http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:thatisdandy&section=today deviantART RSS for by:thatisdandy en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 00:30:21 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://thatisdandy.deviantart.com/journal/28774591/ http://thatisdandy.deviantart.com/journal/28774591/ Sat, 05 Dec 2009 20:15:32 PST
I'd better get back to work.

It was nice writing in you, ol' deviantart journal.

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Because my confidence depends on my ability to be the best at what I love to do, and I don't think that it's a good thing, no matter how motivating it is. I simply can't be the best at everything I do. I mean, it's just not feasible? I'm not sure what I mean.
This obsession really only developed last year, and I hope it tones down soon. Because I realize there isn't a lot of importance in being the best, as long as one tries their best. But if I can push my best effort to being the best there is, then why shouldn't I? Such cognitive dissonance comes with such self-serving thoughts.
When I don't feel the need to conquer everyone is when I feel most peaceful. Hopefully pursuing an education in something so subjective will tame this wild beast within! It really is an ugly thing...

I submitted an observational drawing to my other account. Because that's the sort of thing I'm concentrating on nowadays.

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Where has this month gone?

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YOU'RE a good friend

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to be isolated for a while.
I really don't understand some types of people.


Particularly my own type, I guess.

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life is entertaining, for the most part I think.

lots of people and friends and things to do.

my hands are small.

oohh I beat majora's mask! I didn't use a walk through until someone told me I needed all the masks to get the fierce deity mask. so I used a walk through to get masksss, but let me tell you, I spent many frustrating hours in those dungeons refusing to look at gamefaqs. but that part of my life is DONE and I can be a real human again.

AND AMBER came over the other day. I hadn't seen Amber in a million years, which is dumb since she lives like ten feet away from me. but it was nice seeing her. she helped me get a mask .

Anyhow, life and homeworking and other video games beckon me forth from the computer.

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I am realllly excited to start my last year of high schoool

and I'm super anxious to get all of my college applying done D:
I am applying tooooooo:
College for Creative Studies <-- ( working on some really awesome observational drawings specifically for the purpose of getting into this school )

University of Michigan School of Art and Design <-- ( just to see if I can )

then Wayne State

then other back up places.


I would really love a LOT of federal aid and a LOT of scholarships, so I'm working on that. Not the federal aid part yet really, but the scholarship part.


But nearsightedly- I've got to clean my room .
Also I bought some shoes and they're arriving tomorrow. I've recently developed and then cured a shoe addiction.

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Oh my goodness. I haven't felt so tired in such a while.

Well, testing out ended, so I'm less busy. I'm having a hard time committing to anything real lately though. I'm just lethargic... I guess. I started to get things organized and hopefully I'll finish when my sleep isn't interrupted. (Yesterday it was by the Comcast guy trampling around in my room and touching my computer. That butthead, as if I can't set up a fricking internet connection...)

Photography hmm. I'll post something soon. My digital camera is going all senile on me though and keeps blacking out or draining photos almost completely of color.
I'll figure out how to fix it once I'm not tired.

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I want to go back to school o.O.

I wanna go back to sleep.

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I arrived in my home town on Friday.

I still have five more papers to write, and four poetry explications. 16 days left in which to do this.


I think it would be great if I had no other obligations. Really I just need to get to work though. I can do it, I hope. I need to get leechblock for this computer.

Ohh. This is humorous a little bit. I've got a PowerBook sitting next to my HP Pavillion. Working together in perfect harmony to produce the best little research area.

And! Alex gave me some neat-o paint marker things and I am thinking of doing a little series of colorful 10 minute drawings. I've already done two. Those will go on my other account, ~shaepaints.

I have not slept more than four hours a night for almost a week. O.O This is supposed to be summer >.<.

Someday I'll get to relax.

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My last post was on my 2 year deviantart anniversary, and recently I passed 7,000 page views.

That's like, 3500 views a year. Haha I'm not very popular!

