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]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/23186013/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/23186013/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 01:02:01 PST
So!

In order to take a break from all this stress dramallama stuff I've been unable to really avoid lately, I'm gonna try distracting myself with this thing called a voice meme that I found on FA.

What is a voice meme?

It's.... pretty much an interview for us non-famous people x3 done just for kicks and stuff. It has a list of questions that you read out and answer, hopefully in a mildly entertaining way.

To make it more interesting though, I'm gonna ask if anyone has any other questions they'd like me to answer. Nothing too deep/serious plz, since this is supposed to be fun. Questions about my fursona/the furry fandom/ anime fandom/ fav characters/my hobbies/dream jobs are fine, for example. Questions about the move or my family or past romances or what I think about other people are not You know, common sense stuff x3.

So, ask away, if you're interested!

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/22953363/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/22953363/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 21:14:46 PST .> I have too many names... )

My family is being kicked out of their house soon, and I'm down to a choice of staying with them or striking out on my own and making it a little easier for all parties involved.

So on that note, is there anyone in or around the Northwest Florida area that is looking for a quiet, keeps-to-herself, fursuiting pony?

The closer I can get too the Destin city area, the better since I work there. However, I'm willing to look at whatever is available elsewhere too. Especially since I know Destin's rates are steep, and I can only really afford to pitch in a max of $300 a month towards rent.

I can be contacted here or...
AIM: Umachica
MSN: harukastorm @ sailormoon.com
Email: (see above :3)

Thank you for your time!

(x-posted like... everywhere)

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/22870511/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/22870511/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 17:02:37 PST
]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/20300413/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/20300413/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 00:07:12 PDT
I hadn't shown it to anyone because I wanted it to be a surprise that I'd finished such a unique fic.

She did so without warning me. So I couldn't save it to disk or anything..... she even emptied the recycle bin. And I even tried a restoration program......

I was finally gonna finish a story. It's like.... losing a really kickin' peice of art you were working on.... or finding someone saved over your game when you were about to defeat the final boss




I think I'm gonna go cry for a while.

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/19483184/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/19483184/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 13:28:33 PDT
Thing is, evidently the aquarium is so popular (and nobody told me this, and the only place to find out about it is in the order form for the tickets on the aquarium website) it's so popular, that they have ticket TIMESLOTS and many of those sell out very veyr quickly.

So, I went ahead and ordered another ticket, but when ordering, I didn't know what timeslot to put. The tickets from the hotel aren't timed, but I was heavily advised to take the earliest time slot for the third ticket.....

I tried to call tofind out if that would suit everybody, 'cause I know you find anything before like... 11:00 early.... but I couldn't get ahold of you, and I had to order or risk one of us being left out so.......

I chose the 8:00am slot, the first one they have availible on July 26th, and the time when the aquarium opens.

Sorry if that's a problem, but I didn't know it would be tricky to get tickets in the least @_@

TO REVEW XD

Check-in time for the hotel is 3:00pm on July 25 and the third aquarium ticket I ordered is for the 8:00am timeslot on July 26.

I hope that's all okay @_@

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/19383744/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/19383744/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 03:56:36 PDT
I've somehow managed to severely screw up my sleep schedule (again -_-), and can't get it back on track! yay! My current theory deals with the couch being a hot place to sleep + having to sleep relatively fully dressed in case some bright person decides to throw open the blinds. Well.. that plus the headaches I'm getting.

Pills aren't doing much, but I bought this nifty hammer recently and it just might do the trick (j/k I didn't buy a hammer... I have no money to do so x.x)

Anyway, because of this, my productivity levels have plummeted down to personal record breaking lows. I've been essentially waking up, working, going home, communicating with people for an hour or two, and struggling to sleep until 5:00, whereupon I generally crash and wake up just in time to scramble out the door to work ten minutes behind schedule. Rise, lather, repeat.

I haven't been able to work on much of anything at all. Story ideas, art stuffs, skteches, rp posts... It's not that I don't have ideas and inspirations, It's just that the energy required to actually work on them simply isn't there because I'm not sleeping right.

