http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:sussiekitten&section=today deviantART RSS for by:sussiekitten en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 21:45:05 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/27423737/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/27423737/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 07:43:56 PDT
What I do feel, though, is a tiny bit optimistic laced with...well, just the usual school boredom. We have a week off, and suddenly we have twice the amount of work than we would have gotten had it been a normal school week. So, yeah...

Anyhow! Why am I optimistic? No, hell hasn't frozen over and Armageddon isn't around the corner. I've been able to write a little on At Dawn these past few days. I'm not sure how many chapters there is going to be anymore. I think I might leave it at 8 chapters. If I end it after 7, it just feels wrong. This is provided that I manage to finish chapter 7, of course.

But right now I think that I can. *knock on wood* I have no idea when I can finish chap. 7, but I promise to post as soon as I finish it. I apologise for the long wait for it. I blame mild depression caused by a never ending writer's block. Well, there are other reasons too, but that's a separate issue.

That's all for now. Laters.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/27305396/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/27305396/ Sat, 19 Sep 2009 18:00:18 PDT
No, I'm not dead. I've just been maxed out on stress lately, and strangely enough, checking dA is not something I do very often anymore. It might have something to do with the fact that it has now been practically 2 months, and so far I've written 2000 words in total (excluding school work, of course). That's...well, it's very unlike me. Writing is like breathing. It's a huge part of me. To not be able to write sucks. It hurt at first. I'm glad I'm past that stage.

Not writing has left me...well, placid, I guess, but not in a good way. I don't feel quite like myself. Maybe that's why I've been taking a 100 + pictures; to compensate? My creativity has to flow out somewhere, right? It can't just disappear...right?

School wise...things are picking up. More assignments are coming in, and I have to make sure I'm up-to-date with stuff. So far, the reading hasn't been a problem. We're reading a good dozen novels (if not more), but I can take it. I'm more worried about working on written assignments when I can't write for pleasure. So far, so good. *knock on wood* Also, I'm more able to talk to people in class. I'm not as nervous when we're asked to discuss stuff with the person sitting next to us.

Another reason I'm feeling a little out of sorts is because...I'm turning 20 in 4 days. 4 days. I don't feel ready at all. I know it's not a big step or anything, but...I still don't feel ready. And I'm going to be all alone this year. Last year I at least got up and was able to see my friends during class. This year I have no one. I have to get up at the crack of dawn (aka, 6 AM), get to class and finally be home at around 1 PM. Then I can finally focus on 'how do I feel about turning 20 today?'. I'm going home later in the day, though. I have the next week off, so I'm going to get as much time at home as I can. But when I wake up and until *shrug* 8 PM, I'm going to be all alone. That sucks.

I'll get over it, though. And once I get my creativity back, I'll laugh about this dry-spell. I just wonder...when will that be?

That's it for tonight. I'm gonna hit the sack. See you all soon, hopefully with something to show of my month of absense.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/26671517/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/26671517/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 12:55:35 PDT Mission: Moving
Mission Details: Moving to be closer to chosen college (HVE)
Mission Status: Mission completed

So, as you can see, I've been relocated once again. I just finished my first day at my new college, and as usual, I felt like crap. It got better though, but you know when you're new, you know no one and nothing around you, you tend to get nervous. When I get nervous, I get nervous. The end.

But like I said, I feel better. I'm tired as fuck, though. I have to change my sleeping pattern totally. I can't go to bed at, say, 4 AM anymore. Oh well. I'll get used to it. I'm going to miss staying up late, though.

I'm fully moved into my new apartment now. I have my own bedroom and bathroom, but I share a kitchen and a small living room type space with three other people (one guy and two girls). That will not be too fun. I don't know them too much, and it looks like the guy I share a fridge with is a little bit of a litter-bug. I have my food in boxes. That's all I'll say about that matter.

But there's two things I genuinely don't like about this place.
One: I have a keycard. A frigging keycard. If I lock myself out, I lock myself out. Then I have to call one of the landlords (if I have my phone on me, otherwise I have to borrow one) and ask to be let in. And guess what? That costs money. That frigging sucks.
Two: it's not very soundproof. So now, with the first week of school starting and such, there's a party every night from around 11 PM to...I dunno, 3 AM? I fall asleep, because someone has to get up early in the morning. *snort*

Otherwise it's alright. I've missed being out of the house, and even though I have family close by, I'm living alone again. But things will be pretty hectic from now on. I fear I have lots of classes four days a week, and perhaps a seminar on the last day, so I won't have that much spare time. Oh well. The price of going to college, eh?

But things will look better once I get into the new rhythm. Once I learn the bus-routes and the way to the store and such, I will feel more comfortable. That's just going to take a week or two. I just need to give it time.

About At Dawn: because of the stressload, I haven't been able to write at all. I might not be able to post the final chapter in August at all. I hope the At Dawn readers can forgive me.

Until next time. *wave*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25904336/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25904336/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 17:36:57 PDT
And At Dawn, The Moon Shall Rise is moving along nicely. *knock on wood* I have currently finished writing chapter 4, and I just need to proofread chapter 3 before I can submitt it. I'm not sure about the length and such. But to those that are wondering, I'll have it up before Friday, no sweat. Probably even before that, knowing myself.

The warm summer weather has basically disappeared. We're now left with random thunderstorms and rain showers every hour. It's cool, so it's really comfortable at night, but it's more than a little gloomy. It would be nice if it was a little sunny and maybe a little warmer, though not as warm as it was in June. That was just too hot!

I've been listening to a lot of old music, lately. Some 80s hits and some songs from my childhood. The summer always makes me nostalic for some reason. So far it has worked for me, but I don't doubt that my old music will lure me back into its clutches soon. Hehe.

Once I've finsihed At Dawn, I'll start reading the Lestat Trilogy. I bought the books back in June, but forced myself to put them on hold. I didn't want them to spoil the view I had of the story. I'm really looking forward to reading them. ^^

That's all for now.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25625325/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25625325/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 09:41:00 PDT
So, without any further ado, I preset And At Dawn, The Moon Shall Rise, my beloved vamp fic. Good luck to me to fit that title into each submission. *cough*

Chapter one will be out within the day. But because I'm evil, I won't update until...two or so weeks have passed. Why? Because not even half of the fic is complete. I'm currenlty not even halfway through chapter three. I'll take it slow until it's complete. Then I can update more often.

...Oh, you people (aka, the ones that plan to read this fic) are going to hate me. Hehe.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25345101/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25345101/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 06:18:19 PDT
PICTURES
(Which I, oddly enough, seem to have a lot of.)

Graveyard pictures: I have a few more to submit, if I ever get around to do it. And if I like them enough, of course.

Pictures from Spain: Almost the only reason I survived down there. That and the net. Anyhow, I have a few I'll get out soon. An ocean picture or two and definitely one of the sunset there.

Pictures from LCU: I still have a few pictures from my college campus area. I need to look over them again, but there might be one or two that might be worth submitting.

Pictures from an old Walk: By old, I mean from a walk I took two years ago. But if I like none of my other pics, I'll check them out.

WRITINGS
Currently, there is just one thing I'm working on; the vampire story.

The story will be about Lestat and one of his more unusal preys. I'm doing my best to make the story original and, in the case of Lestat, in character. So fear not, there will be no Mary Sue in the story.
I'm not going to say anything about the actual story-line, just that it's going to be maybe 8 chapters long (and no more, hopefully). Unfortunately, I've only just finished chapter 1, and afterwards I found out that I needed to change a few things. So I have no idea when I can actually submit anything.
To those who are waiting for this piece, please be patient. It will come.

And that's all for now.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25213988/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25213988/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 10:09:03 PDT
For more about the book project, go here [link]

It was ~bunnylovesmusic that tipped me off about this project. I sat down and read about it, and I instantly knew that I wanted to send something in. I looked over my stuff, but quickly realised nothing I had fit the critera, or it wasn't good enough in my eyes. So I sat down and thought to myself "I have time. I'll just play it cool for a while."

Then last night happened. I'm better now, but right then I felt like shit. I sat down earlier and felt a story suddenly come to mind. I don't know if I want to submit it or not, be that to the project or here on dA, because I can't look at it right now. I'll check it out tomorrow, see if it's good enough. It definitely contains the message I wanted, but I'm not sure about the quality of the piece.

But anyway, if you have anything you'd like to add to Harmless' collection, send in a contribution. They might not pick your thing, but at least you've tried. Click on the link to see where you can send your contribution. The deadline is July 31st 2009.

That is all for now. If I decide that I'd like someone's opinion on my story, I'll submit it here later. You'll know it's the one if the title says "Reach".

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25071076/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/25071076/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 14:07:52 PDT Destination: Spain, aka the Melt Land.
Company: My folks
I'll stop by every now and then, but not as often. For even though we do have net there, it's not guaranteed that it'll work every day.

So, that's all, really. I'll try to work on my newest story while I'm stuck in Melt Land. I love it. ^^ Finally a vamp fic that's going somewhere! The previous one died. Violently. Don't even ask *shudder*

That's all for now. See you all again properly when I get back! *wave* Mourn for me.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24861495/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24861495/ Wed, 20 May 2009 17:54:24 PDT First of all, I want to say this: To all my friends, I am so so sorry for taking forever with commenting on your stuff. I'm getting there, just slowing. I'm surely you know stuff is happening like crazy in my life right now, and it seems like that whenever I do have the time to sit down and look at your things, something happens and I get out of it. *sigh* But I will get to your stuff, I promise.

And now, back to our original script.

Writing wise, things have been going up and down. Rewriting Broken and writing By Moonlight took a lot of out me, but I'm pleased with them and don't regret writing them. I also wrote a similar short story, but it pains me to even look at --hell, it even confuses me, and that is not good!-- so don't expect to see that one appearing here anytime soon. It needs a major rewrite and a bigger hint of a plot. I like the moral in it, so I'm not going to throw it away. I just need to be able to sit down, let those emotions wash over me again, and give it a proper rewrite. That means, you should expect to see it on my account in 2010, if it shows up at all.

But believe it or not, there is hope in the horizon. I had one of the best dreams ever this week. It inspired me so much I'm going to make it into a story and post it. A huge thanks to ~bunnylovesmusic for bugging me until I caved and promised I was going to write it. I won't say exactly what it's about, just that it involves a vampire, a lost teenager, and running from the inevitable. That probably sounds like shite, but it's 3 AM, and that's the best I've got right now

But --for yes, there is always a but-- I don't know when I'll be able to post it. Hell, I'm not even halfway done with it! I have no idea how long it'll be or how it'll end. The dream ended before I got a snip at the final scene. Tch. So typical.

I will be posting something soon, though. Pictures, not stories. Me and ~bunnylovesmusic went on a photospree in a cemetery --yes, we're weird, and?-- last week, and I think there are a few decent shots I can upload. I still have a few from my earlier midnight camera walks too, I believe. There will be more, just...with time. I'm just a slow uploader. *shrug*

Anyhow...that's all for now. G'night all.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24789744/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24789744/ Sat, 16 May 2009 15:38:51 PDT

Alright, now that that's out of my system, here's an explanation of what I'm blabbing about. In Europe we have this contest that we call "Eurovision Song Contest". It's an annual song contest which a lot of European countries participate in. And today, for the first time in 14 long years, Norway won!

