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What An Odd Time I'm Having...

~theunknown1 — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 11:56:03 PST

Hey there !

I've been looking at the Yotsuba&! Volume covers, and it's had me interested in coloring with markers ^__^! And then I saw tutorials on how it works, and that interest waned a bit ...it's too much like painting for me to be any good with it. I know as an artist I should try more traditional media, but it never really *clicks* for me (as far as being interesting or improving goes), aside from the pencil...
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This won't be the most interesting Christmas ever...clothes and maybe a watch. I don't really have any money to get much of anything else, either. I know the holiday is about family, but I've kinda been wanting to go out on my own more. For the past 2 weeks or so, I've only been on campus or at home. That's pretty much the case most of the time, and it's starting to get a bit boring. I don't really have anywhere to go, or any money to go anywhere. I'd love to try out some new things. For some reason, part of me wants to go out around Christmas, randomly walking around the city and doing/buying whatever (not a shopping spree, exactly, just a day/night out or something). I'm not exactly sure how or why I feel that way - I'm probably just tired from not sleeping enough, or maybe I'm just bored ...
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I've also been thinking about where I want to live when I move out. I want to be in the city somewhere, preferably close to the Old City area. I doubt I could afford it, though, and I'll probably end up in a sad little house near where I live now, or living with other people who'll split the rent (is it considered a roomate when it's an entire home?). I'd like to work up to living in a nice apartment or hotel someday, with a view of the city skyline. For some reason, I'm thinking it could work since I probably won't have many monthly expenses, aside from rent, heat, electric, and maybe cable (I really don't want a car until I can pay for it all at once, and I don't need much furniture if I'm on my own). But I'm probably just dreaming big ...
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A week from today, I'll be out for Christmas Break ! On the one hand, no more class! On the other hand, I'm stuck at home all day -_-;. Also, I won't be able to use the labs or After Effects (which I'm starting to like a lot, aside from the rendering time). It hasn't been the best year to be home, either - I seriously have to watch what I do or say almost all the time, or I'll just be blamed for or accused of something. It hasn't been so bad lately, though. But it's back and forth all the time, so I never know what to feel. The classmate I used to talk to the most is out on his Co-op right now, and won't be back until the spring. Even then, I didn't talk all that much. As much as I'm not a party person, I'd still like to hang out with someone sometime. It gets pretty dull on my own or just with family all the time, and it's not like I can afford any new games to play...
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I'd like to do enough commissions to be able to buy things every so often (especially this holiday). I haven't really gotten paid for the 2 I did already (I took WAY too long...), but I'd still like to do some sketches or lineart for about $5-7 each (it's more than I have been charging, but no one's really asked me, aside from the two). Either I haven't been advertising it enough, or I'm not good enough to get many commissions yet.
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I have 4 Secret Santees to draw for ! I've already started part of 1 of them, and I was planning to do more over the weekend. Next week (and especially the week after that) I'll be able to do even more work on them ...........
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Sorry if these most of these sound like I'm sad (I've been told I sound depressing once); I'm not, but I am kinda....confused. I tend to say things about myself that sound like I'm down on myself, but I'm just.......weird, maybe ? Anyway, I'd like to hear what everyone else thin...

Getting Back to Work! [EDIT]

~theunknown1 — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 06:03:24 PST

Hello there !

I finally finished my 2nd commission recently, and now I'm going on to make up any trades that I wasn't able to finish before. Sorry, everyone !
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I've decided to participate in Secret Santas this year - 4, in fact !! I really need to get back to drawing often, then start drawing more than I used to. Also, I get to make new friends ^___^! I'll try my best to be a great Santa to all of them !
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I started reading this manga called Yotsuba&!. It's about a 5-year-old who's delightfully clueless about a lot of things . It's really funny without trying too hard, and it's something you could probably even read to a kid. Also, I decided: if I have a kid, I want them to be like Yotsuba !! At first, anyway ...
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Ever since Saturday, I've had this urge to become more independent and go out more. Not go out as in parties exactly , but as in walking around the city for no apparent reason. I just woke up that morning full of energy (mental, not physical - I can't even run !). I'm even thinking of going out and getting my learner's permit in a week or two. I don't know why - I just felt that way ....
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I just found out from my mom that if I do get anything for Christmas, it'll be clothes/shoes. So, in other words, anything good I get this year or from now on I'll probably have to buy myself. It could be a trick to "surprise" me by getting something I like at the last second, but with the way this year has turned out, I highly doubt it.

The problem is, I have absolutely no money right now. I'd like to do commissions to earn some, but I haven't had many offers yet. Also, I'd have to be reminded every so often that I have them, guilting me into finishing it faster . I NEED TO PROMOTE MYSELF MORE !!! But I have no idea how....
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So, in total, my uploads next month will be:

- 3-4 Secret Santas (I still haven't heard from one of them I applied to yet)
- 4 art trades to finish
- a contest entry or two
- uploading projects from my Motion Graphics class
- My LD story
- anything else I feel like making

I have 2-3 weeks off...

LONG MEMES AHEAD!

~theunknown1 — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 15:10:14 PST

Hey there everyone !

I had to take pictures of a local museum for class, so I have plenty of photos to upload now. I think the photography bug is back ! I can't upload any now, though, since I can't seem to transfer the files - the card reader doesn't work >____________________________________

I read this in someone's journal, and I thought I'd give it a try:

001. Real name?
- Jason

002. Nickname(s)?
- Jay, little Jay, Rocky, Jace.....

003. Zodiac sign?
- Libra!

004. Male or female?
- Male

005. Elementary?
- PS #5

006. Middle School?
- Woodrow Wilson

007. High School?
- Northeast High School

008. Hair color?
- Dark Brown

009. Long or short?
- Short

010. Loud or Quiet?
- Quiet

011. Sweats or Jeans?
- Jeans

012. Phone or Camera?
- Camera

013. Health freak?
- Not really - I catch a cold every time the seasons change.

014. Drink or Smoke?
- No

015. Do you have a crush on someone?
- No, not really >>....

016. Eat or Drink?
- Both

017. Piercings?
- None

018. Tattoos?
- No

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane?
- Yep

020. Been in a car accident?
- I don't think so...

021. Been in a fist fight?
- Not really.....

FIRSTS:
022. First piercing?
- None

023. First best friend?
- I can't possibly remember that! But I do remember one friend I had in elementary school ....

025. First award?
- It's hard to say - I got a "diploma" when I "graduated" from a private preschool. Does that count?

026. First crush?
- In high school ^__^!

028. First big vacation?
- I went to Hawaii when I was 5, but I barely remember anything that wasn't on the video...

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to?
- A classmate

030. Last person you texted?
- A classmate

031. Last person you watched a movie with?
- My little sister and step-sisters

032. Last food you ate?
- Corn Chips

033. Last movie you watched?
- Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs

034. Last song you listened to?
- Kurayami Shinchuu Soushisouai (Zan Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei)

035. Last thing you bought?
- Corn Chips

036. Last person you hugged?
- I don't remember ...

FAVES:
037. Food?
- I'm crazy for pasta of any kind !! With parmesan cheese. Also, I find myself adding Garlic Powder to a lot of things.

038. Drinks?
- Tea, juice, sometimes coffee, and soda

039. Clothing?
- Shirt and jeans work fine, thanks! As long as I like them and they can fit me, I don't care much about fashion.

040. Book?
- Too many to count! But, I have to say I've read Making Comics by Scott McCloud 3 times already !

041. Music?
- Anime & Game Music mostly, but if I like it, I don't mind what genre it's from!

042. Flower?
- Violets, Roses

043. Colors?
- Purple, Black, Red, Blue, Gold...

044. Movies?
- The Nightmare Before Christmas, Mirrormask, Coraline, and many, many more !

045. Shoes?
- Sneakers (as long as I like them and they fit, I say!)

046. Subjects?
- Art, English, Psychology, Physics (the practice, not the theory...)

IN THE PAST YEAR I ... :
047. [ ] kissed in the snow
048. [x] celebrated Halloween (kind of...)
049. [ ] had your heart broken
050. [x] went over the minutes on your cell phone (it was a pay-as-you-go thing...)
051. [ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [ ] came out of the closet
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [x] done something you've regretted...

Secret Santa?

~theunknown1 — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 15:50:06 PST

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I'm planning on entering some of those Secret Santa things this year . Last year, not only did I never hear about them, but I was never invited to any ...

I'm in it more for the practice and the chance to make new friends ^_^!! But still, they require that I make a journal about what I wanted. Here is info on my OCs so far:

Yoshikawa Takaname: [link] , [link] (These are also his Winter clothes) , [link]

He's shy, quiet, and pretty nerdy. He'll pretty much stutter and blush around most girls, except for his maid and his mom.
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Yuki Tashitori: [link]

Yoshikawa's first real friend. She's popular and smart. but she doesn't let it get to her. She cares about Yoshikawa, but doesn't care much for his stuttering habit, or his low self-esteem. If he starts to doubt himself around her, she's guaranteed to slap him on the back of the head !
Yuki is usually calm and reserved, but there's a bit of a wild streak somewhere in there >>........
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Chiri Konamori: [link] , [link]

Yoshikawa's loving maid, and a sisterly figure. She's a bit obsessive with caring about him, and despite her looks, can be really tough.
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Also, I have a story that I'm writing with my OCs in it:

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I think I'll upload another chapter soon, to give a better idea of how Chiri acts ....
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That being said, don't feel limited to drawing just them - if you look at my gallery (and even my comments sometimes), you'll find tons of fanart from tons of series. As long as it's not someone else's OC, you can draw anyone from those series, too - surprise me, if you'd like to !!!
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I told ~CorneredBaka that I would do another feature, since he featured me recently. It doesn't matter to me if you were in the last one, since not enough people comment on these for me to worry about that . If you were here before, I'll just try and pick different pics of yours, or the same, if you want (just tell me) :

1.) - [link] [link] [link]

2.) - [link] [link] [link]

3.) <...

I'm at 98%!!

~theunknown1 — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 06:30:17 PST

HIYA THERE !!! I'M FINALLY FEELING A WHOLE LOT BETTER !!!

I'm still at about 98%, though - My coughs still have some mucus in them and my voice gets raspy every so often, but for the most part, my voice is back ...

This has been an odd week indeed. Thanks to the badly-timed SEPTA strike, getting around the city has been a pain. I've been taking the Regional trains instead of my usual route lately. The first day, I was told to go the wrong way by the people working at the station. I had to get off and go the other way, only to wait in a line for an hour or two to board it. On the other had, in the morning, it's nice to see some new scenery zipping by me.....now if I only could find an open seat .

Because of that one class I failed last year, my whole academic schedule has been messed up. I haven't been able to take many of the classes that my fellow classmates have, because most of them require that one class to some extent. On the other hand, this means I'm free to fill up the other spots with as many electives as I want. There's no limit to how many electives I can have (just a minimum), so it's not like I'm using them all up. If my GPA gets high enough, I could even take a minor or two . I re-take that one class in the Spring, and every other class I have will be an elective .
Speaking of that, I had to register for Winter term this year. To my surprise, I got into every single class I wanted, and at the times I wanted. In the end, I had 19 credits worth of classes. To be honest, that sounds like a lot, since the limit for credits per term is 20. My Mondays and Wednesdays are more swamped with classes than they are now. I'll talk to my advisor and see if that's going a bit too far .....

My mom had a rough day today. It seemed like everything was trying to make her morning terrible. Also, I heard her and her husband talking about me and my little sister. She's pretty upset with both of us. On the ride to the station and even before we left the house, she was saying things about how angry she is at us, how everything we own is hers, and how we don't care about anything. She had my sister almost crying before we left the house. The whole time she was telling us about how hard it is to support us, how little we care, how junky we look, etc. After my little sister was dropped off, she went on to tell me how I'm not any kind of role model for my sister, how I act like a bum, how I shouldn't be acting like a child, how I don't appreciate being in college, how my dad didn't call that much and didn't really care, how they argued and my dad left my mom alone at night on a street pregnant with me at one point, and then some. The whole time, I wanted to explain how so many of the things she thinks of me are just misunderstandings, but that never helps. I just sat there, Not saying a thing. She let me off at the station and I said "thanks" and that was it.

As soon as I got out of the car.....I felt happy. I held back my tears while in the car, but as soon as she left, I just felt so much better. I am a bit sad, seeing as how my own mother thinks I'm pretty much worthless and thankless, but I feel so much better being here on campus. It seems like I've been seeing the positive sides of a lot of things, and I'm usually not that optimistic about life. Here, there have been many good things happening to me this week. I probably won't like going home tonight, and I can't travel anywhere without a car thanks to the strike, but for now, I'm just glad that I'm not completely the person my mom thinks me to be. Sure, I could tell her how I act when I'm not around her and how she misunderstands me, but it never really works. For now, I'll just blame it on a stressful morning..........

Uhh...I Can't Think of A Titile...

~theunknown1 — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 05:09:26 PDT

Hello everyone ! I'm.......not really making any progress with my cold, I think . My mom told me to stop taking the cough medicine the doctor gave me because it wasn't really working. I've been taking the Mucinex and the antibiotic instead, but I don't think that my cough has gotten any better. I am coughing out the snot every once in a while, so it is helping a little. My voice is still raspy, too. I'm taking plenty of tea for that, though. I can't wait to write the journal where I'm at 100%!

