http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:twistedbutterfly&section=today deviantART RSS for by:twistedbutterfly en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 31 Dec 2009 09:55:14 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/26684973/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/26684973/ Wed, 19 Aug 2009 03:47:13 PDT I'D LIKE TO LET YOU ALL KNOW I'M VERY GRATEFUL.
There's been over fourteen thousand visitors.

AND HOWEVER HAPPY THAT MAKES ME, IT ALSO SADDENS ME
a little, because I'd like to be more active and also
I've been thinking about changing my name over here
as the reign of "TW IS TED BUTT ER FLY" has long wilted away.
I'm a little embarrassed to be honest,
it's such a silly thing.

I'M GOING TO STUDY ARTS FOR A YEAR AT LAHTI FOLK HIGH SCHOOL.
It'll be a new start. A change, if you will.
Hopefully finally a beginning for my life
that has so long been on a standstill.
It comes with a price, but I'd pay anything to move on.
I'm very excited and also a little scared.
But looking forwards to meeting new people
and learning new things.

I GUESS I'D LIKE TO SAY
thank you ♥ ^{♥ _♥}
and with these words
I part.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/24034823/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/24034823/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 04:23:14 PDT
I just want to, you know, let you know that i'm still alive.
I do breathe (however laborously what with all this coughing).

Things have been nice
and then crash burn breakdown-inducing
and then tolerable
and then strange and exciting.

I'd like to finish some paint(h)ings but you know.



I heard it's cold out, but her popsicle melts.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/22219779/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/22219779/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 01:57:55 PST
VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS

and you are having

AWESOME HOLIDAYS

and will have a

BRILLIANT NEW YEAR

too.



i, for one, did, am and will!
got nicely nice gifts and all!

um i don't know what else to say!




...except that some people just don't know what's good for them. or maybe nobody actually watches me and all those 76 people are a glitch. who knows?

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/21825308/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/21825308/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 09:07:52 PST
If you comment here, you'll get a feature!
I will feature the first 17 people who comment.
And if you get featured, you'll have to do this same thing in your journal. The first person to feature will be the one who featured you.

too bad i'm not a paid member so i can't make fancy thumbnails... oh well, such is life.
i got featured by =Skycode here. so i present to you:



The old pine tree
Crossroads
Down in the forest



1.

it was a tough battle, but finally settled to these:
a new legend
amberosia
pins and needles





now COMMENT! get FEATURED! right HERE! it's FREE!

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/19600494/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/19600494/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:35:50 PDT my most sincere thank-yous and s
for everyone who's ever went through the trouble of taking a gander at my... babies.

i'm gradually nearing my sixth year here at hogw- deviantart.
well i know i've never been good with communities. sorry about that. i'd like to be more courageous and goddamn communicate with other people.
but i just either forget or shrink away.

nevertheless, i've evolved and learned a lot about myself (partially thanks to the occasional comment i've gotten for my work, even if it's just an "i like that" it encourages me greatly).
and maybe that's the reason i want to draw and share all the little feelings and sentiments. and the big ones too. i want to learn.

now, what i should learn is how to live in this big world.
never had much ambition. never had any dreams for my future. where would you start?

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/19323905/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/19323905/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 03:43:55 PDT i'm kind of happy to see deviantwatch thumbnails and the ability to sort them by the submitters, maybe i'll finally start weeding out those ~2880 waiting deviations.
however, it crashes my firefox (running on ubuntu) when i try to remove them.
i hope they'll fix that someday.
maybe they will and maybe they won't.

maybe i should be daring and brave and file a bug report or something but oh well...

i have a new picture to show you
but! i'm a bit hesitant what with all this v6 fuss going around. guess i'll wait a little.

i've been quiet for a while, haven't i?

i've had an okay summer vacation so far.
although i do feel a little (or a little more) bad for not applying for any jobs and living off my parents' money, i've had loads of good times.

but oh my now i should go and water all the strawberries and onions and carrots and pumpkins and whatnot. maybe i'll be back, ta ta.



edit: hur hur, did the right thing and reported my findings after trying a few different browsers. hope it helps.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/16733108/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/16733108/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 03:32:40 PST i promise
no i don't but i'm trying.
honest. it's just.
i think i only wanted to say something
to take the last entry out - not because i'd have something against it,

it just seems so... old. old but not obsolete.
but i have nothing much.
to nearly quote a group of people from a certain barren island:
"still swimming, still singing,

still liking scarecrows."
standstill but never still.
a bird nest tangle of shimmering, quivering things.

some touches blow my mind.
some touches flutter from one place to another.

some do that and more.



but now here's something i stole from *lolitaAgogo:
{a} - available?
always, but only for one certain person.

{b} - birthday?
september the seventh.

{c} - crushing?
constantly.

{d} - drink you had last?
umm vanilla tea with honey.

{e} - easiest person to talk to?
me and maybe my other half i think.

{f} - favourite colours?
rainbows and rainbows of colours.

{g} - gummy bears or gummy worms?
i don't eat none of them, but i like worms.

{h} - hometown?
helsinki.

{i} - ill?
only mentally.

{j} - juggle?
haha, no, i'm a klutz.

{k} - killed someone?
i buried them deep so no-one'll ever find them.

{l} - longest car ride?
ah, somewhere between 3 and 5 hours i think. it's just a lucky guess. i haven't been inside cars much.

{m} - milkshake flavor?
just like ice cream, i like them mostly.

{n} - number of siblings?
one.

{o} - one wish?
more wishes, there never can be too much.

{p} - person you called last?
maman.

{q} - queer?
certainly a thrill.

{r} - reasons to smile?
a naughty mind.

{s} - song you last heard?
placebo - you don't care about us.

{t} - time you woke up this morning?
eight something.

{u} - underwear?
i has none.

