http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:thebebopcow&section=today deviantART RSS for by:thebebopcow en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 08:33:51 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/25792762/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/25792762/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 09:49:03 PDT
Over the years, the most amusing things people have commented on have been that none of my fan fics have any Mary Sue's in them. For the un-enlightened, the Mary Sue being the auther written into the story and instantly loved and always right (generally breaking the characters of every person he or she meets in the process). I dont do this generally under the understanding that if Iw as put into most of my fandoms, I'd probably be very quickly killed due to having no combat experince and my favorite fandoms generally being fairly rough and violent, not at all the place for a thin skinned, pale irish girl looking for a good laugh. I appreciate the people who read these stories and realize I'm not in them.

However, the majority of my origional fiction is where I put myself. I have six characters that all draw upon parts of myself that dont get much limelight in the real world. That being said, msot their fiction isnt actually avalible for veiwng, largely due to the fundamental udnerstanding that despite 14 years of writing a little something evry day, most the stories actually suck pretty hardcore.

So. Fandom is awesome. Anyone can get into it and make it their own. Origional work is so much harder. I'd still rather be writing origional work though.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/23777298/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/23777298/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 09:40:49 PDT
Sadly, not with art. IRL intervenes and I dont get much done. The latest picture in my gallery was done while being half asleep while we had a gest over, playing gituar and singing with a real ncie voice.

I have too much work to do to post right now.

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I watched Corpse Bride again a few days ago and came to wonder why it flopped so badly. Sure, the story isnt as epic as the Nightmare before Christmas, but the characters all have their quirks and the story was entertaining.

I've been playing WoW a lot recently, But my main character for nearly four years (Shuppet) has become mentally painful to play. As the person I spent the last year and a half playing with abruptly decided I was nolonger worth talking to, wrenching Shuppet's lover away from him without rhyme or reason... Its hard to go back to a heartbroken character and build him back up again. I've started dozens of little pictures of Shup traveling through Northrend and little half written stories of halarious moments or triumphs, but the character feeling like he's got nothing to go home to or real reason to live, it leaves a player discouraged.

I put so much work into that character, I feel cheated.

Randomt houghts abotu doing some Wild Arms art again. Just need somethign diffrent to do for a while and get my mind off things.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/21080307/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/21080307/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 13:59:11 PDT
Manniquin Franz continues to get amazed notice. Its still what people consider my best peice of artwork. This frusturates me just a little bit because it'll be hard for me to do something like that again. My art lately doesnt seem to hold the same amount of passion that Franz did.

Passing rambling thoughts continue to get stored in my little writer's wiki, but I have been lax on getting any real story or at components down. Life is just too busy to keep up trying to do a little art every day.

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Despite the limitations, I discovored something very interesting... Its actually really easy to make the Imps in Spore. I've been increasing my thoughts and doodles of the Imps lately (not currently scanned, woops) and doodling mroe creatures that might live in their dark yet colorful little world. Spore just might actually be a good way to test-drive some of these creatures to figure otu hwo to draw them ro if they're totally unbalivable masses of flesh.

Hmmmm.

I'd also love to see if I could make all the Monster Rancher breeds in Spore 'cause gods knwos theres nto enough visual media for the old game.

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Comissions are... nonexistant at the moment. People like my work sure, but the current economy is causing people to think twice about frivilous expendatures such as my pretty little doodles. Doesnt bother me much to be honest, I never thought my art was worth much anyway. If people wanna pay me, Im not gonna turn it down though, ha ha.

Mostly living off babysitting money now and wodnerign where I'll be living next year.

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1) My mother lost her job and we're chewing down our savings, desperatly trying to find work again to keep supporting oruselves, but things are looking bad right now. To attemtp to feed myself a bit, I've lowered comissions to $15, just leave me a note or something if you want something doen and we can talk.

2) On the off chance I have to go offline for an extended period or worse, sell my computer, Im working on a Wiki to post a smuch of my story meterial online as I possibly can. Im adding 2-3 pages a day and posting raw data that I've never released pugblicly before. There's not enough data at the moment to post the URL here jsut yet but another month or two and it should be densely populated (I've got 14 years of data to sift through, wee).

3) Intrest in MMOs is waning, finally. Only took about 8 years. As mcuh as I would've liked to play Monster farm Online, it doesnt look like its going to happen. I LOL at the fact that Monster Rancher got to it before Pokemon did though.

4) Chef Ramsey needs to be hugged and cuddled, poor guy screamign his lungs out at dumb people.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/17426188/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/17426188/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 13:01:55 PDT
First off;
[link]

I REALLY WANNA PLAY! WAAAAAAA! I cant read japanese and theres a small verification code entry thingy in the signup sheets, and since I dont have a keyboard that recognzies the katakana, Im totally fucked. I get to sit here and prayprayprayPRAY they give the english speaking fans a chance withint he next ear or two. I've been playing WoW a LOT less since I found out this was in beta.

In the meantime, Im trying to ge out of all my WoW engagements so I can quit in April and get back to a short storyboard plot for Ravenn that myself and a good friend of mine RPed out last year.

Oh and Im looking for work. which, yanno, means I have to get rid of all my 'ay to play' distractions anyway and seriosuly work on getting applications out and getting my hands back into working photoshop with my tablet.

There will be some crap tossed into my sketches section over the next few months, but a lot of the finalized product will probably end up on Y!Gallery since Deviantart doesnt like blatant sex, drugs, violence, etc. which is everything Ravenn stands for and more.

Drawing his face is still a bitch and a half. I cant seem to get his eyes right, EVER.

Thats all for now.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/13278965/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/13278965/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 14:15:13 PDT
Before Neopets, I played NetMonster. It didnt last very long, but while it was running, it was HOT! Nobody else was making a virtual combat system that had 3D pets and monsters you could keep for yourself, and it encouraged everbody to play by putting 'corrupt monsters' on their websites so more people could fight and capture even more monsters. There were other features, of course, but thats what I remember most; a game that really needed the community to play, and played well.

