http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:sporkingitup&section=today deviantART RSS for by:sporkingitup en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 04:49:44 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/26723409/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/26723409/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 21:49:25 PDT Nor did I update my journal.
(for the.... one?... of you that may read it)

I guess that kind of makes me a prick.

But now I'm back at school,
which means that I'm away from the girl I love,
which means I will write poetry to make myself feel closer to her.
So
In other words
more journal entries and poems to come.

Also I'm in a creative writing class again, so stories will come, too.

I also got my wisdom teeth out and afterwards had a seizure and passed out. Just fyi.
My face hurts.
And so does my heart.
I cried a lot leaving Zu Zu. How sad is THAT?! I miss my puppy, my mama, megan, rosie, jen, elena, kelly, and kal already. Plus the friends I made over the summer. AAAAHHHSADDAY.

but happy day too because I get to learn.
Ah, conflict.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/24770951/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/24770951/ Fri, 15 May 2009 14:08:02 PDT
Poetry coming soon.
Bear with me.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/24289225/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/24289225/ Fri, 17 Apr 2009 11:04:28 PDT
but on a comedic note, I woke up this morning with laryngitis. I have never lost my voice before, ever.

I like the coincidence.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23797353/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23797353/ Fri, 20 Mar 2009 13:56:31 PDT
I also have lots and lots of different meds to keep me from being crazy.

Woohoo! I feel GREAT!

Now it's time to fix everything I broke whilst on my crazy spree.

Also, I applied for a job working for Air Traffic Control... hahaha. Good thing I'm only like twenty minutes from DIA!

New stories for Creative Writing coming soon. As well as poetry.


It's good being back.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23743201/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23743201/ Tue, 17 Mar 2009 08:47:37 PDT
I am not going crazy, I have gone and went and become.

Right now is moment by moment. I can't tell you if ten minutes from now I'll still feel like me or even five minutes from now. Thirty seconds from typing this and I might be crying and having a panic attack. Or maybe just worrying. Or maybe I'll feel like me.

But I feel like me less and less lately. I feel most like me when I'm talking to JB, because she calms me down. But when I'm not talking to her, I worry.

Right now, this second, I feel like me.

But I'm crazy so I have no idea how long it will last.

I'm going to a psychiatrist wednesday. I need to switch my meds ASAP. Effexor is basically the worst drug you can take, because withdrawal symptoms and side-effects are terrible and last a while. They are: increased anxiety, increased heart rate, hypertension, paranoia, shocks through the brain, mental breakdowns, flu symptoms, and extreme exhaustion. So basically, I'm going to get a hell of a lot worse before I get any better. I may be committing myself and not returning to school until this gets better. But then again I may get better after wednesday right away. We'll just have to wait and see.

I'm experiencing the first four symptoms severely. It is quite fun. NOT.

I know what the male side of my family feels like now.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23578160/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23578160/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 16:34:51 PST
What is really going on?

Are your words how they used to be but my brain so destroyed by chemicals translates them into a language that I don't want to understand? Has my brain transformed your syntax into aloofness when really your words are still the pillars mixed with mine? Is my paranoia so complete that I cannot understand your structure and misread it misinterpret it mistreat it misidentify it destroy it breakitdown to the bits and pieces of what it's not?

Where has my surety gone?
Why are words so difficult for me now?



.... I do not allow myself to think. For now, thinking leads to worrying which leads to panicking which leads to tears. I do not want to follow my thoughts down the twisting, corrupting path they lead me. I would not be strong enough for a relationship if I keep up this dissection of nothingness. This over-analyzation of pauses. Instead when I feel them coming, when I feel like breaking down and falling apart and destroying everything I know that is good, I work out my body to soothe my mind.

I am going crazy.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23323136/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23323136/ Sat, 21 Feb 2009 11:32:33 PST I need your heeelllpp!
My school, USC, is holding a creative writing contest. Entries are up to 40 pages and I can submit whatever I want to!

I was wondering if you lovely readers wouldn't mind helping me out a little by leaving a comment here or on the work in question that you think I should submit! That would be extremely helpful! Also feedback on what you think I could submit if it had some editing done!

Please please PLEASE help me!

Thanks!

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23171311/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/23171311/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 09:48:32 PST I have a lot of new stuff. A lot of it is fictionalized stories from my life. And by fictionalized I mean I change the perspective, added some spice (very little needed to be added, given the craziness of my adventures), and had a lot of fun with them. So you should be reading them and telling me what you think.

Also. I have lots more poetry coming. And for my mom's birthday I'm going to make her a poetry book of all my poetry.

School rocks hard core. I can't even describe how awesome this semester is. I've never had so much fun in my entire life.

I'm pretty sure that's it.

