http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:trigunmaxed&section=today deviantART RSS for by:trigunmaxed en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 20:36:55 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/26100281/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/26100281/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 02:45:26 PDT Couldnt think of anything witty.
So vague and open to interpretation was the next best thing.

I scrapped my last attempt at a series of works, sticking to random bouts of inspiration instead.

Thinking bout starting a new name on here.

fresh start, all that shit.

Peace.

**********
***EDIT*** I created the new profile. My new name is ~I-Am-Zem
**********

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/24930046/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/24930046/ Sun, 24 May 2009 18:52:39 PDT
SCARS: The assorted memoirs of an average teenager.

Expect the first when i finish writing it.


Peace.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/23845068/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/23845068/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 08:08:04 PDT I doubt any of you care about my emotional status, so I'll leave that for the people i push it on irl.

I have tons of poems and songs to upload.

One of them is up..... NOW.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/22534536/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/22534536/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 21:45:25 PST release the creative juices, right?

More scheisse poetry coming up.

(that was, of course, my attempt at swearing in german. babelfish pisses me off when it gives me characters that i can't type on my keyboard.)

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/21792730/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/21792730/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 23:41:46 PST
"Fuck it"

And brought back this account.

I hacked away my old watch list, and if you got this in your inbox....

It means I've kept you.

Most because I talk to you, one just because of nostalgia.
Bonus points if anyone can guess who I'm talking about.
One whole internets to the person if they guess themself and are right.

I've started writing emo poetry again.
Thats why I'm back.

I've also got some prose ideas going.
But if you know me, you know how far that will get

So....

Yeah.

Expect some depressing shit.

Expect the start of prose.

Expect the same old me.


If you're new to the program:
I'm Zack.
I write Emoetry.
If you don't like that...
Suck it.
And hit the Back button.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/17121120/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/17121120/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 17:13:44 PST TODAY'S RANT

So I'm grounded during the week until the end of the quarter.
You'll be seeing less of me on here.
Short rant today.

CURRENT WORKS

Got some poems and a short story to upload. I'll try to put all three up this weekend.

COMMISIONS/TRADES/REQUESTS

ART TRADES: OPEN, note me.
COMMISIONS: Theres really no way for you to get me teh cashes, so.... CLOSED
REQUESTS: OPEN. having a specific reason to write is always good, Note me.

MUSIC QUOTE OF THE DAY

"It's magic", she says to me.
My hand to her waist as she approaches sweetly.
It's enough when I see that look in her eyes,
It's enough for me to paralyze.

MAE

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/17015052/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/17015052/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 19:13:24 PST TODAY'S RANT
So I'm currently investing my time in one of my favorite hobbies.


Sitting on the computer hating myself and everyone else.

Not much more to tell about that.

CURRENT WORKS

nothing working on right now. Got some fiction in my head but I don't know If I'll put it down or not.

COMMISIONS/TRADES/REQUESTS

ART TRADES: OPEN, note me.
COMMISIONS: Theres really no way for you to get me teh cashes, so.... CLOSED
REQUESTS: OPEN. having a specific reason to write is always good, Note me.

MUSIC QUOTE OF THE DAY

I lost a piece of me in you, I think I left it in your arms....

BLUE OCTOBER

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/16831449/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/16831449/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 11:36:23 PST

TODAY'S RANT

I was listening to my zune library on random at Voc today,
And the song "Your Guardian Angel" by RJA came on.

This was one of the songs that described the relationship I had with someone.
This someone now doesn't even see me as a good friend.

Anyway,
I was hit with so damn many emotions and thoughts.

Thoughts about how skinny I was then.
Thoughts about how much less depressed I was then.
Thoughts about how in love I was with this girl.

It felt so real all of a sudden,
Like it had just been hours ago that I felt those things.

Half of me said that I was in love with her still,

The other half said that I was just remembering how I felt.

It made me want to write a sonnet about how fickle love can be.

Don't ask why it is going to be a sonnet. I don't know.

So. What do you think? (I'm mostly talking to you, cy. you're pretty much the only one who follows my page regularly)

Was I remembering the feeling, or am I still in love?

