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Not that it really matters.

Update anyway -

- went to Japan, came back... and kind of wish I hadn't. Life in the US has been significantly less interesting since my return. I just want to travel... anywhere. So I'm planning a return to Japan in the next six months, albeit a brief one. I'm also going to take a short tour through Prague and Munich through my college. I'm looking forward to that a great deal. And in the next couple years I'm hoping to hit New Zealand (finally) and Venice Italy during Carnival season if I can swing it. We'll see...

- cleaned out some of my old deviations - old drawings that I was never particularly proud of, things I look at now and wince at, or just clutter...

- I WILL take pictures of the holiday break. I'm so saddened by how infrequently I've picked up my camera this year. It's pathetic. So I'm going to try and get myself back in the swing of things. I think it will help significantly that I've finally solidified my minor (as a senior... go me) and I'll be taking at least 2 art classes per semester from here on out... emphasis on photography.

- have been a massive music hoarder lately. I've been finding new stuff, delving into this and that corner of the spectrums and just collecting like it's going out of style. I need a new external hard drive for all the shit I've been finding. It's also another reason for me to go back to Japan, as a lot of the stuff I've been finding is experimental/math/post rock music primarily from Japanese artists. (my current fav is Kashiwa Daisuke. I'm in love with his stuff.)

Other than that... not much to tell. I hated this semester, but I think this next one will be a significant improvement.

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/21455106/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/21455106/ Wed, 12 Nov 2008 14:13:23 PST
Let's see...

I'm in Japan, attempting to broaden my horizons and learn a more about their language... so far I don't feel like I'm learning much of anything, though I'm sure I am. And I'm slowly but surely collecting a pocketful of interesting experiences. I've been to Tokyo, ridden on the bullet train, seen a few temples, made some new friends from different parts of the globe, eaten some foods I'd never really considered eating before, etc.

I'm taking a cinema class, so I've been watching a lot of Japanese movies, most of which I've found to be incredibly interesting. I've actually bought a few to take home with me and share with some friends because I liked them so much.

I wish I were taking more pictures... but my camera is large and something of a pain to carry with me everywhere. And I haven't really been able to find the time to just "go for a walk". That and the idea of going for a walk all by myself, while sounding appealing, does not put me in a state of ease. I had a strange encounter with a very sketchy looking Japanese man who stopped me and asked me some very odd questions (Did I have a boyfriend, did I only like American guys, etc.) early on in my stay that does not encourage me to walk alone... Perhaps I shouldn't let that one incident stop me and steer my opinions...

Or I could just force a friend to come with me. ^_-

Other than that... I plan to take a trip to the Golden Temple in Kyoto soon, now that the leaves are turning. And then when the snow comes (if it does) I'd like to go to the silver temple. I think the idea of a silver temple covered in snow sounds like an almost fairy tale image.

Oh, and I have tickets to see my favourite Japanese band - heidi.- in December. Super excited about that.

That's all I can think of for now.

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/19308453/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/19308453/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 10:36:46 PDT Other things are making me feel sick and tired lately too, but I'm not updating to complain... just to let people know what's up, if they care to know.

Other than the impending trip... there really isn't too much. I've just been trying to study and trying to earn money. I've watched a handful of movies lately and been reading quite a bit. (And by quite a bit, I really mean that over the summer thus far I have finished about 4 books... which isn't really a lot... )

Other than that... not much to tell of. The most exciting thing in my immediate horizon is really just a spotlight on my geeky qualities. (The Dark Knight comes out next week and I'm going with two friends to see it at midnight.)

I hope your days have been good lately.

I'll talk to you all again later.

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/17192630/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/17192630/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 09:47:12 PST I don't have a scanner and I despise taking pictures of the stuff I draw... but it's been a while. Also, most of the things I've been doing sketch wise have been in a tiny book... kind of hard to convey to computer media. I've also had a computer that has been, essentially, out of commission for the past two months. (That's not to say that I would have updated. I'm lazy and boring. Lovely combination, eh?
But let's see...
For anyone who cares to know, I've been under the university chains. Classes own the majority of my time. I have a part time job that, three days of the week, keeps me in front of desk from 1am to 4. I have class every morning at 9. Joy. I'm rather on the poor side, despite the job and more often then not, I find myself very, very bored. (in between the homework and classes, of course) But, that's college.