So I'm taking a computory hiatus (is computory a word???) to eliminate at least one source of intense distraction and to focus on fixing myself a bit more. Don't know how long it will last, but if this goes on longer than a month or two, I'll probably get online just to type something crazy in my insomnia-induced paranoia and post an extreeeeeeme close up of my gigantic panda eyes.

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/19284510/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/19284510/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 01:34:43 PDT
They kept yelling, saying things like like "HEY HEY, YOU JSUT CUT IN FRON OF US, WE WERE NEXT! YOU CAN'T JUST DO THAT!" And they started gesturing for her to go behind them. She finally does, and as she's walking back, the couple say "Yeah, That's it, that's right, thats how we do things here in america!"


......

"that's how we do things here in america"

ORZ

idiots...
You know, I'm not an all out America-hater. I'm not. This place can be a beautiful, fun place and all... but seriously? Really? What the hell, people? Do you expect people to treat you like that when you go abroad?


AND FOR THAT MATTER, YOU GOT THERE ARE ALMOST THE EXACT SAME TIME AS SHE DID. YOU JUST WANTED TO GO FIRST!

I didn't say anything, because I refuse to lose my job to people like that... but I DID sit tight-lipped and glared at them for the whole transaction. Way to go people. THAT's the impression I'd love t give people visiting our country.

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/19211020/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/19211020/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 23:16:09 PDT
I don't know why I let my sister talk me into watching Moulin Rouge again. It's a beautiful movie, and I like it...

But whenever I watch it I just get a little bit lonely, and feel like I want a long hug. But all I gots is e-hugs and non-cuddle hugs. Those are good too, of course...

I don't know. I'm a silly pony x3

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18570278/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18570278/ Fri, 30 May 2008 02:22:59 PDT
DIVINE JUSTICE! I LOVE YOU! Twice now

>.> at least I'm not saying thier names *ducks away*

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18376398/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18376398/ Sun, 18 May 2008 03:04:40 PDT
I can do as many sketches and inkings as can be thrown at me, but I will be offering only THREE comission slots fo colored pieces. I don't think that will bog me down too much, and I can get them done in relatively good time.

So!

Sketches: $3
Example: [link]
[link]

Inked Lineart: $7
[link]
[link]

Traditional Media Coloring: $15
[link]
[link]

Plus shipping and handling if you want the actual peice sent to you :3

I'm not accepting any adult stuff, but I can do nudes with "barbie" anatomy or heavy fur covering. That's the only rule I think ^^

Now... ONWARD!

COLORED PIECE SLOTS:
1.
2.
3.

INKS AND SKETCHES:

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18345122/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18345122/ Fri, 16 May 2008 00:18:08 PDT
The weird thing is....

I JUST DROPPED TO 160... AND WENT BACK UP TO 180.... IN LESS THAN A WEEK!

I would say someone's messing with my scale... except that I know that no one is o.o

IN OTHER NEWS:

I'm veeeerrrrrrryyyyy tentatively considering doing comissions. Why? Well, I want to draw new things, and I figure I may as well get paid to do it, if I can. x3

However, if I do, it'll be a very short list of slots. I don't trust myself with more than maybe three. Mainly because I've never done the comission thing before.

SO, anyone who would want a comission, you would be my guinea pigs, and thus, I certainly wouldn't charge you all that much at all.

My question is, would anyone out there be willing to get a comission done by me, and how much money would you feel comfortable risking on a newbie comissioning artist?

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18234943/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18234943/ Thu, 08 May 2008 22:38:42 PDT DD

Yes, I iz excited about that >.> It only took what... three years? XDDD

Anybody know who got that 2000th pageview? I'll draw for you

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18190289/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/18190289/ Tue, 06 May 2008 01:23:57 PDT
]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17939658/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17939658/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 07:38:36 PDT .> I think I knew it was happening but...

