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.:FIRE:.

[x] You have a short temper.
[x] You often act on your emotions without thinking first.
[x] You are very competitive.
[ ] You like to play with fire.
[ ] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all.
[ ] You prefer warm weather over cold weather.
[x] You often lose control over yourself.
[x] You can be quite reckless.
[x] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it.
[ ] People have often called you insane.
Total: 6

.:WATER:.

[ ] You have a calm, laid-back personality.
[x ] You like to go to the beach.
[ ] You rarely get angry.
[ ] When you do get angry, you know how to control it.
[x] You think before you act.
[ ] You are good at breaking up fights.
[x] You are a good swimmer.
[x] You like the rain.
[ ] You can stay calm in stressful situations.
[ ] You are very generous.
Total: 4

.:EARTH:.

[ ] You are physically strong.
[x] You have a close connection with nature.
[ ] You don't mind getting dirty.
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[ ] You could easily survive in the wild.
[x] You care about the environment.
[x] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[ ] You rarely get depressed.
[ ] You aren't afraid of anything.
[x] You prefer to have a strict set of rules.
Total: 5

.:AIR:.

[ ] You have a free spirit.
[ ] You hate rules.
[x] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces.
[x] You hate to be restrained.
[x] You are very independent and outgoing.
[x] You are quite intelligent.
[x] You tend to be impatient.
[ ] You are easily distracted.
[x] You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying.
[x] You wish you could fly.
Total: 7

.: DARKNESS:.

[x] You spend most of your time alone.
[ ] You prefer nighttime over daytime.
[x] You like creepy things.
[x] You like to play tricks on people.
[ ] Black is your favorite color.
[x] You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, videogames, etc.
[ ] You don't talk much.
[ ] You are an atheist.
[x] You don't mind watching scary movies.
[ ] You love to break the rules.
Total: 5

.:LIGHT:.

[ ] You are very polite.
[x] You are spiritual.
[x] When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them.
[ ] You believe everything you see or hear.
[ ] You are afraid of the dark.
[ ] You hate violence.
[ ] You hope for world peace.
[ ] You are generally a happy person.
[ ] Everyone loves to be around you.
[ ] You always follow the rules.
Total: 2

So I am... Air. I have to admit, I am a little surprised O.o

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/24552935/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/24552935/ Sat, 02 May 2009 18:08:50 PDT I took the SAT todays. It was depressing and long. I am not sure I did all that great, but I am hoping for the best! I really don't want to take it again TT_TT

So, you are probably thinking what made me all happy... well, if you bother reading like some won't. *glares at *

Well, first, it means one test out of the way, and ultra prep work for the test on Monday. It is one of the shorter exams, though. I will probably bring my sketch book and little mannequin doll thingie. I will have tons and tons of fun coloring.

I also have to thank Cory for taking me out to a movie ^_^. Yesh, he won't read this, but other people have to know why I is so happy. I got to see State of Play, which I have been meaning to get to... I finally made it! I gave myself an afternoon break after the evilness of testing.

So, now I get to relax for the evening, maybe eat something eventually.

Is anyone feeling all not-hungry? I have barely eaten anything all day, and I am not hungry. I am very much not liking even the sound of food, and it is very odd for me. =.= I blame stress. For the first time, I actually lacked sleep because of stress. That does not happen to me. Ever. So. I is angry about that.

The movie made up for it <3

So yesh. Forgive spelling/grammar errors, pretty please. Hours of testing do not do the brain any good.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/24028167/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/24028167/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 17:36:24 PDT
I am not looking through the work I failed to comment on =.= Sorry guys. But I will be trying to be much more attentive the next comings day.

The reason I am "back" is because of several reasons
- I need something to do to keep stress down about the coming AP exams...
- The final yearbook deadline is tomorrow (YAY!!!!!)
- I feel like I owe you guys a few comments...
- I miss you guys.

_________________________________________________________________________________________________

My journal poem...


Last resort from distorted
twisted and duplicated,
baseline (geometric kind),
replicated, positively, negatively
three-pronged response.

Silver chained dog tags
between greasy, dried, and destroyed,
yellow-fied, powder stained
coffee-dyed, sugar run
drug pumped teeth.

Understanding, crying, family?
Hate, dread, disbeliefs
corner truths passed what is
starry, sunny, dark, glum reality
manipulated twisted, strained
arm back, leg mashed,
face mangled...
Unidentifiable.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/23665029/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/23665029/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 18:11:04 PDT
I would try to make a laundry list of details, but that would be nearly impossible. A lot has happened, a lot is happening. It makes me depressed, and I am just working on surviving here. I have loads of make up work to do, I can't seem to last a day in school without serious pain. Beyond the point.

I am not trying to push people away, quite the opposite. I want people around more, but it is hard to entertain people without being able to talk. So. I love you all. Well, not all, but I will say all because it is easier. I am not neglecting you purposefully.

Another thing, my art has been way off task. I can't seem to sit down and write one story because there are way too many plots going on in my head. If anyone has some collab. effort in writing thing, let me know, I might be interested.

TTYL

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/20125750/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/20125750/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 07:30:40 PDT
My English class is going to be fun, just because I can talk about books, which is amazing.

My government teacher is awesome, he doesn't force us to raise our hands to talk. He is totally conservative as far as I can tell, but he is so awesome it doesn't matter. He is the type of guy that has has already retired, has tons of money, and is now teaching. So he doesn't care if he gets fired.

Spanish II is going to be tough because the last time I took spanish was over a year ago.... so I am going to be struggling with that. However, the plus side, I have a huge range of friends in there to have fun with.

Journalism is going to be nearly impossible. I am the only constant editor that is in the planning period, and I have no rights to determine anything. Yep, this year is going to be torture.

Math is awesome, just because it is math. Gotta love math.

School makes me happy ^_^

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/19403731/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/19403731/ Tue, 15 Jul 2008 05:44:41 PDT for showing me that I did!!! I didn't notice it until he pointed it out XDD THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!

So yay!!!

So girls that I hang out with all the time when I am actually in GAinesville. I was wondering if people were in the ultimate of busy-ness? If people wanted, I will be back on the 18th! So if people wanted to hang out at the park (Hampstead) around 3(?) Let me know. I really want to hang with people, I feel like I have been in isolation for a month. I need me friends!!! Talk to Shell, because I don't know when I will be able to get on the internet again, my Sister is being evil.

I bought her stuff, and she was all fake smiles and happiness and has been rude and selfish ever since =.= Yep, I try to be a nice older sister, and where does it get me?? *sighs* Anyhow, I am back from England! With loads of stories! Just let me know if you want to hang! If you don't... idk. I will feel sad.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/19285552/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/19285552/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 03:57:59 PDT I got up this morning around seven, which is decent. I got on the Underground with my dad, to go to King's Cross St. Pacreas (or something along those lines) to catch a train North to where I am now. Rothansted? I can hardly remember, it is absolutely dreadful. We took a taxi for nearly a 5 dollar fare (which is very cheap compared to American prices, which would probably have costed somewhere around 8 or 9 dollars). My dad has been in meetings, in fact, with a woman whose desk I am borrowing right now.
I have met one of the lovliests people I think I will ever meet. She is from South (and I do mean South) Italy, on her last days of her ten month period of research for her PH.D. I believe her name is Barbara Logeteta, but I can't remember her ever saying her name, but it is one of three names on the sign XD She has taken me around some of the research station, and even allowed me to help her out with taking down some of her experiments. It may seem boring to you, but it was really interesting to me. She has been studying a plant that has the potential to help cancer patients. It is really sad that she won't be able to continue her studies. I am really happy that I got to meet her before she leaves (which is in two days). She also bought me that completely delicious muffin, which made me completely happy, and introduced me to her coffee/tea group. They seemed older, at least in their late twenties, which was somewhat awkward for me, but they were all so nice, I felt as if I was with my Aunts and Uncles again. I am so happy that they brought me to this room to work, because it has been a marvelous day. I absolutely adore the rain now. It is not really rain, it is more like a drizzle that continues for hours, something I have not seen since Wisconsin. Yesterday was amazing in a cool fashion, but here I feel as if I have truly entered England, instead of merely a gallery of incredibly places.
Yesterday I had the chance to explore England. I went onrto the London Eye, a River Cruise (which traveled along the Thames River), Westminster Abbey, St. Paul's Cathedrel,Parliament Buildings, saw Big Ben (which I found out was the name of the bell, not the tower) and I took a Bus Tour which gave me sights of multiple embassies (called Houses here, I believe), Buckingham Palace (which I was not too impressed by, it seems that the gates were more ornate than the actual Palace), London Bridge, Tower of London, and several other sights. I believe I will see other items such as Kensington Palace later.
Tomorrow I will be back at this research station, so I will probably be able to answer comments, as I hope to have internet again, unless I do Fieldwork (which has the potential of happening).
I can't believe that today is the ninth already. It is amazing how time travels. I will be back home in nearly a weeks time! <3s to all!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/19232916/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/19232916/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 10:04:19 PDT HE MADE ME INTO A WATERMELON!!!! SHE KNOWS IT IS ME FAVORITE FOOD AND THUS SHE MADE ME A WATERMELON AND I AM SOOOO HAPPY!!!!! I WAS LIKE, DANCING FOR JOY MORE!!! YAY FOR MATH!!!! ME LOVES YOU!!!

Okay, I feel better now after saying that again XD. Tomorrow I leave from Montreal at 3:45 A.M. to get at the airport at around 4:00 A.M. to catch my 6:00 A.M. flight because I will have to go through customs half asleep XD I am definitely going to catch a bagel before that flight. And say bye to the amazing dog, Lucky, that is here. I am definitely taking a pic. of him and posting it here. Whenever I feel really down Lucky shows up and cheers me up XDDD

My flight from Montreal arrives at New York, and I take that flight to London, and then the Tube to my hotel. Looking at the hotel, I know the lobby has free internet, so I may be online, just not that night because well... I come in at around 9:00 P.M. at the airport, so I will only get to the hotel, maybe around 10:30 P.M. if I am lucky. The next day I will probably hang around Kensington Palace and maybe head down to Westminster Abbey and the Parliament buildings. Maybe, if I am really lucky, I can cross the bridge and go to the London Eye which looks sooo awesome. I hope to get to Picadilly Circus... but I don't know how realistic that is.