Oh wait. This is my first ever Valentine's day spent when I'm in a relationship. I'm home and Im spending the day with the girl I love. Yay! :squee:

<3

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/22530454/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/22530454/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 17:36:39 PST Be on the lookout for lots of new fiction entries and the same amount of poetry submissions.

I drove out here. It took me 15 hours. Mapquest said 18, google said 15.5. Ha. 8 and a half hours of driving in one day is ridiculous. Just thought I'd let you all know that.


Um.

I'm glad to be back here I just wish I had a certain cuddle buddy with me.
Le boo.

But I go home again in a month so it's all good! hahahaha. I go home a lot.

peace out

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/22360917/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/22360917/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 19:09:09 PST
So much to do, so little time.

I will continue with the poetry, obviously. It is a coping mechanism for being away from JB, a creative outlet for her, and it also lets me say things I can't phrase properly when I speak.

I am also in Intro to Fiction Writing this semester. So expect lots of fiction. Since that's what I have the most trouble with.

I have also started modeling. Not like, zomg you get paid for taking pictures! modeling, but like, let's make some art! Yes I have an account on MM. I will definitely not post the link until my portfolio has developed.

But so far I think I'm doing one shoot next week or at least in march, and I'm definitely doing one over MLK weekend. Sweet. I will begin posting the pictures from that here, too, so you guys can see how really diverse I am! cough.

I just finished LOTR for the 3rd time. And it hurts so much every time I'm done reading it. It's weird. It's one of the reasons why I want a tattoo. So that it doesn't have to end for me. I know I'm a nerd. Shush.

Yes. That's it. I think.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/22024751/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/22024751/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 23:15:51 PST really terrible writing.

And whilst I did this, I couldn't help but reminisce. I began my dA to keep in touch with a girl I had a crush on, whom I then dated and broke up with and dated and broke up with and dated and broke up with and almost dated and broke up with. (Ha. That is all of them. I counted. Twice) A lot of the poetry is written about her and almost all of those poems are extremely emotional. A lot are very mean. And that's how I coped.

I then wrote some about the next girl, Jamee. That entire affair lasted less than a week yet somehow she still got two poems. Hmm.

Then came more Elena related poetry. Ha. Hahahaha.

And then plays and monologues.

Throw in a Dan poem and an A-Walker poem in there somewhere.

Then some creative non-fiction essays.

Then poems about not being inspired.

Then some small poems about michael.

Then my college essays.

And then the poems about JB. Who has inspired a new type of writing. Gone are my days of cubism. I have evolved into a new poet, and it's quite interesting.

It's interesting to watch my emotional arc. If you're interested, I'd start at the back and work your way up to the present. Watch me grow, and repeat mistakes and then grow some more. Watch my writing change.

And thank you for bearing with me.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/21869663/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/21869663/ Sun, 07 Dec 2008 17:13:31 PST
Scary.

A lot has happened this first semester that I haven't talked about. That I won't talk about.

And I didn't follow through on anything I said in my last journal entry, because, frankly, I'm living too much.

My schedule for next semester is:
Literature's Effects on Global Culture (GE: category II)
Introduction to Fiction Writing (Creative Writing, 1 requirement)
American Literature (Creative Writing, 1 requirement)
Political Ideology and Conflict (Pol-Sci, 1 requirement)

I am very excited. Hopefully it will be more challenging.

I haven't ended up with the grades I want, but now I know how to get them. And I will apply that to successive semesters.

I haven't gotten the tattoo I've wanted for four years yet due to a guilt trip. But I am planning on getting it soon. I just have to negotiate.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/21001430/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/21001430/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 12:57:58 PDT very rough segment of my memoir.

And not a peep. It's okay. I understand. All of you are quite busy with your own lives and own artistic adventures.

Anyway.

I have decided to write my memoir in essay form, more like David Sedaris than like, The Glass Castle (which is a great book and all of you should read it).

So to spur my David Sedaris-esque career, I'm going to be posting my essay pieces on a blog. Or a website. One with actual advertisements and stuff so it gets more traffic.

Eventually I hope to either a) approach a publisher or b) have the blog be noticed enough to have a publisher approach me. I'm considering A more because I can compile a portfolio of the most-viewed entries to send in.

So I have to find a new blogging domain that is popular, or I'm going to have to start my own website. Hmm. Decisions decisions.

Hope all of you are well.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/20899168/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/20899168/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 14:07:06 PDT
I've also failed at RKOP. Oopsies.

Anyway.

COMING SOON:
A really long poem I wrote for JB. Like, five pages handwritten long.
Bits and pieces of my memoir. Like, chapters or parts of chapters. Be nice. Give me suggestions. Remind me.
A new deviantID. I mean, I'm in college now.


