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How old were you: At this exact day: 16

Where did you go to school? Fredericksburg High School

Where did you work? Nowhere at that time

Where did you hang out? Friends' houses

How was your hair style? Um...usually got puffy and curly.

Did you wear glasses? Yep. Hated it.

Who were your best friends? Fellow bandie named Michael, Jose and Tim.

Who was your regular-person crush? Her name was Becca

How many tattoos did you have? None

How many piercings did you have? None

What car did you drive? No car for me.

What was your worst fear? No comment...(can't say here )

Had you smoked a cigarette yet? Nope

Had you been arrested? Nope

Had your heart broken? Yeah...

**HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!**

2006

How old are you? At this exacty day: 22

Where do you work? Convenience store

Where do you go to school? Nowhere

Where do you live? Stonewall

Where do you hang out? At the moment, just home with no vehicle.

Do you wear glasses? Yes, and I like them better.

What is your hairstyle? At the moment, short black hair. Easier to manage lol.

Who is your best friend? I have a few now...

How many piercings do you have? None still..

How many tattoos? None

What kind of car do you have? None really now, but I DID have a Mercury

What is your biggest fear? Being arrested for something I had nothing to do with.

Have you been arrested since, if so 5 yrs ago? Nope

Had your heart been broken? Yes, more times than I caer to remember.

REPOST AS "How much have You changed?"

I also tag whoever cares to do this.

]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/10615675/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/10615675/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 15:50:25 PST T: Loyal to those you love.
E: A GOD DAMN GOOD KISSER
V: Not judgemental.
E: A GOD DAMN GOOD KISSER
N: Dead sexy.

R: Freakin' crazy
A: Likes to drink.
M: Makes dating fun
I: Loves everyone.
R: Freakin' crazy
E: A GOD DAMN GOOD KISSER
Z: Always ready.

o.o Just looking at that, that's all I can think.

I'll tag whoever cares to do this.
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Key:
A: Likes to drink.
B: Likes people
C: Is wild and crazy.
D: Has one of the best personalities ever.
E: A GOD DAMN GOOD KISSER
F: People adore you.
G: Never let people tell you what to do.
H: Have a very good personality and looks.
I: Loves everyone.
J: Lives life for fun.
K: Really silly.
L: Loved by everyone
M: Makes dating fun
N: Dead sexy.
O: Best in bed.
P: Popular with all types of people.
Q: A hypocrite.
R: Freakin' crazy
S: Easy to fall in love with
T: Loyal to those you love.
U: Really like to chill.
V: Not judgemental.
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to do.
Y: One of the best damn bf/gf anyone could ask for.
Z: Always ready.

]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/9683028/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/9683028/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 20:07:06 PDT 2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
6. Tag five others to do this.

Torina56: any females out there want to talk.
BAbby23: 16/m
SpinGle2345: age 23/m

That page was in the middle of one of the short stories of Naked Pictures of Famous People by Jon Stewart. The story was called Vincent and Theo on AOL. VERY funny, I thought.

Well I tag anyone that wants to do this. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/9259182/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/9259182/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 09:47:33 PDT sorceressnymph

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Repost this if you realize homophobia is wrong.
Belief: The only time you should ever judge love is when one of the persons in the couple is being mistreated. Homosexual relationships are just as healthy and just as loving as heterosexual couples.

Please repost! ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/9026922/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/9026922/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 10:38:01 PDT What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: But leaving slowly
Listening to: Battle in the Forgotten City-FF AC OST
Watching: House Party 3

And now to catch you up...

Well my week of vacation is up, and as you can see, I have returned. I did learn a few things while I was gone, and altogether it was a great week. (Anyone that wants details, just let me know!) Honestly, I was really sad to go, but I know that I was needed here. But what sucks is the feeling I had while I was there is quickly going away. At the rate it's going, it'll be gone by Tuesday. I thought things would be different coming home, but they're pretty much the same, which I guess in one sense is good. But at least after Tuesday I should have a working car, so that can help.


Today's thoughts

I do have thoughts, actually I had plenty from vacation, but for now I can't build on them, but I will soon enough.




There will be something in this section, hopefully starting next week!

Well that's it, so I'll see you guys!


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]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/8938850/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/8938850/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 09:40:14 PDT What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Nervous (good kind)
Listening to: Days Go By- Dirty Vegas
Watching: The X-Files: Season 6

And now to catch you up...

Wow, I haven't written an actual journal in almost 3 months! So much has actually happened but I'm not gonna name it all here because odds are I probably wouldn't remember anyways lol. The main news is that I'll be taking my first vacation in 4 years! I'll be gone for a week, away from work, which is also wonderful, but could also be a curse if things go terrible. I'll be across the country, well to the north anyways, to see ~sorceressnymph and to go to her graduation, etc. It'll be a few firsts for me, my first plane ride and to an airport obviously, first time in Montana, first time meeting ~sorceressnymph, first time being in the audience for a graduation, I think that's about it. I'm hoping to keep a journal of my events there, if anything, so I'll have something to remind me in case I forget. I almost actually got arrested recently for something that I had absolutely nothing to do with. AND I got pulled over about a week after that event for something so stupid, seriously. I had failed to use my turn signal, but it was about 11:20 at night and there wasn't a car on the highway, just me. I was really tired, so I guess I must've forgot to use it, that and when there are no cars on the highway I usually don't use it anyways, who do I have to warn I'm turning, the animals? For now that's all that's coming to mind, I'm not completely thinking right now, have to pack up my last things for the trip!


Today's thoughts

I do have a lot to write about, but for now it's not coming to me, but for sure by the time I get back, I'll have something!


Some Random Thoughts

-How long do you think Jerry Springer will last on the air? I'm guessing...3 more seasons, maybe.
-Why does everyone think sudoku puzzles have to do with math? They're just numbers, just think of the numbers as words.
-Why do the seasons of Monk on DVD cost more than X-Files? Monk seasons have around 12-15 episodes, X-Files has at the least 20. I've yet to figure that one out. Personally I like X-Files better.
-I wish I could bring watermelon to eat with me on the plane.
-Why do some Hispanics get mistaken for Indians? I've seen Indians, they're much darker than us. From what I figure, they're between Hispanics and blacks. I hope I get mistaken for one on my trip lol.
-Which pays more, being a P.I. or a bounty hunter?

Well that's it, so I'll see you guys!


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]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/8686155/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/8686155/ Fri, 05 May 2006 21:31:42 PDT What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Smart-assing

I got this from ~sorceressnymph, I was really bored and needed something new in here

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Supposedly, if you've seen over 70 of these movies, you have no life. So...it said to put an X next to the movies you've seen.

() Rocky Horror Picture Show
(X) Grease
() Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
(X) The Mexican
() Fight Club
(X) Starsky and Hutch
() Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
() Airplane
Total: 3

() The Princess Bride
() Young Frankenstien
(X) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
() Napoleon Dynamite
() Labrynth
(X) Saw
(X) Saw II
(X) White Noise
() White Oleander
(X) Anger Management
(X) 50 First Dates
() Jason X
Total: 6

(X) Scream
(X) Scream 2
(X) Scream 3
(X) Scary Movie
(X) Scary Movie 2
(X) Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(X) American Pie 2
(X) American Wedding
Total: 9

() Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
() Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
() Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
() Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
(X) Resident Evil I
(X) Resident Evil 2
(X) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
() The Village
() Donnie Darko
() Lilo & Stitch.
() Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch has a Glitch
Total: 3

(X) Finding Nemo
() Finding Neverland
(X) Signs
(X) The Grinch
(X) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(X) White Chicks
(X)Butterfly Effect
() Thirteen Going on 30
(X) I, Robot
Total: 7

(X) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
() A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(X) Along Came Polly
() Deep Impact
(X) KingPin
(X) Never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
(X) Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
(X) Joe Dirt
Total: 7

() Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
() The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
() Dumb & Dumberer
(X) Final Destination
(X) Final Destination 2
() Final Destination 3
() Halloween
(X) The Ring
(X) The Ring 2
Total: 5

(X) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
() Practical Magic
() Chicago
(X) Ghost Ship
() From Hell
(X) Hellboy
() Secret Window
() I Am Sam
() The Whole Nine Yards
Total: 3

() The Day After Tomorrow
() Child's Play
(X) Bride of Chucky
(X) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
() Gothika
(X) Nightmare on Elm Street
() Sixteen Candles
(X) Remember the Titans
() Coach Carter
(X) Bad Boys
Total: 5

(X) Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
() Se7en
() Ocean's Eleven
() Ocean's Twelve
() Identity
(X) Lone Star
() Bedazzled
(X) Predator I
(X) Predator II
TOTAL: 4

(X) Independence Day
(X) Cujo
(X) A Bronx Tale
(X) Darkness Falls
(X) Christine
(X) ET
(X) Children of the Corn
() My Boss' daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
() Frailty
Total: 7

() Best Bet
() How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
() She's All That
() Calendar Girls
() Sideways
() Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
() Ever After
(X) Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
Total: 1

(X) X-Men
(X) X2
(X) Spider-Man
(X) Spider-Man 2
() Sky High
(X) Jeepers Creepers
(X) Jeepers Creepers 2
() Catch Me If You Can
() The Others
(X) Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
() Cruel Intentions
() Cruel Intentions 2
(X) The Hot Chick
Total: 8

() Swimfan
() Miracle
(X) Old School
() The Notebook
() K-Pax
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
() A Walk To Remember
(X) Boogeyman
Total: 5

(X) Hitch
(X) The Fifth Element
() Star Wars... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/8416750/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/8416750/ Sun, 09 Apr 2006 10:47:49 PDT What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Wanting rest

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

1. I have a bad habit of being really emotional in video games, especially fighting games (It's common to hear me say 'Come on, motherf***!')

2. I make a clicking sound after I finish a sentence every once in a while.

3. I don't have the Southern accent like others do, but I do say 'y'all'

4. When I have a shaved head and shades on, I've been told I look like Morpheus from the Matrix. XD

5. When I'm frustrated with someone, I will end up saying 'We'll see you' instead of a normal goodbye (I don't know if that counts as weird or not)

6. I used to be really big with using a phone, but for the most part now, I'm not really.

Since I honestly am not sure how many people read my journals, I guess whoever chooses to be tagged can be.

Well that's it, so I'll see you guys!