I am going to go to Subway to eat a delicious sub.

goodbye..!

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Anyway. My immediate family is full of drama and the like but I am confident everything will come together eventually.

I've been working hard on my coursework so I hope to finish that soon.

I am going back to Fremont on Friday. Woooooo I guess. Haha. Ha.

Anywayyyyyyyy. For some reason I find it impossible to sleep before like 5 a.m., even I only got like four hours of sleep. Summer is weird.

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I've been sick for a few days.

Also I'm really busy with my school work so I don't have a lot of time for art.

I did upload a new drawing today on my other account, ~shaepaints .

I feel like I'm at college, haha. I'm sitting in a university classroom. I have to take care of myself (buy groceries, do laundry, wash dishes, manage money, etc), and motivate myself to work on my school things and not just lay in bed all day.

Living here is a maturing experience.. but I am eager to go home and see my friends.

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Besides that I've been taking experimental photographs with a toy camera which I am not completely convinced works (since Alex and I fixed it with a paperclip). But we'll have to see when I get the photos developed.


Don't forget to check out my non-photographic account, ~shaePaints.

]]> ~thatisdandy http://thatisdandy.deviantart.com/journal/25929337/ http://thatisdandy.deviantart.com/journal/25929337/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 20:19:36 PDT ~shaePaints.
It would be greatly appreciated . I've uploaded pieces there which have been uploaded on this account but are now stored. I won't delete them so you won't have to refavorite them or anything. I'll be uploading new pieces to that account soon, as I've started many projects.

thaaanks.
~shaePaints.
~shaePaints.
~shaePaints.

Just in case you didn't catch it in that wall of text!

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I have the attention span of a retarded chipmunk when I have to settle down and work on something that I'm obligated to work on.

THIS {<-click} forces me to do my proper research, or leave the computer to do real life things like eat and sleep. (ha.) I have at least 90% of the internet blocked. I am a pretty awful concentrater, which I hope is something that will improve with the usage of this add-on.

I realize this journal entry will not help any argument against the fact that I am a loser. But I hope I can help improve the productivity of others with this neat tool.

By the way you need Firefox. Firefox is pretty great so you should get it if you don't have it.

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Any tips for motivation?

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-Album art for my brother's rap demo...haha ! This I am excited to make.
-Drawing of Kaitlin and Jack
-Michael Jackson portrait
-Painting for good ol' Alex.
-Portraiture for a neat kid named Riley
-Photoshoot with my cousin's children

I don't know how any of this will turn out, but I'm excited to start.

On top of that, I've got to write like seven papers for English 4...eep! And read the textbook for Government. Testing out is cool. My senior year will be a breeze filled with art classes.


Today is the day my mother moves to Connecticut. My sister is also moving, from Florida to New York. I am staying stationary in Ann Arbor until I have a place to live in Fremont. Craaazy stuff...but I'm trying not to worry!

I might try to feed some squirrels and take photos of them today... they're so friendly and I bought some nuts.


TL;DR: Lots of art to make, testing out to do, mother and sister moving, I'm homeless, squirrels.

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I'm afraid to take photographs though. It's been so long since I've seriously tried.

I missed Mr. Filmy camera though. He really is my favorite.

Well soon I am going to set up a little place for drawing and painting, and I hope to share with you what I manage to create here. I bought a table top easel...because my drawings always manage to get skewed if I'm not looking straight at them.

Love always.

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I love this city, but I'm currently not in a state to explore it. Yesterday was excruciatingly long, with a lot of carrying and lifting and whatnot.

My allergies are acting up really bad here! My face is like a puff of pollenhate.

I'm laying in bed right now trying to get the motivation to organize everything. A bug bit the back of my foot and it became infected. It's very difficult to walk, haha, gross.

Anyway. I'm sure things will start looking up soon. I'm excited to be in a beautiful city in the summertime, despite my family's issues.

Ohhhh I can't wait to start working on my portfolio .

