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"My dear little one. There are so many things i wish i could explain but you couldn't
hear me. I wish i could show you all the reasons why i have to do this, but you
can't see yet.

If you come into this world there are so many beautifuls things to learn. An important
thing is love. You need to know that Mummy and Daddy love you more than we love
each other. If we had you and got to hold you in our arms we would show you every
single way we could that we love you, Cover you with kisses, warm you up with hugs
and shower you with gifts.

Unfortunately another thing to learn in this world is money. It so cruel that Mummy
and Daddy don't have enough of that to be able to give you every little thing you deserve.
So i have to say goodbye and send you some where far away where money doesnt matter.
You will ALWAYS be our little one and i promise to never ever forget you.

If there was any way in this world i could keep you i would do it. But i can't. I feel like i
failed you and i am so sorry. I don't want to let you go.

The 8th of December was the day you were due to arrive. I promise to send you birthday
wishes. I'm sure you will have little brother and sisters someday in the future. I'll make
sure they know all about you. Please watch over them my little angel. Mummy loves
you more than you will ever know.

Goodnight sweetheart. Sweet dreams and Rest In Peace.

We Love You" ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/8099801/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/8099801/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 04:21:29 PST we met at a party. we looked at each other.
we blushed.
and then we were...

destined... (no wait thats too strong)
fated... (still seems a bit over the top)
taped... together... with duct tape from james.
hahaha yeah thats right.

a year ago we fell in love, we fell out and in again.
ups and downs that each relationship has.
i asked you out, over the phone in art class.
everything seemed right.
and it still does.

every day that passes, i see more things in you.
some good, some annoing, but they make me love you more.
i think your an angel

"you're heavensent
dont you dare forget
you are all i've ever wanted
what all the other boys all promised..."

and i thank the lord every day your here with me.

happy anniversary caleb. its been hard but its been fun.
thank you for a love worth living and waiting all that time for.

- -

8-5-05 ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7749802/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7749802/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 09:41:04 PST
not really i just wanna show everyone why.



well the reasonis because some of my fave bands have those particular 3 words in their songs.

here are just a few.

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YELLOWCARD - "Ocean Avenue"

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

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AIDEN - "this city is far from here"

Your sultry eyes,
your common kiss,
I’m in disguise,
its something I miss.
Your lipstick smears,
I’m feeling grey,
with not much time to take me away.
This city is far from here.
Now turn back,
turn back.
I’m scared,
but in the bright lights
we fade into the rearview mirror.

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FROM FIRST TO LAST - "Such A Tragedy"

You used to be my angel,
but now you're more like the devil.
Keep on talking darling,
you're bound to kill yourself...
with another thousand words.

And tear my eyes right out;
I'd rather see you, without them anyway.
And tear my eyes right out;
I'd rather see, without them anyway.

Take me away
(Take me away)
I don't know you anymore.
(I don't know)
Take me away
(Take me away)
I don't know you anymore.

-------------

MEST - "Take Me Away (Cried Out To Heaven)"


I never wanted it to be this way
Crashing down like the pouring rain
Lying still in my blood-stained clothes
Is this the ending that no one knows
Is this the ending that no one knows
Is this the ending that no one knows

So take me away
Take me away
(Take me away)
Take me away
So take me away
(Take me away)

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UNWRITTEN LAW - "Take Me Away"


And i want to fall asleep, ya, cause i know that where we'll meet
But i sit and wonder why i'm alone again tonight
Lets go there out of sight, hey Jodi
Won't you take me away, hey hey hey
Hey Jodi, won't you take me away

-------------

now this is the very first song i got it from.
my favourite song from years and years ago
i dunno if anyone even remembers it
google couldnt even find it for me
thankfully altavista did
i really like the chorus
reminds me of Caleb

-------------

Tony Lee Scott - Take Me Away

You are impossible
There is no one else quite like you
Yeah you are so incredible
Couldn't hurt me if they wanted to

When I saw you at the shopping mall
You ignored me, yeah you didn't care
So i walked up to you and I kissed your mouth
You moved your tongue like Fred Astaire
And that's why I consider you to be the one

To take me away from the ordinary
I wanna know if you'd consider me
To be your boyfriend
To be your lover
The one who will come running

You see I am the one who
Has a problem with self identity
While you are in my bedroom
Waving carrots in front of me around
And that's why I consider you to be the one

To take me away from the ordinary
I wanna know if you'd consider me
To be your boyfriend
To be your lover
The one who will come running

Why do I have to follow you around
Like a little puppy dog
But if that's what it takes for you to
Get your attention on me
You know I will be

Yeah you came into my life
Like a four leaf clover
Since you came in, turned it upside down
Yeah I knew the search was over, over. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7719091/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7719091/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 00:57:40 PST stuck at home
with chickenpox

but hey i got into TAFE!!!
diploma of event management
so you'll be expecting a few devart and myspace parties/events at the end of this year

i feel so sick
for those of you who havent had chickenpox before
its like having itchy blisters all over your body
and more appear over you body every hour
its uncomfortable.

boo!

well i hope you all had a great aussie day
hopefully get to see some of you when i feel better

le`gant

--

"It’s like a pencil with erasers at both ends
I want it all but we’re dealing in percents
And these activities that you have engaged in
This is the politics of seeing you dance with him..

This is the way it goes
With you a part of it
Nervously saying words
That oh-so-tightly fit
A mark beneath the chin
And I’ve caught you once again
It’s in the way you sell every word and phrase
And leaving me to know how much the meaning weighs
Saying that but meaning this
Your tears for emphasis

That dress and those eyes are telling white white lies
White white lies" ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7664501/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7664501/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 07:50:56 PST here is my best advice.

when getting drunk at a party...

1. do not walk in on the FUCKing couple
2. do not join in with the FUCKing couple
2. (con't) DO NOT LET A MOTHER IN THE THE DOOR DURING THESE ACTIVITIES!!!
3. do not drink excessively to nearly fall off a balcony.
4. do not try and jump on a motherfucking trampoline while excessively drunk.
5. do not get boys so drunk they piss out of the window while in a moving car. LOL @ Nathan.
6. Do not get so drunk you take your bra off for drunk boys to try on.
7. Do not sit around smoking while braless. A silly drunk boy WILL try and expose your boobs while you burn yourself in the face. Its reallllllllllly ugly trust me!

Note to self: do not get drunk anymore.
- i know i won't succeed. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7655673/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7655673/ Fri, 20 Jan 2006 08:26:08 PST
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

fucking fun assss

James got his fucking fangs piercied... hot as!

im oober drunkage.
LARISSA
i fucking miss yewwwwww

wow im lonely
james made me burn my face with a cigarette
it hurts LOTS

hahaha scarage


LE`GANT MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!

riss - friendage

wow headspin

i got to see caleb
anddddddddddd
LIAM

my god that boy is bad for me.

HANRAHAN
=THE LOVE

whoa

im going before i say more messed up shit

FEEL THE LOVE PEOPLE LE`GANT ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7647193/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7647193/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 10:15:14 PST
all you harry potter motherfuckers out there
tell me where to get some ASPHODEL and WORMWOOD
i need to make the draught of living death
knock myself out for a few weeks and pretends everythings ok.


eek - second round Tafe offers on monday.
im scared.



i really need to stop playing the stupid games on the special feature disks from the harry potter DVDs

you all think im a freak.

i get to see RISS and JAMESY and HANRAHAN and CALEB tomorrow
this makes me happy see?

oh and could someone please give me $600 so i can go see HIM in March.



whoa im really tired.
i might go to bed.

