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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/8879841/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/8879841/ Fri, 26 May 2006 02:45:36 PDT
Mood: emotionly angushed
Listening to: mcfly-obviously

Im Totally gay

//Jai...Aphex|angeL// - gallerycore - Ó¼Ò



~Apophysis

]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/6745287/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/6745287/ Wed, 12 Oct 2005 04:18:38 PDT Welcome to Jai's journal...2005 bitches

Mood: Hapy
Listening to: Lamb Of God - Laid To Rest

Hey hey, fucking long time since i've used this site properly for sure! I've been busy with college etc. and i'm actually doing a Graphic Design course, so expect some work up soon in that kind of genre. Anyway just wanted to say i love you all etc. and hope everythings great.

//Jai...Aphex|angeL// - gallerycore - Ó¼Ò



~Apophysis

]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/5855107/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/5855107/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 09:02:48 PDT Welcome to Jai's journal...2005 bitches

Mood: Chilled
Listening to: Cult Of Luna - Leave Me Here

...Thought you got rid of me?...Not a chance, Finally Jai HAS COME BACK TO DEVIANTART!

yeh alright i know that was lame but nvm. Just wanted to let you all know that i'm back and i intend to submit some works very soon. Got side-tracked by my exams for a while but now im a free man.


Love to all!

//Jai...Aphex|angeL// - gallerycore - Ó¼Ò



~Apophysis

]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4842760/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4842760/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 03:06:43 PST Welcome to Jai's journal...

Mood: thoughtful/fedup
Listening to: Killswitch Engage - Just Barely Breathing

well i thought i'd update my journal as i haven't since my post about the CD's i ordered, they have all arrived now, and yes i am in love with them all. Recently my mood has been way up and way down and all over the place tbh, so sorry about the lack fo art. I just got back into a certain sense of mind which in neither gr8 or shit, just...ok...so i'm making ar again on my thoughts of the moment i guess!

thx for sticking around though, and thankyou to everyone for being amazingly nice and commenting loads of my newest pieces, it makes me feel great when people appreiciate my work it really does.

so thx...until another update

yours truely

//Jai...Aphex|angeL// - gallerycore - Ó¼Ò



~Apophysis

]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4509147/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4509147/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 04:42:31 PST Hey

How is everyone? I'm not too bad atm - looking forward to a few things including gigs(as always) and i got a steal off amazon today!!!

Between the buried and me - The silent circus
Between the buried and me - Between the buried and me
Cult of luna - Salvation
Isis - Oceanic

and i got it all for £35!!!! I was SO uber chuffed and wow i cannot wait for my Cds to get here now, i'm awaiting those and my btbam tshirt and now i have no money left!! lol

Anyway - sorry about lack of work i've been incredibly busy at the minute with school work and busy social life (yes believe it or not, i do go out at the weekends!?) but soon i get a great big holiday before exams and i'm gonna be going out alot and taking many many photo's for use here

thanks as usual for everyone who watches me and recieves this journal

//Jai...Aphex|angeL// - gallerycore - Ó¼Ò



~Apophysis

]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4245221/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4245221/ Sat, 08 Jan 2005 05:40:14 PST Hey alright everyone?

Well today was the first day back to school and that means...mock exams pour moi! Yeh yeh i know i'm 17 but i got put down a year at school, long story (if u want it ask) and mock exams i've decided suck thats all i have to say there pretty much...yeh thats it

I'm loving photography at the minute and if you've seen my gallery you can see that! I would muchly like to get some more down within the next month or so, just makes me feel good I'm working on some more fractals too and possibly having another look at terraspacing, depends how i feel at the time i guess!

Guess no-one saw that bit below lol ah wells, thx anyway.

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One thing i noticed was i'm really close to 4,000 pageviews!! I'm well happy about that and anyone who captured my 4,000th i will dedicate a piece to and link them
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Jai
toobadyourbeautiful

.I.remember.the.day.the.sun.went.out.it. halted.all.progression.with.all.its.beau ty.If.three.words.could.heal.you.i'd.onl y.speak.two.It.won't.be.long.we'll.meet. again.your.memory.is.never.passing.It.wo n't.be.long.we'll.meet.again.my.love.for .you.is.everlasting.Live.Love.Burn.Die.I .could.never.swallow.your.false.ideals.o f.a.lifeless.happy.ending.
...Aphex|angeL... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4218200/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4218200/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 06:03:03 PST
I was in Gran Canaria for a week just for a break and i needed it, feel alot better now, i think it would've been better to have 2 weeks though. I'm rendering a fracal at the minute on my big PC and using 759MB of RAM for it, its estimated to take 204 hours lol so if it turns out poo i willy physically kick the damn machine.

But yehs, i might do some other lower quality fractals on this pc whilst that one is rendering I don't know why i just find them fun to do i guess. Yeh i'm back and expect some work to be flowing through soon with some luck !

Thx to everyone

Jai
toobadyourbeautiful

"I remember the day the sun went out, it halted all progression with all its beauty"
"If three words could heal you, i'd only speak two"
"It won't be long, we'll meet again, your memory is never passing"
"It won't be long, we'll meet again, my love for you is everlasting"
"Live.Love.Burn.Die"
"I could never swallow your false ideals of a lifeless happy ending"
...Aphex|angeL... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4097116/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/4097116/ Sat, 18 Dec 2004 17:17:48 PST

love to all my lovely watchers and all the people i watch

Jai
toobadyourbeautiful

"I remember the day the sun went out, it halted all progression with all its beauty"
"If three words could heal you, i'd only speak two"
"It won't be long, we'll meet again, your memory is never passing"
"It won't be long, we'll meet again, my love for you is everlasting"
"Live.Love.Burn.Die"
"I could never swallow your false ideals of a lifeless happy ending"
...Aphex|angeL... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3979131/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3979131/ Fri, 03 Dec 2004 10:57:36 PST [link].LINEs

yooo, i thought i'd make a random journal (sorry i've made so many in the past month!) just to say i finished that piece and named it Aphex:angeL which i use as my alias quite alot now. I'm influenced to ger back into photography a bit more now, and i think my new pieces will be those of photographs

i'm really glad to be expanding my range in art all the time and i'm really proud to say that i can use so many different programs to create so many different things.

underline

Jai toobadyourbeautiful "I remember the day the sun went out, it halted all progression with all its beauty" "If three words could heal you, i'd only speak two" "It won't be long, we'll meet again, your memory is never passing" "It won't be long, we'll meet again, my love for you is everlasting" ...Aphex|angeL... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3970324/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3970324/ Thu, 02 Dec 2004 07:16:33 PST

only problem is i'm really bad at creating atmosphere's and everytime i try something differetn or try an alternative it fails lol so there might be a larger delay on this piece before its up.