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]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/7869688/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/7869688/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 00:20:12 PST What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Needing to vent

To quote my friend Jessica 'Was today really necessary?'
I miss my past. I really do. Seems like that's where all the better times are. There are the bad times also, that goes with everyone's past, but I really wish I could just handpick all the good times and go through them again. That seems to be where all my friends are.
I can usually tell when I'm ranting when what I write doesn't come together right.
And I can tell I'm depressed whenever the things that make me smile or laugh do nothing for me.
So far that's happening.
I'm watching Harold and Kumar go to White Castle, which normally I love, but now not one smile has come to me.
I'm cold as fuck but that's not the worst for me, even though it should be.
Times like these a bottle or any drugs for that matter I want to turn to, hell, most others turn to it for less. But there comes a price to everything, like me choosing not to use anything will cause me to just stay feeling this shitty. I guess that's a lot better than the alternative in the end.
Am I the only one that notices that no matter how many good things you can do for people, all it takes is one mistake to change everything? And in my cases, the change goes quickly. Here's an example: One decision to spend at least 1100 dollars, which I had thought about for at least 5 months switches the other way in about 5 minutes. Quick, huh?
I hate seeming like I'm ALWAYS the one in the wrong, and that no matter what I can try to repair whatever hurt or damage I do, it falls on deaf ears. Why is it always me? Can't it be for once that I wasn't the wrong one? I know I have had my moments, but fuck, man.
And on that note, how about some apologies here? I'm always apologizing no matter what, just to try to make things better. I can count the number of times I've had people say to me 'I'm sorry' when they were the ones who did the wrong with one hand. Is it just not in anyone's morals to apologize for things, or is it just that most people think they're above that or that they're not wrong?
Looking at my old journals, I haven't written a depressing one in about a year, that's pretty amazing. Doesn't mean I wasn't depressed though.
Why is it lately that when I want to help, no one wants it but when people need help, I'm there. That probably doesn't make sense to anyone but me. The same applies to when I need help myself. But I'm sure that one's my own fault.
I think people should really think when they use the phrase 'I'll always be there for you.' Myself included. My luck so far, no one's really held to that. I have no problem holding to that for the most part, but I'm usually around a lot. My problem is in the previous sentence.
People always tell me that I should be happy more. Well I was feeling really good tonight, but it had to get fucked up. One fuckup would've been fine, but I had to have two. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
I'm sure with hard thinking, I could add a lot to this, but I'm using this this time just to have something to vent to.
Odds are that I'm missing things that I fucked up and that I'm the bad guy with, with enough thinking, I know I'll figure it out.
I'm willing to bet the people that some of these statements apply to won't read any of this, but that's fine, thus is life, right?
On the one happy note, while I'm writing here, I wanted to thank COF for sending me all the birthday wishes on my birthday, that really did make my day.
What evened the day out was that the people I figured would at least wish me a happy birthday didn't. Had to get that out while I'm venting here.
I actually do feel a tad better just getting this out. But just a tad. And note that more than likely I'm probably not the victim here, knowing my luck. The end.

Well that's it, so I'll see you guys!


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~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/7606751/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/7606751/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 00:52:23 PST What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Hopefully recovering
Listening to: Wildfire-Michael Murphey
Watching: Wedding Crashers

And now to catch you up...

I wanted to first start this journal off by apologizing about the last journal entry, no one had to actually repost it or anything, I only posted it for someone else, I probably should've mentioned that the first time. Well now that that's out of the way, I hope everyone had a fun New Years. It was kinda sad here because we couldn't pop any fireworks due to the grass being so dry. I was so used to seeing a nice show at midnight every year. Ah well, maybe next year. I got a different kind of show anyways. Went to two different parties, one with weed and champagne (I didn't smoke any if anyone thinks I did ), the second one with tequila and other liquor. I had a shot of tequila, sorta. It was in my mouth, but I had no intention of swallowing it, just wanted to spit it in a fire so get big flame, and I'm glad I didn't swallow. It was TERRIBLE! I had to drink a whole can of soda to get the taste out of my mouth! Now I see why people drink other things with stronger alcohol. I saw a LOT of emotion with the second party, stayed there till 4 am, and just about everyone there was F*ED up, I'm seriously. It was a lot different than last year, that's for sure. I've been sick with something new this year, I lost my voice for over a week, I pretty much have it back now, I just lose it in the morning and get it back in the afternoon. So hopefully by this time next week I'll completely be over it. I've also been exercising again, more than before, now it's an hour a day as opposed to 35-40 minutes. Of the 10 pounds I gained back from the 2 months I didn't exercise, I've already lost 5 of them in the two weeks I've been exercising. Nice! Hopefully the rest will go as easily. I think that's all I have as in terms of current life.
P.S. My birthday's in 10 days!


Today's thoughts

My thoughts for this session are actually about last year. I'm really glad that I wrote down my resolultions last year, I pretty much forgot them. So I'm gonna show each one and whether I kept them or not.

1) I'm gonna try to keep the good friendships that I have, and do my best not to mess them up. I've done that a couple of times last year so I'm gonna try to steer clear of that this time. And any bad times I've had with others, I'd really like to start the new year with a clean slate, am I the only one that thinks that way? This one...well I didn't exactly do perfect on this one, I did lose a friend or two, so all in all I'd say I failed this one, but I will once again try to keep this one.

2) This one kinda goes with the first one, but I also wanted to try and forget about the people that did me wrong and just concentrate more on the ones that do care about me. If all you ever do is feel bad because of the ones that make you feel that way, you won't ever be happy, you know? This one I know I failed. I'm currenly dealing with this one still, but I think I'm almost over it, so I only have to deal with this one every once in a while, I'm hoping, if at all.

3) Write some more poetry! And different ones too. In half a year, I write 27 things. That's around 4 a month average, even though the last few months that went down. But I'm gonna try, I have quite a few ideas, just getting the words and willpower is what I gotta do. I know for a fact I still deal with this one, but I did write at least 6 poems last year, so I didn't completely fail this one. I do ho... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/7600794/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/7600794/ Sat, 14 Jan 2006 10:47:37 PST What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Educating myself
Listening to: Just Feel Better-Steven Tyler feat. Santana
Watching: The Dukes of Hazzard

This is a test to see who's paying attention. It serves to eliminate people who are desperately trying to add "friends" like its a popularity contest in High School. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are.. Repost this if you are a friend.. if you don't, you get deleted.. Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "Fake Friends".

I was reading this in a friend's journal, wanted to post it for them.

I'll be sure to post a real journal entry really soon.

Well that's it, so I'll see you guys!


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]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/7294388/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/7294388/ Fri, 16 Dec 2005 10:39:18 PST What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Educating myself
Listening to: Just Feel Better-Steven Tyler feat. Santana
Watching: The Dukes of Hazzard

Finally edited! Even added a thing or two!

And now to catch you up...

Well it's been a pretty good while this time since I've updated, at least 2 months if memory serves. Not really too much has happened in the time since I last updated, well one bad thing did happen two weeks ago with someone, I'm still trying to figure it out, but I'm sure if I think hard enough, the answer will come to me. Just goes to show me how quick things can go from fine to crappy. That's my lesson for the day. Luckily for me I had Foamy and Resident Evil 4 to save me from depression. That's one thing that she showed me, Foamy the Squirrel. He's actually pretty funny, here's the site for those who wanna check it out. --->www.illwillpress.com But I will admit, the one thing she did tell me that I've kept is that I should start speaking up when things start to get on my nerves. But moving on, I've been playing Resident Evil 4 a lot, that game is SO fun! If you're a RE fan, pick this one up! I've rented it 3 times and I plan to buy it soon. I apologize for not writing any poems these last few months, thanks to nice comments I've gotten from deviants, I really am gonna try to motivate myself to write at least 1 or two new things, I have ideas, just lack the motivation, either that or something's distracting me. In the case that I don't make another journal around Christmas or New Year's, I wanted to say thank you to all the friends I have, I'm very grateful of you, even if I don't show it. To those that I may have hurt or hate me, that sorta thing, I humbly apologize for whatever I may have done and I do wish you the best for the holidays.


Today's thoughts

My thoughts for this session are about the Christmas season. Why can't Christmas just be Christmas? It's like everything that has to do with Jesus and the nativity scene and such has to offend one person or another. Isn't that the reason we had Christmas in the first place, to celebrate the birth of Jesus?! I mean, I know nowadays it's more about commercialism, that's what we have Santa for. But even still, I don't think it should be a problem that Christians still want to celebrate the true reason for having Christmas. In my opinion, as long as they're not pushing it on other people, what's the problem? Can't everyone have their own opinions on things? I can understand separation of church and state, but it's not like everyone HAS to celebrate the religious parts of Christmas. The one thing though I wish that could happen would be that everyone would be better to each other during the season like in the moives, wouldn't that be nice? I know I've been trying, I've been doing a good thing here and there, trying to get into the spirit. Well I'll keep trying to have that spirit. (ADDED) And another thing, I don't know why people can have problems with Christmas songs that have religious overtones. I mean, to me, those songs are so peaceful, hearing those songs always makes me feel a little more at peace, even though I'm not a churchgoer myself.


My Christmas List

After reading a couple of ~godesofthedark's poems, I wondered what I actually wanted for Christmas. So since it is the season, I'll list a few things I want.

1: Plane tickets to a few places so I could meet a few Net friends, that... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6925497/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6925497/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 11:58:17 PST What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Educating myself
Listening to: Gay Robot-Adam Sandler
Reading: The Bridge of San Luis Rey-Thorton Wilder
Watching: South Park-Season 6

So I ended up being tagged again, is that good or bad? Ah well, on with the answers!

A - Accent: Not a typical Texan, more like a Midwest one, so I was told.
B - Belly size: No comment, it's big enough, I'll say that much.
C - Chore you hate: Putting up laundry, that really sucks.
D - Dream: Well I had a nightmare about Pet Semetary last night.
E - Essential make-up item: Don't need one, so ha.
F - Favourite memories: The one that comes to mind is the day our high school band went on to state competition. I was so happy that day.
G - Gold or silver: Silver.
H - Hometown: Stonewall
I - Insomnia: Kinda sorta
J - Job title: Assistant Manager
K - Kids: Debatable at this point in life.
L - Living arrangements: Home for now.
M - Musical taste: Santana! (I'm pretty eclectic though).
N - Number of pets you've had: 1 dog
O - Overnight hospital stays: None
P - Person you consider your closest friend: I'd say my childhood friend Jose.
Q - Quiet Life or loud: Pretty much quiet.
R - Religious affiliation: None
S - Siblings: 2 younger brothers, 1 older half-brother and 1 older half-sister
T - Time you wake up: around 10 or so now
U - Unnatural hair colours you've worn: None, but I've been interested at times.
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: Tomatoes, I just can't eat them.
W - Worst habit: Thinking about things way too much.
X - X-rays you've had: None
Y - Yummy foods you make: Of the few things I can make, I can make decent French toast.
Z - Zodiac sign: Aquarius

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Steven
2. Mexican
3. Steve (I consider them different )

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. aharlemresidentsimplyknownastron
2. mexican_phoenix
3. themexican-pi


THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. Woke up
2. Started watching Jerry Springer.
3. Checked my e-mail and DA.

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:*
1. the way it's easy to talk to me
2. my ability to do voices
3. my way to learn things quickly


THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My hair, that's for sure.
2. My depression.
3. Being too hard on myself.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. Spanish
2. Aztec
3. Mexican (for those who know, Mexican is a combination of the first two )

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. Being alone. (My worst feat by far)
2. The dark.
3. Slowly becoming dumber and dumber.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. White T-Shirt
2. Eyeglasses
3. Sweat pants (they're so comfortable )

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Eyeglasses (again)
2. A working car
3. Food?

