http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:tears2roses&section=today deviantART RSS for by:tears2roses en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 09:34:56 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/20903286/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/20903286/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 09:58:52 PDT

me n gary had our one year on Oct. 3,2008 and omg it was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*thank you my alice, i love you*
o ya lol the day b4 that i was running n i fell! just out of no where! i fell n of course i hurt my self n had scratches n all that stuff on my hands n arms...tanner, miriah, n meg (a.k.a. my alice) laughed their asses off!....n my alice told me i was totally bella...(only twilight readers will catch on)

but ya school its stupid , i hate not having gary here n not getting to see him after every class....

n then there is thinking about college...cuz thats not 2 far off from now...n that scares me..i want out of this dumb hs but idk.... but ya ive gotten accepted to cardinal stritch and marian university so far...but i turned down cardinal...its too far away....hopefully i get into uwgb...cuz then i dont have to move n ya...hey if ppl live in the fond du lac area, or go to uwgb, plz let me no wat its like.....



o ya...idk if this will show but ya...i have a brickfish account n everyone should totally go vote for my stuff plz n thank you!

go to [link]
click on the search button
and search people.
type in my name as
dorkette13

my account is the one that was created on
9/23/2008

once again plz n thank you

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/20402955/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/20402955/ Tue, 09 Sep 2008 07:28:38 PDT

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/18677111/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/18677111/ Thu, 05 Jun 2008 10:15:18 PDT
i you all!!!
n keep the letters n notes cuming!
i respond wen i can!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/18224828/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/18224828/ Thu, 08 May 2008 10:18:32 PDT Noodle Toyota....

u mite understand wen you see it...i'll put up pics!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/18178546/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/18178546/ Mon, 05 May 2008 10:22:29 PDT .<


Last nite one of my dogs died…
It was this puppy [link]
It sux…her and one of my other dogs , angel, were playing & there chains got tangled up and she ended up choking to death…if no one would have found Husky dead then there would have been two dead dogs…>.<
The weird part is it happened on my lil {deceased} bro, Zachary’s, bday…if her were still here hed be 16 as of yesterday
{happy birthday Zach!}
…. I guess he got a puppy for his birthday….

Anywho lets see what else has been going on….
O on sat was 7 months for me & gary!!!

But ya skool is coming to an end for summer break and im not xcited at all!!!
Next year skools gonna suck becuz all my friends are seniors this year >.<
{dumb me! Why did I have to be one of them kewl kids who hangs out with older pple}

…..neone want to transfer to my skool???…..

newho I guess a lesson from this is once things start going good, don’t xpect it to last cuz sumthing will always fuck it up!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17663324/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17663324/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 07:41:57 PDT


love you gary


<--my Man!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17628005/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17628005/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 10:03:49 PDT
]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17300236/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17300236/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 10:13:53 PDT Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: For those who are guessing -- looking the lyrics up on a search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game, post your own.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------

01] "whats with these homies dissing my girl?."

02] "another turning point, a fork stuck in the road."
{ANSWER: tIME oF yOUR lIFE ~ gREEN dAY}

03] "When I see your smile, tears run down my face."
{aNSWER: yOUR gUARDIAN aNGEL~ rED jUMPSUIT aPPARATUS}

04] "take this pink ribbon off my eyes, im exposed & its no big surprise"

05] "good bye 1989, I wanna be the one in control."

06] "here in my car I feel safest of all, I can lock all my doors."
{aNsWeR: cArS~gArY nEwMaN}

07] "im a Barbie girl!."
{aNSWER: bARBIE gIRL~aQUA}

08] "living my life in a slow hell, different girl everynite at the hotel"

09] "now this is what its like when worlds collide"

10] "Every cheap hood strikes a bargain with the world."

11] "Looking down from the skybox, watching the whole block."

12] "I aint happy, im feeling glad, I got sunshine in a bag."
{aNsWeR: cLiNt EaStWoOd~GoRiLlAz}

13] "One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do"
{aNSWER: oNE iS tHE lONELIEST nUMBER~tHREE dOG nIGHT}

14] "I just don't know what to do with myself"

15] "im gonna get free!."
{aNsWeR: Im GoNnA gEt FrEe~ ThE vInEs}

16] "walked away, heard them say poison hearts will never change."
{aNsWeR: tHe LeAvInG sOnG~ aFi}

17] "my heart bleeds no more!."
{aNSWER: bLEEDS nO mORE~sILVERSTEIN}



18] "who's to say he's not the gifted one. "

19] "cant you see its just raining."

20] i said come on fhqwhgads."




TO GUESS ONE OF THE SONGS LEAVE A COMMENT W/WAT # THE SONG IS, THE TITLE, & THE ARTIST....I'LL LET YOU KNOW IF UR RITE

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17177933/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17177933/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 10:23:20 PST I hate it….the 16th will mark 14 years since my little bro, Zachary,
Was put in the ground….
I hate to think that IM the one that’s still alive!!
WTF???

I know I have pple out there that would miss me a lot, but If I would have died that day then none of them would know me….so they wouldn’t miss me…..

I hate this! I was only 3 at the time but I remember SOOOOO much….i hate it…I wanna erase it from my mind but if I do then I erase part of me….


that lil boy to the left of this....
thats him

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17071360/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17071360/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 10:14:07 PST
This morning gary had a nosebleed…(no big deal rite?)
well he had to go to the hospital to get it to stop &
to make it all better he got into a car accident last nite…

it got me thinking….
I could have lost him if the accident would have been worse…
& it makes me think about how much I really care bout this guy…

If I can barely make it thro today then theres NO way I’d ever be able to make it
A life time without him…

I know most of you probably don’t care so if you don’t I have one q? for you…
WHY DID YOU EVEN CARE TO READ THIS THEN????

But ya….
This crappy feeling & the crying sux!
I just don’t know what to do….

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17055270/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/17055270/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 10:15:53 PST
Today I was late to 4th hr…(like usual) but this time I had an excuse!!
Gary puts his back pack in my locker & that hangy part on back packs ( u know what im talking about) it got caught in the door….
& well when gary tried opening the locker it looked like he was gonna kill the locker cuz the top part of the door was bending so much!!!
So I told him to stop n we’d just go to the office & get the janitor to open it…BUT NO!
Oakie ,the principal, decided he would come get it open ….n he said if it opened then me & gary would have a detention…..well I got to my locker & pulled on it a bit harder & it opended! I was sooooo FRICKEN PISSED!!!!!
UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

So ya now I have to go sit in motherfucking boring ass detetion 2mrw….

