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deviantART: by:soslovinsungirl http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:soslovinsungirl&section=today deviantART RSS for by:soslovinsungirl en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 05 Dec 2009 20:32:44 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png consistently inconsistent http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/28484950/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/28484950/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 09:36:31 PST

this past week really sucked, first i got bronchitis out of nowhere, then i had an essay due every single day, i'm glad its over, it really set my emotions on take over mode, logical kim seeems to have been bound and gagged and thrown in a closet somewhere, i hate being this emotionally sensitive, its just creating more problems

all the same though, i'm excited to go back for thanksgiving and do what i love, which is decorate for Christmas, unfortunately this has also been the time of year where i generally reflect on how different next year will probably be

i know what i want, but it always seems out of grasp, once again i feel my life suspended, or at least my heart

on the plus side, i found out a couple of weeks ago that i can graduate a semester early, which makes me very happy, not that i won't be in school for another year after that getting certified, but it'll be completely different from undergrad

i was able to finally finish some poems i'd gotten inspiration for, but wasn't able to finish at the time for lack of words, and i've created a few more from current waves of psycho emotion

it seems patience is not a strong point of mine, at least not when it comes to my own life

anyways, i hope your lives are less hectic than mine

]]> *soslovinsungirl Devious Journal Entry http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/27546522/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/27546522/ Fri, 02 Oct 2009 19:54:07 PDT
Dear Soslovinsungirl,

I _______ you.

You have a nice _______.

You make me _______.

You should _______.

Someday I will _______.

You + me = _______.

If I saw you now I'd ______.

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If I could sing you any song it would be _______.

We could _______ under the stars.

From,

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(P.S. _______________.)

Oh and I am _____ (going/not going) to post this under my notes/journal and see what you write about me.

]]> *soslovinsungirl i think i hear bees http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/27495705/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/27495705/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 21:56:11 PDT

*looks around*

so does anyone know where September went?

anyway, life kinda just is, other than being busy, i'm kinda lacking the special, maybe its just me

i found out today that a classmate from my graduating class died, 5 days after his 21st birthday, definately a shock, i was friends with his twin sister, it definately put some things into perspective, especially how much i love my twin sister and how much i'd be lost without her, twins have a bond no one can understand or replace

on a happier note, my favorite season is technically here, even if it is still quite hot in SA, but there is some Autumn elements and for fall break, i'm going on a road trip to Tennessee, during the peak of the fall colors, to go hiking in the mountains and enjoy the scenery, i hope the trip goes well, i definately need a break soon

luckily i go home for a day and a half this weekend, and my best friend will be in town the same time, which will be nice, and i get new shoes!!! always a good thing ^,^

i have my first midterm next week, bleck!

its nice to be learning a lot in my classes though

anyways, i hope you are all well, i'll try to check back in soon, stupid network

*hugs*

]]> *soslovinsungirl around http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/27076622/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/27076622/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 14:20:40 PDT
sorry i haven't been around, apparently the network my school uses, hates dA, so it loads it completely wrong and therefore makes it very hard to work with, hence the reason why i haven't been on to look at journals and deviations, so sorry about that, the only reason why i can now, is because i'm house sitting for the weekend, so different network means dA!! yay!

anyways, i'm back at UIW, about to start my third week of school, so far i love all of my classes, mainly because i'm learning a lot! which is always a good thing, i've been kept pretty busy with school and work, which is nice, as always time seems to be flying by, i barely saw August, now September is here, i hope the hot weather we've been having will finally come to an end, its very tedious to endure for so long, makes me strongly contemplate moving somewhere other than Texas after i graduate, i would really like to have four seasons, not one and a half

i hope you are doing well, good luck with classes and such for those of you education peoples ^.^ and have fun working to everyone else

]]> *soslovinsungirl random 1am musings http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/26494946/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/26494946/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 23:27:13 PDT

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so for the past 45 minutes i've been dancing around the empty apartment i'm living in for the next week, mind you, i've been here since July, but i've had two room mates the rest of the time, and said room mates are out of town right now, visiting their respective home towns, i will go home at the end of this week, for a week, as soon as my finals are over

anyways, back to the dancing, its been lots of fun, wild and crazy, mostly because no one can see and also because i have too much energy and had to burn it off somehow, i'm also trying my best not to psych myself out, which tends to happen when i'm alone, hence the dance mix, filled with lots of upbeat music, that's playing as i write this,

have you ever really noticed how you act when you're alone? i notice i have random spurts of dancing (not including the times of excess energy) and i make the most random noises, mostly squeals, tiny screams, or other weird crazy sounds, i think its because i'm normally such a quiet person (unless you're alone with me, then i'm a talker) but in groups especially, i'm generally quiet, merely observing

i've also noticed i don't think in the same format as i do when i'm around people, hard to explain, but definitely different, maybe you do too?

the fall semester starts for me in two weeks, i'll be a junior, it promises to be an interesting semester, so far the second half of the year has most decidedly been better than the first half, but alas, will it last?

i'm so weird sometimes, then again, who isn't?

i've also been thinking about change a lot lately, and the future, which is always a dangerous thing, but a girl can dream right? sometimes i want to freeze time, just to keep the present, so i don't have to face the bad that tomorrow could very well likely bring, but i also know that tomorrow can bring something completely wonderful too, and i'm so impatient for the completely wonderful, that i wouldn't freeze time, even if i could

my favorite thought for the present is: don't stay content forever, but do have moments of just being content

this definitely seems to describe my life at the present

anyways, i think that's enough for a 1am rambling such as this, i hope you are having a fabulous time, sleeping, dreaming, loving, living, or whatever you call what you're doing

good night '.'