Estimated finish date 3-5th December

If anyone has any input please come chat to me my friend desol8 who i'd usually talk to about stuff like this is whot miles away in Hong Kong! So please if you have any ideas

Jai
toobadyourbeautiful

"I remember the day the sun went out, it halted all progression with all its beauty"
"If three words could heal you, i'd only speak two"
"It won't be long, we'll meet again, your memory is never passing"
"It won't be long, we'll meet again, my love for you is everlasting"

...AphexangeL... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3933258/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3933258/ Sat, 27 Nov 2004 16:51:01 PST but don't worry i have ambition and love to create more work very soon.

What have i been doing?
First off is the Poison The Well gig i went to last night...possibly the best gig i've been too...that might be streatching it a bit though. Poison The Well were amazing, on the rail at the front, right infront of Jeff Moreira the vocalist, and singing along throughout. After their set, we went outside and Jeff and Ryan the guitarist were stood there - absolutely perfect. We met them, had a chat, amazing guys, got some signatures and photo's and it basically made my whol day worthwhile. I couldn't believe it and right now? I'm still on a high

I can't wait to see From Autumn To Ashes next sunday and after that its onto the more brutal gigs i suppose:

11th December - 10pm-6am all nighter with : Poison The Well, Bulletformyvalentine, InMe, Johnny Panic and special DJ sets from sikth and atreyu

17th December - Arch Enemy, The Haunted, Dark Tranquility

18th December - Atreyu

i cannot wait for these, and after having such an incredible time on Friday night, iam severly looking forward to them too .

Basically music is my life and i thrive upon it with every part of me that contains a feeling. Iam very happy at the minute, and i just wna say thx to Jeff Moreira for influencing many hardcore fans around the world and most importantly, thx for influencing me in a way i can't explain

Thankyou everyone and new work will be put up ASAP.

Your hardcore fan

Jai
toobadyourbeautiful

"I remember the day the sun went out, it halted all progression with all its beauty"
"If three words could heal you, i'd only speak two"
"It won't be long, we'll meet again, your memory is never passing"
"It won't be long, we'll meet again, my love for you is everlasting"

...AphexangeL... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3858399/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3858399/ Wed, 17 Nov 2004 15:22:11 PST i completed a nice looking planet and atmosphere tonight and its by far the best thing i've ever done. Also everyone keep supportin my good friend! Me and him should hopefully start a collab together once my skills with this nifty stuff are better.

Secondly go to this page and listen to some of the cover songs, although not great songs, im amazed by the talent of school kids, seriously some of the covers are amazing!

[link]

and thirdly AurorA...thats all

but yeh chears!

Jai

]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3819395/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3819395/ Fri, 12 Nov 2004 16:44:14 PST bout time lol

There are a few key elements and thanks to them im happy the main one being kelly lol thanks to E V E R Y O N E that commented on my lame emo journals you all mean alot to me fo shizzle!

but yeh me and kelly have been goin out since last monday and i'm really happy had a great time tonight, a local band exit ten turned out headlining and the hurt process pulled out and i actually love exit ten so much, they are an amazing band especially for a local one and i swear by those guys

new phone for free yay long story lol and errr o yeh! Lookin forward to christmas, not because its christmas, and not because its commercial but i finally get a break from school and an actual holiday abroad...ah i can't wait.

the other thing, which you would've noticed by being on my page at all (if you have visited thankyou ) is i have got back into terragen again in a big way to try and bend the rules and create some very different influencial pieces Comments on all of these are more than welcome as always.

TO EVERYONE WHO HAS HELPED ME GET THIS FAR... ||T H A N K Y O U||

]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3751937/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3751937/ Thu, 04 Nov 2004 12:00:10 PST Person: the one i want to be with...
Place: the one where she is...

Ok its all good

Well basically things are going good with "she who must not be named" and thankyou to EVERYONE who helped me out with advice etc. Especially my good friends and who have given me possibly some of the best advice ive ever had. Thanks alot to absolutely everyone who replied to me also, every one of you pointed out a different viewpoint and i truely love you all for your help . I will update you again A.S.A.P. even if you don't want to know lol

But for now here's a dodgy quiz everyone is doing...i stole it from the quiz woman as always

(x) I have been drunk
(x) I have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) I have kissed a member of the same sex
( ) I crashed a friend's car
( ) I have been to Japan
(x) I rode in a taxi
( ) I have been in love
(x) I've shoplifted
( ) I have been fired
( ) I have cut myself on purpose
(x) I have been in a fist fight
( ) I've snuck out of my parent's house
( ) I have been tied up
( ) I have been caught masturbating
(x) I have been arrested
(x) I've made out with a stranger
( ) I've stolen something from my job
( ) I've celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(x) I've gone on a blind date
( ) I've had a crush on a teacher
( ) I've celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(x) I have been to Europe
( ) I've skipped school
( ) I've slept with a co-worker
( ) I have thrown up in a bar
(x) I have purposely set myself on fire
( ) I have eaten sushi
( ) I have been snowboarding( does sandsurfing count?)
( ) I have been snow skiing
(x) I have made a snow angel
(x) I have been happy with myself
( ) I have met a movie star
( ) I had sex in a pool
(x) I went to a prom
( ) I've bungee jumped
(x) I have been to a pop concert
( ) I have dated someone for over a year
( ) I sold naked pictures of myself
( ) I have been in a car accident
(x) I have slept in the nude
(x) I've eaten cheesecake
( ) I've had jury duty
(x) I've hated someone without knowing them
( ) I have been to Maine
(x) I've shot a real gun (fun stuff...)
(x) I've ran around with my trousers around my ankles
( ) I've had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
( ) I've done ecstasy
( ) I've gotten my ass kicked
( ) I've been caught smoking
( ) I've milked a cow
(x) I've got in a verbal fight with a teacher
( ) I've cheated on someone
( ) Lied one time in this survey
( ) Lied more then once in this survey
( ) Threw a party at a friends house when they were gone
( ) Partied every weekend for the last month
(x) Sniffed markers to get high
(x) Slept for more than 15 hours at a time
( ) Petted a live tiger
(x) Kissed someone in the snow
( ) Found a four leaf clover
(x) Gave your parents the finger behind a closed door
( ) Gotten drunk in Germany
(x) Cried in public
( ) Cried in public in the last 5 days
( ) Been hit on by a member of the same sex
( ) Been asked to perform oral sex by a complete stranger
( ) Have unknowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship
( ) Have knowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship
( ) Hates the SuicideGirls.com banner ...sure?


well what the hell everyone is doing it lol.