{v} - vegetarian?
omni-carbivorous.

{w} - worst habit?
habitual laziness.

{x} - x-rays you've had?
lots of my lungs. and some from my hands and feet to determine if i'm ever gonna grow up. the conclusion: no.

{y} - your number of friends on myspace?
i have no myspace, i created one a while back but decided it's scary. now i'm on facebook though, i've eleven friends there.

{z} - zodiac sign?
virgo fire-bunny willow-tree.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/15237360/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/15237360/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 01:01:57 PDT and i haven't finished anything grand enough lately, mostly i've had other things in my mind. or rather, a significant other thing who sings and swims and bites. i have to admit my birthday i told you about was "mostly perfect" thanks to seeing her briefly, although we hadn't gotten our fingers entangled in this great mess yet. now we've had loads and loads of days and some mornings too.

so yes, i am, by all definitions, feeling absolutely fine and dandy. oh okay, maybe i should be more motivated to learn the fine fine art of woodworking, but well i guess i never thought school could be easy.

i feel a bit empty and grumbling in my tummy area so i guess it's time for breakfast now. also, the time for wishes comes in ten-ish minutes. i'll have to keep an eye out for that one.

oh poop, didn't look good enough.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/14538752/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/14538752/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 00:00:04 PDT yesterday. however, by god i am now
seventy-three or thirty-four or
fourty-six or maybe even
twelve years old, a
ripe age i must
say oh my
bones!



but
i think
it was a
perfect day
in most aspects,
even without a single
sip of the potion felix felicis.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/14449966/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/14449966/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 02:57:21 PDT didn't even realize!
this is outrageous!
(nakie time!)
i
want
to
i want to give you all a really big hug and a kiss on the cheek.

i sing silent congratulations for myself, ten thousand and ten pageviews.

i'll try and finish something awesome sometime in the near future.
i hope i succeed in whatever it is.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/13954294/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/13954294/ Tue, 31 Jul 2007 10:00:27 PDT
my bitten fingers itch and sting a little under lukewarm water and i wash them over and over again for no reason and because i think they're sticky sometimes.

yes, chocolate. plastic toys. video games. the scent of cigarette lighters vanilla tobacco a mist in my memory. nowhere to go yet, no need to go yet.

(oh god, i believe in you so, don't be fooled, i'm just shutting my eyes and ears and little tender tendrils from everything people tell each other about you because i believe. in. all. of. you.)

this is read in a way similiar to when ally mcbeal talks so much she forgets to breathe and she's so nervous and oh god, what can i say? i can't get a peep out of my mouth, myself.

never anything to say.

i adore your freckled nose.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/13803309/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/13803309/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 02:53:10 PDT aces.
i (still) have no idea what it does but there it is.

i will do something real soon. i will i will i will.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/13659567/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/13659567/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 14:18:49 PDT
heyrið krákar, fyrirgefið! *yells at the sky*

no no no, maybe it's just the coffee.
old old cold coffee. yawn.
i want to make strange sounds
and curl myself up into a ball of yarn.



strange sounds are easy comfort for some lonesome times.


uaa.


i forgot myself under a table once. or twice or more.

-m(e)

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/13240209/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/13240209/ Wed, 06 Jun 2007 14:07:34 PDT
i am most deeply sorry and/or grateful for everything that might or might not have happened. i'm afraid completing even the simplest tasks has become, shall we say, a burden of sorts to me. i hope to resolve this "sit you at ion" as soon as the crow flaps its wings but i ca'n't go and make any brickwall-solid promises because, ah, that's the way i are.

however, i invite all of you to make helpful, snide, arrogant or friendly suggestions that might give a hand at liquifying this dreadful sit-com-u-ation. or maybe not. but anyways, i hope you've had a dapper vacation!

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/12445417/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/12445417/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 14:35:52 PDT this will be the best time of my life.
this will rock my world.