I miss everyone

Bianca and Bry and Brad and Kelly and Alysha and Riss and Gumbi and Emma and Jamie and everyone arghhhhhhhh

ok year 12s. Decide what your doing BEFORE leaving school.
I really didnt and now im freaking out.
No apprenticeships and if i dont make this Tafe selection i have to go on the Dole :S

Fuck life sucks
im still being emo
someone come slap me.

What you all doing for australia day?
lets all meet up.
yes

Love you all
miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7609317/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7609317/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 09:35:25 PST

I have a boyfriend and i believe i love him. No one ever actually knows and don't try and argue me on that point. cunt. He is a chef and i don't see him alot. But we have plenty of sex. You may not want to know that but fuck it. This is about me.


I am currently not working. I have had plenty of jobs, i'm qualified for any generic 17-year-olds job. I applied for TAFE and i missed out on both the courses i chose by 0.26 and 0.29. Suck huh? well thats the fucking story of my life. Near Misses and Great Dissappointments. I plan to write a book someday. It will be bigger than Harry Potter.


My family love me. Well most of them do. My father however is dying. But aren't we all. I hope he goes soon, get it over and done with. Think i'm cruel? We'll he has treated me like i was dead for all of my life.


I don't believe in true friends anymore. and no its not cause i'm pissed at everyone i used to know. I'm different to who i was. true friends whatever the fuck they are.. no-where to be seen. Don't get me wrong, i have friends but no-one i would give an arm for and vice-versa. A little effort hasn't and still doesn't go far anymore.


This is me.
Don't like me well fuck you!
Love me? well fuck you too.

I am a bitch and get fucking used to it. This is the way i am. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7609292/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7609292/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 09:31:51 PST But don't please.
I still love you all.
I miss you half to death.

I just want my following harsh words to appear on my profile screen.

Hope you all had awesome x-mas's and new years.

I spent mine drunk.

My thanks to emma for basically rescuing at calebs party lol.

red puke. very decrative.

oh. i have lost my camera and my phone.

So no photography work for a while (sad now im craving it.)

But i do have a new mobile number. Send me a note if you want the number (would be useful to include your number in the note too! )

Whoa. Me and caleb. 10 months. I love him

And guess what. Its a year ago today i broke up with matt. weird. it seems like only a short while ago.

a year feels like a few months. so i'm calculating i'll be dead tomorrow. ha.

Yes well. Have nice lives. Have a great final year at school (most of you) and trust me, it goes by fast.

Love Kelly ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7219361/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/7219361/ Sun, 04 Dec 2005 10:44:49 PST Dear everyone who can be bothered reading this.

There is this girl Alice who decided yesterday that should would try and make me miserable by leaving her harsh and rather abusive little opinion on my MSN space blog.

A simple blog explaining my love life, which in Alice's eyes make's me a little slut. Even tho I do not at all explain my sex life or even bring that into it.

Then there is also Scott. Now Scott is my Boyfriend's sisters ex. This guy currently lives in Queensland and i have never even met him in my life. I know he was a real arsehole towards Eden in the end. He even cheated on her with her best friend. This guy had the guts to come on here and ramble bout bullshit how much I hurt Caleb.

Scott you are a fucking HYPOCRITE get back to your stupid little life and leave me alone coz seriously none of Caleb's family want anything to do with you.

Okay. I've really had enough. Get over yourselves and leave me the fuck alone. You two are pretty sad if all you can do is leave abusive comments to random's on their msn spaces.

Now my good friend's lets look at a lovely insight into Alice touching Blog about me on her MSN and how much this bitch really likes to write about me. Lol. Get a life.

Love KTS

xx


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“Now really... the uproar over my charming little entry on one "Kelly’s blog is absolutely ridiculous. Who am I to judge Kelly on what she writes in her little bloggy thing?

Why, I’m the person who was invited to, of course! You see at the bottom of every entry... even this one right here... there is a little tab that says "Comments." Upon clicking this tab, which I might add is removable;

Well I’m sorry I didn’t know that. If I was expecting comments like yours then I might have just removed it.

one is presented with a bunch of thin text boxes and one big one to use for commenting.

Now being the curious, helpful person that I am,

You forgot 'snobby'

I decided to start clicking links. One of them brought me to Kelly’s site which contained a post to a guy named Caleb which explained her unfathomably deep love for this chap.

Which by the way, you didn’t have to comment. If I disturb you so much why don’t you just leave my blog?

There was even an attempt at a poem. Mmm... touching.

No it wasn’t A few words rhymed... big deal.

Anyway, this is where the 2 previous paragraphs come together. By leaving the "comment" link there, you are inviting me to voice my opinion by writing it all down there and posting it. Just like you posted that... charming little message, which last time I checked counted as an opinion, I posted mine. And heres some rebuttal.

"You don't even know me how can you just write this type of stuff about me."

Well, FIRST of all, I can write stuff like that about you because that is the opinion I have gathered from your posts and (as I have explained before) I was invited to share my opinion.

"How are you to know that I’ve even had sex with him?"

How am I not to? You never once said "I didn’t spread my legs for every single guy I know," did you?

Oh yeah coz I'm suppose to write that in every single blog... dumb arse...

And in my book, the word love means "a complete union of mind, body and soul with another person." Surely if you REALLY loved this/these guy/s, you would give yourself completely to them, and vice-versa?

Why is my sex life so important to you? I actually think it’s private but if you really must know, yeah we (meaning just Caleb and I) have sex but its nothing like you think.

See we actually make love not just fuck which you obviously think I do to any available cock I can find.

And you claim to be 17, for fucks sake. It doesn’t take a super-intelligent kabab to work out what boys and girls do to/with each other at the age of 17.

Plenty of my friends at even the age of 20 are still virgins. Hey look, your 17 too! you in your own point of view must be fucking people too!! OMG

And finally;

"I have never met you or talked to you in my life why do I deserve such insults"

seems to contradict the phrase "non-melodramatic little tart body of your's into a private room... get that middle finger of your's and GO FUCK YOURSLF."

Yeah it was a good comeback hey. Not of my usual taste since I like intelligent conversations but I decided to bring it down to your level just so you could unders... ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6846250/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6846250/ Sun, 23 Oct 2005 14:14:39 PDT omfg i couldn't believe how much fun i had.
only bad thing was i didn't have Caleb with me.
Poor bugger had to work.
i saw him straight b4 and after tho.
Plus he slept over 2 nights in a row
which is rare.

So anyhow.
TOC was like, my highlight gig of the year.

First of all, i grabbed kayleigh and pulled her straight into the depth of the crowd to rockout forFuneral for a friend.
fuckin awesome. its was love

next up was rise against which i have to say is one of the best live bands i've ever heard. sound so perfect that you'd swear it was straight to the album. the place started to get full now.

Stars don't fall for support. Awesome as ever i have to admit, i just felt shit coz i was stuck at the other end of the crowd. Still saw them play. had no choice really. lol.

Story of the year pitt was so fucking mad. i couldn't believe it, its like the circle was a vacume and it was sucking everyone in. they were heaps good i wish i could've seen b4 i lost the batteries from my camera and me precious HIM watch. -sigh- its the price you pay for a good show.

So anyhow, i got hurt in the circle pit for SOTY. It was to be expected i get injured at EVERY big show i go to. lol.