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]]> *soslovinsungirl la di da http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/25925357/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/25925357/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 16:50:38 PDT

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I'm back in San Antonio, been here since last Thursday, its been really good for the most part, I had my first day of class, I'm taking American Lit to get it out of the way, and my impression of my teacher so far is not very good, i feel like i'm going to be driven insane in this class, so thats the only downfall for being back

on a better note, tomorrow i turn 20

yay! lol i'm so glad i don't have to tell people i'm 19 anymore and receive shocked expressions because i seem older to them, 20 seems a little more fitting (although to some i should be 25, but whatever lol)

all the same though i've already had two birthday celebrations and have two more coming, on the wednesday before i had to leave, my family gave me a little party with a few family friends and my best friend called two more of my good friends over while i baked cookies that night, i had such a great time with them,

yesterday one of my San Antonio friends took me to dinner and a movie, we saw public enemies, it was a good movie but kinda long, anyways for my actual birthday tomorrow, 4 of my closest friends here are taking me out, i don't know where, cause its a surprise, but i like it that way ^,^ there's only one missing, but i got to see her Sunday morning for breakfast for a few hours and that was good, also this weekend another friend is giving me a party, all this partying makes me feel so loved lol

have i mentioned how hot i am, and i don't mean muoy caliente, i mean holy fuck will this texas heat never rest, the heat index has been over 100 degrees since may, and no rain

i've taken more cold showers than i care to count just to cool off, *rawr*

anyways i hope you are all doing well, life is weird and may thrown you for a loop but why stay in a complacent stupor all the time right?

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]]> *soslovinsungirl back from vacation http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/25278024/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/25278024/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 17:43:24 PDT
i finally managed to go through all the deviations and messages racked up while i was gone

so i've been reading like crazy to keep my mind occupied and i'm right back at work, i'm trying my best to keep my frustrations in check, but i know i bring a lot upon myself

*sigh* july can't come soon enough, even though i know it'll probably bring more heartache with hit, i really wonder about the pessimism i try to tell myself is realism

anyways, i hope summer has brought all sorts of sunshine into your lives ^.^

]]> *soslovinsungirl back in CC http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/24712820/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/24712820/ Mon, 11 May 2009 22:51:54 PDT

as of now i'm sleeping on an air mattress in our living room surrounded by my stuff from my dorm, the question that always seems to be looming is "what are we going to do with you and your stuff" i don't have a room anymore, its kinda frustrating when i have to change or when i just want to be alone, but alas tis only for two months, it could be worse, i could be in a tent in the backyard or up a tree ^,^

for the past couple of months, i've been trying to explore music from artists/bands i've never heard of or listened to before, so i'd like to ask anyone to contribute artists or bands that they really like or think is good, and i'll check them out, i like pretty much anything but heavy metal, but even that i can appreciate at times, thanks

friday is my mom's 50th birthday, i planned a suprise party, i hope it goes well, my mom isn't a big fan of attention like that, but my reasoning is that you only turn 50 once, and i also wanted to show how appreciated she is, so we shall see.....

as always, i'm trying to keep my mind occupied, i'm also hoping my work schedule gets consistant enough that i can start running again (of course there's not a good chance of that happening, but i can hope right?)

anyways.... i hope you all have a good week *hugs*

]]> *soslovinsungirl finals week and whatnot http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/24538976/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/24538976/ Fri, 01 May 2009 21:42:07 PDT
ironically enough, i'm taking 18 hours broken up into 7 different classes, and i have only 3 actual finals to take, which is 2 less tests than when i took 15 hours, talk about handy, all the same though, it makes a whole lot less stress on me, which is really nice, i'm only really worried about one of the tests, everything else is pretty straight forward which is good

this sunday is my choir concert, it should be really good

i move out on the 8th

and just like last year, i really don't want to leave, but i have no choice in the matter, i go back home on friday and my old job already has me scheduled that saturday, needless to say i'll be working like crazy, but alas, i need to money

i'm really not sure what this summer will bring, but i do pray that the second half of this year turns out better than the first in terms of life movement

my main stress right now is my headaches, just last night i was woken up at 3am with one that had me crying and not being able to go back to sleep, i'm seriously at a loss when it comes to these headaches, i can only do so much, but alas, it seems my lot in life right now to endure pain on various levels

by the way, i just submitted the first two poems i've written in a while, i feel so changed inside right now, i wonder if my writing is reflective of it, all the same be kind, poetry doesn't seem to be my strong suite anymore.......

all the same, have a good weekend, and good luck to everyone dealing with finals

]]> *soslovinsungirl get http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/24238417/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/24238417/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 12:50:02 PDT

yeah......

today is definately one of them

i'm feeling kinda lost again, and kinda clingy/needy, like i really want someone around or something to do that will distract me enough that i won't notice no one is there.......

ugh

*sigh*

have a good week and Happy Easter!

]]> *soslovinsungirl good day http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/24117583/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/24117583/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 18:20:37 PDT

so a couple of things happened today that made me very happy

1. I'm get to go to INDIA!!!! I leave the day after thanksgiving and won't return till two days after new years ^,^ This of course poses a bit of a problem with missing the last two weeks of classes in the semester and finals, so i've emailed a few teachers about taking their classes and whether or not they'd be willing to give me my final early, and all but one have said yes, YAY!!!

