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deviantART: by:spin0spin0suga http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:spin0spin0suga&section=today deviantART RSS for by:spin0spin0suga en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 09:24:18 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Well. http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/13685989/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/13685989/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 17:49:36 PDT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Just was tired of seeing the journal on my front page say I was a junior in college. I guess I should update this thing more? Doubt it.

Reading back though I used to leave some pretty juicy journal entries!

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Get off of my Cloud! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/9439420/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/9439420/ Thu, 20 Jul 2006 16:03:56 PDT
Anywho. I'll try to keep writing. but life keeps throwing me curve balls. I had a job for a while this year, lost it. I had a bf a month or two ago, but I dumped him. Had a lot of sorority stuff to deal with, but Im on summer break now. I took summer session for school, but it ends tomorrow. I'll be glad to have the break.

I mostly just hang out with my friends, go to the lake, drink, workout. I finally moved into a new apartment with someone I actually like instead of that deadbeat flake named julie that I had before. I get along spledidly with Mandi and its nice to have a roomie who actually contributes to the apartment and has dinner with you and stuff.

Keep in touch peoples! ]]> ~spin0spin0suga You'd think... http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/7906423/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/7906423/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 12:41:40 PST
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In other news;

I think the thing I hate the very most is walking around school seeing past lovers.

Your eyes meet and you glance away. You walk on by like nothing ever happened. That night or week or month you spent together meant nothing. Just awkward glance, stride, shuffle, stride.

But isnt it even worse when they try to strike up a convo and be friends? You just can't win. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Live Hard, Die Young http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/7245687/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/7245687/ Wed, 07 Dec 2005 09:43:16 PST

Expect more poetry soon!

I have written quite a few poems in the past quarter, but without internet at home, I hadnt the chance to submit them all.

I'll be submitting some soon. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Writing Much? http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/5724930/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/5724930/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 15:27:18 PDT
In the meantime Im back home from college for the summer and looking for a job. I need money. That's it for now. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga And death rocks my life again... http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/4798340/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/4798340/ Sat, 12 Mar 2005 23:38:47 PST ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Today the girls of the Tau Gamma Chapter at Eastern Washington University suffered a great loss. One of our girls died earlier this morning. Details are few and far between, as we are waiting on her mom to be here. She is on her way up here and after tomorrow we should know more about the circumstances.

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Oh the Humanity! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/4565523/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/4565523/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 21:02:34 PST
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It started with a Crush Party my sorority set up where you invite your crush to dress up as part of a famous couple and meet up at to dance at a party we set up at the community center. Of course I invited a beta. He went as a Ninja and I was a Tokyo whore! I was like "Two dolla! Two dolla! I love you loong time!" That went great except he was really shy and we both admitted the party would have been MUCH MUCH better if it wasnt dry. Im sure more people would have been dancing anyways. Well I agreed to meet up with him at the Beta Martigra party later that night.

After Crush Party I went to Kyra's house to Prefunk for Martigra since it was at the Frat house you would have to check your drinks in a be 21 to drink. (Which is entirely why I prefer to party at live-outs which is what you call an off campus place where three or more Greek people reside.) TIme went by pretty fast and I had my Rum and coke so I was happy.

When I got to the Beta house he found me in a like two seconds and started dancing. He was all affectionate and I kept thinking how awesome it was to snag a Beta. Beta's are the best. And not just any Beta, smart, cute, funny, nerdy him. One problem: He got too drunk. He was really pissing me off the way he was acting after about an hour and a half. I was about to leave for the Pi Lam house with Jon and Mandi when someone from my Criminal Justice club found me and asked to dance. Turns out he remembered my name and that I was a freshman and then I was into Criminal Psych. That was actually kinda weird that he remembered all that when I barely remembered him at the last meeting. But he was hot, so all was forgiven. (he he.)

After that I got to the Pi Lam house around 12 and thats more where I actually partied. After playing Pool with Kyra and flirting it up/dancing with boys with Mandi, Mandi and I ended up in Travis's room. We talked to him for quite a while and then Superman (Levi) came in and layed next to me on the bed. Mandi, Travis, and I were all under one blanket so he grabbed another one and offered to share. Soon after he started kissing me and I was thinking "well, he definitely not ugly, but hes not drop-dead hot, and I could really care less about him, but Im pissed at the beta." So I went to his room. Mostly because it was weird to makeout with Mandi like RIGHT next to me. 2 hours later I told Mandi we should wait till 6 to walk home so we dont walk right past the police station slightly drunk at 4 am. So we set our cell phone alarms for 6, woke up then and got out of the sleeping clueless boys's beds and walked to Zips.

After Zips we went to Kyra's to crash for a bit before we had a sorority meeting at 10:45.

And Im not even hungover! Yaye! But the thing I'm still mad about is whythe beta had to get so drunk, he knows I like him, he doesnt need to get drunk to talk to me. Stupid boy.

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Dont cry for me, Ill be fine http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/4435377/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/4435377/ Fri, 28 Jan 2005 08:27:41 PST
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Im sorry I took so long to come back. This isnt a promise that Ill be on more often though... college life is more busy then I ever thought it would be. Not to mention my back went out last week and Ive been hobbling around on pain killers. Other than that life is good. Ill try to write poetry again. Hope to see some of the regulars back around my page.

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga *drinks her pepsi* http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3539255/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3539255/ Fri, 08 Oct 2004 01:23:58 PDT
After the meeting, some boys in the apartment next to Destiny's invited us over. They were drinking and were very entertaining. They said it was a dance party, but we mostly just talked. Alot of the girls went back to Des's room to watch one tree hill. I stayed and talked to all of the boys. Two of them gave me their number. (One was sober too! lol!) After awhile a few of us girls headed to the Sig Ep house, where I met a bunch of cute boys. One in particular took my breath away. He's korean and can play the guitar while singing like no one's business. He gave about 20 people in the house a private concert. I wanted to jump him, he was that good. Especially when he started singing love songs. Oh holy wow.