So then i went out for a break, hung out with Dan, Simon, James and some lil kid which i think was "Danni's" lil brother. yeh, then i was pulled around by Bec trying to find asian Kyle so we could get stoned. haha. i got lost again.

So then Killswitch started to play. Went in and looked for ANYONE i knew. Mostly Katy coz i was worried about her. Lil youngin, i love her. lol.

So then i went in and got squished by the biggest, fattest, oldest smelly bastards there. Somehow got to the front barricade. fuck. my ribs were done for the second i got there.

But it was fucking worth it.

I stayed there.

20 minutes constant pushing.

Ribs nearly cracking under the pressure.

The they came out.
The Used.

Fucking best band i have EVER SEEN LIVE.
maybe that coz i was like 5 fucking metres away from Bert.
and im serious.
he kept spitting on me i was that close.

Every song.
Every word.
Left my mouth.
He screamed.
I screamed.

WOW. it was good.

Anyhow afterwards was such a rush. bloody nose.
First aide haha.

But wow.
Quinn has my glasses.
I have his hat.
wow. He gave me his hat lol.

but anyhow i'm probably gunna sell it.
doesnt fase me much no matter how excited i was for the 10 hours after that.

I can't wait to see the used again.
and i promised i would lol.
Fuck. If i had the money i'd follow them for the rest of the TOC tour.

so yes.
it was an awesome night.
plus Caleb got to sleep over.
Made my night even better.

Hope everyone else enjoied it
have fun at school

kelly ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6765596/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6765596/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 10:58:15 PDT
..cry yourself to sleep

I am strong and you are weak
..wait..

you are strong and i am weak
fuck.

just cry yourself to sleep
ohhhh oh. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6763919/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6763919/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 06:24:43 PDT Megumi my hot lover of five years


so here is some stuff

1. I am a girl. altho people think i look like a boy (or im called a dyke)
2. I love, live, breathe and INJECT music. it is my life source. thats all.
3. Megumi and i have the best lil dances everr
4. I like cutting everyones hair. that reminds me i owe robert a haircut
5. i am part chinese/pom/scot and irish
6. I love seafoods.. PRAWN COCKTAIL = love
7. I wish i could play heaps of instruments. So far i'm a beginner guitarist and drummer but i'd say i'm intermediate on keyboard.
8. i love to mosh/ninja pitt. my new motto (thanks penfold) if ya gonna mosh, mosh hard.
9. I was a problem child ever since i was born. dob: friday the 13th 1988.
10. im in love again. and he loves me to. he is Caleb and im happy once again.
11. I heart myspace but i still think Tom fucked us all over when he sold it to the company.
12. fave movie ever issssssss Fear and Loathing.
13. i am a cam whore
14. I am addicted to msn-msnger
15. i plan to be a suicidegirl
16. i have the stangest family. 3 bros, two sisters and none are full-siblings. smallest age gap = 12 years
17. im obsessed with pink and black
18. I have truanted seriously only once and got caught. fucking cops.
19. I have piercings and a tattoo, i'm addicted and crave more more more!!!
20. I sleep with a grumpy care bear when i dont have caleb to hold <3

ok so there you go. now i tag people. i will only tag 3.

my avitar thief/friend Jake
my fave crazy hair person of the month
and Bradley just coz he is lazy and i want to see if he'll bother doing this. lol

much love friends.
schools out won't see ya's for a while.
<3 kel. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6728467/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6728467/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 09:10:13 PDT
from Cliff's (my ex) myspace blog "My friends are better than yours"

"Oh Dan youve helped me so much with my image and self esteem, youve helped me finger a hippo, and also helped me do stuff with a stinky dyke minus the bike. not to mention all the other stuff weve been thru."

translates to:

"Oh dan, thank you for being my idol. i am glad you have put up with me changing my image to be EXACTLY like you! you helped me finger Ja***a and get with Kelly (who is obviously a dyke! just because she cut her hair short) not to mention all the times we got drunk, robbed people of their money and made complete fools of ourselves"

the funny thing is, if you really think i am a dyke, you were desperate enough to take me on.

i hope you like, get a disease or something. then i can spread nasty rumours bout you cunt. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6728020/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6728020/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 08:14:59 PDT he is fucking adorable.

i him

but i wan't to get one thing settled.

His name is Atreyu.
and for some reason, alot of people have a problem with that.

"In a few years you won't even LIKE the band Atreyu and then you will hate your dog to"

BLAH

Ok.

YES i like the band Atreyu.
YES MAYBE in a few years i won't like Atreyu (i highly doubt it)

but i won't everyone to know just before anyone else decides to winge about it.
My mum named my dog Atreyu because of the lil warrior boy in the movie "The Neverending Story".
If you got a problem. FUCK OFF

Come on, what ya gunna do.. sue me?
I have a cat called Eevee too. Oh know lets call japan, she might not like Pokemon next year!!

And even if i do get sick of it, my dogs name will not stop me loving it.

So yes. theres my big bitch for the week. i hope you enjoy. Pics of my doggie soon!!

<3 Kel ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6675643/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6675643/ Tue, 04 Oct 2005 07:01:26 PDT favourite new song: Art is Hard by Cursive
favourite new movie: Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
favourite new crushes: Jay, Jordan and Caleb (again)

".if at first you don't succeed..
..you gotta recreate your misery..
..you all know art is hard..
..young artists have gotta starve."

so these holidays have been good. I'm happy with the way my life is going. except the fact i havent done any homework lawl.

I went to the royal show twice and i saw RUSTY working there. Man it was great fun except i spent all my monies.. eek! now i am poor. very poor lawl.

I went to the Wendy Icon gig on Sunday. Yep, got drunk on passion pop at an all ages gig. Well i could afford the bottle but i didn't have enough money to get in, even tho i snuck in later for like 2 minutes. haha.

So there i was, wandering around making a shitload of new friends.
SHOUTOUTS
Alix - Zoe - Sarah - Jay - Matt - Griffen (haha) - Beks - Another Bec - Levi - Joel - Bert And all my other cool new friends!

And i appologised to an old friend. It was a long time commin but yeah Fin and i are back to talking which is the f-shiznit.


I hung out with Jordan for the time she was outside. God she is so beautiful! But lately seems like somethings wrong. It really worrying me. I think she has lost interest

So yeah, i met this kid Jay He is oober cute. lawl.

Another reason to be happy. I got my hairdressing scissors. YAY. i was sposed to do a haircut the other day but i had to babysit my niece. Oh well guess my victim was lucky lol. Poor Mitch. haha.

Im cutting Caleb's hair tomorrow.

Oh, i went for a job interview today. Yipee! at Buss in Caro. She was heaps nice to me and when we finished she said things are looking good. YAY.

yeah so there is my life. ONE WEEK OF SCHOOL LEFT ARGH!
oh and i just realised, 7 months and i have a clean criminal record.
haha

<3 Kel ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6630832/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6630832/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 03:00:09 PDT am i falling in love? probably.
will i act on it? probably not.

"I feel eyelashes on my cheek
they lacerate my flesh
A pain so good
So put your hand in mine
Never let go
Never wake up cause im done with promises
I'm taking blood oaths
Feels like you could kiss
my inperfections
my inperfections away
and i would stand
stand right by your side until the sun turns the sky
all the colours i see in your eyes"

Jordan,
"And I'll never need to see the sun again
there is enough light in your eyes
to light up our little world
so take me, take me away..
kill me slowly, i'll never be the same.."

