http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:sylviatoyindustries&section=today deviantART RSS for by:sylviatoyindustries en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 23:21:45 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://sylviatoyindustries.deviantart.com/journal/28697177/ http://sylviatoyindustries.deviantart.com/journal/28697177/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 18:17:58 PST our words are scraps on the sidewalk crushed underfoot blown from one doorway to another crushed under tires crushed under raindrops.
our words are directions notes to the metermaid notes to our neighbors lists directions addresses phone numbers essays memos.
scratch scratch scribble scribble
our words are thrown out on purpose thrown out by mistake lost fallen out of our pockets fallen out of our backpacks dumped by pickpockets dumped by dumpster divers dumped while we look for our keys in the dark.
our words are scribbles on dirty scraps of paper on the sidewalk, all over the sidewalk, all over the street, all over the alleys, in the gutters, under the park benches, crammed in the corner of the bus shelters, shoved in the chinks in the wall.
scratch scratch scribble scribble
written on receipts on napkins on popsicle sticks on dirty paper bags on newspapers so somebody gets a piece of our mind so the metermaid knows so the highway patrol knows so our neighbor knows, so
so we won't forget
we won't forget
scratch scratch
scribble scribble

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as a sculptor, i scavenge archetypal imagery. even my visual art medium, woodcarving, is a plagiary of one of the oldest forms of human expression. as a filmmaker, i steal everytime i use my cameras in a public place - that too is scavengery. And as a writer, ah, I am my favorite junkyard.

the second or third i spent time with my husband's (then boyfriend's) family, my father in law, who is such a good astronomer, i know he's going to discover something cool someday, was surrounded by a group of people at a family event. he was talking about the universe, and he said "we are stardust. our bodies, our world, all the matter that matters to us, is stardust" that was recycled (not his word) from the universe and eventually going to be recycled back into the universe.

i stopped writing poetry because it makes me feel like i'm up on a mountain in the cold and dark, so lonely. i felt the same when my father in law told me "you are stardust." it was chilling, horrible and depressing, and it changed my life and opened me up to a whole new way of looking at the world.

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i have hit a snag in finding a rationale for casting a mummy as myself in my videos. it's a matter of the method of excavation: have you ever heard of a mummy suddenly waking up (in REAL life waking up?) and digging him/herself out? or, even assisting in the digging out of him/herself?

no.

i do like a good mummy movie as much as anyone else. and i have used levels of burial as a metaphor for different degrees of depression for a long time. very depressed is nine feet under and a long way out. a six-depression that is fairly predictably uncomfortable is about four feet under and you just have to wait till it's over. what is known as the doldrums is about six inches under. a mild depression that mostly holds you back from making any serious decisions for a week or two is an irritating layer of dust.

now i can put the mummy in a video.

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i have hit a snag in finding a rationale for casting a mummy as myself in my videos.  it's a matter of the method of excavation: have you ever heard of a mummy suddenly waking up (in REAL life waking up?) and digging him/herself out?  or, even assisting in the digging out of him/herself?

no.

i do like a good mummy movie as much as anyone else.  and i have used levels of burial as a metaphor for different degrees of depression for a long time.  very depressed is nine feet under and a long way out.  a six-depression that is fairly predictably uncomfortable is about four feet under and you just have to wait till it's over.  what is known as the doldrums is about six inches under.  a mild depression that mostly holds you back from making any serious decisions for a week or two is an irritating layer of dust. 

now i can put the mummy in a video. 

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PROCESS IS MY FAVORITE PART

Between mid-February and mid-May, I went through the bipolar spring brain fever that I have come to expect. What I did not expect was a month-long suicidal depression in April, my favorite and, historically, easiest month. Doctors say there's no such thing as a nervous breakdown. But anybody who's ever had one knows there is. Over the course of my emergency appointments with my psychiatrist, he explained the electricity of the brain in order to dispel my personal mythology about toxic brain chemicals. I was disappointed, but not for long: isn't electricity attractive? We're all geeks now, you know.
Artist's Statement
"The series nanomovies exploring brain electricity, admittedly and undoubtedly will take poetic liberties with the science of the brain. However, having had an auditory hallucination named Susan as a lifetime companion, having grown up juggling mania and depression, I follow the rule for people who want to write the great American novel or Pulitzer prize-winning play: 'write what you know.' Who says a jpg of a star going nova can't be used as metaphor for rapid cycling? Who says a jpg of a circuit board doesn't look like a map of the pinging back and forth of a thought you can barely hold onto in the middle of the night when you're so manic it feels like high noon (or a star going nova) inside your head. Who says?"

Electricity Volume 2, Rush 1, [link]
First comment: "Interesting use of eggs and a skull.Skull =deterioration, death, the end; Egg = life, birth the beginning."

Electricity Volume 1, Rush 2: [link]
Second comment: "i really like the scrambled skull. very symbolic."

Electricity Volume 1, Rush 3: [link]
(Note - please excuse the 30 second delay at the beginning of the nanovid.)
The association with death with depression and suicide is clear. However, death as "the end"? What end - the end of the stress, futile overstimulation that sent the brain electricity haywire and resulted in the condition formerly known as nervous breakdown? The mis-wiring imagery and the scrambled eggs imagery may be problematic when combined as metaphors, but this nanovid will, ultimately be entitled "First Failed Experiment."

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