http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:szpilman&section=today deviantART RSS for by:szpilman en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 01:33:44 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/10734285/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/10734285/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 13:17:15 PST It's the ingredients that make the frame full.

And I'm tired of waiting - should our Academy eventually open its own blog zone, I will make the transfer then.

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]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/9953513/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/9953513/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 16:34:17 PDT
Where have all the heavy words gone lately?

Zakaj je mogoce propasti pred vzponom in stampiljkanjem na vrhu? A, mogoce pa postavljam toliko vprasanj, ker sem po nekem zaostalem pokolenju Jud. Oni baje radi govorijo vprasalne stavke, ki v bistvu pomenijo trditve.
No, jaz pa rad govorim nesmisle, ki bi radi obrodili granatna jabolka, da bi vsenaokrog kar prasketalo od radostnih madezev domislic. Kako jebeno elipsasto je tole.

And there is definately too many people to care. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/9939663/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/9939663/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 11:03:17 PDT Life gets so opened up and new, when you have an empty head. It happened to me for the first time in my life today, during the rehearsals. The room started to become a blank volume of air, the persons in it simply humans with no specifications and emotions dispersed into thin air. Maybe it was because of enormous amounts of psychological action this summer, or maybe it was the toe of a god yet unknown. Either way, I don't have even the slightest clue about the whole mess.

Perhaps it is the cronical need of very concentrated amounts of proximity. Maybe Pluto got very angry with mankind for throwing him out of the solar system. But most surely the reason lies in me being just one of the "zoon politicon" species with a serious, auto-virtually built opinion of unimportance.

Is it unimportant to be E(a)rnest? The roundabout way to put it - I can feel the universe contracting today. I might tend to be sucked in a giant hole of few exits, but I am grateful for it.

And how was your day? ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/8941071/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/8941071/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 14:05:56 PDT
[link] ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/8622797/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/8622797/ Sat, 29 Apr 2006 15:37:59 PDT Decide for yourself.

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[link] ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/7931759/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/7931759/ Sat, 18 Feb 2006 06:29:07 PST If I don't enjoy being in my own skin, then it's probably a clear solution to quit and find my pieces to reassemble them new. Maybe.

I still love you. And I never say that with empty words. Spread the cosmic fluid, please, for my sake. I can't do it this way anymore. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/7870277/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/7870277/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 03:07:02 PST I had an excellent time yesterday with some "theatrical people", as I like to call them. We talked for about three hours, though they're not all actors and directors, they just feel the thrill of talking about it. And when you figure it out, that three hours went by in a fall of a sand grain, you always know, that it's the conversation that gave you new strentgh to live your life in ways, that won't be perspective in the world of neocapitalists with no sense of art at all, but thrilling in means of trying to achieve the house of your dreams.

Let's go down to the river and pray , that tomorrow reunion with my coeds goes smoothly, because I've been missing them very much.
I believe the laziness of mind is what troubles the modern man most. And tomorrow we start the heavy work again, that won't leave any space for that.
I love you all. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/7270627/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/7270627/ Sat, 10 Dec 2005 02:56:50 PST
Love itself wasn't. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/7270620/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/7270620/ Sat, 10 Dec 2005 02:54:51 PST Beating around the bush and seeking self-confidence. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and get frightened by my own face in the mirror. Sleep is a value I do not have lately. Mostly because of work and company, but there's also a rather big cause elsewhere...in reinventing the myth about love again. Or merely removing its mystical omen, but there is a great deal of things to do with my mental growth before.

So much to do. And little time to do it. But they won't break me just now.




Oh, yes.
Forgot something.
I fell in love with someone.
I hope she knows by now. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/6780913/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/6780913/ Sun, 16 Oct 2005 06:54:19 PDT AGRFT
Lotsalotsa work awaiting. My first week of grinding the floor on the academy has finished and I'm a little bit exhausted, since I haven't been doing that much concentrated exercise for the whole three months long vacation. I have to get back in shape (and with me, that means, pack on some weight, because I have always been way too skinny) and condition.
First impressions needn't be the decisive ones, but I surely feel quite at home already at my new school. For the most part, everybody's been tolerant and motivating, sincere or at least trying to be like that. This opens a wide horizon of feelings for me, but I'm not sure I'm capable of reaching out to them just now. It will have to take time.
Schoolmates a.k.a. coeds fill me with trust, but...as I've said - this was only my first week here. And things never get bad straight on from the beginning.

