http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:squeezil&section=today deviantART RSS for by:squeezil en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 05:35:06 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/25579862/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/25579862/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 02:44:56 PDT Aren't you proud of me? ... don't answer that.

Anywho, about the title, my cousin had a deal with me that she'd give us her old SNES (along with a few games) if I got a job, and even though I didn't really need that as encouragement I'm happy to oblige.

Super Mario World, here I come! XD

Oh yeah, and I got my tickets to the David Cook concert, I got 2nd f***ing row! I'm so excited, you have no idea! Sept. 5th can't get here fast enough.

So yeah, that's about it for now, just the two most exciting things for me right now and I felt the need to tell you people.


Well, I think I'm going to have to go to bed now, it's 2:41 in the morning and I have a horrible migraine.

Toodles!

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/25396850/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/25396850/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 14:27:55 PDT THE CRAZY TEST

[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for “hurting you"
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[x] You have run into a tree/bush.
[ ] You have been called a blond

TOTAL: 4

[ ] you know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
[x] You just tried to lick your elbow
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[ ] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen
[x] You have choked on your own spit

TOTAL: 3

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it
[ ] You type with three fingers or less (I can, but I don't think that counts)
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire (Lol, yes...)
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling

TOTAL: 3

[x] You have fallen asleep in class
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
[ ] You are told to use your ‘inside voice’

TOTAL: 4

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math (not usually, but...yeah...)
[ ] You have eaten a bug accidentally
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it
[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.

TOTAL: 4

[ ] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don’t
[x] You break a lot of things.
[x] You tilt your head when you’re confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ ] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling. (I used to)
[x] The word “um” is used frequently.
[ ] You don’t know what “um” means
[x] You say “what” and “huh” a lot.
[ ] You plan to use a calculator to add up your score for this bulletin.

TOTAL: 5

GRAND TOTAL: 23...I'm not as crazy as I thought ...then again...

Oh, by the way, I'm not "thrilled" anymore, the stupid journal just wouldn't let me change my mood...

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/25153658/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/25153658/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 00:14:38 PDT
But seriously, just wanted to let those of you who care know that I took some new pictures recently (mostly flower and sky shots, big surprise) and as soon as I edit them I'll have those up, probably late next week or something.

Also, (random) I'm super excited because school ends next week (hence why late next week for the pics), I have finals early in the week and then I'm done for the summer! Well, done with school anyway, I still have to get a job, but I'm happy about that because it means I'll actually have money for once, yay!

So...yeah, that's what's kind of new with me...just in case you were wondering. Probably not, but now you know anyway!

~N.S.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/24417788/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/24417788/ Sat, 02 May 2009 21:26:12 PDT
I'm participating in the Race For Hope, D.C. as a virtual runner for Team David Cook this year and I really would like your support.

Race For Hope - DC is a 5K run/walk that goes through the streets of Washington D.C. every year. It benefits both the National Brain Tumor Society and Accelerate Brain Cancer Cure. Race For Hope is currently in its twelfth year and over the years has raised millions of dollars to fund the research and support services of brain tumors. It is one of the largest fundraising events in the country for the brain cancer community.

Currently, Team David Cook has raised over $65,000 alone. Our newest goal is $75,000. We have met all of our previous goals, please help us to reach this one!

The Race is on May 3rd so we only have nine days left to complete our goal, you don't have to give an arm and a leg, but a little bit can go a long way.

You can donate by going here: My Donation Page

For more information on Race For Hope - DC you can visit their homepage here.

EDIT:
We have now raised over $72,000!! We're #2 in ranking of most money raised for the cause! We're so close now, just a bit more and we'll meet our goal of $75,000!

EDIT #2:
OMG, we made the #1 team!! We've now raised over $93,000!! I'm so proud, David Cook fans kick so much ass!

Thanks for reading, and once again I hope you'll help support my efforts in this great cause!

~N.S.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/24313305/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/24313305/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 18:45:16 PDT David-Cook-fans

/shameless-self-promotion

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/24133526/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/24133526/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 16:59:06 PDT
-N.S.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/20043921/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/20043921/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 15:08:09 PDT
I'm planning on taking down all of my art, it just doesn't seem right to leave it after I'm gone. So sorry if you have any favorites on any of my stuff.

Oh, and if any of you do want to keep in touch you can find me on Myspace as Squeezil.

Thanks all, take care.

-N.S.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/19541652/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/19541652/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 17:26:34 PDT

INSTRUCTIONS:
1) Put your music player (iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc) on shuffle.
2) Put in whatever songs that comes up in the question.
3) No cheating!
4) Tag 5 people.

If you reached the top of Mount Everest, you would scream:
Song: Worry Rock
Artist: Green Day
Comment: ...?

The next time you stand up in front of a group of people, you'll say:
Song: Glokenpop
Artist: Spiderbait
Comment: Okay...

Your favorite thing to say when drunk is:
Song: Apologize
Artist: One Republic feat. Timbaland
Comment: That's fitting.

Your message to the world:
Song: Selfish Man
Artist: Flogging Molly
Comment: O_o I'm not a man...or selfish...

When you think of your best friend you think:
Song: You Caught Me Spankin' It
Artist: Stephen Lynch
Comment: >_<

Your deepest secret:
Song: Solitude
Artist: Black Sabbath
Comment: Well...I suppose so

Your innermost desire:
Song: Your Song
Artist: Ewan Mcgreggor
Comment: Um...sure?

Your oldest memory makes you think:
Song: Why Am I So Romantic?
Artist: Harpo Marx
Comment: Well, yeah actually, it kind of does.

Somewhere in your wedding vows, you'll include:
Song: Reach Out
Artist: Cheap Trick
Comment: Oh, I hope not...

On your deathbed, you'll whisper:
Song: I Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore
Artist: REO Speedwagon
Comment:

Your friends say behind your back:
Song: Hold
Artist: Axium
Comment: Okaay...?

You say behind your friends' back
Song: All I Have To Do Is Dream
Artist: The Everly Brothers
Comment: Depends on the friend...O_o

Your opinion of MySpace:
Song: What Is Love
Artist: Haddaway
Comment: Uh...no.

When you wake up in the morning, you mutter:
Song: Friendship
Artist: Tenacious D
Comment: Hmm...maybe.

If you found yourself lost on a desert island, you'd yell:
Song: Once Around The Block
Artist: Badly Drawn Boy
Comment: Well, it'd keep me occupied 'til I die of hunger

Right now, your feelings are:
Song: Rythmn Of The Falling Rain
Artist: The Cascades
Comment: Sure, why not.

What's your excuse for reposting this:
Song: 'Round Here
Artist: Counting Crows
Comment: I suppose that's more or less true, depending on how you look at it.

Your life's soundtrack:
Song: If I Could Change The World
Artist: Eric Clapton feat. Baby Face
Comment: Damn straight!

The day you fall in love will be the day that:
Song: Camping Next To Water
Artist: Badly Drawn Boy
Comment: Perhaps

You Scream During Sex:
Song: Le Bateau Blanc
Artist: Karol
Comment: I find it difficult to believe that I'd scream in french...but okay.

Your farewell message to the readers of this:
Song: Plastic Jesus
Artist: Dead Kennedys
Comment: Ha! Indeed.

I Tag: Whoever feels like it!

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/19528264/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/19528264/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 23:15:52 PDT () Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex (do friends count?)

SO FAR: 1

Level 2
() Are / Been In Love
() Dumped someone
() Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 1

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
() Skipped Class
() Slept With A Co-worker
() Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 2

Level 4
() Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantART friends
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
() Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 3

Level 5
() Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
() Met Someone Through Internet
() Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 3

Level 6
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have (story of my life...)
() Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 6

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
() Gone mudding (?)
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 10

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves (it wasn't that great...)
() Gone Sledging (?)
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely (constantly)
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO far: 14

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt an earthquake
() Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 16

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
() Been Robbed / Vandalized
() Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 18

Level 12
() Won A Contest (I can't remember...)
() Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention
() Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 18

Level 13
() Had / Have Braces (I need them)
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
() Danced in the moonlight (probably have, but can't recall)

SO FAR : 19

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime (nothing serious)
() Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 23

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through the mud
() Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like you were dying

SO FAR: 26

Level 16
(x) Cried to sleep
() Played Cops And Robbers
() Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
() Sang Karaoke
() Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 27

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't (oh, always)
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls (once, and I got caught >_<
() Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
() Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 29

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere

SO FAR: 33

Level 19
() Crashed A Party
() Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
() Had A Wish Come True (I wish)
() Been Humped By A Monkey (random?)

