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]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/27189793/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/27189793/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 12:00:01 PDT Poems have not been flowing, but there's a few kicking around that I'll probably add, whenever I finish writing them.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/25554466/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/25554466/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 22:12:08 PDT
Waking Up: Death Cab for Cutie - Soul Meets Body ( (= D )

First Day at School: Blind Guardian - When Sorrow Sang ( LAWL )

Childhood: Hammerfall - The Templar Flame (Well, it works )

First Date: Rob Zombie - Superbeast ( ...)

Falling in Love: Kanye West Ft. Eminem - Stir Crazy (Well, the song is kinda about romances... Kinda?)

Love Scene: Dirty Pretty things - Buzzards and Crows ( An odd choice...)

Fight Scene: Faint - Funker Vogt - Nuclear Winter (ooook...)

Breaking Up: Splinter - Foreigner - Head games (hahahaha)

Getting Back Together: hatesphere - Sickness Within (Well that doesn't seem right at all)

Secret Love: Mudvayne - Goodbye (It works)

Life: The Fall of Troy - Macauly Caulkin (...The fuck)

Mental Breakdown: Ben Gibbard - they don't know (yuuup)

Driving: This Day Forward - The effects of departure from ideal proportion (.. Not quite right)

Deep Thought: The Most serene Republic - Where Ceder Nouns and adverbs walk (Alright, I'll bite)

Flashback: Circle Takes the Square - Same shade as concrete ( Rather hectic flashback I guess...)

Partying: Soulfly - Jumpdafuckup (HAHYEAH)

Wedding: Modest Mouse - Paper Thin Walls (Honeymoon?)

Regretting: Opeth - Demon of the Fall (Good point)

Birth of a child: Gorillaz - Intro (Well, it's a start, right?)

Long Night Alone: Laura Maurling - Cross your fingers (yeah, it's true)

Final Battle: Apoptygma Berzerk - Nothing Else Matters (Right-o bitches)

Death Scene: Hot Chip - Boy From School (Breaking those rules)

Closing Credits: Deftones - Hexagram (This is the perfect song)

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24848663/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24848663/ Tue, 19 May 2009 22:41:35 PDT If you don't know, Casey baker and the buffalo Sinners is a fantastic band. If you like Dallas green you'll like Casey.

His new album, Linwell. Is,. AMAZING.
The song gravedigger is my fav I do believe

:
gravedigger, do you sweat beneath the moon?
the dead surround you while you whistle your spiritual tunes
are you digging holes in the earth and in yourself?
and by morning have you burried your mistakes?
you remind me that when jesus walked,
he was a carpenter just like my father was...
and it will cross my mind, a sense of pride,
that neither one has ever done a thing for me
hey drifter, are you running from your shame?
the space between us, do you ever hear the wind whistle our names?
did you ride the rails to get where you are today?
your adventure seems to look much more like running
you remind me that when jesus walked,
he was a carpenter just like my father was...
and it will cross my mind, a sense of pride,
that neither one has ever done a thing for me
counting down til i collapse beneath the weight
it worries me that you're not asking questions



BUT THEY'RE ALL GOOD SONGS. LISTEN TO HIM NAO.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24639239/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24639239/ Thu, 07 May 2009 17:03:46 PDT [link]

It's kind of slow to get into, for the first long while... But it's really really fucked up awesome. Imagine If the games Zelda and Doom had a baby, and then the movie star wars and the genre anime had a baby, and those two babies made a kid, which was then raped by all final fantasy games simultaneously, and then took acid. That about sums up this video.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24419587/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24419587/ Fri, 24 Apr 2009 23:05:11 PDT and with every day it gets worse.
And
with
every
night
it
gets
worse.

It's not a guilt trip, it is a truth.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24349469/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24349469/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 18:47:16 PDT
]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24309814/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24309814/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 14:51:16 PDT Another drop in the ocean
After the fall
Waiting to sink
Oh, solo mio
It's all right now
Come closer
Talk to me
Oh, solo mio
Sah fasa gan
There's a definite feeling
Buried down
Wrecking itself
Taking you with me
The more they was
The more they were
The more they wander from
There's a terrible reason...