I've found out it's not so easy to stay focused on my girlfriend, because we barely see each other once every 14 days lately, and even that doesn't include larger time intervals. Yesterday, it was like...an hour of being together after 14 days. It pretty much makes me feel every bit of it, to the bones and to the veins. During the week, however, I meet tons of other people, also women, and I get into conversation pretty quickly - afterwards, I feel like I'm betraying someone's feelings, though it's the last thing that would get on my mind. Strange, but thankfully, I always think something ten times over with women, before reacting too directly.
Yesterday was really a miracle. One hour with my girlie...but here we go again, another week or two for another hour. A grande killer.

Mais oui, c'est pas bon toujours... ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/6508057/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/6508057/ Thu, 15 Sep 2005 00:11:56 PDT :milc13: oultry:

Friends in the fifth dimension (fourth being time of course, the order is random):


Today is the D-day of my wait for a free student room in our capital city, the allmighty Ljubljana. Tomorrow is my dearest girl's birthday party (she had it in jul, actually, but who the Paradise lost cares ).
I can feel the moving itch right now. But still - I can't wait to play it the actor way on my future college on the first of octobre.

Mmm. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5759175/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5759175/ Sun, 26 Jun 2005 03:50:17 PDT
That are all my friends, I can figure of being here, at DA. Any forgotten ones, hit me. I do get forgetting sometimes.

Morpheus - a very special guy with tremendous sense for short-verse poetry and absurd dramatics. He opens my horizonts when I least expect it and he does it in a constantly unpredictable way. One hell of a mate, I tell you.

Oktazan - also a member of the idealist club, also a costudent as Morph and quite talented for different visual arts. For what I know, it's mostly painting, sculpting and making exquisite photos. Yep, you should pay attention to him, for he is gooood.

Milc - Mile, the local alcoholic beverages Ulysses, finding his Ithaca in "delirium tremens", dealing with friends, and being the special man for debates. Though he is blond, there is no way you would have figured it out .

Poultry - Jozaaaaaa! The most enthusiastic reader, master of short prosaics, all-around eccentric and inventor of new ways of surprising and shocking people. Beware, Josko invading! ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5739845/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5739845/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 00:15:57 PDT
Anyway, these last few weeks (or days, could be...) were a culmination of work. I don't know if I ever learned as much as I did for my high-school graduation exams in my whole life. Well, my eyes hurt and I think I could do a lot better and take more time for it...but, alas, that is what I always think about things.

Well, at least I think I got the maximum of points at oral exams of English, Slovene and Maths. I don't know about German, but it couldn't have been all 20 of them. 18 or 19 more like it. I'm much more worried about two things - the "written" exam in Slovene, which was quite badly solved by me and the exam in Maths, which was an incredible fiasko by any standards. Sociology could prove out to be just fine and linguistical tests, including the essay, too. Beee. We'll see.

Anyway, I noticed how we got a little sentimental in this last year. Come on, people, it's not as if we won't see each other anymore! I think Ljubljana will be a whole new place for oportunities and making wild love in a...ups, got carried away!

Oh yes, how do I post my friends here? ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5674863/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5674863/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 08:51:47 PDT And the high-schoolers from the most elite gymnasiums in the state are bored, boring (not all, thank God) and drowning in apathic bacchanalia. Damn again.
At least I got my tickets for E.S.T., I'm still thinking about Madredeus (2nd of october), because they kick ass, and I got my appliance forms to my (hopefully) future faculty. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5624363/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5624363/ Sun, 12 Jun 2005 04:46:35 PDT [link] <-- That's her site, brand new, though, and not well stocked for now, but it shall be .

On the other hand, I was really astonished seeing how sincere friends I have. They made the 3rd of June my happiest birthday so far - all of them - Mitja, Andreja, Katarina, Sasa, both Zigas, damn...they were so thoghtful! It's an infinite joy when I see that people, to whom I trust, have faith in me, too. Thanks, my noble friends, for everything!

And with having Joza around when learning for my high-school graduation exams was certainly an enlivening factor ). Buttocks and hillarious nudity of all sorts... )

P.S.: E.S.T. are coming to Ljubljana on the 2nd of November this year. I can't wait to hear them live, since it's been my true wish for about two years now... ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5244826/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/5244826/ Mon, 02 May 2005 07:42:36 PDT Almost all friends sublimated, as they do always, when we're not in a closer touch. Well, I must not be harsh to everyone - Morph's been there for me, Andreja, Sabrina and Sasa too...but women get easily distracted by some other factors...for instance, their boyfriends and shopping. Who'd blame them anyway? Let them enjoy their lives, my lad, I said to myself. If you can't cope with it right now, it's not as if they would have to feel the misery, too.