(she is beautiful.
only seen her once but she is amazing.
she is like an angel.
she is everything i once dreamed of.)

Caleb,
"i swear to you
on everything i am
and i dedicate to you
all that i have
i promise you
i'll stand right by you side
forever and always
until the day i die."

(but he, he who once hurt me.
he still remains.
i know he could let me go.
but i treasure his friendship.
unlike any friendship of an ex-lover.)

"And I feel immortal and I want to make you feel the same
so stand by me
As we immolate
We can burn in each other's arms"

single is such a lonely life.
but maybe i shouldn't leave it yet.
i need to learn to be independent.
but this is just so these two know.

i love you both ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6577587/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6577587/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 22:53:07 PDT you all know who you are coz you miss me too (hopefully)
but there is one of you who doesn't.
i know for sure they don't.
they moved on quick as a flash and left me all alone.
very alone.

well as the song goes..
"how can i just let you walk away
just let you leave without a trace
when i stand here taking every breath with you
you're the only one who really knew me at all"

okay so you weren't the ONLY one. but you knew things most others don't.
i opened myself up to you,
i was so proud and you gave me such beautiful confidence.
But my openess just let you seperate my ribs and break my heart.

"how can you just walk away from me
when all i can do is watch you leave
cause we shared the laughter and the pain
and we shared the tears
youre the only one who really knew me at all"

they way it ended was terribly cruel
ignorance and silence.
back turned and the wind is so cold.
out in the world all alone when i thought we were ok.
we were perfect.

"so take a look at me now
theres just an empty space
theres nothing left here to remind me
just the memory of you face
oh take a look at me now
there's just an empty space
you coming back to me was against the odds
but its what ive got to face"

yes. look at me now. im still weak but i'm growing.
i'm learning to live life without you
i truly loved you
you never loved me at all did you..
i would have given my life for you as you tried to take you own

you know i would have "joined you in death"
at least that would last longer..

i have a heart scarred on me for you
what about yours?
the one you did to show it was "so painful to heart me"
i hearted you so much.

s o. f u c k i n g. m u c h.

and still, you just stopped loving me.
basically overnight.
i now your reasons now but i wont forgive them.
i will never fucking forgive them
and i'll never forget you.
you were deceit
but i loved you.

i promise you that. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6427305/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6427305/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 21:40:17 PDT
i think everyone should join this stuff

[link]

Catch 27 is good fun.
Make trading cards of yourself
and invite mates, and then trade their arses off

Please join people this is wicked fun
its guna be bigger than myspace <3

love kel ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6385194/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6385194/ Thu, 01 Sep 2005 06:38:36 PDT it's not your fault i understand sweetheart.
you aren't mean, you aren't cruel.
you were you and this is for the best.

i still love you Cliff. you were my world. my love. my hope. my desire.
and i know its unwise to say these things now.. but you were the closest i ever got to perfect.

silly me for believing our love was pure.
a real love.
this was a fast love. but it was deep.
deeper than caleb.
depper even than james.
i tort it to be one..of those fairy tale happily-ever-after sort of things.

i got my confidence. you gave it all to me.
i'll never forget everything about you.
it's so hard to let go. i know you want me to. but its hard.

now. i feel like i've lost the most important thing in my world when i needed him more than ever.
yes. i love you.
yes i need you.
yes i miss you.

and yes. i am lost without you, and you're never coming home.

"i don't really care" the most painful words you ever said.
its all i need. to realise. the end had come.

and our storytale ending has come. but its not happy.
its tragedy.
and loss.
and pain.

lonliness. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6375509/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6375509/ Wed, 31 Aug 2005 06:01:10 PDT it long you probably dont care.
its just something for me to cry over


[Kelly]
well.. i think you should be back with fin

..:: D a n ::..
i treated her right

..:: D a n ::..
yeah, i know it seems like the right thing to do
..:: D a n ::..
but i dont want a gf
..:: D a n ::..
responcibility is one thing i dont want
..:: D a n ::..
i wanna do what ever i want, when i want, with out having some one there saying "BUT U WERE SUPPOSED TO COME SEE ME TODAY!!"

[Kelly]
is that the way cliff feels too?

..:: D a n ::..
probly
..:: D a n ::..
i dunno
..:: D a n ::..
he wont tell any one whats up with him
..:: D a n ::..
so im just assuming he's doing what im doing
..:: D a n ::..
i mena, he's changed his hait to suit mine, got the same peircigns as me, got into punk coz of me, got into guitar coz of me
..:: D a n ::..
im just guessing he's gonnaleave his girl cos i did
..:: D a n ::..
i dunno
..:: D a n ::..
thats my assumption

[Kelly]
it hurts so much

..:: D a n ::..
dont worry about it
..:: D a n ::..
if he's as much of a cunt to u as ppl are saying
..:: D a n ::..
u deserve better
..:: D a n ::..
and u cant say "i love him" coz u cant love some one thats a cunt to u
..:: D a n ::..
if u can see he's treating u bad
..:: D a n ::..
its up to u to leave

[Kelly]
but its so hard
[Kelly]
i love him so so much

..:: D a n ::.. Maybe
or else the next bf u get, will just treat u bad, and ull just end upo being one of those girls that take shit from there guys
..:: D a n ::..
and it will start off as verbal abuse
..:: D a n ::..
then physical
..:: D a n ::..
and b4 u know it, ur going to work with bruises on ur face
..:: D a n ::..
covering up for his mistreatment
..:: D a n ::..
saying "he didnt touch me, i love him so much"
..:: D a n ::..
u dont wanna be like that
..:: D a n ::..
trust me
..:: D a n ::..
janina (cliffs ex) found a guy half as good looking as cliff
..:: D a n ::..
but he treats her nice
..:: D a n ::..
she's never been happier

[Kelly] Psychobilly Girl says:
..

..:: D a n ::..
cos u cant say u love cliff for the person he is

[Kelly]
i dont think cliff loves me half as much as he loved janina

..:: D a n ::..
cos this is the real cliff
..:: D a n ::..
and he's a cunt
..:: D a n ::..
well
..:: D a n ::..
u and him = a month at most?
..:: D a n ::..
cliff and janina = 3 years
..:: D a n ::..
and trust me
..:: D a n ::..
it wasnt the perfect happy couple

[Kelly]
and he always compares me to her

..:: D a n ::..
he'd make her cry all the time
..:: D a n ::..
all the time..
..:: D a n ::..
he was nice like 1 on 1..

[Kelly] Psychobilly Girl says:
i already do..

..:: D a n ::..
but when he was out with friends
..:: D a n ::..
or talking on the net
..:: D a n ::..
and she was there
..:: D a n ::..
she'd run off crying
..:: D a n ::..
nah seriously u got it good compared to her
..:: D a n ::..
he'd be like
..:: D a n ::..
"FUCK OFF U UGLY SWISS BITCH, ffs, just leave me alone u dumb cunt, ur fucking everything up"
..:: D a n ::..
shit like that
..:: D a n ::..
and she'd just be like
..:: D a n ::..
but but bhut.. clifff.. i love u
..:: D a n ::..
and at times, he'd be like.. fuck off, i dont love u
..:: D a n ::..
but when he cools off, he'd be like.. bah i love u 2
..:: D a n ::..
all im saying is
..:: D a n ::..
if ur not happy now
..:: D a n ::..
JUST GO
..:: D a n ::..
coz its only gonna get worse

[Kelly]
but

..:: D a n ::..
and no body deserves it

[Kelly]
i cant

..:: D a n ::..
but.. u love him?
..:: D a n ::..
if i called u a cunt, and slapped u in the face
..:: D a n ::..
would u get turned on by it?
..:: D a n ::..
would u ask me to do it again?

