)
Last Thursday i got paid to go to the pub to publicise with my boss... with all my drinks bought for me, a great night after a bad day. we danced sooo much
Then on the friday night, we went to a ladies night for work, the dollshouse then the voodoo lounge. it was a great night, and there is soo many things i want to try out... but they must wait till before class on thursday, before the girls rock up for me to teach them (a new course... mwahahahaha)

Then this friday night we have the open night (once again, quite famous) with newspaper people and photographers for our new webpage that will/is being made. Cant wait

But apart from all the screwed up parts of my life, Karl is keeping me sane, and a couple of friends. and guess what, 4 months on wednesday, that makes it the longest ever relationship :d ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/8773189/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/8773189/ Sun, 14 May 2006 22:02:14 PDT
Last saturday night, Scott and I took Karl to the airport, cause he was heading back home to New Zealand for 12 days... not fun for me, but im happy for him.... during the mean time, some little pain in the ass scratched my car (i know my car has a few scratches, but they were there when i bought the car)

but anywho, he rang up last tuesday and we talked for over half and hour, which was good

But on wednesday night, i got out of the bath and promptly passed out, smacking my head on the very corner of the bathroom bench, and the floor, waking up to my little sister standing over me asking if i was ok. I got rushed to hospital with shock and all that jazz..... i hate hospitals, ambulances and doctors. so that was great. and i swear i hate all the machines they checked me with, and if i had to repeat the fact that 'no, im not pregnant' one more time.... or what my heart medication was.... I DONT KNOW
but yeah, released that night to come back to a house full of people, im sorry, i felt bad for them making such a fuss, cause i was alive if not well.

Then the next day i got a phone call, all home alone from dads work (he works at sir charles cardiner hospital as a security guard) to say dad couldnt breathe and had passed out, but all was well, he was concious now. he choked on food... not good, but Mitch came over and i just cried... thngs werent going well

Then on saturday night, jess, erinn, kim and cherie came over to visit me and gave me a card and other goodies, which made me feel better *thanks for that *
and when they left, i found out a friend of mine had committed suicide... not good...

sorry, but i had to get all that off my chest... and thanks for listening

i just want to say thankyou to my friends. your support means so much to me

and to my boy, Karl... I MISS YOU!!!!!!! ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/8232623/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/8232623/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:45:55 PST
hehehe
Tafe is going for 4 days and soon to be 5 days a week, so im kept out of most mischief, except on some thursday nights when kala pub calls to me with a few friends, then head to the last drop tavern for karaoke (and i can still say that i have never been drunk! so, go me and my record )

Yes, so..... stuff..... Missing all my friends and craving chocolate at the momento (when dont i?)

Well, looking up random stuff now my 1st tafe assignment is finished *jumps up and does a victory dance*

Oh, and news.... I have a boyfriend who is an absolute sweetheart, so im happy, and my best friend loves him and my friends all like him, so im going well with that hehehe

well, all of you take care ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7995341/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7995341/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 00:39:17 PST So i slept till quarter to 2.... and now i feel weird cause half my day is gone!!! ahhhh

anyways, i will write more later when i avtually ahve somehting interesting and of significance to say... whish will be soon cause im 18 in about a week and a half ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7902671/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7902671/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 02:46:44 PST
I got sent a rose after my lunch break after talking to a guy who works at KCR radio station in kalamunda, and the flower lady comes up to the shop and asks who is caroline, which i shyly put my hand up, bright red, because she had a beautful long stemmed rose with an envelope with caroline, delish (delish gourmet is the place i work at) and inside was a card that said 'a rose for a special lady'...
I was absolutely shocked (and bright red, which an old lady thought was hilarious!)
And it was sent (not so secretly) by the guy who works at KCR radio station.... who my bosses had introduced me cause he is a good friend of theirs..... and has over 3 thousand cds!!!
but anywho, just thought id tell you.... and to wich you all a happy valentines day...

(and that i finally got to see my boy after 3 weeks, and it was a lot of fun.... running through perth to give some paper work to a few of his female friends.... who ignored him and spent the whole time talking to me cause id met them before, much to the playful annoyance of my boy ) hehehe
anyways, have a great day all
]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7815782/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7815782/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 05:27:50 PST

Kids are all asleep, and its raining so im in bliss. been swimming while its raining, so im in bliss.