Gary,
sry bout getting you a detention…I know its nothing new for us….
Damn novak should know our names for sure by 2mrw!
Ps
I hate OAKIE! Since wen would I lie bout my locker being stuck???
Damn I wud just sneak by the office instead!!!

BTW…
hi maxx
(sry I was just a lil bit pissed & now you know why…if you read this)





& yes i DO listen to Cradle Of Filth!!!!!!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16878585/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16878585/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 09:44:26 PST
This is a great holiday....if you in love....

for all of those in love
i wish the best for you!!!!

& for all of you that have given up on love
or just plain dont have a valentine....

DONT WORRY!
I'LL BE YOUR VALENTINE

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16752085/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16752085/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 10:08:20 PST [X]Talked back to a teacher.
[X]Been kicked out of class.
[X] Worn pajamas to school.
[ ] Had your tooth fall out at school.
[ ] Gotten lost in your school.
[X] Broken the dress code in school.
[ ] Completely failed a test.
[X] Left class without asking.
[ ] Missed a whole week of school.
[ ] Thrown up in school.
[X] Been beat up at school.


HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS ♥
[X] Argue with your parent(s) a lot.
[ ] Argue with your brother(s) a lot.
[x] Argue with your sister(s) a lot.
[x] Have your own room.
[x] Do your own laundry.
[ ] Cook dinner once in a while.
[x] Are loud and obnoxious at home.
[x] Wear pajamas when you are not going anywhere.
[X] You sleep in very long.
[ ] All you do is watch television.
[ ] Your parents are divorced.
[ ] One or both of your grandparents live with you.


FRIEND CONFESSIONS ♥
[ ] You currently dislike one or more of your friends.
[ ]You are jealous of one or more of your friends.
[x]You have known a friend your whole life.
[x] Your friends are all taller than you. (some)
[X] You have been ditched by a friend.
[X] You have memorized a friends phone number.
[X]u have lost/forgotten a friends phone number.
[ ] You have been to all of your friends houses.


HABIT CONFESSIONS ♥
[ ] You bite your nails.
[ ] You have an odd obsession with giraffes.
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door closed.
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door open.
[x] There is at least one sound you cannot stand.

LOVE CONFESSIONS ♥
[x]You currently like someone.
[X] You want to kill one of your exes.
[X]You can stay commited for an unusually long time.
[ ] You get bored of your crush/bf/gf easily.
[X] A crush/bf/gf has called you a bitch before.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you self-centered before.


PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS ♥
[X] You hate George Bush.
[X] Abortion is horrible and should be illegal.
[ ] Boys make better friends than girls do.
[ ] The beach is an excellent place for a date.
[ ] Pink is an ugly color.
[ ] Needles aren't so horrible.

HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS ♥
[x] Fallen down the stairs.
[X] Someone has tied your shoelaces together.
[ ] Had a nail fall off.
[ ] Had surgery.
[x] Slapped someone across the face.
[ ]Killed someone.
[X] Someone has called you a tease.
[ ]You have been to Europe.
[X] You have worn something inside out for a whole day

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16610514/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16610514/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 10:21:17 PST

1. Post these rules.

2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.

3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.

4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.

8 thingers about me!!!!

1. I think freshmen are useless ( psh! I know your thinking…but you were a freshie!....heres the thing …I WAS A KEWL freshie! I didn’t stand in the middle of the hall like a lost dog & then freak cuz sumone told me to move!)
2. at the moment im eating apple jacks!!
3. I admit….i listen to avril…& I like it!!!!!!
4. I LOVE being a dorkette!!!!
5. I dislike geometry VERY much!
6. I love piffle!!!
7. I LOVE B(x)(x)f!
8. and last but not least….somedays I rather hang out w/lil pple cuz they’ll tell you how it is & theres less drama w/them

I tag


]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16549380/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16549380/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 10:24:02 PST Is it right for them to take away all their music because they think its “devil” music??
Is it right for some people to even PRETEND to be parents?!?!

WOO HOO! I got cookies!!!!
Sry got a lil distracted…

But yes back to subject, my parents are trying to force me to be all into god n do everything for him & jump like a good lil puppy dog when my parents ask me to do something!
HELLO! Im a freaken TEENAGER! Not a DOG!
We have 3 dogs outside for that reason!!!
Ok I know I probably offended some pple there w/the god thing but I find the whole thing dulling & boring….& I could do w/o the lectures about it & all that shaz!

I hate how parents see their kids as lil experiments more like slaves!
& wen the lil experiment isn’t fun ne more they don’t like it!

Also wen parents tell kids that if they don’t like the way things are going in the house they can leave! But then wen the kid goes 4 the door they get a pissed off! WTF? Stop being stupid & let the kid go!!!!!!

Well then why the fuck did they have kids!?!?!?

But basically words of wisdom…..if you don’t want to go thro disappointments and kids puking on you & teens talking back THEN DON’T HAVE KIDS!!! Let your friends have kids then hang out w/their kids wen your friends are sick of them!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16400404/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16400404/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 09:47:15 PST First off I gotta spend the WHOLE weekend w/ my awesome bf, :iconxfckfckshtfck:
That NEVER happens!!
But it was AWESOME!
cuz i spent the nite by piffles....
n he came over
but the roads were to snowy for him to drive home...
so piffle's mommy & daddy let him sleepover too!!!
it was one big sleep over party!!

Second
I got my hair cut!!!
Piffle did it! & I love it!!

Thirdly
I just got done w/lunch that started with a fist fight…
It was awesome cuz I was falling asleep in my classes b4 & now im not!!!!
But it all started cuz I told her the truth …
That shes a preg. Pot smoking slutty whore that’s gonna end up killing her kid! & that she doesn’t care about her kid
newho she also threw the first punch!
(she started it!!!!!!! I swear im not lying!!!!!!!)
So that puts me in the safe zone

But gary had to break it up….
But I guess that’s a good thing….
Cuz I don’t need to get into nemore trouble…..