2. The club I'm president of(history club) hosted a presentation for the organization Invisible Children, if you haven't heard of this group, you should really check them out, their website is [link], basically its about stopping a very evil man named Josephy Kony who kidnaps children in Uganda to fight in his rebel army, this war has been going on for 23 years and every time peace talks have ensued, Kony has backed out killing more and more people, the terror of his cult is spreading throughout Eastern Africa and more and more children are taken in the night and being forced to commit horrendous crimes, so please please check this site out and help spread the word

3. I had to delete Her Solitaire because I'm going to be published in my school's literary journal!!! I'm so excited, of course that wasn't the one I expected them to choose, but its all good

4. In two days I'll be home for Easter break, which is much needed, i've been SOOOO busy since spring break, but in a very good way, basically I have to make it to the 19th of April and most of my commitments will be satisfied

anyways, i hope your week is well

]]> *soslovinsungirl plain tuckered out http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/23923461/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/23923461/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 19:44:48 PDT

these past two weeks have been crazy busy, which is mostly a good thing because it keeps my mind occupied which is always beneficial, mostly school stuff that i've had to deal with, but also some disappoinments....

but i did have my first day as a volunteer for the Humane Society today, it was SOOOO much FUN! lol but definately a work out, i walked/played with 6 different dogs, all for at least 20 minutes, needless to say i'm tuckered out, they were all large dogs with lots of energy, some walked me more than i walked them,

there was one named Bear, that was a black golden retriever mix, he had the sweetest temperment and another named Gucci that was so funny because she kept trying to keep a toy but was throwing it up in the air to take hold of it, ADORABLE!!! Travis was definately the strongest(not the biggest), he was like trying to take my hand off, i have rope burn from the leash on my hand, but it was totally worth it to spend time with all the different dogs, its good getting to know some of their personalities so you can tell potential adopters about them

anyways i'm definately tired from all the running around i've had to do the last few weeks, i'd love to sleep for like a week(not literally of course), hopefully i'll be able to sleep in tomorrow, i can't believe the semester is almost over, less than 6 weeks and i'll be home for the summer again

*sigh* i do wish i could look into the future sometimes, just to see if i'm on the right path or if i'm even doing the right thing, but alas that's life

all the same though, i hope you're doing very well, have a great weekend

]]> *soslovinsungirl endings http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/23699861/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/23699861/ Sat, 14 Mar 2009 18:48:27 PDT

so much came to an end this week, some things i don't know if i will ever truly come to terms with, its so much against who i am as a person, but i didn't see any other way i could survive otherwise, i guess i'm just more of a selfish person than i thought, or i just can't hurt those i love in the way i know i would

i'm still in shock over it all, i can't believe how fast my world changed in a single minute

all the same i hope you're well.....

]]> *soslovinsungirl =) http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/23478989/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/23478989/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 20:41:14 PST

a whole lot better than last time ^,^ i'm going to Louisiana to visit my grandparents for spring break with two of my very dear friends, i'm so excited, i leave this saturday and come back the following friday,

school is good, busy, but not too bad

i can't believe how fast time is going, really crazy, and of course life's ironies are still very apparent for me

i hope your life is good

]]> *soslovinsungirl ugh http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/23261542/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/23261542/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 20:33:00 PST

*rawr*

*sigh*

*tear*

way too much frustration to even know where to begin

alas, i hope you are doing better my friend

]]> *soslovinsungirl in case you didn't know http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/22927386/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/22927386/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 16:58:52 PST

1. I spell my name with 2 e's at the end as opposed to -ly, but i generally go by Kim

2. i have a twin sister who also uses two e's at the end of her name

3. i was born in the netherlands

4. i have issues with textures

5. i have a very active imagination

6. because of said imagination, i'm almost always amused at something

7. i'm allergic to seafood

8. i know the basics of three languages (French, Arabic, Swahili)

9. if you ever see me tracing something or writing in the air, its because i'm finger spelling, i especially love cursive words that have lots of swoops

10. poetry is my main outlet

11. when i can't write, i'm usually reading

12. i would rather have a one on one conversation than be in a group of friends

13. i'll crave something salty before i crave chocolate

14. i drink hot chocolate in the summer time

15. i really, really like shoes

16. i still watch movies like Thumbelina and sing along

17. i go run to feel free and because i have the ability to do so, not as a workout

18. autumn is my favorite season, with winter as a close second, spring third, and summer last

19. i love trees

20. being as that is, i'm a border line tree hugger(ask me if you want an explanation)

21. i'm very much a dog person, and a sucker for puppy dog eyes of any kind (ask my sister, that's her specialty)

22. i love anything to do with other people's cultures, art, history, way of life, my main interest is African and Asian culture

23. I have a lion that someone put on top of my car now chilling on my dashboard that i've named Edward

24. i love getting letters in the mail, snail mail to all you tech obsessed peoples

25. in 5 years, 5 months and 15 days, i'll be this old

ok i'm done, have a lovely weekend

]]> *soslovinsungirl back and forth http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/22722707/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/22722707/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 20:45:50 PST

stupid headaches :'(

anyways on a lighter note, i really like my classes this semester, different than what i expected, such as world geography counting as my science, and an easy one at that

African literature is going to be amazing, my teacher brought me back a book from Africa about the political history of the last 50 years, to kinda give us a background of what has happened there as they shift into the modern world,

i've also been elected history club president, woohoo!! lol

and i've joined choir, and i absolutely adore it

other than that, i'm a little more content with my alone time than i was last semester

i hope all of you are well, have a good weekend

]]> *soslovinsungirl what a crappy ending http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/22317250/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/22317250/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:40:28 PST

anyways i hope you guys are ringing in the new year a lot better than i am

]]> *soslovinsungirl a break, or is it? http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/22090954/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/22090954/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 19:13:32 PST

anywho, its been nice being home, just being around people so much more than i ever had at school, only problem is that i don't have my own room here, i sleep in the living room so for a person who's had more privacy than she could deal with all semester to go now having almost no privacy at all is a pretty big upheaval, i'm constantly being displaced to someone else's room in the morning so they can have the living room

i've also been having fairly constant dreams about a certain person, i'm not sure what to make of them though.....

