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Well, looky looky.. a new Journal i hear you say? what does this mean.. how is this even possible.HA, i laugh in your faces, nono, but honestly.. i havn’t posted a journal in more than a damned year.. that’s quite a long ass time isn’t it? Well the reason for the complete ‘lack of’ was because i fell out with Deviantart, it was basically making me fail college.. so i took my finger out and got on with some work and passed, i actually did quite well.. and the ironic thing was i got accepted into several Universities; Sunderland being the one i choose in the end.

So yes, i think i shall return and grace you with some shoddy work, in my spare time.. which i have a bit more of now. I hope anyone who actually watched me still remembers me and that if i left an impression it wasn’t a bad one.

This journal is really nothing more than a ‘Hey’ and a hope that you will all be friends and watchers again, i have neglected a lot of things in my life of late, and i’m very lucky to retain any of what i held close (Meaghers / Hana).

I shall continue to post some of the work i have done in the past for during several different self given project and i’ll post some new stuff as i make it, and maybe even some of my University stuff, if it’s good enough

well, that’s about all guys.. hope you all are well

<3 tufts.

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/7007724/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/7007724/ Thu, 10 Nov 2005 09:35:16 PST

Mood: tired
Listening to: 30 seconds from Mars

woah's i'm still alive

just look for me else where

[link]

<3

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/6602573/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/6602573/ Sun, 25 Sep 2005 20:29:37 PDT

Mood: tired
Listening to: Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
Watching: The Island

i've been doing absoloutly nothing apart from working and college.. no play at all..

on the upside i met Erin <3

oh well.. i guess i can guarantee one thing.. i'll carry on breathing till the end

and so continues another week of college work and insomnia.. bring on the downfall

wooot (oh and i got 52 in L2, huzzah)

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/6416648/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/6416648/ Sun, 04 Sep 2005 19:02:44 PDT

Mood: su-fucking-perb :)
Listening to: Alkaline Trio - Trouble Breathing
Watching: er.. i watched HellBoy last,,

yes.. me.. that #1 tit is home haha.. i had some great laughs away from this place.. mainly just partying.. huzzah!

went on Holiday too, met some right awsome peopl (including a girl from cough cough Glasgow called cough cough Mandy haha!) yeh ill try and get the pics up here sometime

lots of clubbing getting pissed and waking up ill as a dog!.. was great!

well dudes and dudettes.. catch you all around! woohoo ;D

SONGAGE!!!////d//d/d

Alkaline Trio - Trouble Breathing

You told me that you want to die
I said I've been there myself more than a few times
And I go back every once in a while
You called me lucky, you.. you called me lucky

You said tonight is a wonderful night to die
I asked you how you could tell
You told me to look at the sky
Look at all those stars
Look at how goddamn ugly the stars are

It's one or another
Between a rope and a bottle
I can tell you're having trouble breathing

'Cause you'll never be okay
You'll never be okay
(You'll always be in pain)
You'll always feel this way
'Cause things they never work out right
(the wrong way the lonely way)
You'll always be in pain

You told me that the daylight burned you
and that the sunrise was enough to kill you
I said maybe you're a vampire
You said it's quite possible I feel truly dead inside

'Cause you'll never be okay
You'll never be okay
(You'll always be in pain)
You'll always feel this way
'Cause things they never work out right
(the wrong way the lonely way)
You'll always be in pain

Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out
Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out
Don't forget to let your life rot you inside out

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5943455/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5943455/ Fri, 15 Jul 2005 15:21:01 PDT

Goodbye DA - love all of you guys.. especially you..

tuftot@hotmail.com - if anyone wants to keep in touch..

take care friends

[link] [link] [link]


James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

(suggest you buy his album, it's excellent)

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5726683/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5726683/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 19:05:43 PDT

Mood: very gorgeous.
Listening to: some song.. no idea what the name is
Reading: Loaded - yes iness i am a man.
Watching: lemony snickets!

dude i like love lemony snickts a series of unfortunate events

everyone go and see it now or something!

that is all..

byes

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5628641/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5628641/ Sun, 12 Jun 2005 16:47:53 PDT

Mood: very gorgeous.
Listening to: Hoobastank - The Reason
Reading: sugar magazine. erm. sisters. truth.
Watching: Constantine - again



hmmm!!!!

well lets see..

for those who dont read these things (the lazy bastards), i shall give a quick summery.. so atleast when you have the chance of talking to me.. you can say" oh and about the.. oh and how did that happen.." and etc etc..