I became dull! O.O Like, seriously, I've gotten so into the rutt of work,sit-at-home, work, sit-at-home, work, sit-at-home that that's all I seem to be anymore @_@

I mean, I've been bored as all get out, tired of drawing nothing but anthros, or in particular, anthros that I've always drawn, (no offense, fellow furry fans, I'll never stop loving anthros, I just wanna draw so much more....) but I can't seem to think up anything to draw, and I'm impatient about learning the skill... and then I don't have money to go anywhere so....

It's like in the process of being bored, I've become bor*ing* D: Not Cool!

I've gotta get things back the way they were. What the hell did I use to talk about anyway? I need to experience new stuff so i'll have new stuff to talk about!

Just.. how to go about it... I could try new foods... watch new movies (on teh internets, since I can't afford the movies. Or hell, the old ones I never paid attention to that my parents have). I could... save a bit of cash and drive about like I used to do... Run around and film stuff for the heck of it, like I used to.... Run around OUTSIDE for a change.... go visit the stables.... Maybe uh... I dunno O.O Just go explore and see what happens!

Better yet, once I get free of this lease I can save up to go places! Like the Georgia Aquarium with the whale sharks! Or... or... Universal when thier HP spot opens up! Or go check out a film festival! Better yet, another ROAD TRIP! Without Andy >

Lephiro!
Mirches!
Let's plan to do something fun!!! <3

Er, schedule permitting of course >.> during summer... after I get off my lease. You know, consider it celebratory. Or not! Have fun !!!!

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17805348/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17805348/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 01:13:51 PDT
I spoke with captalone, and they're back to letting me pay with payments. My mom pulled money ot for the car, but my dad took some of her money and... well, that's another story.

I spoke to Andy (through text message of course). Evidently someone told him I was leaving, and he was about to get all pissy about the rent and lease until I said that I wasn't leaving without a replacement being there. The conversation was more annoying than that, but I don't feel like ranting about it right now. So far, he seems appeased that I'm not gonna leave him hanging there.

So things are begining to be on thier way up, I think. I hope o.o. Now I'll just have to see about finding someone to take my place at the apartment, and someone else to move n with maybe >.>

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17772066/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17772066/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 22:04:34 PDT

Hey, would anyone be interested in a wide variety of video games and dvds? how about a few modest shelving units? Or a big inventory of books?

Maybe a fursuit? It's a bit tattered.... or... how about a chubby orange devil cat or a lizard whose native land is Australia?


Why does money suck so hard? Better yet, why can't I handle it better?

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17727361/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17727361/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 07:16:36 PDT
[link]

This is not art.


But let me explain why. I know a lot of people have qualms over what is art and what isn't.

A starving dog is not art because, first and foremost, it is torture. No being should be treated like that as a means of expressing something. Also, a dog cannot choose to become part of something like this or not. Obviously, it would not have been his choice since he had to be tied there. I hardly believe a dog would choose die as a piece of art anymore than the 'artist' would choose to take the animal's place.

But notions of morality and cruelty aside, this is not art because it required nothing of the artist. He paid some kids to take the dog off the streets, tied it to the corner, and left it be. The sign displaying the title of the artwork took far more effort than the 'art' itself... because it was made entirely of *dog food*.

Art can be different. Art can be extreme.

But art takes thought and imagining and effort, and should never cross the line to displaying the slow living decay of a being that would have otherwise lived. The artist didn't create the lines on that dog anyway, nature did.

As to the fact that no one at the show took it upon themselves to free the dog.....

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17285570/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/17285570/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 12:12:54 PDT
X3 yeah, just thought I'd share that with everyone. Oh, and i'm trying to see if I can do animation o.o Also, I'll color my art one magical, prophesied day

And that is all in the art news world XD

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16784909/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16784909/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 13:04:52 PST
I'm off to do fun things now :3

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16777110/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16777110/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 21:09:25 PST
note to self: THINK ABOUT YOUR OWN POSTS IDIOT! preferably BEFORE you do something totally opposite of what you said you'd do.

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16752808/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16752808/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 11:10:49 PST
Still feel like shit though.

How's that logic for ya?

