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deviantART: by:toppie-sfb http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:toppie-sfb&section=today deviantART RSS for by:toppie-sfb en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 20 Dec 2009 01:08:33 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png I love art. http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/26317517/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/26317517/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 12:17:14 PDT And I want to start doing photo manips again. I'm not sure how this plan is going to work out as of right now, but I'm going to try. And just a question... do any of you know of any ACTIVE Academies that teach horse manips? I'm very out of practice and every uninspired, but I really need to get my technique back. Send me links

I've done a lot of growing up. Time to get to work.

]]> ~toppie-sfb I lose. http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/24946131/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/24946131/ Mon, 25 May 2009 15:53:17 PDT When I say that "I lose," I mean that I am a loser. I have not made any art in five months. I feel so stupid. This is the first time that I have even logged onto deviantart since Christmas. So, now I am looking at my journal history on the right and I see that I have posted around 5 journals per year, which is quite embarrassing. I have done a lot of old stuff that I would like to put up. There has been a big mixture, and some of it might suck but I don't think that I care.

My year has not gone as I wanted it to. I have gotten D's on my report cards - which is something that has never happened to me since I am a self-proclaimed nerd. I think that I'm just lazy. I want all of this year to be erased so far, I have done nothing productive. I am also currently crazy about this guy who I have talked to... what? I think four or five times. And now summer is here, and I'm still not expecting much of myself.

I'm beginning to think that I will never amount to anything. I had always thought that I was going to be the one in my family to get out there, earn a full scholarship to college and blow the world away. Boy, I was wrong. I like who I am as a person, but I really am nothing special. I have nothing to offer anyone expect that I am different. I'm not enormously talented like all of you on here. I am not exceptionally smart like most of the people that go to my private school. I am not good at talking to guys, I am not super friendly and nice. I am the essence of what it means to be average.

Anyway, after all this random ranting I feel like I am going to go and post some stuff that I will probably regret later. Just so that I can put something up.

I bet no one read this anyway,
Toppie

]]> ~toppie-sfb Photography? http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/21549694/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/21549694/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 12:02:26 PST Today I slept fifteen hours. I have never done that in my life.

Okay, well besides that I was wondering if I could get your opinion of what to do. See, I'm really mainly doing photography now. I actually completed a manip for Halloween but I didn't upload it because it stinks. Anyway... most of my work is on flickr, like I stated in my last journal. I don't really like re-posting the same things to different sites but since my account has been dead pretty much forever, I think that I want to post some of my photography up on this account. What do you guys think? Eh, I'm going to do it anyway. Who knows, it might help out my page views.

Secondly, I'm starting a stock account which is still image-less (I have not had time to upload anything). Once I get a lot of stuff up on there I will post the link so some of you can have it at your disposal.

Thirdly, I guess that I should update you all on what is going on in my life. In school, I am currently at the back of the car hanging on for my dear life. I guess that I'm in a slump. I love change, I need it. My school does not offer my any change. When I start to get bored I slack off. So... thats what is happening.
With the horses, I thought that I should mention that I moved on to a different horse and he is pretty awesome. He has the smoothest trot that you have ever felt for such a big fat guy. But he's pretty green, he likes to rush and hates rein contact (good combination, right?) so I just sort of have to use my legs and thats it. He has tons of quirks too and it gets really... interesting.

By the way, I am really dying for a big fat print to put on my wall for Christmas. So I think that I'm going to splurge and get something awesome for myself from deviantart

I can't wait.

So, look out for my photography!

Torrie

]]> ~toppie-sfb Canon! http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/19052862/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/19052862/ Thu, 26 Jun 2008 08:11:21 PDT Well, I had written more but my computer just deleted it all. So I guess I'll sum up what I had put.

Muse isn't here for photo manips.
I just got my Canon 400D though. And I love it.

I've been more on flickr lately because of this.
So to contact me to go to my flickr account.
[link] <- that is the link.

I don't know what is up with the computer.

When I went to change the mood it deleted all of the text. It reset the page. Hmmm. Glitch maybe.

]]> ~toppie-sfb I am alive/tagged http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/18384212/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/18384212/ Sun, 18 May 2008 14:01:50 PDT I think that it's really funny that I have to keep posting these journals to say that I am still living.

As for whats going on with me - I have finals in two weeks so I will be studying my butt off. Then hopefully, over the summer I can actually get on and make something. Though, latley my muse has been channeled into writing... hmm. Maybe you'll get to see it on shelves one day?

If I can persevere through, if it's actually good, if people actually like it, and if I actually get it publish. Which would be very, very had. So, don't count on it anytime lately... but I can still dream, right?

Drop me a note or comment, I've been gone for a while and would like to know what's going on with you guys.

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Tagged by ~jumperkins

Random:
1) I almost never have dreams. I only have them (or remember) one a month.
2) I really wish that I was a readhead.
3) I've never had a boyfriend. Or been kissed.
4) I am really light sensitive. I cannot sleep if there is any sound or light.
5) I say some pretty stupid things. And use sarcasm a lot.
6) I get jealous easily.
7) I get fixated on the future, and forget about the present.
8) Every second of the day I am questioning 'the system.' Like why things happen the way they do. Why can't we just change them?

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

Tagged:
~Dordo
*inPrint
~verdades
~xxflawless-dreams
=Jaclyn-BM
*Shadehkins
~xVenoms-DreamZx
*percara

]]> ~toppie-sfb Seriously cleaning up. http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/16669694/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/16669694/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 06:22:40 PST My gallery was horrible, just a mix and match of stuff. Half of it wasn't looked at and half of it I didn't like, so I got rid of half of it. I'm sorry if you were one of the few people that actually liked those few, but now I'm happier. It's like a fresh start. I will be updating my ID because I also hate that picture.