You go Alexander Rybak!

And even though I was doubtful for a while there, I have a reason: whenever I'm doubtful, we usually do it very well But yay, we finally won again! And to think that on our 50th aniversary of participating in Eurovision, we're going to host it. That is way cool.

And to top it off, tomorrow (or today as it is past midnight here), the 17th of May, is Norway's national day. It's going to be wild! *laughs* I can't wait to see my friends tomorrow. We're going to go to a fair and just hang out. I don't care how many of them show up, because I know two of them will at least be there.

Wow. I'm happy for the first time in a long time. It feels great. But that is all for now. Now I'm going to get ready for bed and such. Got a lot to do tomorrow.

GO NORWAY!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24457016/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24457016/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 04:13:41 PDT

Now that that is out of my system, I can explain. I love my friends, and I love it when they give me ideas, but I hate it when I sometimes go through with them. Things like last night happens then. Oh, don't give me that look! Last night I took a good friend's advice (you know who you are) and tried to write something completely new and out-of-the-blue. I did, and I love it. Not.

I haven't actually had the courage to look over it yet, cos come on, I got out of bed an hour ago, but I'm going to check it over later while the storyline is still fresh in mind. I have a few changes I'd like to add, but the ending will remain the same, and I hate it! I hate it, I hate it, but I can't change it unless...no, I can't change it.

Anyhow, I'm going to upload it once it's properly completed, looked over and possibly polished. Urgh. So, when it comes out, fear it! Seriously.

Now that all this is said and done, I'd like to thank my dear friend. If I find myself out of my writer's block after this, I'll love ya even more, hon. But even so...I hate that story. *cough*

That's all for now. Now I'm off to get some food and find out how I'm going to clean up for tonight. Yeah, good luck to me.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24374908/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24374908/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 10:17:29 PDT
Ok, I'll admit it; I fail. Completely. I'm a complete an utter failure!

So, what brought this on? My inability to upload things here, that's what. In 09, I have posted a total number of 1 story. That's it. I posted something right before New Years, but in the "good" year of 2009, I have posted one 5 page story. Say it with me now, guys; failure!!


Now that I've gotten that out of my system, I'm going to say that yes; I know I'm not a complete failure. I've just been busy and incredibly unimaginative lately. Hell, the one thing I did post was a year old! And if I have been imaginative, it's on stuff that's not going to be posted. Ever. Least of all on this site.

But back to business. What I'm saying is that I'm sorry for the lack of uploads and comments here. Now that I actually have time, I find myself avoiding devART even more, for some reason. Huh.

So, I'm basically here to say that I have nothing to upload whatsoever, and I don't know when I'll have something to upload. You know those wonderful writing sprees you sometimes get? Yeah, I don't get a lot of those anymore. *sulk* And if I get 'em, it's not on any original work. And since I'm diving into a personal project, I don't know if I'll have the energy to start something new. So, unless I come up with a song or poem, the only thing you'll get from me is the occasional journal entry and comment.

No one is sadder about this than me. I love to write, and sadly I only have room for so many plot bunnies. And that personal project is taking up a lot of my time due to research and the occasional midday nap/mediation, causing a few of those plot bunnies to run away from me. Screaming. The cowards. The ones that do remain have been firmly written down on paper, or are so annyoing that they stay for the sole purpose of, yes, annoying me.

I will be back, though. Of course I will. Like I said; I love writing far too much to stop. Maybe I'll be back soon with a strange story? *shrug* Let's hope, but not too much. Hehe.

Laters, everybody! *wave*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24310789/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24310789/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 15:54:13 PDT
I have intimacy issues. I don't like hugging people unless I'm completely comfortable around them. If a random person tried to hug me, I'd most likely punch them or run away. Seriously.

I don't mind hugging my friends, but when mom wants to have the fifth damn goodnight hug in a row, and I can still see the wine stains on her teeth, I just, I snap. I don't want to, damnit!

I doubt it'll affect me when I do get a boyfriend, but just, guh, I hate this. I hate hugging my mom because she sees it as my (and I qoute) resposibilty as her daughter. I do stuff because I want to, not because people expect me to do them! *tears at her hair* So, to say it politely, we didn't part on good terms tonight either. It was just her usual moping over not getting her last "nighty hug", of course, but I'm getting sick and tired of this shit.

I should probably see a therapist about ny aversion against hugging and such (one of the many things I should have seen one by now), but I don't want to. I don't want my parents to know. Call me a baby, a coward, I don't care. I'm used to appearing like a "big girl", so...I guess it's hard for me to just break down and admit that I'm having trouble. I can tell my friends, no big deal there, but...ah. You know what I mean.

Anyway, that was tonight's late-night rambling. Now I'm off to get some rice and munch that.

(Beware, I might delete this later. But for now, it'll stay up. I want to remind myself to take this up with my mom later.)

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24046703/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/24046703/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 19:12:52 PDT
I had a little bout of insomina last night. I was dead tired and decided to go to bed early for once. I was really sleepy and lay down with a smile on my face...and proceeded to spend an hour tossing and turning. Once that hour had passed I decided to be smart for once and get out of bed. I then spent 3 hours watching an animated movie, a few Friends episodes, eating a bit and chatting. I once told myself that if I ever was unable to go to sleep, I would get out of bed and do stuff until I got tired and could go back to bed. Why? Because I don't want to associate the bed with not sleeping. That is how you risk really getting insomnia.

Most people think they have insomnnia because they don't go to bed/to sleep. This is because they assosicate the bed with tossing and turning and being unable to fall asleep. And so they begin to avoid the bed alltogether. I promised myself that that would never happen to me.

Well, after 3 and 1/2 hours of doing other stuff, popping two painkillers (I had a killer headache to boot on top of everything else), I finally managed to go to sleep. I finally fell asleep around 4 AM.

I woke up at 12 (noon) today thanks to my alarm, but I couldn't get up. I went back to sleep and finally managed to get out of bed at 3 PM. I then decided that I was going to let mom and dad know what had happened last night when they got back. Guess how they reacted. Or rather, guess what mom said.

I have never felt that betrayed. She basically said it was my own fault, that I had turned the day upside down and that was why I hadn't been able to sleep. She said that I had to set the day straight again. I told her I was going to do it, and she asked me how. She really didn't believe me. Fuck. I got no sympathy whatsoever. Nothing. Though I think dad felt a little sorry for me, I felt like slapping mom. I had a really rough night, and that's what she says to me?

So, that "happy" entry a few days ago didn't last long, obviously. This is one of those times I think I could write a mean death/torture story, but I'm too tired. If this anger and hurt is still there tomorrow, I'm doing it. If it isn't, then I can read this entry over and then write that story. I've been dying (no pun intented) to get it done since I started it.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/23971998/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/23971998/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 16:31:32 PDT
Only that I'm halfway stranded in one of my dryspells. I've nearly managed to write it away, I think, after writing 5 pages on a story I adore very much. But even so, with a new music mix on my iTunes, I found myself lacking something.

That was when I remembered a story I wrote about a year ago. I wanted to read it again, and to my delight, I found it on my harddrive. And so I read it. It has its flaws, of course it does, but it restored a little faith in me. I can write different than what I usually do, and I can write it without completely sucking at it.

I'm going to make a few changes on the story, grammatical wise only, then I'm going to post it. Why? Because I want to share it. ^^ I'm a little proud of it. It shows that I can write a) something short and b) can write something that isn't usually up my alley. Of course, some people know this already, but I managed to resorte some faith in myself.

So, after a little cosmetic surgery on it, I'll post it. Another reason for that is because it's been ages and I haven't uploaded anything My apologies. Life has been very hectic, very busy, even more so than when I was still in college. I have people hanging constantly over my shoulder, nagging at me to do stuff I want to do at my own time, thank-you-very-much.

But I have music to drown myself in while I take care of business. Lots of it, even ^^ New music too! I just need to listen to it all and pick out my favourites. God knows that's going to take a while *laughs*

Anyway...that's everything I have to say for now. I'm off to pop in a new CD and listen to that one. G'night all. *waves*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/23551099/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/23551099/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 03:19:36 PST
I'm sick and tired of being lil miss too-goody-shoes. I'm sick of being the ever studying student when I don't even like the course I'm taking anymore. I'm sick of forcing myself to be someone I'm not.

So, I quit.

I don't know what I'm going to do just yet, but it'll probably be one of these options:
I take the rest of the time off until August and then I start college again, this time chosing the course wisely
I take that writing course online that my mom tipped me off about, and then start college in the spring
I start college in the spring

Because there is one thing I refuse to do; and that is to quit completely. I'm not going to look back at my time at this college and just remember the huge dept I'll be forced to pay to the state. I've learned a lot, I just wish I had learned the lesson before my first exam or I had had this epiphany in June instead. Seriously, that's how much longer it should have waited. But when you realise that if you continue, you have to write another 8 page term paper, possibly two 3-page assignments and 3 more exams, the motivation tends to run away with its tail between its legs. That's basically an entire year of school work crammed into 4 months. That's too much for me.

But before then I have to give up the apartment, move back to my parents' place and just get my life back together. It's basically in pieces at the moment. I don't see how I could have missed this huge breakdown sneaking up on me.

But until I know what's going to happen next, I probably won't be very active here. I'll pop in every now and then, but I'm afraid my friend devation list will just continue to grow in number. Oh well.

Until next time. Hope your life makes more sense than mine at the moment *wave*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/23378850/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/23378850/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 10:16:43 PST
Best Idea: Sarcastical meant this time; waiting two days before finally bothering to buy stuff on rockshop.no. What I wanted was sold out. Apparently I'm not the only one in Scandinavia that likes Disturbed (the band). Huh.

Best Buy: Since it was me who bought it; the album Nevermind by Nirvana. Damn, Cobain has a nice voice O.o I don't know why I never realised that before.

Fav Word: Alright, I'm a bit ashamed to admit this, but here goes...lol. Seriously, that's my fav word. Watch the "served Kingdom Hearts" videos on youtube, and you'd like it too Granted, I can only guarantee that if you a) like Kingdom Hearts and b) watch it late at night. The sleepyness makes it rock ten times as hard as when you're awake.

Fav Song: If I have to pick one out of the two new albums on my iTunes list (mom bought Black Album the same day I bought Nevermind)...Sad But True by Metallica. I like it; so sue me.

Writing Update: No writing currently being done, though I have a nice story I wanna try my hands on to get out some repressed feelings. It remains to be seen if it'll ever be finished.

Happening: A short reunion in honour of K's birthday. Sadly N couldn't make it, the reason(s) for that still remain unknown. But it was fun while it lasted.

Irritating Moment: My friends already know what that was, so, no comment.

Addiction: Angst. I'm loving angst stories right now (reading and writing).

Best Work: Work, what work?

Current Job: Trying to survive. Yeah, I know; sucky job.