Wednesday night was pledge-in. Brittany did my make up and flat-ironed my hair. I looked so pure in all white. I recieved my pledge badge. It's simple and beautiful. The ritual was beautiful too, but sacred so I won't discuss it here. All I can say is, I've never known a more wonderful group of girls in all my life.

After pledge-in I went to Brewster to hang out with Brittany and the guys. We watched Requiem for a Dream because it's Scott's and my favourite movie. I always get scared by the refridgerator part though and I had to dive inbetween Scott and Paul to sheild my eyes in Scott's sleeve. Tamara didn't seem to like the movie much. I hope she watches it again someday without falling asleep, because it is a beautiful movie and I think she'd enjoy it.

Tonight I hung out with the boys in Brewster alone for the first time. Well first I went to hang with Brittany, but then Andrew and I went running all over Brewster doing little errands. (He always seems to be doing so many!) Then Brittany, Andrew, Scott, and I went to Mo-street to eat. Well, first we went to the pub but they refused us service, giving us a lame excuse about it being time to close or something. Losers. After Mo-street we went to Kristin's room for a bit, and finally headed back to Brewster. Andrew had to do homework, so I offered to help. He said he just wanted company. We went into his room and I sat in a corner inbetween his chair and the bed and the wall. With a few pillows it was quite comfy. He got very little homework done because we just ended up talking, me aboiut my childhood, and him on his philosophies. He's kinda a downer sometimes and I wish he wasn't so hard on himself. He *is* a cutie with a great personality, but he seems to think all girls don't see him that way. Nutso. I also helped Scott correct a paper which he had butchered writing and we had great fun trying to make sense of it. We watched My So-called Life on DVD (the first two episodes) and then Andrew drove me home. Great night, Scott kept me laughing tons.

Jeebus this is long, see you on Monday or Sunday night. I'm going home for the weekend. ^_^

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga *boogies* http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3523585/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3523585/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 00:19:54 PDT
Hanging out at Brewster totally rocks my socks. Playing Halo with Scott last night was dangerous, he is so funny I almost peed my pants from laughing!!! I seriously had to run to the bathroom. (Oh my!) I actually wasn't too bad considering I'd only played it on the computer before, not on xbox. It's pretty hard to get used to and the controller kinda hurt my wrist after a while so I had to ice it. I'm typing without my cast right now, but I just kinda set my arm down on the table and don't move that hand around. I type most of the keys with the other hand. It works pretty well. My right hand is getting really fast, lol. It's like super hand! (Dun dun dun!)

Tonight is my first New Member meeting with AOTT, I'm pumped. I'm excited to learn more about sorority life and afterwards we are just gonna hang out and get to know the other sisters (who are showing up later) a little better. I got invited to a party at the Phi Delt's last night by one of my sisters, but I turned it down. Aren't you all proud of me? I turned down a party! I *really* wanted to go, but I had class today and my wrist was kidna hurting... I was even dressed cute to go, but I was a good Natalie and went home instead. Scott and Paul walked Tamara and I home. Paul and Tam are so cute. I'm encredibly jealous of their cuteness. But I deal. It's time for me to find a man! I'm settled in, my arm is almost healed, I'm adjusted to college life... I need to get me some MAN LOVE! Preferably a man who wears a) Hugo b) (new scent) Old Spice or c) Axe. I like good smelling boys. ^_^ *Sniffs the lab air for a good smelling man* No one in here atm. Bummer.

I fell like there is more to write about, but I forget. Oh well. Later Days.

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Always Rushing... Always late http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3505004/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3505004/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 17:30:48 PDT falling out of a chair. (Uhm, yea) Thought I might finally explain that. The best thing about that is it happened when I was sober. Oh yea. I rule. *bows* And my arm shrunk too much so I can already slip off my cast. The highlight of this last month was the first time I slipped it off on wednesday night and I went dancing down the hall (in a tribal-dance-like-way) and went into the bathroom to wash my arm. Im trying to type without it.. but it hurts so Im gonna slip it back on *swoink* ok better.

Except for the missing my mom a bit the first few days I hadn't been homesick at all until today. I even cried. It was a gooood stress releiving cry too... but then my room mate came home and I had to pretend I was sleeping and then go take a shower. (It was a good shower too, the first once without my cast, took about an hour, even put a handtowel on the ground to sit and just let the water run.) I talked to my mom on the phone a bit too and that made me feel better at least. And it's good that Felicia isn't here right now so I can listen to my quasi rock real loud. Sucks to be my neighbor. Myeh, they should learn to listen to more than rap neways. (

phhbtbtbtbttt)

I joined a sorority. ^^ AOTT (Alpha Omicron Pi) Rush is an amazing expeirience I tell ya. Wednesday through Saturday of last week I was busy from 4pm-11pm and Sunday 10am-6pm. Sunday was bid day where you found out which sorority wants you. You go into the room in the Pub (Pence Union Building) where we met everyday before going to the different houses. When you got inside they give you an envelope with a bid card from the sorority that chose you inside. Then you sit on it for 30 min while they read rules and charters. They also reveal the Alpha Chi's houses. The AC's where disafiliated members of houses. They left their houses for two weeks to help the girls go through rush without being bias. Its hell sitting there waiting. AND THEN! They tell you to open it and there is cheering and happy tears and you run into the corner with the alpha chi's who are in your house. They give you a shirt with your house name on it. Then all of the pledges and AC's go outside the pub where your new sisters are waiting for you. They all have bags of goodies for you. Attached to the bags are balloons and they are running and screaming and jumping and crying because they know they chose you, but they dont know you chose them until that moment. It was so amazing to be wanted that much. You cant imagine the feelings of joy knowing that there is a houseful of sisters who love you already and want you to be their friend. They want to hang out with you and be there for you... *tears up* Im so glad AOTT wanted me as much as I wanted them. They are all so down to earth and friendly. The girls in my pledge class are too. None of them are fake and bitchy or slutty like the stereotypes. There's even a girl in there whose name is Natalie Rose. Thats cool because I go by Allie. Wednesday is the pledge-in ceremony. Im sposed to wear all white for that. (Is that a shopping trip I hear calling my name?)

