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anyway who knows, some new stuff may be coming... but the majority of my photos still find their way to my myspace ( [link] ).

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/21690622/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/21690622/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 23:51:56 PST
so lately my mind has been picking odd details out of each day to transform into short fictions no longer than a page. each started with a grain of truth.

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]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/18323910/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/18323910/ Wed, 14 May 2008 16:29:43 PDT my new album
soundtrack to a slow departure presents:
hope versus a falling bomb
free 48mb download: [link]
39:44 playtime
genre: ambient/drone

1. hello (don't worry, it'll be okay) - 2:35
2. into the basement (hide while the shockwaves rip apart our scarecrow) - 6:00
3. one dim lightbulb to last the apocalypse - 3:04
4. feeling your way through the dark to an exit - 5:50
5. stepping into the light - 1:02
6. daylight, too soon - 3:28
7. after the dust settled - 11:46
8. we have crossed a border into a new life (but we killed our guides to get here) - 4:42
9. goodbye (to our old lives of luxury) - 1:18

gear:
1972 fender stratocaster (detuned and missing the first string for half the tracks)
2002 squire stratocaster (track 3 only)
boss dd7 delay pedal
line 6 bass pod
marshall amp
garageband

credits:
all tracks performed and mixed by michael except track 3, improvised by michael + lucifer
recorded may 11-13 2008 in southern chicago
artwork by michael

us:
[link]
mike:
[link]
lucifer:
[link]

remember to go check out the fullsize version of 500 - at 50mb, it's bigger than this album!



thankssssss <3
-mike

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/18274723/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/18274723/ Sun, 11 May 2008 14:06:02 PDT
thx for too many years of support, anonymous masses of deviantart
<3

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/18273620/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/18273620/ Sun, 11 May 2008 12:58:15 PDT
<3

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/18009374/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/18009374/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 15:21:32 PDT
summer hibernation... expect nothing, ever, and be pleasantly surprised when something happens anyway

<3

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/17442131/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/17442131/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 12:18:47 PDT
this: [link] turned digital. should be huge.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/17293347/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/17293347/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 20:39:09 PDT
working again, though nothing so glamorous as last year. used up my last favor to get a few winter shots from the hancock before the ice melted away for good, but those pictures are stuck on a camera with no batteries. i'll have those up eventually.

now if i can just stop taking this siestas to the cold back porch for internet, i'll be set.

much love.
<3

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/16672349/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/16672349/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 10:19:56 PST
apologies to first-time comers for the huge advert taking up 1/4 of the gallery pages. that's a new thing with deviantart and to be perfectly blunt it's ugly and annoying as sin.

deviantart is usually my catch-all for art projects, but recently i've been going in a way this site can't follow - music. my roommate lucifer plays instruments and i play the mixing game. check out our legendary riffs at [link] .

i am unemployed and in terrible need of a change.

<3
-mike

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/16507725/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/16507725/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 20:35:21 PST
i make a lot. art sets my mind at ease, somehow, and aids me in setting myself to an operating level/context i feel comfortable and peaceful within. a camera (Fujifilm S5000, primarily, though some postings here were taken with friends' cameras) and adobe photoshop are all i generally need, though at times notepad (well, textedit now that i'm a mac guy) fills some important holes as well.

i'm currently unemployed and in very real need of some sort of income. if you live in the chicagoland area and know of anyplace hiring, or need an artist/photographer for your band/event/etc, contact me. if you happen to be that mythological "rich benefactor" who lives anywhere and has a need for an artist, contact me. i'd also love to create album artwork for a band; if you have a CD coming out, let me know - for a band just starting out, i'd be happy to do the art for free.

i usually make two of my recent square abstract-manip pieces per night, mostly between the hours of 1-3am. i had a long conversation with my roommate last night about how i've gotten excellent at setting my own frequency to a nice, honed edge when i have control over most of the variables in my surroundings - music, art, company, etc. the conversation had more to do with still maintaining that frequency in external settings (and thus overcoming an occasionally crippling sense of social inadequacy), but it left me thinking more about how, as i make these, i'm creating panoramas of light and pattern that put my mind in a specific place. often i see them recreated at night when i fall asleep, but occasionally see them in dreams first.

so i just wanted to explain that a little.

thanks for visiting, stay tuned for deviation 500 - at this rate, to be posted within days.

I have been featured on a Chicago blog about artists! Check it out here: [link]

ALSO! i have started a band.

[link]

i often wondered what would happen if i sat down with a guitar, effects, and a way to record the sounds i made. since my knowledge of guitar playing is all theory and no practice, i assumed what would result would be a barely listenable wall of distortion. that is exactly what happened. the one track up there now is eight and a half minutes of wankery. considering it came out of my first ever session, i think it turned out good. expect more.

THIS JUST IN!!! PRESS RELEASE FROM SOUNDTRACK TO A SLOW DEPARTURE!!!