CURRENT WORKS

Working on the aforementioned sonnet. 2.5 quatrains completed.

COMMISIONS/TRADES/REQUESTS

ART TRADES: OPEN, note me.
COMMISIONS: Theres really no way for you to get me teh cashes, so.... CLOSED
REQUESTS: OPEN. having a specific reason to write is always good, Note me.

So who likes the structure I have now?
I might add a quote of the day or something...

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/16334277/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/16334277/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 18:09:01 PST
So heres some new stuff to talk about.

One of my new years resolutions was to stiop being bitter.

How did I start to accomplish this goal?
I started dating a friend of almost three years now.

Her name is liz. Shes pretty cool.

I'm also trying to actually follow through with a story this year.

More on that as it develops.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15998681/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15998681/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 10:24:02 PST Anyone care to see them?
I don't think I'll upload them unless one of you is interested.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15865976/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15865976/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 16:34:40 PST I'm terribly miserable.
I blame the season.

Or I could blame some people who are making me miserable lately.
I've cut off all contact with one.
Still not sure if that was the right choice :S

In other news I bought three cd's.
BoysLikeGirls and Billy Talent II for myself.
On the off-chance that my sister loks at my deviantart,
I'm not going to say what I bought for her for christmas. :3

My brother also bought guild wars.
I might play it eventually.

comments plz?
I'm terribly lonely.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15835090/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15835090/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 13:46:54 PST
]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15558703/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15558703/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 07:04:45 PST It's very much a christian story so that might turn a few of you off, but w/e
I love it.


]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15524934/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15524934/ Thu, 15 Nov 2007 18:38:42 PST you can expect a start to a new story soon.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15377784/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15377784/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 17:36:18 PST

I'm working on the prologue for a work of fiction I am writing called
"The Soldier and the Thirty-Seven"
I bet you can't guess the theme from the title.

I'll have it done in the next day or two.
I'm looking forward to see what cybador thinks of it.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15334695/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15334695/ Fri, 02 Nov 2007 16:56:04 PDT woot.

That is all. Sorry to have wasted your time.

Have a cookie for your trouble.






]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15205181/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/15205181/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 16:55:48 PDT Expect more of my crappy poetry soon.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/14540553/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/14540553/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 05:04:10 PDT I'm so confused....
I think I might stay.
I made another account so i can post prose, and not have all of my crappy poetry covering me.


]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/14429470/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/14429470/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 17:23:18 PDT Bye.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13677173/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13677173/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 21:38:13 PDT
[link]

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13673374/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13673374/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 15:56:46 PDT
]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13662923/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13662923/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 19:52:27 PDT So heres some sillness meghan and i cooked up.


trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:14:08 PM): you're mean
The Emo Handbag (10:15:13 PM): I'm also range and mode
trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:15:25 PM): what about median?
The Emo Handbag (10:15:47 PM): ...I'm still working on it
trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:18:20 PM): the median is the most important
The Emo Handbag (10:19:00 PM): Yes, well, I'm only human.
The Emo Handbag (10:19:26 PM): But my range is pretty damn good
The Emo Handbag (10:19:30 PM): *spits into a spitoon*
trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:20:34 PM): *gasps at seeing a lady spit*
The Emo Handbag (10:20:58 PM): *gasps because everybody else is doing it*
trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:21:36 PM): *gasps gratuitously*
The Emo Handbag (10:22:18 PM): *tries to gasp but passes out*
trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:22:27 PM): *laughs at you*
The Emo Handbag (10:23:38 PM): *smashes the asterisk key
trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:24:19 PM): &replaces asterisks with &sign&
The Emo Handbag (10:25:28 PM): &caves in to the new fad&
trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:25:45 PM): ^starts another new fad^
The Emo Handbag (10:26:24 PM): &gets tired of keeping up with the times&
trigunmaxed@gmail.com (10:27:06 PM): ^fixes asterisk key*
The Emo Handbag (10:27:39 PM): *rejoices*