Hope my friends are alright. I would ask but, they said they don't wanna talk right now. I can't blame 'em. I'll wait until they say it's okay again. I really messed things up. I didn't even plan on drinking that night. What happened?

Tom.... man, I can't imagine how he must feel. What he thinks about me. This was supposed to be a night where we'd get to know each other. Some impression huh? I hope I didn't hurt him. I mean, I don't think I could've... I wish I could apologize to him personally, but I don't have his number or anything. Maybe I'll ask for it once things get a bit better and I can ask Mirches or Lephiro.

I messed up apologizing too. I mean... who apologizes when they still have a hangover, right? I was so bad... I couldn't even stand up at work. I'm just glad I had a ride. I passed out in a corner near the lockers. Everyone says I had alocohol poisoning, but I don't know. I do know I have a raging fever on top of it.
Tabby's sick too... man, they were all running around outside in the cold after me, stuck staying up late because I threw a drama fit... how selfish of me. Mirches is right.

Part of me wants to go into detail about what happened... to help sort things out within myself, you know? I mean.... I think I went insane. like, literally insane. I remember thinking at one point "It's in my head, oh gods, it's in my head, help, get it out of my head" I think I was refering to the alcohol maybe, but... I mean, that kind of illustrates how bad I was.
But then, if I go into it, does that mean I'm trying to justify it? Am I just trying to take the blame away from me? Make myself feel better? Because that would make me even more pathetic, even more self-centered. Is that all I really am?

I would write thier side too, if I knew it. I mean, I don't, 'cause I can't talk to them, and Mirches is right, I can't assume what theyr'e feeling. I can theorize. I mean... if I had to guess, my ideas on thier feelings that night would run along the lines of hurt, scared, worried, upset, frustrated, angry, and disgusted. I can't blame them for not talking to me. I cna't blame Mirches for never wanting to move in with me now, and if Lephiro and Tom feel the same way, I can't blame them for that either. Even if I never drank again (which I don't plan to) I couldn't blame them for not wanting me to live with them.

When I lost my pentacle, I felt like even the Goddess and God must be mad at me. Certainly couldn't blame them either. I mean, I've found it now... but when I realized I had lost it, it was such a feeling of ... shame, I guess is the best word for it. What wiccan would be so selfish? We're suppose to help heal and create good energy. I did everything but. Maybe though, since I found it, it was something less dramatic than what I thought. Punishment, yes. Chastisement, yes. Abandonment... no diety would abandon their children over something like that.

So all in all... I know I made everything about this more than it was. I made it about me being horrible. When that's not the point. The point isn't that I'm a wretch that deserves nothing but death in the worst way and eternal loneliness, the point isn't about me being in this life to experience nothing but what pain is.

The point is that I got drunk and hurt my friends, and my friends are still hurting now. But it's not a hurt that my actions can fix. It's not about me, you know? It's about healing now. And that takes time.

And time can move damn slowly when it needs to teach lessons.

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16731610/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16731610/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 22:30:13 PST
]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16710568/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16710568/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 16:27:10 PST

Nobody even knows why I started getting emotional, because nobody else knows what happened outside. But regardless, I was an ASS and I didn't take my friends feelings into account because ALCOHOL EATS YOUR SOUL AND MAKES IT EASY TO HURT YOUR FRIENDS AND RUIN CHANCES AT HAPPINESS.
one of the things I've wanted most in life and I let one evening.... not even a whole evening, just.... a few hours... a few hours and I've possibly ruined years of friendship and I know I've hurt my friends.

I wanna talk to them, understand thier point of view better, but I know I can't, because like they said, there has to be time for the whole thing to calm down....

DON'T DRINK
DON'T DO IT
DRINK IS EVIL
IT RUINS WHAT IT TOUCHES

this has been your regular public service announcement, courtesy of a fool @_@

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16298130/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/16298130/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 08:53:32 PST



And yes, I am late on posting for the new year. I have no comp anymore ;_;

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15612783/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15612783/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 22:17:17 PST
My bestest friend Lephiro just got me a preseeeennnttttt!!! She bought me a DevArt subcription! DD

It's so cool ^^ Thank you Lephiro! You is a supah cool artist and friend ^^


Seriously. Go check out Lephiro's stuff. She rocks. Hardcore.