--> Sarah and i broke up
--> Sarah and i got back together, she suprised me by turning up a my door.
--> Made some holiday arangements with Sarah
--> ran up a phone bill.. eek (Sarah was worth every penny )
--> lost a great friend, due to stupidity on her part.
--> got some new clothes, aftershave and a belt xD
--> got my hair cut, therefor look sexy again (joke)
--> missed Sarah every second of every day. <3


And now for those that care xD


ok wll this week has been a bit odd.. it's not everyday a gorgeous blonde knocks your door at 1am, well anyway.. i shall explain.. Sarah and i were officially single last weekend. it had gotten to be too much for the both of us. Not being with her was really hard though, and i mean really hard.. i just felt wrong.. imcomplete and broken. then on monday night.. woahs. she appeard at my door.. i was all like "erm wtf who knocks my door at this time, so i crept down the stairs cautiously and answered the door in my boxors and a t-shirt.. (doh'?).. anyway.. i scooped my jaw off the floor and invited her in.. and well.. the rest is none of your business lol.. well after a long chat we got back together.. for keeps - and when went to bed lol.. falling asleep in her arms.. was amazing.. more than amazing.. it was perfect..

she left at 6am, much to my dismay.. i wanted her to stay forever.. both of us.. in a single moment.. it was heaven for a night.. actually.. a higher heaven..

October for two weeks anyone? mwwah x

well, during the 'omg i want sarah back period' i ran up a £40 phonebill.. eek.. anyone it's almost all payed for now lol.. and i got a well deserved bollocking.. rightly so, but some things are more important..

Erica. well erm.. she was one of my best friends.. before she said something that shouldn't be repeated.. no worried though she is doing just fine, better infact without my friendship.. no problems there then... anyway.. not even an effort with the sorry.. she had my number.. 2 minutes of her time.. some poeple just don't care.. shit happens tho right? .. anyway,

bought some new clothes this weekend.. two new short sleeved trendy bastard shirts.. pictures to follow hopefully xD - and a cool fcuk belt.. yellow (one of my fave colours)

also got my hair cut.. so it looks awfy hot again.. jokes lol.. ill take some pics or something lol.. it looks a lot better now tho.. before i looked like one of those mop haired gap advert kids.. phew thank fark that's over lol..

any i missed my sweet little f very very much - mwwwwwwwwwwwwah x !



erm.. holiday week. let me get caught up first lol



i love my little *BlackRosa very muchs , she's a great poet.. go and have a look if you havn't already!! GOGOGOGO!! now ¬_¬.. go.. stop looking here.. ffs go.. i hate you.. ARgh go.. ok then whatever. *huff*

http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5552937/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 15:42:16 PDT

Listening to: Only one - Yellowcard

to be completed at a later date..




One week of the holiday is almost done.. i have so much college work to get done it's silly.. wish me luck



i have a lot of friends doing the gsces and other exams right now.. and a lot of friends inGlasgow that have all done their Advanced Highers..

so guys, Good luck with the results.. i hope you can all do more with your life than i will be able to do





Yellowcard - Only one

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
Yu are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5528588/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5528588/ Thu, 02 Jun 2005 06:01:33 PDT

Mood: great!
Listening to: erm, a sang 3 songs to friends last night lol
Watching: The Jacket - bloody awsome!



Hmm!!
yes i know i said i wouldn't be back etc..

but hey a lot can happen in a week.. and there is no point in dwelling on the past haha!!
anyway.. yeh i'm bacl.. just nreded some time to clear my head.. you know.. lol

i hope you'll welcome me back with open arms.. haha and maybe more? hmm

anyway helllllllloooooo toooy youuuuuu alllllll xD



a special thanks to:



for being the best friend i've had in a long time!!
you got me through some shitty business lol..
love ya loads hunny!! xx

p.s - i love her siste rHeather so dam nmuch! cutestthing in the world!!
and i stopped her from crying the other day, and she is drawing my a picture!! omfg.. so cute



2 weeks off on holiday.. going to my dads not this wknd but the next..
doing fuck all this wknd, erm.. yesh that's about all i want to mention haha!



