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                <title>The End of The Beginning</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 15 May 2008 03:36:22 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am at that wonderful stage of my life where I can order drinks and not get ID'd but can still get on the bus for child fare. I am so savouring it. <br /><br /><br />Adieu Robert Rauschenberg, by the way! You got me through 7th form Art History. Nice one.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Melting in your vice dreams, sport</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 02 Jan 2008 15:32:56 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Wow. This is going to be an interesting month (year?!).<br />
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Flat hunting at the mo, semi-job-hunting... In limbo, basically. Waiting for my Scholarship & exam results, waiting to hear if I got into the writing course I applied to. (<a href="http://www.victoria.ac.nz/modernletters/creative-writing/undergrad.aspx">[link]</a> One of these. Normally they're for second-year students... I'm hoping they'll take pity!) <br />
<br />
I met a man yesterday called Bernard. One of those wonderful old English fellows who are thoroughly eloquent and who you can't imagine holding a cellphone. One of the things he said that stuck with me was this: "Here, if you do a degree in Classics or anything artistic like that, you're looked down on a bit. People say, "Oh, what are you going to do with that?" Whereas in England a Classics scholar is regarded as the cream of academia." <br />
<br />
This kind of highlighted to me the utterly provincial attitude of New Zealand. And reassured me as well: I mean, people here make rude comments about arts students all the time. Pack of poofs, dole bludgers, that type of thing. But it's not like that everywhere else. <br />
<br />
Besides, I have an absolute horror of accountancy. And accountants. What a waste of a person!<br />
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It's very sunny here. Later, we're going to get out the paddling pool and have a few glasses of champagne in the evening sun. <br />
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Arrivederci <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I warship satin. </title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 10 Nov 2007 01:50:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey kids. What's new? Glandular fever sucks a fuck (that's mono for all you yanks, but it's shitty in any language) and I dropped out of my Design portfolio, which is awesome. I was on a kind of high for two days afterwards, maybe due to the very sudden lack of stress, more likely due to the fact that I'm on eight Panadol a day. <br />
<br />
Better rustle up something before I apply to uni next year though (oh, did I mention, I'm taking a gap year and learning how to write again with Mr. Bill Manhire?). I'm thinking of concentrating on photography for a while. <br />
<br />
Speaking of photography, I came across a photographer recently (wonderful story that one) called Bryan Schutmaat, here's his flickr: <a href="http://flickr.com/people/lastleaf/">[link]</a><br />
Amazing stuff, don't you think?<br />
<br />
Aaaaahhhh, two days of school left, four days of being 17, and nine days before my exams start. Wow. <br />
<br />
So currently I'm writing happily away about trannies and how they inspire me, and the resident bitch for the remaining Design students (ever tried carrying 7 coffees up a rocky hill? I have). Life is great!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Pop, hiss, crackle, fizz</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 06 Nov 2007 01:16:53 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey kids. As it turns out, I've got glandular fever - NICE ONE, GOD - and my exams are in oh, two weeks or so. And I don't even get drugs! Come on. <br />
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Oh yeah and I still haven't pretty much started my design portfolio, which, oh yes, is due in five days. Awesome.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Brief interludage</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 29 Oct 2007 20:42:43 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm allergic to cow gum! <br />
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And my hands are, therefore, stunning.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Robbed</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 24 Oct 2007 19:14:09 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ of a year's worth of design work, thus:<br />
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robbed of potential sleep for the next three weeks. Fuck you, flash drive, for giving up the ghost. <br />
<br />
<br />
Due date is 12th of November. If you see me back on here before then, throw a rock at me or something.<br />
Oh and - my birthday's two days later. I'll be 18.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>the opiate shores, the opiate haze</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 21 Oct 2007 18:36:10 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I feel like I've finally come to the end of a long tunnel and looked up, and for the first time in what seems like ages, I can see the sky.<br />
<br />
To be completely honest, which I rarely am, I'd tell you that this has been the worst year of my life. Even worse than the year I left my childhood behind. Even worse than the year my dad died. <br />
<br />
My achievements this year, to date?<br />
I've run away from home.<br />
Run back home. <br />
Contemplated killing myself. <br />
Been diagnosed with depression (and ignored it).<br />
Had alcohol poisoning for the first and not the last time.<br />
Been failing two out of five classes, and scraping through the other three with marks I don't deserve.<br />
Ended up in a half-relationship which I'm still not sure I don't regret.<br />
Stayed up past 3am countless times working.<br />
Stayed up past 3am countless times, unable to sleep for stress.<br />
Made myself sick from stress.<br />
Lost sight of where I want to be.<br />
Lost sight of who I am. <br />
<br />
<br />
Let's try putting that on a CV, or a uni application.<br />
<br />
High rollers, aye?<br />
<br />
<br />
I can't go to university next year. The birds of destruction have been whispering in my ears for far too long; they'd have me believe, like my mother claims, that I'm fourth in a line of deadbeats and timewasters, that I'm wasting money and wasting my life. And it would be true. Without a fermata, a pause for a change of air, I'd happily proceed to university, fail all my classes, throw away umpteen thousands of dollars, and end up ripping myself apart. <br />
<br />
Hence, it's time for a break. <br />
<br />
If I'm honest, which I rarely am, I'd tell you that I'm looking forward to a year of gin and cigarettes, of roaming like a dandelion clock, of no attachments and nothing expected of me. Enough of putting my sorrow on a plate and eating it until I choke. At the very least, I can stop and catch my breath, and prepare myself for another onslaught of life. <br />
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<br />
--<br />
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<br />
I'm aware of how maudlin this sounds. Put it down to flu, a chest infection, too many drugs and a larger-than-average dose of melancholy.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>&amp;</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 10 Oct 2007 01:51:20 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ did someone mention a rapture?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>FEED ME A STRAY CAT</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 02 Oct 2007 21:35:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It wories me just how much paint I inadvertently eat.<br />
<br />
<br />
I need to stop confusing my coffee cup and my paint water.<br />
<br />
Furthermore, I should stop sucking my paintbrush when at an impasse.<br />
<br />
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On the other hand, that might explain a lot....<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>what a void!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 30 Sep 2007 23:28:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ fuckall<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>heavens to Betsy!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 17 Sep 2007 15:23:10 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Oh wow, I didn't notice, but a week or so ago marked my fourth anniversary here at dA. <br />
<br />
Yeeeeeep........<br />
<br />
<br />
Um, you're all super. Especially ~<a class="u" href="http://eclipsic.deviantart.com/">eclipsic</a> =<a class="u" href="http://satanic57.deviantart.com/">satanic57</a> and ~<a class="u" href="http://mintred.deviantart.com/">mintred</a>. Because they make me cry black tears, just the way I like it.  <br />
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<img src="http://file011a.bebo.com/15/large/2007/09/17/22/1853710221a5580629480l.jpg"><br />
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<br />
This is my friend Rachael, three times. She's sexy whatever angle you look at her. <br />
<br />
<img src="http://file032a.bebo.com/15/large/2007/09/17/22/1853710221a5580637990l.jpg"><br />
<br />
Gillian. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
i'd tap that. <br />
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<br />
<br />
THE END!</img></img><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>I wonder what it means...</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 10 Aug 2007 03:02:02 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ....when my throat keeps clenching in a nonviolent but decidedly disconcerting manner. <br />
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karma?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>In a case of upper or lower</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 07 Aug 2007 01:05:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I don't think I want to be an artist anymore. It's too contrived.<br />
<br />
Maybe I will be a writer instead?<br />
Or just, you know, a wanker.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>femme d'argent</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 30 Jul 2007 20:57:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ One of the stories that always captivated me as a child was of the two Greek artists. <br />
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The two men one day, sitting in the garden, had a quarrel about who was the better artist, and resolved to settle it by pitting their skills against the other, (because art needs an agenda). They went away to different sides of the garden and painted upon the walls, shielding their work from one another jealously. <br />
<br />
Eventually they were both finished, and the first artist stood aside from his painting. A bunch of grapes stood out against the wall, appearing so round and juicy that a bird flew down from the sky and pecked at them. The first artist was arrogant in his success, and enquired as to  the whereabouts of the second artist's painting. <br />
<br />
The second artist pointed across the garden, to where a ragged curtain hung from the wall. The first artist ridiculed him, saying, Is your painting so crude that you had to hide it? He strode across the garden and tried to rip away the curtain, but his fingers met nothing but plaster: the second artist had painted a curtain on the bare wall. <br />
<br />
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<br />
Only now, after several years of studying art, do I realise what I should have known all along: the best artist is the one who creates the better lie. <br />
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(edit)<br />
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I've just got home from the <a href="http://creative.massey.ac.nz/">Massey</a> fine arts info evening - looks like a definite for next year. I am MOTIVATED :<b></b>D<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>I wanna live in a bottle</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 26 Jul 2007 19:55:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ with nothing but a lamp and an old tuba<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I am never drinking again,</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 21 Jul 2007 19:56:38 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <sub><i>said the priest to the princess</i>.</sub><br /><br />Bubbly + Heineken + Jagermeister + CC&dry + Falling down the stairs = Not a great time at work the next day<br />