[Kelly]
no

..:: D a n ::..
thats pretty much wot ur doing to urself
..:: D a n ::..
cliff is always mean to u
..:: D a n ::..
he hardly wants to see u ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6364484/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6364484/ Mon, 29 Aug 2005 22:15:43 PDT NEW OBSESSION

Tiger Army (thanks jesse)

and. they make me miss Cliff every single day.
My heart, feels like falling out of my chest.

its been so long since i've seen you. So long since i've held you.

i miss you half to death. i know stuff ain't 100% right now but we'll get better sweetheart.

i love you Cliff and i just wana see you at least once this week. so i can remember what it feels like to smile.

My love it is a black rose (my love it is a black rose)
Held out to you by the hand of fate (held by the hand of fate now)
And as this dark romance grows...
It's not from the sun, but the starlight that's so far away
Above the Devil's garden

The fertile soil of poisoned hearts
Fed by tears and night time rain
Under Transylvanian moon
Grows the flower bred from pain

Death is pure - life is not
So ask yourself, what do you want?
As for me, well I want you
So pick the black rose and let its thorns cut you..







i love you more than anything this cruel world could ever give ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6339751/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6339751/ Sat, 27 Aug 2005 05:03:20 PDT i got the best mistake sms tonight from caleb

it was ment to be for some other girl coz he made a reply to a joke b4 this message

"Your the only person who i've ever asked.. look i don't have a big dick like most guys so i have to make sure that the other person had a good time to make up for it plus all the other's have been girls i think of you as a women so i value you opinion"

so i replied him

"no caleb, your dick is fucking tiny, i never enjoyed it, after all i am just a girl"

he replied "hehe that wasn't ment for you"

so i sent back "look, i'd really fucking apreciate it if i don't get any of that shit anymore. Who is it this time, Emma or some other poor girl. You slut.."

'oh that hurts so much. why the fuck do you care? you told me you don't care about me anymore and look in the mirror next time you call me a slut and don't lie, i know you loved it."

"oh dont you think it hurts me to hear that im "just a girl" oh and by the way, you don't realise how easy it is to fake"

suck on that dickhead. its just what you deserve. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6339718/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6339718/ Sat, 27 Aug 2005 04:52:57 PDT HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE
hahaha

well it seems like everyone.. omfg

HAPPY 57th BIRTHDAY to MY MUM
HAPPY sweet 16th BIRTHDAY to EMMA
HAPPY sweet 16th BIRTHDAY to JAMIE
HAPPY sexy 17th BIRTHDAY to KIRSTY
HAPPY ??th BIRTHDAY to CLIFF'S DAD

and A SAD FUCKED UP BIRTHDAY to EAN (a.k.a. my dad) ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6329188/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6329188/ Thu, 25 Aug 2005 21:41:04 PDT
it was a painful experience but i got through it.

I'm sitting in art at the moment. Art is cool. Art is fun. Art should be open to everyone.

Nuff Sed?

love you all and a big as a welcome back to those others coming off banning today

LOVE FOR ALL ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6264351/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6264351/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 18:05:12 PDT
DEVIANTART SUCKS blah blah blah...

but now i do.

this place is full of stupid little comments, most i dont appreciate and some people in particular (who i have told) that i dont like their comments would rather comment against my friends or people in my photographs rather than comment its artistic qualities.

people get on here and waste time. its pathetic. yes some comments are made love them or hate them. they are made. Most are not abusive, some a encouragement to see more work.

so whoever it is who blocked all my mates. you should be blocked yourself. i dont truely know who it is but i have a few ideas. If i am blocked after this for abusive shit then i will KNOW who it is and i will lose all respect have for you.

IMMATURE!!

I THINK IT IS ABSOLUTELY FUCKING PATHETIC HOW SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN ON HERE FOR A FEW MONTHS OR WEEKS CAN BLOCK PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN USING THIS PLACE FOR OVER A FREAKING YEAR

EVERYONE HAS HAD THEIR SAY AT SOME POINT

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"But I'm fed up with you and your fake thoughts of the idealistic way you percieve yourself."-your referring to yourself obviously.

"favourite band or musician:dont ask me that"
because your too ashamed to admit your aDICKted to simple plan?

y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k
y.o.u.s.u.c.k

in other words: YOU SUCK
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sound familiar anyone???

oh and...

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Sorry! but when people tend to gang up on others when they are fairly new and do submit stuff we get blown down for it. As stef said if you dont like our pages dont look at them. I am still new and only just lurning what to do. since i DO NOT have a SCANNER since it is BROKEN i find it fairly hard to submit my own genuine ART onto deviant art so there fore have to take pictures. If you people do not like it then theres not much you can do. If you do not like it then do not look at our pages and if you do have something to say say more than just a word (ART) but explain why your are saying that. Its just cause were not emo isnt it? i do understand your point about photos but let it go or report it to the site managers.

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hahahaha ummmmmmmm WHAT THE FUCK
how did you break your scanner... sit on it??? or was it a photo of your face??

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Drowning-in-my-blood and living-doll should get a life! if you read it she will submit other work as will I and others just time its not like we pick on your art works or complain if u havnt submitted anything in a while or anything that great.

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okay BITCH i can really see why they got blocked. all they wanted was to see more art but you went all the way to say that theirs "isn't anything that great!!!

HOW ABOUT YOU AND REALISE.... THAT THEY ARE FUCKING AWESOME ARTISTS AND THEY PISS ALL OVER YOUR SHIT i dont care if you've only submitted one thing, their firsts are still better than yours anyhow. Get a fucking life… bitch
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so, who ever our little mystery blocker is... go ahead and block me, but im sticking up for what i fucking believe in and for my mates. I love those kids and no one will ever put their art down as long as I am around.

oh and by the way, in case you can't tell im mad. i havent had an extremely good week. in fact im ready to fucking snap because i've been receiving death threats and all that sort of bullshit from my ex. I fucking hate him so much now and if he dares join deviant art, i'll do the big stupid thing of getting devart to ban him...

why not aye... seems to be the new "in" thing.

im ready to give up on devart soon. both accounts. this stupidness has got to stop.

~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6157475/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6157475/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 09:27:42 PDT makes people smile it does.
oh dear, i want a trip to Funland

Ho ho ho

well what do we have here? christmas in August aye... mmm good good

im so over tired its not funny.
but i'll give you something special..

i present to you....



Clifford is a good kid. add him. watch his every move.

he is a good writer.

btw note to self
yes indeed i am.

so yeah, add Cliff give comment love chaps...