And there are the bright points, the light brite pegs on the black dot-to-dot of my life, so to speak.

* It seems I will be going to a concert this coming weekend. God is an Astronaut. I adore their music, so this makes me hopeful for the weekend.

*I'm spending Friday night at a dive train car restaurant with a friend. We're going to take black-and-whites of the third & second shifters who come to eat there. Should be fun.

*Another photo shoot is coming up towards the end of this month - should mother nature EVER decide to let up on the ice and snow. The bitch hates Michigan, I swear.

*Eddie Izzard is going to be "in the area" (I'm going to have to drive a few hours) in May. I'm going to see him. It's a ways away, I know. I don't care. GOING.

*Oh yes. Perhaps the most important glowing peg on the horizon. I'm signed up for a student exchange for the next fall semester - August 2008. I have the endorsement from my school. Now all I'm waiting for is the approval of the exchange school. Should all work out in my favour (as it seems it will) I will be spending my next college year in Osaka, Japan. Kind of excited about that. A lot.

Well, that's about it.

How's everyone else?

^_^ v

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/12468032/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/12468032/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 09:13:11 PDT
anyway... seeing as i'm not too well articulated today, i'll just quit now. ^^
all the best!

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/12191161/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/12191161/ Thu, 15 Mar 2007 08:42:18 PDT so for the first time all year, i'm going to the pier. my first sunset photos of 2007. i need this time. i need this peace. i'm looking forward to it so much. it never helps much in the long run... but it's a good half hour or so to myself.

for those that wish to know, the most recent news in my little inhabited space of life is

1. i got my hair cropped a bit shorter, dyed a darker brown, and streaked with blue (that is unfortunately already fading out)

2. my interest in the concept of 'alice in wonderland' has recently been revamped. there will be a photo shoot held soon, early in the summer in which i will drag a handful of my friends to my family's cottage where i will proceed to dress them in costumes more closely tuned to my vision of the characters (fuck disney). so... pictures of that forthcoming.

3. on a similar note, the game American McGee's Alice is corrently my sole source of joy. the highlight of my day for the past couple weeks has been destroying jabberwock minions and card soldiers with a torpal blade, explosive jack-in-the-boxes and a blunderbuss while cursing at the emaciated cheshire cat for giving me vapid riddles. (though admittedly, some are entertaining outside of their sheer uselessness) "Here's a riddle: when is a croquet mallet like a billy club? I'll tell you; whenever you want it to be."

4. "The Fountian" should be coming out on dvd soon, so i'm excited about that.

5. i'm hoping to get a job soon cleaning for businesses after hours. should be good for me. minimal human contact, hours contingent on my cleaning speed, good pay, and i can take my ipod.

6. hoping to go and see a show at Michigan State at the end of this month. "The Hush Sound". they're pretty good stuff, if you like that kind of music. too bad the other bands playing with them are... not so great.

and... that's pretty much all i can think of for now.

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/11713137/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/11713137/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 17:05:19 PST so i'll type instead. i can do that without having to sadistically hate myself because my handwriting looks bad.

so why is it that
when you are upset, subsequently,
i become upset too because i know i can't do a damn thing to help you
and
why is it that
when you are happy
i feel deprived, unhappy because i know it wasn't me that made you happy
and
why is that
i couldn't call this passion
so i don't know that i can call it a crush
and yet still, it lingers
and doesn't ever seem to really go away?
?

that's not a poem. it's just me thinking in verse and spacing.

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/10807877/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/10807877/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 05:43:47 PST i'm so bored. i read. and i work on photoshop. and i write. and then i have nothing to do with any of that input/output. i need an outlet!
^_^
but i'm feeling better. not drastically. but i'm not depressed like i was during most of october.
so i guess something good happened in the last few weeks.
and i created a lot of stuff on photoshop. sadly, my attache thumb drive is dying on me so i've lost a couple of them. but i saved what i could. thankfully, i only lost one that i actually liked. anywhooo.
update!
(... where's all this energy coming from?)