<br />
But enough about that, how is everyone this fine weekend? <br />
Enjoying Harry Potter I trust? <br />
Personally, I looked it up on the Internet last night, then went and bought the book today<br />
(I read books & watch movies end first). <br />
<br />
I've also been marginally working on some paintings. Um, that's about it really for today<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Out of interest</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 13 Jun 2007 15:19:14 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Who paid for my subscription?<br />
<br />
Because thank you, whoever it is. You're rad. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
I should have emotional tantrums far more often if this is the payoff.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
KIDDING.<br />
<br />
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<br />
That's so brilliant.<br />
<br />
<br />
Now I'll never be able to get away from here. I'd nearly given up dA. <br />
<br />
<br />
dearie me.<br />
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Ok have a grand day everyone!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>When you ask how I am, you don't want to know</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 12 Jun 2007 21:24:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ fatigued<br />
uninspired<br />
depressed<br />
dislocated<br />
alienated<br />
imposing<br />
drab<br />
melancholy<br />
guilty<br />
empty vessel<br />
smoking too much, and<br />
drinking too much<br />
to fill the void.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
When people ask how you are, it's to register their interest and project themselves as a caring person.<br />
<br />
They're not actually listening to your answer.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 28 May 2007 23:25:56 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hello everyone,<br />
<br />
I moved out of home. For real. <br />
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<br />
<br />
Um what?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>to the shores of Tripoli</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 25 Mar 2007 01:25:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Oh hello. Life is going very well thank you thank you, did I mention I am painting lots of transsexuals for my art portfolio this year? Probably not. <br />
<br />
<br />
Aw heck I always start writing these things and forget what my point was in the first place.<br />
<br />
Oh yes.<br />
<br />
If I dream that I'm in a gallery and looking at artworks by "other artists" and then I reproduce them in real life does that make me a plagiarist?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 11 Mar 2007 04:46:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub>what's Gods' name I can't remember</sub></div><br /><br />And tonight sleep eludes me; for the first time in weeks I've indulged in what was previously the usual: nothing. A whole day of it, and despite all whatever it is that waits for me on the morning, I shan't regret it. <br />
Nevertheless life carries some weight with it at the moment; I'm constantly aware of what I should be doing and what I'm not doing, which generally equate to the same thing. I'm overloaded with work, with sight and sound and words, and none of them are of any use to me. It's paradoxically possible to be drained and drowned at the same time - is it true that in order to create one must be starved? It seems so anyway. <br />
<br />
Last night I dreamt champagne-infused dreams; I was in a plane taking off, over and over. No glass in any of the windows; the wind against my face, and we were going over old decrepit colonial buildings, all rusting curved stairs and balustrades. I don't remember the rest.<br />
<br />
Enough!<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>suppose I just kept singing love songs to break my own fall?</sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>oh, that's just downright nutty</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 25 Feb 2007 23:18:46 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub>The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself.</sub></div><br /><br />Oh shit<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>Thirty years he spent wanderin'<br />
A devil's child with dove wings </sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>a slow, sweet and colourful death</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 21 Feb 2007 19:39:05 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub>but now you know it's not<br />
going to stop<br />
till you wise up</sub></div><br /><br />I am drowning in paint. <br />
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<br />
also, I like this: <a href="http://www.jacksonpollock.org/">[link]</a><br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>"yeah, you stocking jersey freak!"</sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>finding the grace to be nothing at all</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 18 Feb 2007 22:18:27 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub>guilty, guilty. i'm paralysed with guilt, it runs through me like rain through silk</sub></div><br /><br />I have come to the conclusion that I am fundamentally a bad person. <br />
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I realised today. It was as if someone was testing me. Two friends and I were walking through Newtown, amid the afternoon, a yellow and dusty sunshine. We were approaching an intersection and I reached out for the button for the crosswalk sign. Then someone came up behind me and pressed the button, coughing widemouthed. She was dusty and middle-aged, with beige hair and a stale air of helplessness. Then she moved down from us, and began to cry crocodilically, hysterical, mumbling gibberish in between sobs. <br />
We crossed the road and she followed behind us. "Is she okay?" I asked my friend, although that answer was evident. She replied, "it's just a nutter." We walked faster.<br />
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Some time later, then alone, I sat down at a bus stop. There was a girl already sitting there, slightly ageless and with a wide pleasant face and dull, friendly eyes. She was wearing a bulky jacket even in the heat. She turned to me and said earnestly, "I like your hat!" <br />
"Thanks," I said.<br />
A pause, and then, "Do you have the time?"<br />
I looked through my bag for my phone. "It's three minutes to four." <br />
Nothing further was said. <br />
I sat there with nothing in my head, feeling the need floating from her, the longing for a conversation. And I did nothing.<br />
Eventually her bus came, and she headed for it alternating between little shuffling, stubbing steps and large ungainly strides, provoking the euphemism of "not quite right", "lacking".<br />
<br />
Finally I was walking up my street and an old woman passed me, walking in a slightly halted manner, holding a handkerchief to her head, maybe against the sun, maybe not. <br />
<br />
Again, I did nothing. Three times and I was too scared to show any kind of compassion, to display a concern for a human being that I didn't know. <br />
<br />
and Why?<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub> so tonight that I might see</sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Things I dislike immensely</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 15 Feb 2007 23:51:47 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub>i wanted one thing<br />
you wanted another<br />
we couldn't have our cake<br />
so we ate each other</sub></div><br /><br />1. Being late<br />
<br />
2. Standing up on buses<br />
<br />
3. People who say "how are you" as a prelude to talking about themselves & don't wait for an answer anyway<br />
<br />
4. Fat people who walk really slowly & take up the whole footpath & move into your path when you try & walk around them <br />
<br />
5. Waiting for people who are late<br />
<br />
6. Waiting full stop<br />
<br />
7. People who turn my bedroom light on when I'm sleeping<br />
<br />
8. Wearing tights on hot days<br />
<br />
9. Getting rain in my hair<br />
<br />
10. Being betrayed<br />
<br />
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now it's your turn<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>Things I love:<br />
everything else. </sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>secousse, partir</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 11 Feb 2007 01:17:57 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub>stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,<br />
prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,<br />
silence the pianos and with muffled drum<br />
bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.</sub></div><br /><br />PARABOLA!<br />
<br />
I dunno. I thought it was a nice word.  <br />
<br />
<br />
Ok.<br />
<br />
What? <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
,<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>you could turn me on or off<br />
and i would not mind.</sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>psychoactive plums</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 31 Jan 2007 14:40:44 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ oh wikipedia, i missed you so<br />
<br />
<br />
and tell me, everyone. how do you define art? <br />
<br />
"Art is relative."<br />
<br />
<br />
that's as far as i've got. <br />
<br />
<br />
i think i'd better sign off, nothing profound for you kids today. jag alskar dig. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
ps. lizzie is my DAD<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>i swear that fish has david bowie eyes</title>
                <link>http://soultown.deviantart.com/journal/11583122/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 27 Jan 2007 02:16:14 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ hi i don't have any internet<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>drunken revelations of the wee hours</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 17 Dec 2006 03:28:32 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ don't sweat the petty things,<br />
and don't pet the sweaty things. <br />
<br />
<br />
i've had five hours of sleep in the last two days! it feels great. <br />
<br />
life is expanding, sort of. hard to explain precisely, but i'm exploring. it always surprises me how many beautiful people there are in my world. people who make amazing things, people who make me laugh, people who remember to dream. <br />
<br />
<br />
i'm working far too much over the next couple of weeks. hooray! <br />
<br />
imagine. being a 1960's mod. BEAUTIFUL. <br />
<br />
so the other day i was walking through kelburn, stealing flowers from people's gardens to put in my hair. (i like putting things in my hair.) then i found this fucking queer mug - plastic, luminous green! in a bush by the path. so i filled it up with flowers, then continued into town to meet my friend. <br />
she wasn't keen about carrying it around, so we left it on top of a bin "for somebody else to enjoy".<br />
so when i was going past on the bus some time later, i saw a teeny tiny chinese girl in a pink tutu flinging the flowers around, having a ball.<br />
yay :<b></b>)<br />
<br />
<br />
i'm trying to read all the stuff written on my arm. <br />
"sunny e4 paper"<br />
picture of a telescopic lens<br />
"george michael, father fig"<br />
"mushrooms"<br />
(drunkenly scrawled) "book! martini! goldfish!"<br />
picture of a 120-format camera<br />
on the back of my hand, "ficelle" and "licorice"<br />
on my palm, "kim phuc" and "stupendosity".<br />
<br />
no, i don't understand any of it either.<br />
<br />
<br />
i worked a full day shift on saturday, then hightailed it out to The Restaurant where i waitressed until 2am-ish. total break count: one martini glass, a bottle of syrup and the toilet door. i am indeed a talented child. <br />
<br />
i invented a new shot, called "stupendocity" in honour of my friend georgette (we try to see how many times we can say "stupendous" in a day). it contains (oxymoronically) white cocoa liqueur, feijoa juice and lychee liqueur. stupendous. <br />
<br />
my fucking sunburn is peeling! yrk.<br />
<br />
foody foody food.... it's half midnight and i'm starving, my body clock is fucked. i had dinner at 3am yesterday, potato gratin and champagne, then sushi for breakfast at midday. fucking weird. <br />
<br />
and i have a big idea! for an art project. <br />
i'm not telling, but it's going to be big. <br />
<br />
