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For new stuff please check out my new da page : [link]

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I'll leave this deviantart gallery active but because I've already submited soo many work I realized that I had to open up a new account. If you like what you see here please visit my other page for more new stuff. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/5017876/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/5017876/ Wed, 06 Apr 2005 16:07:12 PDT

Oh yeah today I turn 20. I feel like i've lost a year of personal training >_< keep the buzz going. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/4988813/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/4988813/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 14:22:23 PDT
I look back into my old work and I see a lot of weakness in some areas... I dont think I'm going to go back and force myself to fix anything. Maybe years from now I'll go back and make a new version of certain works. But I think it's a good idea to always start fresh... start from the beginning... thats what my art teacher says.

I need to build up my motivation again somehow... kinda hard always falling back everytime you try to get up.

yeah got so excited almost forgot to eat haha. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/4637751/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/4637751/ Mon, 21 Feb 2005 12:05:16 PST ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/4330808/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/4330808/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 22:36:53 PST ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/4053998/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/4053998/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 22:44:36 PST Here are some of the projects I did in my art class. I havn't drawn or done any other work recently. Finals is this coming week and then I'll be working most of the day during xmas vacation. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3902683/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3902683/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 16:35:29 PST
I can't say the same for my math class. ^_^' ... I have to pass it no by any cause... can't stand being there for an hr every weekday to listen to math terminaligy and lecture. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3748454/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3748454/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 22:41:29 PST
Still not much to show for my art. omfg ive been so bad latetly. I think i'mma try to take it easy next semester.
I only have about 2-3 semesters to go so I'm trying to focus on geting my classes done. The sooner I transfer from sac city the sooner I'll be able to do my major
have a great thanksgiving and xmas everyone. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3705577/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3705577/ Sat, 30 Oct 2004 00:04:25 PDT Happy halloween folks. Winter is the worst time of the year for me... its the time when my past catches up and the time when I get my hrt broken most ^_^' I'm pretty sure this will be a good motive towards my artwork and poetry, haray for fans of my work if any. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3675293/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3675293/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 21:59:13 PDT ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3623306/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3623306/ Mon, 18 Oct 2004 22:32:52 PDT [link]

woohoo ok i cleard out some message so i can make sense of what I have to do. 500 more to go ^^' ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3600161/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3600161/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 22:47:43 PDT
For those who still dont know. I have two accounts on DA. Due to the limited uploads... (200) I've reached my sumiting mark. So I had to make another page: sengster = [link]

.....WARNING: DA is evil, its addictive, run away while you still can...beeeep ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3487379/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3487379/ Fri, 01 Oct 2004 11:46:14 PDT ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3373131/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3373131/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 20:19:42 PDT
Right now just trying to catch up to my history reading. working weekends, and paying car bills. ill:

ahum... please visit my new page : [link] ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3132220/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3132220/ Sun, 15 Aug 2004 13:56:36 PDT [link] ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3015287/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/3015287/ Sun, 01 Aug 2004 00:29:15 PDT
I have a bad habbit of posting unfinish work and never finishing them so yeah this is my new rule for myself for now. Since all three projects have a meaning to it I should be more dedicated. Since I still have a few weeks left before class starts I got lots of free time on my hand. Don't know about work though. I think I jus got hired... but have to go take a drug test first. hehe... ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2949597/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2949597/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 12:17:18 PDT after the 3rd try? omfg lol

hum looks like I have no luck finding my sketches from last semester. Oh well. Just finishing up my communication class and then the rest of the summer I'll be finishing up my coloring projects ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2824185/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2824185/ Wed, 07 Jul 2004 09:47:56 PDT
ahuh. Sorry nothing new really. Just felt like typing out a journal today. I'm in search of my sketch pad from last semester. Where for thou my sketchypad be? >< I went to like 3 lost and found places at my school. hum... when I finally found the last place to look ... I happen to leave the wrong number with the lady who worked there XD lol. I can't remember my own number omfg. I never look at it so I guess. I'm not sure if it's there but still searching for it. Probably go back later. Though the sketch pad doesnt have the work I'm interested in. I just want it back for the heck of it. I have to call up my old art teacher to see if she still has my class work or not. Hopefully she hasn't thrown them away yet ><. Bah.