Love from ur local bum
Kelly ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6157451/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6157451/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 09:24:00 PDT not good
well good but not good for the head.. mmm

school tomorrow
FUCK

i hate school. i want to sleep. i have art homework.
DOUBLE FUCK

grr
6 session day tomorrow. some boring bumfucking seminar
TRIPLE FUCK

i should rename this journal fuck.

im going to write a nicer one, ignore this one please.
]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6034709/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/6034709/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 22:17:53 PDT you hate everything about me, why do you love me?

oh deary me ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5899341/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5899341/ Sun, 10 Jul 2005 22:48:29 PDT
[link]

its all about me and i'll buy choclate for whoever scores the most

holidays bore me

miss you all

<3 kel ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5844714/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5844714/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 07:38:47 PDT THANK YOU SO MUCH GUMBI
it was good.
but i was lonely.

very very lonely.

as soon as the lights went down, my smile faded and tears dwelled in my eyes. alone.

i missed having someone.

i looked over to my dear friend who is blessed with a gorgeous relationship so sweet, so pure and so true you'd never see those two apart.

i realised i may not have found it yet.
maybe i have it still in my heart.
all i know is...
i wanted it so badly right there.

this movie had aliens and it wasnt that scary but i wanted someone to do the cliche' "hide in the underarm at a not so scary part" move

and there was no-one

instead i was spread out across three seats next to my drink and popcorn which i had finished 20 minutes into the movie.

i wanted someone.

i was so alone.

i tried to make it fun and i smiled and laughed and i was grateful to be with my friends for once.

but there was just something missing.

and to think that special relationship like gumbi and roadie's may be missing from my life.

or im not letting it come in...

just sitting alone, in silence, in the dark with no-one to secretely kiss.

i wanted to be with with him. why are movie makeouts so fun?

but when you have no-one everything is cold.

i miss you.

i miss love, but i hope i'll find it again someday.

hopefully its as good as

megumi and roadie's
riss and jamie's
bry and brad's
courtney and david's

]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5777724/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5777724/ Tue, 28 Jun 2005 01:55:51 PDT
caleb dumped me

got a $600 phone bill from calling him too much

and i am probably going to get suspended from school for asking mr fucking mcallister a simple fucking question.

am i sad... fuck yes
am i mad... fuck yes
am i going to give up... no

but i feel like im falling apart.

and i am crumbling fast.

nothing to stop me this time

im not going to leave
just crumble
im gunna be drawn back
im going to hide
im going to stay quiet
keep my mouth shut and i'll do fine

confidence ends here.

-------------------------------------------- ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5721661/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5721661/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 08:44:23 PDT i had a big deep and meaningful with jesse
god i fucking love that kid
i miss him to pieces
why do all my best friends seem so far away?

i am having a hard time with caleb
i feel so terrible
he is everything i've ever wanted and he is gorgeous!
he treats me like a princess
he has bought me some beautiful things
and he adores everything i do
and when im with him im so happy
but when he is gone i feel so different
i miss him so much

i dont know if its only spending a few days together
or because i miss him soooo badly
or because of my recent mistakes..

but jesse reassures me i have nothing to be guilty of
which is what has been killing me lately

im a silly girl.

im so crazy but thanks to jesse... tonight i feel sorta sane ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5697000/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5697000/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 17:53:53 PDT Keep on writing you're just raping yourself (nothing can take my mind away from them)
Don't you ask about me, ask 'bout somebody else (Once I've fallen there's many stories to tell)
I can feel it, won't embrace it, it's overwhelming how far you take it (Stuck in a state of questioning)
And don't you tell me you know we're destined, you won't convince me, I won't listen (Resentment building, you've put our lives on hold)

Label me, that's fine, I'll be somebody else (Nothing in front of me but holes ahead)
Lie about my life, have a story to tell (Lights went down, was on the edge and I fell)
Oh you're so insightful, let me remind you to twist and break me, should make you worried (Long way to go and you're right there)
Two-faced liar, don't try and know me, deceit brings fire, makes sure you can't breathe (Pick at pieces of my body below)...

Don' try and get the best of me (No one can help but your own self)
City makes my body ache (Lonely, don't try and prey on me)
I feel your world dying, no more use in tryin'...

And my body's trashed and low, but to you I'll never show myself or what's inside
And I've seen it all before and I'll settle the score, I'll never join your side...

Trashed and scattered again, I'm feelin' so low
You waste your breath while fuckin' with me, my blood is so cold
My destination always unknown, I'll find my way there...
- Avenged Sevenfold - Trashed and Scattered -

Okay so i hate myself today like any other day

But he still loves me

and sure i've made so many mistakes lately

But he still loves me

and i've had my doubts about everything about us

But he still loves me

even though i don't really deserve it...

Argh! i have a wierd and crazy job interview this arvo and i don't really want to go
i just wanna go home and go to bed
and cry my eyes out once again

im so sick of trying to be something that im not
i've had enough of faking that everything is ok when its not.

how can i be surrounded by so many people and still feel alone

the one thing i thought i was strong enough to give up came back to me last night and it hit me hard.
but i was weak and the cuts aren't deep.
his name is on me now over the "m" from before
i hate it but cherish it at the same time.

2 o'clock this morning i sat at my window crying the silliest tears and smoking my last cigarette ever

id rather die quick than slowly destroying my lungs

but for now i'll stick around until i feel okay again. maybe then i'll smile again because right now, i am alone.

]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5655134/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5655134/ Wed, 15 Jun 2005 10:54:04 PDT [link]

coz i can get photos to work on here
i know this is a dumb way of doing it but if you know how to get photobucket pics on here tell me and i'll fix it

p.s. i apologise for stolen pics... i really wanted to do this.
hope you like it, comment on this page if ya feel like it ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5641291/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5641291/ Mon, 13 Jun 2005 22:01:09 PDT my boyfriend just got a new apprenticeship at an italian resturaunt and he is so happy.
its exactly what he wants
only problem is he works every day except sunday

...seeing him one day a week is going to be so hard
and i don't know if i can cope.
i feel so bad, i love him.

i dont think i can make it.

what should i do?

i'll be so lonely
]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5558035/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5558035/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 06:56:56 PDT isn't love wonderful
i think this is so adorable tee hee

deviant LOVE people...

+
+
+

hehehe

and loves her Roadie
and loves her Eddy
and loves her Conor (teehee)

awwwwwww

and i love my Caleb
soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.

SPREADTHELOVE ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5465673/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5465673/ Thu, 26 May 2005 09:11:28 PDT "Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it ..."


Mood: happy again
Listening to: Smile Like You Mean It - The Killers

I think i am finally growing up.

Well at least Caleb is anyhow hahaha

Tonight i saw a side of him i never thort existed.

Sober, Straight, completely substance free. And he is gorgeous.

I am so so happy. He is a true romantic, haha!

I just wish i could see him more than 2 times a week...

but i spose the time apart helps us keep stong.

happiness is good. i think i like it. ALOT

i hope i stay this way. i hope, this time is forever

i love you caleb!!! x)



_______________________________

~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5441982/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5441982/ Mon, 23 May 2005 19:09:41 PDT "Oh girl we are the same
we are young and lost and so afraid
there?s no cure for the pain
no shelter from the rain
All our prayers seem to fail...

Oh girl we are the same
we are strong and blessed and so brave
with souls to be saved
and faith regained
all our tears wipe away..."


Mood: in joy and sorrow

Here i am again.

One Solved... two people left to love or hurt.

How am i sposed to choose.

I know my heart made the decision. But i don't wanna hurt the one i'm leaving behind. I wish there was some easy way to break this. But there is not.

The easy way out is to die, but i'm not pepared for that. I'm stronger than that. and so are you.

I love him. I like her. and it hurts to feel this. it hurts to know how much this will hurt you. My past with him has becomeso important that i was to have a future with him aswell.

It not that i dont care about you. i think you are gorgeous, amazing, beautiful and you are the best person in my eyes.

I will still walk with you, guide you, council you and seek your help when i need it. i need you, my dearest friend, please dont give up.

moments shared are memories made,
these thoughts will never fade,
you are special and sweet to me,
our friendship will set us free.

you know who you are, you know i'm NOT going to let you leave, i dont want to let you down, i dont want to hurt you. you mean to much...

please forgive me.