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13385143/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13385143/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 19:32:26 PDT and that makes me think. Hm. what the hell am i doing on an artists site?
so im leaving....
have a nice life ^^

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13300668/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/13300668/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 08:39:02 PDT i had sugery on the 7th.
woo. had to have a hernia
repaired. great fun. but anyway.
so im stuck at home atm, and
am bored shitless. im also very
uninspired. oh well. im me or
something.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12831086/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12831086/ Thu, 03 May 2007 17:36:05 PDT tear is my 105th work in my notebooks, since the beginning of july last summer. woot. thought that warranted a new journal.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12780600/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12780600/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 16:25:34 PDT
SHOES!
i got new shoes. hehehe i love them
wow i sound gay.
w/e. i like them they're cool.
ON TO NEXT SUBJECT!

GARDEN!
Im working on starting a garden with an
adult friend of mine... its sooo fun. i got to tear
trees out of the way of where we're going
to put it with a MACHETE!!! actually its a japanese
short sword but he calls it a garden tool
(and uses it that way) so he doesn't get in trouble. tee hee ^^

MUSE!
my muse is back, and i am writing poetry again!

POOL!
hehehe best of all of these, i went out to play
pool today with a friend of mine ^^
her name is taylor. shes pretty cool.
whats cooler than that is the fact that
I WAS SOCIAL!!! wootness.. ^^



anyway... end of the happy rant ^^

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]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12585001/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12585001/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 19:13:39 PDT
a few goblets of anti-wisdom for you.

1. bitchy people suck.

2. being a failure sucks.

3. vomiting from excessive amounts of caffeine sucks.

4. fighting with those you love sucks.

5. feeling left out sucks.

6. whining on the internet sucks.

7. snow days suck.

8. inactivity sucks.

9. making lists that no one will actually fucking read, just because you have nothing better to do.... sucks.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12579213/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12579213/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 10:50:34 PDT
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]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12391199/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12391199/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 16:04:59 PDT
also. i have had a lack of inspiration lately... no script, no poetry, no shitty prose.

anyway. i just got done playing war rock with colleen and a friend of hers.
her freind is a hacker. i hate hackers. i..gah... tehy just piss me off. i should have
been nicer to him. i plan to apologize to him if i ever talk to him again. anyway.
he threatened to hack my internet... that kinda pissed me off... well..... anyway.
\thats about it. have a nice life everyone.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12196505/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12196505/ Thu, 15 Mar 2007 16:41:56 PDT
*dances like a fool*

^__________^

yeah.. thats about it. not much more... ^^

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12160077/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12160077/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 17:56:48 PDT
1. my internet died (is now fixed)
2. i have lots of work at school.
3. lack of inspiration.
4. lack of a will to trawl my way through my devwatch folder
5. a general lack of will to do anything

so there. might not be here much after this is posted either.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12015749/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/12015749/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 15:42:19 PST
Comment and...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that i've always wondered about you.
8. you MUST put this into your journal (if you haven't already).

Do your worst! ^^

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11914990/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11914990/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 11:45:32 PST just for fun i edited saveme freedom... or whatever the hell i called it. it looks better now. it looked odd the way it was before.... and i had meant to fix that months ago.

i am on the computer, watching Land of the Dead at my dad's house, and anticipationg seeing colleen on saturday.

In short~
Life. is good.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11492062/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11492062/ Fri, 19 Jan 2007 17:19:19 PST

had a bad day and overreacted, im still here.

and, to settle an argument with a friend
is chop suey (as in the SOAD song)
pronounced "chop-sue-ee" or "chop-sway"?

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11482597/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11482597/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 13:36:42 PST .< and i have no will to put any of my new stuff on here. so.. yeah... w/e


*cries*

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11326704/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11326704/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 15:52:56 PST
]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11043725/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/11043725/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 18:39:46 PST .<


i looked at my devwatch folder today and there are 50-some odd deviations in it. so i trashed them all. i just twitched and made them all go away. sorry if that bothers anyone.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10983394/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10983394/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 12:32:10 PST i am currently working on typing it up. it is untitled at the moment.