Things at home weren't so great last night. My mom got really upset about how the house was (it didn't look bad to me, but I guess it wasn't up to her clean standards). She ended up getting even angrier thanks to her husband (who conveniently always seems to make things worse by making me and my sister sound terrible). I love my mother, but when she gets like this, I don't know what to think.
I talked to my sister about how I'll be in the computer labs for most of the weekend, working on the project I missed when I was out last week. I also mentioned that it was peaceful there, especially since things seemed a little tense here at home (I didn't say the tense part, though). When I talked to my mother later (who looked somewhere between tired and frustrated) about going to the labs to work, I think she had said something like she had heard, to get some peace. I wasn't sure if she had heard what I said earlier, or just thought it meant working without distractions, or if I had just heard her the wrong way (she was kind of mumbling) but I didn't say any more about it. She acted normally the rest of the night, so maybe I'm just hearing things....this is kinda confusing -_-;.....

My grandma gave me $40 this weekend. It was to replace the $40 of my birthday money that my mom needed for everyone's co-pay at the medical clinic (my grandma had given me $60). She had said that I didn't always need to tell my mom about it (the money, I mean). I already figured out how I'll spend it - I think I'll get the first Professor Layton game for about $30 (I'll wait until after I finish my project this weekend to get it), then I could use the rest to pay for my lunches for part of the week. This way, I could pay for my lunches without having to rely so much on my mom to give me the money for it (it probably won't last the week, though - also, I still need to ask her for the money to get a Weekly TransPass). And maybe some deodorant; I just ran out !
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I'm thinking of applying for some scholarships to help pay for my tuition. There are a few that I found the descriptions of at my advisor's office - I was thinking of going for some art contest-related ones, and maybe writing contests as well (my writing's been complimented before by my professors, so maybe I have something there). If could raise enough to pay for the rest of my tuition balance, I wouldn't have to worry about registering next term.

There's something that I haven't mentioned much about, I think - I have a story written about my OCs (even ones I have yet to draw). I have a ton of "chapters" in my head, but I've physically only typed about 6 of them. It's written for a manga I want to someday draw, so it's a little bit more of a "script" than a story. There was a friend here I Noted the chapters to, and she would comment on them. I haven't seen or heard much from her lately, though, and I haven't exactly written a chapter in a while, either (up until the time I wrote the most recent chapters, I had barely drawn my characters yet!). I was wondering if anyone wanted to read them ? I could either upload it here, or Note the "chapters" one by one ....

I've been looking up a lot about the Epic Mickey game, and it seems......epic . The style's not as "dark" as it seemed to be originally, but I think I like that. It's kinda creepy looking at times, while still being Disney. If this game works out, who knows how many forgotten Disney characters will make a return ^^!

I've been in a bit of an Animal Crossing: Wild World mood lately, so when I get back to drawing expect some things from that. I even started watching the movie

I'm Still Recovering....

~theunknown1 — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 17:30:11 PDT

I'm Better Than Before.....(Update!)

~theunknown1 — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 09:57:48 PDT

Hello !!

Sorry for the lack of activity here lately, I just haven't been able to get on. Our basement's being painted and redesigned, so I can't even walk down there most of the time - it's been like this for a week now. It should all be done soon, hopefully.

In fact, the only reason I'm able to post right now is because I'm on campus. I have some homework to do that I conveniently can't do at home (AfterEffects CS4 would destroy my home computers). I wanted to start at 11am and finish by 4, but the labs aren't open yet. At one point I heard it opened at noon, so I waited until then - then I heard that someone will be here at 1. I'm hoping to get finished by 5 at this rate -_-;....

Also, I've been battling a bit with this cold I have. I'm still better off than I was last Monday, but the cold keeps getting better then worse constantly. I've been taking a lot of nighttime Theraflu, so I've been falling asleep quite often. I wake up feeling a bit betterÂ.for a short while, at least.

Yesterday was great ! To celebrate my birthday, we went to the Cheesecake Factory. It was huge, and they had a lot of good food there. I ordered spaghetti with garlic, shrimp, shiitake mushrooms, artichoke, and hand-shredded parmesan cheese on top ! I drank rasberry-flavored lemonade, which I've never heard of before (apparently, it's made by hand, and the rim of the glass has sugar all over it). I also took home a slice of cheesecake that had chocolate, fudge and caramel in it. It more than made up for my birthday at school !!!! I wanna go there again sometime ^_^Â

Because of my cold and the Theraflu, I haven't been up to drawing much these past few days. I'm hoping to start up again this week, but I feel a bit out of it for now - so if I'm not on much, sorry about that ÂÂ
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An interesting thing happened to me today. A week or two ago, there was someone (I think she was a college student) who happened to be getting off at the same train stop as me. She was struggling with a big suitcase, so I picked up one of the sides and helped her slowly carry it up both flights of stairs to get to the surface (the train ran underground). She thanked me a lot for that. Today, she happened to be on the same train I was on. She said that she was looking for me and was very grateful for helping her back then, and had even offered me some money or to buy me some coffee. I smiled and said that it was okay, and although I didn't say it exactly, I'm pretty sure she understood that I meant that I didn't help her to get something in return. I didn't say so because I was catching my breath at the time (I hate going up those stairs >
I'm not trying to brag or anything, but it made me happy that I was able to help someone enough that they'd be willing to look for me and thank me that way. Honestly, I don't know how to say it in a way that doesn't make me sound like I am bragging >< ! It just made me happy, is all ....
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I found this OC questionnaire/quiz in one of *Chikuto's journals and I wanted to try it, too !

1. What is your characterÂs full name?
Yoshikawa Takaname

2. When were they born?
Sept. 23rd (same as mine)

3. What are their parentÂs names?
Yoshitaka (father) and Chie (mother) Takaname

4. Do they have any brothers or sisters?
Not a one. But he does see his maid and butler as family!

5. What kind of eyes do they have?
Big, brown innocent ones. Although they sometimes have a glitter of scheming in them ...

6. What kind of hair do they have?
Black, semi-spiky, and kinda puffy. How it stays that way he'll never know...

7. What is their complexio...

Not the Best Time For Me, I Guess..(OC Quiz Added)

~theunknown1 — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 15:38:18 PDT

Hiya !

It turns out that my birthday................................................was not the best day ever . I had classes all day, of course, and because of tuition and books, any money I get will probably go towards those. The only times I enjoyed it were at home and when people wished me a happy birthday, so I thank everyone who did !
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I was feeling terrible yesterday . I had:

1.) back pains
2.) eye pains
3.) chest and stomach pains
4.) a constant headache
5.) a bit of queasiness
6.) a sore throat and snot in throat
7.) was tired
8.) only eaten a pretzel and some water (until I got home; then I had PB&J)

I was a wreck the whole time. Not to mention it was raining so much, there were a ton of puddles I ended up stepping in. It was so bad, I had to go to bed early. In the end, I slept for 8-9 hours (instead of my usual 3-5). It was worth it though, since just about everything was gone in the morning . I still have a bit of snot in my throat, and I think the soreness is coming back a little, but I'll be fine ...

[Edit]: It's official, I have a cold. It hurts to swallow, and for some reason the pain goes from my throat to my left ear. It doesn't hurt as much when I cover it, though. I'm going to the doctors this weekend, so I'll be okay - thanks for caring, everyone ^_^!!
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I didn't place in the Happiness Contest. I'm not surprised, but I was hopeful. In the end, it seems that the super high-quality pieces won..............as always. I honestly can't make work at that level yet. Oh well; at least I was able to finish it, and on time . Congrats to the winners ! Next time, I WILL WIN !!!!........_not ..............
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I found this OC questionnaire/quiz in one of *Chikuto's journals and I wanted to try it, too !

1. What is your characterÂs full name?
Yoshikawa Takaname

2. When were they born?
Sept. 23rd (same as mine)

3. What are their parentÂs names?
Yoshitaka (father) and Chie (mother) Takaname

4. Do they have any brothers or sisters?
Not a one. But he does see his maid and butler as family!

5. What kind of eyes do they have?
Big, brown innocent ones. Although they sometimes have a glitter of scheming in them ...

6. What kind of hair do they have?
Black, semi-spiky, and kinda puffy. How it stays that way he'll never know...

7. What is their complexion like?
Kinda pale, but not too bad.

8. What body type are they?
Small and scrawny !

9. What is listening to their voice like?
If you can hear it, it sounds like a small child begging, most of the time.

10. Do they have a favourite quote?
ÂHakuna matata!" (.....no, really...)

11. What sort of music do they enjoy?
If he hears it and likes it, that's fine with him/ Nothing specific besides the occasional piano/guitar piece, though...

12. Have they ever cheated on a partner?
What partner?

13. Have they ever lost someone close to them?
.......kinda (it's hard to explain)....

14. What is their favourite sound?
Anything quiet, really.

15. What is their opinion on euthanasia?
NO.

16. Are the...

Back To School, B-Day Coming!

~theunknown1 — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 16:36:16 PDT

Hey there !

My 2-week vacation is almost over; I'll be back in class on Monday. I'm not really looking forward to another term of overlapping deadlines, being compared to everyone else in my class who is better than me, and being graded on a curve (basically, my grade is based on how everyone else does). To make it worse, I took a class that goes with the track I wanted, and the only professor who teaches it just happens to be the guy who failed me back in Spring - I wouldn't take it if I didn't have to later.

For that class, I think I'll just do work that's passable and on time; it's not worth it trying hard if it gets me nowhere with him. Other than that, there's more Typography (I'm a little tired of it), some class where I have to pretend I can do Performance Art (it was either that or Wood Shop) and a Psychology class I'm having second thoughts about. Not to mention that my birthday is on Wednesday, so I'll be in class until 6pm that day ><....
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I didn't place in yet another contest. No one votes for me, as far as I know, and I'm never told why. Is my art too stiff or boring? Am I not popular enough to get voted on? Am I just not good enough yet? I don't have a clue. When I enter a contest, I try to do something different than what everyone else is doing, since I can't color or draw as amazingly as everyone else does. Lineart is where I waste most of my time - going over the lines with selections made from paths takes hours, but if I don't do that, then my lines will all look similar just using the stroke option. The fact is, if someone even remotely popular or well-known is involved, then I have absolutely no chance of winning. So I guess I'm asking this: What am I/ is my art missing/lacking?
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I've been typing....a lot lately. I feel like I answer journals with a journal-sized answer of my own. It's odd, since in person I don't talk that much at all. I don't always get a reply back, either, which makes me think I'm saying too much. Have I seemed...wordy lately?
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If you didn't read what I wrote above, my 20th birthday is on Wednesday ! At this point, I just want some birthday money to go downtown and buy some stuff (or at least get out of the house). I always have some games in mind I'd like to get, but never much else. The money never lasts me until Black Friday, a holiday I'd like to be a part of one of these years. At the very least, we'll be eating out, so there's that .
Anyway, I guess I'm old, but I'm not really feeling old. I'm really no different than I was a decade ago - I just like more things, draw better, and have harder, more expensive classes. And it's not like I'll be drinking in a year, so.....I dunno .....
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I told ~CorneredBaka that I would do another feature, since he featured me recently. It doesn't matter to me if you were in the last one, since not enough people comment on these for me to worry about that . If you were here before, I'll just try and pick different pics of yours, or the same, if you want (just tell me) :

1.) - [link] [link] [link]

2.) - [link] [link] [link]

3.)

I've been thinking about.......STUFF!

~theunknown1 — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 10:51:33 PDT

Hey there; how are you ? This week has been okay. I got to rest a little, and draw a bit. My grades were nowhere near failing, but they weren't what I had wanted. It probably won't be enough to raise my overall GPA to 2.7 so I can start my minor in the Fall - maybe I can argue for it since it's only 0.07 points off? I dunno -_-;...

My laptop hasn't been in the best of shape lately. It's been going slowly, and when I type I have to wait for it to come up and sometimes the positioning of the words gets messed up or some parts get repeated two or more times for some reason. Also, Firefox sometimes stops, making the loading hourglass come up and freezing it for an uncertain amount of time, then I have to turn it off and on again. I've been deleting more and more, but I'm not sure how much it's been helping me; I still have that same habit of saving what I fave/collect ( you never know when something you like disappears one day ) ...

At this rate, my goal of $30 by the 14th is impossible to meet.....oh well (I really wanted that rooster hat, too...). That being said, I'm already working on my first 2 commissions ^_^! They're coming along fine, but I wish I had more offers by now. I also worry that my way of outlining/coloring will take too long for only $5 of work. I wish DA had some kind of commissions forum; I already advertised on FA's, which is where I got my 2nd one from .
Maybe I didn't advertise enough, or maybe I'm not known well enough yet. Maybe I don't comment enough yet, or I upload too rarely. Or maybe it's because I'm not well-known from drawing one or two main things/subjects, since I mostly draw what I like, which is random. I have NO clue...what do YOU think it is ?

I've always noticed that artists (especially the more popular ones) tend to have "groups" they hang out in, where their work will tend to connect or link to one another, or they often work with each other on some kind of amazing artbook or comic. As quiet as I tend to be, I would really like to be with a few of those groups. It'd be fun to some day travel to some convention, helping to sell or advertise stuff I made myself and/or with a group of other artists. I think it would be even more fun to belong to not just one group, but a variety of them, hopefully with different styles or kinds of art. On the other hand, I'd be a bit nervous if faced with that in real life...I'd still try, though ! Hmm...

Also, I picked up Ratchet & Clank almost a week ago, and I think I'm almost done with the story already . There were plenty of fun parts, but there were some parts that made me want to rip my hair out >
I hope that wasn't too long, and thanks for reading (and double-thanks for commenting) ^_^!

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All the spots are now filled ! I couldn't do thumbnails, so I had to link to them instead. I'll keep this up for another journal :

1.) - [link] [link] [link]

2.) - [link] [link] ! This week:

a.)I made all of my deadlines this week just in time (its finals week, so that's important)

b.) I won a raffle I entered a month ago for a prize pack of art from a local comic book art group

c.) I found out that the one class that held me back will only have me paying for two more terms at the end, instead of an entire year more

d.) I have 1 contest entry done, and I have all of tomorrow to do the next 2 (a drawing and a story) !
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Apparently, I've been tagged by !