thus ends the broadcast for today (and possibly the rest of the month)<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>heavens to murgatroyd</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 26 Nov 2006 18:12:51 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ entirely subless? depressing.<br />
<br />
<br />
um, most of my exams are over, i just have one left. maths, wednesday. maths of course being mere machinations, i don't think it requires as much brain involvement as art history and english did<br />
<br />
it was my birthday recently, i am older<br />
<br />
the sun is putting in a perfunctory appearance this morning<br />
<br />
i intend to go and make myself some food now...<br />
<br />
<br />
honestly, i have nothing to say to you people.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
OH LIFE!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>all dolled up like christ</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 07 Nov 2006 00:26:36 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>photographers snip snap<br />
take your time she's only burning<br />
this kind of experience<br />
is necessary for her learning<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br />Life has been utterly hectic lately. In an awesome way. <br />
<br />
Somewhat thanks to ~<a class="u" href="http://jon-law.deviantart.com/">Jon-Law</a>, I've been writing more than is typical - whenever I'm on a bus. It's fantastic. Do try this, and show me.<br />
<br />
I'm nearly finished with school - just another week & a half, then I have exams. and my birthday, dear god. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
I love Tuesdays. They are simply brilliant. <br />
<br />
<br />
and I don't know why weather girls are so against rain. How foolish. <br />
<br />
My photography folio has been handed in. And my design thinger. All official arts stuff is handed in for the year. <br />
<br />
Speaking of which, I got some weird leadership posts for next year. Head of Junior Art, and co-head of Arts Committee. <br />
I think they made them up actually, but hey, I get to throw paint around with small children. FABOO. <br />
<br />
What else. <br />
<br />
God, nothing is happening.<br />
<br />
<br />
Somebody give me a rockstar.<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
run away, turn away, run away, turn away, run away<br />
<sub><br />
</sub><br />
</sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>disposable darlings</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 23 Oct 2006 19:31:59 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>'Cause it's nearly midnight <br />
And all i want with my life <br />
Is to die a housewife <br />
Is to die a housewife<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br />thank you Mia *<a class="u" href="http://caveatlector.deviantart.com/">caveatLECTOR</a> for this idea. <br />
The rules:<br />
<br />
* List 11 things you want to say to 11 different people.<br />
* Don't say who they pertain to.<br />
* Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.<br />
* Never discuss it again.<br />
<br />
<br />
And so we begin. <br />
<br />
1) I'm sorry. I always knew you felt that way, and I thought I could ignore it, I thought it would go away. I suppose it never fully will. But you were truthful with me. I hope I will have the courage to be truthful with you.<br />
<br />
2) I don't like to mix my facades, and I resent that you are asking me to, however coincidentally. <br />
<br />
3) I know you're unhappy. But asking you why will mean that I cross the line into full adulthood.  <br />
<br />
4) That was a bloody stupid thing to do. <br />
<br />
5) I have and always had an immense respect for you. I don't think you know how much you shaped the last few years of my life, or you wouldn't be so careless now.<br />
<br />
6) I think we've grown apart, but I'm not mentioning it until you do. <br />
<br />
7) Wherever you are, I don't miss you. I don't think I will see you again in this life or next - yet I keep catching glimpses of you. Please, if this really is your doing, stop.<br />
<br />
8) We have spent too much time apart of late! You're more important to me than you realise. I'll call you when I can, I promise. <br />
<br />
9) I was in love with you, for a long time. Now I'm not, and I see you in true light. I wish you well for the rest of your life. <br />
<br />
10) I hope I will know you until I die.<br />
<br />
11) come find me<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
--<br />
<br />
<br />
In other news I have an exam in twenty minutes. I had best be off.<br />
<br />
I am also applying for a uni paper which I will do at the beginning of next year. I have to put together a portfolio of written work, which will take some time.<br />
<br />
I have finished my design course for the year, next week is the due date for my photography folio. A lot of work.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
all for now!<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>    And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side<br />
    Of my darling - my darling - my life and my bride,<br />
    In the sepulchre there by the sea-<br />
    In her tomb by the sounding sea<sub><br />
</sub><br />
</sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>there are no violets here</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 17 Oct 2006 01:29:37 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>because these wings are no longer wings to fly/but vans to beat the air<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br />because I've always secretly wanted to make an ^<a class="u" href="http://imperfect.deviantart.com/">imperfect</a>-styled journal...<br />
<br />
<br />
11 things she, & probably everyone else, doesn't know about me.<br />
<br />
1) I have written since I was able to. I am aware of always having had a gift for this but it is only in recent months that I have explored it for its own sake. <br />
<br />
2) I am shy about my written work in a way that I am not about my visual work. <br />
<br />
3) 168cm, 55kg, O-<br />
<br />
4) speaking of which, I am due to donate blood this week but I have to wait until my cold subsides. (this is just here so I remember)<br />
<br />
5) my first and middle names: Matilda Beatrix Harriet. it is funny, because they are all to do with books I read as a child; Matilda (Roald Dahl), Beatrix Potter & The Borrowers (yes I know that's Arrietty, but hey, it is close!). <br />
<br />
6) Currently I am commencing a spiritual, mental & physical overhaul of my being. Being that I realised that while I am often quite happy, I am very rarely content. <br />
this has begun with a detox which will last until Tuesday week. <br />
<br />
7) I have a black cat called May-Z, two goldfish called Pablo (as in Picasso) and Lou (as in Reed) - he is a runt with a deformed tail fin - & a snail that lives with them called Andy (as in Warhol). <br />
May Z has discovered a new found love of fishing in the last week or so. <br />
<br />
8) I am very lonely. <br />
<br />
9) I just finished an amazing Aidan Chambers book which I think may have changed my life.<br />
<br />
10) I love art. Painting, drawing. This is newfound (as of the last three years) and I am not very confident in this. <br />
<br />
11) if I could meet anyone in the world dead or alive, it could just be Candy Darling.<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>    And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side<br />
    Of my darling - my darling - my life and my bride,<br />
    In the sepulchre there by the sea-<br />
    In her tomb by the sounding sea<sub><br />
</sub><br />
</sub></div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>angelic hoodlums and holy ones</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 02 Oct 2006 04:09:05 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>too weird to live, too rare to die<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br />thought i needed to update. <br />
<br />
interesting thoughts are not forthcoming.<br />
<br />
<br />
tonight, i made asparagus risotto. <br />
<br />
<br />
life is pretty good.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcjXbIvIfRo">[link]</a><br />
i laughed.... but i laughed with them. :}<br />
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--<br />
<br />
<br />
and i forgot! i really wanted to share this quote with you all.<br />
<br />
<br />
<ul><sub>"...among the many gifts I showered on Martin, I was careful not to include talent. How easy it would have been to make him an artist, a writer; how hard not to let him be one, while bestowing on him the keen sensitivity that one generally associates with the creative creature;</sub><br />
<br />
how cruel to prevent him from finding in artnot an escape (which is only a cleaner cell on a quieter floor), but <b>relief from the itch of being</b>."<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
can you relate to that? <br />
i can.</ul><br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>pretty much nothing</sub><br />
</div><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>a kind of insolent insouciance</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 30 Aug 2006 18:17:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>wearing a human mask and talking in human words<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/worker.gif" alt="Industrious" title="Industrious" /> inspired.<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: slither - velvet revolver<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Hundertwasser Kunsthauswein, Kandinsky Taschen<br /><br />So I'm at home today due to a back injury. The other day all I wanted to do was lie in bed and listen to techno, that's all. How elderly I have become. <br />
<br />
I've been having crazy dreams; last night I dreamt I was in a dank underground cafe with friends, and the service was most definitely lacking. Then in a separate dream, I returned to the house of my childhood. I was worried because I'd left my cat behind. I went in, and there was a bath in the hallway, clothing strewn like a relaxed visitor would. The entrance was murky and elaborate, tall cramped wooden walls, and when I moved into the dining room, there was a girl who looked like my sister, and she was making a mermaid. <br />
<br />
The night before, too, I dreamed succinctly. I was an alien in a human suit. I happened to be in a department store, with other aliens, and as I sat facing a section of wall between windows, all the others were gunned down. <br />
<br />
<br />
So I've been reading, having paid off my library fines. When I'm perusing the shelves I take a typically teenage approach, or perhaps more art faggy than anything; I choose the pretty books. Art books; Schiele, Klimt, Hundertwasser. The last I'd never heard of; thinking it was a group. Oh, how wrong I was. I opened it and it hit me like a ten ton hockey player to the face: <br />
<br />
<img src="http://www.freewisdom.org/images/2004-04-25-b-hundertwasser/20040425_075_9351/20040425_075_9351.jpg.jpg"><br />
<br />
It's like finding out Neverland is a real place.<br />
<br />
<br />
So I've won a writing prize. <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Australasian_Schools_Writing_Competition">[link]</a> This, to be precise. I get a medal, which is nice, I suppose. That'll happen at the end of the year. <br />
It's been incredibly surreal.<br />
<br />
<br />
So my school ball was last week. I looked like I was channeling Candy Darling, in a stoned sort of way. That's what you get when you don't bother to learn how to apply makeup. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
So I've got to resubmit four internals, two photography, one design, one painting. That's what you get when you consistently fuck up, like me. Due on the 7th. Finished one, small amount to do on one other, a lot to do for the other two. No idea why I'm still here.<br />
<br />
<br />
So, mock exams in two weeks. Been writing essays for English and Art History, ignoring Maths and Physics. probably will continue to ignore them, too. <br />
<br />
Can't be bothered writing anything else here.</img><br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>a chest full of maybes and sometimes</sub><br />
</div><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>testosterone boys and harlequin girls</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 08 Aug 2006 02:10:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>the devious behaviour of raindrops<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: arlanda - julia kent<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Gray's Anatomy, Lolita, Anna Karenina<br /><br />Well, all sorts of things have been happening, and surprisingly nothing at all.<br />
<br />