Lephiro's art. Go check it. ]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15541660/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15541660/ Sat, 17 Nov 2007 00:29:31 PST
]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15370468/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15370468/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 00:47:17 PST
I'm officially back on my feet and feeling much better!

However.... I probably won't be posting a whole lot of art, except for the pictures I've got stashed on the comp and haven't uploaded yet for various reasons.

The reason why? (besides my usual slow-posting rate...)

I've signed up for NaNoWriMo! That's National Novel Writing Month for all you who are wondering. I'm using it to launch me forward on writing and hopefully completing a novel for my friend Lephiro. Sorry, Lephiro, I don't think it'll be ready for your B-day XD but I'll be sure to tell ya when it's done :3

For those who want to follow the progress of the novel, which has a tentative name of Hallowsguard, please follow this link

[link]

And click on the part that says "Novel Excerpt"

I might upload bits of it here too, but no promises.

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15324905/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15324905/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 23:36:47 PDT
The end.

X.x

bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhh........

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15224085/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15224085/ Fri, 26 Oct 2007 02:22:15 PDT
I shouldn't read Haruka&Michiru fics wirtten by Saun XD I love them, they're beautiful in every way....

But every time I read them I get all.... wistful and lighthearted and daydreamy about weddings and stuff. Seriously. I want a relationship that's as fun and beautiful as that. I'd be willing to have kids in that situation, with everyone happy and healthy and content and in love.

But I'm honestly rather fed up with the entire freakin' dating, gotta-change-yourself-and-act-more-confident/stable/pretty/happy/hide-your-freakin-faults-to-put-on-a-good-impression-or-you-won't-get-so-much-as-a-'hello' game
>.>
Wow, came out more bitter than I thought. To clarify, I really am simply tired of the game itself. For a number of reasons, really. Half of which I've stated above.

See, I really don't feel I logically have a whole lot to offer any girl. No 'awwwwwwwwws' please.I mean... I can offer love, if I fall in love, of course... but even though people say that's all you need... I've found I take so much more from people without meaning to. Time, energy, rescources. I cry and whine and dump my problems out, I ask for advice endlessly, run to them repeatedly when bad things happen, and I continually have this desire to hang out with them.

In return? I try to offer the same, but I mean... what else *could* one do? How would I ever dare to not offer all the things I take from my friends? But I don't feel it's enough. I feel like they give me so much, and I give them so very little... I feel I run to them with my problems more than they come to me, and it makes me feel... like I'm using them in a way. Not that I want more bad things to happen to them! I just feel that maybe I should be able to handle these things on my own better or something.

But getting back to the point. If all I have to offer is Love... well, if the girl, whoever it is, loves me, then that's equal. That's even give and take. The point where it gets *uneven* is in this:

-I'm not good with money. In fact, I hate sorting it out. It gets stressful very fast for me

-I'm not.... well accquainted with many everyday and household things. I can cook in experimental fashion, I can restitch a busted seam on a stuffed toy. But that's about it.

-Not a very handy-gal in DIY or mechanical or electronical types of things.

-I not horrible confident (even though I am better than I once was) and often need reassurances

-I'm not well versed or even mildly knowledgeble about things that go on in daily life, like who to call for this or that, or whaat to do if this or that happens

I'm not even very cute or pretty much. I don't think I look horrid, but I'm not particularly appealing either. Actually I do despise how I can see traits of my parents in my face though.

critically speaking, I'm not a good match much at all. Again, don't go throwing in a bunch of awwwwwws now, logically speaking I'm not a good match for anyone. All I can offer is kinda cute drawings, love, an emotional pillow..... well, I think that's it. That.... does nothing. People can starve to death in each other's arms still loving each other.