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/10566891/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/10566891/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 05:23:38 PST
okay, basically, some of you will read this and others will not. so some of you will know what's going on and the others, in a month or so, will be like 'hey, where's she been anyway?'

i'm taking a break. well, it's a bit more than that. but to explain it all would take a great deal more time than i feel like lending the subject.

put as simply as i can, i'm very sick of myself and, generally speaking, the way that i am. and so i'm going to do something to change. this includes a long list of things that i will and will not be doing for the month of november, possibly longer, depending on how successful this little experiment of mine is.

one of these things is no more extra use of the internet. i will be using it for my psychology class. and that's it. no aim, no e-mail that doesn't pertain to school, no more blogging or checking of other people's what-have-you. so i'm essentially saying au revoir to some of you for a month. sorry.

so don't think that i hate you becuase you get no notes from me or don't hear from me. more than likely i feel just the opposite about you.

there's just some stuff i need to work out with myself. i know that sounds corny, but oh well.

and for those of you that have my phone number, you can still call me if you really want to. but the converstation probably won't be overly stimulating. another one of the thing i'm going to be trying to do through the month of november is talk a significant deal less. so if i do get a call from you, i'll assume it's something somewhat important.

talk to you in a month. hope it's a good one for us both. maybe i'll have some decent art to post after all this... maybe interesting if nothing else.

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/10258393/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/10258393/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 10:59:48 PDT anything got anything uplifting to share. i'd love to hear it.

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/8836876/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/8836876/ Sun, 21 May 2006 16:30:19 PDT let's see....
i'm taking japanese lessons. i think i started around the time of my last journal entry, actually. i'm loving them too. they're the highlight of my week. i love them so much i've actually decided it's something i want to make a focus in my life. i want to teach english in japan. ^_^
another point of interest in my life, for anyone who cares to know, is that i've finally found some spiritual stability. i'm comfortable with the fact that i'm an agnostic. and i've returned to an old interest in something called reiki. i've been looking into it, reading up on it a lot, and talking to others who have some affiliation to it. it's really interesting to me. and i'm excited about pursuing it.
other than that... not much has been happening.
anyway. talk to you all later i guess. you know... six months from now when i finally get around to writing another entry. ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/6817023/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/6817023/ Thu, 20 Oct 2005 08:40:10 PDT
life..... is really weird sometimes... ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/6799382/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/6799382/ Tue, 18 Oct 2005 09:05:18 PDT

stumbled upon this. and i couldn't agree more. ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/6126868/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/6126868/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 21:29:02 PDT take that.
i finally get to watch a movie that i've wanted to see for a long time and i'm sort of excited. anyone in this world besides me ever heard of 'the machinist'? ^_^ i'm excited... why do movies make me happier than most people? ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/5889507/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/5889507/ Sat, 09 Jul 2005 20:32:06 PDT
"God..." Blue sighed heavily in annoyance, "hello, pizzeria? yeah, i'd like to order a large pizza, half cheese, half bullshit."
"Oh, i'm sorry. We're all out of bullshit, but we're running a special on an extra large bird," Eio retorted, proceeding to give the insolent gesture to Blue. "You little bastard."

