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Who do I have to bake cookies for around here to get past that stupid rule that you can't change your username; you have to create a new account?

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/22250995/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/22250995/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 21:36:38 PST [link]
I'm making a list of things that would make for good drawings, most recently added: Abe Lincoln and ghosts. Also on the list, Amelia Erhart, Astronauts, Dogs barking at trees, the list goes on! Have any ideas that should be added? Maybe Cesar Milan should be added. Yes, count that in.
Next semester includes two illustration classes and a graphic design/ typography class. Thank goodness. No offense, but I am bored bored bored of fine art at the moment. I can't wait to just draw. Stuff.
New Year's eve is my favorite holiday. I just love the whole idea of everyone in the world getting excited for a new day. Yaaay! And it's nice to reminisce on the past year. How was 2008??? I think I've figured out that every other year is crazy and the other years are pretty reliable. Crazy is never bad, more exciting. With domestic bliss 2008 almost done, I'm excited for an exciting 2009. What's going to happen?! I don't know!! Maybe I'll adopt some kitties!!!

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/21334798/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/21334798/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 06:45:10 PST
Allow me to quote my girl Michelle Obama and say that for the first time in my life I feel really proud of my country. I don't know why she got so much fire for that statement because I know exactly where she's coming from.

But to think, that the same country that elected George Bush and everything that came along with him twice could come around and make such a huge decision to change. That's what's so amazing to me.

I'm so excited for what's coming, and to all of my international friends, who took it upon themselves to be interested and follow the American election when it wasn't even their own country, I feel a stronger bond to you knowing that my nation can become a more respected friend to yours.

So here I am, wide awake in the morning. Finally awake after being so tired from the summer. And it's just so nice to be waking up to this.

Love you all,
Jen

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/19498654/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/19498654/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 11:21:39 PDT
I'll wake up once fall gets here, promise

I dreamt last night that I was climbing mountains with a Segway. For some odd reason it felt brilliant. I hate Segways in real life. I keep having dreams about the afterlife and animals. Like, I go to the afterlife and all of the souls of all of the animals that ever died are looking at me. And if I'm lucky I get to see my cats for a little. But then I get scared about being there at all.

Ever get bored with the internet? What do you do when that happens?

Once I get off work Jonnie and I are going to go and get root beer float fixins, and that will wake me up for today! I'll dedicate one to you.

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/18608950/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/18608950/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 11:30:56 PDT
in other news, I can't get enough of drawing letters. I want to do it forever. I'm taking an illustration class over the summer so you can expect a generally steady stream of work from me. Hopefully.
This Jolly Rancher is so good.
I'm trying to do some work on the eventual revamping of my website, but until then, check out this one [link]
Also, I was featured in Design Is Kinky's Semi-Permanent 2008 book! [link] Yay. And also in Pocketfulmag! [link] which is still calling for submissions, so feel free to submit work to them! Yay go team art


jen

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/17039885/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/17039885/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 10:44:56 PST
i have alot more to post, still and I've been doing so much! yesterday I took an adventure, it was a good adventure. i saw lots of things. (vague)
and it's Cadberry Egg season!!! Hallejuihargheuiuahejuia! Or however you spell it!


also, if you have a second to spare, sign this little petition that voices against the display of advertising IN galleries. it's just starting out, like a little poppy-seed baby.
[link]
and if you don't want to, don't worry about it/ tell me about it (please). Everyone knows that Deviantart needs advertising, it's all about the placement.

i think you are the best ever
bye!


jen

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/16848361/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/16848361/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 13:05:52 PST Why would Deviantart be putting those big ugly advertisements in our galleries?
I sent the help desk a question hoping it was a bug or something and all they said was that they aren't done making all of the ads yet.
ugggggh is anyone else sick of DA's money-hunger???