I imagine Pokemon works similarly, and I've seen a lot of pokemon battle simulators go up and down through the ages (enough that I cant remember all their names), and the pokemon community is HUGE despite what some other people may think (after all, look how many games have been produced and keep selling, spinoffs included). But since NetMonster, I havnt really seen much in the way of encouraging people to participate with their own content.

Just drawing a picture of something I love isnt good enough sometimes. I miss building nested little websites to hide my NetMonster files in for people to adventure through before battling whatever creature was in store for them (usually randomly generated, I didnt have the knowhow to make my own monsters back then).

I vaugly miss Oddballz as well, made by the same company who do Catz and Dogz. I never licked the latter two games after Oddballz because I've always preffered the weirder, fantasy style pets up agaisnt the normalicy of every day animals I could go take care of and play with for real if I felt so inclined. Oddballz was another user-friendly system, freely offering people the ability to mess with the files and submit their own weird pets to the company or to share from user to user. There's still a few old, decrepid websites for the game out there, but few of them are working past offering basic information and pictures.

I think otu of all the games I played when I was young, Monster Rancher has been the only one that survived and continued on into its own franchise, which I'm deeply greatful for. Maybe I cant really submit my own ideas to it, but having a nearly endless resource of sticking music I like into my Playstation jsut to see what kind of monster I get back (And usually getting something diffrent depending on which MR game I'm playing at the time) always brought a little thrill to the childish centers of my heart. Having a Netflix subscription makes Monster Rancher even more interesting as I can wander out to my mail box and expect a new monster to play with every couple of days.

I dont have the time to scour the net for monster fun games anymore, which saddens me as I love these strange little games that pop up from time to time (Especially the PC ones, I cant afford multiple videogame platforms), so if anyone has any cute little monster games they know of, drop me a post here. I'm always happy to see some little critters growing up and mauling something.

Oh, and another picture will be on its way soon, I finally got off my ass and drew something. The Imps have been pestering me again.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/13176841/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/13176841/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 13:04:59 PDT
Haaaahahahahahahahaah!

*Faceplant*

I'll eventually come up with some finished product of art, maybe.

The few people Iv'e discussed art with lately have been complaining color is ruining my work. These people have seen my sketches though, and a lot of them lose the depth they had when I color them apparrently.

Probably going to put the finalized mannequin back up as my featured artwork 'cause people keep asking me where it is. Go figure.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/11656739/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/11656739/ Fri, 02 Feb 2007 07:56:07 PST
Feelign lousy at being unable to meet a generous deadline.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/11168093/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/11168093/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 22:48:55 PST
I also spent some time gettign rid of some older deviatiosn that nolonger represented worthwhile works, and put some copy protection liscences on the few illustrations of personal projects Imw orking on that I dotn want ripped off, and those Iv'e been creasting for Issa or my mother.

I'll get other people paying me for art, some day, maybe.

Eight days left to finish 3 pictures, and Issa hasnt been contactable for a week.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10744743/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10744743/ Thu, 16 Nov 2006 12:30:04 PST
Next release expected; Green to Power - Deadline: Before '07

I'm rpobably going to delay all other projects until Green to Power has been completed, with the exception of possible holiday cards. I'd like to make something I can send out to people this year but have nothing solid yet.

Mannequin project is on delay, but I havnt given up on it.

Project Storm is delayed, again. Lots of good ideas but the system is still incomplete, much as I wanted to think I had it done.

Heh, well, I'm not bored anymore.

Side Note;

What if Samus Aran (Metroid) and Master Cheif (Halo) had children?

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10628756/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10628756/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 18:32:54 PST
Playing WoW way too much again. The stress of REALLY STUPID PEOPLE WHO DONT READ THEIR GODDAMNED MANUALS FOR THE SIMPLEST FUCKING QUESTIONS is starting to get to me. Doubly so since I some how seem to have ended up in charge of a guild of REALLY buttfuck annoying kids. Most of which seem to have just joined due to a SOUTH PARK episode. On the other hand, with how often my drawings come from venting stress, maybe this could be a good thing for my drawing career.

Scared a few of my friends recently with pointing out that Im not really worried about death/entorpy and the inevibility of death, so on and so on, apparrently a bunch of them are convinced I'm a Goth now. Funny.

Tossing around another comission from Call to Power. He wants me to re-do his logo again and I'm trying to figure out how to make it neat but stimple. Kinda hard to do when your dealign with whats basically a stick and a loop.

]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10131620/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10131620/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 11:27:53 PDT
The Theme 100 Mannequin project helps a bit, but I still have to spend a few days considering what to pose for it, how to set it up, weather or not it'll be colored, etc. Actual drawing time is maybe three or four hours, then I've got to find something else to do.

Black & White, a story I uploaded recently, may be seeing a new chapter at some point in the near future as a result of this bordem. I'm going to need an editor though because my puncuation is horrible, and I tend to type as fast as I possibly can to get an idea out before I forget it, thus there's a shitload of typos and I have no spell checker. Oh, and the run-on sentances, musnt forget those.

Essentially, I need more things to do without giving myself TOO much to do. My biggest issue is I want to remain totally origional. I hate doing fanart, to be honest. It vaguely irritates me to see people offering hard cash for another picture of Inuyasha over just about any origional artist on DA or anywhere else. But I guess if it came to the issue of food vs integrity, I'd pick food too. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10109562/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10109562/ Mon, 18 Sep 2006 08:53:27 PDT ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10018742/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/10018742/ Sat, 09 Sep 2006 11:32:03 PDT
[11:29] xxx: why's he got a piece of toast in his hand?
[11:29] Blood Index: *Facepalms* Look at his chest!
[11:29] xxx: he's made out of toast? !
[11:29] Blood Index: *Laughs*

Inquiring minds want to know.

