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I know I made this same joke last year but... If you made a turducken out of tofu, would it be a tofucken? 8B!! *BA-DUM-CHH!!*

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...today! >3> I know I won't be able to last long without bootching something. If it's not comments, it'll be some Freudian slip on AIM or something. Or I'll try to act cool and then some random snot shoots out my nose. It's bound to be something completely terrible. I don't know how people can have charisma and still do things like go to the bathroom or have any bodily fluids, at all, for that matter.

I BOOTCHED THE LIFE PUZZLE!! ;o;

Sorry, that joke would only be funny to anyone who's played Puzzle Pirates. And then maybe only just. 8B

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/28226642/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/28226642/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 20:29:16 PST
Well, I got to 3,883 words tonight so I guess that's one goal achieved. LoL! Boy, my novel is so full of crap I wouldn't be surprised if the cat tries to bury it in his litter box.

Anyone else writing this month!? Don't tell me the details, but what's the genre? Mine is fantasy... I just wish it was more original.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/28156556/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/28156556/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 07:53:15 PST [link]) entails the not-so-fun part of the creative... erm... process. It is inconsolable. It is all powerful. Eat needs to eat a bag of prime, Grade A, FDA approved Hell and die.

Needless to say, I was looking at art that far exceeds my own capabilities and I again feel... SO FUCKING WORTHLESS!!

BRB, despairing forever. ;o;

In other news, I have 1,931 words for NaNoWriMo. I think by the 5th, the diligent writer should've had about 5,000 or so words. I am not diligent. In fact, I started three days late. 8B I'll be lucky if I can find the will to complete 3,000 words by the end of the week.

Heaven help us.

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I like to write.... er, type! But it's the same deal with writing as it is with drawing: people are probably going to ask to read it and I'll sit there staring at a blank page with all these fears that people will realize it's crap. Lawl!! My grammar leaves much to be desired and it'll be everything I have to not put in emoticons or "LoL" at the end of every sentence.

Why is it when I'm RP'ing with other people's characters it's always easier to get the ideas out? But when I'm on my own I just stand there like a deer in the headlights. Maybe I'll write from first person this year. The only problem with first person is to keep remembering there's no way the dude can know all that's happening around him/her/it/pudding.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/28014480/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/28014480/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 15:29:04 PDT
Not everyone can be Vampira. [link]

There's probably a super hero hospital for paraplegic characters when they get manhandled too hard. I hope your tiara of ultimate truth can fix that, princess. >3>

I'm sure most of you have heard this complaint before. But that's because it's that annoying.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/27868572/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/27868572/ Tue, 20 Oct 2009 09:15:07 PDT
It's very hard to stay positive when annually the bad news comes this time of year. Christmases have been melancholy and the cold makes me think of bad memories. It shouldn't... the cold and snow are beautiful around here. But when you've got or had depression, you lose a large chunk of your memory and usually all that remains were those pesky bad ones.

I've tried meditation, but my mind is too crowded still. So worried so that it drives the nails of anxiety into my gut sometimes. It's not as bad as it used to be, though. Some nights I used to sit bolt upright and be convinced that WorldWar III was finally upon us or that a giant meteor was going to smash down and kill us all. It sounds ridiculous when you're not already frightened, doesn't it? When you're scared, everything gets blown out of proportion.

It does nothing for your creativity, I can tell you that. And these days I'm being asked to be creative on demand. Does that make me a professional now? I don't feel like a professional, but somehow people came to believe that I am.

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Is it my name!? Is it because of my drawing preferences? Is it because I don't have a huge fan following of yes-men and ass kissers who'd be more than willing to offer me free praise for whatever bullshit I post? Is there some kind of unseen stigma I've got that makes people flat out ignore whatever comments I have that may actually be useful because someone who wasn't popular said it!?

WHAT! THE! FFFFFFFFFFU-!??

/faceplant

At this point, I don't want fame. I just want to be acknowledged.

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On that note, I'm off to work. Bleh, this work business. If I wanted the creativity bled out of me, I'd fall back into depression. >3>

...

Laugh, you stooges.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/27617437/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/27617437/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 15:12:58 PDT
Because some things you should just not submit other people to. We all deal with enough asshats and assholes and shit throughout our lives that we really don't need to rely on other people for constant and new tales about how life can just vomit on you copiously and walk away like nothing happened...