That's all for now.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/22257582/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/22257582/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 09:36:28 PST
This is what I found memorable:

Top 10 Fav Songs
Forever or Never by Cinema Bizarre
Haunted by Disturbed
The End of Heartache by Killswitch Engage
Valentine’s Day by Linkin Park
Sorry by Nick Black
I’d Come For You by Nickelback
I Want To Break Free by Queen
Breathe You In by Stabbing Westward
Cold by Static-X
Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace

Top 10 Fav Movies And Shows
Criminal Minds
CSI:LV
Interview with the Vampire
Miami Ink
Queen of the Damned
Shooter
Supernatural
The Dark Knight
The Pirates of the Caribbean Trilogy (they go as one)
Twilight

Top 5 Albums
Art of Breaking (Thousand Foot Krutch)
Dark Horse (Nickelback)
Indestructible (Disturbed)
Simple Plan (Simple Plan)
Queen Greatest Hits (Queen)

Top 5 Best Work
Suicide Highway (Song)
Take A Life (Story)
The “To Whoever” Series (Stories)
Whispers... ]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/21709999/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/21709999/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 04:47:39 PST
So yesterday was my exam, right? Well, I'm taking one of my daily breaks to tell you all how it went. It didn't.

I'm currently reporting live from back home at my folks' place. I've gone and done it, it seems; I've gotten sick. Now, don't worry too much, it's just a cold. A cold that fucked me over, but a cold nonetheless. I've been lying sick since Monday night/Tuesday morning, and it has only gotten worse. I finally felt a little better on Thursday, but not nearly enough.

I didn't finish my exam. I had to leave.

And I'd like to say thank you to the health system in L (the city which I shall not name here; my friends know which one I mean anyway). When I was sick and needed help, I didn't get it. When someone calls to tell you they need to see a doctor because they had to leave an exam, they don't like to hear that they have low priority. And when they ask to be told where the fucking clinic is, you can at least tell them where without sounding like they're an invalid. Thank you so much for that.

So I had to take the first train home to see a doctor at the clinic my mom's a member of. At least there someone listened and understood that while a cold is just a cold, when it makes you dizzy and unable to fucking remember how to write your own mother tongue, it's BAD!

Anyhow, so I have to retake the exam in the spring. I just need to send in the note the doctor gave me to the school and hear when that's gonna be.

I just wanted to take some time to tell you all that. I'd like to thank my friend N though, who made me aware of the fact that I could have stayed at home and called in sick, which then made me read over the exam info real good. That's how I learned my rights and what I could do. She probably saved my life, and my grade, as I would otherwise have panicked. I was seriously unable to write anything, words wouldn't come to me! And when I can't even say what an "intepretation" is, let alone write it correctly in my own damn mother tongue, then it's bad.

So, thanks N, you probably saved a lot of my sanity by telling me that.

I'll be on briefly every day until the 5th, since that is my next exam. An exam I plan to finish! But from the 6th and outward, I'll be on more frequently and maybe with something to upload. Until then, I'm going to wallow in my misery and read until my head explodes. Good day everyone.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/21601621/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/21601621/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 17:35:55 PST
Right, so my exams are, like, under a week away *bites her nails* I should be reading more, but I so don't want to. I am though! ... It's just so boring! But I will read, because I refuse to fail college.

Because of Exam Hell (it deserves capital lettering) I haven't been very productive, due to, well, my exams coming up. My creativeness is stuck at rock bottom, though right now I wish I had something to just write so that I could relax a bit more. *sigh* But whatever. I'll just relax while watching some TV instead *is stressed anyway*

Anyhow, everything will be over in two weeks. In two weeks I will have completed the first semester of college. *dies again* Yeah, see why I'm stressed/nervous/a wreak/all the above?

Anyway, I figured that I would give myself a little cookie if I worked well and prepared myself properly for the exam. So, if I'm a good girl and read a lot this weekend, I'll order Eclipse (the third book in the Twilight Series). That way I'll get it when my exams are done, and I get to relax and breathe once the hell is finally over.

But until then... nerve city! But I will pull through. And I won't let my friends here push me down until I'm hysteric. I can do that myself, thank-you-very-much. I read at my own pace, fuck the rest! *nods* But until the exams are over, I'm not going to be very active here, so see ya again more properly around the 10th of December! *waves before running off to have a(nother) panic attack*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/21340813/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/21340813/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 13:33:09 PST Whispers of a Ghost has hereby officially been completed. *finds a tissue and blows her nose* I never thought this day would come.*sob* ... Seriously, I didn't think it would

I decided to upload it while taking a break from... gah, all the stuff I have to do before tomorrow. It's gonna be a long night for me. Gotta remember to go to bed before 2 AM, though, I have to get up early *growl*

But that's not the real reason I'm annoyed though. I have to rewrite the stupid psych. assignment, and though I was prepared for just that, I wasn't prepared for just how much I had to add! *is dead* I've just barely gotten started, and I want to finish it so that the teacher can comment on it before the final deadline. This sucks. I'm just glad I've done everything else on my list, I only have two assignments to finish. Piece of cake!

Oh, wait... I forgot, I need to pack as well *finds a gun and shoots herself* Bloody great. *sigh* Never mind me, I'm just in my normal moody mood. It's when I'm all happy-happy joy-joy you should be worried!

Anyhow, I'm looking forward to going home tomorrow. It's gonna be nice to relax at home. And the best part? I'm gonna be home alone from Friday to Sunday! *smirk* I'm going to be able to relax and read (psychology of course) in peace! Sometimes having a mom looking over your shoulder every 5 minutes is damn annyoing!

On a slightly less whiny note; I've gotten seriously hooked on the Twilight Series by Stephenie Meyer. I finished reading New Moon (book 2) in 6 or so hours A little upper in the usual downward spiral of my life, especially since I really enjoyed it. Now I have to patiently wait until after the exams, as I'm only allowing myself to read the 3rd and 4th book then. *cough*

And... that's it really. I have nothing more to upload for a while, besides a few pictures that I need to approve first, so we'll see when I'll add something again. Also, to everyone on my watch-list, I'm going to comment on your stuff soon! I just need to catch my breath first

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/21198903/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/21198903/ Tue, 28 Oct 2008 08:54:48 PDT
Thanks to the ever-wonderful I have finally found the tone in WoaG again! I actually managed to finish a chapter tonight, so I'm really psyched! I don't know how much further the story is going to be, but I can feel the end approaching. And since I'm so psyched, a chapter has hereby been added

School's starting to get stressing. I still have that bloody assignment that I need to finish, but WoaG is just so much more fun to write! But I will continue on the assignment later tonight. I am after all writing about antisosical personality disorder, and that's fun all in its own way *grin*

Other than that... *thinks* Well, I've managed to get hooked on parody clips from LotR on youtube It's called "Sogan om de Banlysta" (the Legend of the Excommunicated) and it's in Swedish. It bloody rocks I'm serious, me and R crack up every time either of us say a sentence from the parody. *lol*

I've also managed to get an addiction on the song "Cold" by Static-X. I mean, after watching a video from Queen of the Damned with this song, how could I not get hooked? So... *lurks off to put it on repeat*

Until next time! *waves*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/20708730/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/20708730/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 16:23:31 PDT
Those who know me know this: I hate to socialize with strangers and more than that, I hate partying with strangers. So yay for me for picking the perfect place to live; a student complex (sarcasm all the way, baby). We have floor parties. Floor parties! *finds gun and shoots herself* Had I know someone here, I might have at least stuck my head out to say hello but a) mom and dad was here with me and b) *sigh* I hate drunk teenagers. I love my friends, and I can handle them fine when they're drunk, but strangers... they I wanna kill. As simple as that.

And while they're at it; get some good music to sing along badly to, eh?!

*takes a deep breath* ... *breaths out* Alright, I'm calm now.

Anyhow, I didn't come here just to rant. Nope! Since my folks were visiting today, I got the rest of my b-day gifts! First I got Queen of the Damned (which I watched and LOVED btw) and Interview with the Vampire. I squealed out lout, I kid you not! Then my friends got me a book about famous crimes, murders and the criminals to go with them. Oh yes, that book I l.o.v.e! They also got me a poster with a porqupine and the words: "The Spikes Are Always Out" ("Piggene Alltid Ute" in Norwegian). Cute and so not inspired by me at all

And then it's over to today's gifts! I got Twilight by Stephenie Meyer, which I'm very much looking forward to read. Then I got How-To-Learn-Japanese DVD and CDs! How the fuck am I supposed to get any school work done? But that wasn't all! Mom and dad got me House MD season 3 and Supernatural season 3!!! I squealed again and hugged the daylights out of them But how could I not?!?!?! They're both just in english, without subtitles too I believe, but so what?! I've got the boys!! *hugs the DVDs close to her chest* Inspiration for WoaG here I come!

Anyway, back to Semi-Sane City. I can't wait for the B-Day party for me and R on Friday! It feels like forever since I've seen all of my friends, so it's gonna be a blast! I just want to it be Wednesday already so that we can leave!

Anyhow... I'm jumping a bit back and forth, and I'm actually pretty tired (I think all the excitement really tired me out ) so I'm gonna force myself to go to bed... In a half hour or so. Me in a nutshell; I say soon and I mean 2 hours *lol* Gotta be all rested out tomorrow for me and R's movie night! And boy do I have a surprise for her! *smirk* Hehehe. Until next time, people!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/20637805/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/20637805/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 15:20:30 PDT

But I didn't come here to rant about my age. *snort* I actually have good news! To those who peek into my gallery, you'll have noticed that I've updated WoaG earlier this week. And do ya know what? *smirk* I managed to write 4 whole pages on chapter four today! That's a whole scene *smug* I think I deserve to feel a little proud of myself, hehe. Of course, the chapter in itself is nowhere done yet, but I've gotten a headstart!

When it comes to the rest of WoaG, I'm not sure how long the story's going to be. I think it'll be 6 chapters and hope that it won't become more than 8. It's just that, I often have a lot of things to say, and it's often hard to stop But no worries. I can almost see the end of it. But to those who are wondering: yes, I'm prioritizing school, but I had to write today to keep myself sane(r). Philosophy is gonna kill me one of these days!!

And talk of the devil... next week is "project week". That means that I only have one lecture, which is very nice. But I have an assignment to complete and a project to start, but having only having one lecture makes up for it! And to make it all seem so much sweeter; R, N and me are probably going to take a trip home that week. ^^ Now, that I'm looking forward to!

Apart from that I don't have a lot to say. However, if WoaG comes to another stop, I'll post some more pictures. I'm going to post them anyway, but then I'll just post them sooner.

Anyway, I better get my butt to bed soon. *snort laugh* But we all know that's not gonna happen anytime soon I've got things to read, stuff to write, vids to watch... you name it. Hehe. Though I do have something that'll motivate me to go to bed soon *cough*a gift*cough* so I'll probably go soon. Don't wanna keep that gift waiting after all

G'Night everyone!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/20310178/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/20310178/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 15:33:52 PDT

When it comes to uploading stuff; I actually forced myself to go outside and I took a few pics that actually looked pretty good. I might post them sometime in the nearest future.

But when it comes to WoaG; I have no idea when I'll be done with the third chapter. I actually have no idea how long the story's actually going to be, but I'll say at least two more chapters. There's still a few unanswered questions that I need to take care off, as well as a few *cough* moments and such that I need to add. And yes, that is all I'm telling you. *smirk*

As for college life... it's alright. So far! *knock on wood* The seminars starts this week, the philosophy shit on Friday and Pschology on Wednesday. Oh well. I won't be semi-busy no longer; I'll actually be busy O.o How strange I need to get used to that feeling again, me thinks.