HELLO ALL MY FRIENDS! HOW ARE YOU! THAT IS GOOD!

I AM HERE TO TELL YOU OF A FANTASTIC OPPORTUNITY!

THIS IS YOUR CHANCE!

ACT NOW!

Soundtrack to a Slow Departure, my "band" for making "music", now has a Myspace which YOU CAN BEFRIEND BUT ONLY IF YOU ACT NOW!!!

[link]

I could have priced this "music" at $45 $35 $10 and sold out the first forty-three pressings within milli-minutes, but no! I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS THAT I AM FLINGING COPIES AT ANYONE STANDING IN THE VICINITY!!! BE CAREFUL!!! THIS "MUSIC" HAS BEEN KNOWN TO CAUSE SEVERE INJURY TO THOSE WHO TRY TO CATCH IT IN THEIR MOUTHS LIKE A FRISBEE! I am not liable for any injury caused by my "music". CATCH IT WITH YOUR HANDS, THEN PUT IT IN YOUR EARS!!!

IF you act now, you will receive AT NO CHARGE all the free listens of StaSD's first "song", "SPITFIRE GLOSSOLALIA", you can handle! For most people thus far, that is a number somewhere between zero and one!!!

The reviews are beginning to pour in!! Act now and your words of unyielding praise could join those on this list!!!
LET'S LOOK AT WHAT THESE PEOPLE ARE SAYING OVER HERE!!!!!!!

quote-
your music
has destroyed
the happiness inside me that no one could take away
im a pretty positive guy
so like
nothing really gets me down
but this music
if you wanna clal it that
just ruined my day
instantly

Quote-
it was at least vaguely more interesting than listening to someone who
actually knows how to play guitar

QUOTE!!!-
LOLOLOLOLOLOL



Look at that shit, right there.
It seems like people are flocking in DROVES to hail the newest "band" on the experimental/shoegaze/noise/drone/wallofsound circuit, Soundtrack to a Slow Departure, as the one and true incarnation of Christ the Savior. Is this a movement you're willing to let pass you by? IS IT?! Then act now!

NOW!!!

[link]

ACT NOW BEFORE THIS OFFER IS MADE AG... ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15910724/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15910724/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 15:22:40 PST
my name's mike, and this is my art. i'm fairly prolific, because art's one of the only things that truly makes me happy. as such there are some 400-odd pieces here at the moment, covering photography, graphic design, abstract digital art, collages, poetry, prose, and more. i encourage comments, feedback, and communication. i'd like to do some collaborative pieces.

i want to start working with bands. myspace page design/upkeep, album artwork, promo/live photography - i generally feel music from visual arts and get intense visuals from music, and would love to explore that interplay some more. while paying gigs are the ideal end result, for now i'd be more than happy to do this sort of thing free. bands need photos, albums need art, i need a portfolio. if you make music, contact me.

thanks for stopping by. <3

/////
update jan20'08

i found a way to be online: [link]

it's sketchy and sometimes fails and i move to move when someone wants to use the microwave but it's working for now and that's all i want. huzzah!

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15830598/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15830598/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 06:16:04 PST
aereogramme
aphex twin
boards of canada
brian eno
buckethead
caspian
cecilia::eyes
comet III
do make say think
esmerine
explosions in the sky
fear falls burning
fennesz
god is an astronaut
godspeed you! black emperor
grizzly bear
jon hopkins
joy wants eternity
julien neto
laura
magyar posse
meanwhile, back in communist russia...
mogwai
mono
monopot
moya
mychael danna + tim clement
one hour before the trip
pelican
red sparowes
roedelius + morgan fisher
russian circles
set fire to flames
silver ray
stars of the lid
ulrich schnauss
volta do mar
world's end girlfriend

(the list is growing)

dec 10: additions.

the dead texan
the samuel jackson 5
this is a process of a still life
they don't sleep
soul whirling somewhere
bell orchestre
epic45
daturah
yndi halda
hrsta
if these trees could talk
pink reason
immanu el
clann zu
long distance calling
the bird ensemble
this will destroy you
upcdowncleftcrightcabc+start
we vs death
by the end of tonight
a silver mt zion
and so i watch you from afar
loss of a child

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15701293/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15701293/ Tue, 27 Nov 2007 23:14:55 PST a hidden cell of chemicals
keep your soul on my projection
never turn on the camera

because
i kinda like the blank way
i fill up my life
i don't care for nothing
that gets me too high
i want some dampend spirits
and black and bitter spoons
i'm not looking for affection
i'm living on the moon

no convicion in your voice box
it's buried low beneath the guilt
it all seems real as you whisper
she lies warm and the smell is you

but she knows
i kinda like the blank way
you fill up my mind
i don't care for nothing
that gets me too high
i want some dampened spirits
and black and bitter spoons
i'm not looking for reflection
i'm living on the moon

here i am
right at home
in my crater
here i am
feeling old
here i am
wishing for
a miracle
i need you to know

that i like the blank way
i fill up the sky
and i care for nothing
you put in my mind

i like the blank way
you fill up my mind
i like the blank way
you fill up my mind
i like the blank way
you fill up my mind

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15606979/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15606979/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 14:44:31 PST
who could blame you for never wanting to leave?