hope you're all doing better than i am lately. ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/5474589/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/5474589/ Fri, 27 May 2005 07:10:03 PDT
1. What is your name? Miki
2. What color underwear are you wearing now? y'know, i'm not sure... white i think
3. What are you listening to right now? girls, be ambitious ~by miyavi
4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number? 60
5. What was the last thing you ate? probably a piece of gum. does that count? ...maybe not. then a dinner mint. (i do eat more than that, i promise)
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? grey
7. How is the weather right now? boring as hell, i wish it would rain
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? um... my friend, barbie
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite/same(if your gay) sex? just the general composition of their face. or their shoes. if they're wearing chucks, i pick that up right away. i love chucks... i don't know why.
10. Favorite Food? oh... i dunno.
11. Favorite Drink? green tea or raspberry iced tea
12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? never had.
13. Favorite place to shop? hot topic. or barnes and noble. love them books and goth wear
14. Hair color: blond and violet (wish it were blue)
15. Eye Color: grey/blue, depend on the day
16. Do you wear contacts? nope
17. Top or Bottom? wouldn't know. personally, hate sex.
18. favorite month? october
19. Favorite Fast Food? um... KFC or Arby's
20. Last Movie you Watched? Girl, Interrupted. very good.
21. Favorite Day of the Year? i don't really have one...
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? um... if i were inclined to ask anyone out at all... i suppose i might be
23. Summer or Winter? winter
24. Hugs or Kisses? hugs
25. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla
26. Do you want your friends to respond back? the few that i have, sure
27. Who is most likely to respond? good question
28. Who is least likely to respond? another good question
29. What books are you reading? Girl, Interrupted and The Dark
30. favorite TV Show? i only watch two shows. Daria and Will & Grace
31. What's on your mouse pad? currently, i don't have one
32. Favorite board game? um... Apples to Apples (it's this ridiculous word game)
33. What did you do last night? ...i slept... why? what did you do?
34. Favorite Author? J.M.Barrie
35. Who inspires you? oh... i dunno. people here often inspire me.
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? i'm not a big fan of popcorn... but when i do indulge, i likes me the kettle corn
37. Dogs or cats? umm.... turtles.
38. Favorite Flower? roses (red, white, black, blue, and orange)
39. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M.? nothing.
40. Do you still talk to your best friends from middle school? HA!
41. What's on your desk? books... dried roses... and this little japanese doll
42. Rock Concert or symphony? rock concert
43. Play or Opera? i like them both, thank you
44. Have you ever fired a gun? i have
45. Do you like to travel by plane? i suppose. if it gets me from point a to point b...
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? right
47. Smooth or Chunky Peanut Butter? smooth
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2
49. City and State you were born?
50. Ever hitchhiked? not yet. but as i am poor, but ambitious, talented in things that no one wants to pay me for, and very, very prone to the cabin fever, i forsee it in the future. ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/5439621/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/5439621/ Mon, 23 May 2005 14:36:04 PDT
i haven't had a journal entry in ages. not since march to be exact. ridiculous? just a little.

i haven't updated in forever either. i'm going to try and put some things up this week if i remember.

here's hoping i guess. ^_^ ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/4758495/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/4758495/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 08:35:34 PST but whatever