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/27335624/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/27335624/ Mon, 21 Sep 2009 09:54:38 PDT
I'm more convinced is it must be a primal, reptilian hindbrain instinct to get defensive whenever a stranger offers you new information. Then again, sometimes an asshat will give advice to another asshat. Then the proverbial shit hits the fan.

It must be something that has to be trained out of you much like a martial arts student must constantly train before they become so awesome that they can snuff out candles by merely giving them a dirty look. Does anyone ever get that awesome artistically or is it that after a time you let your reputation alone create your legends and power?

On the superhero artist scale... I suspect I'm ranked at "Barney Fife". 8B

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/27252432/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/27252432/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 19:48:41 PDT
The story was of how this group of kidnappers stole the son of a royal or noble family and enslaved him to become a performer while the others stole jewelery and money from the captivated audience. The young man had the supernatural ability to tell what any member of the audience had witnessed, been part of, or had heard of in their travels to come see the show. In the days when there was no other way to hear of the world, this probably might have been a big deal. The poor fellow was starting to look a little worse for wear and I think he was slowly going mad from mistreatment.

I dream a lot about performances that aren't as they seem. I wonder if that alone means anything.

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Everything that was convenient and easy about MSPaint, someone went "Duuhhhr, nobuddy uzes dis! *BALEET!*" to. It's saddening. So I've been using the Windows XP version running on my laptop because the one on my fancy new computer is shitty. It's got some new tools but it's too little too late and you're better off using Paint.NET if you want lots of tools with a bitmap feature.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/26604724/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/26604724/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 07:45:54 PDT
I felt obliged to update this journal, since it's almost been a month or so and this is pretty much the only journal I'm keeping at the moment. I have/had one on my personal website but I'm not sure those are even in style anymore. I can't bring myself to Twitter my soul to the Devil, so phooey on that idea. Still don't get the appeal of Twitter when there are actual places to write larger sentences. I guess people are too lazy to read more than one or two strips of text that may or may not have any grammar in them. That must do wonders for your reading skills. Lawl!

Who reads anymore, right? ...

...*weeps into hands* I'm sorry, I made myself despair.

Ya know, they have a tab for CSS styles but... it'd be nice to have a tab that listed emoticons. Are emoticons totally last century or something? I thought they were pretty much still in! D:!! Does all this make me a technological cave woman... er, cavetaur- ess..? -durst?

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/26232439/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/26232439/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 12:07:54 PDT
In other news... I'm pixel arting again. Who knows how good it will come out, but I have a few tricks up my sleeves to try.

I bought Majora's Mask for the Wii's virtual console and it's WEIRD! I didn't know anything about it going in and so far... you do everything in the span of three days - over and over again. It's really tripped out, I'm fairly certain futzing with time like that can have some seriously bad repercussions but since you're AN HERO I guess it's no holds barred. Quite frankly, Hyrule can go screw itself after so many times of saving it. >3> I'd be the Link who said "Fuck this noise!" LoL! I guess that's why I'm not in charge of saving the world.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/26064659/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/26064659/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 11:48:40 PDT [link]
I blame Supoop for sending me that!

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]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/25915907/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/25915907/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 09:02:48 PDT
Remember when people just posted ART!? ;o; Can we go back to doing that now instead of pushing all this subscription stuff down our throats? Do you need money that bad? Did you think starving artists couldn't sympathize otherwise that the site they've known for so long might be strapped for cash? Though I severely suspect they are NOT starving.

Why are people loyal to DA? Because when it works it works well. Why do people leave DA? Either some drama involving mods or typical online politics. Why is it almost all the online services I've seen start off as simple and elegant turn to fat, bloated, and corporate? It's like an inevitable curse!

And just recently I saw someone involved with DA itself make say a few things which REALLY isn't winning points on DA's behalf. No, I'm not naming any names. I don't play that way! Lately, it's almost as if you get punished or are made to feel guilty for speaking your mind on the current nature of this place. People wouldn't complain if they didn't CARE. You'll find the people who complain aren't so much trying to stir trouble as they are offering valid suggestions because they LIKE/LOVE being here.

When someone involved on DA says "all your ideas are terrible" flat out, that really makes me feel sad more than anything else.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/25815856/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/25815856/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 11:15:56 PDT
For comparison to how tiny Hubert's world was... his clone is now living inside one of the two hard drives in Lormar, my new computer. Lormar is awesome, but I feel I have somehow betrayed my beloved Hubert.