01) First name: i dub thee mikael because archangels are a lot cooler than prophets.
02) Your nickname in dA: twistedbutterfly, duh? it's quite retarded though... but it's all right, so am i.
03) Birthday: VII.
04) Horoscope sign: virgo.
05) Birth town: helsinki.
06) Religion: imaginary.
07) Nationality: finn.
08) Parents: why, yes.
09) Do you love them: o'course.
10) Brothers or sisters: a brother who lives with his own family already.
11) Do you like the place where you live: it's rather nice if you don't mind the people.
12) Where would you move to live forever? my bed.
13) Color of your eyes: blueish/greenish/grayish.
14) Height: 5'2"
15) Weight: seven hundred pounds.
16) What school/grade are you going to: nothing right now.
17) What marks do you have: good and bad.
18) How many piercings do you have, and where are them? um, dem are... one, two, three, many! dem on ears!
19) What do you want to be in your life: dead!
20) Your life: art-faggotry.
21) Personal quote(s): "um, i don't know."
22) Lucky number: 7?
23) What are you interested in: everything.
24) Good side of your character: mellow.
25) Bad side of it: anxt.
26) Is your life happy: more often than i think.
27) Do you think that you are crazy: only the sane people think they're crazy.
28) What is the time: 23:45. ha!
29) What is the date: april the third.
30) What’s the weather like: can't see, curtains.
31) Favourite day in a week: every day.
32) Favourite music: every music.
33) Singer: sindri sigfœsson rocks my socks at the moment.
34) Band: to go with the above, seabear.
35) Song: every song.
36) Best concert you have been: i haven't been to many concerts, sadly...
37) Actor/Actress: omg johnny depp!11!!
38) Manga: that's a tough one. i can't even remember the last decent manga i've read. maybe clothes road.
39) Film: i've never had much favourites, i think. i used to cherish beetlejuice.
40) TV serial: if i'd watch tv, perhaps i'd watch house, c.s.i. and mythbusters.
41) Theatre play: ah, i've seen so many and all have been more or less brilliant.
42) Film director: tim burton.
43) Do you want to be famous: yes and no.
44) Do you want to be an actor/actress: sometimes. but then i realize i suck at remembering lines.
45) Do you want to be a singer: yes.
46) Book: any book? well i'm reading the bible at the moment.
47) Colors: rainbow is a color i like.
48) Flower: all of them.
49) Food: mämmi.
50) Drink: coffee.
51) Sweet: chocolate.
52) Fruit: i've seen some.
53) The worst food: ...food?
54) The worst Drink: i don't know.
55) The worst Singer: our old green singer, it's cool but doesn't work.
56) The worst Band: evening traffic.
57) The worst Actor: actors escape me.
58) The worst Actress: i don't know.
59) The worst Movie: they come in flocks.
60) The worst book: i never read bad books.
61) Do you drink alcohol: yes, sometimes.
62) Do you smoke: when i drink.
63) Do you take some drugs: no-one knows.
64) What do you adore to wear: shabby jeans.
65) Do you think you're pretty: occasionally.
66) What languages do you speak: finnish, english, a little bit swedish and japanese and i know a few words in icelandic.
67) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/male: never-ever say ever, we're all here forever and everything can happen...
68) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/female: ...but i do find someone i stumbled upon by chance very beautiful. i'm not good at dropping names.
69) The most beautiful person on dA/male: i don't know everyone here.
70) The most beautiful person on dA/female: i hardly know anyone.
71) 5 best friends on dA/male: well, isn't this a chore -
72) 5 best friends on dA/female: - everyone i know?
73) The ugliest person on dA/male: ...
74) The ugliest person on dA/female: ...
75) The person on dA who you love the most/female: everyone.
76) The person on dA who you love the most/male: all.
77) The person on dA who you don’t like at all/female: i don't dislike -
78) The person on dA who you don’t like at all/male: - really.
79) Are you in love: a little bit and quite a lot.
80) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no.
81) How does he/she looks like: ...?
82) Is he/she from dA (put avatar): n/a.
83) When was your Very First Kiss: well, technically, if you count just any kiss with any little crush, i have no idea because most of my childhood is quite blurry. but the first kiss... ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/12385420/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/12385420/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 06:53:27 PDT
and winter went...
and spring came instead.

it's so sunny & warm now
i'm still all wicked smile.
kind of.

just chilling, will-o-the-wisp style.
like all the time everytime.

yeah, i'm all fine.

what i can say now:
life
is e x a c t l y like an early 20th century tram bench
ripped with repetition and routine

but kind of interesting when you think about it.

i don't think it was as stressful though,
back when they made them the first time
a hundred years ago.

the quality is a snitch.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/11720954/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/11720954/ Wed, 07 Feb 2007 10:30:40 PST
I realized that I actually missed the real coldness of winter. And now I've smiled so much at the icy gllllaciers that my face has frozen happy. And I don't care about my nose bleeding.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/11436583/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/11436583/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 15:26:08 PST MY GRANDPA-SPANKING NEW ART-BLOG. It'll hold all kinds of doodles and music and... stuff. Neat, huh?

That's all. I don't know if I'll be uploading much crap here any longer. I'll just stick to the real masterpieces - so don't expect much.

Damn, I need to clean up this gallery quite a bit...

I decided to drop that terrible people-pimping meme because I only got three names (=SulphurSpoon, ~mygirl and ~Dragon-Xisle - go check their galleries out by yourselves). I wonder what's so scary about free publicity?

Now, I'm afraid I must bid you good-night.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/11171368/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/11171368/ Sun, 24 Dec 2006 06:52:11 PST
And a joyful new-year as well!

<3<3<3

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10888601/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10888601/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 04:34:37 PST :

The first 10 people who post in this journal will be featured. I will go though your gallery and choose three of your deviations I like most and post them in my journal for everyone to see! It's pretty much to show you off. Who doesn't want that? The catch? You gotta put this in your journal as well if you posted. And I will leave this part up for a long time. And remember, if you don't post this in your journal, I'm not going to put your art up.

1. =SulphurSpoon
2. ~mygirl
3. ~Dragon-Xisle
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

Plz? oAo~<3




The 100 picture challenge list.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10857544/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10857544/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 14:22:15 PST
Drawing has been somewhat easier than a while ago. Or... creating in general, as I've been actively picking up strange melodies as well. And wrote a few poems. I'm not sure how long I was low on inspiration - I haven't been quite sure about the flow of time in what seems like years now (but might as well be just a few months).

What else there is to say... I haven't been completely idle in "real" life either, I just ended a month-long course that tried to teach me how to get a job and such. I hope my flimsy brain absorbed at least a little bit of that information. I'll start at WooDoo-workshop in a week, I'm going to learn to do things out of wood. It's probably going to occupy me for the next five-six months. And that's all fine, since then I won't need to think for a while, just live.

...Not that something like living'd be very important to me, anyways.

Oh well, that's about it. Maybe I've more thoughts but I'm not sure.



The 100 picture challenge list.

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10369900/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10369900/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 08:22:34 PST
I present to you... the HUNDRED PICTURE CHALLENGE

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist. After 100 pics who wouldn’t be better? Please forgive me if this in any way excludes you from taking the challenge.

The Rules:

1.) Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun

3.) The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. For all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.

3a.) Pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that:
A.)You are in the challenge.
B.)What you have completed.

5.) Make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic.

6.) In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10256685/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10256685/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 07:51:35 PDT



EDIT:
Chocolate!

]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10051976/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/10051976/ Thu, 14 Sep 2006 08:26:03 PDT LISTENING TO:
miyavi - ashita, genki ni naare
---

I was about to rant about dA's current "degenerate" state, but then I realized I don't really care about it that much. I mean, I've never had any community spirit whatsoever, so why should I manifest any now? I've never really understood human behaviour that much, that's one reason why I'm so interested and enthralled by it.
As an analyst, not as a practician.