That's all for now. I'm off to dream weird stuff again and get up when I want to Then tomorrow comes the final packing out and fixing shit. Wish me luck, I'll need it! Lol.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/20110417/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/20110417/ Sat, 23 Aug 2008 09:32:10 PDT I'm just in a situation known as "my stinking hotel has no internet!!". *pout* But I'm moving to my Internet-guaranteed apartment in just a little over a week, so I'll survive.

Because I'm feel extreemly lazy, I'm doing this journal in keyword mode again. *lol*

Best Idea: To go to a chiropractor about my back. It had been hurting for almost a week when I finally caved (mentally that is, it just hurt too much for me to simply believe that "this is just stress"). The dude actually made my spine crack in two places. The sound echoed in the room and I cried out, but it feels so much better now! Yes, it is sore, but I can walk around without wanting to cry anymore. It's a bitch when your spine locks up, believe me.

Best Buy: Posters for my room! Lol. Two with dragons and one with Japanese letters.

Fav Word: "Fersken" in Norwegian. I used this a lot around my folks during my first week at college. It of course means fuck, but they don't know that

Fav Song: That's gotta be Disturbed's "The Night". It makes me sing along every time I listen to it. Lol. But this can of course be traced back to the fact that I'm a teeny tiny bit obsessed with that band at the moment. *thinks* Nah, the song just rocks

Writing Update: Yeah, about that... I'm in a bit of a tough spot in WoaG at the moment. I'm working as fast as I can, but seeing as I have college and I'm moving in a week, there's only so much I can do. When I get something done, you guys will be the first ones to know.

Irritating Moment: Realising that I have to spend another week without net. Since my back, while feeling better now, isn't up for carrying my books and my laptop at the same time, Internet is down-prioritized. And yes, I'm feeling quite sane thank you Sometimes you just have to make hard decitions.

Addiction: That'd be a show called "Miami Ink". It's about tattoos. How could I not love it?

Current Job: Getting up in the mornings. You never realise how much you depend on your parents until you live alone, seriously!

And that's it for now. Now I'm off to try to write more on WoaG. Wish me luck! *lol*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/19880129/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/19880129/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 14:08:45 PDT
I'd like to say I'm sorry for not being more online lately. I haven't had the time to look at anyone's stuff, really, and for that I apologise. I'll do it either later tonight, or when I have the chance.

The last couple of weeks have been weird. Mom's finally realising I'm leaving, and we've been in each other's throats a lot. But such is life, I guess. I haven't really packed yet, but I've written a list of what I'm taking with me tomorrow. I'm coming back for the rest later, when I get my actual apartment in September. Until then it's a hotel apartment. Joy *sarcastic*

So, until August 19th, I can't say for sure when I'll be online. I know, I'll have major withdrawel sympthoms. Heh.

Tonight, as my last night here, will be filled with last minute writing and reading and a little bit of Supernatural. I just wish I had had the time to be more at home and with my friends before all this shit dropped. Ah, well.

Until later then, friends! I'll see ya when I see ya.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/19575877/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/19575877/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 15:51:10 PDT

Me, and had long ago bought our tickets, and arrived an hour and a half early for the show to start. We just sat outside for a while and giggled at strange people around us and how much we were looking forward to the concert. We finally got tired of waiting at 4.45 pm, and went inside. And boy, there were a lot of people there! I think they said it was 30 000 that had bought tickets. And the heat we had that day did not help how warm and sweaty we got! The security guards knew what to do though and threw water at us every now and then. They even gave out water cups. I managed to snatch two Hehe. Because boy, it was hot and you were sharing sweat and the water that had been thrown at you.

The first band that warmed up was Lauren Harris and her crew. They were actually not that bad. But I have to admit that they weren't really my usual taste, though I didn't hate them. Now, there was a couple of assholes just beside me and my friends that kept rolling their eyes at whoever enjoyed the first band, and Avenged as well! *glares at them* Lauren and her crew came on at around 7.00 pm, and played for a half-ish hour. And when they got off, me and my friends were giggling to ourselves. A7X were up next!

And god, I'm sure I fainted for a moment there. Avenged simply ROCKED!!!! They just walked out onto the stage like they owned it. And they opened with Scream, which is one of my fav songs by them. And fuck, Matt's voice is just like on the records! They don't tweak it at all You go Matt! They also played Afterlife, Beast and the Harlot, Gunslinger, Bat Country, Almost Easy, and another song I think was Critical Acclaim. I could only recognize the guitar riffs, not the actual lyrics, so I know I've heard the song before. Hmmm. But oh my fucking god, they were AMAZING!

The concert was actually just perfect. But like everything in life, even the perfect things, there are things that could have been better. Remember those fans I mentioned? They were complete bastards when A7X came on. Sure, I understand that they wanted Maiden, but still they didn't have to give them the finger or turn their backs (childishly) at them. *rolls her eyes* Well, whatever. I didn't let them ruin the concert for me. *nods*

Maiden is actually a very cool band live. They know how to entertain a crowd, and they sound awesome. I'm not a big Maiden fan, but I don't hate them at all. I might actually start to collect in some classic songs on a later date.

Afterwards me and Bunny got an A7X t-shirt each! I love it! Sadly Naka-chan couldn't. Lol, see that I've given you a nick, girl? Lol.

But, to sum it all up, we had a blast And I almost died when A7X said they would be coming back in February. Screw college, I'm going to be there! I just can't miss their first solo gig in Norway, I simply cannot! http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/19496409/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 08:31:42 PDT
As some of you (my friends) already know, I'll be going to a warmer place this Saturday. And thanks to my mom's "brilliant" planning, I'll be gone for two weeks. And then, when I finally do come home, I'll be busy getting ready for college and moving. Joy. So my Internet time will be limited and treasured.

But I don't just bring bad news. Thankfully, after talking to mom, I'll be able to get online every now and then when I'm away thanks to wireless Internet. So, when I do finally manage to finish part three in Whisper of a Ghost, I'll be able to post it asap. *sheepish: Still shocked over the responses I got for it, seriously.

Also, when it comes to WoaG, as I've "fondly" started to call it, I'm kinda stuck. That's why it's going to take some time before part three will be out. I need to sort out a few things, though I know how the story will play out, there are times when obsticals just get in the way! But don't worry, I'm working on it.

And finally, my friend and my wishes have come true! There is finally a bipolar emoticon of sorts! I have no clue how to put it in here, but is it out there!!

... And that's it really. Until I have anything else to tell of, bye!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/19113609/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/19113609/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 17:05:33 PDT Mood: Sombre

First, an explanation as to why I'm writing my mood at the beginning of the entry. The mood switcher doesn't work on in my journal, so if it doesn't start to do so soon, expect the "excited" mood to be sarcastically meant in most cases.

But over to the actual purpose of this entry.

I've been a little back and forth when it comes to my mood lately. One day I've been insanely happy; like the day that a British Weather Guy reported to have been the happiest day of the year, to a little more sombre; like I am today. I guess it comes with the job, growing up that is. My only complaint is that I'm far too young to be growing up, and the paycheks are paid with painful experiences or more hurt.

I've been listening to some new music lately. That being more songs from Bullet For My Valentine, two from Killswitch Engange and one song by Apocalyptica that I've mentioned below. Adam Gontier, the vocalist in Three Days Grace, sings in it and the video version just rocks. I strongly recommend it. Other than that, there are two songs that have hit a cord in me lately. That is Hearts Burst Into Fire by Bullet and The End of Heartache by Killswitch. They're both really strong and emotional in their own way, and probably matching my mood more than I'd like right now. I also strongly recommend listening to them. Killswitch is a little heavier, more metal, but there is a message there.

I plan to add some more pictures soon, but I just have to pick out the right ones. I also plan to take that walk back to my old school and take a few pics. I might be leaving soon, and I know walking will do me good. Besides, there are some trees I have to walk through, a few interesting buildings and a playground that I'm sure I'll have fun with. But I'll need to kick myself out of the door to do that, but I'm sure I'll be able to. I need to get out and think, and that walk will allow me to do just that.

I wish this entry was happier, but sadly that emotion doesn't come to me easily. Everything seems to be happening at once, and I just don't know what to feel anymore. There are few times, fewer than you'd think, that I've woken up and just wished that yesterday didn't happen, that it was all a dream. I know tomorrow will be one of those days. Don't ask me why, but I just know. I'd give almost anything for someone to just come, force me to sit down, and just talk to me. I think I'd like to get a few things off my chest, and they aren't all good things.

"It hurts. Wounds so sore. Now I'm torn, now I'm torn." Taken from Hearts Burst into Fire.

I'll end this now before I start to really rant. I'm fine, I really am, but I think the barrier around me have broken just a little. I'll be back soon, hopefully with some good news.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/18725812/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/18725812/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 06:46:46 PDT
Anyhow, I have great news! Not when it comes to my writing, which really is on a dry-roll again. I think I might be able to post a 4 or 5 chaptered story sometime during the summer, but that means I have to finish it. Yeah, good luck with that.
To the news. I just found out that Supernatural season 3 is showing tonight!! I mean, finally! I don't care how late it is, even if it will show the day before my oral exam next week, I'm watching it! *is very happy*

And that ends the good news in this entry I believe. The weather is just as boiling hot as it has been the past 2 or so weeks, and I'm actually jealous of my parents. They went to Spain yesterday, and while it is just as hot over there, at least they have an A.C. While we here in Norway, where it can never get warm, haven't even heard of such a treaorous invention.

Well, I gotta stop my rambling sometime. Hopefully I'll be able to post something soon. It's really boring to not have the will to work on something, damnit. And yet again, I wonder why there isn't a "bipolar" emoticon. It would be my fav, no contest. Heh.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/18522635/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/18522635/ Tue, 27 May 2008 06:38:56 PDT
However, I sat down today, when I actually should be studying for tomorrow's exam no less, and told myself I was going to fix it. And I did! It just took a helluva lot longer than I thought it would. So thank God I decided to do this while mom wasn't home. She's been breathing down my neck all week to fix it. "Well, sorry mom, but I have my exams to worry about right now!!" That was at least what I said to her every single time in my head.

Of course, fixing my comp couldn't be just a piece of cake. I had to back up everything up on a portable harddrive and then reboot the harddrive! Everything that the store didn't give me was erased. I've been installing a ton of stuff since the anti-virus was taken care of, and that didn't exactly take one second either. We're talking iTunes & Messenger, not exactly small progams either. But I'm mostly done now, thankfully. Let's hope everything stays fixed this time *crosses her fingers, toes and whatever's around to cross*

But the good thing right now is that as of tomorrow I don't have anymore written exams Until I start Uni of course. I have 2 full weeks off before my final exam, which is an oral examination. Then I'm done And then I will finally have a comp to play around with on the net as well!!

Because of all this stress, the exams and the comp incident, I haven't been able to write much lately. Maybe I should try my hand at taking pictures in the mean time. I'm willing to try out a lot during those 2 weeks of freedom!

Oh, and I got most the books in the manga series I'm reading. It's awesome! I especially love the last book of FAKE. *gush* The first 6 books are rated OT (Older Teen Age 16+) and are totally worth it. The last one is rated a little higher *cough* There is a good reason for that, and that is again worth it. I'm just waiting for one book now before I have them all. Hehe. Then I'll be very happy indeed.