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. My computer
2. My Playstation 2 (it's helped many a time to relieve stress)
3. My beret (many memories with that)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Santana
2. Linkin Park
3. Ludacris (not a band, but close enough )

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Play Playstation
2. Chatting with certain people (I'm sure they know who they are XD)
3. Do sudoku puzzles

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Wishing it Was by Santana
2. Secret by Adam Sandler
3. Smooth by Santana

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Flying on a plane
2. Learn hiragana
3. Practice my drawing?

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. Hurting Jeanette (I still haven't forgiven myself for that)
2. Taking college for... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6868990/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6868990/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 22:28:19 PDT What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Educating myself
Listening to: Secret-Adam Sandler
Reading: The Bridge of San Luis Rey-Thorton Wilder
Watching: South Park-Season 6

All righty, I have a challenge to do, finding 20 things about myself to say...well, let's see...

1) I am a BIG South Park fan, I've got most of the seasons recorded or on DVD, and I think I've seen every episode.

2) I can do a lot of different voices, mainly various characters from South Park.

3) I've been a video game player for 14 years now, if memory serves.

4) I LOVE kung fu movies, they're my favorites, those and comedies.

5) My favorite comic strip is Bizzaro. Something about that humor..

6) Phoenixes are my favorite animals, even if they are mythical. I like the fact that they have the ability to come back from death.

7) I'm pretty much eclectic when it comes to music, I like everything for one reason or another.

8) I like the word 'squish', but I hate the word 'splat'.

9) I have this thing about me that seems to like movies that most people hated.

10) Though I've hardly been to many places, I dream of wanting to travel.

11) 'Clerks' is the one movie I can definitely relate to on many levels.

12) Math is my strong point, but I've been known to write and even draw at times.

13) At a time, I wanted to be a stand-up comedian, but I'll just stick with being witty.

14) George Carlin, Chris Rock, and Adam Sandler are three of my favorite comedians, speaking of 13 up there.

15) After watching all 3 seasons of Monk, I've picked up two things from him. 1) I say 'It's a gift and a curse.' now. and 2) I do his Zen thing with his hands when I'm trying to figure certain things out. Yeah, I'm weird, very weird.

16) My favorite character in South Park, by far, is Butters, can't you tell by my avatar?

17) I know a little bit of Spanish, and a REALLY small bit of Japanese, I did want to learn French for a time, but for now, English will do.

18) I've been at this for almost an hour, I didn't realize I was so boring.

19) I've noticed that as a kid, I was in a few sports, now I'm not in any. Unless you count bicycle riding as one.

20) I used to be smart, but I hope somehow to get smart again.

Phew, that was hard! Ok, who to tag...I would tag ~godesofthedark and ~unwanted-reason for now.

Well that's it, so I'll see you guys!


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]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6589151/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6589151/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 10:32:57 PDT What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: I'm allowed at times
Listening to: Nothing at All-Santana feat. Musiq
Watching: Monk-Season 1

And now to catch you up...

That's a phrase I've been using a lot these last few days (those who know me, I use that sarcastically.) It just shows how many things have gone wrong around here. Early in the week, there was a massive scare with Hurricane Rita, even here, at least 5 hours northwest of Houston, they were talking about winds up to 65 mph and power outages, so lots of people were buying a bunch of supplies, they ran out of gallon water at the local Wal-Mart. And also, there's been a shortage of gas and diesel, a lot of towns around here are out, even as far up as Copperas Cove (100 miles north), they're running low. What I wonder though is that if the damage isn't as bad as they're thinking and they have to go home, how are they gonna do it? With no gas and uncertainty about when we're getting more, they'll be here for at least a week or two, I'm guessing. Every place in the closest towns east and west of us are completely full, Fredericksburg has never been so full, I was told. Our town here is just about out of gas, probably by the end of today, if not sooner. We still has Plus and Supreme, so people will be stuck with that. And I know earlier in the week, getting on I-10 was a nightmare, there were cars parked on the highway and people just walking instead because they had run out of gas. Thursday was the worst day, a Monday to the extreme (at work). So many things to do, so little time. I'm just glad I really haven't been watching the news, you know how they can make things look worse than what they are. The last I actually saw, there were fires in Galveston and the winds were helping to push them. Let's just hope for the best.


Today's thoughts

Nothing really worth writing about this time..




Nothing here either, I haven't had enough time yet.

Well that's it, so I'll see you guys!


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]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6528324/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6528324/ Sat, 17 Sep 2005 11:32:58 PDT What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: For the moment
Listening to: Three Times a Lady- Commodores
Watching: Sin City

And now to catch you up...

Well there really isn't much to talk about since the last time I wrote, but is there ever? We lost two workers at my job, one of them was my favorite one to talk to there. Her replacement sucks, he's already gotten on my nerves. It just really isn't the same without her there, but work's still work. There was one thing I was thinking about that I could write about. I was looking over my deviations and journals, and I asked myself 'Why haven't I written anything new?' With the exception of last night's poems, I hadn't written anything in 5 months. I tried a few times, but I couldn't get very far. Looking over everything, writing 30 poems and 2 essays (not counting the few I did in my older journals) is pretty impressive for me. I'm really surprised I made it past 10, to be honest. I wasn't the writing type before, I have ideas, the trouble just comes when I have to put them into words. I just hope that with my last poem I broke my non-writing cycle. But who knows?


Today's thoughts

I also was thinking about another subject, so the topic for today's thoughts is moving on. Whenever we lose a friend or family member, however it maybe be, we do feel a certain amount of sadness, but eventually our lives move on to some extent, you get used to them being gone. Well depending on the attachment to the person, you may not totally get used to them being gone, but hopefully you would have healed enough to at least continue on with life. I know one of my uncles is a good example of that. It's been over a year since his father died, and at least 12 years since he lost his mother, but when he gets drunk, that's when he misses them the most. Back to the subject, the more time that passes, the more that person's memory hinders you from your daily life. Once again, depending on the attachment, the stronger it was, the slower you recover. I've went through this myself, we all have at one time or another, some times were easier to recover from than others, but life moves on. Hope that wasn't too much repetition.


The Mexican movie reviews

Well I've been watching a couple of movies in my absense, so I'll just give my opinions of the ones I'd seen, one I loved and one I didn't.

The Ring 2: Me personally, I went against my own personal morals and rented this movie, I was already pissed off that they made a part 2 when I first found out, but I thought to myself, 'What the hell, it's only 4 bucks to rent it,' so I did. It follows the story of Aidan and Rachel from the first Ring (at least they kept the same characters, a big plus in my book) and the ghost of Samara that follows them. Truthfully, I didn't like the movie too much, I almost wanted to turn it off after the first 15 minutes because of certain events in the movie that were opposite from the first one (namely how to survive after seeing the tape). The story itself is ok, but I really wasn't that impressed, the first was just fine. So in my opinion, you should only rent it if you're a hardcore buff of The Ring, and even then, it's a maybe.

Sin City: Now this movie is the opposite. I rented this one twice AND bought it. What can I say, I loved it. It's three stories about 3 different people in Sin City. All three are connected in one way or another (I think). I guess for me, this movie was a breath of fresh air, in a way. It's like a 3D comic book. I've seen this movie at least 10 times. That's funny, I can say a lot when I don't like a movie, but when it comes to one I like, there isn't much that comes to mind. http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/6076674/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 10:44:31 PDT What I write here is an accounting of thoughts that have circulated through my brain, some different than others, but then again, that's just me.

Steven R.
The Mexican, P.I.

Mood: Is alright
Listening to: Georgia Rain - Trisha Yearwood
Watching: Constantine

And now to catch you up...

Well it's been a good while since I've written, I usually don't wait this long, but then again I wonder, who reads my journals? Hmm...well anyways, on to the subject. As you may or may not have noticed, I've changed my journal up a little bit, one reason was because I wanted to have something different, the other reason was that I was running out of quotes. Not really a whole lot going on in my life, I've been exercising now for a while, bike riding 5 miles a day, and that's pretty exhausting, but I think I'm getting muscle, I think. I've also been doing a lot of sudoku puzzles. If you want to go try them, here's where I do them --->[link] It has the explanation and everything. There's only one I've had trouble with, and it's the one on the 11th. That's HARD, but I've completed it (after 3 hours ) Doing that and seeing a couple of movies has helped to fight off the lonely feeling I've had lately, seems like there's no one to talk to, but it happens, right? I'm just hoping that the sudoku puzzle book I ordered is gonna come in, I need sudoku puzzles!!! But if not, I can always try to write something new.


Today's thoughts

This section I've made to write about certain topics that I think about a lot and feel a need to discuss. Today I'm writing about something that kept me from sleeping for a while last night. I don't know about anyone else, but I was thinking a lot about the wrong things I've done though my life. I'm sure I didn't think of them all, but I did remember a lot of them. I don't feel like really saying them here, I'm ashamed enough of doing them. Doing them were already out of my character, but I guess we've all done things that we weren't proud of. The majority of them that I thought of, I felt bad after I had done them. I know that I can't really do much about them now, only take time to atone for those mistakes and to just let them stay in the past. I'm just trying to do as many good things as I can now, well, at least trying.


And the installation is freeee

Believe it or not, I can actually have a funny side, and that's what this section is going to have, the different things in life, funny or weird, anything but serious. I don't have a lot now, but hopefully by next time, I'll have more stuff.
5 Things I Hope to See
1) A gay midget (so far I've only seen 1 in my life, so that one's gonna be hard)
2) A conservative hippie (I think that term is just an oxymoron, but hey, they could be out there, right?)
3) A mix between a Mexican and an Asian (any Asian) (I think I've seen a lot of other mixes, but not that one yet)
4) A black country singer (I've been told there was one, but I haven't seen him yet, anyone knows who he or she is, point me in that direction)
5 A boy and girl twin (obviously they'd be fraternal, I've seen all but that and girl fraternity twins but that one I'm sure I could find somehow)
And now, 3 jokes from George Carlin..
"I have an impersonal trainer. We meet at the gym, we don't talk, he works out alone an... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/5360424/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/5360424/ Sat, 14 May 2005 23:26:10 PDT '"Like these blossoms, we are all dying. To know life in every breath, every cup of tea, every life we take. The way of the warrior."
"Life in every breath."
"That is Bushido."
"Hai."'
--Katsumoto and Algren
The Last Samurai

'"R-E-S-T-E-C-P, do you know what that spells?"
"Restecp?"
"...yes...Restecp..."'
--Ali G and Parliament member
Ali G Indahouse

"If there's anything I've seen in my short life, it's that things can and will always change. Sometimes for the worse, others for the better, but life in one aspect is learning to deal with these changes and to pull through them all."

Steven R. (that's me!)

Well it's been a good while since I've written anything in here, I wonder if anyone missed me. I think I already know the answer to that question though, I think. I hope everyone's been doing alright. Me, I had a semi-crappy Friday the 13th, getting beer sprayed on my uniform, ugh. And it was cheap beer too, no less! Ah well, since this is my year on DA, I thought I'd do my journal a little different this time.