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/16785979/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/16785979/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 14:12:47 PST thank you, especially to for the daily deviation on "boy in bay" a few days ago
things are looking up
February is a funny month

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/16167015/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/16167015/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 13:13:15 PST [link]

jenmussari.com is a bit better now. expect more soon.
i love yoooou

p.s. there should be way more links to people I know and like, and will be when I make my site for real-sies. also, that isn't even my email anymore, I need to fix that.

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/16073056/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/16073056/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 08:44:16 PST
I always seem to be coming back to this site, but from here forth I will just be here. It's important to me.
I'm kind of half-heartedly working on a website
[link]
But nothing works!!! what the heck?! I think I am discouraged enough to ask my genius web-programmer boyfriend to make something up for me. I just like doing things on my own...

PS! [link]

happy winter

love always love
jen

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/13762449/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/13762449/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 20:52:19 PDT I've been city-hopping this summer. How is yours so far? tell me everything.

Me,
I am determined to get some stuff published!
I am in the mood to get "out there!"
So I am off on a journey to find people who are looking for artists like me to put together books such as Semi-Permanent, The Picture Book, etc. If you have heard of any books like these or publishers or are one of these magical people with magical connections tell me! I want you. haha!

So yeah. My tacky little website is now dead. DotMac is a waste of money, so I didn't resubscribe. HOW-ever! I am working on a new one! Yay! And it'll be all mine!

So now my email is jmussari@mica.edu.

Weeeeeeeeeeeee!
I am so in love with you you you!

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/13064290/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/13064290/ Wed, 23 May 2007 14:37:01 PDT I am undergoing a renaissance! Check me out!

I am trying to compile a list of things that get me going, for later use when I am not so energetic and need a quick fix. What gets you up and excited? What do you do in the morning to make sure your day isn't wasted?
Here is my list so far:

Things That Get Jen Mussari Ready:
the smell of fixatif
collaging
tea
taking a walk
stealing stuff

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/11435658/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/11435658/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 14:08:32 PST Write to Me, is finished and ready to be owned by you!
It is a 49-page, full color book of collected collaborative notes.
I've been told that it reminds people of FOUND magazine, which is neat.
Follow the link below to check it out!

[link]




In other news, I'm back in Baltimore (thank goodness). I'm working on a few commission pieces, only one or two promise pay, but I enjoy doing what I do so it's good. I am always available for more, though! College is darn expensive and I just found a new restaraunt called XS that I am infatuated with. *sigh* sushi...

heyguesswhat I LOVE YOU THAT'S WHAT!

haha

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/11125538/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/11125538/ Wed, 20 Dec 2006 09:22:15 PST fresh, new material!
get it while it's hot!
hot hot hot!!!


[link]


rarrr

By the way, I got my first book published! It's called "Write To Me" and I will update when it is available for purchase. There are just a few minor edits I want to make before it is satisfactory for the public.
I plan on having many more books published, and soon.
lulu.com is the man once you figure it out.



Tell me something about yourself.

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/10880296/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/10880296/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 14:51:53 PST I love you (no exceptions)
Love always,
Jen

P.s.
My jeans are slowly deteriorating. Don't you hate that? But I guess that is what I get for refusing to spend over 20 bucks on pants.
Baltimore is strange. I love it. Come hang out some time.
Winter is coming and I am crazy over words again. Give me words to go crazy over, write me anything, I dare you!

I'm so excited to write my final paper for this one class that I can't make myself do it, I'm like a puppy with shaking puppy syndrome!

find everything!

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/10724658/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/10724658/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 15:20:13 PST
I'm back!

Check it out! [link]

My roommate is listening to Metallica or some other crap!





How are you?!

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/10307754/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/10307754/ Fri, 06 Oct 2006 19:39:33 PDT If you've noticed I am yet to delete all of my stuff in a "damn-the-man" fury.

I'm thinking of coming back and submitting again.
What do you think?