And like I'm prone to be, this journal became a little bipolar. Woops? Anyhow, that's all I have to tell today. Byes

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/18208761/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/18208761/ Wed, 07 May 2008 08:53:26 PDT

Best Idea: Well, I haven't done it yet, but I'm going to put TDG's logo on my pants later today

Best Buy: Bought the manga series FAKE online. Hehe, what's not to love when it's about gay police officers solving crimes?

Fav Word: Fuck. No explanation needed, I've just gone through the mock-exam hell, I deserve to cuss myself blue!

Fav Song: Maybe "Take My Hand" by Simple Plan. Their newest album is less... punk than what I had expected, but that song both stuck to me and kind of makes me want to dance. Huh

Writing Update: Writing, what's that? *cough* The truth is that I haven't really been working on anything lately. So, nothing new to tell here.

Happening: That I managed to survive in a crowd of 10 000 or so drunk and partying teenagers and not kill someone! That is quite the feat, especially since one guy nearly grabbed me (maybe by mistake, but dude, I felt that hand), one ish-humped me, another one wouldn't leave my ass alone and finally, one had to write a freaking L on the back of my sweater in a pen that won't come off. *glare* Yes, quite a feat is you ask me.

Irritating Moment: Yesterday the Internet decided to be stupid again and cut me off! Alright, so it was only for a half hour, but we changed subscription to stop that from happening again! *grumble*

Addiction: FAKE the movie. I've got to distract myself from logging in to watch it again

Best Work: Sketching TDG's logo, the gothic one. I'm very happy about the outcome!

Current Job: Staying alive. Seriously!

To those who I tagged, hehe, just check my previous journal for how to do it. ^^

But that was all kids. Until next time!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17926197/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17926197/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 10:55:15 PDT I apologise for taking so long to do this. Also, I don’t know 8 people here, so I’m posting one more fact instead of someone I’m supposed to tag. Yes, I’m pathetic, but so what?

* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs.

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1. I'm not a goth or emo, I just like to be alone once in a while and love the "colour" black.

2. I love, live and breathe music, but there are few bands I actually like. I don't really care about the band if I just like a couple of songs by them.

3. I'm currently writing a book and want to become a writer someday. I just hope I will have the courage to send out the manuscript once I finish it.

4. My current and long-time obsession is yaoi, also known as man-on-man action. I don't care what other people think, it's hot!

5. I've been writing since I was 12 years old, and the thing that inspired me to write long stories was the Harry Potter books.

6. I love talking walks at night, and I love it even more when it's a little cold. Something about the fresh air and music in my ears calms me like you wouldn't believe.

7. I actually don't know what I want to do in the future, school-wise. Even though Psychology is the first on my list at Uni, I'm scared shit-less and aren't sure if I can make it there.

8. I'm often quiet, but it doesn't mean I'm not comfortable around someone. I talk when I have something to say, it's as simple as that.

9. I've been through a helluva lot more than I would have liked to. But it has shaped me into who I am today, so I don't regret most of it.

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The people I'm tagging:









I'm sorry you guys

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17777290/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17777290/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 09:55:10 PDT
So, the good ones first. I was sarcastic. There are no good news. Or, rather, the good news are that there aren't anymore bad news!
The bad news... little me has gone and done it again. I just can't stop being hurt, can I? *sigh* Let me tell the whole story so that I don't confuse anyone (including myself) here.

Yesterday I seemingly forgot to put in one of my contact lenses. So, I went to check if it had fallen out during the day or was stuck on my eye. And do you know what the optician said? I had a foregin object stuck on my pupil. So I stayed home today so that I could go to an eye doctor to get it removed first thing. But don't you think the little sucker had moved during the night? It was no longer present. Nope, but now I've got a nice little rift as a reminder. *glares* I'm going on a 4 day cure, 4 eye-drops a day to prevent infection. Whoopie.

Did you also know that cures such as that can actually make you worse? Or, that if you can actually get worse from something that's supposed to make you better? And if you get other reactions or allergies than the ones listed on the package, you should go to a doctor? Beautiful.

But, no matter, I am going to go to the get-together on Friday because I'm stubborn, and because I'll die of boredom if I stay at home. But tomorrow at school should be fun. Let's see how well I can do on a test less than an hour after getting my medicine? If I'm still woozy now, 3 hours later (though, I've actually been this way since I got up), how will it be tomorrow then? I can't wait.

Anyway. Because of all this I haven't been able to concentrate a lot, let alone write. Which sucks, because I was really getting somewhere with my stuff!! *sigh* No use crying over spilt milk.

Hopefully I'll be back with some stuff real soon. Oh, and I'll get back to the tagging business later. *waves*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17587790/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17587790/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 10:43:54 PDT It was just awesome!! I knew he was great live but... oh man, I haven't laughed so hard in years, and I doubt I ever will! It was great to be able to have so much fun, especially with all the stress that's going to devour me soon.

The concert itself was amazing. He opened with Craig and I couldn't stop singing along He had no trouble stopping in the middle of a song to comment stuff, or to say something to us. He's just... really cool. There's no other way to describe him. But there were a lot of requests being thrown at him, and a lot of noise at times, but that was the only downside. Actually, at one time he actually stopped and said "I'm not a fucking jukebox" and laughed And then he started to sing "I'm not a jukebox, and here's what I suggest you do. Go home, print out a picture of me, make a real-sized cardboard copy of me, put a guitar around its neck, put on some of my music and enjoy." And that last sentence he practically said in one breath! Of course, with a lot more cussing. *lol*

By the end of the show, he promised us he'd write "I'm Not A Fucking Jukebox" and add "pregnant man, cock/foreskin man, and backstage chick" among some other characters into Superhero. *laughs* At least he didn't add the "incest man", which also had thrown at him.

Actually, did you know he says the word "fuck" about 94 times in Craig? Hehe, some lawyers told him that before a show that was going to be sent on American TV And then they kindly asked him if he just could fucking not say that on national TV? *snort* What did he reply you think? "You guys have a fucking bleep button. You do your job, and I'll do mine" *falls off her chair laughing* Of course, then his would go like this: "I'm *bleeping* Craig. I'm *bleeping* *bleepity* *bleep bleep bleep!!*"

Oh, and there's one more incident I have to tell you about his lawyers. He once planned to start a show with the song Lullaby and he was pacing backstage and was totally nervous. Then the lawyers of doom come to him and ask him if he couldn't switch the word "rear" with "ear"? So then he would have sung "And daddy wants to have a lot of sex that involves mommy's ear" instead of "mommy's rear". Lynch then of course comments that: "Ear is much more deviant that rear... okay!" The lawyers are totally horrified now of course! Lol! "No, NO!! Just stick your fucking cock in her rear!! Don't fucking change it!!" Of course, then he tells us that it's Lynch: 1... but lawyers: 20. Oh well, alt least he won that battle! *laughs*

Also, he had actually learned some Norwegian words! Of course, he only said "thank you", "asshole" and "cock" but But he did actually say "good night" in German. I almost jumped up and screamed he got the language wrong And he learnt the name of our king and queen, and used them in a song. *is impressed* You go Stephen!

Also, during the concert suddenly someone suggest he'd sing Flying Bird O.o Okay. And then he sung that, only parts and really messed up though, and thankfully not the entire 25 minute thing! There were also two other songs, along with Stairway To Heaven which he sang parts of. Really, I wish he hadn't! He could have sung at least one more song if he hadn't. I missed If I Were Gay and Priest you see. Oh, but he sang Stairway like this: "And she's buying a stairway... to lick my balls" and promptly told us that every song should end that way. Lol!

He brought... ]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17544491/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17544491/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 16:14:04 PDT Stephen Lynch in less than *checks* 24 hours!! It's just so... it's unbelieveable almost. But I am so undeniably happy, and I'm dancing in my seat! I mean, I didn't even think he knew where my country was, much less wanted to play there. O,o But he is, and me and K and R are going to go and see him play tomorrow!! *glee*

I've been listening to his songs nonstop since Wednesday, when the tickets actually were reserved. And it's only due to dear BJ that I'm listening to something else now. *mock-glare* But a thanks to you again hon, because I love the song! And I am so sorry you can't come tomorrow. *pout* Next time, baby!

Right... going back to my old self now. *shakes head* As it says under, I'm reading a "finished" work of mine. And there is no way I'm posting it. "Getting it out of my system" stories are rarely how I imagine them to be, and this one is no exception.
But... argh, that means I'm back to square one on stories. My other *counts* 3 or 4 (not sure) are at a stand-still. Unless I beat some plot-bunnies back to life that is. And I'm seriously considering it.

Apart from that... first week back from Easter wasn't that bad. *knock on wood* But a full 8 hours of Law tomorrow is gonna kill me. Though, I'm in no real position to complain. But still... *sigh*

However... there is one thing I've come to a conclusion about. My book, I'm going to write it in English. There's is no way I can take translating it to my mothertongue. Besides, if I actually get somewhere with this manuscript, then the *bleep*s who likes it and wants it translated can tell me then. Because right now my English fingers are itching, so then I go after them. Because I want that book done!! I know how I want it to go and everything... even what-ish to add, and definitivly what to cut, I'm still standing still. But I will get somewhere soon, hopefully. *crosses fingers* Here's to mom leaving me alone for a long enough time to actually get started.

Now, lyric wise... dry-spell there too. *sigh* School is taking it's toll already. But I'll get somewhere, I have to. Or I might just snap. It's a long time 'till summer after all.

And... that's it really. I have to get to bed now, and I hope that I fall asleep a helluva lot quicker than I've been doing lately. Oh, and please, let me escape having weird dreams today!! Really... they are quite annyoing.

So, until next time!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17147672/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/17147672/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 11:16:49 PST

Yesterday was the day us graduates can sign up and then go around collecting money. I did so proudly! Hehe. Now I've got my first knot in my hat (my friends will know what I mean) and a baggy and nice t-shirt to boot! But on to the story.

I went with K and R, and we were given the rout around school. The first hour was pretty uneventful. Despite the fact that R got a 100 on her fist house!! That was just amazing It went slow for me and K for a while. My first contribution was 1.50. No, you read right. *snort* I'll give it to the guy. He answered half decent and had to make sure the dog didn't jump me and such... but *cough* Lol.

At one house however I got 150! I was so happy!! ^^ And I got to watch this really cute lil' puppy for a minute while the owner went to find her wallet. He was so cute! *gushes* And stuff just became better from there. I'm pretty damned proud of the amount I collected. And then there was this one house with 4 polish people that just had to give me something. That is, all of them That was damned funny!