SO FAR: 34

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
() Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 36

Level 22
() Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice cube
() Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 38

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
() Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel (I can't even do a regular one O_o)
() Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours (I don't really know...I don't keep track )
() Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about (I wish...)

SO FAR: 39

Level 24
() Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
() Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 41

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
() Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x) Gone Streaking (>_< Oh childhood...ugh)
(x) Visited Jail (sort of...)

SO FAR: 44

Level 26
() Played Chicken
() Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete S... ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/19358824/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/19358824/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 17:22:56 PDT
Yesterday was one of the best days of my life. I shit you not. For those of you who like American Idol and know/like the idols, this is for you. For everyone else...it doesn't really matter if you read this (and honestly, I don't care if you don't like them):

Okay, so yesterday I went to meet the buses when they came in so that I could potentially see the idols (one in particular *cough*David Cook*cough*). I know, I'm obsessed, but I don't honestly care. I got to meet all of them, and I got all of my favorites' autographs. I waited for about 5-6 hours to see David Cook...who sadly didn't come out in the afternoon but while waiting I met everyone except Ramiele, David Cook, and Syesha. I also met this really awesome David Cook fan who was around my mom's age, oddly enough, and we got to be friends and when I told her I couldn't afford to go to the show she offered to buy me a ticket! I didn't feel quite right accepting, but she insisted, so I basically got to see them live for free, it was fucking awesome.

And then after the show we went back out to meet them because they were all supposed to come out then and I got to finally meet David Cook, unfortunately by the time he got down to us he only had two minutes left and couldn't take pictures with us or give us hugs or anything, but I got him to sign my guitar, so that was really cool. Oh yeah, I also got to hug David A., Chikeze, and Syesha. I really wanted to talk to David Cook but I was so starstruck I couldn't get more than a 'thank you so much' out sadly, but he was in a hurry anyway 'cause they had to leave by midnight (it was about 11:58 when he got to us). But I did get to talk to Syesha, David A., and Kristy Lee Cook, who by the way is soo nice and a much better performer than she used to be. Not that they all weren't really nice and great performers. Oh, and if there are any David C. fans out there, he is AMAZING in concert. No exaggeration there whatsoever. Just thought you might want to know.

Weeeelll, anyway, long story short I got to meet the idols, get their autographs, and take pictures, SO, for those of you who care I'll probably post some of said pictures eventually.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/19139510/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/19139510/ Tue, 01 Jul 2008 03:31:50 PDT will contain swearing. So if you don't like that, stop reading here; unless you live in Portland, in which case scroll down to the paragraph headed with **, there's no rant, I promise.

I am so sick of this shit! My life has been going downhill since...well okay, it's been downhill for a while now, but it started to go underground (to keep with the metaphor) in the past year or two. It's not bad enough I have to deal with my ever increasing feelings of depression all by myself because I'm too poor to afford counselling and none of my friends seem to give a shit, but now I found out that I have to take TEN classes just to get my fucking diploma! Basically meaning that I have to forego starting college with my friends to finish fucking highschool. I'm really pissed about that, so pissed you can't even fucking know.
My mural is nowhere near finished and absolutely NO ONE has offered to help since school let out. I'm at my fucking wit's end here! In fact, most of my friends must be pretty damn busy cause they never seem to want to talk to me, let alone spend time with me (heaven forbid!). Which makes me feel just peachy.
Okay, I'm sick and tired of people calling me emo. FUCK YOU, ASSWIPE! If you think I'm emo, you can just kiss my ass, 'cause you don't even know what you're talking about. The stupid fucking 'emo' fad started a few years ago (to my knowledge), and I've felt like this since I was in the THIRD GRADE, you ass. So don't tell me that I need to lighten up or whatever, it's not that fucking easy! I hate it when people make fun of/don't understand people with depression. Depression isn't something that you just have one day and then the next day you're happy again; it's something that lingers with you for several years, possibly your entire life. It slowly eats away at you, bit by bit, until there's nothing left (often literally, depending on the person). If you've never had it you couldn't possibly understand the stabbing pain that you feel whenever you're alone, the heartwrenching grief that you feel for no reason at all, and the uncontrolable sobbing that ensues late at night when you can't sleep; so don't tell me that you know what I'm going through, and please for the love of god don't tell me that everything will be okay. Nothing will be okay. How could you possibly know that?. Right now all I fucking hear are lies and disappointments, I kind of hate people as a whole right now, including myself most of the time.
Included in my little 'hating of everyone' is a certain person of my accquaintence (who shall remain nameless) that I used to consider a good friend, but now I'm not really sure what to think of them. For approx. three-four months they've been acting as though we barely know each other, despite the fact that we've been friends for several years. I used to feel like I could trust this person, but now I think I'd rather just forget them. You see, this isn't the first time this has happened, and I've had just about all I can take of their shit. I realized, in retrospect, that the main reason I tried so hard to make our friendship work was that I saw this person as somewhat of a little-sibling type, and I guess I felt the need to be there for them, protect, and help them, you get the picture. But apparently they'd rather spend their time with someone who mocks and berates them on a daily basis, and who even believes them to be stupid (which I know they are not, though they sure as hell act like it!), which I personally can't stand. Obviously I still have feelings for this person, but colder is the heart left untouched, eh? I wouldn't be surprised if soon I disliked them all together.

**Oh, and on a different note, if anyone from Portland knows about a free/sliding scale mental clinic in or near town could you let me know? If you do that'd be really helpful, as unlikely as it is.

Well, I suppose that's the end of my rant...I don't know if that'll help or not, but I needed to say it.

3:34am, Naomi S.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/18781680/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/18781680/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 10:08:12 PDT
In other news...I'm painting a mural at my school...or my old school(?) I guess, and when I'm (finally) done I'll take pictures and let y'all see Oh, and to my friends that live in Portland, if you feel like being nice I'd appreciate help with that

Other than that I've been ok I gue...well, okay, no. I haven't been ok. Not really, but maybe with summer will come a new, better take on my situation? ....I sure as hell hope so.

That's all for now folks, Tune in next time!

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/16970132/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/16970132/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 22:20:12 PST RULES:
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you.


1. The age you will be on your next birthday: 19


2. A place you'd like to travel: Ireland; Ireland Abandoned.


3. Your favorite place: Oregon; Multnomah Falls, Oregon.


4. Your favorite object: My black-sheep pillow case; White Lily


5. Favorite food: Scalloped potatoes with cheese; Dinner


6. Your favorite animal: My fish; If I were a fish.


7. Your favorite color: Red; Little Red Riding Hood.


8. The town/state/etc in which you live: Portland, Oregon, USA; Morning In Portland.


9. Name of past pet: Leo


10. A dream come true: To be loved in return; Waiting.


11. Your nickname/screenname: Squeezil; Moji


12. Middle name: Rose; Morning Rose


13. Favorite Smell: Old Books; Some old books.


14. Bad habit of yours: Paranoia


15. Your first job: Babysitting; Babysitting


17. What are you doing right now? Watching American Idol; Your American Idol.


18. Whats The Weather Like? Nice for winter; Winter I


19. Favourite Sport: Soccer; Beach Soccer 2


20. Favourite Music/Style/Band: Alternative Rock; Retro Summer.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/16098567/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/16098567/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 18:19:45 PST
And now for something completely different! (I love Monty-Python ) My birthday is in two days!! My eighteenth birthday to be exact! I'm so excited I'm having just a nice family birthday on my actual birthday and then on the weekend I'm gonna do something special with a few select friends. It should be pretty fun. Turning eighteen is so much better than turning sixteen, you can do so much more (vote, buy porn, etc.), hence my excitement.

