http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:tepesimpaled&section=today deviantART RSS for by:tepesimpaled en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 22:40:25 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://tepesimpaled.deviantart.com/journal/27586703/ http://tepesimpaled.deviantart.com/journal/27586703/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 20:00:45 PDT CharletDukaine featured me first so I'm just doing my part. First 15 or so people to comment will get featured, I have a few already decided on.

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Dharleth and Ashisa
Rahabhim
Umahs2006

more to come...



Other news about myself. I'll maybe eventually make a new dA account, but in the mean time this will be the one I'll be using. I'll be married in about 96 days, but with all of the planning and paper work it won't come soon enough. I'm sick of house shopping and I'm perplexed as my most "successful" item in my dA gallery is Octeapus. Oh well I hope once I'm done with school and have free time again I'll be making more art again and the Octeapus will be dethroned by something of greater merit.

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Sorry for being brief but I have a full plate right now. I just thought I would leave some mark of has happened in my life.

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Well from the 2nd of August to the 6th of August I was away in Las Vegas attending DEF Con 15. It was a blast. I competed in the Lost Mystery Box challenge and the team I was on took 2nd place. It took 23 hours and 5 minutes to complete. We lost by 25 minutes and the team that beat us was actually 4 teams that joined together. So we did pretty well. That was the high note of things.

Well as a lone and out of place I have been going to a place like DEF Con didn’t help much. [The 1st 23 hours and then the following hours that I used to sleep are explained well enough for most, but details may be supplied latter or upon request.] I don’t know what people use to define happiness nor do I know what defines happiness for me even. With a group of people like unto myself (or one could at least say such) I do not fit in. I spent hours surrounded by a sea of cigarette smoke and a sea of alcohol. These habits are deeply engrained and entrenched in this counter culture if you will call it. I wondered around sober and alone. I went to exclusive and public parties and things did not feel right. Even though I was with my ‘eers’ I was still alone. Even with I was with one of ‘them’ they made comments about how they were ‘alone’ even though I was there simply because I would not join in with the drinking and smoking.

I truly find it fascinating to see how these activities are used for bonding and to build social networks. Also I find it regrettable how they can also prove to be obstacles to those that do not also participate in such activities. I remained alone even though I was with people so similar to me, yet our differences seemed to be enough to separate us. I did put forth my effort. I’ve had more than a fair share of second-hand smoke on beer spilled on me. The effort was there, but the results were lacking.

So the ‘night-life’ or actually anytime of the day during DEF Con proved to be fruitless the social events like the White Ball (and Black Ball, I was working during it so I couldn’t attend) proved to also be fruitless in meeting people and building friendships. Here I clearly take the blame. At such a dance I imagine that many thoughts cross the many different minds of people. Yet mine may inhibit me for socially functioning at such gatherings. While some might be checking out the opposite sex and meeting new drinking buddies or new business partners I was thinking rather differently. I was pondering the importance or dancing. How it is a form of communication. How does it work? What does it mean to other people? What does it mean to me? What is the end goal? And so on. I then went on to ponder the purposes of flirting and courtship and marriage and so on. I was so abstracted from the events surrounding me that I was unable to communicate with people. I can’t seem to do things for the sake of doing it, but if the ‘end’ goal was not foreseeable I didn’t even begin the ‘journey’.

I’m alone because I’ve taken on such an abstracted view on life. My loneliness truly is the fruits of my own labors. I’m more than aware that is isn’t making too much sense but I hope the idea comes across, it not I will gladly engross the details to those that ask about them.

At least I have come to learn why I am really alone. Now I need to take my desires and put them in order and fulfill them, otherwise both they and I will remain broken.

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Well for some different news, Ben Lincoln the guy that runs [link] released a new program that allows people to export the textures used in both Soul Reaver 2 and Defiance. So I may toy around with those some and whip out a few more LoK fan skins using those textures as a source. I have also been toying around with IMVU while I was lazy and / or sick so I may start making some stuff for that along with making stuff for Second Life.

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FYI: The Transformers movie ROCKS!!!


BTW: I posted the WIP of the Seer avatar that I was working on. Oh yeah she is a female. ]]> ~tepesimpaled http://tepesimpaled.deviantart.com/journal/13570473/ http://tepesimpaled.deviantart.com/journal/13570473/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 22:28:14 PDT I recently made some contact with someone in SecondLife that wants a lot of clothing made for him. Depending on how he likes my work I may or may not be doing a lot of work for him. I'll just have to wait and see. ]]> ~tepesimpaled http://tepesimpaled.deviantart.com/journal/13450660/ http://tepesimpaled.deviantart.com/journal/13450660/ Fri, 22 Jun 2007 18:27:14 PDT [link]) a game artist that I have looked up to for some time showed up to my school and gave a few lectures. It was really cool and some of the things that he presented has changed the way that I approach doing textures. So my current project on the Seer skin will be started over from scratch applying his methods that he mentioned. So it will be a little bit more time before I’ll have something post worthy. Then again I do need to post a more professional picture for Umah rather than the last minute rushed one that I currently have up.

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I should be getting back to work on the Seer and my cheater Raziel is coming along nicely. With the release of the new SL patch I need to start working in Blender so I can make 3D attachments for the characters.

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Just to throw in some more of my personal life I pulled a hat trick with blind dates standing me up. Yep, three. Friday night was the third one. Oh well that's life. At least I have more time to do school work and artwork.

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Though the weekend ended poorly I still end up on top. It was just one of those things. Something that is too good to be true type thing. It was one of those things that just seem to fall right into your hands. I may have met the girl of my dreams and it scares me, a lot.