I haven't been hanging out with Kristen enough lately, but Tamara and I hang all the time for lunch and down at Brewster (a cooler dorm than ours). We've been watching this kickass Korean soap opera, where this girl and this guy who like eachother... well the guy loses his memory and becomes a different guy but she recognizes him as her first love and then he gets hit by a car again and regains his memory so they fall in love again but then it looks like they migh tbe brother and sister so they cant be married... but then! It looks like he might be her ex-fiances half brother instead. Believe it or not, the way its written its all really plausible that this all could happen. They cry alot. It's entertaining to say the least.

Neways this is long enough for an update post. Promise to do it more often now.

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Owwwwie! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3343729/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3343729/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 23:51:05 PDT
more later.

Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Stuff and somemore Stuff and Stuff like that http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3239056/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3239056/ Sun, 29 Aug 2004 12:06:38 PDT

Just when I am so ready to leave for college... Suzanne is coming home! Now I won't want to leave I'm sure.

Although I am mostly packed and chomping at the bit to leave already.

I'm going into town today to buy school supplies! Yaye!

(I updated my gallery again, redoing some thumbnails and making more old deviations scarps. Dont be alarmed ^_^ )

Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Packing http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3189202/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3189202/ Sun, 22 Aug 2004 17:15:28 PDT

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This packing busniess is for the birds, I tell ya. The birds! (EAGLES THAT IS! HA, GET IT?)

Uhm, yea. So the heat in my room while packing has kinda gone to my head. Just a tad. OMFG, do you know how many friggin skirts I have? Over 12. I have found and packed (or set aside) 12 skirts. And I have more, I just dont like/wear them.

I am sooo ready to leave.

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga College Dorms http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3057308/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/3057308/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 11:38:23 PDT [link]

Well! I got my dorm assignment! Pearce 418. That's a coed floor. Not quite what I expected, but still exciting. My roommate is someone named Felicia Davis from Bellingham. I tried calling her but I didn't get through.. I'm nervous about what she's into. What if she doesn't like gaming, or computers, or anime? What if she just likes to shop? And hang posters of .. Nelly or something. This is nerve racking!

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Summer cleaning! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2965539/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2965539/ Sun, 25 Jul 2004 16:03:03 PDT [link]

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If you see some of my old works floating around your devwatch, do not be alarmed! I am adding frames and fixing old mistakes. If you dont see some of my old works in my gallery, do not be alarmed! I probably just moved it to scraps. If you see me walking down the street, be alarmed! I am armed and dangerous.

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Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Look at all the people like cows in a herd http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2922470/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2922470/ Mon, 19 Jul 2004 22:03:54 PDT [link]

Serious shit is going down and Im not taking it anymore.

Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Does a fancy title make more people actually read http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2857511/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2857511/ Sun, 11 Jul 2004 16:18:39 PDT [link] NEW poem NEW poem

(Answer to title: No)

Strawberry festival was great fun. Even if I did eat nachos and THEN go on the berry-go-round which is bascially a BIG straberry that you get inside and pump a whel to make it spin. [Hint: Never go in one of those with more than two people.. it goes really fast with 6 people pumping it.] I also made a new friend named Matt. He's hillarious, hot and gay. That last part is incredibly frusterating, esp when he teases you by climbing on your lap. Grr. Haha.

Did I mention I am ready for college to start??

Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Devious Journal Entry http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2723730/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2723730/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 23:54:20 PDT [link] NEW poem NEW poem

Im tired of parties. Please make them stop. Tell people not to come here.

Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga New poetry, more action http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2701903/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2701903/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 04:51:03 PDT [link] NEW poem NEW poem

That is all.

Thank you. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Subby http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2611994/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2611994/ Tue, 08 Jun 2004 10:37:30 PDT I dont think I could take not having one much longer, I was gonna die!

Secondly!!!! I am graduating highschool in 3 days!!!!!

Ill be having a party

at my house the next morning, some big breakfast buffet. I can't believe this is happening already. My god, Im only an 8th grader at heart!

Although I am so ready to go to college at the same time. And the sooner Im done with college the sooner Im back in Japan

Sweet sauce!

LAST OF ALL BUT MOST IMPORTANT!!

MY SISTER IS COMING HOME ON FRIDAY!!!!

]]> ~spin0spin0suga DA subscript http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2596512/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2596512/ Sun, 06 Jun 2004 12:06:43 PDT ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Can I go back now? http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2399496/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2399496/ Mon, 10 May 2004 13:43:22 PDT
O-ne-ga-ii!

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Uh oh http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2293101/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2293101/ Sun, 25 Apr 2004 04:11:02 PDT I think Im turning Japanese
Oh yes I really do.

nihonjin wo nariteiru to omoisu.
nihonjin wo nariteiru to omoisu.
hai, hontou ni.

PS: rice is only cool after soo many days.