It was really getting to me that my stuff isn't being looked at. I mean, I sort of like what I make... other people just suddenly get all these views and watchers even though they haven't been on as long as I have. I guess that it's sort of getting me down.

I wish that I had time to make more stuff to update my gallery, but I don't.

]]> ~toppie-sfb I'm actually posting a journal? http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/16570368/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/16570368/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 17:46:52 PST Apparently I am!

It has been another many months since I created another manip, but I have created another two. You can see and comment them here: [link] & [link]

Its seeming to be really hard to take myself away from school. I'm only just still making A's and B's. I got a D and two C+'s on my Midterms so I'm really happy that I actually scraped out to B in those classes. Out of school, I've joined the musical and we're practicing almost every day from 3:00 to 4:30. (I usually don't get home until 5, so don't try to reach me then.)

Otherwise, I haven't ridden in about two months now, which sucks. My limbs are going to die when I get back on. I'm getting my braces late. Everyone is going to get theirs off, and I'm getting mine on. In March. The day after my birthday. My sister in 7th grade is getting hers before me.

Well, hope you're doing good.

Torrie

]]> ~toppie-sfb Well... here I am... alive http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/14871636/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/14871636/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 14:12:42 PDT I know that no one reads these. And thats okay. But I'm just really bored of the thing from last year still be up. As you can tell (if anyone even cares) I have not created anything in a couple months. I have not been on deviantart in a couple months. I am very busy with school - as in, I'm supposed to be on the computer doing homework right now. But again, if you care, I am still alive and I will try to make something soon. My muse has fizzled out with a snap crackle and a pop, but I can still do a bad job if I really want to make something, which I do. Maybe next week because I have a long weekend. Anyway, I hope you guys have enjoyed seeing that I'm alive. Adios. Chao. Hasta la vista. Hasta luego. Tengo que irme. Buenos noches. <3

]]> ~toppie-sfb Oh , yeah!! http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/13140102/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/13140102/ Tue, 29 May 2007 15:33:01 PDT I cannot believe that school is almost out. I am... almost fainting with excitement. I am screaming along to My Chemical Romance and have this excited, hyper feeling in my stomach. Today we got our class shirts, and tomorrow is out class trip to Busch Gardens! We have to be at school at 6:45 in the morning [it usually starts at 8:00] and we will be getting on the bus at 7:00am. It will be just so much fun. I am planning on riding so many fast rides that I would never go on and trying as hard as I can not to throw up. YEAH! I am just so excited I could never sit down and make a picture right now. In fact, I really need to go and charge my MP3 and put some more songs on it. Songs that make me feel pumped! Woot! Only two more days!

-parties-

]]> ~toppie-sfb Social h e r m i t. [yeah, me] http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/13091953/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/13091953/ Fri, 25 May 2007 17:48:51 PDT This has to be the... fourth...? dance that I've sat out this year. I do not get along with people, I can not dance, I do not know the songs, I never have a date... therefore I refuse to go. If I do, I just make a fool out of myself. It is the last dance of the year, and I know that I definitely should have gone, because this might be my last time to see these people ever again. Especially if we move, and the possibility is definitely getting up there. My dad has been asked to come to an 8 hour long interview in Rhode Island the day of my class trip.

I keep telling myself that I will not cry, no matter what happens on graduation day. But, I know that I will. And I hate that. Its not my fault that I've been with the same people since 1st grade. Its really scary, because -most of you don't know this- I've been going to Catholic School of my entire life, and next year I will be going to a public school where I know almost no one. All the rest of my friends from this year are heading onto this Catholic College Prep school that I wanted to go to, but that was waaaay too expensive. So, goodbye to all of them. It also doesn't help that my best friend is moving to Germany, and I might be moving to a new state with almost no time at all the get used to things. We would have to move this summer, and it will be really, really hard, to say that least. Basically, I'm feeling down in the dumps now because I promised myself that I would go to this dance and I didn't. Now, I'm SO wishing that I did.

I would be in an ugly out-of-style outfit, dancing in a way that makes everyone laugh at me, and running the bathroom whenever a slow song came on to keep this one guy who I'm scared of from asking me to dance with him. And yet, I really wish that I was there with my friends who I will only see for another three days. I think that I might cry as I'm writing this. I hate myself for not going. I WANT to dance strangely and go then up to the cutest guy and see if he will dance with me. I don't care if he says no. I want to be with my FRIENDS. Ugg, I hate myself. I think that I will go and make a picture to reflect my mood. Or you know, I'll probably do the worse thing and go and wallow in myself-pity. Yeah, sounds like a plan to me.

]]> ~toppie-sfb Feeling Literary http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/12877027/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/12877027/ Mon, 07 May 2007 14:34:42 PDT
This caused me to put down the word "somnambulatory" as one that I did not know. This was used in describing how Mr. Wolfsheim looked at a particular time. I looked it up in the dictionary and it was not there. I then looked it up in the define: somnambulatory at GOOGLE and when I didn't find it there, I went to dictionary.com and it still was not there. Of course, while I was bored of looking things up, I started flipping through my journal and came up with a few poems that I thought that I might post. I haven't posted anything literary yet, to I might have to ask someone how to do that upload, but I know that I will post a couple that I enjoy. So, I guess that a couple of you can be looking out for some of those soon ^^. Once I figure it out of course

]]> ~toppie-sfb Great Stocks http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/12434220/ http://toppie-sfb.deviantart.com/journal/12434220/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 17:18:34 PDT