Awsome song from Feeder this time me thinks..


Feeling a moment - Feeder


Feeling the moment slip away
Losing direction you're losing faith
You're wishing for someone
Feeling it all begin to slide
Am I just like you
All the things you do - can't help myself

How do you feel when there's no sun
And how would you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again
How do you feel when there's no one
Am I just like you

Turning to face what you've become
Bury the ashes of someone
Broken by the strain
Trying to fill that space inside
Am I just like you
All the things you do - can't help myself

How do you feel when there's no sun
And how would you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again
How do you feel when there's no one
Am I just like you
All the things you do

Don't ever feel
That you're alone
I'll never let you down
I'll never leave you dry
Don't fall apart
Don't let it be
Carry the motion
Carry the motion back to me

Feeling the moment slip away
Feeling the moment slip away

Cause I'm just like you

How do you feel when there's no sun
And how would you be when rain clouds come and pull you down again
How do you feel when there's no one

Am I just like you?

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5460534/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5460534/ Thu, 26 May 2005 03:48:17 PDT

basically i have deided to leave da..

just too much of a drain on me..

i have college and i am on this too much..

cya guys!!


--------------------------


Stress

The condition created when ones brain overrides the bodies basic desire to choke the living shit out of some asshole that really deserves it..

and on that note.. god bless

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5438260/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5438260/ Mon, 23 May 2005 11:55:19 PDT

Mood: amazing.
Listening to: Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc
Watching: Cowboy Bebop (again - woot)



wow.. what a weekend..

88 minutes.. it was over Celtic had won the league.. but no!!

unlucky Celtic.. lmao, the young Aussie Scott McDonald (My new Hero) scored.. , with only twp mintues to go.. which was enough for Rangers to win the league.. but to rub salt in the wound.. he scored another on the 90th minuts.. i can't bllody believe.. what a time to be a Rangers fan!! wow.. surely is!!.. i really can't wait for my birthday now!!, gonna be awsome..

here is some pics of the game and aftermath.. enjoy ^,^


"No Sorry Martin, no jobs for you here.. xD"















Congrats Lads!! Love you guys so fecking much!! haha!



on the job hunt, good luck lil lady! hehe xD

omg she got a jog at halfords haha!! awsome well done honey

so very close to his 2mb boradband! may the good time commence lol

is back from a brief "omfg im not here" spell.. but yeh go check her art out.. it's great!

bit of a drought in her top notch pics.. but she'll be back xD

we're making a worms site, with shud be fun lol xD



Sarah and i are back together, i think we understand each other more now.. i was hurt because of the things she sais to her friends.. but i've elarned to ju... ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5346520/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5346520/ Fri, 13 May 2005 10:06:39 PDT

Mood: bleaque.
Listening to: Yellowcard - breathing



I have a job interview on Wednesdsay.. for Dixons.. don't judge.. its money.. lol

hmm.. going away this Weekend to my dads.. it's the last Football game of the season.. which sucks...

oh well.. to another week of getting latered and not remembering who i am.. hurrah.. i got osme phone credit yesterday.. and it's already all gone.. which is poo..

hmm.. got the new Rangers football top.. hurrah for me..

Have a nice weekend all ^_^



you doing that Msn emote makes me laugh like an idiot lol.. oh and i love the voicemail message.. rofl!.

is getting 2mb Broadband.. about bloody time .. xD huzzah!

has buggered off DA.. GAWDAMMIT..

has got his on community.. go check it out xD



Yellowcard - Breathing

Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight

Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of they have filled me up with doubt

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing (your breathing)
It's keeping (keeping) me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating (its beating)
Sinking (sinking) like a weight

How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done?
I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew I threw it all away

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing (your breathing)
It's keeping (keeping) me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating (its beating)
Sinking (sinking) like a weight

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5218946/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5218946/ Fri, 29 Apr 2005 05:53:20 PDT

Mood: awkward..
Listening to: The Prodigy - BB. Charly (Original Mix)



well, im still hunting for a job .. lol.. any old job really.. lol..

OMG HURRY UP AND BE JULY SO I CAN SNUGGLE.



owned at worms2 with me leet ninja skills.. ktnx.