Well, my first day of tafe, doing out of school hours care, which was ok. Im doing frist aid courses all weeek to get that out of the way, which is good cause i was going to do it out of tafe, but since its in my course :d hehehe

well, i better be off, to check on the little ones
have a good night all ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7737795/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7737795/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 03:03:33 PST OK, I know its been soo long, but we’ve had no internet, so I’ve fully suffered my withdrawal symptoms from the internet and DA. I have so much to stick up, which I will slowly be adding hopefully, if all goes well.
Ok, for all those who know my passion for writing stories, id like you to know I have finished another story, ‘The Betrayal’, but my boyfriend has it at the momento, and I’ve only written about 7 pages on the comp so far, so you will have to wait a little bit longer for it, sorry.
Well, I hope all is well in your lives, and I want to say thankyou to all my friends over leavers, and in general…. And a little note for our leavers group….

Dear Darren

BURN!!!!!!!!!!

Love Leavers ‘05’

Im sure you all send your sentiments *grins*


Hehehe, love to all ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7235264/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/7235264/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 04:43:13 PST
Leavers was great, i have made my extended family closer, which is more than i could have dreamed.... will write more later..... but i will leave on a finall note..... *sorry if this offends anyone, but he was rude and arrogant and .... yeah*




*Dear Darren....

BURN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love leavers '05'* ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6743454/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6743454/ Tue, 11 Oct 2005 20:47:57 PDT so it wont suprise them im doing this....
(oh, and by the way.... I MISS YOU ALL!!!!!!!!)

Stolen from ==missy-g

Your real name: Caroline
Age: 17 1/2
Height: no idea
Natural hair colour: strawberry blonde (its the pro name)
Eye colour:Greeney blue
Skin color: pink (or i can be creative and say purple )
Glasses/contacts?: none
Piercings: two in each ear
Tattoos: not yet
Braces: did have though

FAVOURITE
Colour: Purple and Silver
Band: Too many to count
Movie: Howls Moving Castle
Book: Polgara the sorceress
Food: Anything tasty
CD: Within Temptation – the silent force
Cereal: Just Right
Website: DA

DO YOU
Play an instrument?: Nope
Like to sing?: Yes
Have a job?: Soon to have
Have a cell phone?: Mobile, yes
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yes
Like school?: It wasn’t too bad… IVE FINISHED d:d

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: haven’t tried it yet, but on day, if I get bored enough
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: Yes
Speak any other languages?: A little of Arabic, Japanese and Italian… also fluent in Pig Latin
Go a day without food?: Nope, I love it too much
Remember your dreams: Yes
Roll your tongue?: Yes
Eat a whole pizza?: Ok… I don’t really like pizza (unless home made or fired)

HAVE YOU EVER
Won something in the lottery: Nope, but I won $10 in a scratchie once
Lied to get out of trouble?: Yes, and to stop others getting into trouble
Stolen something important to someone else?: No
Solved a rubiks cube?: No
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yes
Cried over a boy?: Yes
Cried over a girl?: No
Kissed a random stranger?: No
Hugged a random stranger?: Yes
Been arrested?: No
Done drugs?: No
Had alcohol?: Yes, but I don’t drink
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: No
Sneaked into the opposite sex's bathroom?: Nope
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: No
Swore at your parents?: No
Broken a bone?: No
Gotten stitches?: No
Had a water balloon fight in winter?: Yes, and a slow motion water fight
Made homemade muffins?: Yes
Bitten someone?: Yes
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: No :’(

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: This morning
Cried: A little while ago
Went to the bathroom: A few hours ago
Saw a movie in a theatre: Ages ago, I cant remember
Read a book: About 2 minutes ago
Called someone: Called someone a few days back

DO YOU PREFER
Fruit/vegetables: Fruit
Black/white: Black
Lights on/lights off: On
TV/movie: Either
Body spray/lotion: Spray
Cash/check: Cash
Pillows/blankets: Pillows
Headache/stomach ache: Stomach ache (I don’t want any more migraines or headaches, a stomach ache, I have learnt to ignore)
Chinese food/Mexican food: Chinese
Summer/winter: Winter
Snow/rain: Rain (I want to see snow!)
Fog/misty: Fog
Rock/rap: Rock
Meat/vegetarian: Meat
Chocolate/vanilla: Chocolate
Sprinkles/icing: Sprinkles
Cake/pie: Pie
Strawberries/blueberries: Strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool: Both
Cookies/muffins: Cookies
Wallet/pocket: Wallet
Window/door: Window
Pink/purple: Purple
Cat/dog: Cat
Long sleeve/short sleeve: Short
Pants/shorts: Pants
Spring/autumn: Autumn
Clouds/clear sky: Clouds
Moon/mars: Moon
Questions/Answers: Questions
War/Peace: Peace

MISCELLANEOUS
What is your favourite genre of music?: Rock
How much money do you have right now?: $5 in my wallet, not sure in my bank
Are you hungry right now?: Yes
Do you like the moon?: Yes
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: The ‘Will and the Word’

WHAT COMES TO MIND WITH THE WORD
High: Low
Pen: Broke
Window: Sky
Psycho: Pain
Brain f... ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6417482/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6417482/ Sun, 04 Sep 2005 20:52:08 PDT Devils-Jazz All the pople who are homophibic and read this, take it to heart, because homosexuals are people too.........the ball is in your court........
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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong. ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6381052/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6381052/ Wed, 31 Aug 2005 18:01:20 PDT but on another facet of my day yesterday...