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16237947/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16237947/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 10:23:21 PST
thats awesome news to hear!!
so ya...

hmmm...
in xactly ONE week it'll be my 17th bday!!!*woot woot*

but the day b4 that is my bfs bday...he'll be 18...
( so you shud be nice & wish him happy bday on the 9th.)
but
SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i didnt tell you too

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16027080/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/16027080/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 10:16:46 PST http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15984904/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 10:24:29 PST In 2days world they tell you that you should think highly of yourself
DON’T PUT YOURSELF DOWN..!!!!
But wen you do think highly of yourself your conceded…WTF?!?!?
Then wen you don’t think your that great, you NEED to…..

Wtf is this world coming to…you cant be HAPPY w/o being a bitch, loser, or a self centered freak…
& you cant be sad w/o ppl saying your emo, depressive, pathetic, & worthless…
idk bout you but this world is becoming fucked up & stupid….
But remember

BE HAPPY!!
(but not too happy)

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15915618/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15915618/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 10:23:05 PST You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY

[01] Are you currently loving someone?
yes

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?
yes

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
hmmm corpse bride

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
yes.

[06] Whats your current problem?
my parents

07] Have you ever had your heart broken?
yaa….

[08] Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?
they stupid!

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
yes

[10] The person you're with right now, do you like spending time with them?
of course otherwise I wouldn’t be wasting all my time w/him!

[11] How many kids do you want to have ?
2 or 3
[12] what is/are your favorite colors?
purple

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once?
kindof….

[15] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
HELL NO

[16] how many times has your heart been broken?
lets not go there

[17] What song do you want played at your wedding?
Banana Pancakes! By Jack Johnson

[18] Do you like anyone?
yes

Now post this as "18 love questions

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15915614/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15915614/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 10:22:41 PST Q: Kissed someone on your top friends? - True
Q: Been arrested? - false
Q: You like someone? - True..ahem LOVE
Q: Held a snake? – False…NO
Q: Been suspended from school? - True
Q: Sat on a roof top? - True
Q. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? - True
Q: Shaved your head? - False
Q: Played a prank on someone? - True
Q: Shot a gun? - True
Q: Donated Blood? - False

Just be 100% truthful
LAST PERSON.

1. last person you hung out with?
Piffle

2. last person you texted?
My Kayla

3. You were in a car with?
Gary

4. Went to the movies with?
Bri & leah

5. Went to the mall with?
umm….bri & paul

6. Person you talked on the phone with?
gary

8. You messaged on myspace?
paul

9. You commented?
paul
10. Spent the night with?
shabizmik

11. You talked to?
piffle

WOULD YOU RATHER...

1. Eat or drink?
depends if im hungry or thirsty

2. Be serious or be funny?
funny

3. Drink whole milk or skim milk?
whole

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
get shot

5. Go to a club or go to the Beach?
beach

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon?
moon

2. Winter or Fall?
fall

3. Lefty or righty?
righty.

4. Sunny or rainy?
rainy

5. Black/white or color?
black/white

6. Where do you live?
in my head

8.do you want to get married?
ya

9. Do you twirl your hair?
ya..im a dork lol

10. Current mood?
HAPPY n I have to pee really Bad

IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU...
1. Kissed someone?
o ya

2. Hugged someone?
yes

3. Held hands with someone?
yep

4. Made-out with someone?
hehe ya

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15872672/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15872672/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 06:03:01 PST

O YA IM STILL DOPED UP ON PAIN KILLERS!!!
I IT!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15791425/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15791425/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 10:18:15 PST
For those of you who don’t know my baby is

its all like…grrrr!!!!!!!!!
I don’t like it!!!!!

But on Friday im getting all 4 of my wisdom teeth pulled out…
So at 2:30 in the afternoon when everyone else is in school, I’ll be in a dentist chair getting ready to have my teeth pulled….

O! O! O!
Me n gary have been going out for
2 months & 1 day!!! Lol

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15505401/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15505401/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 10:26:24 PST
(U guys do it)(send me a note w/ the answers!)

I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Family:

WOULD YOU:
Be my friend?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Love me?:
Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

AND MORE...
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna paste this to your journal see what I say about you?

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15476909/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15476909/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 10:18:12 PST First off…im going out w/gary…
[link]
that guy in the pic w/me
BUT his mom sees him as single…
WTF???
His mommy & my mommy talked (pple who have heard me talk bout my mom know that me & her DON’T get along too well…ugh)
But MY mom doesn’t like me being happy & all that shit so ya
Now shes brainwashed gary’s mom!!
WTF IS THIS WORLD COMING TO???
But ne way…
I have ACT prep classes & im already scared to take the test…*gulp*

O ya I’ve QUIT smoking!!!
2mrw will be 2 months since I’ve had my last cig!

Paul
Hes my bestestest friend!!!
I do love him….as a FRIEND!!

Josh
I have no idea wat I’d do w/o him…
Hes my bestest friend in a different state!

Kayla
don’t worry I didn’t 4get you!
I love you too!!
Fuck ur mom…
She can be casted away like my mom…

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15418517/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15418517/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 10:19:10 PST just so u all know

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15113630/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15113630/ Thu, 18 Oct 2007 10:23:27 PDT This is gary

GO ADD HIM!
Hes quiet awesome!! He doesn’t have work up yet but he’s working on it!




thnx 4 the page views!!!!!!!!!


]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15028416/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/15028416/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 11:56:22 PDT i got kicked out cuz i didnt do nething!
IM SERIOUS!!!
but watever!
i didnt like that class...or the teacher!
he tis be looking like a child molester!

so now i have to take my 6TH CREDIT of social studies!!!!!!!! wft?!?! but w/e ...geometry was stupid!
Geometry/geography...pretty close

so ya i shall be in geography now w/gary(aka BOOF!) & tyler (aka CANCER PATIENT!)

I feel bad 4 the teacher.......hehe

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14884028/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14884028/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 11:40:43 PDT

"Buried A Lie" by Senses Fail

Rest in peace girl, your death is such a shame
The paper said a bullet got in your way
But I smell foul play, possible poisoning
I had to bring you in for questioning
I went to your grave, dug up your body
Brought it to my house, where you lay

So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
For me...

I headed downtown, to share what I had found
It's not a suicide, it's a crime
I have a witness, it's clearly evident
There had to be someone else present
At the time of death, poisons in stomach
How could she pull it, if she's dead?