anywho, Christmas is less than a week away, then after Christmas we have a bunch of people coming in, it should be interesting, lol, I also got my graded, i got 4 A+ and one B- which makes me very happy, my GPA has stayed at a 3.74, which i'm also happy with

as for my general outlook on life right now, its not very clear, i'm still in that hazy not sure what i am state, not sad persay but definately feeling something darker, but also feeling very blessed, i really do know how lucky i am, and i appreciate so much of what i have and who i am

all the same, i hope you are all well and have a wonderful Christmas week filled with great joy and peace

]]> *soslovinsungirl so weird http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21797607/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21797607/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 10:45:40 PST
finals week is upon me, starting monday of course, i can't believe the semester is over, its such a crazy thought, it really was such a fast semester, time flew by even though there were times when you'd think it would drag, but it really didn't at all,

i know its weird for a person of only 19 to say, but it really does seem like time is slipping away, way too fast, out of my control, like next thing i know i'm going to wake up and be 83 with 15 grandkids and 3 great grand kids and an old but oh so loyal dog by my side with nothing to do but look back on my life and wonder where the hell did it go, ha ha, depsite the speed of it going by, i hope i can look back on it with pride when i do get to that point

anyway, lol, its also the officially the Christmas season, one of my favorite times of the year, i really am looking forward to going home on the 14th, i get to take my friend

home too, so it'll be good to have someone to talk to for that three hour drive, especially since i haven't gotten to see him as much this semester we can catch up, which i'm definately excited for, i'll probably be really busy over break, between working at Bath and Body Works, writing my essay for my African Literature class, and hopefully working on my novel that i've been neglecting, not to mention all the wonderful family time, if nothing else, i hope my mind stays occupied so i don't start thinking too much

anywho, i think that's probably enough for now, lol, I hope you all are doing great and having a wonderful week, just think its Wednesday, therefore the weekend will be here before you know it

]]> *soslovinsungirl one more month http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21516300/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21516300/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 10:42:08 PST

this semester simply blows my mind, i honestly can't believe how fast its gone by, and just everything that's happened, i'm at a point in my life that i never thought i would be at, which has made me stop, look around, and really examine what i've always believed to be true

its hard fighting a viewpoint you can't fathom,

oh how true that has been throughout history,

if nothing else i just don't know where to turn

anyways, i hope you are all well, have a good week ^,^

]]> *soslovinsungirl a little less thought and a lot more action http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21354782/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21354782/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 09:56:19 PST
life has indeed thrown me a curve, it seems to be just another test for my patience, right now i've decided to work with it, stay patient until something greater shows me i don't need to be anymore and i can move on from this crossroad

all the same, there's a return to the calm i had recently, before this even occurred, i'm going to put more focus on the other aspects of my life, like academics, God knows i haven't lived my full potential there, i mean i'm not saying i've slacked off, but i do know i can do better, shine a little brighter in that regard

i'm also in search of a new activity, i guess a new outlet, writing isn't enough right now, mostly because i'm blocked by words, i used to go run when i needed an outlet, but that's not always convenient, nor safe when i'm sick, so i guess i'll have to explore and find something new

this semester is almost over, its kinda sad how fast its gone by, i'll have to return home again soon, for a month, but i think i'll be working for most of it, all the same i'm not looking forward to being seperated from certain people here

oh yeah, it seems i've surpassed 5,000 pageviews without even realizing it, ha ha, go figure, all the same, i wish to extend my thanks to all those who've supported me since that random September day when i decided to join, my original intent was only to watch artists, but i got inspired to perhaps try my hand, or rather, my pen at it, who knew i'd write so much over time, some of which i'm still in awe and very proud of, so thanks guys

as always, i hope you're well ^,^

]]> *soslovinsungirl a lovely artist http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21347004/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21347004/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 18:50:31 PST

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]]> *soslovinsungirl wait, no don't wait http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21324044/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21324044/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 18:23:45 PST

well this morning i got fed up with feeling crappy plus the pain of this headache that has tormented me for a week now, so i looked online and found a family doctor and went to see him this afternoon,

turns out i have bronchitis, ha ha go figure, here i was thinking it was just a stubborn cold, not at all, lol so i got some antibiotics and a medicine for my headache that i hope will be effective, because i'm so very tired of headaches

all the same though, if you've noticed i haven't really written lately, there's a very good reason for this occurrence, i have no words that would do my current state of mind and emotions justice, words fail me for the first time, its an interesting state to be in, i mean i feel like anything i've ever written about love is nothing like reality, and should just be thrown out the window

]]> *soslovinsungirl alas, there is only me http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21272212/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/21272212/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 20:21:05 PDT

i'm sick, and what makes it worse is that i've suddenly come to realize how alone i really am, all those i deemed close friends are nowhere to be found

one doesn't want to get sick himself, i guess i don't blame him, its hard to do school work if you get sick

the other has a boyfriend who she has to spend time with, i mean this is the one she wants to build a life with, who was also sick, or at least kinda sick, so she had no time to spare and be with me when she's devoted to him

what of family you ask? they're 3 hours away, hardly able to drop by or stay with me

i guess i'm throwing myself a pity party, but i really don't like being alone when i'm sick, and that's what i have been, i wonder if this is just what i'm going to have to get used to

all the same, i hope you are all healthy and loved

elections results are this Tuesday, i fear the results and the impact it will have on my country ad my future

]]> *soslovinsungirl never how it seems http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/20994554/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/20994554/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 22:40:40 PDT

God keeps sending me the same message, in my dreams, at church, through people, and i swear i'm listening with all my heart, trying to hold on to it, do what it asks, and simply let go, but my heart feels so very empty, my soul so very dim

i asked for answers, and i got them, i just don't like them at all, but then again, truth is the hardest thing to accept when its the last thing in the world you want to hear

*sigh*

i hope all is well in your lives

by the way, if anyone is looking for a good book to read, read Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers, i can't even begin to describe how much i loved it, i couldn't put it down, i'm sad that i'm done with it already, i hate it when a great book is over, its like saying goodbye to a good friend