Well, anyway, I just wanted to check in, hope those of you who celebrate holidays had good ones, and otherwise had a good day, I'll talk to you later!

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/15450873/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/15450873/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 15:02:48 PST beblue.

QUESTIONS ABOUT YOU
What made you start dolling?

Well, deviantArt, actually. If I remember correctly I was browsing one day and happened to stumble across a stunning piece of pixel work and I was instantly fascinated. I looked more into it and found that it was quite fun, and not too difficult (though my beginning dolls were crap, but that's what practice is for, right?)

How long have you been dolling?

Hmm...About, two years, give or take a few months.

What's the first doll site that you discovered?

I think it was Pinkland, because those were the first bases I ever used. I loved her stuff back then.

What program do you use?

I'm still using M.S. Paint, but I like it. Any other program is weird to me.

What kinds of bases do you like?

I like whatever suits my needs, to be honest. I usually go for somewhat realistic bases, not completely realistic because they're too complex. I sometimes like chibi bases, but only occasionally.

What are your favorite things to doll?

My friends, and myself mostly. Pretty much anything that's midly realistic, or that displays human nature.

What do you hate to doll?

Hmm...Hair, for one. It's still tough for me, though I'm getting better at it. Shoes often give me trouble, and I still need to work on creases/folds in clothing. As for actually types of things that I don't like I'd have to say there's few things I don't, but probably some fantasy type things aren't really very interesting to me to draw. I don't like doing "dark" or gruesome dolls, ones involving blood and gore and/or anything else of the sort.

ABOUT THE ART
What is your favorite doll of yours?

At the moment, I'd have to say the one that I have here titled as One Smart Cookie, though I think one of the ones I'm currently working on will probably take it's place soon.

What is your least favorite doll?

Probably this one that's in my scraps: Leo. I hated it even when I first made it, it just didn't turn out right.

Link to three of your favorite dolls by other people.

I think this may have been one of the pieces that first inspired me to get into pixel art in the first place.

If you like Star Wars and have a sense of humor than =BeautifulOblivion (a.k.a. Terence) has the perfect piece for you! Check it out

And I suppose the last one would have to be "Smexy Purple Princess" by ~Jethyn The detail is great, and the colors are just purdy :3

TAGS
Tag three people who you would like to see fill out this meme.

I tag: No one. I don't really have any friends on here who are dollers

Link to the person who tagged you!
I wasn't tagged

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/15383904/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/15383904/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 20:47:12 PST Oh yeah, stolen from *Rimfrost by the way, check her out, she's pretty cool.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you said? Nothing, I don't talk much that early in the morning.

2. When is the next time you will make out? Umm...well, I suppose that would be the first time I do, whenever that'll be

3. What's a word that rhymes with "LUCK"? Well we all know the obvious answer, so I'll go with "stuck".

4. What's your favorite planet? Saturn!! Definitely, or Earth, since it is my home after all

5. Who's the 4th person on your missed calls list? Jenny.

6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone? I don't really have one (I can't get special ones 'cause they cost extra ).

7. What shirt are you wearing right now? My super cozy night-shirt that is way to big for me and says "Dude, I like what I like" on it next to three little ducks where two are the same and one is different, it's cute.

8. What do you "label" yourself as? Insecure? I don't really understand the question I guess; if you mean it in terms of which social group I identify best with, then nothing really.

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? Phht..like I'd wear shoes around my house! Socks all the way baby!

10. Bright or dark room? I prefer colors inbetween light and dark, too bright bugs me and makes me feel a little too girly, whereas dark colors kind of make me feel either depressed or like people will think I'm emo or something (though at the moment my room is completely white..yuck)

11. What do you think about the person who last took the survey? I thinks she's pretty awesome, and I love her comics!

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on? Depends on the beds really...

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping. I went to bed early 'cause I had a headache >_<

14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say? "Bye. Talk to you later."

15. What just so happens to be the best song in the world? How could I possibly answer that?! I love way too many songs to choose...

16. What's a word or phrase that you say a lot? "Yessums", "Shpank you dahling" or "Oh my Ty!"

17. Who told you they loved you last? Probably Jenny.

18. Last furry thing you touched? I'm not really sure...maybe Ty's hair? That or one of my cats.

19. How many drugs have you done in the past 3 days? Psh, drugs are for losers, and you know it

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? None, I have a digital camera

21. Favorite age you have been so far? Hmm...probably either five or my current age.

22. Your worst enemy? ...I don't think I have one, at least I'd hope not I can think of one person who may fit that category, but I wouldn't say it here.

23. What is your current desktop picture? The picture that I have as my featured piece.

24. What is the last thing you said to someone? "Yes actually, they can."

25. Do you love someone? I think so, but love is a hard thing to define (especially when one is so young) and besides, they don't feel the same way.

26. Last song you listened to? "The Worst Day Since Yesterday" by Flogging Molly. Technically I'm still listening to it, it's just paused so I can watch "The Simpsons" ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/15322546/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/15322546/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 19:37:41 PDT Someone's recently come into my world who makes me look at things very differently, not necessarily always in a good way mind you, but different nonetheless. This has caused me to rethink several aspects of my life, such as why it's so important to me to have everything perfect, or why I feel the need to hold against people things that happened long ago (getting back to the grudge thing).
I've been feeling the odd need to reconnect with a person that I used to hang out with (I don't know if I'd call us friends per se, more like friendly acquaintances.) but then everytime I feel that way I remember all the reasons why we're no longer on friendly terms. I guess that this person who's changing my view on things is making me feel that I need to be a better person. Which is a good thing, but at the same time it makes me wonder if that means I'm a bad person. I often feel that way, but deep down I know that my intentions are good, even if it doesn't always appear so.
It's funny how one seemingly small change in your life can have such a major impact on your perception of the world, and of yourself.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/15195456/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/15195456/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 22:25:32 PDT So long folks.

*Edit*
Wow. No one responded...at all. That makes me feel better...

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14861513/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14861513/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 18:04:06 PDT However, I have yet to select a decent name for it. That's where you guys come in! Any suggestions are welcome, so please give me some ideas, they can be as crazy or weird as you like, in fact I might like those better! I may even throw in a prize for whoever gives me the name I choose...just a thought there (prize most likely being whatever you'd like me to doll for you.)

*Edit*
Alright, since I wasn't clear enough before, this website is going to be mostly a showcase of my pixel artwork, and possibly some of my poetry/other artwork as well.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14510290/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14510290/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 22:37:49 PDT

In other news...

I've been busy with my dolling efforts lately, I'm currently working on at least three or so different dolls, two of which are for contests I'm really having a lot of fun with it all.

In short, life is good for the time being.

*Edit*
I'm not entirely sure why my journal looks fucked up, but it's unintentional.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14137602/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14137602/ Sun, 12 Aug 2007 18:15:56 PDT [x] Mother
[x] Father
[ ] Step-Father
[ ] Step-Mother
[ ] Step-Sister
[ ] Step-brother
[ ] Brother
[x] Sister
[ ] Nephew
[ ] Niece
[x] Cell phone
[ ] Own bathroom
[x] Own room
[ ] Swimming pool
[ ] Hot tub
[ ] Guest room
[x] TV
total so far: 6

[ ] Fullsize or bigger bed full
[ ] More than 8 pairs of shoes
[ ] Sunglasses
[ ] Watch
[x] MP3 Player/iPod that works well
[x] PS2 that works
[ ] Xbox that works
[ ] Nintendo DS or PSP that works
[x] Gameboy/ Advance
[ ] Gamecube
total: 3

[ ] Basketball hoop
[ ] Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[ ] Ping pong table
[ ] Fooseball table
total: 0

[x] Nightstand
[ ] Stereo in bedroom
[ ] DVD player in bedroom
total: 1

[ ] Job
[ ] Goes shopping at least once a week
[ ] Expensive cologne/perfume
[ ] AIM/MSN
[x] Camera or phone
total: 1

[ ] Electric or gas scooter/motorcycle/car
[x] Guitar/Drums/Bass guitar
[ ] Piano/Keyboard
[ ] Any other instrument
[ ] Been on a cruise
[x] Traveled out of the province/state
[ ] Had a personal trainer
[x] Expensive jewelery
[ ] Met a celebrity
total: 3

[x] Straightener/curling iron
[ ] Have been to a batting cage
[ ] Have $100 on you right now
[ ] Credit card or atm card or debit card or bank card
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Been to NYC
[ ] Been to LA
[ ] Been to Florida
[x] Been to Las Vegas
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
[ ] Been to South America
total: 2

[x] Parents have a car
[ ] Jet Ski/boat
[ ] Camper
[ ] Been to 5+ states in the US/ 3+ provinces in Canada
[ ] 100+ buddies on facebook/myspace
total: 1

[] Home cooked meal almost every day
[ ] Been in a limo
[ ] Been in a helicopter
[x] own a digital camera
[ ] Own a laptop
total: 1

grand total:::
1-22 = Ghetto
23-33 = Average kid=
34-44 = Spoiled
45+ = Upper Class snob

Well folks, apparently I'm ghetto.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14057408/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14057408/ Tue, 07 Aug 2007 10:02:39 PDT
Are you a vegetarian?: No, I like meat.