So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before the flesh decays
Away...away

I'll catch the murderer
And send him away
I'll get the evidence
From your last day

Your last day...[x3]

So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before the flesh decays

Away...away





http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14812810/ Thu, 27 Sep 2007 12:07:32 PDT get me out of here!!!!!
FAST!!!!!

PLZ pple! shes drinking green tea..wait sry DIET green tea..it looks like pee & tastes even worse !!!! HELP ME!!!!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14714687/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14714687/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 12:57:48 PDT
& i'd bee so happy!!!!

id be like



o ya..homecoming at my skool...it mite be canceled!!!!!! wat fun cuz pple r RETARDED!!!!!!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14617110/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14617110/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 12:58:38 PDT
2day is my lil bro's bday!!
he turns 7!!!!

i call him sputternik....
but thats not his real name...
this is a pic of him
[link]

hehe i get cake 2nite!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14589376/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14589376/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 12:37:10 PDT
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more people are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.



1.Im in love w/gary's iPod!!
2. Im playing w/my nose ring rite now..lol
3. Monster is the GREATEST thing
4. People annoy me
5. im pmsing
6. I hate my family
7. I really really like paul
8. Paul is my pengin!

now the 8 peeps

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14516302/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14516302/ Thu, 06 Sep 2007 12:45:27 PDT ne who at skool tho the layout 4 dA is gay!
you know how u can view pples profiles & work...
WELL at skool i CANT ne more...sumthing changed over the summer & wont let me...it tis b stupid!
sooooo
if u want to talk 2 me ur gonna have to comment me first or send a note & i'll get back to you...
if ne of you know how to change this stupid thing let me know!! cuz im sick of not being able 2 see things...its all white & blue....
But yes...OH
OH OH OH
if ne one knows sum proxy sites
LET ME KNOW!
cuz the skool blocked the ones i used last year!
HELP!
so ya


im back!!
DID YOU HEAR THAT MY MCR EMO FREAK???!?!?
IM BACK!
& WELL RUN OFF TO THAT CORNER SO YOU DONT HAVE TO BE ALONE!!! LOL

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14194650/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14194650/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 11:11:17 PDT

ya!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14191840/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/14191840/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 07:12:42 PDT told me to listen to this song...& thanx! its helped alot w/the keanen thing!


Armor For Sleep Lyrics

The Truth About Heaven Lyrics



Walk past my grave in the dark tonight,
Saw the stone and the note you left for me,
to answer your question I just had to leave,
I just had to leave,

But that's not why I'm here,
I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I'm miserable up here without you, miserable up here without you

Found my way back in the dark tonight,
Couldn't wake up not right next to you,
I'd trade in forever to just hear you say the sound of my name,

But that's not why I'm here,
I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I'm miserable up here without you, miserable up here without you

Don't believe that it's better when you leave everything behind,
Don't believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die,
Don't believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die

I came down here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long (all day long),
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I'm miserable up here without you, miserable up here without you
[x2]

Don't believe that the weather is perfect the day that you die

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13869445/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13869445/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 05:11:58 PDT its parents are.....
help fill in the blank!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13781279/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13781279/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 11:23:30 PDT i dont c wat pple r freaked about...& I that movie now!!
its awesome! i watched to one that came out in 2005..& now i wanna watch the older one!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13768567/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13768567/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 10:31:04 PDT he brought over the lamest cd ever tho...
Nsync's "no strings attached"
we danced to every single song on that cd like HUGE
dorkos@_@

then i was gonna call keanen to tell him all about it..
but rite as i was done dialing his number i realized
he wont answer...
never again will he answer his phone..
After i started crying jesse gave me the biggest hug!
then he put in the stupid britney spears cd..ugh!
& it was retarted!
after we danced to that 4 a bit & i felt semi better...
i took the britney cd & broke it in HALF!!
im so proud of myself!!!


also
THANK YOU PPLE 4 THE 700+ PAGE VIEWS!!!!
TIS MEAN ALOT
BIG HUGS TO YOU ALL!!!



]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13720228/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13720228/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 11:58:41 PDT help! & it just plain wont let me do nething....{ if u read this & have sum dumbass thing to say:blah:...then shutup!!}


so pple plez help!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13694666/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13694666/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 11:17:45 PDT [x] You have eaten dog food.
[x] You have eaten cat food.
[x] You have run into a glass door.
[x] You have eaten an ant
[x] You have eaten grass.
[x] You have licked a tree.
[x] You have polka dotted underwear.
[x] You have pink underwear.
[x] You had contests with your friends to see who can create the nastiest burp.
[x] You have screamed a random word in public.
[x] You wave at people you don't know.
[x] You have flushed the toilet because you were bored.
[x] You have slapped yourself out of boredom.
[x] You sing the "FUN" song.
[x] You hold conversations with a pillow, blanket, stuffed animal etc.
[] You dream of llamas coming out of peoples' butts. (o..O)
[x] You think people who eat brains are cool. (o..O)
[x] You sing karaoke even though you know you're horrible
[] You know how to spell "supercallafragalisticespialadosious" by heart.
[x] You make up your own words and use them with people who have no clue what they mean.
[x] You have a new haircolor every 5-7 months.
[xhehe i love them!] You have striped socks and you have worn them so people can see them.
[x] You have hugged a random person. (<3)
[x] You have ran up and down the stairs because you were bored
[x] You have created a puppet show with your socks out of boredom.
[x] You have imagined people saying "bla" and blowing up.
[x] You just tried imagining people saying "bla" and blowing up.
[x] You are addicted to the Animaniacs theme song.
[x] You are addicted to "The Pinky and the Brain" theme song.
[x] You have stared at your ceiling for over 10 minutes.
[x] You talk to yourself.
Add all of the 'X's up and multiply by three.