The action and drama elemtnts are going to be driven by rock music, for example in the first scene the main character goes on a chase through the city to the guitar part from "just like you" by three day's grace. (youtube it if you have never heard it)

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10983250/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10983250/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 12:18:02 PST
]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10971867/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10971867/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 12:28:07 PST
banana pudding. i hate it. LOVE vanilla and butterscoth. but no. i grabbed BANANA this mornign >.<

i can't look at any deviations at school anymore..... sonofa*** who runs the school network blocked it. >.<

cybador. MAKE YOUR TITLES LESS OBVIOUS!!!!!!


/end rant

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10857187/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10857187/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 13:44:52 PST .< *sigh* is anyone else having this problem?

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10676302/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10676302/ Fri, 10 Nov 2006 05:52:51 PST
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i had a remarkable day today. it was great. then it got better. then it rocked. The epitome (and worst part, but we'll get to that) was at my friend Jordan's party. Twas his 15th birthday party and i had not been to a "normal" b-day party in a long time. most parties i go to are just for stupid losers like me and we just play video games. but anyway. it was fun. i actually engaged with people who were not talking to me thru dA or YIM. it was REALLY fun. we played truth or dare, ate pizza, sucked helium out of balloons, it was great. we were messing around with the balloons and Jordan asked me to cut one of them open so he could suck the helium out of it. so i grabbed a pair of scissors and whent to cut and missed- and cut a chunk out of his thumb. Yep. thats right. the stupid F***** speaking at the moment cut the birthday boy's thumb up. Mmmhmm. bled pretty bad too. as he sat with his hand over the sink, crying and shaking, telling me it was fine, i just sat there. i had the same words playing in my head then that haunt me now. "Uh-huh. thats what you get. Fucking emo trying to be social. thats what you get." so i have not smiled since then. *sigh* someone kill me. i ruin everything.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10603089/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10603089/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 11:38:12 PST
This icon is crying right now.

He's too emo for all this.

i found it at [link] (urbandictionary.com) and i love it. so i stole it. ^_^ I would like to honestly;y have a avatar for myself, seeing as the only ones i have had on here i stole (sorry whoever went to the trouble of making that YuYu one ) if one of my more graphically inclined friends could help me with that i would write a story or a poem for you ^_^