Is there anyone that DOESN'T like toast? ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/9920485/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/9920485/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 15:47:01 PDT
God I love this little program. I've already made a mockup of Ravenn's mannequin structure in about an hour. Had to re-teach myself how to make negitive space and carve objects with other objects. Suffice to say, I'm enjoying myself. I missed the little bugger of a program. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/9649978/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/9649978/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 14:48:10 PDT
Still.. Since they sell self published books and the owners are hungry to offer alternitives that the big chain stores dont carry, maybe I can make a place there, out in reality. I jsut gotta get up the nerve to say ; "Hey, whatta ya think of mecha blasting magic and viruses at eachother to win?" ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/9598000/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/9598000/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 12:35:36 PDT ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/9520827/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/9520827/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 09:14:00 PDT
Sunday is my usual Celebration of Life and Existance day (dont ask how that started) and I usually pick somethign specific to do for myself on that day. Last week I decided to make some rounds to some favorite places downtown. Most specifically, the book stor that runs little card game tournaments for various games that have come out over the years.

Insert some surprise and intrest when a second girl shows up in an otherwise entierly male based event. For a moment I had hope, but no, she's not a gamer, but an artist! Oh frabjous day! The store owner even knows her and promptly makes introductions! .... Then I see her art and I die a little on the inside.

I understand how studying anime might give someone a better idea of, say, what the human form looks like or even basic introductions on shading and poses and so on... But goddamn, do you really need 20+ pictures of the main character from Ful Metal Alchemist that all look traced and colored? Or Sailor Moon? Or Sonic the Hedgehog? No, no, I take that back. I think she put her own clothes on the Sonic character, but still...

I like to think some day, someone's going to be emulating me and my style, whenever I can get around to doing line art that doesnt suck. Maybe some day I'll even be getting paid big bucks for my art instead of little life bonuses that buy me one or two extra meals for the week. Maybe Imc razy enough to really enjoy working on the same picture for four hours at a time and end up with something that looks nothing like anything else...

And then I sit here, watching the world pass me by in favor of simple drawings and kids who dotn udnerstand that anime is simplistic drawing because they have to make a LOT of them, and you, as a budding artist, only need to make one picture.

Is it a crime to want more detail and effort put into what I look at?

Side note; Some pokemon artists still have my respect despite simplicity. At least one I'm watching is going for realism drawings and imrpessive detail, while another works to fill her entire canvas rather than some scrappy half assed doodles.

... If I see her again, Im going to ask to see if she's got any origional work. If she does, maybe there's hope. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8948930/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8948930/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 09:47:12 PDT
Cypress Knight (CK for short) was my Admin Mecha for the Sonic the Hedgehog game I was working with for a while. Most my time was spent int he background, approving ro denyign character sheets, balencign weapon stats or attack damages, making the web site look pretty and all that. But the fun part was sitting there int he chat room, mostly quiet and ready to slam a half ton metal foot on anyone who stepped out of line while I was present.

We badmouthed the game manager quite frequently, but I wouldnt let them say anything that wasnt true. He was completely insane at times and needed to be slapped around from time to time to make up for it. (The game managed decided he'd have a 'golden hammer' of infinate damage... But he used it in normal combat instead of disciplinary only, so he had quite a fandom of haters.)

Despite how much I hated the virtually thankless job, I miss having a chance to put my hand in something and stir it around a bit. As much as I like to be a player, I miss not having something I can put up and present to people and watch the joy as they like it and take to it like locusts.

Dont think I'm ever going to be able to look at Sonic the same way again though. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8620401/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8620401/ Sat, 29 Apr 2006 10:49:45 PDT
I shwoed the fix to Felix last night and he approves. All I need to do now is complete the coloring, fix a few minor points in the line work, and send the combo to him and we can start printing and discussing prices and shipping.

The imps popularity is increasing. The whole shirt thing is getting rapidly increasing intrest from everyonee I casually mention it to, regardless of age range. I'm rather... surprised, actually, and kind of amused. I did this particular image for the hell of it, and not at all under Pathfinder's request. He paid me for it anyway.

Little things like this keep popping up. Weird little bits and peices of good news.

There are a grand total fo five imp personalities Im playing with at the moment. Who and Tinker are the only ones confirmed, but I've been playign around with two I call 'Fallen' and 'Wait'. I like how Fallen looks but I dont have a particular story yet, jsut that he's watched over by Who and Tinker keeps his chains secure. Wait is jsut an odd little critter Iw as thinkign about while playing Maplestory.

Still have no idea if I'll actually do anything with all these characters and personalities develiping. Its starting tog beyond jsut Pathfinder's music.

One again, the music link is [link] ... ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8502821/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8502821/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 17:59:01 PDT Pathfinder's Bill: $100
Current Comissions: $0

News:
T-shirts are on delay. The idea for the logo has been approved of by Pathfinder and he's added the image fee to his bill. However, after talking to the shirt guy, Im going to need to make some changes to the imp in the teacup. This may take me another week to figure out how to tweak to a satisfactory position.

More news as I get it. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8426416/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8426416/ Mon, 10 Apr 2006 10:20:45 PDT
Current Debt: $500
Current Comissions: None

Imp notes:
Im starting to feel sick to my stomach when I try and draw more fo these guys. I did manage to get part of one t-shirt design done, but its likely nro enough. Unfortuantly, at this point, I think drawing more is going to make me puke. People always used to tell me that artists block came from disagreeing with the way ones own art was going (And frequently nto wanting to admit it). I feel like the popularity of this little critter is jsut crushing my desire to draw anything worthwhile. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8201553/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8201553/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 20:44:08 PST
Current Comissions:
Teatime Covors (Complete) - $65 (Awaiting payment)

Imp T-shirts (Concept Stage) - Profits currently unknown.
Power T-shirts (Concept stage) - Profits currently unknown.