Pinback - Tres




Everything is hurt.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24208014/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/24208014/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 19:05:47 PDT Guess what they did?
Leave a comment on a poem I wrote, as if it were someone else, on my account.
What the fuck is that?

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/23936863/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/23936863/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 15:52:41 PDT For once can things just be easy?

Apparently fucking not.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/23833843/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/23833843/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 14:48:21 PDT
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bed

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go


Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore


Sing to me
Sing to me
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore


Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go


There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well ...


Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye ...

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/23694777/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/23694777/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 13:19:45 PDT I am drinking coffee, it is very good. But I am still very tired.
It seems I am falling into insomnia, though still mild at this point.


"watch you. On the ones and two's. From a window in a well lit room."

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/23466631/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/23466631/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 09:35:55 PST Grad's coming up really quick, photo's are tomorrow.
I'm legal in Canada now.
I got suspended.
I am eating eggs.
They're not that great.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/22704905/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/22704905/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 22:24:57 PST

Otherwise, I have finals which are going good so far.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/21950065/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/21950065/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 15:56:54 PST Where it normally says add/ remove from favorites, it onl;y gives me the option to add.
Which is weird cause it's in there already.
Help?

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/21411482/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/21411482/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 19:43:02 PST
]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20779869/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20779869/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 16:03:07 PDT Somehow there's always something -_-

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20513799/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20513799/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 21:28:35 PDT I am breaking.

And I love you.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20211564/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20211564/ Fri, 29 Aug 2008 00:45:27 PDT
Best song line ever, from XIU XIU - I broke up

Anyways, why is it that bad things never happen in singles?
It always comes down to multiple things going wrong at once, and then somehow one gets resolved for another to pop up.

Ah well, things are sorted out now at least, ish.
No suicidal friends, no arguments, so I guess it's ok.


I love my girlfriend. With all my everything.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20137433/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20137433/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 19:44:33 PDT
]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20104658/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/20104658/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 22:16:00 PDT
Somehow, someone got onto my account and favorited some porn images. And my girlfriend doesn't believe it wasn't me.
I don't know what to fucking do.
I love her.
And she doesn't believe it wasn't me.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/19973186/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/19973186/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 15:40:04 PDT I love metal.



So I am wanting thoughts on what you people think of lip piercings, specifically, if someone like myself [link] Should get a lip piercing.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/19789349/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/19789349/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 11:48:56 PDT In my opinion, one of the most underrated indie rock bands is "Brand New"

No one ever talks about them, or knows about them, which really sucks. I mean I guess they did only have one mainstream hit, but they are so talented, it's not even funny. I highly recommend everyone listen to them.
My favorite songs are: "jaws theme swimming", "the boy who blocked his own shot", " milestone","Jesus christ" AND ALL THE REST OF THEM.


In my love of this band I am attempting to learn their songs =]

This is the first one I have completed [link]

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/19504813/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/19504813/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 17:59:45 PDT
]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/19410353/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/19410353/ Tue, 15 Jul 2008 13:23:31 PDT But I'm sure I'll get used to it.
BECAUSE THEY FORCE YOU TO : p

UPDATES.
I've not been that busy ><
I want to find a job soon.
Ummmm, hmm.
I recommend the band "Born Ruffians" Their Cd "red, yello and Blue" is really fantastic. The band sounds a bit like folk pop/rock, except not because they sound like pure awesome.

Also, Arch enemy has a new album out, from what I've heard so far so good =]


THAT'S ABOOT IT.

I love my lady, and I also love everybody.
But I love my lady more <3

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18792737/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18792737/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 21:44:21 PDT My cousin committed suicide last thur.
I guess I didn't know him very well these last few years, but back in the day, we were best friends. Him and me and a few others, we grew up together. And I always thought he'd always be there, and now that he's gone, I wish I coulda talk to him just one more time.
He was one of a kind, and I know everyone says that about everyone, but Alex was genuinely one of a kind.