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Fake Nails and Typing http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2131530/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2131530/ Thu, 01 Apr 2004 16:28:45 PST ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

If I were a month I would be: December
If I were a day of the week I would be: Sunday Morning
If I were a time of day I would be: 2am
If I were a planet I would be: Neptune
If I were a sea animal I would be: Jelly Fish
If I were a direction I would be: north
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a bed
If I were a sin I would be: Forgiven
If I were a historical figure I would be: Emily Dickonson
If I were a liquid I would be: red wine
If I were a tree I would be: Wepping Willow
If I were a flower/plant I would be: Sunflower
If I were a kind of weather I would be: Overcast
If I were a musical instrument I would be: an Oboe
If I were an animal I would be: A gnat
If I were a color I would be: A dark red
If I were a vegetable I would be: artichoke
If I were a sound I would be: calm waves at midnight
If I were an element I would be: water
If I were a car I would be: a 1955 Alda
If I were a song I would be: Spin Spin Sugar - Sneaker Pimps
If I were a movie I would be: American Beauty
If I were a book I would be written by: Sandra Cisneros
If I were a food I would be: A salad with everything on it
If I were a place I would be: Kailua Kona
If I were a taste I would be: Bittersweet
If I were a scent I would be: summer breezes
If I were a word I would be: semiprecious
If I were an object I would be: a quill pen
If I were a body part I would be: the eyes
If I were a facial expression I would be: deep in thought
If I were a cartoon character I would be: David the Gnome
If I were a shape I would be: an ellipse
If I were a number I would be: 33
If I were anyone I'd be: me

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Devious Journal Entry http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2039405/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2039405/ Thu, 18 Mar 2004 19:58:45 PST
I'm usually a good judge of character, like when I become friends with someone I can tell that they might end up being trouble or hurtful, but I'd hang out with them anyways because they were fun at the time. Like sugar, tastes good but rots yer teeth. But he came as a total surprise... I had no idea he was not only a liar, but someone that would rub it in your face repeatingly. Sad. But not too sad, his loss! I'm a great friend and this is one friendship he blew. I dont befriend liars.

"anything or anyone that does not bring you alive is too small for you."

On a more positive note, kinda, I went to Ashley's roadside memorial and left some roses today. I realize I was a day late, but when I die the ripe old age of 99 and see Ashley again in heaven, she'll will be the one who was 81 years late to my 15th birthday party.

Oh! And I went to court today, that was neat. Kinda.

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Life is a cabaret! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2004356/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/2004356/ Sat, 13 Mar 2004 11:31:43 PST
It felt so wonderful to be in a cast again. A cast that actually liked eachother! Club Mage was back at full swing in the boy's dressing room, disco ball and all. Except this year, everyone was invited in, not just the "popular" people in the cast. (No one liked them anyway.) This year, everyone likes everyone and everyone was dancing. Nothing better than dancing your way through intermission to Snoop Dogg and 50 Cent in a kit kat girl costume!

The most amazing thing happened when we got off stage and went to the back room, everyone in the entire cast started singing, "Life is a cabaret old chum! Only a cabaret, old chum! And I love a cabaret!!!" It was so bittersweet. If you know the play, it take place in Berlin, Germany durring the rise of the Nazi party. The play seems like an innocent little dance club, but it has a dark undertone... having everyone sing that was actually kinda sad in a way. When you looked around, some people had tears in their eyes. That is what I love and missed about acting, you can actually get so into character.. that you weep for Heir Schulz because he is German and you know he will die because of it. And you weep for Sally because she is so naive. And you weep for Cliff because of Sally. It REALLY is a beautiful play.

And I weeped for myself on the way home in the car, because for the first time in over 6 months I was genuinely happy, 100% happy, and stress free.

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Nyquil is My Friend http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1948181/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1948181/ Wed, 03 Mar 2004 22:51:42 PST I dont beg for no sympathy.
but if its not asking too much?
please send me someone to love...
please send me someone to love...

]]> ~spin0spin0suga MP3's and such http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1875681/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1875681/ Fri, 20 Feb 2004 01:13:41 PST
I don't like things that move too slow. I like to know what's going on in other peoples heads. Im annoying like that. Tell me... should I just be more forward? What then? Bah.

SOO I've taken to going through my old MP3's.. god I have waaay too many songs. Ace of Base? They rocked. Chumbawamba? Too cool. Cake... Ani Difranco... Caviar (Anyone remember the song tangerine speedo? That was an awesome song! That was the summer I was friend with the DJ's at the End. Like Rev. Adam Green. He was the shit. I was on a lot of pain pills for my back operation, and muscle relaxers.. lemme tell ya! You CANNOT sleep when you are on all that crap. Well I would listen to the end all hours of the night and in the summer when no one calls the radio stations at 3 and 4 am except stoners, we became quick friends, I miss him as a dj. Last I heard he moved to Cali.) I laugh at how much Korn and Limp Biskit songs I have/had. I thought they were so cool in 7th grade. ..Moby *when he was good*...Montell Jordan.. Oasis... Real McCoy... Rockapella... Smashing Pumpkins... Garbage... And of course, my name sake. SNEAKER PIMPS. They were the best ever. I would be bummed that I got into them after kelly left.. but it doesnt matter since she left before their first big tour. You know what's really sad? I never bought their cd... in fact I have very few of my FAVORATE band's cds. They are mostly downloaded... sad! But actually a lot of them were stolen so I downloaded to replace many of them. Including my 12 Ani Difranco Cd's, 7 Moby Cds, and 2 Crystal Method cds... If you ever see anyone of vashon with a curious amount of Ani Difranco Cd's let me know...

]]> ~spin0spin0suga He's still my daddy right? http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1867189/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1867189/ Wed, 18 Feb 2004 14:53:02 PST Because she can.