]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3681927/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3681927/ Wed, 27 Oct 2004 18:56:43 PDT Person: the one i want to be with...
Place: the one where she is...

Fuck me am i in an emo mood...

i haven't been like this for ages but meh here we go again. I'm in this situation again where i like a girl LOADS and...i just find it hard to tell them? I don't even know anymore, its gone wrong so many times i'm scared it will again. I don't know how to express myself and i find it hard to show someone how much i like them. I really wish i wasn't like this and i'm trying to get over it. I'm gonna speak to her tomorrow and i will post alot more and be happy if its positive...ifs its negative i fear for my actions as always meh...i'm just tired you know? You get to a certain point where you sit down and think...hang on when am i gonna meet that girl that actually changes my life and makes me feel whole...when...and you wait...and wait...but no, nothing. This is what annoys me, i swear down every girl i meet i think is gonna be her but oh wait...no they fail to be...I just hope she is out there somewhere and i hope this girl i'm hooked up on at the minute can show me something all of the others couldn't...emotion...

i'm so scared.


ok well basically i got so many absolutely amazing replies from so many amazing people, that i can't reply to every one of them, but i can say thankyou to everyone who commented on this journal. This was me speakin from my most inner self, so thankyou for all your comments - i will brief each one as everyone meant something special to me

Stilllife-Stilldeath - thx alot man, brief wise words and i understand don't worry.

desol8 - i love u man lol thankyou SO much for your post, really means alot and i understand each and every word u said.

UnLoVeDpOeT - thankyou long time no speak, you were one of my first friends on dA and are still one of the best i remember.

reveil-du-cauchemar - thankyou, your words are very true and i can relate alot actually!

airguitaringpenguin - thx Preeeeeeeena! i know i know, and thanku very muchly for the luck

bexyboo - i can ALWAYS trust u with advice etc. and u know u est un good friend to me, so nothing more needs to be said

huggamonsta - thankyou Kate me n ur bf are very good friends, and that makes me and u friends, thx for the advice

TakiraSun - im glad someone knows and its incredibly hard because you don't want to scare them away because u care for them so much! emo is awesome, everyone knows it really

cosmic-jacuzzi - thx alot hols, comign from you it really does mean a hell of alot, and i think ive known this feeling before...

a-neon-devil-breath - the feeling is amazing, especially towards the start, then i get morbid with it, but then if the feeling is returned?...nothing better, thankyou

jigsawgirl - thankyou very very much wise words indeed and ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3427469/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3427469/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 16:36:56 PDT
I have ALOT of work to do right now including 5 websites that people are wanting desperately... *collapses into tears* i wish i could keep my mind out of my work...but however hars i try it remains.

Thanks to all of those who care for me in one way or another, you shall always have a place in my mind



]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3392685/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3392685/ Sat, 18 Sep 2004 16:36:54 PDT
Anyway thx for ur ongoing support, and i mean...i'm ok at the minute...bit down about a few things but u guys always manage to pick me right back up so...thankyou...especially to:

- Luke is possibly one of my bestest best friends along with Ben and Terry who doesnt actually use dA alot lol

- James, one of the people ive met in my life who actually really does understand me and the way i work...thx man

- Ollie...i love this guy so much, such a legend and a nice guy - Thrice till i die Ollie thrice till i die!!

- Talks to me alot when im down and always manages to help me sort out my problems one way or another whilst putting hers aside...thx alot bex wuv wu for that!!

- Ross another of my bestest best friends who doesnt actually use dA alot at all lol, still a real special guy and TRUST me any girl that gets this stallion is a lucky one...love u man

Time for the artist's who make me feel like me...:

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If i left anyone out, it was completely unintentional as i love everyone anyway and

...Thankyou...

J

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~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3167401/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3167401/ Thu, 19 Aug 2004 18:59:21 PDT
0= I don't know you
1= I like you
2= I love you!!
3= You are funny
4= You are cool
5= I don't really care for your personality
6= I want to fuck you
7= You are sexy!
8= You have a nice body
9= I want to get to know you
10= I hope you die
11= Marry me, PLEASE?
12= wanna have sex later
13= lets cuddle
14= Let's go have some fun ^___^
15= Wanna date some time?
16=Lovely personality


from

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3141533/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/3141533/ Mon, 16 Aug 2004 18:35:28 PDT hey everyone hope you are all ok.

I got a bit of new stuff up, but expect some niagara falls photo's i took whilst i was there pretty soon, i will put some normal ones up then manipulate some others .

Any suggestions and comments welcome as always.

Thx alot

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2954930/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2954930/ Sat, 24 Jul 2004 05:15:24 PDT its a grwoing community and an awesomeone at that.

Peace and Love

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2913475/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2913475/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 18:58:48 PDT

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J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2874559/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2874559/ Tue, 13 Jul 2004 18:03:20 PDT [ mood | mehhhh ]
[ music | Opeth - By the pain i see in others]

//10 bands/musicians you've been listening a lot to lately:
1: Alexisonfire
2: From Autumn To Ashes
3: 36 Crazyfists
4: Opeth
5: Poison The Well
6: Atreyu
7: Chimaira
8: Finch
9: Killswitch engage
10: Incubus

//09 things you look forward to:
1: seein holsssssssssssssssssssssss
2: goin to america
3: gettin drunk with ross n chris lol
4: watchin flims
5: bein bitten....yehs....
6: mettin tom on sat
7: my sisters wedding
8: partayyyyyyyyyyy
9: drinking muchos beer

//8 things you like to wear:
1: NUDEY RUDEY!! hehe
2: boxers
3: jeans
4: My ring and my bling!
5: my PTW teeeeee
6: my softy black jumper
7: my prom suit....NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
8: my gay emo hair

//07 things that annoy you:
1. People who do things to fit in under pear pressure
2. rubbish
3. my hair
4. people who flash their money
5. Mcfly lol
6. the elderly in general
7. older sisters

//06 things you say most days:
1. meh
2. bollocks
3. cum bucket
4. shitter
5. gaybar
6. tres

//05 things you do everyday:
1. bursh teeths
2. eat....loadssss
3. listen to music
4. sit here lol
5. wash believe it or not

//04 movies you could watch over and over again:
1. event horizon haha
2. pulp fiction
3. donnie darko
4. ali g in da house!

