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-that everything will be alright,

-that i've been lazy,

-the world will always be full of screw ups,

-i'm gonna be rich in the next five years,

-as days go by i'll be a better person,

-i need to find a job asap!,

-when we need to decide on something, God gives us signs to choose the best choice but we ignore them,

-i like someone right now,

-i'm bored as hell!

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PRAY FOR ME WILL YOU.

]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/6869021/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/6869021/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 22:35:04 PDT ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5624309/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5624309/ Sun, 12 Jun 2005 04:32:57 PDT when i'm bound to you...
i feel so free...

~ Barbie Almalbis ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5548338/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5548338/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 02:55:24 PDT Birthdate: Sept. 28
Current Location: Philippines
Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: black
Height: 5'10"
Righty or Lefty: ambidextrous
Zodiac sign: Libra
My heritage: Filipino

Do I...

Swear: HELL YEAH!
Sing: yeah
Take a shower everyday: yeah
Have a crush: yeah
Go to college: currently enrolled
Want to get married: YES someday.
Get motion sickness: nope
Think I'm attractive: isn't that irrelevant?
Play an instrument: guitar, bass, percussion, drums,a bit of the violin, kubing(filipino ethnic instrument)
Have a job: currently unemployed

Have I...

Been on stage: more times than I can count.
Been dumped: once...
Made homemade cookies: yep.
Dyed my hair: once...
Stolen anything: a chewing gum at a grocery store when i was 7 or 8, a 1000 peso bill to my mom when i was atleast 12 or 13 i think, and several pens from highschool on accident.
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: hell yeah!
Been caught "doing something": nope
Been called a tease: sometimes
Changed who I was to fit in: once, and I changed right the hell back
Ran away from home: nah...i tried...but ended up unpacking my frickin things
Used my parents' credit card before: no...
Skipped school before: way too many times
Ever loved someone so much it made me cry: yes..i almost killed myself
Ever Lied: ...yes...
Sat on the Internet all night waiting for someone to IM you: yep
Saved internet conversations: nope
Fallen for my best friend of the opposite sex: once...it didn't work out..
Ever been rejected: uhhh...i guess...no...yeah surprising isnt' it?!

My best...

Articles of clothing: jeans, shirt, snickers
First date location: they all ended up in a complete disaster..!
First kiss location: somewhere private
Physical feature: my hands... i guess..

The last time I...

Cried: when my grandma died
Got e-mail/text message: today
Purchased something: last week (blank cd's)
Watched TV: this morning, 48 - fighting temptations
Saw a movie in the theater: last wednesday - a lot like love

Right now...

What song am I listening to?:matchbook romance - lovers&liars
What taste is in my mouth?: toothpaste

I...

HAVE: a bunch of important things to do that i'm not doing
HATE: backstabbers, racists, liars, pretenders
FEAR: of losing someone that i love
HEAR: carpenters working across the street
WONDER: what i will do after college
REGRET: absolutely nothing.
ALWAYS: rendevous
CRY: when i feel like drying
CONFUSE: no one.
Would like to die like this: saving someones life...
Would most like to do this when I grow up: travel the world
Would most like to visit: europe & mexico
Need more than anything: water and food

The last person I...

Touched: my mom
Hugged: my mom
IM'ed: Marqus
Yelled at: jek my brother

My...

Favorite food: Mexican, Italian, japanese, chinese, filipino, etc.
Favorite color: gray...
Favorite movie: neverending story 1,2,3,...and so many more
Weaknesses: technology(gadgets), camera, guitar
Perfect pizza:18" thin crust,peperroni, mushrooms, green bell pepper, stuffed crust, ground beef, olives, all kinds of cheese!
Most overused phrase on MSN: "omg" or "lol"
Thoughts first waking up: "what time is it?"

Am I...

Friendly: yes
Emotionally Stable: Yes.... i think...yeah...
Shy: in large groups, I tend to be the listener.but, perhaps not out of shyness. I can be perceived so.
Messy: yeah sometimes
Sad: most of the time
Angry: rarely
Happy: "satisfied"
Hyper: when i'm in the mood
Talkative: used to...

Love life...

girlfriend: none at the moment
Been in love: a few times
Been hurt: HELL YES!
What do you notice first?: eyes, ass, armpits, posture and carriage, body language, mysteriousness.
Who is the easiest to talk to of the opposite sex?: arvic my friend since 2nd grade.
Do you trust?: myself

Number of...