I failed my log book test cause the guy yelled at me cause we were 7 minutes late cause of traffic (which couldnt be helped) then complained cause i ahd to reverse park next to a vehicle, which left halfway through me reversing, so i had to drive to another car because i wasnt allowed a one park gap, so he draw every move my car made..... *stupid man* i was sooo nervous, but i admit, i did do a few small things wrong, but oh well, i will prove i can do it again!!!!!

AND...... we have our sports carnival next Friday, and i got floaties, a frog blow up ring for around my belly, over 200 water balloons and a water gun for it im getting a small blow up pool for $5 from toyworld, and i borrowing my mums mask, snorkel and flippers aswell go us crazy ones hehehehe

thanks for listening... reading my rambles ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6354494/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6354494/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 20:26:48 PDT i had over 300 photos..... my ball photos, my other photos from places, everything!!!
plus all my homework, a few stories and some poems. I couldnt burn them onto a cd cause they gave us a faulty burner.... nothing was supposed to be wiped! NOTHING AT ALL!!!!
i was soo annoyed, i just cried for what i lost (youd understand if you knew how much i loved my photos and my stories...)
so yeah, not a good day.... just had to tell someone ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6291941/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6291941/ Sun, 21 Aug 2005 21:11:41 PDT now i have all these projects to do, and no computer to type them up!!!
but i miss my photos on there more though, i hope the comp doesnt get wiped (but this is coming from the same guy who 'fixed' our computer before and stuffed it up even worse!!!!!) and i got blamed for it (form him) saying everything i did on the net and the computer was wrong!! *stupid man*
oh well...... maybe once this i all over, i can get back to my stories again (after the project load has slowed down) ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6093765/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/6093765/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 20:45:25 PDT so im keeping busy taking more photos and writing more of my stories, so i apologise for not sticking stuff up... so sorry to those who complained
hehehe
hope all is well ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5787193/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5787193/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 01:14:51 PDT to all my friends who choose to continue to support me in life... thankyou

Mood: meh
Listening to: windowpane - opeth
Reading: rhiannons ride

sorry about my previous journal, i just got kinda.... i dont know. things are just all building up and it kinda bubbled over...

so, apart from that, how is everyone going? holidays soon *thank god*, a well earnt break for everyone...
well, everyone have a good one and keep smiling

cheese! ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5777780/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5777780/ Tue, 28 Jun 2005 02:09:49 PDT to all my friends who choose to continue to support me in life... thankyou

Mood: sits back & watches
Listening to: windowpane - opeth
Reading: rhiannons ride

I have a question.... does anyone go through life and ever truly notices whats around them... what they see, their friends and what they hide or hide behind. the masks people paint to hide form the pain life delivers to them on a silver platter.
anyone really noticed what life is about and that the people we meet may become a big part of our life.
to live lies and hatred to death, only to be hurt still by the truth.
or to love so much, you could die from it...

has anyone ever? ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5765885/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5765885/ Sun, 26 Jun 2005 20:34:26 PDT thankyou, thankyou

Mood: bounces araound
Listening to: stairway to heavene - led zeppelin
Reading: rhiannons ride
Watching: batman forever

yes, anyways, i know have a free subscription for one week, so im going to make the best of it yay, go us...
anyways, my weekend wasnt too bad, ~Mr-NotFox slept over and we went to a family morning tea... oh the fun of it.
and i officially found out i AM going to the dev meet *bounces around* no sleepovers at grandparents! not that i complain, but i missed out
yes, hoping to get some batteries for my camera to get started, or atleast finish one of the 3 stories i have going on, or the fourth i have yet to start..... or add my new poems, whatever comes first

well, i hope your all having fun and your weekend was awesome
love to all

from me..... ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5730118/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5730118/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 04:35:57 PDT Mr-NotFox is sleeping over saturday night, cant wait.
tonight my mum, little sister stephanie and i went to belmont to get some ink cartridges, and my sister and i both got new slippers cause ours were falling apart... i know mine were anyway, so now i have bright green fuzzy slip ons hehehe
anyways, i hope all your lives are going good, and that they are even better in the times to come ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5699603/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5699603/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 23:27:53 PDT
anyways, hope your all having fun, and im hoping to stick some new stuff up. going searching with my camera today... cant wait, anywho's ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5631086/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5631086/ Sun, 12 Jun 2005 21:04:01 PDT ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5471635/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5471635/ Thu, 26 May 2005 19:43:13 PDT yes... feeling sick from the stupid cold, writing heaps of poems during the time ive been concious the past few days. oh well... hope all is going well ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5405874/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5405874/ Thu, 19 May 2005 19:16:23 PDT )

it took us and hour and ten to get down there, in peak hour traffic, but only half an hour to get back..... all the while, it was bucketing down... not that i minded, cause i love storms and rain... ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5387379/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5387379/ Tue, 17 May 2005 21:45:23 PDT
Dad and i are going to see Star Wars - Revenge of the Sith, tonight.... havent been to the movies since i saw electra i think... oh the sadness of it all...