Anyways, what I want to say is cherish your friends, and if you ever think about an old friend, chances are that it's a sign for you to go look them up. Just thought I'd share that with you guys.


Anyways, love to everyone.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18478118/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18478118/ Sat, 24 May 2008 11:28:29 PDT For example: If she is ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and masculine features. However, if she is menstruating, or menopausal, she tends to be more attracted to a man with duct tape over his mouth and a spear lodged in his chest while he is on fire. No further studies are expected.

Got this in an email and decided it needed to be shared =]


Anyways.
I hate being sick.
But that whole getting better thing is pretty sweet =]


Anywho, good day =]

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18384320/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18384320/ Sun, 18 May 2008 14:08:50 PDT What makes people?

And I am going to share some thoughts with you.

I've always wondered what makes people, and the conclusion I've come to is a whole bunch of things. Obviously the surrounding with which you are raised and the people who surround you. But I think the most dominant thing to shape us are words, phrases, songs, or you might as well call them quotes. Sometimes there are many, sometimes few, but quotes are one of the biggest things to shape us.

I remember the first time I heard Timothy leary saying "think for yourself" and at that time I knew I would never accept other people's thoughts, at least not blindly.

That's a more superficial example of words shaping us, but you get the gist of it, eh?

People can fuck around, schools can teach, parents raise us, but all of that is meaningless is we don't find meaning in their words.
All of us have searched for quotes or words from someone, not anyone, but someone specific, or found a phrase completely unexpectedly. And upon finding those words, agreed and believed in them wholeheartedly.

And that is my thought for the day.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18370811/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18370811/ Sat, 17 May 2008 17:31:50 PDT This summer shall be the summer of shirtlessness.
BECAUSE SHIRTS ARE FOR CHUMPS.



Anyways, I burntededed my arms and legs the first time out with the sun being a shine, and I keep going back out so the burn does not really go away ><
OH WELL.
It will turn into the most awkward tanlines.


That is all for updates.



I LOVE MY GIRL.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18250474/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18250474/ Sat, 10 May 2008 00:20:21 PDT
* Capgras delusion is the belief that (usually) a close relative or spouse has been replaced by an identical-looking impostor.
* Fregoli delusion is the belief that various people that the believer meets are actually the same person in disguise.
* Intermetamorphosis is the belief that people in the environment swap identities with each other whilst maintaining the same appearance.
* Subjective doubles, in which a person believes there is a doppelgänger or double of him or herself carrying out independent actions.
* Cotard delusion is the belief that oneself is dead or does not exist; sometimes coupled with the belief that they are putrifying or missing their internal organs.
* Mirrored self-misidentification is the belief that one's reflection in a mirror is some other person.
* Reduplicative paramnesia is the belief that a familiar person, place, object or body part has been duplicated. For example, a person may believe that they are in fact not in the hospital to which they were admitted, but an identical-looking hospital in a different part of the country.
* Somatoparaphrenia is the delusion where one denies ownership of a limb or an entire side of ones body (often connected with stroke).

Note that some of these delusions are also sometimes grouped under the umbrella term of delusional misidentification syndrome.


I found these to be very entertaining.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18164076/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18164076/ Sun, 04 May 2008 12:05:00 PDT I hope there is no more snow.



So.

I have a pair of shorts that are amazing.
I never wear shorts, but this pair shall be worn.


maybe I will take a picture, and you will see how awesome these shorts are.
Even though you will probably find them unamazing.


Anyways.


I love everyone.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18078158/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18078158/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 20:51:29 PDT
]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18057029/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18057029/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 15:01:31 PDT

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18032674/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18032674/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 03:20:01 PDT
Cheers.

Everything is so ridiculous.
Everything.


I'll never understand people.


I kind of have the desire to be angry.
And I think I'm doing a swell job of it.
But I don't really want to be angry.
Because anger solves nothing.

But I'm certainly good at being angry.
Shit.

I hate this feeling.

Cheers.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18015312/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/18015312/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 22:26:54 PDT And fuck if I can help it, it's been someone I know.


Woman beater = SHIT.