Notes:
Lo and behold, my little imp guys got more popular than anticipated, so I've been working with Pathfinder on the Tea world, coming up with a background for the race, a general story type system and some prominent characters. As for what we're goign to DO with the information, tis unknown right now, but they may be seen on future CD covors (Exclusivly The Call To Power's designs).

On the other hand, Im doing a few personal projects for when I dont have the inspiration to work on the imps. Ravenn has had some stirrings thanks to my brother, and I'm considering playign with another set of characters.

Oh, and for anyone itnerested, I jsut stumbled across the first episode of 'Captian N' on Youtube. Poor videoquality, but memories of watchignt he show and playing the old origional NES left me grinning from ear to ear. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8050002/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/8050002/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 18:39:29 PST
Current Debt: $665

Current Comissions:
$55 - Teatime Landscape (In progress, pay on completion)

My mother is trying to talk me into working with CafePress or something similar. She's apparrently convinced epople would draw my creatures on Tshirts and mugs. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7887137/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7887137/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 19:01:34 PST
Computer cost: $780

Donations: $60
Arrangements: $10
Comission: $45

Current Debt: $665

Sooo, anyone else want to comission me for art? Eh? Eh?

My Final Fantasy account has been cancled until I can work more of this off. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7786751/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7786751/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 02:04:16 PST ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7527858/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7527858/ Fri, 06 Jan 2006 15:35:09 PST
I've been considering making a portfolio style thing of this character to present to people both interested in the character and interested in the art I really like to do. The biggest problem with Ravenn is he doesnt stand still in the mind too often. He delights in shadow and darkness and many of my images of him just end up being black sheets of paper. I'm working with some thoughts and ideas, but Photoshop hasnt been responding the way I want it to. Its good for color and emotion, but Im having a tough time building solid lines up in it.

However, I've recently tripepd and stumbled and looked back and been amazed by a sound library that I stumbled across. I havnt read much of the documentation on the Quiet american (www.quietamerican.org) project, but listening to some of the sound files, I was pulled out of my howm and spent some time in a world far away from my own, and vastly diffrent.

A few of these files made me think of how Ravenn veiws the world as well as how the world views him. It also made me realize when I hear music, I come up with images and stories behind them.

My DA account hasnt been getting updated as frequntly due to Pathfinder and Dr. Lizzardo (experimental sound musicians) encouraging me to bring together my own sound files and archives and build something new from sampling, looping and reforging things that appeal to my ears.

Nothing I've been involved in sound wise is avalible at this time, unless you contact me through AIM and express some intrest. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7393119/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7393119/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 14:23:06 PST ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7386621/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7386621/ Thu, 22 Dec 2005 21:13:23 PST
I'm an aunt now. Three times. Wow. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7324456/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7324456/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 03:07:53 PST
Of course, the person who sees my work first is usually my dad. Most the time this is cool, bot lately he's been goign back and forth between "I really like your sketchyness" to "You need to make your lines mroe solid" etc.

MAKE UP YOUR DAMNED MIND!

Actually, yanno what? Screw you in the nicest way possible dad, Im sticking to sketchy lines until other issues I'm having with art are resolved. So there. Nyah, ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7264728/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7264728/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 12:18:17 PST
Hearing from him was like being handed a box of crackerjacks and having a chance to dig for the prize. Gears started turning as I started coming up with ways to make cash, make it fast and keep the lines open in case I needed money in the future. The primary way being lowering my comission prices and head hunting for people who wanted work done.

I did laundry the next morning, washes some dishes, straightened up my bed, cleaned the bathroom, re-arranged my shelves so all my work things were more prominant, then talked to the guy who was paying for WoW with his credit card to see how much I needed to make to get him back on track and maybe a little extra for a few mroe months of play time. I was inspired and ready to take action in life just to get that prize int he box.


Then the nice man with the credit card ifnormed me he'd have the debt covored by christmas and I didnt need to do anything other than wait.

Now Im back in my rut with no real inspiration to do anything and a sortof bored $300 goal to work towards. I still need the money for a better computer and better working meterials, but suddenly nothing really seems all that urgent.


Damn. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7045388/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/7045388/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 13:35:13 PST
There you go, this update is for you. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6639058/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6639058/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 01:05:37 PDT
Current desires;
I want to do some sketches for Requiem's gods, avatars, spirits, and a 'monster manual' type thing.
I want to complete the four image story Call to Power's music made me think of.
I want to have the attention span to draw Ravenn again (the bugger's complex and whines at me for simple things).
For some strange reason, I REALLY want to draw some small but detailed images of pokemon beating the crap out of eachother.
I want to finish my fan art yoga poses because they were just so darned neat.
Theres this mask I want to finish...
People I'd like to pick the brains of...

Current Obligations;
Call to Power wants a few things done.
The strange cultish following I seem to be developing want more dark stories to be added to.
Moving out.
Not dying of starvation/malnutrition.
Read more Harry Potter so I can understand what the hell my roomates are talking about.

Completed Tasks;
Bokchoy BLM sub job to 37 - Done
Mule #6 deleted before billing - Done
'Bonding with dad' - Done
'Bonding with mom' - 50% Done ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6560259/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6560259/ Wed, 21 Sep 2005 02:26:39 PDT $65 for stand alone, complex items.
$50 for mini-series images. (3 or more images about one 'subject')
$20 for simple drawings.

Fanart;
Free, for the moment. I dont like the idea of charging money for drawing something mainstream. On the other hand, I pretty much hate doing fanart, so you'll have to convince me to draw fanart in the first place.