The next day I will head out to the research site my dad is giving a lecture on. He will also probably do some research there in the future, which will be awesome to see. The agricultural site there has about 300 years of recorded history on agriculture, one of the oldest records on the planet. Pretty awesome. I am hoping one of the guys that works there will be willing to take me out to the manor. It has history back to the 1600s which is also amazing.

The 11th is my day tour, so I will be at Stonehenge, Bath, and castle and some dollhouse XDDD I haven't paid much attention to that because it is all day, and there is no doubts. It won't change. It is also my dad's birthday, so I should try to find a present for him before that XD

Right now, we are thinking we are going to Paris on the 12th, but we will probably buy the tickets there, and maybe with the help of the hotel. The thirteenth is totally open, so I am hoping to maybe get up to the Byllseby Church, which used to belong to my family and has some old records there, but I don't know if that would be the 9th or the 13th. After that, I get to go back to Montreal on the 14th. XDDD AMAZING!!!]

So all of those wondering (mostly ) where I will be, I have given you most of my schedule. The Leaf chapter is nearly finished for anyone who is wondering, so I should finish that up tonight, but I won't post it any time soon, probably.

I love you all! Well. Maybe not all of you. But those who I love know it

PS. Does anyone watch So You Think You Can Dance ? I saw one and I was amazed by Chelsie and Mark. Hip Hop is not there style, but there's was amazing. There choreographer is amazing!!!! XDDD I want them to do this show for everyone! Mark is also one of the quarkiest guys on the show, and he is the last one I would thought would seem manly. XDD He was so strong! LIke, I think he is the best guy now, before I thought was so 2D.
If you want a link...
[link]

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/19079270/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/19079270/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 16:29:29 PDT I am proud to announce that I have completely gone through every deviations in my deviations box, and I believe I commented on every single, 82, of them. So people, appreciate them, because next time, I am guessing I will just hit delete all.
I have yet to go through all the journals that I have built up... wah.
Montreal has been fun so far, beyond just the getting horrible sleep, and hating all the freaking cats!! I think they have multiplied! I am dying. I want to kill something... but it will only be a sheet of paper for me TT_TT I haven't really been anywhere yet, and due to my sickness, I am not really up to going anywhere. So I am sitting in the basement, knees aching, in my glorious t-shirt and soccer shorts, thinking about how I should go upstairs to watch jeapordy with Oma.
Anyways, thank you so much to :icondragonider: and for commenting on my most recent chapter of TBR, it really means a lot a lot a lot to me! Love them!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/18971664/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/18971664/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 18:42:47 PDT
I haven't been on AIM or anything else for that matter. Once in a while I will check out myspace, just because it keeps me more in touch with people like , or at least what her mood is, without risking getting in trouble, like I do when I go on AIM.

I really have to apologize for not trying to get more in contact with people. Yes, I have my phone, but it has been repeatedly taken away from me, as I am on a strict schedule.

Work
Lessons/Practice
SAT Study
Reading
Family Time
Weed
Blueberry picking
More studying, especially mathematics.

Amazing, right? Anyhow, I just wanted to let people know that I am leaving in a couple of days to leave for Montreal, and then London and Paris. I do promise to take pictures, and my computer, though I doubt I will have internet constantly, meaning that this is my "official" goodbye to my friends for three weeks. I will have my cellphone, but it will be on roaming, so don't dare try to call me, I will absolutely not pick up. I may be online, but I doubt it. I am also going to note to people that I probably won't be working on TBR or even TL, as my focus will be editing IWFY again. I may check deviantart at my Oma's, but only late at night, and you have to note the risks I would be taking. Going down two flights of rickety old stairs that have a deadly habit of waking people up. So yeah... Byeness! Talk to you in a month!

PS. Sorry Daphne TT_TT

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/18163801/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/18163801/ Sun, 04 May 2008 11:47:08 PDT

Darn him. *glares at sporksquad*

* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs.

__________________________________________________

1.) I hate saltwater.
2.) I hate Florida, but at the end of the day, I can’t consider a better place to live.
3.) I dislike computer games, and will only play them when friends force me to.
4.) I am terrified of religion.
5.) I am an excellent swimmer, but I am scared of drowning.
6.) I <3 Vampire Knight. Watch it.
7.) I love myself, but I dislike myself.
8.) I dream about school. Constantly. It is getting unhealthy.

I am not uber keen on tagging anyone… I am just too lazy. So… me would likes :iconoctipie: and to do so… but no need. We all know how lazy we three are.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17886229/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17886229/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 18:53:33 PDT
My headaches are definitely back, no matter how much I pretend they aren't there =.= My top priority is school. I need to pull up those grades, and figure out how to get past this stupid depression thing of "I can't do it". It is completely dumb. It needs to go away. I have hit this point where I am just, "Screw friends, most of them hold me back anyways." I don't like saying that, because I don't want to believe it. I have been doing heavy duty pain management. That means I may look completely focused, or even angry, but it is mostly due to concentration. If I don't keep my focus, my management vanishes, and I get to feel the full brunt of the headaches, which causes me to be extremely unhappy. Stress = bad. Don't be the cause of it.

My writing will be taken slowly again. Partially due to my dumb headaches, and partially due to the fact that this is the last lap of the mile of a school year. Over summer I am planning on taking a break from all academics. I kind of wanted to take a UF course over the summer, but I would sooner travel. I have to figure out my budget to see if I can go anywhere this year (which probably won't happen unless someone is willing to feed me for free. I have been eating a lot lately.).

Guys. need. to. go. away. They are only a distraction or nuisance. I like it when they help me, but they rarely do that. That's right, I have become a total guy cynic. =.= Guys, if you don't agree with my statement, try to change it, and don't whine to me. You will only prove my point.

Now, I guess I should go study...

Don't forget to check out

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17594540/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17594540/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 17:53:49 PDT
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check out her work. She is amazing. She not only takes awesome pictures, she is an incredible drawer, and she supports my work. The most awesome all around person XD

All for today. Just wanted to note these three awesome people, for who ever looks XD

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17509843/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17509843/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 13:33:39 PDT
I will raise my hand, and I will fight, and even the gods will fear my wrath, for when I raise the palm of my hand, the leaves will rise, and the world will shudder. Do not doubt me, do not welcome me, do not hesitates, for I will come, and not even Prel himself will be able to beat me down."

~ The Leaf, Book 2


Be warned, soon I will begin my attempt at writing for Verfuiella, for the second book of the Eienkan Accords. We are nearly half way done with The Beautiful Rain, and the Storm of Leaves will be next. ^_^

Sorry I am behind with commenting >> I will get back on it after I get back from Key Largo (Saturday).

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17361667/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17361667/ Sun, 16 Mar 2008 11:19:50 PDT Let's find out, right?

~ Iranka

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17304657/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17304657/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 16:40:57 PDT
Now, it is my time to rant, because hell, it is fun

I can't stand people that don't get what the hell they are doing. I hate those that run away from one thing, and lie about it, I don't like people that don't give a fuck about the others they are affecting.

Dev-chan, this goes to you. I know you will hate me for this, but honestly, considering I won't be in school for a while, I can't exactly tell it to your face, so it may as well be here for everyone to see, and for everyone to judge.

You are a fucking moron. You are ignoring your boyfriend completely, whether you mean to or not. The issue with that, while ignoring him, you are ignoring everyone else. Sure, the others, may not be so angry, but when you walk away from me in the middle of a conversation just because you are running from him, it isn't fair. Create as many excuses as you want, but you are running away from him. Fess up, if you don't like him anymore, that is cool, if you do, spend some fucking time with him, and actually look like a couple. You are the one that are the dating the arrogant asshole.

God, you have some family problems, tell us, we are your 'friends', and 'friends' don't like being treated like garbage, in case you didn't know. You are treating me like shit, and I can handle that, but don't get in my fucking way. Move away if you don't like me. And don't apologize, it is too fucking late for that. Change to the nice Dev-chan that I liked, or get the hell out of my bubble. Another thing, if you want to switch schools, speak up, I will happy to make that change much easier for you.

I am fed up of you apologizing, and having everyone forgive you. I am not your lapdog, like Mr. Sporksquad. If you have a problem with that, speak the fuck up, than we will all be happy, unless you don't want that, of course To me, you are being a manipulative bitch, and I will openly say that. You weren't before, but that is what I think of you now. You had better think of a way to change that, unless you want me to think that forever.

To Mr. Sporksquad

You are a retard too. And you can deal with it. Stop defending the girlfriend that is ignoring you all the fucking time. It is her life, the more you defend her, the more my life gets confusing. If you want screw up your relationship with everyone around you, have fun with that. My headaches are not excuses for this, sure, it certainly helps, but my life is already complicated, I may as well sabotage it now before it goes to hell.
You are the one that gave me information when YOU were pissed off. You aren't any better than me, and you know it. You were the one that told her that I was supposed to play dumb. You can't play both sides, Mr. Sporksquad, deal with it.

To the peacemakers out there.

Back the hell off. Sure, you may be involved now, but you aren't helping anything. You are merely capping off the bottle that is bound to explode in your face. Honestly, peacemakers don't deserve the problems of cleaning up the mess as well as getting blown to smithereens when that bottle does burst.



Now, why am I doing this here, in public places. Simple, public record. There are no rumors, because it is out in the open. Sure, I may delete this some day, but for now, anyone can see this, and all of the people that know you, will know who I am talking about. I am sorry for the harm this gives to some of you out there that just want peace, but since I seem to be the only one in the worst position, that can speak up, I will. Mr. Sporksquad, I never asked to get involved, it is your fault I am in the middle of it, and I rest the blame on you. It is not my fault that you happen to believe that I ought to here all the disgusting things you said.