I want to have something to offer a girl. Something to say "this is how I can help make our lives together happy and comfortable" I don't nessecarily want to offer up a mansion or a helicopter or sports car or fantastical wedding or endless money or anything like that.... But I don't want my girl to have to do everything. That's wrong. That's unbalanced. That would be leeching off of her.

So I really shouldn't read these fics if they make me think of being in a stable relationship. 'cause between what I have to offer and my jaded view on the dating-game, I somehow doubt it'll be heading my way.

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15224074/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/15224074/ Fri, 26 Oct 2007 02:20:34 PDT
I shouldn't read Haruka&Michiru fics wirtten by Saun XD I love them, they're beautiful in every way....

But every time I read them I get all.... wistful and lighthearted and daydreamy about weddings and stuff. Seriously. I want a relationship that's as fun and beautiful as that. I'd be willing to have kids in that situation, with everyone happy and healthy and content and in love.

But I'm honestly rather fed up with the entire freakin' dating, gotta-change-yourself-and-act-more-confident/stable/pretty/happy/hide-your-freakin-faults-to-put-on-a-good-impression-or-you-won't-get-so-much-as-a-'hello' game
>.>
Wow, came out more bitter than I thought. To clarify, I really am simply tired of the game itself. For a number of reasons, really. Half of which I've stated above.

See, I really don't feel I logically have a whole lot to offer any girl. No 'awwwwwwwwws' please.I mean... I can offer love, if I fall in love, of course... but even though people say that's all you need... I've found I take so much more from people without meaning to. Time, energy, rescources. I cry and whine and dump my problems out, I ask for advice endlessly, run to them repeatedly when bad things happen, and I continually have this desire to hang out with them.

In return? I try to offer the same, but I mean... what else *could* one do? How would I ever dare to not offer all the things I take from my friends? But I don't feel it's enough. I feel like they give me so much, and I give them so very little... I feel I run to them with my problems more than they come to me, and it makes me feel... like I'm using them in a way. Not that I want more bad things to happen to them! I just feel that maybe I should be able to handle these things on my own better or something.

But getting back to the point. If all I have to offer is Love... well, if the girl, whoever it is, loves me, then that's equal. That's even give and take. The point where it gets *uneven* is in this:

-I'm not good with money. In fact, I hate sorting it out. It gets stressful very fast for me

-I'm not.... well accquainted with many everyday and household things. I can cook in experimental fashion, I can restitch a busted seam on a stuffed toy. But that's about it.

-Not a very handy-gal in DIY or mechanical or electronical types of things.

-I not horrible confident (even though I am better than I once was) and often need reassurances

-I'm not well versed or even mildly knowledgeble about things that go on in daily life, like who to call for this or that, or whaat to do if this or that happens

I'm not even very cute or pretty much. I don't think I look horrid, but I'm not particularly appealing either. Actually I do despise how I can see traits of my parents in my face though.

critically speaking, I'm not a good match much at all. Again, don't go throwing in a bunch of awwwwwws now, logically speaking I'm not a good match for anyone. All I can offer is kinda cute drawings, love, an emotional pillow..... well, I think that's it. That.... does nothing. People can starve to death in each other's arms still loving each other.

I want to have something to offer a girl. Something to say "this is how I can help make our lives together happy and comfortable" I don't nessecarily want to offer up a mansion or a helicopter or sports car or fantastical wedding or endless money or anything like that.... But I don't want my girl to have to do everything. That's wrong. That's unbalanced. That would be leeching off of her.

So I really shouldn't read these fics if they make me think of being in a stable relationship. 'cause between what I have to offer and my jaded view on the dating-game, I somehow doubt it'll be heading my way.

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/14695829/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/14695829/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 02:08:56 PDT
I be in a fine mood todey, mateys, as I still be celebratin the mark of honor bestowed upon me by th' Cap'n herself! Yar, a dainty bit'o'gold shaped as a pin, to mark of a full year's toil aboard th' good ship Mid-Bay Walgreens. Todey be me year an' three deys of hard sailin' and I can only be hopin for a kindly wind.