Current Projects;
Oh god, there's a lot of them. And I'm only getting payment for one of them at the moment. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6410663/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6410663/ Sun, 04 Sep 2005 03:14:58 PDT
A couple thoughts have been running through my head these past few nights. A lot of them involve trying to draw pictures to the stories of my life that I tell myself. Sortof a serious comical autobiography. Ignore the part that Im in my early twenties, I've had some experinces and thats gotta count for something.

The stories that came to mind werent funny things though, like the time I got trapped in Chabot park with an older friend and a six year old girl and how two random joggers saved us. I didnt think of making rasin bread for the first time with my mother in our two story town house when I was kid, or the little gardens I used to make when I was a wee little girl in my periwinkle and violet dresses.

The first thing I thought about tonight as I lay in bed trying to sleep, was what I'd tell a pimp and the demands and rules I'd set before I came to work for him or her. I've been thinking about this for a year or two now, just as a concept of the lowest I'd sink. I still think my rules are probably too high for a pimp or whore's expectations so as long as I belive in these rules and no pimp will follow them, I should be safe.

"If you want me to be a little sex pot for you, you meet my demands. All of tme, no skimping out or I walk. I'd rather die of starvation before I bend over under someone elses ideals of how my cunt should be dealt with. Anyone hits me, even once and leaves so much as a welt, mark or anything more than a light sting, and I walk. Anyone tries to offer or shoot me up with drugs, and I walk. Anyone gets me pregnant, has the potential to pass on an STD, or the tendancy to send his whores home with broken bones, and I walk. You treat me like a prize, your most precious possession, you get me teachers on the best ways to please a man, and I'll learn. I'll earn my wages if you put the time and effort to teach me how."

Occassionally I think I should find a dungeon that needs a dominatrix, but Im not sure how I feel about whipping people at the moment.

But that thought ended up turning into something else. I wouldnt just be a little whore. I'd do what I could to talk to my soutors. Not just falsify intrest but take on a keen intrest in every little detail they chose to reveal about themselves. In return, I'd tell them stories, much like this one, about my life and what I've seen come and go. Simply put, I'd keep my eyes open for a better job while my pimp got his greens. Whent he opportunity came, I'd go somewhere else, but keep the Pimp in retainer incase I needed his services again.

I think I actually treat msot my friends this way. But Im getting to that.

In my minds eye, I'd find a suitor who'd ask me about stuff I knew, and I'd tell him, "Knowledge is power" and how I REALLY came to know that phrase. Not through some cutesy little book or phrases or some schoolyard recruitment program. No, no, I learned the phrase and what it really came to mean from a group of hackers I used to hang out with.

Pathfinder is the person I remember most when it comes to learning how to get what you want from both people and machines. Machines are not smart. Even artificial intelligence at the moment cannot learn, create and repeat new skills. They can, however, assess a situation based on what a human mind has told them, and come up with an apporximate response through trial and error over hundreds of thousands of rotations. But they're still caught in their loops of digits and numbers when it comes down to it. And just like a machine, when you learn how a person thinks, you can hack their emotions.

"Knowledge is Power" soon became "Hacking is 10% knowledge of code, and 90% psychology". Yeah, I'm pretty sure I learned that from Pathfinder too. You probably wont find a record of him anywhere if you look for the name though. He's retired from the business now, and this name I gave to him both to hide his identity as well as his actions. You could call it a pet name. But now and then he'll still tell me a story or two, of the way things used to be, of how the systems and engines worked, leaving out just enough key informeationt hat I couldnt replicate it.

But I know he can. And I know other people who can. I also know there are people who think I'm a hacker but I dont know a speck of code manipulation.

Unfortunatly, I dont get to use these talents much. This leads into the part about fear. Fear of the unknown, or worse, as the businessman stares in horror about the dragoness talking about ripping apart his company from the inside, fear of someone who knows more than you do or ever will.

I think about this guy who moved into the park some time ago. I was maybe 14 at the time, give or take six months. There wasnt really anyone to hang around with int he neighborhood except for the terribly bratty screa... ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6253776/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6253776/ Wed, 17 Aug 2005 15:38:16 PDT
I'm sure lots of people, including people who look at my art and read my journal have absloutly no idea who or what Call to Power even is. In a rough mention, I'll simply lable him as an eletronic artist I've known since he was a teenager. A teenager that didnt really bother telling me he was trying to be a musician until several years AFTER I'd met him, heh. At first, I admit I never thought he'd make it. when he was young, his music sounded like standard experimental noise most kids do thinking they're going to become the next Orbital or Chemical Brothers. Unlike most kids, he didnt give up after one year, two years, four years. Now he's got CD's printing and selling off Artistlaunch.

[link] , If your interested in pursuing his music.

In additional news, Hoodoo foundry paid me as well. from both projects, I've got 70$ in my wallet. I made no noise about comission fees, only mentioned the work I put into both. Foundry took me just over a week (Due to the details that were required to be in the image and having to learn some stuff I didnt know how to do) to complete, and Im still doing detail work and letter-facing on it. The total project will be $75 when Im done with it. Call to Power's logo took me about a minute and a half of idle drawing.

Since posting Ravenn's Cloak, I've been getting a lot more intrest out of people. I've been fiddling with drawing actual people again, and if things keep moving foraward, I hope I'll get more people asking me for things and waving the green at me.

Final notes:

Rhapsody. Thank you for introducing me to the band, Origami, I'll have to go over their website ( [link] ) In further detail some time when I've got a break fromt he gaming and the drawing. I've been hooked on Black Dragon, for sure, but Glory keeps seeping into my soul for some reason. Guess maybe its an aspect of my art and stories that I really miss having. Seems its all fear and blood now, when I take my art seriously. Now its all about the grind of 'leveling' and the process of getting to the glorious events that I've forgotten what the end was supposed to look like in the first place.

