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I have yet to make a decision, as while the options are terrible and few, as writers don't maintain highlights or DD acclaim (if it were all one category, writing would never appear on the list!), I don't want to leave this place after so many years, nor do I want to abandon the writers that still are here - it's still a goodish place to attain feedback, if you know how to comment on other people's work so that they look at yours.

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/10796929/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/10796929/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 06:43:59 PST
I don't believe most people in this world care consistently about others. It being relatively simple to come and go, I find that most people take that option. It's simple to not listen, it's simple to not really put up with the quite existing situations that others go through, and to concentrate on anything and everything else that revolves around the scope of you. Nothing has changed. The world just continues on its path to what I'm pretty sure is its own brand of damnation.

You're causing me to believe that no one actually listens. And they don't. This is making me not want to listen. What's the point in talking, in communicating, in writing, if no one fucking gives a damn? What's the point if, no matter how valid or concrete or realistic my claims and feelings and thoughts are, if no one takes them into account? I should just as well keep them inside, and let myself benefit from them, as I would either way. What is the point in having other people exist if we perpetuate a singular-based mode of existing in this first place??????????????????

At least, of all the people I can think of, there are four (two most of all) who are consistent, and for that, I thank both of you. Renee and Sean, Ally and Patrick (though you're still away) while not able to remain in CONSTANT contact, are the most consistent out of most likely everyone that I know. Whenever you get a chance, I get a note or a hello, or something. I really sincerely appreciate it. Even though you both have things going on in your own lives (especially you, Sean), you both manage to think of me, and it makes me feel like I actually am a person.

I just don't know if it's enough to make me think that writing, or talking, is a worthy endeavor.

Who cares?

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/9853207/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/9853207/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 16:55:20 PDT ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/9734401/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/9734401/ Tue, 15 Aug 2006 08:38:19 PDT ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/9486670/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/9486670/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 05:55:53 PDT ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/9109956/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/9109956/ Sun, 18 Jun 2006 21:39:42 PDT Twenty One Little Notes On Stones: I Was Here But You Weren't - The Statue Over There Did Not Move And Said, Do You Have A Physical Defect? was from my portfolio and is one of the pieces that was re-revised. ]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/8931425/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/8931425/ Wed, 31 May 2006 14:40:32 PDT
]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/8802490/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/8802490/ Wed, 17 May 2006 21:05:58 PDT

(No one ever does.)

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/8117982/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/8117982/ Fri, 10 Mar 2006 03:05:08 PST ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7776404/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7776404/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 23:18:44 PST ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7503565/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7503565/ Tue, 03 Jan 2006 22:01:12 PST email address. Thank you. ]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7333712/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7333712/ Sat, 17 Dec 2005 04:26:28 PST
I would like to know that we, as human beings, are more than just plants, organic organisms that are born, live, and then die having grown just a bit in between.

I would like to know that there is some sort of connection between all of us. I want to know that there is such a thing as true love, whether it be learned or what. I just want to know that this is not as isolated as I keep thinking it is. I am so fucking sick and tired of being overlooked and passed over and seemingly invisible. I want to get out of myself. I want to be dead so I can figure out what all of this is for. I want to live so I can figure out why life is so valuable, especially when it feels like so much shit.

I want to have little emotional problems and to be well-adjusted.


I want someone to notice when I am not here.


I want to separate myself from everyone I am around right now, for the mistakes and for the stress and for the failures, but that will achieve nothing.


I just want things to be okay.
------------
A number of hours and a nap later:

I still feel crappy. And yeah, it sucks to think that people can just stop loving like that. It makes me wonder what the point is. But I've got to get out of this mess. And I guess I am the only one who can do it. And I guess I am the only one that can make me happy at the end of the day.

The entire plant concept still bothers me profoundly.



I guess that's life; I guess that is just what it all is. You have problems, you figure out solutions, and you move on. Some people just have more than others. I guess this is to make me stronger. I wonder what I have to be strong and adjusted for.?


By the way, I'm attempting to learn how to read and write music effectively.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7227678/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7227678/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 09:43:27 PST

Walt Whitman:

... Have you reckon'd a thousand acres much? have you reckon'd the
earth much?
Have you practis'd so long to learn to read?
Have you felt so proud to get at the meaning of poems?