1. Post these rules
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end you have to choose 8 people to tag, and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their page and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

I don't really like tagging people ...

1. I like the look of the Gothic style, but I can't imagine me wearing it !

2. The very first "comics" I ever made were Pokemon drawings on old printer paper I typed on ...

3. I can't remember the name of a lot of people, yet I can remember the lyrics to almost every cartoon theme song I've ever watched !

4. One day, I plan to travel, since the farthest I've ever been from home is Hawaii.

5. I don't think I'll have kids - I like them enough, but I feel like I'd be more of a "friend" than a "parent" - besides, I'm still a bit of a kid myself...

6. I've never actually read the first Harry Potter book. My aunt bought me the 2nd book for Christmas one year, and that's how I started. I saw the movie though, so that almost counts.....right ?

7. Even though I have no musical preference, I do like some instruments - guitar, saxophone, violin, piano, and keyboard

8. When I'm on my own, I plan to save my money up until I can buy a car, straight from the lot, no monthly plan ! It's a nice dream, anyway ^^...

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My features will continue until all the spots are filled . I just filled all of my spots up, but it's not fair that the last few people were just added, so I'm adding a few more spots to the list . The next 2 people to comment (who aren't here already) will have 3 of their works linked to here ^^. I can't do thumbnails, so I have to link to them instead:

1.) - [link] [link] [link]

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seriously hurt him. I can't stand anything about him. They think I only think of myself, watch TV all day, and try to get out of doing chores (which I wanted to do all weekend). Explaining to them how I act at school, and how I'm trying to do commissions now (I didn't want to explain it to them; I started, but then said nevermind) will never work; they probably won't believe me.

It feels like pretty much nothing my mom does anymore is out of love (although they claim it is); it's just something that can be used to make me feel bad when they're mad at me. It feels like I can't get mad because she does do things for me. I can't even stand still without some judgement from them. Just one misunderstanding after another gives them the wrong idea about me. She pretty much loudly complained about me last night, like she always does when she's angry at me. This time she threatened to one day change the locks at home while I was out and tell my little sister not to let me in - she'd probably throw any thing in my room she felt wasn't hers into the street.

My little sister is seen as so much better of a person than me. They call her for things too, but not nearly as much (they'll always claim they call her more than me). Also, she's more outgoing and downstairs more (my room is my only safe place here, and I can't even stay in there for long), so she hardly ever has to worry about them being mad at her. Also, she probably knows more about "real life" than I do, making her more of a favorite. As long as she can conveniently forget what she was supposed to do or blame me for something, they pretty much leave her alone. When I try to explain, it's always a question of my age over hers; she's 14 though, so you think she'd have enough common sense to remember something (not that they care).

If I don't clean my room to my mom's OCD standards, she'll throw everything out, leaving me to somehow sort through a mountain of my own belongings, trying to put my room back together. No matter how clean I get it, she never sees it as clean enough. Add in the fact that I'm the only one whoever walks our huge dog and does the garbage, It gets to the point where school is my only escape from all of them. It's the only place I can really accomplish something work-wise. And now it's my finals week and I'll be at home for 2-3 weeks. I've never looked forward to going back to school so much in my entire life. It's only a matter of time before my mother goes over the edge and dumps me into the street somewhere.

I felt sad at first, with my throat sore. Then I felt incredibly angry, thinking terrible thoughts about them. After thinking about that, thinking about how to write this journal, and reading a bit, I felt much better. I'm glad to be able to talk here, since I feel like I can't talk anywhere else about it (maybe college, but that's it). I am worried about how bad things will get later on, or if things will reset to normal like they always do, but right now, my family is the last group of people I want to spend my time with....
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I now have my first commission, thanks to ! Thank you SO much !!!

My Commission info can be found here :
[link]
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How it works:

1.) You leave a Note to me asking for a commission, linking to a few references

2.) Be as specific as you can - remember, you're paying for it, so make sure you'll want it!

3.) I get to work on it, keeping you updated every so often if you'd like (tell me in your commission message if you want me to do this)

4.) I finish and either upload a preview image to my account (with watermarks) or mail it to you (also with watermarks)

5.) You either: Tell me you like it and send the price through my Paypal account so I can send/upload the watermark-less version
or
You tell me what you'd want me to fix on it, and I start over or make the few improvements to it.

And that's it ! Any questions?
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Also, if you must know, my first goal is $30 by Sept. 13th (10 days before my birthday). Why? Scribblenauts !
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My feature will continue until the spots are all filled .. The next 3 people to comment (who aren't here already) will have 3 of their works linked to here ^^. I can't do thumbnails, so I have to link to them instead:

1.) - [link] [link] [link]

2.) - [link] [link] [link]

3.) - [link] [link] [link]

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- [link] [link] [link]

2.) - [link] [link] [link]

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Despite that, I've been feeling a bit like over-achieving lately. In my class, I have a screenprint due that's supposed be based on another artist's work (I chose Gary Baseman), have 4 colors from the original, and at least 1 new color. If I can finish my prints in time, it'll be 8 colors, not 5. But I'm sure there will be a lot of mistakes .
Also, there are some art contests I feel like entering! My plan is to work on them all month, and hopefully finish by the time classes are over (also, I need to "spring clean" my computer so it runs at a decent pace and I can use GIMP on it). My plan is to work on them for longer so that I have more time to do more. It sounds obvious, but I think I'll try to use that time and go overboard a bit (one contest has me drawing one of many OCs - with the time I have, I'll try to draw several of them).

I don't think this feeling will last, however - but that could just be the fatigue from being up 19+ hours a day, though !

My summer classes end in about 3 weeks (so near the end of this month). I have no idea what I'll be doing then - I won't be able to get a job that only lasts a month, and I have no other way of making money yet. And without money, I have nothing to do. I'm also gonna miss classes, since they had me out of the house and doing something I'm interested in (most of the time). I can't even do commissions, since I don't have a credit card or money to pay for PayPal or anything like that.

I HATE this season>
Does anyone know where I can download a doujin game (I think that's the right term...) in English? I guess its because I've been playing Phoenix Wright lately, but I feel like playing those kind of games (since the character animations and locations are usually limited, it's all about the story). I appreciate anyone that knows of any good ones and can tell me about them !

Btw, I think I'm closing down any requests from now on (aside from birthdays and certain other cases). Art trades are too much fun - besides, I get to see what another artist can do ^__^!! It's not like I've been asked for many of them anyway...

Other than all of these, I've been wondering how to cheer up a girl you're an acquaintance and not friend of if she's depressed (it aggravates me that I can never be of any help in that case), and how to give my drawings a more interesting composition (like the rule of thirds, for example - I can't measure, so I never use it). Sorry for writing so much; I haven't had a new journal up in weeks...

It's about time I do something for the friends that actually read these, so I'm doing a feature. The first 14...

Something New Every Friday!

~theunknown1 — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 09:18:07 PDT

Wow, where to start? Hm.....I have a lot to say so I'll start with this:

Something New Every Friday! ...or SNEF ...

This is an idea I had this week. I suck at keeping deadlines, and I don't upload here nearly enough, at least with any kind of regularity. So, by trying to promise everyone I'll have something new up on a Friday, I hope to somewhat have a decent schedule going. That doesn't mean that I will only upload then, it just means that I'll try to set aside something different for each Friday. Puffballs and Starfalls... was the first tryout (I couldn't upload it at midnight because of something I'll explain later). I'll generally try to finish it by midnight when Friday starts, but as long as it's there by Saturday it should be okay.

Wish me luck with this, as I'm sure I'll need it!
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My family planned a trip to North Carolina to go to a waterpark and resort there. They left yesterday morning at 3. I couldn't go because I have classes today and I had one yesterday, too (I chose to stay here). So now I have the house to myself - and it's not so bad . Take care of the dog & cat, clean what I make, and that's about it. They'll be returning Sunday night sometime. I don't plan to stay at home this weekend, though. I'll probably get some work done on Saturday/Sunday, get a comic or two today, and tomorrow morning I'll see the new Harry Potter movie - this weekend will be great !!!

Yesterday wasn't so good; there was a fierce storm in the afternoon. It started to rain, then pour with strong winds, then hail a bit, with lightning and thunder the whole time. The grill and garbage cans got knocked over, the garbage itself got blown around, and then the power went out. It was out for couple of blocks around my home - stores even had to close down (the local bar and liquor store still had power somehow). Part of the block got their power back a few hours later, but for my side, it took until almost 1 in the morning (there were cheers outside when it did). This was why I didn't upload my latest pic until early morning. *sigh* Not the best first night on my own...
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I recently took the MBTI and SSI Career/Personality tests. I got to speak to my career counselor and find out/go over my results. Apparently......I'm in the right major/track for me. Not only did I figure out my personality type on the test (Introverted, iNtuition, Feeling, Perceiving or INFP), but the reports went on to say that I would like a career in the Arts! ...as well as sciences, librarian and (somehow) musician. So apparently I just have to make sure to fit more writing into my coursework to ensure I'm learning what I need to learn for the jobs I like.

It had everything on them - careers, my chance of liking them, tendencies I have, work environment - it even said things like how I don't like to lead a group and school clubs related to my interests. There were jobs related to my interest groups, and they included: animator, graphic designer, photographer, and more!

The reports were eerily accurate as far as my likes, careers I'd enjoy, and even went as far as to list possible shortcomings and solutions for them. It mentioned time management and having problems making decisions as two of them ! The solution was to set a deadline for making a decision and announce it to friends. This made me decide to go through with Something New Every Friday....and here I am .

[Edit]: Does anyone want to do a trade? I've been in the mood for some lately ...

I'm Better Now! For Now...I Guess...Nah, I'll Live

~theunknown1 — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 20:41:03 PDT

blah blah blah failed grade blah blah blah bad luck blah blah blah...I'm done.

I'm doing a lot better now, at least . My mom wasn't mad (not angry mad, anyway), I'm staying at Drexel (although that will cost my mom more money in the future -_-), and I got a new cell phone this week. Also, I have off tomorrow !

I'll be taking a career assessment exam next week, too. I feel like Graphic Design is nowhere near what it was in high school - too much by-hand stuff. Anyway, the person I'm to take it from will talk to me about it and help me after I take it. Wish me luck!

Either I'm getting better at speaking or I got lucky this week. I had to do a 5-minute presentation in Psychology on Monday (I signed up for it early so I wouldn't have to worry about it), and I did great. I finished the handout just in time (I even made a diagram for it), I got to use the small podium in the room, and I spoke clearly and loudly enough. My professor said I did great; it was just too short on it's own (he had asked me some questions to increase the time) . I had left a little bit out because I thought it would be too boring. Anyway, I was able to make it somehow .

My laptop's not doing so good. The battery's so low, without the charger/adapter it only lasts 13 mins. at full charge. I download nearly everything I fave, so it's filling to the brink - I also blame the youtube videos I download, the anime I can't hear since the sound's busted (it only works with a USB headset), all the mp3s, and the Sims 3 my sister just had to play on my laptop (it's a DVD and only my laptop in the house can play it, but it takes over 6GB on it's own!).
Not to mention it caught a fake Antivirus-type virus while I was surfing on here somehow (it was just DA and a Yahoo tab). I guess it doesn't help that I have many tabs open at once most of the time . Also, like I said the sound won't work without the headset, and I can't afford one right now. I hate to say it, but maybe I need to get a Mac laptop soon...

...which may not happen because my family might be getting a new computer so my sis can play the Sims 3 -_-.

One of my biggest problems is time. I can never finish something on time, and I can't do it well enough with a deadline, no matter how good my ideas are as I think about it. I'm a huge procrastinator, but it may be my nature (I remember reading that Librans tend to do that). I thought that maybe I should do something weekly as a way of helping with that. Maybe a drawing? Maybe comics? Maybe working on one trade at a time instead of all of them at once, delaying the progress on all of them!? I dunno ....

Can more people PLEASE comment on these!? I'm not looking for popularity, but I'm always out for feedback. I appreciate those who do already ^_^!

I Failed.......miserably......

~theunknown1 — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 10:05:37 PDT

The grade is an F, and I can't change it. Apparently my lack of time-management skills, my depleting supplies and inability to print was the death of me. At this point, not only do I have to take a leave of absence and drop what I have now, but to keep on track I have to take a semester at a community college in the Fall - it's also to keep my student status for my Health plan for now. I pretty much wasted my time getting books and supplies, now I have to return them all...hopefully. My mom will probably kill me when she hears this.....but maybe not, if I explain to her how I'm going to fix it by going to the other college. My advisors are really helpful, and they're going to make sure that my credits transfer, what classes I can take, and will help me transfer back. I'm not being kicked out of the school at all, so that's something. One of them said maybe this life's way of saying I'm not cut out for Graphic Design....or at the very least not now. I never really liked cutting & measuring anyway. Wish me luck (and life when I tell my mom).

I think the worst part is I never got to speak with that professor in person....he was alright and helped me a lot during the course, but I can't help but feel a little abandoned...

I'm at the End of my Rope....

~theunknown1 — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 10:57:30 PDT

This week not only is the start of my summer term, but could also be my last term at Drexel this year. That course I failed conveniently was one of the most important classes I had to take. Not only does it keep me from taking that field trip class (we go to studios that happen to be on the list for Co-Op) I wanted to go to, but I can't take the other Vis. Comm. classes (4&5) or take a track which lets me skip them. Every other class I got As and Bs in, even though I spent less time working for them.