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15102729/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/15102729/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 14:19:39 PDT
updated. more someday. i dont think anyone would read what i've been writing, or should they, or would they believe it.

be well. <3

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/14098482/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/14098482/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 23:44:53 PDT i've come back, again. a little less fractured.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/13494074/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/13494074/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 04:25:57 PDT
i'm sending it out as is - a word document accompanied by a 40-track mixtape - to anyone who requests a copy. ideally, when i get it printed, i can follow that up with a hard copy. signed, if that's important to you.

maybe now i can get back to posting here. i do have 1200 pictures from my recent trip to the west coast to upload.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/12450944/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/12450944/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 23:12:26 PDT
write a poem a day

i will post mine here as they come

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/12103123/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/12103123/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 08:07:42 PST
flying in and out of dublin, ferries, walking across wales, staying with a friend in manchester, scotland - edinburgh aberfeldy highlands world's end, paris, amsterdam, germany, brussels, greece? italy? marseille?

june 7 - june 26 (tentative)

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/12019429/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/12019429/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 20:40:48 PST it is not time to stop caring about anna nicole smith. it was time to stop caring about anna nicole smith long before she even died.

that is all

thank you

[link]

[link]

[link]





(also today was ken andrews day here at the ranch)

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11967933/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11967933/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 22:15:06 PST how are you doing?

hell old friends. sometimes you stop in.
did you know i've become a cook?

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11729410/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11729410/ Wed, 07 Feb 2007 23:45:10 PST smoky and enraged
but closed off in a corner cage
i sigh relief
relax
pick up the pieces from his rampage




inevitably, loosed again
leaping from the pages
flicking tongue
probing fingers
soft melancholy hair

caught off guard
seduced






chasing dragons all over town

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11704037/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11704037/ Mon, 05 Feb 2007 22:15:16 PST
or buy a new one

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11633902/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11633902/ Wed, 31 Jan 2007 11:05:15 PST
shoegaze music is inspirational, and good at putting you to sleep.

i think everybody in the world should have a camera, one small enough to carry everywhere.

i also think the cell phone was a horrible idea. maybe the regular phone was, too.

24 chapters into my book, around 80 pages. need to edit some soon; people who've read it say it's interesting but still a bit confusing. it's a little hard for me to read something objectively and try and see how much sense it would make to a third party.





...and dreams redux? yeah, i'm actually having that dream. every night... last night her eyes were primarily purple, like a hazy purple smoke puff swirling around a disc just in front of and slightly bigger than her eye, with green shining through from behind not like the sun through the clouds but like the jacob's ladders through stained glass windows...

she said, "what?"
the other one said, "let's go."
i said, "please, just another second..."
she said, "later."
the other one said, "seriously we need to go."
i said, "fine..."



and then there's that other part, that part where there's the other other girl, and i'm cleaning the room and she's there and every time our heads get close to each other i can see her head move forward out of the corner of my eye, as if she's leaning in for a kiss, and after a while i just go for it and our lips brush and she pulls back, and i say, "was that inappropriate?" and she says, "yeah..."

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11522148/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11522148/ Sun, 21 Jan 2007 19:05:56 PST
being artsy. i'm covered in paint, again, haha.

Another year I've wasted,
Were those really our steps that brought us here?
That held you near?
Through fantasy each of our games wander through life,
Calling out their names...

Yesterday, today, and tomorrow never foretold!
of time so vast!
And of the worlds and lives they would roam,
Those so many places, so far from home!

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]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11315453/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11315453/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 16:01:52 PST today stuck in chicago
tomorrow coming to chicago



welcome old friends and new.
i just folded up a frito's bag, flattened it, and opened it up into a rose.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11140962/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11140962/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 16:32:44 PST
especially the photography. i NEED a new camera before i go.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11052657/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/11052657/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 15:33:13 PST [link] attendance there next semester is almost guaranteed.

what is this...? this weirdness, this strange overwhelming emotion, alien but familiar.

oh right.

confidence, security, freedom, happiness, acceptance.

hey guys, it's been a while.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/10950599/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/10950599/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 16:06:08 PST [link]

ive spent since friday in south chicago, visiting a good friend of mine and the incredible college he attends. its always a highly enjoyable time (generally spent highly intoxicated), but i can't shake some crippling social paralysis. total and complete inability to relax. im very wound up.

in about 15 minutes i leave, braving the chicago mass transit system and a train, going home to recharge today and tomorrow, and coming right back wednesday. i'm gonna attend here next year... if it's the people scaring me, i kinda have to overcome this.