90% crazy/immature/AWSOME!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13664178/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13664178/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 21:48:18 PDT
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF?
1. I MADE A MOVE ON YOU:
2. I KISSED YOU:
3. I LIVED NEXT DOOR 2 YOU:
4. I STARTED SMOKING:
5. I ASKED YOU ON A DATE:
6. I WAS HOSPITALIZED:
7. I RAN AWAY FROM HOME:
8. I GOT INTO A FIGHT AND YOU WERE'NT THERE:
9. I ASKED YOU TO LEAVE:
10. I ASKED YOU OUT:


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY?
12. PERSONALITY:
13. EYES:
14. HAIR:
15. BODY:

WOULD YOU?
16. BE MY FRIEND?:
17. KEEP A SECRET IF I TOLD YOU ONE?:
18. HOLD MY HAND?:
19. GO OUT IN A DATE WITH ME?:
20. KEEP IN TOUCH?:
21. TRY AND SOLVE MY PROBLEMS?:
22. LOVE ME?:
23. DATE ME?:
24. FUCK ME?:


HAVE YOU EVER?
25. LIED TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER?:
26. WANTED TO KISS ME?:
27. WANTED TO KILL ME?:
28. KEPT SOMTHING IMPORTANT FROM ME?:
29. WANTED TO CUDDLE WIT ME?:
30. GIVEN OR RECEIVED HEAD FROM ME, DO YOU WANT TO?:

AND MORE!
31. WHO ARE YOU?:
32. ARE WE FRIENDS?:
33. WHEN AND HOW DID WE MEET?:
34. DESCRIBE ME IN ONE WORD:
35. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION?:
36. WHAT REMINDS YOU OF ME?:
37. IF YOU COULD GIVE ME ANYTHING WHAT WOULD IT BE?:
38. HOW WELL DO YOU NO ME?:
39. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU SAW ME?:
40. EVER WANTED TO TELL ME SOMTHING BUT COULD'NT?:
41. ARE YOU GONNA POST THIS SO YOU CAN SEE WHAT I SAY ABOUT YOU?:

WOULD YOU?
42. KISS ME?:
43. MAKE OUT WITH ME?:

Just copy & paste, fill out, & send it to me in a note!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13643634/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13643634/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 07:35:33 PDT
]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13619702/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13619702/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 10:38:31 PDT

dont give me the crap bout how smoking will kill u & rot ur lungs out..that shit..i kno the bad things...ok?
i just got lots of shit & smoking i guess helps if u wanna call it that.... ]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13593014/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13593014/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 13:50:10 PDT you need to come back...
you were my everything...
you gave me piggyback rides wenever i wanted one..
wen i was pmsing you gave me all the chocolate & midol a girl could ask 4

now ur gone
whos gonna walk me down the aisle??
u were the one i got in2 trouble w/...
now im gonna have to do it alone..
i kno ur mommy didnt like me cuz she thought i got YOU in trouble but it was the other way around..lol
i guess she never has to see me again...

Keanen..
why'd u do it??
y did u pull the trigger??
y couldnt u let me know??
i could have helped...
i would have loved u no matter wat!!!!!
& u know it...
i just wish i could have gone w/u...

then we could be zombies 2getther!

i kno i have another guardian angel but i dont want another fucking one!
i want you here on this shithole w/me!!!

i guess i should accept the fact cuz u've been dead over a week...they put u in the ground on thursday...& ur never coming back to me...
dont worry i wont let ur mom kill ur bass.....

thank you 4 thinking of me in ur last mins..
it means alot..

Keanen,
i love you!
plz alway watch over me... ]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13589188/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13589188/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 07:19:12 PDT
EIGHT Lasts
1. Last cigarette: yesterday
2. Last beverage: last nite
3. Last phone call: Yesterday
4. Last text message: may..wen i had nessa phone
5. Last CD played: white zombie's astro creep
6. Last bubble bath: When I was at my aunts house
7. Last time you cried: this morning
8. Last meal: mac n cheese!

EIGHT Have You’s
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? yes
2. Have you ever been cheated on? yes
3. Have you ever bought condoms? nope
4. Have you ever kissed someone & regreted it? yeah
5. Have you ever fallen in love? ...yes..im still in it...
6. Have you ever lost someone? Yup..
7. Have you ever been depressed? um...duh
8. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? I live in wisconsin..DUH

Name SIX things you did in the past three days
1. slept in a hospital
2. eat
3. gone on here
4. cried
5. bled
6. danced round like a dork

List FIVE people you can tell PRETTY MUCH anything to
1.
2. Keanen (r.i.p)
3. Bri
4. My brain
5. my mind

List THREE favorite colors
1. black
2. green
3. purple

List TWO things you want to do before you die
1. have a life w/my "nite in shining armour"
2. bring Keanen back from the grave


SO FAR IN 07′…

Been to school - sum f.u.n. times there...
Made a new friend - Yup, a few
Fallen out of love - yeah...
Done something you swore never to do - I wore pink! It burned!!!!& i bought a girly shirt..ugh
Laughed until you cried - of course!
Went behind your parents back - sorta
Met someone who changed your life - yes...now he doesnt want me...
Gotten close to someone - yeah,
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF……

1. Bush? idc

2. Gay Marriage? o just let them be alreadY!

4. Straight, Gay, Bi? I'm staight but gay pple r awesome!

5. Do you have a crush? yeah.

6. Who is the best hugger that you know?

7. Do you believe in love at first sight? not ne more

8. Is there something you want to tell someone? Yup

9. What brand of shirt are you wearing? um..idk let me just take it off 4 u..so i can find out

10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? this is DA, we don't have top friends here.

11. Do you have “A thing” for anyone on your top friends? ya
!
12. How many people on your top friends? I have no idea

13. How many kids do you want to have? 2-3

14. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?nope

15. Do you wanna change your name? hell no..

16. What did you do for your last birthday? went to build a bear w/squee & piffle..then bowling..

17. What time did you wake up today? like 5 am

18. What were you doing at midnight last night? painting

19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: um...idk rite now

20. Last time you saw your dad? um ReAL one..not since i was 4..& my other oone..couple of hrs ago

21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself?um..how all i feel now is pain

22. Which hand do you like better? RIGHT!

23. What are you listening to right now? silver & cold...afi

24. Have you ever talked to Tom? no, (tom's the myspace guy!)

25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? ya...the 9/11 thing

26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? Yeah

27. Least favorite month? april (31st to be xact)

28. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone?um pauls hoodie

29. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? my life

30. Most visited webpage? dA

31. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing? yup...