On another note. I get my wisdom teeth out tomorrow XDDD That is going to be fun... >> Maybe. Talk to everyone sometime else

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17258342/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/17258342/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 15:27:12 PDT
1. YOUR REALL NAME:
Cal

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Calizzle

3.YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Silver Raven

4.YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Breca

5.YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Blue Punch

6.YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Aeanaleil

7.YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
Theresa Wendall

8.YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Orange

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=.= This is seriously screwed up. My only pet, ever, was a goldfish when I was three or four =.=. So I declare that is lame. Wth, favorite drink??? Sheesh. Luckily, my drink so far is Punch, which totally fits the superhero theme. I must say, I am happpy with my "Iraqi" name. lol. Aeanaleil, something from one of my stories.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16947126/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16947126/ Mon, 18 Feb 2008 14:01:30 PST
~ Sincerely,
Iranka

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16811903/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16811903/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 06:33:35 PST
First Complaint
Why does everyone post EVERYTHING on the same day, or the same two days? Does anyone get that when I get 20 deviations to check, I don't check ANY of them? When I have a headache, there is a chance I may check one from a certain artist, if they are lucky, but the main problem is that one person will post eight things, and I die, and avoid deviantART for the next week. I say if a person wants to post that much stuff on ONE day, they have to equal the amount of posts with comments, on that ONE day, and see how they feel by doing that. It is just plain annoying. I want to see people's work, but not at the cost of 20 minutes of my hour -.-

Second Complaint
Why do people not get that attention seeking is annoying? Sure, I do it, but I accept that I am really annoying. My goal is to make it up by listening to people when they need to vent, or talk. What I hate more is that people not involved in situations will get involved just to say whatever I am doing is wrong. I do things my way, I understand I will take some flak for that, but if people get involved from the outside just to complain about my actions is just ridiculous. That is the quickest way for me to get annoyed at people, and in the end, just ignore them. On that note...

Third Complaint
Does anyone get that when I am extremely rude, or more self-centered, it is because I am in pain. When I am mean, it often isn't because I am in a bad mood. When I am in a bad mood, I am often more silent, and I give people glares, and hope that they pick up on it. Since I can't very well be all weepy and weak and sick at school, I act. It is the easiest way to get around it all. What my acting entails: Frankness, brutal honesty, attitude, mean(er) comments, hyperactivity, I often bite my nails XD.
If it took you guys this long to figure out, I am completely revolted with everyone one of you. I am disgusted by people that don't realize WHY I act this way.
1) When someone is mean, you tend to avoid them. When you are in pain, you tend to not want to have everyone around, just a few silent people that are there to sleep on.
2) When I am sick/hurting, I tend not to care very much about what other's think.
SO BLOODY FIGURE IT OUT!

Fourth Complaint
PEOPLE ASK ME STUPID QUESTIONS! WHEN I HAVE A HEADACHE, I CAN BARELY REMEMBERING ANYTHING, I AM NOT THE PERSON TO ASK! Let me inform you of something, when I get long headaches, my grades drop, severely, does that give you a hint, at all?

Fifth Complaint
Goddess, can't people be honest for once! If you bloody like him/her, bloody freaking say so! This isn't to pick on certain people, but god, it gets so old! At least come up with something new! And like a NICE person for once! I hate all the pathetic drama. If you have a complaint in a relationship, SAY SO! Don't go dancing around the subject like some court jester, and say, "Oh, but I am hurt by blah blah" or "But I am so scared *sniff" it is goddamn pathetic! If you want me to listen, be prepared to listen to my suggestions as well. If I can't say something because it will "hurt your feelings", deal with it.

Sixth Complaint
I have VERY few friends. Part of that is my antisocialness, and the fact that I am sick so much, that I don't want to make friends. I tend to have grades for people. And guess what! Since I am so nice today, I will share!
1) Hate
2) Annoying
3) Pathetic
4) Ugly
5) Kind
6) Funny
7) Interesting to talk to/Intelligent
8) Safe
9) Acquaintance
10)Like (Usually like a sibling)
11)Friend

Get it? I would say half of the world's population are in the first three categories. I hope you figure out where you are placed, and don't go asking, do you really think I would tell you where you are placed?

Seventh Complaint
I wonder how many listen to me. It is pretty much limited to four or five that really listen to my WORDS, not my tone. I am furious right now with people that interrupt my conversations with people that do listen to me. I don't really care for people are so terrified that they hurt me to get that attention. GROW UP!

Eighth Complaint
I trust everything about a grand total of... say... four people. And even they don't know everything, wanna know why? Because I have found that people tend to tell whoever they are dating at the time whatever I say to them. More often than not, I don't TRUST the other person. When people can't keep their traps shut, they are just morons.

Ninth Complaint
EVERYTHING I do has an ulterior mot... ]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16744608/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16744608/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 19:09:23 PST
The idea is that I have make it a collection of Five Books (yes, a lot, that I probably won't get done). The idea is to talk about five elements, and five different women in the situations of the book. They won't be chronological order (probably).

You have probably guessed the first two, at least the characters;
Vaserka
The Leaf (yes, I have a name, but I am not telling yet )

This isn't to say that each girl will only be able to use one element each, but their primary one, like the five towers. Blue/Purple, Green, Yellow/Orange, Red, and the final is an assortment of the best witches. Kinda make sense?

Tell me what you think XD

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16677864/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16677864/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 16:36:07 PST 2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

1. I always have a headache -.-

2. I play with my nails when I am bored.

3. I like organizing papers.

4. I liked the movie, The Golden Compass.

5. I love to write.

6. I don’t think best friends can exist.

7. I hate when people call me a genius.

8. I love seeing people smile.


1. How late did you stay up last night?
1:05 A.M.

2. What was the first thing you thought this morning?
“I’m up!”

3. Is the person you have a crush on older or younger than you?
Older

4. What is he/she like?
*Sniffs* Not answering that one.

5. What do you hope to do this weekend?
Take time to watch the rain.

6. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I hope not.

7 . Do you own a stereo that cost more than $100?
Not a stereo… My speakers may be a different story >.>

8. Have you ever told someone of the opposite sex you loved them and meant it?
Yes.

9. How’s your heart lately?
Thumping.

10. What were you doing this morning at 7am?
Putting on my bracelet.

11 . What will you be doing this afternoon at 12pm?
… I was in a Lighthouse.

12. Favourite hobby?
Writing.

13. Favourite video game?
I don’t play video games XD

14. Favourite animal?
Wolf or Raven.

15. How many pillows do you sleep with?
One

16. Do you have glasses or contact lenses?
No

17. Are you a girly girl or a tomboy?
I will get my friends to answer that one =.=

18. What was the reason you last cried?
… My head hurt to much to do my work, and I was frustrated.

19. Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
A few times. =.= I didn’t enjoy it.

20. How many red lights have you ran?
I hate driving. I never want to drive.

21. Have you ever cried while taking a shower?
Yes. It is the best place to cry XD

22 . What movie do you want to see in the cinema?
Sweeney Todd =.= I really want(ed) to see it.

23 . What were you doing at 12 am last night?
Attempting to write.

24. What's a sure way to catch your attention?
Intelligence.

25 . Have you ever, in any way, been betrayed by someone you trusted?
I have.

26. When was the last time you were given roses?
XDDD Um… a few months ago, December?

27. Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
… Water. Yes, I definitely want water.

28. Where did your last hug take place?
Shelly, at school.

29. Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your
name?
A lot =.=

30. Favourite chocolate?
Milk, but I can’t eat that anymore TT_TT

31 . Do you drink tea?
Most definitely not.

32. When was the last time you saw a cop?
On campus.

33. Did you ride in someone else’s car today?
My dad’s.

34. What are you listening to right now?
Innocence ~ Avril Lavigne

35. Who was the last person to text you?
Sporksquad.

36. Are you happy with your life?
=.=

37. What was the last movie you saw?
The Little Mermaid.


Be happy everyone, I decided to break the rules and not tag anyone XDDD

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16556492/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16556492/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 18:36:13 PST
When you play a soccer game, you can make a choice. You can give it your all, go for every ball you can, play your personal best, or, you can decide you just don't care. That it doesn't matter, and that in the end, you will lose anyways. I did not even have a chance to make this choice. For whatever reason (though more likely than not, for my negativity and ailments) I was benched for most of the game. I felt horrible for not being able to play the best for the team, my team. I regret not trying harder, and I feel like I should been out there playing, not only because I wanted to, but because I deserved it.

I worked my butt off this season, I sacrificed many of my grades to play. However much my parents forced me to play, and I despised that, I still worked to achieve in the sports. I was there for most of the practices, I participated in all the games, whether it was on the benches or on the field. My counterpart all but quite the team early, and even she got better respect than I did at the end. I am dreadfully hurt that she left, and that she did not come to our game, despite being a valuable player on the team. I wish that I had been more appreciated, and that I was at least noticed. I do not know where I went wrong, but I do wish with all my heart that I could go back and set it straight.

I was crushed at the level we played at. We were slow, we weren't paying enough attention, and we were too scared and frantic. The final quarter, our playing improved greatly, and I was amazed that we tried to pull ourselves from the muddy field. I was hurt to see the Seniors' faces as they walked off the field. It was their final game, and there was nothing that would change the fact that they had lost. I know that one girl won't play again after this game, and I am depressed to think that this was the end of her soccer career.

What I am also disappointed with is that my friend with SHOCK had her own terrible evening, and that I wasn't there. Instead I was sitting on the bench, trying not to cry as I watched our team lose hope, heart, and on the scoreboard. I should have been doing my homework, I should have been anywhere else but there, but I know I would have regretted not being on the bench. I am torn with the belief that I would have hated myself for either of my decisions. I should have been stronger, and been powerful to stay on the field, and I should have been there for my friend.