Stop this day and night with me and you shall possess the origin of
all poems,
You shall possess the good of the earth and sun, (there are millions
of suns left,)
You shall no longer take things at second or third hand, nor look
through the eyes of the dead, nor feed on the spectres in
books,
You shall not look through my eyes either, nor take things from me,
You shall listen to all sides and filter them from your self.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7128360/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/7128360/ Thu, 24 Nov 2005 00:42:09 PST

I am looking over my portfolio for my writing class and am relatively amused/proud. I'll start submitting some of that - I have to clean up some of my deviations before I start, though.

I am going to be writing more while I am here, I hope. I'm sharing my room with my sister and her fiancee, so I am going to have to find time elsewhere to read and whatnot. Interpret: I won't be uploading the pieces from my 'folio for a while.


It's been okay so far; that's all you get.

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6876490/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6876490/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 19:08:18 PDT

So, 20 random facts about myself:

01: I love Yes, and they were my first musical love, along with the Alan Parsons Project, Traffic, and old school metal (i was about 4 or 5)
02: I lack self-discipline sometimes
03: I love reading and writing in bed, laying on my tummy
04: I thouroughly enjoy good ambient lighting and windows facing west
05: I love nature and am almost at a fault a Romantic thinker (like Romantic period, as opposed to Victorian.)
06: I have problems being warm to people sometimes
07: I secretely have a lot of love to give and portray in writing
08: I have been kissed by a llama
09: I like Supertramp and you can go to hell if you don't like that
10: I want a car
11: I can't drive yet
12: I need a job
13: My last job made me more comfortable around people
14: For some reason I seem to intimidate people I'm around upon first meeting them
15: I have a mean sense of humor sometimes
16: I believe: The things we do define us, not just how we feel inside.
17: I don't know if I believe in God.
18: I once killed another human being
19: I have problems with seeing the future as being open and something worthy of "hope"
20: I haven't said the word "hope" in about a year; this shocked me last night.

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1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavour of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6769430/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6769430/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 19:38:46 PDT

I don't talk to most of the people I knew anymore

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6574247/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6574247/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 15:46:21 PDT
And I want a kitten. A very tiny, fragile kitten that will grow into a kitty not much bigger than Ijit. (I miss my Ijit. She kisses my drinking glasses.) Or, it could grow larger. That works, too. I just want a kitten. And I would love it. As much as I loved Fifle. ( I miss you Fifle. ) But maybe not as so as Ijit. I love Ijit.


I miss my cat.



I'll soon miss something else.




I already do.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6484149/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6484149/ Mon, 12 Sep 2005 09:35:32 PDT
What does one read when one is trying to be inspired? Not just with writing. With life. I want to be the best person I can be - but who am I? And where can I go from here? Will those around me truly see what I am doing? Or have I damned myself in my past actions? (And those not so past.) What can I do to break from what I see to be my own obstacle, the obstacle of self? What can I do to become a better person for those I love? ]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6441630/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6441630/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 13:58:33 PDT ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6028623/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/6028623/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 09:06:59 PDT
So, aside from thinking I haven't really been able to be defined as a writer for some time, I get an email saying that my poetry is pretty much crap. Well, I know that it's not on par with a lot of other people - there are a lot of different sorts of poetry, and what I have written for pretty much the entire time I've been writing is stuff that's only important to me, and I am aware that the way I write it makes it interesting to other people. I think it's fucking shitty and the person is pretty dumb to have sent me that email - I never claimed that my poetry was anything other than what it is - something to help me survive. Some people hit shit. I write. I have never written for any other cause but for myself. I have not yet been able to get away from thinking about only what I have to deal with or am experiencing. For this reason, I cannot and will not be able to write anything of true and classic merit - that being a poem which affects all of the people who read it because it simply rings true in lesson, not just reads pretty in words. So, I still think that person was a fucktard, but I don't feel bad about what I've written at all. Whatever will be, will be - and this is what my poetry has been.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5743152/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5743152/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 09:55:03 PDT
I've got some decent ideas from a few people. Vicky suggested the story I still have YET to write for her, involving a notebook and David Spade (because he is hot) and Yosh (the delight) sparked some interesting images with "It's about a lovely young girl, just like you, my dear, who lives on a deserted island with her old father, who is a powerful magician, and is secretly the exiled duke of Milan. " Ah, Shakespeare.