]]> ~spin0spin0suga And she will have the moon http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1626625/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1626625/ Sun, 04 Jan 2004 01:22:03 PST
Instead I will fall with some star, maybe the sun, and she will have the moon. Everynight I will wish upon my star, and she will have her blue moon. I'll take jupiter or mars, I'll have the entire fucking milky-way...

and yet, she will have the moon.

.:*Wishin I was her, was she, was anyone but me*:. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga About me! I spose http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1619764/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1619764/ Fri, 02 Jan 2004 15:05:46 PST
!!! INSTRUCTIONS: !!!
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold everything thats true
3. Whatever is written normal is not true.

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orig. got it from `carrie ..
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01. When I was younger I made some bad desicions
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms
04. I Love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept in a toilet
07. I love playing video games
08. I adore marijuana
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch them with my father (wtf?)
11. I like sharks
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. I like Bush
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot durring the last year
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche I wish
18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself
20. I'm really really smart!
21. Ive never broken someones bones
22. I have a secret
23. I hate snow
24. I drink only milk
25. Punk rock rules!
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food
28. I would hate to be famous
29. I am not a morning person
30. I wear glasses ...i just can't find them
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses
32. I have potential
33. I'm pure Japanese
34. My legs are two different sizes
35. I have a twin
36. I wear a padded bra
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing
38. Im left handed
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them
40. I dont like horror movies
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway
42. People hate me usually
43. I love pop music
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight
45. I hate parking fines
46. I know the national anthem of my country by heart
47. I know more than two languages
48. I spend too much time on the computer
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window
50. I live on a ground floor
51. I don't like chocolate
52. Id like to be more original
53. I've lied
54. Cocks are my favorite birds
55. I want to conquer the world
56. I often wonder what happens when you die
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion
61. I love to write!
62. I like changes!
63. I hate going to class
64. I am afraid to die
65. I hate dish washing
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly
67. My nails are nine inch long
68. My favorate color is black (and red!)
69. I like to sleep on the floor
69-5.I Cant! I have a metal rod in my back!
70. I am hopeless at cooking
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little
72. I should be oding something other than this
73. I am often online, but not msn
74. I hate government
75. I dont have a boyfriend
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers!
79. I like debating
80. I live in a vagon
81. I clean my room once a month
82. I'm scared of american fast food
83. I have a third eye
84. I love Mozambique
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies because all the other girls were doing it
87. I wanted to be a hero when I was little
88. I like listening to wind chimes
89. Im very disorganized
90. My hair is long and straight
91. I earn a lot
92. I dont like spicy food
93. I keep a diary
94. I can't do cartwheels
95. I am very lazy
96. I am sarcastic
97. I think my hair is annoying
98. Im sensitive
99. I love being "ab-normal"
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga *whine* and cheese http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1594904/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1594904/ Tue, 30 Dec 2003 00:22:38 PST

*:...______________...:*

Can I ask a question?

Why watch me if you dont comment on anything I do? Why are 45 people watching me if only 3 or 4 look at my work? *whine whine whine*

*:..._______D_E_V_I_O_U_S_______...:*

Some Deviants I Stalk/Deviants that Stalk me:

]]> ~spin0spin0suga I did it http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1592447/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1592447/ Sat, 27 Dec 2003 22:35:12 PST
*:..._______D_E_V_I_O_U_S_______...:*

Some Deviants I Stalk/Deviants that Stalk me:

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Poems? http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1561173/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1561173/ Sat, 20 Dec 2003 17:37:50 PST
_____________________________..:*

Some Deviants I Admire/Deviants that Stalk me:

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Friends Friends Friends http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1547860/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1547860/ Thu, 18 Dec 2003 20:21:32 PST Some Deviants I Stalk/Deviants that Stalk me:

]]> ~spin0spin0suga music choices people! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1509405/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1509405/ Thu, 11 Dec 2003 18:55:25 PST Favorite Music :

adema
all american rejects
ANI DIFRANCO
basement jaxx
BEULAH
beck
ben harper
bjork
blue six
bush
darkest hour
dave mathews
deftones
dillinja
disturbed
EELS
emilana torrini
ESTHERO
fiona apple
finch
FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES
garbage
hed pe
incubus
jars of clay
less than jake
MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE
moby
mushroom jazz
NADA SURF
newsboys
nirvana
no doubt
norah jones
oasis
ozma
paul oakenfold
pearl jam
PHANTOM PLANET
presidents of the usa
prodigy
SNEAKER PIMPS
system of a down
radiohead
the shins
the ataris
third day
tree 63
weezer

EDIT!
forgot these.. ooops!!!

radish
rilo kiley
the blood brothers
the darkness
death cab for cutie
radish/ben kweller ]]> ~spin0spin0suga back http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1389254/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1389254/ Tue, 11 Nov 2003 22:05:57 PST
Man I have a headache tonight, I've played my flute way too much. Too many band songs in my head. Plus I listened to Nada Surf too many times over and over and over again... I can't help it! I love their music. I'd only heard their song "popular" and it doesnt do them justice. Try dl'ing "fruitfly" " bacardi" "stale mate" or "blizzard of 77" those songs rock! ]]> ~spin0spin0suga KEYBOARD! YAYE! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1358513/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1358513/ Tue, 04 Nov 2003 17:17:09 PST If you need an idea of how great of a keyboard this is... Ive had it since 1992. Kick-ass huh? It doesnt have any stains on it, no sticky keys, a perfect keyboard. I love this keyboard. I think only a true computer nerd could love one so much. That and a poet. Countless stories and poems have been typed *many spare the moment* to the tune of the click-clack of THESE VERY KEYS. *sigh* Im a complete and total nerd, AND I LOVE IT! ]]> ~spin0spin0suga well shit http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1351049/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1351049/ Sun, 02 Nov 2003 17:27:10 PST

To top it off I slept in today till 3. That would be kinda ok if it werent for the fact that today was Shauna's memorial. Shit. Man, that was stupid of me. But I spose I dont need a memorial to let her know I miss her, so its ok, I just wish I woulda been there. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga STOP THE MADNESS http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1307108/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1307108/ Sat, 25 Oct 2003 23:04:57 PDT STOP THE MADNESS! MAKE IT STOP!

