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                <title>NEW DEVIANT!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 01 Jun 2008 20:14:23 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok guys, my new DA name is HReidStudios, look there for all my new crap! There's quite a bit too ;D<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>IMPORTANT NEWS TO MY WATCHERS</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 13 May 2008 06:29:08 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am making a new DA account for a more "professional" appeal, I"ll post the new name here soon<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Points for me!</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 10 May 2007 09:04:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Winning the Montserrat Senior Show Award for BEST Illustrator....oh yeah, I rock, lol<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>OMG!</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 30 Dec 2005 16:19:41 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I just realized, I've been on DA for 3 years! Don't have much to show for it though.. ]]></description>
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                <title>Yeehaw~</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 16 Dec 2005 19:33:23 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 300 Deviations, that's nearly 100 per year! ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 13 Nov 2004 14:29:30 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ wow, I can't believe I've been here for  almost 2 years ]]></description>
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                <title>Over 5000!</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 10 Jun 2004 09:32:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OH happy day!<br /><br /><b>Stats for *<a href="http://vampiremistresslexia.deviantart.com/">vampiremistresslexia</a></b><br />
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I have <b>1,645</b> pageviews total and my <b>204</b>  deviations were viewed <b>3,515</b> times,  with <b>1,657</b> fullviews, for a grand total  of <b>5,172</b> views.<br />
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Overall, people left <b>267</b> comments and  added my deviations to their favourites <b> 48</b> times, while I commented <b>170</b> times,  averaging <b>0.32</b> comments per day, which  means that I received <b>16</b> comments for  every 10 that I gave.<br />
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My most commented deviation was <b><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/1841967">Harry  Potter Side Profile</a></b> with <b>13</b> comments,  receiving an average of <b>0.92</b> per day in  the first 2 weeks, while my most  favourited one was <b><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/4449709">Behind My Eyes</a></b>, with <b> 3</b> favourites, averaging <b>0.07</b> per day in  the first 2 weeks. My most viewed  deviation was <b>Ants play Banjos</b> with <b>410</b>  views.<br />
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<b>2</b> Favourites were given for every 10  Comments.<br />
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Every <b>2.5</b> days I upload a new  deviation, and it's usually on a <b>Sunday</b> , with <b>23%</b>/<b>47</b> of my deviations.<br />
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My favorite time of the day to upload  is at <b>12pm</b> with <b>23</b> deviations and my  busiest month was <b>May 2003</b> with <b>40</b>/<b>20%</b>  of my deviations.<br />
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The majority of my deviations are  uploaded to the <b>Digitalart</b> gallery (<b>114</b> ), while my favorite category in it was <b> Misc</b> with <b>78</b> deviations<br />
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Comments per deviation: <b>1.3</b><br />
Favourites per deviation: <b>0.23</b><br />
Views per deviation: <b>25.35</b><br />
Comments per day: <b>0.5</b><br />
Favourites per day: <b>0.09</b><br />
Views per day: <b>9.79</b><br />
Pageviews per day: <b>3.11</b><br />
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                <title>Yahoo...!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 23 May 2004 09:38:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have <b>1,432</b> pageviews total and my <b>179</b>  deviations were viewed <b>3,424</b> times,  with <b>1,533</b> fullviews, for a grand total  of <b>4,957</b> views.<br />
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Overall, people left <b>247</b> comments and  added my deviations to their favourites <b> 36</b> times, while I commented <b>156</b> times,  averaging <b>0.31</b> comments per day, which  means that I received <b>16</b> comments for  every 10 that I gave.<br />
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My most commented deviation was <b><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/1841967">Harry  Potter Side Profile</a></b> with <b>13</b> comments,  receiving an average of <b>0.92</b> per day in  the first 2 weeks, while my most  favourited one was <b><a href="http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/4449709">Behind My Eyes</a></b>, with <b> 3</b> favourites, averaging <b>0.07</b> per day in  the first 2 weeks. My most viewed photo  was <b>Ants play Banjos</b> with <b>374</b> views.<br />
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<b>1</b> Favourites were given for every 10  Comments.<br />
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Every <b>2.7</b> days I upload a new  deviation, and it's usually on a <b>Sunday</b> , with <b>26%</b>/<b>47</b> of my deviations.<br />