]]> *soslovinsungirl um yeah... http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/20479752/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/20479752/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 21:46:33 PDT

plagued by questions and continual doubt

unfortunately my life is nowhere near going how i expected and its throwing me for a loop, but alas i'm dealing,and i have a great support system helping me get through it

sorry i haven't been very active comment wise, but time is still not my friend, hope you are all well

]]> *soslovinsungirl back home http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/20102477/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/20102477/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 19:45:35 PDT

but all the same its great to be surrounded by such friends and have more to do wiht my life outside of work

anyways, i hope all is well with you guys, have a great weekend

]]> *soslovinsungirl depressing novels http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/19903153/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/19903153/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 18:28:19 PDT
that realization has really sunk in for me lately, novels are great for escaping reality, but when you're done with the book, you're depressed because you know life doesn't really work out like it does in books, its like you have to keep reading to not face reality,

so today i had to go get another allergy shot, and i picked one of the books i haven't read this summer at random to read while i waited, and i ended up reading the whole thing today, it was a really good book, with some great advice in it that i believe i was meant to read around this time, like i was supposed to pick that book today

so for the most part, i've really craved being alone lately, but that's hard to come by in my house, well my life really, honestly i really can't wait to be back in SA, where i have a couple of places i can just escape to and no one will intrude on my solitude, and now that i have a car, i can find even more places to disappear to, its just waiting for that point, where i don't have to come up with a reason everytime i want to just leave

i feel like i'm missing something, apart of myself i guess you could say, and its destroying me because of it

]]> *soslovinsungirl weekend is over http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/19375715/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/19375715/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 16:41:51 PDT
Friday night was the rehearsal and then the dinner where i got to meet the other bridemaids and the groom's men, including the best man who i'd be paired with as the maid of honor, it really was a great time, the groom's brothers(grooms men) were so much like the groom that i felt at home with them right away, they were really easy to get to know and have fun with, all but one was married and their wives were such sweethearts, instead of a normal bachelor/bachelorette party, a bunch of us just went to the beach after the dinner and got to know each other better

i clicked right away with one of the other bridesmaids, so we pretty much stuck together for the rest of the wedding festivities, so Saturday was the wedding, and it went just how a wedding should, i loved watching my best friend walk down the aisle, she was so beautiful,

the reception was a blast, i danced, flirted, drank, gave a great speech, and had a really great time

while this was all going on i was also house sitting for my other best friend, so it was really nice cause i could go back there and unwind without having to worry about anyone or anything

tomorrow is my birthday, my friend from San Antonio is coming down, i don't really know what we're going to do, but it should be interesting,

anways, i hope you're all well and had a great weekend

]]> *soslovinsungirl thoughts and such http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/19260792/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/19260792/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 18:51:37 PDT
i've been very melancholy lately, thinking about so many things that seem so much out of my grasp, its very frustrating all the same

Saturday i went to the wedding of two of my friend's from high school, and this Saturday coming up i have the wedding of one of my best friend's that i'm the maid of honor for, i'm not a fan of her family, but i love her so i'll put up with them and their antics for two days

like i mentioned earlier i've been working like crazy, its been our semi-annual sale all month long, and this past week i've worked every single day of it, yesterday i did a double shift, needless to say i've been exhausted, today was my first day off, so i basically did nothing all day, it was very nice but also bad

arg!! there's just so much i want to do, but honestly have no power to

on a final note, i turn 19 in a week

]]> *soslovinsungirl jumpin on the bandwagon http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18974975/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18974975/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 23:02:54 PDT

If you leave a comment, I'll inquire or explain something about you:

a) tell you why I befriended you.
b) associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc.
c) tell you something I like about you.
d) tell you a memory I have of you.
e) ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
f) tell you my favorite pic/dev of yours.

]]> *soslovinsungirl calm restlessness http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18846588/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18846588/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 23:06:22 PDT
lol

i visited my asthma doctor, and they did more allergy testing on me, it turns out, i'm allergic to cedar, which is all over san antonio, hence the reason for all my problems with my asthma, it was so bad that i was beginning to question my sanity, i mean i went so long without breathing right that i seriously began to think that that was supposed to be normal, needless to say, it wasn't, i had most the office working on me at one point or another, turns out i don't have normal asthma either, lol

in the end i've been put on 4 new medicines, and i have to take allergy shots, i was really freaking about the shots, i mean who wouldn't lol, needles aren't fun, but the nurse who gives the shots is really good, she doesn't stab you like many do, i barely feel it, i have to build up doese, they want to get me to maintenance level(meaning same dose every time) by time i go back to school

he he, so i was very relieved to know that there was something wrong with me(screwy as that sounds)

anyways, my life consists of work, home, work, lol which has made me miss me and made me restless and the fact that i had to stop my running for over a week because i was taken off my asthma and allergy medicine before my doctor's appoinment and its taken me all week to get everything under control again, has not helped

work has gotten better, my manager likes me, and it looks like i can be transferred to a store in SA for during the school year, so yeah

i miss me so much, i want my life back, just 9 more weeks, that's all i keep telling myself

anywho, hope all is well

oh yeah, i randomly started writing a short story, i might finish it, might post it, who knows.....