zateh emo boy out.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10571252/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10571252/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 13:22:21 PST I sincerely apologuize to anyone who thought i was going to hurt myself, i was being emo. you should expect that by now. anyway... if i did off myself, who would inundate your msg box with crappy poetry? ^_^ but im going to put up a lot of stuff... once i get ahold of my notebeook. i did some emo Haiku (emo...HAIKU??? i know. exactly what i said when the idea hit me.) some experimental emo stuff... and more of the intencely emo junk you people seem to have fakllen in love with. Untill next time....
~~~~~zateh emo boy


i hate deviantart. i work for weeks on something and get a fav. i write some emo bs and get 5 favs. WTF??? someone... shoot me. please. so i don't have to.

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10563254/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10563254/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 18:52:45 PST
]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10540079/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10540079/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 17:31:45 PDT
[x] I have pale skin.
[] I have dyed my hair black.
[] I have a funky hair cut involving strands that stick up.
[] My hair covers one eye.
[] I wear too much black eyeliner.
[x] I own dozens of band tee-shirts.
[] I wear very tight pants.
[xxxx] I own Vans or Chuck Taylors.
[x] I wear mostly black, black and red, or black and hot pink.
[x]I am dark and sensitive.


--
Part 2

[x] Mean people call me "pysco" or a "loser" sometimes.
[]I cut myself.
[x] I'm obsessed with blood.
[x] I cry too much.
[x]I'm typically "depressed".
[x]listen to Green Day, or Dashboard Confessional.
[x] I'm quiet and shy.
[x] I write poetry
[x] I relate most things in life to song lyrics.
[]My Myspace name includes a word like Murderer, Killer, Homocide, Thrash, Death, Horror, Massacre, Rage, Lonely, Broken, or Alone.


--

Part 3

[] Have lyrics in my AIM profile.
[x] I hate my life.
[x] My parents don't understand me.
[x] I'm "non-conforming".
[] I paint my nails black.
[] I wear makeup
[x] I say things like "slit my throat" and "cut my wrists".
[x] I go to lots of concerts.
[] I wear my little sister or brother's clothes.
[x] Sometimes I feel "suffocated".


--

Part 4

[x] I've had to talk to the counselor at school.
[x] I've been to therapy.
[] My girlfriend or boyfriend looks a lot like me.
[] My friends and I have basically the same clothes.
[x] I hate preps
[] I have a facial piercing.
[] I look up to Sonny Moore.
[x] I have very strong opinions about the bands I like.
[] I'm medicated for my emotions.
[x]I cry myself to sleep at least once a week.



--

Part 5

[x] Little things really bother me.
[x] I've had a lot of breakups.
[x] I usually have a very blank facial expression.
[x ] I rarely seem excited.
[x] I wonder about the point of my existence
[x]Sometimes I think about suicide.
[x] I like to be alone.
[x]No one "gets" me.
[x]I'm dying inside.




i got 33 out of 49.... I'm emo....

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10239785/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10239785/ Sun, 08 Oct 2006 16:25:55 PDT i modified the journal and am now putting the new articles on top. and i fixed the dates. cuz they were bcakwards. i r NOOB!!! and i apaologize for all the annoying journal entries, im just trying to get this all settled. it'll run like clockwork after that. i am going to post a list of members on the group's dA site ( ~BLUEnapalm ) if there are any corrections that need to be made, note me or comment. if you are on the list, devwatch bluenapalm. if not, comment this jpournal. and tell your freinds (and their freinds) about it. the more we have the better. ^_^

*UPDATE* 10/8/06

i have a growing list of those who are joining but if your comment has not been put on this journal you are not a part of the group yet!!!!

So EVEN IF I HAVE ALREADY TALKED TO YOU ABOUT JOINING comment this journal. unless you already have. because in that case you are already joined ^_^


*UPDATE* 10/5/06

I NEED to get a list of who we have on board the group. note me or comment this journal to say you want in, along with your art style (photography, drawing, poetry, prose, anime/manga... if im missing one you want to start, note/comment me). thats about it ^_^ i figure we can start running this show in less than a month if people actually start telling me officially that they want in ^_^


Miesouw, cybador and I are going to be starting a group for artists, called BLUEnapalm, for collab work and for getting unnoticed artists noticed because, lets face it, its hard and takes a long time to accrue a fan base on dA. and b.napalm will help with that. and the group will run lots of contests and collab work projects. all those who are interested should note either me, ~trigunmaxed or ~miesouw so we can get this off the ground ASAP ^_^

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10206722/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10206722/ Wed, 27 Sep 2006 17:46:46 PDT trigunmaxed concept, for anyone who passes this along

The concept is simple. write as many adjectives about yourself as you can. (adjective phrases work too) when you are done, add up your total and tag three people and note them to death untill they do it too ^_^


ZACH MCDADE IS
artristic, emotional, gentlemanly, angry, cocky, shy, aggresive, rebellious, muscle-y, fought-over, despised, loved, faithfull, loyal, quick witted, offensive, encouraging, poetic, sexy, ingenious, trustworthy, understanding, happy, respectfull, hopefull, loving, blatant, impure, afraid, sly, cautious, tentative, prayerfull, inspired.


I GOT THIRTY-FIVE ^_^
i tag~~~~~~ ~miesouw ~Cybador ~et-toi

]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10134818/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10134818/ Wed, 20 Sep 2006 17:02:32 PDT
I will smile on that day i sell my mind and body to the government.
I will smile when i get off the bus at basic training.
I will smile when the training instructers scream at me.
I will smile when they shear off my hair.

I will smile because i am FREE.

FREE from my mother.
FREE from my stepfather.
FREE from past relationships.
FREE from home.
FREE from school.
FREE from my past.

FREE to live my life.


And i am not just using the Air Force as a means to escape my life, i will be proud to serve my country, just as the men i respect most have done.