Older people tell me that the older you get, the faster the years go by, and I can believe it. I didn't think I'd be here a year, it definitely caught up to me a lot faster than I thought it would, that's for sure. And quite a few things have happened. I lost a few dear friends, by either their words or my own, and to those that were of my words, I do regret them. A really good friend is truly hard to find, I've stressed that a bit in these last 3 years of my life, and I probably will until the day I die or until the day I quit caring, whichever comes first. But I've also been fortunate to have met some really great people that are still my friends today, and for that I am truly grateful. I've seen a lot of people with various problems in their lives, and being in Circle of Friends gave me a chance to try and help them what I could. I've also gotten aid from this same group in my times of need. I had found love in this year and also lost it and written many poems about it and a couple of essays. Though I thought I would've written more by now, I'm still surprised I wrote that much period. I'm sure there's much more I can add to this, it just evades me at the moment.

I've been wondering about this topic for quite a while now, and I still can't get an answer for myself on it. I just can't figure out why people can't be honest when they're lying, and not say anything instead of being honest. The example I've been thinking about is asking a girl out on a date and they say 'Yeah, I'd like to,' and when that time comes, they always have some lame excuse for it. The way I have it figured, it's times like those when a little honesty would be preferred. Saying a simple 'No.' would be a lot better than letting me get my hopes up for nothing. On the other hand, if they tell you 'No', I personally think it should stop there. I used to think that wondering why wasn't so bad, but sometimes the truth can hurt, and though I normally don't mind, I've heard so many reasons by now, so odds are it's one of them. But nowadays there's just so much lying everywhere, think about it. Appearances, things said just to acquire one's desires, things of that sort. Now if I said I was a totally honest guy, that would be a lie as well. No one person is totally honest, they may not lie, but they could simply not say things, you know?

Well I think that's all I got for now, so hooray for me, right? Take care everyone, hope you get a chance to read my new thingamabob.

Steven R.
'The Mexican, P.I.'

proud member of ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4984651/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4984651/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 01:33:11 PST 'I suppose somewhere out there even a devil may cry when he loses a loved one, don't you think?'
--Lady
Devil May Cry 3: Dante's Awakening

'Why don't you go practice falling down, I'll be there in a second.'
--Joe Dirt
Joe Dirt

Let's Rock, Baby!

Well it's been a good while since I've updated, a month plus, which is a tad unusual for me, I try to make at least one update a month. If anyone is curious as to the title of my journal, I'll explain that one in a second. It seems as if I have really bad allergies because I'm just recovering from them today, had them a week now. Must be something in the air. I hate this Savings Time, it's "3:59 am" now, meaning I have to be at work at 1:30 now instead of 2:30, but I'll get used to it, we all do. On to the explaining!

BETRAYAL: This word signifies the sad things that have happened, or should I just say thing. I'm no longer friends with someone that I've known a while, said I wasn't needed in so many words. As they say, all good things must come to an end, how true that saying is. I didn't realize what kind of person she really was until I thought about it, go figure it had to happen AFTER she made me feel bad. What's funny is that I've known someone that had this same kind of thing happen to them not too long ago, now I know how they feel. Oh well, the only thing I can really do is just try to move on, right?

MARRIAGE: I have to thank my friend who I was talking to at work for this title, he was discussing how he possibly wanted to get married and I figured that this word signifies things that you give serious thought to. Since the little thing mentioned earlier, I've thought a lot about myself and how I am. I've also thought a lot about the friends that I do have, the few in number. I know I have to do what I can to not lose them because once I do, it's over, they're gone, you know?

SPORKS: This one signifies the funny and happier things that have happened during this time. I learned what a Spork was thanks to *FlamestarPhoenix I don't think I'd ever use one though, it's a mix between a spoon and fork. If you've ever seen one, it's a lot more like a spoon to me! No way I'd eat cereal with that. They've played new South Park episodes, the one I found really funny was the one with the hippies, the others have been Eh. Maybe it'll pick up in the next few weeks. I've also watched a lot of Law and Order: SVU. I'm starting to become an addict to that show!

Well, I think that's it, not really too much, that and I'm really tired, so until next time, those who read this, take care!

Steven R.
'The Mexican, P.I.'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4658001/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4658001/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 21:46:55 PST 'Every choice has its consequences.'
--Cogliostro
Spawn

'Very few Chicano families have photo albums...we take pictures, we just never develop the film.'
--George Lopez
Team Leader

Ok everyone, class is now in session, and if you ain't careful, you just might learn something.
-Foxxy Love
"Drawn Together"

Hey everyone, it's been a while since I've written much, so onto my update for the time passed...

As the title of my journal said, I spent $300 dollars yesterday. I don't usually spend that much at one time, but there were quite a few things I wanted. I bought another portable DVD player, it'll come in handy at work when I'm bored, which is nice. I also bought 2 books, which I haven't done in years, one by George Carlin and the other by Jon Stewart. I'm reading the Carlin book, and it is HILARIOUS! I'm over 100 pages into it, and I am not disappointed so far. And I bought South Park Season 5 Very nice, and I also got that movie Saw, which I gotta admit, I didn't really like at first, but after rewatching it, it made my mind think, and I always like those types of movies.

And I got George Lopez's Right Now, Right Now and Team Leader CDs, and they are both VERY funny, partly because I can relate to so much of it. I even made a little kinda contest using things that he talked about. Take a look at my poll here --->[link] Just note me or comment on which answer you chose. If you can get the answer right, I will give you a one-month subscription! I'd offer more, but I'm not sure how many people will answer my poll, I'll bump it up if participation is low. I think this will be kinda fun and will give you a little insight into a few things about my life, so please participate!!!

Well, what else....I've been starting to get sick the last couple of days, I'm thinking I could've gotten the flu again from a customer at work, but I'm fighting it, and I'm doing good so far. Not really much else other than work...I've been following a new budget I've made for myself, and so far it's been working really good, I'm so proud of myself! Anything else, really....nope, didn't celebrate Valentine's Day, have bad memories of that, but I have been thinking of new ideas for poems, I hope to write them down soon!

I think that's it, so I hope everything's going great with you all, hope to hear from y'all!

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4424750/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4424750/ Wed, 26 Jan 2005 22:40:22 PST 'Roses....mean....remember.'
--Annie Wheaton
Stephen King's Rose Red

'Guys, never ask a woman how many guys she's slept with, why, because you don't wanna know.'
--Chris Rock
Bring the Pain

Ok everyone, class is now in session, and if you ain't careful, you just might learn something.
-Foxxy Love
"Drawn Together"

Well it's been awhile since I've written anything new in my journal, 25 days at least, so I figured I'd put SOMETHING different up.

To those it may concern, yesterday was my birthday!!! I'm now 21 years old, and thinking about classmates and what's been going on in their lives, I realized that I finally am beginning to get older, not old, older. When I say that, I mean that I'm entering the years where major things in life happen, ie marriage, children. I have friends that have kids already that are younger than me and around my age. Hell, I have a friend around my age that's married to a 17 year old girl and they're living together. And another is talking engagement. I wonder when that phase is gonna get to me? Not the getting with a 17 year old girl, the getting married part.

Concerning the current things in life, things are going a little better. I finally found my car jack, now if I had a tire iron, that would complete my car tools. And I got my income tax in today! I feel like I have a million bucks, even though it's not even CLOSE to that. I was sick for about a week, but I'm doing so much better for the most part. I have nothing that I really want to spend it on, so it'll more than likely go to savings or anything I can help my parents on. Anybody out there that needs money to borrow, now's the time to ask.

On a serious note, I recently heard that Adam, ~subformulate, passed away today, so for those who knew him, if you haven't already, take a moment of silence in his memory, or at least that's what I did. This will sound a little strange, but with every death I hear of, it makes me realize more and more how precious life is. It's just too bad that sometimes death is the ONLY thing that will make some realize the same. Any sense there?

Well that's all I have for now, I hope to hear from you guys, and RIP Adam, you will be missed.

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4201404/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4201404/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 17:42:30 PST 'Sometimes you gotta do what you don't wanna do in order to get where you wanna be.'
--Mr. Lee
House Party 2

'And they all live happily ever after...except for Kyle, who died of AIDS two weeks later.'
--Storyteller (Cartman)
Woodland Critter Christmas

Ok everyone, class is now in session, and if you ain't careful, you just might learn something.
-Foxxy Love
"Drawn Together"

Well, what can I say? The year 2004 is finally coming to its end tonight, in about 12 hours here, and I'm stuck working, ooh what fun. Since I haven't written in a while, if it's alright, I'm gonna share my last thoughts of this year.

This one probably should've been written in Christmastime, but it can be used as a lesson for next year. The spirit of Christmas, I believe, is supposed to be about giving, no matter what the gift is, just the gesture of giving something is the main thing. I experienced this one firsthand at work on Christmas Eve at work. I bought a friend of mine something really cheap, around 4 dollars or so, and he was so thankful, I mean, really grateful since he said that he wasn't getting anything else for Christmas, he was really happy to get something. When I did that, that's when I figured out at least part of the spirit of Christmas, isn't that nice?

I've learned a few things about life and love this year, I've felt some hurt and some happiness, but isn't that life for you? I've met a lot of people here on DA. Some of them had forgotten about me, and others I've made good friendships with. I guess you can't always keep every friendship you make, for better or for worse, but I think if you remember those people, that's what really counts. And the main thing I learned is that sometimes you just have to let go of some people in order to move on in your life. Sometimes it can be the worst thing to do, but if it's your only way to be happy, it has to be done. That for me was one of the hardest things I had to do this year, some of my poems about that subject.

Well, did everyone have a fun time last night doing whatever? Me myself, I was watching fireworks at a friend's house, I haven't done that in a good while, at midnight, they were going off nonstop for a good three minutes, it looked pretty cool, but I thought I was getting deaf there! And also a bottle rocket fell from the air and hit my pocket! I was just talking to my friend's brother and out of nowhere, I feel something hit my shirt pocket, and sure enough it was a bottle rocket. So now I know where they end up after they pop. Has anyone else made New Year's Resolutions? I normally don't do it anymore because I always forget what I tried to do. But this time I'm gonna write them down so if I forget I have this to be my reference.

1) I'm gonna try to keep the good friendships that I have, and do my best not to mess them up. I've done that a couple of times last year so I'm gonna try to steer clear of that this time. And any bad times I've had with others, I'd really like to start the new year with a clean slate, am I the only one that thinks that way?