and it's not like i'm doing anything else with my time.

in related news the last several mornings have been spent reading. this morning i finished jack keruoac's on the road (finally), then poked into the elegant universe before sidestepping it for kenneth grant's the magical revival.

i have ideas. i may be creative for the next two days. or maybe not. my schedule is open.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/10897106/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/10897106/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 01:46:35 PST
is it natural to spend 95% of a funny movie silently crying?

there is one upside in this - history shows that the most depressed periods of my life have been the most artistically prolific. i don't know, though, i just... nothing feels right. i can write, but it won't seem like enough. it feels like words just don't get everything across anymore. they draw no attention.

if i had more money i'd doubtless be diving headfirst into one binge or another, but sadly i have just enough sense to realize that my last few hundred dollars have much more important destinations.

i've gone from alone to alone to alone to alone. 22 years in and i'm starting to notice a pattern.

(i had that dream again, the one where you come home and i'm there and you didn't expect me, and you're excited but hesitant, and i kiss your neck during the hug and you ask if i should be doing that, and then i wake up and cry and think about it all day and wonder if they'll ever stop or maybe ill just reach a point where i'll take them because that's the closest i can get or might ever be able to get)

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]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/10729600/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/10729600/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 01:40:16 PST
i got engaged. the wedding will be in summer or later and will be accompanied by my relocation to kingston, ontario, canada. that will be preceded by another relocation to racine, wisconsin, america, taking place in roughly two weeks.

i guess i can post the picture of the proposal before i go to bed. i initially planned on sleeping around 1am; it's now 3.40am. what's another five minutes?

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/9602995/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/9602995/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 22:19:49 PDT
no promises, though. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4750829/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4750829/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 11:26:45 PST writing update)

No writing. Wallpaper.

Mood: 2+6@end,+/-((+$)-d)
Listening to: Manual Dexterity - Dressing Failure
Reading: Hunter S Thompson - Shark Hunt
Watching: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

NIN sold out in 1 minute. Ha! Screwed.

(life update)

Stuff, always stuff. Thoughts. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4642102/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4642102/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 00:01:55 PST writing update)

Today's piece started out with just the first part, up to 'all your shoutable secrets in' and just grew on it's own. Not sure how it happened.

More coming. Feels good to post again, though unfortunately I appear to have lost all my watchers. (Or maybe they just don't like reading.)

Mood: 2+6@end,+/-((+$)-d)
Listening to: Manual Dexterity - Dressing Failure
Reading: Hunter S Thompson - Shark Hunt
Watching: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I decided to explain them. *shrugs*

~~*?x.+/-<3

shooting star? no. plus or minus love.

~~* (shooting star) ? x (no) +/- (plus or minus) <3 (love)


2+6@end,+/-((+$)-d)

together at the end, with or without my soul.

2+6 (to + 6 letters - to-gether) @end (at the end), +/- (with or without) ((+$) plus money, i.e. sold -d) = soul

(life update)

So I've been working at the school paper and making some mad cash ($50/wk) to be funny. [link]
Might post new article from that up tomorrow, since it didn't actually make it into this week's paper.
Next week, grab the new Mars Volta album, Frances the Mute. Absolute genious. Best album of the decade, with absolutely no sarcasm or exaggeration.
Also I've decided I want an old school typewriter like the one in my poetry previews. If anything would insire a man, that'd be it. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4634246/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4634246/ Mon, 21 Feb 2005 00:58:18 PST writing update)

Slowly getting through all this writing stuff. Grand finale may or may not be a piece of writing I've been working on for a while that I'm absolutely in love with. Depends on if I finish it or decide to finish it or leave it as is.

Listening to: NIN - The Line Begins to Blur

(body)

There are things I said I would never do
There are fears I can not believe have come true
For my soul is too sick and is too late
and myself I have grown to weary to hate

The more I stay in here
The more it's not so clear
The more I stay in here
The more I disappear
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur

There's somebody on top of me
I don't know I don't know
Is anyone stopping me
I don't know I don't know
I won't try and hold my breath
I don't know I don't know
Just how far can I go
I don't know I don't know

As I lay here the fabric starts to tear
It's far beyond repaid
And I don't really care
As far as I have gone
I knew what side I'm on
But now I'm not so sure
The line begins to blur

(life update)

So I've been working at the school paper and making some mad cash ($50/wk) to be funny. [link]
Also got my hands on a new leak from the new NIN album. Lyrics above. Much better than Hand That Feeds.
Tired, cold, hungry. No new writing tonight. Might get some up tomorrow. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4626135/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4626135/ Sun, 20 Feb 2005 00:18:34 PST
Mood: *for a slow reprieve
Listening to: Fullmetal Alchemist OST

body

Heard the new NIN single tonight. Got sent it. Shitty quality radio recording, but even beside that it's nothing to write home about. I say to hold out hope, though; Starfucker's wasn't exactly a good representation of The Fragile, so I'd say this isn't a good first impression of With Teeth. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4611048/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4611048/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 23:47:17 PST Mood: hm
Listening to: Emerson, Lake, and Palmer - Carn Evil 9