Hello world, I love you<3
Bye bye world, I still do<3

-mi



EDIT:
OH MY! 8000 hits already? Thank you very much darlings<3

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LINKS TO ME:
journal-music-poetry-last.fm-hands ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9989894/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9989894/ Wed, 06 Sep 2006 15:50:35 PDT LISTENING TO:
Abso-bloody-lutely nuthing.
---

It's been 7th of September here for nearly two hours already.
Happy birthday, dearest me~!

-mi

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LINKS TO ME:
journal-music-poetry-last.fm-hands ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9642148/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9642148/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 07:28:45 PDT LISTENING TO:
Infected Mushroom - B.P. Empire
---

Well well well. Happy day after birthday deviantART! Great to see the new v5 layout... Now we'll just have to wait for you to actually FINISH it. Please don't stop here.

-m

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LINKS TO ME:
journal-music-poetry-last.fm-hands ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9539790/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9539790/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 04:13:46 PDT LISTENING TO:
Hans Zimmer - Jack Sparrow
---

I'm proud to announce that I'm a hand model now: see and vote here.

Thank you very much, *longnails!

The thing I'm not that proud to announce is that I haven't been up to much lately. Today I might upload one image, but I'm not quite certain about that.

It's awesome to stagger drunkenly to the music of Jack Sparrow.

-m

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm-hands ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9205132/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9205132/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 22:21:13 PDT LISTENING TO:
Marilyn Manson - detach313.mp3
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Congratulations!

You are a washing machine! You are out there. In fact, you are so out there that you are not even in the kitchen! You are a firm believer that clealiness is next to godliness, and you are loads of fun to be around.
what kitchen utensil are YOU?

I am most content now.

Just saw my first disturbing nightmare in years. All thanks to Junji Ito.

000 000

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9072659/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9072659/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 01:49:54 PDT LISTENING TO:
Susumu Hirasawa - Jouken Douji
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You who visited my dream last night, I'd like to meet you some day. I think you were an interesting person and it'd be nice to take a little walk together.

If you don't mind?



Edit:
The more I remember the more I remember what I can't remember.

000 000

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9052258/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/9052258/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 23:49:28 PDT LISTENING TO:
Boards of Canada - Opening the Mouth
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It's a good ol' time for some o' that good ol' ver-ballistic in-out in-out in your ears.

It has come to my knowledge that Moustaches are Important on some people. But don't you think I'm ever going to grow a moustache, I'll grow whiskers when/if I grow up to be a granny. Then I can harass little children with them and sit on my rocking chainsmoking hard drug slave (I use only the best human furniture.) sipping whiske(r)y. That's a good end to a life that already ended ages ago.

I didn't just hear you lumbering about. I smelled your putrid stench, I felt your humongous arms flailing, I saw your elephantuous shadow. You're dead to the world and yet you hang around. Go rot in your own corner and stop bothering.

I'd really have sleep paralysis, I really would... but every time i walk towards my bed the hag is already sitting there.
So I crawl under her and let her throttle me to sleep.

000 000

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8958986/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8958986/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 11:49:45 PDT LISTENING TO:
The window is closed now.
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Because I already got tired of that mile-long but mostly useless entry, i'd like to replace it with another mostly useless entry.
Only this time i'll make it relatively shorter.

In this pointless blather i repeat myself - as i always have. Maybe it's some kind of a mechanism to make me believe in my (endless, continuous stream of) thoughts... But yes, back to the the re-repetitionion:

Remember kids, never take anything seriously.

Repetition or nopetition, it's still a lesson of importance. Learn it well and you might realize it has no meaning whatsoever. Just like everything else.
And that's all good.

You know, you still have your laughter. Be it the slightly manical silent giggle of a lobotomy patient or the mighty guffaw of a malevolent god, it's still there. And I (it was really satisfying to italicize that one important single letter) like it that way.

Lay all your trust on me... and the world will degenerate.

-M

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8947485/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8947485/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 06:07:04 PDT LISTENING TO:
an open window
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i haven't done quizzes on my da account in ages, so here's one i stole from =Titanix-Avalon.
(ooo... my hands are shaking)

damn. while filling this, i accidentally agreed to update firefox and i had to start all over again >__>

100 Artist Q&A

1] What is your pen name?
twistedbutterfly i guess. i don't like it much though. i'd rather make something out of my own name. the twistedbutterfly entity isn't happy in its name either.

2] How did you get the name?
it came to me as i was trying to invent a name for my da account and then evolved into something terrible.

3] Do you use PC or Mac?
a pc, sadly. i'm too poor for a mac.

4] What software you use most often?
opencanvas 3 and paint shop pro 8. i've somehow avoided using photoshop, and i don't know why. they say it's a lot better.

5] Do you use mouse, or tablet?
tablet. but it depends on the job of course.

6] The color you use most often is?
rainbow. i used to use a lot of pink but now i've passed on.

7] What area of the pictures do you put most effort into?
faces, hands. they seem the most important to me.

8] How long does it take you do draw a picture?
depends on my mood, really.

9] Do you keep your rough drafts?
if i make any (and i rarely do), yes.

10] What kind of font do you use most often?
i don't use much fonts.

11] What's the dpi when you scan?
150-300. depends on the picture.

12] Do you do anything else when you're drawing pictures?
not really. i do listen to music but i don't think that counts. i usually get too sucked in the process that i don't notice anything else.

13] How many pictures do you draw in a month?
a handful.

14] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
scetchbook or photocopy. i'm not too picky.

15] What kind of paper do you use for sketches and drafts?
i rarely do them at all. i just start drawing.