Study Study... party hardy... and work. For now. The urg to draw but I have no real excuse. Just feel more like playing diablo 2 ^^ hehe. Gomenasai. Much to do much to do. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2736949/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2736949/ Fri, 25 Jun 2004 20:55:57 PDT I wanna sell everything I can get my hands on that I don't want. Well since I the two jobs I applied for and was looking forward to gain more income from didn't pull through I've been trying to make up all the money I've been spending lately.

Yup, also taking communication this summer. Learning fast. My personalities changed a lot over the years. I still get nervous but not as bad as I use to when I was younger. Good thing the class is pretty good. Next semester I won't have time for anything. I will be taking fundamental art. So don't know if I will do any new artwork lately.

Just opened up a new shop cafepress. Everything is cheap as I could get it. I only make about a dollar profit from all idems if anyone is interested ^_^ lol. Well back to work. [link] ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2615417/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2615417/ Tue, 08 Jun 2004 18:45:09 PDT
Lately I've been writing more then drawing. It really bores me to have to perfect a piece of art after I get the idea down on paper. I hate it very much (that is why I'll never become famous) lol. Sorry for all those ppl who look to my work for it's looks. Yes looks are appealing but it's a pain to make something look good. (same goes for realistic thing ahum*)

current mood ---> ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2592667/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2592667/ Sat, 05 Jun 2004 23:19:29 PDT So must make sacrafices.

I'm really geting pushed to get my license. It's been hard for me because I havn't had that much driving experience. I've just started practicing seriously a few months ago Sigh* My dad says I suck, but my mom and friends say I drive pretty well. I didn't make it this time. Maybe the third lol. Oh well, maybe move my driving test to next month to get more practice. Too much cramming (stress) ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2508495/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2508495/ Thu, 27 May 2004 16:57:13 PDT

Bad/good news::

bad news first: I was sick after math finals. On Saturday I was suppose to pick up my charcoal sketches right? Well, um I over sleep and didn't make it to class in time so *sniff* ....

good news: I think my art teacher will be teaching next semester so hopefully I can drop by her class and pick it up then. It'll be a long wait but worth it. Those sketches mean more to me then gold. O_o yes *GOLD*. Ok enough obsessing and feeling down. FINALS IS OVER Yatta!!! Omedito Gozaimasu !!! to everyone's servival. One more thing left to do before I can get back to work. License test



my old list, will update soon hopefully:
(friends, favs, and just general ppl I like to check up on )

*artist with lotsa heart*
nanum / chii-chan / samanosuke / jonasfx / supuu / ksb-artist / kev-nuu / ramon / kamikazeninja / kuroitenshi / phoenixcrash / gaianblue / darke / starlancer< /a> kurupt4000 / iduck / mr-mister / ephemeral/ vashley

*ppl who create amazing wallpapers ^^*
kitkit201 / deviousoni / rikumaru / lunareklipze / cybersaan

*poetry you have to read*
105750u1 / soyo / dottiemaggie / tragic-prose / water-elemental / teamjoe / d00bie / kittie-chan

*love for their photography*
votblindub / leafinsectman / nighty / stephie / netcommand / anomoli8 ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2475591/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2475591/ Fri, 21 May 2004 11:00:28 PDT

Well, I'll be picking up some of my my best charcoal sketchs from artclass tomorrow. Can you believe I forgot my sketch book? Actually I left it out to dry and forgot to pick it up before I left, so it's gone. *fair well my poor book of charcoal sketchies* I havn't checked the lost and found yet but if its there I'll be in luck. There were still a few more pages I hadn't filled up yet. I could use those extra sheets. If not I can always get a new one no prob.

interesting site of the week: (the history of flowers)