[01:43] peroty: psst, check Deviant Art. I got you a present.
[01:43] DMGaretJax: What now what what now?
[01:43] DMGaretJax: OH GOD
[01:43] DMGaretJax: WHY DID YOU DO THIS
[01:43] DMGaretJax: I DESERVE NOTHING LIKE THIS
[01:43] peroty:
[01:44] peroty: You said you'd post more once you had a subscription.
[01:44] DMGaretJax: WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS
[01:44] DMGaretJax: DAMN YOU
[01:44] peroty: Now you have one.
[01:44] peroty: So you must post.
[01:44] peroty: That is all
[01:44] DMGaretJax: Oddly enough I posted about two minutes ago
[01:44] peroty: I see.
[01:44] peroty: You now have 3 more months of Deviant Art love.
[01:45] DMGaretJax: *SNARL*

[01:46] peroty: *giggles* You cannot frighten me!

DAMN YOU

NOW I HAVE TO POST BECAUSE OTHERWISE I'LL FEEL BAD


(also thank you now i have a 3 month subscription because of you)

BUT DAAAAMN YOUUUUUUU!!!!!


*peroty GO TO HIM IF YOU LOVE ME

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4603010/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4603010/ Wed, 16 Feb 2005 23:36:23 PST
So maybe I'll be posting more as soon as I can scrape together the dough for another year subscription. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4356818/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4356818/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 00:34:53 PST Mood: ... ... ...shit shit
Listening to: NIN - The Fragile

So some people went insane and I got like 14 favs on that crazy avatar I posted a few days ago. What the fuck, people? Wow. Just... wow.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4290857/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/4290857/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 23:54:56 PST Mood: ... ... ...
Listening to: TEH NOCTAMBULS - $1.50

...Hm?

What was that?

Sorry, thought I heard something.

please
take this
and run far away
far away from me
i am tainted
the two of us
were never meant to be
all these pieces
and promises
and left behinds
if only i could see
in my nothing
you were everything
everything to me

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/3362849/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/3362849/ Tue, 14 Sep 2004 14:27:06 PDT Mood: ...overall

did you know that college is the most common cause of












































(attention span?)

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/3045554/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/3045554/ Wed, 04 Aug 2004 23:10:41 PDT Mood: ...overall
Listening to: lostprophets - last summer

Okay. Posted some writing, cleared out a billion messages, cleaning up my watch list so I'm not digging for stuff to see, and suchness, so I decided a small update might be in order.

First off, last weekend I saw Eighteen Visions, Midtown, and lostprophets. Eighteen Visions was pretty good, I met and shook the lead singer's hand by accident later; Midtown was decent, I guess, I was sitting off to the side relaxing with some water during their set because it was really hot. What I could tell, the music was good, but the lead singer played guitar so it wasn't as energetic a show as EV.

Then, of course, lostprophets kicked all kinds of ass. Easily one of the best shows I've seen in a long time, if their set was a mite bit short. Still worth the price of admission.

Anyway...

I realized recently I'm not gonna be on that much (well, comparitively) in about a month because it seems I'm on my way to college and don't have a computer to bring with. Hm. How'd that happen? Bad credit = no financing/loans for a laptop, that's how. I'll still be around as much as I am at all these days; there's computer labs and the computer at home (which will be two hours away), but that's not a computer I can hop on every time I'm bored, really.

So, yeah... That's about it, I guess.

EDIT: Oh yeah. [link] has a shop now. Go to it. I'll be buying a CD and maybe even that long sleeve shirt when I get some moneys.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2877008/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2877008/ Wed, 14 Jul 2004 00:18:32 PDT Mood: ...left behind
Listening to: Mason Profit - Two Hangmen
Reading: Aggripa's "Three Books of Occult Philosophy"
Watching: Spiderman 2

As I rode into Tombstone on my horse, his name was Mack,
I saw what I'll relate to you going on behind my back.
It seems the folks were up in arms, a man now had to die
For believing things that didn't fit the laws they'd set aside.

The man's name was Ima Freak, the best that I could see
He was the executioner, a hangman just like me.
I guess that he'd seen loopholes from working with his rope
He'd hung the wrong man many times so now he'd turned to hope.

He talked to all the people from his scaffold in the square
He told them of the things he'd found but they didn't seem to care
He said the laws were obsolete, a change they should demand
But the people only walked away, he couldn't understand.

The Marshal's name was Uncle Sam, he said he'd right this wrong
He'd make the hangman shut his mouth if it took him all day long.
He finally arrested Freak, and then he sent for me
To hang a fellow hangman from a fellow hangman's tree.