16] How long does it take to ink something?
i haven't "inked" anything in ages. i've been drawing with ink, it usually takes as much time as any other picture.

17] Do you do doujinshi or original manga?
no. i used to think i'll be a mangaka someday but then the whole idea just got ridiculous. i'm no comic artist.

18] Do you like doujinshi? Is it fun making it?
it's fun to read. especially romantic yaoi doujinshis are lovely.

19] Ever submitted anything to a magazine?
no.

20] Did it get published?
...

21] Who are your favorite artists?
some of my friends. apart from them, salvador dali, hieronymus bosch, junko mizuno, don rosa and dave mckean and some others.

22] What's your favorite Anime/Manga?
i don't watch anime much but full metal alchemist, revolutionary girl utena and paranoia agent are great. in manga form i like naruto, death note and mpd psycho. (i nearly bitched about the way manga and anime are written with capitals but then i realized i don't use capitals at all myself so it would be just silly.)

23] Favorite Characters?
(again with the random capitalization...) i don't really have much favourites i'm afraid.

24] Any artists that you'd like to draw like?
me.

25] Do you buy books a lot?
no... i like reading though.

26] Did you ever buy a book to inspire you to draw?
i've read something that has made me inspired but i've never bought a book with intentions of getting an urge to draw.

27] Any video games you enjoy?
final fantasy, zelda games, worms world party. i never finish any games (that have something to finish) though, i get bored at some point and then forget.

28] Any favorite characters from video games?
shota link.

29] Do you have a favorite writer?
i don't have a favourite... poe, lovecraft, long, rowling, gaiman and so on.

30] Any books you really enjoy?
i'm enjoying jeff long's year zero at the moment.

31] Do you write fanfics?
nope.

32] Any music that you often listen to while drawing?
any music i like to listen any time.

33] Any recommended songs?
personal jesus (by depeche mode or marilyn manson, both are great), david bowie's starman... they're the songs that popped in my mind first.

34] Any web sites that you totally admire?
zombo.com!

35] Do you have any sites you want to go everyday?
deviantart, livejournal, irc-galleria (XD... ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8910068/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8910068/ Mon, 29 May 2006 09:54:16 PDT LISTENING TO:
marilyn manson's website's ye olde "do you love your guns, your god, your government" hymn playing in my head.
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i nearly forgot to mention here that we got a digital camera. it's made of love and you'll be expecting more photomanips now. the real camera, as opposed to a webcam, is cruel and unmerciful though, but i'll be watching my back and tread with greatest care...

i didn't stop using those preview images but maybe it's all for the good. if some people find my thumbnails "amazing works" then it's their loss, not mine. and i'm not even certain if it's a loss, it's great to be satisfied with small things.

my thoughts are quite ambivalent, like always.

symbolism is very interesting. there's worlds of knowledge in everything. and it's funny how symbols change during this thing called "time". but i guess it's the same with everything. which reminds me, does anyone happen to know about the significance of a skull in mayan culture? i tried to google for it but i didn't get lucky.

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8804142/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8804142/ Thu, 18 May 2006 03:27:16 PDT LISTENING TO:
computer hum
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i'm thinking that maybe i ought to stop using those silly, cryptic little "preview images". and just submit every single image with a disclaimer that says that you should full view because if you don't the details and the possible brushwork/textures aren't visible. on the other hand, it's got its own problems since it seems to me that some people just don't read the artist's comments... i'm quite annoyed by the fact that some people might just look at a preview image and comment without even seeing the actual piece. i've kept the "always full view" -option checked for a few years now and it hasn't hurt me. some people don't seem to know how to make their images smaller than 2000x1000 though, but it's just a minor annoyance.

i should go now.

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8726796/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8726796/ Wed, 10 May 2006 03:49:37 PDT LISTENING TO:
birds outside
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we just got an urgent message, it says: "bitch bitch bitch bitch".

maw, it's summer and i caught my first cold in... about one-and-a-half years.



edit
...oh well, getting better now.

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8591480/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8591480/ Wed, 26 Apr 2006 12:24:30 PDT LISTENING TO:
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This is a great song to commemorate the 20th anniversary of the nuclear meltdown in Chernobyl, with its macabre tale of a man who insists staying in his home and imagery of Gagarin and Laika flying in an UFO above the radioactive country.

Just last month the wolf still had his teeth in his mouth
now he doesn't eat and with his bald he resembles Gorbatchev.

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8464292/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8464292/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 22:58:27 PDT LISTENING TO:
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o_o!!!!!

thank you very much for the 7K

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8444266/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8444266/ Wed, 12 Apr 2006 01:14:55 PDT LISTENING TO:
boards of canada - the color of fire
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9 Firsts...
-First Best Friend: err, can't really remember. i've never really held anyone higher than my other friends in that sense.
-First Imaginary Friend: have no idea which was the first, but i remember the green glove-thing and a a lot later a little boy ghost named nico (or niko, i'm not sure how it was written anymore).
-First Pet's name: never had any other pets than virtual ones, and the first one i've really named is that tamagotchi connection v2. the first one's name was LAN.
-First Piercing: i pierced my right ear when i was um... fourteen? something like that, yeah.
-First Crush: in kindergarten.
-First CD: i think it was the smurfs collection vol. 1. XD i listened to it A LOT.
-First Car: never.
-First School: pihkapuiston ala-aste.
-First Kiss: hum, i was very "openly sexual" when i was little, but i don't think that counts really...