]]> *soslovinsungirl so small http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18719372/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18719372/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 19:00:11 PDT

i was really sad that i couldn't go running, i can't until maybe after monday when i go to my doctor's appoinment, its made me feel really restless though not being able to release all my frustrations through running, monday is my last really big thing for the month, i don't have anything major again until July

in the typical way that life goes, this summer isn't going anywhere near how i wanted it to, not happy with it, but alas that's life, just a few more months till i return to my real world

]]> *soslovinsungirl blobbity blah http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18608053/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18608053/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 10:33:01 PDT

but instead of making me happy, they've confused and made me feel even more out of sorts

i feel like i'm trying to grasp something, but its continually out of my reach, like i just can't get it, no matter how hard i try or concentrate, even when i'm not trying to reach it, i still feel it there, its caused me to have a heavy heart though

i've started working though, full swing, this week is our semi-annual sale, pretty much the busiest time of year next to Christmas for us, it should be crazy, i don't know, i like my job and who i work with, but sometimes i feel so inadequate

i also want to write, so very much, but i can't really find the time to sit down and do it, which of course is not helping

i've also been having some really random dreams, i've been dreaming really consistantly, where i can remember them and everything

alas, i must go finish getting ready for work, i hope all is well for you

ugh, so very tired............

]]> *soslovinsungirl snips, snails, and puppy dog tails http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18475939/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18475939/ Sat, 24 May 2008 08:39:25 PDT

i have a great aunt and uncle coming into town today, i don't remember these people at all, i probably met them when i was little but i met so many people from my mom's side, its like a blur, except for people i saw more than once

i have my best friend's graduation party tonight, its a beach party, i'm excited, i have a new swim suit to wear, and i get to see friends i haven't seen for a while

Monday i have registar training, then i get put on the floor, this should prove interesting

i've also been working out, i go running around twilight every night, i love that time of day, its simply lovely

other than that, i'm just taking each day as it comes, life never ceases to suprise me

hope you're well, have a good weekend

]]> *soslovinsungirl hodgepodge http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18439025/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18439025/ Wed, 21 May 2008 21:35:43 PDT
didn't go to bed till 4, and got woken up just before 1 by my mom who apparently just got off the phone with my great aunt and uncle who are supposed to visit at the end of the week, she wanted us to get up and help her finish painting/reorganizing the house

i ended up painting an entire room, doing the ceiling on another, and doing all the borders and trim in three other rooms, needless to say, i got my workout today through that instead of my nightly run

in the middle of all this painting, i went out with my mom to buy work clothes, which was a nice break, and i also ended up buying a really cute dress that i must say, looks fabulous on me, lol anyways,

tomorrow is my first day of work, well, orientation technically, but still, kinda excited and kinda nervous, so yeah

life is crazy right now, so much is teetering on the edge, that something drastic can fall at any moment

]]> *soslovinsungirl =D http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18357429/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18357429/ Fri, 16 May 2008 19:57:46 PDT
*dances*

I got a job!!!!!

*dances*

oh yeah, I got a job!!!!!!

lol a few hours after my last post, i got a call from Bath and Body Works, i have orientation on the 22nd, the only downfall is that the hours are only 12 a week, but $6.75 an hour is more than minimum wage, so i'm pretty happy, i'm still looking though to see if anything else comes up

]]> *soslovinsungirl do me a favor http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18351137/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18351137/ Fri, 16 May 2008 12:15:43 PDT

please and thank you

[link]

]]> *soslovinsungirl home home home on the range..... http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18349365/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18349365/ Fri, 16 May 2008 09:46:09 PDT

i've been applying for jobs like crazy, had two interviews, but haven't heard back officially yet, so *crosses fingers* that i get one soon, i'm saving up for a car by the way,

my brother and his new fiancee came down from Galveston, with their dog Ginger, its been good having them here, relieves other tensions,

my mom and sister are supposed to leave at the beginning of June for Louisiana for two months, that should prove to be an interesting summer,

i'm also "officially" learning how to drive, he he,

i got my grades back, and i made all A's for the semester so I shall definately remain on the dean's list

other than that, i've just been helping one of my best friends with her wedding, just finished her bridal shower invitations

i hope all it well with you, its been fairly quiet from this world lately............

]]> *soslovinsungirl alas http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18215835/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18215835/ Wed, 07 May 2008 17:29:51 PDT

ha ha, just kidding, i'm officially done with finals!!! WOO HOO!! lol although i still have one more essay to do for philosophy, but luckily its not due till Sunday night, which means i won't do it until then, lol

i move back to Corpus on Friday, dear God i don't want to leave, but i have so much to do this summer that i have to go

so much is changing, it breaks my heart, i'm normally pretty much ok with change, i usually welcome it, but not when it involves people, especially those i really care about, its like so much is out of my control now it drives me insane

just three months

that's what i keep telling myself

only three months

]]> *soslovinsungirl crazy week and more yet to come http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18132411/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18132411/ Fri, 02 May 2008 12:19:40 PDT i cried,
no make that bawled,
in front of somebody for the first time,
there's your first clue that something was seriously up because i'm not the type of person to release that type of emotion in front of another person, but the fact that i had to call my friend over to be with me meant that i was really feeling destroyed

either way i've had more serious conversations this week than ever before, but i'm glad that i did, because it cleared up a lot of miscommunication, i was also able to tell the person i was mad about that i was mad, normally i don't do that, especially when its not their fault or simply because i try to shield them from pain even if they cause me pain

however despite that part of the week, it was also very very interesting yesterday, it was like a whole day of sexual education, first i was dragged to an adult video store for the first time by some friends who wanted to "corrupt me" even more by showing me all the various sex toys and stuff, i was torn between intrigued and disgusted because i couldn't figure out why anyone would need all that stuff, at least i couldn't figure out the purpose for most of it, i guess natural works just fine for me, anyways, at various parts of the day, i found myself caught in the midst random conversations about sex with various friends, gay and straight alike

that night i went to a club for the first time, lol a gay club mind you, but a club nonetheless, it was fun, not used to dancing to techno though, but the drag show was amusing/intriguing, so yeah that was the completion of my sex education for the day, but by the end of the night i was so exhausted it was almost scary, i think it was an acucmulation of all the emotions i was dealing with, the lack of sleep from staying up talking, and then the physical exertion i put myself through multiple times, i never really stopped

anywho, i have finals this coming week, shouldn't be too bad, its just actually studying/doing them, i also have two essays i still have to complete before the semester is over, i move out of my dorm on friday, i have so much to pack up!! lol not looking forward to that, the thing i'm also not looking forward to is leaving all my friends, i'm going to miss them so very much, i almost can't believe that i'm going to be gone, that the semester is over and i won't see my friends for 3 months, i'm going to go crazy without them, but either way i have a lot of plans for summer that i'm excited about,

so yeah i will stop talking now, lol i hope all is well

]]> *soslovinsungirl Features Part II http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18055140/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18055140/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 13:02:16 PDT

11.

