http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:subjectivegambit&section=today deviantART RSS for by:subjectivegambit en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 02:50:24 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/3682032/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/3682032/ Tue, 26 Oct 2004 19:21:23 PDT here ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/3402254/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/3402254/ Sun, 19 Sep 2004 20:24:02 PDT
My uncle came up from Iowa where he was working last week and stayed at my mum's. Right after working the overnight shift Friday night I went over there to talk to him about my trip back to Texas. We made arrangements to have me fly back sometime around the 12th. Then after dinner we went to see Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow. Which could have been a HELL of a lot better and if you're planning on seeing it just because Angelia Jolie is in it, like myself, don't even bother, I swear she was only on screen for 5 minutes, tops. Then we got back to my mother's and visited some more. He's really persistant on getting me back in school and even offered to have me stay at his house if I went to school down there. I'm really considering it, but don't know how I would do it, considering I have 3 jobs up here and there is NO way I could get a transfer down in Texas. So my "vacation" will mainly consist of searching for jobs and visiting with the crazy side of the family, and if I'm lucky, swinging out to Baton Rogue or New Orleans, but I don't think so on this trip.

My "husband" is all safe and sound after Ivan, even tho he's still stuck in the Civic Center and has to use the lovely portapotties.

I need to get away and the 3rd can't come soon enough. I all of you. ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/3227834/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/3227834/ Fri, 27 Aug 2004 21:04:00 PDT twenty-one you're no fun ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/3051775/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/3051775/ Thu, 05 Aug 2004 18:15:07 PDT
eyes are going to shit every day, can't sit for more than 15 mins without my body stiffening (word?) up and refusing to become mobile again, hacking up pieces of lung every time I inhale

so basically, I probably won't be around much if ever again



and all of those I've left out, you're not forgotten.......... ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2820493/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2820493/ Tue, 06 Jul 2004 20:22:28 PDT retinal detachment is very high. So of course I started freaking out, because I don't need another thing to keep on the look out about my body. Then he decided to dialate my pupils and I couldn't see pretty much the rest of the day. So yay! I thought I had a point to this journal, but of course I didn't. Much love ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2794240/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2794240/ Sat, 03 Jul 2004 10:02:01 PDT you should have been here) and Git R Done, Larry the Cableguy, hahahaha fun times. Well so here we are on myspace.com waiting for the food to finish cooking and I went to move a plate I left in my room over night, to find about a thousand sugar ants! There was like half a chip and some melted cheese on the plate that was only there for 18 hours, I feel like I'm living in Texas again, grrrrrrrrr. So we sprayed 'em all dead with Clean Shower, I felt very powerful.

just posted in her latest journal that Punky Brewster is out on dvd! OMFG I want it! I want it now! I was totally obsessed with her when I was a wee one. I had the doll, and one day I must have left her at day care or whatnot so I threw a big fit and my mum couldn't take me screaming and crying so we went to the store so I could get a replacement, and yes I still have her. One of the few memories from my childhood I still remember. I remember always stealing my mum's bandanas and tying them on my knee over my jeans to be like Punky too.

I am completely free this weekend. No job to go to, no kids and no alcoholic sister. My oldest neice is in Texas for the summer and the middle one just left for Mexico today for 2 weeks, and the baby is at my mum's for the weekend. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. This is WAY too much free time, I hate having unproductive time. Why do y'all think I work 3 jobs? 3 fricken days with nothing to do, I'm really going to go crazy.

So I was really thinking on shelling out the 500+$$ for a new diggy cam instead of almost paying off my debt, since I just reevaluated it and am down to owing $1600 give or take some change. So what do you think I should do? Spend the 500 on a new cam or pay more of my debt and then when I'm all clean buy the cam, as a like, gift to myself?

ooooooooo cannot wait to see Fahrinheit 9/11!!! 7 more hours 7 more hours....gaw way too much time to do NOTHING! ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2739663/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2739663/ Sat, 26 Jun 2004 08:34:48 PDT
Got me another tattoo on Monday

Been working late everyday-pretty much burning myself out-first day off is Sunday...go me!