32. Coke or Pepsi? neither..mo... ]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13511382/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13511382/ Wed, 27 Jun 2007 11:34:59 PDT He commited suicide....
& was only 19..he promised to never leave me & he lied.....
he left me here alone....
we used to live next to eachother but then he moved to ohio....
& wat really sux is i cant go to the funeral....
i just want to see his corpse to prove its real....but i cant...this is the guy that i used to dance to footloose with...lol...& we'd put sand in our diapers & all that...(well i did...) hes 3 yrs older....
not many of my friends knew bout him cuz then they'd want to meet him & well he wasnt a pple person....

i was his PERFECT IMPERFECTION ...
now im just an imperfection

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13482793/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13482793/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 08:47:44 PDT


Im really not sure whats going on but sometimes it just feels like im always left out of everything like when i walk it seems like everybody is always walking faster and im just standing still and when i smile everyone else smiles bigger than i am and when im hungry i dont wanna eat and when i wake up in the morning i just simply ask why?....it goes on.....but i dont want ppl to kno that..its like im always suppose to be "happy" around ppl so i laugh and make jokes and smile but its all a lie and i dont want to lie to my friends but i dont wanna bring attention to myself when ppl ask whats wrong and i tell them i dont kno cuz i dont kno and i wish i did but i dont so whats a girl suppose to do? Just sometimes it gets so bad and i want it to just go away but then it gets worse so the only thing for me to do is sleep and when i wake up i have no energy just blah... i guess ive never been the person to tell people how i am feeling and thats why this depression is hitting me so hard, which isnt healthy at all. But then i start to wonder....wonder about... ]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13446422/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13446422/ Fri, 22 Jun 2007 12:06:49 PDT he told me that i have "too much self esteem"
wft???
how can u have too much??
im told by other pple that i DONT have enough!!!

spooky elder says that in the bible..if u think too highly of ur self then ur a fool.....well i guess im just a fucking fool!

oh ya & according to him i follow the devil...all becuz of the shit i like!
i dont fucking get it!
Then to top things off i had to get a ride from him cuz my mom wouldnt come pick me up....UGH ...evil!
i hated every second of it!!

& wen we were in the car he told me to move my hair out of my face!!!
i was like....no! its my hair!
& he was like u know u just look like u dont care w/ur hair like that..& i was like well mayb i dont...did u ever think of that???

ugh !!!!!!! he makes me soooo fricken mad!!!!

& then my 'rents told me that they're sending me to a bible camp (UPBC) in sept. ugh!
Wat if they take my music away?!?!?
& if they try 2 change me..i swear i'll fricken scream...

& oya this morning they finally told me that my fav. cat..(Phyre) got hit by a car! they werent gonna tell me til i saw my dad w/the shovel & a box & i asked him wat was in it....& he said Phyre...

then to top it off this mornigng i got my period!!! i fricken hate IT! why cant T.O.M.(Time Of the Month) just leave me alone!!! ugh!

The only good part was i found out razor 94.7 (my fav. radio station) now has a madatory metallica!!!!!
they play like 3-4 metallica songs in a row at 4 pm!!! i LOVE it!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13429290/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13429290/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 07:03:22 PDT
These pple are AWESOME!!
http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13416197/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 07:13:51 PDT Then add them up and repost as "I like ___ out of 100 bands."

ALTERNATIVE:
[x] Breaking Benjamin
[] Paramore
[x] Panic! At The Disco
[x] Linkin Park
[] The Academy Is...
[] Coldplay
[x] Three Days Grace
[x] Yellowcard
[x] 30 Seconds to Mars
TOTAL SO FAR= 6

COUNTRY:
[x] Rascal Flatts
[x] Carrie Underwood
[x] Leanne Rhymes
[x] Garth Brooks
[x] Dixie Chicks
[] Kenny Chesney
[x] Tim McGraw
[] Faith Hill
[x] Shania Twain
TTAL SO FAR=13

EMO:
[x]Hawthorne Heights
[x] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
[] From First to Last
[x] Senses Fail
[x] Underoath
[] Something Corporate
[] Hit The Lights
[] Dear Whoever
TOTAL SO FAR= 17

INDIE:

[] The Hush Sound
[] Eisley
[] Death Cab for Cutie
[x] Dashboard Confessional
[x] The Killers
[] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[] Hot Hot Heat
[x] Gym Class Heroes
[x] Franz Ferdinand
[] Modest Mouse
TOTAL SO FAR= 21

METAL:
[x] Slipknot
[x]System of a Down
[x] Disturbed
[x] Metallica
[x] Guns n' Roses
[x] Lamb of God
[x]slayer
[x] Hatebreed
[x] Killswitch Engage
[x] Avenged Sevenfold
[x] CKY
total so far= 31


POP:
[] Teddy Geiger
[] Ashlee Simpson(ugh! she makes me fricken cry...shes that bad!)
[] Kelly Clarkson
[] Jesse McCartney
[x] Avril Lavigne
[x] Pink
[] Natasha Bedingfield
[] Mcfly
[} Will Young
TOTAL SO FAR= 33


POWERPOP/PUNK:
[x] Hellogoodbye
[] Cute is What We Aim for
[] The Click Five
[x] Fall Out Boy
[x] Rise Against
[x] Good Charlotte
[x] Bowling for Soup
[x] Relient K
[x] Simple Plan
TOTAL SO FAR= 40


RAP:
[x] Ying Yang Twins
[] Paul Wall
[x] 2pac
[] Jamie Foxx
[x] Ludacris
[x] Lil' Jon
[] Outkast
[] 50 Cent
[] slim thug
[]three 6 mafia
TOTAL SO FAR= 44


SKA:
[] Rancid
[] The Aquabats
[] Sublime
[] No Doubt
[] Madness
[] Mustard Plug
TOTAL SO FAR= 44



ROCK:
[x] Taking Back Sunday
[x] All American Rejects
[] Motion City Soundtrack
[] Angels and Airwaves
[x]Evanescence
[x] My Chemical Romance
[x] Drowning Pool
[x] Green Day
[x] Blink 182
TOTAL SO FAR= 51


CLASSIC ROCK:
[] The Beatles
[] Led Zeppelin
[x] Black Sabbath
[] The Rolling Stones
[]The Cure
[] The Who
[x] Pink Floyd
[x] Meat Loaf
[] Queen
[x] Van Halen
[x] Poison
[x] AC-DC
TOTAL= 57

repost as "i like __ out of 100 bands

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13405676/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13405676/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 10:40:59 PDT ya im just ThAT fricken bord!!!