But onto the story. I was all alone, because us girls had split up to cover the street better. This really sceptical guy opened. I had to repeat myself once, and he really, and then I mean really had to study the cup I was walking with. Let me tell you the conversation we then proceeded to have:
Guy: So, where are you from again?
Me: The *insert organisation* Organisation. We're building schools in *insert country*.
Guy: And do you actually do something with the money? *is really sceptical about the whole deal*
Me: Yeah. We go this round every year to collect money to be able to build a new school.
Guy: Oh really? So, which school do you come from?
Me: *insert school* just by the hospital there.
Guy: *falls over himself in... something* Oh! But then I'll make a contribution for sure!! *and proceeds to run around looking for money*
Me:
Guy: So, how much do you usually get?
Me: * even more* I've gotten everything from 1.50 to a 100.
Guy: *laughs* Really, 1.50?
Me: *nods uncertainly*
Guy: Well, here's *insert money*
Me: Thank you. *turns to leave*
Guy: *nearly shouts* Oh, and the next door neighbour isn't home by the way!
Me: Thank you! Good bye. *half runs out of there*

But really, can you blame me? He just wouldn't leave me alone. *cough* I almost called R, because K had forgotten her phone, because I couldn't find them right away. That was damn scary at the moment. But now... hehe. I have to laugh a lil'.

So, today I'm tired from walking for almost 3 hours and stuff... but I feel good to! ^^ I did something good for someone else. And that's all that matters.

Other stuff though... I'm a lil' stuck writing wise again. I have a lot of project that I'm dying to get done, and am going to try more later this evening, but so far I'm stuck. *sigh*

School wise... my life sucks. I hate school, I hate tests, papers, homework, projects... everything that teachers can dare to throw at me!! Stupid things. They're messing up my private life! I can't really sleep these days, not peacefully anyway. And I have the window open. It's March, and I have the bloody window open!! And I'm still warm and still can't sleep worth shit. And my brain's mush. I can't really think anymore. *sigh*

The only upside lately is that I'm getting my tattoo in just over a week! The only *bleep*ing upside. That's pretty lame if you ask me But I will survive. Easter is only two weeks from now after all. And then I get to relax! No test immideatly after break, and no project left... ]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16995781/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16995781/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 15:49:36 PST I write an angst and very un-happy song. *facepalm*

A little explaining needed. Today was the day I was planning on not relaxing so much and finally getting some work done. But, alas, my elder cousins were coming to visit. Okay, I was happy to see my youngest "cousin" because he's adorable and so cute ^.^ but still... a girl needs to have some time for herself. It was then that I find out that my other cousin was expecting a baby with his girlfriend! I nearly squealed. Note nearly. I do not squeal. It's just not me.

Anyway... Two hours or so after they've left, what do I do? ... I write a very angst song, which I've just added here, and sit back and start to think of more gory stuff to write. I am such an oxymoron!

Anyhow, the vacation is coming to an end, I'm not nearly done reloading my batteries. But I'm planning on having a blast at K's party tomorrow!! I sure hope that'll help.

Oh, and another reason I'm being seriously out of character... I just realised I'm getting my tattoo soon! I know, I know... I booked it yesterday and everything, and my gut's fricking filled with butterflies and I couldn't be more nervous... but right now I'm excited as hell!! I can't wait for the 13th!

Anything else? Let's see... the progress on my book is going way slow. I blame school. *shakes her fist* I so want to continue on it! Especially the official version, but alas, school is totally ruining my plans. Oh well, Easter isn't that far off. Someone isn't going to study shit then!!

But I better get to bed before I start freaking myself out here. I'm way tired, have the stupid book we're supposed to read for class on my mind, and a very catchy song humming in my blood. Overtired much? *lol*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16818827/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16818827/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 14:41:47 PST
It SUCKED!! The end. I hate my life, I hate school, I hate my mom, I hate the motherfutzing world!! Argh... there's no ending this rant.

*takes a deep breath* Right. I guess I have to apologise for that "little" outburst. I've just realised how shitty everything is. I know, I know "what else is new?" right? Well... there's a point you come to where you realise just how low you've sunk. There's a saying that says when you've hit rock bottom, the only place left to go is up. Bull. Shit. *snort* I just fell, and fell, hit bottom, and just continued to fall. The story of my fucking life. Anyhow, as I was trying to say... I'm sorry. I'm just in a shitty mood and need to get it out before I explode.

Oh, this would be such a great time to write a real angry/depressing short story. But, alas, I don't have the time. I hate mother's day. Just because of that stupid day I have to do my English homework now, roughly an hour before bed. Stupid, stupid.

I just need to breath, get whatever work I need to get done done, and just scream into my pillow at night. At least that's better than hitting the wall.

Also, I've discovered that my newest addiction, the band Drowning Pool, portrays my emotions right now quite nicely. Maybe that's the reason for my strange dreams lately? *shrug* Anyhow, great band. Thanks to Bunny once again for introducing them to be.

I... *sigh* I just need to write this done, get my homework done, and sleep. And hope that the ache in my shoulder goes bye-bye. This is the last time I carry a bag full of catalogues for more than an hour.

And finally, I'd like to apologise for the lack of updates lately. Those who know me know I'm in a dry-spell period, and don't have the time to write anything anyway. Though, I'm planning on posting a short story, the sequel to "To Whoever Might Be Listening". A word of advice, if you want to read it, I strongly suggest reading the first part first. The story does make sense without it, but you'll get a deeper understanding of the characters if you read them both.

Anyhow... until next time I guess. Hopefully that entry won't be as angry. But really, can you blame me? The mood you have runs in the family. It's in your genetics. And, heh, after meeting my mom, you wouldn't be surprised that I am the way I am.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16489261/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16489261/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 11:41:20 PST
Lately... alright, yesterday, I found that my imagination was simply too packed so I sat down and wrote. And wrote I did! Now, don't look at me like that, I know what you're thinking!! *glare* Nothing of that sort... yet. *cough* Anyhow, back to the point.

The deal is when I finish something, I ususally finish it. And that's that. But don't you think I got a nice lil' scene in my head and had to write it down as usual? Thus the sequel to To Whoever Might Be Listening was born. It might be finished, and it might not be. I have to let it lie for a while and then go back and see.

Anyhow, what I want help with... is anyone interested in reading it? *cough*
But don't worry, there's more to this rant!

I've started my book now, for real! I think I know where I'm going, and such. It's such a relieve! I've been wanting to write one since I was, well, young, and finally I am! And it's just mine. Granted, I was inspired by a few of my friends. Thanks to Benny and Ren-Ren (my apologies for this nickname girl, I'll make it up to you! ) You've helped me get this going, with character ideas and such, so thanks a lot guys! Much love!!

I'll tell more about my baby (refering to my book here, no worries ) when I have more to tell. I need to get the English version done first, which will be slightly different from the Norwegian one due to... well, the English one is fanfiction and the Norwegian one is actually going to see the light of day! That's all I'm going to say

Back with more later! Hopefully a song thingy or two as well *waves*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16403924/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16403924/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 14:22:00 PST
Keyword style all the way!

Best Idea: Being sarcastic here. Changing phones before I had added all nessecary info into the new one. Me thinks it's gonna be a small while before I fully change them. *cough*

Best Buy: Let's see... oh, the spikes I bought at Bodymack today! Now my belt is gonna be all fine again *huggles*

Fav Phrase: Wow, this is a tricky one. What about... "Oh no..." Hehe. Being used frequently that one.

Fav Song: That'll have to be *searches her playlist* The Art of Breaking by Thousand Foot Krutch I fell in love with that song the instant I heard it! Highly reccomended if you like my type of music.

Writing Update: Ergh. Apart from slowly getting there on the Norwegian translation and version of my story, nada. I've written a bit though! And am very happy with the outcome.

Happening: I saw National Treasure "2" on Sunday! Had a blast, hehe.

Irritating Moment: When I found that I was bleeding from not only from a teeny tiny papercut, but two other places too!! Damnit. *growl* And, believe me, you don't wanna know the rest!

Addiction: Chocolate, no contest. I need to lay off, as soon as possible! Which is... never?

Best Work: A pic from my story! I was half-asleep, and it looks good! And, hell, I never give myself credit, so no trashing this comment!

Current Job: Forcing myself to go to sleep earlier. Seriously!

Other than that, I'm currently finishing Tommyland. It's a really amusing book. And hey, I have spare time tomorrow. *evil grin* I'll bring it with me, and if I know me, finish it

Well, the bed awaits! I must heed its calls, and maybe I'll sleep well tonight. No more dreams of strange places and familiar faces... it's getting rather boring, and unsettling if I'm to be frank. Why, oh why can I just dream of Naruto or something tonight instead!? Lol.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16258655/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16258655/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 16:53:46 PST Still, I survived today, with having nothing but the subject from hell, so I'll safely say that I survived the first "week" back.

Nothing much to report. Except for that I'm already chrashing and burning... and yes, you read right, it's been two days. Two frigging days. I've gotta start going to bed six or seven hours before I have to get up. Five hours is way too little!

Since the new year has begun, perhaps I shall resume how the Xmas and such went. Here's a short list.

Best Idea: Nagging on mom to get the Anti-Virus shite updated. It's gonna happen soon, mark my words.
Fav Phrase: WHAT THE FUCK?! No, I'm serious. When I can say this in my sleep, it's gotta be on the list this week
Fav Song: Bowling For Soup's High School Never Ends! It's just bloody brilliant
Writing Update: I'm working on a story which I just love! But I've gotta get it rolling again. Stupid, stupid writersblock.
Irritating Moment: When I got home and realised that, yes, my ass was still hurting. *glare*
Addiction: Sleep. I say no more *lol*
Best Work: Hmm... dunno. Either Alive or Killing Me. I can't choose really. *lol*
Current Job: Trying desperately not to kill my mom. No, seriously, I really am.

I edited out two parts of the list for a good reason. I can't think of a single thing to put on them, and I just fought with you-know-who again... and if it had been Voldemort I had just Avada Kedavra'd his ass, so not him no. I really need to do something about this soon.

But enough about that, or I'll start another rant again, and we all don't want that! So, ending this now. I've gotta go and write this temper off of me, again. I feel for my keyboard, I really do.

Cheers.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16015259/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/16015259/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 13:51:05 PST

Well, this Xmas is going to be quite different for me, though I doubt it can top last year's... lets call it last year's "events". But thankfully, for me anyway, there's a lot more joy this time around!
My cousin just gave birth two days ago to a beautiful baby boy! *huggles to death* He was just soooo cute! We went to see him today. *sigh* Now, this is when the girl comes out in me

And do you know what else? I finally convinced my mom to make that goddamn account online, and now there's a few hard packages going to show up underneath my tree! :glee: I've already gotten the A7X CD, which I begged to open right away. Sorry, I was bored But hey, I got to. Am now sitting and enjoying it.
But that's not why I'm practically jumping in my seat!! Two of the albums I've been looking for since forever are going to show up in the mailbox sometime next week!! I can't wait!! Even though they won't come before Xmas, I'm still jumping in my seat! *lol*

What else? Well, the party on Tuesday was eventful enough, but after telling the story so many times it has almost gotten boring So I won't bother to retell it. *cough*

Tomorrow though I have to get out of the house and buy my folks a present. I don't know what though. Their work always gets them wine, stupid people *glares*. So, I'm out of ideas. I'll sleep on it. Maybe my dreams will actually help me for once Though I doubt it. *lol*

It is just so good to have vacation now. It's like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. But, alas, it was not meant to be. But for once I'm not going to give a damn and wait for the time to come when I can start to think about next year of studies and future homework. I'm gonna be a good girl this year

And, last but not least, I'm working on a new song thingy. I'll have to wait and see if anything happens with it though. I'm kinda cramped with work at the moment. *lol*
But it's just so good to know that the holiday has finally arrived. So, I'll wish you all a very Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year! Until next time!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15914218/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15914218/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 07:56:51 PST Of course.. now I just have to update my stupid anti-virus program and everything will be fine. ^^

Damn, I've missed being online at home! How long has it been? *thinks* A week. A whole motherf'ing week! Unbelieveable Me thinks I won't get much work done today. And there's a test tomorrow. Lols. I'll study, I promise. If not, anyone who's reading has my permission to hit me.