Finally saw Harry Potter 3-Fucking Awesome!

Still without digital cam-any cam at that-took some pix with a disposible camera, yeah great stuff there, nothing worth posting as usual.

Pride festivities start Today! I'm hella excited. My husband and I are *so* going all gayed out!

Insurance company is covering shit-go figure

San Jose trip is not happening, as with the Texas trip. In the fall/winter I'll be able to go to Texas, but San Jose went down the fucking crapper.

I actually have money left over from this paycheck and I get paid on Tuesday. cross your fingers that I don't blow it all on useless Pride stuff.

]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2618721/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2618721/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 06:26:32 PDT ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2483223/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2483223/ Sat, 22 May 2004 11:02:06 PDT
a chance to wake up at sunrise, because you want to

making breakfast for your nieces early on a Saturday morning

saying I love you to those you love

road trips to Wisconsin

a chance to shave your legs

local battle of the bands, or just plain band rehersals

a smoke with your best friend at 1 in the morning on a tuesday

dancing in the rain

a chance to pee ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2470894/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2470894/ Thu, 20 May 2004 15:44:03 PDT
papa tomato said....ketchup

]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2440017/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2440017/ Sun, 16 May 2004 10:03:27 PDT ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2368036/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2368036/ Wed, 05 May 2004 18:54:22 PDT
So my sister, the one that's pregnant, yeah still smoking weed. So I'm beyond pissed I'm peeved.

]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2283301/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2283301/ Fri, 23 Apr 2004 16:06:08 PDT
I broke a promise to myself..........

I am constantly tired......

today is the 6th anniversery of a friend's death......


but that's all and if it weren't then life would be so fucking boring! ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2217340/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2217340/ Tue, 13 Apr 2004 18:02:03 PDT
Dentists....all I can say about them is that I have an awful fear of them, hence why I rarely go and now I have 2 of my 4 wisdom teeth already through the gumline and one is impacted and growing out towards my cheek...oh joy joy joy....... and now they say I should really consider braces b/c I have a crossbite and slight overbite...so whoopdie fucking do

It's already 5 to 8 on the 13th, I have yet to do my taxes or laundry. Will be out getting tipsy in a few minutes. Texas time is getting closer and closer and I can not wait! that means corpus christie/gulf of mexico, going to Austin to see my whore and gang banging cousins I haven't seen in a good decade. I wonder if I'll even remember how to get to their house....or if I even want to...

I want more lemon meringue pie...I already had half of the damn thing since Sunday...lol all I eat is junk!

Oh yeah...now I remember what this journal was supposed to be about, I have no camera what so ever. No digital or 35mm or even 110 so...no deviations for a while. Just got a scanner than I need to install so maybe I can plunk something out there...we'll see. Until then, adieu and keep this holy kiss. ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2144686/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2144686/ Sat, 03 Apr 2004 14:23:42 PST
...I'm ok now... ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2110462/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2110462/ Mon, 29 Mar 2004 17:15:27 PST ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2020787/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/2020787/ Mon, 15 Mar 2004 22:23:47 PST
Yes I've become quite a bitch the past few weeks. Being nice got me no where so why should I continue to be? I've become selfish, I can admit it. I've always put others' needs before mine, and now I'm paying for it. I quit talking to everyone except Chuck and my cousin. Even my *best* friend hasn't spoken to me in weeks, as with the BITCH....most of you know who I'm talking about.........