Also owned at worms2



mmmmmm six.. mmmmm....



er.. wil ladd later lol xD

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5135999/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5135999/ Wed, 20 Apr 2005 05:38:47 PDT

Mood: happy



ok, first of all the important news stuff.. kk.. you listening?.. good boys and girls kekeke xD

Tony, Lee and myself have created a community style group thang.. head over to and have a look please :< if you dont my love shall not shine in your beautiful eyes today :/

anyway yeh, ima gonna buy a subscription for it so we can do some hot stuff with it you know xD - please add the group to watch and maybe veen submit art xD.. in the future we will be holding comps for subscriptions etc.. you know.. be a cool group and that.. somthing hot hehrhaha xD



omfg emote? where is it :shame:

omfg miss you soo much where art thou?.. :<

er yeh.. im not on da as much as i would like to be.. so please send me notes about your weeks so i can put them in here omg PLEASE!??! k thankx xD:



we're back and erm.. stronger than ever innit xD



go there now or else i shall kick thee in the nads!! xD

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5080867/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5080867/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 18:29:34 PDT

Mood: unwell..



well let's see.. awsome day in college.. was a good laugh..

Dad was in a car accident.. thankgod he's ok..
Mum was in surgery.. thankgod she is ok..
my sister.. just chavving about..


I added a new dev.. it's called Autumn..

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5061001/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5061001/ Mon, 11 Apr 2005 13:58:30 PDT

Mood: uneasy..
Listening to: Incubus - Warning



well.. tomorrow starts another college week for me.. i havnt finished my cafe project yet as i have had a lot on my mind.. my girl suffered a tragic loss no one should have to go through in their lifetime.. my heart is hers to have.. and i just hope that it keeps her safe.



is not missing.. she is just a very busy girl!!

has a great singing voice!! and omg she is like super flight comander secret service dude or something..

has gone missing again

has moved down the line on both views and friends/watchs.. unlucky sweatpea lmao

and i have recetly been owning it up on css.. whioch i have never really played until like this last week



we have made a promise to each other that noone else is to know about.. she is my life now..



Incubus - Wish you were here

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like
A thousand diamonds strewn
Across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend I am weightless
And in this moment
I am happy happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles
A backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'm counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment
I am happy happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

The world's a rollercoaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
My hands are busy in the air
Saying

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5048684/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5048684/ Sun, 10 Apr 2005 09:03:43 PDT

Mood: average
Listening to: The Prodigy - Charlie
Watching: The Manchurian incident or whatever..



I have a secret Addiction.. in the shape and form of a certain persons accent..



wrote someting amazing about me... go check it out

is Missing.. omfg where is she -meaghytuffycuddlecling-

and with the help of me ownd up teh zombies innit

bought me a fry up in town.. pure legend!!




- she may not be in my arms.. but she is forever in my heart..




Papa Roach - She loves me not

When I see her eyes
Look into my eyes
Then I realize that
She could see inside my head
So I close my eyes
Thinking that I could hide
Disassociate so I don't have to lose my head
This situation leads to agitation
Will she cut me off?
Will this be an amputation?

I don't know,
If I care
I'm the jerk,
Life's not fair
Fighting all the time
This is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not
Do you realize, I won't compromise
She loves me not, loves me not

Over the past five years
I have shed my tears
I have drank my beers and watched my fears fly away
And until this day
She still swings my way
But it's sad to say sometimes
She says she loves me not
But I hesitate
To tell her I hate
This relationship
I want out today
This is over

I don't know
If I care
I'm the jerk
Life's not fair
Fighting all the time
This is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not
Do you realize I won't compromise
She loves me not
Life's not fair
I'm the jerk

Line for line, ryhme for ryhme
Sometimes I be writin’ all the goddam time
It’s makin’ me sick
Relationship is gettin’ ill
Piss drunk stupid
Mad
On the real, could you feel
What I feel, what’s the deal girl
We’re tearin’ up each others world
We should be in harmony
Boy and girl
That is a promise we made
Back in the day
You told me that things wouldn’t be this way
I think we should work this out
It's alright baby, we can scream and shout.