You know, I hate bullying in general. Violence in general. Conflict in general.
But you know what I hate even more?
Those shitfuckers who beat a woman.

Don't deserve nothing but a cell.
Don't deserve sympathy.
Don't deserve empathy.
Don't deserve a thing.

Joel = PISSED THE FUCK OFF



And you know, I hate when people insult the police.
For all their faults, at least they're trying.
Most of them leastwise.

Personally, I kind of love the police.
It's great how they can mete out justice.
And god damn, it's great how they can apprehend the bad guy.


And I hate when someone takes advantage of someone else's emotions.
Whatever there I guess.



I'm just ranting. Not much else to do for now.
Waiting to see how things unfold.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17984513/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17984513/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 22:37:23 PDT It was a fairly good read, and I would recommend it. I did not, however, find it spectacular, nor do I find it worth the hype that apparently surrounds this book.

With that said, my favorite part of this book is in the last 40 pages Capote tells you a little bit about true cases of murderers, and I personally find these things fascinating.

"Why did you kill them?"
Simply answered with "We hate the world"

Another man, young and sentenced to death and speculating on freedom, he says
"They may not know where I went, but they'll sure as hell know where I was"

Maybe it's just me, but comments like that are the most macabre and hilarious things in existence. A thought process so simple, and in this instance flawed, well. It just tickles me pink. The study of those who are so smart, yet flawed. People like that are truly fascinating.

Anyways, that's my two cents.
I definitely recommend you read Truman Capote's "In Cold Blood"
As well Once I watch the movie I shall let you know how I found that, in comparison.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17821392/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17821392/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 20:46:34 PDT Because when you listen to dance tunes you feel like you can do anything, thought that's not why I'd listen to them, no, When the cops find me, as they are payed to do, I can tell them as the most sane and normal person "You caught me. I killed 16 people over a period of 2 years". And for every victim I listened to dance tunes." I want to list to the cops every song for every victim, with an air of normalcy. And everyone will think me such a smart man, but know I'm psychotic. Not knowing how or why, not at all. But they'll say the obsessive nature of my attachment to these songs is the sign of my psychosis. Not knowing I want them to think that. Of course I'm fucked up, I killed 16 people, but no one is ever going to know why, not at all. They'll all think I just snapped from stress, with dance music and murder as my psychotic release. But I'll know the truth - I just wanted to kill. And damn that dance music was catchy, it just makes you want to dance. You feel like nothing can go wrong, and you just want to hop and skip while doing whatever it is people do when they hop and skip. I just love those songs, and I can tell you, every day had a theme and a band and a song, every day since I first found dance tunes. And I remember religiously, you know.



By the by, this is fiction, in no way real. I had a thought about psychosis, and denial, and murder. This is what I came up with.
I did not submit it as a deviation as I don't know what it would be under.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17783800/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17783800/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 17:20:39 PDT And it was mind blowing.

Honestly, I bet most people would hate Xiu Xiu, but I love them, they are soooo...Different.
Alt. Electronic I guess I'd call them.
I highly recomend them, because they have the most unique ambient sounds, and the most unique lyrics, I'd say fascinating lyrics really.


"I can't wait to watch you get older
I can't wait to meet that first boy that breaks your life
I can't wait till you realize the family you've been born into
I can't wait to watch you turn from good to bad
I can't wait to tell your grandpa made your mommy
play stripper while your uncle watched
I can't wait to tell you I punched your mommy in the chest
In front of her new friends
I can't wait till you realize mommy's heart is broken
I can't wait to watch you grow up around the people who broke it"
-Nieces pieces


The songs are just so full of thought, macabre and otherwise.
I love it.

I think you all should go out and listen to them. The song I luv the valley is my favorite, but I bet you'll find your own little piece of love.


Anyways, Just thought I'd tell you all.
My mind is blown.





I love my girl.
I love everyone who reads my poems.
I love the world.
I love my girl more though <3

>_<

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17754404/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17754404/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 19:44:02 PDT
]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17721285/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17721285/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 19:00:29 PDT Anyways, I chose to be a metal head, and this is what I wrote, I'm wondering if any metal heads out there agree with it? From the ones I've talked to this is certainly something we understand, but I'm wondering if others disagree.