Time to take some Benedryl and fall asleep....job hunting tomorrow for another part time job. I have to keep myself busy so I won't think about the people that have hurt me. ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1970385/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1970385/ Sun, 07 Mar 2004 19:27:12 PST ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1936033/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1936033/ Mon, 01 Mar 2004 20:18:22 PST I hate unpacking...takes far longer than packing
I have boxes everywhere and have been here over a week already
I'm pissed that I didn't get the chance to paint the walls before I got in, but whatever, it'll be covered in posters and such soon

just a quick update because I was getting sick of that last journal so nothing really exciting.....as usual ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1873298/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1873298/ Thu, 19 Feb 2004 16:42:52 PST 's booty dance:: I have yet to get everything packed....I procrastinate way too much. Anyone in need of a new table and chairs? How about a bedroom set minus the bed? hmm anyone? I just sold my "domestic" dining set for like nothing...how pathetic is this....well my dear old pos pc is coming apart in about 2 hours....so farewell until next week.

]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1738064/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1738064/ Sun, 25 Jan 2004 08:39:54 PST fireplace and bigger den so I was all like...oh let's check it out. My sis and I went and toured it and fell in love! it's 3 floors and the den is on the 1st floor and the other 3 bedrooms are on the 3rd. I was like...dude I'm taking the den as my room, cuz it has a door and all and is bigger than my room here. My sis was all too cool with that. so the lady asked if we wanted to put a deposit down to hold it and i was like...fuck yeah. We went to fill out the applications and such and she was like, do you want to stay here while i run it through? so we did, all scared cuz they do a credit check and we both have all these med bills that are way past due, so we're sweating bullets and like 5 mins later she's like, y'all are approved. and i just like...didn't believe her. So yeah! I gots me a nice pad! Had to put 500$ down to keep it but it was SOOOOOOOO worth it. and they have a washer and dryer right in it! and a fireplace! (i know i know but i've never had one and always wanted one)

Ahhhhhh I'm so excited! It's way out in the suburbs but hell the pool's practically out our door! Ahhh I'm actually happy.

ahhhhhh! but I'm moving in like 3 weeks! ARRRRGGGGGGGG! ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1714854/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1714854/ Wed, 21 Jan 2004 15:27:40 PST last night i stared at my ceiling while in bed for 4 hours before I finally passed out
why does your brain always remember stuff when you're trying to fall asleep?
everything and anything came up when I closed my eyes
like...

where the fuck am I to move when my lease is up (end of march)?

why did i think i was strong enough to make it on my own?

why do friends quit talking to you all because they have a boyfriend now, what the hell makes them think they're so much better now?

just stupid shit like that

I'm finally going back to Texas end of May. How I miss it there, I don't think I'll want to come back, but maybe I'll see all the horrible stuff I blocked out back then and it'll force me to come back. I'm scared as well.....what if I don't remember how to get around anywhere? Oi!

Bed time......

]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1694221/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1694221/ Sat, 17 Jan 2004 08:11:43 PST ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1611875/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1611875/ Thu, 01 Jan 2004 00:59:10 PST 's recap. The bit I heard over the phone sounded great. I don't know if or IM'ed me....I have a feelin it was my plant....but I could have been easily fooled. Anyway...I hope they both had a rockin' time.

Last night I did something I hadn't done in over 4 years. 12 1/2 inches of my hair was cut off and donated to Locks of Love. When I heard the first snip of the scissors I almost cried...but then again it's only hair and those kids need it a hell of a lot more than I do.

I'm not used to it yet. Every time I passed a mirror I did a double take cuz I didn't recognize myself. But now I feel as tho having cut all of it off that I sort of cut off all the horrid shit that happened in the past 4 years. Like starting off fresh, a new slate. And what better day than New Year's Eve. Ok maybe I'm a dork or maybe I'm just hella delirious. I'm not intoxicated tho...hell first time in 4 years I hadn't been drunk either....what's up with that?

I managed to snag my mum's diggycam so hopefully I'll be able to head out to the farm and get those pix I wanted so bad, hopefully I will still be able to get some good shots.

I made no resolutions this year.....and don't plan on doing so either. I'm just going to work on loving myself more for who I am and not be so hard on myself. That is the most important thing. You are the only one who matter's the most to you. If you don't take care of yourself, who will?

