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So here's the deal, my last update was pretty somber, sorry about that, you guys caught me on one of my bad days.

Life ain't so bad if you look at it from the right perspective. I mean I can be thankful for the fact that despite my life not turning out the way I want it there are things to be happy about.
1. While I'm not the smartest person in the world. I'm also not the dumbest.

2. I may not have the best job I could, but hey I'm certainly the best person at my job. Like I'm certainly better than the retarded cart pusher who has a former felony conviction for arson.

3. Sure I may have never had a girlfriend and still be a virgin, but hey I've never had a bad relationship and I've never gotten anyone pregnant,so unlike the 18-year-old unwed mother I work with who got pregant in high-school, my life isn't over

4. I'm may not make friends easily but I do have some awesome friends

5. I'm a geek, but on the other hand I'M A GEEK!!!

So life ain't so bad

on to the normal ranting

Am I the only person who is super creeped out by the retarded? I totally believe we should make them work in the factories so we don't have to be around them. I hate when they talk, they just make my skin crawl. I think most people feel this way but are afraid to admit it because "oh they're less fortunate, it's not their fault..." still they are a burden on us and I think we should put them out of site out of mind.

I'm not saying that they aren't people, just that they creep me out.

After today I am done for the quarter, yay!!!! so if anyone wants to start hanging out, YES!!!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/28704176/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/28704176/ Wed, 02 Dec 2009 05:43:15 PST
Finals are next week, so I'm studying trying to keep up my grades so my parents will reimburse me for classes.

Been fighting with my rents alot lately mostly over how they don't think I put enough effort into my classes and also about money. The other day I was feeling kind of down so I did the only thing that makes me feel better, I bought something, nothing huge just $15 for a copy of the semi-new DC animated flick Superman/Batman Public Enemies. My parents apparently logged into my account to see how I'd been spending my money and gave me holy hell over spending $15. My mom said it was like a slap to her face. They hate it when I spend money but sometimes I just have to, I guess you could compare it to a junkie, when I get really stressed out I have to make a purchase, usually something superhero related.

They've been calling me lazy and saying that I'm just full of excuses and that there is nothing preventing me from doing well in my classes and that I just don't care enough to put forth the effort. They say I should stop being so damn unhappy because there are people much worse off than me who manage to pull it off. People who are poor or disabled or have learning disabilities. But what they can't seem to realize is that happiness and likewise unhappiness is all relative. In some ways my pain is worse than those with more tangible ailments than depression. When you're disabled or poor or have a learning disability the world feels for you, takes pity on you, even helps you, but no one cares when you're just angry and sad for no rational reason. People can't see chemical imbalances, they can't hold them in their hands or see it on your face so they dismiss it as you just not caring, and in a way they are right, I don't care, I can't think about anythig other than how angry and miserable I am and my work suffers for it. The only two things that ever seemed to ease the pain were making purchases which my ability to do is now severely hampred by the fact that the majority of my paychecks go to payback my dad for college tuition. The other thing that helped was going to see a psychologist but I had to stop that because as my parent's put it, they weren't going to pay $140 an hour for someone who was only making me feel better instead of curing me. On top of all this my pills don't seem to be working anymore, I'm in kind of a bad place right now.

Ok on to less depressing news.

NEW HEROCLIX YAY!!!!
Hopefully I'll be able to make it to a few tournaments over winter break. I was going to one this Saturday but my family decided that was the day we were all going to get the Christmas tree so that's a no-go, there's another one on the 19th and hopefully I can make it to that one.

Been making lots of theme teams lately, most of them centering around the new Captain America figure, I love that the fig has been released because now my avengers teams can truly be complete I mean it's just not the avengers without cap leading the way.

Looking forward to winter break, I've applied for four different positions at local Blockbusters hopefully something comes of it.

Started reading the series Runaways last night, it's pretty good. I can see why EB likes it.

I've officially switched over from a Gen Ed. major to an E-Marketing Major, I'll be taking whatever classes I can at Columbus State and then finishing out at Franklin University with a 4-year degree, so it looks like I have about 2 1/2 more years worth of courses to take and then I can finally be rid of College. Unfortunately this means that once again I've jipped myself out of a college experience, just like I jipped myself out of the experiences of having a car in high-school, dating, going to prom, basically name a milestone and I've missed it, hell I was even the last kid to learn to tie my shoes and I still can't ride a bike.

Essentially I'll be happy to see my college years be a thing of the past, if you're reading this then that probably means we are friends and I just want to say to you, you guys are the one thing that has made these past four years barable. Hopefully we stay in touch after we're all out of school. Frankly I find it hard to meet new people these days seeing as my genral opinion of people is not a very positive one. I doubt very much that I'll be able to meet anyone I deem relationship worthy in the next few years and once I'm out of college I'll really have no way of meeting women, so I suppose I'll be alone in that aspect for the majority if not entirety of my life. I'll make very few friends at work mainly because I don't want to be friends with people I work with, so unless I keep going to heroclix tournaments and meet people there I can't really say how I'll be able to make new friends. So thanks everyone for your friendship, it has meant the world to me.

Sorry for the depressing update, it's been a... ]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/28231469/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/28231469/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 06:37:04 PST
Since I last posted I've been making many heroclix trades, trying to aquire some of my key wants out of the game. Since I will be taking part in certain open format competitions I am no longer restricting myself to tournament legal figs.

I have switched my major to Marketing. My thought behind the change was as follows.
I've been in college for four years and I haven't even completed a two-year degree yet, it feels like a wasted four years. Seeing as how difficult community college has been for me, I am starting to think I will not be completeing a four-year degree. Because of this I decided to change my two-year program from an Associate of Arts to Marketing. An associate of arts is fine if you are going to complete a four-year degree, otherwise it makes you look like an indcisive asshole who went to college for the sole purpose of putting off the real world for 2-4 years. So it seemed as though it would be beneficial to get a real degree and not some bullshit one. With this degree and perhaps one-day a completed 4-year marketing degree hopefully I can find a career doing something with comic books or maybe even working for WizKids. But I just don't want to end up like the people I currently work with, having a two-year degree in bullshit and working full-time at a Giant Eagle Grocers.

Concerning the girl I mentioned in a previous post. It has come to naught, not by way of rejection but by way of personal epiphany. I just do not believe it would benefit either party if I began dating an 18-year-old college freshman. I'm almost 22, I should be graduating this year but am not. Also my financial situation barely supports myself let alone the cost of a girlfriend. At the same time, I feel as though I would have very little in common with an 18-year-old, also my current melancholy may only drag her down with me. Also if I was going to date a geeky girl, I would much rather date one who liked superhero comics and not Manga. I am open to the idea of her being a friend, but that is all.

Who can take your debt?
Make it go away?
While the bank goes under from the mortgage you can't pay? Obama man can!!!!

So I have this weird theory that I hope is proven right, and that is that Obama was put into power by Rush Limbaugh, Glenn Beck, and Sean Hannity for the soul purpose of making the Democrats look bad (as if they can't do that themselves) and getting rid of Nancy Pelosee and most of the democrats in power. I mean how else does it make sense that a man thought to be a messaiah of america is such a total douche-wash..oh yeah cause the entire election was solely about race. God I hope he doesn't win a second time.

So I'm still uber-excited about the new upcoming heroclix set, it'll be out next week.

I've been doing pretty well in my heroclix games with Tim, he's getting kinda pissed cause he's not used to losing to me, I can't tell if it's cause he's slipping, I'm getting better, or if it's just the much more expensive figs I own, maybe a combination of the three. Anyway it'll be nice to see how my skills stack up against the guys at the tournament next thursday.

the tournament is open format meaning you can use any guy from any set. 500 point teams each with a general who is leading your force he can cost any number of points you want, the rest of the team must be 70 points or under. If your general dies then the game is over.

I'm going to use a guy called Magog as my General, for those of you not familiar with Magog I suggest you look him up he's pretty wicked in the comics. The rest of the guys on the team are all there to boost his stats, heal him, or just get in the way of people smashing him. Should be a pretty good team.

So I was having a discussion with a friend about the shroud of turin, about how it may have been made by Davinchi using his own face and what a laugh it must have been for a heretic to have christians everywhere worship his face, and I decided I want to do that, I want Christians to worship my face.
I'll get to heaven, and St. Peter will be there and will say, "Sean, you got millions of christians to worship your face as a god, that's idolitry." I'll say "so are you not going to let me in?" He'll say "Oh no. you worshipped Jesus so you're golden, but just so you know if someone comes up to you and says "my son's in hell because of you" that's why."

I wish I had more people to play heroclix with outside of tournaments seeing as right now, I play with Tim..and that's it. I was hoping my friend Tommy would get into the game but he has no interest in it. maybe I'll try to get Dan or EB into it, dang I need friends I have more in common with.

Still hate my job, still hate school, still hate

that is all

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/27758054/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/27758054/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 07:08:52 PDT
Like I said before I've been playing the PC version of GTA3, and I must admit i much prefer the pc version to the PS2 one, this has always been one of my favorite games and I'm glad to be playing it again, I've also been using several skin mods in the game, to say turn the cars into actual models of cars, put actual stores in the city and change my character to either SS3 Goku or Cloud Strife, yeah it's been fun

I also now have Final Fantasy VII on my computer and that's been fun despite some minor setbacks like having to replay the OH NO PRESIDENT SHINRA IS DEAD cutscene like a million times and still being stuck between catching the elusive chocobo or fighting the giant snake monster. But I like the game. I wouldn't have payed 70 bucks for it like some people would but it's a fun game.

Been reading a comic book called "Project Superpowers" it's co-written and partially illustrated by Alex Ross and I must say I did not know he wrote comics but I'm glad he does. It's an interesting story about WW2 superheroes suddenly appearing in modern times after being lost for almost 60 years. It's really well written and the guy who does most of the art is really tallented. If they come out with a vol. 2 I'll be sure to buy it.

Classes are going well, I've applied to OSU for Winter Quarter now I'm just waiting on a few transcripts to be sent so they can process my request. Hopefully I'll be out of CSCC soon.

Went to a customer service seminar at work yesterday. I had to sit in a room for 4 hours discussing things I already know how to do. It blew chunks. I'm great at customer service, granted most of my coworkers aren't but that's not what pissed me off. What pissed me off was not that they wanted us to give great customer service, but that they wanted us to want to give great customer service. I mean I make 8.50 an hour which is pretty good for a cashier, still I'm not payed enough to give a damn, I give great customer service because I don't want to be fired and want to be a good employee. When someone is excited about the new work uniforms because he gets to wear a hat that makes it easier not to look at people there's not much chance that he's gonna give great service because he cares about the customers. The way I figure it so long as the job gets done and gets done well, who cares about the motivations behind it?

Don't let that last paragraph fool you, I am in especially good spirits. For the first time in a long while I am actually happy. I've actually met someone who right now is just a friend but there is definately potential there. I can't believe I'm actually excited to go to class for a change. Sure I'm broke and my parents still give me headaches (just today they yelled at me for being out late even though I was up and out the door on time) but I actually feel good, like there's less pressure upon me. I have friends, a job, freetime, and who knows what else is in store for me. I feel good, and I hope it stays that way.

Been playing Superhero City on facebook, if you are at all into facebook games I reccomend this one. it's a lot of fun. I've been playing more games since cancelling my WoW account, I guess it's easier to enjoy free games when you aren't sinking 15 a month into one that costs actual money

Also New Heroclix set comes out November 18th YAY!!!!!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/27721085/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/27721085/ Mon, 12 Oct 2009 07:51:20 PDT Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du

that being said I hate the recent trend of people starting off their Journals making their facebook status a quote from either poety or the lyrics of a song, it doesn't make you clever or deep or even interesting, you're just as stupid as the rest of the world so stop trying so hard I still hate you...

Anyway about a month till HoT comes out so (YaY Loki)
Been playing GTA3 on muh PC still (yay goku)
Been going to class (boo class)
Saw an awesome horror film called Trick R Treat (Yay Sam)
Reading an awesome new comic I bought called project superpowers (yay heroes)

That is all (yay over)

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/27462461/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/27462461/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 06:46:22 PDT I hate college, supposedly it's the best years of your life, if that's the case then I should kill myself because as far as school is concerned they've been the worst. I'll admit I have had fun with my group of friends, a lot of fun, but that in no way has anything to do with school and I most likely would have had the same experiences with them had I been working a full time job. I hate Columbus State and I hated Bowling Green, so to assume that OSU will be any different is a big gamble. Still it's one I hope to make. I am taking a Business Communication class and two upper level english classes to boost my GPA to better appeal to a 4-year institution.