Hubert's always had power issues. He's baked about three video cards and has gone through at least two motherboards. But I love him so. I'm wondering if we could somehow stabilize his energy issues and build him up as a Linux box. His case is darling, he was a Valentine's present.

I may even make a cyberpet cosplay of my beloved Hubert. He's a yellow kitty case with a red bow for his power button and his belly button is a reset. His "teeth" is where you fit the CD ROM and he even had a separate slot for an old floppy drive.

*wails* My baby!! I played Guild Wars for the first time on my Hubert! He was my own computer, my own first computer where previously I had to share computers with either my family back home or my husband. You wouldn't think people would get attached to old machines, but I have a love and sympathy for things no one would think to love. I never cared if they were old or outdated, I like to see if we could get them to work again.

I wish I knew more about machines. I'd fill the world with robots.

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Today's got so much bad juju, I think I need a voodoo shaman to help me out. Know any shamans? Buddhist priests? Vickers? Parsons? Anything!?

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/25347260/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/25347260/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 08:48:35 PDT
When you lose and all your Pokemon, you "faint" you black (or white) out and you lose some money. But when you defeat all of a game character's Pokemon THEY don't drop over. They have this whole little shpeel where they continue on with their train of thought. They don't go "Argh, my spleen!" and fall over so you can loot their pockets and run, they're still standing! With the Elite Four, you're forced to stand there and listen to their speeches over and over again. Am I to assume when you pass out some kind soul drags your sorry ass to a Pokecenter? Because you automatically appear there!

LAWL! This is one of those instances where you just shouldn't try to make real world analogues to game mechanics. You just shouldn't try, Super Mario doesn't try! It's just got its own world rules. If you die, you fall down into the unknown and just magically appear again because you collected enough manz.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/25250929/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/25250929/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 09:11:01 PDT
Many people actually have archived recordings or old VHS tapes of cartoons that are no longer on the air in the US or any other country. So they upload it onto YouTube and people enjoy the hell out of it because there's no other way (legal or not) to view it.

If public domain is harder to attain, you'll NEVER see these cartoons brought back in your lifetime unless the current owners show a little mercy and re-release them. But all the while YouTube removes all these cartoons because of copyright law and that's where you question what's worth saying "HANG the Code!" for and what isn't.

So far I've only ever seen Fleischer cartoons and older pre-Looney Tunes and Merrie Melodies successfully stay on YouTube. Being a child of the 80's, there's a mass of cartoons I may never see again and it drives me batty that all I get now in this age of good archiving technology is some sad, vague descriptions and summaries on Wikipedia because tiny details aren't part of Wiki's formatting. Some things considered trivial are voted out by a panel of editors. I suppose that's a good thing... but then I think of how in the Hitchhiker's Guide, the Earth got boiled down to "Mostly harmless".

/headdesk

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/24890493/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/24890493/ Fri, 22 May 2009 13:03:07 PDT
I experienced it once or twice when I first joined DA. I posted up some pictures, commented on an artist of another style, then they posted something similar to "I don't go in for this, your style is too cutsey." And with the implication that they weren't interested in looking at it any further.

I kept thinking "So what?" And a little of "Why does that comment sting more than it should?"

Does that mean I'd never be able to comprehend or appreciate someone else's style or preferences? I never thought it would. I wish I could draw in more than one way, I hate being labeled or categorized. I don't like being judged purely on what I put down on ink or in pixels. In fact, I've always envied those who can draw American comic book style with so much ease. It makes me jealous and frustrated a lot of the time, but I don't say things like "Oh, I don't like that." Agreed, some styles don't thrill me, but if someone can render a piece and have the guts to post it that must account for something.

I'd love someone, or a group of someones, from different styles just take their stuff and just smash it together. The best magic happens that way, as corny as that may sound to some.

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...It gives you AWESOME SUPER POWERS at the cost of being not particularly pretty. Who needs looks when you can kick ass, right?!

I keep wondering why I got so many hits for the past two or three days when I haven't contributed to anything or posted anything. LoL Maybe it was from my favorite binge I went on collecting Pokemon images (because I R DORK).

This time there's no muse to blame because the muse ain't here. I've feel like I crawl out of one enormous sinkhole only to fall in other artistically. But I'm still looking and trying, I mean, what else can you do?