I miss getting your feedback. And I am making alot of stuff for classes...
By the way, school is great. A very welcome different lifestyle.
I need more, though. More art, more people, more more more more more.
So what do you think? Should I stay or should I go?

ahh
Send me some of your favorites, too, I need more more more more!

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/9337209/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/9337209/ Mon, 10 Jul 2006 21:22:19 PDT
In fact, quite the opposite, and I feel ridiculously guilty for not filling anyone in on anything that I've done art-wise.
Regardless, here I am now. This will probably be my last journal entry, as I have begun the creation of my own website.

The deal is this: for graduation I got the most perfect thing in the world. My own beautiful little MacBook Pro. *sigh* So Mac's are basically awesome, I am learning, and they have website design programs. Since I don't know enough about creating sites on my own, this is awesome, and exactly what I need. Thus! I have begun the creation!

You can find me at
[link]
aw yeah.



Keep in mind this is a work in progress.

I'll be deleting everything from this site soon, but I will still have my social account, thereswaterhere
[link]
so you can say hi to me there.

also, I am in the process of changing my email, so if you care to contact me I am now
jenmussari@mac.com

Love always,
Jennifer

P.S. I am going to MICA August 24! Baltimore is mine ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/8482093/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/8482093/ Sat, 15 Apr 2006 19:07:20 PDT coming soon

Mood: weeeeeeee!!!
Listening to: Tom Vek: If I Had Changed My Hand
Reading: my journal

Corcoran or MICA?

Corcoran:
Uh-maze-ing location. Mind blowing. Washington D.C. right in the middle of everything, literally. Very small attendance, though...only 90 students in each graduating class. Renowned for photo program. No fibers program (cloth, fashion, etc.). Apartment style dorms, but no single bedrooms. Main building is 20 minutes (walk) away from dorms, however, and secondary building is forty minutes (walk) away from main building. And you aren't allowed to have skateboards in the city. At all. Only has two student activities programs, a writing club and a film club. Near the river.

MICA:
Not so great location, but provides a shuttle to cool places (Baltimore aquarium!!!) which Corcoran doesn't. All classes are within the same block (generally). Has apartment style dorms that offer single bedrooms and gallery space. More students, about the same as my current highschool size. Students are fun, exciting, and various. Tons of student programs including the Pirate club, Volleyball club, "Z Point" (makes student-run zines), etc. Has a sturdy fibers program, as well as the other standard majors.

Both have equal study abroad programs, both have sturdy career developement programs, both have given me a pretty hefty scholarship (Corcoran: $23,200; MICA: $20,000 *glee*).

What do you think? If you know anything about these schools or have gone to one of them or know someone who has, pleeease give me an honest opinion. This is a really tough decision, and it would be incredible if I could get as much help as possible from people who aren't getting my money (the college) or spending my money (my parents).

-Jennifer

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/8408289/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/8408289/ Sat, 08 Apr 2006 13:14:42 PDT coming soon

Mood: even more worried
Listening to: John Vanderslice: Plymouth Rock
Reading: my journal

The world as we know it is going to die soon

You know it, I know it. But no one is doing anything...The people who want to can't. There is an unavoidable crash coming soon, for many reasons, one of them being oil. If we drill in Alaska we will have a more ready supply to tide us over until we can create other means of producing energy. However, your know our government. Because the supply is up they are going to lower the cost and the demand will stay the same or rise for oil. Then because that oil depleted, the stock market will crash, followed by the fall of...well, something. It could be humanity as a whole, just corporations, the poor, the middle class, everyone, whatever. It could be really bad, it could be not as bad as I think it may be.
Regardless, I have never been too fond of being ruled by anything other than a community government. So I am going to school to seek out the strong and ample minds, bodies and spirits that I can bond to and create a self-sufficient community with. And I'm not even kidding. We will need a carpenter, a seamstress, a gardener, a cook, a craftsman, a fisher/hunter for those who eat meat, a musician, a poet...The top of our trades to build the surviving generation.