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13404861/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13404861/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 09:27:46 PDT well guess who JUST called....
lol...
i guess he stoled my uncles cell while he was drunk last nite..& took my #...weird ...lol...

but he called me & was like...Amanda..i know i cant sing but here it goes...

he sang
hey there dilihia
it did work..lol..
i started laughing wen he was done..
& i was like aawwwww.....& ur rite 2 more yrs & i'll b done w/skool!!
lol

but in the song instead of saying dilihia he said amanda.....

y does he have to b like 22???

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13381069/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13381069/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 12:51:43 PDT on June 16th!!!
Chris' dress was really pretty & she was soo happy the i was in a dress & makeup!! lol..oh ya..i was a girly girl..UGH! lol...i will put pics up so u can see me in a dress...i promise it will b a once in a lifetime chance ...lol..
Kayla did the make up lol
Ne who the music was lame ...the only good thing they played was enter sandman!!!!!
Ne who soooo many drunk (married) guys kept taking me out on2 the dance floor...specially during the slow dances....& well the wives werent happy cept one...she kept joking bout it...lol..i was thinking itd be awesome 4 a SINGLE...& SOBER guy to hit on me.. well like 5 mins later James came up!!! lol He was sober lol...
He kept poking my face & telling me to smile & i couldnt help but to smile & laugh like crazy..lol

Then i went to start the van cuz dad was drunk & ya.... well my uncle Russ saw me in the drivers seat & well ...
Russ: Your Not driving Amanda,,,,you dont even have ur permit"
Me: ya i can drive...not legally tho
Russ: Wow ur snotty!
Me: At least im cute!
James: Well i'll give her that...shes cute!

I laughed...UGH!
& James kept saying how cute i was & then Russ was like
Russ: Whao thats my neice...I'll kill you...(laugh)
James: Amanda,,how long til ur 18
Me: year & 1/2
James: I'll call you then...(laugh)
Russ: well if she was 18 now itd be a diff story but thats still my neice!
James: But im a nice guy
Russ: True....Ok i wouldnt mind u dating her ...cuz ur cool

I kept smiling really really huge...(hey james is fricken cute!!)
Then russ was like
Oh wait hes not an algoma dork so u cant like him...
I jumped & said
"My xbf was from LUX. & he wasnt dumb or a dork & he was respectable..."
then my dad was like
"um amanda hes dumb cuz he dumped you"
James was like "ya but its way beyond his loss!!"

but ya James is like in his 20s but hes still CUTE! hehe

but yes i will get pics of me all girly up....on here....

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13317783/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13317783/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 14:36:50 PDT you are one sick person if you dont repost this i feel for you if
this doesnt touch you because this is just wrong. read this. its disgusting


Walking in my nighty; rubbing my eyes
My fathers sitting on the sofa with his friend
He pats the seat in the middle; i sit
Shivering so cold; a quilt he lends

"Jessy you love me don't you" a smile; his
Their breathe spirts weep
"Daddy you know i do; what is it?"
He smiles at his friend; his hand creeps

His friend takes my hand; looks me in the eyes
Daddys creeping up my nightie; cold hands
I try to pull his hand away;
their grip is strong!
They look at one another; nod; something planned

I feel my palms sweat; Daddys under my knickers
"Daddy im going to bed! Night" Pulling again
But there grip is to strong for weak me
I look at both; and ask, who are these men?

His fingers going up me; pulling away
His friend leans forward; a kiss? Why?
His toungue moving mine; my eyes squint
Lean back and away; "Why are you doing this?"
No answer, i feel the pain inside me; him
Chucks the quilt on the floor; me to
I try and scamper away, but im not fast
"O Daddy please, i love you"

His friend; pulling at my nightie
And my Dad pulling my pants down
His friend pinning my hands to the floor
As my Dad lies himself on the ground

I squirm; as Daddy friend pulls me up
And places me ontop of Daddy; thrusts within
I cry; i bite; i scratch; i slap; i fail
"O Daddy please you win you win!"

I can feel my skin rip; my virginity breaking free
I can feel the blood seep down my leg
"Daddy your hurting me please"
I plead to him and his friend; not even a beg

Daddys laughing; why does he laugh?
His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moans
Tieing my hands togather; moving in and out
"Ride me Jessy" He laughs and groans

They smile at one another; laugh to
They roll me over and spread me wide well
My daddy sits on my face; himself in again
While his friend talks and pushes himself inside

I can hardly breathe; i gag for air
I cough and splutter; cry and weep
I beg and plead; but its no use
Theyve already made me hurt and bleed

I stare into his eyes; that look upon me
This is not my Dad; where is he?
If he was still here; would he care
Would he actually even; see?

Finally they get off and lie me on the sofa
My cheeks blouchy from tears and pain
They play with them selfs; all over me
Rub it in; making me feel the shame

"Why Daddy? Please tell me why?"
Dad looks at his friend; and waves him away
"Jessy i love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek
"Is that all you have in your heart to say?"

He puts my nightie on me
he walks me to my bedroom door
Ever since that night; His friend
And himself every Friday come back for more

"Night sweet Girl; You are my life"
Closing the door, tears still down my face
Still the smell of him and his friend
Fade into me like disgrace


I watch the Moon go down; the sun come up
"Jessy its school" Knocking at my door
I cant help but cry; weep in pain
Because im so scared he wanted more

But one night daddy took it too far
Daddy and his friend came back for one last shot
They were worried they would get caught
So he and his friend took me to a cemetary lot

I was blindfolded and my hands were tied back
"Daddy please!! Not tonight!"
Daddy and his friend both had their last fun
After that i tried to put up a fight

I begged daddy "Please no more!"
All he could say "Shut up you stupid piece of SHIT!"
Daddy unblindfolded me at last
He said I love you so much

He went back into the car and pulled out a bat
"Daddy I swear I wont say a thing!!!!"
I was dead
After only one swing..........................

**... Please if you care for all the children and women who have been raped
repost this journal with the subject "daddy please no...STOP"

If you do not repost this you are promoting rape and violence

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-Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
nope...

