Suddenly, going through my folders, I realised, that I'm a film photogrpaher if I'm a photographer at all. I don't mind digital photography, it's better than nothing but there's no sincerity in it nor purity. I'm not quite sure what I'm trying to say, but film photography feels more special to me than digital one. I will keep my digital camera, because it's priceless when it comes to taking pictures of events and birthdays and such. But when it comes to being a bit more creative, I find film photography the most valuable way of expressing myself. The photos done with Zenit are so dear to me. And there's always a possibility, that the picture you took never came out the way you wanted it to be, but then again it makes the picture more special when it does come out the way you wanted it to come.. So what I'm saying, I'm going to use my Zenit as much as I used to before I got the new digital camera. And I'm going to add old photos done with Zenit, just because I miss the feeling.

And what else came to me a few moments ago. At the moment, I feel like deleting all my jewellery deviations. I don't know why. I just feel, that I should focus on photography at the moment and they really bug me in the gallery. It seems like I don't want to mix these two here on deviantart. It doesn't mean that I'll stop playing with clay, no, I enjoy it and it's relaxing, but I'm going to upload the pictures of them in a different place.

What do you think? How do you feel about digital versus film photography and would you still look at my clay creations even if they'd be on a different site?

Hey!

I've been quite inactive lately because of.. I don't know what. I just tend to spend my time doing everything else than updating journals, both here and in blogspot in Estonian. I have updated my gallery, as I went to photograph squirrels one day (and I failed) and I also added a few items of jewellery but I haven't really browsed around deviantart as much as I would have wanted.

The biggest news probably is that I took 5 of my bracelets, 5 necklaces and a bunch of earrings to a handy crafts shop in the Old Town. And they took the bracelets and the necklaces to be sold over there! They didn't want the earrings as they already had too much of them and I understand them. They also said that business wasn't very good and they don't even open the shop every day now because of lack of tourists.. I'm still happy they agreed to take my jewellery and I'll be even happier when somebody decides to buy something

I also entered a contest created by =PORGEcreations and ~MOGsplosh. I've never entered a contest here on deviantart before (at least I don't remember doing it) and I thought that even if I don't win, it's fun The contest -> Wish upon a star

On Friday, I'm going to Finland for a day with my mom. She's soon going to move over there (in March probably) and she needs to deal with some documents and I need to shop. So we're going to Finland together

Bye for now!

Clubs

Hello pumpkins!

I haven't updated my journal for a long time, but nothing hasn't happened really - the school break is over, I made quite a lot of jewellery and didn't touch my camera as much as I would have wanted to and school is the same as it was before the break. I'm having a test in history tomorrow, that's probably why I'm updating my journal - a good way not to do something I have to.

I'm going through my folders now and probably upload something from the last shoot, when I went outside in the morning. I also said something about having a shoot with my friend Maarja, but as we both felt a bit ill, we delayed it and we'll probably have it as soon as possible.

I'm soon going to be living alone, in a few months probably. I'm not sure whether it will be a good thing or not (pros - more freedom, more time to spend on my own, possibility to visit Finland and its shops more often, cons - I'll have to do all the chores, do the shopping and making the food and so on. I do enjoy all of that(maybe not "washing the dishes" part), but it could be a problem if I have to do all of that + studying on one day..). But I'm sure looking forward to it. Besides, my mom will come home in the weekends, at least in the beginning.

School is.. school. I do dislike some of the lessons (biology because of the teacher and the difficult subject, German and English because of the teacher and sometimes Russian because of the difficult language) but otherwise it's okay. I should try to take it more easily.. Though chemistry is pretty stressful at the moment, because I have a chance of getting a D+ for the semester. Though I'd like to have at least a B. I don't know what happened. I used to have A's last year and this year, what happened - E, D+, E+, D..?? Only negative grades. But I hope it well turn out just well, I'll try to work hard on it.

Bye for now! Take care!

Clubs

Hey there!

I just wanted to let you all know how happy I am at the moment. No big reason, just happy and pleased with everything. I just had to come here and share the happiness with you. I don't know where it came from, I'm just glad it did. I love deviantart, I love nice comments about my work, I love polymer clay and what's most important - I love to be the one I am. I don't feel the need to change anything about my clay creations, about my photographs. It makes me unbelievably happy how nice people can be if they want to - some decide to be friendly and nice all the time, so being happy becomes one of their feature, but some decide to be cruel, critical when not necessary and pessimistic. I'm happy for the people, whom you can describe as (something like) "Short, with blond hair and a permanent smile". That "permanent smile", or wait, not definitely a smile, but just being pleased and happy, makes people so lovable and pleasant.

That's probably it. I'm glad I wrote it, because usually I and many more tend to write and share their feelings, when they're in a bad mood. But I think it's necessary to show positive emotions as well, as they can maybe make the ones who read it also shine

Hey there!

So at last I can have a rest and I don't have to worry about chemistry or English history (all hail the almighty Mr. David Starkey, whose films and facial expressions have been really.. astonishing, to say the least) or whatever subject that bothers me once in a while. For some reason, it's been chemistry, though I had A's during the last year, this year I'm going to have a D+.. But it's still not a big problem, just curious how I can't understand something, which I knew so well only a year ago.

I spent this weekend with my boyfriend at a spa in Pärnu, a nice town here in Estonia. Because I managed to get ill, we spent most of the time inside and we didn't get a chance to go outside and take some photos. The water park was really fun and I would have spent my whole day there if I wasn't ill. I did have fun but I had to sit in the sauna or the jacuzzi once in a while. which doesn't mean that I don't enjoy them, but it's just boring compared to the water slides

I posted my holiday cards this week, I'm not sure whether any of them have already got to the destination but I'm sure they soon will. Every year I make holiday cards (I'll post them as a scrap later, when I'm sure everyone has got their card) and send them to my loved ones, because I think it's much more warmhearted and somehow more sincere than to send an SMS or an e-mail. It's fun to make them as well and people who receive a card are always very thankful and I'm glad they like them.

Tomorrow I'm going to have a shoot with dear Maarja. I'm not quite sure what to do yet but I miss black and white photography, so that's an idea maybe. Though we usually end up doing something completely different than we decided to, it's still fun

Gingerbreadish Christmas to all of you!

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