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Had our band concert last week. New marching band uniforms coming in. Got a 95 Windstar after my Versa got totaled (going to court next month for that). 2 tickets. Mom's getting on my nerves so much now that I'm her eternal slave.

Finals next week. Finished reading Macbeth. Christmas break coming up. Got a sweetheart (none of your business ). Ummmmmm... not much else.

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School's good, except for U.S History, of which is my lowest grade, a C. I understand everything, I just don't wanna do the work.

Marching band season is coming to a close, not the best year. Our final competition is this Saturday at the Naperville Red Hawks Invitational. It's a town over from my old home town, Downers Grove. I'm kinda glad the season almost over, cause then I get to play in jazz band on tenor sax.

Speaking of which, I'm going into the Army Reserve Band, not yet though. They can't do anything with me till I'm 17, but I still go to FST (Future Soldier Training).

We finished our Oktoberfest choir concert, very nice. Buckley's party was amazing. Our Christmas concert is coming up.

Cheerleading is annoying. I'm just getting sick of it. Not being part of the team, treated like a moron, being left out. My original plan was to finish the year, but I might just stop at the semester.

Got my license. I'm a private sax teacher and cheer instructor. I can't think of much else. I'll post something if my life becomes epic. Later.

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]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25651341/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25651341/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 12:40:53 PDT Zac or Z

2] What 3 things you are wearing right now
LP shirt, shorts, boxers

3] Are you in a Relationship?
no

4] Have you ever been given a rose?
yes, at the end of a performance

5] Have you ever licked a photo?.
no

6] Have you ever been in love?
I used to think so, now i'm not so sure

7] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
possibly

8] What's your current love problem?
Not in love

9] Have you ever had your heart broken?
many times

11] Do you have a crush?
yes

12] How many kids do you want to have?
not my choice

13] What is/are your favorite colors?
Purple

15] Have you ever found it hard to tell anyone you like them?
Yes

16] Imagine you're 40 & your spouse just died would you get re-married???
Probably not

19] Do you like/love anyone?
Yes

20] Do you think the person(s) you like, likes or loves you back?
Yes

21] Have you ever wrote a love song/poem/letter/note?
yes

22] Do you want to get married?
someday

23] Are you a shy person?
I can be

24) Did you have a good day today?
pretty boring, but yes

25) Where did you just get back from?
outside, burning things

26) What are you thinking about?
the corruption of humanity

27)If you could change something about you or anything what would it be?
my left eye, I'd want it blue.

28) Would you ever go back to any of your past relationships?
never

29) Who's the closest person/people to you?
probably Buckley

30) What's the thing you love about the person you love/like?
he actually understands me

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25443461/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25443461/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 22:08:29 PDT
A little brush up on what's going on with life. I'm getting a job at a thrift store soon. D.J's leaving for college. Mom needs surgery. To top it all of, there is a group of pea-brained crack monkeys (also known as senators) who are cutting funds of things to get us out of debt. Instead of closing bars, or getting rid of some of their money (gosh forbid they can't afford their 24th car, while we scavenge the streets for food) they have decided to cut the funding of: special ed programs, diabetes research, some healthcare companies, orphanages, about 1/2 our police forces, special schools, student loads, special services, ect. If this bill gets passed, Mom will be out of a job yet again. Don't you just love politics? I hate them...

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25285874/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25285874/ Sat, 13 Jun 2009 06:08:55 PDT
Anyway, I'm going to University of Illinois tomorrow for a week of band camp. what's even better: I get to play the tenor sax! Apparently they have to many altos and not enough of the others, so they asked me to play tenor or beri. Luckily, Dallas lives right down the street and plays tenor. She doesn't play it, so her mom's glad that I am because she "spent all that money on it, SOMEONE'S gonna play it." My 3 electives are Composing, Conducting, and West African Drumming (Kove thinks it'll be funny if I'm the only white person in the class).

I'll post back in a week, bye!