v5-wise, I don't care! I will get used to it. <i>it is not the end of the world</i>. besides, I love that dark green of the header, it's so sophisticated. it is kind of annoying for me to be viewing art on such a bright background, though; the neutrality of the previous duckshit green was in retrospect, lovely. <br />
and that is all I have to say on the matter.<br />
<br />
<br />
photography-wise....<br />
have been scanning heaps of old negatives, fucking magic. much nicer images, lovely quality, terrible FINGERPRINTS! I take very bad quality of my negatives. anyway, archiving is taking a long time, but I have updated some submissions here. <br />
have to resubmit two internals, sucks. going to take me ages.<br />
currently working on feminine portraiture. I have plenty of ideas, but need to exert some discipline for once on my ideas. therefore have decided to focus on warpings of perspective only, for the time being. <br />
also have had some problems with finding a model. I have a certain person in mind but not sure if I will be able to con her into it... <br />
MUST call her tomorrow.<br />
<br />
<br />
design-wise...<br />
it's going pretty well. I'm theming my design stuff on SQUIDS of all things, which is a hell of a lot of fun, and doing heaps of typography and stuff. really getting to grips with photoshop. kind of behind with  all the work, but I will pull it together in time, we always will!<br />
<br />
painting-wise...<br />
thinking of doing a class. haven't been painting much. bought some nice new paper though. and a BEAUTIFUL .01 point pen, so lovely, it's amazing to use. transforms my handwriting and is amazing for line drawings. don't think I will use anything else from now on!!<br />
<br />
literature-wise...<br />
I'm having a love affair with fixed meter and Russian writers. they are both so JAUNTY!!  I am also reading Mervyn Peake's Gormenghast, I saw the movie when I was little and it really hacked itself a little space in my brain. it is so hard to get into, but definitely worth it. beautiful eloquent language and when they use the word "crapulous", they mean it PERFECTLY SINCERELY. good old Mervyn wouldn't have been chortling behind his hand when he wrote it, unlike SOME people!<br />
got an Excellence on my creative writing, which is nice but I am still not happy with the piece I handed in. I would rather the other one, but that is okay. <br />
we are doing Macbeth at school. I am taking the piss completely, because I hate standard answers, they are so BORING. we had to write a letter from Macbeth to his diary for homework, filling in spaces and such... "Tomorrow.... (I must sharpen my imaginary dagger)". stuff like that. <br />
I have written some poetry, it is all bollocks<br />
<br />
work-wise....<br />
both jobs are good. tiring, but good. and the money is rather helpful also. although I am terrible at keeping track of where it all goes. I save a lot, which is good. but I keep LOSING money! maybe my room is filled with teeny elves who steal it all. or maybe I'm just absent minded and will someday find it and go w00t. <br />
the new coins are pretty cute, too. they're really tiny.<br />
<br />
cooking-wise....<br />
made powdered muffins from a box yesterday, HORRIBLE. they tasted like fluff.<br />
but today I made some from scratch, lemon and poppyseed, very nice. <br />
haven't been making much else, I have been SO busy<br />
but I have my eye on a lovely recipe for a tomato, basil pesto and ricotta flan. mmmmm. <br />
have been drinking a hell of a lot less coffee too. <br />
<br />
sleep-wise...<br />
not getting enough. definitely. last night ended up making revision cards for 19th Century French Painting and reading trashy historical novels... <br />
oh, I love sleep. it's so underrated. I just love it, just love a bit of sleep! <br />
<br />
hair-wise...<br />
I keep planning to cut my hair and then cancelling at the last minute. probably needs a trim, but I like it at the moment. today I fixed it to look like a drag queen and I've been enjoying it all day. <br />
<br />
<br />
and I think that is all for now!!<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>TRALALA</sub><br />
</div><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>tea and sex during the apocalypse</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 20 Jul 2006 05:18:25 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>mailbox surprises<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Candy Says<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: Women in Revolt; Basquiat; Part Troll<br /><br />I was the man who walked the docks each day to meet himself. <br />
The musician who growled as the room toppled. <br />
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<br />
<br />
--<br />
<br />
<br />
What's up? Not much; I've had the last three weeks off & have been doing a lot of cooking, painting, dreaming, shopping & sleeping. Probably other stuff too, but you know. <br />
<br />
Begun - well, I say begun, I've <i>thought about</i> it - a new photography series, or well, a set of series. Might start shooting it tomorrow, but the main problem is finding a model who will not squeal at the sight of a camera and/or give me weird looks every time I ask them to do anything. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
Writing proper journals is for gays :]<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>TRALALA</sub><br />
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                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>normalise some day</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 11 Jul 2006 04:42:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>I see you shiver with antici<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: sweet transvestite<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: boys in pearls and fishnets<br /><br />i strode by night the curling streets, compelled<br />
by whispered light & magic i confessed<br />
that charming bluster always made me quelled<br />
<br />
in that i found acutely sound posessed<br />
& softly crowned with brambled frowns of frost<br />
remember when i hoped for your caress?<br />
<br />
but now i count a calculated loss<br />
among reciepts for light & warmth & air,<br />
a palm of tarnished musings all the cost<br />
<br />
in careful retrospect. my thoughts appear<br />
as glowing bubbles in a sea of lights<br />
diminished; just another humble glare.<br />
<br />
i used to walk this way on windy nights<br />
& watch the freckled sky, a blushing blue<br />
oh how i wished to capture sordid sights!<br />
<br />
as scissored dreams fell blunt, i turned from you;<br />
that dance of politics so bittersweet<br />
to me. in spite, i found a most endearing view<br />
<br />
of such innate gracelessness, pure defeat<br />
as you sang truths i never thought of twice<br />
i waited baited for the curving beat<br />
<br />
to sound your heart & silver strings, precise<br />
as clockwork. hunched inside a borrowed coat<br />
i watched your eyelids featherfall. enticed<br />
<br />
by you to live among the nights; afloat<br />
we came out with the stars & danced <br />
alone together, brushed by circling motes<br />
<br />
of dust. afraid, i never took the chance<br />
to pick up the hints, the little symbols<br />
of your devotion from the floor. entranced<br />
<br />
by moody blues, until i stumbled<br />
and fell.<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>pation</sub><br />
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                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>I think about you, all the fucking time</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 03 Jul 2006 04:48:12 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>I wish, I'd sailed the darkest seas<br />
On a great big wooden ship<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: pressurised<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: bang bang you're dead<br /><br />Standing in the enveloping landscape of wild silence, boots crunching in diaphanous strings of sighs <br />
which belled through the navy air, <br />
he stood atop a long-dead submarine <br />
that clothed withered metal in footward frosted evening wear. <br />
<br />
Her mouth bled silently like a papercut as she glimpsed <br />
a way between the ill-fitting light that sat on her eyes<br />
& the boy who she'd dreamed was hers<br />
playing fruitless connect-the-dots in iris-reflected skies.<br />
<br />
Dust spuniformly stopped mid-chalk, pursed<br />
to keep from coining tarnished phrases<br />
as the girl tore her luckless pining path away, fell steps pounding like vain arteries<br />
cold smoke from her lips lifted life in mercurial pools of praises.<br />
<br />
<br />
He held close in the navy air & <br />
blue was  tattooed in feathers on her eyelids<br />
as she shook like an earthquake child<br />
<br />
but he went away anyway.<br /><br /><div align="center">Don't tell me what it means because I already know<br />
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                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>Snow-eyed girls and money-eyed men</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 18 Jun 2006 04:13:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>I am the passenger and I ride and I ride and I ride<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: fucking frustrated<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: a call to come together<br /><br /><div align="center"><b>Continued.</b></div><br />
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<br />
<br />
Paisley petals fell in a steaming shower as the boy stared at his girl. "She is too small for me," he informed the rod-made man who stood in a frigid attitude icicles spurting from his eyes. The man sandwiched his lips blackly & stomped his two feet as his heart shattered. Down came the umbrella & the girl stood in a poorly attitude her fingers fluttering. Her eyes coined phrases left & right goggles clinking with unsold words. The crowd of trees sighed sycophantly as she sat in a storm of buttered moments & the boy stared. <br />
<br />
Whirlwind.<br />
<br />
<br />
//<br />
<br />
<br />
The man crept up to his castle breathing fumes of clouds of  <br />
<br />
<br />
<div align="center"><b>To Be Continued (again)</b></div><br /><br /><div align="center">I had a dream I was buying avocados on the moon<br />
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                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>The boy who sold the world.</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 15 Jun 2006 03:51:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>finding the grace to be nothing at all<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: Maude-Lynn<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: those beautiful boys<br /><br />Once in a bluely far-off land where crows sat stiffly scattered like coathangers and typewriters grew on trees clickclacking in the breeze there lived a boy. A boy of sums, a boy of substance, a boy made from viscera and pendulous orange flesh. This boy had a singular wish; he wished for a friend, a companion, a conniption. Everything was provided for him. He wandered in his grey craters & his blue craters & his grey dust and his blue dust and was covered in dust & ate dust but nothing worked & he found nothing. To work in circles is to define oneself as pi r squared<sup>1</sup> , but the boy did not think of himself in such ways. He lay in a Vitruvian attitude and stared at the sun, matterful balls of light danced over his eyes. He played with the stars and climbed flaccid trees only to touch the ground at the other end. Whirls of sound shrouded his ears and while he wished for his friend to appear, he was deaf to their calls, he could not hear his name called for he had no name<sup>2</sup>. <br />
<br />
Bad vibrations filled the room, jigging and jagging like static over the face of a floridian politician. Electric vibrations fell over the boy's face, rising and falling in sine waves of the first order as he meditated in her naked eyes, as she watched from afar (there is no need for modesty if you are invisible). She clothed her spiced eyes in paint fumes & skin and watched him fall from mascara'd fences<sup>3</sup>. Candles rolled from the room to another & wheeled carefully over muddled mounds of fiddle sticks:  "a friend", he wept, "would know the stars were never meant to be connected." <br />
<br />