Update:
There is a mysterious, highly contagious virus making its rounds on campus. We only know it as The Virus. The Virus is a gastrointestinal virus that causes lots of vomiting and explosions from the other end. It lasts about three days, but is contagious for four more. On friday, 30 people had it. By Saturday morning, 75 people had it. By Saturday night, it was up to 130. By Sunday, it was at 200. Monday it was up to 275. And today? It's at 330 and still spreading. It started at Georgetown. Made it's way to us. Now it's also at Skidmore.
So in other words, watch out for The Virus!!
(Kinda 28-days-later-esque, huh?)

UPDATE: The virus made it to 415 last night (10/8). So much for "slowing down." Hopefully they cancel school!!
Yeah. That's all.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/20310763/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/20310763/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 16:05:51 PDT
Weeeiiirrrrddd.

And pretty soon I'll be posting a bunch of stuff. I'm in three classes that require me to write tons... but only one of them is really "creative" stuff.

Also keep your eyes open for some new poetry. I'm going to try and write how I did back in the olden days and see what I get out of it.

AND. I can't decide who to vote for.

But what I think is curious is,
why haven't the Democrats said anything along the lines of "Barack Obama is SOOOO WELL-SPOKEN."

They said it about Colin Powell AND Condaleeza Rice! Is that because the Democrats assume Black Republicans are lesser than Black Democrats?
Or is it because Democrats are hypocrites?

Discuss.

(hahahahaha)

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/20076655/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/20076655/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 11:22:04 PDT Like, I slept here last night and everything.
I have one of those roommate-type-thingers.
I even have a community bathroom!
It's the real thing!

Anyway.

The commenting on my writing is very depressing. So much so, that I have started ignoring all of you and posting only for the benefit of knowing that I can read my own writing online. It makes me feel special.

I miss my beautiful lady. But I still love her more than anything in the world.
I can honestly say we belong together. And that's a nerdy thing to say.



Uhm. yes. So I'm at college.
I'll be home in october for a weekend. Sweet.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/19286878/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/19286878/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 06:41:22 PDT
What are you watching me for if you aren't going to give me constructive criticisms or compliment me shamelessly for my writing?

Just kidding. Kind of. About the constructive criticisms part. (HAHAHA, wow, I'm obnoxious.)

Seriously, though. I've started writing again and not having anyone say anything about what I write is really discouraging. Even if the poem or essay sucks, just be like "this sucks, and this is what it needs." Except, maybe not that harsh. I'd probably cry. Maybe something like "this isn't your best, try blah blah blah."

I'd really appreciate it. I miss having comments on my work.


Moving on...
Uh. I leave in 42 days. And I love my girlfriend. And my father's back in my life, this time for good. And I have strep throat, my left Tonsil looks like a rock splattered with white paint. Feels like a rock too, when I swallow.

I'm also selling Cutco. Anybody need any really awesome knives? If so, let me know here. Though I doubt anyone will, because NOBODY COMMENTS ON ANY OF MY STUFF ANYMORE.

and I found this today, and it made me laugh

(If you can't tell, I rediscovered emoticons)

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/18738709/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/18738709/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 21:26:00 PDT
but that's not what this is about.

I am in love. And I know it because my heart feels about a hundred times bigger than it did before. I know that's corny. I know it's lame. But I also know that it's true.

Anyway.

I found all my old english essays that I said I couldn't find... Well... I'll put them up here, just as soon as I feel like typing them all up.

I have Orientation at USC on thursday. THURSDAY. Holy shit. I'm a college freshman! (who has the best girlfriend in the world. Shh)

wow. I'm so freaking corny these days. I'm sorry. I'll try not to be one half of one of "those" couples. I'll try, but I'll probably fail.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/18518275/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/18518275/ Mon, 26 May 2008 20:56:51 PDT because it's a bout of writing time for me.
I'm finally back in the kick of things. I don't even know if that's a phrase. Whatever.

Unfortunately, all of those wonderful essays I wrote for my Senior Seminar class I have been unable to locate. Mostly because I only typed them up once, printed them out, didn't save them, and turned them in. Then I lost my english binder. Some of them were really good, too. We were supposed to write about a "new experience" of some sort. I wrote solid fiction for two essays. I got A's on them. Go me.

I will look and see however if there is any way I can locate them. Maybe I did indeed type them up on my mac. Probably not. I'm pretty sure I wrote them all on the college office computer.

And thanks to JB for getting my back in my groove. "You threw off the emperor's groove!" But not. It's nice having inspiration again.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/18167539/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/18167539/ Sun, 04 May 2008 15:41:33 PDT B) I met my inspiration and my favorite singer ever, Jason Mraz (and got a picture with him!)
C) Gavin Degraw hit on me. He's 31. But he's also really hot. So it's okay.
D) I have an amazing girlfriend.
E) I flew to Toronto for the Music Magic Makepeace Tour and it absofuckinglutely blew my mind. Best concert I have been to. Hands down. Billy aka Bushwalla, dropped a pin down my shirt. It was funny.