]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5426519/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5426519/ Sun, 22 May 2005 04:32:43 PDT "A good friend once told me, you are memory,
without them we equal nothing,
all I can see, is the place I wanna be,
suddenly my life was so free,
leaves at my feet, blown to the ground,
their echoes are reaching my ears,
nights coming fast,the suns going down,
but keep away from me... keep away from me"

Mood: sick of it all....
Listening to: Reminissions - Avenged Sevenfold

Why do i feel so weak right now. I'm stuck in a huge mess, so many problems i need to sort out.

I'm fucked.

First of all is 'Him'. The possible love of my life who was wasting his life away, drinking, drugging and abusing his very life substance. I know he loves me and i honestly do feel for him. But i have so much doubt in us too. I stare into his eyes and i think i feel sumthing, its like trying to light wet leaves for a bonfire. You get them allite, they burn for a little, sizzle then its gone. Possibly a flat battery? i dont know. i dont think the feeling is there anymore no matter how much i want it to be.

Then there is other things.

I learned to deal with the loss of a love i felt for so long. Was there any hope at all? probably not. my useless feelings i felt for that person were never returned. only in nights of passion so no-one else knew, it was hidden and tucked away for no-one else to know.

So, i was reading through my friends poetry and i re-discovered her piece called "Dirty Little Secret" and as i read through her beautiful words i related every single word to the relationship we shared...

"you make me weak with pain, pleasure and the realisation that I am nothing more than a toy to you. And I wonder when it’s my turn to be put back on the shelf.
I am already worn out and my seams are splitting, but can you blame a boy for sticking to what he knows?
Night after night, your favourite friend to take to bed with you..."



"I want you all, your body and your heart, but I want this pain to stop. I want nothing more than to make a decision, and I want to be strong enough to make it. But I guess we don’t always get what we want.
I hate you for using me, and making it seem fair, coz I want it too. I want feelings. Not pain. I hate myself for letting myself succumb to your touch. Buts its only for one night. It will be forgotten in the morning."


thats exactly what he did to me.
used me.
when i loved him all along...

and now i'm in trouble again.

a beautiful and most gorgeous person has admitted they love me. I have feelings for this person. But i am so scared.

This person is so gorgeous, beautiful.... fragile.

And i never ever EVER in this world want to hurt them. They mean to much.

I don't know if i am ready for this. I don't know if i can be strong enough to get through all of this. There is so much pain, anger, jealousy and heartache built up inside of me.

I know this may sound like a bad referance, but im affraid of crossing to "the dark side" i been there before and i dont want to go back. im so scared like never before, how am i sposed to deal with this preasure, this excitement... this life.

do i turn to God, should i pray for forgiveness for things that seem wrong but feel alright.... Should i push everybody away because everytime i let somebody close... somebody gets hurt.

and i hate pain.
i hate heartache.
i hate being used.
im scared of my future.
im sorry for what i've become.

i dont want any relationship right now. im too unstable. too unsure of myself. to scared for love and understanding and so, im sorry if i ever hurt you, i only hope one day you can forgive me...

]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5418647/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5418647/ Sat, 21 May 2005 07:14:55 PDT
Mood: in shock....
Listening to: ride the wings of pestilance - from first to last

okay.... i am extremely happy and surprised!

again, just as bryony explained the other day i've been randomly browsing deviant art. and i thort "oh wow look they changed it, i can see people work and comments before i click to view them in my messages" dee dum dee dum this is cool

then, im showing some people my pages when i realise... hey wtf.... i have a calendar... and a shoutbox.....

i scrolled up and im subscribed!!!

i dont know who did this

but whoever you are.

thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH

i dont know why i was given one too but gee... im in shock... thank you nice person

well what a nice start to my weekend resting my sore foot!

hopefully this weekend will be better than my last

love kelly

]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5405378/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5405378/ Thu, 19 May 2005 18:23:21 PDT
Mood: ashamed and hopeless
Listening to: dig up her bones - misfits

i made a fool of myself. and i am alone. leaving a life with an angry drunk and then giving up hope on someone who didnt love me at all.

this poem is here bcause its not worth submitting.

i hate myself again.

9 long months wondering,
all that time, i was wanting.
your arms around to keep warm,
keepme safe in a horrific storm.

and i can cry all i want to,
tears mean nothing to you.
for another time has past,
i'll try and move on fast.

all the time i stared in you eyes,
beleveing in your stupid lies.
how could i ever hoped to be,
the one you were in love with... me?

and so i have broken my own heart,
you have never loved me at all.
so go lay in our shared bed,
but my hope has faded, love is dead.

]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5369715/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5369715/ Mon, 16 May 2005 01:25:15 PDT
well it started out ok i turned 17 on friday and i was happy, i went to sizzlers with my family and my sweet beautiful fiance and then i got to see atreyu!!! man it was a fuckin awesome gig and i loved every second of it!

but i fucked up my ankle really bad in the ninja pit and this is like really fucked. it looks like a god damn purple grapefruit and its soooooooooo painful.

then my bday party after atreyu (which was sposed to be huge i tried telling as many ppl as possible without my computer) and guess what.... only 2 people came

and then my oh so wonderful fiance got drunk and started destroying shit... he even raised his hand to his own mother... and that was it... i left him

so i ran away from my own bday party into the refuge of my best friend (thank you so fucking much James i dont know what i would do without you)

then i got home really late which made mum so fucking mad. she just sat there yelling at me how im the worst kid in the whole world. then i find out mr fucking mcallister has somehow marked me away from school last week and mum didnt believe me when i told her i wasnt wagging.

then all this made me late for work... 180 steps i had to climb up to my outlet, i swear i nearly died. then after 4 hours of torture my ankle finally gave in and i fell over a mat. they took me to first aid officers who told me i shouldnt be walking on my foot... then i had to walk home...

i really should go to the doctor but i cant afford it so i have hired crutches and they are a fucking pain in the arse.

then sunday morning i turn up to school and tell the teacher running rockestedford that im not dancing... she wouldnt even believe that i had really hurt my foot. she was such a bitch i just wanted to punch her in the face but i probably would have fallen over.

and then the most tragic part of my wonderful weekend

this morning, with all the strong winds rain my tiny little dog Babe got hit on the head very hard with something.

it hit her hard enough to fracture her skull and make her brain a mess from internal heamoraging.

and then we tried to save her but she died in my arms at 2 am this morning. It was the most horrific thing i've ever had to witness and she suffered such a painful death.

and it was in the car just around the corner from the murdoch uni 24hr animal hospital... 20 seconds more was all i needed

and its all my fucking fault

i was mad at her for peeing in my bedroom so i put her outside in all the wind and rain and all i heard was one small yelp and now she's gone.

and i hate myself so fucking much

i wish the lord have taken me instead of her

because she was such a beautiful little thing of innocence and i am a much more guilty being.

happy birthday to me huh...

i wish i could fall asleep and never wake up. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5240900/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5240900/ Sun, 01 May 2005 18:24:26 PDT Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife

I'm a Fake - The Used

its funny how life changes. mine has been from good to bad to worse and now perfect... heh

well its only 12 days till Atreyu hits Perth and that means its 12 days till im 17!!! yay

i got heaps of work this week, i am working at a rugby, footy and soccer game... phew! im gunna be tired but i am gunna make soooooooooo much money!