Enter stage right, a man with no bones. A tall puddle, his only means of posture a dark rod-filled suit which would have looked disastrous on any other man but there's no such thing as a fashion victim when one has no arms<sup>4</sup>. He shadowed the mere whose eyes were nothing but craters into their heads or tunnels leading nowhere. "I sell" was his motto. What exactly he sold was the buyer's perogative to find out but it was said all his customers had been happy once. If you turned it over (takes judgement brains and maturity) "It's all relative" said his business card. <br />
<br />
The boy looked up with wet lashes and asked for a friend that cost less than a dime. "you'll be lucky", the man confided while his wrist limped like a three-legged rabbit. Pockets twinged nothing but fluff so off came buttons into a box. The box was turned over and out sprung a tender young child as the lid dropped from its bars. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<div align="center"><b>To Be Continued</b></div><br />
<br />
<sub><sup>1</sup>one radian<br />
<sup>2</sup>to hide oneself in plain view<br />
<sup>3</sup>the dirty whore<br />
<sup>4</sup>tell me now why did the girl fall off the swing</sub><br /><br /><div align="center">There's an earthquake coming.<br />
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                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>too late for the starcrossed lovers</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 27 May 2006 00:54:48 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>Poetry is no place for a heart that's a whore<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/p/painter.gif" alt="Artistic" title="Artistic" /> creative, baby<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Sumbitch stole my ipod :o<br /><br />I love how the new RHCP song sounds <i>just</i> like Tom Petty :}<br />
I swear to god. Just go listen to it for yourself. "Last Dance With Mary Jane". <br />
<br />
Anyhow. I have been well, industrious. I have also discovered that when I grow up I should be an architect for midgets. <br />
<br />
To clarify... I've designed a gingerbread house. ;]<br />
Seriously, I even got out my trig notes from year 11 and worked out the angles the roof should be pitched at. <br />
God, I am so awesome. <br />
Kids, if you've any culinary experience in this area, give me your ideas. <br />
So far we've got heaps. We're making a garden out of dessicated coconut coloured green, the turrets are composed of waffle cones dipped in chocolate & the main turret is...... a traffic cone, k, covered in greaseproof paper, with liquid chocolate poured over it & left to harden. then, we take out the traffic cone, and the paper, &..... CHOCOLATE TRAFFIC CONE PEOPLE. <br />
but it gets better; we're gonna drill a hole through each side of the cone, & hang a chocolate bell inside. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/e/excited.gif" width="23" height="19" alt=":excited:" title="OMG! I can't contain my excitement!" /> <br />
<br />
<br />
I'm also doing an internal on Gothic Revival. sweet as. <br />
so, I'm prowling town, click-click-clicking with my digital camera, probably creeping out whoever lives inside these houses. <br />
Oh but most of them are churches so it's pretty sweet.<br />
<br />
And I've got a job interview tomorrow, hoping it goes well... :]<br />
<br />
<br />
Fuck. Had a very bad experience with a roll of 400 yesterday. <br />
First, I thought it was a 24, so at shot 25 I thought "Oh, this will be the last shot" *cliiiiiiick* AND IT HAPPENED..... TWELVE TIMES. <br />
yes. it was a 36.<br />
THEN, I was in the darkroom, lights off etc, silly bints banging around in the developing room next door, & I was trying to reel the film on.... got it on fine. I'm a pro, I've got that whole thing down. But no, my problem was that the film was <i>too long for the reel</i>.<br />
So, had to chop it blindly, right through a photo. yep.<br />
Anyhow, I was pouring out the developer after 7 mins (see, I do know what I'm doing) aaaaaand what happened next was definitely not my fault. <br />
the funnel fell out; the films went <i>plop!</i> into the sink. <br />
so of course, I yelled FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK, as you do, very clever action when you're <i>at school</i>. <br />
<br />
<br />
Hey, I love the Simpsons. :<b></b>D<br />
<br />
"Boys, any one of you pray for giant shoes?"<br />
"I did!"<br />
"Okilie-dokilie!"<br />
<br />
<br />
Well, I have been somewhat industrious, I have done several paintings, loads of drawings, some of which are dA-quality - you're all up for sketches of obese limpets, right? <br />
But yeah I can't be bothered getting out the scanner. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/winkrazz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";P" title="Wink/Razz" /><br />
<br />
So I was in my favourite gallery today, wandered into a room of Laurence Aberhardt photos, & there was this guy there; didn't catch his name but he looked a bit like Chris Martin. We chatted for a while about art, books & philosophy, he gave me an old copy of the New Yorker.<br />
Why did I mention this? I dunno. I just thought it was cool. I love talking to strangers. <br />
<br />
<br />
Oh ya I bought gouache. Finally. I'm off to try it out but I just gotta finish watching the Simpsons ;]<br />
<br />
<br />
Over and out, kids <3<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub>too late for the sweet soul sister<br />
too late for the sweet soul brothers<br />
inspired their passion for one another <br />
(it was)<br />
too late for the star crossed lovers<br />
</sub><br />
</div><br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>adventurous busdrivers &amp; other such things</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 21 May 2006 02:40:56 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>there's a star man<br />
waitin' in the sky<br />
he'd like to come & meet us<br />
but he thinks he'd blow our minds<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br />Guys, I met Martin Thompson today! <br />
I was walking through town & saw him.... I stopped for a chat, he's an interesting guy for sure.<br />
<a href="http://www.motive.co.nz/selftaughtart/artists/artist.php?id=8">[link]</a> fyi<br />
<br />
also.<br />
<a href="http://www.popup.co.nz/">[link]</a> is an awesome awesome gallery.<br />
I just found it today, it's been open for five weeks or so.... IT HAS DON HERTZFELDT AND THOMAS HAN STUFF.<br />
 They had work from quite a few artists there that I recognised & have loved for a long time - Mephisto Jones, for example; I've always loved his work, since I was about nine or ten; I just didn't know his name.... but his work's pretty recognisable, so. <br />
<br />
Ho hum... I can play the piano :}<br />
<br />
OH YA I got the rap video, it is less embarrassing than I thought but as Erik says, it's Chav City.<br />
I have a clock round my neck in the style of Flava Flav. <br />
<br />
Oh, if anyone knows the name of the corner decorations that look like pinecones at the end of a row of dentiles - architectural obviously - please tell me! <br />
<br />
<br />
I have a few paintings to upload but my stuff is all messy and frankly, I can't be bothered.<br />
<br />
ciao!<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>so where were the spiders<br />
when the fly tried to break our balls<br />
like a leper messiah<br />
when the kids had killed the man we had to break up the band<br />
</i><br />
</sub><br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx</div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>bluebells are fallin' on my head</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 10 May 2006 01:06:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>there's a star man<br />
waitin' in the sky<br />
he'd like to come & meet us<br />
but he thinks he'd blow our minds<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br />so what's new kids?<br />
<br />
with me, not too much.<br />
writing a bit, painting a bit, weeding my gallery<br />
tired<br />
drinking too much coffee<br />
looking at the Mick Rock site at the moment <a href="http://www.mickrock.com">[link]</a><br />
in love with another Mick, of the Ronson variety. Bowie's guitarist in the 70's. hot stuff. what a pity he died in 1993. <br />
Keith Richards btw, in an NZ hospital. I laughed. <br />
imagine it, the last show he plays could be in my city. <br />
<br />
my foot is asleep in an odd way right now.<br />
Erik is showing me photos of shoes. mutt. <3 girls dig Kermit shoes, right? right? :[ <br />
my hair is a Bowie-esque mess. <br />
learnt about modes today, so that was interesting. NAME ME THE TONIC OF C MAJOR STARTING AT F.<br />
it is lydian by the way, you should all know so. <br />
<br />
dorian<br />
phyrgian<br />
lydian<br />
dominant<br />
ionian<br />
locrian<br />
<br />
for future reference<br />
oh and I scanned a whole load of crap, to upload. just so I can have a record of this shite.<br />
oil painting is finally dry, so I brought it home. <br />
uh wow, I have said nothing so far. <br />
awesome.<br />
<br />
NOW, <b>tell me</b> your dreams.<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>so where were the spiders<br />
when the fly tried to break our balls<br />
like a leper messiah<br />
when the kids had killed the man we had to break up the band<br />
</i><br />
</sub><br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx</div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>thursday's ch ch child</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 04 May 2006 00:30:58 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>if they give you ruled paper, write the other way<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: rad - smoosh<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: the lovely bones<br /><br /><sub>~<a class="u" href="http://bubblebee.deviantart.com/">bubblebee</a> tagged me. stupid tags. <br />
<br />
.1 } I am phobic of weird things. like wet hair, supermarkets, Make Me A Channel Of Your Peace, this incredibly unwashed girl at school, things falling into my ears while I sleep. <br />
<br />
.2 } I drink too much coffee. Normally three cups a day. Up to seven cups a day when I'm painting. Mojo Medicine done in the Bialetti coffee pot is good shit. <br />
<br />
.3 } I love to cook but I make huge messes. <br />
<br />
.4 } I love weird music especially Antony & the Johnsons. <br />
<br />
.5 } I can write backwards.<br />
<br />
.6 } I really hate people reading things I've written when they're in draft form. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
also from jeff's journal, because I thought it was fun.<br />
"YOURNAME looks like" into Google:<br />
<br />
Tilly looks like a Chihuahua Mom<br />
Tilly looks like she's saying "Take the picture already, can't you see I'm busy here?"<br />
Tilly looks like Beaty Davis in What About Baby Jane! <br />
Tilly just looks like a fat, psychopath slut to me now <br />
Tilly looks great for her old ass age of 49!  (<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/r/rofl.gif" width="29" height="27" alt=":rofl:" title="rofl" />)<br />
Tilly looks like such a knockout <br />
Tilly looks like the kid fell off the ugly tree and hit every branch on the way down (I'm so gonna use that one on somebody)<br />
Tilly looks like Ziggy Stardust-era David Bowie (hell fucking yes)<br />
Tilly looks like she is riding a bull...<br />
Tilly looks like she just got off the back of a motorcycle.<br />
<br />
<br />
well, that was fun.<br />
back to nothing</sub><br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>now i write letters to australia<br />
now i throw bottles out to sea<br />
i whisper the secret in the ground<br />
no one is gonna take you away from me<br />
<br />
</i><br />
</sub><br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx</div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>chic chico chica</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 29 Apr 2006 23:14:08 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>had the face of an angel<br />
smilin' in sin<br />
the body of venus with arms<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/t/tombstone.gif" alt="Six Feet Under" title="Six Feet Under" /> bit sleepy<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: The Painter - Libby Hathorn<br /><br />I start school again tomorrow, not looking forward to that as I am somewhat under the weather...<br />
 living on two hours sleep a night, walking around in a dazed fashion & forgetting to reply to people. I think I might have had an asthma attack last night but I'm not sure since I've never had one before.<br />
oh yeah, I keep having really fucking weird dreams, they're vivid. I end up walking round the house in the dark to avoid them. <br />
<br />
been doing dAPoWriWe, it's good, I've learnt a bit<br />
Won something but I don't know what yet. <br />
<br />
<br />