[link] ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2448005/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2448005/ Mon, 17 May 2004 12:46:20 PDT book of the month: Breaking into Japanese Literature
crit.: When I saw this book I had to have it. My favorite short japanese story 'In the Groove' was included. The book consist of a few short stories... translated in Japanese and English (vocabularies included). Mp3 files downloadable online. Oh yeah, see, write, hear, and then learn to use it in society. As soon as finals is over I may have time to break into it.

good/bad news: From this month forward I will be paying for the phone bill. That means the internet is all mine and so will the bill haha. -_- By the end of this month, hopefully much work and progress will be accomplished and I'm not just talking about my work. Can't get too excited now though ^^ patience patience. oh yeah, patience brings great things. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2434550/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2434550/ Sat, 15 May 2004 13:00:10 PDT
my first major was child development. The subject was pretty interesting but I think it was the science part I was interested in, not the baby sitting little children part. I've lived with a buddle of sibblings running around me daily so I should realize that I would go nuts being around them more in the future then I have to. There are good kids and there are bad kids... both will annoy the heck out of you!!. Now a days I don't think I have the patience. In my old recken age I'll probably die sooner then expected lol. So change in plans. I'm still thinking of becoming a teacher though... but maybe for older kids ^^'.

My current major is graphic design... The reason why I'm thinking this over is the fact that I know someone who is a graphic designer... doesn't seem like there is any free time in this job. Being around computers more than I have to will probably make me go more blind and fat. dame you can't earn a good salery with fun majors lol. Better luck doing them as hobbies I guess...

We'll see what path my little legs will drag me into next semester. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2399094/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2399094/ Mon, 10 May 2004 12:45:51 PDT _< so ashame *shakes head* lol. Better luck next time. Well, no time to check up on things today. Thanks all. Be back later. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2372093/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2372093/ Thu, 06 May 2004 13:52:56 PDT oh well I can deal with it. Today is "Peoples Day" Saccity looks like a festival right now. If I spend anymore hours at home I'll have to kill myself :< I'll probably be here til it's over. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2350811/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2350811/ Mon, 03 May 2004 20:50:14 PDT Anime just finished watching: Samurai X.
Anime waiting to watch: New series of Naruto.
Book will read soon (maybe): The Eyes of a Dragon by Stephen King.
Currently feeling: between life and death aka moody
current projects: collage for my art class, sketches, photoshop (charactor and webdesigns if theres time).

Had a bad weekend but I'm under control. Nothing new in particular. hum... except for this webpage I just found ^^. muahha . [link]

I tried uploading some stuff today but my floppys aren't working ... maybe I need some new ones. later ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2316493/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2316493/ Wed, 28 Apr 2004 11:59:17 PDT

Lately no time to doodle. I attempted to do a watercolor painting of a recent drawing I did... it didn't turn out so great so I'll just submit the inked version later when I have the time. Ok just dropped by to check for messages. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2274686/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2274686/ Thu, 22 Apr 2004 11:32:47 PDT I just got the application to work as TA over the summer and I might get a permenant job working at sears. What was all the searching about? O_o Wait for the job to come to you ! lol. it happens. -_- bah bah. lots and lots of stuff to do the next few weeks. Usually my eye site starts geting bad by summer... ... no signs of going blind this year ...yet. But hopefully not. If my eyes stop changing so much maybe I can get it laziked? scary. Still driving, test coming up this
May 3rd, wish me luck.

and btw thanks everyone for the 16k much love and cookies ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2235492/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2235492/ Fri, 16 Apr 2004 13:05:38 PDT Ok I was wrong... money does make life a little better . My financial aid finally came in... got my last semeseter and half of this semester It's nice to have money in the bank again Now I can open up my phone line and get back online and do the things I've been missing to do.... like research and stuff, yeah stuff (I'm a good girl you know) .

Yesturday I just found out that I passed my english class from last semester (incomplete due to complications). Things are working out. Now... only a few things left to accomplish... one major one is geting my licence... once I get that... my life will be a lot more flexable.

Poem to my sweety:

Good Timing

Dreams of fairytales slowly fade to bleak uncertainties
While innocents shreds it’s last shell away.