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/24090576/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/24090576/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 09:36:23 PDT Heads, shoulders,...
Knees and toes I'm okay with. It's them pesky places where joint meets socket that I still have a hard time doing. Lately, I've been working on bases in a manga style (Don't judge! Well okay, judge me, dammit, but it's for a project using a random generator and to see if I could do it without wussing out...) but I hate the way they do shoulders so I wanted to blend styles. And on skinny people, I always end up making the spot where the shoulders attach to the forearm look like little elbow macaronis are holding it there. I think Gumby has more convincing arms than my poor little lab rejects.

So today I will be thumbing through my anatomy books to attempt and fix this base I've been fist fighting with for a few days.

Attack of the The 90 Degree Tail
Why do people make anthropomorphic or humanoids with tails that seem to just fly at a 90 degree angle from the base of the spine? I always imagined they curved gently from just above the buttocks, not just "O HAI! J00 LYK TALES!??" Unless it's supposed to look intentionally like a stick-on tail, those kinds of tails really need to be popped off and allowed to regenerate with a little bit more grace. ;o;

Knees and toes...
I lied, there IS one knee and toe I'm still futzing with and that's a horse's "knee" and toe. Particularly the hind legs, because where the hip meets the upper thighbone always makes me feel like when you put all the muscles on they totally get masked and it looks like a very large chicken drumstick if you're not careful. Mmmm... CHICKENHORSE IS TASTY!

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]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/24062122/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/24062122/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 17:31:00 PDT 3> So frustrating. I want to kill it with fire and then set THAT on fire with more fire.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/24019132/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/24019132/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 07:29:50 PDT
I've been in a funk off and on, but there's nothing else to do at this point but keep looking and trying. I feel like the plant blooming wildly because there's nothing left to do but wait for butterflies and bees.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23985696/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23985696/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 13:11:32 PDT
If they make a set of rules, it'd be nice if they actually stuck to them and discussed gray areas like censorship more openly.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23905105/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23905105/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 17:53:27 PDT
...now stop bugging me! DX When I'm ready for one, I'll fecking well get it!

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23873810/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23873810/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 20:09:41 PDT
Lawl! And it seems like all I've been doing later is bitching. It's the great American pastime, I think.

In other news, I have absolutely nothing of value to post up as of yet. I've got some previous small images I'm going to compile into one large, steaming dump and post that for the time being.

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I loooooved the musical, it was perfect. The boxing scene was surreal.

I think my most favorite part of the Popeye cartoons was Popeye was always muttering and you had to catch them all each second which made it even funnier. I don't think there's any other cartoon character who can mutter like Popeye can mutter.

In other news, I miss the "Emoticon Legend" link in the journal form thingy. ;o; Why for they take it away?

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]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23143083/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23143083/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 17:05:00 PST
There are places I remember, All my life though some have changed.
Some forever not for better, Some have gone and some remain.
All these places have their moments, With lovers and friends I still can recall.
Some are dead and some are living, In my life I've loved them all...

Why do people simply... forget about other people? Or just stop talking to them when there were times where they couldn't talk to them enough? Why do people just drop you and leave you like you're a bit of old clothing they've outgrown? Surely, it happens to everyone but why does it have to happen at all? When is that point where you or I become uninteresting and why did it degrade to the point where if they didn't want something from you then you aren't worth the time?

So close to Valentine's Day, too, I think about these things. I have love, I have friends, but my memories still bring clouds.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23098532/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/23098532/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 09:02:45 PST 's journal... "So, a friend of mine just said in my Gaia guild that DA has now said that unless someone says "Don't copy/trace this!" on a deviation, then someone is allowed to come along, trace/copy it and then post it in their own gallery."

Is DA serious or is it some kind of misinterpreted legal thing? I'd really like to know. My art isn't the greatest, but it's still mine and having been here these long years I'd be really disappointed in DA if they actually worded and meant that. Can anyone point to where this stemmed from?

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/22980702/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/22980702/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 10:02:45 PST
Seriously, though, when they start spitting out orders at you right off the bat that instantly puts a person in a bad mood. Ordering me around like their virtual money's actually worth something, like I couldn't live without a measly 5k in play money. >3> Like she's the queen of Sheba and I'm just there to throw rose petals every where her foot falls. How about I give her a black eye and ban her from my shop for being a prat? That sounds more likely when they order me around when their order was not only done but posted.