huge art hist internal, which requires twice as much research as I actually have<br />
huge photography internal, which I haven't started. hate photography<br />
also behind on painting, but its not going too bad<br />
<br />
feel shitty, need some sleep<br />
<br />
hope you're all well<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>dealing with danger<br />
stroking my skin<br />
like a thunder and lightning storm<br />
<br />
</i><br />
</sub><br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx</div> ]]></description>
                <author>~soultown</author>
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                <title>hoarded mysteries</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 20 Apr 2006 21:17:58 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>"Man is a bird without wings," Iskander told them, "and a bird is a man without sorrows."<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/sick.gif" alt="Sick" title="Sick" /> bit sleepy<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Devendra Banhart, Air, Citizen Cope<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: The History Of Painting - Sister Wendy Beckett<br /><br /><sub><div align="center"><img src="http://tn3-2.deviantart.com/fs10/300W/i/2006/110/f/2/What__s_In_My_Wallet_by_soultown.jpg"><br />
<br />
Thank you *<a class="u" href="http://loganart.deviantart.com/">loganart</a> for this idea <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/letters/=p.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":P" title=":P (Lick)" /><br />
Took ages to fit everything onto the scanner!<br />
<br />
<b><u>Contents of my wallet:</u></b><br />
old school ID - how skanky was I. gosh.<br />
pharmacy reciept for photo developing.<br />
blood donor card<br />
department store card<br />
clicky bus ticket<br />
another bus ticket <br />
starbucks voucher<br />
library card<br />
locker combination<br />
magazine photo of Velvet Revolver<br />
phone card (never used it)<br />
cafe card<br />
concert ticket for Pink Floyd Experience<br />
flyer for my friends' band<br />
reciept from art shop<br />
business card from art shop<br />
wallet (shaped like a cupcake)<br />
$3.70 in change - about enough to buy a coffee<br />
a shell from napier beach<br />
<br />
think that's all :] <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
OH<br />
<b>ONE MORE THING.<br />
do you guys have any favourite recipes? <br />
GIVE THEM TO ME & I WILL COOK THEM OKAY?</b><br />
because I wanna get better at cooking. :}<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
also, my new Nikon F50 works perfectly, not bad for adollar! <br />
battery was $20 though, lol<br />
and I need to buy a lens for it<br />
<br />
k that's all for today, I'm off to bed :]</img></div></sub><br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>and I find it kinda funny<br />
i find it kinda sad<br />
the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had<br />
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                <title>a stranger to misericordia</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 15 Apr 2006 22:18:37 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>they treat me like i'm famous<br />
i'll never leave her side<br />
'cause today can be dangerous<br />
& when the night arrives<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/sarcasticclap.gif" alt="Cynical" title="Cynical" /> bit sleepy<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Benny Goodman, I think<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Vitamin D: New Perspectives in Drawing<br /><br /><div align="center">Forgot that I hadn't updated this for aaaaaages.<br />
<br />
Not much to say other than it's getting colder & I bought four cameras for three dollars today.<br />
<br />
Canon EOS 300<br />
Nikon F50<br />
Canon T70<br />
Hanimax Dual Lens<br />
<br />
Talk about a bargain <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/letters/=p.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":P" title=":P (Lick)" /> <br />
None of them come with lenses, though, stupid digital photography usurping everything. Film is way hotter. <br />
<br />
Um, I've got three arts internals I should be working on, my Photography I'm probably too chicken to do the theme I want. <br />
Painting will be cool though, I've got all sorts of ideas for it./<br />
I bought a reallyreally sexy set of pastel chalks yesterday :] <br />
<br />
In other news, I lost my voice last Monday, it's slowly coming back but I still sound like a phonesex operator. <br />
<br />
Trust me to go all hoarse the night of Sheilah Winn. :[<br />
It went so well though! Our group didn't win but one of us got a prize for individual performance (not me, lol) & got a BOOK OF SONNETS. <br />
I was awesomely drunk & sounded like a roaring chain-smoker. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/t/toocool.gif" width="15" height="18" alt=":toocool:" title="Too Cool!" /><br />
<br />
Off to make dinner now, Thai chicken & lemongrass soup. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/d/drool.gif" width="15" height="18" alt=":drool:" title="Drool" /><br />
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<br />
So kids - how've you all been?</div><br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>helicopters and cameras all shootin' for the station<br />
they say that a wild man defending his lady<br />
but for some odd reason they keep calling you a painting<br />
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</i><br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx</div> ]]></description>
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                <title>window ledges hold surprises</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 30 Mar 2006 15:14:28 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>my cat is amazing<br />
he can play the guitar<br />
he may not be an actor<br />
but he's a pussy superSTAR<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/d/drunk.gif" alt="Drunk" title="Drunk" /> zing!<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Will you follow me? - Rob Dougan<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Iliad - Homer<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: Sister Wendy Becket<br /><br /><div align="center"><br />
Look, isn't this a beautiful painting? <br />
<br />
<img src="http://www.antiquesandthearts.com/Archive2000%5CImages%5CGalleryHopping07-02-2002-11-07-03Image1.GIF"><br />
<br />
It's called "Two Women At A Window", & it's by Murillo. <br />
That little girl is gorgeous.<br />
<br />
But anyhow.<br />
<br />
Just wanted  to say two things: <br />
<br />
one, my rap is on video, OH YES, so you won't ever be seeing it until my 21st, when I can watch it without screaming. <br />
<br />
two, I got my art internal back,<br />
<br />
<br />
<u><b>EXCELLENCE.</b></u><br />
<br />
I don't believe I have posted some of the paintings including the last one, so I will do that when I can be bothered.<br />
<br />
Lmao, I tried oils for the first time, & it took me about an hour to realise I had to <u>add stuff to it to thin it.</u> yes, I was using the pigment straight from the tube.<br />
fuck, I am so blonde. <br />
<br />
Anyhow everything si going great, haven't got my photography back but everythings' awesome except for physics four times a week WHICH SUCKS and I am failing it.<br />
not into it.</img></div><br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>my cat ain't crazy<br />
he's everything to me<br />
my cat reads the bible<br />
& he thinks it's so funny</i><br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx</div> ]]></description>
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                <title>let's all jump on the usher bandwagon</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 24 Mar 2006 23:39:42 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>minute you wake from a bad daydream<br />
alone, as the bird play dawn<br />
a little chink from a reverie<br />
it pulls at my blue blue heart<i></i></i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/d/drunk.gif" alt="Drunk" title="Drunk" /> zing!<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: David Bowie: Rebel Rebel<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Bridge to Holy Cross - crap crap CRAP<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: APC - Imagine<br /><br />Hello. It is fucking cold today, did you know?<br />
<br />
Okay, I have a confession.<br />
<br />
Wait, fuck, no I don't.<br />
I really hate Usher. That guy has serious problems with buttons falling off his shirts. Go on, Usher. Buy a quality shirt. That way you won't get chilled nipples, & we won't have to look at them. <br />
<br />
By the way, I'm pretty much running on coffee at the moment.<br />
You hadn't guessed? :<b></b>D<br />
<br />
Right, there was actually some kind of point behind what I was saying. <br />
<br />
What was I saying? <br />
Oh right.<br />
<br />
I think I am subconsciously on drugs without knowing it. <br />
<br />
Mainly because I have been listening to Lords of Acid a whole fucking lot lately, & actually liking it. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/o/omfg.gif" width="15" height="20" alt=":omfg:" title="omfg" /><br />
<br />
If you've never seen Olivia Parker's work, go look for her. She's an awesome photographer. Seriously. <br />
I gotta say I don't know why Morandi ever bothers though.<br />
<br />
Fuck me, the OC's on tonight, I'll have to remember to tape that. <br />
<br />
I have seriously been doing too much work lately. I have two&ahalf paintings to get through, still. By Monday. <br />
I've nearly finished my eight-to-ten pages of photography notes, though. Fuckin A. <br />
<br />
All I have to do is sketch the compositions of each photo that I analysed, sketch compositions of the photos I have taken, cut down the frames of my prints, finish my History of Photography thing, glue my prints into the book, find my notes on DOF & aperture & all that crap, set out proof sheets & negs & all the rest. <br />
<br />
Then for art, I have half an A4 painting to do, I have several sections to replace on my first study sketch, possibly re-doing another A4 painting, then moving onto an A3 page of sketches & colour studies, & then an A3 finished work, which I have no idea what I am going to do about. <br />
Also have to go over three painting analysises & rewrite sections.<br />
<br />
Oh, & what else do I have? An essay on an extended text (The Namesake by Jhumpa Lahiri - just don't bother, it's a shite book), revision for a maths internal, about twenty pages of physics (& if I do them, my physics teacher will give me banjo lessons! INCENTIVE!!), a speech to write about party pills & learns to line, I mean lines to learn, for Sir Toby. <br />
<br />
All by Monday.<br />
<br />
<br />
Hey, hey, you know what?<br />
I fucking love sandwiches. <br />
<br />
It's so coooooool. d.<br />
Just as well I have my lovely pink blanky. <br />
I found out the other day that my school jersey can actually fit two people with room to spare. It is pretty much the size of a tent. It comes halfway down my thighs & covers my hands completely. I look like a bag lady. It's fucking awesome. <br />
<br />
Man, I'm so glad my parents never made me join one of those quiz show things for kids. Or a spelling bee. My god, that would've been the end. <br />
<br />
Oh yuss. We did a rap on Neoclassicism & Romanticism in Art Hist class the other day. Oh yes, it is on tape, oh yes, I was bouncing around like a nigga, oh yes, I had a clock hanging round my neck. Oh yes, my teacher is going to put it on the internet.<br />
<br />
Oh no.<br />
<br />
Oy if any of you have tried party pills I would like you to tell me about this experience, because it will come in useful for my speech. Because, I am a good girl, I have never even seen the things. :}<br />
<br />
The mixed-media gallery looks like shit tonight. It is simply full of crappy anime doodles. Why would you bother, why? Nobody cares, you lined-refill-rapists. <br />
<br />
That said, I found some awesome pieces. Props to you bredren. <br />
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                <title>actually, i quite like talking out my ass</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 14 Mar 2006 23:32:01 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>hey man, well she's a total blam-blam<br />
this mellow thigh chick just put my spine out of place<br />
well there's only room for one<br />
here she comes, here she comes</i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/d/drunk.gif" alt="Drunk" title="Drunk" /> zing!<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Lou Reed - Heroin<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Boiling Point<br /><br />Photography is lovely, I keep meaning to scan in some of my prints, but surprise surprise, I HAVE NOT. alas. <br />