And I bet you all think I'm crazy.
But who knows? This could be a thought that we seriously have to think. The problem will no longer be "what next to buy, where is the cheapest price, what can I buy to keep me happy" it will be "how do I survive?"

wow, weird.

I am really afraid you will all think I am mad, but you must understand that this is all too possible. The earth is dying, and that is a fact that no one can deny anymore, no matter how rich you are.

We are a lazy generation.
What next?
Where next?

Maybe I am crazy...but I don't see much opportunity on a long term scale if we are going to keep going along this path of war, usage, avarice and need.

Be the ones to think about what is coming next.
Be the ones who are ready.

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/8356782/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/8356782/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 13:05:37 PDT coming soon

Mood: a little worried
Listening to: The American Analog Set: Born on the Cusp
Reading: Keith Miller: The Book Of Flying

Update!
I made a new username, thereswaterhere. So if someone named thereswaterhere is favoriting like a mad dog and not posting art, that is why, it's just me. I want to start doing all of the social stuff like favoriting and journals and commenting and stuff over the summer so I can still have that account when I get rid of this one to make my own site.

-------

[link]

I'm a little worried about being on this site. Above is a translation of the contract we have all been signed into by signing up for this site.

[link]

drahomira got six of his pieces stolen by a dirt-poor publishing company to use as covers. They are making money off of his work. How much stuff like this happens that we don't know about? How much of the work we create is safe? If I were old and/or dead it wouldn't matter so much to me, but I am a young thing just going into college, just breaking into the world and I still have my name to keep safe. All of us do.
What do we do?

Did you know you can't break the contract with DA unless you send them a letter via fax or mail asking permission? And they don't have to grant it to you? It's fishy, and it makes me a little bit scared.

I try so hard to do what I do. I am sure you do, too. And think: Someone can take that from us, the one personal thing we have made. It's a poison that I don't want to be drinking, no matter how safe the dilution seems.

So I am making plans for the future. I want to learn how to build my own website, with my real name at the top and small, safe thumbs of all of my work. I want the world to see what I've done and can do, but I would appreciate it if they could see it in books that I have published or galleries that I set up. By the end of this summer, before I go into college, I think I may write that letter asking for leave of the contract with DA, hopefully after I have set up my own website. I want to get out before something big and bad happens. Of course, this sacrifices the bonds that I have formed with you. And if there is one thing that I hold close to my heart, it is you. I don't want to leave you, I want to be sure we can talk as much as we still do. So my new site must have the comment option like [link] or the member option like [link]

hm

what a thing.
maybe I don't have reason to worry. But if I can take all of the good things about this place with me somewhere else that is safe...well, then I think I'd at least feel at ease.

with love,
Jennifer

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/8001948/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/8001948/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 18:19:47 PST coming soon

Mood: a little sleepy
Listening to: Blackalicious: The Craft
Reading: don Miguel Ruiz: The Four Agreements

I got into MICA!

I think I would be really comfy there. Now I have to work on scholarships.

--

I want to get my ABC book published, maybe by a small-name publisher (who won't be jerks about copyright and try to own my work, that would be a bad, bad thing)...so if anyone knows a friend of a friend, or is that friend of a friend, or has any advice on what direction I should be heading in, please share with me your secrets and all of your wildest dreams may come true!

Just kidding.
I think.

weewooweewoolovealwaysjennifer

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7877539/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7877539/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 19:57:38 PST coming soon

A few months ago I bought a book on reflexology because it was on sale in the Discovery Store. I am as fascinated as I was when I found that book of magic spells in the middle school library when I was twelve. I want to go back to that school and ask if I can buy that book... I don't even care if the spells could work. It was just such a neat, old book, with such neat, old drawings.

oh, and reflexology acutally works.

I'm doing things (art and the like) that you guys would like to see. I wish that you could all teleport and hang out with me so that I wouldn't have to be so intimidated by that new AGREEMENT POLICY you need to succumb to for sumbitting that has so many capital letters and frightening talk about ownership. If I make something, it's mine. I always thought it was just that easy.