Um. I'm about to graduate.

And I really should post all of my creative writing. I'm working on it. I just have senioritis in regards to EVERYTHING.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/17723761/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/17723761/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 22:18:41 PDT Trojan. Bad. Ass.
I sent in my deposit and everything. Applied for housing. Now I just have to send all my admission-withdraws. Oy.

Um. So. I'm in college!
It's super exciting to know where I'm going to be living next year. I've been making friends from USC so I'll already know a couple people when I get there, just so it's not too scary being all by my lonesome. I've talked to a lot of really great people.

I'm moving into my house this week. FINALLY. It's been a year and a half since we bought it and started the remodeling. It should've been done like six months ago. I hate swindlers, liars, and cheats.

AND AND AND AND AND (this is the part I'm super stoked for!)
I'm going to Toronto on April 26th for the Music, Magic, Make Peace Tour!!! The Tour will include:
Jason Mraz, Bushwalla, Justin Kredible, and The Make Peace Brothers. I AM SO EXCITED.
Not to mention all the lovely weets I will finally get to spend time with.

My life is complete (almost).

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/17519200/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/17519200/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 01:32:50 PDT
BUT. Not today my friends.
Why, you ask?!


BECAUSE WHITNEY JUST GOT ACCEPTED TO NORTHWESTERN UNIVERSITY!!!!!!
SQQUUUUUEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!


AAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/17122534/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/17122534/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 18:48:01 PST Chapman University and Macalester College.
Chapman gave me their Presidential Scholarship, which is 21,000 dollars per year and the opportunity to network with really important people.

Chapman was my foundation school, so at least now I know that my foundation school REALLY wants me. They gave me the President's number so I can call and ask him any questions I might have. I'm thinking about doing that.

So no rejection letters yet. Still waiting for Northwestern, BU, USC, Eugene Lang, and Oberlin. Keep your fingers crossed.

And the other day I had the most horrible realization. Which led to me deciding that I can't date guys for a while. Back to girls until I figure something out. Kal's right though, so I'm not going to give up on guys forever, I'm just waiting until college, because, well, yeah.

Sweeeeet. Third tri senior. Managed a 4.0 second tri. My second tri gpa dropped .18, but that's nothing compared to the .5 that most of the seniors lost. So I'm still on top of my game

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16853325/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16853325/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 18:05:24 PST
I don't have a date for the night. But I do have a date for that saturday! And I'm super excited, because this girl is awesome.

Her name is Aimee and again, she's awesome.

It's also odd because Valentine's Day would've been my parent's 22nd wedding anniversary. My dad's headed out of the ________ and back to arizona, so hopefully he'll deal okay.

I'm getting something shiny.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16777129/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16777129/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 21:11:42 PST My father, to be precise.

I don't really feel like discussing what it means, it's a little too dense and a little too hard right now.

Maybe never.

But it, too, shall pass.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16570014/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16570014/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 17:21:11 PST Curious Theatre, Denver Colorado.
My play goes first. Sweet Sixteen. I'll put it up here soon.

Before you see the companion pieces, make SURE you see 9 Parts of Desire, starring Karen Slack. It is absolutely amazing. Mind-blowing. You will leave the theatre sobbing. With a completely different outlook on the war in Iraq.

Be there.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16514016/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16514016/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 22:40:14 PST
You don't have to support the war to support our troops.

The first governor to legislate for anti-discrimination laws for gays was a REPUBLICAN. He died recently at the age of 81.

For those who say war doesn't solve anything, what about genocide and fascism for two examples?

The Democrats like to talk about which candidate has the most "experience." Neither Hillary nor Barack have any bills with their names on them (meaning they wrote or co-wrote it). The only prominent candidate who does is John Edwards, and his had to do with post-offices.

Only ONE candidate from both parties supports gay marriage: Republican Ron Paul. He recently won 2nd in the Nevada Caucuses.

And last and most importantly, before you stoop to insulting someone based on their politics, think about how that makes you look as a person and whether or not it accomplishes anything positive.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16051526/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/16051526/ Sat, 22 Dec 2007 23:48:39 PST
Picked up Kelly and saw Elena and Ariel tonight. I was wearing my "I Only Date Republicans" shirt, which is funny because it is so obviously not true, considering who I've dated.

Kelly's Choir teacher said "Go republicans!" (Which was snarky, but that's okay)

And I said, without thinking, "Well, I had to raise my standards somehow."



That is a horrible thing to say with an ex-girlfriend present! Horrible, but hilarious! and...though it applies to her, I wasn't actually talking about her. I was just talking in general.

And then later I ran into my CNV teacher and her husband said "Good thing about the dating-republicans. Especially during an election year." I made sure to tell THEM that the shirt was a joke, and that I have, in fact, only dated Democrats.

