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~summer-rainshine — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 14:17:24 PDT

Deviations. Poetry, songs. Check 'em out!

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~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:24:38 PDT

my new journals are mostly from years past. alot are from last year, during a tough time in my life. tell me what you think!

Silent Good- Byes

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:23:14 PDT

Silent good- byes

Left upon our lips

Waiting to be said

They are too bold to be forgotten

The pain they will cause

The hurt, the anguish

Crying out in the dark to

Nobody in particular

But speak to everyone the same

Whether I loved you or not

It still doesn't take away

The sadness felt that day

From those unsilent good- byes

Scarred for life?

Never will I be

For your loss is greater

Not that the eye can see

Waiting for you

I shall not attempt

For pain is no more

But it will end in silent good- byes

Silent good- byes

Rule the Earth

The mind, the body, the soul

Unlike the unsilent good- byes

They are caring

They are kind

They do not hurt

For they shall always cure

Scared???

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:22:31 PDT

Scared?

I am not

Not even if the air

Was taken from my body

Leaving me motionless

Cold.

Like a gray winter day

Without snow on the ground

Unliving in the fog

Caught between my lips

Red.

Like blood

That draws no tears

Dripping from my heart

Pulsing throughout my veins

Leaving no other colors

Pale.

Like my face

Looking dead, unliving

Stained from the tears

Slipping from my eyes

Black.

Like the band in my hair

Holding onto my emotions

That are hidden inside

Only let out when I scream

Love

Like the way I felt before

Turned into nothing

But a nearly silenced friendship

Almost torn to shreds

Broken

Unlike people in a room

With nothing to say

But everything to lose

Everyone lacking confidence

Scared?

I am not.

Like a fallen bird sitting alone

With a cat staring into its eyes

I am terrified

AWAY

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:22:05 PDT

Hot

Blood rushing from my veins

As the tears stream down my cheeks

Leaving grey trails behind them

Fast

My feet keep moving

My heart keeps racing

Wanting to slow down

Thought

There are so many reasons to cry

But this one is due to you

Crushing me and my feelings

Fear

There is much to fear

Not feeling loved

Feeling neglected

Alone

Once Again running

Away from my problems

Away from you.

OUT COME THE OUTCASTS!

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:21:31 PDT

OUT COME THE OUTCASTS!

Ambition and determination
Has always been my mission
Trying to break tessellation
And try to bring rhythm
Being tame
Doing the same
And playing stupid games
Of discriminating the difference
The original and the ambitious
The outcasts have been around before we were alive
Like the gypsies in Romania
Yet they still thrive
Outcasts are the colors of the world
And the shadows of the night
But to speak our minds means we have to fight
But because we have intelligence, strength,
Power and will
We'll rule the world, and down your spine
There'll be a chill
Finally our voices will break down your door
And what we have to say
You can't ignore

Running

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:20:24 PDT

I did it.

I ran today.

Running into your arms.

Into your smile.

The wind blew

Sending my hair flying.

You were with me

Every single step

Laughing, and smiling.

I slowed down

And fell into the grass

And I felt a sad look

Come across my face.

The one you never saw.

I jumped up

And ran again.

My feet finding the ground

Will I ever tell you?

Probably not.

The fact that

You're always there

Always smiling

Makes me feel nervous

But in a good way

That's just a little bit scary

And even more exciting.

Who knew nearly unrequieted love

Could be so complicated?

Life

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:19:41 PDT

Life is passing by fast

Ha. Time is on our hands

In our breath

Our words

Hoping to keep up with our minds

Smiling

Crying

Playing the game

Love it or hate it

Live it like everyone else

Never

Catch up with the normal

Never can

Confidence in being different

Wondering what everyone else is missing

Life is forever

No matter where you are

Or where you came from

You're here

So bask in life

Embrace it

Enjoy it

Don't let it pass you by

Time

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:18:39 PDT

Time is more than numbers

It doesn't always seem to keep moving

And sometimes never seems to stop

It can be your enemy

It can be your best friend

It makes you who you are

It lives

It breathes

Loving to get away

Hating to move

Yes, Time is very complicated

But so are you

My friends, Time is forever

Like it

Or not

Rain

Or shine

It turns

Keeps going

And has setbacks

Just like You

This THING

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:06:48 PDT

This THING

In one moment, I was changed forever
I knew what I was meant for
I knew my purpose
I dont fully understand
What it all means
I want to scream it at the top of my lungs
But I know not how...
How can one do such a thing?
Is this my fate?
I fear that it is...
I was put here for one purpose
I hope to God
That I am wrong
But I fear that I am not...
It is deep in my gut
Where it lives
One day you are fine
And then there it is

It starts out small
Just a prick in your stomach
Nothing but a tingle in your spine
But as time passes
The THING grows
Like an cancer
It spreads throughout you
Digging into you
Spreading it's sharp spines
It grows it roots deep within
It's veins wrap tightly around you.
You can really feel it now

Like a parasite
It begins to take control
Of your mind, your body
And your soul
Others may see it, but they cannot help
Like quicksand, the more you fight it
The faster you sink
This THING envelopes your whole self
Until you recognize nothing

This thing all things devours
There is no escaping it.
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
It's in your dreams, in your mind
This THING eats away at you.
Like a virus
You change to meet its needs
Together, you become one