Anyhow.. updates. Hmmm... I have another song thingy sitting on my harddrive. Maybe I'll post it later, I just have to look over it first.

Apart from that, I've started another story thingy. (And yes, I love the word thingy. Lol.) I may or may not finish it, as I'm prone to do. *cough* Though, I'm really excited about it! It's rare for me to like it this much. The last time was... O&O I believe. Damn, that's a long time ago!

I can't wait for the ball that's coming up on Tuesday. But, do you know what else? I'm frigging scared about it. I hate dances, that are with more than just my closest friends, and I don't know my partner... or the 2nd girl my partner's going with. Figures it'd be two total strangers for me to go with, that neither of my friends know. No, wait a sec. N knows him! And she said he's going to kick my ass. Right, bring it on I say!

Other stuff that's going on? I'm being run to the ground. Stupid teachers and their stupid tests/papers. *glare* I have to do one paper tonight, apart from reading to the test, and I have to do another one during the weekend. Or, if I'm lucky, I get to do two papers! :sarcam:

The bright side in all of this? It's Xmas soon!! That's the only freaking reason I'm surviving. Until next time, whenever that's going to be. Really, I aught to get that Internet checked out. *sheepish*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15676205/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15676205/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 08:38:42 PST
Anyhow... so I've been listening to the newest album by A7X. It really is a masterpiece. Of course, I have certain favourite songs, but I love the entire thing. Many thanks to B who gave me a copy! *hug*

Though, writing this entry is proving itself to be much more difficult than I thought. Must be my mood I guess. It's not everyday I simply cannot go to school and punch the wall. Yes, you read right. I punched the wall. As established before, I'm very crazy. No need to point that out again.

Today I got lost on the road of depression. It's a nice road, certainly. I'm familiar with its paths, and know which ones to stay off. Today I accidently stumbled down the wrong one. *sigh* And look where it brought me.

I'm sombre at best, emotionless at worst. I always send a mental congratulation note to those who manage to get me into such a state. It's been a while since the last time. So, I'm proud of myself. There have been times that I've just wanted to lie down and give up. Even today I couldn't completely do that. A real feat indeed.

And it was in this mood that I managed to finish a song of mine. There's another one that's been sitting on my harddrive for a week or so, but this was the one I chose today. I can't even really remember the other song. I'll check in on it later.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow though. To leave this day behind me and to move on. If I can move on that is. What I wouldn't give for a timemachine that could either give me tomorrow or give me back this morning. I don't know what I wish to change the most. And perhaps it's better if it stays that way.

I'll leave it here, in case I get philosophical or something. That is when I open a document and start writing, and quite frankly, I've had enough of that today.
Until next time, hopefully in a better mood.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15506258/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15506258/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 11:48:58 PST

I mean, what can I say? Life's been pretty boring lately. Tough, but boring. Also, remind me not to think on the bus every again! Trust me, you don't want to know what's going on inside my mind. It can't be healthy to be thinking those thoughts, seriously!

Now, where was I? Ah yeah. So, nothing much going on this week. No tests, as the Week From Hell, officially dubbed so by myself, is over. Thank God! Though, I'm still in shock over my grades on the tests I got back today. You'll have to excuse that. Me no used to it.

Back to to other news. Mom's coming inside of the door as I'm writing this. I'm really sad she was unable to get me the CD's I've been to hell and back looking for. They shall be mine someday, I just have to find a way to get them. *cough*

What else? Oh yes... I'm back to crashing on the couch again. Damn that couch and the warmthness of the blanket! I'm even trying to go to sleep earlier, but I don't fall asleep at all until when I normally go to bed. -_- Typical.
Oh, and now mom thinks I've got some iron-deficiancy or something. Oh joy! That'd make my day truly. I knew there was a reason for those two B's. This is what's going to be the downside of my week! Hah.

Anyhow, I need to get back into the game. Writing that is. I know I managed to write the short-story for English, but suddenly I'm uncertain with it. Is it too short? Is it too mystical? *sheepish*
I have one unposted song... that I've finally sat down and fixed! ^^ It's now posted

Right, to wrap this all up... I'm going to start writing again soon, me has time now! And I will be posting that song, you know, once I get my ass into gear. *lol*

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15313972/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15313972/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 09:43:34 PDT ) keyword style!

Best Idea: Going to sleep before midnight! *nod*

Best Buy: *points at Happenings* Does it look like I have the time?

Fav Word: Nothing particular actually... "oops" maybe? (Is not referring to her driving lessons... nooooo)

Fav Song: Avenged Sevenfold with "Afterlife"! Thank you B for introducing me!!

Writing Update: I've got one song... but damn it need fixing!

Happening: Week of doom coming up next week. 4 test. I kid you not!! *grr*

Irritating Moment: The internet connection has been quite the little bitch this week. *glares at* I'm sorely tempted to kill it

Addiction: Youtube. *lol* Just let me say that it's the perfect place to find the things I want at the right time.

Best Work: Not dying from 3 hours of sleep on Monday. I know, it's not a work as in writing work, but hey, that's a quite a feat!!

Current Job: Trying to get to bed at a decent hour. *cough*

And that's about it! Now I've just gotta go and edit the song from hell. It pains me to even look at it. Lols.
Until next time.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15199337/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15199337/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 09:00:34 PDT
Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy right now, though the poem made me cry. That's right, poem! I haven't written one in ages. This feels great! Now I've only gotta get the story out of my head and down on paper too (cos damnit I didn't ask for one while I sat on the buss!) and I'll be ready for school work!

... Yeah right. How many fell for that?! I will work though, I have to. Or I will get some serious ass-kicking. *gulp*

Another personal score for me today though! Despite the snuggliness of the couch and the blanket I was tucked in, I didn't fall asleep! *smug* That's a first for me. Me thinks the "threat" I got may have helped. Huh.. And if that's true, then I'm screwed

Oh, I'm being avasive aren't I? *sheepish* Let me get to the point. Due to me being "young" I'm not allowed to crash on the couch unless it's Friday (and maybe not even then). Okay, that came out wrong. I'm allowed, but I will be taken to a doctor if I do! But in spite of popular belief, I do not have a deficiency disease!! *breaths out* I'm done ranting now. *cough*

I actually don't have much to tell. Other than the fact that I need to work more; or else I'm screwed, that I need to write more; or else I won't sleep... and I know there's something left for the grand finale. Oh yes... I wrote mush. Yes mush. Go read and be amazed! Amazed by the fact that I've stooped this low that is.

Cheers!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15042835/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/15042835/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 11:27:24 PDT You'll have to excuse it, I just wanted to use it for some reason! *lol*
So.. how's my week been? New song obession! Blitzkreig by Deathstars. *starts to hum along* It's goddamn catchy! And so much fun to sing along. "Bliztkreig Boom!"

Anyway, back to being sane-ish. I went driving with my mom today. One of the less worse mistakes I've ever made. Damn she had to comment almost everything I did right? *annoyed sigh* But it went okay. *nods* I'm alive after all!

Oh, I just added another song. Inspired by one of the best bands there is. *sneaks off to listen to them* About time I crawled out of the un-posting buisness right? *cough*
Sadly.. that was my last song/poem on file. I have nothing more! Not even one lousy story!! ... Okay, fine, I have one lousy story.. two.. three? No idea! Anyway, I have something. But zip to post.

The irritation of my dryspell compliments my headache quite well, don't you think? Though, it's my fault for getting it. One doesn't sleep two/three-ish hours and then sleep from 3 a.m until 11 p.m without concequences. And damnit, I've learnt my lesson!

Anyhow.. there's food for my empty stomach soon, along with nothing to watch on TV. Weekends suck for that reason only! Though, I love Monday, even though there's the test from hell coming up on Tuesday. No school on Monday. Gee, I wonder what I shall do?

Cheers people!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14955845/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14955845/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 12:46:34 PDT Eh.

But I've gotten a new favourite song though. (I seem to like changing those ) Sum 41 with Pieces. Damn you girl (you know who you are!) for letting me listen to this! Stab . To . The . Heart. Every time! Or I'm just emotional... something I actually am!

Anyhow, I got some writing done in Spain though. Yeah, zero internet can do that to ya. *wink* But I need to change this "obession" of mine. 99 pages or so. O.o Verdammt!
Other than that *looks over her "poem" file* uh yeah, one song. I need a life. *ded*

I have taken a new liking to my headphone though. *puts them on and blocks out the world* It can't get better than this. ^.^
I should have just marked this rambling. I just have to ramble once in a while, don't I? Heh.

Whatever. I better get back to the presentation from hell. I'm gonna die. Good night!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14730857/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14730857/ Fri, 21 Sep 2007 15:49:28 PDT And that's new for me, believe it!

So, I got a new obsession today. Or, rather, yesterday. *lols* Falls Apart by TFK is my fav song of the moment, and I swear it's freaking awsome! I thank youtube for working now and for letting me listen to it. *hums along*

Anyway, since my b-day is on a Monday, of all days, (stupid calendar for working the way it does *glares*) I'm having a party of sorts on Sunday. Hehe. I'm very much looking forward to seeing the look on my friends faces when they see what we're doing. I don't doubt them for thinking i'm going to torture them or somethin' since I won't blab and mentioned the dreaded sweatpants yesterday. Lols, I just hope it all goes okay.

I am wondering how the frigg I'm gonna be able to work this weekend though. With my b-day just around the corner, and a busy Sunday, I'll have to work my ass of Saturday (today) and such. And, me being the mood I'm in, will most likely start to write or something else more fun! Typical me.

Anyhow, if that's how it goes, then it will have to go that way. Though, I have to do law tomorrow! Stupid hand-in homework. *glare*
Thinking about posting another song thingy of mine. Just have to look it over. If it's too scrappy I can't Lols. I do have some standards. Some.

Well, gotta get back to "going to bed" and such. I hope that two hour nap of mine today won't ruin my sleep. Heh.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14646137/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14646137/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 14:39:34 PDT
There's actually a few songs I'd like to make a song/poem to if I get the inspiration. Van Nuys by Sixx AM is one of them, the other being the one I'm "listening to" right now. I've at least started on the Sixx AM one.. heh.. the other one is kinda difficult. I need to have an insomniac night again and write for my life! Yes, I know I'm crazy.

Nothing else has been going on lately. Though I'm getting my ass in gear and sending those pics to my friends. I've finally uploaded them and are cutting out the bad ones. *nervous laugh*
Though... I've been in a rather thoughtful mood lately. And a rather bitchy one too, if I'm gonna be totally honest. So, you'll have to excuse me if I seem emotionless or suppressed during the next few days/next week.

Anyhow. This is turning out to be a rather rambly journal. Whatever! I never said I was easy to understand.