Countless weeks have past,
dawned another silent day,
Forcing pain to lose it’s lust…
without the comfort of those in mind.

Even with an infinite imagination,
New comers like myself (at first)
Can’t see beyond what stands in the way.
That is, how moments we live in
tend to become paler like temporary colors.

All the efforts that came before
Compared to what I face before me now,
I knew there were people like you
who make the riches paintings seem effortless

With light hearts,
our speech tend to tease
upon abrupt remarks
that I can’t help but blush about.

Familiar eyes like yours, which seem to be conceal at times (^_^)
Sets peace to mind and never-ending curiosity.


4/15/04
~sengsaetern

err ok I'm late for class ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2222593/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2222593/ Wed, 14 Apr 2004 14:10:15 PDT
I've been feeling pretty dead. Everyone I call doesn't pick up their phone cuz they're too busy. I feel like that guy from the 6sence, how he doesn't know that he's dead but he's really dead and he doesn't know it. AM I dead? ahhh someone answer me >.< . knock knock? If my sis tells me to shut up at night, then it must mean I'm still here pew* ok just checking. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2206875/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2206875/ Mon, 12 Apr 2004 11:48:41 PDT ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2166050/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2166050/ Tue, 06 Apr 2004 16:28:48 PDT OH YEA I feel like a women ^^'

Last movie/dvd watched: "Ultimate Bra" (chinese comedy)
book currently reading: still not done with Arabian Nights.
online: at florin resource center.
current mood:

Things have been great this march and current april. Except for allergies. My nose is all stuffed up. >_< other then that, I'm getting ready to send out a few bday cards and just enjoying the nice weather while it lasts. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2129904/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2129904/ Thu, 01 Apr 2004 12:53:08 PST
Today's weather is really weird. Sunny, with a huge breeze, followed by the swinging of spring trees causing the affect of airborn killer dust and pollen. I call it "The Allergy Maham Day."

Eh this month has brought out the best in me. Must be the sunny weather. I've finally been able to get out of the house and return to my jogging routine.

PE in highschool was pretty layed back, I lost most of my stimina probably from pushing myself too hard then crashing like a hammer. My current goal this year is to regain my stimina and surpass my mile run time... which was um... around 7 min? lol I can't even run a block without geting tierd now ehh... that's how bad I've gotten. But anything is possible right? ^_^ weeh to the track

I've been looking forward to making a painting or charcoal sketch of the angel under the rose window but I've been having difficulty with the perspective... and the idea of the light from the rose window hitting the surface of the angel and the ground. The idea really intrigues me. I'm not sure I can get it done but I'll give it a try.

Oh yes, one more thing... Spring break is coming up next week for me No school on my bday muaha muaha muahha I won't be here next week either. For those who are having spring break next week. Enjoy I'll see you guys later ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2108703/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2108703/ Mon, 29 Mar 2004 12:45:39 PST

http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2089028/ Fri, 26 Mar 2004 12:54:42 PST Attempting to play: Metal Gear
anime in the head at the moment: Naruto
Not ready to: drop dead

alright ^_^... everyone know's that I can get pretty lazy haha. Well sorry I just had to finish it today... yes because I got brain freeze and lost control of my hands... no I will not die. Yes I will continue to bring you new things in my work. Thanks for dropping by.

Will update more another day. Must run now. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2081873/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2081873/ Thu, 25 Mar 2004 11:34:20 PST _< on the way to school today I just drove through a red light OMG that's never happened before but there weren't any cars around (it was a T street)... though there might have been a camera>_< ahyah ahyah. The light just turned yellow when I reach the crosswalk, and I knew I should have just gone past it really fast or stoped but for some reason my brain told me "yellow means slow down" lol so I was driving hella slow through, by the time I passed the line I think I might have run a red light *crap*. I'm all stressed out about it .