You know I COULD be a real dick about it like some shop owners are, but I'm not. I COULD leave all the orders undone and disappear for a year and then come back like nothing's happened like other shop owners have done WITHOUT penalties. As I loathe it when that happens myself, I make sure not to practice the fine art of dickery.

I hate consumers...

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/22823272/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/22823272/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 12:52:50 PST
What's worse is there's more projects I wanted to finish that never have because when I do want to do it I hate it and when I don't want to do it it sits and rots for weeks. GRAAAAAAH!!!

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/22400749/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/22400749/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 18:10:22 PST Here are my hopes for 2009, for anyone who's watching or cares...

1. I hope my art will continue to improve.
2. I want to be less intimidated & discouraged by those I feel are better than I am.
3. I want to be able to worry less about what people will think of my work and more about the quality of my work.
4. I want to continue to love drawing.

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I bought one, he's in dire need of restoration so I'm going to. But FIRST! FIRST! I must document how he's put together. I'm not sure if all lions are built the way he is, but boy... he's tricky for a little guy. I'm not going to name him yet, not until I've fixed him up.

I bought him used, he's for children dancers so I thought he'd be perfect for learning with. I'll have pictures up ASAP.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21769182/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21769182/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 15:41:07 PST
I'm not religious by any stretch of the imagination, but it really gets to me when people are cruel or selfish around this time of year.

So I'm not going to hurry and I'm not going to push or shove Christmas out before it's time.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21684173/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21684173/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 16:06:19 PST
Have a safe and happy Thanksgiving! <33

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21418389/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21418389/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 09:49:30 PST
When you're not that good or when you don't have the base knowledge for creating things like detailed backgrounds or high detailed images or projects (or cooking! or living! Or...! 8B) it just seems all the more intimidating. I know I'm not the best and I've had no formal education for anything other than my job. But I'm going to try anything and thank the greater presences for the internet because even ten years ago there weren't as many resources online as their are now!

Anyone can get enough resources with enough searching to figure out not only the name for the technique you're looking for, but about a million different ways to do it. The rest is up to your own imagination.

I have two projects that involve me creating things from scratch and the most intimidating part of all of it? Making something out of nothing. I'm going to have to be the first penguin that gets pushed in to see if the shark eats me or not on my own damn projects. LoL! I've been putting these projects off for nearly a year so I'm going to just say "screw it!" and try it, anyway.

It may not be the best or done with high-end programs but dammit, I want to see SOMETHING I do come to fruition! Even if it's total crap, maybe someone will take pity on it and see the charm of poorly drawn images.

I hate being a one trick pony.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21289283/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21289283/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 18:32:10 PST
Do you ever have a friend or more than one friend who doesn't know how stupid they make you feel? The one who seems to know more than you on EVERYTHING you bring up in conversation. The one who makes you stumble in your words and revert to a child in your mind. I can't count how many times it happens, too. Whenever I talk to these people, I say something stupid. And then I focus on trying not to sound stupid after that. Or then I try to sound cool and apathetic to overcompensate. Nothing you can do seems to alleviate the sensation that this is probably the person who's not only smarter than you, but doesn't realize how much of an idiot you feel when you're around them to the point that you don't talk to them much anymore out of guilt that you associate them with bad feelings.

And by bad feelings, I don't mean like "I hope bad things happen to this person" but feelings of guilt and envy, the kind of things you pray/hope every day to be rid of. It's like being force fed your humble pie when you didn't feel you had it coming. Then you start to feel bad that someone you view as a good friend even brings those feelings and sensations up.

Sour grapes. I has it.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21183093/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/21183093/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 08:00:35 PDT
I feel old and nostalgic. Though, I shouldn't feel old. I suspect it's because nothing will be as it was.

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]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/20919719/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/20919719/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 11:36:09 PDT _> Karma must be coming back to me for something I completely forgot about.

For example, people message me on AIM out of nowhere and expect me to remember who they are. I can't remember all these damn AIM names! D: There's 50+ people I know of and have talked to at least once online in this year alone, people who don't tell me who they are aren't going to get a response from me. And when I ask who they are they have the nerve to tell me they aren't going to speak to me anymore because I can't remember when they messaged me first.

WTF? You don't talk to people after a long time and go "BTW, since you don't remember me I'm going to ignore you for the rest of my life." That's pointless! I give up. There's no pleasing some people. I'm just not gonna let new people message me on AIM anymore. I don't think I did anything to deserve being talked to that way.