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25225075/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25225075/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 20:31:22 PDT TWO - Are you single?: Yeah
THREE - Whats your favorite number?: I like 2, and 18
FOUR - What color do you wear most?: Grey
FIVE - Least favorite color?: IDK, I don't really have one
SIX - Favorite candy?: Don't really eat candy
SEVEN - What do you smoke?: Nothing
EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?: No doubt about it *smile*
NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?: Nope
TEN - What is your favorite class in school?:I'd have to say band
ELEVEN - Do you shop at hollister/DC/Bluenotes?: Once
TWELVE - How do you make money?: Help around the house, and give music lessons.
THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend?: Buckley!
FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?: La Salle Peru! GO CAVS!
FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?: Very
SIXTEEN - One word to describe you?: Optimistic
SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?: IDK
EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses?: Nope
NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now?: With my friends
TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?: Nothin
TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: Not really. I mean there's a (soon to be) freshman girl in cheer leading that's pretty cute, but I wouldn't call it a crush.

HONEST SECTION:
Honestly, what's on your mind right now?: Mitch... (Rest in peace, my friend...)
Honestly, what are you doing right now?: taking this quiz thing
Honestly, have you done something bad today?: Nope
Honestly, do you watch disney channel?: No
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?: D.J
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: Hm... Can't think of anyone
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: People who judge
Honestly, do you bite your nails?: No
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: Yeah... maybe I'll visit his grave tomorrow...
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: No
Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?: A few actually. They think I'm their friends, but I'm not ( people at LP, no one on here)
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THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?: Yeah
Can you dance?: You should see me
Can you do a cart wheel?: Yeah
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: No
Can you whistle?: No
Can you wiggle your ears?: No
Can you wiggle your nose?: No
Can you roll your tongue?: Yes
Can you make a clover with your tongue?: No
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ANGER SECTION:
What do you do when you’re mad?: Work it off, or talk to myself on a long walk
What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?: Hurt people
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: Yeah
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CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: Yeah
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes
Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?: Yeah
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Yes
Ever cried over the same sex?: Do deaths count?
Do you cry when you get an injury?: Not anymore
Do certain songs make you cry?: Yes
Do certain movies make you cry?: Yeah
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HAPPY SECTION:
Are you usually a happy person?: Almost always
What makes you the happiest?: Being with my friend
Does being with your friends make you happy?: *gestures to previous question*
Do you believe in yourself?: Yes
Do you wish you were happier?: I'm pretty content
Is being happy overrated?: Nope
Can music make you happy?: Yes
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LOVE SECTION:
How many times have you had your heart broken?: A few
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?: Not that far, but alot
Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said ‘I love you’?: IDK
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HATE SECTION:
Do you actually hate anyone?: Yes, but I'm trying to forgive him
Have you ever been on a hit list?: Yes
Are you a mean bully?: If you push me the wrong way
Do you hate George Bush?: No
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SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low?: Not at all
Do you think you're good looking?: Yeah
Do you wish you could be someone else?: No
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LOOK AT ME:
What is your current hair color?: Black, with a little streak of bark blonde (cheer stripe!)
Current piercings?: Ears
Have any tattoos?: Getting one when I'm old enough (if i don't change my mind by then)
Straight hair or curly?: Curly
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CURRENTLY WEARING:
What shirt are you wearing?: Marching ba... ]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25191979/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25191979/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 05:58:49 PDT Wednesday: Bus ride there. it was fun, but the time change was kinda confusing x3. we watched 'Dark Knight', 'Day After Tomorrow', and 'I am Legend'. I slept on the floor.

Thursday: we reached NY. the tour was fun (kinda boring). We ate and went shopping in Chinatown and Little Italy. I got this robe thing... I don't know. We stayed in the hotel. I roomed with Weide, Joey, and Shmitt. slept on the floor

Friday: We played on the U.S.S Intrepid (formerly an aircraft carrier. now a museum). we visited the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island (bought more stuff). We stayed in the rain for an hour waiting for our buses, but we played 'Bunny Bunny', so it was okay. We went to the Majestic Theater on Broadway and saw
'The Phantom of the Opera'. It was ORGASMIC! it was kinda ruined cause I've worked in theater, so I know all the little tricks.