I dunno. The music makes me feel good. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6193274/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6193274/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 23:44:44 PDT
I want a Mecha MMORPG, but not something like battletech or Armored Core. I havnt quite figured otu exactly what I want, but I know everything I've seen so far just doesnt cut it.

And I know theres people who agree with me.

Part of my problem is, I may be able to draw fantasy, but its not what I dream in.

Best comparisons I've found so far have come from two animations. King of Bandit Jing for being highly detailed operations of fantasy that knows no boundry or limits. It pulls you in, entrenches you in a problem of a completely diffrent world from day to day, and leaves you wondering when its over.

Added now is Steamboy. I will not post any spoilers, but HOT DAMN, its animation like this that makes my fingertips tingle! The animation, the plot, the twists, my GOD I need a copy of the sound track! o.o

I wonder if I'm going to be able to sleep tonight.

Oh, and I'm working on an image of Bok riding a GM. I dunno, it hit me early in the morning. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6175527/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6175527/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 05:09:31 PDT
Therefore the animation I just spent 4 hours working on refuses to leave the program terminal (But then I've always known animating in Photoshop Image Ready was a bad idea) inwhich I've devised it and I canno show off to all my friends.

Not that its done anyway. Suffice to say, the little excerpts of the MMO animation (Erm, I cant remember the artists name for the life of me. he's in my 'watched artists' list somewhere, Im terrible with names) got me thinking about my own forays with animation and the fact that I'm fucking insane and any animation I've ever done has been hand crafted, Frame. By. Frame. No joke.

Considering how much I usually freak out over details, Im not really sure I'd ever be able to manage a long animated episode of anything (Despite how many people have begged me to try). Heck, Im having trouble with 'keeping it simple' with a stand alone 13 frame pointless anim.

Its 5 AM, and I'm bored.

Around 4 AM though, I was thinking about drawing moogles dressed in various FF job gear. That ended up into me thinking about a Tonberry ****ing a moogle.

I slept between 9 PM and 1 AM and both MMO's I play (WoW and FFXI) are down for maitinence. I neeeeed to find something to do. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6010098/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/6010098/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 04:13:54 PDT
I find I cant draw Ravenn much because of lacking this ability in emotion. It bothers me, it bothers him, and it proabbly bothers his fans. Not sure though.

Edit: Additional information.

One particular person is pursing me to do two things. He has begged and begged and begged me again, more times than I remember (Probably more like two actually) to help him or completly solo make a MUD for him and people he knows to play in.

I've done it before, at least half of it anyway, but dont know any core codes or how to run a server. Until I know how to upkeep a server (Not to mention get one running without crashing my home network), this is not going to happen. Thoughts are in the wings though.

The second thing he's bothered, hashed and begged me for is to return to my intrests in animation. I've got stories, I've got (possible) voice actors if it REALLY came to the point of needing such things, and I probably have enough programs at my fingertips that I could actually animate something and put it up somewhere.

Him and a few other people have said they'd pay for the privilage to view anything that comes out of my skull in regards to animation. As I'm a perfectionist and have the tendancy to work on anything 'good' for several days to several weeks, this would probably result in fifteen seconds of something 'pretty' before I gave up.

Pursuing animation would mean having to try and learn how to manipulate Flash again. This is not something I look forward to. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/5748706/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/5748706/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 21:34:22 PDT
I got a new laptop cooler so I can run the laptop throught the day, and my dad gave me the old TV so I can play my PS2 again. I just might start doing more fanart just to practice drawing poses and action cuts more.

Howl of Howl's Moving Castle suprisingly highly resembles one of my primary writing/drawing characters, Marrk Ravenn. Mostly in physical apperance of his bird forms. Its given me some petter ideas of how I want to draw Ravenn in bird form and as his Reaper form.

I still need to remodle Pokehut but I'm struggling with the database currifulum and the fact that my homepage service removed SQL hosting from its free accounts and have added advertisements. I either need some even minor income and soon, Or I'm going to be forced to sell my body on the street.

Bleh. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/5258925/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/5258925/ Tue, 03 May 2005 18:10:16 PDT
Been fooling around with Pokehut again. I hate the old website so I'm getting underway of trying to learn SQL and some other things to try and cobble together a database by summer vacation.

We'll see if it works or not. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4689802/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4689802/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 02:38:01 PST ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4615650/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4615650/ Fri, 18 Feb 2005 15:05:47 PST
Oh. And some more self portriat art based on my experinces with real life. I've got about two or three more I need to draw from my experinces out here though. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4442838/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4442838/ Sat, 29 Jan 2005 05:37:37 PST
I'll play an hour of WoW and call it a night I think. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4370547/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4370547/ Thu, 20 Jan 2005 16:25:51 PST
But I just dont have any time. I havnt had any time since Thanksgiving. And now I'm moving, I need to find a job of ANY form and try to complete some basic education so I can at least mildly pretend to be another faceless sheep in the flock so I can afford to pay the people I want to work in my little established game world.

Pokehut is not a lost cause, I just cant find a database programmer willing to work for free. I have LOADS of C++ stuff I need to be studying, but it came in right before my vacation and before I even got home I was flagged down with the fact that I needed to move.

I shouldnt even have time to edit my journal here. I dont have time to update my live or dead journals, I dont have time to organize the logs for various games and post them as I was trying to do, and so on and so forth, etc., etc....

I only have time now due to the fact that Im doing laundry. Even now the timer ticks lower and I regret typing here when I could've been adding to various life work projects elsewhere.