//03 things you would take with you to a deserted island:
1. bed
2. neerending supply of yum yums
3. a big ol fridge which filled itself with yet more cold beer everytime i emptied it.

//02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. Opeth - Bleak
2. 36 Crazyfists - At the end of august

//01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. my dog barnie or...probably chris...i dnor really toughy!!!


xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2869799/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2869799/ Tue, 13 Jul 2004 05:32:32 PDT Jamie
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thx to for this!

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2862207/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2862207/ Mon, 12 Jul 2004 07:24:42 PDT apart from maybe the poem needing a spruce up with a hundred more stronger feelings

thankyou

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2808341/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2808341/ Mon, 05 Jul 2004 10:27:55 PDT [ 2 ] Last word you said: me
[ 3 ] Last song you sang: B52's - Love Shack (no jokes lol ask my mum she was in the car too)
[ 4 ] Last person you hugged: Holly
[ 5 ] Last thing you laughed at: my doggie
[ 6 ] Last time you said I dont fucking remember: ?
[ 7 ] Last time you cried: Sometime last week...mmm weds? no ah i dno
[ 8 ] What's in your CD player: Don't use one
[ 9 ] What color socks are you wearing: white trainer socks
[ 10 ] What's under your bed: rubbish from my dog - she nicks empty crisp packets etc. and stuffs em under there
[ 11 ] What time did you wake up today: 10:50
[ 12 ] Current taste: Sainsbury's orange,mango and peach crush
[ 13 ] Current hair: gay
[ 14 ] Current clothes: Jeans, white tee
[ 15 ] Current annoyance: tiredness
[ 16 ] Current longing: to be with someone
[ 17 ] Current desktop picture: Anime Desktop
[ 18 ] Current worry: whether to cut my hair or not...
[ 19 ] Current hate: Menstruation of the male race...yes thats right i said male
[ 20 ] Current favorite article of clothing: probs me big comfy jumper or my PTW tee ooo and my fata tee
[ 21 ] Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: hands, eyes
[ 22 ] Last CD that you listened to: ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Shai Hulud
[ 23 ] Favorite place to be: my bed or over my park on a sunny day or wherever i can see the special someone
[ 24 ] Least favorite place: my house particularly my lounge at about 2 in the morning lol
[ 25 ] Time you wake up in the morning: usually 12-1 ish...if ur v v v lucky...11
[ 26 ] If you could play an instrument, what would it be: geetar
[ 27 ] Favorite color: purple
[ 28 ] Do you believe in an afterlife: yes but whether i believe the same thing as u do i do not know. Something happens simple as.
[ 29 ] How tall are you: 5ft 8-9inches
[ 30 ] Current favorite word/saying: oi nah
[ 31 ] Favorite book: erm..................................... ........his dark materials trilogy?
[ 32 ] Favorite season: spring/summer/winter/autumn...wait...i love them all for their own unique things lol
[ 33 ] One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my nan...
[ 34 ] Favorite day: Friday/Saturday

[[[ FUTURE ]]]

[ 35 ] Where do you want to go: the place where no-one else does
[ 36 ] What is your career going to be like: probs a geeky pc person who makes billions per day ...no i lied lol "hopefully" a multi millionare with a girl to be proud of like the one at the minute!
[ 37 ] How many kids do you want: erm i dno really
[ 38 ] What kind of car will you have: some old banger that gets me from A-B with a decent stereo

[[[ HAVE YOU EVER... ]]]

[Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: ] one of my dogs bites...
[ Been to New York?: ] nope - going on the 26th August with my best bud!
[ Been to Florida?: ] nope
[ San Diego, Cali?: ] nope
[ Hawaii?: ] nope
[ Mexico?: ] nope
[ China?: ] nope
[ Canada?: ] nope
[Danced naked?: ] not yet lol
[ Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day:] well yeh kinda...deja-vu i get alot
[ Wanted to be the opposite sex: ] lol erm no...breats to play with wud b entertaining for an hour or so but no lol

[[[ RANDOM ]]]


[ Do you have a crush on someone?: ] no. but i do LIKE someone a whole lot (crush sucks hence the replacement like)
[ What book are you reading now?: ] er.............anyway
[ Worst feeling in the world: ] the feeling of loss. Loss of the person u cared about most...
[ What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: ] oh shit im awake and its only 10:30...*goes back to sleep*
[ How many rings before you answer?: ] erm as many as it takes me to get to the phone?!
[ Future daughter's name: ] im 16 gimme a break
[ Future son's name: ] read above
[ Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: ] no lol i have a few though - mainly south park characters<... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2796757/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2796757/ Sat, 03 Jul 2004 17:41:24 PDT obviously and everything is well.

Thankyou

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2745745/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2745745/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 07:14:25 PDT
What is your full name? Jamie Robert Lawrence