SheÂs one of first artists I ever started watching here on DA. SheÂs a very talented photo manipulator. The way she creates her art is so beautiful and sheÂs such a sweetheart. She never ceases to surprise me with her talent.

12.

This poet found me quite recently and already weÂve had some great conversations about our perspectives on life. He writes with such intensity and emotion, the likes of which are rarely seen. Although most of his poetry is dark, its captures the artistÂs pain beautifully.

13.

Allow me to take a moment to say how much I love this poet. SheÂs one of my very best friends in real life here at UIW. I canÂt tell you how much I love her, sheÂs so sweet and caring and so nonjudgmental(which makes some of the best people) Anyway, her writing is amazing as well, she does poetry as well as songs. I only just got her on DA, but already sheÂs surpassed my expectations, I canÂt wait to see her evolve even further into an even more amazing writer. Every time I see her, the biggest smile comes to my face

14.

Another artist I donÂt know personally but IÂm so happy I found him. He does fanart as well as creating his own characters that have a beauty unmatched. His art style conveys emotion amazingly.

http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18052264/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 10:09:29 PDT
1.

IÂve only just recently started watching this artist. I found her through that Random Deviant link at the bottom of the page(a great way to find really random artists by the way, hence the word random lol

) SheÂs also a storywriter and IÂve completely become intrigued with her character Melly.

A very talented poet. He conveys emotion in a way that I could only hope. I canÂt wait to see how he further evolves in time.

HeÂs one of my more recent watchers so I donÂt know him very well, but I have enjoyed the feedback heÂs given me on my poetry. He himself is a writer and an artist that I look forward to exploring more.

She was one of my first watchers. She has a unique style of writing that I enjoy, sheÂs also an beautiful still life photographer.

*soslovinsungirl hmmmm http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18024764/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18024764/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 15:22:29 PDT

i've also been alone a lot more lately too, it appears that the more solitude i get, the more i actually want, oddly enough

yes there are those moments of light where i actually crave company immensely, but no one ever comes, so i accept the lonliness

]]> *soslovinsungirl an idea http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18008090/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/18008090/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 14:03:03 PDT either way i hope to get it up sometime this weekend, probably saturday so try to let me know before then, thanks

]]> *soslovinsungirl smiles http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17951575/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17951575/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 23:05:07 PDT
thats what this weekend was like,

it was a four day weekend because we had advising day on Thursday so no classes,

I wasn't supposed to do anything all weekend, and i expected to be alone for most of it,

but I ended up having somebody come by everyday to do something with,

twas grand,

i won't go into detail like i did with last weekend because i don't want to take up your time, just wanted to share that i had a good weekend spent with some very dear friends,

i know my latest writings don't tell that but i really did

speaking of my latest writings, i'm sorry they've been so sad/angry, its just some of the emotions i've been dealing with and had to express

anyway, i hope you had lovely weekends

]]> *soslovinsungirl numbers http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17904666/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17904666/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 23:01:24 PDT
like me personally i generally favor even numbers simply because in my mind it seems like if that number represented something, every part of that something would have a pair, leaving nothing to feel lonely or unwanted

but then again, the odd numbers have their appeal because they're odd, lol, especially numbers like 17, almost like they can stand on their own, they use their difference to stand out

anyways... that's just what i was thinking about just now and thought to share

]]> *soslovinsungirl jolly red http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17840499/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17840499/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 22:10:29 PDT
Friday my family came to SA, i got to see my grandpa and meet his gf, it was fun, spent time with my siblings, tried to ward off some fighting between them, but i got a new pair of shoes that are completely adorable!! lol

Saturday i had Spring Fling and i did more henna tattoos for history club, it was fun, i have 8 different tattoos, the one on my hand is my best yet, i did get a nice sunburn though, lol that night was the UIW Choir's Coffeehouse and i got to see a lot of my friends sing, they did so well, i was so proud of them!!!

today was a lazy day, got up to go to church, then i spent the day with my very dear friend

i wrote some of the pieces i put up tonight, then when i saw that she had fallen asleep on my bed, i decided to go to sleep myself, slept most of the day away, then met up with some other friends for dinner, after i dropped them off at mass, i went back to my room and finished writing

anyways, to sum it all up i had a great weekend, i hope you did to

]]> *soslovinsungirl MMM http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17700417/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17700417/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 14:19:48 PDT

WOO HOO!! I just hit 3,000 pageviews, yay!! thank you to all

we now resume our regularly scheduled programming

]]> *soslovinsungirl aklisud eklaj foisdj http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17687630/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17687630/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 17:52:53 PDT

so very exhausted, not good

]]> *soslovinsungirl sorry http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17592815/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17592815/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 15:57:41 PDT
]]> *soslovinsungirl disapppointed http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17555071/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17555071/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 10:14:40 PDT
couldn't you take just 5 minutes out of your busy lives and read just one and comment?

please...

i mean even my regular supporters have seemed to abandoned me in this time of creative outpour