hmmmm sad thing is i have to work on mothers day!!! }} BOO! {{ (at least its better than rockestedford) and i know my sista is taking my mum to the zoo, i havent been there since i worked there!!! i miss the zoo


me and caleb are still together but it is a little tough at times... but what relationship isnt... ARGH a whole 2 months on mothers day!! whoa and then it'll be 3 months at the Bleeding Thru gig... which is also my good friend Jordans Birthday

(gig birthday bitches for life )

well im at school and it sucks james keeps calling me a lesbian over my "mittens" lol james is a cunt but i still heart him

im soooooooooo tired, i just cant sleep lately and i dont know if its exctement, over-tiredness or my just not going to bed at the right time.... i will just agree with all 3

i am getting a digital camera for my birthday so u'll be expecting a few more devitions from me, mostly crappy happy snaps of me and peeps buggin around doing stupid shit hehehe

oh well i gotta go do some work.... not actually i feel like sleeping, i'm listening to the used and a have a big warm fuzzy feeling inside.... im happy right now yes i am happy

love kelly ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5118226/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/5118226/ Mon, 18 Apr 2005 06:23:50 PDT
by the way... lyrics are from Avenged Sevenfold - I Won't See You Tonight (Part 1 and 2)

---------------------------------------- --------------------------------

I get ready to go to bed...
i pull on my purple jammies with the frogs on them..
you know the ones you giggle about because they have a pocket...

just before i get into bed, my phone rings.
i know its you because i have our song as the ringtone for when you call,
because you're my special one.

i answer with the happy hello i always give you,
so happy and ready to hear your voice,
i wanna giggle after you say "hello chicky"

but you dont

you are crying... you always get like this when you are drunk,
i hated seeing you cry last time,
now i sit there,
hearing you cry,
unable to talk to you,
calm you down,
unable to hold you in my arms and kiss you better...

you scream into the phone how you believe you aren't good enough for me...

you are so wrong...

you are my everything..
everything i need and more..

you sing to me

"cry alone, I've gone away
no more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
but I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight.

sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and loved

it all built up, inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame
as bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight

sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and loved most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

so far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.
and while I'm gone, everything will be alright.

no more breath inside
essence left my heart tonight"

i know what your doing but before i can scream my heart out to stop,
the phone is engaged and i've lost you....
life hanging at the end of a phone line....

many hours later...
a very sleepless night...
many tears falling mixed with my own blood from my own wrists...
i feel like im losing you,
im so so alone and i dont wanna live anymore if i havent got you.

so i see you today..
you are weak and below the fabric you reveal you arms covered in cuts.
and the old scar of a big K on your arm...
my eyes begin to fill with tears,
you quickly hold me and tell me its gunna be okay...

we spend the day talking,
adoring and basking in each others love...
i love it when you smile oh how i missed you,

what would i do without you...

we leave at sunset and walking through familiar sands,
we are holding hands,
your grip tightens hard and im surprised from ur strength...
you pull me round into your arms and hold me so tightly...

you kiss my shoulders standing in the street...
you whisper in my ear

"i can see just fine,
with you in my life,
with you by my side,
as it starts to fade..."

... i love you so much

i kiss you goodbye and as your train pulls out i feel like collapsing and crying...
i miss you already coz im living for you..
i need you again,
but i carry on in the strength of you spirit
my heart still beats for you...

..only you.. ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/4996119/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/4996119/ Mon, 04 Apr 2005 09:22:21 PDT

Avenged Sevenfold - Second Heartbeat

We keep writing taking and planning,
but everything is changing.
We all know what to do but no one does it.
Now this time has passed and full of regret.
Two in my heart have left me a while. I Stand alone.
When they get back, it won't be the same.

My life, you've always been there.
Now you've gone and my head's spinning,
Left the childhood, left the memories,
left the good times in the past,
Moving on...your time has run out.
Wishing the clock would stand still, the world can wait.
wasting away once again, once lived as friends.
as time passe's by, we pray for the rest of my life.
the ones who i confide were gone in the black of night..

Never will i forgive you, and all the memories past,
so rarely i get to see your face.
Growing I looked to you in guidance,
We knwew that this time would kill us,
but your still close to me.

To me you were my life,
To me you were my soul conpanion,
Now your are so far away,
nothing can take away the time and the memories we had,
come back, to where the days we were so young,
come back, to the days where nothing mattered......


fuck i love this song... im just happy im not going back to the way it was.. im happy moving forwards ]]> ~take-me-away http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/4990952/ http://take-me-away.deviantart.com/journal/4990952/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 18:29:12 PDT ... its like i went thru a make over and at the mo im in the recovery unit haha

On thursday i went shopping with Caleb and James... had such a good ol time... specially when the boys were humping each other with lightsabres :jarksabre:and sucking on them (note: do not buy the extendible lightsabres at kmart carosel) then we had a look at all the cute stuffs hehe

Them as Caleb was looking at buying a yoyo James spanked him so hard it like echoed thru all of k-mart it was so loud and sooooooooo so funny hahahaha oh man it was good...

then we ventured to coles and we were looking at the condoms and lube (oh yay so much fun haha) then i wanted new hair stuff so we're there and james is taking huge handfuls of different hair products and shoving them in his hair haha... then matt from SDF comes up and James scared him so he like crawled to get a rather large can of hairspray hahaha twas funny but i felt sorry for him so i talked to him a lil bit..

Then we went thru megans til and she broke her computer hahaha then we tried giving me a moehawk but it just wasnt working it goes all floppy like...

On saturday i went to subiacos "unique tattoos" i got my tattoo redone... i mean like COMPLETELY redone... it was more of a cover up than a touch up... its still a butterfly but it looks different apparently the artist who originally did it fucked up and it was all scratchy looking... but now its all beautiful and scabby hahaha

then i was with caleb in perth and we sat in the wierd park thing eating HJs when we were surrounder by birds.. there was this wierd looking pidgeon it had a wierd nech and we called him ross... it was funny.. then there was a pretty one that somehow got a bandage caught around its beak... that was james... there was a skinny bird he was rob..... and the crow was caleb hahahaha... the funny lookin brown pidgeon was named kelly only coz it stood out hahaha... so we sat there trying to feed james... ross never got a chip... he was such i gimp... rob kept gettin the chips before everyone else... james got really close to us to get chips it was cool... some other people chucked like half a hamburger and rob got it then caleb (the crow) chased him for it... it was funny coz even tho rob kept it caleb the crow nearly flew into a tree... hahaha oh such fun times

we were walking accross a street when i decided i wanted my tragus piercied... so we went to the body piercing place and i was told i needed a bar... so then caleb says "get ur nipple done" and i did... it has been i bit bleedy but its lookin pretty good... i love it lots..!!

then i had to go work at the footy and i felt sad leaving caleb... i went to work and i burnt myself lots... we have new bain maries and they are so damn hot it pisses me off... i kept feeling like i was gunna pass out tho... twas funny..

i went home... went to bed and then the next day i had rockestedford... jumping around hurt my boobie lots and i cant move my arms right hahaha its all cool tho...

i left early coz i felt sick and then i was sad again coz caleb couldnt come over and yeah... i cried alot... i went home and then matt came over in the arvo and we hungout and remember good ol times... im happy i can still be friends with him

well there you go... my life story of the past couple of days... for all those people i see often im sorry if i winge about my boob lots but it canes like a bitch haha

you all my children peace out


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