I hate the fucking curse this community has. I hate it more than anything. Since my 8th grade year 7 people have died. Im a 12th grader (senior) now and 3 of those people were in my class. 3 of them were my friends, one a friend that drifted away and commited suicide, another my best friend, and now another friend. Im tired of it. I want it all to go away. MAKE IT AL GO AWAY.

Ive been thinking a lot of about odds lately. Like if you live in a small town and one person in that town wins the lottery... the chances of another person from that town winning it is pretty low. I thought I had that odd. I thought about the odds of so many people dying sepparate un-related deaths in a small community w/in a certain age were small... I thought the chances of another one of my friends dying after my best friend did were, well, close to nothing. At least not another friend durring my highschool years. I hate playing the odds. I am NEVER going to vegas.

And now I dont know what to feel. I keep thinking that if Ashley *my best friend* hadn't of died my freshman year, maybe I would be more affected by Shawna's death. Maybe I would cry more, mourn harder for her... but I keep thinking "it could be worse, it coulda been my best friend again..." and I keep thinking about how in the end the pain dulls and it virtually goes to nothing. So I know in the future it wont hurt hardly at all when I think of Shawna.

And that pisses me off. Im sposed to grieve. IM SPOSED TO BE UPSET! I dont wanna be numb to death. But I am, and I know it. Im out of it, Im upset, but Im not nearly as upset as I should be.

Especially since Shawna was murdered by her own fucking father. But that doesnt really make me so sad as angry.

He strangled her. Then he called the school and said "Shawna can't come to school today, something bad has happened to her." He said it so weirdly *not that that statement isnt weird in itself* that the school called the cops and they went to her house and found her dead on her bed.

She was only 17, gawd.

Ive decided theres only a few choices I have left. I need to do something, Im tired of feeling so much pain and the fucking time.Im tired of it you hear me! TIRED OF IT! MAKE IT STOP!Heres my choices:

1) Stop having any friends (if I dont have any friends, it wont matter when they die so much because they werent my friend)

2) Kill myself, then I wont have to deal with death ever again

3) Become a living walking talking zombie, without feelings, superficaially happy all the time.

So those are my choices. Pretty sucky if you ask me.

UPDATE:
I admit these are not my only choices... I am however angry at the entire thing, at the situation and need time to heal. Forgive me for stupid things I have said and will continue say for at least the next month. That being said, ARRGGGGGHH!!!!!!!! ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Shawna Jones http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1304083/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1304083/ Mon, 20 Oct 2003 22:15:23 PDT ~spin0spin0suga wow http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1297190/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1297190/ Sun, 19 Oct 2003 13:23:10 PDT ~spin0spin0suga boredom!!!!!!!!!!! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1282506/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1282506/ Wed, 15 Oct 2003 20:17:58 PDT Im bored

*sigh* I guess I'll go to homecomming stag. But somehow I have this feeling that I truely am pretty enough to deserve a date

So why dont a I have one?

I'll just go and dance my heart out

but Im so frusterated!

]]> ~spin0spin0suga DAMN! expanded... http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1269200/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1269200/ Mon, 13 Oct 2003 15:14:01 PDT
Ok... well. I saw him today, but we dont have any classes together. So we didnt really talk. He just kinda smiled at me all-funny-like

. This means one of three things:

A) He doesnt remember
B) He remembers and doesnt want it to happen again
C) He just didnt know how to go about talking about it/wasn't sure if I remembered or wanted to hang out again.

Ugh. Why are things so COMLICATED!

I mean, it was so much fun! He is completely funny and sweet. When we were all tipsy he was holding onto me and guiding me back up the road

. And when we were standing around he decided that if you crouch its better b/c youll be closer to the ground.. which helps your balance? I dunno, but it was funny! All I know is that I at least wanna be his friend.

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Yesterday:

Yea so my weekend ruled... but one thing...

On Friday night I was at the game and I had a blast! Afterwards a few of my friends and I decided to go get some beer and go party. We did and then we ended up in a driveway next to Jelly's house. Well there was this guy there that was flirting with me and stuff... but it was when I was drunk. He wasnt yet though? Well after a while we both got drunk and high and he was holding my hand

and playing games with me and putting his arm around me. Whats that about? I know for me, when Im drunk I dont like someone I wouldnt normally like, Im just less shy about it... but what about other people? Im such a nerd. Ive never had a bf and Im getting freaked out about a guy holding my hand.... Ok well it was different though, b/c it wasnt like we were kissing like you might do when youre drunk and its a one-time thing

, but I happen to think holding hands is different. Its more of an " I-like-you-thing" I had experiences in the past with messing around while drunk or high and they were always different than this weekend...

God. I dunno.

]]> ~spin0spin0suga BE HER FRIEND http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1232754/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1232754/ Fri, 03 Oct 2003 17:26:24 PDT

[link] ]]> ~spin0spin0suga frusterated! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1223892/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1223892/ Wed, 01 Oct 2003 10:54:06 PDT ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Feeling sorry for myself http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1196819/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1196819/ Tue, 23 Sep 2003 19:08:50 PDT

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Party Hardy! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1158659/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1158659/ Sat, 13 Sep 2003 18:27:42 PDT
So last night r0xx0red!

We didnt end up going to tylers, instead we went to kevins, and then to rob-bobs. The only sucky thing was Jordan Cross being hella drunk on Whiskey and yelling at me because Im related to suzanne.