I fear becoming so induced and folded into work that my imagination gets strangled into the same old, dry rut. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4290299/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4290299/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 21:38:25 PST ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4242533/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4242533/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 23:41:13 PST
I left my home January 23rd after finding out I didnt have jury duty to visit Find for two weeks. On arriving and hanging out with Holy, Synge, Jean and Phin, Holy left for his vacation a few days later. My origional two week stay would've had me leaving the day Holy returned. Unhappy with that, we altered my schedule a little so I'd remain a few days longer to hang out with him again.

During this time, it was decided that I was not aloud to do anything AT ALL that I saw as work. I had been stressing out at home to the point of tears when no one was home or watching particularly closely. My stuff was being moved around, my computer keeping me barely sane. However, almost all my net friends went somewhere for christmas and new years which left me virtually alone. Dolphin and Death not being line for the last week has been stressful for me. I talk to the two of them the most. They're better family to me than my own parents are.

Just before leaving to Phins, I hear word the trailer park is under threat of being bulldozed and sold to the higherst bidder come march. My aprents want to move into the community my brother is currently living in. My problem is I dont like anyone at all in the community they wish to engage in, and when I voiced this opinion, my parents, brother, and everyone else int hat community called me a Bad Person.

Stressed, I looked seriously into alternate living options. And in essance, I get to decide between selling my mind, selling my soul, or selling my body.

Living with Death would require me to get a job I am totally un prepared for. I havnt had any form of schooling since the 7th grade and nothing remotely akind to 'this person is smart enough to be out of highschool'. I never graduated gradeschool actually, but thats besides the point. Estimating benifits vurses taxes and rent, I would NOT have enough to eat. No games either, which tide over my sanity most the time.

The second most option involces mostly selling my body and mind to Issa who lives in NM. I can go live with him on the condition that if I dont want to pay for rent, I have to date him and stop flirting and sleeping with the harem of people I've collected int he same time I've known him. I care for a LOT of people, its not all just abotu sex, but he wants me to end all of them if I live with him. He lives in a house and rent free makes him the most primary option. But I've already broken down into tears twice at the thought of becomeing monogomus again. I just cant do that.

The Thirdmost option is moving to Canada. On one hand, I can move in with Katt, or so she's always offered, until I'm founded as a worker at least or a citizen at some point and establish my own place. This offer may have fallen through however, as last I heard she was engaged. Dolphin also lives in canada, but since our breakup, I have a very tough time talking to her outside of gaming. Its an issue since living with her, her mother and her grandmother make me want to take a powersander to my face.

There are smaller options jumbled into fourth place. I can go with the Clarks who I used to babysit for, one small guest room in their huge house. I feel terrible in houses with more than two people though. Im constantly trying to move quietly and not draw any attention to myself. I generally dont share common intrests with people I meet in fleshpace, so its annoying.

Origami offers me places too, once she finds posting areas, but I have no idea how solid living space like that would be, especially if all the 'work' I do is online and such.

I've had other random offers from smaller regions, peoples and places, but all of them rip into my gut or my mind. I feel sick whenever I think about having to move. I can only type this now after a week of being in montery, and just waking up one morning weeping. Think I sortof scared Phin when I did that and told him about everything.

Yeah. So. When I get 'home' to the trailer, I have no idea where I'm really going from there. I'm supposed to take a trip to NM if the month with Death doesnt work out. If neither of the first to options work out, I may be doomed to a cardboard box or selling my body and blood to whomever wants it. *Shudders*

...

On good news however, I finally buckled down and worked through a MASSIVE amount of Project Storm. I spent ten HOURS straight typing information about the card system and how everything is going to work, with enough information stored to last eight years of releases.

Its hard for me to get that kind of concentration though, and I only got through about a third of the information I need to compile. Plus, I cant put an... ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4146783/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4146783/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 14:52:36 PST Race: Draconic
Origins: Unknown (Origional history was lost to HD crash)
Height: 6'5"
Weight: Censored for the safety of the typist.
Organization: Pokehut
Position: Leader of the Burning Hearth (Gym)

Pokemon: Charmander, Cyndaquil, Torchic, Vulpix, Shellder, Geodude, Bellsprout, Abra, Doduo, Beldum, Flaaffy, Ponyta, Pidgotto, Growlithe, Eevee, Slugma, Koffing.

Last Known Battle Record: 6 Wins, 3 Losses, 0 Ties, 21 overseen matches.
Rumored Record: 35 wins, 18 Losses, 3 Ties, 245 overseen matches.

Notes:
Bebop took on Pokehut from his former mentor who was only ever reffered to as 'Buck', and turned the orginization to his own demented little whims and brought the promise of violence and bloodshed into the pokemon world. Despite the best tracking of both governmental and private security corporations, capture of Bebop has currently proven impossible. The Draconic, belived to be a hybrid of either Team Rocket's meddling or some older previously unknown pokemon breed, has made itself known for nearly five years, terrorizing various cities and locations with the 'elite' group of followers he has chosen to follow in his footsteps.

Last known location: Goldenrod City.
Goldenrod Damage report: Pokemon Center still reciving repairs from damages. Four cars totaled and six city blocks reciving sizemic retrofitting and repairs. Two apartment buildings up for demolishment from damages.

Target was last seen heading West.

Extra: Seen in Saffron City Times, page seven.
'He said he was looking for a challenge', the shaken Pokemart employee had said after a run in with the beast. 'The last gym leader that confronted him ended up having a lombotomy and a body cast for four months. Who wouldnt be worried about having THAT walking into your store?!'

Seen in Celedon City, posters.
"Wanted: Pokemon Challenge. Reward: $10,000. Requester: Bebop. Meeting point: Noon, Power Plant, sundays. Will not attend if cops show up. Extra: Rocket pansies need not apply." ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4105399/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/4105399/ Sun, 19 Dec 2004 19:04:09 PST
I want to beat my father's face in with either a hammer of a baseball bat. I cant decide which would have nicer effects since he wont hold still for a drill to the brain.