I hate the feeling that wretches at the throat like I had screamed my lungs out, but I have not spoken a word. As tears stream down my face, I think of the rain and how we had fun playing in it. I will miss wearing this jersey, and heck, I will even miss the god-awful smell of my soccer backpack. I want so much to run away, but I know that if I do, I will turn around and see what is behind me, and regret leaving it.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16383322/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16383322/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 06:56:02 PST Naruto
[x] You're stubborn.
[ ] You like ramen.
[ ] Are foxes your favorite animal?
[ ] You're afraid of ghosts.
[x] You're jealous of your best friend.
[ ] Are you a hands-on kind of person?
[] Do you have a crush on someone, who isn't interested in you?
[x] You want people to respect you.
[ ] You never give up.
[ ] Are you tan?
[ ] Were you born on the 10th of October?
Total: 3

Sasuke
[ ] You don't care about other people or their opinions.
[ ] Are you left handed?
[x] You prefer being alone.
[ ] Are you cold, cruel or withdrawn?
[x] Are you talented?
[x] Have you had to work on your social skills?
[ ] Do you practice your skills?
[ ] Do you have a motive in your life that you live for?
[ ] Do you feel like you're cursed?
[ ] Were you born on the 23rd of July?
Total: 3

Sakura
[ ] You like the color pink.
[x] Do you feel like something inside of you is ordering you?
[ ] You and your friends have a crush on the same person.
[x] You're smart.
[x] You have a five-finger forehead.
[ ] You usually repress your emotions.
[x] You insult people just to annoy them.
[ ] You're aiming for a medical career.
[ ] You grew long hair because of your crush.
[ ] Were you born on the 28th of March?
Total: 4

Kakashi
[ ] You read romance novels.
[x] You like to spend time in the fields.
[x] Have you separated from some group?
[x] Is your personality hard to describe?
[ ] Are you often late?
[ ] Do you like to use something that covers your mouth?
[ ] Do you use the sayings: "A black cat crossed my path..." or "I fell into a sewer..."?
[ ] Is one of your eyes a different color from your other one?
[ ] You only have one hobby.
[ ] Were you born on the 15th of September?
Total: 3

Itachi
[x] You like red and black.
[ ] You wear purple nail polish.
[ ] You paint your toenails.
[x] You've been the leader in a group.
[x] You're a lot more advanced than others in your age class. (I don't know about a lot... XD I will count this as 1/2)
[x] You're unforgiving at times.
[x] You judge people.
[ ] You hang out with a certain crowd.
[ ] You have a little brother.
[x] You dress in overly long clothes.
Total: 5.5

Gaara:
[ ] You like sand.
[ ] You couldn't care less.
[ ] You're alone a lot of the time.
[ ] You've made some sort of a symbol of love on your skin.
[ ] Your name means death in Japanese.
[ ] You have one reason to live.
[ ] Your life has had a significant turn.
[ ] You have red hair.
[ ] Is you birthday on the 19th of January?
Total: 0

Lee
[x] You believe in hard work.
[x] You're decisive.
[ ] You have large eyes.
[x] You're a unique person.
[ ] You've seriously decided to do something.
[ ] You have a huge crush on someone.
[ ] You have a person who you share a warm relationship with.
[ ] You have a black bowl-cut.
[ ] You've been in an accident where you were had little chance to survive.
[ ] You like green.
Total: 3

Jiraiya
[ ] You write and sell romance novels.
[ ] Are you a pervert?
[ ] Do you like alcohol?
[ ] You're somewhat famous.
[ ] You have long/white hair.
[ ] Do you spy on people for some reason?
[ ] You're specialized in some field.
[ ] You're over 20.
[ ] You're in some way great.
[x] Do you have an ambiguous way of thinking?
Total: 1

Orochimaru
[x] Are you pale?
[x] Do you like snakes? (YESS!!!)
[ ] Is one of your hobbies fencing?
[ ] Are you strong?
[ ] Are you sadistic, power-hungry and egoistic by nature?
[ ] Do you use people as pawns?
[x] Do you have a dream?
[ ] You don't feel empathy for other people.
[ ] Do you lust for someone else's body?
[ ] Are you over 20?
Total: 3

Tsunade
[ ] Do you like to play gambling games?
[ ] Do you like slugs?
[ ] Do you have a pig/pigs at home?
[ ] Are you afraid of blood?
[x] Do you have an object that you believe brings bad luck?
[ ] You're in the medical field.
[x] You're dependent on something.
[ ] You're a blond.
[ ] Do you use rejuvenation creams?
[ ] Are you over 20?
Total: 2

Shikamaru
[x] Are you lazy?
[x] Are you intelligent?
[ ] Is everything too troublesome for you?
[ ] You often play shogi.
[x] You like shadows.
[... ]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16372526/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16372526/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 12:52:32 PST
We would like to know who really believes in gay rights on DeviantART. There is no bribe of a miracle or anything like that. If you believe in gay rights, then repost this in your journal and title the post as "Gay Rights". If you don't believe in gay rights, or you're indifferent, then just ignore it. Thanks.

*********************************************************

Reposting this for an Angel.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16284598/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16284598/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 10:50:11 PST 2. Write eight things about yourself.
3. Post these things into your journal.
4. Tag eight other people.
5. Visit their journals so that they have NO excuse not to do it!

-.- Sheesh, Angel, you are very evil

1. Story writing is my first thought whenever I get up.
2. When I am completely silent I am usually secretly annoyed about something.
3. I don't usually respond to my name, or it is a delayed response.
4. My favorite food is watermelon.
5. My favorite spot in the whole world is just composed of three rocks in the middle of a field.
6. I love the wind and rain.
7. I hate getting too close to people. It scares me.
8. I am terrified of the ocean, but I love water.

Hmph. I hate having to tag people, but since there are so many people...

I tag:
(you have become my fav. tagging buddy )






(GET ONLINE!)

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16200125/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16200125/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 05:02:24 PST
I hope this year to be better than the last. Now that several 'bad' days are past me, I greatly hope January will bring good luck ^_^

I hope this new year finds everyone well!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16134635/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16134635/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 07:24:56 PST

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1.) Have a book signing (successful)
2.) Go to Europe
3.) Have chocolate and not care (at all).

Three Names You Go By:
1.) Ira
2.) Cayi
3.) Kutiel (Tell me if I spelled it wrong, Math)

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1.) umbragens
2.) argentumlupus
3.) Goddess Ira

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1.) Uh…. >.> <.< How about dislikes?
2.)
3.)

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1.) German
2.) English
3.) French

Three Things That Scare You:
1.) Relationships (of any kind)
2.) Finding out that love is real
3.) Ants

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1.) Computer
2.) Music
3.) Friends

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1.) T-shirt
2.) Pants
3.) Prewrap on wrist, trust me, it is an awesome bracelet :-P

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1.) Nickelback
2.) Within Temptation
3.) Imogen Heap

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1.) Glittering Clouds ~ Imogen Heap
2.) Somewhere ~ Within Temptation
3.) Run ~ Snow Patrol

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1.) Loyalty
2.) Faith
3.) Humour

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1.) I like hugs
2.) I love deviantART
3.) I rely on friends

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1.) Decent compliments
2.) Tall
3.) Strong

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1.) Writing
2.) Drawing
3.) Soccer

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1.) Write
2.) Read
3.) Sleep

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1.) Novelist
2.) Psychologist
3.) Politics

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1.) Canada
2.) Australia
3.) Wisconsin

Three Names You Like:
1.) Haruhi XDDDD
2.) Elizabeth
3.) Iranka
(Face it, guys’ names just suck)

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1.) I gossip.
2.) Emotions get the best of me.
3.) I take things more seriously than I should.

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1.) I like PE
2.) I am good at Math and Science.
3.) I speak my mind.

I want… to take this quiz. YOU HAVE BEEN TAGGED!!!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16104193/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/16104193/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 04:39:40 PST
Everything is going pretty well right now, I got way too much stuff for my parent's X-mas celebration. Of course, it is rare that I get up at 5:30, but honestly, I like the feeling to be completely awake by 7:30.

Yesterday was excellent. Instead of actually attempting to get along with family, I decided to have a movie marathon, and my family eventually joined in. I think we only had an argument twice yesterday, pretty impressive considering I was home all day.

Disney was torturous half of the time. My sister can be such a brat..., and of course, I will get in trouble if two angry elders see this >.>

We had to 'team' up in Animal Kingdom, and decide 'together' what we were going to do. The issue becomes we are supposed to stick together at all times. Her thing is that we are supposed to stay together, so if she decides something to do, I am supposed to follow. I promptly lost her.

I, of course, not wanting to miss out on my personal fun, went to Everest, to ride the best coaster in Disney. I suppose my luck was with me on the beautiful Solstice. I got to ride in the front XDDD Amazing, until I saw my parents again. It was fun while it lasted.

Today I am supposed to discuss publishing with a publisher that my dad wants to go with. Oh boy.... Honestly, I am getting scared. What if it isn't as good as I can get it? And what if it isn't what I want it to be? Any help would be appreciated :-P

Within Grasp of Worship is on pause, unless I get five total fans by the end of the year. I have started working on To Betray a God now, recently inspired, surprisingly enough.

Considering how hard I have been working on a title to replace I Will Find You (It is already a title for a romance novel). The new one will be "To Lose a Loved One", the second, "To Betray a God", the third, "To Kill A Goddess", the series entitled Adiliarium, or something close to that :-P

Oh yes! I got to see the Golden Compass. I thought everything about it was amazing until the ending theme -.-. It was an ode to Lyra, and honestly, I didn't care. The only thing I liked about her was her amazing cleverness.

Friends that live near me, call, IM, we need to hang out. If people don't have anything scheduled, I will set it up. I want to have fun with everyone!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15867717/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15867717/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 18:41:57 PST
I have been having a hard time recently, mostly due to stupid little insecurities that have been blocking me from everyone else. I just feel like running away sometimes, and I am doing best staying right where I am.

I have heard less and less from my old friends, and that distress me, I suppose. I have always looked more fondly on the past than anything else. I guess I have also found more things to frown at in the mirror the less and less I see friends, and trust them.

I have been more frustrated with my writing, reading it over has lately depressed me, I never realized editing would affect me so much. School work has been less productive on my part, partially due to my agony of insecurity. I have been more agitated with friends and family both, and even myself. I take everything more seriously than I should. Soccer only depresses me now, there is no more fun. My Costochondritis and CDH have both gotten worse, causing my work to decline even further.

I suppose part of my sanity have been kept alive by some very great teammates, friends, and teachers. Special thanks to those that give me encouragement and praise when I needed it.

I suppose I am back for a while, until school becomes to hard for me again (with headaches, costochondritis, more work, etc.)

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15768838/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15768838/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 17:35:45 PST
I am now requesting for a favor from everyone that knows me online. If you see me online, please tell me to get away from the computer and do homework, or remind me of Geometry. Please.

Right now, I feel like I need encouragement, and help if I should ask for it. Please, don't ask what has gotten into me, all you need to know is that I am behind, and that I need to catch up.

TTYL

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15712403/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15712403/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 18:56:11 PST



NANO IS COMPLETED!!! I finished two days before! Now I can focus on my studies again! I can work on WGoW again! I am free!!!!! I completed it! I am so happy!!!!! GAH!!!! SO HAPPY!!!!!
....
....
.....
*dies*

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15599772/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15599772/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 04:09:35 PST .>

A Soccer break will be nice. The coach didn't start me last game because of my chest. -.-

I think I have figured out the major cause, though. Be amazed! My dad forced me to take Lactace before eating ice cream, and miraculously, my chest didn't hurt! Sadly enough, this means that I am probably Lactose Intollerant. This sucks majorly for me, because I am already a Vegetarian TT_TT.