9 Lasts...
-Last Time You Smoked: hum, at the last drinking-meeting i attended to :3 i only ever smoke when i'm not sober.
-Last Food You Ate: mämmi, last night. yes, i'm one of those craaaaaazy finns who likes it, odd as it might look.
-Last Car Ride: um, in hämeenlinna, a few weeks (?) ago.
-Last Movie You Watched: moulin rouge<3
-Last Phone Call: called anni yesterday.
-Last CD You listened to: just listening to boards of canada's music has the right to children.
-Last Bubble Bath You took: back when we used to own a bathtub.
-Last Song You listened to: rue the whirl is playing right now, so the last song i listened throughoutly was roygbiv.
-Last Fight: i tend not to fight.

8 Have you ever...
-Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: define "dated".
-Have You Ever Been Arrested: nope.
-Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: but of course.
-Have You Ever Been on TV: yes, some news group came to shoot our PE class and i never understood why.
-Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: kind of yes, but then again i don't really regret things.
-Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: no.
-Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: haha, no.
-Have You Ever Been out of the Country: yes, in sweden and estonia.

7 Things you are wearing
- black t-shirt
- red pants
- black underwear
- glasses
- ...
- my interesting personality
- sex

6 Thing you've done today...
- wake up
- brew coffee
- switch on the internets
- start computer
- put that cd playing
- drink coffee

5 Favorite Things (no specific order)...
- dreams
- nature
- music
- love
- life

4 People You Most Trust (no specific order)...
- family
- friends
- anyone who seems to know things better than i do
- yes, i'm gullible

3 Choices...
- ummmwhat?
- er...
- yeah.

2 Things You Want to do Before You Die...
- live
- love

1 Person You Want to see
- saatana, and i will.

7 People Who Should Put This In Their Journal
- i'll let people decide for themselves.



i've been thinking about that shop thing but i'm just too lazy to put anything in there... i'm not sure if i'll ever get round to it. sorry.

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journal-music-poetry-last.fm ]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8286366/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/8286366/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 15:49:59 PST - l i s t e n i n g -
Ryuko Azuma - Tokyo Kills Perspective
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See this lj-entry for a few random doodles.

In other news, I've finally started using Linux n____n

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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!!!

We are all doomed, doomed I say.

I should stop being a procrastinator.

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YUP - Joutilas
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This song by a finnish band named YUP (Yhdistyneet Urbaanit Puoskarit = United Urban Quacks) has been playing in my head for the whole day and I'm feeling quite bored so I decided to make a crude translation here for everyone to laugh. So ha.

YUP - Joutilas

Monta vuotta häntä arvostettiin kunnes kerran kävikin niin
Että poltti kaikki miljoonansa vihoviimeiseen seteliin
Nauroi kauan ja makeasti, katsoi kansaa ja nauroi niin
Katsoi kansa häneen kyynelsilmin ja hänet miltei lynkattiin
Minä en ole tohtori kummoinen mutta tiednpä sentään sen
Että päällisin puolin on potilas lähes täysijärkinen
Hän sanoo ettei tahdo edes olla tätä rotua
Kun muu väki hississä monistuu hän selän kääntää ja katoaa

Tätä joutilasta kavahtakaa on säröjä sielussaan
Ei vaadi, tahdo, kadehdi, ei kumarra mitään johtajaa
Tätä joutilasta kavahtakaa, se ei kuulu maailmaan
Vain laiskanläksyjä kantaa ja niitä kalloosi kaivertaa

Lapsi joka usein hymyilee silmissänne on suloinen
Vaan jos nauraa vanhalla iällä niin on vajaaälyinen
Minä en ole tottunut suremaan vaikka potilaat pois kuolee
Mutta käypää rahaa jos poltetaan se ajatus kyllä häiritsee

Tätä joutilasta kavahtakaa on säröjä sielussaan
Ei vaadi, tahdo, kadehdi, ei kumarra mitään johtajaa
Tätä joutilasta kavahtakaa, se ei mahdu maailmaan
Vain laiskanläksyjä kantaa ja niitä kalloosi kaivertaa



YUP - Slacker

Many a year he was praised, until one day happened so:
He burnt all of his millions up to the very last bill
Laughed long and well, looked at the people and laughed so much
The people looked at him teary-eyed and they nearly lynched him
I'm not much of a doctor, but at least I know
that on the surface the patient is nearly of sane mind
He says he doesn't even want to belong to the human race
When other people copulate in an elevator he turns his back and disappears

Repent this slacker with splinters in his soul
Doesn't ask, want, envy, doesn't bow to any leader
Repent this slacker, he doesn't belong in the world
Just carries unfinished homework and carves it on your skull

A child that smiles often is adorable to your eyes
But if you laugh when you're old, you're demented
I'm not used to mourn even though my patients die away
But if someone burns money the thought makes me queasy

Repent this slacker with splinters in his soul
Doesn't ask, want, envy, doesn't bow to any leader
Repent this slacker, he doesn't belong in the world
Just carries unfinished homework and carves it on your skull

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
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Right. I seriously thought about doing something for Valentine's... BEFORE it was actually the day. Now I'm too tired to start doing anything and tomorrow... I don't know. Maybe, just MAYBE I might get my lazy lonely wanker arse to work. I should also make a birthday card for my father. O well.

Anyways, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY, and may you all have lots of love



(edit)
Speaking of love... I kind of hate DA for not working.

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sleepy.ab - traveling fair
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Hokay. I opened up a CafePress.com store. Now, before I'll submit anything or tell you the address, I want to know what would you like to see there? (they print a wide range of products like stickers, posters, mugs, badges, shirts etc.) I'd love to hear what people would like to buy... And if anyone would be interested in buying anything at all.
I'll be the happiest thing if I earn even a little bit of money by selling myself... uh, my stuff... ERR, MY PRODUCTS.
This question goes to anyone who happens to read this, not just the people in DA. You can also e-mail me suggestions!

Oh, and if anyone's interested in my musical taste, go see my Last.fm account. You can even add me if you have one too^^

- e d i t -

I added the first product and now I'll tell you where to find it: CLICK HERE!