It didn't take them long to try him in their court of law
He was guilty then of thinking, a crime much worse than all,
They sentenced him to die so his seed of thought can't spread
And infect the little children, that's what the law had said.

So the hanging day came 'round, and he walked up to the noose
I pulled the lever but before he fell I cut him loose
They called it all conspiracy and that I had to die
So to close our mouths and kill our minds, they hung us side by side.

And now we're two hangmen, hanging from a tree,
That don't bother me at all.
Two hangmen hanging from a tree,
That don't bother me at all.





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My art's concentrated in motion right now
Maybe soon it'll be words again

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2776648/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2776648/ Thu, 01 Jul 2004 01:25:01 PDT Mood: ...left behind
Listening to: Dashboard Confessional - Vindicated
Reading: Neil Gaiman - Stardust
Watching: Spiderman 2

Meh to inactivity. I wrote something rather easily tonight. It flowed off my fingers like warm butter, which flows rather well, in case you're not too in touch with the flowocity of heated margarine. I also have a camera full of photos I took at a nearby campsite just after some tornados came through our area; some nice shit, I'm just too lazy and haven't had time to get them off.

College is coming, I'm hitting the Penny Arcade Expo at the end of August, lostprophets play Milwaukee 08/01, and I work 11-9 tomorrow and Friday. I can't wait. (sarcasm)

On the upside, I'm getting leet cash, on the downside, I shouldn't be spending.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2647492/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2647492/ Sat, 12 Jun 2004 23:57:11 PDT
Mood: so this one time
Listening to: i ate a guy
Reading: and he wouldnt stop screaming
Watching: but i think it added to the taste

yeah

yeah ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2625329/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2625329/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 23:29:10 PDT Mood: ...?
Listening to: tool - disposition
Reading: zombie survival handbook

the sky was a shade of red tonight i've rarely seen at 12 am. i'm mildly unnerved.

the sky feel weird tonight

but so does this site, eh? i can't get any fullviews to open.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2425036/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2425036/ Fri, 14 May 2004 00:48:06 PDT Mood: ...here
Listening to: lostprophets - for sure
Reading: Larry Niven - The Barsoom Project

if i could walk a thousand miles a day i'd try
to do it cause i don't know if you really care
i think i saw the sky tonight
pushin through it feels alright
and i just dont know who i wanna be

and everytime i see your face i laugh out loud
actin hot your fitting in with all the crowd
if i could i'd stop the time
ask you for a clever line
just because i know that you wont give it to me

its raining hard again here now
thatll never change

lets start a war
so whos to blame
when it ends it starts to rain down

at times i think that all i need is summer sun
burning in my eyes and breaking through the trees
at times i feel my place is empty
it looks as though i never met me
but my smile does only show one side of me

and i can show you a little slice of everyone
laughing in the dark i think youre having fun
the sunlight in your face that time
washes away all the grime
makes me forget just how much i hate you tonight

its raining hard again here now
thatll never change

lets start a war
so whos to blame
when it ends it starts to rain down

lets start a war
so whos to blame
when it ends it starts to rain
starts to rain
starts to rain
starts to rain
starts to rain
down

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2410654/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2410654/ Tue, 11 May 2004 23:39:17 PDT hey i see the trees are green again

Mood: ...mood of the wind
Listening to: lostprophets - Lucky You
Reading: Larry Niven - Dream Park
Watching: High Fidelity

The book is a lie, I started and finished it since last update.

I'm working a lot. I'm also burning my hands a lot. Today's submission is kinda the style I've been wanting to do for a while, but things either come to me and leave before I get home or just don't come.

Somehow I just want to be alone tonight. I'm gonna put on the headphones, shut off AIM (that happens rarely), and do whatever. Maybe write. Not a good mood, but not really a bad mood ever.

Just leave your piece, the three or four of you that care enough to.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2320614/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2320614/ Wed, 28 Apr 2004 22:11:12 PDT home
home again
i like to be here when i can

Mood: ...around the edges
Listening to: Pink Floyd - Breathe
Watching: Big Fish

The italics is a line from 's journal, followed by the comment I left about it. It turned out good and I wanted it posted. More stuff afterwards.

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textbook psychology doesn't apply to me because i'm far to aware of my own actions to subconsciously be anything. my subconscious is mearly something i can change at my whim, because i figured it all out already.

Stop typing me... I completely agree. Whenever people talk about their subconscious and shit, it's like I'm in the dark. I know what goes on in my head; it's generally got three modes. One, where I'm doing something and thinking about it. Two, where I'm doing something and thinking about something else. Three, where I shut down and just do what I have to do by instinct, which happens at work and when I'm writing and sometimes driving and it kinda scares me more than anything. It's completely bizarre to me that I can be at work doing shit and thinking about it but as soon as it gets busy and I'm just doing things I can look back at what I did and say, I did that without thinking. Some people might be like 'So what, it happens to everyone' but I like knowing what's happening in my head. There is one other thing that scares me, though, and that's when things happen I have no control over. Falling asleep kinda scares me, because I can't make myself do it. It's honestly frightening to me to wake up and realize I've been asleep, because obviously I don't remember falling asleep and I don't like that. Same goes for if I'm at somewhere and overtired and I start to nod off, it's kinda frightening that I can't keep my head up straight and my eyes open and my attention on the task at hand, because I can focus for three seconds and I'm falling asleep again.