He was such a terd-face! Boy, you shoulda seen his face when I drank whiskey, that shut him up good.

I felt really bad that megan left kevin's house though... at that time we coudlnt get any alcohol... and it was borring for her bc she doesnt smoke.

Man, I wish she did. I wish she knew how fun and calm it is. But its good she doesnt, its better not to start.

It was so funny when Bobby was like "

Always choose the little girl, little girls are the best

" He was talking about a game, but still!

AHAHA!

Man the car ride home was fucked up though.

Kevin was straight, but it was hella confusing for me. I just kept thinking, if I were to die right now, I think I'd be happy with my life. You know how great it feels to be that at

peace with yourself? I wouldnt change this for the world. Im perfectly content with life right now. I could always use a little love

in my life, but right now, Im happy just the way I am!

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9-11-03
*sigh*

Im a senior... yaye...

Youre thinking 'what? Why dont you like that?' right? Well lemme tell you, this means only 1 more year in highschool which I happen to love

. I love my friends and it hurts that Im about to go into a part of life where they cant come with me. It scares me too. I just wanna stay a kid, or at least be two years younger!

There is also the fact that 3/4 of the pop. of boys in my school are younger than me, which makes it even harder for me to find dates to dances and such Maybe I can have Sam take me or something? He drives me to and from school everyday which is nice. Except the fact that his parents have allergies to scents

*perfume, shampoo, body wash* so I have to shower the night before so I dont smell really strong when I get into his car. It's rather annoying.

Im back in band though! Boy did I miss playing my flute

"The only bummer is that I took a year off so now the people that seemed to look up to me in band now kinda act like they are better than me. I dont just mean at playing an instrument, I mean as a person. Its like their in a special club that I was once part of but am now in exile from.

On the bright side things are looking up with my parents, first and foremost... MY MOM IS SOBER! She stopped drinking altogether! And my parents are working on working things out... the truth is Im ok with however things turn out, but I apprieciate that they are working and trying to at least be together my senior year, thats important to me.

I can't wait till tomorrow night! There's pep band for the football game, then a party at tylers, and then at Jt's! woot. I could really use some chill time.

Japanese 4 is a lot harder than I thought it would be! OY! We're studying for an international exam on japanese that we take at the end of the year and we have to learn 800 words and 100 kanji, plus remember all the stuff we already learned which is a lot of vocab! *think 3 years of vocab!*

Alright, thats my life right now, not mu... ]]> ~spin0spin0suga I BE SENIOR HEAR ME ROAR http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1152040/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1152040/ Thu, 11 Sep 2003 18:25:10 PDT
Im a senior... yaye...

Youre thinking 'what?' right? Well lemme tell you, this means only 1 more year in highschool which I happen to love

Maybe I can have Sam take me or something? He drives me to and from school everyday which is nice. Except the fact that his parents have allergies to scents

The only bummer is that I took a year off so now the people that seemed to look up to me in band now kinda act like they are better than me. I dont just mean at playing an instrument, I mean as a person. Its like their in a special club that I was once part of but am now in exile from.

On the bright side things are looking up with my parents, first and foremost... MY MOM IS SOBER! She stopped drinking altogether! And my parents are working on working things out... the truth is Im ok with however things turn out, but I apprieciate that they are working and trying to at least be together my senior year, thats important to me.

I can't wait till tomorrow night! There's pep band for the football game, then a party at tylers, and then at Jt's! woot. I could really use some chill time.

Japanese 4 is a lot harder than I thought it would be! OY! We're studying for an international exam on japanese that we take at the end of the year and we have to learn 800 words and 100 kanji, plus remember all the stuff we already learned which is a lot of vocab! *think 3 years of vocab!*

Alright, thats my life right now, not much in the love section, a little in the family, a lot in the school, a bit in the friends. Take it or leave it! I dont update this thing often enough....

ok.. ye can worship me now if ye like

]]> ~spin0spin0suga Comments! Domo! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1072560/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1072560/ Sat, 16 Aug 2003 17:58:45 PDT
Since that night [link]
The lost will find their way [link]
So Afraid [link]
Bent Back Girl [link]

And anything else in my gallery that has minimal comments! :-d I lof you guys! ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Waiting to go home http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1070802/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/1070802/ Sat, 16 Aug 2003 00:17:04 PDT
I wanna go home. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Goodbye! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/870146/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/870146/ Mon, 23 Jun 2003 22:54:54 PDT ~spin0spin0suga Ill cry if I want to http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/544566/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/544566/ Sat, 15 Mar 2003 11:20:39 PST
Its all true
[link] my birthday and Ill cry if I want to

My exchange student Mayu came yesterday and it was like christmas at my house! Everyone in my family got at least five presents... including a set of fine china from japan... wow. She is very sweet and I've only had trouble getting my point across a few times. I had actually forgotten it was my birthday until she said happy birthday to me.

So that means tomorrow... I must go visit Ashley. Suzanne wants to go to her house and say hi to her ashes. I think that might be a good idea since its been two years and I've never done that. Then we will go to her crash site with flowers. I dont think we should bring Mayu, I dont think she would understand. I need to ask Sensei *my japanese teacher* how to explain death in japanese. Thats something they dont teach you in class.. .

"ok class, I will now teach you how to say, 'she died' repeat after me...."

yea right.