I'll still be open to any ideas, of course!

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Video Game Pianist - Zelda 3 - Dark Overworld Theme, Rescuing Zelda Theme, and Zelda 64 - Intro Theme (on repeat)
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Hoooo~! Yeah, finally got to get rid of that X-mas entry n_____n;;
Umm. Actually I've done nothing much lately...

But. I've finally got a DOLL!<3 A Pullip Nero whose name is Lia<3 She arrived in her box last friday AND SHE'S SO PRETTY that it makes me cry! ;A; I need to make her pretty ass some clothes because Nero's clothes look quite bad on her and she doesn't like them at all... She's grudgingly glancing at me while wearing Nero's jacket to cover herself >___> Hopefully I'll get to it soon~! I've already mentally designed some of her clothes. She might need a new wig too, but I'm not sure. That Nero stock wig isn't quite as neat as I thought it was and besides, I'm not sure if she needs some darker shade than white. But that'll be when I have some extra money in my hands. SHE'S STILL SO PRETTY WITH THAT WHITE HAIR!<3

And I've also got myself a Tamagotchi Connexion Ver2! Now it's a little mametchi boy named LAN. To be frank, I was a bit disappointed when he grew up as a mametchi because I've had millions of them on the first generation Tamagotchi (Yes, I was into Tamagotchi when it was first released in 1996 and I always was obsessed with them)... But he's really sweet anyways~! I want to buy another one of these. And if the rumors/"news" that Connexion Ver3 will be released soon, I'll buy that too. I kind of regret not buying the original Connexion. I thought it was trying to be a sad attempt at American/European Osutchi&Mesutchi but then just a while ago I got to know it isn't ;-; I don't know, it's all right though because Ver2 has almost all the same characters and a lot more. What REALLY makes me tick is that I might have seen the Japanese correspondent, Tamagotchi PURASU in Blippo a while before Connexion was released T____T I'm not sure though... But I'm so going to buy some Japanese Tamagotchis someday, no matter what.

Aargh, now LAN's washing his teeth and he's so cute<3

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Tommy February6 - the rose fragrance
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Happy merry Christmas (or whatever you're celebrating)!<3

Being my lazy self, I'm not sure if I'll submit anything christmassy... But anygays, enjoy your holidays!

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cerebral LOVE - a hole in color
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I got my 6K pageviews^^ Thank you so very much!!

Mm, time is a mysterious thing. It has a habit of moving around. Kind of amusing, but annoying at the same time. But oh well, can't help it now can I?

And then a little advert: Go to my music page (the link is in navigation), there's lots of things to hear! Of course if you know my music and hate its innocent little guts, then I won't force you... But if you're a friend of nostalgia, lo-fi sounds and mysterious melodies, go ahead and lick those sound-treats and rejoice! The topmost are the freshest.

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The Prodigy - Climbatize
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Hello there.

I'm such a lazy sod as always and nothing really happens. It's all in the mind.
I hope putting that new ID on the top of my recent deviations list will aggravate me enough to make me draw and submit some new stuff. It's just that I don't seem to finish anything. I draw nearly every day but still nothing.

Cold coffee, how tasty.

...I'm not that sad at the moment though, lucky me.



EDIT
Hooray, I did it!

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
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No-one really.
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t.A.T.u. - Robot
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Thrrrrrrrrow up. Funny sounds.

But I like music.

I've been listening to a lot of t.A.T.u. lately - the older stuff. I mostly prefer the russian versions... Except for Malchik Gay. Russian is such a nice language. I like languages.

robot, robot, robot, ya tebya lyublyu, my tak khoteli
robot, robot, robot, ya tebya vklyuchu I poleteli
robot, robot, v tvoem serdtse elaktronnye meteli
poleteli, poleteli, poleteli, poleteli



Edit: 5666 pageviews! *laughs*

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6750286/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6750286/ Wed, 12 Oct 2005 16:32:46 PDT - m o o d -
wrong
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nothing, because my battery ran out ;-;
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I haven't written here for a while again... But on the other hand, my LJ is much more suitable as a journal. Now I just decided I'd write something here. I don't know why. I never know anything.

I just can't feel really. It seems as if there's a gray matte film in front of me all the time. Some small colors shine through at times... But that's not often at all. I wish for certain things to happen, I'd like to get rid of something and gain something instead. Life is about giving and taking but I can't give, it's too difficult for me. The only thing I can do is wait...

Today I got lost into this song, I can't listen to it now because my headphones have no power left... But it's just too beautiful to forget.

Múm - we have a map to the piano
Please don't flow so fast, you little mountain hum
I'll take a bottle down to you
Please don't flow this fast, you hold a little hum
I'll bottle sounds of me for you
Please don't flow so fast, you little mountain dim
I'll bottle piano sounds from you
Please don't flow so fast, you little mountain noise
I'll close my eyes and bite your tongue

My stomach feels so uneasy and I'm all high-strung. I don't like this but I can't help it...

I don't like being an attention whore. It feels so stupid.

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6578634/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6578634/ Fri, 23 Sep 2005 04:01:50 PDT - m o o d -
don't concentrate
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Boards of Canada - Telephasic Workshop (the first time I hear this song in it's full splendour, the last file was corrupt and it's length was just one-third of the real playtime.)
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Mm, morning coffee.

I have been dwelling in music.
I can see my world in sounds.
8-bit makes me happy, and old wobbly tunes are beautiful.

I just wanted to get rid of that last entry that has been hanging there for far too long.

I made a small melody called counterclockwise around the sunflower but I won't upload it on my music page because it's one of my little secret hideaways.

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6438121/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6438121/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 03:46:35 PDT - m o o d -
happy
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Miyavi - Hatachi Kinenbi ~Peter Pan Syndrome~
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Drink a toast to the death of Peter Pan.