Though, seriously. It's effing hilarious. And the shirt is kind of true. Starting now. I mean what I said was true, it's me raising my standards. Kind of. Bahahaha.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15959365/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15959365/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 12:52:23 PST Basically.
All I have to do is *gasp* send in my Tisch Portfolio and send my SAT II score...
but I've sent them all in! And paid for all of them! And and and yeah!

And the play is over. Which is very strange. But it also makes me really happy because now I actually have time again in my life.

And! Some interesting things happened backstage. Wow.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15738894/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15738894/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 18:10:57 PST
I hate myself *smacks forehead*

eh, that's okay. I stopped using my tumblr, and this isn't a really appropriate place to put my journalling anyway. And besides...uh...nope. There are no other reasons.

I BET YOU CAN'T GUESS WHAT MY URL IS?!?!?!

here's a hint (sporkingitup) oooooohhh, trixsy.

I am now going to read "An Inconvenient Book" which, of course, is a Conservative book that makes fun of democrats, especially Al Gore and his "An Inconvenient Truth."

I can't believe that won him the nobel peace prize. what a tool. I'm going to geneva and smacking all those people.

Oh, yeah, and I'll be posting hard-core once all my college essays are done being edited. They're good stuff.

And I really, REALLY need to compile my portfolio for NYU Tisch. But I'm lazy. I'll do it when I know all my apps are done.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15634538/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15634538/ Fri, 23 Nov 2007 11:41:15 PST Okay. So. I broke up with Michael. It was sad, but I needed to do it.

Um. I think I pulled off a GPA around 4.2ish. I'm super psyched about that.

I have a desire to finish all my applications today, but that's impossible because I still have to write one essay and send it to Carolyn (my college counselor) for editing. She still needs to send me my last one back.

The new house has framing up for the addition, FINALLY!!! We might actually move in there before I have to go to college!

And I'm seeing a very old friend this weekend, one I haven't seen since last year, which I'm very excited for. I love that kid a lot.


And I think that's it?

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15369758/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15369758/ Sun, 04 Nov 2007 22:40:01 PST
Got in my first ever car accident. I'm fine. Minicooch looks like he got punched in the face, though.

Something has changed. And I don't like it, but I have to fix it.
And I hate that. But I don't want to, not yet. I don't even really know what I'm talking about.

But I feel stuck. And I hate that feeling.

Anyways. So I went to the Paramore concert tonight. And know who I saw there?!?!?!

JAMEE!!!

Isn't that bizaare? I miss that girl. She's a good egg. I haven't seen her since our one-and only--date almost exactly a year ago. Which is weird. I think we should've hung out more. Alas.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15222818/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15222818/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 22:22:36 PDT
USC
Northwestern
NYU
Chapman
Macalester
BU
Eugene Lang
Oberlin

first deadline? January 1st.
applications? all but two are Common App. All are online.


And not to mention I'm stressed out like, yo.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15112237/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/15112237/ Thu, 18 Oct 2007 08:02:50 PDT
you know when you just wake up, and you're barely awake and you try to do something to fall back asleep? Well, I decided to sing the 50 states song. But it didn't feel right. So everytime I sang it, which was about six times (in my head, don't worry), I only counted 49 states.

Something was up.

So I roll out of my bed long-wise, and grab my computer.
I then precede to forget about my dilemma and check my facebook and myspace. Oops.

But then! I google "50 states"

and the state I was missing? I new it was an "N" state...

New Mexico.

Heh. Whoops. My B.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14992258/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14992258/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 21:26:49 PDT I haven't used this in forever.

and now I have.

Read it, good folk.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14861779/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14861779/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 19:31:15 PDT
Anyway.

so. I auditioned for By the Skin of Our Teeth today. Told Mr. Bair I wouldn't accept any non-speaking parts because I know I'm better than some of the people who have gotten leads. So anyways.

I'm the lead in Sister Mary Ignatius Explains It All For You by Christopher Durang. If you haven't read any Durang, you should. I'm excited. I get to be a nun.

Just sent my first college essay draft to my counselor. When I've sent my applications, I'll post it up here. It's about when I tried to get rid of my first loose tooth. It's pretty hilarious, I might add.

aaannnnddd....
.........
boys are fun

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14666722/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14666722/ Sun, 16 Sep 2007 22:01:36 PDT Hockey's going well, school's going well, life's going well, boyfriend's going well...

can't really complain.

Starting a manuscript to publish about He-Who-Shall-Remain-Nameless and expose all his foibles to the world. Bwahahaha. Well, his foibles and how I reacted to them.

Aaaannndddddd....

um...

I really should start writing again School's busy, though. I have written a scene for a play that I'm not writing...it was just a sketch. It's pretty interesting. I might post it. Might not. Whatevs.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14452933/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14452933/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 08:52:22 PDT
My two best friends, Nekky and Rosie, plus a lovely boy by the name of Michael, who...dang. We'll just leave it at that.