I don't know
If I care
I'm the jerk
Life's not fair
Fighting all the time
This is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not
Do you realize I won't compromise
She loves me not, loves me not
Life’s not fair
Life’s not fair
Life’s not fair
I’m the jerk
Life’s no... ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5032674/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5032674/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 08:57:36 PDT

Mood: sad..distraught..



Tonight i will be sleeping on my own.. it wasn't supposed to be like this but it is.. i feel dead.. so cold.. i hate fate.. i just want to be alone now.. crawl away into my head..

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5026596/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/5026596/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 15:23:46 PDT

Mood: nervous
Listening to: Eminem - Toy Soldiers (don't judge - lol)
Watching: Elektre.. it was alrgitht..



I'm meeting Sarah tomorrow.. and im scared as hell.. i hope she likes me!



is very busy atm.. havnt talked to her properly in ages :<

is ill at the moment get better soon!

needs to deleter a certain embaressing song file lol..

has a new camera.. which is fecking ace!!



omg Friday .. omg.. shaking.. omg omg omg



Linkin Park - Somwhere i belong

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4994472/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4994472/ Mon, 04 Apr 2005 04:39:44 PDT

Mood: buggered..
Listening to: something by Keane...

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i have 2 college projects to do by tomorrow.. i am doing them now.. i really am not in th emodd.. same time i hate failing :<



keeps writing Japanese poetry which by the way confuses the living shit out of me lol.. very nice tho

has returned.. hello to you sir

is getting Wow... don't do it Mervi!! get Lineage 2 and play with me




is a gorgeous as ever..



The new Submission pollicy is getting on everyones tits.. it is a load of collcks tbh tho.. i dont mind as much tho as i dont expect anyone to make any money out of my 'art' anyway lmao

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4966821/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4966821/ Fri, 01 Apr 2005 03:43:19 PST

Mood: excited
Listening to: The Last Time
Watching: Layercake - again :/



Well.. i'm home.. and i'm sitting on my arse once again infront of my pc..

I missed Sarah os much.. not being able to talk to her as frequently as i usually do was really ahrd.. sometimes i just wanted to pick up the phone and ring her.. but she works// and it isnt as easy as that.. i love her so damn much..she has been having some problems at home recently.. the kind of problems were she needs someone t hold onto.. and i can't be there for her.. it's just really hard for me sometimes.. especially when i love her as much as i do..




I am not entirely sure what everyone is up to lmao.. give me a few days to gather the gossip :]








i heard it on the radio the other day.. and i can't get it out of my head..

Areosmith - I don't want to miss a thing..

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you’re far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I’m wondering what you’re dreaming
Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we’re together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

I don’t want to miss one smile
I don’t want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
Cause I’d miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I’d still miss you baby
And I don’t want to miss a thing

Don’t want to close my eyes
I don’t want to fall asleep
I don’t want to miss a thing

]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4914726/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4914726/ Sat, 26 Mar 2005 03:00:01 PST

Mood: alone.
Listening to: Yellowcard - Only one





Thankyou for all your lovely comments on "Summer Nights" - much appreciated.

I am going to my dads in about 10 minutes..

means i am wont be able to talk to my beautiful lovely girlfriend Sarah for a week.. we'll still talk on the phone and that.. but you know.. .. god i want to be with her today

i will miss her :<



and her friend Tess are pulling a surprise party for Tess' brother.. cool dudes..



might feel lonely this week.. everyone hug her :]

I love this lil lady soo much!!



Today.. the lyrics for the song i am listening to

Yellowcard - Only one

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one


chorus:
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

chorus:
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

chorus:
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alon... ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4889076/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4889076/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 09:03:39 PST

Mood: newly wakened :/
Listening to: Papa Roach - Scars





Hmm.. Well i have added a new deviation titled "Summer Nights"
and it can be found here -->

I am going to my dads for easter.. for a week :/

thats all good and well but i wont be seeing much of my beautiful Girlfriend Sarah...

i will miss her :<



to be honest i really don't have any idea what everyone is up to :/



made me a new avatar.. which i am stylishly fashioning as I speak lol

I love this lil lady soo much!!