Well anyways, update on my stories!

TBaG has come to a complete halt. I have hardly written anything with this story, but I will try as soon as NaNo is done... or maybe I will just continue writing that story.

My NaNo story is WAY behind. This because of my birthday, my family, and trips that we keep taking TT_TT, and homework -.-. I have about 24,000 words.

WGoW is really slowed, due to the fact I really need to catch up with NaNo. I am trying peeps!

Attractions to look forward to in WGoW *spoiler*



Some of Gwynyth's memory.
Vala will show a darker side
Savion will reveal himself to Zaide and Calix again.



*end of spoiler*

Yep, pretty vague, but like my ideas! -.-

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15483737/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15483737/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 18:32:47 PST
I mean, a couple highlights did exist, like I got a present from a friend (an awesome book), and cookies XD. The rest of the day was crap.

Anyhow, just thought I should rant that out... Nov. 12th sucks! If you want specifics, I guess I can edit this post, but I am too lazy right now to fill it completely up XD.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15382278/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15382278/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 18:50:28 PST
November 1st - Stayed at school for a grand total of fifteen hours, and lost two essays that were due -.-.

November 2nd - The Chiropractor, in front of my mom and sister, said how depressed I must be... By raising my arm up and pushing on it XD

November 3rd - Forced to do Party Planning, and realized that I can't have ice cream or cake for my party, because I am banned from those tings.

November 4th - Had to do more party stuff, and 'family time', and was forced to drive -.-. At least I could hang out with friends.

November 5th - Picked on my soccer team for missing out on a lot of soccer practice due to my stupid costochondritis.


AND NEXT WEEK IS THE MOST EVIL, CURSED, DAY OF THE WHOLE YEAR!!!! I AM SO FORTUNATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dies*

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15307016/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15307016/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 18:51:03 PDT
I am on a sugar high for the first time in a while, and I am freakin' enjoying it!

I had the time of my life, trick or treating with awesome people! We sang, we danced, we got candy, died of thirst, and went insane!!! IT WAS AMAZING!!!!

The down side is that... I have a lot of homework and a soccer game tomorrow... and blah... But... tomorrow is the last day of the week!

So let's see... what has happened this year.
~New School
~JV Soccer
~Moved up to JV and V soccer
~SHOCK
~Died on Birthday
~Started IWFY
~Got Costochondritis
~Killed Finger
~Had surgery on finger
~End of Ninth Grade
~Finished IWFY
~Canada
~Finished Primary Edit of IWFY
~Started TBaG
~Oregon
~New School Year
~Started WGoW

And that is about it. I dare everyone to write their own! These are for memories, peeps, get to the program! WOO!!!!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15232138/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15232138/ Fri, 26 Oct 2007 16:25:48 PDT
Everyone, by now, knows that my birthday, and the time around it are cursed times for me. I am worshipping my alone times when I don't have to deal with my feelings.

Every comment made has been taken personally. A fellow classmate in homeroom has told me to stop talking, as well as another friend. Both probably have no clue how much that has been affecting me, as I hate to let it show.

I have been feeling weaker, as my costochondritis is getting worse. I have been having to sit out more of activity, even with friends. A simple sprint can bring me to my knees.

I am enjoying writing the amount I have been. WGoW truly has been an escape for me, but I don't know for how much longer.

My parents don't seem to get that I don't want to hate them, and that I don't like that they dislike me. That is the problem of trying to stay neutral, and not letting emotions show... It confuses everyone, and I never get what I want.

Simple, 'jokes', like calling me fat, or chubby has been taken personally as well. Part of my frustration is not that the statements are said, but the fact that I let them get to me. That I actually believe them. I hate it when other's opinions get into my head when I truly didn't believe, just because they have been repeated too often, and it feels like choas.

I hate sounding emotional, I hate seeming upset, because it seems to bring everyone down with me, and I hate it. I hate seeing people sad, or hurt because of something that I have to deal with.

If anyone is wondering why I have been more upset, I honestly have no clue, maybe it is bubbles coming to surface, but I know I will cover them, it may just take a while. Thank you all for dealing with my emoness.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15020366/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/15020366/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 19:14:01 PDT I made the Varsity Soccer team... great...
My grades are all improving...
My groups rocket in Physics got second...
However, my parents are seeing several other things as a failure. The primary example; writing.
I love writing, I enjoy it thoroughly, but lately the only support I have been (sorta) getting is from friends. I need that support right now guys, so thanks ^_^

As a result of this... 'roblem'. I am only going to be able to sneak write *feels like some sort of spy music should be on now*. I need to focus more... On what? I have no clue...

Thought I would keep people updated ^_^.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14954236/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14954236/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 19:19:15 PDT
I am happy to say that has been very nice to edit the hard copy of it, and protecting it XD.

I would also like to thank :iconalexitrebernova: and for commenting on my new book, Within Grasp of Worship. This story may, or may not, be taken down due to wanting to edit/rewrite it. I would like to let everyone know, I use music for inspiration, sometimes art collections that I see help me along the way, but never make anything. I don't copy anyone's work, and I hope everyone will be nice enough not to copy mine.

I have abandoned Alternative Sanit, I may come back to it in novel form, but it seems unlikely. It was a plot from a long time ago, and it isn't very good, and it annoys me XD.

I only read two mangas, sometimes a third because the anime ended TT_TT.
Vampire Knight
Tenshi Ja Nai!!
and sometimes Ouran Host Club

Animes that I think are awesome!
Melancholy of Haruhi (They are having a second season!!!)
Ouran Host Club (Ended, but going to be dubbed!)
Blood + (Ended TT_TT)
Saiunkoku Monogatari (Still running! *does dance*)

For Photos:
All my effort is now going to be put into my Physics project (which I haven't completed TT_TT)
And Journalism (ADS ARE DONE!!!)

Editting
I Will Find You

Writing
To Betray a God
Within Grasp of Worship
And another unnamed story.
Don't forget school papers!

Online
deviantART
iChat
MSN
SHOCK
youtube
veoh
mangatemple
fanfiction

As of a few weeks ago, the BEST way to contact me is by Cell. I have been so busy, between looking at what Writer's Conventions are better, hanging out with friends, school work, writing/editting, I spend my free time a lot not on iChat, but the other sites above. I have also been spending a lot of time looking at Angencies that I would consider writing to. My first book that is a list of these agents has been completely tabbed XD.

So those that do not know my cell number, ask over iChat, and I will probably give it to you XD.

Random Self Fact
My favorite subject is Math. My lowest grade in school is in English; my highest is in Physical Education (due to my awesome strength XD, 71 sit ups in a minute, and 30 pushups XD. My mile time needs work, a horrible 9 minutes and 4 seconds. I swear that track is longer than a mile though... and it isn't fair that all but three people in the class cheats...)

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!EDIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!EDIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BASIC...
Name: Iranka
Birthday: Nov. 12
Height: 5'7"
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown.
Race: Caucasian
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

DO YOU...
Drink? Nope
Smoke? Definitely not
Use Drugs? No
Cuss? >.> sometimes
Play Any Instruments? Yep
Have Any Piercings? Nope
Have Any Tattoos? Nope
Like To Annoy People? Definitely, only lovingly, though XD
Like Life? Usually
Wear Make-Up? Only for specific reasons (like Halloween)
Dye Your Hair? Not allowed to -.-
Scream At The Top Of Your Lungs For No Reason? YES!
Get Distracted By Shiny Objects? Depends on what the shining object is…
Like Pina Coladas? ???
And Getting Caught In The Rain? ???

ARE YOU...
Dependable? Depends on what I have to be dependable about…
Trustworthy? I tend to be
Obsessive? Depends…
Hyper Active? Sometimes, whenever there is a lack of sugar.
Happy? Right now, totally. Thanks :iconalexitrebernova: you made my day.
Content? Yep
Boring? Sometimes XD
Violent? Totally.
Evil? >.> *giggles* <.<
Hippie-Ish? Sometimes XD When I am sick.
Shy? Not usually.
Paranoid? Sometimes >.>
Annoying? XD I have my moments
Social? Yesh, but not always xD
Religious? >.> No…

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE...
TV Show? SAIUNKOKU MONOGATARI!!!!
Movie? Pan’s Labyrinth or Fly Away Home
Song? Good Riddance ~ Green Day
Book/Story? >> I WILL FIND YOU!!! *Hides*
Color(s)? Vio.let., Bluueee… umm… >.> SILVER!!!!
Shape? Celtic Knots.
Animal? Wolves and Ravens!!!<... ]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14753288/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14753288/ Sun, 23 Sep 2007 06:43:09 PDT
My dad has become obsessed with the idea of publishing my novel. He as rejected all plans for other things that I am planning, and would probably be able to do, for the sake of 'making the most of your book'. -.- I just want people to like the plot.

Anyhow, I am reading a book that one of the teachers at my school recommended for me to read to get my book published. I have a lot to do.

A) Go through the list of Agents, and see which would be appropriate for me.

B) Really learn how to properly write Query Letters.

C) Keep high grades.

D) Look into other things...

E) Write ANOTHER stupid summary... This time it apparently has to be two pages.. -.- Anyone willing to look through my 10 page summary, and cut things out to create it two pages, I would love for a lifetime ^_^

-.- Not only that, but I want to keep writing. I hate how my dad's idea of how a book should be done is affecting that. My writing has gotten worse, instead of better, due to lack of interest in the current plotline. -.-

Thank you ! For finding my 1000 pageviews ^_^ >.> I have an idea of what I can give you, or try to do XD, but if you have an ideas ^_^

is finally back to speed! He is reading my chapters, *huggles* thank you so much!

recently celebrated her Sweet Sixteen. XD Congrats! She is also loving her Japanese course, :-P We love you, Math!

seems to be having as much trouble with his story as I am having. Lacking the money obsessed parents of course XD. I still wouldn't want to be in his shoes >.>. His sister is great, though XD I got to chat with her for quite a while, and I really enjoyed it. Call it a fresh breeze. I am kinda surprised by her maturity, and how much I consider her a friend. She is my sister's age, so I almost immediatly thought she would be as annoying as said. She is so great, he was dead wrong XD. Sorry ++, but it is true XD

and are some of the most awesome people. I recently got into more contact with them, and I am having the time of my life. Sneaking out of the house to hang with friends has currently become one of my favorite passtimes XD

Physics is threatening to drive me insane. On one hand it is so simplistic... XD, but on the other hand, it can take forever just to figure out how to solve one problem. I have learned now, just trust your instincts, and run with it until you figure out it doesn't work XD

Geometry online is being stupid... My teacher hasn't answered me an a week... and in the meantime, I am getting behind -.- Great, isn't it?

