http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:sora195&section=today deviantART RSS for by:sora195 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 06:37:36 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/1005747/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/1005747/ Tue, 29 Jul 2003 16:04:51 PDT and you didn't look the same
three years have flown by
but its more than just time
the look in your eyes
the shadows on your face
your stance and your air
all say that you've changed
i loved you once
and in a way always will
but i can't help but wonder
what happened to you?
when did you stop smiling
and choose smoking instead
when did you stop sports
and choose violence instead
i can't help but think
how much we've both changed
in these last three years
you seem angry, defensive
with a large facade
i look at you
and want to break down those walls
but you're not the boy
that i once knew and loved
you're something quite different
but i'm not quite sure what
I'm not sure how to deal with you
or how i should act
all i know is i'm drawn to you
like a moth to a flame
Our time on earth is an irreplaceable gift, one to be treasured and relished for every moment; life is a fragile gift that is delivered to us in pieces, and it only achieves meaning as we cherish and blend the pieces---even the seemingly insignificant pieces---into a full universal whole. ]]> ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/991224/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/991224/ Sat, 26 Jul 2003 09:44:17 PDT steady and true, yet
it does not beat for me
it beats for you
calling and praying
wish you near
so i could hold you close
near to my heart
so that we might
be as one
and beat as one
my heart is in me
yet it is with you
drawn by a power
both ancient and new
my heart is yours. . . ]]> ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/991197/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/991197/ Sat, 26 Jul 2003 09:36:09 PDT when it feels like a lie
confident and secure on the outside
but all you really want is to curl up and die
You're not what they think
you were never that good
and people's faith in you
makes you feel misunderstood
Your dreams are high
your ambitions are too
you want to kiss the sky
or fly to the moon
but how can you fly
with your wings hacked off
bloody remnents on the ground
jarring you into the reality of what you can't
the pressure increases
as does the pace
you know you'll never win the race
yet you're afraid to let everyone down
because while their beliefs might be misplaced
deep down you really need their faith
to keep you going
and give you a cause
to fight a losing battle just because
the temptations to great
as are the stakes
and you can't stop
even if you wanted too
]]> ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/846641/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/846641/ Tue, 17 Jun 2003 21:15:44 PDT
I guess its easy to say you've been there and that you know where i have been, but life has never treated me as kindly as perhaps it has with you. You often tell me not to act so tough, and to let some people through, but saying it is much easier for you than it is for me to do. When you have been put down from the very start by someone you value and whose opinion you do not doubt; when your dreams that were so dear to you and then cruelly thrust away; when you have been told you can be anything you put your mind to . . . except for this and for that, because dear its just not practical; when you struggle to achieve what you think is expected, and are compared to everything you're not; when you're told to be something or do something you hate; whe you strive for perfection but fall short of the mark, with the frustration of knowing you could have and should have done more; when you're told that if you give something your all that it will simply be enough, yet when you look back at it, it just simply wasn't enough; when life just keeps throwing obstacles down in your path and you think it can't get any worse, but it does; when you told a friend in a desperate plea for help that you've considered suicide, and you thought they would help you out, yes, help was offered in the form of, "Sure i'll lend you the knife,"; when you've struggled to put your life back on track and the pain of the past behind and then two consecutive deaths in a row almost stop that chance with those two foul blows; when you're told not to cry and to hold your head high even though you're screaming inside; when the grief and the pain and the anger inside have reached their highest peak and you lash out at someone close to you without a thought in the world, and seeing them misinterpret the action and leave you staring at their back, wanting to call to them, to tell them come back, but to proud to say anything at all; when the grief finally hits you like a ton of bricks and you feel the tears welling inside, yet when the tears try to come out you find there's nothing inside; when you struggle so hard keeping up your walls to avoid the hurt and the pain, when getting to know someone is like sticking your hand in an open flame, not knowing if you'll get burned or remain unscathed; when you've been through all that and more then maybe you'll know where i've been. ]]> ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/827272/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/827272/ Thu, 12 Jun 2003 19:48:10 PDT when you pass me in the halls
You really don't know me at all
you see my outer surface
yet never think to look behind
as though everything that is me
is on the outside
You tell me i am lying
you tell me i am wrong
you tell me to be someone else
then complain that i'm not genuine
i hate what i'm becoming
i hate what i've become
i can't stand the useless tears
creeping down my cheeks at night
no one understands me,
no one seems to care
i reach for something to hold to
yet when i reach i grab vacant air
I wish i could just be myself
but that will never be
because deep down i'm sensative
and everything cuts deep and bleeds


]]> ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/827258/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/827258/ Thu, 12 Jun 2003 19:44:11 PDT I wrote it for you
in hopes that you would see me true
that masks would drop
and walls would fall
and you'd see the real me
within it all
You gave me hope
when i had none
and with that all said and done
when all the shields and illusions left
You were there
you stood by me
and with you
my soul flew free
without barriers and endless weights
my heart nearly reached heavens gates
When i failed to believe in me
you pointed it out and made me see
the only thing holding me back
was me
You've stood by me
through the good
and helped me weather the bad
never have you left my side
you share my soul
a perfect reflection in spirit
there is nothing in me
that you haven't seen
either through my eyes
or through your own
For all you have done
to keep me sane
i wish that i could do the same
to aid you with your troubles
and share with you your joy
and if you will let me
we'll be friends when we are old ]]> ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/640680/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/640680/ Sun, 20 Apr 2003 10:54:02 PDT ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/444001/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/444001/ Wed, 15 Jan 2003 19:56:48 PST ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/442343/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/442343/ Tue, 14 Jan 2003 20:33:41 PST ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/430655/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/430655/ Tue, 07 Jan 2003 21:17:50 PST . ]]> ~sora195 http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/426795/ http://sora195.deviantart.com/journal/426795/ Sun, 05 Jan 2003 18:04:43 PST . ]]> ~sora195