I am writing again, regularly in a little black journal like I used to. It's good for me in many ways. I highly suggest it to you, yourself.

I'll admit to having been a bit nostalgic over the last couple days or so.
It's nice, though.

Guess what! There is about fifteen inches of snow everywhere outside. A big huge white cold blanket.


How are you?
Tell me more about you and your dreams and wishes.


Love, Jennifer

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7802472/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7802472/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 18:40:55 PST
wow.




Just wow.

And thanks, geeze, thanks!

Thank you's, twenty times over, a million times over...To for suggesting A is for Alphabet for a DD and for featuring it, to the people who say they liked it and to whoever actually paid money for me to have a subscription (did not expect that! So cool.)

This crazy website has been making me very happy in times when other things are trying to get me down...


I didn't get into RISD, where my heart thought it was, but that's ok. MICA's the next goal. It seems more comfortable and nice there, anyways. And they offer really big scholarships.

--

You guys are the best.

--

I'm trying to take new photos tomorrow, as long as it isn't rainy and bleak like today and the party place is open so I can get balloons. You'll see (I hope). And I have a huge new ink drawing of epic proportions, and a massive self portrait (with antlers and apples) in paint on wood I am working on, and a fishtank to clean, and a watercolor/poetry book (hugely hugely hugely inspired by ) and now I'm a redhead, so I am doing stuff, that hopefully I'll finish soon so you can see.

--

The other day I found this tiny, 29 key keyboard the other day on the ground. It's the funniest thing in the world because it runs on batteries and you can take it around playing it like a ghetto blaster. I did this today. I also found a tamagotchi outside of the HotSpot Diner the week before. I reset it and now it looks like a whale with a moustache. I'm trying to get a job. Maybe I'll get a prints account...I'm still a little wary about that, though. I need more info from someone who actually has one. So if you have one, tell me more about whether or not it's worth it!

This is probably the longest journal entry I have ever written, so sorry if you felt obliged to read it all (you don't have to do anything if you don't want to, ever, in anything). I'm just excited!


Thanks again, all of everyone.


Love always,
Jennifer

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7565616/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7565616/ Tue, 10 Jan 2006 15:18:28 PST



Love always,

Jennifer ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7448344/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7448344/ Thu, 29 Dec 2005 12:29:43 PST
I got into Tyler, still waiting on the others. ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7039045/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/7039045/ Sun, 13 Nov 2005 18:54:09 PST It's not that I don't love you, it's just that I need space. I need to breathe. It's not you, it's me. We can still at least be friends, right? we'll still see each other, right? I don't mean to hurt you, this is hard for me too. It's not that we're breaking up we're just...taking a break.

haha

and other generic break up lines.

haha

so yeah, I'll check all my messages tonight, (oh, and maybe I'll add this photo that has been lingering but never submitted) comment and spread the love, and then I'll be dormant for a while.

haha like hibernation! we're a big sleepy bear. underground.

Until spring! Which will really be like...December. Ironic.
byeeeeee ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6866655/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6866655/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 17:32:39 PDT
Up for debate: I am considering putting a copyright mark on my photos and such that gets posted here. Now, I am normally very much against this idea but it is becoming more and more of an issue that I don't do it. What do you think?

Also: In the process of finishing up applications for colleges. Applying to: RISD, MICA, Tyler, Uarts in Philly, Cooper Union, Corcoran, etc. (faints)



In other news, the weather is still terrible, and I think that this is the world starting its steady decline to the end.

My cat is the best, and don't try to tell me otherwise. She is big and fluffy and warm, I love you Chessieeeeee ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6488829/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6488829/ Mon, 12 Sep 2005 19:17:17 PDT ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6404669/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6404669/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 10:55:30 PDT
In an effort to gather money to pay for the expenses of my attending an art college, I am finally going corporate. Sort of.