So!

I'm thinking, and there's one thing I can't seem to get out of my head. I think it's got something to do with logs. Or a giant rabbit. Anyway, I have some food for thought, but I'm still open to suggestions.

Oh. PS. I wrote two amazing poems last night. With the help of Vicky. They rock. Thank you, Vicky. (She's totally my muse.)

When does the inspiration stop?
2:15am.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5724892/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5724892/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 15:21:58 PDT Song: I Could Care Less - Devildriver/The Deepest Gray - All That Remains


Body: Yeah, that's cool, but really all it comes down to is that I want more control over the things that happen. I don't like just sitting around letting everyone else call the shots. For all that, I'd rather tell them to leave me the hell alone and don't come around anymore. That's such a bitch move, and I know because I've done it before, but maaaaaaan I just don't want to fall prey to letting them do everything. It bugs me out! It's driving me up a wall.


On another note, I think I want to write a nice sized story or play. Any ideas or requests while I try to think of plots?

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5527263/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5527263/ Thu, 02 Jun 2005 01:36:58 PDT
I've found out what I need to do and now I am just waiting for myself to find out a proper way to go about it.

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5391588/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5391588/ Wed, 18 May 2005 11:46:33 PDT
I just need to start writing again, and posting.

I miss making pictures and seeing them posted with the poem, and that sense of accomplishment I got. It's not like I'm not writing, it's just that I'm not posting and I'm not really making an effort to post. I am doing all of this from someone else's computer and they don't have photoshop. And I like composing on my own PC.

I should stop being such a prima dona.

(But I'm not really. I just don't know what the hell I'm doing. I need something to inspire me in a way that I just can't say no. Which is what I have been doing. I need inspirado, I need something stable and dependable to think about. I used to have the life I was leading. Now, what can I really pour every moment into thinking about? Nothing seems so important.

This is largely why I always return to this idea of it being the only life for me to live in. Why isn't it? I wrote the most during those times, didn't I?

There's got to be something else.


I've got to be aware of something else.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5371742/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5371742/ Mon, 16 May 2005 08:36:11 PDT

I updated my LJ and am still feeling shitty.


"What do I do with all this emotion?"
"Write it down, Billy!"


'...it's best to compose a poem.'



(i'm still too angry and hurt and confused and really really hurt.)



'...i'm sick and tired of being constantly fucking sick.'

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5344838/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5344838/ Fri, 13 May 2005 05:23:02 PDT kneenay is the best.


That is all.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5314871/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5314871/ Mon, 09 May 2005 19:49:13 PDT
A crying, emo Fella staring at the freezing bathroom tiles, as it were, saying, "Please don't leave me!" Below was this:

"

All good things must come to an end, but your deviantART subscription doesn't have to!

My records show that your subscription is set to expire soon. Don't let that happen! Renew today to ensure FAST browsing with BIG thumbnails and all of these great features!"

Oooooooh, woe is me, for I made the Fella cry.

Other news: I have six pages done of a seven page paper, but I have yet to list any quotations. It's definitely due tomorrow and I definitely have an infinity of quotes to list. And what am I doing instead? Making fun of fella for being emo.

Good job.

(PS: I failed my math final.)

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5284648/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5284648/ Fri, 06 May 2005 12:53:39 PDT
I sort of wish I had more of a venue for such things; maybe if I had more practice, I wouldn't get so antsy.

I have two 7 pg papers due Tuesday and haven't begun to work on either of them. I also have a final on Monday that I haven't studied for and a final on Tuesday that I haven't studied for. Some of my friends want me to go up north this weekend for things that need taking care of, so where will I find this little (or not so little) pocklet of time to do these things in? I'd better not forget my books... Then I'll be screwed. (I really don't want to leave my campus this weekend, and really don't want to go somewhere where I might not be able to do the research I need, etc.)

Does anyone know what to do about this whole "writing" thing? Where can I find people to share this with? Where can I read and they can read to me and for it to be comfortable and friendly and real, not pretentious and petting??