I will do soon. I PROMISE. <br />
<br />
Art is way behind schedule, I have to do about eight paintings within two weeks. I am lefucked. <br />
<br />
I came up with the best ever excuse for being late today. I don't have it written down but I think I can remember bits of it :] <br />
<br />
hmm.<br />
<br />
<sub>"While perusing the morning paper, I became aware of a small squeaking noise coming from my coffee cup. Upon investigating this more closely, I found a very small man, ingeniously - although somewhat reduntantly - disguised as a cornflake, floating in my mug. "What on earth are you doing?" I asked him, in an incredulous fashion. <br />
<br />
The little man, kicking frantically, informed me that his name was Bjornie Bjornsson. "I've been here on your planet for six weeks, investigating human breakfast foods, & I thought it might be wise to go incognito."<br />
"Not very," I replied, "seeing as we haven't had cereal since the toaster was invented."<br />
<br />
Bjornie, having succeeded in climbing out of my mug, now stood on the newspaper, hardly bigger than the letter 'A'. <br />
"I must return to my planet, West-South-Norrland, in order to report my findings to Agnes & Agnetha, our rulers. Would you care to join me?"<br />
"Certainly," I said.<br />
"Smashing!" he cried. "To the kettleship!" <br />
<br />
We steamed off through the galaxy, powered by turbo-teacups, moving faster than a really really fast thing. The view was tremendous. Bjornie Bjornsson & I arrived in West-South-Norrland, which slightly resembled Norway (more like Snoreway) & seemed to be inhabited mainly by beards. <br />
"Well, it's been fun," I told Bjornie, "but I had better go. How soon can we leave?"<br />
"Oh no, I'm not going back. Your planet was horrible."<br />
<br />
I looked at my watch. Ten minutes until school started! Would I make it back in time??<br />
<br />
"You could catch a toaster, if you like."<br />
Checking my pockets, I found eighty-five cents, a safety pin & assorted fluff. "That money won't do here," Bjornie piped up. "The currency is Crowns.... oh, but the King has the only crown available, so mostly we use sheep." <br />
<br />
I promptly sat down & knitted a sheep, presenting this to the toaster-operater at the docks, who jettisoned me back to Earth post-haste. <br />
<br />
Straightening my skirt, & patting my hair down, I checked my watch. It was 8.29, & I was right on time.<br />
<br />
Unfortunately, due to Einstein's theory of relativity (fucker), it was actually ten to nine, & I was LATE.<br />
<br />
My bad."</sub><br />
<br />
<br />
It covered both sides of my late slip, & I continued it onto a piece of refill, which my teacher refused to accept. <br />
<br />
<br />
Oh.... & the real reason I was late, was because I was blow-drying my hair. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/blushes.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":blushes:" title="Blush" /><br />
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<br />
<br />
School is driving me nuts. <br />
I am toying with the idea of leaving a year early. Saving up for a gap year, maybe. <br />
<br />
Anyone know much about Holgas? I want to buy one but they don't sell medium format here, or develop it anywhere at all that I know of. <br />
<br />
Whatever, man. Lots of painting that I have to get done.<br />
<br />
AU REVOIR.<br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>now don't lean on me man<br />
cause you can't afford the ticket<br />
I'm back on suffragette city</i><br />
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<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx</div> ]]></description>
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                <title>spartacus called, he says it really is him</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 05 Mar 2006 22:18:50 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>we can dance if we want to<br />
we can leave your friends behind<br />
cos your friends don't dance & if they don't dance<br />
then they're no friends of mine</i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/d/drunk.gif" alt="Drunk" title="Drunk" /> zing!<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Rob Dougan - Left Me For Dead<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Guitarist Australia Maqazine<br /><br />Hello kids. I'm too lazy to write a proper journal entry, so here are a few pictures of my room:<br />
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<img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/dairy.jpg"><br />
actually, this is my school diary. it is pretty though, oui?<br />
and that is my maths homework, under there. Indices suck. suck suck suck. <br />
<br />
<img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/prettylights.jpg"><br />
Welcome to my bedroom. I have no window at the moment, it is boarded up, so I use these lights instead. They are quite nice. <br />
<br />
<img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/lucile.jpg"><br />
This is one of the loves of my life; my guitar Lucile. She has recently been restrung & sounds absolutely lovely. <br />
Beside is my crammed bookshelf.<br />
<br />
<img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/stereo.jpg"><br />
Another love of my life, my stereo. It is sexy, is it not? It BOOMS. I'm too scared to turn it up past "3" cause it goes fucking loud, especially when I'm in the shower in the mornings, apparently you can hear it right down the road. <br />
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<img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/tinks.jpg"><br />
Sup, Tinks. I found him at somebody's flat, bloody students.<br />
<br />
<br />
I'm going to a hotel party this weekend :<b></b>D</img></img></img></img></img><br /><br /><div align="center"><sub><br />
<i>we can go where we wanna<br />
the night is young & so am i</i><br />
<br />
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                <title>nostradamus says</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 27 Feb 2006 23:02:16 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <div align="center"><sub><i>i've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight<br />
never seen you shine so bright</i></sub></div><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/d/drunk.gif" alt="Drunk" title="Drunk" /> zing!<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: KT Tunstall - Suddenly I See<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: The Great Automatic Grammatizator & Other Stories<br /><br /><div align="center">I have a COLD <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /> <br />
<br />
sniff sniff sniff. <br />
<br />
<br />
Oh but Sir Toby is going well. We have decided that the play will be set in a hotel lobby & Feste will be a barman with a martini shaker. I will be a fat out-of-work actor with dirty jeans & a loose tie, also very drunk. But of course the drunk part will be no trouble ;] <br />
<br />
<br />
(sneezing fit)<br />
<br />
<br />
Yesterday, I faked a sickie & took the day off, it was very enjoyable. I bashed hell out of the piano for most of the day & watched Little Britain for the rest. I also had a very thrilling phone call with Fi:<br />
<br />
"Ooh, Gilmore Girls." <br />
"........."<br />
"The witty banter!"<br />
<br />
OH! & Lizzie called me on Skype. She sang to me. Apparently, I am riding on a pony, on a pony, on a big fat pony.<br />
Anyways, I recorded it on my cellphone. I want it to be my ringtone. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/a/aww.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":aww:" title="Aww" /><br />
<br />
I have been doing a lot of painting, it is nuts, my teacher is absolutely useless & we never know what we should be doing most of the time, ergo, I am sort of working it out myself. Photography is good fun, we can do still lifes (lives?) tomorrow. <br />
<br />
Senior's quiz night tomorrow, I have no idea what it consists of but it should be JOLLY GOOD FUN. <br />
<br />
I have a newfound love for the piano, because Lucile is in desperate need of new strings & while I have been tightening screws etc, the bridge is v. dodgy, it keeps going up & down, I think I need some kind of bolt to keep the cog-things in place. Meanwhile, she sounds terrible, like me with my hoarse voice trying to sing. <br />
Anyways, my piano is great, I have not thought of a name for it yet but I think it is a boy piano, not a girl piano. Weinbach is the name written inside the hood. Maybe a German name, then? <br />
<br />
Oh, you know what I recommend? Plain milo. Just eat it with a spoon (or the end of a knife seeing's the 7ths have stolen all the spoons from our side of the common room) & it is lovely. <br />
<br />
The people who seem to perpetually live in #Whores, by the way, are awesome, because they help me with my music theory. FanTAStic. <br />
<br />
Zzzz. You know what I hate? The advertisements frightening us into getting the MenzB injections by saying "oh my little sister died of meningitis". Yes well maybe, but no eight-year-old boy says "I wept" of his own accord, & the bloody injections don't give you a full immunity anyway. Putting up posters in railway stations of diseased babies is something I do not care for either. <br />
<br />
Althea gave me a "Vote for Pedro" badge! Cheers, Althea good buddy, I think to reward you I shall call you Alfalfa. Uhhuh.<br />
<br />
sniffffffffffff.<br />
I am getting up at some ungodly hour tomorrow, like, 5.45, to go running with l'Claire before school. Ho hum. <br />
<br />
Oh, I don't care, Lucile & I are off to laze under a tree. <br />
<br />
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                <title>mondays &amp; i</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 25 Feb 2006 21:05:23 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <strong>Listening to</strong>: Antony and the Johnsons - Fistfull of Love<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: five quarters of the orange - joanne harris<br /><br /><div align="center">Things, um.... they are not going very well.<br />
I'm sorry. <br />
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this is nice, though.<br />
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                <title>oh, golly.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 18 Feb 2006 13:42:41 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <strong>Listening to</strong>: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Teenager In Love<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: a pretty pretty Taschen one<br /><br />Well, it was fun while it lasted. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/flirty.gif" width="30" height="26" alt=":flirty:" title="Flirtatious" /><br />
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So.... what's been goin down? <br />
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<img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/Image023.jpg"> <br />
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That is what I have been working on, for my art class. <br />
If you look very carefully then you can see both my knees & a book about Picasso at the bottom of the photo, below my desk.<br />
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School has been fucking hectic, I did a series of photograms this week, which was fun.<br />
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Oh, & I got a part in the school play. Well two parts, in two different plays. One is Sir Toby, in Twelfth Night. YES, THE DRUNKLE.<br />
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The other is the goat in the Sound of Music.<br />
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Yes.<br />
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The goat. <br />
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K, I have to be off now, I'm going shopping & I should've left quite a while ago. GOTHBOOTS TIME.</img><br /><br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/21730865/"><img src="http://ic1.deviantart.com/fs7/i/2005/226/6/0/deviantART___Let_s_browse_by_kreestal.gif" width="99" height="56" /></a></span></span><br />
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                <title>Morning, Storming</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 05 Feb 2006 02:30:49 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <strong>Mood</strong>: this and that<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Antony and the Johnsons - Fistfull of Love<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Angel Blood - John Singleton (release date 4 May)<br /><br />Things are quiet, things are loud. <br />