I'm selling original, hand-made and numbered ink prints of [link] and [link]
You can obtain the first, as it is rather small (2x4"), for two dollars.
The latter, as it is much bigger (5.5x8.75"), goes for five dollars.

If you are interested, note me for exchange information or drop me an email at swallowtailsparrow@yahoo.com

If you aren't interested, please don't get angry or not like me anymore because I still love you very much.

-Jennifer ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6377496/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6377496/ Wed, 31 Aug 2005 11:11:18 PDT I hope you can change.

Because the poison you're spewing makes me the hunter (stopmakingmeangry)
And the lies you feed off are running thin. Too close to home. Too close to me.
So get away. Step back. Go away.

Please.

Can't you see you're addicted?
Can't you see you were once like me.

(Oh,anddon'tyoudaretalkpoisononthethingsIholdsacred.OrIwilldestroytheverythingsyoulove.) ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6242235/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6242235/ Tue, 16 Aug 2005 10:23:44 PDT
Said the old man to the child: "I just wish I had more time"
As with the tree to the ground, the stream to the air, the teenage girl who takes pictures to anyone who will listen.

I don't want to disappear completely;
I'm sick of this storm. ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6071140/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/6071140/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 19:42:51 PDT
I miss you.
Alot.

But you're kind of cute to look at all lined up on the table like little bloody seashells.
I just wish I didn't have to take drugs for you.
Cause that is no good for me or my self-confidence.
Does this count as not being straight-edge anymore? I really hope not. ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/5841150/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/5841150/ Mon, 04 Jul 2005 20:01:23 PDT ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/5752269/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/5752269/ Sat, 25 Jun 2005 09:49:27 PDT [link] is the last straw.






pee ess, be sure to check out my ridiculously long comment like number three hundred or something.

peepee ess, I'm sorry I don't have anything interesting to say this time. Summer's here and we're glad ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/5278439/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/5278439/ Thu, 05 May 2005 19:11:47 PDT
I got a random one-week subscription.
look at all of the things.


Today I was out on the streets with my longboard. There is this one dumpster I go past, it is behind an interior decorating shop who never has anyone in it. So, they tend to throw alot of things away, such as a massive ceramic vase/urn. Which i took. I couldn't help it. It was shiny and white and I took it, somehow, through the nursing home parking lots, up through the woods, over baseball fields and yet another parking lot, and then to the school.
I don't really know why I took it, exactly.
It was really heavy, though.
When I got to the school I sat down and my friend told me a story about how she almost stole a birdcage that was out front of a house with a man mowing the lawn. She wanted it to be a toad-cage for a toad.

I had stolen a couch from the same place a few weeks ago.

]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/5198093/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/5198093/ Tue, 26 Apr 2005 19:23:08 PDT sea major

I really need to come up with something, and fast. ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4890551/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4890551/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 12:19:25 PST ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4852898/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4852898/ Sat, 19 Mar 2005 09:38:31 PST
I've been on adventure for about a year now.
We just keep going and going!
We just keep wanting and wanting! ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4606958/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4606958/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 13:38:59 PST ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4288046/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4288046/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 17:06:28 PST with me.



we'd swim around so delicately. ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4254023/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4254023/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 12:22:24 PST
the people eat the fishes
those sweet magical creatures
they eat them and it makes me cry. ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4052293/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/4052293/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 18:28:24 PST ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3942015/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3942015/ Sun, 28 Nov 2004 18:31:40 PST You see, you gave me this void.
And I went into it.
And you see, my thoughts are very dangerous. And they could tear you up in seconds.

But frankly, I'm glad they didn't.
Because Jesus came back, and He's comin' back again,
and I can safely say that this honestly lovely world pulled me out of the void, no matter how my subconscious does adore dark drama.

So, tonight, We'll see which relious figure is next to visit my dreams.