Oh, I guess I'm seventeen now, too. Yeah.

Time to celebrate in style with the family and with Nekky.

Life is gud.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14401899/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14401899/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 20:41:36 PDT
So. School. First day was bomb. Jake W built a 20-ft pirate mast for his TRUCK that had a crows nest and everything that C-lo climbed and stood in...
Overview of teachers
1: AP Gov-Terrazas= Um. Love. I love T. And I love government. Doesn't get any better than that!
2: AP Stats-Neszerke= whitey speaking ebonics, and stats is more logic and english than math. Hells yes.
3: Modernism-Mills= Love the man as a person, not as a teacher. Love the subject, though.
4: AP English-Strobridge= I. Love. Her. she is my new favorite teacher.
5: AP Spanish-Mrs. Kelly= nee Raney. Awesome class. I love spanish.
6: Acting II/III-Scherer= Bang, Bang, You're Dead. I have 188 lines to memorize by the 13th. Wish me luck!

And the first day of school, Michael, this incredibly cute kid who I know is probably reading this, and if so, hiya cutie!--sent me flowers . Three roses. and an adorable note. Made my month, I think

And if THAT weren't awesome enough, I was the Daily Deviant for Literature on August 28th. Check it out

I know, I know. This year is off to a kick-ass start.
I have to have my teacher recs in by the beginning of next week. Eheh. I don't know who I'm asking for my 2nd one. Ewpsies.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14090887/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14090887/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 13:22:54 PDT
but I like my haircut.

that is all.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14062998/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/14062998/ Tue, 07 Aug 2007 16:37:30 PDT
BY A PROFESSIONAL! :faints:

I know, I know, you're shocked. Me too. It's going to be awesome. I'll post pictures. And then after the mainstage play at school, I'll put in some bubblegumpinkness. Cos I want to make it into the play, damnit!!

I'M SO EXCITED

in case you can't tell.

Also, Summer reading:
Whitney: 1 Metamorphosis: 0
Whitney: .5 The Aeneid: 2003049238402
Whitney: 0 Abriendo Puertas: 0

let's just say the Aeneid is going to be one helluva good time.
*coughs*

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13942812/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13942812/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 14:26:07 PDT But, being the fuckass I am, I forgot to leave extra extra early (I already had to leave early to meet with my actors) to pick up kelly, and because of that I am a shit-faced whore. Who doesn't deserve any friends

The litvaks minus doug came, and greg's friend andrew. they all loved it. And and and and I was introducing them to one of my teachers, Pesha, and she asked how we were related and I told her, and she said "Yeah, it's always awkward having to explain it when they aren't married." and Greg goes, "it's not awkward with whitney." and I said "AW GREG I LOVE YOU" and then at the end when they brought us up on the stage, Greg, Andrew, and Brian were whooping my name. I've never felt more loved by sibling-esque people. My brothers would never do that.

And the after party was interesting. Except for the part where they tried to dare the sober bi girl, aka me, to make out with the drunk straight girl. That's a no-no and bad in my moral books. And they kept trying to force me to do it and all of a sudden I had a flashback to when I was molested and the flashback kept playing for like two hours. Which was HORRIBLE. but eh. At least I was sober for it. I'd rather have done that than taken advantage of Rose, who I love a lot.

So CNV is over, and I have nothing to do with myself now >.<

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13913975/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13913975/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 12:33:59 PDT
I love CNV, for serial.

weeeeeee.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13803887/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13803887/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 04:32:20 PDT
So yesterday I worked with actors. IT WAS AMAZING. seriously. I have never felt more validated about my writing than having a bunch of professional actors cracking up at my work. Talk about awesome!!

Aaannnd I have almost talked my mom into taking us to Germany for just a few days in the beginning of august...and I'm not going to tell you why because you'd laugh at me.

and my brothers and my dad are moving in a very short amount of time. HALLELUJAH PRAISE JESUS. though I do miss my brother's when they were my brothers, you know? I miss who they were, and who they might've been. Alack.


I'm going to try and fall asleep. It probably won't work. I think I'm addicted to simply sleep pills...cos I took two at like 11...so I should be knocked out right now. Bummer.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13722288/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13722288/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 15:10:35 PDT
It is, of course, satire.

And hilarious.

I talked with my director (!!!) about it today, and she said it's brilliant, and that I can get even MORE mean and blow-up characters even MORE. which is awesome.

For those of you in Colorado, I encourage you to come to the Curious Theatre's New Voices Festival. It takes place during the weekend of July 27th-29th, starting at 7 pm.

For more information, please go here and click on Curious New Voices

tada!