And that's not all. If that grade is unchangeable (ie: my professor won't change it), I can't take the course for a whole year. On top of that, I can't advance in the program and it would cost way too much to take my minor courses until then. I'd either have to do that, transfer to a community college for a semester or two (and probably take a part-time job), or leave school completely and get a full-time job until then. The worst part is that I can't talk to him or to my program director again until at least tomorrow after he talks to the director. In short, that one grade screwed up my academic career.

If I was allowed to do it over, I would be able to finish it all within a few hours, granted:

That every printer doesn't bust on me

That there are people here who can fix it/install ink

That I could afford to buy the supplies this time (which I can, with my loan refund)

I was told by my academic advisors to talk to them about it and to let them know how frustrated I am. I told them I was going to stress the effort I put into it, but they mentioned that sometimes it's more about the finished product. In the end, it seems that effort isn't always worth much....

Short Journal: A Week Off! [Small Edit]

~theunknown1 — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 15:11:15 PDT

Short Journal Alert!!

I feel a lot better now . I just wanna put last week behind me; it was just terrible. Since I have the week off, I'm trying to do something with it other than lying around baking in the sun for once. I have a (general) plan for every day this week; I figured with the time off I should draw some, too. It'll be like this:

Monday: Go to college; drop off work and books
Art: Sketches

Tuesday: Maybe go to (relatively) local comic shop, buy a Sonic comic or two?
Art: Coloring

Wednesday: Explore downtown Philadelphia, do...........something?
Art: People (figure drawing and stuff)

Thursday: Go to pier and (local for that area) comic shop?
Art: Backgrounds (I need MAJOR help with that -_-;...)

Friday: Little sister's graduation............thing (the school calls it Move-Up Day for some reason)
Art: None (I'll be at my sister's graduation)

Saturday: My 4-year anniversary here !! Possibly make something?
Art: Something maybe, probably none (I just can't get anything done on the weekends at home, especially since I'm usually being called on for stuff often...)

Maybe I should go downtown on Saturday, too -_-;......

Also, I really feel like I need some kind of.............maybe a mentor or something? I really need help with Graphic Design and art in general. I know more than plenty, but as many ideas as I get, when it comes time to draw/design it, I have problems trying to make that image even close to what I had in mind. Also, I feel my drawings are a little too cropped and stiff. As far as design goes, I'm definitely missing something that everyone else in my classes knows instinctively...

[Edit]: And in other wonderful news from last week, I failed the class I made my media kit for. Isn't that great ? Also, I'm going to try and go to a meeting next week with the program director and the professor for that class - my first F for an entire course...

AAAAHHHH!!!!!! Also, my week didn't go so well....

~theunknown1 — Wed, 10 Jun 2009 20:48:30 PDT

Where to start? Hmmm.......

LONG JOURNAL THAT NOT A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE WILL READ ALERT!!!

I've had the worst day today. I had a final project I've been working on for weeks (maybe even a month or two) and today was the dues date. All I had to do was print it out, cut it and paste it all together. The problem was that not only was nearly every printer out of ink, but the ones I did get to work broke in some way. I kept running around from room to room, never really getting much of anywhere. Also, I had ran out of paper near the end (I had let different people borrow it a few too many times...) and had to bum it off of a friend (which I felt bad about, because he didn't want me to pay him for it). On top of that, my professor comes into the room at one point and tells me to go to the critique outside the room I was working in and that even if I had it put together soon, I wasn't allowed to present it. So not only did I not get it done in time (something similar happened for my last project in that class) but I had to sit through everyone else's AMAZING projects that had a million special things about it that I couldn't have done if I thought about it.

Also, when I finally did have it done (although slightly messed up) I measured something wrong and it also fell apart. Apparently, I had made a mistake in measuring and I had run out of mounting adhesive (it's like rubber cement on paper that you stick onto the back of paper to stick it to something else). By then the professor and everyone else had already left to go to the senior show (I remember him saying something about talking about my grade after class). After I found him, he had just said that this wasn't the place to be talking about it and to just send it to the office and E-mail him when I do (apparently, he probably won't be there, probably because it's near the end of finals week). After that, I got to see the Senior work for a little while (it was way too crowded and small; I don't like crowds much) - it made me wonder if I would be there in 2 years...seeing their stuff and reading about what they went through makes me feel a little confident, but at the same time very doubtful...

On top of that, I finally returned the camera I had rented one day late (not that they were mad or anything). During the critique and (in some cases) for some time afterward, I felt:
- sleepy
- fatigued
- my legs hurt
- my feet hurt
- my throat was sore
- I was nauseous
- I was hungry
- I had to go
- I was sad enough to cry a little (VERY little), and angry enough to throw myself into a wall

Not to mention that not only was an E-mail waiting for me from my Figure Drawing professor (I hadn't checked my mail in days because of working on the project. I was allowed to improve the final for that class and E-mail it to her, which is why I rented the camera), but I hadn't written my weekly online journal for English (I finished that one, but missed the ones before that for many weeks because of forgetfulness ). At home, I got the expected "Finish it sooner, next time we'll go over a project schedule with you" speech. I can't just be left alone when I come home, so I also had to do the garbage (my mom got mad when she thought I was watching TV instead, but I was just putting on the clothes I had just taken off to rest). Also, my cat laid on what was left of my media kit (that was the project I was doing).

Btw, I'm typing this on the family computer in the basement because my laptop is either slow (I tend to save everything I fave and more ...) or the internet connection of unknown origin I get is acting up again.

MEH -_________-;........................

Sorry, this is as short as I could make this journal. I don't exactly want pity (I feel like maybe I'd be too needy then), but I do want someone to know that I tried.....

Feeling A Little Somber....and Art Trades, Anyone?

~theunknown1 — Thu, 28 May 2009 04:14:10 PDT

This hasn't been the best time for me. Yesterday, I spent 5-6 hours drawing cartoon characters for the cover and flaps of my media kit project (it's basically a folder full of stuff for promoting a magazine - mine was about animation). I got to the class it was for, and I ended up drawing there the whole time. I talked to the professor last because I had the least to show for it (all I had were those over-sized sketches). He had told me most designers would've looked up resources from a book and scanned them in. He appreciated the work I did, but thought it would turn into more of an illustration project than a Graphic Design one.

Also, it turns out that my grade for my first project (the magazine itself, plus some page spreads) was barely passing (a C overall, and 1 grade lower because it was late for the critique). Apparently, it lacked sophistication or something like that, and the colors were basic. I thought it would work because a lot of animation looks simple at times (also, at one point I was under the impression that my magazine could be for all ages, but it was mainly to be for adults). I can't do anything to fix it, either - I don't know how to make it "sophisticated" like I guess everyone else's was (it doesn't help that my professor's been known to be a nice guy, but a bit of a harsh grader). On top of that, I only have 13 days to finish the project I'm doing now (we hardly get any grades, either - it's mostly the last one and this one).

I always feel like I've been left behind by everyone else in my class. Even though my professor recognizes that I try and ask questions often and so on, the fact is I can't do anything nearly as good enough as the rest of the class. And it's not like they're all uppity geniuses either - they're nice, normal, yet smart people with lives, unlike me . When I get to the point where I feel like I'll fail or not make it in time, I start to sound very pessimistic when I talk to people about the project, even though I keep going for it anyway. And every time I feel so proud of my work, that is until I see everyone else's at the critique (and even more so when I get my grade). I'm often told my work is "good, but not great" or "okay, but not amazing". The worst part is, I almost start to feel teary-eyed as they say it.

Pretty much since then, I've felt this way. I'm not bursting with joy, but I'm not exactly crying in bed, either. I thought this was the semester I could finally get straight A's , but not only in that class, but every class, I fall short in some way or another (even Figure Drawing I, which I was doing well in until around the midterm, when I missed finishing that project in another class on time and I felt terrible the rest of that week). *sigh* Even though I'm pretty much setting myself up to barely pass, I think I'll still keep trying anyway. If nothing else, it won't have been a waste of time then...

Also, I forgot to mention that for the summer term in 4 weeks, I have 6 classes instead of the 4 I had first planned on (one class is a make-up I decided to take for a course I couldn't take before, another is a Co-Op Prep class I was signed up for automatically). Summer is not for any major classes, so I'm not worried too much...

I'm starting to get a few more comments lately, which I appreciate . I just wish I could get more of them, and longer ones, too. And it feels pretty bad when your most faved deviation is something you worked on years ago and had only a filter for a background, and your most viewed is a gift you did for someone else who's more well known than you....

That being said, does anyone want an art trade? I've been doing a few of them lately, and I'd like to do some more . What I would also like to do is enter contests, but they mostly come down to popularity contests, and I never get many or any votes at all (I wouldn't ask anyone to vote for me, either - it would feel wrong).

There's more, but I'll save it for later - if you actually read all this, then thank you so much !!!! If not, then.............I honestly don't blame you ...

sighs...

~theunknown1 — Wed, 06 May 2009 23:11:24 PDT

The L movie was pretty good, I think - I didn't really care about the whole "virus will wipe out humanity" thing, but the rest was good. It was just fun to watch L go, and I also like his candy truck ! It was.......empty in there; there were no more than 20 people in that huge theater -_-;....

I hope everyone had a great Free Comic Book Day! In all, I went to 2 stores and got 9 comics, 2 sketches from local artists, a subscription to a comic store's mailing list, and a free Watchmen movie poster ^_^! I also saw Darth Vader and a team of Storm Troopers at the second store I went to . I think it was a great day, and to be honest, I wanna be one of those sketch artists that draw for people someday. ...But, I'm decades away from that ...

As for yesterday.............it sucked. I finally finished my magazine pages, and was able to print them. It took me all of 4 hours to get everything done, and I was really proud of what I had. But by the time I had the pages cut and was ready to paste them, the class had already started. My professor came in the room I was working from and said that even if I finished them now, I couldn't present them anyway, so I just went to class after that. I felt angry, I felt depressed, queasy/hungry, and pretty disappointed. Also, everyone else's work looked a million times better than mine, as always. In addition to all that, my professor said that anyone who was late/unprepared got their grade knocked down. As I finally got to leave, it turned out I forgot sometign in the building, so I had to walk all the way back there from the station to get it. On top of all that, I fell asleep at my laptop before I could lay down to go to bed.......AGAIN.....

.........so right now, I'm just not feeling so well ><.......

Artistic Process? and more....

~theunknown1 — Mon, 27 Apr 2009 00:33:44 PDT

Well, it's been a while since I had a new journal, so I thought I'd make another.

Um................well..................I never have much worth saying anyway .

What's your artistic process? I mean, what do you do to get started/continue working on something? Do you get snacks before you start? Do you save a certain pencil just for sketching? Anything like that. For some reason, I really like finding out about that kind of thing from other people ^_^! I honestly don't have any kind of process...

There'll be a showing of the 3rd Death Note Movie on Wednesday and Thursday, and I figure I'd see it on Thursday. That's the night it's dubbed instead of subtitled; I prefer L's English voice, to be honest . I haven't heard anything good about the movie except L himself, so I'm a bit skeptical about if I'll like it or not -_-;.

THIS HEAT !! I can't take it this time of the year - it's hot, I sweat to death, and worse of all I can't concentrate on anything. The fan helped last night, but now it's just blowing warm air around. I HATE this time of year >
Also, I've been staying up late as usual, but I'd like to be able to use that time to actually do something. This late (it's past 3:30am here) all I seem to be able to do is watch TV, use my laptop, and fall asleep while at said laptop . I feel like I'm ready to start something, but then I just don't feel like it when I finally get around to it. Aside from school, I also don't get much time to myself anymore (I'm called on a lot at home). I feel like I complain all the time, but I never seem to be able to do anything about it........I'm pretty sad, I guess ....

I've been uploading my photography lately. I have thousands of shots from my two classes. Would anyone like me to upload more here ?

I've decided to start commenting more from now on . I used to just worry about whether or not it will even be replied to, but maybe it'd be better if I commented anyway ....

That's it for now !

School, Friend Codes, and MORE!!!!

~theunknown1 — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 21:18:33 PDT

Hey everyone ! For once, a lot is going on in my life .

My Figure Drawing is going great. The professor seems to like my work a lot, so I guess I can't be doing that badly ^^. Even though I've done this before, I'm still trying to get used to the whole drawing bodies thing . Also, it hurts my arm to draw on that huge 24x36 pad of paper ><. In another class I'll be making a magazine - I decided to make it about animation. The name for it will be Pencil Pusher, and I'm hoping to make the final product portfolio-worthy. All of my professors seem nice and I feel like I can do well this term !

Recently, , who I've known for years, asked me to be her boyfriend. To be honest, I was embarrassed (in a good way) and afraid at first. I thought about it for a while and then, I decided. I SAID YES ^/////^!! So for the first time, I'm not single . I'm still not as confident in myself as she seems to be in me, so I'll try to be worthy of being her boyfriend ^__^. Wish me luck; I'll need it ...

Does anyone have a Super Smash Bros. Brawl Friend code? I'd like to fight online with some friends for once . My Friend Code is: 2965-3038-2089.

I'm slowly working on everything I owe people. I'm really sorry for anyone I annoyed this way -_-;...

My drawing's improving, so I'm hoping to try new things as well (more OCs? May-be ^^!). Have you ever seen a pose in real life that you really wanted to draw? Well, I have recently and I'm hoping to draw it sometime soon. I might have to wait for my figure drawing to get better, though...

There's a question I've been meaning to ask. Does using traditional methods/supplies make you seem like a better artist? It seems to me like all of the better artists use mostly or at least some traditional materials (or at least a tablet of some kind).