I spent over 7 hrs on the cpu yesturday working on a cg... that's more than I spend reading a book... my passion has goten the best of me. ;. tsk tsk. will post by next week ... must study for mid term >_;< ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2075427/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2075427/ Wed, 24 Mar 2004 12:00:39 PST D *blanks out*

currently reading: The Arabian Nights
current force of habbit: raging war.

gosh all these kanji's... makes it easiyer to pick out the meaning of a sentence but ... the writing part and remember the stroks are killer because there are so many ...;_;....
My current mission has failed. I will retreat and rethink my tactics. Har har. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2037120/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2037120/ Thu, 18 Mar 2004 13:35:35 PST _< sigh* I donno what I'm going to do with myself. It'll probably take me an extra year to finish city college seeing how badly I've started out. Just once in a while especially when I have nothing to do I get all depressed for no reason... to the point where I can't think straight. I feel a lot better today because I found something interesting to keep myself busy. If I keep myself busy and entertained maybe this won't happen. I can't say the same for my math and japanese class. I only took a few classes this semester because I thought it would give me a break from all the stress I've been going through. I really don't know now. But I'll stick to it til the end.

In the other hand. My dad is almost done fixing my car. I can probably start driving it soon. Then schedule another appointment for dmv to get my license.

I was wondering... If I'm not a citizen of the US ... does that make me the citizen of Thailand? Since I was born there? I have no idea where or how I can get my hands on citizen test. If anyone know's please tell me. Cuz I wanna start voting. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2030166/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2030166/ Wed, 17 Mar 2004 12:43:43 PST _< feel so agitated today. I'm back where I started. dame I'm in hell. will return tomorrow to submit a disturbing song/poem. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2004863/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/2004863/ Mon, 15 Mar 2004 12:10:54 PST _< gah*. Oh well next shall come.

Things are going find. Working on a new graphic... Trying for a little perspective and strange colors. Will post by next week.

Anime of the week : "Full Metal Panic"
I've read a few of the manga series since last year during april and I have to say that it's probably one of the funniest manga's I've read so far. I saw most of the anime, but not all. It's action pact the way I like it. More fire power (like gundam wing)

A quick over view "One of the main character is Sagara, the funny thing is that, having fought and grown up in a battle field since he was 8yrs old, he deals with everyday problem in a military manner ^^' which includes lots of gun pointing, and explosions. He ends up having to be the body guard of a girl name Chidori, who's stubborn and agressive. and the fun begins." ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1986530/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1986530/ Wed, 10 Mar 2004 11:50:09 PST _<. I vacuumed it, I blew the inside with the vacuum with all four doors open and I even sprayed the seats with frabreez then left a air fresher in side... it's been over 3 weeks and the smell remains. I may just have to wear a gas mask while driving. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1962344/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1962344/ Sat, 06 Mar 2004 12:20:07 PST ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1956650/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1956650/ Fri, 05 Mar 2004 12:09:40 PST (lol) looking back at it, you see your life unfold like a picture book (at times I wish I could burn them) but being able to keep the bad and good stuff alive you balance out your life a little better.

as most ppl have notice... I've been writing a lot more then drawing. It's hard when I try to sketch out something from my head and it doesn't turn out the way I imagined it. A few times they are as I wish... but never completed. The only completed work I think I've accomplished and still love that is my own, is "devil's pawn."

I still have plenty of poetry in me. Like drawing, I use to have no skill in writing poetry or anything at that matter that was actually meaningful from the start. I spent the last 3 years of my life grieving ^_^ and hiding from my own pain. I think i've cried tears worth a life time.

Finally I'm happy for the first time in years. Not because I've met someone that makes me happy. Not because I'm hanging on to past hopes. But because I'm true to myself and I know what I want out of my life and my future. I feel like I've found that something that has been missing in my life and surprisingly it wasn't love. (took me long enough) That doesn't mean that I've given up on guys though . I don't know if I can servive another break down but I've made it this far and you know what, I did it without a miracle pill.