Haha, bye bye another year. Happy birthday me...
Lucky me, cake for breakfast! Chokoreito keeki desu!

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6415956/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6415956/ Sun, 04 Sep 2005 17:26:31 PDT - m o o d -
someone
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Nine Inch Nails - The Becoming (on repeat!)
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Funny thing, life. Some small phenomena pull you down, violently like a plastic bag obscuring your ventilation, pulled from behind. And then you fall and fall and suffocate and drown but you just keep on breathing.

Me? I always manage to find the things that keep me afloat. Secret things. Things that make me feel happily dizzy and peaceful and flying. Things that exclude the "real" world and "real" people. The really real world is in my head.

I remind you that while small places are comfortable and safe, you never know what waits outside. So sit still and sing quietly.

I made a new little avatar just a minute ago.

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
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advantage Lucy - fly away
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Hahaha. Never again.

I think like a bubble, and I drown instead.
Then try to learn to breathe again.
It's what I need to do.
The thing is I never knew how to.
I wish life was like a dreamy music video again.
I wish it was last night.
The easiness of that moment...
It made me feel happy summer fields and autumn rain.

I just want to cry.

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6276963/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6276963/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 05:46:59 PDT - m o o d -
happyishly productive
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Tweaker - Microsize Boy (demo version)
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dolly-doll
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I'm making my own little plastic doll^____^ It's a fun pastime.

School started last tuesday, and I'm quite unhappy because of that. But I guess it's ay-okay. It should be.

Dreams and journeys...

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6123885/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6123885/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 15:17:13 PDT mood: ...
listening to: near-silence
latest project: maybe someone made a wish
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I think...
I want to drown myself.
...In a syrup river of romantic fluffy fiction.
And never come back.
Never.
It would be most desireable.

I'm tired.

At the moment I practise harsh self-censure, and I kind of hate it. On the other hand, it makes some things easier. Somehow it just feels... very... wrong... I don't know why, I never do. Nothing makes sense.

Here we go again.

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could I please (you)?
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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6108614/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6108614/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 03:33:23 PDT mood: rawr~
listening to: sounds from the computer and outside
latest project: silly dreamer, pixies are sticks!
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Damn, all this makes me think of the old batman-series! Like, the nice (yellow?) mayor gets mysteriously killed and then here comes a new one, who promises fun and laughter and a circus... "But where's Batman? And his cute loverboy Robin? What dastarly boners is Joker up to now? What about the ninja-clad villain? What's his part in all this? How will this all end? Tune in next week, same bat-time and same bat-channel!"

Ahem.

Rawrawraw raw, raw~~

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6040408/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6040408/ Tue, 26 Jul 2005 14:27:01 PDT mood: midnight time
listening to: voices
latest project: ...
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Four:
Midnight is a good time.
Midnight is when you blow a kiss to the sky (or the ceiling if you're inside... the ceiling and the sky are more similiar than often perceived).
Midnight is when you remember there's no time. No... time... at... all.
Midnight is a dreamy time.

Five:
Perhaps I'll never know who I really am, somewhere deep inside these personalities... Or maybe that's just it. I may as well be all these people, just all minced into pulp but never, never properly mixed. It's all just useless knowledge anyways.

One:
I want to live in a big house made of old wood full of of stairs and stairs and stairs. And I want it to be an old house, from somewhere in 16th century. A big mansion-house. Like in fairytales but darker, scarier. It should have many rooms and I'd like to live there alone. I'd sleep every night in a different room and live a different life. I'd collect little music-boxes and dolls. It would be a happy house surrounded by trees.

Five:
I think I'll go to sleep now. Or soon.

Four:
Midnight is a dreaming time, a sleeping time. At the same time, Midnight is a time of being very, very aware. All senses maxed out. Even the dreaming eye. Though normal senses might get dull by this hour, the dreaming eye still yearns to see and perceive.
Midnight is a happy time.

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6018897/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/6018897/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 07:22:14 PDT mood: lovely
listening to: Nine Inch Nails - Even Deeper
latest project: "falling stars"
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I found myself a nice temporary graphic card, so now I can draw again (as someone might have suspected from strawberry croissants). Happiness^______^

Went to see Sin City yesterday. It was a nice movie. Haven't read the comic at all, so I don't know wether it was accurate or not...

*goes back drawing with OC*

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/5974669/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/5974669/ Tue, 19 Jul 2005 06:08:52 PDT mood: numb, almost happily so
listening to: Nine Inch Nails - The Wretched
latest project: Kogepan-fanart
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*-*
I got NIN - The Fragile~~ Ye gods I love this album! Always have loved... Now that I got back on board, I relly think I should actually buy it ^____________^;;

*dies*

Dead chicks are the most adorable thing ever (and yes, I mean baby chicken, not human females)
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I should do something to my hair, it's really dreadful because I'm so lazy about it.

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Just because I'm a narutard too:
]]> ~twistedbutterfly http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/5966994/ http://twistedbutterfly.deviantart.com/journal/5966994/ Mon, 18 Jul 2005 10:05:34 PDT mood: tiredxbored
listening to: RIP SLYME
latest project: Kogepan-fanart
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I'm really quite tired. I like sleeping, dreams are always such happy times. I'd love to sleep more, but something always interrupts me and then I get distracted and forget.

O, gods. I'd love to get the new computer so I could finally do something advanced... I have a beautiful picture to scan, and lots of other things I'd like to fiddle with... And it would be delightful to get rid of these constant glitches in Firefoxxer-sama. It makes me sad to see him suffer ;______;

I made my whole Windows layout around that fun eye-wrecking wallpaper I made. Happy^__^

Bored. *sneezes*

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Sometimes I wrap my hands in plastic bags.
...Because that makes the plastic people happy.
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Just because I'm a narutard too:
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