1. Nicknames? Jamie/J/JJ

2. B-day: 26th December

4. Sex: male

5. Social Security: huh

7. What school do you attend?: Royal Grammar School (no im not gay)

8. Siblings and their ages? 2 sisters Sam and Lucie - 28 twins.

9. Pets: 3 dogs, 2 birds a few fish

10. Zodiac Sign: capricorn

11. Righty or Lefty: righty

*********YOUR LOOKS*********

12. Hair color: brown

13. Eye color: brown/green

14. Height: 5ft 8/9 i think

15. Do you wear contacts or glasses? not yet

16. Do you have any piercings?: nein - want lip

17. Where do you want more?: yehs...

18. Do you have a tattoo?: nah

19. If so what and where, if not where would you get it?: lol a tiny cross on my hand

20. Do you wear any rings?: 2 one silver i got for my 16th and one shag band lol

21.Do you have a certain fashion you follow?: my own

23. How are you today?: alright i spose, bit boreded

24. What trousers are you wearing right now?: blak fenchurch jeans...as usual lol

25. What shirt are you wearing right now?: PTW tee

26. What underwear are you wearing right now?: trader boxers

27. What does your hair look like at the moment? a poor excuse for emo hair

28. What song are u listening to right now?: Thursday - Steps Ascending

29. What was the last thing u ate ? an orange

30. How is the weather right now?: erm gettin nicer

31. Last person you talked to on the phone: Holly

32. Last Dream you can remember: lol its embarrassing isn't it holly

33. Who are you talking to right now?: no1...

34. What time is it?: 14.51

************More about YOU!*****************

35. What are the last four digits of your phone number?: 0255

36. If u were a crayon, what color would u want to be? purple

37. Have u ever almost died? yeh a couple o times

38. Do u like the person that sent u this? i wuv nic

39. How do you eat an Oreo? OREO!!! those things rule, i have a pack in the kitchen, nicest biccies ever!

40. What makes you happy? ross/chris/holly/mussssssssssssiiiiiiiic ccccccccccccccc

41. whats the next CD you plan to buy?: jairus

42. What religion/denomination are you?: haha!

43. What's the best advice ever given to you? life's shit then u die...enjoy it

44. Have u ever won any special awards? u tryin to say im a spastic?

45. What are your future goals? convince Chris Thurston to move back to the UK

46. Do you like to dance? if i could i would but i can't

48. What's the stupidest thing you ever done? liked a girl that didnt like me...4 times in a row lol

49. What's your favourite memory? tooooooooo many

50. If you could change 1 thing bout yourself what would it be? everything? lol

51. Where do you shop the most?: Scorpion? lol i dno

52. How many kids do you want to have? i dno...like 2 or 3 maybe not even that i dno1!!!

54. Daughter's names? Fred and Barry

55. Do you do drugs? nah

57. What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use?: ooo head and shoulders menthol..lol its really nice *embarrassed*

58. What sport do you hate the most?: cricket or rugby

60. How many TV's do you have in your house? errrrrrrrrrrrr...6

61. Do you have your own? ofcourse

63. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: not "with" them but yeh

64. Ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? both my ankles lol

65. Who do you dream about? holly apparently!

66. Who do you tell your dreams to? holly becos they r so weird lol

67. How many best friends do you have? i dnoooooo like 4/5 i suppose maybe 6

69. Is cheerleading a sport? why i think so yes...and that has nothing to do with the size of their skirts

*********YOU and LOVE*********

72. Do you believe in Love? yeps

73. Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend?: not yet

74. Do you have a crush?: lol yet again like everyone else says CRUSH FUCKING SUCKS! SAY SOMMIN LIKE "DO YOU LIKE ANYONE?" *coughs*...yes yes i do

76. Did you send... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2717963/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2717963/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 08:56:25 PDT Piercings = none yet...lip is planned
Tattoos = nah
Height = 5 ft 8...almost 9
Hair Color = browny shitty? lol
Length = a bollocks inbetween emo length
Eye Color = erm browny greeny
Siblings = deux twin sisters who iz 28 innit

LAST...
Movie You Rented = erm....i dont rent movies lol
Movie You Bought = LOTR boxset
Song You Listened To = Alexisonfire - Counterparts and Number Them
Song That Was Stuck In Your Head = Funeral For A Friend - Escape Artists Never Die (thanks holly! )
CD You Bought = ooooo errrrmmmm thingy...Poison The Well - Tear From The Red
CD You Listened To = Arch Enemy - Wages Of Sin
Person You've Called = holly
Person That's Called You = mummy
Person You've IMed = holly
Person That's IMed You = holly (pattern?)
TV Show You've Watched = Tim Henman ACTUALLY win for a change
Person You Were Thinking Of = Holly lol

DO...
You Have A BF Or GF = not atm
You Have A Crush On Someone = crush does suck i agree...but yes lol
You Wish You Could Live Somewhere Else = lol kind of yeh
You Think About Suicide = before
You Believe In Online Dating = haha! no! what a joke
Others Find You Attractive = i wish
You Want More Piercings = yar
You Drink = indeed
You Do Drugs = nah
You Like Cleaning = not like it but i clean my room....tidy freak lol
You Like Roller Coasters = i most certainly do!
You Write In Cursive or Print = erm...
You Carry A Donor Card = lol no i wanna die a happy man

FOR OR AGAINST...
Long Distance Relationships = yeh depends who it is
Using Someone = against
Killing People = for
Teenage Smoking = for
Doing Drugs = against kinda
Premarital Sex = for mwaha
Driving Drunk = against
Gay/Lesbian Relationships = lol ewww
Pop Music = for bitch

FAVORITE AT THE MOMENT...
Food = pasta/chinese/anything fattening lol
Song = Atreyu - Deanne The Arsonist
Thing To Do= lol yes! sleep!
Thing To Talk About = girls (hehehehehehehehehehehehehe)
Sports = football
Drinks = anything
Clothes = big baggy hoody and jeans
Movie = se7en eh holly lol
Band/Singer = WAY too many!
Holiday = summer
Cars = Lotus Elise

HAVE YOU...
Ever Cried Over A Girl = too many times
Ever Been In A Fist Fight = well yeh
Ever Been Arrested = nah cautioned not arrested

WHAT...
Shampoo Do You Use = head and shoulders menthol stuff....makes ur head go cold
Facial cleanser Do You Use = erm face wipe thingies
Perfume Do You Use = tommy hilfiger stuff
Shoes Do You Wear = big old ADIO's sometimes adidas trainers lol
What Are You Scared Of = spiders!

NUMBER...
Of feet/inches your closet is wide = erm...fits my clothes in it
Quantity of space your clothes fill in your closet = yeh like all of it
Of Times I Have Been In Love = i dont think ive been in love yet...maybe like a bit close to once but nah.
Of Times I Have Had My Heart Broken = erm...*counts* like 5
Of Hearts I Have Broken = none i hope...if i have im sorry!
Of Continents I Have Lived In = 1
Of Drugs Taken Illegally = 0
Of People I Would Classify As True, Could Trust With My Life Type Friends = i reckon about erm hmmm like 6?