2) This one kinda goes with the first one,... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4023594/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/4023594/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 23:37:15 PST 'People give up their lives for many reasons, for friendship, for love, for an ideal. And people kill for the same reasons....'
--Prologue
Hero

' You work 18 hours, and what do you get? Your parents sell you to Paris Hilton..'
--Butters
Stupid Spoiled Whore Video Playset

Ok everyone, class is now in session, and if you're not careful, you just might learn something.
-Foxxy Love
"Drawn Together"

I probably should've written this a while ago when my Internet first came back, but what can I say, I was still having Net withdrawls . Ok, that didn't make sense, but I blame the hour . I saw Hero for the first time yesterday, I loved it, my brother hated it. God, it was terrible watching it with him, every five minutes, I'd hear, 'Look how fake that shit is.' or 'Yeah, right!', stuff like that. Almost wanted to smack him. Well this will more than likely be my last journal before my Christmas one, yes I'm planning to do one before Christmas, that's a while from now anyways, so might as well say some hopefully thinking stuff?

I was reading in the news in the last couple of weeks about a couple of murders in the San Antonio area. One was a store owner, the other was a teacher at a private school, I believe. And as I was reading about them, the stories went on and on about how great they were in their lives, and the more and more I read, I felt sad for them and also angry. It made me mad that the few good people that are in this world are being taken so soon. How fair is that? At this rate, there will be nothing but mean people left here. Maybe that's what was meant by the end of the world, for your religious buffs.

Anyone noticing that music nowadays is sounding so much the same in each genre? Like hip-hop is sounding the same and rock, etc.? Ok, there are a few songs that I like, but most of them I could care less for. That's why I started going back to the older stuff, haven't heard much of that, it's a breath of fresh air to me. That, and I see how the messages music sends have changed in the years.

I've been going through a lot in the last few weeks, and yet I'm still standing, I've started to figure out how to deal with the problems one at a time. And though it's hard to do alone, sometimes that's the only way you can deal with them. Though I have friends that are always willing to help, when they are not there to help, I need to face my demons without them. But knowing they are there helps out too. I sound so corny, but once again I blame the hour, and the movie Hero too!

That's all I can think of for now, I'm gonna get some tigger yum yum ready in case I need it, flu seems to be getting everyone except me, but my Mexican immune system has been working for me! Wishing you guys happiness and joy, isn't that what the holiday season is all about?

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3932524/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3932524/ Sat, 27 Nov 2004 14:57:25 PST 'Today I begin a new life, for I am the master of my abilities, and today is going to be a great and beautiful day.'
--Jody Summers
Baby Boy

' How cool is this, we've only been here a day, and I already find myself in a three-way..'
--Captain Hero
Drawn Together

Sorry I haven't been on to do anything this last week or so...stupid phone company is taking their sweet time in fixing the phone line for our block, it's been a week and a half now, it's just a bunch of bull-toot, I tell you. I'm sneakily using the store's computer, and I'll be in big trouble if I'm caught, so I'll be on here in 15 minute intervals today to do my best to catch up on stuff. If you guys do need to talk to me, just catch me on my MSN and Yahoo addresses, hopefully the phone will work now that the rain stopped! I'll be sure to fill in on more stuff later!

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3792416/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3792416/ Tue, 09 Nov 2004 10:08:41 PST 'Today I begin a new life, for I am the master of my abilities, and today is going to be a great and beautiful day.'
--Jody Summers
Baby Boy

' How cool is this, we've only been here a day, and I already find myself in a three-way..'
--Captain Hero
Drawn Together

Then I could definitely be the BITCH! Sorry, I just couldn't get that sentence out of my head, the voice too. Well, thanks to COF and my friends that helped me feel much better, and now that I'm away from work, I can relax. Now that I'm feeling better, I can talk much more, so prepare for much rambling!

In my time away, I decided to do the one thing that I knew would get my mind off my troubles long enough to get calmer. I played video games, particularly the one I had planned on finishing, Kingdom Hearts, and I finished it! I was also able to do things I hadn't been able to the first time around, like beating the Clock Tower Phantom and keeping the Rare Truffle in the air with 100 hits, no easy tasks there. Got the Ultima Weapon and was able to beat Sephiroth with ease! Now instead of being afraid of fighting him, I can kick his teeth in for fun any day of the week. (I can sound like such a kid sometimes! ) But it did make me happier by doing that, made me proud. Adding that to a lot of thinking and support of some special people , I was as good as new!

Now it is time for my sarcastic moment. Yesterday at work I heard one of the funniest complaints I've heard in a really long time. Gas here is 1.899 for unleaded, and one customer came in and paid for 1.90 of gas, which should be at least 1 gallon exactly, right? Well, the pump only showed 0.998 gallons of gas instead of that 1 gallon, so the guy comes in when he's done and tells me 'You need to recalibrate your pumps.' He leaves and I see the mistake and I'm thinking 'Why complain about .002 gallons. .002 GALLONS!. He only lost 3/10 of a cent, and he had to come in and complain about that, can you believe that? Oh well, things like that make my job so weird at times.

*unwanted-reason brought this to my attention and it was on the front page of the San Antonio paper on Saturday. The state Board of Education approved new health books that state marriage is a union between a man and a woman. Is that right, that's what you have to be taught? If anyone cares to discuss this topic with me, you can, I'd love to hear what you think. It also was talking about how the health books talk more about abstinence as opposed to forms of contraceptions to prevent pregancy. Texas has the biggest teen-mom birth rate in the country, which I didn't know, and just teaching more of abstinence as opposed to the other ways of preventing it could be why. In my opinion there, kids are more than likely gonna do it anyways, so I think you should at least show them how and talk to them more about it than just saying to to sex. Any opinions, anyone?

New season of South Park and Drawn Together started up! The South Park episodes have been FUNNY! Esp... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3771629/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3771629/ Sat, 06 Nov 2004 20:52:30 PST 'Every step that I take is another mistake to you.'
--Linkin Park
Numb

'Think about it, these people are from the future, right? Well if we can get everyone to turn queer there'll be no children to have no children and the people from the future won't exist and take our jobs!'
--Redneck
Goobacks

I shall be gone for a few days, I'm sorry guys, this day just went so bad and now I just feel so much worse. But no worries, I'm sure you'll all be all right without me for a while, right? I'd write about it now, but I just don't have the energy, I'm just gonna clear my messages here, and that's all I'll be doing for now until I can get at least a little happiness back in my life.

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3652995/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3652995/ Sat, 23 Oct 2004 01:11:47 PDT 'Every step that I take is another mistake to you.'
--Linkin Park
Numb

'Think about it, these people are from the future, right? Well if we can get everyone to turn queer there'll be no children to have no children and the people from the future won't exist and take our jobs!'
--Redneck
Goobacks

I can't sleep tonight, probably because I psyched myself up to write another poem and now I just can't shut it off. Man, I haven't written in a good while since I've been more active in COF and actually having people to talk to, well at least most of the time. I finally managed to get some time AND the energy which lately I haven't been able to get both together, but now I did! Well since I'm here, can I give you some insight on things?

Watching Jerry Springer and Maury shows can really get old quick. They need new topics on those shows, don't you agree? I'm getting a little tired of seeing paternity tests and cheating lovers. Hmm...maybe they'll put them together one of these days.....I can see it now.....

I'm really surprised that music can still get me in the writing mood, just as long as it's on full volume where I can hear nothing else. Works every time for me! Linkin Park used to be the ones that could always get things going for me, but Europa by Santana....MAN! That one really did it tonight! What about you guys, anything that works for you in particular? I could always use a new method, I only have so much to buy batteries, you know.

You know, the more I read the papers, the worse Bush is looking to me. I was reading yesterday's Austin paper, and this Kerry couple is suing Secret Service because they were arrested for not wanting to take off their Anti-Bush shirts. Even though the charges were dropped, they were suing for violation of their 1st Amendment rights....Not good Bush, not good at all....

Well, that's all I can think of now, I think I'm feeling a little sleepy, a little. I'll work from there, night!

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3600431/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3600431/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 23:51:51 PDT 'You...cannot kill someone without killing a part of yourself.'
--American Soldier
Fahrenheit 9/11

'My girlfriend's sucked 37 dicks!.'
'In a row?'
--Dante and customer
Clerks

Well, what can I say, I've really lazy in updating this thing, so some of this stuff SHOULD'VE been said a while ago, but I wanted to say it now. . Here we go.

Well, dealing with the blind date thing, I eventually found out what the other person thought of me, and let's just say I was probably better off not knowing that stuff. But I will share the most confusing thing to me. One complaint of hers was that I didn't make a move on her . Very weird to me.

I've been watching Fahrenheit 9/11 a few times since I bought it on Monday, and the more times I see it, the more Bush loses my support. That sounds bad considering that I'm in a Republican state, and the state where the President is from, no less. Even when I bought it, I heard one clerk saying that she was surprised they didn't ban the movie from the store. But nonetheless, it's a great movie to see no matter which side you're on, especially with elections coming up. In fact, my coworker and I had a good debate on the war b/c her brother was over there, and I had seen this movie, so it was getting a little heated on both sides. She feels I'm being disrespectful to her brother b/c of my stand on it, and I don't blame her, but we try not to discuss it.

It's always hard to put trust in people, it really is. Even with all the kindness you can have, the more you're hurt, the harder it is, and it's harder when you get hit with things from people you don't expect. Does that make any sense? Well, I've been given cold shoulders, backstabbing and unexpected moves in the last month by people I wouldn't expect, but I still go on, don't blame them for it, odds are I did something in my past that was bad, it's just catching up to me now, I believe that we all get what we deserve. Well, no use crying over spilled milk on that one.

Well, those are my updates, I need some sleep or something, you know? Oh, how could I forget, I'm a moderator for COF. It's nice, I just have to get the swing of things, and I think I've got it down now! Well, I'll see you guys again if the fates allow.

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3510021/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3510021/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 10:55:41 PDT 'Real power comes from respect.'
--D-Mob
Def Jam: Fight for NY

'I expected the Rocky Mountains to be a little rockier than this.'
'I was thinking the same thing. That John Denver is full of sh*t, man.'
--Harry and Lloyd
Dumb and Dumber

Well, time for me to update just a tad. Well, I had my blind date yesterday, which unfortunately didn't go well, even with my hoping the best for it. I was feeling pretty low about myself because this was another bust for me, but two very special people helped me through it. knew exactly what to say to make me feel better, and was very sweet and comforting to me the whole time, thank you both from the bottom of my heart, if it weren't for you two, I would be here writing a depressing journal instead. So now I'm getting better and I'm back on my feet to help out COF In other news, my cousin finally had her baby at about 1:20 am, I'm happy for her, and the father is there with her, but that's another story. I'm hoping to be writing some new poems really soon! Just have to get off this new game I've been playing, it's so addicting!!! Well, that's my little bit of news, I'm off to go work now! Hope to talk to you guys soon!

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3455026/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3455026/ Sun, 26 Sep 2004 23:31:53 PDT 'Why, Mr. Anderson, why do you persist?!'
'Because I choose to.'
--Smith and Neo
The Matrix Revolutions

'I am Hennifer Hlopez, I eat tacos and burritos!'
--Jennifer Lopez (Cartman)
Fat Butt and Pancake Head

Well, I'm up tonight to write, why? Hmm, don't know...I'm up watching Chris Rock's special on HBO, and it's pretty funny, I like it! But what I wanted to ask here was is anyone else having problems getting rid of their messages after you mark them as read, does that make sense? Like I had 5 deviations, I marked them as read, and it's still there that I have 5D left--->Deviant *themexican-pi has 5 message centre items ( 5D ) See? Well, let me know if anyone else has this problem, or something like it. On another note, I finally started using my shoutboard, check that stuff out, they are all good artists! See ya again!