~~~~~this random message was brought to you by BLUEnapalm industries and Zach McDade ]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10085286/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/10085286/ Fri, 15 Sep 2006 21:25:36 PDT ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9923134/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9923134/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 19:51:42 PDT
A- school has started back up... and i am trying NOT to fail my classes this year
and
B-im actually grounded its late at night. my parents are asleep.



but i am working on several projects


1. unnamed screenplay
i am working on a screenplay (although for movie or stage i have yet to decide) about finding love and losing it. completely serious.


2. star wars fanfic.
i am presently also working on a SW fan fiction. if you have any good reference websites for SW material, i'd be eternally greatfull if you would not me about it ^^


3. an origional sci-fi series
i am working on a sci-fi series of my own creation. highly origional. lets hope i don't make shit out of it like i did with MOTHERlode (for those of you wgho don't know, i have given up on lode. it is trashed. oh well.) but the sci-fi series i am working on is also thus far unnamed, but is about a pharmaceutical company that starts manipulating and testing extra-human powers.



Anyway, please comment with suggestions, thoughts, ideas, concerns, complaints, rants, et cetra. i will answer you as soon as possible. which might be awhile.

~a message from teh zaty ]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9787005/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9787005/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 21:28:55 PDT ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9723660/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9723660/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 10:25:31 PDT miesouw tagged me with tghis quiz-thing... so i believe i will be filling it out... but.
On a side note, i am working on a Star Wars fanfiction (yes, i am THAT much of a SW geek.(and proud of it )) i will gladly reward anybody who can give me a good reference for it. (already tried the official site and a wiki.) with writing. Sorry, i can't draw, but i write reasonably well. ANYWHOO here is the stupid survey thing.




1. Do you like animals?
Yes. they taste good

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
No

3. Are you athletic?
Notsomuch, i usually read and listin to music to pass the time

4. Are you: thin, fat, athleticlly built etc:
i am thin, even though i eat like a pig. gotta love metabolism

5. How much do you weigh?
170-ish. depends on how long it has been since i ate.

6. What's your height?
i dono

7. Shoe size?
eleven

8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
I.....
am not a girl

9. Guys- Are you girly, or guyish?
im a nerd/geek/dork but i like to beat the shit out of stuff. and people

10. How old are you?
16.

11. When's your birthday?
june 21

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
yes, although i have yet to so far

13. Are you sociable?
i tend to be shy until i become comfortable around most of the people i am with. then the problem is getting me to shut up.

14. Do you have many friends?
ih... lots of friends, only a few i consider to be good friends

15. What's your race?
i am your typical american. a little bit of everything

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
yes. i tend to. especially what whith my new cel-phone ^^ w00t

17. Are you single or taken?
i am in a relationship

18. Do you eat meat?
yes. look at question one. animals are yummy

19. Are you paranoid?
i am, but i tend to ignore it.

20. Do you read a lot?
Yes

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
punk, classic rock, christian, OCASIONALYY rap

22. Do you play any instruments?
i sing (badly, but w/e)

23. How long have you been drawing?
i write.

24.Whats the meaning of life?
serving christ

25. Now tag five of your friends! They MUST take this quiz and post in in their journal.

i tag.... ~Cara-Doughnut-Lady ~animemoonkitty6 ~Twichdraw ~Midnite-Blaze ~Cybador ]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9626597/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9626597/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 09:15:17 PDT
STUPIDKID MUSINGS--- vol. .2
Current mood: tired


i must preface this by informing you that i may not post the blog EVERY sunday as i said i would. this being .... monday. which i have conferred with my lawyer and we have decided that monday is not sunday. SHITTY joke aside, i shall now bitch about something else.

Today i have decided to rant about high school politics. i could easily finish that thought with "just a complete waste of time.". BUT. that would not be quite so entertaining. so. here. we. go.

High school politics are like a shitty license game.