I am a metal head because of the first time I heard metal and that all-consuming power it embodied, because of raw emotion and primal instincts, because of the sound a guitar makes when fingers are run up the strings, because of the single minded intensity and skill a drummer uses when breaking a sweat, because of the mosh pit and being picked up when knocked down, because the singer has stage presence only singing can reveal and his two-faced nature in regards to singing and screaming, because your body vibrates to the bass and your ears ring for days, because of the obscure beauty in drop D tuning and the sound of insanity in every song, because there is no pity, because it ridicules and consoles the weak, because it is the embodiment of strength and power. I feel this in every forsaken song that society disapproves of, this feeling only someone can experience and all metal heads know.


Anywho, just thought I'd share this thought, gimme a shout with what you think.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17691267/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17691267/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:35:48 PDT As most of you don't know. The band "Curl up and die" makes amazing music.
By amazing I mean the most artrock grindcore metal evar! You can't understand a word he screams. The song titles are completely unrelated to the songs. And the lyrics are genius.

No one knows this band though, sadly.
They made the name for shits and giggles, and broke up for god knows why.

I had given up hope of ever finding their cd "unfortunately we're not robots" but thanks to second hand cd stores. Life has been fulfilled for a day by the finding of said gem.

I highly recommend this cd, though I doubt many of you will like it.

With that said.


I LOVE MY WOMAN <3

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17652203/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17652203/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 14:01:52 PDT This journal is me being unhappy and thinking about things, not really necessary to read if you don't want to.

So as you know it was April fools yesterday, and I don't know who the fuck it was but they had a grand lark at my expense. My girlfriend is in Germany currently, but we still talk over msn whenever possible. Someone, We don't know who, Hacked her account and claiming to be her broke up with me. This person knew enough about us to be half convincing, and had full access to her account. With that said I was not a happy camper. In the back of your mind is "this doesn't seem right, I don't think it's her" and on the side is "What if she'd just having a good old joke" and the other side says "FUCKFUCKFUCKABORTLIFE" And the front says "... What if it's real?" And yeah. Not fucking cool.

Honestly I still feel kinda dazed, I don't know why though. I know it was not her, and I know something like that wouldn't happen. But man. It really screws your head up when something like that happens.

Anyways, My girlfriend logged on herself finally, and we determined that someone is a big fucking dick.


Later that day I went to One of my best friends house. And learned something, as I always do from her, Lindsay is a ball of knowledge. She is a workaholic, and that is really not cool =[
And talking with her I have decided I really don't want to be a workaholic, as I know I probably will be.

With that concluded I return home and screw around whatever right. And some of my girlsfriends friends contact me, informing that they had their msn hacked as well. We talk for a few hours trying to figure out who it was, figuring out nothing. Eventually it turns into basically a "let's all hate on this person" conversation, even though she's innocent. One of them has her account information and gives it to another fellow who plans on screwing up all of her online accounts for shits and giggles, warning me not to warn her. I warn her anyways, and they know it, becoming not really anger, but something. Either way I supposedly now owe this guy for ruining his fun.
People ruin my life.

Is it so wrong to warn a friend? Even if it's not necessarily harmful, something like that is not fun to deal with. And I dunno, I just don't understand why people do stuff like that.

WHATEVER.

This has been a journal about joel being sad, annoyed, and thoughtful.

I love my girl, with all my being.
ILOVEYOUKEVYN! <3

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17633306/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17633306/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 13:25:34 PDT I don't know what to do.
Fuck.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17564673/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17564673/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 21:15:04 PDT
ANYWAYS, two bands you should listen to, which are of this genre, are Sam lowry (he has myspace if you can't find him elsewhere =]) and Murderbydeath, both are amazing, in a unique manner, I think.


With that said.

the movie Passion of the Christ. is the biggest piece of shit ever.
Not to say I'm anti Jesus, cause I'm not. He seems like a solid dude.