If I was given a second chance to redo my whole life again... I wouldn't have changed a thing. I'm up for any challenge at this point. (uh geting some exercise would be good :0. )

Maybe it's the sunny weather talking to me. Right now I'm thinking of taking some fencing or dancing lessons... havn't decided. But hehe I have no experience in either courses but I really wanna get shaken if you know what I mean . ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1944996/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1944996/ Wed, 03 Mar 2004 13:22:49 PST
I hadn't really put my heart into any artwork or done as much art as I had two years ago or before that ^_^' geez.... I think deviantart is geting tierd of me uploading so many haha.

OOh good news, I just got my permit yesturday. I can start practice driving again and I don't have to wait 6 months to go take my licence. One mission down, still plenty to do. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1932825/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1932825/ Mon, 01 Mar 2004 11:47:24 PST
We don't have a working phone in our house. Honestly... isn't this illegal? My parents have their own cell phones but when I try calling home from school or from the mall etc. They never pick up their phone.

What's the use of having cell phones if they're not going to pick them up? This is probably one reason why I havn't had any luck looking for work. -_-. I can live without a phone but not when it comes to important calls. I had a cell phone but I've run my savings account dry since college started. which was 2 semesters ago. Hopefully I can get my financial aid by next semester. It would help a lot in my situation.

Yesturday I took my younger sisters out shopping. And this happened. It's happened before and frankly I almost lost my temper. All I could think of was... *the first person who pisses me off, I'll stab them with the next sharp object I can find*. Oh yeah, I can't drive yet... waited too long to get my licence so my permit expired. I could have taken the bus home but I decided to walk it off and drag my siblings along haha... no harm done btw, it was just about half an hour walk from home which isn't so bad.

Don't get me wrong, I love my family, but living at home makes me feel so sufficated. I want to move out but I realize there are a few things I have to take care of first.

On the good side.
After I finish those things... hopefully I can leave for a while without feeling so tied down and guilty. Which will probably not be accomplished until I finish city college.

But I do have a plan now and I'm always trying to find a solution which makes my life a lot easyier than it is. *confidence kicks in* lol. I sure know how to cheer myself up ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1921252/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1921252/ Sat, 28 Feb 2004 12:39:26 PST

just back to check on things and distroy yesturday's journal intry. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1883352/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1883352/ Sat, 21 Feb 2004 12:59:51 PST Thanks a buddle for dropping by ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1866426/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1866426/ Wed, 18 Feb 2004 12:20:33 PST : ') I thought it might give me some good luck for this year since this is the year of the monkey. It made a nice snuggle buddy and I've actually gotten a lot more sleep recently. Though every time I get these really weird dreams.

I don't remember them all but I had a nightmare the other day where --- I had my art work posted all over a wall and two judges from american idol were deviantart admins... saying that my art work was disallowed so the guy takes a knife out of no where and starts slashing a huge painting I did that somewhat looked like my akira poster? the horror... not the big one. >_< If I don't sleep I don't dream right? lol. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1844511/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1844511/ Sat, 14 Feb 2004 13:40:06 PST I once hoped to hear,
words from your smile
that brings light even to my dimed eyes.

Who'd ever though...
that such sweet words
could sting so much venum
taste so tainted and bitter
as to leave an everlasting impression.

~:icon twilightang3l:


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Last night I went to Davis to see 50 first dates with my friend David... I got a pretty nice tour. Though I hope this was just a friend hang out and not a real date... but anyways...
I got home by mid nite and woke up late for my artclass... because my alarm was set to ring at 5am.... instead of 8am.. lol... I have art at 9am. long story put short:

On the way to school... my dad gives me this big lecture about going out with out his permission... OMFG I want to kill myself. The whole day... I'm stuck in a depression state... my sketches turned out like crap and I was having a crappy day... Why can't I have a life?

Thank god Linda... if you weren't there when my last relation was over I don't know what I would have done...