I couldn’t sleep at all Saturday night. I finally fall to sleep at 10:30am and I drag myself out of bed around 11:45. I’m tired, cranky and I don’t want to do anything, especially I didn’t want to go to church. I would just go there and fall asleep and look like an idiot in front of people that I don’t really know. Some how I forced myself in the shower, then in some clothes, and finally into my car. I sat down and awaited the inevitable, falling asleep. Some how I was able to stay awake during the first hour. It now was the time that the new people had the opportunity to introduce themselves. At this point various people explain who they are and so on. Well the last person is this girl that I couldn’t hear very well from the other side of the room, but I heard she is going to my school. Some how I wake up and have plenty of things to break the ice; she’s new and starting to go to my school I could bring up one of the many inside jokes.

Well a guy beats me to her, she is sitting down while he is walks up to her and introduces himself and a little about his hobbies etc. I could have left things get awkward as my approach brought me to there be this guy could finish. I stayed confident; I had a good ice breaker. I shake her hand and make some common similar to, “You’re a brave one to be going to UAT,” (looking back it is a good thing to say she could either get the joke or should wouldn’t and would either be curious.) She move over and asked me to sit down. I explain her bravery by over exaggerating the situation of the lack of girls and the inability of many of the students to appropriately communicate with the few female students. I kept the entire conversation about the school and explaining how things really are and I mention a teacher that she could talk to, in order to grasp a better understanding of my little joke, (this teacher was once a student at this school and in class should would tell us of the horror stories about guys hitting on her in the lamest ways). During our conversation other girls came up and said hello and so on, but we really didn’t miss a beat. She said she looked forward to talking more with me after church. We wrapped things up and went to our different classes. Then when going to the last classes of the day we happened to pass by in the hall, steal a glance from on another and say hello.

After church today was a dinner social (I attend a congregation that is purely college students, so it’s kind of a meat market). The ladies went first to get the food and of course the table she is sitting at is full. There were a few guys there, but she was sitting with other ladies on either side. I walk up and asked if I could pull up a seat and join them. I sat to the left of her. The conversation took its course. I spoke about the school and my experience in the industry and the friends that I have worked with that have now work in it. I spoke very little about myself. I also listened to her and she has an interesting life. She is pursuing a Masters degree in Game Production. I am pursuing a Bachelors Degree in Game Design and another degree in Network Security. Things came to a natural end and she was going to drop something off to her car and I used this as an opportunity to excuse myself to go home. We exchange a few more words and she expressed interest in seeing me tomorrow at school, but I quickly explained the unlikely hood of it happening (it is a shame too). I make a comment about hopefully on Tuesday or any other time during the week, but if worse comes to worse well see each other again next Sunday.

I get back to my apartment and tell my room mate that I have proof there is a god. He of course asks what it was and I recounted what happened and he remarked that it had to have been a divine manifestation (he too goes to the same school).

She is the one that made the horror a reality of having to go back to classes tomorrow. I probably would have missed classes. Well things go down hill the moment I got home, just anything and everything that could go wrong did with the internet and my computer and laptop. So that is why my prior post was brief and angered. I occurred in the middle of the mess.

Well it is too good to be true she almost meets everything on my non-existent... ]]> ~tepesimpaled http://tepesimpaled.deviantart.com/journal/12869163/ http://tepesimpaled.deviantart.com/journal/12869163/ Sun, 06 May 2007 21:20:37 PDT
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Well I’m alive, so that means I made it. I aced all of my classes and I have no sense of accomplishment. This is probably because I looked at my school too much and know too much of its inner workings to enjoy it. It’s like going to Disney Land and going behind the scenes at the Haunted House, it just isn’t as cool.
Well I have no idea why my family from Finland had to come and visit the two weeks that I would be doing my final projects and final exams. I feel bad that I couldn’t drive to my parents place more than I did. Well maybe next time. Of course I’m close to being overdo to go back to Finland; it’s been 7 years since I’ve been there last.
Well now that I have no school to worry about (a time that is too short) I will start working away on some more skins. I think my projects feel like I have been cheating on them with my school work. I need to ensure them that if it was anything like that I was being raped by my school work and I did not enjoy any of it. Besides I need to really utilize my drawing tablet. Well that is my life in a nutshell

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On the up side I bought a tablet. I love using it for my art classes. I’ve been too swamped to really try using it when making skins but I can see of the improvements it will bring to my work. I don’t know how some people (that are far more gifted then me) can survive with out one. During my break betwixt semesters I should have updated post of my Umah skin. I killed off the Ice elemental that I was making. I had a good start but things just started to go sour and went too far to fix it without starting over entirely.

BTW: if anyone here uses Second Life and wants to stalk me they are more then welcome just give me a PM and I’ll make arrangements.

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Well to summarize my weekend it had an excellent start. I got stood up for a blind date Friday night. I really don’t know it happened, but it did. To be positive I was able to put in a few more hours at work and to get more of my home work done. I also had some time to work on some skins that I have been working on for a while now. I really enjoy working on them, but then again I don’t have the time that I wish I had. Well late Friday night and Saturday morning I had a little exchange of comments here at deviantART that I think may have enjoyed too much. Regardless it was enjoyable and it helped get my weekend back up on an up swing.

Well I wonder what is the source of peace is. Sure part of it is my religious and moral beliefs (because I am a ‘good boy’) can be credited for it. I wonder if my meds are to blame. I’m not complaining about the peace that I am enjoying. I am a little concerted at the same time. If my meds are working this well, why stop. At the same time some drives and motivations that are very apparent in guys my age seem to be deadened or muted, but I don’t really miss (I guess… no I really don’t miss them). I guess I am a unique person after all. Well on to the rest of this peaceful weekend.

I think I’m sounding too much like a hippie. Yes, my meds are legit and no, I am not using 'that' and calling it medication. Well if hippies only knew what I am experiencing and at the same time if I only knew what I am experiencing.

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