]]> *soslovinsungirl cleared up http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17516004/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17516004/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 19:39:58 PDT
i'm back in San Antonio, and i'm really glad to be back, i guess you can say i'm back into reality too, its going to be good getting back into my old routine and getting to see more of the friends i kinda neglected while i was dating ruben,

yes we broke up, very unconventionally, of course everything about our relationship was fairly unconventional, but alas that's me, i'm unique so why should i have a relationship that is normal, we're still going to be friends though which is really good because he really is good for me, although we have determined that we can't be alone together because our chemistry gets in the way and clouds our judgement

anyway, there's still so much i have inspiration for, but i haven't had the time to release it for, so i hope you like what will come

]]> *soslovinsungirl back http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17448531/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17448531/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 19:40:48 PDT

it was an odd week though, gave me a lot of inspiration, i was really quiet through most of it though, but i wanted my peace, sometimes i was short tempered with those that intruded on it though.....

i visited the WWII museum, it was really good, being the history nut that i am, i took the longest going through it

now i'm here in Corpus till Monday, i can't wait to get back to campus, there's so much i have to sort and deal with though, its ironic that it all happened right before i was going to leave, so i couldn't deal with any of it right then, when i get back i have endure it all, not really looking forward to that.....

the world is such a continually altering place, sometimes i think i have a grasp on it, others i'm just like what the fuck?!?!?

anyways, i hope things are going good for you, i've missed being here

p.s. there's more coming, there's one piece especially that i'm still in shock at myself over, but i have to get permission from someone else to put it up because its his phrasing that i used, i hope you've enjoyed what i've given so far though

]]> *soslovinsungirl come and go http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17352340/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17352340/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 18:54:54 PDT
its been an odd week, i've been in an odd mood, random occurrences, i'm ready for some nice solitude in nature, there's really only one person i ever really want to talk to anymore...

i've noticed more change in myself, some for good, some for bad,

i know i'm being vague again, but i can't help it, so much to explain, but no words to do it

]]> *soslovinsungirl upcoming weeks http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17273050/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17273050/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 14:58:10 PDT

this is the last week before spring break, pretty tough with two essays and a test, but its worth getting through, my mom, sister, and best friend are coming to get me on friday, i'm excited to see them, this Saturday i get to go to my church and see my friends there, and go to confession(greatly needed

lol) anywho

life is still pretty good, friends, boyfriend, school, i'm slowly starting to get the hang of balancing it all again, i was shocked today because i got a midterm back today that i thought i bombed when in fact i got an A on it, crazy how that works

SPRING BREAK IS ALMOST HERE!! i can't tell you how excited i am to be spending it in Louisiana and seeing my brother some more, its funny how i've missed him more coming to college than i did when he initially left

its been cold and rainy here, but the sun's actually starting to shine through, i was so happy to see it

oh yeah i finally got to all the deviations i've had stored up, you guys have put out some really great stuff lately, sorry it took me forever to get to it, i hope i don't let it build up like that again any time soon though, lol

as always smile, its good for you, no matter how bad life is

thought for monday: Smile because its monday and everyone will wonder what you did over the weekend

]]> *soslovinsungirl intuition http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17053648/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/17053648/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 07:38:05 PST
I feel bad because i hadn't seen her in at least two years, i have so many happy memories with her, she taught me to be a card shark and how to play pick up sticks and manacala, we(my sister and i) used to spend days with her when my mom had errands to run for one volunteer effort or another, we used to just play cards and paint nails and have some great laughs all afternoon, i remember one time our air conditioning broke during the summer and being an asthmatic i had to go somewhere else, so i stayed with her, she and her husband took me out to dinner and i really was the granddaughter for the evening i stayed in her hat room which had colored lights and a mexico motif, it was so much fun,

i'm really going to miss her

she makes the 3rd family friend to die within the last six months.....

in regards to the rest of my life, the boy i told you about, well we're officially together, i really love being with him, we have a good time, he was with me last night when i got the news and he took care of me well

school hasn't really caught my interest this semester except for ceramics and philosophy, and its certainly showing, which is bad because i can't let my grades slip outside the Dean's List for various reasons, namely all the people who will be disappointed in me if i do

I'm looking forward to Spring Break though, we're going to Louisiana to visit my grandparents who we haven't seen in at least 6 years, it promises to be a nice break, i look forward to reading a lot and just relaxing with my grandparents,

anyway, i hope everyone's lives are going well, i'm sorry i haven't been very active in comments and such lately, i just haven't had the time, please forgive me dear friends

R.I.P. Ann Nartowitz

]]> *soslovinsungirl smiles... http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/16859976/ http://soslovinsungirl.deviantart.com/journal/16859976/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 07:27:15 PST
just the other day, i got done with my South Asia class and went to my room and laughed for about 10 minutes just because, i know you're probably questioning my sanity, is Kim ok? did she lose a few screws? ha ha, no i'm not crazy, at least not in that sense, i'm just in great disbelief at life right now, and when i'm in disbelief, i generally laugh, so yeah

once again, i'm taking life as it comes, and really trying the whole "Live for today" approach, it seems to be working fairly well, my nights have been great, the only thing is that my dreams have taken on a more real life persona which has caused me to confuse what has happened in my dreams and what has happened in real life

oh yeah, there's a boy, i really enjoy being with him, it may not last though because of personal matters, but whichever way it goes, i'll be good, i understand better than many others would why we'd have to let go

by the way, i'm different, did you know that? just wanted to throw that out there, i've come to realise and embrace my purpose instead of shying away from it, its a good feeling

i think that's enough for now, thanks for reading, have a great week/weekend

wait, just one more thing, ha, you thought you were done, lol, my writing, its coming through, i'm so excited, i hope you enjoy what i've given

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as for my writing, i have a lot of inspiration built up inside but haven't been able to get it out, which is kinda frustrating but being patient all the same

anywho, i hope everyone is doing well, it seems everyone is caught up in something or another.....

Happy Lent, lol, i'm giving up coffee for lent, pure torture already

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