However the movie is basically summed up as "let's-beat-jesus-for-three-hours-then-kill-him-and-end." Not even kidding.
My other beef with the movie is all the actors have a little shatner in them, which is to say. OVERACTING. Oh my god. It was terrible.


Lol oh my god.


Easter this year was a not amazing easter. I hope yours were good =]

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17444954/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17444954/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 15:28:45 PDT



Happy easter guys, I hope you have an amazing one =]

Looove

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17355353/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17355353/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 23:09:29 PDT I don't know why I'm contacting you.
You're just a name from a shit hole stall
But I felt compelled; as I the fool.

I want to know
What compels you
I want to know
What creates you

To let the world in
Invitations to unknowns
Is it the unknowns?
Or monotony of sin?

Are you so desperate
Or are you so disparate
As to know nothing but insecurities
Shuffled in by quantitative impurities

And I want to know
What is it that makes...
And I want to know
Whatever formed you?


Have you ever wondered about those people who leave phone numbers or random contact information everywhere, sometimes even in shithouse stalls, and you read them , and just think, what if I dropped a line to this person?

I think that a lot, and sometimes I just want to call them, and say I'm here to talk. I think these people are either supremely confident, or supremely insecure. And I always think, what drives someone to leave such information.
Ah well, something to think about.



I love Kevyn, who is the girl I love. She is the love of my life actually.
Love.
Love.
love.



On another note, Bucket truck is a pretty awesome band. Rather old, and I doubt many people know about them, I've been a fan for a few years. and 06 I think they released a new single "I am the new york times" if I'm not mistaken. Nothing really came of it though, which is sad.
The first song that gave them attention was "You walk behind" which is an amazing song. I recommend them. Though some of their songs are kinda bad quality.


ANYWAYS.
I love you kevyn.

And I love you everyone.

But I love kevyn more.

<3






ALSO.
It's come to my attention of numerous emo teens.
Many of my friends are sad and depressed. And I want to scream fuck at them.
seriously, we're young. Really young. Life's not a bowl of cherries and whoever expects it to be as such is unrealistic. I wish people would stop acting like "OH I WAS DUMPED THE WORLD ENDS"
or in more extreme cases "everyone I've loved has been unfaithful and all my friends became druggies that must mean life is meaningless"

PEOPLE COME ON. not even 20, and thinking life's got no meaning? Seriously. Good things come to those who wait, and are positive, and believe good things come.
Stop bitching and grin and bear it. I don't want to sound mean, but honestly, if things are bad they can get better.
Very few things in life cannot be fixed. It just takes the actual want to fix these problems, and the patience to find a solution, or simply wait until the solution presents itself. And it will, because that's how life works.



ANYWAYS, that is my rant.

LOVE LIFE GUYS.


I love everyone <3
..But I love kevyn more. Just to keep that clear

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17140644/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/17140644/ Sat, 01 Mar 2008 22:32:53 PST
I just made the word up. It means revelation brought on by metal.
My metelation is that I am in a metal mood of incomparable proportions.

ANYWAYS.

My girlfriend, who I love with all my being. Is in Germany for 3 months. and I am a missing her. lots =[


On a brighter note, I love her <3

I also love everyone <3

(But I love her more than everyone and everything)

ANYWAYS.

Otep is an amazing band.

On a non metal note I have dallas green's (City and colour) new album. I give it a 5 out of 5 compared to the current market, however in comparison to his first album the new one gets 3 and a half out of 5.

Otep's new album is somewhat generic. But has some gems. By the way it's not really new, but it's their latest one.



On an unrelated note, how does a guy masturbating make it sexy? Like, girls it's easy "naked = sexy"
but guys are all "hurhurhur we have hairy balls and it's gross" so how can a man pull off being sexy while doing the one man waltz? Think about it.


I've waisted enough of your time, so I'll say goodbye for now.

I love you kevyn! <3



Everyone needs to see Soulja boy's new music video/ hear the song. It's. SO. bad.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/16706837/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/16706837/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 12:33:48 PST I Really don't have much to say these days, not sure if that's good or bad.

I'm thinking it's good, because As far as I can tell I'm content. And the only time I've ever said things is when I'm bothered.