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13677880/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13677880/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 22:52:28 PDT
So tonight I lost another friend, I guess. For blaming me for something he did and "ruining" something he had, while in reality it's not true at all. I don't think I've ever been more offended or hurt...like, what the fuck...be a fucking man. Don't blame what happened on me because you don't like the fact that it's all your fault. I HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. You were my best friends. So I hung out with you. UM, DUH. JESUS CHRIST. Way to aim low and hurt heavy.

But then I went on RKOP and I felt better. Got lots of cyberhugs. Made some new friends. Got scolded for saying something incredibly lame and annoying (I would've scolded myself, but I'm too lazy), forgiven, and accepted as an equal.
That's a good feeling.

I cried for the first time in months tonight, because of the FUCKER WHO I CALLED MY FRIEND. YOU DON'T DO THAT TO PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU.

Jesus fuck.

Back to RKOP for meeeeuh.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13665860/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13665860/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 01:17:15 PDT And no, I'm not telling you what RKOP is. You'll laugh at me. (unless you know, in which case YOU'RE AWESOME AND LETS BE BEST FRIENDS FOREVER)

sooooo whilst RKOP-ing (haha, "p"ing)...I took two tylenol simply sleeps about an hour ago, and nothin. So maybe they dont' work when I'm looking at a computer screen. Hmmm.

I luuurrrv RKOP.
And I have playwriting in, oh, eight hours and fortyfive minutes.
Stupid sleep escapes me.

I'm going to pretend now that I haven't spent the last hour on RKOP.


toodleloo. OH. and I"m writing a hilarious skit. You are forewarned.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13585748/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13585748/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 23:22:07 PDT
I have a "tattoo" of a unicorn on my stomach. It's name is Constantine. Hahahaha.

Spork is tan. Well, all of me is tan, really. But mainly spork.

I'm also jetlagged to the max, ho. I should sleep it off before I chug-a-lug my way into busytown.

And..I didn't write anything in maui. Too busy.

I GOT AN 11/12 on the ACT essay. That's basically unheard of. Be proud. Be very proud.

Time to collapse in me bed. ta ta, friends. ]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13425190/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13425190/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 21:06:12 PDT
Then I am gone 6/25-7/01. I get back July second in the wee hours of the morning. Tuesday July 4th is Zaades birthday, and my father's engagement party...but if I get to choose, I'm going to the birthday party (that is if I'm not working). I might post stuff during my trip, but it'll be pictures and stuff, no journals.

7/9-7/29 Playwriting 930 to 330 daily. The 27th to the 29th is the festival, showcasing our work. I reccomend you all buy tickets It's going to be bomb.

And all in the meanwhile I will be getting in shape for Field Hockey. I have to start doing intervals in hawaii (which sucks, because I don't want to have to bring workout stuff...bluh)...and start running the track here at the highschool next to my house. I will KICK ASS this year in field hockey. I swear it.

And I got a 31 on my ACT this time round. perfect reading score (36), 34 writing, 27 math and 27 science..which is AWESOME. seriously. I am so proud of myself. I am now basically in whatever college I wish to go to.

Enjoy your midsummer nights' dreams.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13341166/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13341166/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 12:50:18 PDT
Amazing, seriously.
Again, awesome.
Forserial!

kay, that's all! ]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13327741/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13327741/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 09:56:18 PDT
Also.
I had a dream last night about school. Lately I've just been having horrible nightmares about my brothers and my father, but last night I had the best dream EVAR.

and it's pathetic, because it was about school. I was in school. With gottlieb and it was long block.

*sighs* I'm hopeless, aren't I?

Well. I am also in love with Jason Mraz. Shhhhhhh. Don't tell him. Hahahaha!

Hope all of your summers are going well so far!

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13251409/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13251409/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 11:14:47 PDT
and I have three job interviews lined up, and I already know I'm hired at elitches as long as I pass the drug test *snerk*.

And I'm getting my cruiser bike today! Thus saving gas money for other stuff! and yeah!

aaannnddd damnit there are so many hot guys in the world.
Buh.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13226382/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13226382/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 10:40:58 PDT
Yeppers.

and. I'M A SENIOR BABY.

'08.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13057395/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/13057395/ Tue, 22 May 2007 22:55:05 PDT
And I'm glad to be one of them now

The Writers Nook

Once I figure out how to put there Icon on here, I will. But I'm not too tech savvy.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12971601/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12971601/ Tue, 15 May 2007 22:06:24 PDT
Doozie attacked Sophie. Freaking A. I almost bought a beagle puppy. My hair is really long. Things that remind me of Elena make me laugh hysterically. Spiderman 3 sucked major balls. I've grown an inch and I'm still stretching. I have a stalker, for serious. I am still looking for a Quidditch team, because I would rather not be Madam Hooch at all the practices and games. When I found out the Democratic National Convention is in Colorado, I died a lot on the inside. I took a quiz and it told me I'm a part of the Constitution Party lololololol :rotfl:. I STILL haven't filled out my tax forms so my dad can pay his taxes on my account, bwahahaha. I know who I'm going to kiss next, and that's exciting. Gas is WAY too fucking expensive these days.