Well, that's it for now . I just hope someone will reply this time ...

Back To School and Help STILL Wanted!!

~theunknown1 — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 08:24:47 PDT

I start school in 4 hours - it was supposed to start at 10, but my professor E-mailed us he'd be out. It seems that all of my professors are new to me. On top of that, my last semester grades SUCKED (I only got B+,B,C+s and a C ) -_-;. I'm hoping that with one less class than before, I'll have more time to work. On the other hand, I kept hearing from a professor I had last semester how hard (or at least expensive) this semester is supposed to be . At least there's figure drawing, which may be just the thing to get me drawing often again ....

I have a MAJOR decision to make this week - at the very least, it is for me . It's nothing bad, though - I'm just a terrible decision-maker. I often see the negative just as often as the positive. I end up worrying so much, I miss my chance or change my mind at the last second; I don't wanna make that same mistake this time. Any advice ?

I'm sorry for the lack of updates again - I've tried drawing (I even got a new pad/pencils), but I feel like I'm not in the zone I need to be to draw as much/well as I'd like to -_-;. This is especially frustrating after asking for advice on my gallery last time. I wonder if my current gallery is too random to be analyzed well ...if it's possible, I'd appreciate any and all advice ^__^!!

Well, that's it (for now) - I have an hour or two to get ready to leave. I have a new book to buy and a first class to attend, too. See ya later !!

Spring Break and Help Wanted!

~theunknown1 — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 09:29:54 PDT

Hello everyone ! This is my Spring Break and I pretty much have almost nothing to do . I'm picking up the copy of Coraline I ordered from my college's library today, and that's about it. Yesterday was one of those "I'm too tired/lazy to do anything today" days. I want something to do, but I have almost no money. I wonder how everyone else is spending their Spring Break ....

I've been dreaming often lately. They don't make much sense and they feel really short, but at least it's something (I've been trying to remember them a little). I dunno how long it'll last, but I guess I should enjoy it for now (it beats losing consciousness for 2-5 hours).

I'm gonna start drawing again today - I'm tired of having nothing to submit here...

Speaking of my art, I lost another contest (I didn't even get 1 vote). I figured I wouldn't win, but I was hoping for at least the one vote -_-;. I have another contest entry I won't put up until it's colored, but at this rate, I'm not holding my breath...

Speaking of my art again, I need more feedback on what I already have. What's good, what's bad, what I could do better, etc. I've already had some, but I feel like I need more. I've gotten the feeling that a lot of my work is underwhelming in some way .....

I got Sonic and the Secret Rings on Saturday. The game is fun enough, but it's a little too hard to control Sonic. Everything's alright, until I have to move backwards or try to jump over a high wall. Some of the levels were frustrating and had me yelling out loud at no one, which is sad. Some of the levels make up for it, though .

The cold I had before is fading away, I think. At one point I was using tissue constantly, but I just realized a few minutes ago that I haven't touched them in a day or two . I guess those terrible-tasting capsule pills (I can't swallow, so I chew) are working after all ...

So, in short:

My Spring Break = meh

I have awkward dreams that I'd rather not try to explain

Contest Record: 1 (2nd place) Win ; multiple Losses...

I need you to help me analyze........me ...

Sonic and the Secret Rings is fun but frustrating -_-;.

My cold is slowly dying !

This wasn't the longest of journals, but then again, this won't be the longest of weeks...my Spring Break never is...

See ya later !

My Finals Are Starting!

~theunknown1 — Sat, 14 Mar 2009 04:46:07 PDT

Hey there, everyone ! I'm sorry for the lack of activity
here; I'm in my final weeks of winter term. Next week is the
official finals week, but I've already had two this week, and
then there's 1 presentation and 2 drop-offs left. The web
design class is the intro course for the track I want to get into,
but I'm not the biggest fan of the time we have to make the
actual site - I feel like I'd do so much better if it was one of the
only courses we had for the winter. It seems like most of my
classmates don't like it, either. In spite of that I think I'll keep
on this track.

Supposedly there'll be a maid cafe at my college's library cafe
run by one of the clubs. I think I'd feel too awkward to go,
though - besides, I'm low on money now. It did sound interesting, though...

For my photography final, I made a book out of 10 photo
prints. Aside from the simple cover, I think it looked nice. It
always felt like the quality of my photos was always a step
behind everyone else's, and I think I found out why: I don't
have my own camera. I'm pretty much stuck with whatever I
can rent for free from the college, which sometimes means that
I have a lousy camera. I think maybe I'll do photography as a
hobby someday, with my own camera. I'm sad that the class is
over and the worse part is that unless I become a photo major
(there's no minor for it for some reason) there are no more
photo classes I can take.

I have trades & requests to do, and I think maybe I should post
them here to guilt-trip myself into doing them every time I log
in :

1.) Something pink and princessy

2.) Gojyo from Saiyuki Reloaded

3.) Her & Kimmy-Kat

4.) Fr. Fidelio (OC)

I guess it's time to get going on finals AND artwork
!

Yesterday I told a friend about how I:

- hardly sleep (still)
- am always tired (obviously)
- tend to finish things at the last minute (he knows that part of
me well ...)
- have sleep apnea (it's basically breathing problems during
sleep, which is the cause of my lack of sleep, and my loud
snoring)

and he felt sad for me. It must've sounded pretty bad, because
he never feels sad (for himself, anyway). I asured him that I'm
actually happy with my life, just constantly sleepy (like right
now !). It made me wonder if I sound depressing when I
talk about myself (whenever I do talk, that is). I'm a little
self-conscious when it comes to how I sound to other people...

In almost-related news, I slept for about 5 or 6 hours today !

I've had yet another comic idea, but I'm not sure when I'll be
able to start it - it's way simpler to type it out than find the
time to draw it in between classes. Any tips for starting one (I
already know the characters/story/setting; I just mean starting
to draw it) ?

My laptop now has access to the internet

HomunculusLover featured my work. Thanks a lot for that !!

That's all for now!

Some Changes, Perhaps?

~theunknown1 — Tue, 17 Feb 2009 17:12:40 PST

As always, I feel swamped with college work and so on. Also, it turns out that Graphic Design may not be my ideal major - the hands-on stuff just isn't working for me. I've been recommended to Digital Media before (and I've planned on minoring in it anyway), but now it's too late to switch over (I didn't think I wanted to anyway). So my plan now is to minor in it, and maybe go back after grauation for the rest of it. Maybe. I'll talk to the head of my major about it - she's been helping me a lot with this.

I feel like I need to change the way I go about things. At this rate, I'll suddenly snap or something . These are some things I had in mind:

- More sleep (working on it)
- More coloring (want to work on it)
- More drawing (REALLY want to work on it)
- More uploading (it sorta goes with the last one)
- Less worrying (I'm in college, but I can still try)

Maybe I'll try it................maybe ...

Last week was incredible ! It seemed like everything went my way (it was the EXACT opposite of the week before). Shortened classes, cancelled classes, easier work, and more. I even got to see Coraline over the weekend - I LOVED IT ! It was everything I thought it would be and more - I just wish it didn't end so soon. And while part of me wants a sequel, I'm worried it would ruin the first movie. Another stop-motion classic, it seems ...

It turns out that my college is having another Brawl Tournament on the 28th! I've been waiting for another one since the last time. Since I actually have the game this time around, I plan on practicing a lot when I can. If I'm going to win, I feel like I'll have to be good against Donkey Kong - there's someone who I think will be there and he's really good with DK. I'll probably stick to Fox, Sonic and Metaknight myself.

This week, we had a Japanese calligrapher in our class. She taught us how to draw the symbol for a season (I chose Fall) and we have to make posters by scanning it and combining it with English words somehow. I think I did fine, but I'm not so good with a rabbit-whisker brush. As awkward (and HUGE!) as some of the brushes were, I had a lot of fun .

So, in short:

I'll upload more soon
I'll try to improve
Coraline RULES!!!!
Brawl tournament training in progress
Calligraphy is fun!

That's all for now!

Happy whatever-you-wanna-call-it Day!

~theunknown1 — Sat, 14 Feb 2009 12:52:39 PST

Today is a day when people seem to be obsessed with couples. Most people who aren't with someone are terribly saddened as if no one cares about them. Some people completely lose it over just a single day. As wrong as I think that is, I don't think the holiday itself is the problem. I think people just turned it into a mostly-couples thing, when it could've been more about anyone you care about: family AND friends. I don't wanna rant, but I would like to say this: enjoy today, but don't forget about the rest of the people that matter to you. After all, for some people who never remember even having a Valentine (ie: me), family and friends mean the world to them....
Also, for single peoeple: Don't let today get to you. Do something for yourself but don't let yourself become depressed over nothing. It's not worth it...

Anyway, I hope everyone has a great Single's Awareness/Awesome New & Rare Chocalate Taste-Testing/ Valentine's Day !

I figured I'd post something here since I usually don't on this day ....

_{Also, I'm gonna see "Coraline" today !!}

I'm in Contest Mode!

~theunknown1 — Wed, 04 Feb 2009 10:36:46 PST

Hey there ! Sorry it's been a while; my Firefox is failing on me. Before the window even comes up, I get a message saying that it crashed. I tried re-installing it from Internet Explorer, but that didn't do anything. The house computer is riddled with viruses, so my mom (who had problems with downloads in the first place) doesn't want me to download ANYTHING anymore (unless it's school related). I was afraid the virus was on my Flash Drive, so I re-formatted it last night. After that I scanned my whole laptop, but nothing came up. I hope that helped... Anyway, there seems to be a whole lot of contests going around, both on and off DA. I plan on entering a few, even though IÂm worried that IÂll be doing too much at once. I think itÂll give me some good practice drawing (especially bodies). Wish me luck; IÂll need it ÂÂ.

Speaking of those contests, the main one I plan to enter is the Escape from Nevara OC Contest. I figured IÂd use Yoshikawa, since I had always planned for his watch to do magic stuff anyway. I planned to have him made like this:

Name: Yoshikawa Takaname
Age: 12
Eyes: Brown
Hair: Black
Clothes: A black coat, a black scarf w/ 2 symbols of his watch on it, his watch, and black pants (theyÂre all different shades of black ...)

The watch, the source of most of his magic, is a purple sapphire (his birthstone) with a black wing shape on the side of it (the gem is transparent so it can tell time).

Weapon: A cross between a long sword and a rapier

Attacks: Weak Fire, Ice, and Electric magic attacks, medium light attacks, sword slashes

Abilities: Super-speed, Proximity Blush

Strategy: His basic strategy is a hit-and-run. He runs as far from his opponent as he can, turns around, and then hits them. His sword is actually pretty weak, so he needs to run to make it do any real damage. His elemental attacks are weak too unless they are amplified by the environment (ie: using the wood in a forest for fire attacks). He doesnÂt kill; instead, he tends to disable or knock out his opponent. HeÂll do whatever it takes to end fights this way, even if it means hurting himself a little. Since he excels in tactics, this is usually easy for him.
His only decent attack is the Element Ball. A big ball of light hangs in the air and a lot of little beams of light fall from it to the enemy, sometimes doing random elemental damage (a small burn form fire, for example). The only drawback is that he canÂt attack while charging it, only run. The longer he waits, however, the stronger it gets.

Personality: He doesnÂt talk much (heÂs shy), and is very interested in nerdy/geeky things (technology and magic, for example). Because he talks so little, he wouldnÂt explain much of anything to his enemy (the most they usually hear from him during a fight is Âhmmm...). He thinks a whole lot to himself, though.

The Proximity Blush only works on female opponents. Because of how shy he is, the closer a female is to him, the more heÂll blush (sometimes itÂs so bad his head starts to smoke a little...). He can use this as a sort of radar to track them. The Proximity Blush doesnÂt work if he really hates or dislikes the opponent for some reason.

Weaknesses: His attacks are weak unless heÂs running, doesnÂt do so well in close quarters, his strongest attack leaves him almost defenseless, and he skids a lot while running

And thatÂs what I have for him. My only problem is drawing for his ref sheet. I have to finish it tomorrow (the deadline is Friday), but I hope thatÂs enough time for me. I hope itÂs not too much info on him ...

My week hasnÂt been the best. I finally got a new TV for my room, but until my room is clean enough for my mother, I canÂt take it up there. SheÂs a neat freak, which doesnÂt help since IÂm the opposite. I finally got my room looking great after 5 hours of cleaning on Sunday, and it still wasnÂt enough to her. IÂve done more since then, but I donÂt know when it will be enoughÂ

Because of this contest mode IÂm in, my schoolwork has been even harder to finish. IÂve stopped going back home in the middle of the day on Monday & Friday to give me more time for everything. IÂm excited because the classes are starting to have us work on our finals already, and I like some of them. IÂ...

Things Are Going Well! A Bit of Catching Up

~theunknown1 — Sat, 17 Jan 2009 23:15:43 PST

There hasn't been much new to type about lately, which is why I make journals so rarely. But maybe less than 3 times a month is too rare; I'll try to fix that sometime ...

My days are usually like this:

Weekdays:

- eat breakfast, get ready to leave for class
- go to class
-work on things for other classes
- get home at night (and maybe play some Wii)
- use computer to catch up on DA, anime, flash games, etc. that I don't have the time to see during the day
- ...hopefully with a cover (it gets cold down here)
- finish around 1 or 2 in the morning and go to my bedroom
- watch/ upload whatever I can onto my laptop (my entire Tutorials and Inspiration folder and hours worth of Anime is on there ...)
- go to sleep soon after (at least an hour or two after I'm off of the basement computer)
- wake up 2-4 hours later
- rinse and repeat

Weekends:

- Rest a little
- make sure to record Pokemon because my late sleeping made me miss it by a couple of minutes or hours
- play Wii
- finish or procrastinate on school work (a bad habit that's hard to break, even for my favorite classes)
- Copy+Paste the last 7 bullets from the weekdays
- hope that a sports game hasn't ruined Fox's Sunday comedy lineup (Simpsons, Family Guy, etc.)
...and that's it, really.....