Maybe it's why I don't have dreams in life. Maybe it's why I generally let things happen as they will, because I walk into situations knowing what I know and let the pieces fall as they will. Just once, once or twice, I think I'd like to make things happen my way, although I truly don't know what my way is in any situation because I'm so dependant on the flow of life to show me what the next step is. When making a decision about the future my mantra is 'I'll see what happens tomorrow' because I always know something will come up to help me decide one way or the other. Except someday in my life nothing will happen and I'll lose out on something incredible or die. If I die, oh well. If I lose out, well, maybe it'll force feed me an idea of what my life's about.

Sometimes I wonder if I haven't lost enough.
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The pics today are decent, and there's more I'm saving, but the 'showpiece', don't look to me for guidance, still bugs me. As I said, originally we took like 7 pics in all different poses and outfits, and only the three there were on the camera when I got home. Interesting, though, that the three were all in a line and of opposite clothings (Black on White, White on Black, Nothing). So not a total bust.

is awesome. I just thought I'd add that. So are a shitload of other people, but I still consider her the best undiscovered talent in this place...

...even if she does only have 700 less pageviews than me.

I cried for the first time at the end of a movie tonight- Big Fish. I'll be vague if you haven't seen it; when the main character is telling his dad the story, when he and his dad get down to the riverfront and everyone's there. Something about that moment just got to me, and I cried through pretty much the rest of the movie. I stopped just before the credits, but then the song was depressing and I started again.

I receive nine and a half more paychecks total until I go to college...

Still playing Final Fantasy XI. Lorelai on Bahamut, L20WAR, in Jeuno at the time of this writing.

]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2252378/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2252378/ Sun, 18 Apr 2004 22:30:32 PDT breathe
breathe in the air
dont be afraid to care

Mood: ...overall
Listening to: Pink Floyd - Breathe
Reading: Legends II

I found a place. Expect some pictures the next sunny day we have. I have no idea what type of pictures, but there'll be something going on.

No no, really, I'm serious this time.

home
home again
i like to be here when i can



Play Final Fantasy XI? On the Bahamut server? In or near Bastok? Gimme a buzz- I'm Lorelai. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2246028/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2246028/ Sat, 17 Apr 2004 23:51:20 PDT breathe in the air
dont be afraid to care[/i]

Mood: ...overall
Listening to: Pink Floyd - Breathe
Reading: Legends II

I may not be posting, but I'm in a terribly imaginative, poetic, receptive, and romantic mood.

I'm not creating, but the mindset is there. The brain is active, and god knows what put it that way.

So, who knows. Let it stir, ferment, you may see my triumphant return.




Okay, so you ALMOST had a post today. Last night there was a thunderstorm, some pretty incredible lightning up in the sky, but when I went out with the camera I missed it all. Could've tried again tonight, but it hailed. So I was thwarted by Thor.

[i]home
home again
i like to be here when i can[/i]



Play Final Fantasy XI? On the Bahamut server? In or near Bastok? Gimme a buzz- I'm Lorelai. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2175677/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2175677/ Wed, 07 Apr 2004 23:00:18 PDT as above

Mood: ...but rightfully so
Listening to: Pink Floyd - Dark Side of the Moon (album)
Watching: Office space

I have a job now. Have for a little while now.

That + FFXI = Little time for stuff... But jesus, did you see this??! (I'm amazed I remembered the HTML coding for that.) That might've just inspired me.

That plus Pink Floyd.

I'm into them now, you see.



Last night I had a dream I was a hand. Like a hand on a person. It was pretty trippy.

so below

Play Final Fantasy XI? On the Bahamut server? In or near Bastok? Gimme a buzz- I'm Lorelai. ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2105920/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2105920/ Mon, 29 Mar 2004 00:58:45 PST as above

Mood: ...but rightfully so
Watching: Office space

...Blame Final Fantasy XI.

I've been considering starting to take screenshots and passing them off as photography, but... heh.

There is a ray of hope; I've got a mood, which is the first step to my writing. There's also a photography contest going on in our local parks, I'll probably start working on that once it warms up a teensy bit more. Plus some shots for my own use.

Other than that... there's really not a shit of a lot to do, right now. Consider me Rut'd, though that could change when I start work at Culver's on Tuesday... $7.50/hr!! That's, like, fucking insane pay for this area. Champagne and caviar, baby.

so below ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2055794/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/2055794/ Sun, 21 Mar 2004 13:16:40 PST as above

Mood: ...and cold
Reading: Terry Brooks - Sometimes the Magic Works
Watching: Once Upon a Time in Mexico

So I almost died on Thursday.