My confession: I still have feelings for someone that I'm no longer with and I don't want them...I DONT WANT THEM What am I suppose to do about it? I don't want to go back to that person... because I know better... Isn't it... once you love someone u can never stop? I don't think thats true... because I have gotten over someone before but for this case... it's not working and it's causing me a lot of unnesessary stress. Help I need closer >_<

Everytime I get like this the left side of my brain hurts... hum sounds funny but it's really irritating... to the point where I can't even focus on my school work. It's not a happy vday for me. ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1827835/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1827835/ Wed, 11 Feb 2004 11:39:15 PST . I scanned in a few artwork but havn't had the time or equiptment to upload it. I hope I can get some sketches done by saturday. Won't be back until ...Wednesday? 4 day week end college is great ^^' ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1808278/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1808278/ Sat, 07 Feb 2004 13:28:21 PST ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1798000/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1798000/ Thu, 05 Feb 2004 11:55:04 PST ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1782725/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1782725/ Mon, 02 Feb 2004 12:39:02 PST
Last week was so depressing. Every thing just sunk in... my best friend is moving to LA in about 4 months after this semester is over =/. Hey hey... thanks for the call Richard (if you're reading this that is) it really cheered me up. Things are going ok right now.

I only have 12 units this semester (3 classes) Math, Art, and Japanese. I wish I had more classes though. My art class is pretty easy. ^_-' Circles and squares It's all good I get to play with charcoal that reminds me I need to go buy another pack today... the willow brand is really nice and thin. 'char char' ]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1761496/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1761496/ Thu, 29 Jan 2004 11:01:57 PST that is just hilarious. What's wrong with a chick being a pet? It's all good :d it was cute while it stood up there .

I don't know if I'll be posting most of my work here in DA anymore it's not as reliable as I thought. I've already moved all of my stuff to my old webpage. But I'm not leaving ... at least I dont think I will yet. I've been here too long it makes it hard to leave. This coming Feb. 11th will be my 2 year aniversary here in Deviantart I know that there are others who've been here longer. (ahum... admins)Congrats Congrats for making it this far

You won't see any more new photos from me here but be sure to wait for some real life sketches I'll be doing for the next 4 months. I'm currently looking for a job so as soon as I get a stable one I'll get my phone line hooked up again. :d

luv yah,
~

]]> ~twilightang3l http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1733471/ http://twilightang3l.deviantart.com/journal/1733471/ Sat, 24 Jan 2004 11:21:40 PST . I won't be around to chat but leave me a message here or email at: twilightang3l@hotmail.com and I'll get back with you.

I hate being the oldest out of 7 kids in my family... and having to be the first to go to college. My parents don't quiet understand yet that in college you are able to choose what time and day you go to school and how much load they throw at you compared to highschool . My dad is makeing my life so much harder. It makes me want to die

Other than that I'm doing fine... lonely but got plenty of time to do homework and art.

I'm really excited about the art class I'm taking this semester. I think I picked a great class by chance. It's all doodles and no papers to write except when we visit a gallery This is the only thing I'm looking forward to.

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gosh it's late... I still have trouble sleeping.
I miss working at sears. I sleep a lot better when I'm worn out. Oh did I mention I was working in the shoe department at sears during the holidays? I think not. Yeah... wow I learned a lot of shoe names by the end of xmas ^_^'

If u're wondering why I havn't been here... yes I always have an excuse: my excuse this time is GUNBOUND (gunbound.net) lots of young pervs there yup. lol... I think everyone is geting mad at me because I havn't been very conversational. Sorry guys... I shall be tomorrow

NEW GLASSES: For those I havn't mention this to yet... YES I had to get new glasses once again. I am literally going blind every year. (nearsiteness) Usually during the winter time. Right now my eye site is a wooping horror of -5.00. the strongest prescrition there is in vision = -10.00 that means I'm half way to becomeing blind. Until then u will continue to see artwork from me.

My life is so boring right now... LINDA, hurry and come back from LA I miss yah lol !!! Can't wait till summer comes... I need some outdoorsy... it's creepy going out during the winter... always some weirdo behind a tree or two ahum*. It's either that or I'll have to go to a gym. Staying at home infront of a cpu all the time is bad for health... I even miss school !!!HIT ME with those books there *yes u* :book:. @_@

School is this 20th .... I mention I'm taking art 300 yes? I havn't taken an art class since my freshman year in highschool. I miss art classes.

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