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My favorite time of the day to upload  is at <b>18pm</b> with <b>22</b> deviations and my  busiest month was <b>May 2003</b> with <b>41</b>/<b>23%</b>  of my deviations.<br />
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The majority of my deviations are  uploaded to the <b>Digitalart</b> gallery (<b>111</b> ), while my favorite category in it was <b> Misc</b> with <b>79</b> deviations<br />
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Comments per deviation: <b>1.37</b><br />
Favourites per deviation: <b>0.2</b><br />
Views per deviation: <b>27.69</b><br />
Comments per day: <b>0.49</b><br />
Favourites per day: <b>0.07</b><br />
Views per day: <b>9.91</b><br />
Pageviews per day: <b>2.86</b><br />
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 06 May 2004 06:16:39 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ hey everybody!<br />
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Check out my new BLOG<br />
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<a href="http://www.livejournal.com/fantasy_fetish/">[link]</a><br><br> ]]></description>
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                <title>Holy Shit</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 28 Apr 2004 05:26:41 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Dropkick Murphys!!!! OH YEAH!!!!! The  show fucking rocked, even though Gary  and I showed up late. IT took us  forever to find our friends, but  eventually we met up...and didn't stay  together anyway. TS was piss drunk, it  was funny. I bought the last set of  pins, but stupid me left them at my  house and I can't get them till this  weekend. But I bought a sticker for the  car.....that poor thing is running out  of space. The opening bands sucked  ass....but whatever. Unfortunately (but  not to my surprise), we ran into a  certain person *cough cough* who seemed  to follow me and Gary wherever we went.  She walks like she has a hunch back or  something...hehehe, Oh and I saw  Justine, Christine, and Margo for the  first time in a while! ^)^ I was so  happy to see them. Summer is coming so  I'll prolly run into them a lot more  down the beach.<br><br>Won't that be nice? ]]></description>
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                <title>It's been a while</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 13 Apr 2004 21:06:02 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ But thats ok....<br /><br />I've been so busy lately.....typing my  english paper while watching Bjork DVDs  and Foamy the Squirrel. Damn he's  annoying sometimes.....but I think it's  an addiction now. But yeah..DAVID WAS  SO FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm  still on a buzz. And soon it'll be DKM  at the Casino. I wanna kick some  serious ass that night. School is over  in less than a month. New puppy today.  Haven't seen him yet. Made sush for  Dan's show tomorrow. He did a painting  of me. It's insanity. I've been really  depressed, and now I get to make an  artists' book about teen suicide and  all that shit. Art show on  Saturday.....Garyand I wil be selling a  bunch of stuff. I love him so much,  things have been going so well. *hugs  to Gary*. He night move in this summer  to my parents house. We've almost have  enough money to take a weekend trip to  NYC.<br><br>Won't that be nice? ]]></description>
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                <title>Excitement!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 30 Mar 2004 05:16:39 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Watashi wa mura mura!!!<br /><br />David Bowie concert tonight!!!!! I am  so psyched!!!! It is going to be so  grand, and Macy Gray is no longer  opening for him!!! Gary and I are going  into Boston about 3 hours early so we  can hit Super 88, The Garage, and  Garment District. It's totally going to  kick ass. I think I might buy salad  pocky.....although I don't really  understand the concept behind it. Why  would you want a snack food that comes  in the form of a stick....to taste like  salad? Maybe it doesn't REALLY taste  like salad.....pumpkin didn't taste  like pumpkin. Anyways.......<br />
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I have so much work to do right now,  but none of it seems to be getting done  even though I've been working my ASS  off for the past few days. I have an  oil due for LD1 and photos due for I&I.  But Gary is my model and I see him so  rarely. At leas he'll be here next year  so we'll be really close.<br><br>Won't that be nice? ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 21 Mar 2004 07:16:01 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Isn't love wonderful?<br /><br />Since 8 o'clock this morning Gary and I  have been together for 6  months....thats 183 days......half a  year.....long time....^_^<br><br>And it'll keep on going ]]></description>
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                <title>Trying to stay awakw</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 15 Mar 2004 05:43:37 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Legs..........hurt...........<br /><br />I've been playing DDR MAX 2 non stop  for the past 4 hours........fuck  me.....I am dead tired, but hey at  least I still have my skill. Gary says  HH is getting a new machine soon, so  hopefully I'll finally be able to play  down the beach again.......no doubt  that I'll run into people I don't very  much prefer to see *cough*. OH yeah!  And in other news.....Gary is no longer  my boyfriend, sad right? Wrong!!!!  Because he is my F-I-A-N-C-E!!!<br><br>Must....keep...playing...... ]]></description>