I don't mind being ignored compared to that. And being irritated is just part of dealing with people in general. But WTF is this "I'm going to ignore you because you don't instantly recognize me" shit? I barely recognize family anymore because I live so far away from them now. You can't expect me to remember you from your text and an AIM name you may have changed several thousand times since we last spoke.

I fucking GIVE! UP! Bring on the flaming meteors and nuke me. I've had it.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/20463515/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/20463515/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 22:36:23 PDT
Maybe it's from too much caffeine, maybe it's because I'm going nutso over here waiting for Guild Wars to throw us another bone about GW2. It's been so hush-hush that I've resorted to doing all sorts of things to kill time. I think fighting Destroyers for my gauntlets would be exciting, but after the thousandth or so your apple corer starts to get blunt.... whaddya MEAN that's not how you get the cores? D:

I just don't have the patience to grind the titles. After Sunspear and Lightbringer point farming as wurms, my poor ranger keeps finding ways to get the taste of Awakened and Margonites out of her mouth. Margonites have no nutritional content whatsoever.

ANYWAY...years and years ago I played this game called Saga of Ryzom. It recently got opensourced and so thought I'd download it again and play that, too.

IN OTHER NEWS... I'm up to my eyeballs in taurs!! Lately, I've been coloring all newly ordered taurs and all my recent doodles with SAI and it's been fantastic, so far. Things look promising for fall, I hope I can keep it up.

I've been trying to work on some lines 1/3 and I can sell for commissions since we don't have permission to use the existing ones from the original artist, but it's been disappointing. All my sketches turn out looking flat and forced. I may start work on familiars in the meantime.

For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, I apologize for my nerdiness. D:

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/20307312/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/20307312/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 12:51:01 PDT

To counter it, I'm happily posting the link to SAI here. Even if it was with mixed feelings that I learned of it, the program itself is absolutely worth being "rude'd" at. LoL!

Painter SAI is much cheaper than Photoshop, but it lends itself much easier to blending with options right up front and not hiden in a tab or with multiple checkboxes and adjustment slides like Photoshop. Granted Photoshop has a TON of filtering options, for overall natural looking inking and color blending there's nothing quite like SAI for me.

Painter SAI (English site, not official): [link]

Right now I'm only using the trial version, I'm on my 16th day of testing and playing with it and I'm STILL enjoying the hell out of it. I recommend it to anyone who wants a nice program that wants to color but doesn't want to be intimidated.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/20145408/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/20145408/ Mon, 25 Aug 2008 09:40:48 PDT
Lately I've been coloring for my Gaia shop and REALLY wanting to make some new lines from my own art and I find... I can only go in little circles. I stare at a blank canvas on my paint programs and every attempt fizzles out like a sad ghost that can't keep it's form.

Can anyone suggest any inspirational images? I need to break out of this funk before someone finds a new chain for my leg. I'm thinking of practicing with human forms. Maybe I need new music.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/19719388/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/19719388/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 13:32:46 PDT
I work at a glass shop. I paint and make cartoon renders for panels and restoration work. Now I -know- I didn't put them there on my work pile, but I guess one of the guys at work thought since the three of them were sketchpads that they were mine since they do the cutting and I do the hand-drawn stuff.

It was Tiff's old sketchpad. Tiffany was just a few years older than I was and she had died last summer from complications due to a bad immune system and cancer treatment just taking its toll. I was looking at her sketches and they weren't by any means beautiful or breathtaking. Some of them were downright strange and to be honest the sketches that weren't glass patterns looked like the things I'd see scribbled on walls or on scraps of paper in high school.

But it wasn't just anyone's scribbles. I saw Tiff moving in it and wondered where she was when she drew it, even the stuff that didn't make sense. It never has to make sense when you doodle. It got me thinking about all those little scraps of things people just draw on their shoes, on the backs of napkins, behind the door in a public bathroom, on tree bark and drying cement... It made me wonder if that could possibly be all that remained in memory of that person ever existing.

We took the old drawings out and we're going to give them to Tiff's family. With the kind of person Tiff was, I don't think she'd mind if I filled out the blank pages left in this old sketchbook with something new.

]]> ~starluck http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/19277794/ http://starluck.deviantart.com/journal/19277794/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 16:47:11 PDT
We all have to stop blaming ourselves, or other people, when something doesn't go as planned. A time to stop holding grudges, stop hating people you don't even see or know.

It's my turn to go mad...

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