Yeah. Now I'm house sitting because my mom's in California and Melissa's in Florida with her family. So I basically sit around at Melissa's all day reading and playing games. However, if I get up the inspiration I may hit their backyard with the camera.

Dunno yet.

So, details on that revelatory first statement whenever I get around to it. Not now, though. I've told the story too much lately.

so below ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/1961969/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/1961969/ Sat, 06 Mar 2004 13:13:38 PST as above

Mood: ...by myself
Listening to: lostprophets - Lately
Reading: ...waiting for something to come in...
Watching: Returner

Okay, so the new video for A Perfect Circle's The Outsider is out now. Check it out here. (On a peculiar side note, I'd completely forgotten how to link text like that until after I did it automagically. Woah.)

Anyway, the video is not for the faint of heart; it was directed by the same guy who directed the Bikini Bandits movie; you may remember it as the movie where Maynard plays Satan. Actually, if you 'remember' it at all, you're fucked up. Nobody knew that movie, despite the rather huge number of rock stars who made appearances, Jello Biafra (Dead Kennedys) and Dee Dee Ramone amongst them. Basically, it plays like another 'episode' of Bikini Bandits and involves a bunch of scantily clad women going around and fucking shit up in a little town, ending up by 'attacking' a nerdy pimply store clerk who may or may not be Maynard himself (His nametag says MAYNARD, and after they tear off his wig I think it looks like him. Other people don't agree with me, though.) and gett (re-)arrested.

So, yeah. Some people think it's the worst thing ever, that it's an embarassment and nothing but a kick in the teeth to Maynard fanboys who just wanted to see him in a video (ow). While I do agree with the second part (Ow!), I think it's actually pretty damn funny. A lot of people are getting really pissed off about it, about how it's just stupid and there's no point blah blah blah. SHUT THE HELL UP. It's a music video. This is not something to get mad about. Just enjoy it and pray that the video for Pet doesn't involve a montage of the band members' pets. (Though I understand MJK (EDIT: It's actually Adam Jones. You know, the Tool guitarist. D'OH!!! ~rainbowzen gets credit for pointing that one out.) has a pair of pigs, that would actually kinda fit with the meaning of the song...)

In other news, I had a bizarre dream last night about going on a two-day vacation to London and bringing absolutely no money. Oh, and I had nowhere to stay, either. All I had was an empty wallet and my cell phone, which probably wouldn't have even worked there. I ran into a friend of mine who actually lives in London and she gave me $15... American. What the hell? This was after the dream where I saw the alternate ending to The Passion; namely, the one where they just decide to let Jesus go free after his flogging and the king gives him a shirt. WHAT.

Remember I said that whole Maybe In March Milwaukee Get Together Thing With Me And *showna? It's not gonna work yet. It'll probably be April. I was originally planning on going while my g/f was out of town and I was watching their house, but it turns out that if I go away for two days there's gonna be nobody to feed/let out the dog. Oh well.

so below ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/1948767/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/1948767/ Thu, 04 Mar 2004 00:46:43 PST as above

Mood: ...building a space
Listening to: lostprophets - Lately
Reading: ...waiting for something to come in...

Yeah, just so you know. I'm still alive. Enjoying some peoples' works, wishing some people ( ) would start posting again.

and I may be getting together in Milwaukee later this month, sometime probably after the 20th. Anyone else up for a day jaunt around Milwaukee?

tell me that its all alright and i dont need happiness

so below ]]> ~the-darkmoogle http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/1907134/ http://the-darkmoogle.deviantart.com/journal/1907134/ Wed, 25 Feb 2004 22:10:38 PST as above

Mood: ...building a space
Listening to: Binary Star - Honest Expression
Reading: Neil Gaiman - American Gods

So I made 7k views. Awesome. I don't feel all that popular, but then, I don't really want to feel that way.

The writing is coming. Not at any kind of constant rate; it jumps, in fits and spurts. I write weird, when I'm working on something longer (especially a long piece of fiction like this)- I'll ignore it for a while, let my imagination wander at night, and then sit down and write a part. Not neccessarily (Actually, almost never) the next part from where I was before; just some major part. Inspiration will hit me and I'll write a part. Maybe the climax. Maybe the ending. I'll get all these parts typed into Word, then after I'm satisfied that I've captured all the major parts of the story, I'll sit down and work at connecting them.

It's like putting down the dots before I know how I want it to look when I connect them.

I'm not into hip hop all that much (My currently listening to song is hip hop, but if you mention that then SHUT YOUR UGLY FACE. ), but this whole Grey Album thing is bugging me. Check it out. It involves Jay-Z, the Beatles, some independant music, and corporate greed.

so below ]]> ~the-darkmoogle