- ditched?
o_0

(( --LOVE-- ))


-Broken up with somebody?
yeah

-Met someone hard to live without?
yes!!!!! x_X

-Was this year the best year so far?
yup..i met an awesome guy

-Made new friends?
yeahhh


-Failed a class?
almost...hey a D is passing!

((--FRIENDS--))

-Lose any old friends?
ya but fuckem...if they wanna b dumb..then watever

-Get in a fight with a friend
NO NEVER (sarcasm) o_0

-Gone to a movie with a friend?
only a few..im grounded alot

((--PERSONAL--))

-Lost a family member?
my gma almost died

-Get any taller?
idk

-Know people that graduated from high school?
ya..the last days were sooo sad w/o them

-Hug more than 3 different people?
*HUGS****

-Tell some one you love them and mean it?
yes i did and still do

-Went to a fair?
um the lil "fair" thingy at skool that ffa had..that was a joke & 1/2

-Dated/"talked to" someone you wish you hadn't?
i wish austin had never happend & i wish i neveer talked to bryan

-Hated someone of the opposite sex?
YES!

-Saw a kiddie movie at the theaters?
me & bri saw barnyard ...lol

-Spent most of your year watching tv?
uh...no..writing..drawing..sleeping..talkingon fone!

-Read a book?
more than one

-Sat through something boring?
everyday at skool...
but of course i made it more xciting
x_X

-drove a car?
not legally

- Regret going out with someone?
um austin...but we never talked so ya....

repost as my _____year

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Would you prefer a thunderstorm or for it to be snowing?
- thunderstorm.

Laptop or Desktop?
- I WANT A Laptop.

Who do you call the most?
- um..maxx

What is your favorite thing to shop for?
-Chucks..but now i can only look & drool..(mom thinks shes gonna get me out of my "phase").

What company is your cellphone provider?
- dont have one

Have you ever kissed just a friend?
- Uhh, Yeah.lol

Who is your most recent ex?
-maxx

What is your pet's name?
- um theres Toby,gator,&angel..(dogs) then theres...sugar,douchebag,phyre,cutie, wanderer,& two new kittens..(not named yet) & then theres a bird named sammie


What were you doing 4 hours ago?
-on here

Where did you go to today?
- NOWHERE.

In school, how was/is your attendance record?
- um pretty good.....

Do you like spicy foods?
-yesssss

What friend do you get along with the best?
- aasha is awesome to talk too...tyler is awesome too!! lol...but best friend would b piffle

Have you ever fought over the oppisite sex?
-um not really

Are you good at math?
-Uhhh. I Can Be.

What do you get complimented on the most?
- My Eyes/Hair.

Do/did you listen to your parents?
- nope

At what age did you learn to ride a bike?
- I Don't Remember. I'll Say Eight. Since I Always Do.

What's your favorite holiday?
- halloween

When was the last time you drove out of town?
- last weekend..i went to sheyboygen.

Ever dyed your hair?
- no purple is my natural color...jeez! lol

Do you kiss with your eyes open or closed?
- normally closed...(its not poliete to stare)

Would you rather own a snake or a rabbit?
- BUNNY RABBBIT.

Do you have any siblings? Do you get along?
- 3 sis & 1 bro & 1 bro dead(R.I.P.) all of them are younger

What brand of shirt did you wear today?
- idk wat brand but its a my chem.

Who is one celebrity you can't stand?
- Uhhhh. pairs hilton

Do you cry a lot?
- Not Really.but recently ya..

Would you rather date Leonardo DiCaprio or Matt Damon?
- they're both gay...so Gerard Way!

Do you act more silly or serious?
- Silly.

Are you good at keep secrets?
- ya

In school, did/do you participate in gym class?
- if i like the game.

Do you have any superstitions?
- not sure..ill have to think

Would you rather spend or save your money?
- SPEND..if i has money

Do you ever wear hats?
- beanies

Do you prefer drinking sodas or energy drinks?
- energy drinks

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13314785/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13314785/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 10:03:59 PDT


VIRGO: The Whore

Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.Great kisser. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.



SCORPIO: The lover

Can be mean somtimes. EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


LIBRA: The sex addict

Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing n Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? not the kind of person you wanna fuck with... u might end up crying... the most irresistible.Rare 2 find. Funny. Talkitive. Erotic. Smart. loves sports. gets what he/she wants. Loves to be in a relationship. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.



ARIES: The Sexiest

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Not one to fuck with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships. Addictive. Loud. best in bed. 16 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


AQUARIUS: Does it in the water

Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic and funny. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock the shit out of u. The best and biggest freak in bed! Considered to be a "G". 2 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


GEMINI: Ultra Sexy

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the fuck out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.Horny. Freak in Bed. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


LEO: wild in bed

Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at maken out. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Loyal.Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Great when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.



CANCER: Most Amazing Kisser

Very high sex appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


PISCES: The Piece of ass

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high SEX appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.



CAPRICORN: The passionate Lover

Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser.gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in sports.Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not repost.


TAURUS: The Freak in bed

Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as ...u no!..... Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as ......... Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to fuck with. Are the most sexiest people on earth... ]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13313116/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13313116/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 07:12:35 PDT being grounded isnt fun
& o ya my mom wants to ground me longer
cuz joey ( would refer to him as Faggot) but he called me & we havent talked since april...he called to apologize for all the shit he ever did & he even wrote this corny poem

"roses r red
violets r blue
i fucked up ur life
& im sry
I screwed ur life up in January
& im soo sry
plz 4give me"

ya thats really corny....o ya
he says sry to u too...cuz he put u thro hell too...i blame him 4 it all...sry

so ya..& mom wants to ground me longer cuz i listened to his pathetic poem...wow...its all shitty..i really think im doomed to be grounded 4ever..o ya then my neighbor found a job 4 me...which i'd LOVE! & well my mom asked me if i'd want to do that & i was Like YEAH!
then she was like...hmm..that doesnt mean im gonna let you....jeez..wat a bitch...ugh...
ok i've realized im only complaining...so ya
i think im just gonna shut up & go have a cig or food...idk yet...

]]> ~tears2roses http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13267457/ http://tears2roses.deviantart.com/journal/13267457/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 15:51:00 PDT
ya that person....who ever it was...didnt like that...
but ya my hands REALLY hurt cuz ive been responding to stuff on here cuz i also had a butt load of stuff to respond to on here....I LOVE IT!! I FEEL SO LOVED!!! hehe...

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