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I hope you all are well :]<br /><br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/21730865/"><img src="http://ic1.deviantart.com/fs7/i/2005/226/6/0/deviantART___Let_s_browse_by_kreestal.gif" width="99" height="56" /></a></span></span><br />
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<sub><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx<br />
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<i>smile!</i></sub> ]]></description>
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                <title>Ginger and Wasabi Truffles.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 28 Jan 2006 22:35:09 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <sub>forreal.</sub><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/p/phonecall.gif" alt="On The Phone" title="On The Phone" /> bummin'<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Andrew Bird - Nervous Tic Motion To The Head<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Küßchen Kubchen! - Roald Dahl (German translation)<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: Family Guy<br /><br />Just a quick update to inform you all that school is starting on Wednesday and I will be a lot less active from now on. <br />
I will however definitely be replying to all emails, so feel free to drop me a line:<br />
tillybean@gmail.com<br />
Go on, you know you want to, and I love getting emails. <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/flirty.gif" width="30" height="26" alt=":flirty:" title="Flirtatious" /><br />
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Also that The O.C. is really cool and you ALL know it. <br />
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A friend and I have been investigating paddling pools, but have not managed to buy one yet. Said friend and I, though, turn out to have matching wheelbarrows which might do instead. Who knows?<br />
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I have ended up with somewhat of an addiction to chilli hot chocolates, have been attempting to create my own recipe but haven't tried it out yet. <br />
I'm pretty sure the way to go is to create a kind of chocolate paste, possibly melted chocolate with some kind of alcohol added to prevent it solidifying. Mix in chilli powder, then pour hot chocolate & frothed milk over the top so the paste dissolves.<br />
Interesting. <br />
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For the record - never do commissions for relatives. It'll all end in tears and plus they think they're entitled to family discount - fancy way of saying they pay you shit-all. <br />
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People keep telling me I look Swedish, it's odd. Do I? <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hmm.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":hmm:" title="hmm" /><br />
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If anyone needs something to read - I strongly reccommend Mortal Engines by Phillip Reeve. C'est fantastique! <br />
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All right you bums, I'm off. <br />
Au revoir!<br /><br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/21730865/"><img src="http://ic1.deviantart.com/fs7/i/2005/226/6/0/deviantART___Let_s_browse_by_kreestal.gif" width="99" height="56" /></a></span></span><br />
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                <title>Out of Interest.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 21 Jan 2006 18:57:26 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <sub>forreal.</sub><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/sick.gif" alt="Sick" title="Sick" /> sore<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Rob Dougan - Speed Me Towards Death<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: Like Water For Chocolate - Laura Esquiva<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: Memoirs of a Geisha<br /><br />Just for future reference;<br />
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never, ever, ever<br />
listen to Marilyn Manson covers of the following:<br />
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 - Another Brick In The Wall<br />
 - Willy Wonka Theme Song<br />
 - Personal Jesus<br />
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and any other covers he, or his band, happen to have made.<br />
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That is all.<br /><br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/21730865/"><img src="http://ic1.deviantart.com/fs7/i/2005/226/6/0/deviantART___Let_s_browse_by_kreestal.gif" width="99" height="56" /></a></span></span><br />
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<sub><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> Svetlana xx<br />
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                <title>Cloudy, With A Hint of A Smile.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 10 Jan 2006 19:30:01 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <sub>forreal.</sub><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/letters/=p.gif" alt="Quixotic" title="Quixotic" /> quixotic<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Coldplay - God Put A Smile Upon Your Face<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: Jackass<br /><br />So here we are, another year. Awesome. Oh wait. I covered that last journal. Fuck, nevermind.<br />
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It's an interesting day here; the kind of weather that you think is pretty cold, so you bundle up, and half an hour later you realise you're sweating. Odd. <br />
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At the moment, I'm wearing one of my dad's old shirts, and new shoes which I bought this morning, $300 Italian heels (oh, you don't think I paid that for them, do you? <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/wink.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";)" title=";) (Wink)" /> ). Don't worry, I don't wear this kind of thing to town or anything. My pj's see a lot of the outdoors, though, which is cool.<br />
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They are frigging nice shoes, btw. I don't normally go for yellow shoes, but they're awesome. <br />
Thank god, for New Year sales, and charismatic gay men who coerce you into buying two pairs of shoes when you didn't need any in the first place.<br />
He was a lovely guy, actually. We had a nice chat about the Victoria's Secret fashion show, and he dissuaded me from the orange heels - "Oh no," he said. "They'll date."<br />
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Fly My Pretties is an awesome band, you know. I inherited their Live At Bats Theatre album. They're a side project of The Black Seeds? I'm pretty sure I recognise the voice. <br />
"haveyouseenmahbago'money?"<br />
one, two, three, four<br />
DUN DUDUDUN DUN, and the bass rips in. <br />
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Oh, I got my first commission a few days ago. I'm illustrating a children's book. <br />
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I house-sat last night. Strange concept. My mum didn't think it was a good idea - "But Mum, it's just like camping, only with walls."<br />
I'm not so good at reassuring people, hey.<br />
Then she called me up at half-10 to say, if I felt nervous, I could come home, and she'd leave the outside lights on for me.<br />
Cute, my friends call it.<br />
First taste of empty-nest syndrome, <i>I</i> call it.<br />
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It smells of creosote round here, constantly. It's nice, but supposedly carcinogenic. Whoops a daisie.<br />
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I got a letter from the NZ Blood Service this morning. As it turns out, my blood type is O-Negative, and I get a keyring to match. According to them, this makes me part of the "elite specials club" and my blood can be given to newborn and premature babies.<br />
Woo.<br />
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These are my new Italian shoes:<br />
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<img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/pretty-italiano-shoes.jpg"><br />
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Yes, that's a skirt. Not my choice, my jeans are being washed. Oh, how hard it is to be a girl. Skirts are no fun, you know.<br />
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Exam results are back on the 26th. At least if my marks are bad, I have an excuse ;]<br />
I am so without morals. Ahem.<br />
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I quite like Jamiroquai, actually. What the hell is that genre. Acid jazz?<br />
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Memoirs of a Geisha comes out on the 19th. Wahey. I loved the book, the movie should be amazing. The idea of "mizuage" really shits me, though. <br />
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I just got my stationery list for this year. Which is fun, no, really. I could live in a stationery shop. It's just something about the smell of paper. <br />
Art stuff is damn expensive. Lucky I have most of it already, though. <br />
Watercolour paper is awesome to draw on, by the way. Fuck watercolours, ink is where it's at.<br />
I'm saving up for some gouache though. Right now, I have a 20ml tube of "verre tempera", and a grand total of $0.60. Awesome.<br />
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This is what it is like here:<br />
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<img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/summers-day.jpg">     <img src="http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c145/tillybeans/summers-night.jpg"><br />
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I don't remember where I was, in the daylight one. Oh wait, no, I do. I'd been making lemonade with a five-year-old rockstar.<br />
The other photo is in my garden.<br />
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Anyhow, I have other stuff to do, though no doubt you're all riveted. I'm off to buy chicken, actually, to make dinner. Yuuuuum.<br />
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Au revoir, my loves.</img></img></img><br /><br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/21730865/"><img src="http://ic1.deviantart.com/fs7/i/2005/226/6/0/deviantART___Let_s_browse_by_kreestal.gif" width="99" height="56" /></a></span></span><br />
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                <title>I Got Your Shoes.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 31 Dec 2005 21:23:10 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <sub>forreal.</sub><br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: <img style="vertical-align: middle" src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" alt="Happy" title="Happy" /> sunburnt :]<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Jens Lekman - Pretty Shoes<br /><strong>Reading</strong>: The Face - Dean Koontz<br /><strong>Watching</strong>: The Frighteners<br /><br />WELCOME TO TWO FOUSAND AND SIX.<br />
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DO YOU LIKE PIE?<br />
SO THIS YEAR I AM GIVING UP PIES. <br />
Good, eh.<br />
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So, like, 2005 was fucking wonderful and fucking awful at the same time, for a multitude of reasons. But hey, I'm still alive, and I'm happy. Like usual. And this is due in part to a few very lovely people; =<a class="u" href="http://bowlingforrainbows.deviantart.com/">bowlingforrainbows</a>, `<a class="u" href="http://cei-.deviantart.com/">cei-</a>, ~<a class="u" href="http://eclipsic.deviantart.com/">eclipsic</a>, `<a class="u" href="http://newklear.deviantart.com/">newklear</a>, `<a class="u" href="http://snowmask.deviantart.com/">snowmask</a>, =<a class="u" href="http://underestimateme.deviantart.com/">UnderestimateMe</a>. So thanks for being generally awesome. <br />
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I have a whole lot of New Years resolutions, but I wrote them when I was a bit pissed. Ergo, I will hopefully NOT be opening a cafe, or eloping to Madagascar. [What? Exactly.] <br />
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What are YOUR resolutions for 2006?<br /><br /><span class="shadow-holder"><span class="shadow"><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/21730865/"><img src="http://ic1.deviantart.com/fs7/i/2005/226/6/0/deviantART___Let_s_browse_by_kreestal.gif" width="99" height="56" /></a></span></span><br />
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