http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:the-sky-is-falling&section=today deviantART RSS for by:the-sky-is-falling en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 14:09:35 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/8255995/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/8255995/ Fri, 24 Mar 2006 13:52:04 PST
it's been a long time since I heard your voice on the phone

Are you missing me now that you're alone?

You know, it's been a long time since I saw that look in your eyes,

that one the kept me so alive

Tonight I heard "I'm sorry" for the millionth time

and tonight I'll let it go, I'll let it slide

Just like I always did

I miss the way you held me close

come on pretty baby, we'll take it slow

we'll pretend we're still in love

Just until the sun comes up

Pretty baby, have I told you lately, just how much I've missed you? ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/7864499/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/7864499/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 11:59:13 PST Just drive and drive, never stop.
Get away from everything.
The headlights pierce the darkness and I follow where ever it leads.
The lake was beautiful in the moonlight.
The intoxication was obvious on your breath.
I couldn’t let you touch me because it physically hurts.
I just can’t let you get too close.
Because I just can’t take it again.
Couldn’t stand knowing I fell a second time.
Walk into a sleeping house, darkened with shadows taking on eerie shapes.
Paralyzed by the haunting melody that plays on the invisible breeze.
I just want to sleep forever so I don’t have to deal with this.
Double vision.
Seeing in strobe.
I’m getting dizzy and I’m stumbling.
This note written in the darkest ink is burning a hole in my back pocket.
It speaks of second chances.
Chances that aren’t deserved.
My stomach is flipping itself end over end.
I lean against the wall for support and end up on the floor.
I almost never want to get up again.
This is too much, what you said was overdone and overrated.
You ruined the apology with an excuse,
“I just didn’t know how much you meant until you didn’t need me anymore….”
You mean until I had someone else?
I cried all the way home, tears still hot on my cheeks.
It hurts to breathe.
Gravity pressing down on me and I can’t move.
Pins and needles everywhere.
Every muscle tense and I’ve got an odd feeling.
You said the words, looking me in the eyes
I did the hardest thing I’ve ever done.
I walked away.
I just can’t give you another chance to break me,
to rip me apart
to shatter my heart.
And to think……I used to believe in love…..
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Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest & it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you- and-rips-you-apart pain.
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I've got someone I care about so much.
But I don't think I will ever be able to say that stupid word ever again.
I just don't believe in it anymore.
it got ruined for me.
It's so hard to try again....but I'm trying with everything I've got.
I can't help but feel it's not fair to him because I can't give him all of me.... ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/7330999/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/7330999/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 19:10:16 PST today I got a tattoo.
I am a tough girl.
I love it.

things are going ok.....they aren't perfect but....I guess nothing ever is.

18 and....I'm not sure how i feel about that yet.

getting your heartbroken sucks.
but I'll live.
I haven't lost him totally yet. ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/7256002/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/7256002/ Thu, 08 Dec 2005 13:27:17 PST
and then you finally get there and it just seems like time went way too fast.....

my birthday is next friday on the 16th.

I still don't have a car.....but I'm ok with that cause I don't have to drive in the snow.

I'm still on court supervision for my ticket.

I'm still with randy.....and hoping it stays that way.



I just called and made an appointment to get a tattoo.....

I can buy cigarrettes and porn.....

but I probably won't buy the porn.....maybe just once because I can.

Hopefully.....this year will be better than the last two have been...... ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6708835/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6708835/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 00:24:30 PDT
about 5 hours ago.

I flipped it......a lot.

240 ft off the road....I'm sure that's a record somewhere.

no one was with me.

I didn't hit anyone else.

no one else was even envolved.

Ended up on it's roof.

Broke just about every damn thing in it that could break........with the exception, thankfully, being myself.

I'm alive....I have no idea how.

and I didn't break anything.....I should have.

scrapes and bruises....a lot of them mind you....and only one ticket for 75 bucks...but I"d say I got damn lucky.

I feel like I dreamed it almost.


1. scariest thing ever.

2. the 'slow motion' thing.....that's true.

3. you'll always remember the exact moment you knew what was going to happen.

4. you'll always know exactly what you thought right before everything becomes a blur.