I do wonder these things a great deal.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5256514/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5256514/ Tue, 03 May 2005 21:35:48 PDT ____________________________

From: Creative Writing Teacher
To: cowsnortle@yahoo.com
Subject: RE: Creative Writing Course
Date: Tue, 03 May 2005 09:02:30 -0400

Hi Lacey,
For Wednesday, since it's the last class, please bring something you've
written that you're proud of to read to the class. You're not obligated
to
do this, but that's what will be happening tomorrow. Prof. Singer

____________________________

What am I going to do? I hate reading aloud. I'm not proud of anytihng. Everything is crap. Okay, yes I am proud. But this is tomorrow! And I fucking suck. I am such a fucking failure. I can't write. What was I ever thinking? Everything I write is so fucking crappy. Writing is a dead craft. No one cares about it. No one reads or comments or cares and if they do it's because they know me or something, I don't fucking know. I'm so angry at myself; I can't read aloud. I fucking suck. Why can't I be a good writer.




EDIT: Can you guys suggest something???????

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5160123/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/5160123/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 16:45:35 PDT


To the Dead


What I hope (when I hope) is that we'll
see each other again,-

. . . and again reach the VEIN

in which we loved each other . . .
It existed. It existed.

There is a NIGHT within the NIGHT,-

. . . for, like the detectives (the Ritz Brothers)
in The Gorilla,

once we'd been battered by the gorilla

we searched the walls, the intricately carved
inpenetrable panelling

for a button, lever, latch

that unlocks a sercret door that
reveals at last secret chambers,

CORRIDORS within WALLS,

(the disenthralling, necessary, dreamed structure
beneath the structure we see,)

that is the HOUSE within the HOUSE . . .

There is a NIGHT within the NIGHT,-

. . . there were (for example) months when I seemed only to displease, frustrate,

disappoint you-; then, something triggered

a drunk lasting for days, and as you
slowly and shakily sobered up,

sick, throbbing with remorse and self-loathing,

insight like ashes: clung
to; useless; hated . . .

This was the viewing of the power of the waters

while the waters were asleep:-
secrets, histories of loves, betrayals, double-blinds

not fit (you thought) for the light of day . . .

There is a NIGHT within the NIGHT,-

. . . for, there at times at night, still we
inhabit the secret place together . . .

Is this wisdom, or self-pity? -

The love I've known is the love of
two people staring

not at each other, but in the same direction.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4950862/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4950862/ Wed, 30 Mar 2005 09:24:11 PST
beyond the missed years and the unspoken words

something included in the pain

wrapped up in all the joy possible



beauty

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4925522/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4925522/ Sun, 27 Mar 2005 14:20:23 PST

Too many years and too many thoughts came too late.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4891148/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4891148/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 13:28:07 PST
I need to write more. I have a Creative Writing class, and while I've sketched out a great many outlines and ideas, I haven't completed my assignments yet - it's been a week at least.

I want to write more. But, I don't feel like I can write. Or that I want to write. I don't know. It's hard to explain. Sort of like how I sat in the car, staring at the shadows that weren't really there, thinking to myself as Lindsay talked, that I could speak. I could say more interesting things. I could make people laugh and have more friends than I do now. But I'm just too damned apathetic.

What happened to me?

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4751209/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4751209/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 12:24:22 PST
Vicky I definitely got your b-day telephathy; my head has been hurting all weekend.

Thank you:

Eric C. ~zealivityfive
Patrick *meta474
Renee *kneenay
Dean
Ally *insomniac04
Sean ~saracen-moor
Dan
Dave S.
Dave R. ~bigro
Nick
Keenan ~404error
Kevin
Brian
Matt
Tynisa
Regina
Jaime
Luke Z. *zedman
Luke
Marco B.
Greg Brooks
Nick A.
Astarsia *astarsia
Jeff
Jason R. ~holybs

And for last night: Gregory Bing, Erin, Tom, and especially Chris ~DrDarkMatter , as well as Dina, Cyndi, Little Meg, and Priscilla.


More later

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4727196/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4727196/ Fri, 04 Mar 2005 12:20:52 PST [link]


Pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase...! Fill out one of the offers, pleaaaaaaase. If I get 5 people to do it, I get a free one. Same thing goes for you if you do it. Pleaaaaaaase help me out the offers aren't even expensive and you can cancel at any time...................