Do you believe in Heaven?: I believe that you have the ability to make heaven for yourself, but not that it's an actual place (duh).

Have you ever come close to dying?: Not to my knowledge.

What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: The silver ring my dad gave me when I was twelve, and my Pentacle.

Are you eating?: Not at the moment.

Do you eat the stems of broccoli: Broccoli is gross.

Do you wear makeup?: Only on special occasions (prom!)

Would you ever have plastic surgery?: No!

What do you wear to bed?: In the summer I just wear a baggy shirt and underwear, but when it's cold I wear pajama pants too.

Have you ever done anything illegal?: Yeah, but nothing too bad.

Can you roll your tongue?: ...I think?

Do You have a boyfriend or girlfriend?: No.

Do you believe in Abortions?: Yes, depending on the circumstances.

What is your Hair color?: Mostly a medium brown color, with natural highlights of blonde and red, and with blue dyed bangs

Future child's name, boy and girl?: Boy: James. Girl: ?

Do you smoke?: Nope.

If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?: Everywhere.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: Rarely.

If you won the lottery, what would you do first?: Hmm...give some to my mom, she needs it more than I do.

Gold or Silver?: Silver, I guess.

Hamburger or hot dog?: Hamburger.

If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?: I think I'd go insane if that happened.

City, beach or country?: Country, but with trips to the city.

What was the last thing you touched?: The keyboard, duh.

Where did you eat last?: Here.

When's the last time you cried?: Hmm...last night (at a movie though...not because of...life or whatever. )

Do you read blogs?: No, they bore me.

Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?: I think I have before...so, yes.

Ever been involved with the police?: Somewhat.

What's your favorite shampoo/conditioner and soap?: Herbal Essence. I don't like bar soap, if that's what your asking.

Do you talk in your sleep?: I'm not sure.

Ocean or pool?: Hmm...depends on the pool, I don't much care for the ocean, but public or over-chlorinated pools bother me.

What's your favorite song at the moment?: Just play me a love song and I'm happy.

Have you ever had a cavity?: Heh, yeah.

Window seat or aisle seats?: Window.

Ever met anyone famous?: I don't think so...

Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?: Not exactly...not yet.

Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: Who cuts their spagetti?

What is your favorite sport to play?: Something where I don't have to move much, i.e. Goalie position or tennis or some crap like that.

Basketball or football?: Uh...Basketball unless it's not American football...but even then I'd only watch.

When was the last time you went to the bathroom?: I don't check what time I go to the bathroom at, ya' weirdo.

Do you drive a stick?: I don't drive.

Are you self-conscious?: Sometimes.

Have you ever given money to a bum?: I think so, but I don't make a habit of it.

Have you been in love?: I don't know really...but I truly doubt it.

Where do you wish you were?: Somewhere else...

Who is the 1st person your top 8?: When I HAD a myspace, it was my best friend, but I lost interest and left. (whoohoo!)

Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?: Heehee...yes^^

Can you tango?: You could say that.

Last gift you received?: I don't really remember...

What occasion did you receive your gift?: I don't know.

Last thing you spent lots of money on?: I don't know.

Where do you live? Portland.

Last wedding... ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14029597/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/14029597/ Sun, 05 Aug 2007 14:02:05 PDT 1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the "next" button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in parenthesis after the song name.
5.Put this in your journal.


If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say,
"The Bitch Song" (...Okaay...)

How would you describe yourself?
When You Believe (Why can't they make sense?!)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
We Can Work It Out (Yeah...I guess.)

How do you feel today?
Breakdown (Hmm, no, not really.)

What’s your life’s purpose?
Night and Day (back to not making sense I see.)

What is your motto?
Winter Wonderland (...ehh)

What do your friends think of you?
When You Say Nothing at All (What, they like me better that way?)

What do you think of your parents?
Serenade for Winds (?)

What do you think about very often?
Edmond and Edward (Who? O_o)

What is 2+2?
The Scheming song (...)

What do you think of your best friend?
For The Taking (Hmm)

What do you think of the person you like?
Dawn on a Funeral Day (Innteressting....)

What is your life’s story?
Minuet in G (Damn straight!)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Amish Paradise (...I had no idea O_O)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
One of my Lies (...Maybe...?)

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Maria (Well, that wouldn't be SO bad)

What will they play at your funeral?
Nice Guys Finish Last (Haha...that's good.)

What is your hobby/interest?
America the Beautiful (Hardly.)

What is your biggest fear?
Jungle Boogie (<_< >_> Oh noes!)

What is your biggest secret?
Unforgettable (Well, I should think so.)

What do you think of your friends?
Reflection (...Huh?)

What will you post this as?
Here Comes Santa Claus. (Oh, hell yes. )

Now you have to choose 5 people that you tag

Whoever damn well feels like it.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/13990812/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/13990812/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 18:29:45 PDT
For you Star Wars fans I'm doing a Luke Skywalker doll just for fun, and I'm doing a request for a friend that I might also put up, among other things. That's about it for now, I'll be back in a day or two.

-Naomi.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/13349459/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/13349459/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 23:14:17 PDT

That's really all for now.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/13309998/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/13309998/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 22:46:08 PDT
1. I have a compulsive habit of rearranging things by size.
2. I'm paranoid about everything.
3. I like classical music and some opera.
4. I'm a born romantic.
5. My left boob is bigger than my right.
6. I'm scared of my basement.

You can do it if you want, but you don't have to:
Jenny
Kauri
iSee-Spots
Etsugua
Julie
tropikali

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/13208780/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/13208780/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 22:58:23 PDT
Looks like I'll probably be moving sometime in July, we're not really sure yet though. I finally got to see the house, but only from the outside because the guy that currently owns it still lives there. It's so weird to be leaving this neighborhood after all this time, but there isn't anything I can do about it. I just try not to think about the whole thing, whenever my mom brings it up I just kind of tune her out. I know I should try to get used the the fact that we have to go, but I just...can't, not yet anyway.

Well, my dance class performed on friday and it was awesome! I had so much fun, despite how hectic it was to change between dances. And I got a lot of compliments on my dancing afterwards.

I guess that's all for now. Bye.

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]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12893872/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12893872/ Tue, 08 May 2007 22:36:44 PDT
How do you tell someone you love them?...I mean, how would you word it?