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]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/4459913/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/4459913/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 07:29:14 PST THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH! and i hope you all come back... eventually i'll get to visiting all your sites too. ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/4426590/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/4426590/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 07:33:27 PST ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/3899035/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/3899035/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 06:56:17 PST wish i actually had something interesting to say... but i don't.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2965164/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2965164/ Sun, 25 Jul 2004 15:03:48 PDT i still promise to get to everyone's stuff. really i do.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2873738/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2873738/ Tue, 13 Jul 2004 16:06:23 PDT on a happier note, i think i get to go to a seriously bitchin' concert next month. details are still circling, but it looks to be quite the promising situation. i'm excited for that like nobody's buisness.
and i leave you once again with my apologies for my absence. i will, i promise you, set aside a day this week where i get to answering all my notes and comments and all your deviations and stuff. i promise.
thanks for all just being here.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2645744/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2645744/ Sat, 12 Jun 2004 19:04:13 PDT it seems like forever since i've written a journal entry. but what does it matter eh. i don't really have a whole lot to say. i just got back from work and now here i am. a headache and a plate of half eaten pizza. and i missed invader zim. *sigh*
hey anyone want to guess what i was doing three days ago at one in the morning during a terrific lightning storm? you'd never guess right. i was driving though a field in a pick up, collecting hay bales, then driving them back to a barn so that i could put them up in the loft. started at about 11:30 and ended at about 2:00. tons of fun.
i want to go see the chronicles of riddick... and the stepford wives.
and that's all she wrote. i'm off to go play vamps.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2573519/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2573519/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 10:40:50 PDT i have a french exam tomorrw morning. i wounder if i can say that in french... j'ai un interro français... tomorrow? lendemain? ... i can't remember tomorrow. good thing it won't be on the exam.
i can't really think of much else that's going on in my life. my friends want to go and see harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban tomorrow. i'm probably going to go. but i'm not sure. i don't really care a whole lot about harry potter. but allan rickman and gary oldman are pretty cool. the kids kinda bite. ah well. it's a movie and i'm outa the house. and i'm with my friends. whoot
talk to you all later.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2515330/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2515330/ Wed, 26 May 2004 17:13:52 PDT today was... alright.
oh i have a favour to ask... of anyone who would be willing to contribute. i have to give a 'persuasive speech' in my speech and debate class. it's due next week. the problem for me is the topic. i don't have one. i can be an oppinionated person, i'll admit, but the problem comes with the fact that though i have strong opinions, i don't believe in forcing them onto others. like i have a real issue with gay tolerance, but i'm not about to go out preaching and telling everyone to believe what i believe. i don't think that's right. and that's the whole idea behind the speech. you have to get people to believe and agree with you. you might see my problem here. so i was wondering if any of you have any issues you feel strongly about. i'd be willing to take any idea and run with it. give me some of your strong beliefs, i'll make a speech about it for my class and let you know how it goes. so, if you feel so inclined - HELP!
thanks a ton
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2468372/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2468372/ Thu, 20 May 2004 08:41:36 PDT i need to do something. i need to get off the train at some random exit and just go from there. maybe this weekend i'll call one of my friends we'll get in the car and just go. soon. i have to get out of here. or i'll go out of my mind. all these people complaing, the overpowering stench of cologne in the halls, people making out, jocks here and there, teachers who couldn't care a shred less, parents who know nothing about you, never even ask, best friends miles away and always busy.... and i'm getting used to it. i'm sliding into familiarity. and i can't stand it. i want out.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2426485/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2426485/ Fri, 14 May 2004 08:42:37 PDT ... so bored. it's been a bad week. i've just felt so... i don't quite know. useless i suppose. ugly and worthless. yeah. that sounds about right. but hopefully it'll be over soon. pass like the waves on the sea and all that.
talk to you all later.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2291494/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2291494/ Sat, 24 Apr 2004 20:45:42 PDT never again shall it be changed. (as far as i know anyway. should some deranged hacker decide that he has nothing better to do with his time than to try and get into my deviantart account and change my icon... if it's that important to him, let 'im i suppose...)
wooo flying off on tangents when you're more tired than the woken dead is fun. my head is throbbing from all the insanely bassified rap crap of prom. (where i have just returned from. i might get up a pic if i get the chance.) aside from the music, it was fun. i got to hang out with some people that i think are really cool, but that i don't get to see that often. and that's fantastic. and they played cher's "song for the lonely", which made me and a few other people extremely happy. (it's kind of an inside joke, but not one worth sharing because it's also one of those 'had to be there' kind of things.
and... that's really about it. i hope i get the chance to get at least one pic up, because for the first time in a long time, i didn't hate the way i looked. it was nice. my friend looked really kickin' too. she's so pretty. :sigh:
lov you all with all my heart. thanks for always bein' here.
night and sleep tight (if you get the chance to sleep that is...)
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2280812/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2280812/ Fri, 23 Apr 2004 08:51:55 PDT everyone's having such a crappy time it seems lately. even me, but i really have no right to complain when i hear what's happening to everyone else. i'm just getting hit with life in the face-head on for one of the first times in a long time. i'll deal. i just wish that i could help some other people. i really feel useless sometimes and i always show up at the disaster sight three days after the explosion...
so i guess it's nice to know that my friends can handle failure. thanks people. thanks.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2233732/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2233732/ Fri, 16 Apr 2004 07:11:24 PDT thanks to all the people here for not being a giga pet. you all rock.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2221107/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2221107/ Wed, 14 Apr 2004 10:11:55 PDT sadly, the subject of the poem isn't too happy, because it was written when i was in a rut this week. but i'm okay now. thanks to my friends.
*just a quick little explination. my dad - drives me crazy a lot of the time. he has one, count 'em, ONE single solitary friend in this entire human based world. and the other day they started drinking and talking... and arguing... and screaming. and eventually they were at each others throats, throwing out personal insults in each others' face like acid. our house was filled with all that negative energy and it was sickening. all i could think was, "how can you two be saying these things to each other? what the hell is wrong with you? you're supposed to be each others' best friends." i was astounded. and what did they do afterwards? they went out and drank some more. i stayed up really late (or early in the morning if you look at it that way), but my dad still hadn't come home when i nodded off. i have a sister, she's only 12. she hasn't said anything, but i hope to God that she didn't hear those two.