Hearts I have broken?: 1 think...but i sincerely apologized about what i did...
Drugs taken illegally: i'm clean
People I could trust with my life: myself!
CDs that I own: alot.. i don't know never counted them.
Piercings: none
Tattoos: none
Scars on my body: 2 in my face, 1 in my right hand, 3 in my left leg, 4 in my right leg
Things in my past that I regret: none

Choices...

Pepsi or Coke: water
McDonald's or Burger King: bruger k... ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5445872/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5445872/ Tue, 24 May 2005 07:35:39 PDT ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5283450/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5283450/ Fri, 06 May 2005 10:13:12 PDT
a week to go and i'm legal to drive again..my license got lost last month so...anyway its a long story...a week, a week to go...harharhar *evil laugh* tsktsk haha...see yah... ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5125831/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5125831/ Tue, 19 Apr 2005 00:17:39 PDT ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5099324/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/5099324/ Fri, 15 Apr 2005 21:38:23 PDT



currently fucked up,


TOPS - SLAVE ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4977283/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4977283/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 07:32:50 PST
there was this girl at the party that i really love and i'm really happy that i was able to dance with her even if i suck at dancing still i really loved the moment i sang a couple of songs for her...really loved the moment when she watched me play for her...i really love you...i will never forget these moments with you... "HANDS DOWN"


still waiting,

TOPS - YOUR SLAVE ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4784484/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4784484/ Fri, 11 Mar 2005 09:22:56 PST ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4767057/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4767057/ Wed, 09 Mar 2005 07:44:34 PST i'm all alone...
slently...
whispering your name...

but why do i ever feel so lonely...
with you...
but why do i ever want ...
to be with you...

don't go away...

I LOVE YOU i wanna make you smile
I LOVE YOU i wanna hold you tight
I LOVE YOU i wanna kiss you goodnight
tuck you in at night....EVERYDAY....

-TOPS~slaves of yesterday ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4697590/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4697590/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 21:58:33 PST the suspense is a thrill...
to me your feel your taste is still so clear...
i run but my legs can only take me so far...
it's beating me down, its tearing me down...

well tonight, i'm feeling emotional...
lonely here tonight, it's not helping me at all...

it doesn't make it better...
that your gone...
it doesn't ease the pain at all...
that your gone...

i scratch against the wall...
i drown myself in tears....
imagine your hold but it doesn't feel as real...
and i cry myself dry...
its all over now you'll never be around....

where do we go from here without you...
that your gone...

-UrbanDub ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4676518/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4676518/ Sat, 26 Feb 2005 10:03:10 PST

COULD SOMEBODY KILL ME NOW CAUSE I'M PROBABLY DEAD TOMMOROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4620697/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4620697/ Sat, 19 Feb 2005 08:57:48 PST ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4574774/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4574774/ Sun, 13 Feb 2005 23:12:09 PST ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4486190/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4486190/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 06:43:56 PST
Of pain the heart

To kill the soul

That burned in hell upon this world



To die

To die



To have no more pain

What a way to be



But right now

I would give all I had for you to be me ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4450874/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4450874/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 06:39:48 PST ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4443621/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4443621/ Sat, 29 Jan 2005 08:29:54 PST
just wanna thank ICE for inspiring me with her mind blowing talent in photography...haha..thanks a lot dude!!!jamming dude!!!haha... ]]> ~tops-slave http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4259492/ http://tops-slave.deviantart.com/journal/4259492/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 04:45:41 PST screaming myself senseless again.

I fell back upon my instinct,
and landed hard against my regret,
so here I am alone,
reaching -but not hard enough-
for strength.

Cold against the cement,
pale my skin looks in the pitch,
and I'm feeling so alone,
no one to hear me scream,
I'm wasted for no reason at all.

Forgive me for breaking down,
I left myself here to cry
-over and over I cry.

Rocking back and forth,
Hugging my knees close to my chest,
I realize where I am,
A decline on my worth,
But I can close my eyes,
And pretend I am just as secure as they are.

I hear the voices of the insight,
Of those who "feel my pain,"
And I feel even more alone,
Because they're nothing like me,
They're not what I need.

Constant pretending,
That I can find a better half of me.
Someone who I could care about,
Someone who could make me laugh.

I go to the window,
The dawn will come soon,
And I'll be wasted then,
As I'm wasted now,
And the cement will still be cold. ]]> ~tops-slave