Saturday: we toured the NBC studio. we did a little more shopping (kinda pissed. our group had 4 boys and 8 girly girls. we couldn't stop in Guitar center, Mens Wear House, anything WE liked. But we had to stop at every store that sold skirts, purses, shoes, sunglasses, ect. i still have most my money). a while later we went to the Museum of Modern Art. We traveled to the top of the Empire State Building. We left for home.

Sunday: We got home.

Cheer practice starts in like, 3 MINUTES! GOTTA GO!

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25000155/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/25000155/ Thu, 28 May 2009 15:39:24 PDT
Next week, the band goes to NY! Touring, playing, recording, shopping, not to mention we get to see Phantom of the Opera live on Broadway! The bus ride is 15 hours, and I share a seat with Jordan. Only problem is we have to sleep in those seats. I want to sleep on the floor, but she won't let me. Seeing I cuddle in my sleep, I hope I don't wake up groping her or anything like that. ^///^;;;;

After 3 fun filled days in NY, I come home. the next day, CHEER PRACTICE STARTS!

The next week, it's time for Band Camp at U of I. Besides the main class, we have 3 electives. I signed up for Conducting/Drum Major, Music Composition, and West African Drumming.

Once I get home, I'm home for a while. Cheer practice at 8 a.m every other morning. Near the beginning of school, we have our own band camp. I might sign up a the local theater, but they don't like my mom, so I'm probably not gonna get anything. I'm gonna look for a job, and I'll see what else comes my way. Wow, what a busy summer!

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/24612887/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/24612887/ Wed, 06 May 2009 04:56:08 PDT [x] 2. Drank alcohol.
[x] 3. Cried when someone died.
[ ] 4. Been drunk.
[ ] 5. Had sex.
[x] 6. Been to a concert.
[ ] 7. Gotten/given a handjob.
[ ] 8. Gotten/given a blowjob.
[x] 9. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
[x] 10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 94%

[x] 11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
[x] 12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
[x] 13.Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfrend before.
[ ] 14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ] 15. Been to prom.
[x] 16. Cried at school.
[x] 17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
[ ] 18. Went streaking.
[ ] 19. Given or received a lap dance.
[x] 20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 88%

[ ] 21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
[x] 22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
[ ] 23. Kissed a stranger.
[x] 24. Hugged a stranger.
[ ] 25. Went scuba diving.
[x] 26. Driven a car.
[x] 27. Gotten an x-ray.
[x] 28. Hit by a car.
[x] 29. Had a party.
[x] 30. Done serious drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82%

[ ] 31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball.
[ ] 32. Got paid to strip for someone.
[x] 33. Run away from home.
[ ] 34. Broken a bone.
[x] 35. Eaten sushi. It's cuter than it tastes
[ ] 36. Bought porn.
[x] 37. Watched porn.
[ ]38. Made porn.
[x] 39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] 40. Been in love.


PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 77%

[x] 41. French kissed.
[x] 42. Laughed so hard you cried.
[x] 43. Cried yourself to sleep.
[ ] 44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
[x] 45. Stabbed yourself.
[x] 46. Shot a gun.
[x] 47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
[ ] 48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
[ ] 49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
[x] 50. Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 70%

[ ] 51. Watched a person die.
[ ] 52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
[x] 53. Pranked somebody.
[ ] 54. Put somebody in the hospital.
[x] 55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
[x] 56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
[x] 57. Dressed punk.
[x] 58. Dressed goth.
[x] 59. Dressed preppy.
[ ] 60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 64%

[x] 61. Avoided somebody.
[x] 62. Been stalked.
[x] 63. Stalked someone.
[x] 64. Met a celebrity.
[x] 66. Ridden a horse.
[x] 67. Cut yourself.
[ ] 68. Bungee jumped.
[ ] 69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
[ ] 70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 58%

[x] 71. Got caught stealing something.
[x] 72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
[x] 73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
[x] 74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
[ ] 75. Got arrested.
[ ] 76. Been pregnant.
[x] 77. Babysat.
[ ] 78. Been to another country. Canada... x3;
[x] 79. Started your house on fire.
[ ] 80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 52%

[ ] 81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
[x] 82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
[x] 83. Cried over a family member of the opposite sex.
[x] 84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more.
[x] 85. Sat on your butt all day.
[x] 86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
[ ] 87. Had a job.
[x] 88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
[x] 89. Been called a whore.
[x] 90. Danced like a whore.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 44%

[ ] 91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
[x] 92. Been in a car accident.
[x] 93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
[x] 94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
[ ] 95. Raped somebody.
[x] 96. Danced in the rain.
[x] 97. Been rejected.
[ ] 98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
[x] 99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
[x] 100. Been raped.