Any help would be great...if you don't really know either than thanks for attempting I guess...and if you don't care that's fine too.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12782190/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12782190/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 18:52:05 PDT
Oh yeah, I almost forgot to tell you! I got a brand new digital camera today and it's fucking awesome, so expect some pictures from me soon

Tha's all for now folks.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12773010/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12773010/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 00:06:52 PDT WARNING: This Rant Was Written So I Could Get Something Off My Chest, I Suggest Ignoring It. But If You Do Read It, Don't Bother Commenting On It Please.
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How do you say "I love you" without actually saying "I love you"? If you say "I have a crush on you" it sounds childish and unimportant, if you say "I like you" it seems you don't like them enough, if you flat out say "I love you" then you like them too much. And if you say "I have feelings for you" then you just sound like a yuppie. So it comes right down to it, how do you say that, without actually saying it? Would you say anything at all, or should you just make some outstanding gesture that lets them know? Sometimes I wonder what it's all for, what it's all about. Why do we do it? Why do we put ourselves through it? Love is curious thing. You never know just what will happen until it's too late. Sometimes I wish that I didn't have to do it, that I could just watch everyone else act like idiots...but I can't help myself, it just happens, sweeping me up in it until I don't know what's up, down or sideways. Then it drops me on my ass every time. It's a funny thing really, I never learn. But then I suppose that goes with the territory when you're a hopless romantic. That natural naivety will be my downfall, I know it. Oh well, what can ya' do? I'd better stop now before I go on too far, because I know I'm quite capable of such rambling. So if you actually read this, congratulations, this is the end. You made it.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12223313/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12223313/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 18:28:32 PDT My dad's new girlfriend adopted this adorable little siamese kitten, and he's so sweet, but pretty shy.

I'm going to try to work on some new stuff to submit soon, but it's still mostly in the thought process right now. Mostly it'll be pixel stuff, but who knows, maybe I'll do something else.

So, I guess that's all that's really going on with me lately, see ya.

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12054956/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/12054956/ Sun, 04 Mar 2007 13:59:27 PST Sorry to anyone who actually noticed I was gone, or if any of you were wanting me to do something for you...uh..I'm really, really sorry? I know that doesn't help. But, it's worth a try...right?

Well, I guess I'll try to come on a little more often later, but right now I have a shitload of stuff to do, so toodles! I'll see ya in about a week XD

]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8925380/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8925380/ Tue, 30 May 2006 22:18:22 PDT
Sorry, I won't bother you with my petty concerns any longer.

Besides those things I feel pretty well actually, all in all I'm a hell of a lot better than I was last month. Compared to that, I feel great! I recently started to practice piano more (yay!) something I've been meaning to do for quite some time, I just never had the proper means to do so, until now. And thanks to the inspiration of my english teacher and the IPRC as well as a few assorted writers, I've been motivated to create my own zine, which already has what I like to refer to as a prototype. It might be considered the first issue, but it's really small and not as complex as I'd like, so I'm going to redo it and call that the finished product. I feel like I can actually accomplish things now, it's a wonderful feeling.

All of the sudden I can see at least two major goals for me that are actually within my grasp currently and I think I'm gonna go for it, there's only one thing that might hold me back, and I'm thinking that whether I like it or not it's slowly slipping out of my life. So soon there'll be nothing getting in the way of what I really want to do with my life. Yippee.

Well sorry about the long rambling, and thanks to anyone who actually bothered to read it.

See ya' people. ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8556089/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8556089/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 23:28:04 PDT ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8407342/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8407342/ Sat, 08 Apr 2006 11:25:07 PDT
So here goes:

1. When I'm all alone I sing constantly.

2. I love erotic prose (for it's in depth detail, not for...well, you know).

3. I like going to school (ok, it's not that weird, but hey )

4. When I'm particularly nervous or anxious I tend to chew on or bite things.

5. Weekends make me sad.

6. I always enjoy hearing about small children that swear or do/know other things that most people think they shouldn't at their age.

Umm...Yeah, you don't have to if you don't want to, but here:

~garytheduck
~willuholdme
~ScatterbrainFox
~Caladbolgsama
~iSee-Spots
~Alleged-Llama

So...Um...Yeah, I'm bored. See ya. ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8329359/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8329359/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 01:20:01 PST Well, I know how to do regular tags and everything, but for some reason when I tried to change the font for my story it didn't work. Either I'm just stupid or there's something I left out so if anybody knows what that might be please let me know. ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8107163/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8107163/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 20:25:04 PST
First off, I want to know if any of you have heard of a band called Shinedown? They are an extremely gifted bunch of guys and I love 'em a lot. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not some creepy fangirl or anything, but I think that if you're interested and have the time that you should stop by their site and check them out because they aren't very well known and I think they deserve a bit more recognition.

If you'd like, the site is www.shinedown.com

Anywho, for those of you who care, I might be submitting some new drawings soon, but they'll probably go to my scraps unless I really like them a lot. And there also might be a new doll or two, we'll see.

I'm thinking of taking requests and maybe even commisions (that is if I can figure out the whole payment issue, by the way, if you can help me with ideas I'd love it! Just note me ^^) But of course, since I'm still not nessecarily very good at that sort of thing they'd have to be not too demanding or anything...However, I'm still only thinking about it so it's not for sure yet. ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8023305/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/8023305/ Mon, 27 Feb 2006 22:53:04 PST
It has recently been brought to my attention by that little bird that brings new insights that I have been far too careful where I place each step, for far too long. I'd gotten so used to it that I hadn't even noticed how bad it's become. It seems that all of the sudden everything (and almost everyone as well, ehem, you know who you are) is telling me to just jump off the ledge and try not to think about whether or not there will be a pair of arms to catch me.

I'm not sure I remember how to take a leap of faith, to put it simply. I've been the same quiet, cautious little person for so long, I don't know what it's like to be different anymore...It's sort of sad really...But...Maybe, just maybe if I have a tiny push in the right direction I won't fall flat on my face?...I'm not sure...But, then again, I can't stay this way forever...And perhaps this is just what I need to finally get to that locked door that I've often walked past, longing to know what was on the other side, and finally have it open up and let me in...

Hmm, wouldn't that be nice? ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7930260/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7930260/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 23:35:56 PST This was something in ~Tiylos's journal that I thought seemed rather important.

IMPORTANT INFO ABOUT AREA CODE
We actually recieved a call last week from the 809 area code. the woman said "Hey, this is Karen. Sorry I missed you--get back to us quickly. Have something important to tell you." Then she repeated a phone number beginning with 809. "We didn't respond".

Then this week, we recieved the following e-mail:

Subject: DON'T EVER DIAL AREA CODE 809, 284, AND 876.

THIS ISVERY IMPORTANT INFORMATION PROVIDED TO US BY AT&T.
DON'T EVER DIAL AREA CODE 809.

This one is being distributed all over the U.S. This is pretty scary, especially given the way they try to get you to call. Be sure you read this and pass it on to all your friends and family so you don't get scammed!

MAJOR SCAM:
Don't respond to Emails, phone calls, or web pages that tell you to call an "809" area Phone Number. This is a very important issue of Scam Busters becuase it alerts you to a scam that is spreading extremely quickly, can easily cost you $2400 or more, and is difficult to avoid unless you are aware of it.

We'd like to think Verizon for bringing this scam to our attention. This scam has also been identified by the National Fraud Information Center and is costing victims lots of money.

There are a lot of different permutations of this scam.

HERE'S HOW IT WORKS:

You will recieve a message on your answering machine or your pager, which asks you to call a number beginning with area code 809. the reason you are asked to call varies. It can be to recieve information about a family member who has been ill, to tell you someone has-been arrested, died, to let you know you have won a wonderful prize, ect. In each case, you are told to call the 809 number right away. since there are so many new area codes these days, people unknowingly return these calls.

If you call from the US, you will apparently be charged $2425 per-minute. Or, you'll get a long recorded message. the point is, they will try to keep you on the phone as long as possible to increase the charges. Unfortunately, when you get your phone bill, you'll often be charged more than $24,100.00.

WHY IT WORKS:
The 809 area code is located in the British Virgin Islands (the Bahamas). The 809 area code can be used as a "pay-per-call" number, similar to 900 numbers in the US. Since 809 is not in the US, it is not covered by regulations of 900 numbers, which require that you be notified and warned of charges and rates involved when you call a "pay-per-call" number.

There is also no requirement that the company provide a time period during which you may terminate the call without being charged. Further, whereas many U.S. homes that have 900 number blocking to avoid these kinds of charges, do not work in preventing calls to the 809 area code.

We recomend that no matter now you get the message, if you are asked to call a number with an 809 area code that you don't recognize, just disregard the message.