I promise to get back to everyone who has been so kind with comments and all by the end of the weekend. I thank you all for everything.

Wishing everyone peace and happiness throughout the year and always.

I you all especially & ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1595797/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1595797/ Sun, 28 Dec 2003 18:33:53 PST
I've only been up for a good 6 1/2 hours. I'm sick of forcing myself to fall asleep after only being up for 8 hours. Benedryl is going to be the death of me.

Excuse me for being , I don't even know what I'm being. Can I just say that I really fucking HATE hospitals too? no? well fuck you too.

I'm off to watch Romeo+Juliet, that I got on DVD for only $7.50, woo go me, no not really. And take down the frucking Holiday Tree.

]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1583721/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1583721/ Thu, 25 Dec 2003 20:17:24 PST i actually got along with my mum
i think the reason was cuz i started drinking at noon and she didn't show up until well after 3 after i had a *nice* buzz going

gd this is taking me for-fuckin-ever to type
i guess Drinking for a good 9 hours will do that huh?
what do y'all think

Oh oh I heard Shedaisy on the radio 4 times today too!
I thought of whenever they came on

mmmmmm i'm hungry i wish taco bell was open
damn ppl gotta close stuff on christmas i wanna go shopping

fuckers

I so need a new diggycam i'm having withdrawls! There were so many things i wanted pix of out on the farm but i had NO camera ::

hope everyone had a decent holiday
to all

]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1565750/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1565750/ Sun, 21 Dec 2003 20:10:49 PST
Today has been a very off day. I've only been up for almost 6 hours. Slept a whole 13, so now my body is all off. I have to force myself to sleep in about an hour. I fucking hate work. I wish I were still a kid in school. 2 whole fucking weeks off! I swear! and they have the nerve to complain because it's only 2 weeks. geezus, and summer vacation too....don't get me started. Kids piss me off.

I'm all out of diet coke, now I'm crabby. 4 more days until this jOyOuS season is done. (fuckin holidays bah!). I can't wait.

Thank you I feel much better

Weeeeee all gradumacted now!


Time to read more of Harry Potter 4. Thanks to all for comments. I will get back to y'all before the weeks out. ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1541851/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1541851/ Tue, 16 Dec 2003 05:30:56 PST This past year I've been more sick than I think I have ever been in my enitre life. I mean I'm even out of sick days at work! That has NEVER happened to me before. I'm usually the only one with all but one of them left by the end of the year.

...and Doctors....don't even get me started on them. It doesn't help that I owe them all this $$$$. But I keep going there to figure out what is wrong, give them more $$$$ and then they *still* can't tell me what's wrong!

Ok I'm done bitching.

Time to get my ass to work, driving in the ice.
This is gonna take me a good hour to go 5 miles, fucking Ice Storms!

]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1526117/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1526117/ Fri, 12 Dec 2003 16:57:31 PST
And for some reason DA isn't letting me know when y'all submit and journal. What's up with that? ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1502033/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1502033/ Sun, 07 Dec 2003 10:08:38 PST yet, but the day has pretty much just begun, it's only 11:54am. Mass was interesting. Haven't been to one in over a year. I always feel wierd after them. I miss her dearly. I always will, but I'm slowly being able to let the pain go.

Slowly....slowly....slowly.....

Time...all I need is time, and one day, not far from now, I'll be able to look pictures of her and be happy with tears, instead of being sad and pissed that she's gone.

KJA 1980-2000 ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1258911/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/1258911/ Fri, 10 Oct 2003 10:21:37 PDT Now I'm off to a convention for the whole weekend, call me if you want now that my cell arrived...... ]]> ~subjectivegambit http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/916657/ http://subjectivegambit.deviantart.com/journal/916657/ Sun, 06 Jul 2003 19:12:57 PDT I am now a Deviant! weeeeee ]]> ~subjectivegambit