2 weeks ago, I turned on my TV to continue playing ToS2 and all that came up was a small bar of light that I could almost see the game through (the sound was fine). I changed the channels and even put the cable back on, but nothing happened. After a bit of messing with it, there were weird beeping sounds coming from it (some of those "about to explode in 5 seconds" sounds). I immediately unplugged it and started smelling something that was burning. It was my TV - it was done. I had to throw it away and I'll be getting a new one soon from my mom's husband's brother (Uncle-In-Law?), but I have no idea when that will be...

My classes have been going well, and we're starting to get into the bulk of the work now (which scares me a little, but I'm also a little excited). It seems like my time is as constrained as ever, but at least I get to do more of what I like. I even get to make time for the Anime Club on Mondays. If only I could pay to go with them to Otakon this summer ...

Installation art isn't so bad - it just takes time to make/clean up after. While the class is pretty pricey because of all the materials we need to buy (it always varies in price because we always choose what to use), it's interesting to see what other people can come up with.

The "sequel" to that class I didn't like before is now what I wanted to do before - sketch, critique, scan, and color (sort of - everything's in black, and the sketches are in Sharpie marker).

I'm also learning about web site design (it's more about the design than the coding like the class was before this year). I'm a little worried about how long it will take me since I don't have the programs we'll use, but supposedly a lot of it can be done in Illustrator or Photoshop.

Intermediate Photography is like last time, only more open than before. I even have the same professor from last time . I'm pretty confident since I got an A last time (which also has me worried that she'll expect more from me and that I won't be able to do that).

A friend of mine got a new apartment recently. I heard it was nice, but I haven't been there yet. I plan to go there someday soon, but it makes me a bit nervous. I've hardly gone to any friends house, and it was never one that they owned.

I plan to show one of my previous professors a portfolio of my work. The problem is I only have class work from at least 2 semesters ago to show her. I'm not sure what else to put there.

IF it seems like I say, "I'm a little nervous/worried..." about something, it's because I almost always am, to an extent . I don't think much of most of the big things in life and I overthink the simple things - it's often confusing for me that way . I think it...

....AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!! (2 days later...)

~theunknown1 — Sat, 03 Jan 2009 11:00:36 PST

Hey there !! I hope you had a Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, and everything else in that order ! This was THE BEST CHRISTMAS I EVER HAD !!! I got everything I wanted (and then some). I got:

1/2 of a Wii (me & my sister share it, so it's not exactly mine)

Super Smash Bros. Brawl

Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World

A PS2 Memory Card (for Kingdom Hearts 2)

USB Headphones

A new USB Flash Drive

Lava Lamp

Death Note Another Note: The Los Angles BB Murder Case :mystery:

Manga (Case Closed and one called Yokaiden)

A new printer/scanner with ink

Mirrormask DVD

Set of 4 different colognes

Gift Cards

Daily Comic Calendar (the comic is called The Argyle Sweater)

And I think I have enough money left on the Gift Cards I got to pre-order the next Phoenix Wright Manga ^_^! Maybe. Anyway, I couldn't have asked for a better Christmas (except for the lack of snow). I'm a little sad it's all over now ...

Because of all these gifts, my drawing's been on hold (I can't help it; I've wanted those games for the longest time) . That's also the reason why I haven't been on as much. I think I'll try to get started drawing when I go back to college on Monday ...

I'm worried that when I go back, I'll be swamped with work that I'll no longer care about because I'd rather play with the Wii/read a manga. I got some books to read so I could get a head start on some of my classes, but in the end I never read them -_-;...

I just happened to be up at 4AM (I went to sleep around 5 or 6AM this morning) and while looking through my Wii settings I decided to look for a local wireless internet connection. It didn't work before, but that was from my living room - it was in my room now. I tried it this time and I found one that worked! Our (Me & my sis' Wii is now connected to the internet! I got the channels working and everything. I'm just worried that I might be stealing a neighbor's internet and...

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE-EVE!!

~theunknown1 — Tue, 23 Dec 2008 19:31:04 PST

First off, MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY HOLIDAYS to everyone !! ....that's just in case I'm not here on Wednesday ....

I can't wait for Christmas !! It won't exactly be a white Christmas (the weather report mentioned freezing rain the last time I saw it) like I've wanted for years, but at least it'll be a nice day - I can feel it ...

Since I finished my finals on the 15th, I've been working on and off on my Christmas gifts for the family - I just finished them today. Even though I've had all the time in the world (and all the chores in the world since I'm home all day), I still feel like I don't get enough hours in the day. Between DA, the gifts, the chores, and the TV I just haven't been drawing as much. The worse part is my scanner broke so I haven't been able to scan what I have done so far. Sorry if this all sounds lazy; I'm just out of it - I'm trying to rest as much as I can for now ...

I've been loving what I've been seeing lately - on DA, on Youtube, and so on; there just seems to be a lot of amazing art and animation-related things going on. I see them and I get excited - but that doesn't seem to transfer over to my work so much. I know it's not a lack of knowledge - I've saved pages and pages worth of tutorials that I've read, seen tons of animation, and I've even looked at the work of professionals. I'll want to draw more and by the time I get to it it's so late and I'm so tired I fall asleep before I even start. It doesn't help that my house is either freezing or burning and I get constant headaches (I'm getting sick, too). Going to bed whenever doesn't seem like such a good idea anymore - I think my lack of sleep is getting to me....

I RRREEEAAALLLLLLYYY wanna get into the more interesting parts of my major (and minor) but it seems like those classes aren't coming yet. It almost seems like I'll miss those classes since I only have 2 years left. I hope that the Web & Motion Design Track is more of what I wanted, but I still don't know much about it, and I can't find out more until the presentation in February.

I hope this doesn't sound like a whiny journal. I'm eager to learn a LOT more and get better; I just don't feel like I'm 100% lately (I feel more like 60% or 70%). My inspiration is high, but my drive to start is low. Maybe it's just because I'm sleepy as I type this . Anyway, I wish all of you a Happy Holiday, safe travels and a LONG vacation ! January 5th seems closer than ever somehow ...

I'm Back From Vacation ^__^!

~theunknown1 — Sat, 29 Nov 2008 23:33:25 PST

I got back from New Jersey on Friday. I had a lot of fun with my family and I got to meet a lot of old relatives . They were familiar, but they seemed different than I remember. I guess that's just what time does...

I also had my first cup of coffee there, btw. It was okay once the sugar started working ...

I was going to meet a classmate from high school on Saturday, but something came up and she couldn't make it. I'm not sure when I'll meet up with her, but I can't wait ! There's still my talking problem, though . What do people usually talk about ? And how would I keep from getting boring ?

I have an idea to make images as an X-mas gift for some people I know. What I would do is make them, then print them on the Iron-On Transfer Paper. After that, they could iron them onto a blank t-shirt. The colors may fade after the first wash , but I still think it'd be a nice idea. I just need to make them and finish printing them out by the end of next week.

Speaking of printing, the family printer/scanner/fax machine isn't turning on. I checked all the wires, but nothing happens. I unplugged the wires and blew on them, but it didn't do anything. Maye it's time we got a new one (there's one I saw for $40 with a $20 rebate) - I just don't know if I should use my college tuition refund money or not. I'd rather save it for college stuff, but who knows - I may need a scanner when one isn't available on campus someday. If not for that, then just to scan my drawings, at least...

I've been having major problems with Firefox since I upgraded it. If I'm downloading a lot of my favorite pics, then at some point it will get glitchy and leave remains from the page before it. After a while, all the text gets replaced with lines (instead of "help" you get "____"). The only way to fix it is to change the color scheme of the buttons, which restarts Firefox. Sometimes when I save a pic it shuts down as if I pressed X. If it wasn't for the ability to recover pages, tabs, and text typed (this journal is one example of recovered text) I would've gotten rid of it a long time ago...

I really want to learn anatomy soon. it seems like everything I've been trying to do lately requires a good deal of experience with it. I know the basics, but when I actually go to draw it....it looks terrible. If it wasn't for references I almost couldn't draw a human body at all (I can do so without a reference, but not very well). Also, I want to enter a contest, but that would require me to be able to draw more anatomy than I do now...

I HATE Technical Pens....

~theunknown1 — Sat, 22 Nov 2008 08:04:43 PST

I was doing work for the class I'm terrible at, and my ToS pic just happened to be on the drafting table (I've had it there for a while to remind me to work on it). I was using the pen, when I realized it was out of ink. After refilling it in the bathroom, I came back only to find that it still wouldn't write. I gave it a few good shakes to get the ink going and then..................................SPLAT! A big glob of ink got all over my pic (none of it got on the work, of course). Not only is the ink quick-drying but waterproof, meaning it wouldn't come off. I wiped it with tissue, only to get a smudge on it.......

I have an idea, though. If I could draw the rest of the image on separate pieces of paper, I could just put them together on the computer. I still HATE those pens ><.......

On Tuesday, my mom will be getting married again. I don't feel sad or anything like that, but I feel like I will be when the actual wedding happens. I don't have a problem with the groom (he can be annoying at times), so I'm not sure why. I guess if she's happy, though...

From Wednesday night until Friday night, I won't be on DA. My dad will pick me up to see my family in NJ for Thanksgiving. I hope everyone who celebrates it enjoys theirs! For everyone else, happy Thursday ...

I plan on meeting a friend from high school on Wednesday, before my dad picks me up. I haven't seen her since the summer, so I'm looking forward to it . The thing is, I'm still not much of a conversation person. I don't mind talking, I just have this way of thinking that I never have much worth saying to people (I usually don't). That's why it's hard for me to keep in touch with people in the first place . I also don't speak very loudly and some of the things I say people never hear. I don't wanna be boring, but I don't have much to say, really (we're just meeting for lunch, but that might take a while). Hmm ....

I registered for Winter courses a week ago, and I got all the classes and times I wanted. I told the professor for my bad class this week that I'd have him for the 2nd part and he wanted me to try another professor. Since I'm not improving so much in his class, he recommended me to a professor that he thinks would be better for me. The problem is to get her I'd have to apply for another time for one of my other classes. The office is working on trying to increase the amount of students for that class - if it works, I'll have 3 classes on Mondays and Wednesdays instead of 2; also I'd only have 1 class on my other days that way. I wonder how It'll work out for me...

IT'S FINALLY DONE!!

~theunknown1 — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 20:55:18 PST

On Friday I FINALLY put up my drafting table !!...............but I haven't used it yet . I will soon, but it seems like I have no time for much else besides the usual anymore...

I've been using my shorter days to prepare for my longer days, and my longer days zap the rest of my energy. I would draw while I'm there, but it never feels like I have much time to since the breaks inbetween are so short (I use the time to get and eat lunch mostly). I schedule my Mondays around trying to finish all my homework/garbage/dishes if I have them. This way, I can go to the Anime Club from 6-9 (If I stay for the anime screening, that is). I get home at 10 and by then I'm tired . I guess it doesn't help that I get online so late and stay on for hours, then go and use my laptop in my room before I go to bed ...

I got my last 3 fillings on Saturday and since then I can't eat anything hard until Monday (it was bad timing since I had just bought a 30-pack of Halls and I have a bad habit of biting them ...).

The screen of my old cell phone (about a year or two old) blacked out 2 weeks ago. I got a new one now, but I lost some numbers in the process (the company couldn't recover them). The phone is nice and all, but I sorta miss the backgrounds and corny default ringtones from the last one.

Photography class has made me a bit of a shutterbug - I keep looking around me and thinking "this would make a great picture!", especially when I don't have the camera (I rent it from the school). Once I returned the camera to them and as soon as I leave the building, someone in a rabbit suit is across the street running around and hopping over things - it would've been PERFECT for my assignment that week -_-. Also, I took a whole bunch of photos that looked good, only to find out that the camera was in the wrong mode so the images were too small. My reshoots weren't as good as the first try, I think. Also, since I was so afraid to go close and I zoomed in a lot (we were photographing people), many of my images are pixelated. At least I have until Wednesday...

Well, that's all for now !

Nevermind the Last Journal...

~theunknown1 — Sat, 18 Oct 2008 08:45:49 PDT

I fixed my laptop by taking out and reinstalling the battery pack (it's odd because it didn't work the first time). I guess I learned to try not to fall asleep while using a laptop ...

The fillings for my front teeth are done. It wasn't so bad apart from the constant water in my mouth making it hard to breath and how cold it was at the end (I think they sprayed something cold on it). It turns out that I can't eat/drink anything too cold or it could fall out. The same goes for brushing them too hard. I have to go back later for minor cavities in my back teeth. If it starts to hurt a lot afterwords, I'll have to get a root canal -_-;...

I'm not sure why I made this journal; no one read the last one yet anyway ...

The Seasons Change!

~theunknown1 — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 20:12:21 PDT

Hey there! I figured it was about time I did another journal .

Because of the changing seasons, I have yet again caught a cold. My throat hurts in the morning, my nose is congested, and my permanent cough is worse now. At the very least, I'm not so sick that I'm hacking everywhere and can barely move. It just takes me time to get used to the changing seasons...

I bought Apollo Justice:Ace Attorney and I ended it in under a week (a bad habit of mine). It was alright, but it had the same problem the other games do: it's too short. The first case was way longer than I thought it would be, but it just seems like 4 cases a game is far too short.