you break a bond
with each word that you throw

don't listen angel don't listen crow

draw your sword captain
drive it in low

spread your wings angel spread your wings crow

kill without mercy
as our hearts scream no

fly away angel fly away crow

staining young minds
like blood in the snow

fly away angel fly away crow

and what do they learn
from all that you show

fly away angel fly away crow

damn your surprise
at the violence they know

fly away angel fly away crow

you can never take back
the evil you sow

you killed the angel you killed the crow

the time to heal
these days pass so slow

for we lost the angel we lost the crow

]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2174242/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2174242/ Wed, 07 Apr 2004 18:58:37 PDT ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2140805/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2140805/ Fri, 02 Apr 2004 23:01:13 PST but i have to share my favourite part of the visit. my aunt laura is an opera singer and because i came, i got to go and see my first opera (what can i say, i adore the arts.) hence the title above. it was in italian, but they actually have subtitles above the stage. oh it was fantastic. the story lacked just a little bit, but the singing, the music, the sets, the costumes. magnificent. i think the best part though, was that, being with one of the cast members, i got to actually go back stage and see everything on the other side of the curtain. the kennedy center has a magnificent opera house, i kid you not. the ceiling chandeliers alone are breathtaking. it was a serious experience. if it weren't such an expensive type outing, i'd definately make that a hobbie. ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2067973/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2067973/ Tue, 23 Mar 2004 08:47:51 PST
If I were a month I would be: december
If I were a day of the week I would be: friday
If I were a time of day I would be: just after midnight
If I were a planet I would be: neptune
If I were a sea animal I would be: a flying fish, always trying and never quite making it to the sky
If I were a direction I would be: west
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a coffee table
If I were a sin I would be: jealousy
If I were a historical figure I would be: one of the real life Darling children
If I were a liquid I would be: raspberry ice tea
If I were a tree I would be: willow
If I were a flower/plant I would be: black rose
If I were a kind of weather I would be: rain
If I were a musical instrument I would be: a solitary black piano key
If I were an animal I would be: raven
If I were a color I would be: grey
If I were a vegetable I would be: a pea
If I were a sound I would be: breaking glass
If I were an element I would be: fire
If I were a car I would be: focus
If I were a song I would be: moondance
If I were a movie I would be directed by: Gary Sinise
If I were a book I would be written by: D.J.
If I were a food I would be: a singular M&M (probably a green one)
If I were a place I would be: lothlorien
If I were a material I would be: cotton
If I were a taste I would be: tastless
If I were a scent I would be: coffee bean
If I were a word I would be: confusion
If I were an object I would be: a ballpoint pen (grey ink)
If I were a body part I would be: a pinkie finger
If I were a facial _expression I would be: bemused
If I were a cartoon character I would be: alice senno
If I were a shape I would be a: a dot (does that count?)
If I were a number I would be: 1
whoo hoo. ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2042163/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2042163/ Fri, 19 Mar 2004 09:30:10 PST blah. guest speakers all day long talking about jobs that have nothing to do with my future or anything that interests me in the slightest. though i must admit that the consumers energy public relations guy was pretty funny. everytime he could proove someone wrong he would say, "ha! i win!" and then he drew a little happy man with a tree sticking out of his head (because the happy man was supposed to represent greenpeace) and then had this little stick figure hugging the tree. it was pretty funny after the dry day that i've had.
and... i wanted to say something else, but i've forgotten. oh yeah. got a new job. it's waiting tables at a golf course. not glamorous, but a job none the less.
and.... that's it.
sorry that i haven't updated the fan fic. i promise to put something up by monday. promise.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2016064/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/2016064/ Mon, 15 Mar 2004 08:57:53 PST i'm feeling very impowered today. because i'm tired as hell and too out of it to care what other people think. i wish i had some coffee. i woke up at three last night because i couldn't breath. i was hacking and my nose was stuffed (pretty picture eh?) and then my mouth was dry so i had to get a drink which led to me waking up again to go to the bathroom and bah. it was a vicious little cycle. (hence the lack of sleep and the now wicked tiredness)
and just so i scare you no further. i will now bid you all adieu until i come to my full senses... or something close to.
]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1979583/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1979583/ Tue, 09 Mar 2004 08:54:12 PST bah. i'm sick right now. (like literally with the sore throat and stuff) but as the title says, the road goes ever on. and i just roll on with it.
luvin' you all
miki ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1938178/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1938178/ Tue, 02 Mar 2004 08:50:38 PST ause: and i'm getting dizzy and computer screen is going out of focus. i feel like i'm going to faint. why? ...................
okay... i think i'm better. not dizzy anymore... i don't think. still feeling sick. and this is just a rant... that probably only one person will read. hope you're knuckle isn't hurting you too much today.
miki ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1909480/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1909480/ Thu, 26 Feb 2004 11:28:53 PST ever have one of those weeks were you were stuck in the dark and you just couldn't get out. you go to bed and tell yourself that all you need is just a good few hours in oblivion and then everything will be better; that tomorrow will be a good day... and then it isn't. that's been my whole week. and i can't even remember what started it.
i went and saw 'the passion of the christ' the other day. it didn't help my mood too much. it was a very well done, don't get me wrong. Mel Gibson did a fantastic job in ever aspect, but if someone were to tell you that it was the most graphic movie ever made, they wouldn't be lying to you. and i can take gore. i can. it was the thought behind it all that got to me, that made me sick to my stomach. to hear a croud of jews look at one of their own, their leader, their king, the one and only man who could love them all, each and every one of them with his entire being, even after all they had done to him, and shout 'crucify him! crucify the blasphemer!'... and then to laugh mercilessly as they watch him beaten and lashed and ultimately nailed to the wooden cross... i wanted to be sick right there. i'll be the first to admit that lately i have not been the most religiously grounded person in the world, but i don't think you had to be for that movie to get to you on some level. ::sigh:: i never want to see that movie again. i wouldn't be able to take it.
yeah... sorry to fly off on such a contrivercial tangent... ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1878167/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1878167/ Fri, 20 Feb 2004 13:57:36 PST
"every dark cloud has a silver lining, but lightning kills hundreds of people each year who are trying to find it."