You know, seeing Jesus like that with those glorious blue eyes, it was easy not to talk when you opened that void with your ravenous teenage actions and desperate thirst. And so my silence left you with your own emptiness. But you were smart.


and
you led me out into the rain by phone
(the camera pans outward, highlighting the balance in yellow and blue lighting, a yellow haze hangs around the entrance to the restaurant, no, diner where my character stands, squinting into the night)
"do you hear it?"



"yes."
"no, really. do you hear it?"


(in this next break of silence, the camera jumps to a portrait shot, which my character turns fifteen degrees to offly face. You can see her thickly tended lashes flick upwards and downwards again, in search of some sense. then her eylashes fall for the last time, closed, her eyes pull her head farther downwards, facing the shot a little bit more squarely. The camera makes a quick pan to its right, circling my character as her head picks up and eyes open with the sound of)

"do you hear it?"

"yeah..."


(my character looks directly into the camera for a very few seconds, then turns around completely as the camera slowly pans out and right, achieving a full view of my character's stance. her skirt is black but her boots are white. all the while, your character recites your poetry. the poem you couldn't write down. your voice is rough and melodic but your face goes unseen. they match, though, your voice and your face. they do.) ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3802184/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3802184/ Wed, 10 Nov 2004 14:22:05 PST count the centuries
i
blink my eyes





there is
black ink emanating from her scalp there is
black sounds coming out her mouth

and i am just waiting for someone to give me some time to flow it all across white paper
oh, empty space
you know i love you too much to fill you
let's not make you what you aren't, for once, hmm?
can't we just love, for once, hmm?



right now

there is an old man all wrapped up in the front of the room. he is tangled in himself. but even with that wicked blindfold on he keeps talking. his mind must be making him see things under it, making him think that everything is ok. so his mouth keeps moving and that din is just so frustrating when the children around you are snickering at him and your batteries are dead and your pen so terribly still.



so
so
how come they won't let me write in class? ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3701609/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3701609/ Fri, 29 Oct 2004 13:04:56 PDT .
.



I am a ghost ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3529581/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3529581/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 19:07:30 PDT so,


I've been thinking. It's worth the risk. Now I just need an idea. Something to cut out of plastic and paint the town with. It will be the best birthday present. Maybe she won't care that it is late. She didn't get much, anyways.
And Twenty is a pretty big number, you know?

You know...

You know, you and I have been trading marbles lately. I don't know where you get yours from but mine tend to get caught on windowsills and in violin cases. I give them to you, but only if they are an interesting color. You give me what you find. We lose our marbles together
grin

I have been fearing very much sneezing in class. I sneeze little suppressed sneezes and apparently if you supress them too much they can pop a blood vessel in your neck and you die. I just don't feel like dying in front of all of these teenagers...they wouldn't get it.

I drink straight from the milk carton and often lie to my mother. I steal from the local art supply store and wear lipstick while skateboarding. I have secrets.

I write them in a little black book that I filled last june. I bought a new one and it didnt have lines to keep me in check, so it has very few words in it. I bought a new one. Same as the old one. With lines. I'm coming back.




nomad ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3246265/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3246265/ Mon, 30 Aug 2004 10:28:03 PDT She is wonderful.
Then she took me to see Mae.
And on the ride home, well, everything looks perfect from far away.
Hand out the window, caught by more than the wind.


Sister: [link]

Mae: [link]

Everything: [link] ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3197617/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/3197617/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 17:59:41 PDT ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2998858/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2998858/ Thu, 29 Jul 2004 19:45:09 PDT ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2758621/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2758621/ Mon, 28 Jun 2004 20:18:39 PDT

I made stencils.
There were eighty five strangers at my house yesterday or so and I made it obvious to just sit with my sister and make stencils. Once we were finished we went downstairs and spraypainted them. She has the Lady Bjork on her shirt and I ennui in my skirt.
I have a month to know them.
Why start now? At my house?
I have a month...
July Eighth I leave.
I am going to where I expect everything to be normal for me. I am going to Europe.