AP History is awesome! Currently my favorite course! It is so much fun, it requires thought, and considering how much the teacher puts it in modern terms, and ideas, it is so fun!

Marine Science... It is the course I have to concentrate the most in, and probably gives the most homework, too. And it is a regular course! -.- Do you know how stupid I feel for actually having to work in that stupid course?

English II is stupid!!!! I love the English language, I like the teacher, I find her interesting, but I HATE HER COURSE! *goes insane and stabs wooden block* XD I think her ideas are interesting, but I wish it were more about World Lit, instead of just prep work for major standardized testing. Don't those stupid teachers realize I will NEVER get a perfect score on that stupid test? It just won't work, my mind is not set up for that...

My PE class is... ]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14573490/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14573490/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 10:14:55 PDT I will consider doing something... but we will see how that goes >.<
I got the job that I wanted for Journalism! It makes me encouraged, and happy ^_^

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14490158/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14490158/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 15:58:01 PDT
Whether it is subconscious or not, I have found myself purposely trying to distance myself from people, and people seem to be doing the same exact thing, not that I blame them at all, those out there.

I have found that I have been in more pain recently, headaches, costochondritis, the usual stuff, right? Stupid swimming, I blame you for this!!! *shakes fists at pools*

Now, here starts the very long rant, that I will not blame anyone for reading... I will tell those of you would rather skip it, when it is over ^_^



Just today, I woke up, the first thing, I couldn't breathe without intense pain. So I sat up, paced the room a few things, and felt slightly better, but not by much. So I went to the kitchen to get a painpill to try to help, not that it helped a heck of a lot.

However, I really didn't want to miss school. First of all, I had this presentation for English, that I couldn't wait to do! Second, I had some stuff to ask the guidance counselor. Third, I got to boss some elementary students around for picture day, which is always so much fun for me, even if it is slightly stressful >.<. Fourth, I had Driver's Ed, no need for me to have even MORE make up work to do. Fifth, I had AP American History, I definitely don't want to miss that. Sixth, bloody heck, I may not like the teachers, but I LOVE SCHOOL! Hell, anything after a three day weekend is a blessing... usually.

Everything disintegrated on me pretty darn quickly. YAY ME! -.- So, homeroom. One of my friends had to be kindly enough to shove a table towards me that hit my ribs. I couldn't breathe properly for minutes. I also new that it would cost me more later, I had no idea how correct I would be. I also got hit again, an elbow to the chest. Yes, awesomely fun -.-.

First Period came around, and I was in pain. I couldn't breathe, so I just laid back, and acted kinda attitudishly, partially because I was pissed off at having a table shoved at me -.- I love the English language, in fact, I like most of the reading materials. I find them fascinating if I don't love them, or I tend to force myself to believe that. The teacher, I can imagine, was getting annoyed for my lack of enthusiasm to raise my hand. I am sure, saw this. I was frustrated, and I felt like sharing it to the whole world (wondered why my hair was up, that is why).

The next thing I new, my inflammation just happened to want to cause me a heck of a lot pain. Then, we got our tests back from the other day, excellent timing, right? Now, it certianly didn't help that I got a 64 on it, when I studied for the test, read the book twice, and started study sessions, it espcecially didn't help that kids that didn't even read the book got 90's... I hope this helps the teacher figure out that her tests are total bull. I won't complain, I won't complain more, because obviously was supposed to study more, and I didn't take enough notes in class, but it doesn't mean that I won't be frustrated.

Now, I may be talking quite a lot about the test now, but when you can't breathe, a bad test grade usually isn't on your mind, right? Apparently the teacher didn't agree. She tried to 'comfort' me, saying that the test wasn't a big deal. First of all, the test is a big deal, but, I didn't freakin' care, and when I told her, she kept pressing, until I just didn't talk to her. Now, while this, I was crying, without even realizing it >.< I only figured it out when I looked down, and my papers were water stained... That pissed me off.

Now, being the 'logical' person I am (wow... that sounded startrekish...), I decided that it would be best if I went to the nurses office, especially if it meant I didn't have to deal with that woman. So, I politely handed off my memory stick, that had the ppt for our presentation to one of my group members, and walked out to wait outside for a green pass. Now, it just so happened that the Vice Principal was in the room at the time (I guess it definitely could have been worse), and he also came outside. The teacher once again told me that the test didn't matter, and that everything is okay. LIKE HELL IT IS, I CAN'T FREAKIN' BREATHE! *pants* yeah... good thing I didn't say that to her >.<. The vice-principal politely got a guidance counselor to walk up with me to the nurses. The whole time she questioned i... ]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14381398/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14381398/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 14:04:06 PDT
I am also seriously thinking about taking down this account, or at least stop my use of it, and taking down any person information on here. I may decide to continue posting journals, just to give myself random updates on my life.

If you are asking why, I will tell you. My mom decided to search my name online. I am not allowed to post personal stuff (I am seriously pushing with pics of myself). She was able to find this account using my name. This only happened because people used my name on my account. I told people not to, and now I will paying the price of ever having those people as my friends.

I am planning on dedicating quite a lot of my time to school and volunteering. I have so much to do and so little time.

For all of those interested in anime, I highly suggest watching Romeo X Juliet, I find it fantastic ^_^.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14226588/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/14226588/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 13:35:28 PDT
Okay, let's see, what's new...

1) Meeting up with me girl friends, and having a blast being the stupid teenagers we are ^_^

2) Summer Reading is done, all I need to do now is review it.

3) Writing again! YES!!!!!

4) Spanish I is done, and finished with an 'A', as expected XP

5) School is in one day!!! WOOT!!!!

6) Promised new friends, through Swim Team (despite the fact I really don't want to be swimming, it could be enjoyable)

7) I get to fight for my courses!!!! It is so much fun hunting down teachers!

8) No chores for the weekend!!!! I am FREE!!!!

Yep.. I AM HAPPY!!!! *does victory dance and pose*

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13999736/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13999736/ Fri, 03 Aug 2007 10:30:00 PDT
Okay, You are all tagged! Here is the survey that you will have to fill in like I did... Have fun!

[GENERAL]:

[nicknames]: Cal, Anne, Ara, Ira, Argenta, Silverwolf, Silvermoon (must I continue?)
[bday]: Nov 12th… Yes… I know I shouldn’t be telling ANYONE at school this… I am so dead -.-
[birthplace]: Wisconsin
[height]: 5'7"
[hair color]: Brown
[eye color]: Dark brown
[righty/lefty]: Righty
[heritage]: German, Norwegian, French, English…
[weakness]: *ponders* umm… Go ask sporksquad…
[fears]: Being alone, being stupid, being trapped.
[your thoughts first waking up]: Sun too bright… WAH! I missed the sunrise!
[best physical feature]: … Go ask my perverted guy friends.
[bedtime]: … I am supposed to go to bed at 11:30 P.M.


[FAVORITES]:

[food]: WATERMELON!!!!
[drink]: Lemonade
[band]: Nickelback
[type of music]: alternative, rock, some pop, new age.
[instant messaging service]: AIM, Yahoo, MSN.
[place to go] The Ravine, or some trees that make this nice little tent like thing… I am the only one who knows how to get in them now ^_^
[color]: Violet, Blue, Silver.
[book]: Polgara, the Soreceress.
[sport]: Soccer, Swimming, maybe I will get back to Tumbling some day.
[country]: … I love Canada?
[state]: Wisconsin… definitely.
[city]: Montréal
[place to go on a vacation]: Canada, Wisconsin, Oregon.
[candy]: … umm… *ponders* some type of chocolate?
[ice cream]: Vanilla
[shoe brand]: Nike? Easywalk… maybe… idk… >.<
[tv show]: right now… probably the Jdrama, Hana Kimi.
[place for a date]: … Dates are a no no for me.
[animal]: Wolf and Hawk.
[vegetable]: I LOVE CAROTS!
[cartoon]: … no idea…
[school subject]: Science!
[toy]: Do electronics count?


[DO YOU]:

[have a bf/gf]: Boys are a waste of time…
[have a crush on someone]: Not at the moment.
[drive]: Lol, I don’t even have my permit XP
[have a car]: Nope.
[have siblings]: Me cute little sister ^_^.
[sing in the shower]: HELL YEAH!
[dance around the house]: … maybe…
[plan to go to college]: Of course…
[want to get married]: … I would rather just stick to being a girlfriend… but for financial reasons…
[want to have kids]: … I would never be a good parent.
[want to be president]: It would be hard work, but yes.
[want to be famous]: Only if it has to do with writing…
[habla espanol]: I don’t speak it… I understand minimal amounts.
[think you could live w/o a comp]: No… I need my computer *huggles computer*
[take a shower every day]: Usually, only when I get home super late, or when I same that day do I sometimes skip taking a shower >.<
[like school]: It is summer, of course I love school!
[believe in yourself]: Rarely.
[get motion sickness]: Nope.
[think you're attractive]: Go ask someone else…
[think you're a health freak]: Nope… I don’t think so…
[like thunderstorms]: Love them ^_^
[play an instrument]: I used to play quite a few… I am sticking with Piano…
[get along with your parents]: My dad…
[wear a watch]: Sometimes, but rarely.
[believe in miracles]: Not really.
[believe in magic]: Yep.
[trust others way easily]: I wish I didn’t…


[HAVE YOU EVER]:

[drank]: Nope
[smoked]: Nope
[been in love]: Never.
[played a sport]: Yep… let’s see…. Gymnastics, Track, Volleyball, Skating, Skiing, Diving, Soccer… I think I covered most of them.
[skydived]: I wish…
[bungee jumped]: I wish… It looks like fun.
[been out of the US]: Yep.
[waited for someone to IM you]: I have waited for people get on AIM…
[fallen for your best friend]: Only once, and never again.
[been rejected]: Lol, kinda.
[rejected someone]: Hell yeah…
[used someone]: … Yes
[done something you regret]: of course.
[been in jail]: No
[run away from home]: No
[broken a b... ]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13784731/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13784731/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 17:02:58 PDT
I loved spending my time in Oregon, it was definitely a refreshing break that I needed. I loved visiting and finally actually meeting in person, .