In other news, Halloween is just around the corner and I am happy two say I have my costume done, I gave up on the Rorschach idea and briefly considered going as Clark Kent aka Superman but have instead opted for a more obscure masked mystery man who until such a time as I attend a halloween party shall remain nameless.

In Heroclix news the game is coming back, the company has been purchased and work has resumed on the game, the upcoming Hammer of Thor set is due to release in November and already the Collosal Fig "Thor's Mighty Chariot" is available for Purchase on Amazon.com, I already got mine, he is awesome. I'm so happy heroclix is back.

Been Playing Ultimate Alliance 2 with Tim and Dani lately it's a fun game, could stand to have a longer storyline and a few more characters but it's altogether a better game than the original Ultimate Alliance.
Played Batman Arkham Asylum a bit when I rented it from Blockbuster, it's a masterpiece of gaming and superherodom. I can't wait to buy it.

New DC animated universe DVD comes out tomorrow, it's based of of one of my favorite comics "Batman/Superman public enemies" you can bet I'll be getting a copy.

Planning on having a movie night on Halloween after Trick r' Treat so if you are reading this you are probably invited.

Hope all is well with you guys. Talk to you later.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/24750506/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/24750506/ Thu, 14 May 2009 08:36:19 PDT 2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!


1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Fritz Reinhart Bayer

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
Chronologically I'm 87 but biologically I'm 28, that's cryofreezing for you

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
German Sausage

4. And your favorite drink?
Good German Beer

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
Don't have one, no time, I wasn't made for love

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Pig!! are you even listening to me?!

7. Classic question! What's your favorite colour?
Red White and Black

8. Who's your favorite author?
The Furher

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Jews!!! Zeh are Everyvhere!!!

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
three sisters, two brothers, my sister Eva and Brother Ralph died in the war, Sophie, Rudolph, and Anna all died of old age a few years agi

11. Almost, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
My glorious leader Nosferatu, he is truly a great man and a credit to the Superior Race

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
That damn Freedom Force and their attempts to stop us.

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
That would never happen, it is not possible. I will kill you for your insinuation of lies!!!

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
If he was one of us, I would be delighted, if he was of inferior lineage I would kill him.

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
A General in the 5th Column

16. What's your worst nightmare?
Having the superior race of man wiped out by the inferiors

17. What's your lifelong dream?
To sink my teeth into the flesh of my enemies

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
Oh but it does, every damn day

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
The Lair

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
The dirty work of the 5th Column.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/24750408/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/24750408/ Thu, 14 May 2009 08:24:58 PDT 2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
5. Have fun!!!


1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Jonathan Sylvester Geiger, sometimes I am called the Red-Gold Guardian

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
Thirty-seven

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
French Toast and Fries, together on the same plate

4. And your favorite drink?
I enjoy a Sam Adams ever now and then

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
Galaxy Girl, dunno something about a super-hot lady from, an alien planet really turns me on.

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
sure

7. Classic question! What's your favorite colour?
Yellow and Red, after all I wear it every day

8. Who's your favorite author?
Geoff Johns

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Failure, I cannot fail, the team depends on me, I cannot fail them.

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
No

11. Almost, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
All-American Ace, the first defender of Freedom City

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
Colonel Crime

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Wow a traitor!! Well I guess I'd have no choice but to take them both into custody

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Well he'd probably want me to fly around while carrying him...which is really gay but I guess I'd do it, he is my creator after all.

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
Uhm I am grown up and I'm a superhero so I guess that

16. What's your worst nightmare?
A mass invasion of Freedom City by every know criminal entity at once

17. What's your lifelong dream?
A long successful career as Freedom Force Leader, a life of adventure, intrigue, romance and excitement.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
It seems to be going that way, so I guess I'd just keep doing what I'm doing.

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
That would be my fortress of Solitude...just kidding, Galaxy Girl's place of course

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Stopping Criminal acitivity as well as a mass culling of bears. God how I hate criminals and bears and especially bears with a criminal record.

****
Wow that was kinda fun,

Anyway lots of stuff been going on as of late, school, work, video games, it seems I spend most of my free time either writing out my story for M&M, playing Left 4 Dead, or Heroclixing, god how I love heroclix. Just the other day I bought some more, I hadn't bought any clix since the company disbanded but I just felt like getting some more, so I bought a brick. inside where a Superman-Prime (take that Tim) also Chang Tzu, another Robin (score) and quite a few other figures. I've been making teams as of late I've made either 5 or 6 I can't remember which all of them 1000 points. I won the last game I played and OMG what a victory it was, didn't lose a single one of my key players. Anyway that's what's been going on as of late, !!cool beans!!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/24477614/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/24477614/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 09:57:10 PDT
Classes are the suck, not so much in that they're really hard (though Anthropology certainly is) it's more that they are insanely boring, at least last quarter I had a class I was interested in. I can't wait for summer. I'm going to apply at my local Borders to work there friday-sunday and work the other days at Giant Eagle, I'm not super psyched about working 40+ hour weeks but I'll really need the money when I transfer to OSU next year. Plus if I work the weekends at Borders instead of Giant Eagle, I'll be much more relaxed because I hate working weekends at Giant Eagle, the customers are the suck

In other news I'm still playing City of Heroes, I've taken a break from Captain Fancy and have instead been playing as my hero "Expendable Lad" which is where I got the idea from, and my Villain "Dauchowler" Expendable Lad is Level 16 and Dauchowler is Level 14. they are similar characters in manner of play style with minor differences, still they work well for playing solo so that makes it fun. Yesterday when I started playing Expnd Lad was level 13, 2 hours and two group missions later he was up to lvl 16 which is no small feat, this made me happy because now he can fly.

In other games, I'm almost done with my storyline for Mutants and Masterminds, it's a simplistic yet enjoyable story that is part my own creation and part taken loosely from one of my favorite comic book storylines, I'm finishing the writing down of the story, then making character sheets and finally character illustration cards using the CoH character creator and photoshop. Once we've played the game I will post a comprehensive outline of the story as well as al the characters, but seeing as most of the people who view my stuff on this will be playing the game, I don't want to give anything away.

New Dynasty Warriors comes out tomorrow, it's for the PSP I traded in some games today and pre-bought it, I pick it up tomorrow should be neat.

I've been thinking alot lately about dating and how I never do it. I feel now more than ever a desire to start dating and perhaps become close to someone, the problem is that I lack both charm and any kind of skill-set needed for romantic conquest. Also while there are possibly someones I have in mind, each one is a longshot, and I also have yet to meet anyone even remotely interesting who catched my fancy at my college. For the first time in my entire life I feel lonely and it is by far a very unpleasant feeling. I fear sometimes that I may have missed out or may be missing a crucial mental/behavioral trait that allows me to connect with someone in a romantic way, seeing as until recently I have never even been slightly interested in dating and to be honest regarded romantic love as a sign of weakness. That combined with my unusual and less than mainstream interest-set makes finding someone who is both mentally compatable and also physically attractive enough to be a bit of a conundrum. Hopefully my transfer to a real college next winter will remedy this situation.

There is a certain type of malaise that seems to have swept over me, one that keeps me from caring about much, in fact I find it quite hard to keep studying and keep going to work, in fact anything at all hard or unpleasant is incredibly difficult for me to stick with. I become distracted easily and this is in no way a easy thing for one with ADHD to deal with. I just wish my life was more exciting that I did exciting things, that I was happy, but I'm not happy, I might not be miserable like I once was, but I am certainly not happy. My life is missing something but I'm not sure what it is. Hopefully I'll find out soon.

As far as everything else goes, I'll probably be going to see the new Wolverine movie with my Dad since all my friends have already watched the leaked version. Other than that not a whole lot is going on in my life.

there's the update, peace out y'all!!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/24108669/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/24108669/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 09:15:51 PDT I think about comic books and how they all put their focus on either a hero, villain, or anti-hero and follow him throughout a particular set of events featuring recurring characters, enemies and allies until a conclusion at which point the process begins again.

My idea is similar but with a twist.
Meet Expendable Lad, sidekick extrordinaire. Gifted with the power of near invulnerability he is the perfect human shield, he can take a punch, a bullet, even a blast from a death ray. He has worked with and been trained by all the great heroes, yet due to many factors including his age, experience, abilities, and whatever else he is still just a sidekick who never stays with one hero for too long before finding another in an attempt to complete his training and become a full fledged hero.

The comic will be a superhero/comedy in theme with each storyline pairing Expendable Lad with a different mentor figure who big surprise doesn't respect him as an equal. Not only will we see the hectic hero side of Expendable Lad but also his struggles as a young adult in either a high school or college setting.

So far this is just a rough idea but I think it could be great fun to try, I'll need a co-writer as well as an artist or two to pull it off but that's something I'll get to probably this summer.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/23040568/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/23040568/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 13:11:54 PST
1st of all I think I've finally decided on a course of study once I transfer from Columbus state to a four year college, I'm most likely going to major in communications for a bachelor's degree then transfer to Kent state for a Master's degree in Library Science. I did a lot of soul searching and realized the only work I've ever really felt passionate about that I can make a career of was when I was working in a Library. So I'll be Sean Falk head Librarian, I will shelve books, dust shelves, take inventory, and in my spare time I shall quest for the spear...(if you got that joke then you watch as many terrible movies as I do)

I got a bonus at work and decided to splurge and buy myself something nice. I have a rule, if the bonus is 49.00 or over I put it into my bank account, if it is 48.99 or under I buy Sean something nice with it. My bonus was for 47 dollars so I went to best buy and purchased the complete series of Baki the Grappler one of my favorite animes. The entire run of the show lasted 2 very different seasons and I must say I like season 2 better than season 1 but both are good. The fights are quick and last at the most 1 1/2 episodes but usually there are several fights per episode, so none of that DBZ takes 17 episodes to get through one fight crap.

I read a neat book called "Does this cape make me look fat?" it's a pop psychology book for superheroes, it discussed everything from name selection to the hero-sidekick relationship, even dealing with a villainous parent and sexual harassment in a hero-team environment, it's freakin hilarious!!! I almost don't want to return it to the library, but since I'll have to pay for it either way I might as well get a nice shiny new copy as opposed to a used library copy.

School's been going pretty well, been getting good grades, and with any luck I'll have my associates degree by early next year, ran into a bit of a snag with online classes last quarter got 3 Fs but I'm retaking the classes which will erase them from my GPA.

I finally caved to peer pressure and purchased an account on an MMORPG, but HAHA it is not the one you think (well maybe it is) instead of playing World of Warcraft like everyone kept telling me to, I acquired an account on CoH/V (City of Heroes/Villains)I currently have 4 different characters (2 each on 2 different servers) the original Hero/Villains I was playing as on the Guardian Server (Stovetop-Polybius/Sinneslochen) a Blaster and Stalker class respectively I have all but abbandonded due to the limited number of people playing on that particular server. Instead I joined one of the two busier servers (Freedom) and created the villain .Jabberwock who is another Stalker though I must admit I am growing tired of that particular class seeing as they are a jack of all trades master of none, plus I was rather unimaginative in the costume. My favorite character is Captain Fancy who I will post a picture of later. He's a Tanker who I costumed as an homage to my favorite hero captain America, not a blatant copy, though his costume is red/white he has star insignia (different pattern than Cap's though) and a round shield. He is currently level 11 and my highest level guy, oddly enough he is also my newest character. I was playing the game solo for the most part until yesterday when I went on a few group missions and found it to be a much more efficient way to level up. Also I have joined a Supergroup (a guild for you WoW guys) basically I've had limited interaction with them, though one of my groupmates and I were part of a team yesterday. Honestly I really like this game, I still have no desire to play WoW but I will admit I was wrong about MMORPGs still so long as there are decent superhero themed one's available I will steer clear of the Fantasy ones.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/22875729/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/22875729/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 21:37:41 PST
I. Polybius - [link]
II. Sinneslöschen - [link]
III. 3-Eye - [link]
IV. Omega Man - [link]
V. Rad Roach - [link]
VI. Dauchowler - [link]
VII. Mental Master - [link]
VIII. Lady Lust - [link]
IX. Lassassin - [link]
X. Maltese - [link]
XI. Black Hole - [link]
XII. Aria - [link]

I. I (Polybius), VI (Dauchowler), and XI (Black Hole) are all told to wait in a room together until someone comes in to get them. Let's say no one does. Who would leave the room first?

Polybius would wait patiently as would Black Hole, Dauchowler would attempt to kill Polybius but then Polybius would use his emotion control power to instill great fear in Dauchowler who would then run out of the room in a terrified frenzy.