Be wary of e-mail, or calls, asking you to call an 809 area code number. It's important to prevent becoming a victim of this scam, since trying to fight the charges afterwards can become a real nightmare. That's because you did actualy make the call. If you complain, both your local phone company and your long distance carrier will not want to get involved and will most likely tell you that they are simply providing the billing for the foreign company. You'll end up dealing with a foreign company that argues they have dont nothing wrong.

Please forward this entire message to your friends, family, and colleagues to help them become aware of this scam.

Sandi Van Handel
AT&T Field Service Manager
(920) 687-904 ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7901717/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7901717/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 22:38:49 PST ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7791652/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7791652/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 15:35:43 PST She's been wondering what it's like to be noticed for a long time, as well as what it's like to really be cared about and listened to. A very gullible dreamer will believe anyone who says something kind in the presence of tears, but only a fool would let themselves fall victim to a dream like that, one which reality will soon rip apart shred by shred until all that's left are shards of a once happy life.
Do they even realize the pain they bring to her? Do they even notice her crying? Would they even care? Sometimes it's best not to know what people are really like, but if you start to believe in fantasy too closely than it will consume your mind and cloud your judgment leaving you vunerable to the most wicked of preditors: Dishonesty, deceit, mistrust, gullibilty, falsehood, frustration, depression, and last, but never least, Reality.
Fed up with the weary life she's led she finally chooses to end it all. Once the deed is done she wakes up to find that it's just another dream trying to end her pain. Tears stream down her face leaving faint traces of heartbreak. Another lonely night spent in solitude and sadness. For what is a life worth without love? ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7568231/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7568231/ Thu, 12 Jan 2006 20:25:41 PST
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As you can see (if you noticed) I solved this little problem thanks to ~FlammableAqua who pointed out a tutorial to me

You may go back to your lives now, this was mostly a waste of time, so I'm sorry ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7423789/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7423789/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 15:33:31 PST ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7412919/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7412919/ Sun, 25 Dec 2005 11:15:41 PST )

Well, how are you all today? I'm doing alright...though I have to spend the next few hours alone while the rest of my family goes to visit my uncle...I can't go, I won't go into why, so don't ask.

But I'm still happy anyway, I have stuff to keep me occupied until they get back ^^

If you've already seen my latest deviation then you already know this, but I plan to do as many of the Zodiac signs in pixels as I feel that I can, so if you want your sign done then just ask. It seemed like fun, so I'm making it somewhat of a project, only this time I think I'll actually do it (I promise those things that I said I'd do a LONG time ago will get done..sometime ..eheh..)

Well, that's it for now I think...uh, have a good day everyone! And also, a happy new year, if I don't say it later. See ya later! ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7049819/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/7049819/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 21:32:52 PST
10 things you like:
1. Music!
2. Hugs
3. My cat
4. My friends of course
5. Singing
6. Drawing
7. Water
8. Fire (playing with it too)
9. My school
10. Chai

3 things that make you happy:
1. John
2. Music
3. Drawing?

3 things that anger you:
1. Myself
2. Stupid people
3. When someone takes something for granted

10 things that you hate:
1. Little kids
2. The *bad* voice in my head
3. Someone taking something that I want/need for granted
4. Feeling invisible
5. Everyone who made my life hell over the years
6. Preppy people (sheep..baa)
7. Lies
8. Tuesdays ... erk...
9. Insecurity
10. Depression


3 facts about your name:
1. My first name spelled backwards sounds prettier than the normal way (Naomi = Imoan; as long as you don't pronounce it "I moan" that is -_-; )
2. My middle name is from my great grandma ... or something like that
3. Uhh...My name is rather uninteresting, in my opinion.

5 facts about yourself:
1. I'm a procrastinator
2. I'm a hypocrite (mostly to myself, don't worry)
3. I need to get out more...have a little fun ya' know
4. I'm extremely insecure
5. I shiver for no reason all the time.

2 things you expect (at least for now):
1. That I won't be getting much homework done over Thanksgiving vacation.
2. That I'll have to spend my (16th) birthday having dinner with my family..fuuun

4 random thoughts:
1. I'm hungry *grumble*
2. Pins are fun
3. My house is fucking freezing...
4. Is shivering for no apparent reason bad?

Song you're listening to (give artist):
Flogging Molly -- Tomorrow Comes A Day Too Soon.

Time?:
1:53am ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6948615/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6948615/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 20:14:31 PST Um...lets see, there may or may not be some new poems rolling in sometime soon...I dunno, I've been having issues lately so we'll see if I write anything But I'm actually getting help with my issues finally, which I'm quite happy about, I know someone who's a bit like a psychiatrist to a lot of people, I don't know him that well but I can tell already that he's a trustworthy guy...I think that's pretty much it for now, oh, if I don't come on for a while after this it's either one of two things, or both: 1. I have to start on my end of Trimester Portfolio work for my french and english classes *and/or* 2. I've been going through a lot of emotional/social stress lately and have been neglecting a lot of things, including deviantART.

Well, see ya ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6868069/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6868069/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 20:06:07 PDT

I just wanted to update you guys on what's been going on lately I guess...um, I've been drawing more lately and I have a couple of things that I'm going to try and submit soon, so keep an eye out for those...one of which is what I want my Halloween costume to be/look like I still haven't had a whole lot of time to work on those pixel dolls...it's starting to make me mad because I really want to finish them. I'm also going to be making a doll of the main character of my story (which I actually got some work on and might be submitting soon...maybe) I know it's been a really long time since I did anything with that story, but I'm going to try to pick up where I left off for those of you who have been waiting SOO long, I'm sorry

uhh...that's mostly it...oh yeah, I finally got a bigger room!
One that has a door and a ceiling that isn't slanted! and a new bed too. I finally have somewhere where I can get away from my family!

NOW I'm gonna go, see ya ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6761898/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6761898/ Thu, 13 Oct 2005 21:51:36 PDT Random Question of the Day:
What, in your opinion, is true love?

If you don't really believe in true love or love in general, than you don't have to answer...


Also, a little something I stole from ~Etsugua I thought it looked fun...

I AM: trapped by my own programming...
I WANT: nothing more than a little recognition.
I HAVE: so much but cannot see it.
I WISH: only for his happiness, for his smile can dry my tears.
I HATE: those few voices in my head that tell me I'm no good.
I FEAR: loosing those closest to me.
I SEARCH: for a purpose.
I WONDER: if there really is a reason, or if we're all just playing along with the game.
I REGRET: the mental abuse that I brought upon myself so many times before.
I LOVE: the only person that can really make me happy.
I AM NOT: going to hide who I really am any longer.
I DANCE: sometimes when I am alone.
I CRY: when I think all is lost or when I feel all alone.
I WRITE: when all I feel is what words could hardly explain.
I WIN: when I am lucky.
I LOSE: almost all the time.
I CONFUSE: myself and all who dare to ask.
I NEED: what I cannot explain and there for what I cannot have.
I SHOULD: stop acting one way when I think another.

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YES or NO~
YOU KEEP A DIARY: No.
YOU LIKE TO COOK: Yes.
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH
ANYONE: Yes.
YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: Yes.
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THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: Probably Max..but I do know a lot of weird people.
THE LOUDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: Jenny ( ~garytheduck )
THE CUTEST PERSON YOU KNOW: Guys: Either Max or Shea and for Girls: Seven or Talia.
CLOSEST FRIEND: Jenny ( ~garytheduck ) again
THE PERSON THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU: Besides me, Jenny again...
THE LAST IMAGE/THOUGHT YOU GO TO SLEEP WITH: Well...most nights it's probably Max
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DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: You could say that...I think it's more than just a crush though..
WANT TO GET MARRIED: Not really...but time will tell the truth now won't it?
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: No...but not a junk food junkie either.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: Yes, though they do annoy/embarrass me a lot.
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: Of course

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CURRENT...
HAIR COLOR: Brown with faded pink streaks (which will soon be blue or something more fun)
EYE COLOR: A greenish-blueish color with a little bit of brown in the middle.
BIRTHPLACE: Portland, Oregon, U.S.A.
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FAVORITE
NUMBER: 2, 7, and 13.
COLOR: Black, pink, blue, purple, green and anything neon.
DAY: Don't have one (unless you count Halloween )
MONTH: July or October.
SONG: @_@ Too many good ones to pick from...
FOOD: Yet again, too many choices.
SEASON: Summer or autumn.
SPORT: NONE.
DRINK: Alcoholic: Probably a strawberry daquiri (from the few that I've had) Non-alcoholic: Sprite.
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PREFERENCES
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: Both!
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: Hot chocolate with whipped cream
DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: Out of the two, White.
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: Vanilla-Chocolate swirl.