PERCENTAGE IN ALL: 36%

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/24542158/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/24542158/ Sat, 02 May 2009 04:20:34 PDT
Anyway, today I'm playing for opening ceremony of the Spring Valley Special Olympics. I'm not IN the Olympics, I'm just playing music to start it of. Along with the LP and Hall bands.

Next Tuesday, we have our final choir concert of the year "An Evening on Broadway." It's very fun, we get to sing 'The Ballad of Sweeney Todd' with the organ . A few other fun songs, a slide show for the seniors (we will miss them).

The Monday of the week after is our spring band concert. Last thing I play on my violin this year, then it's back to marching band. Yay.

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/24176431/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/24176431/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 04:42:08 PDT ironically, the day before was the 9th anniversary of my dad's death...

Mitch Payton

Entered life: Unknown
Entered eternal life: April 10, 2009

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/24025990/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/24025990/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 15:40:09 PDT
My legs hurt, and I feel kinda odd, but it was worth it. It's kinda odd when your teacher tells you to "shake it"... heh... and many comments on my supposed girl-ish behind... um...
So anyway, the cheer was good and the dance is suggestive. Plus cheer leading is already taking it's toll. I've a lot more hyper, and semi perky (it's in the rules that we have to have a positive attitude all the time, so that's why cheer leaders are always perky). Also, after practice, the first thing i reached for when i got home was a fudgcicle.

My grade in algebra is low, so I have to work on that or I'm grounded for 9 weeks, so if I'm not on for a while, you'll know why.

*waves* Bye

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Watch where you step, Sami, because you're on thin ice. I almost want you to fall through...

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Simply, I put it as such: we revolve this holiday around gifts, not recognizing the greatest gift already given to us. A baby, born of god to be the savior of our race. Born a king, not of yells and commands, but of crying and purity. Personally, I feel guilty getting gifts on Christmas. But of this world of greed and demand, receiving more than giving, and need for material things. We have hardened our hearts, and turned up our new music so loud, that we have drowned out the soft, gentle sound of a little baby, crying in it's manger.

I leave you now to continue your day, in hopes that what I said has plucked even the smallest of your heart strings. Enjoy this day. Find some time to go outside, feel and see the beauty of the sunlight, and think about
who's sending it down to you.

In the name of our lord, Jesus Christ, Amen.

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after that video, i accidently got to close to the fire with some gas and nearly blew myself up.

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i'm getting rid of all my anime/manga stuff. i'm not gopnna kill myself, so don't worry. i just don't like it. manga and anime are just dumb as far as i can see. you begin to like it, then you believe it. i know quite a few people who may doubt this, and may find this a shock, but just take a deep breath, okay? here we go: it's not real! there is no deathnote, no shinigami. if there was, how come we never knew until the series came out? i have a few friends who say that these charecters and monsters and what not are real. if you have that same thought, i'll make a bet with you. i collect obituaries that mention drunk driving, drugs, murder, crazy kids doing dumb stunts. you look for death caused by magic swords, demons, fire spells, dragons, and after a month, let's see who has more.

cosplay is another thing i can't stand. you make a character who is an outcast, but still accepted into a group of friends that never let you down. you go on adventures and fight fierce battles, then fall in love and have there never be any problems. they you walk of into some beautiful fantasy forest. then you stop roleplaying and see just the opposite. you're an outcast and not excepted, not even by your friends cause most could give a shit less what happened to you. you go on a tiny 'adventure' and find yourself in a police station. you fight a fierce battle and become paralized. you fall in love, but have never ending fighting. finaly you want to walk off into a beautiful forest, but the one near you is being torn down to make a walmart.

as for cosplay, it's just wasted money on usless clothes. i'm selling for money i can use to buy something i'll actually wear.


sorry if i have offended you or your beliefs, but it's just what i've had to say for a while.