yeah, so.... have fun ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5332272/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5332272/ Wed, 11 May 2005 17:56:27 PDT anyways

I have to see the Kala Senior High School play tomorrow night, X-Stacy.... is it any good? we have to write a thingy on it.... oh the fun....
ive seen so many plays recently, Caravan, Jesus Christ Superstar (pretty good if i say so myself) and im going to see X-Stacy and something else later on.... ooh the joy...

AND my dad won two tickets to see the new StarWars movie, and he's taking me, so thats wicked ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5316235/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5316235/ Mon, 09 May 2005 23:10:13 PDT everything thing is mixed up at the moment, and none of it belongs....
my granddad has been going well with his cancer treatment so far, but it can still change.
ive been comforting people, and trying to help them (they know who they are, no point in saying)
and mum has been... well, yeah
seeya ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5056391/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5056391/ Sun, 10 Apr 2005 23:53:04 PDT thats not bad, but i really wanted to go to the perth devmeet ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5011668/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/5011668/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 21:37:21 PDT well, anyways...
its nearly holidays for us, and half of the second week is drama rehearsals, and the forst day back is a public holiday and the next 2 days are full rehearsals and such... then tuesday, wednesday, thursday nights are performing... then FRIDAY IS THE BALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay, go us...
before i stop all my rambling that is probably boring you all..... have a great day ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4954453/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4954453/ Wed, 30 Mar 2005 17:29:24 PST PrincessHellz

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Caz
2. Caroline
3. Cazzy

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. What was i supposed to say?
2. Life's lesson... neer fall asleep in the dryer!
3. Does anyone believe in second chances?

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my hair
2. My personality
3. my eyes

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. everytone says im too skinny
2. sometimes i speak before i think about what im saying
3. emotional... very...

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. being alone in the dark... after nightmares
2. my mum... not being mean
3. needles!

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Friendship
2. Sleep
3. Food

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Butterfly necklace from my ex
2. school shirt
3. pants (its cold!!!)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists):
1. Green Day
2. Acdc
3. Queen

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. stanf=d my ground - within temptation
2. holdiay - green day
3. Gwen Steffani - Rich Girl

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Finish school with good marks
2. try Tafe
3. get my logbook

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. the given
2. Honesty
3. Friendship

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. Needles are ok
2. Im at school
3. i love mangoes

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. their eyes
2. Their actions - friends, emotions
3. The looks on their faces - smiles

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Run away
2. Be free
3. Go eat... or cry or something

THREE THINGS YOU CAN DO:
1. Dance - hehehe, bellydancing
2. Have good comebacks
3. write my emotions - poems

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Dancing
2. writing stories and poetry
3. Mucking around with friends

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go home and sleep
2. throw my fishy stress ball at ms huntley
3. mmm food

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. a model - when i was younger
2. library techinician - great ppl and good pay
3. counsillor - i like helping ppl

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Egypt
2. Canberra
3. someplace that snows

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Amber
2. Bronwyn
3. Koa

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Hve a family of my own
2. See places
3. See the snow - snowball fight, snowman

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. my friends
2. frirends who i have yet to meet
3. anyone ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4893307/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4893307/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 17:39:10 PST until i get my pictures working on deviantart, i hope you dont mind me putting written work up, and some random designs that i draw that other people want to see...
well, thanks for listening.... going back to sleep in computing... nighty night! ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4807803/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4807803/ Mon, 14 Mar 2005 04:56:02 PST grrr, so im sorry, you will... an myself, have to wait till i can get it to take
sorry ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4805495/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4805495/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 20:02:13 PST

well, i have some photos that i will soon put up, i was putting them up before, but both deviantart amd my computer were really slow, so i will post them later.

have a nice day ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4764191/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4764191/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 20:38:18 PST oh well, im happy DD ]]> ~silkenrose http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4699115/ http://silkenrose.deviantart.com/journal/4699115/ Tue, 01 Mar 2005 05:01:35 PST





its my birthday on monday!!!!! yay! ]]> ~silkenrose