It seems like there aren't enough hours in the day. Between my projects (one professor said that it's hard to have a social life and do them), my scrambling to pay off fees and get supplies (I'm done with that now) and the traveling back and forth between there & home, I have little time for anything else. Also, I go online almost every night and by the time I'm done it's 2 in the morning and I only get about 4 hours of sleep. I think I'll try to go to bed earlier, but I can't say for sure if I'll stick to that ...

Sorry if it seems like I don't do anything here; like I said, schoolwork takes away most of my time. I'm working on something for a contest, and maybe even a sequel to one of my more popular pics. I'll try to have some work up soon ...

I wanna do so much more than what I do now, but it seems like my better ideas can only exist in my mind for now. I can visualize a lot but when it comes time to put that down on paper, I get lost. I've been reading some art books and downloading tutorials to try and learn more, but I don't necessarily have the time to practice any of it. I would try to draw on the train to/from school, but it's too bumpy (I can only do light, sketchy work there). Oh well; I guess I'll have to try and make time (however that works)...

I just came from the dentist's office, and it turns out I have cavities (my sister's teeth were okay somehow). Also, I still have some baby teeth (weird ...). I need my wisdom teeth removed, but they'll put me to sleep first. Until I mentioned the missing bit of tooth at the top of my mouth, my teeth were good ....

That's all for now; see ya soon !

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!

~theunknown1 — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 12:41:28 PDT

So today I'm another year older....but I don't feel like I am . I do feel happy, just not older - I wonder why ?

My first day of the semester was yesterday. Some things have changed (buildings & food prices mostly), but it's the same campus I knew from a few months ago. I already ordered books from the library to rent for a while, and I went to the Anime club at 6 last night. On Mondays and Fridays I only have 1 class, so I wasn't there for very long yesterday. Tuesdays and Thursdays are my busy days; Wednesdays I have that late Photography class. It's not so bad since I only have 5 classes...

Other than that, not much is going on right now. How about you?

[Slow....]

~theunknown1 — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 13:16:40 PDT

Things have been feeling really slow lately. All I've been doing are chores, using the internet, using my laptop, and eating. It sounds peaceful, but it's really boring. Also, I've had random dizziness spells and headaches from what I'm guessing is the heat. I'm actually looking forward to the start of classes, but I have a long while to wait - they don't start until Sept. 22 (my 2nd day back will be my birthday).

I've been doing a lot of reading, watching, faving, etc., and it all wants to make me draw. I've been trying to draw a little, but I can't seem to get into it. I don't even have a specific place to draw; I pretty much just sit on my bed and hope that will be enough. The table in my room is too wobbly and (thanks to those Design classes) filled with Exacto Knife & Box Cutter scratches and bits of paint. I have a few things I wanted to put up, but I'd like to try and have them colored in first (at least some of them). Maybe I'll just upload something soon, colored or not...

Because I forgot that the first day of online registering for classes happened to be the same day as my mom's birthday, I missed signing up for the classes in the order I wanted (I had it worked out for weeks now). Most of my class times are alright, but because of Photography's small class size, I had to take it from 6-8:30 at night! It's only 1 night a week, so I'm hoping it'll be worth the time it takes...

In short: Things are slow, and I'm not sure what I'm going to do for the next 3 weeks...

A Journal of Sorts....

~theunknown1 — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 14:50:50 PDT

Things have been going fine for me. I went to the doctor's on Thursday, and I've lost 20 lbs. since the last time I went. I'm going to start walking more so I can lose more weight. Also, I gained an inch and a half since then.

I won the Phoenix Wright Manga Contest ! My name was picked from a random drawing and I'll be getting a copy in the mail when it comes out ...

I got all of my school clothes and shoes. I went down a pants size since last time, which makes it easier to find pants that fit. I also got a belt with a silver-ish Griffin belt-buckle. I'll have to wait until the day before my birthday for classes to start, though...

As for my drawings.....I don't have anything to submit right now . I'd really like for more people to see my work (especially comments), but it seems like a whole lot of people don't even notice them. Maybe I'm doing something wrong...

If I owed you a request/trade for a while, could you please tell me? After my old PC crashed, I lost a lot of work (flash drives keep failing on me, too). I have that old journal, but I'm not sure how much of it I've done already or not (also, there's no point if the person is not on DA anymore)...

I'm Back! (semi-long journal)

~theunknown1 — Sun, 20 Jul 2008 22:42:58 PDT

I got back from my trip to Wildwood on Friday. I had a lot of fun there!

The car trip over was okay (I usually get motion sickness or fall asleep, but I was alright the whole way there). When we got there, it took us a half hour to find the hotel because the sign was away to be fixed (it came back 2 days later). It had AC, cable TV, and 2 nice beds (I got one of them to myself). The only problem was that there was no ice in the fridge, and the fridge itself was small (sounds nitpicky, but it was hard to put food or even a big bag of ice in it). There was a pool nearby (I can't swim, so I never used it) and a maid came in during the day while we were out and cleaned up (at first the room would smell strongly of bleach, but it got better). We were also close to the boardwalk. It turns out that 3 of my younger cousins, one older cousin, and my aunt were in Wildwood, too (we ran into them not that long after we went on the boardwalk the first time).

The boardwalk was amazing, and since we were there early in the week, it wasn't very crowded. I got on all of my favorite rides, and even my dad rode on some. I even went on rides I normally wouldn't (ie: rides that go up very high without seatbelts). For the most part my sister was with three of our cousins (all girls) and going on rides with them. I also got to play a lot of games and win prizes (one thing I won was a black and blue mini guitar from a water-shooting game). At one arcade, I went home with a bunch of prizes (I saved up a "check" they made up from the tickets I earned, and combined them all the night before I went home).

There was a zoo that we always go to, yet I'm never tired of it. Because of the heat wave (and probably because it was feeding time), a lot of the animals were laying around. I liked the more open areas where the giraffes, zebras and ostriches roamed. In the end, there wasn't a whole lot that was new, but I still liked it there. If nothing else, I got a lot of walking out of it.

And speaking of walking, I did a lot of it on the trip. Since our hotel was so close to the boardwalk, we always walked two blocks up there. We walked through most of the boardwalk (the only time we took a tram car was when we were at one end of the boardwalk and had to go to the other). The first night, I walked so much that my foot started acting up again. Until sometime today, it hurt a lot if I stayed off of it for a few minutes; I think it's getting better now...

The beach wasn't my favorite place to go to but it wasn't so bad. I mostly walked with my dad and my older cousin, and my sister played in the ocean with our cousins. Aside from playing a little bit of Animal Crossing and walking a 1/3rd of the boardwalk, not much happened (my sister got sunburn, though).

On the last night there, I decided not to go on any rides. Instead, I focused on games. That's when I got all of my prizes. Playing them lasted a lot longer than I thought it would, and I got lucky a few times (one game I was playing got me almost 200 tickets, just from a lucky shot!). I carried all of my prizes home in a big bag...

We had to leave by 10 the next morning, but we played some more games before hitting the road. Overall, I had even more fun than I expected to, and I can't wait for next time! Maybe by then, I could afford to pay for the rides/games myself...that would be a nice change, I think.
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I saw the finale of Avatar, and it was great! I didn't see the ending for the battle going that way. Fortunately for me, I got to see it all the way through without interruptions. The only thing that bugs me is that they don't clearly say where Zuko's mom is (a ghost, maybe?). Other than that, the only bad thing about it is that it's over.

E3 was...........not what I had hoped for. I expected a lot more, but at least there was news about the next Sonic and Animal Crossing games...other than those, there was nothing much I cared for.

I've been reading a book called Making Comics. It goes a lot deeper than other books about comic-making does, without getting boring. Maybe it's because it's written like a comic book, but whatever the reason, I'd recommend it if you're interested in comics at all. I might even think of buying it after my library rental is over...

In other news, I've been thinking about the stories I've written. "What Will Be..." has been done for a long time now, but I've never gotten past drawing 2 poorly-made pages for it. I'd like to re-work them and then continue, but I'm still having problems with drawing a page (especially measuring borders and drawing figures without references). I'm working on the figures (with little success), but I just can't measure a straight line...

As for my original story, I have a lot of it planned out..........in my head. I still can't assign...

Bored, But Hopeful...

~theunknown1 — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 14:13:53 PDT

I've been very bored lately. Aside from the occasional drawing, I haven't done that much this week. My sleep has been irregular, so I'm often tired (yet I don't feel like taking a nap). There's been no word from my college or that one place I applied to, so I have no job, either (all the places I like near me are filled up anyway). At least most of my tuition next year is covered by the Financial Aid I got a few weeks ago ...

Lately, almost everything brought into the house comes with a disclaimer from my mom or her fiance (especially food). It's like they expect me to eat it all. It's getting annoying; I pretty much just sigh whenever I hear one...

With my Flash Drive gone, I've been going through CDs. The problem with them is once you put something on there, even if you delete it the space will still be taken. After a while, you can't put anything on it or delete them, and they become useless. I'm looking for a re-writable CD, but I haven't seen anywhere nearby that sells them individually (I've only ever seen them at my college)...

My dad will be coming over on Tuesday to take us to Wildwood, NJ. I'll probably gone the rest of that week (about 3-4 days), so you won't hear from me until then. I haven't been there in a year or two, so it might be different there. I'm hoping this will end my boredom phase and that things will start to happen as I'm there and when I get back. Also, we'll be staying in a hotel since the old summer house was sold a while ago...

I've noticed that a lot of artists seem to have habits, both in their drawings and online. Mine are that my drawings always slant to one side if you reverse them and I tend to end a lot of paragraphs or comments with three dots. I also often type "from" as "form" because of the way I type (I fix this most of the time). What are your habits ?

My Summer So Far!

~theunknown1 — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 14:54:43 PDT

It's been okay, I guess. I'd actually like a little more to do with my summer, but I can't complain too much. I contacted one of the professors at my college about any summer jobs/internships he knew of, so I'm hoping to get a reply soon...

On Friday, I met up with a friend I hadn't seen in over a year (I only texted and occasionally called her). We just happened to be going on the same train route, and we met up for lunch. Her boyfriend was there too, and he ended up paying for it, even though I had enough for my order. In the end, I had fun and I was nowhere near as nervous as I thought I'd be. It was also nice to know that I was missed ...

After lunch, I went to the art store (which is why I was on the train) and got a new sketchbook. The first drawing in there is that Animal Crossing sketch of the Roost. I'll probably just fill it full of whatever I feel like ....

I liked the area around where I had lunch so much that I decided to do some walking on Saturday. I got off at 15th street, walked to and around a park with a huge fountain full of people at 20th street, walked back around to 15th, then walked to a nearby mall at 10th street. After all that walking, all I bought was a bottle of water, some Almond Crust Pocky (it was selling for as much as regular Pocky but it had twice as many packets), and Kirby: Air Ride (it's a simple game, but for some reason I don't get tired of it that quickly). Then I went home.

I've been uploading lately, and I appreciate anyone who faves/comments. It seems like hardly anyone comments anymore, though. I really like replying to them, that's all...

I had a very weird anime-ish dream the other night. The whole thing looked like some CG drawing someone from here made. I was on a bus, and it was full of Roy Mustangs and Edward Elric's (but he was Mustang's height O_o). I remember one of the Elrics fighting me for some reason, and when I saw my hands and body, I realized I was one of the Mustangs. I don't remember anything after that...

The internet has been pretty slow for me lately. Pages that used to take just seconds are now taking minutes. It's weird, since we recently got some new service from the ISP that makes it faster (it seemed to work for a while). I don't think it has to do with downloading; any downloads I do go directly to my Flash Drive. The odd thing is, some pages I loaded a little while ago load quickly enough...

Speaking of my Flash Drive, it just stopped working! I don't think there's any way to recover the data on it....

I won't be here for a little while.....

~theunknown1 — Mon, 23 Jun 2008 11:43:02 PDT

I can't be on for at least the rest of the day. Long story short, I need to stay away from my little sister, because whatever happens always ends up being my fault.......even if it isn't......

It's Over!

~theunknown1 — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 06:03:31 PDT

Actually, it's been over since Friday, but I'm just getting to this right now. Anyway, despite a mistake or two I made on it, I'm proud of the final project I made. I put the poster (my favorite part)up already, but I guess no one has much to say about it (although more people than usual looked at it) . I might be getting that internship, but I'm thinking about calling the people at my school about it first (everyone's off this week, so I'd have to wait until next week). I'll be drawing more, once I buy a new sketchbook (or even before that). Who knows .......

I'm planning on minoring in Digital Media next year. Not only will it look good on my resume, but a lot of people said I should be in that program anyway (they said this when I mentioned being interested in animating). The only requirement I'm not sure of yet is my GPA being at least 2.7 - all my grades this term aren't in yet, so I don't know what I will get in the end.

This will be my last full summer, but I feel like I won't do much with it. It's been like that in recent years; I do some things, but not much overall. I'm not sure what to do with myself for now; I could do what I always do, I guess...

It's Almost Over....

~theunknown1 — Fri, 30 May 2008 19:33:46 PDT

My Freshman year of college, that is. Overall, I feel.......eager but without much energy. It's like I want to do a lot, but I just don't have the energy to do them. I haven't been able to get the sleep I need lately (mostly because of projects and/or the internet), and I think it's starting to affect me. I told myself I'd try to sleep more, but either one thing or the other distracts me and I lose track of time (and sleep). I could try and rest this weekend, except I have to work on my final for my least favorite class (the professor's alright but the work is annoying AND expensive...). At least this'll be the last of those kinds of classes..............I hope ><;. I have next week, the week after that (finals week), and then I'm done.