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3447512/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3447512/ Sat, 25 Sep 2004 23:26:26 PDT 'The heart never speaks, but you must listen to it to know.'
--The Oracle
The Matrix Revolutions

'What happened, Harry, some little filly break your heart?'
'No, it was a girl.'
--Lloyd and Harry
Dumb and Dumber

I just had to write this tonight, I feel so happy about it! Well, this all happened tonight just as I was ready to go home from work. I was getting in my car, had it started, was seconds from leaving, then this car pulls up, engine smoking really bad. He asked me, 'Hey, can you stay a couple of minutes in case I need a jump?' I said ok and so I got my trunk opened just in case. Well, turned out that there was no water being shot to the engine to cool it down, so the guy needed a ride to town, so he first calls a friend, but he's tied up in there, he asked me 'How's the hitchhiking around here?' and I told him, 'Honestly, you'd probably have a better chance just walking instead of catching a ride this late.' So the guy asks me if I can offer a ride to him, said he'd pay me 10 bucks. I said ok because I really could use all the money I could get, and I had a full tank, so driving there and back wouldn't be a big deal. We go and get to talking and he tells me about how he has 2 jobs and is looking for a third just to try and make ends meet, him, his wife and 3 kids. So by the time we get to an ATM machine, I didn't feel right about taking money from this guy, I was thinking he needed it more than me, so when we get to where he needed to be, I told him, 'Just keep your money, I needed the drive anyways.' He asked me 3 times if I was sure, and I said yes all three times. He said, 'Thanks for the ride, you're an angel.' When he said that, I just felt really proud of myself, even moreso because I didn't take anything from him. I've never been called an angel before, I never thought was that nice. Well, enough of my story for the night, hope everyone else is doing great out there! I hope to have more writings up soon! Until then, take care all!

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3425735/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3425735/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 23:46:10 PDT --Kit Yun (I think that's his name)
Jet Li's Rise to Honor

'We aren't Christian, we're just pretending we are.'
'Butters, remind me later to cut your balls off.'
--Butters and Cartman
Christian Rock Hard

Hey eveyone! I'm in a pretty good mood today, it's pretty nice! and said the nicest things about me! That was so nice of them. Go check them out! Well, after you read my journal, THEN go check them out, after all, you were here first! I haven't done a journal like this in a really long time, so I'm gonna do it now, it's just gonna be a bunch of thoughts running in my head, some funny, some serious, so if reading this sort of thing isn't what you like, then stop now, otherwise, prepare for it!

-If you're wondering about my title for my journal, I'll start there. I was going through my e-mail account last night, arranging e-mails and stuff, and I came across some old e-mails, and the subject was 'A pink rose and a blood-stained moon'. I didn't remember what it was until I read the two that had that title, and then I remembered. I was writing to friends about how I felt about them and how it had been being their friend, for better or worse. One was good, the other was bad. I'm glad I read them, made me look back at what I had thought back then as opposed to what I think of them now. Of those two, the bad one....I don't talk to her anymore, haven't heard from her, and it's honestly better that way. The good one, on the other hand, we've become much better friends since then.

-If anyone has the Starz! Theater channel, you know that they play 4 movies all week, same time every day. I just noticed that there hasn't been a week of movies that they've played that I liked all 4 movies, seriously. I've liked 3 of the 4, but never all 4. Maybe I'll be lucky and that week will come to me!

-You wanna feel something cool? Watch a movie that you haven't seen in a really long time, and see if the movie looks different, or if you have a better understanding of it. I did that with the movie 'Ghost', I hadn't seen that movie in many years, and when I saw it this time, it was much better, I had a better understanding of it!

-The freaky people that get to me are the ones that seem to be absolutely wonderful at first, then they end up being stalkers or something. That at least supports my idea about no person being perfect, and if they are, there is something really wrong about them. I think some weird thoughts!

Well, that's all the thoughts I have tonight, it's 1:32 in the morning, insomniac me! If you did read all of them, THANK YOU!! I'm off to do......something, probably think some more while I go to bed! Hope everyone is doing great out there!
Oh, one last thing! Comment in my shoutbox please! It looks so lonely, don't you think?

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.' 'BC'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3376103/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3376103/ Thu, 16 Sep 2004 09:48:16 PDT -St. Augustine (I think)

'How d'ya like that, gooback?'

So how's everyone doing today? I've always wanted to ask that at least once! Me, I'm alright, I have someone mad at me, but I've done what I can on my part, hope she's doing good. I've really gotten into listening to guitars, I don't know why, I just have, weird huh? Well, as my subjects says, I'm here to approach the same topic as my last journal, but not in an angry and sad way like before, but from a peaceful angle. Yes, it's true that there have been times that people have not been there when I hoped they would be, but I know that many of them have their own problems to deal with it. It's just the ones that don't seem to care that can bother me. When I got all the comments from COF, it hit me that people are there, I even felt happier knowing that people I had helped before came to lend me a hand. But I will admit, there are a few people that I wish were there but aren't. Me being the worrier that I am think they are just ignoring me or putting me on the bottom of their priorities. But after a conversation with one of those friends, she put it in view for me. If someone is a real friend to you, just because you don't hear from them when you need them doesn't mean that they haven't thought about you and hoped you were doing ok. Now I finally can see all this stuff for myself, ok my talking is over for today. Have a great day everyone!

Steven R.
'Care Bear' 'The Mexican, P.I.'

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3336629/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3336629/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 00:45:06 PDT
'Oh yeah, my mom took me to see Mel Gibson's movie The Passion, and Mel Gibson says you are snakes and you are liars, and if the Road Warrior says it, it must be true.'

You ever feel like just when you need your friends the most, they are nowhere to be found? Anyone else get that feeling, or is that just me? I really hope that it's just me that it happens to, I'd much rather take that crap than have others go through the same. (Seen The Passion too many times, dork alert!) Something tells me I've said something like this before, so if I'm being a broken record, I'm sorry for doing so.

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3329098/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3329098/ Thu, 09 Sep 2004 23:26:36 PDT
'Oh yeah, my mom took me to see Mel Gibson's movie The Passion, and Mel Gibson says you are snakes and you are liars, and if the Road Warrior says it, it must be true.'

Well, it's 1 in the morning, and I'm writing, isn't that crazy? (ha ha, that was SO funny *rolling eyes*) I think it's because I'm so awake, that's what snack cakes do for me. Before I start writing anything, here's my joke for the day: My name for the snack aisle in a store for a fat Mexican with little money: hell, because you want EVERYTHING, and can only have some of it! At least that was the case for me yesterday Ah, I'm loose now, I can write what I wanted to. The one thing I've learned since I joined Circle of Friends is this: kind words DO matter. I'm so used to giving kind words to friends when they're down, it's not a big deal for me to want to help, it's practically a reflex now, and it's one that I'm very glad to have. It's just funny how the little things for some people can be much more important to others, you know? I never have been used to being thanked for the kind things I've done in life and I'm not too used to thinking that things I do actually have impact on others, so when I hear that I've made someone feel better because of something I did or said, I just feel so special. And there are those that I've helped in COF that leave kind words on my page for me helping them. It's such a wonderful feeling knowing you could help another, it always brings a smile to my face. I love the Circle of Friends group so much, they are full of people that love to help selflessly, all the people I've met there are really great, I'm happy to have met them. It's one of the only groups I'm in, but I believe it's one of the greatest ones anyone could want to be a part of. They have taught me that great lesson that one's kind words ALWAYS are appreciated. Sorry if that all was gibberish to you all, just my thoughts out loud. My mind, scary place, huh?

proud member of and ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3310774/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3310774/ Tue, 07 Sep 2004 18:06:55 PDT
Sorry about my journal last night, for those who did read it, I was in a bad way last night and just didn't have anyone to turn to, but it's ok, I'm a little better now, still thinking about it, but at least I can think about other things now. Well, I finally did pass the 1,000 mark, something very amazing for me, I never do think my writing's that great. I'm starting to write again, getting new ideas and new forms of writing. I already have a new idea for a poem I've been putting off for a while now, just hope I can get enough energy to write it! Well, as you all know by now, I saw the Passion, the first time it was the most powerful, after that, wasn't as impacting, but there is one part in the three times I saw it that still brought me to tears, the part where Mary goes to pick up Jesus when he falls while carrying his cross, that always gets me. Well, I want to rent new movies, anybody got any good recommendations? Well, I'm off to see if I can help COF anymore, try to think of new ideas while I'm at it! Wish me luck!

proud member of ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3206758/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3206758/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 23:54:48 PDT ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3179581/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3179581/ Sat, 21 Aug 2004 11:11:21 PDT But what I'm stuck on now is what to write. To those that have read my poems, what do you want me to write, more sad experiences, or should I give a shot at other emotions like anger and happiness? I'd really like to hear any opinions on this! ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3096053/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3096053/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 00:13:53 PDT
I just thought of the first half when this drunk guy came in the store the other day. He started by telling me that him and his wife had a fight, the usual stuff, you know. And then somewhere he gets into talking about hoping to get lucky that night, then he talks about how he actually hadn't had sex with her in years b/c something about how she was raped as a child, and she was afraid to have sex again, that sort of thing. And I'm thinking, 'Whoa, now, is that something you should share with someone you don't know that well? I'm sure she wouldn't want you to share all that (and it's for those reasons I'm not saying names here).' I tell you, I'm glad that I'm a good listener, because if any of you have listened to drunks, they can talk and talk and talk. Actually, now I'm afraid to see myself as a drunk. Note to self: DRINK ALONE. TALK TO THE TREES, IN THE DARK, IT'LL JUST BE A REALLY TALL SKINNY GUY (stupid joke, but I like it! ) But every once in a while, they can say funny and interesting things. I'll give Monday as an example. This guy came in, and he was pretty wasted, he asks me 'Hey, are you afraid of Mojados? (Spanish for 'illegal immigrants', it's actually a bad term for them, so I won't say it)' and at first I look at him, since I'm Mexican myself, and ask him, 'What did you say?' He said 'Mojados, are you scared of them motherf*ckers?' and I told him, 'No, why would I be?' and then he starts ranting about how they hate cowboys, always picking up the Mexican women and all. I actually had a funny conversation with him about that, I just can't remember exactly what I said! Conclusion: You gotta love drunks, just don't say anything though, only listen. It works, I promise, I've been around many of them in my short life.