Ross
Chris
Alex
Holly
Luke
James

Of People I Consider My Enemies = Alex Round lol
Of Times My Name Has Appeared In The Newspaper = a couple
Of Scars On My Body = like 5 i think
Of Things In My Past That I Regret = oooo quite alot indeed...
Scent = man?
Word = Spuddage!
Nickname = Jamie/J/Spastic/Dickhead (thx dad)/winkle (Bex and my sisters)
Guy Name = Jamie...lol...
Girl Name = i dno
Eye Color = brown/green
Flower = rose
Piercing = lip, eyebrows
Actor = erm Turkish from Snatch!!! what a dude
Actress = Kate Beckinsale *drools*

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
Pretty = lol nah
Funny = i hope so
Hot = nahhhh
Friendly = i think so
Amusing = Ali!!!
Ugly = lol i hope not :S
Loveable = im a softy really
... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2679948/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2679948/ Thu, 17 Jun 2004 04:56:22 PDT

AGE: 16, 17 in December

SEX: Well you know they call me Jamie Von Huge Penis

FAVOURITE COLOUR: Purple

HAIR COLOUR: Brown...bollocks really! Plans to be black mwaha

FAVOURITE SONG AT THE MINUTE: *takes out some old CDs as of recently* Thrice - To Awake And Avenge The Dead

FAVOURITE OLDY SONG: Duran Duran - Ordinary World

SONG PLAYING AT THE MINUTE: Alexisonfire - 49. Caliber Love Letter

MOST EMBARASSING SINGLE EVER BOUGHT: ummm...i don't buy singles lol

MOST COMMONLY USED PHRASE: meh

MOST HATED WORDs: lol?

MOST FAVOURITE WORDS: death,gore,tick,blapse,safe,innit,bo,tec hno,corpse *sticks thumb up*

Nicked once again from:

Nic[k] and Bex

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2648880/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2648880/ Sun, 13 Jun 2004 07:30:12 PDT eimaj...ewww i sound foreign

[The story behind your pen name]:
pen name...thats a new one...toobadyourbeautiful i use for alot becos its me fav from autumn to ashes album!

[3 words that sum you up]:
simple,complex,emo lol

{DESCRIBE YOUR}

[Wallet]:
its blue, volcom wallet with aload of random crap in includin photos etc.

[Pillow cover]:
er...the thing i put my head on?

[Coffee cup]:
erm...dont like coffee

[Shoes]:
some old ADIO's which are now black from sitting on swings lol i blame Holly only jokin

[CD in stereo right now]:
i dont use it, i play music out my PC which is playing Killswitch Engage - My Last Serenade

[What are you are wearing now]:
me shorts and me fata shirt.

[Hair]:
emooooooo

[In my mouth]:
erm lol that sounds quite dodgy meh nothin atm, was about 30mins ago a bacon sarnie

[In my head]:
bwains

[Eating]:
nothing atm

[Some of your favorite movies]:
pulp fiction, donnie darko, resevoir dogs, fight club

[Something you're looking forward to]:
KSE gig at the Astoria...thats aboot it lol...oooo Bex's partay!!!

[The last thing you ate?]:
bacon sarnie

[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]:
being buried alive *quivers*

[Do you like candles?]:
yes! I got some new ones the other day

[Do you believe in a thing called love]:
indeed but the darkness must not live

[Do you believe in soul mates?]:
i do indeed

[Do you believe in love at first sight]:
i do indeed

[Do you believe in forgiveness]:
yes

[If you could have any animal for a pet]:
i have 3 dogs, 2 birds and some fish...humour me

[What are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to?]:
USA...iAM going there to live simple as, erm (blame) Canada and Gran Canaria!!

[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]
Crisps and Blue Ribbond chocie bars

[What's something you wish you could understand better?]:
the ladies

[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time? :]
Chris Thurston....i luv that guy

{In the last 24 hours, have you:}

[Cried:]
nope

[Gotten sick:]
almost

[Sang:]
lol yes

[Eaten:]
loads

[Felt stupid:]
yep

[hugged someone:]
not enough

[Wanted to tell someone you loved them:]
i dno

[Met someone new]:
nah

[Talked to someone you have a crush on:]
lol "crush" well yeh

[Fought with your parents:]
nah i wuv em

Dreamed about someone you can't be with:]
always

[Are you center of attention or the wallflower:]
wallllflower...and the thing thats below that too

[What type of automobile do you drive:]
i dno by december twill be something fit for the road though.

[Would u rather be with friends or on a date:]
depends who the date is and who the friends are!

[Do you attend church:]
never have never will \m/

[Do you like being around people:]
depends what mood im in but yeh

[Who have you known the longest:]
lol i dno probs Ben the big ol softy metaller

[Who do you always get along with:]
Ross luv ya man

[Who has the coolest siblings?]
i dno! Holly's sister sounds cool!

[Who is the smartest:]
Sam!

[Who is your Hero:]
dont have one

[Who is your rival:]
dont have one

[What time is it now:]
15:29

[What are you planning to do later:]
BBQ and watch the FOOTBALL! COME ON ENGLAND YOU FAGS!!!! HESKEY FOR PRESIDENT...ewwww

[What do you hear right now?:]
Killswitch Engage still!

[What was the last thing you watched on T.V.:]
erm like i dno S... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2645385/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2645385/ Sat, 12 Jun 2004 18:04:35 PDT thx for your support anyway! Im great and hope to be greater...

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2602644/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2602644/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 10:48:11 PDT
I'm not really sad anymore! Iam a very happy Jamie finally and yeh

J

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- Nic(k)! - Bex! - Jamz! - Lucas! - Holly! ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2579711/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2579711/ Fri, 04 Jun 2004 05:32:42 PDT You must listen to them or face eternal hell!...or just listen to other crap music i suppose...hmm...babbling about shit again sorry!

J

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- Nic(k)! - Bex! - Jamz! - Lucas! - Holly! ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2571888/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2571888/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 04:54:14 PDT
-theresdeathintheseclutchedhands-

J

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- - - - ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2552167/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2552167/ Mon, 31 May 2004 17:18:44 PDT No
Do
Hearts
Bleeding
Hearts
Do
No
Good

J

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- - - - ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2544113/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2544113/ Sun, 30 May 2004 16:39:52 PDT
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT:5 ft 8 and a bit i think
HAIR COLOR: Brown
EYE COLOR: Brown *yawns*

PIERCINGS: None yet...the lip and ear are planned
TATTOOS: nah

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: erm hang on *checks out underwear* Black Boxer Shorts from Marks n Sparks!

WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO: Killswitch Engage - My Last Serenade
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Fanta
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE? I dunno its dark...


d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nah not really, only on stupidly long journey's

HAVE A BAD HABIT?: not really

LIKE TO DRIVE?: lol i suppose...aint that great though

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Music TV

CONDITIONER: Whats that
BOOK: ...
MAGAZINE: dont be silly
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Fanta Lemon!
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: JD...Sherry
THING TO DO ON WEEKENDS: erm drink,smoke,rag...lol u know
BAND/S: u r joking right? ok just for the benefit of this (mwaha) iam going to list a few of my favourites:

Atreyu
AFI
ashopedies
Arch Enemy
Brand New
Chimaira
Days Of Grace
Emery
ENTER SHIKARI
From Autumn To Ashes
Funeral For A Friend
Hopes Fall
In Flames
InMe
Iron Maiden
Killswitch Engage
Lost Prophets
mahumodo
Pitchblend
Poison The Well
Shai Hulud
Shels
Slipknot
Thursday
The Used

Well there's a few...not many though.


h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: haven't we all
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nooooo...i actually like my parents *shock horror* wow what
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: nope
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: lol yes
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: with permission yeh?

SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE:nope
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: not really, dont wanna drown
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: sadly
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: anytime

o t h e r s

BOYFRIEND:fucking hope not

GIRLFRIEND: pah dont be silly...*lowers head*
CHILDREN: no...never
CURRENT CRUSH: yes.

BEEN IN LOVE?: i dont know, ive been torn so many times i dont know what love is anymore.

HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: dont even start...

BEEN HURT?: quite obvious
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: a few...

GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE
DAYS: no
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: dont use my CD player - use my PC
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: red

WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY? music is the only thing worth smiling for

WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST? the girl i dont have...

WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: Poison The Well - comes on Tuesday

WHO DO YOU CONSIDER A REALLY GOOD FRIEND? ALOT of people...to shorten it :

Ross
Ben
Chris
Luke
Kirsty
JAMZ

WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: drink,draw,*listen to music*,make graphics,go to gigs,be cared for
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: ...earlier...
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: .
YOU GOT E-MAIL: .
THING YOU PURCHASED: gum
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: .

MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: .

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
TEENAGE SMOKING: doesnt everyone smoke?

SPICE GIRLS: Gorerotted:
DREAMS: im a guy...lol

J

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a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT:5 ft 8 and a bit i think
HAIR COLOR: Brown
EYE COLOR: Brown *yawns*

PIERCINGS: None yet...the lip and ear are planned
TATTOOS: nah

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: erm hang on *checks out underwear* Black Boxer Shorts from Marks n Sparks!

WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO: Killswitch Engage - My Last Serenade
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Fanta
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE? I dunno its dark...


d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nah not really, only on stupidly long journey's

HAVE A BAD HABIT?: not really

LIKE TO DRIVE?: lol i suppose...aint that great though

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Music TV

CONDITIONER: Whats that
BOOK: ...
MAGAZINE: dont be silly
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Fanta Lemon!
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: JD...Sherry
THING TO DO ON WEEKENDS: erm drink,smoke,rag...lol u know
BAND/S: u r joking right? ok just for the benefit of this (mwaha) iam going to list a few of my favourites:

Atreyu
AFI
ashopedies
Arch Enemy
Brand New
Chimaira
Days Of Grace
Emery
ENTER SHIKARI
From Autumn To Ashes
Funeral For A Friend
Hopes Fall
In Flames
InMe
Iron Maiden
Killswitch Engage
Lost Prophets
mahumodo
Pitchblend
Poison The Well
Shai Hulud
Shels
Slipknot
Thursday
The Used

Well there's a few...not many though.


h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: haven't we all
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nooooo...i actually like my parents *shock horror* wow what
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: nope
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: lol yes
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: with permission yeh?

SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE:nope
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: not really, dont wanna drown
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: sadly
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: anytime

o t h e r s

BOYFRIEND:fucking hope not

GIRLFRIEND: pah dont be silly...*lowers head*
CHILDREN: no...never
CURRENT CRUSH: yes.

BEEN IN LOVE?: i dont know, ive been torn so many times i dont know what love is anymore.

HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: dont even start...

BEEN HURT?: quite obvious
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: a few...

GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE
DAYS: no
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: dont use my CD player - use my PC
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: red

WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY? music is the only thing worth smiling for

WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST? the girl i dont have...

WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: Poison The Well - comes on Tuesday

WHO DO YOU CONSIDER A REALLY GOOD FRIEND? ALOT of people...to shorten it :

Ross
Ben
Chris
Luke
Kirsty


WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: drink,draw,*listen to music*,make graphics,go to gigs,be cared for
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: last night. i was pissed and emotional and we drove past my old house. it just bought back a loada memories that im trying to forget.
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: a real one? i got a quiz from some council person today on what transport i take to school *peers at it in bin*
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today! Bexuk22, free viagra!.....fuck off!
THING YOU PURCHASED: prom dress!
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: some dance contest on tv...its so funny, celebs have no sense of rhythm.

MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: i havent been for ages!!! like....years.

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
TEENAGE SMOKING: ah go for it. u wana kill ureselves, least ure having fun doing it.

SPICE GIRLS: haha, i was obsessed *still knows all the words* now they is...well...bit outa date tbh.
DREAMS: show you all the things you want...and poke fun at you afterwards because its all an illusion.

J

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J

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and for those who are nice......thankyou

J

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]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2436006/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2436006/ Sat, 15 May 2004 17:43:59 PDT
Pardon Me
Nice To Know You
Circles
Stellar
I Miss You
Privelage

I cannot believe they didn't play Pardon Me, everyone knows that song...i almost cried lol but nevertheless the were amazing and i suppose i hadda great night. Well now got achey legs so gonna go rest the bastards in my comfy bed lol

Love To All

x

J

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IfIEverMeetThePerfectGirlIWillTakeHerHan dUnderTheStars ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2401153/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2401153/ Mon, 10 May 2004 17:31:55 PDT
x Thankyou x

J

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IfIEverMeetThePerfectGirlIWillTakeHerHan dUnderTheStars ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2391336/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2391336/ Sun, 09 May 2004 10:18:33 PDT can't wait. Anyway thanx for reading if you actually bothered lol.

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J

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IfIEverMeetThePerfectGirlIWillTakeHerHan dUnderTheStars ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2377196/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2377196/ Fri, 07 May 2004 07:04:18 PDT
Hmmm...I Break In Two Over You...

J

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IfIEverMeetThePerfectGirlIWillTakeHerHan dUnderTheStars ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2364151/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2364151/ Wed, 05 May 2004 09:04:45 PDT For now all i ahve to do is sit here all day every day doing nothing...well checking this account constantly for any feedback lol.