5. you'll find out quick who really cares........and who's going to be there for you.

6. when you're strapped down to a gurney in an ambulance and someone's looking down at you and holding your hand.......the eyes say it all.....

7. tonight when he said the words, they hit me hard........and I'll never doubt them again.



a verse from a song that I haven't heard in about a year keep playing over and over in my head.....

late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
red light, can't stop so i spin the wheel
my world goes black before i feel an angel lift me up
and i open bloodshot eyes into fluorescent white
they flip the siren, hit the lights, close the doors and i am gone ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6705132/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6705132/ Fri, 07 Oct 2005 15:20:46 PDT I'm sorry I failed.
I tried to hang in there.
I'm sorry I bailed.

I tried to be who you wanted.
I'm sorry I'm individual.
I tried to be normal.
I'm sorry I'm unusual.

I tried to work hard.
I'm sorry I'm lazy.
I tried to stay awake.
I'm sorry my vision got blurry.

I tried to be brave.
I'm sorry I got scared.
I tried to be perfect.
I'm sorry I'm impaired.

I tried to be strong.
I'm sorry I'm not tough.
I tried to be everything.
Apparently, trying isn't good enough ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6650586/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6650586/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 11:27:56 PDT
how do you get rid of the feeling in your chest.......?

It hurts so bad.



I think I've held all of it in for too long.....

it's finally getting to be too much.....

I finally broke...

and I can't stop crying...


I just don't know what to do.
or what to say.

I'm told I'm good with words.....but I can't find the right ones to say now....


How do you send the one you love away.....tell him to take his time to figure out what he wants, what he needs.....

how do you get over the fear that he's not going to come back.... ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6612879/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6612879/ Mon, 26 Sep 2005 23:36:44 PDT and twist my words around on me

my heart is confused
and doesn't know what to do

you said you hate to see girls cry
Oh, if you could only see me now

I'll do anything to bring out that smile
you do nothing but let me down

I wish we could go back to when everything was new
When everything was ok

you know how to push and mold my emotions to get your way
I hate feeling so wrapped up in this

no way out
chest so heavy I can't breathe

you take me up so high, like it's a game,
to see how far I'll go

and then you drop me, to see how many pieces,
I've shattered into.

If this is love, I wish I'd never fallen
This hurt is more than I can take

the worst thing is, you're the only one who can make it go away ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6558372/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6558372/ Tue, 20 Sep 2005 20:01:28 PDT
for all of you that read my english paper that I put up here..."captivated"

I got it back today...

and he gave me a D.....a freakin' D.....

yeah.

what a freakin' douche.

"it was very very creative....but I had no idea what you were talking about..."

MORON.



thanks for all the nice comments though guys....seriously....

you guys are way cooler than him. ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6188890/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6188890/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 14:23:28 PDT
for.serious. ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6119115/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/6119115/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 03:25:13 PDT -
so tired of sleepless nights.
-
listening to slow songs and waiting for dawn.
-
6 flags this weekend.
-
excited.
-
going to ride rollercoaster's until I puke.
-
*smile*
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"...I wanna be a crystal baller..."
-
third eye blind
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I missed you all how has everyone been??
- ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/4466390/ http://the-sky-is-falling.deviantart.com/journal/4466390/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 21:01:13 PST And unravel my defenses.

Full of frustration.
From caring too much.
And feeling so alone.
Constant nervous movement.
My demeanor suggests I’m uneasy.
Anxious.
Tense.
Strained.
Try to stand on two feet.
Disheartened,
When I’m thrown back down.
To my knees.
This view has become familiar.
Cauterized.
Burned.
Cut Short.
I’ll keep this simple with,
S.t.a.c.c.a.t.o. thoughts.
And.
Sentence.
Fragments.
I feel detached.
You leave me,
Raw.
Like an open wound.
Shaking.
And prettily bruised.

Pull this thread beautiful.
With your caloused, subtly strong hands.
That just happen to be the exact size of mine.
You know me better than anyone.
I love your vanishing act.
It is quite the classic.
And you do it better than anyone.
Impeccable. ]]> ~the-sky-is-falling