II. If II (Sinneslöschen) had to do one nice thing for VIII (Lady Lust), what would it be?

Sinneslöschen would capture Polybius and let Lady Lust have first dibs on him before Sinneslöschen kills him.

III. If IV (Omega Man) and VII (Mental Master) co-starred in a movie, what genre would it most likely fall under?

A film about supervillains of course

IX. If III (3-Eye) was made into a toy, who would be more likely to buy it? IX (Lassassin) or X (Maltese)?

Well seeing as Lassassin is a hardened killer she would most likely not wish to buy a toy, however should Maltese use his powers to create copies of himself, there is a possibility that one of his duplicates may have a childlike mind and buy the toy.

V. Would V (Rad Roach) be likely to consider stalking XII (Aria) or vise versa?

Well Aria is hot, and Rad Roach is basically deprived of physical human contact so yeah he could be unstable enough to stalk a pretty girl

VI. What would VI (Dauchowler) make the better star of? An anime or a newspaper comic strip?

The Dauchowler is a Nazi werewolf so definitely an anime

VII. VIII (Lady Lust) wants to buy a car but can't decide who offers a better bargain. Should (s)he buy from II (Sinneslöschen) or XI (Black Hole)?

Sinneslöschen has emotional control and sensory deletion powers which if he was selling a lemon he would try to use on the potential buyer, however since Lady Lust could simply use her powers to make Sinneslöschen fall in love with her, he isn't likely to try and fool her, Due to the instability of Black Hole's powers any car he owns is most likely beat to hell, so I would say she should buy from Sinneslöschen but only after a test drive.

VIII. If V (Rad Roach) wanted to dye his or her hair but could not decide on the color, would (s)he rely on I's (Polybius) opinion or IV's (Omega Man)?

Well first thing's first, Rad Roach is a Radiation soaked human inside a nuclear powered exo-suit, he has no hair left. But if he did I think the likeliness of him asking Polybius is relatively slim seeing as any interaction with him is most likely to be a fight, I do believe he would and should ask Omega Man seeing as they are teammates in the League of Evil so he's much more likely to get an honest answer out of him.

IX. Whose babies would be cuter? XII (Aria) and III's (3-Eye) or IX (Lassassin) and II's (Sinneslöschen)? (If it is impossible for them to breed because of gender or species, just go with it and pretend that it was possible, please.)

Definately Lassassin and Sinneslöschen's Both of them are relatively good looking and Lassassin is the epitome of genetic physical perfection. While Aria is quite attractive 3-eye has a physical mutation and unstable DNA making the likelihood of a freak baby highly possible.

X. Who would have a DeviantArt account; and if not, what would their reason be?

Possibly Mental Mas... ]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/22521651/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/22521651/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 09:39:52 PST [link])

Ok so last night I was driving down a side road on the way to a friend's house to play a game of Vampire the Masquerade, I was driving about 20-25mph when my car hit a patch of black ice and skidded on the road running straight into a mailbox. Seeing as I was not hurt and my car seemed to be in no danger of bursting into flames, I exited my vehicle and went up to the house, knocked on the door and explained what had happened, the owner was quite understanding, seemingly more worried about my physical well being than the condition of his mailbox (apparently there are still decent folks in the world) I apologized and offered to make restitution, I come to find out that the mailbox was rotting away and that he had already purchased the materials to replace it. He told me not to worry about it, and that he was just glad that I was ok and that I had been honest and told him what had happened instead of just driving off. He told me to just go home and not worry anymore about it, and to drive safe. I thanked him, apologized again, and said God bless, upon which time I finished the short drive to the friend's house where I recounted my story to them, sat down to collect my nerves, with no real intention of staying to play the game. Fortunately (I guess) as luck would have it, some of the group had been wiser than I and decided they would not be making the drive down the side roads to my friend's so a mutual concensus was reached that everyone would go home and drive carefully.
This morning I told my father about the accident and we spent time assessing the damage (a few dents and scrapes) and then I washedthe hood, we used rubbing compound, he is touching up a few spots of paint, and I will then be waxing the car. Seeing as it's an 11 year old car it we are nto going to get the dents fixed as it is not really worth spending over a grand to fix a decade old automobile. Anyway that's what happened.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21994585/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21994585/ Mon, 15 Dec 2008 09:47:32 PST away from cops we go
yelling all the way AHHHHHH HAAAAAAA HAAAAAAAA

Anyway seasons greetings, my last post was in December, most of my posts are being posted on my new blog, not for any other reason than it's bright and shiny and it makes me feel good.

Anyway thought I'd stop by and give you a holiday update.
I'm done with the family Christmas shopping, and since I typically don't do Christmas with friends, I'm only one more white elephant gift away from shop-freedom.
I got my mom a Sega Genesis and some games this year, wait let me explain. When I was little my parents got me a Sega Genesis and 4 games, Aladin, Jurassic Park, and X-men, and Sonic 2 years later the PS1 came out and I got rid of my genesis and ever since my mom has always told me everytime she sees me playing video games "You never should have gotten rid of Aladin, cause I was really good at that game" So I've purchased her favorite system of Christmas past and a few games

Aladin
Sonic 2
Power Rangers
The Simpsons Bart's Nightmare
The Death of Superman

I'm still trying to get ahold of some of the others like the old side scrolling Ninja Turtle game and Captain America & the Avengers but that'll come later

I figure it's a fun gift, much better than the chocolates which I normally get her, and with her being in the early stages of diabetes I can give her a gift that won't slowly kill her.

BIG NEWS BIG NEWS
So I've been doing some online heroclix trading on HC Realms and gotten some l337 figs in exchange for my l337 but never used figs

so far I've gotten
Spectre
Hyperion Vet
Dr. Spectrum Vet
The Flash Super Rare (Jay Garrick)
Avatar of Cthulhu
Ryleh Guardian

and in the mail is

Ares
Ultra Man
Olwman
Iron Man Vet
Ganthet
Super Rare Flash (Barry Allen)
Lobo

so yeah I'm happy

Havin my par-tay in two dizzles, that's rap for (days)
Should be most funderful

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21638314/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21638314/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 20:19:26 PST
made two awesome heroclix purchases

1 the super-rare Sinestro fig (won the bid on ebay)

and 2 and better yet I picked up the Colossal Spectre heroclix fig for 40 bucks (it sells on ebay for about 100) at a local comic book shop

Can't wait till i buy Mortal Kombat vs DC in a few weeks

also I've started up a blog, I'm getting kind of tired of deviant art and probably won't be posting on here much anymore seeing as I really don't make art anymore. I still want to have an online journal of somekind, not so much for anyone but myself but if you're interested it can be found here

[link]

I'll probably post on it a few times a week, about anything I feel like writing about

Also I'm writing a book, not a fiction piece but rather more of a self help book about life lessons and coping with this harsh reality, no big details as of yet, but if all goes well there may actually be someone I know who can help me get this published. WOOT!!

Also I am sick, and I should probably get some sleep

Good Night

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21541806/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21541806/ Mon, 17 Nov 2008 20:09:18 PST
So I won a bid on an SR Sinestro today, it cost me plenty, 31 dollars to be exact (that includes shipping) the only other figure I've ever spent that much on was my ultimates Thor. But I really wanted him and now that the game may or may not keep being made I figure there was a 50-50 shot that either he would drop in price or skyrocket seeing as Crisis is the most rare of all the recent sets. seeing as a lot of Sinestro and a bunch of cheapo figs just went out at 50 bucks I figured the games going to become more valuable seeing as people will probably keep playing it and will now have a harder time getting ahold of boosters.

also now that I have Sinestro I just need to aquire an SR Spectre and SR Flash to have all the figs I want from Crisis, also I still need an SR Lobo and SR Superman to accomplish the same feat with justice league, and I need an SR Flash and an uncommon Arkillo and SR Superman Prime to have all I want from Arkham Asylum as well as the entire Sinesto Corps.

Anyway I figure the hardest of all of those to get will be Sups Prime just cause he's a new fig, that'll probably be a summer purchase.

So, how bout them soulless killing machines known as Bears? pretty scary huh?

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21506407/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21506407/ Sat, 15 Nov 2008 18:39:17 PST
On dictionary.com today I was curious and typed in "love" and wtf there were 21 different definitions and a few more that used other words along with it. but sheesh!!! words should have a max of 3-5 definitions and five is pushing it, I mean other than slang words should not mean that many different things! Seeing as love is apparently so hard to define I offer the theory that it is a fake word meant simply to confuse us by the Christian Majority (which I happen to be part of) it is true, love is often attached to monogamy an act that is biologically insignificant and somewhat irrational based on the idea of survival of the species. Could it not be that Christians, Jews, Muslims, or some other religion created this concept to keep us from our baser instincts? Who knows, I don't, nor do I care, look it up if you feel like it but I for one want to play heroclix.

Haha another argument started between Chelsea and me this time as to whether or not the Crow Comic sucks, and from her perspective yes the Crow does rock, if you're a 14 year-old-girl or have the psyche of one, but to most normal people the Crow is garbage end of story I shall entertain no more time or opinions on the subject. Of course this could be my own bias opinion and as we all know opinions are like assholes, everyone has one and thinks everyone else's stinks.

Bought Red Dragon for $3 yesterday at work, not that it really matters it's just a great movie I got for a great deal.

I'm hoping to win a bid on a Sinestro Corps lot on ebay, I bid high so hopefully I'll finally get it this time
Also bidding on that Arkham Asylum Map I didn't get for free because of not being able to go to the tournaments. And also A Gaurdian of Eternity all very nice

So what's in the news today? Don't care

So have you heard about the policies Obama will enact?

1. The row of roses in front of the White House shall be replaced by Watermelons

2. The White House kitchen staff will be replaced with a 24-hour KFC

3. All tax rebates will be renamed "reparations"

4. Money will be printed on plain paper because Cotton is no longer politically correct

5. He's going to blow up the worst place on earth, Scranton Pennsylvania

6. He will require all Americans who wish to purchase goods and services to get a mark somewhere on their body, he will declare war on Christianity and bring about the end of times at which point Jesus will come down on a cloud of glory, kick Obama's ass back to hell and usher in 1000 years of peace

7. the National past time will change from Baseball to dice in the alley

8. School children will no longer be served milk and instead their lunches will include one 40 of Malt Liquor

9. the words "under God" in the pledge of allegiance will be changed to "keepin it real"

10. There will be no Red states there will be no Blue States, there will simply be East side and West side

11. He will not only legalize weed, but also crack

12. As a gesture of aid to his people, convicted felons will no longer be ineligible to vote

13. BLACK PEOPLE ARE DIFFERENT FROM WHITE PEOPLE AND THAT IS HILARIOUS!!!!!

Attention citizens your lives are over, please don't bitch about it...THAT IS ALL!!!!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21446133/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21446133/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 20:51:06 PST
Also I can check off a thing on my wish list. Today I bought out all the loose heroclix figs at Comic-town, as in they had a case full when I walked in, and when I walked out the case was empty with all the figs in a box I was taking with me. actually since some of the ones I bought were inaccessible due to a pop-machine in the storage area, technically I still have a few to pick up at some later date. but I've always wanted to buy out a store of something, it's just never happened till now and it actually felt awesome, YEAH!!!!!!!!

anyway...TESTICLES...that is all

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21435039/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21435039/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 09:11:50 PST
NIGHT-BEAR ON ELM STREET, rated R for massive nudity, strong bear-related violence, and Beer in a CAN!!!!!!

ok ok ok, so first of all, it twas AWESOME to hang out with Tommy again!!! God I've missed him while he was away at bootcamp! oh yeah and I guess Tim was there too but whatever. Eating bacon, pancakes and pizza, cruising the Wah-Mat (yeah I spelled it wrong what uf it snizzer?) watching the TVs, dude twas awesome, so sad that he has to leave for training again.

My dog be having a nightmare right now, maybe she's dreaming of OMG Bear-Skrulls. Anyway it's kind of funny to see her whimper and whine, she's a good dog, not like that stupid Birdie dog who ate my cold packs last night, BAD TIM, NO DOGS!!!!

So I've decided to find a backup group of friends when I go back to CSCC this winter, frankly because Tommy's going to have to do more training and active duty and Tim has...stuff? Frankly if I'm not going to be uber bored this winter and so on I'm gonna need college friends, you know not real good friends more ones that during the school year we can hang out and shit, and since after late March I'm legal to drink I think I'll need some bar buddies. Though unlike one of my friends who has proclaimed that he shall become a heavy drinker I don't see that happening to myself just for the fact that doing so would probably kill me what with the meds I am taking

My dog be growling again, she's so funny!