On the other hand I just don't contemplate as much these days, which is kind of sad because I liked contemplating. Except I just can get myself to do that now because it seems like so much work, just to think about things I don't really want to think about, even if it would bring understanding to some degree.

Ah well.

I believe this is called happiness, and so I am content.
I am happy because I love my girl with all my being, just to let you know

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/16330071/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/16330071/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 13:25:19 PST I thought I'd mention that.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/16187389/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/16187389/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 15:23:13 PST
Happy new year!@
Merry tomorrow!


Love to everyone <3

Thankyou for the cookies Mal-san, I lurv them <3
And that's an awesome picture you sent too ^^
We really need to chat mooore =[


Anywho, More love for everyone! <3





And.

<3kevyn<3

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/15833280/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/15833280/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 11:18:29 PST I don't mean as in carpentry, or as in building with my hands physically.

I mean building relationships and life and love. It's a nice feeling.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/15596930/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/15596930/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 20:56:29 PST
School.

Work will be insane Christmas.

I love My girlfriend. A lot.

That's all for updates.

Thoughts will come at a later date.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/15094350/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/15094350/ Tue, 16 Oct 2007 21:13:29 PDT Yet the moment I try and articulate. They're gone.


It's like the moment mind touches paper or keyboard, all I'm left with is a vague and infuriating sense, as if I'm lacking.
And then my Brain explodes and I give up =O

Oh well.


There are many things worth thinking about, and saying.
Yet I think them. And then forget them.

I guess I'm living on a cloud.

I guess it's hard to remember the ground when you stare at the sky

For the longest time I've felt empty. And just recently I'm getting this feeling like I've found something worth having. I love this girl.

I know I'm never content, Whatever success I get, I just want twice as much.
And now that I've found someone who I love with my life.
I really don't know what to do.

I guess I'll just take the world in my hands and give it to my girl.
And then. Go from there.


The end.
For now.,

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14840461/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14840461/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 11:39:56 PDT Life is good.


I love you missus <3

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14759160/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14759160/ Sun, 23 Sep 2007 14:05:51 PDT I can hardly believe that I havn't been on DA for about 3 weeks. Sorry for such an absence guys.

Updates!:

School is school. I am busy there'in

Work is work. Thinking of finding a new job

Back into kuuuuuuuuuung fu. said with that exact tone.


And!
You know that girl I asked out?
I love her.

So yeah, life is good ^^




If there's anything I missed that you want me to see let me know ^^

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14442320/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14442320/ Sat, 01 Sep 2007 14:03:25 PDT
I asked out this girl.
Who I love with all my organs.

And she said yes.

Just thought I'd say that.



<3

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14297151/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14297151/ Thu, 23 Aug 2007 01:23:06 PDT I guess I played hand in a woman's tears.
And I feel bad for it.
A woman should never cry, especially by someone else's hand and idiocies.

And It's not so much doing something wrong,
but things weren't done right.

I didn't do anything bad. But things were just such a way.
And my carelessness.

Fellows, remember. There are things you don't know about. And they can do damage.
"What you don't know can't hurt you". is a lie.

It may not hurt you, but it will hurt something, someone, sometime, somewhere.



Anyways, this time, things will turn out ok it appears. I'm thankful for that.
And thankful for a lesson learned.

Good day to you.


My respects to Mal-sans Grandfather, and my condolences to mal-san. be strong missus.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14180678/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14180678/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 13:16:20 PDT It was totally awesome, heard a few new songs from him.

I also saw Buck 65. That guy is a Canadian Genius, check him out, yo.
And that's al there is to say

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14083422/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/14083422/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 00:27:47 PDT Just to let anyone know.

Anything you need to tell me, please send a mesage and I'll get back to you asap. AKA Mon or Tue.

]]> ~six-ugly http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/13985444/ http://six-ugly.deviantart.com/journal/13985444/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 11:30:34 PDT I hope you are enjoying your summer's as well.





I love my friends.
Thanks for being alive guys.
Special thoughts to Kevyn ^^

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