J

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IfIEverMeetThePerfectGirlIWillTakeHerHan dUnderTheStars ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2360954/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2360954/ Tue, 04 May 2004 18:57:00 PDT MUSIC: Shai Hulud - Two And Twenty Misfortunes
MOOD: Cant Sleep/Tired lol


I'm in a creative mood...kind of, im in the type of mood where u feel like doing some really cool things but don't know what to do lol. Oh well. I'm getting ready to start my gig rampage! On the 10th im at Thursday, the 15th Incubus and then the 29th Funeral For A Friend, plus Killswitch and Shai Hulud in June. That should be fun! I'm alot better i suppose i have kinda figured things out AT LAST i hear u say yes yes its all true, and i'm happy with my decision. Now i wanna know if you can use HTML tags in these journal entries, so if a load of random crap appears on your screen between brackets like these <> don't worry its code that this doesn't recognise!

Love as always

J
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dA ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2325646/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2325646/ Thu, 29 Apr 2004 17:22:01 PDT MOOD : OK...pretty emo but happy emo


Well everyone - i'm ok! Well for those that care anyway lol. I have kinda figured out my problem i suppose! and well yeh Jamz helped alot - for you man thanks alot - and well im chilled now, and up and ready for anything...after what i've been through everything else seems kinda easy...sadly lol. I'm up for a packed weekend too, and looking forward to seeing a few people i haven't seen in a while which is cool. I will keep writing and drawing as long as i shall live - and thats a promise.




IfIEverMeetThePerfectGirlIWillTakeHerHan dUnderTheStars... ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2323415/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2323415/ Thu, 29 Apr 2004 11:28:03 PDT ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2319403/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2319403/ Wed, 28 Apr 2004 18:52:22 PDT MOOD : Mellow/Acceptance

Well time to move on, forget the past and give deep thought to the future. My problems are far from solved but im learning to accept them more and move on. Thanks to everyone who posted positive comments about my work, and thankyou to every girl that broke my heart and thus enspired my poetry love to you all

J
x ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2310203/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2310203/ Tue, 27 Apr 2004 14:11:02 PDT MOOD: Slightly pissed off/fed up/bored

Meh i dunno, just felt like writing here again i suppose. I just want everyone who looks at my page to know how much everything here means to me. My music and my art,poems and lyrics and 4 of the things that give me release at most when im down or pissed off. They really help me release extreme tension from myself. Think what you will of eveything here, but just remember how much it means to me...as long as you respect that, i respect and welcome all comments

J
x ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2309299/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2309299/ Tue, 27 Apr 2004 11:56:31 PDT Bexyboo

HAVE YOU EVER...

Been so drunk you blacked out? not yet...lol

Set a body part on fire for amusement? Greg's Hair lol

Been hurt emotionally? ...Too many times to count

Kept a secret from everyone? yes, quite a significant one

Had an imaginary friend? lol not that i remember

Wanted to get together with a friend? yeh actually

Had a crush on a teacher? lol Mrs Edwards...thats a fine piece o ass!!!

Ever thought an animated character was hot? Misty lol

Had a New Kids on the Block tape? hoo? ...no

Cut your own hair? lol never had the guts


Been sarcastic? All the time lol

---------------FAVOURITES--------------- ---

Shampoo? The stuff thats in my shower!?


Hair Colour? Brown...might turn black mystically sometime soon


Part of the world? America

Summer/Winter? summer...definitely summer

Cartoon character? Misty lol


Fave Food? i love everything mon...mainly pasta and chinese though! :S top banana

Fave movies? ok heres a list lol

Pulp Fiction
Resevoir Dogs
Snatch
Lock Stock & 2 Smoking Barrels
Donnie Darko
Bring It On
The Matrix etc.etc.



Fave 'normal' drink? erm...juice or coke probs


Fave Person to talk to on-line? erm probs luke or izzy


------------------RIGHT NOW------------------

Wearing? some random white tee and some big ol baggy trousers

Hair is? everywhere lol


I'm feeling? pissed off and confused...

Drinking? lemon squash lol

Thinking about? a girl

And Listening to? Killswitch Engage - Rose Of Sharyn (yes again)


Talking to? erm...izzy,chloe,ashleen,bex,luke,sophie

Watching? simpsons


------------------IN THE LAST 24HOURS------------------

Cried? yes...*blushes*


Worn a skirt? ...?

Met someone new? Jammo's random mates! lol

Cleaned your room? made my bed if that counts lol

Done Laundry? get real lol

Drove a car? lol nah

------------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------

Yourself? at times...

Your friends? more than anything

Fate? yes

Angels? nah


Ghosts? yep...my mum told me my house has spirits!

UFO's? yeh

------------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------

Do you fancy someone? yes...as usual someone i cant have...*wipes away dry tear*

Who's the loudest? Keith

Who's the shyest? Ross

Who's the weirdest? erm...Nic with his Shaka Hislop obsession lol

Who do you go to for advice? my diary

Who do you cry to? myself....

What's the best feeling in the world? love/being with the person u care about most

mwaha cheers for a look looking!!! J xxx ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2307965/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2307965/ Tue, 27 Apr 2004 05:50:45 PDT MOOD : Confused/Annoyed

Well i was all A-ok but im not now lol. I'm sat at home bored as bollocks and i can't go back to school until they have re-arranged my timetable in a way that fits me into all of my GCSE subjects (I was ill for ages and the school's only option was to put me back a year so i could have a proper go at my GCSE's). So im stuck here, with mayhem in the house, as my cousin from Canada and her boyfriend are staying here at the minute, which means my sisters and most of my family are around most of the time to see them. Not my favoured scenario but oh well.
That really isn't the big thing though lol i don't really care about any of that, the only thing that bothers me, is the main feeling that is fixated in my head, about a girl...all us guys know it all too well, and the problem is, when you want something you can't have...you want it even more, and thats the paradox im stuck in.
I'm gonna find it hard to get out of it and i don't really want to get out of it because she is so overwhelming, sometimes it makes me feel good to think about her. Well i dunno, i will post again laters...


J
xxx ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2301025/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2301025/ Mon, 26 Apr 2004 08:08:27 PDT MOOD : Melodic

Well i sorted out everything pretty much and im not confused anymore Everything is looking up and the dates of my month full of gigs are rapidly approaching! I'm on the positive and i hope everyone else is too

J
xxxx ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2293528/ http://toobadyourbeautiful.deviantart.com/journal/2293528/ Sun, 25 Apr 2004 06:41:42 PDT
25/04/2004 ]]> ~toobadyourbeautiful