Anyway I'm also going to try my hand at dating once winter quarter starts, I've never dated before but I'm pretty sure I'd be bad at it, let's face it, I have a real problem with anything more than a close friendship or casual relationship, I see intimacy as an sign of weakness, I don't love anyone not even my family, and frankly I'm just not that comfortable with getting close to someone. I guess I'll have to bite the bullet or swallow the shotgun or whatever killing myself euphemism I can use and find a girlfriend if not for anything other than to seem more normal, I guess there's the sex thing too but whatever, it's not really on my high-list of priorities these days, actually not much is, this entire existence bores me. I guess I've just seen other friends in relationships and how they act around their "others" and find myself totally disinterested in entering into a relationship like that with anyone. I've know all different spectrums of daters, from the oldfashioned take things slow, have to really be committed before I'll try anything( *Tim)kind of people to those who will fuck anything with a pulse and a kind word (*Rachel)...ok so she doesn't even require a kind word. But all in all I just really have no interest in a relationship with a commitment I guess what I need is a close attractive friend...with benefits? sorry Tim but that won't be you HA-HA-HA-HA I laugh at your dissapointment. But seriously like I said neither is on my high-list at the moment, really the high-list consists of avoiding my parents, trying not to punch people at work, playing video games, playing heroclix. And in all honesty, just affording to be single is causing me to work way more hours than I want to, no way I'm gonna waste that money on someone else. Sounds cheap I know, but lets face it any relationship I start right now is a short-term relationship so right at this very point, why bother?

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21379339/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21379339/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 20:38:51 PST
I've actually been really into making my Rouges team for the game recently, basically Rouges are enemies of the Flash my favorite DC character, since there aren't many Flashes but lots of Rouges It's a neat team to have, Basically there is only one more Rouge I need to complete my Rouges team, I need to new Gorilla Grodd from Arkham Asylum the new set. While I am also missing Trickster, Weather Wizard, Unique Captain Boomerang and the Original Grodd, those figures suck and I don't want them though eventually I may purchase a Veteran Weather Wizard and Limited Edition Professor Zoom, just so I'll have one of every character.

The current team is made up of
ABRA KADABRA
THE TOP
Mirror Master
Trickster and Pied Piper
Captain Boomerang (not unique)
Dr Alchemy
Captain Cold
Zoom (not professor zoom, that's a different guy)
and Heatwave

I'll probably be buying Gorilla Grodd Tomorrow and that'll do me for awhile, unless I happen to find a vet Weather Wizard at the comic shop, which they may have in their big box of crap figs.

I just really think the enemies of the Flash are pretty cool, I mean when you think about it, Batman's villains like the Rouges all have a certain weird gimmick they always use, though in theory they could use these to defeat an ordinary man, how do you stop the fastest man alive? Still these guys try, I recently aquired the Top and Zoom which are my fav two Rouges seeing as Zoom is an interesting character in that he torments the Flash because he believes that personal tragedy will make the Flash a better hero. The Top is another favorite of mine, and for the longest time I didn't even know it. One of the first Flash Comics I ever read involved the Top (who was possessing the body of a politician) mind controlled the Pied Piper into attempting to assassinate his Running Mate kind of like in the Manchurian Canidate, I just didn't know it was the top until this year, so there was like a 10 year span in which I remembered the comic but had no idea who the villain was.

Anyway I guess by now everyone knows that Obama is a the new president. God I hope it works out ok, but I have my doubts.

that is all for now

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21341613/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21341613/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 14:15:40 PST
Anyway unfortunately my car still isn't done, it won't be done till around 4pm tomorrow, which means my parents have to give me a ride to and pick up from work tomorrow, god I thought I was done with that after I got my driver's license. My dad's all pissed saying that we may not be able to pick it up tomorrow, but if that's the case then I'm so calling off work on Friday because seeing as my family will all be at my sister's play when I get off of work, I'm not waiting around till they get done with that, so hopefully he gets over himself by tomorrow.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21325491/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21325491/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 19:46:26 PST
I don't claim to be grammatically correct more than about 89% of the time, grammar itself is not very important in most of my daily life, however there is a recent atrocity of the American English Grammatical structure that due to its utter deplorably and unforgivably brutal slaying of my beloved tongue I fear I must break my silence and address this most egregious sacrilege.

the thing I speak of being using verbs as nouns or adjectives

an example

"that picture is win!"

another example

"this outfit is made of sex and win"

granted one could easily interpret said sentences as

"that picture is a winner!"

or

"that outfit is a great example of sex appeal and winning design"

I don't know why but using verbs as not verbs just bugs me

Like I said don't usually care about stuff like this, but this time I do so for the sake of my sanity please STOP IT!!!!!

Also I voted today

That is all



no seriously that's all I have





Why are you still reading this?




Stop or I'll scream!





RRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
FFFFFFIIIIIIIIRRRRRREEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MXYZPTLK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KLTPZYM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The End

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21308279/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21308279/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 20:36:37 PST
Since I'm posting it everywhere else let me start with politics

Election Day is tomorrow and unfortunately Barrack Obama will probably win. That being said I think that this election will show how stupid most Americans "especially certain social, ethnic, and economic level groups that despite the truth of my statement I cannot name directly cause apparently we're not allowed to make fun of them for being stupid solely because they aren't rich "and" white" anyway whether Obama wins or not all I can say is

Mr. Obama, and yes even if you win to me I shall always refer to you as either "mr." or some incentive slur that I happen to come up with but never as "president" I hate you for the shady, corrupt, and eerily mysterious politician you are, who got where you are thanks to some anonymous backer who undoubtedly is pulling your strings. By god sir you are possibly the only person who could be so openly radical, socialistic, and anti-american yet still not be tarred and feathered.

Sir I hope you get cancer, inoperable cancer that will slowly eat away at you. I wish you a horrifically painful death from natural causes, and yes cancer counts as natural causes because cancer is found in nature.

that being said happy voting everyone

And what's the deal with airline food?

So did you hear the one about the trick or treaters?

two kids walk up to a house and ring the doorbell, they say "trick or treat" the man at the door says "my, my, you two already have a lot of candy" and with that the man took half of the childrens' candy and gave it to the kids who were too lazy to go trick or treating, as the two boys walked away they procalimed "Damn Democrats!"

by the way I didn't create that, it was posted by someone as a comment on youtube.

So it's the start of November and I find myself once again going through clix withdrawl
sadly enough with the trouble with my car as of late I have missed the last two tournaments, I also missed the two before this two but in that instance Tim came over and we clixed then, sure I played clix last week, but it was just one match, I'm used to at least four matches a week, 3 on monday and atleast one other against Tim on some other day. hopefully my car will have no further issues after these ones are dealt with and I can return to my beloved hobby

wow I just called my hobby beloved...god I so need a girlfriend, though seeing as I shall be quite broke for awhile that may not be the best course of action to take, I'm not cheap just broke, well ok I can be kind of cheap, I openly admit that when it comes to spending money I would almost always spend it on myself than on any other person or charitable organization, to be honest I usually buy birthday or Holiday gifts out of a sense of obligation rather than good will. Though to me it seems rather odd that most of the friends...well lets say all of my friends save two *Tim/Tommy* who I buy birthday gifts for, have never sent me so much as a card on mine, well the post on my facebook wall yet that hardly counts. anyway I'm not saying that I'm offended in not receiving a gift, in fact I really don't expect or care to get one, it's just odd that many people I know actually plan a day of fun an frivolity around their B-day and by agreeing to go, I am agreeing to buy them something, I mean if I didn't I'd look like a bad friend, i guess I just don't get it seeing as I never really made a big deal about my birthday with friends. Wow I'm rambling. anyway I can be cheap sometimes, but then again it's not like I'm in a relationship with someone I care about nor have I ever been so it would be hard to know how I'd act in that situation.

Now it seems to me that all is not well within my beloved hobby *there I go again* it seems Wizkids games has taken to creating shoddy looking figures with Korean Paint-jobs that look like they were applied to the figures via Vietnamese blowjobs...to say the least the figures look like shit and Wizkids should fix this problem.

So I hear that this month a new superhero cartoon comes out on Cartoon Network, unfortunately it looks like it's going to be pretty campy.

So I've heard good things about Fallout 3, wish I had the dough to try it out, I've never played a Fallout game before but this one was made by Bethesda who made Oblivion which is probly my fav game o'all-time

I was also disappointed to see that Spiderman Web of Shadows got such bad reviews, they creators seemed so confident that it was going to be the best Spider-man game ever yet apparently it just fizzled under the weight of it's own hype

DC vs Mortal Kombat comes out soon and while everyone's been dogging this game idea after seeing t... ]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21298836/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21298836/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 11:40:15 PST
I guess the real reason I have such trouble focusing, studying, and putting effort into my schoolwork is that the simple reality is, the entire world bores me. I mean I simply have no interest in the world or the lives of the people in it, if anything I'd say there are far too many people walking around this planet than I am comfortable with. See the way I learn, remember, or retain anything is by forming a connection with it, that's why it's always been so easy for me to memorize complex storylines from tv, movies, and especially comic books. Reality however offers me nothing which I can connect with, nothing to hold my interest and make me want to stay longer. I actually would have no problem were a plane to suddenly fall from the sky killing me this very instant. I guess it's actually true that I'm tired of living, don't take this to mean that I am suicidal, being a Christian I believe suicide to be a mortal sin and the only thing I can think of that would be worse than hanging around this godforsaken rock for another 50 to 60 years would be to spend an eternity in hell, basically I just want to die, I just don't want to be the one who kills me.

I've been thinking alot about what I could possibly do to make my time left on this living asteroid more bearable, less boring, and I've actually considered following in my friend Tommy's footsteps and joining some Military operation. I think killing enemy combatants would be a very exciting life, sure it may not be a very long life but at this point I fail to see how that would be a downside.

Heck maybe I'm not even all that miserable, I'm just bored. I'm sick and tired of being interested in absolutely nothing of consequence here on earth, my only escape being the fictional universes of comic books, video games, heroclix, and other forms of entertainment. I just want something to happen, World War 3 or the Apocalypse, just something to make life less dull and drudgering.

School doesn't interest me, people don't interest me, life in general just seems moot and pointless at this point.

Well I guess since I'm grounded I'll get back to studying, but by God I'm just so fucking pissed off at this point, I just don't know what's what anymore.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21289857/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21289857/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 19:05:10 PST
So I handed out candy this year dressed as Dr. Frankenstein, and after the tricks and treats were finished I had a few friends over for candy and scary movies, upon which time I ditched my mad scientist glasses, donned a cane and a pill bottle full of Jelly Bellys and TA-Dah "Dr. Gregory House". All in all I'd say it was a good party though we did come dangerously close to a political debate. We watched 2 films, Urban Legend and Freddy vs. Jason,

Freddy vs Jason is not a great film but it gets the job done, there is violence, boobies, and two horror titans slashing at each other's gibbly-bits.

Urban Legend on the other hand is a great film, for those of you who haven't seen it I strongly suggest that you do. It is a great film from the 90s before the era of grisly gore horror based on Japanese knock-offs and instead uses suspense, drama, and actual writing and planning to all in all create a movie that will leave you guessing right up until the twist near the end. Honestly I was sitting in a room with people who watch almost as many movies as I do and not one of them was able to figure out who the murder was. I tell you I miss films like that.

Anyway, Been dealing with issues surrounding the bad tires and shoddy breaks on my car, took it in to get serviced tonight, hopefully the repairs will be done in time for me to make it to my tournament tomorrow, if not I'm gonna be really pissed seeing as it will have been a full month since I last went to a tournament, granted two of the weeks I opted not to go by choice, but I'm still pissed about missing last week's due to my crappy crappy car.

Anyway, I'm not really super psyched about anything at the moment, Fallout 3 is out but I has no money to buy it, new clix set is out but also I have no money to buy any, Hulk was released on DVD yet sadly I can't buy it, wow it appears that a lack of money really effects my mood, I guess you really can buy happiness, or at least a wave runner.

Night yall

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21162503/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/21162503/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 21:26:37 PDT
(To Tim, *if you ain't tim den don't read dis* Dude WTF? You fucking bailed, what some family friend is more important than clixing? wait don't answer that, so am I on for "Dani's gift?" would you prefer I recite to her that special song, or are we going with the naked-Sean-O-gram?) ok seeing as everyone probably read that and is sufficiently traumatized, on with the show.)