There is an art fair here! I'm excited. It's July 15-18. This city has such a large talent pool (as would any big city I imagine), I bet there will be some amazing things.

[link]

I'm not gloomy but the mood panel won't load. Imagine it says optimistic/eager/thanks

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I'm unsure of my capabilities, I'm completely unsure of this false picture of stability that I've been painting for a while. There are so many things weighing on this summer.

So very little is in my control. I've been seeing my personality emerge for a while. I need to have a handle on things or I feel like the sky is falling. Control freak, maybe.

I have to take the ACT tomorrow. Five hours long. Shiiiit.

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I discovered some artists that I really like while looking through my "Art Book" that my sister gave me a few years ago. I think I will be studying hyper realistic surrealism, as soon as I am settled down.
I also will be studying English Four/College Prep and Government, so that I do not have to take those classes next year. It seems as though in the past year I've gained an over-achieving complex.

I have been booked as a photographer a few times in the coming months . How straange.

I am off to study for the ACT. Exciting, no? (I've wasted three or four hours playing Final Fantasy 9... I'm horrible )

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*Not that I would, but last summer I was basically nocturnal.
My little heart fills with joy when I think about sleeping however long I want to.
It's been a horribly long school year...

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All objectivity is gone {or was just an illusion to begin with}. What should I do? Whatever I want. What do I want? There is the crux. Interests conflict with ability and patience. After just an hour of being stifled by my own existence, I become catatonic. A chill caresses me when I realize the obscene amount of weeks {months, years} of discomfort {dissatisfaction, unhappiness} that inevitably await me. It may not be linear, but this lifetime is a charging bear. Age enters and matures with each individual inhalation. Youth exits with the outward indication of breath. Beauty is displaced by bitter indignation. What is it that I'm missing? There is nothing. I am hardly alive.

"I could see day after day after day glaring ahead of me like a white, broad, infinitely desolate avenue." -Sylvia Plath.

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Me. Woo. :/

I found out that my score was actually pretty high. I know I can do better though.
I had to pay for it myself. My savings account is frowning. and so am I


That's all.

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breathe- think positive.

Work harder.

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Eventually. That is all I have to say.

On Friday, I get to cut myself off from most of the world to go to SKILLSUSA in like.. Lansing or something. For 3 days. I am going to go to the library tomorrow to get some books to entertain myself with... any suggestions? I like political and philosophical based realistic fiction. I also like Harry Potter but I already read all of those. I don't know, I'll probably just wing it.

I'm not really doing anything at SkillsUSA. I just designed a bulletin board. It'll be nice to get away from F-town though.

]]> ~thatisdandy http://thatisdandy.deviantart.com/journal/24238671/ http://thatisdandy.deviantart.com/journal/24238671/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 13:05:35 PDT Here I am, wearing it.


I'm hoping to create more pieces like innocence;childhood, but I think that will have to wait until summer.

anyway. I'm taking it easy for a while. A lot of interestingly heart wrenching things have been happening lately.

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and maybe i will buy myself a pretty skirt or something.

hehe.

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I feel so nice and relaxed... spring break is great.

My birthday is on Monday.

I will be 17 years of age.

I feel awkward about it, but I always feel awkward around my birthday. Then it passes, and another year passes, and I feel awkward again. Although I'm hoping to feel monumental next year. I'll probably just feel awkward...haha.

I didn't succeed in finishing my portfolio... but I will get it done this week because I have nothing to do after Tuesday. It will be great, and I will send it off, and all will be right in the world of my anxious brain.

I feel so in love with everything right now. It is a wonderful and serene feeling.

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I will post them sometime.

I'm trying to get a decent portfolio together before next weekend.

I mean, finish getting it together.
For CCS's summer thing.


Anyway, goodbye now.

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And that's with an average of 4 hours of sleep per night.

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In a few weeks I'll be going to Ann Arbor for a few days. That should be nice.

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