(for any non-gamers (or stupid gamers) out there, a licence game is like some game that only gets bought because it is affiliated with a popular movie or tv show, not because it is any good. because they are not usually worth the money.)

the politics are either

A. forced on a kid by their parents by forcing them into sports or other extra-curricular activities (like a parent buying a child a nickelodeon or cartoon network game (yes, i know im talking about younger than high school kids with that, but bear with me, its the same idea))

B. bought into by the High-scholler in question himself because it looks cool. like a movie license game that ends up being retarded and pointless and just generally a waste of money.

i know there are exception in HS politics, just as there are great license games. star wars for example. i have not found ONE star wars game i have not enjoyed.



If i have offended anyone, deal with it. i am a former social outcast who has found his way to survive high school. if you are a part of the HS poklitical system and like it.... good for you. i don't care. i stand by what i say. and if i HAVE offended anyone, feel free to comment me with your complaints. i love a good laugh. ]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9542455/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9542455/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 11:31:37 PDT

The random musings of the stupidkid (chapter 1)
Current mood: contemplative
Date: Sunday, July 30, 2006

SO i was watching nickelodeon this mornuing and it must have been "bring back the ninties" morning because Rocko's modern life was on, and then Ren & Stimpy. And i thought to myself. after i was done watching, "truly this was the pinnacle of nickelodeon programming. Random gratuitous violence, hitmen in dresses, crappy artistry, NO discernable plot whatsoever, Mediocre voice acting, and some rather stupid jokes. Yup. thats right. THIS was indeed the pinnacle of nickelodeon shows. the only thing that would have made my morning even better was to have invader zim come on afterwards.

But all this begs the question, "Why the hell was I watching nickelodeon in the first place?" ]]> ~trigunmaxed http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9268392/ http://trigunmaxed.deviantart.com/journal/9268392/ Sun, 09 Jul 2006 12:37:47 PDT 5 hours 2 coffees a headache and $7 of pens and finnaly ive finished the first actual chapter of MOTHERlode. itll be awhile to type, and my editor is taking a vaca... sooooo it might not be submitted in a while. look forward to it and when it comes... probly be around the 5th or 6th. check out ~miesouw and you can see more chatracter sketches. the ones i have posted on my page she drew as well. sooooo thats about it. check back often to see more stuff. im also trying to find some of my school writings from last year to submit. comment me if you like what you see ----Thomas

alrrighty then i lied. i finished typing it up just now and am going to submit it as a rough. comment on changes you think should be made and remember that it will be a comic when ~miesouw and i are finished.

7/5
i am offended by the lack of comics on the chapter...... its my featured deviation and my most recent. please comment.. i live on comments. COMMENT me! ok... im done bein a pain in the ass. check it out people

7/7
UPDATE!!!!
ive definately gotten another section of MOTHERlode done, i just have to get my lazy ass to type it up and send it to ~miesouw so she can edit it and give it back to me so i can submit it.... GAH its friggin midnight.... tom needs coffee... or sleeeeep. sooo... ~miesouw and i need support and readers for our novel/comic so tell your friends and have them devwatch us.... yeah... and the story WILL have action... gunfights, fistfights, barfights... ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!!!! ok... i need to sleep. ill put up the next chapter, with formatting this time, as soon as possible. im gonna go to sleep now, b4 i get twitchy and agitated.... DAMNIT too late... so... anyways... cya all later.



7/8
Ughhh... tom is a zombie... i ended up getting to sleep at 2 am and got up at nine. two cups of coffee this morning was most definately not enuff. so if i seem twitchy, punchy or adgitated today, thats why.


i finished typing up the next section of MOTHERlode and sent it to ~miesouw to edit... but tom has a CONTEST!!!!!!!


CONTEST: i put a chatracter that ~miesouw and i had not talked about into the story. [link] the character mac. and i also realized that i did not do much for describing him in the story. SO! it is your job to draw up what you think he should look like. your prize is that you get the character you darw up the style you do in the final comic. here is what i will be grading entries on.

how well it matches the character descriptions i put in the story
how well it mathces mac's personality in the story
creativity
asthetics (it has to look good too.)

deadline: uhhhh.... i dunno. when i get a decent # of submissions.

Good luck all and have fun!
----tom out ]]> ~trigunmaxed