Anyway been doing classwork online, working 3-4 days a week and hanging out at the comic shop Tuesdays and Saturdays with Tim, clix tourneying on Mondays, and sleeping whenever I get the chance.

Since it's October I try to watch a horror flick whenever I can, but there haven't been too many on tv lately so I've rented a few,
IMO Fright Night = Great Movie
Urban Legends = Great Movie
Urban Legends 2 = WTF WTF WTF OH MY FUCKING GOD THIS IS THE CRAP PIECE OF SHIT WORST MOVIE EVER!!!!!!!!!

so yeah I've watched 3 horror movies

Anyway I've been trying to live less in my own head these days and it seems to be having a euphoric effect on me, less brooding = more happy, more happy = happy happy, happy happy = joy joy and so on and so forth.

I was talking to Tim today about how most of our friends seem to be drifting away, he may not have noticed it, but I figured out that was happening almost a year ago. It kind of started when at the parties certain people seemed like they were merely tolerating my presence instead of enjoying my company. Now granted I know I'm not the easiest person to get along with, I have a very direct, intense and sometime irritating and aggravating personality but jesus these were my friends, they put up with me just fine two years ago, and since I haven't changed much, well I mean I have matured alot but generally I'll always be the same person, the only rational explanation is that they are becoming less tolerant. Who knows what caused it, maybe they've just wedged their heads so far up their own asses that having a friend who is a generally interesting and unique individual seems more hassle than benefit, but if they really want nothing to do with me, why don't they have the stones to just come out and say so? I mean to just generally give off a cold and unpleasant demeanor in my direction is just rude IMO I mean if I don't like someone I'll come out and say it, but then again that's my brash personality, I guess I just no longer have the energy to generate the drama once found in so much abundance in my high school days, life's short, don't spend it angry just put your shit out in the open so it can ventilate and then move to an area with less shit.

Anyways I'm having a Halloween Party this year and it'll probably be a small one, one with me, tim, dani, and dan, we'll most likely watch some horror flicks, My vote is for Fright Night and Urban Legend again, but I'm open to suggestions.

Also new set Arkham Asylum was released, I bought two packs, one was so-so the other had a slanky super-rare and a neato rare so all in all I'm happy. And this Monday at the tournament I get two more packs and a sweet sweet map, god how I love maps, I just love having all sorts of places to battle. Yay yay yay!!!!!!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20886294/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20886294/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 08:22:02 PDT
Also I've noticed that the guys at these tournaments all seem to be real nice people...save one. I forget his name, but he's a total dick. First off he likes trading figs for super-rares, yet he always tried to rip you off when he does so. He kept offering me crap figs for my nice WarSkrull super-rare. And when I got out my team at the match, his resposne was "(laugh) you're using those guys?" what a douce, it's called basic manners. God what a dick.

So for there's another tournament coming up in two weeks and this time the build restriction is that everything you use has to come from Marvel Heroclix, no DC or Indy I've decided to use a theme-team for once, basically what a them team is is a team of figures that is at least 3oo points and all share a common keyword, if the keyword shared is a common one (ex. mutant, teen, ruler) there must be one figure for every 100 points, if it is an uncommon keyword (ex. Fantastic Four, Ultimates, JLA,) then it requires one fig per every 150 points in the build.
My team theme is Ultimates, and I wish I had thought to use this team on Monday, it would have made me nigh unstoppable. they all have the ultimate keyword and team ability, which basically lets me ignore all effects of hindering terrain, which would have been very helpful in negating people's stealth last time. Oh well hopefully I do well.

My team consists of
Unique Thor (Ultimates)
Veteran Captain America (Ultimates)
Veteran Hawkeye (Ultimates)
Veteran Scarlett Witch (Fantastic Forces)
Rookie Scarlett Witch (Avengers)

So basically my strategy this time is, negate stealth, running shot, charge, prob-control, ranged combat expert

that probably made absolutely no sense to anyone but Tim but hey, I'm pretty sure not many people read this anyway.

Till next time,

-Later

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20797723/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20797723/ Thu, 02 Oct 2008 17:43:41 PDT
Well first something I won't be complaining about, EMO KIDS, I mean honestly I'd like to complain about them, but I don't know any anymore, all that complaining I did must have paid off, I'm pretty sure that in a few years they'll have gone the way of the Dodo, the Beatnik, and the 80's guy, hopefully they won't go the way of the hippie, god I wish hippies hadn't, anyway my friends seem to know a few, but then again I don't go to a prissy art school and live in the real world where Emos can't exist.

I will be complaining about my job...well sort of, I've realized that what I hate about my job is that since I was an exemplary employee all summer in hopes that they'd give me the schedule I wanted come school time, they expect me to keep being an employee that goes above and beyond the minimal requirements to stay employed even though they didn't see fit to give me the schedule and in fact give absolutely no incentive or reason to achieve. I've figured out that so long as I do my job without breaking any rules or pissing off any customers they won't fire me, they will treat me exactly the same whether I'm outstanding or average, so until such a time as I procure new gainful employment, I will henceforth no longer be outstanding and instead shall bask in the splendor of employee mediocrity, sure I still hate my job, and my co-workers, and my superiors, and would rather be somewhere but the pay is decent and I'll just keep reminding myself that it isn't a career it's a job. Oh and when it comes time to quit I shall do so on my terms.

Went to the last clix tournament of the series, won the fellowship award, basically that means I came in dead last but won a prize for being such a good sport about it. However the prize was the same as if I had won the tournament, I got a limited edition tournament in-store play figure this one happens to be of Vance Astrovik, the captain America of the future, unfortunately the limited edition version of the figure does not include the Captain's shield like one or two of the REV of him does, but oh well, I won a prize for being terrible at something, it almost makes up for my sucky job. Monday a new tournament starts, the prize is the limited edition Ben Grimm, not too excited about that, however the prize two weeks after of Victor Von Doom is something to strive to attain. Hopefully I'll get better at the game in time.

As luck would have it my attempts to trade some of my super-rares for other neat figs has bared little fruit, I sold one fig, and have yet to trade any others seeing as those who want to trade with me either haven't shown up to the tournaments recently or have offered me crap figs for my nice ones, either way I blame Obama.

Bought Iron Man, it is awesome, probably my favorite hero film of the summer, sure I know dark Knight was awesome but I just liked Iron Man, and that means alot coming from someone who hates Tony Stark as much as I do.

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In other news Tim finally acquired a new Punisher heroclix for my collection, awesome! also the 900-point tournament is tomorrow so that should be fun.

My sister turned 13 today, and for her birthday I got her the 2 DVDs Pirates of the Caribbean 2 & 3 thereby completing her collection of the films.

Beer in a can!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20576391/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20576391/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 22:02:17 PDT
money should be spent on fun things, like heroclix, or pyromania, and possibly things like Mercenaries 2, Star Wars the force unleashed, or the upcoming Iron Man 2 disc special edition.

Oh by the way, whoever is stealing my cheese please stop, or I will turn your first born into chip dip

So I have my next psych appointment next week, I'm still deciding if I want to talk about my fear of relationships, or how I want to push the proverbial nuke button five times just to be on the safe side of world demolition, or maybe I could talk about how I think most people are worms and I am god's fisherman. Anyway it will either be good for a laugh or helpful to my psyche I'll take either.

My sister is turning 13 this weekend and that makes me feel really old (Tim if you make a joke about dating my sister I will burn that which you love most, though I'll have to figure out if that is Dani, Bogey, your Truck, Matt, or you) I can't wait till I'm 21 so that I can drink myself into a stupor for a solid month.

Applied to Borders today,will be filling out an application to Barnes and Noble next week, and probably a few more places once I figure out where I'll want to work for the quarter, I kind of see myself switching jobs a few more times the next few years, stay long enough to make myself look well-rounded on a resume then find a new place. Hoping to work at a bookstore this time, maybe in the coffee shop, hopefully meet some top shelf material instead of the usual beer in a can material I run into at school. God I hate CSCC, once I'm out of there they should tear the place down and erect a statue of me in honor of my greatness, and I should be in the pose of punching Iron-Man in the while roasting a baby over a burning Canadian flag. Not sure why other than it would amuse me greatly. As we all know the only decent Canadian is Wolverine and they keep having to get New Zelanders to portray him.

I need to find a girlfriend, or at least more friends, Part of me is pretty sure that I have no interest in dating other than that I'm jealous that my friends do it, and that it is supposedly what normal people do, though opening up to someone and becoming in anyway emotionally dependant on them is not at all normal for me. I'd rather punch random strangers then tell them they can't hit me back because I am Victor Von Doom and have diplomatic immunity. I'm pretty sure they'd punch me anyway and then I would call them Reed Richards...and a douche.

So list of things to buy sometime this quarter
Mercenaries 2
Iron Man 2 Disc Special Edition
a Brick of Justice League
Skymax
Supernova Thor and Silver Surfer REV
Armor Wars REVs of both Iron Man and Captain America
The stuff I still need for my Halloween costume.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20530460/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20530460/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 23:29:57 PDT
I went to the Mean Bean on Sunday and while there a tree fell onto some powerlines down the road and pretty soon the power went out. On the way home I was driving by a building that from it's look appears to be a barn converted into a building, well as I was driving by the tin roof on it's awning came off and nearly hit my car, it was pretty scary.

Fortunately Absolute Comics didn't lose power so the clix tournament wasn't canceled. I only won one match and didn't even come close on the others, but that's still way better than I did last time.

Work was hectic today with all the people buying ice to keep their food cold, or buying food since they didn't keep their food cold, or just random panic purchases. God I've never seen it so busy on a Tuesday.

After I got home I made a new team for next Monday's tournament, hopefully I'll be able to test it out a few times before Monday make sure it can do what I want it to do.

Ok rant time

This weeks rant is things I hate

I hate people who are artistic for the sake of being artistic, and by artistic I mean douche-bags, people who take pictures of themselves at an angle and make a pouty face at the camera (some of you know who I'm talking about) I think people like that should be put down.

I hate people who are drones, people who have no passion, just follow a crowd, some of these even claim to be non-conformists but are conforming to non-conformity

I hate the Swiss, I shall not explain further, I also hate Couponistanis, again no explanation.

I hate people who are content with ineptitude, people who are mediocre at life but are somehow ok with that, they suckle at the tit of society like leaches sucking the blood out of a healthy entity till it becomes anemic, I hate those people.

I'm also not a fan of pimento.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20445909/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20445909/ Thu, 11 Sep 2008 20:05:50 PDT
ok that was a joke, hope you got it.

AH political season again, and you know what that means. Any criticism your side makes towards the opposition is well-founded, while all criticism towards your own party is called "taking cheap shots"

so in my view here are the facts,

McCain is not perfect, Palin is not perfect, in fact under other circumstances I would never vote for either of them

But Barrack Obama, or Iraq Obama, or Obama Bin-Laden, whatever name I feel like calling him, is a bad candidate who hates America who I would sooner punch in the face than ever vote for, now before you get all liberal on me, that in no way is a threat towards Mr. Darky Mc-Demicrat only a statement that I hate him and wish he would kill himself instead of running for office.

But I guess that just make me an extremist and an uncaring Republican, but I love this country and I know enough to realize that Barrack is a bad choice, that he is not what this country needs, McCain might not be either, but he'll keep things the same as opposed to fucking it up even worse. There I've said my peace, I shall say no more.

SO clix tourey came and went, I lost every match but walked away with a new map and a cool Iron-Man figure, I loved the Iron Man movie ,can't wait for it to come out on DVD.

Yay for things!!!

Also if you watch Metalocalyspe and haven't seen the season finale, OMG BEARS it was AWESOME!!!!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20366476/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20366476/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 22:59:11 PDT
Yes it was amazing as a massive wave of 32 skrulls took on some of the greatest heroes and villains of all time. Doom, Mordru, Captain America, Rip Hunter, Blackfire, Another Dr. Doom, Thor, Darkseid, and others!!

Though all seemed a lost for the amalgamation team, they pulled through...AND DEFEATED MY SKRULL EMPEROR LIKE HE WAS A NO GOOD COUPONISTANI GOD DAMN IT!!!!

still all in all twas a great battle, now all I needs is more skrull, they are like lays potato chips, you can't own just one!!!

So basically my skrull armada for anyone who cares consists of

1 skrull emperor
1 Jarvis Skrull (he buttles)
1 susan richards skrull
1 super skrull
1 Ms. Marvel skrull
1 Dum Dum Dugan skrull
1 Elektra Skrull
1 Nenora skrull
3 X-Men Superskrull
3 Yellowjacket Skrull
2 Warskrull
8 assorted lackey skrulls
1 Badoon commander

AND I NEEDS MO!!!!!