PLEAAAAAAAAAAASE!!!


Pretty please.


PS: I'm doing some nonfiction work. And more poems are on the way.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4712635/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4712635/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 15:52:17 PST
It's the effort. It's the lack thereof. I must have sounded like a hypocrite; it's not that I don't come to class because I have obligations of a "rough" nature, but because I simply don't try hard enough to get to class. It's not that my writing is bad because I don't have the talent, or the skill, but because I don't put much into honing and respecting the same.

I have not written a piece of merit in a while. My poetry, it's all very insipid, in a wide-scale context. I haven't written a strong political or even socio-political piece in a while - perhaps, since Dedication. I need to fix this. Vicky, the blood-bit won't have to wait, I'll get it done, but it is indubitably apparent that I must write this piece I'm thinking of, this definite reflection on something other than the internal.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4678025/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4678025/ Sat, 26 Feb 2005 13:33:18 PST I will get my pleasures elsewhere-
'She was flowery and nice and loved williams carlos williams WAY too much'-
I was born in a lighthouse and my mother was the sea-
My life does not exist in its concrete truths-

Many things were left unsaid.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4658621/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4658621/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 23:57:49 PST


poem soon

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4642360/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4642360/ Tue, 22 Feb 2005 01:34:45 PST

as in


I think I'd know a hell of a lot better than you.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4603364/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4603364/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 01:34:42 PST

i notice this stuff, sure

but it's weird how i don't seem to feel it


no sense of awe, not one feeling of a tear, not even a quickening of breath


i wonder if i am dead inside.


don't comment with i told you so, or maybe i can help, or any other form of what you know would be a bullshit response. this is more for me, than for you.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4521832/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4521832/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 15:23:15 PST
CBarry recpt (6:14:45 PM): you ache words lacey
Cow S Nortle (6:14:54 PM): i do indeed



For a poem to illustrate it:



The partial muse has from my earliest hours
Smiled on the rugged path I'm doom'd to tread,
And still with sportive hand has snatch'd wild flowers,
To weave fantastic garlands for my head:
But far, far happier is the lot of those
Who never learn'd her dear delusive art;
Which, while it decks the dead with many a rose,
Reserves the thorn to fester in the heart.
For still she bids soft Pity's melting eye
Stream o'er the ills she knows not to remove,
Points every pang, and deepens every sigh
Of mourning Friendship, or unhappy Love,
Ah! then, how dear the Muse's favours cost,
If those paint sorrow best --- who feel it most!

- Charlotte Smith

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4307742/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4307742/ Thu, 13 Jan 2005 04:09:15 PST Vicky, we had this conversation:


n3st 0f salt (6:52:08 AM): I had a weird dream
n3st 0f salt (6:52:32 AM): I was in love with ****, but he was gay
n3st 0f salt (6:52:34 AM): I was like
n3st 0f salt (6:52:39 AM): "DAMN YOU, MCGREEVY!"
Cow S Nortle (6:53:01 AM): LOL
Cow S Nortle (6:53:04 AM): HAHA
Cow S Nortle (6:53:04 AM): OMG
Cow S Nortle (6:53:07 AM): on letterman
Cow S Nortle (6:53:20 AM): the top thing that bush would say to his new homeland security dude
Cow S Nortle (6:53:21 AM): was
Cow S Nortle (6:53:45 AM): "okay.. now before we get started... don't go "mcgreevy" on us."
n3st 0f salt (6:54:40 AM): LOLLLLL
n3st 0f salt (6:54:55 AM): that is one classy president we have.
Cow S Nortle (6:55:36 AM): LOLL
Cow S Nortle (6:55:43 AM): well, he DOES win at life
Cow S Nortle (6:55:46 AM): underhandedly
Cow S Nortle (6:55:47 AM): but still
Cow S Nortle (6:55:48 AM): he wins.
n3st 0f salt (6:55:51 AM): meh
n3st 0f salt (6:55:55 AM): he's no napoleon.
Cow S Nortle (6:56:02 AM): LOL
Cow S Nortle (6:56:06 AM): god i hate napoleon
Cow S Nortle (6:56:11 AM): well
Cow S Nortle (6:56:12 AM): i dont
Cow S Nortle (6:56:13 AM): but still
n3st 0f salt (6:56:16 AM): actually, I think bush DOES own an island...
Cow S Nortle (6:56:23 AM): a friend of mine wanted to name a hedgehog napoleon
Cow S Nortle (6:56:25 AM): and LOL
Cow S Nortle (6:56:26 AM): he does have one.
n3st 0f salt (6:56:28 AM): LOL
Cow S Nortle (6:56:29 AM): it's called texas.
Cow S Nortle (6:56:36 AM): it's surrounded on four sides by bullshit
Cow S Nortle (6:56:46 AM): presidential island, they call it.
n3st 0f salt (6:56:52 AM): but napoleon conquered TWO
Cow S Nortle (6:56:57 AM): oh, and florida.
Cow S Nortle (6:57:00 AM): surrounded by red tape.
n3st 0f salt (6:57:02 AM): *ignores your smart ass bush comm-
n3st 0f salt (6:57:04 AM): HAHAHAHA