I like to make people around me happy. Even if I myself am not doing it. But it gives life a new dimension. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4986592/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4986592/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 10:03:43 PDT But on the other hand, he forgave his potential murderer, Ali Agca and reached a milder verdict for him, he attended rock concerts, made over 100 missionary trips to a great majority of world's countries and above all - he stood up for humanity and solidarity amongst the people of the world, no matter which religion they belong to (he also went - as a first pope - to a sinagogue, mosque and a protestant, also orthodox church...).

I really am going to miss him. He was an icon of my youth and I feel as though now, as he passed away with his and my god (however I don't approve a lot of Church's dogmatical and oldened theories, I still am a catholic), a big part of my personality changes into something, I am not quite sure about whether is it good or bad.
Or maybe is the timing that combines these two events only a matter of coincidence.

It's for me to find out. Nevertheless, may he rest in peace. He deserved it. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4923823/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4923823/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 10:47:19 PST And I must say I don't exactly adore it.
]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4798230/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4798230/ Sat, 12 Mar 2005 23:16:25 PST ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4742431/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4742431/ Sun, 06 Mar 2005 11:39:47 PST ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4731808/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4731808/ Sat, 05 Mar 2005 01:32:55 PST . Well, yesterday I finished the so called "agony" and passed the driving exam with my 40th hour, making it go through in the first try. In the first try! Well, it is true I had a bit of a lighter course due to intense snowing outside, but all the technicalities were nonetheless checked and done without major failures. Hoorah!

And now, back to school work, lot to do and little time to do it. Yay, as always. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4637419/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4637419/ Mon, 21 Feb 2005 11:27:30 PST ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4578045/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4578045/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 09:29:20 PST As the matter in fact - I (luckily, if I may add) don't feel the desire of a woman's touch or romantic glance right now. I hope it stays right there for some time, otherwise I will have to spend an abundance of my time on poetry again. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4558960/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4558960/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 01:06:46 PST . ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4543754/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4543754/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 05:43:43 PST
I hope all goes well. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4535375/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4535375/ Wed, 09 Feb 2005 05:21:29 PST ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4517759/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4517759/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 04:28:21 PST And the programme in the library, where I was before, hasn't been much either. It's getting worse every year, the jokes aren't at least a bit inventive and bright exceptions are more rare with every generation that conquers our high school. Nobody cares about art and the divine feeling it can give. Now...now we're on to cheap laughs. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4509440/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4509440/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 06:12:44 PST Acting is tough, but alltogether - it was a very interesting weekend. I got real dancy with fellow actors and some guys and girlies from the bunch, celebrating in a pub, wearing masks. After all, masquerade fits in quite well sometimes, especially in February, when hearts get open for that sleazy Valentine's day. I hate it, but feeling love in the air has a special connotation in the shortest month there is. Even if it's not concerning or invading you. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4477247/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4477247/ Wed, 02 Feb 2005 06:09:41 PST ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4451287/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4451287/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 08:03:12 PST I have seldom been so angry about being so wrong and forcing my health to its limits. Now I will have to miss tomorrow's basketball championship and if I get well, I will have to study geography, too. There's a tricky exam planned on tuesday and god only knows what will happen if I miss this one, too... I already skipped the last week's exam because of basketball...well, at least everything is settled with other subjects. For now. Hopefully, my sickness is nothing but a strong cold and headache in working - I want to get really fit for next week's Preseren day and poetry reading. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4427869/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4427869/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 11:09:35 PST I guess I'm at the breaking point of becoming extremely lazy. That must not happen, definitively. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4358333/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4358333/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 07:52:02 PST ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4325288/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4325288/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 08:45:26 PST And Michael Brook's coproductions with Djivan rock. So does Jezek and Saban Bajramovic. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4284848/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4284848/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 10:10:24 PST Ergo - there is still art to save me. And friends. ]]> ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4253423/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4253423/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 10:53:05 PST ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4218766/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4218766/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 08:10:00 PST ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4209601/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4209601/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 06:02:23 PST ~szpilman http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4199264/ http://szpilman.deviantart.com/journal/4199264/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 05:07:27 PST
I'm going to keep my dreams. And if they kill me, so be it. ]]> ~szpilman