Hung out at comic shop all day today and it was by far the most fun I've had all week

Found an awesome new c-book "Punisher kills the Marvel Universe" it's a title that delivers what it promises and I likes it. Any comic that depicts Frank Castle shooting Cyclops in the face gets my vote for best one-shot ever!!!!

Heroclix tournament coming up on monday, I can't waits.

Going to see Lion King tomorrow, it should be good, well it better be cause I've seen it before and it was good then so if it isn't this time I'll be very disappointed.

Yay Yay three day weekend from work, then it's a grueling 38-hour week, ha-ha-ha dollar dollar tip, tip tip hoo-ray!!!

So I'm totally better at making heroclix lots than Tim, I made a lot today at the c-shop of Captain America and some of his wartime buddies and it sold within the hour, take that Tim!! I'm better at something that you...you're still winning though.

Yes you heard it here folks I actually talked to someone in my journal, if you would like me to give a shout-out to you, please send me some money and I will gladly do it, by the way Tim you owe me 20 bucks now, and I don't want to find any pellets in them, you must hunt them with your hands.

Attention Wal-Mart shoppers, would the punk-ass kid who just pick pocketed condoms please report to the customer service desk for an ass whoopin

Ok people, live strong, make good choices, don't impregnate anyone I wouldn't impregnate...MINORITIES CONTROL FOX NEWS...that is all

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20347246/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20347246/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 20:23:51 PDT
I feel that something is inevitable, one day I shall either rule this planet, or it shall burn by my hand.

Work sucked today, they made me push carts in the rain, well at least I didn't have to deal with customers the last hour point five of my shift.

Still jonesing for some clix-time, but with me working so much and Tim being on vacation, not too many opportunities, hopefully clix-battle will come soon.

So I had to choke back the laughter the other day when a small girl pulled a cart over on herself at work, since it happened at my register, I had to at least pretend to be concerned, though I was careful not to say "sorry" seeing as saying that will get you sued these days, thank you liberal America for that little piece of legal filth.

So I guess in a few months will get to see who America hates more, women or black people, yes I am referring to the Presidential election and not my old-timey new age funk band "Pappa Jigaboo and Wife-beaters" though we be rocking up the joint...haha my fictional band has an offensive name.

So I've got this urge to go to Wal-Mart and hate on Pakistani's...now now listen to me first it's actually kind of humorous. I want to get in line behind a bunch of Pakistani's who are price-matching and using lots of coupons and proclaim in a southern accent, "Where you boys from? Cou-pon-i-stan?

Haha it's funny.

Do you think perverted cannibals like to imagine what you'd taste like naked?

Anyway, October is only a stone's throw away and I still need to get my Rorschach mask done in time for Halloween. Hopefully I have time to make it.

God I'm so bored, but hey at least there's violence and tits, well violence anyway.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20230835/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20230835/ Sat, 30 Aug 2008 06:27:25 PDT
Going through clix-withdrawl, need to clix, future of humanity depends on it lest I descend into madness and actually get to work on my mission to take over this planet for the glorious Skrull Empire. You earthlings do not deserve a homeworld, but as long as you clix with me I am willing to overlook that. NOW CLIX WITH ME.

Actually I've been thinking and I really would like more people to clix with, if any friend reading this in the central Ohio area has any desire to learn to clix please let me know, it will cost you $0 to learn or play seeing as I have more than enough to have us clix using only my figs, it can be a little confusing at first but it's fairly easy to get the hang of. Please clix with me.

Been playing lots and lots of Oblivion, love that game, Also been playing some Lost Odyssey and GTA IV, also good games, other than that been pretty bored.

Went to Shrink the other day, told him about desire to round up the stupids and put into camps, he laughed thought it was pretty funny, maybe there is hope for me yet. Have next appointment next week, hope all goes well.

Going away for weekend, to all yall going to Ren-Fest-Fair-Shenannithingy, have great time wish you all the best.

Scheduled classes, all are online so I won't have to drive to that pathetic excuse for a campus every week, that is good, would be better if I was going to real college.

Need Clix Need Clix Need Clix

Now Short list

Favorite Superhero: Captain America
Favorite Supervillain: (Tie) Dr. Doom / Mr. Sinister
Favorite Team: X-Men
Favorite DC Character: The Flash
Favorite Comic Book Movie: Iron Man
Favorite Comic Book Storyline: The Punisher "Welcome Back Frank"
Favorite Clix-piece: DOOM 249 pts

List is over

So been thinking alot about stuff recently as that is what I do when I am by myself. While I wouldn't say I am unhappy with the choices I have made, I would say that I am unhappy with how my life has turned out, though I am not entirely sure as to how to improve my situation, maybe this shrink doctor can help with that. I have a hard time meeting people and making new friends, even harder time forming relationships or letting people get close, probably goes back to problems in early childhood, must investigate this further. This part is not so much for the reader as it is for me, moving on.

I was at work the other day, on my break, when this other cashier named Naomi sat down at the table next to mine, she was looking at the Rolling Stones magazine with Obama on the cover, she looked at me and said (holding up the magazine) "he is just the best thing to happen to our country ever", now seeing as she just turned 18 and probably hasn't thought much about politics before this point I don't completely blame her stupidity. I responded "Really? What are his qualifications other than that he's black?" When she couldn't respond I said "That's why he's a bad choice" then I walked away.

Could it be that you actually have a brain underneath that pointy cowl of yours? I wonder, do you have brawn to match? *snap*

So I may be a jerk, but that's your fault for feeling good about yourselves, you shouldn't. well some of you should but most of you are worthless pieces of worm fodder and shouldn't think any higher of yourselves than that.

Goodbye, and good luck.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20174555/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20174555/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 20:21:52 PDT but what the hell, he's Super Skrull!

sorry that song's been stuck in my head all day,

So I registered for classes yesterday, thank god I was able to get all online courses, I can't stand that cesspool of human filth they call a community college, it feels like being a racist among minorities, you just want to reach out and slug someone. Hopefully by winter quarter I'll be going to OSU and can leave the cretins behind. God how I hate them.

First shrink appointment tomorrow, yay, I guess. Hopefully this guy will be able to help me sort out my issues and won't turn out to be a total quack, who keeps asking me, "and how does that make you feel?" I already know how I feel, I need to know what to do about it.

Also if you get the chance, go see Tropic Thunder, it's hylarious, that's hilarious with a "y".

So one thing that pissed me off today, was people (as usual) but these people who refused to follow the "8 items or less" sign at my register today, now between 9-16 items "who gives a fuck" but these people had upwards of 40, I mean come on, you know you have too many, yet you look straight at the sign and begin piling your groceries onto the conveyor belt without even the courtesy of saying "can you get me anyway?" I mean, it's these kind of humans that think the rules don't apply to them, that make me want to put them in a cage, then release them into the forest for me and a few of my closest friends to hunt them for sport. "Hey Tim, I bagged retard!!!" "Wow look at the size of his head!!!"

It's like i keep saying, we need to round up all the stupids and put them into death camps, yes I know that makes me sound like der fuhrer, but I have nothing against anyone based solely on color or background, and I have nothing against Jews, I simply hate stupids, knumbskulls, and tards.

So, have you been replaced by a Skrull yet? No? Well don't worry, you will be soon.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20104442/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/20104442/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 21:57:50 PDT
God I hate stupid people, seems there are just too many of them these days. But I guess that's what we get for trying give people the right to feel good about themselves. I'd say it's a safe bet that if it hadn't been for certain people's parents calling them stupid, some of our greatest advancements would have never come to be. Feeling bad about yourself gives you a reason to achieve, to do better, but now that is disappearing. I had a customer at work two days ago who was accompanied by five screaming children, chanting at her to give them candy, she threatened not to buy them the candy if they did not shut up, but when they kept chanting, she bought it anyway. Those kids should have left the store crying and candyless, they should have felt bad about what they did, instead they were rewarded for bad behavior, they got to feel good about being brats. Kids like that should be put down, just like unwanted cats at an animal shelter.

In a perfect world we would be allowed to round up stupid people and eliminate them. Though that idea may be a bit much.

I guess I just think there are two kinds of humans, people and un-people, it has nothing to do with anything physical, or even a belief system, what makes someone a person or unperson is the choices they make and how they choose to present themselves. Example, those who look inside themselves to discover who they are and act accordingly are people, those who choose to simply abide by forms of stereotypical behavior are not people, they are drones who follow a crowd and act simply how they believe society wants them to act, they give up their identity, uniqueness, even their own free will and are stupid for doing so.

Rant aside I have realized as of late that I possess a considerable amount of anger towards humanity and I am trying to work on it but it grows all the time, it seems to become especially strong when I spend extended periods of time delving into my own thoughts, annoyance turns to anger, anger turns to hatred, hatred turns to rage, then I usually fall asleep. Anyway I have my first appointment with my shrink this week, hopefully it will do me some good, I'm losing my grip here.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/19943338/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/19943338/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 22:12:37 PDT
But anyway, what I want to know is, WHAT IS THE DEAL WITH PEOPLE FINDING VAMPIRES ROMANTIC? It may simply be because of my blood phobia but I have never found anything sexy about a creature that bites your neck drinks your people-fluids damning you to an existence of doing the same damn thing.

I hear there is a 4th or 5th book in the works and I kind of hope Blade makes a guest appearance and kills everyone.
Honestly the only interpretation I've ever truly liked is the one that says vampires are a sub-species in need of a good exterminator, yet this idea seems to be a shrinking minority, so please if anyone has an answer, what makes vampires sexy?

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/19943039/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/19943039/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 21:48:24 PDT Sell? I don't know, Lobsters. Blueberries.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Ow, the day after bowling hurts

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Stand up comedy, can't remember the name of the comedian

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
12:20

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
12:37

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
nothing (I have headphones on) so music if that counts

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Got out of my car after getting home from work/random drive around Powell

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
the Wikipedia article on Minsc and Boo the ultimate fighting crew

9. What are you wearing?
light blue old navy t-shirt, red sleep shorts

10. Did you dream last night?
I was only asleep for 3 hours so nothing

11. When did you last laugh?
Work, I laugh at everyone there

12. What are on the walls you are in?
My mom's stuff (my laptop is in her office)

13. Seen anything weird lately
I saw a man who is apparently good at everything, fail at bowling

14. What do you think of this quiz?
I don't really get it

15. What is the last film you saw?
Step Brothers (bhuh)

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy
A huge mansion in the middle of the forrest as well as actual working sets of Dr Doom and Iron-Man armors

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
I fear heights and the site of blood

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I would put all the stupid people into concentration camps so they can't keep screwing up the world like they're doing now (I would have ultimate say as to who qualifies as stupid)

19. Do you like to dance?
yes, I do a mean stick-dance

20. George Bush:
His heart's in the right place, he's just not that bright.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what will you call her?
Worthless

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Haywood Blacknigger

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Only if I could live in and rule over Latveria

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
I find your racism, bigotry, and political incortectness just adorable.

25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal.

Fuck it

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/19633062/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/19633062/ Sun, 27 Jul 2008 23:55:45 PDT
So Brumley's film thing-or-mah-jig was a success, well maybe, that really isn't up to me, I merely assumed it was in that I was allowed to pack up my stuff (and Tim) into my Toyota and head back to Central Ohio where life at least seems to make sense. The two days in New Concord were ok I guess, though in retrospect they seemed more like two days of me getting told to shut the fuck up and stop being racist. And that really hurt cause I'm not racist, I'm just a prick who like using inappropriate terms when I'm surrounded by people as white as myself who shouldn't be offended by it. But I guess it was a success, at least it should be what with me losing my voice from yelling and years off my life from the certain to come skin cancer from the horrendous sunburn...yes I know it was my fault but shut the fuck up it's my journal I'll do what I like.

The high point of my week was seeing the Dark Knight which if you haven't seen it already you fucking need to. It's the shit, it's a film that fills you with hope and gives you faith that someone in Hollywood actually remembers how to make a film instead of just get pregnant or speak out on issues they're not qualified to.

Been playing a lit of Oblivion these days, started over for the second time, after making all the redgaurd jokes over the two days, I felt a compelling urge to play as one and in all fairness it's the most fun I've had with the game so far. Now fairness aside my character's name is "Dat Blacknigger" not for any real reason except that I think it's funny, I mean come on you can't make the only Black Character in the game have increased speed and athletics without someone making a Nigger joke, just remember that I'm a prick and you can go fuck yourself.