Today.. the lyrics for the song i am listening to (not like you read it anyway lmao)

Papa Roach - Scars

chorus:
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

chorus:
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

chorus:
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

chorus:
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

chorus:
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4865435/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4865435/ Sun, 20 Mar 2005 17:42:59 PST

Mood: sore.
Listening to: Yellowcard : View from Heaven





I'm back from Glasgow.. i got nice in wasted there and watched my team Rangers Thrash Motherwell 5-1 (too fucking easy) - The game was in honour of Davie Cooper.. who tragically passed away 10 years ago this week of a brain hemerage.. he was a fantastic player and one of the best to ever don the blue Jersey..

all in all great weekend.. some silver for the cabinet

I really missed Sarah tho.. my phone ran out of battery so i couldnt phone her.. was really worried as she was unwel and had to work.. she told me she was fine in the morning.. but i knew she wasn't.. just not a good feeling when the one you love is in that kind of poorly state.. i hope she gets better soon :]

My whole body is bloody sore, think i am coming down with something go me :]




has deleted me from her friends i think.. lol oh so very childish..

weill hopefully come to her senses and come and live in England

and i still havnt got round to our reveloution plot (manhug)

has got back from a week of house sitting.. head to his gallery for some quality photography




has made me some lovely icons which i love so so much :] - she is just so unbelievably amazing.. i just love evrything about her.. woohoo :]




I think i will post the lyrics to the song i am listneing to atm.. mainly cos i dont know what else to put in this gap

Yellowcard : View from Heaven

i'm just so tired
wont you sing me to sleep
and fly through my dreams
so i can hitch a ride with you tonight
and get away from this place
have a new name and face
i just aint the same without you in my life
late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start
singing lines from all our favorite songs
and melodies in the air
singin life just aint fair
sometimes i still just can't believe you're gone

and im sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven,
maybe we'll make it through one more year
down here

feel your fire,
when its cold in my heart
and things sorta start
remindin' me of my last night with you
i only need one more day
just one more chance to say
i wish that i had gone up with you too

and i'm sure the view from heaven
beats the hell out of mine here
and if we all believe in heaven
maybe we'll make it... ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4850965/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4850965/ Sat, 19 Mar 2005 02:39:08 PST

Mood: 'need a drink'
Watching: Man on Fire (excellent)



I am going to Glasgow for the weekend.. mainly to get very drunk and watch my football team Rangers play.. my dad is also on the verge of getting us Chelsea and England tickets.. and some Linfield ones for when we go over to Belfast..




made me some lovely icons .. go and look at her Gallery: [link] and her Scraps: [link]

has wrote me some lovely poetry :]

- and I are all off for two weeks.. might not see us online much :]..




My Sarah is still unwell.. suspected food poisening .. i hope she get's better soon




omg i better go pack my bags right now cos i only have 40 mins till he gets here

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4842843/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4842843/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 03:35:06 PST

Mood: Tired..



I have finished the third pic things.. entitled 'The Kiss' - i made this for < 3

She is also not feleing well today :< - she needs all the hugs she can get guys so chip in :>



omg MY MEAGHAN IS COMING TO WHERE I LIVE IN OCTOBER!! WOOHOO

is in some dodgy mood.. no idea why..

and I are planning on starting a petition to create and be able to have full usage of an emote titles :manhug:




I love Sarah :]



I hav't slept at all yet.. and it's 11.30.. oh noes!!

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4813514/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4813514/ Mon, 14 Mar 2005 18:09:13 PST

Mood: amazing..



I am just sat here looking at her picture.. and i am still numb with the realisation that she acctually feels the same way.. I have met the most brilliant girl in the world.. she is perfect in everyway;

funny.. happy.. loving.. truthful.. gorgeous.. brilliant.. understanding.. intelligant..

i could go on for days and days.. and never stop.. i am well and truly in love.. and i dont care how anyone thinks.. i am just so engrossed in her.. i smile everytime i see her name appear on my phone.. i sit gazing at my mobile.. anticipating her texts.. i love when she rings just to tell me what she is up to and to ask how my day has been..

She is basically the girl i haev dreamed about.. the girl i always thought would remain a dream.. she is an angel in every way.. i love how she is always there for me if i am ever down.. and how .. god i should stop.. she is perfect..

I am hers.. hopefully always.. or atleast until July..

she is my baby.. my wee ickle baby..

Good night everyone..