This THING craves but one other
To meet another and join with them
If you are so fortunate
This THING becomes
A blessing
The one thing we all crave in the world

But alone...
This THING destroys you
It will starve your body
And rot your mind
The parasite slowly killing its host
Alone...the THING destroys you
Fighting it only strengthens the THING
One is hopless in it's grasp
And eventually
Without the other
Both the host and parasite
Will fester and die

A human's greatest fear
Is to be perpetually alone
Forever
Together, we are able to make memories
Share, and Feel
We as humans crave LOVE just as we crave water
LOVE is basic
It's primal instinct is to grow.
To blossom and bloom

Together, with another's mutual love
This THING becomes that which all humans
Strive

Alone
It spreads like cancer
Ending only in tradgedy

How many have felt the sting of love
in every synapse of your brain?
How many have allowed LOVE to wrap you in it's warm embrace?
How many have seen love blossom with
the live giving LOVE of another?
And how many have felt LOVE envelope you?
How many have felt LOVE begin to break you down and rot?
How many have been destroyed by LOVE?
Forced to feel mankinds deepest, darkest fear?
How many have found true happiness, while others fester
In the dark?

LOVE is both the nectar and the poison of life.
Let it not harm you
But instead
Allow LOVE to bring you the life you've imagined
Nurture LOVE when you know it needs nurturing
And shun it when you know it means to harm you.

LOVE can either shine down on you like the sun.
Or it can bury you in the coffin of despair
In the end...
LOVE will conquer us all
But you make the decision as to how you are conquered.

* This was written by my brother. He is one of the most important people in my life. He is my friend. He is my idol. And, most important of all, he's always there for me. I LOVE you, Jordan. Thanks for showing me that I can be different, and feel good about myself. You're the best. Love, Madison.

Sleep

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:06:02 PDT

As I lie down on my bed

My head deep in my pillow

I go through what happened today

Wondering what tomorrow will be like

Will I be happy or sad?

I do not know

Will I do something different?

I do not know

Will I meet someone new?

I do not know

Thoughts occupy my mind

As my tired body begs for rest

My mind unwilling

Fighting to stay awake

But tiredness overcomes me

As my eyelids close

And my muscles finally relax

I fade into black

Will I dream?

I do not know

Will I wake up again?

I do not know

Will I stay the same?

I do not know

For now, I sleep

And leave my worries behind

And hope for clarity tomorrow.

You

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:05:12 PDT

Crazy days

Restless nights

Not falling into place

It all changed

On the morning I saw your face

Gorgeous eyes

Look at me

As I fall into the sea

I'll stay here

As long as you're here for me.

My life was a lonely place

Until you found me here

I'm smiling again

My heart is unbroken

And it's all because of you

Why?

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:04:12 PDT

I care when you're mad

I care when you're sad

But right now I'm just hurt

You scream in my face

And then you replace

The tears I thought I'd lost.

Why can't you just see

All the shit you do to me?

Friends shouldn't do this

And I cannot take it

You've got me spinnin' round

My feet are still stuck to the ground

Everything I thought I knew

Was bittersweet when I met you

You scream in my face

You yell in my ear

And I just want to dissappear.

Please stop this nonsense

Because I can't handle it

You've hurt me

And now you've made me cry

And it's not even about my life

Why do you think I care

Why do I still hang on

Please just say two words

Admit that you were wrong

The Smile

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:03:11 PDT

The Smile, it has no laughter

The Smile shows only pain

It leaves her with nothing

But everything to gain

The Smile takes her everything

Her laughter, her wonder

The Smile will never stop

Until it ends it's hunger

Two Gray Tears

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:02:26 PDT

Two Gray Tears

She lies there

Vulnerable

Trying to be unfeeling

Pain crashes into her mind

As the two hot tears leave

Her blue, black- lined eyes

Onto her hand

Onto her lips

The gray salt water

Refuses to wash away the pain

The pain he left her with

To sort out on her own

No one to help her back up

They have all left her

Broken- hearted and alone

In this world

Where her greatest enemy

Is her own mind

Her heart is broken

Her smile is nearly

Non- existent

Like rain in a drought

Hidden away

Like buried treasure

Lost forever

Those two tears

Are what comes when

She mourns over

Him

Dancing in God's Rain

~summer-rainshine — Sat, 26 Apr 2008 16:18:14 PDT

If it weren't thundering so I would be outside, dancing. Everything suddenly has a green look to it, and I love it. The rain is beautiful. and I'm gonna go up to my room & lay on my bed, listening to the thunder and the rain swarm the things in its wake.

Blue, Gold, and Teen Hearts Beating Faster

~summer-rainshine — Fri, 25 Apr 2008 19:09:03 PDT

Awesome game tonight at school. Man, I swear, I haven't screamed like that in quite a while. My blood was pumping through my veins, my heart beating fast, breath shortened, anxious as I watched the game. My body became tense and like jello at the same time, my hands were shaking, and I held my breath. When we won, I felt like I was free-falling, screaming my head off. I swear, I was one of the loudest people there. I seriously got an adrenaline rush from that, and I wasn't playing. That totally rocked. I'm tired, now. But my mind is still partying a bit. I can't wait until tomorrow so I can brag to Matt about his school's varsity team's loss. I'll congradulate him about the JV team, though. Well, Life's GREAT. and i'm gonna go to bed in a bit.