Let's see what else.

I'm tired of my job, I think the whole grocery store racket is beginning to wear a bit thin, you can only scan a cantaloupe so many times before you feel the urge to bash a customer's head in with one. I think I'm going to have to start looking for a better job, unfortunately when you need the money as badly as I do and are going to have to work around a school schedule, grocery's pretty much all you can snag job-wise.

Other than that, still single, still clixing, still hoping for that my prayers to be the world destroying bringer of Apocalypse will be answered in time for Christmas.

Have a nice day

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/19361162/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/19361162/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 20:02:54 PDT
Bought lost odessy it is awesome

Hancock was awesome

Hellboy 2 was awesome

Clixing is awesome

Gotham Knight is awesome

Dark Knight will be awesome

Captain America #126 where he fights the punisher is awesome

ok now the things that aren't awesome

I didn't get into Ohio State

I still have no girlfriend

My job is lousy

I have to return to the human filth-bucket that is Columbus State

ok update over

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18973552/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18973552/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 20:59:00 PDT
I have big plans for this summer...ok plans...ok I have a goal to make a plan...damn plans

I've pretty much given up on the 3d clix board seeing as I would be spending 100+ dollars on something only me and Tim would ever use, Doesn't look like the making that comic book is gonna happen either so here's an updated goal list

Things to Do:
Play Clix at least once a week
spend at least 1.5 hours per day sitting in the sun (work permitting)
Obtain info on Library Science Major
Go see every superhero movie released this summer
Take over small nation, rename it Latveria
Consolidate impressive tech-weapons arsenal for Latverian Military along with a massive amount of robot infatry units
Prove to the world that Reed Richards is a douche
Act in Brumley's tv-thingy

Things to Buy:
two cases of Secret Invasion Heroclix
Complete set of comics in the Secret Invasion storyline
The Punisher vs. Captain America issue written by Frank Miller
Fantastic Four Heroclix Starter Set
Invicible the ultimate collection vol. 1, 2, &3
The Hulk for Xbox360
Lost Odyssey for Xbox360
High-tech suit of armor with metal face-plate to conceal horribly scarred face
Large Castle in Latveria

So today was 50-cent comics day at Half Price Books and I bought a -load of Captain America comics...(for those of you reading this through a parental filter, the censored word was "fuck") a lot of leet backissues from the 80's Starting with the issue featuring John Walker's (U.S. Agent)first mission in his short lived role as Captain America, I like these issues cause they are far more light-hearted than the modern state of Marvel Comics, because apparently it's not enough for muscle-bound heroes wearing tights to rush in and save the day, apparently now they have to be moody and angsting while they do it.

Also bought one comic that I intend to frame, not because it is valuable, simply because of the cover art. It features the X-Men character "Cable" wearing an "X-Snuggly" holding the mutant baby from the Messiah Complex storyline. This comic is not valuable it simply serves as a reminder of the best game of pictionary ever in which I drew a rough sketch of that same image for the word "Cable" and my teammate actually got the reference...God I'm such a nerd.

Ok Time for a rant.

Why is it that people expect us to put up with their bullshit for the sake of their children's safety? As if I am really willing to let the government decide what I should watch on tv just so your kid doesn't hear a swear or see tits until they are mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and finacially ready to? The answer is that I'm not willing. I don't give a shit about what your kid sees so l... ]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18736742/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18736742/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 19:13:18 PDT
I was looking at my small collection of captain America comics, and realized that I am a very sentimental person at times.

Ok so you probably know by now that I'm a huge superhero fan, but you may be surprised to know I don't have a very big comic book collection, I used to have a big one mostly of captain america, Flash, and X-Men, but being a young kid at the time, they were all ruined and torn apart by mis-care years ago. But back to the point.

I was organizing my bedroom today, and I was looking at my Captain America collection, well at least the one's not loaned to Tim at the moment, and it's funny how the only one I have in a protective sleeve is the least valuable one in the entire collection. It's the first one I bought when I started to rebuild my comic collection, it's not a very well known comic, it's not part of a particularly epic storyline, in fact it's a one-issue story about an unknown villain who hands superheroes a Polaroid of their corpse then stabs them to death. It marks the last appearance of the obscure super-hero Vormund, also known as Hauptmann Deutschland or "Captain Germany" who has the power to absorb and redirect kinetic energy. the issue also features the death of the Golden Age hero "the angel" and a particularly entertaining death of the villain Zeitgeist when he tried to stab Vormund and gets the kinetic energy from the attempt re-directed straight into his heart. The reason I bought it was because it was the first issue I ever read of Captain America I ever read, but that alone is not why I am sentimental.

What makes me sentimental is all the stuff I went through to obtain the comic, while it is not rare or particularly hard to find, in fact it costs less than the new issues of Captain America, it becomes incredibly hard to find if you last read it almost a decade ago, can't remember any of the other character's names, and all you remember is the basic gist of the plot. I basically ended up searching the entirety of the web typing in basic sentences that might describe the plot. after a most likely 50+ hours of searching I finally obtained the # of the issue and proceed to purchase the comic. It is by far the most time I have ever spent researching anything, school projects included.

that is why I am sentimental.

ok nuff said, back to stuff.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18568320/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18568320/ Thu, 29 May 2008 21:48:06 PDT
my plans this summer are to attain two older clix "carnage from Ultimates, and Venom from sinister" and then I am officially done buying older clix

I still want Cap and Bucky but I won't buy that till it comes down in price

also I will now only be buying packs of new "marvel" clix sets, I will no longer buy old sets or DC packs, if there is a character I need I will simply purchase them individually.

the big news is the 3d clix board tim and I shall make this summer. It will be a big massive clix board with which we shall have many battles, work begins tomorrow (some basic supply finiding) I have the plans now it's just a matter of making it.

So basically there will be lots of clixing this summer, if you have any interest at all in learning the game tim and I will gladly teach you, (though I have my doubts)

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18412902/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18412902/ Tue, 20 May 2008 10:11:58 PDT 1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Home - Breaking Banjamin
(cause that's where I wants to goes)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Otherworld - Final Fantasy X (I is awesome!)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Carameldansen - Caramel
(ok kind of odd)

4. How do you feel today?
Natural Life - Breaking Benjamin
(so...normal?)

5. What is your life's purpose?
Carameldansen (speedycake remix) - Caramel
(Oh shit not again!!! must...stop...dancing...)

6. What is your motto?
Honky Tonk Badonkadonk - Trace Adkins
( I <3 funny country songs?)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Energy - Skillet
(yeah pretty much)

8. What do you think of your parents?
The Geeks get Girls - American Hi-Fi
(My parents aren't geeks, that title is mine)

9. What do you think about very often?
Come Sail Away - Styx
(Haha Cartman sings it better)

10. What is 2 + 2?
The Sign - Ace of Base
(well I suppose that's true)

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?
Say Goodbye - Skillet
(damn marines)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Can't take my eyes off of you - Frankie Valli
(wow that worked out perfectly)

13. What is your life story?
Polyamorous - Breaking Benjamin
(I wish)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Chocolate Rain - Tay Zonday
(a douchebag)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Rock you like a hurricane - The Scorpions
( I would so wreck that)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Don't Stop Believing - Journey
(is that Journey? KICK ASS! also I hate baseball cards)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Chain - Air Gear
(ok, I guess my funeral shall take place on flying roller blades)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Baby Boomer - Coburn
(Dancing to techno?)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Whispers in the Dark - Skillet
(being alone)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Welcome to the Jungle - Guns n Roses
(I'm the guy from GTA)

21. What do you think of your friends?
Something on my mind - Hawk Nelson
(Take the train, everyways and leave it long forgotten)

22. What will you post this as?
What's this? - Fallout Boy

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18390770/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18390770/ Sun, 18 May 2008 21:43:32 PDT
here's a list

The Incredible Hulk (animated movie)

Hulk 2-disc special edition

Batman & Mr Freeze : Sub Zero (animated movie)

X-Men: The Legend of Wolverine (animated movie)

The Rocketeer

Fantastic Four

Spider-Man the new animated series : Special Edition


ok so most of those movies are nothing special, but the price was right and they were superhero movies

I was most excited about the finding of the special edition of the spider-man series, seeing as I thought I was going to have to shell out 50 bucks for the multiple dvds to get the whole series, but this way I got all 13 episodes for 3 bucks, it was awesome.

so I'm really looking forward summer, looking forward to maybe working a little less, getting back into playing heroclix, maybe making that 3-d clixboard as well as playing some video games, chillaxing, maybe even working out a little. hopefully it will be a great summer, since this was one lousy year.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18378667/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18378667/ Sun, 18 May 2008 07:51:45 PDT
in explanation for the last deviation, my friend Tommy claims there is nothing that can beat the mythical creature Cthulu but there is an episode of Justice League Unlimited where Solomon Grundy kills him by bashing through his head and tearing up his insides. hence the picture.

now without further ado "random you had to be theres"

A hippie and a viking are conversing in a parking lot
The hippie is explaining to the viking the benefits of an organic commune
The Viking gets an odd look on his face and yells "WE CAN'T FARM!!!!!!"
He then takes out his battle axe and chops the hippie in twain

A man is in the process of killing a woman
He looks at here right in the eyes and says
"If you tell anyone about this...I'll rape you."

A man and a woman walk into a bar
The Woman orders a dry martini
The Man shoots the woman dead
As the crowd looks on in horror the man says
"It's ok, she was cheating on me."
Everyone goes back to what they were doing

A man and a woman walk into a bar
The Bartender notices the woman has a black eye
The man orders drinks and the two sit down at a table
When the bartender brings over the drinks he cannot help but stare at the womans eye
Noticing the bartenders stare the man leans over to him, motions at the woman and says to him with a wink
"Yeah, I'm hittin that "

You should never objectify women
Objects cannot bring you a sandwhich
Unless said object is a robot
And no one wants to fuck a robot.

More to come

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18264414/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18264414/ Sat, 10 May 2008 21:44:01 PDT
I got bored the other day before the gang showed up at my house and decided to lay out my entire comic book movie DVD collection to see what I have and what I still need to buy

I own...
*Great Movies*
The Punisher (2004)
X-Men
Hellboy 3-disc Directors Cut
Batman Begins
V for Vendetta
*Decent/Good Movies*
X2 X-men United
X3 The Last Stand
Ghost Rider
The Punisher (1989)
*Crap Movies*
Man-Thing
Daredevil
Elektra
Batman the movie
*Animated Movies*
Ultimate Avengers
Ultimate Avengers 2 Rise of the Panther
Superman: Doomsday
Justice League The New Frontier

Movies I need to buy *note that these list only the ones that are available now
Flash: The complete series
Fantastic 4
Fantastic Four Rise of the Silver Surfer
Spider-man the new animated series vol 1, 2, & 3
The Invincible Iron Man
Dr Strange
Batman the Animated Series Vol 1, 2, 3, &4
Batman: Mask of the Phantasm
Batman: Mystery of the Batwoman
Batman
Batman Returns

*When they come out on DVD*
Batman: Gotham Knight
Iron Man
Hellboy 2
Batman: Dark Knight
The Watchmen

so yeah that's that

see-you-l8tr

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18131691/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18131691/ Fri, 02 May 2008 11:19:28 PDT
Also been playing a lot of GTA these days (that and going to school and work of course) The game is by far the greatest game of all time, unless you're only into RPGs and hate free roam capabilities. The story is complex, branching off in many directions and you really get a feel that this place Liberty City is a real living breathing city, it just feels so complete that I can't think of a single thing I'd like to add, I just wish I could hook up to Xbox 360 Live so I could play against people, but sadly I have no internet where I play this game.

Also I know it's been awhile since my last deviation, sorry but my mouse is busted and until I buy a new one I'm stuck with using the pad on my laptop which most of you probably know is not good for digital arting.

As for other thoughts. I'm so sick of people who agree to be social but then are downers the entire time (it happened at the movie last night) I'm sorry but if you're in a bad mood stay at home don't bring your bad mood into conflict with my good one. I know that everyone has a bad day but to try to bring others down with you is just wrong.

Said something weird the other day it went like this "I believe that human beings should exist on the principle that they will only live until such a time that they are no longer useful or amusing to me." isn't that egocentric? I thought so and I'm the one that said it. What a weird thought.