And, last, but not least:

"Can I see everyone after assembly, we have a HUGE SAC meeting today." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I love that. IMAPROUDMEMBEROFSAC! GREAT, BIG SAC! hahahaha.

and: "those are cool shoes, dori.....*looks her in the face...they're hot"-Cassandra
"reign it in, cassandra. Somebody's feeling extra-gay tonight."

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12869114/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12869114/ Sun, 06 May 2007 21:16:08 PDT
My summer is going to KICK. ASS. majorly. I'm soooo excited.

Maui? Check. Job? Check. Elitches season pass? Check. Playwriting workshop? Check. tan? Check. Family? Check. MY FATHER MOVING? CHECK. Belly-dancing classes? Check. College visits? Check. Uhhhmmmmmmmmmm yes!!

I'm also terribly excited for senior year. And for finals. And for taking the SAT II subject tests. And for taking the ACT test again. Hahaha, nerd much?


AND. uh. I'm officially at the part of my life where I can look back on all the shitty things that have happened to me and laugh about them HYSTERICALLY. seriously. It's almost ridiculous how hard I can laugh about certain things. *coughs*

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12809542/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12809542/ Tue, 01 May 2007 22:07:25 PDT
I'm writing all my secrets all over it, and then putting prose/a story inbetween them all. All my secrets are in different colors, as with the prose.

I know it defeats the purpose to paste my secrets on the internet where everyone can read them, but it is also kind of liberating. On the one hand, I'm divulging a deeper part of myself, and on the other, I'm taking burdens off of my chest.

I don't know how long it's going to take, but so far it's taken about three hours. I kind of want a sketchbook page or a landscape page so I can make it a lot bigger, for some reason that'd hold more meaning for me.

But until I do all of that, I have to make the layout of what I want it to look like, which is what has taken three hours so far. I'm really excited, the more I work on it the better I feel.

So yeah, be on the lookout for that 'un!

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12783072/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12783072/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 20:09:37 PDT
Hmm... I got a 30 on the ACT, but I know I can do better, so I'm taking it again in the beginning of June.

I interviewed for the Senior Leadership Team, and that went really well. Huzzah!

Also. IHaveACrushOnThisKidIKnowWhoHasAlwaysBee nMyBestFriendAndAlwaysHitOnMe, ButIThinkIt'sTooLateAndThatHeHasACrushOnSomeoneElseN ow.

Anyway. Hmm. I'm looking for jobs on 32nd, and I signed up for a belly-dancing class during the summer and I still have to reserve my spot at the Curious Theatre Playwriting Program that's during july. I'm on the moooooove.

I'm also thinking of going on a road trip this summer...but...yeh. Dunno about that yet.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12625747/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12625747/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 21:54:34 PDT
Why?

It's not because I'm cruel and I don't feel anything. It's because signing a name saying you feel bad doesn't do anything. If I had the opportunity, I would fly out there right now and hug every family member and friend and tell them that it won't always be this bad.

None of them know we support them when we sign a bulliten going around myspace. Sure, maybe one or two will find it, but at that time so many people will have written things like, "OMG THATS SOOOOOOO SADDDD," that its authenticity will be diminished. If what happened today affected you, write a letter to the President of VirginiaTech and tell him he made a mistake when he didn't tell students to stay in their dorms. If what happened today affected you, try and find out families' names and write them letters telling them how sorry for their loss you are. Signing a myspace thing is just trying to prove to everyone else what good people you are. And I know most of you, if not all, are good people. But channel it in a way that helps.

Today reminded me so much of Columbine. Hearing the stories of eye-witnesses, friend accounts, the shots of people crying...It was like Columbine all over again. I remember I went to Clement Park and heard Al Gore speak (which is a big deal for me), and walked to all the memorials laying flowers. If I could, I would go to VirginiaTech and attend the memorial services and lay flowers on the campus.

So if what happened today affected you, don't sign a myspace petition or anything like that...Do something about it. Do something about it so it's not as difficult for the families and the friends, or so that it never happens again.

That is all.
Good night, friends.

]]> ~sporkingitup http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12584567/ http://sporkingitup.deviantart.com/journal/12584567/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 18:39:40 PDT ) AND LEARN WHAT'S REAL AND WHAT'S IMAGINED...
and because of this, I am surprised and caught off guard, in the best of ways.

And I want to snuugggllleee. But I don't think that's going to happen. Becauuusseee, well, the person in question is too pretty to snuggle with me >.<

Hee hee hee hee hee.

On another note...Um...IM SO EXCITED TO TAKE THE ACTs...does that make me a nerd? Let me think...yes.

]]> ~sporkingitup