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IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? Nope, I haven't for quite some time now (which is good )
HELPED SOMEONE? Not sure, I seem to be good at it so maybe.
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yup, just food though.
GOTTEN SICK? Nope. ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6717013/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6717013/ Sun, 09 Oct 2005 00:04:33 PDT
Oh yeah, if I don't comment on a lot of your journals/deviations it's cause I have a crap load of them and it's gonna take a while to sort throught them all .. but I'll do it later, I just feel like going to sleep right now...I'm kinda having some problems lately...

see ya later. ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6662720/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6662720/ Sun, 02 Oct 2005 18:57:04 PDT glarawen in an attempt to get rid of my boredom...

Have you ever...

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it: Yes
2. Gotten in a fight with your pet: Yes, real and play fights. Mostly play fights with my dogs though ^_^
3. Been to California: Yesh, but it was a bit boring 'cause we went for easter to see my great aunt >_O
4. Been to Mexico: Nope, but my dad has...
5. Been to China: No
6. Been to Canada: When I was a little baby, but I don't remember.
7. Been to Europe: I wish.
8. Danced naked: Uhh...no
9. Wished you were the opposite sex: On occasion..

Random...

1. Do you have a crush on someone: Yesh
2. What book are you reading now: I'm almost finished with The Catcher In The Rye..It's actually pretty good
3. Worst feeling in the world: Loneliness... (sp?)
4. Future KIDS names: If I ever do have kids (which I hope doesn't happen) then I'd name a boy James and I dunno, I probably name the girl some weird ass name or something I like those sorts of things ^_^
5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Not really...
6. What's under your bed: I don't wanna know...icky stuff...
7. Favorite sport to watch: None.
8. Location: Uh...here?
9. Piercings/Tattoos: my ears...thats pretty much it for now.
10. Do you drink: Not really...
11. What are you most scared of: Loosing a loved one..
12. Where do you want to get married: Hmm...That question is best suited for someone who WANTS to get married.
13. Who do you really hate: Ignorant bastards.
14. Do you have a job: No, but I will in january
15. Do you like being around people: Hell no, not unless they're my friends.
16. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: All the time...sadly...
17. Have you ever cried: Of course I have...Not recently (you can thank Max for that ) but I used to a lot...and on occasion still do.
18. Are you lonely right now: Only a little, but I usually feel like this...I've been worse.
19. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: Hmm...None lately, and I can't remember anyway

Have You Ever....

1. Been in love: Umm..If you can consider the other person not feeling the same (or at least not saying it), than yes, I am right now.
2. Played strip poker: Nope, and I don't intend to because I know I'd loose (never played poker in my life)
3. Gotten beaten up: Not physically.
4. Pulled an all nighter: Yes
5. Been on radio/ TV programme?: No
6. Been in a mosh-pit: No
7. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: Yeah, a couple.
8. Skinny dipped: Yes

In the last 24 Hours have you...

1. Cried: Nope
2. Bought something: Yeah
3. Gotten sick: No.
4. Sang: Yes
5. Been kissed: No...
6. Had sex: No
7. Felt stupid: Naturally
8. Talked to an ex: Don't have one...
9. Missed someone: Yes...A lot in fact...
10. Hugged someone: Yeah, my dad.


A- Age of first kiss: Umm....Well ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6651914/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6651914/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 14:43:20 PDT glarawen's journal and I definetly wish I could find a guy like that/ would appreciate him if I knew one.

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, insane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolad... ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6651874/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6651874/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 14:37:43 PDT ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6592097/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6592097/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 17:19:42 PDT Mood:
Listenting To: Espionage -- Green Day
Reading: The Catcher In The Rye.

I got this from ~punkturedstranger It's sad that these types of things actually happen every day.


Child abuse

My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,

I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?

I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mummy
Would still want to hug me.

I can't speak at all
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.

When I awake
I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home

When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.

Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.

I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall

I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry

He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.

He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.

He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.

"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate

The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!

And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor

My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me.
--
This poem, probably made up to make a point, DOES make a point.

Child abuse isn't something that you can just ignore.

Don't think, "No one I know would do that/ is a victim of child abuse."

And if you get the chance, try to donate to Prevent Child Abuse.

You could save a life. ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6536909/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6536909/ Sun, 18 Sep 2005 12:06:19 PDT Mood: Going Insane!
Listening To: I Caught Fire - The Used
Reading: The Catcher In The Rye - J.D. Salinger.


Well, the first week of school is over, and for the most part I think it went pretty well. I got all the classes that I wanted except for Chemistry Oh well, I'll try again next year I have a little bit of homework to do in a while but I thought I'd take advantage of everyone else being asleep and get on DA to check my messages.

I haven't had a whole lot of time to work on my projects, but when I do I try to get as much done as possible.

But school isn't driving me crazy, well, not THIS time anyway. Well, there's one thing on top of everthing else going on in my life (everyone naggin me about doing better in school, getting my homework done, cleaning the house up, etc. and my family annoying the crap out of me ) that makes me crazy just to think about it. Hmm..I don't know any other way to say it other than to just go out and say it so I guess I will...I'm in love.

Yes, I said it. I know I might seem a bit young to know what the difference between love and a crush is but, believe me, I suprise even myself with all the things that I shouldn't know yet. I've had crushes on guys before, and this is different. It may just be fakey-teen-love (as I like to call it) but either way, I feel something a lot more than just a crush.

Anyway, his name is Max...I met him last year and ... yet again sort of hard to believe ... have loved him since He's probably one of the sweetest and funniest guys you'll ever meet. There isn't anything I don't like about him.

If any of you remember some of my earlier poems, there were a couple for him actually

Guardian Angel and my favorite of the two State Of Mind

The only reason I haven't told him yet is because he's always had a girlfriend ... there was a about one week where he didn't, but then he started liking this other girl who I'm sort of friends with..but we don't talk much. And a little while later they started dating so there went my window of opportunity huh? Well, they just broke up but I'm afraid that he'll find someone else before I can tell him...but I don't want to rush into anything you know? So that's been driving me crazy lately. I'm probably wind up writing a poem or something about it because it's most of what I think about this days...

Well..If you actually read all of this, thank you. I know it probably seemed long and possibly pointless...but...I needed to get it off my chest.

Well, that's the most that's going on in my life right now I guess...

Umm...Oh yeah, for those of you who don't like Green Day you can just skip ahead to the projects and all that other good stuff....

I get to go see Green Day live in about a week I'm so excited, I can't wait! I've heard so many stories of people who've gone to see them already and it's making me even more anxious Someone told me which songs they sing which was cool...I knew they wouldn't, but I really wanted them to play Dominated Love Slave, I love that song But they do play 2000 Light Years Away apparantly, which I like too.

Anyway, here's all the other crap that I put in my journals:

Current Projects:
Billie Joe: King For A Day doll.

Projects On Hold:
~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6477509/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6477509/ Sun, 11 Sep 2005 14:08:30 PDT Mystieka-Senko. I read it in her journal and though it was pretty sad, I really agree with the message at the end (not the part about re-posting it!) You don't have to re-post it if you don't want, I just felt like doing it.

Brian and Amanda have been going out for 8 months

Amanda loves brian,and wants to tell him but doesnt know how

Deep down inside brian loves her too

this is their story...

One night Brian is out with his friends at a party...after an arguement with his drunk dad.

Amanda and Brian are usually out together,but Brian this time...he went out alone.

Amanda...sitting at home worried about Brian because she hasnt talked to him all day,decides to give him a call

(Brian has already been drinking with his friends long before she calls)

...the phone rings numerous times before he finally picks up

Brian:..(talking over loud music) HELLO?

Amanda:Brian? where are you?