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                <title>Go Me !</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 11 Mar 2004 05:24:17 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well it's been a while<br /><br />But finally I started a band! It's me  Jess Sam Scott and perhaps Marielle we  don't know yet. It's called Silence is  not Appealing and one of our songs is  "Pre Whacked". Regardless that I am the  only one who has any talent with an  instrument...Scott, Jess, and Sam can  all sing really well. We are totally  going to rock<br><br>Wonder if IIf we ever get around to  it... ]]></description>
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                <title>Dreamscapes</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 26 Feb 2004 05:11:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I never thought these things would come  back to me<br /><br />But last night I dreamt about someone I  was "in love" with over the summer. It  was strange, I haven't seen him since I  stopped going down the beach, and I  wonder if he goes there any more  either. He was such a nice guy, and we  were starting to become pretty good  friends, until another man got in the  way. Now I never speak to him. Oh well,  some things just aren't meant to work  out I suppose.<br><br>Wonder if I'll dream of the past some  more tonight ]]></description>
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                <title>I reign over all</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 25 Feb 2004 05:16:03 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Back in school......<br /><br />But last night I brought Soul Calibur  II over to Jessie's house and totally  whooped her and Sam ( 28 wins in a row,  I'd say that was pretty damn good). And  my character of choice? Yoshimitsu of  course!!!!<br><br>NAMU!!!!!!!!! ]]></description>
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                <title>Sleepovers R Fun</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 19 Feb 2004 10:11:11 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ *headache*<br /><br />Yeah so another really late night last  night. Keely slept over. We watched " Secretary" at Jason's house. It was  pretty cool. His house is so clean and  old. We hung around there for a couple  of hours then walked down to the beach.  That's where we found a pair of rubber  black testicles. It was pretty wierd. I  kicked them into the gutter. Then JAson  was tired and we went back to Elliot  where everyone was really drunk and Bea  put up Keely's hair while I slept on  the couch with Paul. He kept attacking  me with his Stitch doll. OOOh, and I  bought a Voltaire comic.....gods I love  that man<br><br>Life...............que bueno ]]></description>
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                <title>Crazy-ness Weekend</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 15 Feb 2004 19:39:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ What a blast<br /><br />Ok so a recap of this weekend<br />
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Friday: Keely came down and slept over  at the apartment and we hung out wirh  Morgan and Jason. Nothing much was  going on so we checked out the dance  and a total of 12 people showed up so  Ander's let me put in Graver's Paradise  so is was kickin and Keely and myself  were the heat of the fun with are crazy  glowstick ninja moves. MY phone  accidentally called Gary and his  parents were really pissed off but oh  well. After the dance we headed back to  the dorms and hung out at Laura's house  w/ Jesse, Sam, Craig, and Steve. Craig  had brought over the PS2 and DDR MAX 2  so I got to show them all how to  groove. Keely and I were also the only  ones dancing there too. IT was pretty  insane. Then Morgan wanted to go  upstairs to see Pete and so I knocked  on the door and when PEte answered she  took off running down the hall; she's  sucha puss sometimes. So I was standing  there talking to Pete while I looked  out the window at Morgan walking away.  Keely had to go chase after her. Then  we walked back over to Morgan's place  to get my car but we ended up going to  see JAson and the four of us went up to  Morgan's room. I "fell asleep" next to  Jason and listened to them talk about  how crazy I am and what I might be  thinking of. Jason did his Steven  Hawkings voice, and it is so choice.  Keely and I didn't go home until 3:30.<br />
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Saturday: I drove Keely hrome around 11  for her job interview and I went home  to AMesbury. Gary called as I figured  he would so I went and picked him up (  like I do every weekend). We hung out  at my house because Chris and MAggie  came over to visit my sister and I  don't see them all too often. We  watched Finding Nemo (AGAIN!). Then  Gary and I headed up to the mall to try  and buy new coats, but Hot Topic didn't  have the one I wanted so now we have to  order it online. But Gary did buy the  Tripp NYC pleather one legged man  pants, lol. They look so cute on him.  HE slept over and we didn't do much of  anything; I wasn't feeling too great.<br />