This second half, I think about actually a lot, especially these last couple of days. Basically, I assumed the worst of a situation that I shouldn't have (I know you're out there, I'm really sorry about that btw). That's one of my biggest flaws I have, I always assume the worst. Ask any of my friends, they'll tell you. I guess when the bad things happen a lot, it's an easier instinct to figure the worst has happened instead of confiding in people. Why trust if you'll get hurt, right? Wrong. I've noticed that any good emotion that a person has involves a risk of pain. Think about it, you wanna be in love, or happy, or trusting, etc., you have to risk losing those things. But I'm getting off the subject here. I'm slowly getting there, trusting others more, not assuming so many bad things. The best thing to do really, though, is just not to assume anything, they tell me. Don't expect the worst, don't expect the best, don't expect anything. Just let things happen. I think sometimes the best thing to do is just to think the WHOLE thing through before making any decisions. I failed to do that the last couple of times I assumed, and now looking back at it, if I had thought it all through, I probably could've figured it out. If only my friend Kim could see me, she'd be so proud I was saying all this. Conclusion: If anyone out there's like me in assuming the worst, don't! Don't be thinking so bad, things are gonna be alright!

If anyone's actually read all this, THANK YOU! Much s for you. I just had to write all that, I feel better about that now, well, now I'm gonna watch Old School still, maybe switch to Mortal Kombat, I'll flip a coin for it. 'You're my boy, Blue!' or 'Those were $500 sunglasses, asshole?' Decisions, decisions.... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3056849/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3056849/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 10:35:24 PDT Right now, they're holding a vote for their new ID, the journal with the instructions and such is right here--->[link] I've already put in my votes, you should too! Well, I'm off again, I almost have all of what I need to write again! ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3043262/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3043262/ Wed, 04 Aug 2004 16:35:23 PDT ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3031315/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3031315/ Tue, 03 Aug 2004 00:17:44 PDT
The first of these events unfortunately was not a good one...someone I knew was killed in a car wreck on Thursday. It was hard on a lot of people here since we're such a small town, we all know each other or at least have heard of one another. Anyways, the funeral was today. I didn't go, and from the things I heard, I was glad I didn't. Not because I didn't like the guy, I did, he was always nice to me every time he came to buy things where I worked, but because of the reactions at the funeral. And I had heard that at least 250-300 people showed up. I was thinking I've never heard of THAT many people to show up to a funeral, he was really well known. Well, my best friend (who happened to be the deceased's cousin) and I talked about it for a while. As I expected, the family was really breaking down as they were burying him, and I always hurt when I see others hurting. And as my friend and I talked, I thought about the last funeral I went to for a relative, and it was really hard indeed, especially to see the reactions on people's faces. I just feel so bad for the man's wife and kids, all three will never have memories of their real father, they're all really young, 3, 11 months, and 3 weeks...so sad....I still wondered if he was able to tell his wife and kids that he loved them before he was killed, and the way my friend told me, he did, he actually asked his wife to pray for him 15 minutes before it happened because the weather was really bad here. I hear the wife's ok so far, I just hope she'll be strong enough to get through this. And who I also worry about is the brother who was driving behind him and had seen his dead brother...I also certainly hope that he'll be alright....but I better move on to the better part of my day....

Well, my best friend stayed there talking to me for about 90 minutes, and he also saw what I'm gonna say here, he said as it was over 'I wouldn't have believed it unless I saw it!' But anyways, I'm ringing up this woman and her husband's items, and she asks me 'Are you Steven?' and the first thing that goes through my mind is, 'Oh no, what did I do?'. But I do tell her 'Yes, I'm Steven.' She then replies, 'You turned in a wallet to the police last year?' and at first it doesn't click because 1) It was a year ago, and 2) LOTS of people have come through in a year, it's kinda hard to remember EVERYTHING (but I try, lol), but all of a sudden it does click and I tell her, 'Yes, I did.' (And I HONESTLY DO remember what happened too! The lady left her wallet in the store, I call the police, ask them what to do, and they come to pick it up, and when they did, as far as I was concerned, that was the end of it.) Well, anyways, she then says, 'I just wanted to thank you for doing that. You restored my faith in people' and then hands me 30 dollars! And that just blows my mind, I ask her, 'Are you sure, ma'am?' and she says, 'Yes, I'm sure.' So I thank her for it and ring her up and go on with the other customers. What threw me off so much was the fact that she remembered something like that happening so long ago and from where it was. And that she said that I restored her faith. It really made me feel better about doing that nice thing so long ago. And it definitely made me appreciate the good things I do for people, sometimes I feel as if no one cares about the nice things I do. I guess that old saying is true that no good deed goes unrewarded. WOW!

Well, if you did manage to read all this, thank you very much! That just shows my day today for you! Well, back off to looking for my inspiration.... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3007757/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/3007757/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 23:01:29 PDT ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2961570/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2961570/ Sun, 25 Jul 2004 02:22:14 PDT
I didn't get the "re-inspiration" to write about this subject until I saw a certain customer come in one day. Every time I had seen him, he was always with this little girl, 3, maybe 4, always tugging her along as she rode on this red wagon. He comes in the store one day with the little girl, and I could not hold my curiousity any longer. I originally wanted one answer, what I got was something to think about....I was always wondering if that kid that was with him was his or not. I know that's not really my business, it just didn't make too much sense to me, since he wasn't married to my knowledge, yet he was always with this child. Did he adopt her, or was he just babysitting, or what? So one day, I ask him 'Is the little girl yours?' And he tells me, 'No, it's my niece's child. I don't have any kids.' So then we get to talking, and he tells me that the little girl he takes care of was mentally handicapped, so he liked being there to help her, since he had no children of his own, he liked taking care of others, he had also taken care of his niece before she grew up and had a kid of her own. He had no wife, never been married, not even had a girlfriend, and he looked to be in at least his 40s. And yet, every time I saw him with that girl, he always looked to be so happy with her and that made me wonder. 'How can someone with so little to call his own still manage to be so happy? He has no kids, no love of his life, living in a small shack, etc.' This had me pretty thrown off for a while until I really thought about it. I realized that happiness, much like many other emotions we have, is a FEELING. It doesn't really matter what you have or what you don't have. The feeling's intangible, non-materialistic. You could have all the money and friends, etc. in the world, doesn't necessarily mean that you'll be happy though.
It made me think about what things made me happy and things I love. I always love to help people, I don't know, it's something about the relief and happiness is just such a great feeling. I love to be nice and I really love to make people laugh. It always makes me feel a lot happier when I talk to someone that I know wants to talk to me and actually enjoys my company and looks forward to hearing from me. That kind of feeling can make anyone feel so...special, in some way or another. Truthfully, there are times when being happy is harder than being sad. Take any tragic event, ie. death, heartbreak, etc. It's understandable that you would feel bad for losing something so dear, but which is easier, staying sad and be in mourning, or trying to move on with your life? Anyone who can have bad things happen in their life and still manage to be happy, I have the greatest respect for. I know someone that is very unattractive, had suffered much rejection, a few heartbreaks, loss of friends due to stupid mistakes, childhood scarring, and two deaths in his family, and can still manage to smile. And I see him every time I look at the mirror. In summation, my lesson today...happiness is in the mind as well as the heart....those are my thoughts on happiness. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2945792/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2945792/ Thu, 22 Jul 2004 23:23:19 PDT
Steven MXC
'Care Bear'

My quote for the time being...
'Love is the hardest thing to understand. Funny thing is, it also has the strongest power, it can destroy or empower you...'
-Steven R. 'The Mexican, P.I.'

That is, if you ask me about....(my journal entries)
[link] (friendship)
[link] (solitude)
[link] (trusting)
[link] (knowing yourself)
[link] (suicide)
[link] (understanding others)
[link] (kindness) ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2877078/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2877078/ Wed, 14 Jul 2004 00:38:11 PDT ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2805584/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2805584/ Sun, 04 Jul 2004 22:24:39 PDT
Well, I'm looking at all the works I've done, and if I've counted right, I've done 25 pieces, 17 poems (one co-written) and 8 essays. WOW! That's a lot for someone who isn't a writer by nature! I thought I'd take this time to talk about my past history and any other such things when it came to my writing, I actually wanna share it with you guys!
Throughout school, my math ability was the one that was stressed to be strong, and it was, which is why I'm good with calcuators and I'm really good at doing math in my head, without paper and pencil. But to be perfectly honest, I tell everyone that I'm not a writer by nature, but I've actually had a tiny thing for writing for years. I've actually won an award in elementary school in a writing contest in 4th grade, but I had written an action story, not a poem, I won third place! Throughout school, I learned how to write, kinda, I mean, I got good enough to be able to write an essay in about 20 minutes and at least get a C+ to a B without trying too much. I would just write my essays half an hour before school started so I could play games at home . I used that ability to skip a lot of homework in English classes, well, except for that Pre-AP English class my sophomore year. Actually, that class helped me develop my writing a lot, since it was an honors class! That was the only year I took an honors class in English, I could've taken AP (honors) English the other two years, but I was too lazy, I won't lie to you! But anyways, when I got out of school, I found myself using my writing mainly whenever I was really depressed, and it helped out. Before I joined DeviantArt, I wrote poems for an online friend of mine. She really did like my writing, and that made me feel better about it. I don't talk to her much, but the works she has seen lately, she likes, and that means a lot to me, since she was my first 'fan'. I unfortunately deleted all those poems I had wrote, and she doesn't have them anymore b/c her psycho ex-boyfriend got into her e-mail and deleted all her e-mails, including the poems I send, so that really got to me. I first got introduced to DeviantArt because of a friend of mine, (check out her art sometime, she's pretty good, I think ). I showed her the last letter that I was going to send to a girl that broke my heart really badly. I wished I still had that letter, but I got rid of it, I thought of it as my pain going away in the writing. My friend Allison and others that had seen the letter said that it was really strong and well written, and Allison asked me if I had heard of DeviantArt, she thought that I was good enough to write there, I suppose. I joined in January, but by that time, I really didn't have the energy to write. It wasn't until the middle of May, when I started writing poems for posting here. I didn't plan to write about the things I write now and the feelings I write about. Throughout high school and up until last year, I did have a dream of wanting to write comedy bits, funny stuff. I had tried it a few times, but I was only good enough to be witty, not really so much funny, so I let that go. I may try doing it again sometime, just to give it another shot. But for now, I write about situations that I've either been in myself or I've seen or heard of in my life. I write the way I do because it's the best way I can, for me, writing free verse is way too easy, I at least need a decent challenge, and the way I write right now is my challenge. I don't use all the ideas that I come up with, I think so far, I've thrown away about 5 or 6 ideas because either I didn't have the energy to finish, being too distracted (which actually happened today at work, I just got too busy, and I threw the half-finished poem away) or I just didn't have enough to write about. If I can't finish the poem once I start writing it, I don't get the energy to write about it again, if I start a poem, I just have to finish without too much distraction. I'm just so happy that there are people that like my writing and think I can write, I think I'm gonna keep at it, maybe I can get better and be an actual writer! Thanks to all that have read and liked the poems and essays! If anyone actually has questions about my writing, I'll see if I can answer them! I'd be h... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2751716/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2751716/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 23:27:52 PDT