talk to yall later. ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1865612/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1865612/ Wed, 18 Feb 2004 08:56:10 PST i got into the musical 'south pacific' that they're putting on at our school. the kicker is that i don't want to be in it. i had a whole bunch of people come up to me and ask 'are you trying out for the musical?!' all up in my face and everything. i kind of got intimidated so i showed up. it hit me about the time i got up on stage for my audition. boom! like this sickening wave. i don't want to be a part of this crap. it's a stupid musical, i'm going to get stuck with chorus because the director picks favs, i hate singing with most other people, and i really don't want to give up my time and energy to this ridiculous project. but what could i do? i was up there on stage and they called my name. so i sang. and what do ya know. chorus. i'm a frickin' nameless nurse. i got a job that cardboard could do - fillin' up the backdrop. and i could name you the people that got lead roles before i even saw the list. the funny thing is that about half of them sing like they're deft. that doesn't bug me so much - more so i think it's funny. what i can't stand is that i'm obligated to do this. i've dropped out of a play once before and if i do it again... let's just say i'm having a bit of a shallow moment. i don't want to people to look down on me as a quitter. i hate those kinds of stares. so i'm going to show up, be the girl on the sidelines, sing their crap-hap songs with a cheesy smile, and hope that someone asks me at the end if i had fun so i can give them the biggest smile i can manage and say, " i would've probably enjoyed a month in hell more, thank you ever so much. i hope you enjoyed the show, because i know i didn't.'
::cools down for a minute::
okay. it was good to get that off my chest. sorry if you actually wasted your time reading it. must have been a bit of a disappointment. i'll come up with something worth reading next time. promise.
on a happier note - the week's half over. this weekend is going to be all mine. i'm going to my friend molly's house and we're going to watch movies and eat oreos w/ peanut butter until we pass out or just plain die.
sayonara
mykellah ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1854409/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1854409/ Mon, 16 Feb 2004 08:56:06 PST had a pretty good weekend though. got to see dj and hang out. that was a time. (a good one) we saw 'miracle' whish was surprisingly good, even though i'm not a big fan of watching hockey... go figure. i want to see '50 first dates'. i feel like a laugh. i feel like a life. i glimpsed it on saturday and sunday... i'd like to have friends to hang with like that all the time. like those damn kids on the tv shows... but Lord not that stupid. ah well. there's alway people here to chat with. hi friends. the few of you. hi.
bored out of my mind (maybe i should get a record player... ^_^)
mykellah ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1837096/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1837096/ Fri, 13 Feb 2004 08:59:33 PST
turn this way to look at me - only if you mean well
i do not need anymore black in my heart
you would cast me into oblivion and leave me there
and i would not cry out
away from you and all your self righteous preaching
am i less of a person than you?
in you eyes, yes
and not even christ could tell you otherwise
so cast me down
oblivion would be bliss, heaven, eden!
compared to another second at your feet
you... you and your words make me sick