You know, I climbed a tree a night or two ago.
You know, it was the best thing.
You know, you were there.


I am going to paint the world
come with me? ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2652065/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2652065/ Sun, 13 Jun 2004 16:19:34 PDT
He played slide guitar.

[link] ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2507085/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2507085/ Tue, 25 May 2004 16:08:14 PDT Somebody play me Toccata and Fugue.
my pencils tell me how i don't have a sharpener. i bite their tops.

the definition of [ missing someone you see everyday ]

/my father watches hick television in the background of which I am facing and I cannot climb that tree waiting for me the bugs, the bugs, they bite, they bite and i cannot paint because i need to climb that tree to do so i need to be like julia butterfly/

i have battle scars.
(wanna see?)
but seriously: you know how ancient Greece is paved over? you know the smell of a long-haired cat in summer? you know how white liquid eyeliner looks on a girl with a floppy mohawk?

you know how much she wants to just paint???
you know how much she really loves you...? ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2484581/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2484581/ Sat, 22 May 2004 14:53:55 PDT I got those three rolls developed. [good things ahead]
Now I have the time but not the attention span to edit and stuff. I think I'll go roll around in the grass some.

There are still many many shots from the band trip to be submitted, I worry that you are sick of seeing the same people. But I don't want to take scenery shots, my friends are so much more interesting. A "new" character or two are being introduced soon, though, promise

I really just want to go and roll in the grass... ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2435080/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2435080/ Sat, 15 May 2004 14:37:26 PDT Waiting...
Good shots ahead.
There was a coffehouse last night, you see. And lots of lovely music and people.
I played a bit with my friends.
And then, it ended, and all that comes clear is this vision...this bright white streetlamp hanging overhead and sending its strange gaze down upon us. We were stuck, you see, and did not want to go home.
And for now, I dress up like a pirate, and play my music with a hundred other teenage buccaneers for the suburbs. Why? Because the band director told us to. And you know how that works.

[There are still pieces trickling out of that Myrtle Beach run. Maybe I should hold off on getting these three developed.] ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2296411/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2296411/ Sun, 25 Apr 2004 15:21:56 PDT
these picture disks are quite handy.
oh, hey! I finally reached one thousand, would you look at that?

Mow, things are slowing down just to pick up again, methinks, but my journal thing goes un-updated too much recently.
No time anymore.

I think I saw an oxymoron on the side of a truck yesterday..."freedom security" was the name of the company. Not sure.

Release Me
please? ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2222958/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2222958/ Wed, 14 Apr 2004 14:58:34 PDT
I'll be disappearing for a few days.

I do love you all, but the band trip is just too fun to pass up for five days on the computer. To Myrtle Beach, we are going! That's right. And it'll be WARM. Yum.
Yum yum sun.

equation:
SUN+(BusxHotelRoomxbeach)+(Friends/band dorks+strangers)
And you know what that means. LOTS of photos.

Ah, I miss the ocean. (shall see it soon) ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2160335/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2160335/ Mon, 05 Apr 2004 19:32:15 PDT
Lovely everything is lovely again
The weather is blue again and I said "yes" again and everything is just so gorgeous.

Three whole rolls of film! And crap, photography is an expensive thing to have fun with. But it is quite fun

Goodness gracious, I'd hate to spill my life over here, the small part of it that doesn't necessarily have everything to do with art, at least, so I am going to put a link at the top of this page to my infinite profile. Which is where I write a little mysterious message for daily events.
I'm rambling.
stops here ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2114629/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2114629/ Tue, 30 Mar 2004 09:27:20 PST today will be productive...? ]]> ~sporadictouchofennui http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2102401/ http://sporadictouchofennui.deviantart.com/journal/2102401/ Sun, 28 Mar 2004 14:13:01 PST ~sporadictouchofennui