Brian:WHAT DOES IT MATTER...ITS NONE OF YOU'RE BUISSNESS WHAT I DO WHEN IM NOT WITH YOU ALRIGHT

Amanda:what?...what is that supposed to mean.Brian,whats going on with you i havent talked to you all day..and now you're really upset...talk to me

Brian:YOU'RE ALWAYS ON MY CASE...THATS WHATS WRONG

Amanda: i just wanna help you,because i care about you,and i dont want you to have to feel upset...because im here for you

Bian:YEAH WHATEVER

Amanda:i've been wanting to talk to you about something...seriously

Brian:WHAT NOW!

Amanda:dont get angry with me brian,its a good thing...its just something ive been wanting to tell you

Brian:WELL I REALLY DONT WANNA HEAR IT RIGHT NOW...

Amanda a tear falls from her face)..well fine,*sniffs* i wrote it in a letter for you incase i got to scared to tell you myself.

BRIAN:YEAH WHATEVER...

Amanda:alright,well ill let you cool off and ill talk to you tommorow,just call me when your feeling better

Brian:YEA SURE...(girl yelling in the background:"brian its our turn to use the bedroom,dont worry i have a condom")

Amanda:WHAT WAS THAT?!....brian what was that,what are you doing!

Brian:NOTHING

Amanda breaks down and starts crying) how could you do this to me...i lo...(she just hangs up the phone before she can finish saying it,figuring its no use telling him now)

So upset Amanda decides to call one of her friends and go out just to let loose a little bit and get her mind off of all the drama going on.

Her friend was coming from the same party brian was at,to come pick her up.

An hour later Brian recives a phone call

Brian talking over loud music)HELLO? WHAT DO YOU WANT NOW?

Ashley(amandas sister) crying) Brian?!?!

Brian:Amanda?

Ashley crying and panicking)no its Ashley her sister!,brian you have to come quick!! amanda was in a car accident...with her friend,her friend was driving drunk and they were in a head on collision

Brian:WHAT?!THAT CANT BE AMANDAS BEEN AT HOME ALL NIGHT

Ashley:SHE WAS...BUT SHE STORMED OUT OF HERE CRYING

Brian:ILL BE RIGHT THERE IN 15 MIN

Ashley:hurry shes in critical condition

Brian:IM COMIN!!

Brian arrives at the hospital and makes his way into the room that they had amanda in...and sees amandas family all hysterically crying and screaming "NO AMANDA NO U CANT BE GONE"

Brian(panting from running,tears running down his face)

Brian: amanda?!...let me in i have to see her,she needs me i know shes looking for me please just let me in

Ashley(looks up at brian and shakes her head):Shes gone brian shes gone im sorry...

brian(screaming "NOOOOOO" he falls to the floor and starts balling his eyes out)
(echoing in the distance...he hears amanda singing..just like she used to sing to him when he was sad.)

(ashley comes over to him and kneals down,and puts her arm around him,holding him as their both crying)

Ashley takes a folded piece of paper out of her pocket and gives it to brian)..

Ashley:she had this in her pocket

Brian takes it in his hand and gently unfolds it

the letter reads:

Brian my love,
In these few short months,you've become my best friend,my soulmate...my everything..you mean the world to me. I Love You Brian.I loved you from the moment I saw you,I was always scared of love before I met you.But now I realize nothing else in this world matters to me but you.When im with you all my sorrows just dissappear,and its just you and me,no one else and nothing else matters.Ive... ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6472817/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6472817/ Sun, 11 Sep 2005 01:08:27 PDT Mood:
Listening To: Don't Wanna Think About You - Simple Plan
Reading: K-PAX III -- Gene Brewer.

Arrrgg...I woke up with a cold at random this morning and it's pissing me off because school starts on monday. I HATE getting sick...it makes me even lazier than usual...and all stuffed up..arg...

But you don't need to listen to an angry sick woman babble incoherently now do you?

Anywho, like I said, school starts on monday, and I'm gonna have to do a HELL of a lot better this year to make up for last year *ehem* so I won't be on nearly as much, but I will still try to work on my upcoming "projects" as much as possible. I have to have SOME fun mixed in with all that work, right?

Umm...oh yeah, a few new projects/project ideas on the list today...but you can see that

Not much else to say really..so...uh..yeah

Current Projects
Aaralyn - teen doll.
Mike doll.
Tre` doll.

Upcoming Projects
Billie Joe: King For A Day.

Special People and Fun Clubs

That is all Ta ta my darlings ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6425752/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6425752/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 18:21:40 PDT
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Naomi
2. Nomi
3. Squeez

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Squeezil
2. Melodramatic_Fool
3. Hidden_tiger122789

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes.
2. My hair.
3. My lips..I guess

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My stomach
2. My ass
3. My legs (all typical answers>_<

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Being alone in the dark.
2. Certain types of spiders.
3. Me

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My music
2. The computer
3. My best friend ( ~garytheduck )

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. My new SP shirt
2. My favorite jeans (They have paint and sharpie writing all over them )
3. And...uhh...underwear?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Green Day!
2. Simple Plan
3. Tsunami Bomb

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. There's too
2. Many to
3. Name!!!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Trust
3. Fun

2 TRUTHS 1 LIE:
1. My room has a slanted ceiling
2. I'm very insecure.
3. I like little kids


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes
2. Cool hair (dyed, spiked, in a mohawk etc..)
3. Nice smile.

**THREE NON-PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Sense of humor
2. Intelligence
3. Sweet

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Dolling (doing pixel art)
2. Playing & listening to music
3. Playing with fire

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Something else
2. See Green Day live!! (I can't wait for the 28th!O_o)
3. Go to hot topic and buy stuff

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Artist (duh)
2. Musician
3. Chef

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Italy!!!
2. England
3. France

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Fall in love
2. Get good enough at playing the guitar to play in front of people!
3. To prove to myself and all the people that have ever put me down that I'm not a nobody!

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I like to look at/play with girls
2. I think women are annoying a lot of the time(especially me!)
3. I don't like to wear dresses>_<

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I like boys
2. I think too much before I go to sleep>_O
3. I have boobs

THREE MALE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Billie Joe Armstrong
2. Pierre Bouvier
3. David Desrosiers/Sebastien Lefebrve (I couldn't choose so I put both )

THREE FEMALE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. It's not a crush, but Agent-M's pretty hot
2. Uhh...no one else really..
3. Still no one else..

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ... ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6422773/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6422773/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 12:28:32 PDT Mood: Content.
Listening To: The t.v and my family talking.
Reading: K-PAX III - Gene Brewer.

I don't really have a lot to say actually...I've decided to post my current "projects" in my journals and I just wanted to do that. Also to let you all know the latest news on the whole jark vs spyed deal.

The legal actions talked about by both parties are finally taking place apparently, but °jark is a bit short on the money to do so...So if you're interested in helping him out then please donate something...To do that, go here.

Current Projects:
Aaralyn - teen doll
A poem called "In My World."

One's I'll Be Starting Soon:
Mike doll.
Tre` doll.

That's pretty much it I think...uh..yup, see ya ]]> ~squeezil http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6407503/ http://squeezil.deviantart.com/journal/6407503/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 17:31:35 PDT

1.YOUR STAR NAME
(name of first pet + street you live on):
Rosie Klickitat

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME
(grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack):
Joy Tomato

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME
(first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant):
Maruchan Olivegarden
4. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME
(silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied):
Nomi-rose Portland
5. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME
(first initial + first three letters of your last name):
N.Str

6. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME
(favorite animal + name of high school):
Snake M.L.C.

7. YOUR BARFLY NAME
(last snack food you ate + your favorite drink):
Pretzel Sprite

8. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME
(middle name + city where you were born):
Rose Portland
9. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME
(favorite candy + favorite musician's last name):
Pixiestick Armstrong

10. YOUR STAR WARS NAME
(first 3 letters of your last name + last 3 letters of mother's maiden name /+/ first 3 letters of your pet's name + first 3 letters of the town you live in)
Streold Tedpor

Well, that was pretty fun My answers make weird names though ]]> ~squeezil