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4808003/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4808003/ Mon, 14 Mar 2005 06:05:29 PST

Mood: Shit
Listening to: Feeder - Broken Glass
Watching: Oceans 12



Stil havnt got round to finishing the third installment of the serirs of pictures.. my mind is somewhere else at the moment.



had reached another milestone :] welldone mate - go and check his page out here!!

still lovs tic tacs and has just addd 3 prints!! all brilliant.. go check em out!

is still writing her big story!! go check her out!




i Nearly fucked everything up basically.. but i hope things are now sorted.. i hope she can forgive me..




omg i have a driving lesson in about 5 mins (runs away to get ready)

*SUPER AMAZING UPDATE* - my instructor didnt come.. i wonder if he is dead.. or has just ran away with my money :/

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4784356/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4784356/ Sat, 12 Mar 2005 12:52:34 PST

Mood: Shocked
Listening to: Feeder - Buck Rogers
Watching: Assault on Precint 13



I have nearly finished yet another deviation and plan on doing another one similar to my other two titled "forged beauty" and "Only Her".



Me and Meaghan have created one hug to rule them all

the -meaghantuftyglomp-

we are both available for autographs..




Sarah is brilliant and therefore gets all my hugs




Leave me Loverly Comments.. (onle random stuff i could think of :/

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4782183/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4782183/ Thu, 10 Mar 2005 23:43:31 PST

Mood: Shocked
Listening to: Bravery - Honest Mistake
Watching: Layercake

well thanks everyone that has be watched and visits this page :> - i appreciate it loads - i have now had 1000 page views! pretty groooooovey

a big to all my friends on da :]

a big kiss to the select few who make each day a nicer one to bear :]

(p.s the last thing i want is space..)

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4767662/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4767662/ Thu, 10 Mar 2005 07:08:37 PST

Mood: Shocked
Listening to: Linkin Park (Under Attack - B Sides)

well.. i didnt actually go looking for my soul partner.. but i definently found her..

thats sums everything up i think..

no wait.. i nearly got banned today because i used caps in the shout box.. i said:

"YEH THE ROCK"

sad really.. was a great laugh tho



peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4720522/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4720522/ Thu, 03 Mar 2005 15:17:13 PST
Mood: Shocked
Listening to: yellowcard - believe
Watching: Million Dollar Baby

Well.. my bags were packs..

i was all ready and then i was sat down at the table.. i felt like i was being questioned by the piloce or something equally as dodgy..

i am really sorry for everyone.. getting your hopes up and all lol.. i feel like i am fucking everyone about tbh..

basically i am not being thrown out.. i have been given a second rebirth. another chance.. or however you put it..

i am so damn bemused about all the comments i got.. i didnt realise soo many people cared.. i am so happy you don't believe.. i am just sorry because i feel like i am taking everyone for a ride :/

I hope u guys still feel like you can talk to me.. and i guess i wont be gone for any length of time.. i'll still be doing my 'thang' on the sb

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4698885/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4698885/ Tue, 01 Mar 2005 03:54:31 PST
Mood: alone
Listening to: yellowcard - view from heaven

well.. i knew it was coming..

i am moving back up to Glasgow.. basically been kicked out of the house i was living at in Scarborough.

gonna really miss my two bestest mates Becky and Hana..

they are my rocks.. and i really don't know how i will ope without them.. i really don't

anyway i dont really want to talk about it much.. just to let you know that i probably won't be on DA or the internet for a while..

just hope you guys miss me

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4660485/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4660485/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 08:20:17 PST
Mood: unwell
Listening to: Doves - Black and white town
Watching: Hero

yesterday i came home from college at lunch cos i felt pretty shit :\

i got in about 1 ish and basicaly went straight to bed.. and slept for about 6 hours..

my whole body is sore lol.. DAMN FLU

anyway on the the DA news..

i reached 1000 shouts.. lmao me=whore..

thats about it lmao..

i need to make one of those friends thingys for my journal but really cant be arsed at the moment.. so i'll do it later..

peace out everyone

G ]]> ~tuftor http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4588577/ http://tuftor.deviantart.com/journal/4588577/ Tue, 15 Feb 2005 11:07:01 PST woohoo

yes, as the topic says.. i have subscribed.. so that means you won't get rid of me for a long time

later all

]]> ~tuftor