After talking to someone at my college about a summer job, I was thinking of applying for an internship instead. Maybe something near/at my college. It would be something to do, it could help my abilities if I work at a Graphic Design studio, and it's a lot better than hunting for a job I don't really want....

I have 2 deviations I'm working on, but I'd rather submit them in color than in black and white - for now, they're close, but not completely done yet .....

Sorry if those who watch me are getting bored of my page; I blame college and my lack of energy (or maybe that's a poor excuse ?).......

Quick Update!

~theunknown1 — Sat, 17 May 2008 09:34:43 PDT

I'm going to a Super Smash Bros. Brawl Tournament Tonight - wish me luck ! I have a feeling I'll be destroyed, though ....

Work, work, work.......

~theunknown1 — Tue, 13 May 2008 21:46:07 PDT

The work for one of my classes has been a pain. I can never seem to find the time to do the work early, so I often do it at the last minute . My projects haven't been helping my sleep or my health much (My eyes hurt AND I'm sick-ish). Even now, I'm falling asleep when I sit in the chair, so I'm standing up. For the time I do spend on it, the work never looks right (or as good as everyone else's, at least). At this point I'm just hoping to pass this class and not have to take anymore like it for a long time....

Once in Art History class, I drew a classmate while she was sleeping. She didn't seem to mind at the time, but the next time we had that class she said she "didn't appreciate it", then started sitting in the row behind me. She hasn't talked to me since, but I really don't care for some reason . I'm just bothered that she said it that way -_-;....

For Mother's Day, I redrew a pic of my mom in Illustrator, added words and a background, then printed it out. The night before, I put it up on the wall so it was the first thing she saw when she left her room. She loved it ! She even took it to work with her the next day ....

I haven't uploaded much, and I have a couple of reasons:

#1- I'm running out of paper (I'm starting to use the back of some pages now)

#2- Projects take up a good deal of my free time

#3- I want to make a decent Graphic Design Portfolio, so I'm working on that now

#4- I'd like to color in some sketches that I did before, but I can't because of #2

I have ideas, but not the time....

The Anime club at my college (which I haven't been able to go to this semester because of projects) is going to Otakon. I'd like to go too, but I can't even afford the tickets - I'll probably have to wait for next year. For anyone who's gone before, how is it ?

I better end it here, before I fall asleep again ......

I'm Not Sure How To Feel....

~theunknown1 — Sat, 26 Apr 2008 10:46:08 PDT

I did a search for my name on Photobucket and found one of my old works on someone's page. The thing is, the gallery it was in just seems to be a collection of Shadow the hedgehog pics done by different people (there's also some official art, I think) - I don't know how to feel about that. I'd rather they asked me first but it seems like they found it at random; they didn't even rename the file or anything ....

I have allergies, apparently. My eyes were teary and a little red, I have a runny nose (it also has dry skin all over it), and I have random sneezes that hurt my chest; I also feel really sleepy. I'm alright for now, but I do feel dizzy, especially when I stand up ....

I'm working on my Graphic Design Portfolio, thanks to some advice from =lostsoulx44. I have a logo already, and I already made a letterhead for it. I'm going to work on some more things for it soon (business cards and so on).

That's all for now (I think I should lay down for a while ......)

Edit...

~theunknown1 — Sat, 12 Apr 2008 13:12:18 PDT

I don't know what to believe at this point, so I think I'm just staying away from this for a while -_-;......maybe THAT'S why I don't usually talk about things like this ! Now, back to whatever it is I do.......

[Edit]: If anyone wants to sign the petition --> [link]

Another Week in the Life of Me...

~theunknown1 — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 11:35:45 PDT

Well, since my little sister came home (she had a half day), I consider my Spring Break to be officially over. I didn't do much, unfortunately (no money to go anywhere), and the park nearby isn't that fun. Oh well; at least I was able to draw and (somewhat) rest.....

Earlier this week, I was very angry. I was supposed to put away the dishes in the drain from the night before, and I did, but no one saw me. So when my mom told me to get them later on, I said I did but no one believed me. My little sister had cleaned some other dishes from that day and put them in the drain, but somehow forgot about it. After complaining, I ended up having to clean the whole kitchen (I had to clean it almost every night this week). I don't mind the cleaning so much has no one believing me! I even got the "you're lucky to still be living here" speech from my mom's fiance........almost nothing seems to happen to me without a guilt trip anymore. I'm over it, but I'm still annoyed a little......has that ever happened to you?

My grades from last semester were good; I got a C, a C+, a B and an A. My next semester will have more classes than before (and no days off). I'm hoping that Computer Imaging I will be what I was expecting from the beginning. This semester will also have the last Design class I have to take (as far as I know - no more paints and/or wood craft after that ! I hope ....).

I've been wearing an Aircast on my right foot for a few weeks (It's been acting up for months; to the point where I couldn't walk sometimes), and it's finally getting better. On Monday I'll have to get fitted for support to go in my shoes, though. I have to ice it twice a day for 5 mins. and stretch out my feet in the morning. I've gotten used to the cast; sometimes I forget I'm wearing it (sometimes, I forget to wear it ...)

Thanks to the time killer that is the internet, I was up at 2 this morning (oops ...). After flipping through some channels, I found a movie called MirrorMask. It was about a girl trapped in a dream world, and she needs to find the mask to get back home. It was amazingly beautiful, and really inspired me. Also, it was done by Jim Henson Studios (I used to watch Muppets all the time ) ! Anyway, anyone who can should see it at least once - it's worth it! It's on Youtube, but in small parts (for now)...

Lately, it feels like some of my friends are never around anymore (in real life and DA) - it's almost like some of them disappeared .......
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[I'm Alive!!]

~theunknown1 — Wed, 19 Mar 2008 13:39:14 PDT

Hey there ! I haven't seen much going on around here lately, so I thought I'd put up a journal...

This is my finals week, and I'm glad to say that (for the most part), I'm done. I have what's left of this week off, and all of next week (Spring Break). After that, I'll be rushed with a lot of classes at once (no days off, either). I preferred the English with 1 weekly meeting and some discussions online, but I couldn't register for any in time (I just have the regular 3 days a week). I'm hoping that one of my new classes will be what I was expecting from this major (Graphic Design) . Because of all this final work (and my terrible grasp of time), I haven't had much sleep; I've been going through today half asleep. I'd just take a nap, but I don't really feel like going to bed until later.

I've had a lot I've wanted to draw, but not much energy to do so. Maybe it won't be as quiet once I get back to uploading often ....

I'm going to start working on examples of Graphic Design, and if anyone cares then I may put one of them up here someday ...

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The only reason I don't update here is because all of it's on an old comp. of mine that's broken, and I can't get to it anymore...
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No one really reads the quotes anyway, so I got rid of them ......

.....That's all for now......

theunknown1

Updates and A Question!

~theunknown1 — Tue, 05 Feb 2008 11:34:56 PST

It's been a while, so I thought I'd put another journal up (not that a whole lot of people read the last one -_-;..).

With any luck, I may have a bunch of things to upload at once (either in scraps, the gallery, or both) within the next few days (maybe). Hopefully I'll soon make something that a lot of people will like as much as I do (for example, my most faved pic is one I liked and took a lot of time to make, but my most viewed pic is a an old request I didn't even do that well with -_-;.). For the most part, I really don't hear from a lot of people anymore (as far as my own page/deviations go, at least). I wonder what some of you are up to ...

I'm in the mood for a challenge, so I may start a SSBB "project" soon. It would take a lot of time, but it'll improve my drawing at the very least ! There's been a lot of videos of it since it came out in Japan - it makes me want a Wii and the game that much more -_-;...

I have a question for anyone that reads this. It just came to my mind one day, out of the blue. Wikipedia is like an encyclopedia in some ways, and it's always being updated with places,things, events and people. That should be the case in the future, right? So, what I'm wondering is: If you could somehow search for one person/place/thing in a Wikipedia entry 10 years from now, who/where/what would it be? just a thought ...

College is the same as always. there's the same hard work as always, but it's still a little fun. I had a midterm yesterday, and I should probably get my grade for it tomorrow. I'm a little nervous since last semester I didn't do so well on the midterm . That Design class is as annoying as ever, mostly because for all the time I put into it, everyone else's work looks 10 times better. I know how to do it, I just can't seem to do it neatly enough. At the very least, I should get a much better score than last time, so I don't really care as long as I pass...

The Anime club has been watching Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann on Mondays. It's a great anime worth checking out . Also, the club is screening My Neighbor Totoro tomorrow; I've never seen it but I heard it's good. It starts at 6:30 and I may have some work to do by then; would it be worth watching?

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The only reason I don't update here is because all of it's on an old comp. of mine that's broken, and I can't get to it anymore...
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No one really reads the quotes anyway, so I got rid of them ......

.....That's all for now......

theunknown1

[Content...]

~theunknown1 — Thu, 24 Jan 2008 09:48:07 PST

I think that I'm gonna try to lessen the annoyed or sad kind of journals, especially if it's starting to get annoying for everyone else (btw, this isn't one of those kinds of journals) ...

My work from college keeps on piling up. Design 2 is the most tedious class I have ever taken -_-;. The professor is nice enough, but the work itself is maddening! I'll stick with it though, if only to get to the better classes ...

Because of how long the Design 2 projects take, I haven't been getting much sleep. Today is my day off, so I think I'll take a nap sooner or later. I'm pretty content for right now (I feel like something bad is coming up because I'm feeling fine right now ...). Also I think I may change my day off to Tuesday (I have only one class then, but I can switch it to Thursdays so I'm not as rushed to finish the work we get the Friday before). It would be a lot of help to me, at the least...

I ended Hotel Dusk for the second time on...I think it was Sunday . Anyway, it was well worth a second playthrough (there was one extra item at the end and the ending itself felt better because you could see.....something ). If you don't have it already, I recommend finding it - and playing it twice!

This year I've felt like getting a lot better at drawing. It was one of my only New Year's Resolutions (I only make ones that I would've done anyway !). I guess that means I have a lot of practicing to do. They're not here, but I have been using my sketchbook a lot (especially yesterday) and getting books from the college library. A lot of original ideas have popped into my head, even though I'm not where I want to be to be able to draw them well . In addition to those, I have 2 stories I'm thinking of, but I dunno if anyone here would like to read them or not ...

And how are you doing ?
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DA Friends and Clubs: [link] Updated !

Art Trades, Requests, and Collabs: [link]

The only reason I don't update here is because all of it's on an old comp. of mine that's broken, and I can't get to it anymore...
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Random Quotes I Like For Whatever Reason

"To live a life of power, you must have faith what you believe is right, even if others tell you you're wrong. The first thing you must do to live a life of power is to find courage. You must be ready to reach beyond the boundaries of Time itself. And to do that, all you need is the will to take that first step..." - from the Sonic CD Logo in the Sonic Gems Collection

"The memory's wiles are cruel. In it's absence, we forget; and in it's perversion, it binds our h...

[Annoyed...]

~theunknown1 — Sun, 06 Jan 2008 20:22:11 PST
....sorry about that last post; I pressed the wrong button -_-;.

Anyway, I'm starting to regret having turned 18. So far it's been nothing but talking about being what an adult is and getting a job. Now that I'll be out for the semester, I have no excuse not to anymore. My mom's fiance (they're not married but he lives with us) just finished talking to me about it. He keeps saying to get a job that I'll like and how I'll want to play games or whatever a lot less if I had one. I guess that is my goal in the long run (a job I enjoy, not the other part), but hearing him say it makes it seem.....boring.

I have no choice either; apparently I have a month to get one (something my mom told him, but not me apparently) or she'll do that "tough love" thing where I'm pretty much doomed. He went on to talk about how great it'll be getting up, going to classes and work and how great I'll feel to be an adult (or something to that effect). Hearing it like that for some reason just makes life seem like a long chore that no one can get out of (I also don't plan on doing both at the same time). From then on it felt like a guilt trip with how he said he didn't have it as good as me and my mom blames herself thinking she's spoiled me and whatnot. That just makes me feel bad about myself ....

It's starting to feel like I have very little to look forward to until I get back to college and then when I graduate. Things are expected of me because I'm an adult now. I'm even starting to hate the word adult. I dunno, I feel....................lost. Sorry if this seems like I'm repeating myself, but I'm feeling more and more rushed as this goes on.....

Btw, I'm not extremely sad or anything like that over this - just annoyed...

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DA Friends and Clubs: [link] Updated !

Art Trades, Requests, and Collabs: [link]

The only reason I don't update here is because all of it's on an old comp. of mine that's broken, and I can't get to it anymore...
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Random Quotes I Like For Whatever Reason

"To live a life of power, you must have faith what you believe is right, even if others tell you you're wrong. The first thing you must do to live a life of power is to find courage. You must be ready to reach beyond the boundaries of Time itself. And to do that, all you need is the will to take that first step..." - from the Sonic CD Logo in the Sonic Gems Collection

"The memory's wiles are cruel. In it's absence, we forget; and in it's perversion, it binds our hearts firmly..." - Vexen from Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories

"Blame your fate..." - Kratos from Tales of Symphonia

"Farewell, my shadow. You, who stand at the end of the path I chose not to follow..." - Mithos Yggdrasil from Tales of Symphonia

"It (the twilight) has a serene beauty. You have seen it yourself as the sun sets on this world...." - Midna from Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess

"Feelings of love are just a temporary lapse in judgement. Like a kind of mental illness...." - Haruhi from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya

"In this world, there are many strange things. However, no matter how strange or bizarre a sight is, if there is no one there, if there is no one to see it, if people are not involved, it is just a simple phenomenon. It's just something that happens. That is because in this world people are the strangest beings." - Yuuko from xxxHOLiC

"Earl...