I've got artists block. I'm EXTREMELY stressed because I may not have a home AT ALL come march, and I cant even draw because he's spent a few months making fun of me and saying 'oh, shes just coloring her stupid pictures' when he thinks Im not listening. I HEARD THAT, YOU FUCK!

Unfortunatly, I have to live with him and Im caught in a four month depression because he hates me and Im struggling to not kill myself for being an utter failure in the family line. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3763739/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3763739/ Fri, 05 Nov 2004 20:31:46 PST
Three weeks from this message, any and all people of the old tavern are being invited to (I have to get the name of the site and room name again) in three weeks. The origional founders of the room have hit the net again and plan to have one big bash of an RP for anyone who can show up.

I myself may or may not be there. I havnt decided yet. I was jsut a kid back then... ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3693879/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3693879/ Thu, 28 Oct 2004 11:52:22 PDT
And the con starts tomorrow. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3668000/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3668000/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 02:45:28 PDT
General Mecha.

Shadowrun.

Three things I severely miss that I havnt been able to find time for. Not so much no time, just FFXI keeps sucking me in.

I want to make a template, database and flash website for pokehut and get it running again.

I want to work on Project Storm and get the card system done. I ALSO wand to just go and splurge on looking at mecha art again and tell people how awesome they are or even find some games to play around in. Mecha started my intrests in EVERYthing and I feel like Im losing my roots.

I want to play shadowrun again. I want to get BlackCypress's character sheet refurbished and get it to something acceptibly playable. GodDAMN I miss playing shadowrun. FFXI cant replace how fuckign kick ass and heart poundign a good firefight in the dark was, or havign to always look over your shouler in case the guy you've just hired decides to kill you and take the loot for himself. FFXI doesnt have friendly fire, provisions to keep people from making retarded ass mistakes and LEARN for christs sakes..

Im going to try and work on my sketch fo Mortikie though, Im overdue.

My masks still arent selling *Cries*

Edit: 2000th page view gets a free bit of art dedicated just to them. Please dont run a refresh spam though, its annoying. And I make no guarentee it'll be good. *Shrugs* I just need to get off my ass and draw again. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3597327/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3597327/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 15:39:49 PDT
I've been living with rules my entire life. So have other people. I've been reported for flaming Matisimo. Im not really bothered though. I've apologized for part of the messages I left him... actually, no, I only left ONE message. I dont really harrass people. I posted once, and put it all behind me.

I still got reported. Feh. Oh well.

Its kinda sad how seriosuly people take a bunch of words and forget this place is primarily about the ART.. Hell, I dont even read most my comments. Though as people have told me, 'your art isnt worth commenting on'. Like I'm supposed to care about this?

I sure as hell dont want to end up on some meuseum wall so epople can speculate the 'meaning' behind my art. I do it for myself, I do it to releave stress or have some fun with golors and shapes and so on. So when someone says 'your art is shit', I just smile, nod and say 'sure, whatever'. And when people put on false smiles and say 'this is splendid' when looking at a stick figure, I wonder how they'd react to turning the next page and seeing that figure ripped apart with little blood splatters av-- Er, no.

Suffice to say, standing up for Katt seems to have gotten me in trouble. Its somewhat dissapointing, but Im not really surprised by it.

-- In FFXI news, I unlocked bard and its horribly addictive. Damn SE for devouring my soul. ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3565958/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3565958/ Mon, 11 Oct 2004 14:19:48 PDT
"!krimson-katt resorted to overly aggressive and insulting commentary as well as public and unsupported accusations of image theft."

Right. I admit to the first part. She IS horribly, horribly insulting and yeah, even I get tired of defending her bad mouth sometimes. She probably doesnt want to hear this from me, but there have been times I've wanted to reach out and smack her few times for commentary she's made to other people. She has a short temper and periodically pisses people off either because 'its fun' or 'they attacked me first'.

Anger only begets more anger. I've tried teaching her this but it doesnt work. Especially with people like Holly intentionally aggrivating her every chance they can get.

The second part just seems odd though. Unsupported image theft? This is the first I've heard of it.

Katt's in the middle of the "Fuck DA" phase and I've removed myself from her presance. She is still retained under my employment. I'm fairly used to her mood swings between all hatred and attention grubbery. I also know she reads my DA regularly and she knows I dont lie.

She's a good person in a bad place. If all goes well, I'll try and visit her next summer and smack her and Holly in person ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3560302/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3560302/ Sun, 10 Oct 2004 20:08:22 PDT
I sent a message to DA's staff concerning Katt's banning. I want to know WHY she was banned at the very least, rather than having rumor flitter around the net. Of course, my effort was aimed more at lifting the ban, but I'm not expecting much right now. There were other matters addressed in my note to the staff but one ay or another, it'll either be lost int he crowd of complaints or result in nothing much.

Theres not a lot I belive in enough to actually comment on, but Katt has always been one of the very few people I've ever looked into the best intrests of. If it worned for her being in canada and myself in the US, we might've been family.

"You hurt my little sister, I come after you." ]]> ~thebebopcow http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3552558/ http://thebebopcow.deviantart.com/journal/3552558/ Sat, 09 Oct 2004 19:53:28 PDT
AND I got new boots. I've needed them for almost two years, I've been wearing my reatty old hiking boots just because they were my favorite boots. I got new heavily padded, steel toed boots now. One size too big, but everything at the store that was my size was too ugly for me to even consider. Seriosuly, what the fuc? I got to choose between like orange puke, brown puke, or high heel puke. Or steel toed boots slightly too large.

Unfortunatly, some time while I was offline, Krimsionkatt's art account got banned. I'm fairly ticked off considering she's still my primary art employee since Mel vanished. (Not the Melcat of DA, somone else.)

My day isnt done and I still have work to do, so this is just a half way post. ]]> ~thebebopcow