With the visit, brought new inspiration, such as the Black Lip Stick, and now finally getting back to writing To Betray a God. Thanks so much, for reading! It means a heck of a lot!

I am also thrilled that is back from his camp, it will be VERY fun bugging him again.

One down thing is that my costochondritis is definitely getting worse. I am seriously thinking about asking my mom to book an appointment with the doctor and see about what else I can do, especially since I do want to get back into sports.

Anyhow, just wanted to let everyone know that I should be back online!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13516425/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13516425/ Wed, 27 Jun 2007 19:14:46 PDT
Anyhow, onto news... let's start with Good...

GOOD!
~ I AM GOING TO OREGON! Planes are booked, people have been talked to, and everything is set to go!!!

Next.. well... the sorta good...
THE SORTA GOOD!
~ I AM BACK!!! Montreal was great though... so... internet?
~ I am now done the first round of editing for I Will Find You... now.. only a few more rounds to go! *dies*
~ MY LITTLE BABY PINE TREE DIDN'T DIE!!! (though it really had no reason to... it does mean my dad will live a few more years at least... hehehe)

Next... umm... the Sorta Bad??

The... Sorta Bad?
~ I have tons of Spanish *dies*
~ I am taking a slight break from To Betray a God... that is because... I AM FREAKIN' BUSY!!! *wilts away*

Now... well... the Bad...
~ I am NOT going to Wisconsin this year.

Now, on that note, I know people will have questions... Let me answer them one by one. 1) I am hesitant about spending that much money... 2) the people I would be staying at... well... my 'good buddies' there... haven't been so nice lately, so you know what... no thanks (sorry to those friends that are so amazingly awesome to me) 3) I am busy! I have school, and I want to do other things over the summer... 4) My parents only want me to go on one trip. They think I have been to 'moody' and 'sulky' and they don't want me imposing on others with that attitude... I guess I have been a little sulky lately... be woken up consistently at 6:00 A.M. won't make anyone happy as far as I am concerned... Heck, even my mom is cranky when she wakes up...

So yeah, thus the news of the day. I am glad to be back, I know people like :iconalexitrebernova: and have asked for the chapters of IWFY, I will get to that when I can (and if I can sneak it without my dad noticing... eek... good thing those Oregon flights are booked)

So yeah... I AM BACK!!!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13429749/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13429749/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 07:52:32 PDT This basically means, my sister does what she wants, and my mom will always be by her side. I really notice it... In walks, my sister will push ahead of me, when I was just walking by my mom, and my mom will just smile at my sister as she pushes me to the side. I just end up watching them walk ahead of me, smiling, giggling, and chatting the whole way. *sighs*
I also noticed it on the recent walks, my joints do not like some things... and my mom's walks involve super fast walking, on slopped sidewalks... weak joints+mom walks = knee/ankle pains. I ended up limping most of the way, partially because my chest had been hurting as well... maybe I slept wrong which caused the swelling *shrugs*. My point was that my mom literally forced me to go on the walk, then they walked ahead, and yelled at me for being too slow when I was in pain. They spent the whole time enjoying themselves as they walked ahead, giggling like usual, while I was stuck behind them, nearly getting lost a few times... I do NOT speak French, and I certainly do not know this city... thank goodness I know where the Metro station is, and I have money on me.
What I really have to say, is thank goodness for my Oma. She is just so nice, and kind. Whenever I came home, she was always just like, "Hi" and let me do my own thing. Afterwards, she would just kinda sit with me, but not in that awkward silence way. Just like, "hey, don't mind me... just sitting here".
Although I have discovered now that I am definitely allergic to animals, I find that I love their dog, Lucky. One day, he just came upstairs (which I found out later, he never did), and just kind nuzzled at my face, and then sat next to me at my bedside. Sweetest dog I have ever met, though insanely lazy and fat. Lol.

And the internet.. wah... I spent about two hours setting it up in the first place, getting the proper things, etc., so I could work on my own computer. And it worked... for a time. When my Uncle came down, we worked on it for another couple of hours till it did work. It was my cousin that messed it up... and she just had to leave for Germany a few minutes later. Grr... not even helping me fix what she messed up... Ah well. Basically, it means I am using my Oma's computer *smiles* but it has none of my stuff, so I won't be posting very much, and it is really slow, so I will probably not get on often.

I must say, I love Canada, and I love the people, I think me and my ex-least favorite Uncle, Uncle Frank, have finally come to terms. We are now used to the way we tease each other, and I think I have lightened up a little (if that is possible?)

I just kinda wish my Dad was here (although I kinda hate saying that... we get into arguments too) but he loves me and my sister equally. Sure, he does buy a heck of a lot of her fake 'crying', and complaints, so I do get in a lot of trouble with him around, but he tends to stick up for me when I need it. He also understands me better than my mom does. My mom spent a lot of time with my sister, and very often left me with my dad, or even by myself. I think she doesn't get, really, who I am, and how I act. My dad goes to work, so he doesn't get it as much as he would, but I think he understands how I act, and what it means when I am angry.

I love the weather, I love the place, and I don't mind all the french, luckily, I tend to be able to read a bit more french than I understand from listening, probably because of the little bit of Spainish and Latin that I know. (and of course English). I do miss it up this North quite a bit, just the nice weather.
What I also found odd... is they have a park just about every three blocks, and they are always busy after school.
Getting into the local pool here is free, even though the water was about 76 last time I was there... It actually wasn't that bad, but getting out of the pool was a little hard, for once I think I asked for the wind to stop blowing. Everyone knows that I LOVE wind. *ponders* maybe that is another reason why I love the weather, constant breeze.
I honestly feel like, when I come back, I will be back in school. Which is partially true, I have a heck of a lot of Spanish to complete... but considering I finished a quarter in under a week, I am certain I can handle a Semester in a month. GO ME!!!!! lol.

Well, catch everyone later! I hope everyone lives... I just HATE getting out those vegetable peelers...

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13261957/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13261957/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 07:04:28 PDT oof'. Especially since I won't be able to comment on anyone's stuff XD, I will be SO dead when I get back. DON'T GET OUT THE VEGETABLE PEELERS!
Chances are, if I do get online, I will be going on my MSN account, for school/Shockwave purposes, because I am going to busy with friends/family.
Well.. I have also done about two months of spanish in a week (starting on Monday to Friday) Yep, I am totally insane, and my mind is completely buzzing with Spanish. I have been yelled at by a few of my friends about being so crazy.
I have also brought up three people from Shockwave, and guarenteed them a spot in SHOCK, and also getting them a session by themselves, because they have been so nice, and helpful.
Now... onto the Semester Exam for Spanish. See ya!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13162613/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13162613/ Thu, 31 May 2007 10:41:31 PDT .< I can be such a nerd... lol)

What is on my list;
(1) Editing my story with my dad, and writing those query letters so that people at home will be happy with me.
(2) Spanish, so my mom will be happy with me.
(3) Writing tBaG, because that will make me happy ^_^.
(4) Getting away from all those people that I really don't give a crap about (because that will make everyone happy)
(5) Having fun!

So... as a part of 5, I am going to do a little quiz...

Awesomely stolen from who lovingly stole it from ^_^

How much of a MAN are you?
() You love hoodies
() You love jeans
(x) Dogs are better than cats
(x) It's hilarious when people get hurt
(x) You've played with/against boys on a team
(x) Shopping is torture
() Sad movies suck
() You own an X-box or an X-box 360
(x) At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter
() You own a DS, PS2 or Sega
(x) You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
() You watch sports on TV
() Gory movies are cool
() You only go to your dad for advice
() You own like a trillion baseball caps
() You like going to football games
() You used to/do collect baseball cards
() Baggy pants are cool to wear
(x) It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
(x) Green, black, red, blue or silver are one of your favorite colors
(x) You love to go crazy and not care what people think
(x) Sports are fun too

Total: 10
Now add the numbers up and multiply it by 5.

TOTAL MANLINESS: 50%


How much of a WOMAN are you?
() You wear lip gloss
() You like to shop
() You wear eyeliner
(x) You have some of the same shirts in different colors
() You wear the color pink
(x) You consider cheer leading a sport
() You hate wearing the color black
() You like hanging out at the mall
() You like getting manicures and/or pedicures
() You like wearing jewelry
() Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe
() Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
(x) You don't like the movie Star Wars
(x) You are/were in cheer leading, gymnastics or dance
() It takes you around 1 hour or longer to shower get dressed and put on make-up and accessories
(x) You smile a lot more than you should
() You have more than 10 pairs of shoes
(x) You care about what you look like
() You like wearing dresses when you can
() You like wearing body spray/perfume


Total: 6
Now add up the numbers up and multiply it by 5:

TOTAL GIRLINESS: 30%

Wow… I am more like a guy XD. Poor guys, having to be like me is going to be torture for them XD.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13074621/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/13074621/ Thu, 24 May 2007 10:38:06 PDT I Will Find You is nearly finished, which I am half remorseful about, and half very very happy. I have a lot of studying, and I will be working on getting done all my classes perfectly before I start writing the sequel, "To Betray a God", and even the Third, which I believe will be entitled, "To Kill a Goddess".
I am sorry to all those who wish to read the ending, but I have a good reason to withhold it. I will be saving all the comments posted on I Will Find You, as well as the comments I made, kinda like a diary ^_^.