Anyone ever think about this as much as I do? The answer to that is probably not, because I think of EVERYTHING a lot! This topic's hit me a lot these last couple of weeks, actually, it started when I friend of mine was telling me he was considering moving to a city 6 hours away from here, and it'd be pretty hard to keep in touch with him. Now I'm currently
wondering about a friend's decision about wanting to be friends or not anymore. It made me think of what it would be like without his friendship, because, honestly, I don't think a lot of that, I take friendships for granted. It's a bad thing to do, I know, because you never really know what could happen, the other could die or get really sick, or you two might just have a big fight that marks the end of the friendship. My poem here [link] discusses something like what would go through my mind if I knew a friendship would end. Re-reading that, it made me think a lot about my friends I have and the things we have gone through, for better or worse. It also made me think about what a perfect friend was to me. In my opinion, a perfect friend is always honest with you on matters, and if there are times when being honest hurts too much, they find a good way to soften that blow. They would also be kind to you and always support you in everything that you do, even if they hate the subject, but they see that you love it. If they saw that you were hurt about something, they would do what they could to try and make you feel better. A perfect friend would forgive you for things that they knew you were truly sorry for and wanted to make up. I guess the perfect friend to me sounds a lot like the perfect love. Why not, a friend and a lover are a lot alike, the lover just does more for you emotionally. Now writing all this, I look at myself and think two things: 1) How do my friends now compare to my vision of a perfect friend? and 2) How do I compare to my thoughts of a perfect friend? My answer to number 1 would be that no, I don't have a completely perfect friend, but all my friends have some of those qualities, some more than others. But that's just how people are, varied! My answer to number 2...honestly, if I said I was close to or even that, it would be a lie, because I'm really not. I have done some wrong things to friends that didn't deserve them in the past, and I wish that I could take them back, but unfortunately, it's in my past and we all make mistakes, every person is flawed in some way. But I just want the friends out there that I did wrong, whether you'll ever see this or not, that I truly am sorry for what I did, I guess the next best thing to do is to learn from those mistakes and to try really hard not to repeat them. If this essay is a start to remembering those things and being a better friend, either for myself or perhaps others, then I'm glad to write it. Wow, did I rant! Those are my thoughts on friendship. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2733006/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2733006/ Fri, 25 Jun 2004 11:01:16 PDT
On a different note: I'm actually gonna be giving titles to the works that have titles that make no sense, since I'm actually taking my work a tad seriously, that and maybe if people know what they're about, they might read them.... ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2708153/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2708153/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 23:15:17 PDT Oh well, writing is helping out some, but I think being this low, I'll need someone there...Anyways, here's my next topic, solitude.

In my opinion, solitude is just a temporary solution for problems. I know there are times in life where just so much goes on, and you can't take the pressure anymore, you just need to be alone. But is too much solitude bad for you? To me, maybe....you just have to know when you need to be alone and when you should have someone there. If there are people that are willing to be there for you, just let them know that you do appreciate them, but tell them that you'd rather be by yourself on it. I know I've done that a time to two. I used to love being alone, just thinking and thinking about so many things, a curious mind. Nowadays, I'm still that curious mind, but I can prefer company at times. Being by yourself can be good, though, you don't have to worry about anyone but yourself, you can just take that time to think about you and only you, to see how you can help yourself and collect your thoughts. It's good to have another person to talk about things and hear their opinions, for better or worse. New input is always good for growth! However, pushing people away just for the solitude isn't always so great. Those sort of things should never be taken for granted. You could end up hurting the other person's feelings and in the end, push them away for good, so use in moderation! That is my opinion on solitude. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2701341/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2701341/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 01:32:42 PDT This is a topic which I'm glad I took a couple of days to edit before I finally posted it up! Over the last couple of days, I've had things to add and take out, let's see how it works!

If you happen to look up the word trust in any dictionary, me, I'm looking in The Webster's New World Dictionary 1995 version (hey, I got it from graduating to middle school from elementary school, I don't care if it's outdated, lol), you'd probably find something like this: n. firm belief in the honesty, reliability, etc. of another. Hmm, well, that sounds about right, I'd think. But the real question is, do we have any of that today? Think to yourself, how much do you trust others? If you're like most people, the answer will probably be 'not very much' or 'not at all'. And that's pretty understandable, considering the things there are out there. There just seems to be so many liars and people that don't deserve any trust from anyone out there, it makes wanting to trust pretty hard. I should know, I'm one of the suckers that they probably go for. I'm a very trusting person, for the most part, cautious, but trusting. Sounds weird, I know, let me explain it to you. I can trust people with my feelings and emotions and such, but once it's been abused, I get really cautious in the future, or at least I try to. It's always the ones that abuse the trust that you do have that really mess it up for everyone else that you come into contact with in the future. I hear so many times that no one trusts anyone else, and that's really sad to hear. If I could've known those people when they trusted, then they could've seen that there were people out there that can still be trusted. I still believe that there are some out there that you can trust, and those kinds are real gems, if you have one, don't let it go! Odds are that another like it would be pretty hard to find. If you wonder about me.... I think that I'm a person you can trust with feelings and emotions and such, despite the times that my trust has been abused for others' gains and conveniences. I wish I had people that could verify that, but they're around, somewheres! How I do it, I don't really know, I guess that's just part of my good nature. I guess all in all, just be really careful of who to trust, but don't not trust at all, to me, how can you be trusted if you choose not to trust that person back, I mean, doesn't that make some sense? It just seems like an unfair trade to me, wanting trust but not giving it, but that's me. Those are my thoughts on trust. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2663049/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2663049/ Mon, 14 Jun 2004 23:46:59 PDT ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2616564/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2616564/ Tue, 08 Jun 2004 21:39:51 PDT
This is something that many people today don't really know fully, it's either that, or they do know everything, but they don't want to show some parts because they're afraid that if those parts are seen, they may be thought of less, or just plain hated. Personally, I do have that same problem. The things you read in my poetry is me, no doubt about that, but yes, there are a couple of things that I don't really show, mostly because I'd rather not have people see them because I'm just plain scared that I'll be thought of differently or worse, things like that. The solution that I'd give any other person that had that kind of problem is to just take a really good hard look at yourself. Don't think about anyone else's opinions or what they might say about you. Just face everything there, for better or worse. Well, in saying that, here's my analysis of me, luckily, I'm listening to good music, so this isn't so painful, if it would be that...My name is Steven, I'm 20 years old, I'm a very sweet guy, a good listener, very understanding, I care a lot about my friends and family, I like to joke around about lots of things, and I'm starting to like writing again, though, normally, my strong point is in math. I'm an honest guy that's very dependable and is always there for people. Nice? On the other hand, sometimes there are things that can get me so mad, and I don't say anything about them, I just pent them up inside me, which isn't a good thing at all, I just get more depressed about it instead. I'm always unsure of how important I am to my friends, or about how good my work is to some people. I just seem to worry so much about things that don't need to be worried about. I can always be sad, but there are times I don't really know why, it just seems kinda like habit. I want to have love, but I seem to look for it in the wrong places. And lastly, sometimes, I can have trouble letting go, when the matter seemed really important to me...Well, for better or worse, that's me in a nutshell. The one thing that everyone has to know is that we all share the same basic emotions, anger, sadness, happiness, and such, it's just those feelings are different in all of us, and knowing how you work, so to speak, helps to make you a better person. But I'm taking my own advice on this one. Those are my thoughts on knowing yourself. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2565832/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2565832/ Wed, 02 Jun 2004 11:44:01 PDT
I always have and probably always will believe this about suicide: a permanent solution to a temporary problem. But I suppose considering what kind of problems there are out there in this world, and society's thought of wanting the easy way out of everything, I shouldn't be all that surprised about it. A friend was telling me about her suicide attempt, and the more I heard her talk, the more I saw it in a different light. What scared me was that she was really close to being pronounced dead. She told me that she honestly cannot remember what she had did before she did it, ie. calling relatives, going out to where she was when they found her, etc. She hardly even remembers doing it. But her case and the one that happened to a family member of mine both followed the same pattern....too much pressure, bad things in their lives. And she did make an interesting point when she told me 'A lot of people look at me now and always tell me, 'You should've called, just call somebody' and I was thinking 'That's the last thing on my mind!'' And that would make sense, I think. When you have all these other bad events in your life, you're not thinking, 'Hey. maybe I should call someone', you're just thinking about all those events. And eventually, one will crack you, make you go over that fall that you may not return from. One thing I do know for sure is that I could never take it if I was the one that someone committed suicide over. I mean, think about it, in a way, you would've killed them yourself. But I just hope that I'll never go that far in life. That's my side of suicide. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2539257/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2539257/ Sat, 29 May 2004 22:47:27 PDT Oh, that's alright, maybe I'll get lucky with this one...and note, I'm in a lonely mood, so this may be a little one-sided, I'm sorry if it is....

I don't know about other people, but I was always wanting to understand how everyone thought, what they were capable of doing, you know, things like that. That way, at least if something bad ever happened with someone, or if they had hurt me in any way, I could at least say, 'Well, at least I saw it coming'. I believed that if I could completely know everyone, then I could prevent being hurt at all, or at least very minimally. But when thinking about it, if I did know that, then what new things could I learn? I'd know everything about them, and things would just get boring. So that mystery that people keep within themselves is necessary, if anything, just to say, 'Wow, I didn't know you could do that!' I mean, sure yeah, there's always the chance of getting hurt because of things you don't know about others or being disappointed when people don't come through for you when you think they will, but I find myself saying this so many times, you just have to take the bad with the good. But hey, I'm just one young mind here, I can't know that much yet! That's my thoughts on understanding others. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2518859/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2518859/ Thu, 27 May 2004 05:25:41 PDT ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2509276/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2509276/ Tue, 25 May 2004 21:08:44 PDT
To me, kindness is a gift that anyone can possess, if they want to. Nowadays, it's getting harder and harder to find in this world. But what I can't understand is that despite its increasing rareness, why would it still be taken for granted? Maybe this is just me talking here, but if you find something rare, wouldn't you take at least decent care of it? Me, I've been lucky to have kind people in my life, and working in a convenience store, you get to see what kinds of people there really are out there, to an extent. Most of them really only care about themselves and no one else, just as long as they get what they want. What is that? Where has our kinder society gone? I suppose you just have to really know where to look. If you want a really kind person, you'd probably have better luck in smaller towns. Bigger cities tends to kill people's kindness and goodness for the most part. But society hasn't killed my kindness yet, and I'm very grateful for that! I just hope it won't die out on me! Well, that's what I think about kindness. ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2489271/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2489271/ Sun, 23 May 2004 09:10:54 PDT ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2469065/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2469065/ Thu, 20 May 2004 10:49:17 PDT Well, I'll be around, if I'm not working, man, work sucks Hope my entries are decently liked, I'll be working up some new stuff, like a second season or something, lol. The Mexican, P.I., Second Season, that sounds pretty weird! ]]> ~themexican-pi http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2466027/ http://themexican-pi.deviantart.com/journal/2466027/ Wed, 19 May 2004 21:10:43 PDT ~themexican-pi