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4282465/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4282465/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 00:14:03 PST
My new roommate might be really scary or work out okay. I need to find lots of places I can go that aren't my room. I might have some friends remnant of the mang-group to chill with, but that's about it.

I have got to reassess.

That's about it.



Oh.... And Godsmack is the most horrible lyrical band ever. It's so sad, it's funny.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4262741/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4262741/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 14:38:16 PST
And I do sort of miss those days.

(You don't know what I mean, do you)

I just want to be in a place where people don't have to fake everything, and where people don't have to be so ... I won't say that out of respect.

Maybe I should just stop now.

]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4249173/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4249173/ Wed, 05 Jan 2005 19:37:41 PST
I should find another way; you are all liars.

Roughly:

We are not too old for this medium. These faces - shades and shadows of human emotion - not only serve to bond us with our God, are also enough to mask the friends whom we wish understood. Our papers, then, are littlered with color in some spectrum we cannot, or will not, see. Taken into consideration, a ramshackle history we cannot account for; what are these memories? Our ability and oropensation for the ever-lasting constant of change: the Barrachus of our youth, and the David to the Goliath of our time; we do die.

And before that and thereafter, much in the same way; though I do not believe that it'll precisely give way to the meaning attempted to extrapolate, it puts me at ease, as the start is a new way to the beginning.

But my Lord, what a pack full of deceitfuls. If you don't get it, why don't you ever say so? I hate it, anymore, when someone tells me something I wrote is good. I don't believe it any more! Someone can fawn and fall over whatever I say and then later confide that they haven't the faintest idea of what I am trying to talk about!

Maybe that doesn't matter.

But I think it might, quite a bit.


Should I move to prose?


Better to master one before moving to the other - I don't think I'll ever master anything.

Maybe.

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4193428/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4193428/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 12:56:21 PST
I was looking through my favorites, and I realized that I don't really feel for a lot of them now. My tastes have somehow changed. I still like them, but I don't feel the same way about them. I think I'll browse DA later and leave a mess of comments and possibly +fav's laying about.

Also: don't say this often, but thanks for all y'all who have me on your DevWatch and who go through my gallery from time to time. I'm glad that what I write is enjoyed.

Note: If you want me to look through your gallery for any reason, or something else, let me know.

Oh, and that song, yea, I'll note ya'll with it, those of you who commented. One of you who commented: I already showed it to you. It was for you! Goof. Remember, we were talking about the idea? How else would I have thought about it? I'll send it to you anyway.

Aside from this, special note to ~justb : Yea, I'm rewriting the S.B. piece, but since I'm going with this certain concept, it's taking me forever. And I didn't forget about that other little side project... Once again, conceptualization done right and all... I'm on it, mang. <3


That's about it. Leave any other notes at the door.

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]]> ~tk-nvme http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4133403/ http://tk-nvme.deviantart.com/journal/4133403/ Thu, 23 Dec 2004 05:15:51 PST

I'd like to see some people, however improbable that may be (including but not exclusive to

VICKY
Renee
Keenan
Ally
Eric C.
Patrick
Brett
Dave B (though I saw you enough at school, you lush)
Sean
Dave R !
And others

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