-Peace All!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18079277/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18079277/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 22:50:04 PDT
Anyway I went out at Midnight to pick up my game from Blockbuster, I was expecting a crowd seeing as I'd read in the paper that some places had over 150 copies pre-ordered. This store had only 12 pre-orders and out of that only four of us showed up at midnight. While it may not have been an awesome moment of line-wait and while I am kind of depressed I didn't get to boot stop the asthmatic trachea of a fat gamer with bad hygiene I was pleased that there wasn't much wait between buying the game and playing the game. Also I got some neat framed artwork for free as a blockbuster promotional thing, so now Nikko Bellic can grace both my TV screen and my wall!!!

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18049877/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/18049877/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 06:58:02 PDT
Went to go see Harold and Kumar escape from Guantanamo Bay. The movie was excellent! Hilarious and I totally recommend it to anyone who was at all amused by the first one.
Bit of funny/patheti-sad, Tim and I got to the theater a little early and decided to stop by comic town next door to kill time. On the wall of the theatre building was this girl who couldn't have been more than 15 or 16 and she was crying into her phone probably talking to either a friend or boyfriend and sobbing saying things like "why don't you like me? I don't drink THAT much." Now of course being the soulless jerkasses we are we of course made comments like "LEAVE BRITTNEY ALONE!!!!!!" cause come-on when you see an emo sob-yelling, you have to say that. But in all honesty, if you are 14-15-16 and your drinking has become a problem to your social life, that's it, you fail, go kill yourself cause you're a pathetic human being with an early onset drinking problem and will therefore never have value of any kind.

Now not to sound like an insensitive, right wing, conservative, biggoted, amoral jackass...but I'm about to;

While reading my sociology text book to prepare for the group chapter project on Monday on the chapter on sexuality. I was reading the passage about transgender people and gender-reassignment and the book posed a question. It said and I quote...

"San Fransisco was the first city to offer health benefits to city employees that include paying for gender reassignment surgeries (which can cost upwards of 50,000 dollars) would you support other cities enacting similar plans?"

The answer is a big whopping NO!!!!!! First of all despite whatever my personal opinions concerning sex changes are, and I will honestly say that I am not in support at all. I believe that we all must play the cards we are dealt. If you're a man who wanted to be a woman, tough, and if you're a woman who wanted to be a man TOUGH!! but that aside while I may not support that lifestyle I am not opposed to people getting those surgeries should they so choose, on one condition...THEY PAY FOR IT THEMSELVES. Despite what some people may tell you, all a sex change really is, is another form of consmetic surgery, You may look like a man or a woman, but you're still just a woman or a man. Case in point that lady on Oprah that got pregnant after her sex change. If that doesn't tell you that she never actually became a man, then I don't know what will. But back to the point, it is cosmetic surgery, and no matter what your opinions on the surgery are, I will not stand here and let you try to convince me that my tax dollars should go to pay for city workers' cosmetic surgery. I'll bet San Fran viewed itself as a "more enlightened" city for this action, but now that the door is open, what's to prevent people from saying that the government should pay for their boob jobs, tummy tucks, lipo, and face lifts. Cause when you really look at it, all those surgeries attempt to do the same thing sex changes do, they are meant to make you look on the outside how you feel on the inside. So for the government to pay 50,000+ dollars of my tax money simply so you can get a fake penis of some artificial funbox is deplorable.

Am I being unreasonable? If so just let me know, but if you agree please let me know as well.

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17950187/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17950187/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 19:04:47 PDT
Now for important stuff...

...Testicles, that is all

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17933887/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17933887/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 20:16:11 PDT
Boring Day today, went to my job orientation in the morning and was done by early afternoon, should start work at the deli on Tuesday.

After job orientation things went from tedious to boring upon discovering that both the people I regularly hang out with on the weekend had other plans today. This left me in need of a way to entertain myself seeing as the family is still away for the weekend and I am by myself at the moment.

Decided to go to blockbuster and take advantage of their new 99 cent rental price and got many many anime movies from their limited selection

Samurai X
The New Iron Fist of the North
Escaflowne
Night Walker Midnight Detective
Lady Death
Street Fighter II the movie

spent the day watching the movies and have made a mind boggling revelation...

Ken and Ryu are the Bert and Ernie of the anime world.

The similarities

1. Best Friends
2. Complete Opposites
3. One is very serious, the other jokes alot
4. Lived (trained) together for many years
5. Possibly gay for one another

When I figured this out it made me laugh.

That was my day, how was yours?

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17917922/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17917922/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 19:51:15 PDT
First the unimportant stuff

Just unlocked Sun Ce, Ma Chao, Huang Zhong, an Xu Huang in Dynasty Warriors 6, not terribly important but fun none the less

Bought Final Fantasy VII Crisis Core for the PSP and have gotten really far in it, but am stuck trying to find the last materia to put into some portal thingamagigger. The game is really fun and I really like the story, the characters I already knew are portrayed in a very different light at the start, I actually find myself feeling sorry for Sephiroth, you'd probably go nuts too if you found out you were just and amalgamation of failed monster experiments shortly after losing your two best friends. I think everyone on the planet is just one bad day away from a psychotic meltdown. So anyway if you own a PSP buy Crisis Core, if you have a friend who has a PSP, borrow it and buy them Crisis Core...just be sure to play it through once yourself before you give it back. If you don't know anyone with a PSP...well then you're screwed cause only idiots like myself actually go out and buy a PSP.

Got a letter from Columbus State the other day, what it said surprised me so I went online and it seems there was a grade change, instead of all Bs my grade in my theatre class was upgraded to an A so as a result I am on the dean's list for Winter Quarter. The parents are thrilled and my mom is even buying me that new Grand Theft Auto game as a reward.

I've been away for the past few days at my parent's cabin in southern part of the state. Since my job orientation at Giant Eagle is tomorrow I came back this evening. I went to Blockbuster to pre-order the GTA game, (never thought I would buy a brand new game at a video rental store) while I was there I was browsing the anime section and came across an animated movie written by Stan Lee...

Stan Lee? Well it just had to be awesome I thought, Stan Lee can do no wrong, the Movie was called "Mosaic" and even though it sucked it was in no way Stan's fault.

Anna Paquin who you may remember as Rogue from the X-Men films, voiced the lead character...if you ever want pure concentrated awful...listen to Anna Paquin recite Shakespeare, which she does in this movie. Her terrible voice acting turned a movie with potential into a 72 minute suck-fest. In short if you haven't seen or even heard of a movie called "Mosaic" don't bother cause you aren't missing much.

that's pretty much it for now, have fun y'all

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17828087/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17828087/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 08:41:45 PDT
For those of you keeping track, I did end up getting that XBox 360, though not officially a gift I was given money with which to buy it, and have become immersed with playing Dynasty Warriors 6 and Eldars Scrolls Oblivion. Two great games, though most people would only say that one of them was great.

Left my job at Wal-Mart and will soon be starting a new one at Giant Eagle. It's a bit of a pay cut (about 40 cents) but it's not really about the money, it's about getting the hell away from Wal-Mart.

As always I've been having random thoughts some important, some less so, some make no sense even to me but here are a few of them.

I've been told that people cut themselves because it helps them feel in control (like if you can control your pain then you're in control) so in a way it's supposed to help ease the pain and make you feel better. Whether that is true or not I do not know but here's my thoughts on the subject...

ME: Oh my god the pain is so terrible! I'm so very sad! (*cuts self*)...WHAT THE FUCK!!!?? THAT DIDN'T HELP!!! now I'm sad AND bleeding!!! I have not improved my situation at all!!!!!

that's how I think that situation would go.

Went over to Tim's yesterday and watched Appleseed 2004 and Appleseed Ex-Machina. For those of you who aren't aware of the two movies they are about the legendary soldiers Doonan Newt and her partner Briariose and the post apocalyptic semi-paradisical city they inhabit. there's mechs and gunfire and clones and an all around action packed good time. if you haven't heard of them I suggest you check them out.

After Tim's I went home to watch my sister while my parents were out at a party. Since she's a big fan of the Nancy Drew books and computer games, we went to blockbuster and rented the Nancy Drew movie and proceeded to watch it. After the movie I got to thinking, and this is a long though so bear with me...

If I took a look at a list of my favorite movies, video games, tv shows, books, and all forms of media entertainment... I could find one main theme as the the profession (or closest match of) to the main characters in each. They are either detectives, cops, soldiers, superheroes, mystery solvers, private investigators, archiologist and the like. It made me think about what I find entertaining and in some ways what my ideal profession would be...and no I'm not going to say "super hero" we already know that I've wanted to be Batman since I was two and that I've wanted to be an X-Man since I was four. No in a perfect world I could be an "adventureror" it would be so awesome to go from day to day, never knowing where my travels would take me, or what kind of fun, excitment, trouble, battles, or anything I was going to run into next. Sadly this is not a world in which that can actually exist so I must go to plan B...now I just have to figure out a plan B.

In comic news, I have made absolutely no progress on the comic but may be able to do so in the next few weeks, provided I do not become bogged down with school work.

On an awkward note I find myself watching a lot more anime as the days go by, not jsut the battle heavy stuff like naruto or tokyo majin or the like, but the MoE or whatever it's called. I guess I just find life to be too serious so it's nice to distract with something that is the opposite of serious. It's also weird that I cannot remember the last time I watched a superhero cartoon...wierd...


well that's it for now, sorry about the long entry

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17475699/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17475699/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 13:38:24 PDT
Well since now seems about the time let's take a look at all I've accomplished over the course of my soon to be past teenage years.

I've never been drunk or even gone out drinking\
I've never done drugs or any other illegal substance
I'm a virgin
I've never had a girlfriend
I've never been on a date
I own a vast collection of heroclix
I have a 6 year old PS2 that doesn't work half the time
I have a crappy sony laptop that can't play games
I drive a car that I do not own yet still pay full insurance and all matinance for meaning I've probably spent more on this car not owning it that my rents did to by it
I dropped out of a perfectly good university to go to a school that is about as much like a college as I am like a black man
I have two people I hang out with and I have a strange feeling that my other friends don't really like me all that much.

I'm gonna be 20 years old and I haven't done anything, that's really kind of depressing...

I feel like I've spent my entire life looking in on the world through a window but never being a part of it. I was fooled by Hollywood into believing that high school and college were going to be these really great, fun, romantic, adventurous times when in fact they really don't seem that great. I live at home instead of on campus, cause where I go there is no "on campus" and so I'm leaving behind my teenage years and all I have to take with me is 500 dollars in debt...hooray for me...

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17308081/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17308081/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 20:21:30 PDT [] I am shorter than 5'4.
[] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[X] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[X] I've gotten lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[X] I've wished on a shooting star
[] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ x I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace..
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single.
[] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[x ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ]... ]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17164586/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17164586/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 13:06:54 PST
Got a B+ on my latest Logic test giving me a B+ final grade in the class, yay me.
This also means that I no longer have to go to Columbus State on Tuesdays or Thursdays

Scheduled classes for next quarter, I only have classes on Mondays and Wednesdays, from 9am-4pm three classes on each day.

DC HEROCLIX "Crisis" set was released and with the purchase of a clixbrick (10 booster packs) I have sent away for the collossal "World's Finest"[link] clix piece.

Have a lot more free time as of right now with the class stuff and all so I've been dividing parts of it between getting ready to apply to OSU for fall quarter, and fine tuning some of my ideas for Ironworks

NOW THE REST OF THE STORY
I had a meeting with my psychiatrist a few days ago and she suggested to me that I write out more of my internal thoughts because apparently doing so and then sharing them is healthier that keeping them all bottled up inside till they form an ulcer or brain tumor.

Since I do not believe in Myspace I guess I will be posting those writings here on DevArt.

-EXCELSIOR

]]> ~theAngelofRedemption http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17034018/ http://theAngelofRedemption.deviantart.com/journal/17034018/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 23:37:29 PST
Damn Damn Damn, hard to focus, so many ideas running through my head, though only one need be there at the moment, got a big test next week, I mean big as in if I ace this baby then I'm set for the rest of the quarter. Got work later today, don't want to go but don't have a choice. Need to feel calm, need to be calm, need to be anywhere but here. Damn it's hard to focus.

Got ideas for Ironworks project, talked to Tim about them he seemed on board for the most part though there are a few kinks I'll have to work out, secondary characters are a bitch to create because you don't really care about them but they are necessary. God I wish I had more time

All I seem to do these days is school then work, school then work and frankly I'm sick of both. I hate school, I especially hate work, but I need the education and I need the paychecks god this is just unbelievable. Why does this all have to be so hard.

Watched Cowboy Bebop tonight, was pretty good, will need to remember to take the movie back to B-Buster today or tomorrow.

God my head just feels so jumbled right now, should be sleeping but probly can't sleep. Oh well I'll try anyway.

Later Gators!!!

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