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Sunday: Gary and I just hung around,  drove back to Beverly for a few hours  so we could have some "alone time" *wink  wink*. Now I have a bunch of homework  to do and I"m wicked tired and don't  feel like doing it. I told Gary about  how Scott has been hitting on me wicked  bad and kissing me and stuff and now  Gary's out for blood. It's kinda  creepy, but in a good way. I wouldn't  let Gary ever hurt Scott, though.<br><br>Life...............que bueno ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 11 Feb 2004 05:11:50 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Eggplants?<br /><br />I went over Jessie's last night till  about 1:30. IT was.....odd. We  discovered I will be spending eternity  as a demi-god of Hell. Not too bad of  an afterlife I suppose. There was also  a rousing conversation about eggplants  *wink wink*. Guess that's really just  an inside joke. I ended up falling into  a trance on the futon; nothing was  really the same after that. Everyone  said I was acting like I was very badly  stoned. I don't know. But I asked Jess  if she would still be my friend if  Scott turned me into a fish.....and she  had to think about it! But, big Art  History exam today, good thing I didn't  study or I may have had a chance to  pass! It shouldn't be too difficult, I  imagine. It's on Ancient Egypt, and I  studied that tender subject for my  senior research paper last year. Has  anyone ever watched Aeon Flux? It it so  fucking trippy! Jason introduced me to  it Monday night, I highly recommend it  to all.<br />
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Well that's all I have time to write  now, maybe I'll update the world later  this evening, say......6:00 pm EST?<br><br>Peace, Love, and Magick!<br />
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-Heather ]]></description>
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                <title>Humblest Apologies</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 10 Feb 2004 06:32:36 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ To the scum of Winnecunnet High School:<br /><br />As you may already have learned, my  last diary entry was a fraud. In fact,  it was a test. A test to see if you  were actually such drab and boring  people that you feel the need to start  gossip about people you hardly know.  Perhaps this will tech you not to dwell  in the lives of others, especially  where you are not wanted. My humblest  apologies, I am very so that you could  be fooled so easily.<br />
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So no Lisa, you don't know something  that Gary doesn't know<br />
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Blessed Be-<br />
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-Heather<br><br>And you thought I wouldn't find out..... ]]></description>
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                <title>Lost and COnfused</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 30 Jan 2004 20:24:28 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Again it happens......<br /><br />I don't know what to do  anymore......Gary is hurting me so  badly right now, everytime we talk  we're either fighting because he has  insulted me or he's just being a usual  jackass and I'm sitting back and  letting it happen. I don't want to put  up with it anymore, and (I hate to say  it) but maybe I should just end the  relationship. It would crush us  both.....but I can't take it anymore!  He has no respect for me or what I do,  especially my art. I had a long talk at  The Atomic tonight with Keely and Jason  after the Edgar Allan Poe theme show at  school....and I think a lot of what  they said was right. I know I don't  deserve to be treated like this, and  for the fourth time in my life it's  getting to be too much. Time and time  again Gary has apologized and vowed to  change and promises he will never do  anything to hurt me, yet it just goes  on and on; I'm starting to lose my self  identity because of it. I am happy for  who I am, and I don't want to stop that  just because I am his girlfriend.  Seriously sometimes I think he looks at  me as a piece of property. <br />
     People talk about me to him at his  school, saying I"m trashy and no good  for being comfortable enough with  myself to do nude modeling, so he  expects me to take down what I feel is  the greatest self expression I have  ever had. I don't care what immature  high school kids say that I have never  met, their imput has no meaning to  me;they don't know me and they clearly  cannot get past the sexual concept of a  naked body. I just don't know what to  do......<br><br>I shall ponder it all..... ]]></description>
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                <title>New Years</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 01 Jan 2004 15:19:50 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am soo sick right now, but I havent  eaten much so I can't throw up...... ]]></description>
                <author>~vampiremistresslexia</author>
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                <title>Wow......it's bee na while</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 30 Dec 2003 09:28:05 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, Im finally a subscriber! I've  tried to upload most of my school work,  but my camera is broken and the pieces  don't fit on the scanner. *sigh* I'm  lost in ideas of what to do for NEw  Years. Gary got some "stuff" from his  sister, so we'll probably have a party  withthe guys, get wicked trashed, or  something. I dunno. I'm on my lunch  break at the moment, then it's back off  to the cell until 5:00. Seriously,  filing papers for 9 hours a day is not  worth 8 bucks an hour. ]]></description>
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                <title>Wow has it been a long time!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 30 Dec 2003 09:25:32 PST</pubDate>
                
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