But... have you ever been in a mood where you'd like to say something really hurtful and not give a shit how someone else might take it? This is not sounding like me, and I know it, but that's how I feel. And seeing as that question entered my mind I've been thoughtful about other stuff, bad and good alike.
Anyway, I'm gonna go and find some music that might get me into a different mood. Suddenly I feel like I'm thinking too much you know? *sigh* I could so use a bipolar moodicon right now! It would so fit

Until next time, hopefully with a slightly saner me.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14455644/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14455644/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 12:17:23 PDT I have no life.

Best Idea: Changing to winter bedding. *cuddles under her warm blankets*

Best Buy: Not there yet... I have no time to actually buy something! *wails*

Fav Word: Fuuuuuu..... fushion! I know, you thought it was another word right? My English translation of fargestifer.

Fav Song: Sixx AM with Tomorrow. Thank you Benny!! *huggles*

Writing Update: I'm posting another song of mine. Cos I'm bored. And it kinda fits me right now.. I think

Happening: I.... didn't crash on Friday? Seriously, every fucking day this week I've come home and slept an hour or so. Just because of school. *finds chainsaw and plans to murder school*

Irritating Moment: When internet couldn't decide whether to be up or not. Stupid thing. I love the lil' machine, but COME ON!

Addiction: *cough* You don't even wanna know.

Best Work: Actually managing to work on my homework. *cough* I know it doesn't sound like a lot, but it's damn difficult!! *pout*

Current Job: Puppet of the Homework from Hell. *grumbles* Me no likey.

Apart from that, I suspect the writer's block of doom will end at the same time the Norwegian homework shite is over and done with. Why? Cos of the stress that's putting me under! *nods* I want to write again! *sniffle*
Right... and that's it really. I am now going to hunt down the chocolate chip cookies I saw in the fridge and find some candy and watch something good!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14318372/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14318372/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 11:43:06 PDT ) I'll type this in Norwegian, the language of the mighty Vikings yo! (Sorry, I had to! )

Er det galt av meg aa ville skrive en... *kremt* story hvor figuren min klikker og dreper noen? Det er en lang historie bak hvorfor det skjer, men seriøst. Er det?

Right, as I'm back sitting with a slight blush (damnit) I'll continue my rant.

Am actually in a rather horrible mood. And I have no idea why!! I mean.. I was fine, until Spanish of course. The damn bitch had to get us a classroom we can't breath/think/stay alive in right?! And no, I'm not bipolar, but thanks for asking!
Anyway, once gym started I was okay again. I know, I'm crazy. But seriously, I was fine! And now... I'm home, forced to spend time with my folks, and my mood just dropped below -10 000 on the scale.

Maybe I'm just sugar-deprived? I mean... it's that time again, and I sure have a craving for chocoalate. Oh, or the movie Chocolate. Johnny Depp, need I say more
Anyhow! Going away from my insane rant to come with some news. I have a dry spell in my writing again!! *wails* Life sucks, big time. I hate school, I hate my life, I hate mom butting in on my business, I hate not being 18 yet and I hate the goddam pressure!!!!!!

*breaths out* I'm done now. Seriously, you guys can come out again.

You know what? I'll just listen to my favourite band, sit down and relax. Either that or take a walk and listen to them. Yes a walk. For some odd reason they help.
I'll just logg off now before my courage fails me and I won't post this. Until later! Hopfully I'm sane(-r) then!

PS, not really Benni hon. The temptation to write it was just too big for me to ignore!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14271747/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14271747/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 12:08:15 PDT HUGE amount of stress into my life just by stepping onto the school-grounds. My schedule sucks/sucked, depending on how you see it. *grr* I finally have enough classes, but of course I have the free-lessons from hell.

Doing the rest of my rant in this form. It's for your (the readers) sake. Easier to read this way.

Best Idea: Beginning a new year at high school/college. Seriously. No sarcasm used at all. *twitch*

Best Buy: When I buy a tonn of candy, I'll let you know.

Fav Swear Word: FARGESTIFTER!! (In English: Crayons!) It's much worse when you know the real meaning of this word.

Fav Song: Dead Or Alive with You Spin Me Round. They never actually say the full title in the song though. And I qoute: "you spin right me round baby, right round." Ah, the mysteries of 80s music.

Writing Update: Want to write another story or song/poem, but the plot bunnies have left me. So, as of now, nothing new to report.

Happening: When my schedule finally was fixed! Damn.

Irritating Moment: Woke up with my goddamn leg aching. *glares and pokes* CUT IT YOU!

Addiction: Music. Like, all the time. Healthy? Better than my previous addictions

Updating On DA: Thinking of posting another song of mine, since I've got nothing else. And maybe a few pics. *shrug* Dunno yet.

Current Job: Scaring the shit out of my driving teachers. Seriously!

And... that's it really. I'll let you know when I finally find my nocturnal plot bunnies and bring them back to life. I want one to bite me damnit!!

Apologies for my ranting. I just need to went to sometimes.

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14190604/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14190604/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 04:37:20 PDT
I dragged my mom to Lillestrøm to buy books on Tuesday and finally got reminded that; fuck, school starts next week!! Naturally I've been sulking. Nah, the real disappionment is while I finally found the music store that actually gets the music I want, they don't have it in. *face-palm* I'm going to bribe mom into getting an account online and have her buy it to me!

I made a wish list though. Only because it's August now, and soon time for various relatives calling to ask what I want for my birthday. Why? Because they all live in the middle of frigging nowhere and have to send it here, that's why. *rolls eyes*

And, strangely.. even after the Sunday from hell with headache *cough*hangover-ish*cough* and not finding my precious painkillers, I'm at ease. Strange isn't it? But I have now found them!! Bring it on!!
And I strangely have plans this week. O.o Not me at all, I know.

Today - haircut time!
Friday - Meeting up with an old friend. She's going to spend the night. It's been 3 or so years since we actually saw each other. ... Eheh, our lives got in the way?
Saturday - Possibly seeing HP5 with Nosha. I've gotta keep myself in check, lest I'd yell at the screen for doing it wrong according to the book.
Sunday - Driving lesson. I know, it's Sunday! It's the only day he was avalable.

Anyway, uploading some stuff, maybe a few pics from Saturday's party. I've just gotta fic 'em up I think. Sick of the unfixed pictures in my gallery. They're so... urgh.

Going back to writing again now! I have found my plot-bunnies (they've turned nocturnal, the little bitches) and have gotten a few mild cases of "I have to write, like now!!" Lol.
Laters!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14085337/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14085337/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 05:24:33 PDT

Right.. so I've been writing a new story for a while now. A while meaning over a week of course It's.. very un-me to give it a name. I'm thinking about posting it but I'm not sure.

Anyway, to say at least something about it, here's a lil' list of keywords:
~ Pain
~ Confusion
~ Understanding
~ Hearing vs Listening
~ Sanity/Insanity
~ Friendship
~ Horror
~ Love

As you can see, not easy to write or understand. I'm actually debating whether or not I should rate it Mature if I post it. It's only because of that it mentions a murder and blood. Lots of blood.
Comments?

Other than that... my sleeping pattern is starting to get better. It might have something to do with that I have a slight cold. It tires me out. My mom's still yelling at me when I'm awake at 2 a.m. though. I'm going to try an experiment actually. If I don't feel tired at 1 a.m today (or tomorrow as it actually is) I'm going to get ready for bed and turn off all the lights. Then sneak down the stairs and shut the door to the computer room. Then we'll see if she knows I'm awake!

Anyway.. I have to get back to writing. Still don't know if I should go with option A or B. Not saying what A or B is of course

Oh... I should call my driving teacher. Yeah.. I'll go and do that first me thinks.
Ta!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14002544/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/14002544/ Fri, 03 Aug 2007 14:05:13 PDT FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!!!

*calms down* Right. So... yeah I'm tired of all this stupid shitassed crap. I'm tired of not being appreciated, I'm tired of being lied to, I'm just goddamn TIRED!!

Explanation you say? Okay. I want to become 18, like now! That way I can decide stuff myself and won't have to listen to mom. I want to move out to get away from all this shite.
I'm tried of having to sit back and watch her be able to flick her emotions on and off like a fucked up teenager. I'm tired of not being allowed to switch my own emotions on and off. I'm supposed to be the fucked up teenager here!!

*sigh* Now that that's out of my system, I guess I can let out the rest that's troubling me. If I'm gonna bitch, why not bitch it all out I say!

I'm tired of not being able to get a whole night's sleep. I'm tired of not understanding myself. I'm tired of being this fucked up. I just want to get away and have some peace!!!!!
Hadn't it been 11 p.m. I would have stormed out and gotten that peace too. But seeing as my folks have already gone to bed, I'm pretty much alone already. I'm considering taking a walk tomorrow though. I can feel my mood darkening, and just want to be somewhere where I can scream it all out!

I want some insight too. I want to understand what's happening to me. I want to know what's going on.

I'm on the verge of adulthood, and suddenly I'm seeing it. I'm seeing everything I don't want to see... and it's not pretty. I'm beginning to see who I am, what I am. And I want to know why.

But I guess that's why we're here... to be fucked up like this. I guess most of us just doesn't realise it until their midway through their life and they're allowed to have a midlife crisis! I'm a teenager for fucks sake. There's nothing to describe this.

Now that I've written myself empty I'll plan my great walk tomorrow... maybe I should take the bike and ride a few miles away? I wish I didn't have to go to sleep though. I don't want to dream anymore. They're not nightmares no... but four dreams that mix themselves together before I even wake up is too much thank you.

I'll just put on my best "calm down" music and try to sleep in two or three hours. Damn I hope this mood is gone by Sunday!

]]> ~sussiekitten http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/13943432/ http://sussiekitten.deviantart.com/journal/13943432/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 15:16:19 PDT
My life sucks.

Anyway, Karen came over today. We had a great time just talking and laughing about past mistakes and parties. God, I hope my folks didn't hear some particular parts!

I have done something productive though! Went to the movies last Saturday and saw The Simpsons Movie and got to buy an older My Chem album earlier. Hehe, me likey. No real fav song there yet, apart from the song listed below. It's just so haunting. *lol*

I am overly bored though. I have nothing really to do. My day goes on like this: Wake up, eat breakfast/lunch, put away the dishes, stare blankly at TV/comp screen, eat dinner, stare at comp screen, sleep. Lather, rinse and repeat.
My life's fun right?? *snore*

I have nothing interesting to say really. It's past midnight, I'm just trying to pass time. I've made a little scribble that I think I might add. Bunny wrote something that hit me in the heart. I guess I wrote my response to it. Fucking hell...

God, I long for a good movie right now! Totally random I know, but I want one I haven't seen in a while, or have wanted to but never got the chance. I'll raid my DVD collection tomorrow and eat left-overs from the movie on Saturday. Hell, I know I shouldn't, but I'm turning over a leaf when the school begins again, so I need to spoil myself a little I don't do it that often after all.

Though... I'm sensing another tragedy story building up inside of me, and hope I'm able to write it before I dream it. I have enough wacky dreams as it is.
I guess something's catching up with me. I have no idea what though. I pray for normal dreams and longer sleep while waiting for it to become clear for me.

I'll catch up with you guys later when this mood has passed. Heh, this really isn't like me. Later, when I've found my sanity again! *seaching for said sanity Jack Sparrow "I think I lost my brain" style*

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