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/21053640/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/21053640/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 20:32:07 PDT
Mendota: all day fun. we marched, paraded, and then nothing. i saw karin, and some freashmen from hercher has a crush on dallas (off to a bad start there buddy). i bought 3 t-shirts saying: "be kind to animals, kiss a woodwind player", "sax girl" (you know it), and "dare to dream, dream to march, march to play, play to live, live to dare". while wearing the 'sax girl' t, many people from band (and not just lp) ran up and poked the girl and said "you have boobs" (they lined up with my stomach, so they were squishy).

Burgoo:we played for a bunch of people at a fair-ish thing. it was more of a standing show than a parade. hayly didn't come, so i got her solos. about 3 people passed out cause of the heat and our bulky uniforms

home game against Streator: we had fun, but we lost (not that's it's such a suprise, we've done pretty bad this year).

Mohamad marching festival: we got charter busses. and i broke my portable dvd player cause i put my drink in my dvd bag, and my friend threw my bag on the seat so the top came off and got stuff all in the circuits. it was kinda funny cause i went outside, turned over my dvd thing and the all the creamer (yes, i drink coffee creamer) poured out the earphone jack, so everyone was laughing. i didn't really care. we had a fun time on the bus, making jokes and taking pictures (soon to be on myspace). we got there and did nothing for 3 hours, the preforemed. half of everyone was missing, and we were up against some really good schools. we won nothing (as always) cause we're just lazy cav who can't do anything right (that's about what we're gonna hear on monday from G). my friend Dez from dunlap high ran into me and we exchanged numbers. on the ride home we watched a pirated iron man dvd. the dez texted me and we may be getting together.

i may seem like a jerk, but after the whole medlie thing, i'm kinda weary about long distance relationships. i mean i've actually met dez, and she only lives an hour away...yeah... also i'm gonna be busy for a while, so i won't be getting on to much. i'll update when i can

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and my friends finally got to see my shy side. i saw this cute black girl named domineque, and it took me about 5 songs to build up enough confidence to say hi. i danced with her and found out she was a freshman. later on, i wanted to tell her i like her, but i couldn't. a few of my friends tried to help for about 20 minutes until buckly picked me up and carried me over. we talked for a little while, then she left and i talked to her sister noel (also cute, sophomore). at the end of the dance, i walked with them to their car. the i so smartly told them both "okay, i'm just gonna get this over with. i think you're cute," they didn't seem to have much of a reaction. i hope i didn't ruin it...

anywho, homecoming was pretty good

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/20636915/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/20636915/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 14:29:39 PDT she said there's something about me she doesn't like, just like every other time. stephanie, hanna, carly, now kayla. the mom always hates me. i'm sure if medlie's mom ever met me, she'd hate me too. i know you don't care, i just felt like getting it out...

but why is it always "there's something about him i don't like"? it doesn't matter if YOU don't like me, YOU'RE not the one dating me. what could i do? yell at her? everyone who knows half of anything about me knows i couldn't do that. rape her? i believe sex is for marriage, not before. hit her? i would saw off my own arm before even raising a hand to her.

and don't comment with "so, you'll get over it" or "i hate people who dwell". when you lose a lot of things important in your life, the few things you have left are sacred.

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/20328780/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/20328780/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 17:30:34 PDT I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

+WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY...+
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Family:

+WOULD YOU...+
Be my friend?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Love me?:
Date me?:

+HAVE YOU EVER...+
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

+AND MORE...+
1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. When and how did we meet?:
6. Describe me in one word.:
7. What was your first impression?:
8. Do you still think that way about me now?:
9. What reminds you of me?:
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
11. How well do you know me?:
12. When's the last time you saw me?:
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
14. Are you gonna paste this to your journal see what I say about you?:

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19946338/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19946338/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 04:24:44 PDT
]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19830027/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19830027/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 15:21:01 PDT
HOW SHY ARE YOU?
[] You don't like public speaking.
[x] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[x] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[] You hate to go shopping alone.
TOTAL: 2

[x] Being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[x] When you're in a group of people, it's difficult to think of what to say
[ ] You have a lot of trouble talking to the opposite sex
[x] You hate to be teased ...
[] You hate answering the door.
TOTAL: 3

[x] You can't stand people watching you.
[] One on one conversations make you nervous.
[x] You don't like to ask people for help.
[x] You hate to read out loud.
[x] You don't like answering questions.
TOTAL: 4

[] you dread ordering food at restaurants.
[x] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well
[x] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[] You wish you were more outgoing.
[x] You hate being in the center of any room.
TOTAL: 3

[x] You don't know how to react to compliments.
[x] You prefer reading, writing, or listening to music than being around too many people.
[x] You blush easily.
[x] you don't like singing in front of a lot of people.
TOTAL: 4

Total of all : 72%
18x4
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Add all the x's and multiply by 4
and post this as I’m ... % shy

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"I cost $ a night"

Natural Hair Color:
[ ] Brown - $100
[ ] Blonde- $50
[x] Black - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[ ] Other-$75

Total: $15

Eye Color:
[x] Brown - $50
[ ] Green - $75
[ ] Blue $150
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: $65

Height:
[ ] Over 7' - $200
[ ] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[ ] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[x] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[ ] 5'4" to 5'10" - $45
[ ] Under 5'4 - $45

Total so far: $140

Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ]26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: $240

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $300
[ ] First Born - $300
[ ] Only Child - $250
[x] second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $100
[ ] third born - $100
[ ] fourth born - $400
[ ] fifth born - $546
[ ] sixth born -$215

Total so far: $390

Drink?
[x] I did like once - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $600

Total so far: $790

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $300
[x] need or have glasses/ contacts but dont wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[ ] Glasses $50
[ ] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$15

Total so far: $990

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[x] 11 to 12 - $400
[ ]7 to 10 - $500
[ ] Under 7- $150

Total so far: $1390

Favorite Colors (two):
[ ] Green-$750
[x] Red - $600
[x] Black - $100
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $50
[ ] Purple - $225
[ ] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[ ] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Other - $500

Total: $2090

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x] Nope-add $1000
[ ] some- $750

Final Total: $3090

REPOST WITH TITLE:
"I cost $ --- a night"

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19651966/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19651966/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 23:21:45 PDT [link] .
so helpful, right? just like that damn dummy.

time for a ghost story, yay. this is why i believe that ghosts and stuff are real. a few years back i had a vantriliquisum dummy. and it had that ever present creepy smile. well i used to have it sit at a chair near my bed (i was a total freak when i was younger) and it would just be there. well one night/ morning around 2:30 i woke up, it's look was creeping me out, so i spun the chair around. then i woke up around 3:10, and it the chair and body were still the same way, put the head was turned and facing me. so i took it and threw it in the corner of the room, and but my hampers in front of it ( i was like 9, i still had hampers ) and i went back to bed. well at like 3:50ish, i woke up and the dummy had gotten into my bed. i couldn't fall asleep (mainly cause a few days before that i saw 'night of the living dummy' ). i figured dj and matt were trying to freak me out, so i went downstairs to rant, but as soon as i got into matt's room i realised something. dj and matt weren't there that week end, or bryene (step sister). mom wouldn't pull that after just losing dad, and steve didn't even know i had it. so i broke the dummy and burned it, and didn't sleep for like, a few days after that. cause talking about this is really gonna help me get to sleep.

so i'm sorry if i'm tired later on, but i won't be going to bed till like 5.

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19601241/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19601241/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 03:30:52 PDT
later

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19533405/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19533405/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 08:57:33 PDT
but i'll be gone today, don't know when i'll be back, and i'll take my selfish self elsewhere. to anyone i've annoyed, upset, bothered, or been mean to, i'm sorry.

i'v so very sorry for being human and having feelings...

]]> ~tanshin18 http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19307363/ http://tanshin18.deviantart.com/journal/19307363/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 09:29:42 PDT love ya sugar

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