Next we pull to port, I may find meself the company of some rum, a bit o' entertainment, and a fellow seadog or two, so as to celebrate right proper!

See, I be a bit proud of meself fer this mark. Firs' of it's kind ever to grace me vest. Shows I come a long way.

Ha-harrr! But I best not be blabberin about like an ol' withered spinster! The ship don't stop sailin just fer me to bask in me glories, do it! Thar be work to get done!

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/14357117/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/14357117/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 22:36:07 PDT
My parents are officially going to split up. My Dad has been secretly trying to contact lawyers, and of course because he's trying to do it secretly, it's painfully obvious to the rest of the family. (Is the way it works with him)

After they divorce, my mom won't be able to afford staying in this house, so she'll have to move. Which means I have a choice. Move with her, move with my dad (ugh), or move out on my own.


So my friend Andy and I are moving out to Orlando, which is an idea I've been toying with for ages and not acting upon because, well, I'm nervous. Nervous about a job, nervous about moving in with someone I've been known to quarrel with whenever we hang out too much, nervous about affording things, nervous about my anxiety (how redundant does that sound XD)

We're planning on leaving around November, hopefully. Maybe. All depends on (a) how fast I can pay off debts, (b) how fast I can save money, and (c) when the divorce happens. If it happens too soon, I'll be rushed out after all. I'd like to have been able to move out with Tabby and Luci, but they're still busy in school and stuff Luci for a good 4-5 years or so. So this'll do.

Should be an adventure at least. Maybe I'll even get a mascoting job at Disney or something X3

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/14052563/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/14052563/ Tue, 07 Aug 2007 00:32:33 PDT
I get to see Harry Potter again, wif mah friend!

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/14036459/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/14036459/ Sun, 05 Aug 2007 23:43:54 PDT
Am

A

Self-Centered

Asshole

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/13979359/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/13979359/ Wed, 01 Aug 2007 23:55:13 PDT
I feel like it O.O


I need to decide when/where I'm gonna move. Much as I'd like to stay at home for the next seven years until my bad credit dealings are wiped from my record... (note: sarcasm) I'd much rather leave before I hit my thirties DX.

Thus.... I have a few options. Move with Andy to Orlando, and he really wants me to do so >.>

Move to Japan....with people.... if they'll have me O.O?

Move..... just move and be as tumbleweed XDDD

Find a stable and try that again... maybe see if I could have my own little space that I don't have to share? Maybe? Want private cave space >.>

All this requires money. And in the case of Japan, diving headlong into language learning like I've never done before. I'd be willing to do it, I just wish I knew where I was gonna end up. :/

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/13682250/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/13682250/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 09:44:22 PDT
I've gone on a big kick about trying to turn my car, Beauty, into an autobot (in artwork of course, not RL )

Problem is..... I can't draw mechanics X.x

So! I'm looking for someone to draw it for me! Someone to commission for it. I'll call it a b-day present to myself or something. It's just.... something cool. And stuff.

Oh! Beauty is my white, 2000 Mercury Cougar with a dragon theme to her :3 She pretty ^.^

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/13280010/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/13280010/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 15:56:14 PDT
RAGS TO RICHES!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAGS TO RICHES! First FILLY to win in the Belmont Stakes since 1905! First girl horse to win in a century! 102 years!

She even stumbled at the gate first and STILL won!

Rags To Riches, you are my hero *_*

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/13132723/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/13132723/ Tue, 29 May 2007 00:32:55 PDT
With mah own mooooney

expect an arrrrrrrrrt dump

oh yeah!

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/12819338/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/12819338/ Wed, 02 May 2007 17:54:11 PDT

I love me >.>

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/12648392/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/12648392/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 21:36:44 PDT
[link]

I'll get off this whole meme-thing soon, I promise X3

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/11520232/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/11520232/ Sun, 21 Jan 2007 16:25:38 PST

I'm almost at 1k views!

Whoever hits this number, contact me, note me, find me on AIM and let me know! I draw you picture, I will!