EDIT:
I am now taking down all the chapters, just in case anyone wonders where all my deviations went to ^_^. I WILL be saving my comments, and anyone who commented for note. I will also be saving whoever favorited my story!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12918310/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12918310/ Fri, 11 May 2007 05:01:55 PDT I remember going to a waterpark, we had all thought that we needed a break, so we just decided to have a day of fun. I remember loving the weather. It was dry, and windy, completely beautiful until I started seeing 'clouds' come towards us.
I told my parents that we should leave... especially once the sky started turning orange. My parents told me that I was being foolish, and that no one else was concerned. I finally said that we had to leave once even the sun was covered by the smoke.
Their condition was that we would go to Telestra tower to see what was going on. I told them that it was a foolish idea, but I decided to agree to just get away from the Water Park.
When we reached Telestra Tower, we learned it had been closed... that the fires were in the Black Forest. While driving home, the sky got darker, and smoke filled the city. We packed most of our stuff in the car, fortunately most of it had already been packed.
I stayed up 'late' that night... and woke up again at around 1:00 am... I wanted time alone to watch the news, then... the amount of houses burned only rose. That first day... it had only been something near 20 houses that burned... then within the week, and two weeks, it had rose to about 500 homes, and more. For two months, smoke stayed in the city. Even when school started in February, the smokestill existed, and the school reaked of old smoke.

I suppose this story isn't like some of the stories I have read about the fires, just because it isn't nearly as tragic, or sad, however, sincde then, I have been terrified of fire. I have hated the thought of ever coming near it. I suppose it is just my luck... just my luck to find out that the smoke that fills Gainesville comes from Florida's own forest fires, and even Georgia's. Why is fire starting now?

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12448279/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12448279/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 18:47:11 PDT
Then, I have the two most awesome people available to chat with! Thanks and ! I am also so happy because and must be having an awesome time together, which is totally fabulous!

My grades are looking really good (I need to work on Math a little more I think... I have been slacking on the homework ever so slightly >.<... I need a better 'A'...)

I love the Shockwave program! My awesome partner (Race) is so great to work with! I have been collecting a lot of volunteer hours from the program, and awesome 9 hours since I have started ^_^. My official starting date (in which we will begin as moderators, on our own! Hell yeah!) is this Thursday (April 5, 6-8 p.m.) which is awesome!

I am away from school! I miss working at home a lot! It is really nice because I get to choose who I am going to talk to, etc. I love it!!!

I get to spend some awesome time with Kieran for the first time in a while (in June), which will be fun! Hopefully we will be able to go up Mount Royal (with my sister too, which will be great ^_^) and just have a blast! I might even get to go to the awesome store Excaliber (spelling), to get ideas for my story ^_^.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12354540/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12354540/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 18:56:36 PDT I know I was kinda... cold to people, and honestly, with the mood I am in, I do not feel like apologizing at all, so you are going to have to deal with it. 'It's Your Fault' is exactly the type of mood I am in.
One person as already cheered me up a lot, thanxies , the rest of you... idk... either you didn't know, or you don't care. Those that don't care, I am pissed off at you right now.

Anyhow ^_^, got to talk to a friend I have not talked to in forever. It is so nice to see him well off, and finally with a good girlfriend! Took him long enough! But we all know guys, right girls? Our 'brothers' take forever to get the right girl... and often it takes a certain amount of persuation to make sure they pay attention that girl. It was just nice chatting.

Gotta get back to Chem homework, then Algebra, and make sure my essay is complete... I am just having problems not writing... and drawing... GAH! I am addicted!

TTYL!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12232235/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12232235/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 12:20:10 PDT
I am killing those who are far behind... Hopefully they will still read. Just to warn those, I may slow down, and actually study a little more for my classes... because I have been slacking a little which is no good what so ever...

I will definitely love this short break, however much I am completely addicted to writing. Since I know exactly where this story is going to go, I can afford a little time away from writing (or typing) and study (which I really don't want to do... but have to.)

Thanxies everyone for reading me story!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12205609/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/12205609/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 17:28:12 PDT
Oh, and I also want to say that those interested in reading my friend's stories, I have two ideas.

For Sci-Fi lovers, is a good person to go to....

If you happen to be a Halo fanatic... a good fanfiction (for Halo that is)... look to

So yeah... onto questions.

Do you think there should be more battles between Deran and Kuriel, or other characters would be more interesting?

What do you think of the new characters (and animals)?

Would you rather me stay 'on topic' and stick with my main characters, or do you like the 'side stories'?

Do you like how I am pulling in past events, specifically with Zerielle's parents before she was born?

Do you think I should start Summary Notes so that people can get the gist of what happened/has happened in my book?

How would you rate my story... 1 being worst, 10 being best (you can use decimals if you must), and why?


These questions are not meant to jab with you at, I just want to know how to make my story better.

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I was tagged by

1. What is your character's name?
Zerielle Liandrel, Violet of Sylioean.

2. What is your character's name in another language?
Uh… Zerielle?

3. How old is she?
17 or 18…

4. What is your character's race/species?
Human Female, she carries special traits though, making her a family member of the Nine Great Clans, making her different than most humans.

5. Does she have a crush?
She does love Kuriel Oraioel. Maybe she likes Turiel Oraioel/Juro?

6. Does she have many friends?
No, she only has had friends recently. Kuriel was her own friend.

7. What planet is your character from?
Planet… come on… I can’t create that many names!!!

8. What does your character like to eat?
Fruits, in general.

9. What's her favorite food?
Cookies.

10. What's her favorite drink?
Lemonade.

11. Is your character annoying?
Depends on who you are. She is relatively annoying, though most people would only find her frustrating.

13. Is your character loved?
Yes, by many people. Kuriel Oraioel, Turiel Oraioel, Saeinelalon Theodrian, Muriel Liandrel (brother), Uriel Liandrel (brother).

14. Is your character hated?
Yes.

15. Is she emo/goth?
She is a little emo… maybe… She has nearly killed herself several times in attempts to save Kuriel.

16. Is she straight, bisexual, or gay?
Straight, as far as we know of course *(man… that would be a GREAT story twist… lol)

17. Is she a virgin?
Yes.

18. Name 3 hobbies:
Horseback riding, politics, watching the scenery (especially with Kuriel)

19. Is your character normal?
Nope. Not one bit. With special violet eyes, just getting angry can cause a massive earthquake. One tear on her cheek can mean floods from heavy rains. Not only that, but the Goddess is trapped in her.

20. Is your character attractive?
Apparently so… I think so.

21. How does your character handle emotions?
Normally by becoming extremely upset, and destroying things with her power. Either that, or she hides them inwardly, not daring to show anyone, not trusting them.

22. Does your character have other forms?
Uh… well… she can have wings… when the Goddess takes her over.

23. Does your character overreact?
Have you been reading my book? She ALWAYS overreacts.

24. Is your character a criminal?
Well… depends on who’s side you are on. Technically, she has done things against the law, thus her father is after her (he being a major general of the army of Sylioean), but she is the ‘good guy’… kinda…

25. Does your character go to school?
She only snuck in on some of her brother’s lessons. She... ]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11978954/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11978954/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 18:42:47 PST
1) Zerielle, do you think she should open more, or become even more distant and cold as time passes?

2) Do you think I am way too obsessed with women in power, and being major roles in society?

3) Do you think I should add more to the trio?

Now... onto random stuff ^_^.

*ponders* My favorite character thus far is probably Young Zerielle (I honestly don't like adult Zerielle very much), or Saeinelalon. My least favorite character is probably Ella... though I do like writing her. In terms of writing characters, I despise writing Juro/Turiel, but I like the character >.<

Now.. for the random chat final question!!!

Who do YOU think will die?? ^_^ he he he.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11787616/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11787616/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 15:47:10 PST
Okay... off of that note... I suppose.

Thanks again to readers of my very long chapters... but I am beginning to feel neglected... or people just don't read as fast as I type... I suppose it could happen >_<

OMGoddess.... I freakin' love this song I have now become addicted to! Everyone must look at The Diary of Jane, by Breaking Benjamin

Well... classes are completely killing me. With make up work, and the fact we had that stupid portfolio thing... (I got 'stuck' with Dylan, Celeste, Georgette, Matt, and Rasheeda *winces at the list*) Why couldn't I have cool people to talk to if I am going to have to suffer through making up even more work, because I am in higher classes then most ninth graders??? *sighs*

With the lack of Ibuprofen, my finger has been swelling, and I think the ligaments in my fingers has been rubbing against the pin way to freakin' much... *dies*

*sighs* I am very much transferring the idea of becoming a teacher, to politician.. but I suppose I should stop scratching so many people if I wanted to do that (, and Dylan were my latest victims... though has been too... though not as much) I would love to see a pic. of some of the damage I can cause >_<.

has been great fun to be around, and she beats up guys, just like me ^_^... I think if we really teamed up, all the guys should run to the otherside of the world ^_^.

Anyhow, that is it for now... ttyl!

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11628159/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11628159/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 19:59:50 PST _<.
I still cant feel my left hand... My fingers are dyed yellow from the iodine... The bandages are so wrapped up... I may as well have three layers of mittens on... I am still extremely dizzy, nauseous, and I have rapid mood swings.
The plus... the surgeon said it went surprisingly well ^_^. I have a lot of my lost movement back, so I will have nearly all movement back after Physical Therapy ^_^.
I am so happy to have this done and ever with... even though it will be at least another day till I go back to school .
I wish luck to on her Tryouts for Singing Valentines.
I love story. I also love 's as well.
I hope that will be feeling better tomorrow, and life will be good again ^_^.
Well.. I will try to comment on deviations tomorrow! Sorry to those that I haven't commented on yet... I keep falling behind >_<.

]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11579584/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11579584/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 18:17:15 PST I would do something, but I am afraid I can't at the moment. I can barely type now .
Well.. the bone in my finger is displaced, meaning the doctors want me to have a surgery to put it back into place, then pin it there. I am not sure when the surgery is, we are still trying to book it. Hopefully it will be soon!
Thank you people for being so supportive me these months!
Especially:




]]> ~umbragens http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11433003/ http://umbragens.deviantart.com/journal/11433003/ Sun, 14 Jan 2007 10:14:31 PST
Here is what happened...
I was practicing peform the game, as goalie to let others shoot on goal. One girl shot on goal, and the ball was kicked towards the top post. I jumped up, but I had not expected the ball to get so high as to rebound off of the top post, jamming into my fingers >_<.

Now... here is what is happening...

I am only allowed to type with one hand... since I also injured some of my ligaments in another finger...
I am not allowed to touch a ball at least until my check up on Wed., to see if I can play districts with the team.
I am not supposed to do anything that could hurt my finger >_<.

So yeah.. that is what happened to me three days ago.

I am happy that the semester is finally over, meaning i get a new class... i just hope it isn't PE... ^_^ but if it is... at least i will finish that requirement for school ^_^.

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