in honor of all the people(if i can be so bold as to call them that) around us, invading this little world of ours, who talk about others behind their back, and even sometimes to their face - like they don't deserve to live. i see that a lot lately. and it makes me sick.

//see you tomorrow dj.//
-miki ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1822402/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1822402/ Tue, 10 Feb 2004 09:02:08 PST ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1808005/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1808005/ Sat, 07 Feb 2004 12:25:01 PST watched a lot of movies this weekend. Mystic River - okay, All I Want - seen it before and it was still okay, Secondhand Lions - good/ i love michael caine, Residant Evil - strange... but i want to see the next one, Panic Room - slow, and Underwolrd - i liked one part of it and that was lucien and he died. i was pissed. ::sigh:: does my favourite character in the movies always have to die?
i feel sick... and i think i'm getting depressed. c'est la vie, non? asprin is such a slow horse. and my rambling has got to be the most boring thing in the world to read... ::sigh::
what goes up must come down... but does this mean that it is destined to go up again? perhaps higher than before?
-mykellah ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1781835/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1781835/ Mon, 02 Feb 2004 08:59:36 PST getting ever closer to my exchange. thank you Lord. i know he had some hand in it, even if it was only keeping my nerves. my parents are behind me, bless them. they say they'll pay for half, match me dollar for dollar. i can do this. it'll be work, but i can do it. keep hopin' for me!
a day to ya!
-miki ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1749324/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1749324/ Tue, 27 Jan 2004 09:00:21 PST and you're probably thinking, is she going to share with us just what this idea is? yes i am. i want to be an exchange student. a whole year out of this place. and to be more specific, i want to spend that year in ireland. i've looked into it and everything. (my first choice place wasn't available, but what do i have to complain about... yet) so i'm really hoping my parents, at least one of them anyway, will be supportive because otherwise things will get a bit complicated for me. it's a bit of an expensive trip. over $12,000 to be more precise. i've have to work my tail off to spring that on my own. (not that i don't intend to work my tail off and pay for some of it on my own anyway.) but... well hope for me friends. pray if it's in your nature. thanks!
Miki ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1728402/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1728402/ Fri, 23 Jan 2004 08:57:53 PST ::sigh::
how's about it for pointless hours spent behind stone walls with college grads telling you what to do, even how to sit, and what you must know to escape these bricks eh? and lets add having all your friends together in their classes, but you in all seperate ones for the sake of art(which they have no interest in) and we'll top it off with all of them playing masquerade with each other and then call you later that evening to b**** about each other behind their backs. the strawberry topping the cake is the fact that your homelife is no less organized, your dad's going through a very unique mid-life crisis and your mom is trying to be passive about it and in the process is driving herself insane and....
wow... there's a rant...
short and oh so bittersweet though it may be...
and only one person will see
and thank god she cares...
love you deej
-miki ]]> ~silverfeathers http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1711117/ http://silverfeathers.deviantart.com/journal/1711117/ Tue, 20 Jan 2004 08:44:32 PST ::sigh:: the library is a fantastic place. anything that boasts this much social solitude and average silence is topping my favourite locations. the stinging behind my eyes (typical headache caused by over exposure to society) is starting to ebb. thank god. i can't wait to get home and shut myself up in the basement to write in my poetry notebook, maybe watch some aussie films.
on the dream thing, in case anyone was wondering... i just got a dream notebook the other day (and i'm all kinds of excited about that) and it just made me stop and really think about all of the dreams i've had lately. it has a couple pages in the back that show you how to evaluate your dreams and divine their meaning. how cool is that?
-miki ]]> ~silverfeathers