EDIT: okay people, no one is claiming it D: So! First person who wants a pic drawn for them, reply to this journal with the number of visitor you are!

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/10831701/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/10831701/ Fri, 24 Nov 2006 07:49:47 PST
I am here to Pimp Out THREE, count 'em, THREE, fantastic artists! They need the respect, attention, and yes, indeed, commission, that they deserve, and I'm gonna do my best to get it to them!

Btw, why now and not later? Because these wonderful artists all need monies. Badly D:. You heard of Starving artist? It's no joke here. Help 'em out!

-- SKWERL: (aka Jodi, aka Gungho_Squirrel, aka Acidic_Skwerl)
Main Site for Art: [link]

my online friend and parallel person (long story). Very cool artist, does a lot of really good furry artwork. Seriously now, check this out:

and this, which she did for BladeSPark:




-- TABBY: (aka Ginotora, aka Banachan )
Main SIte for Art: [link]
My IRL friend, and OMG supah cool artist! I mean really, her art belongs in manga! Truly, check it out!

Look at that! And look, here's another!

I had a hard time choosing from her gallery which ones to display go on! go check!

-- LUCI: (aka Mianame, aka Mirches)
Main Site for Art: [link]
Another IRL friend, sister to Tabby. Guess good art runs in the family! She's good at furry and not furry, wht ever ya like, she can draw for you! Ask her!
Check it out!

And lookie!



Go CONTACT THESE PEOPLE ABOUT GETTING ART. NOW!

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/10631965/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/10631965/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 02:14:19 PST
Anyway! I went dancing! Dancing Dancing! X3 I went to EC (Emerald City) and I was DD (Designated Driver. So many Letters XD)
And I danced aaaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll llllllllllllllllll night! DD

I love dancing! Dancing Dancing X3.

I even asked a girl to dance that's right, I did ^^

I had this spur of the moment idea, when I saw this guy walk by who was selling flowers. I bought a flower, and found a single looking, cute girl who was looking kinda lonely and all. I gave her flower and asked her to dance!

......she didn't dance with me though .... and on the way home I somehow managed to run into her in WaffleHouse. Four or Five wafflehouses between the club and home, and I somehow run into the same one as her >.<. gah....

But I had fun dancing! I was all tranced out, especially when I got the floor to myself towards the end of the night! oh, I was dancing mad all over, half-tribal, part-parapara, part something of my own X3.

Was so much fun! I love dancing so much more than alcohol XDDDDD

]]> ~umachica http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/8716986/ http://umachica.deviantart.com/journal/8716986/ Tue, 09 May 2006 04:05:55 PDT
"One word. All you've been saying is quite, I shouldn't wonder. I'm a chap who always liked to know the worst and then put the best face I can on it. So I won't deny any ofwhat you said. But there is one thing to be said, even so. Suppose we *have* only dream, or made up, all those things - trees and grass and sun and moon and stars and Aslan himself. Suppose we have. Then all I can say is that, in that case, the made-up things seem a good deal more important than the real ones. Suppose this black pit of a kingdom of yours *is* the only world. Well, it strikes me as a pretty poor one. And that's a funny thing, when you come to think of it. We're just babies making up a game, if you're right. But four babies making up a game can make a play-world that licks your real world hollow. That's why I'm going to stand by the play-world. I'm on Aslan's side even if there isn't any Aslan to lead it. I'm going to live as like a Narnian I can even if there isn't any Narnia. So, thanking you kindly for our supper, if these two gentlemen and the young lady are ready, we're leaving your court at once and setting out in the dark to spend our lives looking for the Overland. Not that our lives will be very long, I should think; but that's a small loss if the world's as dull a place as you say."

-Puddleglum the Marsh-wiggle, The Silver Chair, 6th book in the Chronicles of Narnia


oh! and this one as well:

"They will not let us help them. They have chosen cunning instead of belief. Thier prison is only in thier own minds, yet they are in that prison; and so afraid of being taken in that they cannot be taken out."

-Aslan, The Last Battle, 7th book in the Chronicles of Narnia ]]> ~umachica