Anyways, Happy birthday to me, I miss you Ashley. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Oasis in my Head http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/491106/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/491106/ Wed, 12 Feb 2003 20:18:16 PST -Emily Dickinson
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Where we living in this town?
The sun is going up and its comming down
but its all just the same at the end of the day
and we cheat and we lie
nobody says its wrong so we dont ask why
cuz its all just the same at the end of the day
dont throw it all away throwing it all away

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underrouged ---> [link] ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Blah days http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/462367/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/462367/ Sun, 26 Jan 2003 20:37:06 PST
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underrouged Link ---> [link] ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Found new poets! http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/413296/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/413296/ Sat, 28 Dec 2002 18:40:19 PST underrouged Link ---> [link]
hexavalent Link ---> [link]

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and as of right now, Im lonely. and Im confused. I think Ive fallen in love again... but I dont want to. I never feel love back. I've never had a bf, and I fear I never will. it's not to have a boyfriend... but to have a friend thats a boy.. that will hold me. my god I want to be held. and I dont want to fall in love again, I'll just get hurt. ]]> ~spin0spin0suga God can be Cruel http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/392899/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/392899/ Sun, 15 Dec 2002 12:45:42 PST My hour in nature was spent in the back seat of my car. I was holding my kitty Lilly. She's six years old and she's a Burmese-tonkanese mix. She's dead. Putting her to sleep was the hardest thing I could ever imagine.

She's so alive! I just kept petting her thinking "GODDAMNIT PURR!" But she would never purr again. She was the first real pet I ever had, minus some hamsters and some walking sticks. I was so excited when I got her; I still remember the day she came home. The first night we fought over which room she would sleep in for almost an hour until one of us came up with an idea. We'd put her in the middle of the hall and we'd all call her, whomever she chose was who she'd sleep with. She chose me.

I keep lifting her lifeless head up to kiss it. She's still so warm. I already miss her. I just want to be home so we can bury her. My tears come down in fits. How can God be so cruel? What is less natural then my kitty dieing of leukemia at age six? She should live to be nineteen! I don't know how my mom can drive. I hear her sniffling in the driver's seat. I'm praying we don't get in an accident.

When we finally arrive home my dad has to practically pry her from me. If I just hold her a little longer... maybe she will come back to life. Oh, how I despise death. We carry her inside to show our other cat so she will understand. Lucy runs away so quickly... it's obvious she understands. My dogs keep trying to lick her, like that will magically make her wake up and swat at them like old times. It wasn't that old of times. A week ago she seemed fine, void the fact that she didn't want to go outside anymore. Other then that, she was still my perfect little kitty. She's still perfect. Now she's with Ashley.
]]> ~spin0spin0suga Are you the Walrus? http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/366138/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/366138/ Thu, 28 Nov 2002 15:19:05 PST Check, check it out, check, check it out
Check, check it out, check, check it out
Check, check it out, check, check it out
Check it out

I'm in line behind a barbizon
And she really looks like one
She says "Hi, I'm skin,"
And showed a whole lot
But doesn't seem to have a whole lot
Within, I'm small talk
Blah, blah, blah, blah about the weather and all
Because I'd love to stand here
Another year, winter, spring, summer, fall
Into pieces it pleases the eye
It's nice to know that there are problems outside of my own

I feel better, better
Move to ten items or less
Should I let her, let her, let me in front of her?
Sure, I guess
I'm close to checkout, she asks,
"Are you the walrus?"
I said "yes" without listening
"Oh, come on, be honest."
I'm close to checkout, she asks,
"Are you the walrus?"
I said, "Yes, and that's a promise!"
"Oh, come on, be honest."
Be, be honest, be, be, be honest
Be, be honest, be, be, be honest

I have five items in the waiting asylum
Take everybody's burdens, let's pile 'em up
On the counter, call it a conveyer belt
And as I look around I see a wanna-be dad using his belt
On his screaming baby, a baby, oh baby
The constellation on her face said he did the same to his lady
Ten thousand maniacs asked the question
But it's way too late, he made a lasting impression
I wish it wasn't so, I wish it wasn't so
But I'm not supposed to impose family values, you know
The sale of the century wasn't meant to be like this
But how can you resist the madness?
I'm so glad it's almost my turn
Only one lady away from the freedom I yearn for
But before you get excited,
She's gotta check the writing,
I'm sorry to announce that the check is gonna bounce

I feel better, better
Move to ten items or less
Should I let her, let her, let her me in front of her?
Sure I guess
I'm at the checkout
She asks, "Are you the walrus?"
I said "yes" without listening
"Oh, come on, be honest."
I'm at the checkout,
She asks, "Are you the walrus?"
I said, "Yes, and that's a promise."
"Oh, come on, be honest."
Be, be honest, be, be, be honest
Be, be honest, be, be, be honest

Honestly,
We are moderately moving
Situation slowly is improving
I find the Percy Faith on the P.A.
Is sort of soothing
Collect my change and I jet
Then I'm cruising

Check, check it out, check, check it out
Check, check it out, check, check it out
Check, check it out, check, check it out
Check it out

Wandering around looking for my car
I'm amazed at the maze
Who even knows where you are?
Who knows why that's a cart resting in the dent it made?
Another car waiting for our places to trade
I wish it wasn't so, I wish it wasn't so
I wish I was in the distance and heading to home base
And now the race to red lights begin
When the convertible girl slows down to let me in
I feel better, better, like as if I was blessed
Should I let her, let her, let me in front of her?
Sure, I guess
I roll down the window, she asks,
"Are you the walrus?"
I said "yes" without listening
"Oh, come on, be honest"
I roll down the window, she asks,
"Are you the walrus?"
I said "Yes, and that's a promise!"
"Oh, come on, be honest."
Be, be honest, be, be, be honest
Be, be honest, be, be, be honest

This song is awesome!! ]]> ~spin0spin0suga Lonesome http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/360609/ http://spin0spin0suga.deviantart.com/journal/360609/ Sun, 24 Nov 2002 23:57:10 PST
That was two days ago.. why the hell'd I lose that feeling? ]]> ~spin0spin0suga